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Booklet Seri 13

Statu(e)s 2009-2012

Oleh: Phoenix

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Facebook hanyalah satu dari sekian banyak media sosial yang ada di dunia maya, walau memang termasuk yang paling sering dipakai juga. Ribuan kata-kata dan informasi, bahkan juga emosi, terecampur aduk dan mengalir deras dalam kubangan raksasa itu. Terkadang hanya kepuasan batin yang diburu oleh jutaan penggunanya, membuatnya

seperti tempat tumpahan segalanya, mulai dari curhatan remeh hingga pemikiran yang dalam. Well, tak bisa dipungkiri aku adalah salah satu dari orang-orang yang mengapung dalam sungai informasi deras itu. Ratusan kata dari yang tidak jelas hingga yang jelas aku bagikan di sana. Alangkah sayang bila semua kata itu hanya tenggelam

begitu saja dalam arus tak terbendung, maka melalui dua booklet, aku arsipkan dengan rapih semuanya.

Aturanku sendiri yang membatasi halaman booklet harus berada pada rentang 40-60 halaman lah yang menjadi alasanku membagi kumpulan status Facebook ini menjadi dua bagian booklet. Well, kerapihan adalah hal yang sangat penting untuk dijaga, seperti kata seorang kawan: “karya itu suci, jadi penempatannya gak boleh kayak

moral koruptor, tercecer-cecer”.

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Januari-Agustus 2009

is Confused

is study hard for national exam

is crazy

is study hard for the final exam

BLAST!!!!

Blajar, blajar, dan trus balajar>>....

....... Damn!!!!

I believe what i want to believe

Oh-uh-oh...

Grrr....

I cannot Lie.....

There is No Different.......

Ooohh Yeah!!!! Mission Accomplished!

Atra esterní ono thelduin, Mor'ranr lífa unin hjarta onr, Un du evarínya ono varda.

September 2009

Atra esterní ono thelduin, Un du evarínya ono varda. Hanya orang tertentu yang bisa mengerti........

If you love me, won't you let me know?

Look at the stars, look at they shine for you

I took my love down to Violet Hill. There we sat in snow. All that time she was silent still. So if you love me. Won't you let me know?.

This is wrong.....

Damn the Hell!!! What'z again now?!

Urgh,, my head! It hurtz

I think i like today,,, i think it'z good

Oh, Love, Don't let me go

grr,, aq slalu payah mslah cewek

Besok pesantren kilat.....siap-siap

Fyuh,, very tired. Let's get some rest

So, she's angry. I think i must leave her from now on....

Hari yang menyenangkan di pesantren

Ngantuk bgt....

Hoahhhmmm...*yawning*.... -_-

Mataku g'kuat lagi.....

Finally, it'z holiday!

Bosen.....

Close the door before it's late. We were born to love and hate. Turn it down for our own sake. We do no wrong........

You get us into thiz, so get us out of this, get us out....

But It's Not for me decide.....

It'z a number i can't see...

Khu khu khu khu,,,,

Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think....heh eh

I hope i can get well with her,,, hhh

Now my feet won't touch the ground...

Allahu akbar.. Allahu akbar

Ke purworejo sharian, fyuh,, melelahkan

FORget but not FORgive......

"Pada Pandangan pertama,,,, tidak ada yang tampak lebih jelas daripada bahwa segalanya memiliki awal dan akhir."

Ilmu pengetahuan itu semacam kemalasan yang sistematis

Dunia ini, dari waktu ke waktu makin berkurang kemustahilannya....

I lost my chance today,,,,Damn! I must can do it ASAP! ·

A friend, the only friend who whispers in your ear. Just to say good luck and that is all you need to hear

Oktober 2009

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Sgala sesuatu yg trjadi scra spontan hnya akan mngakibtkan trjadinya 'penyebaran'

Broken heart = Lost spirit = The foolest thing I ever heard....... Damn!!! I feel it

Yeah! Finally, Mission Accomplished!!!

what a dilemma...

gone........

We were born to LOVE,,,, and HATE

sgala sesuatu di khidupan nyata tdak bsa diukur dari teori, tpi hrus diukur dgn prcobaan

khidupan nyata tdk bsa dramalkan dri teori, tpi hrus diukur dgn percobaan

Forget, but not forgive....

I took my love down to violet hill. There we sat in snow. All that time she was silenced still. So if you love me, won't you let me know?

You've won.. Me over

Kembali pada kegilaan....hahahahaha

Atra gülai un ilian taught ono un atra ono waíse skölir frá rauthr

bhasa jwa lbih gmpang dri yg aq duga. Hahaha

Mmmmm...... Aneh

Beginning a new day with hurty heads...urgh

ndhlok dbat bhsa inggris, marai ngantug

bru plang jam sgini. . . huft, ksel tnan

tidaak!

war. . war. . warong, mega olite. . .

cinta sjati adalah mencintai drimu sndiri. . .

But It's not for me,, to decide.....

Who am I?

aaarggh!

akhirnya ada jga hsil mid yg bsa dibanggakan. . haha

It's something unpredictable. But In the end is right....... I hope you had the time of your life, , , ,

peraaaang!!!

When you try your best but you don't succeed.....

huft. . . kpalaq pnas, spanas sayap brung phoenix yg lg mrah

skrang aq benci angka 3, aq bnci angka 3, aq benci angka 3......!

when i see your eyes.... i can, see the flames is gone. . gone

penilitianq brlanjut. . .

it's a number i can't see. . .

Saatnya membayar Kesalahan.....

. . . and the black in my eyes, fades out

Now, attack! Flamin' Bird, Phoenix.... Burn them!!

November 2009

I'm not me!

You're no one. I connect a little in disguise. I reflect a little in your eyes.....

No Comment....

I know I shouldn't mope around, I shouldn't curse. But the pain feels so much worse

Confusing again, , ,

Apa yg trjadi jika matahari menda2k mnjadi black hole?

It'z enough!

People get down on ur knees for the crowd. .

Beetwen love ang logic.....

Love never need logic, Logic never accept love......

Damn! What a bad day i hav!

Logic.... never die

I know it's wrong, but when I see ur eyes, I can, see the flames, is gone, it's gone, gone

It's gettin' worse. . . Damn!

My name is "Pride".....

I'm gettin' bored with facebook......

No comment......

Imposibble is a thing,, ,

Hip hip, hore!

Belajar = menghilangkan pusing, dan skit kpala lainnya. . .

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Thinking........

Knapa smua orng pada mw nonton 2012, padahal msih 3 thun lgi? Hmmm

The rains stopped, pein must be bored with it

Nice mornin'. .

hahahaha.....

Feel...... the pain

You wake up, set ur distance a miles apart when u go. But I'm there, anyway

Phoenix....

Study, brain refreshing. . .

A bright future........

I've seen it, in the future, . . .a something, . . will change the world. . . .

Analysis, shyntesis,,, that's Logic...... never wrong

Pasti dnk, , ,

A wisdom, , ,

Nothing to say. . . .

Time goes so fast, , ,

Bored with it.......*sigh

Desember 2009

what if.......

I don't know which where I'm going, I don't know what I've become.........

I'm sorry......but, I can't do anything. This is the path I choose, and I think is the best way I can do

I have no belief,,,,,,,, but I believe I'm a walking contradiction, and got no rights

Nobody likes u, everyone left u, they're all out without u, havin' fun

The shit so deep I can't run away.....

It's contain us, It's control us.......

First thing first. . .

It's a final......

We, human, 'av 2 ears n' 1 mouth.....remember it

busy, busy, busy

It's a new day, but not a new world.........

Near end of thiz half year,,,,,, near to 2012, near to end

hmmm, hm, hmm? mmm, hm, hm ,hm, mm, hmmm?

I am None

Neutral......

Installing mind controlling device........10%......20%........30%...........

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Error 404. Data corrupted. Unable to access the main sector. Retried the progress.......5%.......10%.........15%...............

I'm bettter school than holiday like this.....nothing to do, bah! I'm bored

Holiday with some tasty experiments......

Holiday or Holy day?......

It's a number I can't see. . . .

What's the different between a strategist and a tactician?

Year 2010.....Hmm, 2 years more........

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2010

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Januari 2010

103 weeks more......

ha...ha.....hasyim! *sniff

*sigh......

01010000-01101000-01101111-01100101-01101110-01101001-01111001

Don't! I said don't do it!

Bzt, bzzz, bzztt, bzzzttttttt!

Khabisan ide status. . .

<yawning>....

Talk Less do more, but It's better do less think more.......

.......males ganti status........

Februari 2010

So if u love me, won't u let me know?

It's a number I really can't see, It's a complicated degree.....

.....wondering..... for the answer.....

....still....wondering.......the answer.......

Juzt wait n' see how'd the things happen

.....hurts.......

shining legacy, noble steel, fierce regalia, cerulian flux, furious roar, ancient covenant, tatau council, twin blades, endless travels, boundless amber, resonant horror, peaceful end.......Show ur strength!

Hope a peaceful end, , ,

As usual, It's Nothing but a resonant horror in an endless travels with the boundless amber

a fierce regalia......

Gara2 masalah cewek, sekolahq terlantar meneh.....wah,wah

Still. . .

Just gimme a chance, n' I'll try to 4give, , ,

If there's an unsolved mysteries in diz world, It's Al-Qur'an....

I'm nothing but an endless traveler in this live, in this world........

No, no, no! Please don't!!

Huft, a complex thoughts, ,

This world still just an unanswered question, an unsolved mysteries, a complicated complex thoughts.....We, humans, live here, in this world, to find the answer

Still. . . this world confusing me, its unanswered mysteries, its unseen truth, its reason to be exist.....why,,,,why

I must can! Whatever it cost, no matter the resistance, I'll take it! I'll reach it!

Eka fricai un Shur'tugal......

It's Nothing but a Resonant Horror.......

Maret 2010

Heh.... Looks like I must said it again, a thousand times...."Masya Allah Remaja!..."

Again, I must say "MaysaAllah Remaja!!".......

Your heavy heart....is made of stone. And it's so hard to see you clearly.... You don't have to be on your own

I don't know which way I'm going, I don't know what I've become, , ,

I've changed,,,,, since a years ago......

Damn! I'll never do it again!!!

Never emotion.....everything must be solved with clear head

low on spirit......

Janganlah kecewa jika dunia tdak mngenal kmu, tpi kecewalah klw kmu tdak mngenal dunia.......

See? That's why I decided to ignore her......

Fibonacci membunuhq....

Otakq kepenuhan angka....huft....mlah pusing wrong step.......

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But it's not for me to decide......

For you I wait.... till kingdom come, , till my day, my day is done.......

Questions of science don't speak as loud as my heart.....

You don't know how lovely you are.........

Masa muda, waktu luang dan harta merupakan hal-hal yang paling besar peranannya dalam merusak seseorang.......

1 orang yg berpergian adalah setan, 2 orang yg berpergian adalah setan, 3 orang yg berpergian adlah khafilah..

Emosi sama dengan nafsu.....

I'm just a man, not a hero, , ,

We'll never know what will happen untill we give it a shot.....

April 2010

Complex algorithm in this crucial circulation of space and time...... to its end

I swear.... I'll find it, no matter how crucial it is, , I must find the answer

Don't too believe the next day, DO it now....

Be true to urself,,, don't miss ur chance.....

Don't follow where the path may lead, , just go, make ur own path.....for ur future

Your head up. . .. Up above where you put your love out of reach...... But I'm there anyway

You wake up....set your distances miles apart, when you go, I'll be there, anyway.....

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you......

That's fine,,,, There's nothing wrong,,. . Forget what just I say, ok? (yang gag mrasa, jangan comment)

Kearifan hanya lahir dari kbenaran. . .

a "choice" is better than a "loop"......

Now it seems to me we can't be "free" from diz complex world. . .

I feels dying, , , urg, , ,

Damn, 1 more day I must stay at home, , , I'm bored, n I want to go to school, , to meet her. . .

Trying to understand. . . . . . . .

Learning is different than studying...... and Understand is different than know.....

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising whenever we fall.....

Oh-uh-oh

My one and the only love is just Allah SWT......followed by my parents and family..... and next, her.....

bingung mw bkin statz apa......

Mei 2010

I love trigonometry, except cos, , , hhaha

When the tears come streaming down ur face, , ,

Pemerintah Pelit!..... Grr

I won't.... . . . . leave

Libur seminggu, sabtu depan baru masuk tpi pulang cepet, mnggu depannya libur lagi,, wah, pahit tnan.....

Everyting's looks fine,,,, but . . . . . . .

What The....!

Sorry....... It's all my responsibility.......

I'm yours, , , oh my mighty God, Allah SWT, the ruler of the universe. . .

Nice day......:)

memeng gawe status,, , , ,

Megaminx completed. Next mission, gigaminx octaminx and pyraminx

I missed "something", or I should called it "someone"

Arep tuku pyraminx koq ra duwe duit y, wah, , , hrs ngmpulke sek ki

It's 20th...... I see, , , , ,

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It's something important to me...... It's her.......

I'm Phoenix, I am a hacker, and a rubick master......

Hbis ngotak-atik cmd, lhat sesuatu yg putih kyknya gag enak bgt

Forever.......

For a better future! Chaaaaaarge!!!!!

4give me. . .

Uang d.dompetq bgaikan limit rupiah mndkati 0 ni, jiand, bangkrut

kok aq ngelih yo

Prepare for war at 2nd June,,,,, brain war, with Logic

Juni 2010

ALIF, ba, ta, sya, ja, kha, , , , , , , haha

01000001-01001100-01001001-01000110.......

