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It is said that fifty-three years afterhis liberation he returned from theGolden Cloud, to take up once againthe gauntlet of Heaven, to oppose theOrder of Life and the gods whoordained it so. His followers hadprayed for his return, though theirprayers were sin. Prayer should nottrouble one who has gone on toNirvana, no matter what thecircumstances of his going. Thewearers of the saffron robe prayed,however, that He of the Sword,Manjusri, should come again amongthem, The Boddhisatva is said to have

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heard. . .He whose desires have been throttled,who is independent of root,whose pasture is emptiness —signless and free —his path is as unknowableas that of birds across the heavens. Dhammapada (93)

His followers called himMahasamatman and said he was a god.He preferred to drop the Maha- and the -atman, however, and called himselfSam. He never claimed to be a god. Butthen, he never claimed not to be a god.Circumstances being what they were,neither admission could be of anybenefit. Silence, though, could.

Therefore, there was mystery about

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him.It was in the season of the rains . . .It was well into the time of the great

wetness. . .It was in the days of the rains that

their prayers went up, not from thefingering of knotted prayer cords or thespinning of prayer wheels, but from thegreat pray-machine in the monastery ofRatri, goddess of the Night

The high-frequency prayers weredirected upward through the atmosphereand out beyond it, passing into thatgolden cloud called the Bridge of theGods, which circles the entire world, isseen as a bronze rainbow at night and isthe place where the red sun becomesorange at midday.

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Some of the monks doubted theorthodoxy of this prayer technique, butthe machine had been built and wasoperated by Yama-Dharma, fallen, of theCelestial City; and, it was told, he hadages ago built the mighty thunder chariotof Lord Shiva: that engine that fledacross the heavens belching gouts of firein its wake.

Despite his tall from favor, Yamawas still deemed mightiest of theartificers, though it was not doubted thatthe Gods of the City would have him todie the real death were they to learn ofthe pray-machine. For that matter,though, it was not doubted that theywould have him to die the real death

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without the excuse of the pray-machine,also, were he to come into their custody.How he would settle this matter with theLords of Karma was his own affair,though none doubted that when the timecame he would find a way. He was halfas old as the Celestial City itself, andnot more than ten of the godsremembered the founding of that abode.He was known to be wiser even than theLord Kubera in the ways of theUniversal Fire. But these were his lesserAttributes. He was best known foranother thing, though few men spoke ofit. Tall, but not overly so; big, but notheavy; his movements, slow and fluent.He wore red and spoke little.

He tended the pray-machine, and the

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giant metal lotus he had set atop themonastery roof turned and turned in itssockets.

A light rain was falling upon thebuilding, the lotus and the jungle at thefoot of the mountains. For six days hehad offered many kilowatts of prayer,but the static kept him from being heardOn High. Under his breath, he calledupon the more notable of the currentfertility deities, invoking them in termsof their most prominent Attributes.

A rumble of thunder answered hispetition, and the small ape who assistedhim chuckled. "Your prayers and yourcurses come to the same. Lord Yama,"commented the ape. "That is to say,

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nothing.""It has taken you seventeen

incarnations to arrive at this truth?" saidYama. "I can see then why you are stilldoing time as an ape."

"Not so," said the ape, whose namewas Tak. "My fall, while lessspectacular than your own, neverthelessinvolved elements of personal malice onthe part of — "

"Enough!" said Yama, turning hisback to him.

Tak realized then that he might havetouched upon a sore spot. In an attemptto find another subject for conversation,he crossed to the window, leapt onto itswide sill and stared upward.

"There is a break in the cloud cover,

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to the west," he said.Yama approached, followed the

direction of his gaze, frowned, andnodded.

"Aye," he said. "Stay where you areand advise me."

He moved to a bank of controls.Overhead, the lotus halted in its

turning, then faced the patch of bare sky."Very good," he said. "We're getting

something."His hand moved across a separate

control panel, throwing a series ofswitches and adjusting two dials.

Below them, in the cavernous cellarsof the monastery, the signal wasreceived and other preparations were

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begun: the host was made ready."The clouds are coming together

again!" cried Tak."No matter, now," said the other.

"We've hooked our fish. Out of Nirvanaand into the lotus, he comes."

There was more thunder, and the raincame down with a sound like hail uponthe lotus. Snakes of blue lightningcoiled, hissing, about the mountaintops.

Yama sealed a final circuit."How do you think he will take to

wearing the flesh again?" asked Tak."Go peel bananas with your feet!"Tak chose to consider this a

dismissal and departed the chamber,leaving Yama to close down themachinery. He made his way along a

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corridor and down a wide flight ofstairs. He reached the landing, and as hestood there he heard the sound of voicesand the shuffling of sandals coming inhis direction from out a side hall.

Without hesitating, he climbed thewall, using a series of carved panthersand an opposing row of elephants ashandholds. Mounting a rafter, he drewback into a well of shadow and waited,unmoving.

Two dark-robed monks enteredthrough the archway.

"So why can she not clear the sky forthem?" said the first.

The second, an older, more heavilybuilt man, shrugged. "I am no sage that I

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can answer such questions. That she isanxious is obvious, or she should neverhave granted them this sanctuary, norYama this usage. But who can mark thelimits of night?"

"Or the moods of a woman," said thefirst. "I have heard that even the priestsdid not know of her coming."

"That may be. Whatever the case, itwould seem a good omen."

"So it would seem."They passed through another

archway, and Tak listened to the soundsof their going until there was onlysilence.

Still, he did not leave his perch.The "she" referred to by the monks

could only be the goddess Ratri herself,

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worshiped by the order that had givensanctuary to the followers of Great-Souled Sam, the Enlightened One. Now,Ratri, too, was to be numbered amongthose fallen from the Celestial City andwearing the skin of a mortal. She hadevery reason to be bitter over the wholeaffair; and Tak realized the chance shewas taking in granting sanctuary, letalone being physically present duringthis undertaking. It could jeopardize anypossibility of her future reinstatement ifword of it got out and reached the properears. Tak recalled her as the dark-hairedbeauty with silver eyes, passing in hermoon chariot of ebony and chromium,drawn by stallions black and white,

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tended by her guard, also black andwhite, passing up the Avenue of Heaven,rivaling even Sarasvati in her glory. Hisheart leapt within his hairy breast. Hehad to see her again. One night, long ago,in happier times and better form, he haddanced with her, on a balcony under thestars. It had been for only a fewmoments. But he remembered; and it is adifficult thing to be an ape and to havesuch memories.

He climbed down from the rafter.There was a tower, a high tower

rising from the northeast comer of themonastery. Within that tower was achamber. It was said to contain theindwelling presence of the goddess. Itwas cleaned daily, the linens changed,

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fresh incense burnt and a votive offeringlaid just within the door. That door wasnormally kept locked.

There were, of course, windows.The question as to whether a man couldhave entered by means of any of thesewindows must remain academic. Takproved that an ape could.

Mounting the monastery roof, heproceeded to scale the tower, movingfrom brick to slippery brick, fromprojection to irregularity, the heavensgrowling doglike above him, until finallyhe clung to the wall just below the outersill. A steady rain fell upon him. Heheard a bird singing within. He saw theedge of a wet, blue scarf hanging over

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the sill.He caught hold of the ledge and

raised himself until he could peer inside.Her back was to him. She wore a

dark blue sari, and she was seated on asmall bench at the opposite end of theroom.

He clambered onto the sill andcleared his throat.

She turned quickly. She wore a veil,so that her features wereindistinguishable. She regarded himthrough it, then rose and crossed thechamber.

He was dismayed. Her figure, oncelithe, was wide about the waist; herwalk, once the swaying of boughs, was awaddle; her complexion was too dark;

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even through the veil the lines of hernose and jaw were too pronounced.

He bowed his head. "'And so youhave drawn near to us, who at yourcoming have come home," he sang, "'asbirds to their nest upon the tree.'"

She stood, still as her statue in themain hall below.

"'Guard us from the she-wolf and thewolf, and guard us from the thief, ohNight, and so be good for us to pass.'"

She reached out slowly and laid herhand upon his head.

"You have my blessing, little one,"she said, after a time. "Unfortunately,that is all I can give. I cannot offerprotection or render beauty, who lack

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these luxuries myself. What is yourname?"

"Tak," he told her.She touched her brow. "I once knew

a Tak," she said, "in a bygone day, adistant place. . ."