Melon or Strawberry? Hmmm

aq baru lhat ada cewek se-tega "dia"...... well....

My head's gonna burn......

piala dunia sma skali gag mnarik prhatianq

Ubuntu, Fedora, or Mandriva? Which one is the best Linux OS?

Habiskan waktu download linux Sabily ma Fedora, total hampir 1.5 GB,,,, waaa

Well, I don't know which one I should care.....

masih mncari tahu pnybab shutdown problem d.komputer, , kondisi yg jrng q tmukan, , , tpi slama datanya aman, kslamatanq jga aman, haha

Well,,,, I'm still on my way..... to a better future!

pusing sjak tdi ngutek2 template blog osis gag jadi2

web osis, persentasi DT, SE, dan Rohis.... ok, ok,,,, sepertinya aq akan sibuk

Kebanyakan maen warcraft.... pusiiing

Walah,,,, web osis kok aq dewe sing urus.....

Nice results at my Report Book.... haha.. IPA, I'm coming!

Looks like I missed someone..............

Facing a bright future!!!

Liburan harus dipergunakan dengan baik....... Belajar!!!

bdanq loro kabeh, , , tlah mncapai limit energi khidupnq, , ,

Juli 2010

sial... badanq sulit bergerak,,,,, loro tenan

Tugas tersisa: Makalah dan Persentasi C2 Ambalan (deadline 6 Juli), Persentasi SE (Deadline 12 Juli), Persentasi DT (Deadline 12 Juli), buat Web untuk MOS (deadline 12 Juli)

i'm with netherlands, , ,

Makalah C2 Ambalan Selesaaai!!!! Tinggal buat persentasinya.......

trjebak d.utara, , , kyknya snin bru bsa mlhat bantul lg ni

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.- -.. .. - -.-- .- / ..-. .. -. .. .- .-. . .-.. / .--. .... --- . -. .. -..- / .. ... / .- / .-. .--. --. / -- .- ... - . .-.

THC = (T + H + C) x T x H x C. ..... Jika T, H, dan C msing2 mwakili sebuah bilangan bulat.... Berapakah T, H dan C?

gawe persentasi abot tnan,,,, mw dibuka aja nunggu stngh jam....

males banget ganti status

Wah, kayaknya sie tugas paling sibuk dalam MOS ni, tiap detik periksa tugas,,,,,

Wewh, web mos sukses besar, pngunjung mencapai 2000 dalam 1 hari!! Hahaha

Weh, Lembuuuur

IPA 3, IPA 3, IPA 3, horeee!!!!!

brangkat jam 4, plang magrib, capek, laper, , nympe rumah, sial, jatuh, kaki kna knalpot, melepuh, bkannya

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nolong atw apa kakakq datang2 lngsung blang aq tolol, wah jiand, , , ya sudahlah. . . Mana aq hrus priksa tgas mneh ngnti jam 11, waaa

Baru pulang habis isya, fyuh, di sekolah udah tinggal aq,Muhammad Asad 'Abstrak', dan mas huda

Ngedit Web Rohis bentar.....

Weh, penyakit tremorq ternyata masih

Come to Ambalan's Fair 2010!! Tomorrow just at "Aula Bawah"SMAN 1 Bantul

Somethin's happen....... I'm really in bad mood

Untuk kedua kalinya dalam semester ini aq pulang sekolahhabis magrib.......

Tiap hari kerjaannya pulang magrib trus,,,,,,

Hari ini 4,5 jam melihat angka..... (Fisika+Matematika) Kepalaku terbakar

Di atas gurun sunyi, panas terik mentari, Langit bumi menjadi saksi perjuangan di jalan Ilahi Semua yang kau rasakan, darah yang kau cucurkan, Akan selalu ku kenang

Asemm. . . .pilek mnyrang mneh, , sak klas sntrap sntrup kabeh

sekarat. . . .T.T

I'm in an endless travel, this life

Untuk ke-5 kalinya dalam semester ini aq pulang sekolah hbis magrib.haha

Profile Picture-q apik... :D

Agustus 2010

ngantuk. . . =.= Tdur ah. .

I'm still on the way........ to my bright future!!

I'm a flamin' phoenix....... And I'll burn anything that resist my will to my dreaam!!!!! Chaaaaarge!!

3 hari izin trus, hahahaha...... paling tidak terbebas dari pikiran plajaran

"we will always be................"

2 hari yang lalu lomba, kmaren gerak jalan 17 km, hari ini ngawal pawai + makan bareng cah SE, besok bersih2 ambalan + ngeDOTA bareng SE (msih rencana), besoknya lagi pengajian + pelantikan ROHIS,,,, hahaha Senangnya masa SMA :D

Maaf untuk ambalan ratnaningsih, aq gak bisa bantu.... gak bisa pergi dari rumah

SIaaaaaalllll!!!!

I'm the true hero....... I'll get my dream, whatever it cost! whatever the resistance!

How long, before I get in, before it starts, before it begin.......

pusing. . .squint emoticon

*Growl............

weh, nganggur, bosen..........

A handbook of Wisdom...... I just read it :D

well..........

A willingness to change

fasting, not feasting

weh..... mendadak banget

pesta download, mumpung kecepatan.e tinggi :D

tarawih tercepat yang pernah kualami,,,, hahaha

I won't give up! There must be some other way...... I believe I can *The flamin' wings of phoenix burning up

Mengakhiri 10 hari pertama.....

Rugilah orang yang hanya mendapat lapar dan dahaga di setiap puasanya.......

Searching for the savior, searching for a hero....... Where? Still.........

Terus kita bela Islam hingga akhir masa,, perjuangan ini takkan pernah terhenti.........

..... Let's back to work

Kok do ra bosen ngupdate statz yo.... aq ket wingi bosen tnan bka fb......

Kok alumni do ngmpul neng skolahan yo.... buber paling

Weh.... nyebai tnan ki browser.....

Opo meneh iki?! Ket mw marai emosi trus.......

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September 2010

dengan rmahq yang lmayan jauh dri skolah plus banyaknya kegiatan, rasanya pingin pindah k.skolah aja,,,, jdi apa2 gampang

Phoenix on the fire!!!

Sekutu...... hmmm

Well...... Just with trust, I hope, I believe, I'm on the right way, do no wrong..... prepare the worst for the best, better future..... (thinking......urgh, My head overloaded, too much to think)

*sniff *sniff..... huaaachim!!! *sniff

lama-lama sakit tnan aq ki..... *sniff

wah.... makin parah aq ki..... *sniff

..........Download mania......

Joomla sedikit membingungkanq......

Well, well..... being white and clear......

Oh well,, again, that thought......

We can't get something without sacrificing the other (alchemy principle)

hmm, melakukan hal yang sama tiap tahunnya, tpi gak da yg berubah.... well,it's useless

ngancam bakar qur'an eh? what a spineless devil u r! Go on!

hey, isn't someone notice it? Idul fitri thun ini kurang berjaya.... so many things is different

Is it a "Real" victory for moslem? Is it "really" true that we were won against devil? Well, I doubt it..... it's not "real"

Sloth.... how dare you control over my body! (Wrath)

Full Metal Alchemist, tamatnya cepat tapi ceritanya hebat!!! The 10 Top Anime decade 2000-2009!

udah pada pergi.... akhirnya just with my grandma again, well

Finiarel........... the bright future!

haa.. ha... hasyim!!! *sniff

my experiment went out nowhere.....but I got the conclution:)

Untuk sementara waktu aq TERPAKSA mencintai Indonesia, haha..... ntar ganti hati mneh....

diantara males, pngen brontak, ma pengen mata2i......hmmm

brangkat gak ya? Sloth... damn!!

mata kiriq..... T.T

damn.........

Remember the 7 sins of human..... don't let them control you

jiaan.... joomla membuatku pusing, code editor.e mbingungi

Joomlaaaaa!!!!! Kenapa kau begitu aneh dan membingungkan

Ngene ki nek mengabaikan kata-kata.ne confucius, jadi confused

ngajak gelut tenan joomla ki.... apik tpi kok bermasalah ki, kwalikan.e wordpress

I'm out......

3 person that always inspired me with their words and minds..... Aristoteles, Al-Khuwarizmi, and Confucius........ I loved them aaallllll!

Time to sharpen my math logics..... Well, combinatorics, matrix, function, cryptography, algorithms, graph teory... &^%$#

Ternyata lelah pikiran tu lbih tidak enak dari lelah fisik...... otakq panas, kepalaq mendidih, mataq bagaikan magnet tak bisa terlepas dari rentetan tulisan bermakna tinggi... ..... dan sekarang omonganq mulai kacau

aq baru sadar klw wall-q bersih dari postingan orang lain.... hahaha.... cukup statusq saja yang nampang,

Gila game online-q kumat meneh ki......

"Sloth" mulai menyerangq ni.....wah

Abu Ja'far Muhammad Ibnu Musa Al-Khuwarizmi => my favourite logician

Essensi dari matematika adalah kebebasannya.... Math is Freedom!

Oh tidaak.... cerobohnya diriku, waton nghapus, mlah database web rohis ikut terhapus, jiaand..... harus kerja ulang ni, mana FTP-nya nyebai mneh

Entah apa orang skrang bisa bedain mna "sang pemimpi" mna "sang penidur"

Opo wae iso...

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Your skills are nothing with "pride"....

An expert or a professional?

I've changed up my mind.............

Don't call me Phoenix if I throw away my dream!

wah,,, sudah gak muncul dalam 1 thun terakhir, sekarang akhrnya muncul juga kau, jerawat

strong mind, weak physics.... Well, It needs a ballance

Urgh......

Oktober 2010

Time to apply Al-Khuwarizmi's theory........For our better future!!

Koleris, sanguinis, phlegmatis, atau melankolis?

Inspired again..... Keep going phoenix!

Damn my feet.........urgh

“Do not worry about your difficulties in mathematics; I can assure you that mine are still greater.”—Albert Einstein --- To Barbara Wilson, January 7, 1943. AEA 42-606.

“Where there is love, there is no imposition.” —Albert Einstein --- Quoted in Sayen, Einstein in America, 294.

I don't know which way I'm going.... I don't know what I've become....I

aq lbih suka angka-angka memenuhi pkirnq dripada sprti ini....wah

perutq...... gak ada makanan.......urrg......lapaaar........tak tertahankan.....

Memplajarai kompleksitas ruang memori dan waktu algoritma mmbuatku berfikir akan kompleksitas ruang dan waktu di jagat raya...... teori persebaran .........membuatku merindiing..... bgtu bsar dan kompleks ciptaanMu Ya Allah

ngerjain soal d.temani mozart dri soundtrack suikoden, , , mmprtenang hti, mnunjang krja otak :) , rasanya soal fisika jdi sprti plajaran sd bgiq

pkirkan..... trnyata dunia ini smakin lama smakin berkurang "kemustahilannya".....

Dunia ini gak sbesar Indonesia oy,,,, kmbangkan cita-citamu seluas dunia yg sbnarnya....

weh.... aq memang gak pandai ilmu sosial.....urgh ok, pling tidak teori bilangan adalah spesialisasiq......

Damn it..... Research more.....

I'm researching Judaism religion now..... (pdhal bsok mid....)

“I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious.”—Albert Einstein --- To Carl Seelig – March 11,1952. AEA 39-013

There is no happiness,, , , , , ,

Bahasa Jawa...... *&^%%$#^

Seminar STUDYING ABROAD FOR BETTER FUTURE!! Ayo ikut!! Untuk masa depan kita semua! 24 Oktober di UGM....!

I won't! That's juzt a foolish human emotion, it's nothing!

Jika semua itu menyebar (teori penybaran energi / entropi).... maka bgaimana jika yg terkumpul itu habis?

Keep my brain working...... Logic never die!

The flame of phoenix, the rage of its fire, the flame of my dream, never die!

Q: Two cats are on a roof. Which slides off first? A: The one with the smaller mew (Greek letter mu - "μ").

If it wasn't for Thomas Alva Edison, we'd all be watching TV to the light of a candle.

Sejak kmren dpet e-mail dri orng luar negri mnta bntuan trus..... Gmana aq bsa bantu seorang yatim piatu di Bosnia yg ortunya meninggal krna perang??? dan drimana mereka bisa mngtahui e-mailq?? aneh-aneh aja,

Gravity is a law. Lawbreakers will be brought down!

...........ivory coast? USD$6,500,000.00?? Gila! knp aq bsa mnerima email sperti ini,,,,, Bingung, bingung...

Astagfirullah... buku-buku membuatku lupa shalat dzuhur!! Tidaaak! Efek samping seorang kutu buku....

Otakq..... pusing..... kbanyakan mikir.....mulai dari alam, sejarah, politik, hingga agama..... spertinya aq hrus berhenti mmbaca smua buku utk smntara wktu......refreshing skik....

Jiand..... mumet squint emoticon ... turu wae ah

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01001101-01011001-01001110-01000001-01001101-01000101-01001001-01010100-01010000-01001000-01001111-01000101-01001110-01001001-01010110

01001101-01010101-01001101-01000101-01010100!!!....T.T

mumet mneh T.T Knp tiap kali aq bca bku klamaan lngsng mumet. . .

kau mw mmbunuhq ya??