"I am that Tak, madam."She seated herself upon the sill.

After a time, he realized that she wasweeping, within her veil.

"Don't cry, goddess. Tak is here.Remember Tak, of the Archives? Of theBright Spear? He stands yet ready to dothy bidding."

"Tak. . ." she said. "Oh, Tak! You,too? I did not know, I never heard. . ."

"Another turning of the wheel,madam, and who knows? Things may yet

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be better than even once they were."Her shoulders shook. He reached

out, drew back his hand.She turned and took it.After an age, she spoke: "Not by the

normal course of events shall we berestored or matters settled, Tak of theBright Spear. We must beat our ownpath."

"What mean you?" he inquired; then,"Sam?"

She nodded."He is the one. He is our hope

against Heaven, dear Tak. If he can berecalled, we have a chance to liveagain."

"This is why you have taken this

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chance, why you yourself sit within thejaws of the tiger?"

"Why else? When there is no realhope we must mint our own. If the coinbe counterfeit it still may be passed."

"Counterfeit? You do not believe hewas the Buddha?"

She laughed, briefly. "Sam was thegreatest charlatan in the memory of godor man. He was also the worthiestopponent Trimurti ever faced. Don't lookso shocked at my saying it. Archivist!You know that he stole the fabric of hisdoctrine, path and attainment, the wholerobe, from prehistorical forbiddensources. It was a weapon, nothing more.His greatest strength was his insincerity.If we could have him back . . ."

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"Lady, saint or charlatan, he isreturned."

"Do not jest with me, Tak.""Goddess and Lady, I just left the

Lord Yama shutting down the pray-machine, frowning his frown ofsuccess."

"The venture was against suchmighty odds. . . . Lord Agni once saidthat no such thing could ever be done."

Tak stood."Goddess Ratri," he said, "who, be

he god or man, or anything between,knows more of such matters thanYama?"

"I have no answer for that question,Tak, because there is none. But how can

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you say of a certainty that he has nettedus our fish?"

"Because he is Yama.""Then take my arm, Tak. Escort me

again, as once you did. Let us view thesleeping Boddhisatva."

He led her out the door, down thestairs, and into the chambers below.

Light, born not of torches but of the

generators of Yama, filled the cavern.The bed, set upon a platform, wasclosed about on three sides by screens.Most of the machinery was also maskedby screens and hangings. The saffron-robed monks who were in attendancemoved silently about the great chamber.Yama, master artificer, stood at the

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bedside.As they approached, several of the

well-disciplined, imperturbable monksuttered brief exclamations. Tak thenturned to the woman at his side and drewback a pace, his breath catching in histhroat.

She was no longer the dumpy littlematron with whom he had spoken. Onceagain did he stand at the side of NightImmortal, of whom it has been written,"The goddess has filled wide space, toits depths and its heights. Her radiancedrives out the dark."

He looked but a moment and coveredhis eyes. She still had this trace of herdistant Aspect about her.

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"Goddess. . ." he began."To the sleeper," she stated. "He

stirs."They advanced to the bedstead.Thereafter to be portrayed in murals

at the ends of countless corridors,carved upon the walls of Temples andpainted onto the ceilings of numerouspalaces, came the awakening of he whowas variously known as Mahasamatman,Kalkin, Manjusri, Siddhartha,Tathagatha, Binder, Maitreya, theEnlightened One, Buddha and Sam. Athis left was the goddess of Night; to hisright stood Death; Tak, the ape, wascrouched at the foot of the bed, eternalcomment upon the coexistence of the

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animal and the divine.He wore an ordinary, darkish body

of medium height and age; his featureswere regular and undistinguished; whenhis eyes opened, they were dark.

"Hail, Lord of Light!" It was Ratriwho spoke these words.

The eyes blinked. They did notfocus. Nowhere in the chamber wasthere any movement.

"Hail, Mahasamatman — Buddha!"said Yama.

The eyes stared ahead, unseeing."Hello, Sam," said Tak.The forehead creased slightly, the

eyes squinted, fell upon Tak, moved onto the others.

"Where . . . ?" he asked, in a

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whisper."My monastery," answered Ratri.Without expression, he looked upon

her beauty.Then he shut his eyes and held them

tightly closed, wrinkles forming at theircorners. A grin of pain made his mouth abow, his teeth the arrows, clenched.

"Are you truly he whom we havenamed?" asked Yama.

He did not answer."Are you he who fought the army of

Heaven to a standstill on the banks of theVedra?"

The mouth slackened."Are you he who loved the goddess

of Death?"

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The eyes flickered. A faint smilecame and went across the lips.

"It is he," said Yama; then, "Who areyou, man?"

"I? I am nothing," replied the other."A leaf caught in a whirlpool, perhaps.A feather in the wind. . ."

"Too bad," said Yama, "for there areleaves and feathers enough in the worldfor me to have labored so long only toincrease their number. I wanted me aman, one who might continue a warinterrupted by his absence — a man ofpower who could oppose with thatpower the will of gods. I thought youwere he."

"I am"—he squinted again"—Sam. I

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am Sam. Once—long ago . . . I did fight,didn't I? Many times . . ."

"You were Great-Souled Sam, theBuddha. Do you remember?"

"Maybe I was . . ." A slow fire waskindled in his eyes.

"Yes," he said then. "Yes, I was.Humblest of the proud, proudest of thehumble. I fought. I taught the Way for atime. I fought again, taught again, triedpolitics, magic, poison . . . I fought onegreat battle so terrible the sun itself hidits face from the slaughter—with menand gods, with animals and demons,with spirits of the earth and air, of fireand water, with slizzards and horses,swords and chariots—"

"And you lost," said Yama.

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"Yes, I did, didn't I? But it was quitea showing we gave them, wasn't it? You,deathgod, were my charioteer. It allcomes back to me now. We were takenprisoner and the Lords of Karma were tobe our judges. You escaped them by thewill-death and the Way of the BlackWheel. I could not."

"That is correct. Your past was laidout before them. You were judged."Yama regarded the monks who now satupon the floor, their heads bowed, andhe lowered his voice. "To have you todie the real death would have made youa martyr. To have permitted you to walkthe world, in any form, would have leftthe door open for your return. So, as you

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stole your teachings from the Gottama ofanother place and time, did they steal thetale of the end of that one's days amongmen. You were judged worthy ofNirvana. Your atman was projected, notinto another body, but into the greatmagnetic cloud that encircles this planet.That was over half a century ago. Youare now officially an avatar of Vishnu,whose teachings were misinterpreted bysome of his more zealous followers.You, personally, continued to exist onlyin the form of self-perpetuatingwavelengths, which I succeeded incapturing."

Sam closed his eyes."And you dared to bring me back?""That is correct."

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"I was aware of my condition theentire time."

"I suspected as much."His eyes opened, blazing. "Yet you

dared recall me from that?""Yes."Sam bowed his head. "Rightly are

you called deathgod, Yama-Dharma.You have snatched away from me theultimate experience. You have brokenupon the dark stone of your will thatwhich is beyond all comprehension andmortal splendor. Why could you nothave left me as I was, in the sea ofbeing?"

"Because a world has need of yourhumility, your piety, your great teaching

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and your Machiavellian scheming.""Yama, I'm old," he said. "I'm as old

as man upon this world. I was one of theFirst, you know. One of the very first tocome here, to build, to settle. All of theothers are dead now, or are gods — deiex machini. . . The chance was minealso, but I let it go by. Many times. Inever wanted to be a god, Yama. Notreally. It was only later, only when I sawwhat they were doing, that I began togather what power I could to me. It wastoo late, though. They were too strong.Now I just want to sleep the sleep ofages, to know again the Great Rest, theperpetual bliss, to hear the songs thestars sing on the shores of the great sea."

Ratri leaned forward and looked into

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his eyes. "We need you, Sam," she said."I know, I know," he told her. "It's

the eternal recurrence of the anecdote.You've a willing horse, so flog himanother mile." But he smiled as he saidit, and she kissed his brow.

Tak leaped into the air and bouncedupon the bed.

"Mankind rejoices," observed theBuddha.

Yama handed him a robe and Ratrifitted him with slippers.

Recovering from the peace whichpasseth understanding takes time. Samslept. Sleeping, he dreamed; dreaming,he cried out, or just cried. He had noappetite; but Yama had found him a body

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both sturdy and in perfect health, onewell able to bear the psychosomaticconversion from divine withdrawal.

But he would sit for an hour,unmoving, staring at a pebble or a seedor a leaf. And on these occasions, hecould not be aroused. Yama saw in thisa danger, and he spoke of it with Ratriand Tak. "It is not good that he withdrawfrom the world in this way, now," hesaid. "I have spoken with him, but it isas if I addressed the wind. He cannotrecover that which he has left behind.The very attempt is costing him hisstrength."

"Perhaps you misread his efforts,"said Tak.

"What mean you?"

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"See how he regards the seed he hasset before him? Consider the wrinklingat the edges of his eyes."

"Yes? What of it?""He squints. Is his vision impaired?""It is not.""Then why does he squint?""To better study the seed.""Study? That is not the Way, as once

he taught it. Yet he does study. He doesnot meditate, seeking within the objectthat which leads to release of thesubject. No."

"What then does he do?""The reverse.""The reverse?""He does study the object,

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considering its ways, in an effort to bindhimself. He seeks within it an excuse tolive. He tries once more to wrap himselfwithin the fabric of Maya, the illusion ofthe world."

"I believe you are right, Tak!" It wasRatri who had spoken. "How can weassist him in his efforts?"

"I am not certain, mistress."Yama nodded, his dark hair

glistening in a bar of sunlight that fellacross the narrow porch.

"You have set your finger upon thething I could not see," he acknowledged."He has not yet fully returned, though hewears a body, walks upon human feet,talks as we do. His thought is stillbeyond our ken."

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"What then shall we do?" repeatedRatri.

"Take him on long walks through thecountryside," said Yama. "Feed himdelicacies. Stir his soul with poetry andsong. Find him strong drink to drink—there is none here in the monastery. Garbhim in bright-hued silks. Fetch him acourtesan or three. Submerge him inliving again. It is only thus that he maybe freed from the chains of God. Stupidof me not to have seen it sooner . . ."

"Not really, deathgod," said Tak.The flame that is black leapt within

Yama's eyes, and then he smiled. "I amrepaid, little one," he acknowledged,"for the comments I, perhaps

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thoughtlessly, let fall upon thy hairy ears.I apologize, ape-one. You are truly aman, and one of wit and perception."

Tak bowed before him.Ratri chuckled."Tell us, clever Tak—for mayhap

we have been gods too long, and so lackthe proper angle of vision—how shallwe proceed in this matter ofrehumanizing him, so as to best serve theends we seek?"

Tak bowed him then to Ratri."As Yama has proposed," he stated.

"Today, mistress, you take him for awalk in the foothills. Tomorrow, LordYama conducts him as far as the edge ofthe forest. The following day I shall takehim amidst the trees and the grasses, the

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flowers and the vines. And we shall see.We shall."

"So be it," said Yama, and so it was. In the weeks that followed, Sam

came to look forward to these walkswith what appeared at first a mildanticipation, then a moderate enthusiasm,and finally a blazing eagerness. He tookto going off unaccompanied for longerand longer stretches of time: at first, itwas for several hours in the morning;then, morning and evening. Later, hestayed away all day, and on occasion aday and a night.

At the end of the third week, Yamaand Ratri discussed it on the porch in the

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early hours of morning."This thing I do not like," said Yama.

"We cannot insult him by forcing ourcompany upon him now, when he doesnot wish it. But there is danger out there,especially for one born again such as he.I would that we knew how he spends hishours."

"But whatever he does, it is helpinghim to recover," said Ratri, gulping asweetmeat and waving a fleshy hand."He is less withdrawn. He speaks more,even jesting. He drinks of the wine webring him. His appetite is returning."

"Yet, if he should meet with an agentof Trimurti, the final doom may come topass."

Ratri chewed slowly. "It is not

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likely, though, that such should beabroad in this country, in these days,"she stated. "The animals will see him asa child and will not harm him. Menwould consider him a holy hermit. Thedemons fear him of old, and so respecthim."

But Yama shook his head. "Lady, itis not so simple. Though I havedismantled much of my machinery andhidden it hundreds of leagues from here,such a massive trafficking of energies asI employed cannot have passedunnoticed. Sooner or later this placewill be visited. I used screens andbaffling devices, but this general areamust have appeared in certain quarters

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as though the Universal Fire did a danceupon the map. Soon we must move on. Ishould prefer to wait until our charge isfully recovered, but. . ."

"Could not certain natural forceshave produced the same energy effectsas your workings?"

"Yes, and they do occur in thisvicinity, which is why I chose it as ourbase—so it may well be that nothingwill come of it. Still, I doubt this. Myspies in the villages report no unusualactivities now. But on the day of hisreturn, riding upon the crest of the storm,some say the thunder chariot passed,hunting through the heavens and acrossthe countryside. This was far from here,but I cannot believe that there was no

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connection.""Yet, it has not returned.""Not that we know of. But I fear . . .""Then let us depart at once. I respect

your forebodings too well. You havemore of the power upon you than anyother among the Fallen. For me, it is agreat strain even to assume a pleasingshape for more than a few minutes . . ."

"What powers I possess," saidYama, refilling her teacup, "are intactbecause they were not of the same orderas yours."

He smiled then, showing even rowsof long, brilliant teeth. This smile caughtat the edge of a scar upon his left cheekand reached up to the comer of his eye.

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He winked to put a period to it andcontinued, "Much of my power is in theform of knowledge, which even theLords of Karma could not have wrestedfrom me. The power of most of the gods,however, is predicated upon a specialphysiology, which they lose in part whenincarnated into a new body. The mind,somehow remembering, after a timealters any body to a certain extent,engendering a new homeostasis,permitting a gradual return of power.Mine does return quickly, though, and itis with me fully now. But even if it werenot, I have my knowledge to use as aweapon—and that is a power."

Ratri sipped her tea. "Whatever itssource, if your power says move, then

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move we must. How soon?"Yama opened a pouch of tobacco

and rolled a cigarette as he spoke. Hisdark, supple fingers, she noted, alwayshad about then: movement that whichwas like the movements of one whoplayed upon an instrument of music.

"I should say let us not tarry heremore than another week or ten days. Wemust wean him from this countryside bythen."

She nodded. "Where to then?""Some small southern kingdom,

perhaps, where we may come and goundisturbed."

He lit the cigarette, breathed smoke."I've a better idea," said she. "Know

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that under a mortal name am I mistress ofthe Palace of Kama in Khaipur."

"The Fornicatorium, madam?"She frowned. "As such is it often

known to the vulgar, and do not call me'madam' in the same breath—it smacksof an ancient jest. It is a place of rest,pleasure, holiness and much of myrevenue. There, I feel, would be a goodhiding place for our charge while hemakes his recovery and we our plans."

Yama slapped his thigh. "Aye! Aye!Who would think to look for the Buddhain a whorehouse? Good! Excellent! ToKhaipur, then, dear goddess—toKhaipur and the Palace of Love!"

She stood and stamped her sandalupon the flagstones. "I will not have you

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speak that way of my establishment!"He dropped his eyes, and with pain

dropped the grin from his face. He stoodthen and bowed. "I apologize, dearRatri, but the revelation came so sudden—" He choked then and looked away.When he looked back, he was full ofsobriety and decorum. He continued,"That I was taken aback by the apparentincongruity. Now, though, I do see thewisdom of the thing. It is a most perfectcover-up, and it provides you both withwealth and, what is more important, witha source of privy information among themerchants, warriors and priests. It is anindispensable part of the community. Itgives you status and a voice in civil

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affairs. Being a god is one of the oldestprofessions in the world. It is onlyfitting, therefore, that we fallen ones takeumbrage within the pale of anothervenerable tradition. I salute you. I givethanks for your wisdom and forethought.I do not slander the enterprises of abenefactor and coconspirator. In fact, Ilook forward to the visit."

She smiled and seated herself oncemore. "I accept your well-oiled apology,oh son of the serpent. In any event, it istoo difficult to remain angry with you.Pour me some more tea, please."

They reclined, Ratri sipping her tea,Yama smoking. In the distance, a stormfront drew a curtain across half theprospect. The sun still shone upon them,

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however, and a cool breeze visited theporch.

"You have seen the ring, the ring ofiron which he wears?" asked Ratri,eating another sweetmeat.