It is disconcerting to reflect on the number of students we have flunked in chemistry for not knowing what we later found to be untrue. – Quoted in Robert L. Weber, Science With a Smile (1992)

dunia d.kndalikn n d.hncurkn olh politik, jiand

entah apa yg diblang einstein tu bner atw gak: - “Where there is love, there is no imposition.”—Albert Einstein --- Quoted in Sayen, Einstein in America, 294. - “Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.”—Albert Einstein --- To Fred Wall, 1933. AEA 31-845

feelings vs logic, heart vs mind, emotion vs math....?

Foto profilq mengingatkanq pada Sumbawa,,,,,, hmm

Berangkat dari rumah jam 6, sampe rumah jam 6 juga.... itulah masa SMA ^^

Philosophy meaning of Phoenix

Such a Foolishness.......

Sudah banyak yang berubah pada diriku smenjak "hijrah"q ke Bantul.......

.....sedang mencoba membuat sebuah "timeline" mengenai perkembangan ilmu pengetahun untuk mempermudah penelitian

Lihatlah perkembangan ilmu pengetahuan seiring dengan semakin kompleksnya ilmu politik yang mengakibatkan konflik dimana2

Keep my brain working...... Bzzt....bzzt...zzt........

...................................

Untuk sementara malam ini pnelitianq dihentikan aja,,, udah gak kuat aq T.T

Ketemu artikel mnarik, pusing.e d.tahan skik.......

Hmmm.... rumit

Ngantuk

Rimba!!! Raya!!!

Kompleksitas dunia mmbuatku pusing.....

Foto Profilq apik :D

Tangan dan mulutq takkan q buat tuk mnyakiti siapapun, aq udu wong atos, hha

Keep my eyes sees through the future!

what the heck is happened to my body???

Teman-teman, pengumuman, untuk pertama kalinya dalam sejarah, besok saya bakal telat

Lelah pikiran lebih melelahkan dibanding lelah fisik.......... Pusing..squint emoticon

Pulang magrib, gerimis, ngejer shalat, agak ngebut, jalan gelap,,,,, mlah tabrakan.... sial trus aq sjak kmaren T.T

Simpangan rata-rata, ragam/varians, deviasi standar, ogive, desil..... aaaargh, Satu2nya cabang yg pling gak q suka di matematika hanyalah STATISTIKA

Mengingat masa lalu aq brcrita mngenai cita-citaku, trnyata smpe skarang aq masih di jalan yg sama, gak melenceng, tetap menuju 1 cita-cita.... Go!!

.. .----. -- / .--. .... --- . -. .. -..- / .- -. -.. / .. / .-- --- -. .----. - / --. .. ...- . / ..- .--. !

Bersama kita bisa!

pulang isya mneh.... Ha...ha.... hasyim! *sniff

Gak enak bgt dihafal ma guru2..... . stres aq

wah mumet, bnyak kerjaan trus........

we need a strategy......

alhamdulillah... hujannya baru turun setelah aq sampe' rumah.... gak perlu khujanan

Untuk prtama kalinya aq mrasakan pulang jam 12, senangnya :)

P. ***** MARMOS!!!

Complex

Unstable mind, too much thought, , , what a complexity.............. squint emoticon

"Homunculus: Why did you not become mine God!? God: Because you did not believe in me." — Hiromu Arakawa (Fullmetal Alchemist)

"Humans are so foolish, pity creature" - Homunculus (Fullmetal Alchemist)

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beware of "Subliminal images".... it's around you "But even so, we're not devils, let alone gods. We're human. We're human!" Hiromu arakawa (Mystery of Fullmetal Alchemist)

November 2010

"Enduring and forgiving are two different things. You must not forgive the cruelty of this world. It's our duty as human beings to be angry at injustice. But we must also endure it. Because someone must sever this chain of hatred." — Hiromu Arakawa (Fullmetal Alchemist, Volume 18)

They control us...... wake up now!!

Q33NY........

msh kurang bnyak, , intensitas blajar hrus dperbnyak

"I'm the original homunculus. My name is 'Pride'."

It's complexity more attacking my mind........ too much unanswered question

back to study.......... I'll research it more later

stlah brtanding 2 jam, brhasil mmukul 38 kali, mnendang 25 kali dan mmbnting 8 kali, namun kna pkulan tlak 5 kali, tndangan 6 kali dan d.banting 19 kali, , kalah telak T.T

cryptograph..... interesting, let's study more about it

It's an EYE...........

Enigma, a mystery....

Mystery.... urgh.....

hari kamis memang memuaskan.... haha

again, it's a conspiracy.....

I see.... it's not the end of time, but the beginning of the end..........

sempat-sempatnya aq plajari polustat relativitas einstein saat mau lomba LBB PPI,,,... Penasaran.....

e pluribus unum...... in God we trust, eh? It's still a conspiracy, as well as it's a mistery

It reminds me about something.....

well..... research begins......

Ego Phoenicis ambitionis meus ignis non morietur!!!!

oh conspiracy.... you make me more and more confused

Allah tantum speramus et credimus

well, now all of it become more complex,,,,, I don't know how I should think about this..... I hope all this research can conduct one right conclusion

Quo successu Quantum theory habet, spectat ineptius

principio adpropinquavit finis, facite ut quam primum

sampe rumah selamat, wlwpun hampir tersesat dan terjebak gelap

why I hav this feeling?

can't think clearly, urf

Now I've got some conclusion about multiple intelligence theory...... Einstein really inspires me

need some rest..... my head can't hold it anymore

I studied as long as I living in this complex world

mind vs heart..... logic vs emotion

again, this feeling.......

the law of equivalent exchange in Alchemy....."To gain something, you must sacrifice something with equal value" It's same as Antoine Lavoisier's law of conservation mass. Well......

it's time to hunting and research

suus oculus determinationis.................. spes pertingendi

well, I must admit now I'm a conspiracy theorist

oh damn.... now I'm stucked in the middle of life intersection

melihat lemariq,,,,, skrang aq sdar btapa numpuknya buku yg menantiq utk dibaca Oh sial, seandainya aq bbas dari sekolah, aq sdah mngurung diri d.kamar sndirian utk mmbaca smua buku-buku itu

Well, well.... human always just a foolish creature, as homunculus said........ They never understand it, , , , , ,

They're coward! spineless worm! dirty pigs! Pug-nose shrimp! The unforgivable human I ever know along history in this world!!!!!!

Non est alius deus absque ALLAH!!

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Now with Eye of Determination, we'll destroy that brat "Eye of Providence"

think. . . . .

Damn clever that "brat"

Ternyata aq memang harus jadi sejarawan.......terlalu bnyak misteri yg hrus q ungkap sendiri dalam sejarah

Trnyata sistem bahasa latin rumit banget,,,,, upset emoticon

wah, aq bru tau 18 November ada hari filsafat sedunia....

Looks like Aristotle's principle is right...... Dr. Howard Gardner theory about multiple intelligence is wrong

oh well, sekarang aq bnar-bnar pngin polustat ke-2 Einstein berlaku..... krna memang "Demi WAKTU, sesungguhnya manusia itu benar-benar berada dalam kerugian"

“Why is it that nobody understands me, yet everybody likes me?”

My life is really like a race, , , , , I don't even can think what's behind and what's in the front

I don't know which way I've come, I don't know what I've become....... But I know which way I'm going...............

Well, galileo, I hope Allah make you happy in the heaven for what you did to us :D, even you're not a moslem,,,, I'm impressed

I'm a little losing "something" this night.....

I'm waiting for you..........

Lapaaar upset emoticon Tpi berat juga rasanya untuk meninggalkan layar komputer

Now...... let's think........................(concentration)

Once Finiarel, I'll be a "Finiarel"...... I'll prove it!!!!

Finding for hope, searching for hero........ (Suikoden III ST)

kali ini kepalaku benar-benar panas....

We just have 2 choice in life, Win or Win!

arg, why I'm feeling something like this, , , my head's gonna explode with all these complex n complicated things, urgh

it's why status quo must be changed radically

I'm impressed...... :D

Sial tenan ni mati listrik bru nyala sekarang, ra iso garap tugas ki, mah wis ngantuk squint emoticon

think.... or study?

Scientia nihil sine mente.......

Desember 2010

Ra betah sinau aq. . .

well, it seems I should make a list.... too much things I MUST know and learn..... This world is complex

Damn.... now it became more complicated......

Well..... let's back to study.....

........understand, understand, understand..............!

bener-bener gak niat blajar sejarah aq squint emoticon

flamma perennis determinatio

daripada blajar bhsa jawa mnding blajar bhsa arab aja sekarang......besok pasrah wae

Credo Poterimus......cum virtute Allah!

Ulangan kali ini lebih lancar d.bandingkan sbelumnya..... fisika tdak akan menghalangiku :D Namun besok............................... squint emoticon

SCIENTIA POTESTAS!!!!

Well, I hope my sister can pass the test..... ^^

Cukup puas malam mingguan di toko buku...... :D

Buku-buku smakin menumpuk menunggu untk dibaca.... habis UUB lngsung pesta :D

Spero......spero intellegas......spero affectus capias.....

Noli sollicitari, semper nobíscum Allah :)

Seandainya aq pnya uang, satu2nya hal yg pling ingin ku beli adlah setumpuk buku science religion...... gak ada harta lain yg lbih brharga bagiku kcuali ilmu

Credo in te, Allah. Nos bello viver

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Power of Science is the power from Allah SWT........

dari muslim menuju mukmin, dari mukmin menuju muttaqin.........

Memahami lingkunganku dngn ideologi berbeda sama sja dgn memutar balikkan pmikiranku..... tpi aq gak akn menyerah..........

Seeking for justice, waiting for hope, searching for hero........

It's science and religion........

Gratias omnia, ***** :)

baca buku Perang Salib dgn tebal 808 halaman, seperti baca bku Eragon,,, tapi ini kisah nyata!

سكينيف انأ

I will show you something different..... I will only stop you drifting so far.........

You wake up, set your distances miles apart..... When you go, I'll be there,, anyway

Aditya bin Muhammad Ihsan bin Abdul Majid bin Muhammad Zain bin Darius al-ʿAnqāʾ

Dengan senyummu, senjata membeku, tentara bernyanyi, ikuti tingkahmu.....:)

Study biology or Islamic History of Crusade War? Well...............

Dengan senyummu, langit terpeluk, bintang bertekuk, ku butuh kau sentuh..... Tak ada lagi yang kutakuti, ku terlindungi, dengan senyumanmu..... :)

Even most people think that science and religion can't be combined and it's totally different...... but I believe there's a connection between it.......

tumben aq seharian nang ngarep komputer ra mumet..... Alhamdulillah,, energi mata dan otakku msih ada utk blajar buat bsok

When space and time fusing in your head, realize it complexity......

“Why is it that nobody understands me, yet everybody likes me?”

Your head up...... Up above where you put your love out of reach But I'll be there, anyway :)

Ulangan berakhir, sekolah tinggalkan, pnelitian kembali dilakukan, kepala pusing dilanjutkan, hingga semua ilmu benar2 kudapatkan, dari agama hingga pengetahuan..... Long live education!

we're different..... different.............. upset emoticon

I'm glad I've done it......... it's tough

There's no justice in this world, there never was........

Shining Legacy, Noble Steel, Fierce Regalia, Cerulian Flux, Furious Roar, Twin Blades, Tatau Council, Ancient Covenant, Endless Travels, Boundless Amber, Resonant Horror, and finally, a Peaceful End

Inilah rasanya kalau emosi mulai menghancurkan pikiran logika dan rasionalq..... Tunggu pembalasaku wahai "Emosi"!

little disappointed, but it's the beginning of my struggle

Smakin hari badanku semakin gak enak,,,, cpat atau lambat, aq akan sakit

it hurts. . .

Hasbunallah wanikmal wakil. . . Ckuplah Allah yg mnymbuhkanq. . .

you makes me better

Mrasa baikan sedikit, cari kesempatan didpan komputer.... Betapa rindunya aq dngan layar monitor........

Kalau ada yg pnya prinsip "Be Yourself", brarti dia brusaha jadi dirinya yang statis tnpa ada perubahan......Msa' mau brtahan dgn pmikiran yg sama trus smpe tua, , , Jadi mungkin harus sdikit di ubah "Be your growing self"

Aneh-aneh, Zainuddin bener jadi Zinedine, kok Fahruddin jadi Faraday.....

but.... it hurts

Baru kali ini gak ada yg dapat mnghiburku, wah.....

I hate "Red Shield".... they're coward, spineless snail, heartless worm, pitiful pig,,,, damn they are!

Kembali kangen dengan kosmologi

Empty-hearted........

Empty-minded........

Again, , It hurts. . . .

Nobody will ever can understand me. . . . No one

I must try to control it..... it's too far

So, that's it......

Dari 17 ke 2, eh? It's strange

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You can hate me if you want, , , you won't need me though

This research must be done before holiday ends..... be focus phoenix!

"do you think you deserve your freedom? No, I don't think you do"

You won't need me.......

Forget it......

"we were born to love and hate" eh? It's just foolish human emotion.... be rational

I'm sorry..... but I have no other choice....

Now, now.... what happened to my life, , , , squint emoticon

"Even if things didn't turn out the way you wanted them to, you simply have to accept them and move on. Understand?"

Controlling self is the damn most difficult things a person can do in his life...... --Aditya-Finiarel Phoenix-- an endless travelers

The emotions of humans, including sad, panic, and happy, never make our minds clear, real and rational. -- Aditya-Finiarel Phoenix -- The seeker of justice

Damn hurt y'dummy.....arrgh, my lef' eye!