"Yes.""Know you where he obtained it?""I do not.""Nor I. But I feel we should learn its

origin.""Aye.""How shall we essay this thing?""I have assigned the chore to Tak,

who is better suited to the ways of theforest than we. Even now he follows thetrail."

Ratri nodded. "Good," she said.

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"I have heard," said Yama, "that thegods do still occasionally visit the morenotable palaces of Kama throughout theland, generally in disguise, butsometimes in full power. Is this true?"

"Yes. But a year ago did Lord Indracome to Khaipur. Some three years back,the false Krishna made a visit. Of all theCelestial party, Krishna the Tirelessdoes cause the greatest consternationamong the staff. He stayed for a month ofriot, which involved much brokenfurniture and the services of manyphysicians. He did near empty the winecellar and the larder. He played thenupon his pipes one night, however, thehearing of which would have been

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enough to gain the old Krishnaforgiveness for near anything. But it wasnot the true magic we heard that night,for there is only one true Krishna—swart and hairy, his eyes so red andblazing. This one did dance upon thetables, causing much havoc, and hismusical accompaniment wasinsufficient."

"Paid he for this carnage with otherthan a song?"

She laughed. "Come now, Yama. Letthere be no rhetorical questions betweenus."

He snorted smoke."Surya, the sun, is now about to be

encompassed," said Ratri, staring outand upward, "and Indra slays the dragon.

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At any moment, the rains will arrive."A wave of grayness covered over

the monastery. The breeze grewstronger, and the dance of the watersbegan upon the walls. Like a beadedcurtain, the rain covered that open end ofthe porch at which they stared.

Yama poured more tea. Ratri ateanother sweetmeat.

Tak made his way through the forest.

He moved from tree to tree, branch tobranch, watching the trail below him.His fur was moist, for the leaves shooksmall showers down upon him as hepassed. Clouds mounted at his back, butthe sun of early morning still shone in the

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eastern sky and the forest was a swarmof colors in its red-gold light. Abouthim, birds were singing from within thetangle of branches, vines, leaves andgrasses that stood like a wall upon eitherside of the trail. The birds made theirmusic, insects hummed and occasionallythere was a growl or bark. The foliagewas stirred by the wind. Below him, thetrail bent sharply, entering a clearing.Tak dropped to the ground, proceededon foot. At the other side of the clearinghe took to the trees again. Now, henoticed, the trail was running parallel tothe mountains, even inclining slightlyback in their direction. There was adistant rattle of thunder and after a time anew breeze came up, cool. He swung on,

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breaking through moist spider webs,frightening birds into shrieking flurriesof bright plumage. The trail continued tomove in the direction of the mountains,slowly doubling back upon itself. Attimes, it met with other hard-packed,yellow trails, dividing, crossing, parting.On these occasions, he descended to theground and studied the surface markings.Yes, Sam had turned here; Sam hadstopped beside this pool to drink—here,where the orange mushrooms grew tallerthan a tall man, and wide enough toshelter several from the rains; now, Samhad taken that branch of the roadway;here, he had stopped to fix a sandalstrap; at this point, he had leaned upon a

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tree, which showed indications ofhousing a dryad. . . .

Tak moved on, about half an hourbehind his quarry, as he judged it—sogiving him plenty of time to get towherever he was going and to beginwhatever activity so engaged hisenthusiasms. A halo of heat lightningreached above the mountains he wasnow facing. There was another rumbleof thunder. The trail headed on up intothe foothills, where the forest thinned,and Tak moved on all fours amid tallgrasses. It headed steadily upward, androcky outcroppings became more andmore prominent. Still, Sam had passedthis way, so Tak followed.

Overhead, the pollen-colored Bridge

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of the Gods vanished as the cloudsrolled steadily eastward. Lightningflashed, and now the thunder followedquickly. The wind came faster here inthe open; the grasses bent down beforeit; the temperature seemed suddenly toplummet.

Tak felt the first drops of rain anddashed for the shelter of one of thestands of stone. It ran like a narrowhedge, slightly slanted against the rain.Tak moved along its base as the waterswere unleashed and color deserted theworld along with the last bit of blue inthe sky.

A sea of turbulent light appearedoverhead, and three times spilled

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streams that rode crazy crescendo downto splash upon the stone fang curvingblackly into the wind, about a quartermile up the slope.

When Tak's vision cleared, he sawthat which he did now understand. It wasas though each bolt that had fallen hadleft a part of itself, standing, swaying inthe gray air, pulsing fires, despite thewetness that came steadily down uponthe ground.

Then Tak heard the laughter—or wasit a ghost sound left in his ears by therecent thunder? .p>

No, it was laughter—gigantic,unhuman!

After a time, there came a howl ofrage. Then there was another flash,

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another rumble.Another funnel of fire swayed beside

the stone fang.Tak lay still for about five minutes.

Then it came again—the howl, followedby three bright flashes and the crash.

Now there were seven pillars offire. Dared he approach, skirting thesethings, spying upon the fang peak fromits opposite side?

And if he did, and if—as he felt—Sam was somehow involved, what goodcould he do if the Enlightened Onehimself could not handle the situation?

He had no answer, but he foundhimself moving forward, crouched lowin the damp grass, swinging far to his

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left.When he was halfway there it

happened again, and ten of the thingstowered, red and gold and yellow,drifting and returning, drifting andreturning, as though their bases wererooted to the ground.

He crouched there wet andshivering, examined his courage andfound it to be a small thing indeed. Yet,he pushed on until he was parallel to thestrange place, then past it.

He drew up behind it, findinghimself in the midst of many largestones. Grateful for their shelter and thecover they provided against observationfrom below, he inched forward, nevertaking his eyes from the fang.

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He could see now that it was partlyhollow. There was a dry, shallow caveat its base, and two figures knelt withinit. Holy men at prayer? He wondered.

Then it happened. The most frightfulflashing he had ever seen came downupon the stones—not once, or for a mereinstant. It was as if a fire-tongued beastlicked and licked about the stone,growling as it did so, for perhaps aquarter of a minute.

When Tak opened his eyes, hecounted twenty of the blazing towers.

One of the holy men leaned forward,gestured. The other laughed. The soundcarried to where Tak lay, and the words:"Eyes of the serpent! Mine now!"

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"What is the quantity?" asked thesecond, and Tak knew it to be the voiceof Great-Souled Sam.

"Twice, or none at all!" roared theother, and he leaned forward, rockedback, then gestured as Sam had done.

"Nina from Srinagina!" he chanted,and leaned, rocked, and gestured oncemore.

"Sacred seven," Sam said softly.The other howled.Tak closed his eyes and covered his

ears, expecting what might come afterthat howl.

Nor was he mistaken.When the blaze and the tumult had

passed, he looked down upon an eerily

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illuminated scene. He did not bothercounting. It was apparent that forty of theflame like things now hung about theplace, casting their weird glow: theirnumber had doubled.

The ritual continued. On the left handof the Buddha, the iron ring glowed witha pale, greenish light all its own.

He heard the words "Twice, or noneat all" repeated again, and he heard theBuddha say "Sacred seven" once more,in reply.

This time he thought themountainside would come apart beneathhim. This time he thought the brightnesswas an afterimage, tattooed upon hisretina through closed eyelids. But hewas wrong.

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When he opened his eyes it was tolook upon a veritable army of shiftingthunderbolts. Their blaze jabbed into hisbrain, and he shaded his eyes to staredown below.

"Well, Raltariki?" asked Sam, and abright emerald light played about his lefthand.

"One time again, Siddhartha. Twice,or not at all."

The rains let up for a moment, and,in the great blaze from the host on thehillside, Tak saw that the one calledRaltariki had the head of a water buffaloand an extra pair of arms.

He shivered.He covered his eyes and ears and

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clenched his teeth, waiting. After a time,it happened. It roared and blazed, goingon and on until finally he lostconsciousness.

When he recovered his senses, therewas only a grayness and a gentle rainbetween himself and the sheltering rock.At its base only one figure sat, and it didnot wear horns or appear to possessmore arms than the customary two.

Tak did not move. He waited. "This," said Yama, handing him an

aerosol, "is demon repellent. In thefuture, I suggest you annoint yourselfthoroughly if you intend venturing veryfar from the monastery. I had thought thisregion free of the Rakasha, or I would

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have given it to you sooner."Tak accepted the container, placed it

on the table before him.They sat in Yama's chambers, having

taken a light meal there. Yama leanedback in his chair, a glass of the Buddha'swine in his left hand, a half-filleddecanter in his right.

"Then the one called Raltariki isreally a demon?" asked Tak.

"Yes—and no," said Yama, "If by'demon' you mean a malefic,supernatural creature, possessed of greatpowers, life span and the ability totemporarily assume virtually any shape—then the answer is no. This is thegenerally accepted definition, but it is

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untrue in one respect.""Oh? And what may that be?""It is not a supernatural creature.""But it is all those other things?""Yes.""Then I fail to see what difference it

makes whether it be supernatural or not—so long as it is malefic, possessesgreat powers and life span and has theability to change its shape at will."

"Ah, but it makes a great deal ofdifference, you see. It is the differencebetween the unknown and theunknowable, between science andfantasy—it is a matter of essence. Thefour points of the compass be logic,knowledge, wisdom and the unknown.Some do bow in that final direction.

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Others advance upon it. To bow beforethe one is to lose sight of the three. I maysubmit to the unknown, but never to theunknowable. The man who bows in thatfinal direction is either a saint or a fool.I have no use for either."

Tak shrugged and sipped his wine."But of the demons. . . ?"

"Knowable. I did experiment withthem for many years, and I was one ofthe Four who descended into Hellwell,if you recall, after Taraka fled LordAgni at Palamaidsu. Are you not Tak ofthe Archives?"

"I was.""Did you read then of the earliest

recorded contacts with the Rakasha?"

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"I read the accounts of the days oftheir binding. . . "

"Then you know that they are thenative inhabitants of this world, that theywere present here before the arrival ofMan from vanished Urath."

"Yes.""They are creatures of energy, rather

than matter. Their own traditions have itthat once they wore bodies, lived incities. Their quest for personalimmortality, however, led them along adifferent path from that which Manfollowed. They found a way toperpetuate themselves as stable fields ofenergy. They abandoned their bodies tolive forever as vortices of force. But

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pure intellect they are not. They carriedwith them their complete egos, and bornof matter they do ever lust after the flesh.Though they can assume its appearancefor a time, they cannot return to itunassisted. For ages they did driftaimlessly about this world. Then thearrival of Man stirred them from theirquiescence. They took on the shapes ofhis nightmares to devil him. This is whythey had to be defeated and bound, farbeneath the Ratnagaris. We could notdestroy them all. We could not permitthem to continue their attempts topossess the machines of incarnation andthe bodies of men. So they were trappedand contained in great magnetic bottles."

"Yet Sam freed many to do his will,"

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said Tak."Aye. He made and kept a nightmare

pact, so that some of them do still walkthe world. Of all men, they respectperhaps only Siddhartha. And with allmen do they share one great vice."

"That being. . .?""They do dearly love to gamble. . . .

They will make game for any stakes, andgambling debts are their only point ofhonor. This must be so, or they wouldnot hold the confidence of othergamesters and would so lose that whichis perhaps their only pleasure. Theirpowers being great, even princes willmake game with them, hoping to wintheir services. Kingdoms have been lost

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in this fashion.""If," said Tak, "as you feel, Sam was

playing one of the ancient games withRaltariki, what could the stakes havebeen?"

Yama finished his wine, refilled theglass. "Sam is a fool. No, he is not. Heis a gambler. There is a difference. TheRakasha do control lesser orders ofenergy beings. Sam, through that ring hewears, does now command a guard offire elementals, which he won fromRaltariki. These are deadly, mindlesscreatures—and each bears the force of athunderbolt."

Tak finished his wine. "But whatstakes could Sam have brought to thegame?"

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Yama sighed. "All my work, all ourefforts for over half a century."

"You mean—his body?"Yama nodded. "A human body is the

highest inducement any demon might beoffered."

"Why should Sam risk such aventure?"

Yama stared at Tak, not seeing him."It must have been the only way he couldcall upon his life-will, to bind him againto his task — by placing himself injeopardy, by casting his very existencewith each roll of the dice."

Tak poured himself another glass ofwine and gulped it. "That is unknowableto me," he said.

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But Yama shook his head."Unknown, only," he told him. "Sam isnot quite a saint, nor is he a fool."

"Almost, though," Yama decided,and that night he squirted demonrepellent about the monastery.

The following morning, a small manapproached the monastery and seatedhimself before its front entrance, placinga begging bowl on the ground at his feet.He wore a single, threadbare garment ofcoarse, brown cloth, which reached tohis ankles. A black patch covered hisleft eye. What remained of his hair wasdark and very long. His sharp nose,small chin, and high, flat ears gave to hisface a foxlike appearance. His skin was

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tight-drawn and well-weathered. Hissingle, green eye seemed never to blink.

He sat there for perhaps twentyminutes before one of Sam's monksnoticed him and mentioned the fact toone of Ratri's dark-robed Order. Thismonk located a priest and passed theinformation to him. The priest, anxiousto impress the goddess with the virtuesof her followers, sent for the beggar tobe brought in and fed, offered newgarments and given a cell in which tosleep for as long as he chose to remain.

The beggar accepted the food withthe courtesies of a Brahmin, but declinedto eat anything other than bread and fruit.He accepted, too, the dark garment ofRatri's Order, casting aside his begrimed

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smock. Then he looked upon the cell andthe fresh sleeping mat that had been laidfor him.

"I do thank you, worthy priest," hesaid, in a voice rich and resonant, andaltogether larger than his person. "I dothank you, and pray your goddess smileupon you for your kindness andgenerosity in her name."

The priest smiled at this himself, andstill hoped that Ratri might pass alongthe hall at that moment, to witness hiskindness and generosity in her name. Shedid not, however. Few of her Order hadactually seen her, even on the night whenshe put on her power and walked amongthem: for only those of the saffron robe

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had attended Sam's awakening and werecertain as to his identity. She generallymoved about the monastery while herfollowers were at prayer or after theyhad retired for the evening. She sleptmainly during the day; when she didcross their sight she was well-muffledand cloaked; her wishes and orders shecommunicated directly to Gandhiji, thehead of the Order, who was ninety-threeyears old this cycle, and more than halfblind.

Consequently, both her monks andthose of the saffron robe wondered as toher appearance and sought to gainpossible favor in her eyes. It was saidthat her blessing would ensure one'sbeing incarnated as a Brahmin. Only

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Gandhiji did not care, for he hadaccepted the way of the real death.

Since she did not pass along the hallas they stood there, the priest prolongedthe conversation, "I am Balarma," hestated. "May I inquire as to your name,good sir, and perhaps your destination?"

"I am Aram," said the beggar, "whohas taken upon himself a ten-year vow ofpoverty, and of silence for seven.Fortunately, the seven have elapsed, thatI may now speak to thank my benefactorsand answer their questions. I am headingup into the mountains to find me a cavewhere I may meditate and pray. I may,perhaps, accept your kindly hospitalityfor a few days, before proceeding on

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with my journey.""Indeed," said Balarma, "we should

be honored if a holy one were to see fitto bless our monastery with hispresence. We will make you welcome. Ifthere is anything you wish to assist youalong your path, and we may be able togrant this thing, please name it to us."

Aram fixed him with his unblinkinggreen eye and said, "The monk who firstobserved me did not wear the robe ofyour Order." He touched the darkgarment as he said it. "Instead, I believemy poor eye did behold one of anothercolor."

"Yes," said Balarma, "for thefollowers of the Buddha do shelter hereamong us, resting awhile from their

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wanderings.""That is truly interesting," said

Aram, "for I should like to speak withthem and perhaps learn more of theirWay."

"You should have ample opportunityif you choose to remain among us for atime."

"This then shall I do. For how longwill they remain?"

"I do not know."Aram nodded. "When might I speak

with them?""This evening there will be an hour

when all the monks are gathered togetherand free to speak as they would, save forthose who have taken vows of silence."

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"I shall pass the interval till then inprayer," said Aram. "Thank you."

Each bowed slightly, and Aramentered his room.

That evening, Aram attended the

community hour of the monks. Those ofboth Orders did mingle at this time andengage in conversation. Sam did notattend it himself, nor did Tak; and Yamanever attended it in person.

Aram seated himself at the long tablein the refectory, across from several ofthe Buddha's monks. He talked for sometime with these, discoursing on doctrineand practice, caste and creed, weatherand the affairs of the day.