Let our mercy as deep as the Feitas and our authority as powerful as the Sun be revealed to the entire World!

Complex....crucial circulation of space and time..... to its end......to its destruction......

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come Until my day, my day is done

4get 'bout it y'dummy....we hav sumthin' more important here

this damn left hurtin' eye.... get better soon y'little!

Questions of science... science and progress.... don't speak as loud as my heart

oh well..... people 'round here still didn't realize it, huh?

Sepertinya aq memang selalu diiringi kesendirian dalam hidupq..... well, but I'm fine with it, to be alone

There is no happiness, there is no sadness, in my life..... I'm neutral with my crucial logic

dengarkanlah, jika tidak lidah akan membuat kita tuli gasp emoticon

jadilah selalu versi kelas satu dari diri sendiri daripada versi kelas dua dari seorang yang lain

It's you who control your mind, not controlled by mind......... (Aditya-Finiarel Phoenix -- Seeker of Justice)

A justice lies beyond the heart and mind of people who have well-controlled balance of feelings and logic (Aditya-Finiarel Phoenix -- Seeker of Justice)

Trperangkap pmikiran yg tak trjawab. . . . There are so many unanswered question in this complex world, aren't there?

Para ilmuwan paling mudah dalam menjawab prntanyaan "bagaimana", namun mereka paling silit dalam menjawab pertanyaan "mengapa"....... Karena pertanyaan "mengapa" hanya dimiliki para filsafat.... (well, maybe it's me)

filsafat waktu bnar2 membunuh akal sehatku......

to be a man thinker........

That's why I choose u. . . .

hah.... akhirnya password fbq jadi 25 digit, proteksi menggila..... jika ada yg bisa menghafal passwordq selain aq sendiri, aq beri tepuk tangan

well, internet is source of emotions..... I'm not surprised if someone can summons demons from internet.....

Sekarang aq mengerti knp sebagian besar filsafat tidak beragama......

kadang-kadang rasa nasionalisme membuat perpecahan di agama.... sperti saat kau ditanya mana yg kamu pilih agamamu atw negaramu, itulah yg terjadi antara malaysia dan indonesia sekarang ini, ingatlah bahwa malaysia adalah negara mayoritas muslim.....

ck ck ck..... aq gak bisa mmbenci malaysia krena mreka mayoritas muslim.... toh aq gak peduli pada apapun yg terjadi pada indonesia selama islam tidak terancam

Waktu brakhr ktika tngkat entropi energi alam smesta mncpai titik maksimum, well, , , entah kpan itu trjadi

I'll wait for it.... I swear in the wing of flaming phoenix

I promise.... I'll wait, 'till my days are done

seeing through the future... and in the end, we lie awake and we dream to making our escape.... escaping through this cruel world

aku siap untuk lupakan mimpi ego mudaku.....

strange....what's happened to me?

unstable heart..... damn, I'm trying to control it

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semoga cepat kau lupakan aq...... Heart-defense forces......

it looks like a dream..... so, it's really true

When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse?

You and me are floating on a tidal wave… together

Klw prediksiq bnar, ntar mlam psti trjadi krusuhan. . . . Aq ykin moral Indonesia tdak lbh baik dri mlaysia. . . . . .

I don't care football.... all I care just science and religion

janganlah bola membuatmu lupa ke masjid utk shalat isya....!!

Itulah akibat pnontnnya mlpakn shalat isya. . .

For you I'll wait, 'till kingdom come......

"God not only plays dice, He also sometimes throws the dice where they cannot be seen." (Stephen Hawking)..... U're genius prof. hawking, but I hate u, because u blame the power of science to become an atheist....... U never know who God it is

Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part, no one ever said it would be this hard.....

it's 1 year more, the end of venus' transit period, and solar storm at maximum energy will be occurred......

Why I'm feeling like this, I hate it

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2011

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Januari 2011

The Theory of Everything, is that really exist? Prof. Hawking sometimes can be insane in his genius

So, this is the fate, , , it hurts frown emoticon

venus' transit period is going to end.... let's see what will happen in the sun after it

My heart is combined with my twisted logic....

What's this feeling. . . .

I'm glad I can't crying. . .

better now........

it's not an empty-handed this holiday.... :D

When scientist fall in love. . . .

Back to my real self again.... :D

now I understand the difference between "believer" and "thinker"...... I'm better be a thinker in science but a believer in religion :D

"My goal is simple. It is a complete understanding of the universe, why it is as it is and why it exists at all." (Stephen W. Hawking) Kenapa kata2nya Prof. Hawking persis dgn alasanku mmpelajari ilmu fisika ya....

You must pay 4 ur crimes against the earth! You will beg 4 their lives n their souls! N you will burn! You will burn in hell!

Again, when scientist fall in love. . . .

So if u love me, won't u let me know. . . .

Give me ur heart n ur soul. . . . .

Lagi sibuk mikir, tiba-tiba gak enak badan..... apa brhbungan ya pikiran ma fisik? Tpi urgh.... aq gak bisa mikir lagi squint emoticon

It's the end..... After all this problem solved.... I'll be back to my real self again, as a logician and thinker.......

Swim out on a sea of faces, The tide of the human races, An answer now is what I need. See it in a new sun rising See it break on your horizon Oh, come on love, stay with me...

I'm not feeling well today, , ,

Ya Allah, kpan smua pnderitaan ini brakhir?

No one's care. . . .

Ketika seseorang hidup, dia berkembang, tumbuh, blajar banyak hal, mlai mencari jati diri, tjuan hidup, dan selanjutnya mencari nafkah, menikah, mempunyai anak dan membesarkannya, tua, dan kemudian meninggal...... Siklus yg gak ada hentinya hingga entropi alam semesta mencapai maksimum...... Pasti ada hal lain dibalik siklus itu.................

Kenapa orang lain gak punya namanya "kebutuhan berfikir" dalam jiwanya? Aq gak bisa hidup klw "kebutuhan berfikir"q gak terpenuhi......

habis ngobrol panjang dengan Taufiqurrochman Jogja danIkhwan Catur Rahmawan di lab multi smpe' gak ada orang di sekolah....... :D Visi yang gila, tpi semoga sukses!

hermetic order of the golden dawn, hermetic order of luxor, hermetic order of lights, order of rose croix, order of red cross, order of templar knights, teutonic knights, hospitaller knights.....bla, bla, bla....... memplajari sejarah sebenarnya bisa memutar balikkan pikiran logikaq

Wah, otakq bolak-balik, dari komputer ke sains, skarang balik lgi ke komputer.....

Terdampar tnpa jalan kluar d.tngah htan rimba. . . Kita anak wanabakti!

Wanabakti gave me an Unforgottable experience, The most incredible adventure I ever had! I want it again :D

Itulah rasanya adventure golek jalan dewe,....... :D

well, well..... now I hav "happiness".... and d'y'know? it's better :)

Logics, u're d' true art of science. . .

otakq mondar-mandir..... mlah bngung mw fokus ke yang mana

gmana ya caranya biar otakq fokus di satu t4 pling tidak utk 1 bulan?

Would u be. . .?

tanyalah kpada stiap orang tjuan hidup mreka..... maka sebagian bsar dari mereka tidak mampu mnjawabnya................

Percayalah.... Logika murni tidak akan menipumu, tidak seperti hati dan emosi.

give me a chance.... and I'll try to forgive

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complex, complex, complex.... soooo complex! All this complexity made me CRAZY!!!! Damn! my head......... ouch

I'm barely have emotions in my heart, , , but. . .

it's a promise.....

Periode pembuatan statusq jadi agak jarang..... Gara-gara pulsa habis.... haha

The worst problem a human ever had is "final destination".....

It's a waking dream......

"I won't believe that brawn defeats brains" -- Shu, Jownston Army strategist, Dunan Unification war Suikoden II --

"Fear is stupid emotion" -- Luca Blight, King of Highland Kingdom, Suikoden II --

Brains will defeat brawns......

semoga pemikiran2ku slama ini tetap brada pada jalur yang benar..... Penelitianq takkan sia2....

statzu ktok ra yo? .....

give me ur heart and ur soul........

Aku mulai membuat berbagai hipotesis-hipotesis gila.... apa aq mulai menjadi atheist? Semoga semua penelitianku selama ini tetep dituntun Allah di jalan yang di-ridhai-Nya..... smua teori yang aq tahu harus q seimbangkan dengan ilmu agama lebih banyak.... Berjuanglah Phoenix!

intelektual tnpa spiritual dpt mmbunuh moral suatu individual

Belum lama ini terjadi suatu "ledakan" artikel-artikel dan buku-buku dalam filsafat agama Anglo-Saxon tentang eksistensi dan kodrat Allah.....hmmm

Akan ku ukir satu kisah tentang kita ......... Dimana baik dan buruk terangkum oleh indah ..... :)

Just say you'll wait, you'll wait 4 me......

Gratias omnia...... :) Te amo

If we really don't have any power against it.... then what the reason of our life?? There must be a way... They just a bunch of spineless worm

We're not powerles!!!!!!!!

Siapapun yg pernah atau sedang marah, benci, jengkel, emosi ma aq,,,,, aq tetap mnganggap kalian temanq :D inilah manfaat tlah bersihnya hatiku dari emosi

The governments of the world and the royal elite are not here to take care of you. They are here to kill you. They are not unwittingly trying to kill you. They are deliberately trying to kill you. They are deliberately trying to kill you, but for a reason that eludes even them.......

We are naive children being hammered with a hefty dose of reverse psychology. By threatening to take away our rights, our physical health, our material wealth and our spiritual freedom, we react and scream bloody murder. No way can you do this to me … to us!

I'm with science

It's time for us to make a move! As I said before, we're not powerless!!!!!

My research keep going.... I hope I can conclude something from all this hypothesis...... I won't give up

Saatnya ku tinggalkan masa remajaku.... aq gak butuh apa2 yg dibutuhkan remaja. Dan q hancurkan semua ideologi yg berkaitan dengan remaja dalm tubuhq......

My brains is science, my heart is religion...... Science and religion.... fused to become a perfectibility....

how can we win.... when FOOLS can be king??

Perfectibility, the fusion of science and religion....... is that exist? If yes, I'll take it, no matter what the resistance.........

If u don't need me, just say it.....

my heart and mind.... aren't feeling well frown emoticon

Menjadi bingung akan pilihan yang haris aq ambil, apa yng hrus ku utamakan......

Ini namanya melacak tempat yang belum pernah kita tahu dan datangi hanya dengan peta......... susah juga

That's why I like u.... :D oh damn..... why my parents become like this...... Butuh metode pendekatan yang bener ni.....

Kebijaksanaan takkan muncul jika emosi msih dalm diri seseorang.... dan insyaAllah.. now I don't hav any emotions, I won't feel anything, I won't happy either sad...... And that wisdom, I'll take it

But....... for "her".... My heart..........

am i really needed?

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I'm worried.... frown emoticon seek ur own wisdom, lad.... I just can guide u to reach it.........

Februari 2011

Pemikiran2ku yang mngkin mnurut orang aneh kadang2 mnyiksaku jga..... Aku ingin berhenti berfikir, tpi syangnya ini sbuah kbutuhan.......

Wah,,,, twitter trnyata apik jg, haha

well..... Thanks to u, my mind is better now :) complexity comhng back to my mind, again

Well..... stelah bbrapa lama tidak "istirahat", akhirnya kompleksitas-kompleksitas itu kmbali mmbayangi pikiranku.... oh damn

Seeing through the horizon.... keep seeking for justice......

No one's gonna take me alive......

My Dad : "Don't be such an idealist, lad...."

Sudah kuduga.... pulang2 kena ambek kr sister....

You give me an inspiration dear.... :D

For her, I leave a few of my emotions behind...... just a few

waduh.... akeh gawean ki

Swimming the sea faces, tides of human races, The answer now is what I need.....

you're the target that I aiming at...... :)

you cut me down to size, and open up my eyes, made me realize.....what I could not see.....

Just say you'll wait...... you'll wait for me.

change. . . . Change. . . .

I'm a philosopher.......and always be a philosopher......

3 hal yg masih ku teliti smpai sekarang.... - Konspirasi - Relativitas umum Einstein - koneksi Sains dgn Agama

dgn nama Allah, aq ikti mechanical competition dgn serius

oh damn.... it's time to resolve, , , , ,

siang2 mrake ngntuk

So if u love me, won't u let me know. . .

my head hurt again, damn, too much thoughts

I just can share my knowledge, but I can't share my wisdom, , ,

You've got to change the world..... your time is now kulit kok gak pernah sehat ki loh... jiand..... dibuat pusing aq ma tubuhku sendiri

My brain is scientist..... but my body is a moslem...... My mind is a thinker.... but my heart is a believer......

Pointer.....pointer

d u 4get me dear? frown emoticon

164 tahun yang lalu.... sang inventor bohlam lampu, Thomas Alva Edison lahir..... :D

I don't know how....... but I believe there must be a way..........

Aku mengabdi kepada keagungan ilmu pengetahuan.......

I see a new sun rising..... I see it breaking your horizon......

Home.... :D

A scientist won't believe a miracle....... (Fullmetal Alchemist)

I'm a scientist, but I'm a believer......