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"It seems strange," he said after awhile, "that those of your Order havecome so far to the south and the west sosuddenly."

"We are a wandering Order,"replied the monk to whom he hadspoken. "We follow the wind. Wefollow our hearts."

"To the land of rusted soil in theseason of lightnings? Is there perhapssome revelation to occur hereabout,which might be enlarging to my spiritwere I to behold it?"

"The entire universe is a revelation,"said the monk. "All things change, yet allthings remain. Day follows night. . . eachday is different, yet each is day. Much of

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the world is illusion, yet the forms ofthat illusion follow a pattern which is apart of divine reality."

"Yes, yes," said Aram. "In the waysof illusion and reality am I well-versed,but by my inquiry I did mean to knowwhether perhaps a new teacher hadarisen in this vicinity, or some old onereturned, or mayhap a divinemanifestation, the presence of which itmight profit my soul to be aware."

As he spoke, the beggar brushedfrom the table before him a red,crawling beetle, the size of a thumbnail,and he moved his sandal as if to crush it.

"Pray, brother, do not harm it," saidthe monk.

"But they are all over the place, and

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the Masters of Karma have stated that aman cannot be made to return as aninsect, and the killing of an insect is akarmically inoperative act."

"Nevertheless," said the monk, "alllife being one, in this monastery all dopractice the doctrine of ahimsa andrefrain from taking life of any sort."

"Yet," said Aram, "Patanjali doesstate that it is the intention rather thanthe act which governs. Therefore, if Ikilled with love rather than malice, itwould be as if I had not killed. I confessthat this was not the case and that malicewas present—therefore, even if I did notkill I do bear the burden of the guiltbecause of the presence of that intention.

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So I could step upon it now and be nonethe worse for it, according to theprinciple of ahimsa. Since I am a guest,however, I of course respect the practiceand do not do this thing." With this, hemoved his sandal away from the insect,which stood immobile, reddish antennaepricked upward.

"Indeed, he is a scholar," said one ofthe Order of Ratri.

Aram smiled. "Thank you, but it isnot so," he stated. "I am only a humbleseeker of truth, and on occasion in thepast have I been privileged to overhearthe discourses of the learned. Would thatI might be so privileged again! If therewere some great teacher or scholar inthe vicinity, then I would most surely

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walk across a bed of hot coals to sit athis feet and to hear his words or observehis example. If—"

He stopped then, for all eyes hadsuddenly turned upon the doorway at hisback. He did not move his head, butreached out to crush a beetle that stoodnear his hand. The tip of a small crystaland two tiny wires protruded through thebroken chitin of its back.

Then he turned, his green eyesweeping across the row of monksseated between himself and thedoorway, and he looked upon Yama,who wore breeches, boots, shirt, sash,cloak and gloves all of red, and aboutwhose head was twisted a turban the

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color of blood."'If?'" said Yama. "You were saying

'if'? If some sage or some avatar of thegodhead resided in the vicinity, youshould like to make his acquaintance? Isthat what you were saying, stranger?"

The beggar rose from the table. Hebowed. "I am Aram," he stated, "afellow seeker and traveler with all whowish enlightenment."

Yama did not return the salute. "Whydo you spell your name backward, Lordof Illusion, when all your words andactions herald it before you?"

The beggar shrugged. "I do notunderstand what you say."

But the smile came again to his lips."I am one who seeks the Path and the

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Right," he added."I find that hard to believe, after

witnessing at least a thousand years ofyour treachery."

"You speak of the lifetime of gods.""Unfortunately, I do. You have made

a serious mistake, Mara.""What may that be?""You feel that you must be permitted

to leave here alive.""I admit that I anticipate doing so.""Not considering the numerous

accidents which might befall a lonetraveler in this wild region."

"I have been a lone traveler for manyyears. Accidents always happen to otherpeople."

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"You might believe that even if yourbody were destroyed here, your atmanwould be transferred remotely to anotherbody located elsewhere. I understandthat someone has deciphered my notes,and the trick is now possible."

The beggar's brows moved a quarterof an inch lower and closer together.

"You do not realize the forces whicheven now contain this building,defending against any such transfer."

The beggar stepped to the center ofthe room. "Yama," he stated, "you are afool if you think to match your punyfallen powers against those of theDreamer."

"Perhaps this is so. Lord Mara,"

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Yama replied, "but I have waited toolong for this opportunity to postpone itfurther. Remember my promise atKeenset? If you wish to continue yourchain of existence you will have to passthrough this, the only door to this room,which I bar. Nothing beyond this roomcan help you now."

Mara then raised his hands, and thefires were born.

Everything was flaming. Flamesleapt from the stone walls, the tables, therobes of the monks. Smoke billowed andcurled about the room. Yama stood inthe midst of a conflagration, but he didnot move.

"Is that the best you can do?" heasked. "Your flames are everywhere, but

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nothing burns."Mara clapped his hands and the

flames vanished.In their place, its swaying head held

at almost twice the height of a man, itssilver hood fanned, the mechobra drewinto its S-shaped strike position.

Yama ignored it, his shadowy gazereaching now like the probe of a darkinsect, boring into Mara's single eye.

The mechobra faded in mid-strike.Yama strode forward.

Mara fell back a pace.They stood thus for perhaps three

heartbeats, then Yama moved forwardtwo paces farther and Mara backedaway again. Perspiration blistered upon

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both their brows.The beggar now stood taller and his

hair was heavier; he was thicker aboutthe waist and broader across theshoulders. A certain grace, notpreviously apparent, accompanied allhis movements.

He fell back another step."Yes, Mara, there is a deathgod,"

said Yama between clenched teeth."Fallen or no, the real death dwells inmy eyes. You must meet them. When youreach the wall you can back no farther.Feel the strength go out of your limbs.Feel the coldness begin in your handsand your feet."

Mara's teeth bared in a snarl. Hisneck was as thick as a bull's. His biceps

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were as big about as a man's thighs. Hischest was a barrel of strength and hislegs were like great trees of the forest.

"Coldness?" he asked, extending hisarms. "I can break a giant with thesehands, Yama. What are you but abanished carrion god? Your frown mayclaim the aged and the infirm. Your eyesmay chill dumb animals and those of thelower classes of men. I stand as highabove you as a star above the ocean'sbottom."

Yama's red-gloved hands fell like apair of cobras upon his throat. "Then trythat strength which you so mock.Dreamer. You have taken on theappearance of power. Use it! Best me

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not with words!"His cheeks and forehead bloomed

scarlet as Yama's hands tightened uponhis throat. His eye seemed to leap, agreen search-light sweeping the world.

Mara fell to his knees. "Enough,Lord Yama!" he gasped. "Wouldst slaythyself?"

He changed. His features flowed, asthough he lay beneath restless waters.

Yama looked down upon his ownface, saw his own red hands plucking athis wrists.

"You grow desperate now, Mara, asthe life leaves you. But Yama is nochild, that he fears breaking the mirroryou have become. Try your last, or dielike a man, it is all the same in the end."

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But once more there was a flowingand a change.

This time Yama hesitated, breakinghis strength.

Her bronze hair fell upon his hands.Her pale eyes pleaded with him. Caughtabout her throat was a necklace of ivoryskulls, but slightly paler than her flesh.Her sari was the color of blood. Herhands rested upon his own, almostcaressing. . .

"Goddess!" he hissed."You would not slay Kali . . . ?

Durga . . . ?" she choked."Wrong again, Mara," he whispered.

"Did you not know that each man killsthe thing he loved?" and with this his

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hands twisted, and there was a sound ofbreaking bones.

"Tenfold be your damnation," hesaid, his eyes tightly closed. "Thereshall be no rebirth."

His hands came open then. A tall,nobly proportioned man lay upon thefloor at his feet, his head resting uponhis right shoulder.

His eye had finally closed.Yama turned the corpse with the toe

of his boot. "Build a pyre and burn thisbody," he said to the monks, not turningtoward them. "Spare none of the rites.One of the highest has died this day."

Then he removed his eyes from thiswork of his hands, turned upon his heeland left the room.

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That evening the lightnings fled

across the skies and the rain came downlike bullets from Heaven.

The four of them sat in the chamberin the high tower that rose from thenortheast corner of the monastery.

Yama paced the room, stopping atthe window each time he came to it.

The others sat watching him,listening.