Pikiranku bahkan terlalu kompleks untuk aq phami sendiri... haha :D *mah bangga

Pikirkan hidup ini secara luas, dari lingkup seluas jagad raya hingga lingkup sekecil atom, partikel, hingga materi2 penyusun partikel....... Dunia ini tidak hanya sebesar lingkup sosial masyarakat dan seluas indonesia kawan... :D Dunia ini luas, dan kompleks :D

I don't like relativity, , , ,

Hari ini adlah hari yg pnuh politik

*sniff....... hachyim!! *sniff

*kecewa frown emoticon

Fantastic experience with Nilam Cindera Dewi dan Allayyer Fate'frustrated :D I won't regret it ..... too wonderful to be descibed..... Rimba raya!!!

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Damn..... caught again in a complex thought of global universe.... squint emoticon

But it's not for me to decide.........

I don't know which way I'm going, I don't know what I've become.....

goes to surabaya

at madiun

blum apa2 sdah ngrusak properti orng, haha

jalan2 d.surabaya bingungi squint emoticon

mnikmati suasna malam kta pahlawan

alhamdulillah, lolos ke final. . 2morrow is the last day, the last fight! Keep spirit!

preparing for the final...... bismillahirrahmanirrahim!

ademme. . .brr *mnggigil*

going home. . . :)

back to my complex thought again. . . As long as my brain still active, i never stop thinking. . . .

Sucks..... I don't feels right......

kalo pigi liak2 surabaya, isa ndak isa bo' lupa mampiro tempate cak cuk surabaya. Ntik daripada sampek rumah nyesel soro :D

well.... when science and power of mind destroy religion and power of heart....damn

Oh sucks it..... Come on everyone, don't forget the wide side of this world.......

Seeking for justice, searching for wisdom...... my main target. I'll get it no matter what the resistance......

Taufiqurrochman Jogja..... wlaupun sdah tidak ngajar lagi, tetep mampir di SABA trus yo.... :D Perpisahan skik kr Ikhwan Catur Rahmawan, Izzachz Udden, Muhammad Asad 'Abstrak', Imam Habib Pamungkas...... mkan2 mas! hahaha

Maret 2011

oh well.... why I must caught in this problem again..... damn

this problem really makes me crazy again.... squint emoticon

Nilam Cindera Dewi, 118 tahun yang lalu Nikola Tesla mempublikasikan radio pertama di Missouri, 115 tahun yang lalu Henry Becquerel menemukan radioaktivitas, dan 75 tahun yang lalu Hoover Dam selesai dibangun....... Semoga dengan tgl 1 Maret klahiranmu, kesuksesan2 orang2 dahulu pada tanggal yg sama menular padamu.... selamat jadi fisikawan yang genius :D

it's my research..... don't bother me

There must be a way.... I won't give up!

ketika sseorang bermimpi utk sperti burung, bebas, tanpa beban, gak punya masalah....... seseorang tersebut sdah tak perlu hidup lagi.....

my brain destroy the power of my heart....... I barely can feel anything.....

I don't have heart..... I barely can feel anything.......

am I an atheis? oh well...... I'm distressed frown emoticon

I'm with NAZI .... 卐

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing, Roman Cavalry choirs are singing...... be my mirror, my sword and shield... my missionarries in a foreign field......

Tapi kerinduan tinggal hanya kerinduan, anakmu sekarang banyak menanggung beban......

It's like a "resonant horror" in searching for "peaceful end"..... But I'm a "endless travels" seeking for "boundless amber" of justice......that "shining legacy" and "fierce regalia" destroy my "cerulian flux" as a "twin blades" make a "furious roar"........

target: mastering limit function in one night. . . Don't call me Phoenix if I can't do that!

target 1 : mastering Limit Function in one night.... status: completed. Rank:S next, Target 2 : answer all chemistry, math and biology in last-year mid-term exam.... Status: In progress. Rank:B

Oh nice! walaupun otakku smpai mndidih, ternyata Fungsi Limit itu menyenangkan! :D :D

target 2 : answer all chem, math, and bio mid-term exam last year.... Status : pending. Rank : B continue... target 3 : learn 3 chapter of biology in one night... Status : wait ... Rank : A

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target 4 : learn all study material of religion in 2 hours tomorrow morning... Status : wait .... Rank : S

that's why I never like "heart domination"...... "Mind" is the absolute leader in my life!

Dengan ini memutuskan gak belajar apapun hari ini dan mngandalkan kemampuan analisis dan logika murni dari otak..... I'm a logician!

agamaq brgejolak. . . .

arep ulangan mlah blajar kristologi dlam perspektif islam. . .

Berat menerima keputusanmu.....

sekali lg mmtuskan utk tdak blajar intensif mlam ini. . . Mid kali ini akn jadi tes pngukuran kmampuan analisis n logikaq

I'll leave it be........

y'know.... that hurts...... looks like I'm fated to always be.... alone

between emptiness and happiness......... where should I go? "I don't know which way I'm going, I don't know what I've become"

Daaamn!!! filthy devil, spineless worm, pug-nosed pig, shrimp brain, unforgivable bastard, weakling, worthless fools.....!!!!

Leave no words.......

Learning must not always by studying...... I'm not studying doesn't mean I'm not learning...... But when I'm studying, I'm always learning.....

Happy birthday for Yuri Gargarin..... I hope I can fly like you... :D

I can't wait...... but it's still 5 days more.... come on!

tamen, te amo tanto, Cupitus..... *****

...... well.... let's begin our journey, to the center of my brain...........

.aku sekarang kok allay ya.?? hmm...

From Mega Bazaar Computer 2011 at JEC with Fikri Intizhar Rahmatullah and Ikhwan Catur Rahmawan...... amazed with jogjanimation's work and hav a fun at kaskus stand :)

gak sabar mnunggu tanggal 14 maret.....

turu bar magrib..... efek samping: mumet squint emoticon

dalam sekejab makin mumet aq mkirkan mkin bnyak yg hrus ku pikirkan.... kenapa aq harus jadi salah satu ketua FKPPA squint emoticon

cahaya bulan menusukku, dengan ribuan pertanyaan.... yang takkan pernah ku tw, dmana jawaban itu.... bagai letusan merapi, bangunkanku dari mimpi, sudah waktunya berdiri, mencari jawaban, kegelisahan hati.........

I'm living in a perfect symmetry.... 'cause I'm feeling low

132 tahun yang lalu.... sang pembawa peradaban telah lahir...... Albert Einstein, .... I hope my brain can be like yours......

Prospekt's March..... :)

leave me alone..........

#Questions of science, Science and progress, Do not speak as loud as my heart

don't lose hope..... I won't accept any fate or destiny..... My life is in my hand!

I won't believe in fate...... there is no such thing

YOU can change the world.......

#thanks 4 everything dear... :)

my eye..... it's eye of determination.... :)

well.... stuck at north

wah dilema.... di antara pengen melu workshop pembuatan game dengan pengen caving di cermai......

#so I'm not your friend, eh? YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!

aw man... come on buddy, let's get this over and now!

#g'nite dear..... :)

once more.........I don't even know what I've become...... and..... in the end..... we lay awake, and we dream to making our escape....) -_-)2

..................damn, why...?

#you don't have to be alone, you don't have to be on your own......

...... I'm always alone, right?... there's no doubt 'bout it.... I'm alone

#though that I trust you.....

time to make a determination.....come on, just 4get "her" for a while.... (in my heart: but I can't you dummy! I'm barely stop thinking her...)

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untuk pertama kalinya dalam 2 thun trakhir..... I'm feeling sad.. frown emoticon frown emoticon frown emoticon

When you love someone but It goes to waste, when you lost something you can't replace...... could it be worse?

smile 4 me.....forever#

it's for our better future..... :)

buat kakak2 klas 3.... sya punya teori baru utk lulus :D

Looks like she forgot about me......

#don't leave me alone............. #I've said it..... don't leave me alone.........

it's my way to the future.... :)

sorry guys..... I hav my priority....... don't jump into any conclusion too quickly, you still don't understand me.......

“I am truly a ‘lone traveler’ and have never belonged to my country, my home, my friends, or even my immediate family, with my whole heart. In the face of all this, I have never lost a sense of distance and the need for solitude.” —Albert Einstein --- From “The World As I See It” (1930), reprinted in Ideas and Opinions, 99. I feel the same my lord.....

I am truly a endless lone traveler..............

Let's make a blueprint of our plan........we can do this!

hah.... learning something today.... :) I'm master as manager and plan maker, not as executor... :D #Thanks for inspiring me dear :)

I'm Aditya Firman Ihsan or Aditya-Finiarel Phoenix or Aditya bin Muhammad Ihsan bin Abdul Majid or Aditya the Master of Logic

now..... move! I know it..... we can.

It's time to wake up my friend!! See the world with your mind, with your brain! Don't to be such a fool and closed from the world outside......

Barrack Obama, David Cameron, Nicolas Sarkozy..... 3 idiots dunia beraksi lagi squint emoticon

I do not see why man should not be just as cruel as nature. ---Adolf Hitler---

.......................why..... why I hav diz feelin'? damn...... I never want it...... it's my fault, It's my risk,

<wheeze> # For you I'll wait. . . . .

..................<wheeze again> # It doesn't matter, Semper amabo te... **r**

g'nite . . :)

"I'm not alone" --Cloud Strife-- (Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children)

"Yes, we can." .....sbuah mantra utk mnyelesaikan segala rintangan, cobaan dan masalah.......

"I know You can" -- Tifa Lockhart -- (Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children)

"Let's save this world" -- Vincent Valentine (Devil mode)-- (Final Fantasy VII - Dirge of Cerebrus)

"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one, and only, truth." --Alphonse Elric-- Fullmetal Alchemist #37

There is no pointless things in this life.... We always obtain something after sacrificing something......

"The beginning exists for the end and the end exists for the beginning." --Quon-- Fullmetal Alchemist

"The King is exist for his people, and The people exist for their king" -- Lin Yao -- Fullmetal Alchemist

Nurmalitha Puspitaningrum.... Eris amor meus permaneo, non me solum relinquatis, okay? #Diligam te semper.....

walaupun baru pulang malem2 msih pke seragam sekolah, sampe rumah dari ujung rambut sampai ujung kaki basah smua..... saya senang mendapatkan pelajaran berharga hari ini.... :)

It's a number I can't see.......It's a degree of complexity.... It's a delicate conspiracy.........

"The more steps we take forward, the longer we see the path is ahead" -- Shou Tucker -- Fullmetal Alchemist

all of the love we threw away all of the hopes we cherished fade. . . . .

promise to hold you close and pray watching the fantasies decay nothing will ever stay the same................

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all of the love we've left behind watching the flash backs intertwine memories I will never find...............

Sekali browsing lngsung buka 11 tab squint emoticon Begitu bnyak yg harus q teliti, zoroasterism, hermeticism, rose croix, seleucid empire, sassanid empire, ahura mazda, scottish rite..... ouch.....that's too too much for me to think

I need someone who understands I need someone, someone who hears For you I’ve waited all these years.......

# I'll love u whatever u become n forget the reckless things we've done. . . I think our lives have just begun. . . .

April 2011

change it. . . .

#.... * **** *** ***

# Hope you get cured and healthy.... :)

Let me think.... :)

Knowledge is power......... brains wil always defeats brawl

we hav a lot of work to do.........

Sepertinya aq hrus lbih mnggabarkan scara struktural dan komplit gambaran permasalahan yg mnghadapi dunia....... Sekarang sudah bnyak orang terkena propaganda dan termanipulasi tnpa sadar sdikitpun

#please, take care of your health, okay? Don't make me worry too much.....

Nothing is predetermined....... I don't believe in fate, destiny, or something like that........ We won't know what the future will be until we do it!!

"Do you believe in God?".... I'm answered "I can't say I don't" "So what is the answer? Yes or no?" I'm answered "Then I don't have the answer..........."

I'm an endless traveler, a lone philosopher, and a seeker of justice.......

bingung..... bsok kuliah msuk Fisika murni, Informatika, Sospol, atau Filsafat ya? Decide it now phoenix!

Bsok Outdoor..... satu2nya yg ku persiapkan hanyalah buku dan headset :)

wah, mas Taufiqurrochman Jogja ultah to.... makan2 mas, kro Ikhwan Catur Rahmawan, Muhammad Asad 'Abstrak', dkk.... kmaren jga blum perpisahan to..... kapan2 mampir ke saba mas :D

Saat mereka mengatakan sebagian besar filsuf dan ilmuwan adalah atheis alias tidak bertuhan, brarti mereka benar-benar goblok.

Para filsuf punya otak lebih kompleks dibandingkan manusia yang hanya bisa berpendapat tnpa melakukan penelitian lebih lanjut dengan FAKTA bukan OPINI. I'm with philosopher

Tuhan para filsuf dan ilmuwan.............

ehm...... a twisted logic of my mind

Phoeñix merupakan simbol keabadian. . . . .

#please again dear.... take care of your health okay? I'm worried.....

Philosophy...... the god of all knowledge, the base of fundamentalistic rasionality.....

Banyak yang bilang statusku aneh2 dan sulit dimengerti..... tapi percayalah terdapat makna filosofi tinggi dapat diambil jika logika bekerja dengan baik..... *brains defeat brawns

Logic combined with heart? You gotta be kiddin'..... Logic and heart are very opposite things.......

We won't know what we can do until we try.......

Finally! Final Fantasy VII Original Soundtrack! It's download time :D

hey, don't you think "heart" is just all your mind suggestion and imagination?

It's the risk I've taken......... Life is simple, do what you think is right and don't ever regret it

It's my struggle......... Nobody would understand it

You won't hav any other reason to live except SURVIVING YOUR LIFE

Life is a COMEDY for those who THINKS, and a TRAGEDY for those who FEELS

Maaf kawan, mngkin bbrapa dri kalian mnganggpq sdkit aneh n gak mnentu. . . .tpi inilah aq, 2 kpribadian, kdang manusia kdang bukan, Resiko seorng pemikir

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Aku berfikir, maka aku ada.

Aaaargghhh...... damn! Too much to think, it's too much, too complex, too confusing...... It'll make my head explode! But I can't stop, it's my duty, it's my job, it's my rensposibility.....Keep spirit phoenix! :)

Ketika kalian menuju sebuah akhir, apa yang kalian pkirkan?

make the structural map of your mind.............

Aku mau jdi manusia normal, hdup nrmal, tnpa pnya pkiran extreme dan mnyiksa sprti ini

Apa yang kalian pikirkan setelah melewati suatu awal?

Janganlah berfikir sesimpel bendera Indonesia, berfikirlah sekompleks struktur DNA (Aditya F. Phoenix - Seeker of Justice - Lone Philosopher)

#thanks for everything........ :)

Ketika semua mlai terjadi, manusia baru sadar dan terlambat utk mnyadari.... bahwa "mereka" telah mengendalikanmu, dan kita smua menuju akhir kita masing2.......

Logic, that's how my brain works

kepada sobatku 'Kokopandaz Itu Koko, 559 tahun yang lalu, sang ilmuan, seniman, dan penulis terkenal dalam sejarah, Leonardo da Vinci, lahir Di hari yang sama, 146 tahun yang lalu sang pahlawan USA anti-konspirasi, Abraham Lincoln, meninggal dunia. Semoga bbrapa tahun lagi, kau dapat meneruskan perjuangan mereka Berjuang sas! Doaq bersama Vallery menyertaimu :) "Together we stand, divided we stand" :D

Untuk apa akal jika tidak kau gunakan secara intensif kawan? Tentunya Allah memberi kita akal untuk mengungkap misteri2 dunia dan kehidupan bukan? :)

Dunia ini penuh misteri, dengarkan informasi dengan akalmu, perhatikan sekeliling dengan hatimu, dan rasakan fakta dengan jiwamu..........

"Rasah dipikirke dinia ini arep kpiye, biarkanlah mengikuti takdir yg telah ditetapkan"..... dalam hati ku pikir.... "Are you insane? everything's not predetermined! you won't know what will happen untill we try it!"

Para kanca yang baik hati, sya mnta tlong utk meng-addJogjatronik Mall sebagai friend yaa.....

Demi mensukseskan acara SMAN 1 Bantul yg akan datang :)

......"Pkoke ra entuk, orang tuane rene kok mlah lungo" squint emoticon sorry ya, kwan2, aq tak bisa pergi kmana2 hari ini

It's my duty..... get back to work

ck ck ck...... the geometrian, the architect, the omnipotence, the devil.......

wah, sharian di rumah bnar2 revolusi jadi orang pemalas aq...... berjam2 cma di tempat tidur, depan komputer, depat TV, dan depan meja belajar...... Gak betaaaah

do you really need "brawns" this age? You make me laugh dude, when everything get more complex and complicated, you can only use your "brain".....

wah, Fatma Khoirunisa ulang tahun bersamaan dengan kematian "sang pencerah ruang dan waktu", Albert Enstein 56 tahun yang lalu. squint emoticon Tapi selamat aja kau lahir brtepatan dgn klahiran seorang ilmuan politik yang terkenal pada masa perang dingin, Samuel P. Huntington 84 tahun yang lalu :)

Arah arus politik membawa kita ke suatu pola tertentu...... Dengan pembacaan serta analisis pola politik tersebut dengan tepat, kita bisa membaca kondisi masyarakat dunia di masa depan......

"Mereka" memang pintar dan berintelektual, tapi itu tak mnutup kmungkinan bahwa kita bisa lebih dari mereka..........(sayangnya bnyak remaja gak peduli dgn yg namanya intelektual,,, jelas kita kalah dari "mereka" -_-)

Brains will always defeat brawns.......

Ayolah kawan..... kita smua tahu mereka menang di otak...... Jangan mau kalah dengan orang2 seperti mereka yg mnggap diri mereka "Omnipotence".......... Belajarlah!

wah...... kapan latihan programming nek ngne ki..... belum mengumpulkan fakta dan data untuk penelitian konspirasiku lagi, ,,,, mumet

mumet memplajari undang-undang...........

I won't accept any fate or destiny!!!! Nothing is predetermined!! We won't know what gonna happen untill we do it! There must be a way, there must be.......

I won't accept any future that YOU determined....... and THAT is reason enough to fight......!

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Lutfy Utami Aryawan, slamat anda lahir bersamaan dengan kelahiran sang politikus ekonomi dari Inggris, David Ricardo, 239 tahun yang lalu. Masih di hari yg sama, 129 tahun yang lalu, sang "Biological hero", Charles Darwin meninggal...... "Love is a better teacher than duty" --Albert Einstein--

frown emoticon

hunger of knowledge. . . .

Damn....... Aku terkadang kurang menyukai hidup sperti ini...... kenapa aku gak pernah bisa mnjadi manusia normal? Entah aku orang yg beruntung atw sial mmpunyai pkiran sperti ini, tapi aq tersiksa dngn pemikiraku sndiri.................. But..... I can't go back, it's the path I choose.... I must continue.... I mustn't give up

Lupakanlah.............sepertinya ini memang bukan yg terbaik untukku....... Namun aq sdah terlanjur "terperangkap" di dalamnya......

heh...... (tersenyum sinis)

So that's it, huh?........ It's tougher than I thought

Following the path, searching the truth, seeking the way........

oh dang....... these darn 'things' really annoying me.......

Struggling at the most inner self...........

Jika kau tahu arah arus politik dunia ini...... di campur dgn teori ruang dan waktu fisika kuantum....... di

tambah lagi dengan kumpulan quarks yang menyatu sebagai partikel elementer tiap zat...... Maka kau akan pahami betapa kompleksnya dunia ini :)

memikirkan perilaku manusia dalam klompok masyarakat, mrenungi arus alam semesta menuju titik entropi maksimum, menganalisis pola politik dunia dalam suatu skenario konspirasi, memahami fundamentalitas dari hukum alam yg merasionalitaskan segala konsep khidupan, mencermati hukum agama sebagai keyakinan melawan rasionalitas dari logika........ semua bercampur dalam pikiranku............

Again, leave it be. . . . .

wah, tak ku sangka mas Ghozy Ul-Haq ultah.... pantes ketrima di rusia mas, lha ultah.e sama dengan hari kelahiran sang kaisar rusia, musuh besar Rothschild dan bankir2 konspirasi saat itu, Tsar Alexander II, 193 tahun yang lalu..... Dan di hari yng sama 65 tahun yang lalu, Hitler menikah dng Eva Braun dan bunuh diri esok harinya :)..... Smoga perjalananmu slalu sukses mas, akan ku ikuti jejakmu,,,, :)

Global social, individuals psychology, political affairs, conspiracy theory, law of universe, flow of time and enthropy, historical world, future prophecy, religion and philosophy connection, way of thinking, the destruction of the future....... and so on..... It all combined in a thought of my twisted logic...........

Do you know that I missed that moment of happiness?...........with you

Mei 2011

sometimes...... my future dimmed..... but sometimes.... my future got very bright

we won't know how things gonna turn until we try it......

Menikmati dinginnya hati.... pria kesepian

Someone : "Aneh2 sing kwe pkirke dit, mbok ya hidup ki rasah dipikir abot" Me : "Terlanjur, karena aku adalah seorang pemikir :). Hidup itu tidak sesimple bendera Indonesia." Someone : ".......(silence) karepmulah dit.....semoga tjuan2 anehmu tercapai aja deh"

Akan ku ukir satu kisah tentang "kita"..... dimana baik dan buruk... terangkum oleh indah

Bersenang2lah.... karena hari ini akan kita rindukan, di hari nanti.... sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan........

kau tahu kawan..... saat kau bertanya untuk apa dunia ini dibuat...... aq rasa itu pertanyaan yang paling sulit untuk dijwab filsuf dan pemikir manapun.......

Jadi seorang filsuf seperti narkoba..... sekali masuk kau gak bisa keluar lagi sebagai orang normal....... Tapi karena terlanjur semua pemikir gak punya pilihan lain selain meneruskan pemikirannya

wah jian.... mumet aq....

Aku rasa gak akan pernah ada orang yg dapat mngerti isi pikiranku sedetail apapun......

Menggila dengan ilmu filsafat.......

You're my spirit of life. . . .you're my motivation to live. . .#

ikut, ikut :D

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damn...... my life's like an equilibrium......

Bilaku lelah tetaplah di sini, jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri...... bilaku marah biarkanku bersandar, jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar

Hingga nanti di suatu pagi, salah satu dari kita mati. Sampai jumpa di kehidupan yang lain :)

Sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan........

Filsafat merupakan kebijaksanaan........ Knowledge and wisdom........ Karna engkaulah satu2nya untukku, dan pastikan kita slalu bersama.... karna dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku, dalam susah ataupun senang :)

Hanya bisa ngangguk-angguk dan geleng2 membaca buku "Berpikir seperti Filosof" yang kubeli di Islamic Book Fair tadi..... isinya benar2 menggoncang pikiranku :)

wah.... mumet krna organisasi ternyata berbeda dngan mumet karena ilmu pengetahuan..................

Oh tidak.... krisis squint emoticon

you're the only one..... :)

Capailah titik kebijaksanaan yang hakiki dengan filsafat......

Learning something..... as a leader

aku janji..... :)

Beban yang satu hilang, muncul beban yang lain lagi.... haduh, kapan pikiranku bisa fresh ni.... mumet squint emoticon

wehlah, nek gini trus kapan penelitianku terhadap dunia berlanjut..... jalan di tempat ni wawasanku, gak maju2

.................dammit

walah.... tak ku sangka beban masih bnyak menumpuk..... Aku butuh waktu tenang squint emoticon

That's why I'm used to be alone.... :) Falling in love is not at all the most stupid thing that people do -- but gravitation cannot be held responsible for it. (Albert Einstein)

Pelajarilah semesta ini. Janganlah kecewa jika dunia tidak mengenal anda, tpi kecewalah jika kau tidak mengenal dunia :) Sungguh, dunia ini begitu indah dengan setiap kompleksitasnya.....

Bahkan ketika semua hal paling fundamental di dunia ini di gabungkan, semesta ini masih terlalu kompleks untuk disederhanakan dalam sebuah pemikiran sosial kehidupan sederhana :) Aku mengabdikan diriku untuk mencari jawaban itu, membongkar kompleksitas itu,.... dengan ilmu pengetahuan dan filsafat :D Perjuanganku benar2 gila, bahkan aku sendiri mnganggap driku sdah gila, tpi ini jalanku, ini kehidupanku..............

wah, skarang msih hrus makan...... msih ada byang2 kenyang saat pesta di pondok cabe tadi..... :)

....... I'm still on my journey...... to find a wisdom, to find a knowledge, to find the truth

Targetku yg paling akhir dalam hidup.... : pengetahuan, kebijaksanaan, dan kebenaran

Perjalanan hidupku masih panjang....... masih banyak yang harus aku ketahui, masih banyak yang harus aku plajari....... dunia ini begitu luas kawan :)

..... I lose my own heart?........ you want to understand the complexity with a simplicity? it's impossible

Scouts..... creating a better world

G'nite dear.... hav a nice dream :)

5 days focus on subjective thoughts, and now back to my complex objective endless thoughts........

Don't ever underestimate.....the voice of youth....... Vox Dei Vox Populi

Akan aku telusuri jalan yang setapak ini, semoga ku temukan jawaban.......

Wahai kalian yang rindu kemenangan, wahai kalian yang turun ke jalan, demi mempersembahkan jiwa dan raga, untuk negeri tercinta......

Training Hacker bersama Ikhwan Catur Rahmawan, danIzzachz Udden

Ternyata ikatan kita msih belum kuat..............

Ikhwan Catur Rahmawan... sabaaaaar,

Emosinya msih ada......ternyata...... frown emoticon

Sejak kapan aku mirip sule?

arep motong rambut kok ra sempat2..... akhirnya potong jga..... tpi......

Wah.... garap film pke sony vegas memang joss.... the best film editor

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all I wanted to be.......... living in the perfect symmetry,....

I don't know which way I'm going, I don't know what I've become.....

I live in a complex existence of an abstract philosophy...... Think is my life

Tak pernah berhenti berjuang, pecahkan teka-teki malam.... tak pernah berhenti berfikir, menjawab teka-teki alam

I'll be a master of philosophy..... I'll solve all this world puzzles

3 jam di depan komputer dengan penuh emosi

Pertahankan cahaya masa depanmu nak, jangan sampai itu redup..... karena redup sedikit saja, jalan menuju kesana akan sulit terlihat :)

Setelah melalui berbagai pemikiran, akhirnya memang benar.... filsafat satu2nya sumber kebijaksanaan

akulah sang pemikir.......

Wah jiand.... mumet

Ketika pikiranmu subjektif maka kau melupakan yang obyektif, tpi saat kau fokus pada yang obyektif, kau melupakan yang subyektif.... pikiranku benar-benar seperti kesetimbangan kimia :)

Juni 2011

wah, sekarang ketika aku berfikir, kepalaku tidak sepusing dahulu.... mungkin karena terbiasa, akhirnya tingkat kemampuan berfikirku meningkat :D

It ain't nothing..............

pikiranku kembali subyektif --"

Pelajari etika dan estetika dalam kehidupan.......... prinsip dasar filsafat

good or evil, right or wrong, vice or virtue......