"They suspect," he told them, "butthey do not know. They would notravage the monastery of a fellow god,displaying before men the division oftheir ranks—not unless they werecertain. They were not certain, so they

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investigated. This means that time is stillwith us."

They nodded."A Brahmin who renounced the

world to find his soul passed this way,suffered an accident, died here the realdeath. His body was burnt and his ashescast into the river that leads to the sea.This is what occurred. . . . Thewandering monks of the Enlightened Onewere visiting at the time. They moved onshortly after this occurrence. Who knowswhere they went?"

Tak stood as nearly erect as hecould.

"Lord Yama," he stated, "while itmay hold for a week, a month —possibly even longer—this story will

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come apart in the hands of the Master tojudge the first of any of those herepresent in this monastery who passwithin the Halls of Karma. Under thecircumstances, I believe some of themmay achieve early judgment for just thisreason. What then?"

Yama rolled a cigarette with careand precision. "It must be arranged thatwhat I said is what actually occurred."

"How can that be? When a man'sbrain is subject to karmic play-back, allthe events he has witnessed in his mostrecent cycle of life are laid out beforehis judge and the machine, like a scroll."

"That is correct," said Yama. "Andhave you. Tak of the Archives, never

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heard of a palimpsest—a scroll whichhas been used previously, cleaned, andthen used again?"

"Of course, but the mind is not ascroll."

"No?" Yama smiled. "Well, it wasyour simile to begin with, not mine.What's truth, anyway? Truth is what youmake it."

He lit his cigarette. "These monkshave witnessed a strange and terriblething," he continued. "They saw me takeon my Aspect and wield an Attribute.They saw Mara do the same—here, inthis monastery where we have revivedthe principle of ahimsa. They are awarethat a god may do such things withoutkarmic burden, but the shock was great

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and the impression vivid. And the finalburning is still to come. By the time ofthat burning, the tale I have told you mustbe true in their minds."

"How?" asked Ratri."This very night, this very hour," he

said, "while the image of the act flameswithin their consciousness and theirthoughts are troubled, the new truth willbe forged and nailed into place. . . .Sam, you have rested long enough. Thisthing is now yours to do. You mustpreach them a sermon. You must callforth within them those nobler sentimentsand higher qualities of spirit which makemen subject to divine meddling. Ratriand I will then combine our powers and

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a new truth will be born."Sam shifted and dropped his eyes. "I

don't know if I can do it. It's been solong. . ."

"Once a Buddha, always a Buddha,Sam. Dust off some of your old parables.You have about fifteen minutes."

Sam held out his hand. "Give mesome tobacco and a paper."

He accepted the package, rolledhimself a cigarette. "Light? . . . Thanks."

He drew in deeply, exhaled,coughed. "I'm tired of lying to them," hefinally said. "I guess that's what it reallyis."

"Lying?" asked Yama. "Who askedyou to lie about anything? Quote them theSermon on the Mount, if you want. Or

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something from the Popul Voh, or theIliad. I don't care what you say. Just stirthem a bit, soothe them a little. That's allI ask."

"Then what?""Then? Then I shall proceed to save

them—and us!"Sam nodded slowly. "When you put

it that way . . . but I'm a little out ofshape when it comes to this sort of thing.Sure, I'll find me a couple truths andthrow in a few pieties—but make ittwenty minutes."

"Twenty minutes, then. Andafterward we pack. Tomorrow we leavefor Khaipur."

"So soon?" asked Tak.

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Yama shook his head. "So late," hesaid.

The monks were seated upon the

floor of the refectory. The tables hadbeen moved back against the walls. Theinsects had vanished. Outside, the raincontinued to fall.

Great-Souled Sam, the EnlightenedOne, entered and seated himself beforethem.

Ratri came in dressed as a Buddhistnun, and veiled.

Yama and Ratri moved to the back ofthe room and settled to the floor.Somewhere, Tak too, was listening.

Sam sat with his eyes closed for

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several minutes, then said softly:"I have many names, and none of

them matter." He opened his eyesslightly then, but he did not move hishead. He looked upon nothing inparticular.

"Names are not important," he said."To speak is to name names, but to speakis not important. A thing happens oncethat has never happened before. Seeingit, a man looks upon reality. He cannottell others what he has seen. Others wishto know, however, so they question himsaying, 'What is it like, this thing youhave seen?' So he tries to tell them.Perhaps he has seen the very first fire inthe world. He tells them, 'It is red, like apoppy, but through it dance other colors.

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It has no form, like water, flowingeverywhere. It is warm, like the sun ofsummer, only warmer. It exists for a timeupon a piece of wood, and then thewood is gone, as though it were eaten,leaving behind that which is black andcan be sifted like sand. When the woodis gone, it too is gone.' Therefore, thehearers must think reality is like apoppy, like water, like the sun, like thatwhich eats and excretes. They think it islike to anything that they are told it islike by the man who has known it. Butthey have not looked upon fire. Theycannot really know it. They can onlyknow of it. But fire comes again into theworld, many times. More men look upon

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fire. After a time, fire is as common asgrass and clouds and the air theybreathe. They see that, while it is like apoppy, it is not a poppy, while it is likewater, it is not water, while it is like thesun, it is not the sun, and while it is likethat which eats and passes wastes, it isnot that which eats and passes wastes,but something different from each ofthese apart or all of these together. Sothey look upon this new thing and theymake a new word to call it. They call it'fire.'

"If they come upon one who still hasnot seen it and they speak to him of fire,he does not know what they mean. Sothey, in turn, fall back upon telling himwhat fire is like. As they do so, they

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know from their own experience thatwhat they are telling him is not the truth,but only a part of it. They know that thisman will never know reality from theirwords, though all the words in the worldare theirs to use. He must look upon thefire, smell of it, warm his hands by it,stare into its heart, or remain foreverignorant. Therefore, 'fire' does notmatter, 'earth' and 'air' and 'water' do notmatter. 'I' do not matter. No wordmatters. But man forgets reality andremembers words. The more words heremembers, the cleverer do his fellowsesteem him. He looks upon the greattransformations of the world, but he doesnot see them as they were seen when

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man looked upon reality for the firsttime. Their names come to his lips andhe smiles as he tastes them, thinking heknows them in the naming. The thing thathas never happened before is stillhappening. It is still a miracle. The greatburning blossom squats, flowing, uponthe limb of the world, excreting the ashof the world, and being none of thesethings I have named and at the same timeall of them, and this is reality—theNameless.

"Therefore, I charge you—forget thenames you bear, forget the words I speakas soon as they are uttered. Look, rather,upon the Nameless within yourselves,which arises as I address it. It hearkensnot to my words, but to the reality within

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me, of which it is part. This is theatman, which hears me rather than mywords. All else is unreal. To define is tolose. The essence of all things is theNameless. The Nameless is unknowable,mightier even than Brahma. Things pass,but the essence remains. You sit,therefore, in the midst of a dream.

"Essence dreams it a dream of form.Forms pass, but the essence remains,dreaming new dreams. Man names thesedreams and thinks to have captured theessence, not knowing that he invokes theunreal. These stones, these walls, thesebodies you see seated about you arepoppies and water and the sun. They arethe dreams of the Nameless. They are

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fire, if you like."Occasionally, there may come a

dreamer who is aware that he isdreaming. He may control something ofthe dream-stuff, bending it to his will, orhe may awaken into greater self-knowledge. If he chooses the path ofself-knowledge, his glory is great and heshall be for all ages like unto a star. If hechooses instead the way of the Tantras,combining Samsara and Nirvana,comprehending the world and continuingto live in it, this one is mighty amongdreamers. He may be mighty for good orfor ill, as we look upon him—thoughthese terms, too, are meaningless,outside of the namings of Samsara.

"To dwell within Samsara, however,

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is to be subject to the works of thosewho are mighty among dreamers. If theybe mighty for good, it is a golden time. Ifthey be mighty for ill, it is a time ofdarkness. The dream may turn tonightmare.

"It is written that to live is to suffer.This is so, say the sages, for man mustwork off his burden of Karma if he is toachieve enlightenment. For this reason,say the sages, what does it profit a manto struggle within a dream against thatwhich is his lot, which is the path hemust follow to attain liberation? In thelight of eternal values, say the sages, thesuffering is as nothing; in the terms ofSamsara, say the sages, it leads to that

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which is good. What justification, then,has a man to struggle against those whobe mighty for ill?"