I'm a metaphysician......

hebat jga pengaruh musik dalam mengendalikan orang,,,,,, pola arusnya semakin terlihat,..... hedonisme dan materialisme merupakan senjata terhebat mengendalikan dan menghancurkan manusia.... tepuk tangan utk para pelaku konspirasi :D

I hate it...... bagaimana dunia ini bsa menghindari kehancurannya jika seperti ini..... There must be something we can do.... but what? There must be a way, there must be...................

dengarkan lagu instrumental, pikirkan dunia ini secara holistik, obyektif dan universal, kaitkan semua masalah dalam hidupmu, bayangkan masa lalu dan masa depan, dan kau akan rasakan hatimu bergertar bagaikan atom cesium terkena tembakan neutron..........

ternyata internet sebagai sumber informasi terbesar payah juga.... mending ke toko buku.........

kau akan menjadi bijaksana saat kau sadari bahwa kau masih jauh dari bijaksana :)

Satu target utama dalam hidupku...... "kebenaran"

Agama memecah manusia, tapi Keyakinan menyatukan manusia......

etika, estetika, metafisika, logika, filosofi sosial, filosofi politik dan epistemologi bersatu menyusun akar2 dari pohon segala ilmu pengetahuan, kebenaran dan kebijaksanaan.... :D

Aku tak bisa bertahan pada ketidaktahuan.......... 2 aturan pemikiran filsafat..... kritis dan holistik

ada yg bilang aku aneh, ada yang bilang aku atheis, ada yg bilang aku islam sekular, ada yg bilang aku extrimis dan radikal, ada yg bilang aku sesat, ada yg bilang aku perfectionist, ada yg bilang aku perennialis..... walah, hanya karena filsafat dan pemikiranku, gelarku jadi banyak banget --" , dan semua gak ada yg bener upset emoticon

sudahlah.... lupakan semua buku2 dan pemikiran2 itu.... aku mau kembali menjadi manusia biasa utk beberapa hari :D

sejarah sebagai suatu fakta, dan fisika sebagai suatu hukum.... benar2 dari akar yg berbeda dalam phon pengetahuan.....

.......memperhatikan skali lagi lemari bukuku..... --" ternyata ada setumpuk buku yg gak selesai aku baca.... sesudah semesteran harus mengurung diri di kamar ni, pesta membaca buku :D

shining legacy, noble steel, fierce regalia, cerulian flux, furious roar, twin blade, tatau council, ancient covenant, endless travels, boundless amber, resonant horror, and the last..... peaceful end :)

belum nyentuh buku satupun --"

Damn.... I never can have my mind focused..... too obejective, too complex

Curiousity.... kumat squint emoticon dan sekarang kepalaku mendidih

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Percayalah kawan, dunia tidak sesimpel bendera Indonesia, tidak sesempit lubang tikus, tidak seindah pacarmu...... tapi dunia lebih dari itu, dan saat kau mengetahuinya, menangislah.....

Argumen tnpa dasar dengan mnggunakan emosi dan ego gak pernah bisa kalah........ tpi itu sama sekali bukanlah argumen yg berkualitas.... kau akan bisa menilai saat debat dengan tiap orang, argumen yg berkualitas slalu menang dengan sehat.....

Saat kita menyebut suatu pembicaraan dengan kata "debat" berarti kita berbicara menggunakan emosi, ego dan keinginan pribadi, tapi saat kita berbicara dengan logis, rasional, dan patuh pada fakta, maka kita menyebut pmbicaraan itu "diskusi" :) Aku gak pernah mau berdebat, karena aku anti-emosi :)

Jangan pernah buat teori tanpa dasar :D (said my father) dan jangan lupakan pendapat itu merupakan teori yg kita buat sendiri, jadi kesimpulannya, Jangan pernah berpendapat tanpa dasar yang kuat dan logis :D

.......move phoenix, move!

World is fighting for G.O.D..... Gold, Oil, and Drugs

I never can focus.... why? why? damn.... this is my worst disadvantage....

I need some rest..... forget all those thoughts, forget all those books, forget all those facts, forget all those problems......... My mind's searching for an "escape".....

Kehidupan itu lebih kompleks dari sekedar mencari kebahagiaan dan kesenangan

Today's schedule : Book hunting :) Bookstore! I'm Coming! :D

Pulang-pulang bawa 6 buku masing-masing setebal 2 tumpuk kue lapis... :D

Akhirnya aku memasuki masa-masa longgar, setelah dibuat pusing ma organisasi, tugas yg mnumpuk, olimpiade, dan ulangan umum..... saatnya refreshing :) *lega

ada film kok judlnya "KENTUT" :D :D

My father.... you're my greatest teacher, my only guide, my inspiration...... Just you see, dad. I'll make you proud..... :)

tiap bapak ke rumah, slalu aja ada ilmu yg ku dapet.... :) Thanks dad

wah, symphony ke-9nya Beethoven apik :)...... pdahal aku bru denger 1/5 bagiannya....

my dad, my knowledge, my wisdom......

Yerussalem, 1 City 3 Symbols.......The Cross, The Hexagram and The Crescent

wah, Fadhilah Nur Amini ulang tahun. Ternyata dirimu lahir bersamaan dngn 2 fisikawan terkenal Thomas Young, sang ahli pegas, lahir di hari yg sama 238 tahun yg lalu :) dan jga, bapak elektromagnetik, James Clerk Maxwell lahir pada 13 Juni jga 180 tahun yg lalu Melihat sperti itu, mending kmu jadi fisikawan aja min, hehe :D Atau smoga kmu bsa mngikuti jejak ksuksesan mreka, wlaupn di bidang lain :)

I'll leave it at your hand.... :)

Banyak orang yang meng-salahartikan "be yourself" sehingga bner2 bertahan pada kyakinan dan kepribadiannya dan tidak mau bergerak menuju perubahan yg lebih baik.....

Yes, we can..... we always CAN

Kenapa orang bisa2nya bilang "TIDAK BISA" padahal blum mngerti sma skali atau blum pernah mncoba sdikit pun........ You never know what will happen if you never try, you dummy! SO, DO IT! TRY IT!

Hanya orang takut yg bisa berani, karena keberanian adalah melakukan sesuatu yang ditakutinya........

Nothing can be predetermined... we won't know what's gonna happen until we give it a try!

Do you know the greatest power of mind? It's positive thinking.....

Segala jenis pusing sudah ku alami, tapi kok skarang aku mrasa pusing jenis terbaru ya.... rasanya gak enak bnget.....

Oh sial, kepalaku..... apa karena kebanyakan mikir ya.... haduh

Dunia ini terlalu kompleks untuk dipikirkan hanya dengan spontanitas, ego, kyakinan dan pengalaman semata.....

Leaving my emotion behind.............

Do you know something, buddy? This world no longer have its life..... It's not as beautiful as it looks

Dude, when this world flows slowly but surely to its destruction, what will you do? Just sit and watch?? Trying to enjoy the rest of your life?? hmph, That's the worst joke I ever heard......

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Ouch......

welah.... bukuku smakin menumpuk menunggu untuk dibaca.... ayolah, beri aku waktu...........

Bring me to the truth.... I need that knowledge, I need that wisdom......

"Opo wae iso"

Gambaran kita (remaja) sekarang merupakan gambaran Indonesia 20 tahun lagi....

Keep smiling dear :)

They're everywhere...... they're watching us.......

Owl.... symbol of wisdom...... it's watching from darkness.....

Kepada yang belum mau bergerak, bergeraklah,... kepada yg mau bergerak, gerakkanlah mereka yg belum bergerak...... Move! For our better future!

Phoenix.... symbol of eternity..... an undying spirit..... :)

Finiarel........the elf honorific title for a young man of great promise..... So.... I, Aditya-Finiarel, will bring a great promise with me..... for the future of this world! :)

Atra gülai un ilian tauthr ono un atra ono waíse sköliro frá rauthr.... :)

I don't believe in fate..... My future is in my hand.....

My life.... an endless journey....

Bila kita memandang diri kita sendiri kecil, dunia akan tampak sempit dan tindakan pun akan menjadi kerdil, namun bila kita memandang diri kita besar, dunia terlihat luas, dan kita akan melakukan hal hal penting dan berharga. Tindakan adalah cermin bagaimana melihat dunia.... :)

kepala panas ditambah udara panas..... squint emoticon otakku serasa mendidih

One more research.... :)

Still in my way....for my wisdom

arep liburan kok tetep aja bnyak pikiran squint emoticon Gak pernah bsa fresh pikiranku klw bgini..........

Entah kenapa aku slalu lbih nyaman sendiri..... always, alone

Forget about philosophy, back to conspiracy theory :)

For some reason I can't explain, once you go there was never.... never an honest world....

People wouldn't believe what I'd become.....

Revolusionaries wait.....

Bangun fundamental makna dalam hidup.... tntukan tujuan akhir.... berorientasilah padanya..... dan fokuskan jalan menuju kesana.......

Believe me...... this world contains more than it looks....

Tetep msih banyak pikiran..... squint emoticon

I'll take the risk.... this is the path I choose.......

Let me guess..... next year, there will be a chaos all over the world...

preparing for tomorrow..................

Ambiguitas makna terjadi dimana-mana......

It's my success.... :)

If our lifes are already predetermined.... then what the reason of this life? So, fate is nothing.... I believe in neither fate nor destiny..... My future is in my own hand

Was a long and dark December From the rooftops I remember There was snow White snow

Was a long and dark December When the banks became cathedrals And the fog Became God

Mantep nang tawangmangu.... telkomsel cen joss.. :)

endless curiousity..... boundless amber of truth, come with me, come!

Selama kalian masih punya prinsip "hidupku ya hidupku, hidupmu ya hidupmu".... dunia gak akan pernah bsa mnjadi lebih baik dari sekarang..... Silakan kalian hidup bersama liberalisme, jika kau merasa urusan atau hidup tiap orang tu kepentingan masing2.....

wah. jumlah friendsku 2012 :D,

Prinsip orang berfikir positif : "Opo wae iso" :)

Anda bisa mencintai atau membecinya, tapi ingatlah dia akan selalu mnjadi milikmu hingga jantungmu berhenti.... So, syukurilah apapun tubuhmu :)

It won't make sense...... leave it be

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This world contains so much mystery...... too much.... too much....#thinking

24 hours......

Arep sinau terlanjur sdah mencapai limit kepuasan... (hukum gossen)

Come on dude.... don't controlled by those "limitation theory" of yours.... It won't make sense

Let's study.... thermodynamics really made me curious... :)

Sekolah selesai, belajar tidak pernah usai.... So, ayo belajar :)

Finiarel msih dalam kebanggaan.... semoga beban ini terwujud... amiin :)

wah, udah malam, tergoda.... gak sempat blajar banyak nih (_ _)a

Ok... that's enough for tonight.... let's sleep :)

To gain something, we must sacrifice something with equal value..... :)

alhamdulillah utk hari ini :)

makaaan.....

There's nothing we can do.....

Waktu cepat berlalu... aku seperti telah melakukan revolusi besar-besaran pada diriku dalam kurun waktu setahun.... Mengingat diriku stahun yang lalu dan mmbandingkannya dgn skarang, sungguh bagaikan kpompong mnjadi kupu2 :)

Dari kekosongan menuju kebijaksanaan.... ayo teruskan perubahan besar pada diri sendiri...... For our better future! :)

I still have one year to be a great person... be ready phoenix :)

Now it's the time... :D

KESALAHAN SAAT MUDA ADALAH PELAJARAN YANG MEMBAIKKAN MASA DEPAN.

MENUNDA IKHLAS = MELANJUTKAN GELISAH

sentrap-sentrup ra rampung2 squint emoticon

Sudah lama gak berfikir dan baca buku filsafat.... jadi kehilangan inspirasi squint emoticon Fokus konspirasi, mlah menuntunku belajar sejarah...

haduh I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying.... but..... I must CAN

Semangkin terungkap..... :)

Kedewasaan bukan dilihat dari umurnya, bukan dilihat dari fisiknya, tapi dari kualitas pikirannya, dari kebijaksanaannya,

Ketika keyakinan berbenturan dengan rasionalitas....

Hal yang dihasilkan dengan berfikir bisa menjadi fakta, tapi yg dihasilkan dengan keyakinan menjadi opini

There's something I need to learn..... I'll change the plan... this is worse than I expected

Leaving the conspiracy.... leads me more to quantum physics... damn,... Okay, let's do this.... :)

I don't feel right..... Too much to learn.... Maybe I need some refreshing

Nilam Cindera Dewi, Allayyer Fate'frustrated, ada yang mau ikut aku hunting buku lagi? :)

new knowledge.... Eschatology.... wow.... :D

Sudah kuputuskan.... Aku akan mengisi liburan ini dengan meneliti Eschatology dalam berbagai sudut konsep..... be ready :)

Takjub.... seandainya aku mengetahui itu semua

Now is the beginning of the end.... and in the end, it will begin the new beginning....