He paused for a moment, raised hishead higher.

"This night the Lord of Illusionpassed among you—Mara, mighty amongdreamers—mighty for ill. He did comeupon another who may work with thestuff of dreams in a different way. Hedid meet with Dharma, who may expel adreamer from his dream. They didstruggle, and the Lord Mara is no more.Why did they struggle, deathgod againstillusionist? You say their ways areincomprehensible, being the ways ofgods. This is not the answer.

"The answer, the justification, is the

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same for men as it is for gods. Good orill, say the sages, mean nothing for theyare of Samsara. Agree with the sages,who have taught our people for as far asthe memory of man may reach. Agree,but consider also a thing of which thesages do not speak. This thing is 'beauty,'which is a word—but look behind theword and consider the Way of theNameless. And what is the way of theNameless? It is the Way of Dream. Andwhy does the Nameless dream? Thisthing is not known to any dweller withinSamsara. So ask, rather, what does theNameless dream?

"The Nameless, of which we are alla part, does dream form. And what is the

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highest attribute any form may possess?It is beauty. The Nameless, then, is anartist. The problem, therefore, is not oneof good or evil, but one of esthetics. Tostruggle against those who are mightyamong dreamers and are mighty for ill,or ugliness, is not to struggle for thatwhich the sages have taught us to bemeaningless in terms of Samsara orNirvana, but rather it is to struggle forthe symmetrical dreaming of a dream, interms of the rhythm and the point, thebalance and the antithesis which willmake it a thing of beauty. Of this, thesages say nothing. This truth is so simplethat they have obviously overlooked it.For this reason, I am bound by theesthetics of the situation to call it to your

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attention. To struggle against thedreamers who dream ugliness, be theymen or gods, cannot but be the will ofthe Nameless. This struggle will alsobear suffering, and so one's karmicburden will be lightened thereby, just asit would be by enduring the ugliness; butthis suffering is productive of a higherend in the light of the eternal values ofwhich the sages so often speak.

"Therefore, I say unto you, theesthetics of what you have witnessedthis evening were of a high order. Youmay ask me, then, 'How am I to knowthat which is beautiful and that which isugly, and be moved to act thereby?' Thisquestion, I say, you must answer for

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yourself. To do this, first forget what Ihave spoken, for I have said nothing.Dwell now upon the Nameless." Heraised his right hand and bowed hishead.

Yama stood, Ratri stood, Takappeared upon a table.

The four of them left together,knowing the machineries of Karma tohave been defeated for a time.

They walked through the jagged

brilliance of the morning, beneath theBridge of the Gods. Tall fronds, still wetwith the night's rain, glistened at thesides of the trail. The tops of trees andthe peaks of the distant mountainsrippled beyond the rising vapors. The

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day was cloudless. The faint breezes ofmorning still bore a trace of the night'scold. The clicking and buzzing andchirping of the jungle accompanied themonks as they walked. The monasteryfrom which they had departed was onlypartly visible above the upper reaches ofthe treetops; high in the air above it, atwisting line of smoke endorsed theheavens.

Ratri's servitors bore her litter in themidst of the moving party of monks,servants and her small guard ofwarriors. Sam and Yama walked nearthe head of the band. Silent overhead,Tak followed, passing among leaves andbranches, unseen.

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"The pyre still blazes," said Yama."Yes.""They burn the wanderer who

suffered a heart attack as he took his restamong them."

"This is true.""For a spur of the moment thing, you

came up with a fairly engaging sermon.""Thanks.""Do you really believe what you

preached?"Sam laughed. "I'm very gullible

when it comes to my own words. Ibelieve everything I say, though I knowI'm a liar."

Yama snorted. "The rod of Trimurtistill falls upon the backs of men. Nirriti

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stirs within his dark lair; he harasses theseaways of the south. Do you plan onspending another lifetime indulging inmetaphysics—to find new justificationfor opposing your enemies? Your talklast night sounded as if you havereverted to considering why again, ratherthan how."

"No," said Sam, "I just wanted to tryanother line on the audience. It isdifficult to stir rebellion among those towhom all things are good. There is noroom for evil in their minds, despite thefact that they suffer it constantly. Theslave upon the rack who knows that hewill be born again—perhaps as a fatmerchant — if he suffers willingly—hisoutlook is not the same as that of a man

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with but one life to live. He can bearanything, knowing that great as hispresent pain may be, his future pleasurewill rise higher. If such a one does notchoose to believe in good or evil,perhaps then beauty and ugliness can bemade to serve him as well. Only thenames have been changed."

"This, then, is the new, official partyline?" asked Yama.

"It is," said Sam.Yama's hand passed through an

invisible slit in his robe and emergedwith a dagger, which he raised in salute.

"To beauty," he said. "Down withugliness!"

A wave of silence passed across the

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jungle. All the life-sounds about themceased.

Yama raised one hand, returning thedagger to its hidden sheath with theother.

"Halt!" he cried out.He looked upward, squinting against

the sun, head cocked to his right."Off the trail! Into the brush!" he

called.They moved. Saffron-cloaked bodies

flashed from off the trail. Ratri's litterwas borne in among the trees. She nowstood at Yama's side.

"What is it?" she asked."Listen!"It came then, riding down the sky on

a blast of sound. It flashed above the

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peaks of the mountains, crossed over themonastery, whipping the smokes intoinvisibility. Explosions of soundtrumpeted its coming, and the air quakedas it cut its way through the wind and thelight.

It was a great-looped tau cross, a tailof fire streaming behind it.

"Destroyer come a-hunting," saidYama.

"Thunder chariot!" cried one of themercenaries, making a sign with hishand.

"Shiva passes," said a monk, eyeswide with fear. "The Destroyer . . ."

"Had I known at the time how well Iwrought," said Yama, "I might have

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numbered its days intentionally.Occasionally, do I regret my genius."

It passed beneath the Bridge of theGods, swung above the jungle, fell awayto the south. Its roar graduallydiminished as it departed in thatdirection. Then there was silence.

A bird made a brief piping noise.Another replied to it. Then all the soundsof life began again and the travelersreturned to their trail.

"He will be back," said Yama, andthis was true. Twice more that day didthey have to leave the trail as the thunderchariot passed above their heads. On thelast occasion, it circled the monastery,possibly observing the funeral ritesbeing conducted there. Then it crossed

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over the mountains and was gone.That night they made camp under the

stars, and on the second night they didthe same.

The third day brought them to theriver Deeva and the small port city ofKoona. It was there that they found thetransportation they wished, and they setforth that same evening, heading south bybark to where the Deeva joined with themighty Vedra, and then proceededonward to pass at last the wharves ofKhaipur, their destination.

As they flowed with the river, Samlistened to its sounds. He stood upon thedark deck, his hands resting on the rail.He stared out across the waters where

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the bright heavens rose and fell, starbending back upon star. It was then thatthe night addressed him in the voice ofRatri, from somewhere nearby.

"You have passed this way before,Tathagatha."

"Many times," he replied. "TheDeeva is a thing of beauty under thestars, in its rippling and its folding."

"Indeed.""We go now to Khaipur and the

Palace of Kama. What will you do whenwe arrive?"

"I will spend some time inmeditation, goddess."

"Upon what shall you meditate?""Upon my past lives and the mistakes

they each contained. I must review my

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own tactics as well as those of theenemy."

"Yama thinks the Golden Cloud tohave changed you."

"Perhaps it has.""He believes it to have softened you,

weakened you. You have always posedas a mystic, but now he believes youhave become one — to your ownundoing, to our undoing."

He shook his head, turned around.But he did not see her. Stood she thereinvisible, or had she withdrawn? Hespoke softly and without inflection:

"I shall tear these stars from out theheavens," he stated, "and hurl them in thefaces of the gods, if this be necessary. I

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shall blaspheme in every Templethroughout the land. I shall take lives asa fisherman takes fish, by the net, if thisbe necessary. I shall mount me again upto the Celestial City, though every stepbe a flame or a naked sword and the waybe guarded by tigers. One day will thegods look down from Heaven and seeme upon the stair, bringing them the giftthey fear most. That day will the newYuga begin.

"But first I must meditate for a time,"he finished.

He turned back again and stared outover the waters.

A shooting star burnt its way acrossthe heavens. The ship moved on. Thenight sighed about him.

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Sam stared ahead, remembering.