Entah kenapa stiap kali aku mraup dan mengolah informasi berturut2 scara berlebihan, aku slalu mrasa mual.... Penyakit yang aneh,,, efek kebanyakan berfikir

Multi-talent.... "I can do everything" #bepostitive

Katakan padaku hal yang tidak bisa ku lakukan.... dan aku hanya menjawab "I just need some time, and I can do it"

Kekerasan hati tidak akan mengubah apapun.... sifat yang sangat tidak boleh dimiliki seorang pemimpin atau KETUA,..... Wahai kalian yang keras hatinya, belajarlah utk dikritik, belajarlah utk kalah, belajarlah utk menerima pendapat orang lain.... janganlah berdebat hal yang tidak penting hanya utk mempertahankan pendapat pribadi..... #bagi yang merasa, sgera berubah yaa... :)

oh damn... everything's going worse.... I never expected Eschatology is that horrible....

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"Semakin kmu dekat dengan kebenaran, semakin kebenaran itu membunuhmu"

Need some holiday.... squint emoticon

walah.... kwe ki ra tau iso fokus dit.... Sekarang malah browsing tentang Demon di shin megami tensei wikia....

"Listen, don't overdo it, you need some rest. So, forget all those prophecy, conspiracy, eschatology, or something like that. And get some refreshing..., ok? :)"

#nowwatching Mario Teguh Golden Ways

Ok.... it's my determination.... :)

Focus phoenix! I said Focus!!!!!

I've finished that book, so then let's change my brain's theme again

Membuat sandi dan teka-teki, ... pekerjaanku di tiap kegiatan slalu sama aja squint emoticon

My Profile Picture... :) It's Tarot card for 9th force of arcana, The Hermit :D

Someone please give me an inspiration....

Gak ada liburan dalam kamus hidupku squint emoticon Is that so?

Consider that as "Persona"

Target : Sesudah C1, dalam waktu 1 mnggu hrus dapat mengumpulkan data yang komplit.... Sesudah C2 tinggal analisis. Terus ditulis :) Penelitian Eschatology begins! :D

frown emoticon

Kita hanya "satu", bagian kecil dalam "semua". Namun tanpa gabungan dari "satu", "semua" tidak akan ada..... *Satu untuk semua, semua untuk satu*

Nurmalitha Puspitaningrum Terima kasih :)

Juli 2011

Persona!!

:)

Nonton Insidious bareng TSC di Empire.... masih membayang2 pkiranku... squint emoticon

Amelia Nucifera, kalau nonton bioskop gak usah narik2 jaket orang yaa. . . :D

Ayo temen2 daftar TSC, bisa nonton bareng gratis tiap jum'at di Empire loh :D

Sepertinya aku mulai merasa liburan 2 minggu terlalu singkat.....

Asyiknya jadi member TSC (Telkomsel School Community) bisa HOMESTAY ke Singapura dan Hong Kong, ayo guy's buruan So Don't Miss it.. ketik SEKOLAH spasi SCHOOL ID kirim ke 2323..... Untuk SMAN 1 Bantul, school IDnya 160514064 :)

Makin banyak buku hrus dibaca..... squint emoticon

Gak ada operator lain yang saham mayoritasnya dimiliki Indonesia selain Telkomsel... :D Telkomsel memang paling Indonesia :D

Damn..... Dengarkan aku.... merindukanmu... :) #

Hampir lupa, my brother sekarang ultah. Mas Aji keren, ultah bareng Amerika yang merdeka 235 tahun yang lalu.

Ditambah juga ternyata 4 Juli merupakan hari kematian 3 presiden Amerika, John Adams, Thomas Jefferson dan James Monroe. . . 4 Juli memang hari keramat utk amerika :D Smoga dngn itu mas aji bisa sehebat Amerika tpi dalam sisi yang positif :)

Hidup Amerika! :)

It's our judgement..... God's ordeal is upon us......

I can sense my determination.... It's decided.... Now I know what I'm living for :)

Seeker of Truth...... It's in me

..... something's strange in my mind.....

Ambiguitas makna.... Jari metal :)

Saatnya friday movie mania with Telkomsel

Seek more for the "truth"....

Happiness, eh? Itu kata yang aneh di telingaku hingga stahun yg lalu..... dan sekarang aku mngerti... :)

I used to live in sorrow..... in loneliness..... in a deepest thoughts But now I realize something.... I'm not alone

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No need for happiness..... No need for sadness..... damn....

Once more..... it's an emptiness..... my heart doesn't feel anything

It's still unstable, isn't it? I see...... I guess my heart hurts.....

Gak ada gunanya...... Aku menyerah..........

Back To School.....

The death will always awaits you..... always....

Any struggle is useless.... The End draws near.... YOU can't do anything... The death will always come, always awaits you..... just understand it, feel it

Ya Allah, smakin banyak kebenaran yang aku tahu.... semakin aku terjebak dalam jurang pertanyaan yang lebih dalam..... Ayolah phoenix, kluar dari jurang itu, carilah jawabannya, carilah kebenaran sejati dan lhatlah dunia bersinar dengannya

You brought something to my heart........ Something that I never felt before.... with my emptiness

The moment man devoured the fruit of knowledge, he sealed his fate... Entrusting his future to the cards, man clings to a dim hope. Yes, the arcana is the means by which all is revealed. Attaining ones, dream requires and stern will and unfailing determination.

Who we are shapes what we do. What we do shapes what we experience. What we experience shapes who we are. In this great cycle, lies the one true answer.

Beyond the Beaten Path lies the absolute end. It matters not who you are, Death awaits you.

The End, The Death, The Judgement, The Ordeal.... draws near.... You all humankind, be prepared....

Misery is a harsh mistress....

I'll always be by your side..... don't worry :) #

What is there to gain by staying in this world for a long time, anyway?

Don't be a person who can't escape his fate........

Everyone is waiting to die if you think about it. ...Some just have longer to wait than others.

for me, or you, or anyone... the meaning of our lives is something that we make but don't see.

the meaning of my life is not something I should worryabout....... It's really what others think of my life or what I was able to do for them.

Fate is nothing

If your path to your fate is closed... open it with eyes and heart of determination...... feel the bright light of your future :)

Open the path of fate.... I don't belive fate if it's predetermined......

Focusing is the only worst thing I can't do squint emoticon

Thou art I and I am thou.... It's a represantive power from your inner mind

Wisdom is a product of logical rationality of doubtful inner self

Thee must know the fate....

I choseth my fate of thine own free will.....

I've made a "contract" with my inner self.... It's a determination

The only answer of your life meaning.... is the end

you'll understand..... Every things that live... will be disappear...

Find it.... the true meaning of life

Memories are ambiguous... Old ones can be replaced with new ones, creating a new reality.....

Man cannot face death without first finding meaning in life... But the world has realized that any meaning in life was lost long ago......

Every human being will become like "The Lost"... leading to the extinxtion of mankind, and the end of the world...........

Two in harmony surpasses one in perfection....

Death is not a hunter unbeknownst to its prey, one is always aware that it lies in wait. Though life merely a journey to the grave, it must not be undertaken without hope. Only then will a traveler's story live on, treasured by who bid him farewell. But alas, my guest's life has ended, his tale left unwritten......

I may discover an answer to my question...the truth of my existance.

The truth exist in the end..... lies between life and death

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Death is not a hunter unbeknownst to its prey, one is always aware that it lies in wait.......

Even if there was a thing as eternity, how would we ever know? It would be the same as if it didn't exist. ......

Die....... and the path will be closed

As proof of one's life, there exists death. This proof exists as a flame, painfully burning one's life away. Yet though a life crumbles to dust, time moves ever onward.........

follow your own path to seek the true answer of truth of your existance..... feel the severe struggle.....

He who had been your proof, your life itself...The answer has been lost, never to be found again..............

Tear up your fear The end is coming near......

You protected this empty, wavering world with your own hands So now just fold your wings and sleep peacefully........

Enveloped in eternal tranquility, love through all eternity

The Fall.... It's the end of everything

Death, is something you don't need to fear,,,,,,, Face the death, understand it, feel it.... it lies the true answer of your life

The uncertain, unforeseen, the unexpected...... It's not fate, It's a probability of life, the path you must choose......

Admit it..... face the fate of your own......

"Whichever path you choose, I will respect your decision. However, only you will bear the responsibility for your actions, no matter what end they may bring about."

"I chooseth this fate of mine own free will" It's a promise, it's a contract...... I'll bear it until my life is burned away

Agustus 2011

Well.... It's not the matter what will you do in this month, but what will you get.....

My own target..... Al-Qur'an research this month.... Its contained mysteries, its prophecy, its language, its meaning...... My brain + my mind..... Go!

It feels nothing......

something bothering my mind.....

What the.....!

Je pense, donc je suis.....

La mort est personnifiée comme figure anthropomorphe ou personnage fictif dès le début de l'humanité.......

Ealah.... pada nyari yg ceramah cepat.... apa yang kalian dapatkan di bulan puasa jika niat kalian sama sekali berbeda?

Well.... I'm a phropecy specialist....

You don't know the pain of the absolute death.....

Light versus dark..... Life versus death.....

Mencari kebijaksanaan..... mencari kebenaran.....

memento mori This is fate.....

You know something? Human is a foolish creatures.....

..... I'm back to my old self.....

I'm used to be alone.....

Tunjukkan bahwa kita semua bersaudara, luka mereka, luka kita semua...... Tunjukkan, tunjukkan oleh kita, derita yang ada, derita kita juga... Bersatu Indonesiaku! :)

Luka mereka luka kita semua..... Tunjukkan! Tunjukkan jika kita semua bersaudara!

Now I see....

Satu lagi teori mengenai Tuhan ku dapatkan :) Ku harap pencarianku tidak sia2.... aku gak mau beragama hanya karena dapat begitu saja dari lahir......

inochi kukumasake, yomotoko haido.. noshino nikawa guchi, sokoko raite.....

Inochi kuku masake yomotoko haido nosino ni kawakuchi so kakaraite Bersama rakyat negeri kami berjanji tuk selamatkan negeri ini dari sang tirani disini kami berdiri kan slalu bernyanyi dendangkan lagu revolusi sampai akhir nanti

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rakyat bersatu tak bisa dikalahkan 'kan s'lalu terus berjuang hidup adalah perjuangan melawan penindasan hidup adalah perjuangangan melawan ketidak adilan

Don't ever underestimate philosophy!

Sebuah kehampaan..... konsep ketiadaan dalam ketidakterbatasan kekuatan ruang dan waktu...... terasa

Tell your inner self.... you are NOT alone!

Sebuah ambiguitas makna dan konsep bergejolak dalam lautan jiwaku.... damn

This tears...... of loneliness

Human's existance is never without meaning...... I hope I'm still on the right path......

See? It's my own struggle.... no one would understand it I'm alone

Search for a wisdom :) Go go go

Gara2 aku belajar sedikit sejarah sihir kuno, tarot, myth, demon, dll, orang2 mlah jadi berpkiran aneh2 --" Padahal aku mempelajari atas dasar ilmu pengetahuan,

It's in me....

My only reason to live is to find for an answer..... of life's greatest question

Still.... I'm in the middle of 2 paths..... I'm confused, once, I still need a lot of learn This world contains too much and ambigous mysteries

Cahaya bulan menusukku, dengan ribuan pertanyaan, yang takkan pernah ku tahu, dimana jawaban itu.........

Do you believe in fate?

So that's it.... it looks like I've missed something in my theory

Filsafat oh filsafat.....

It's time to move..... If you believe in fate, then you have no future

So that's how it turn out...... I just don't want it become irrational

انا ملعلا فوسليف

Ealah.... dasar Islam, gak pernah 1 pendapat squint emoticon "Mereka" tertawa mlhat kita shalat idul fitri aja gak bsa bareng seluruh muslim.....

You know NOTHING of diversity.....

“Berpuasalah kalian karena melihat bulan, dan berbukalah (berhari rayalah) kalian karena melihatnya. Jika mendung telah menghalangi kalian, maka sempurnakanlah (genapkanlah) hitungan Sya’ban.” (HR. Muslim) Ada alsan kenapa pemerintah menetapkan ini semua kawan, jgn buat kesimpulan sendiri2..... lebih baik diam kalau tidak mengerti

Thanks to 'Kokopandaz Itu Koko, now I've completed my theory about diversity.... Kita hanya butuh satu persamaan untuk menyatukan berbagai perbedaan :) @vallery(sayang gk pnya fb).... kata2mu yg mengatakan itu smua filsafat menginspirasiku untuk memikirkannya lebih lanjut dengan cara filsafat :D

September 2011

Feel it, think it, learn it

Don't you notice it? Everything needs an end to have a beginning

Shalt thy path be illuminated throught the ordeal and propechies......

Lack of information and lack of patience of people throughout the world........ So that's how "they" planned all of this scenario, huh?

The struggle of my heart..... seek for a revelations.... for a truth

Who's God? What Its shape? Where is It? Some dumb questions.... well, can you answer it?

Hear the voice of your inner self.... feel it

dream requires and stern will and unfailing determination.

God doesn't allow human to know some secrets, huh? Then for what your brain is created?

The most profound wisdom...... hear it....in the whispers of the silent voice within ones heart

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well, kita lahir secara "tiba-tiba", dituntut untuk sesuatu secara "tiba-tiba", bahkan kita akan bingung knp kita bsa "tiba-tiba" ada di dunia ini dengan tuntutan-tuntutan yang jga ada scra "tiba-tiba" sebelumnya......dan kita tidak akan tahu "tiba-tiba" apa lagi yang akan terjadi pada hidupmu, krna kau tidak bsa memegang hidupmu secara penuh..... Dunia ini penuh ke"tiba-tiba"an.... kmu tidak pernah berharap untuk ada di dunia ini kan? Semua terjadi secara "tiba-tiba"......

Berterimakasihlah kalian semua pada setan dan iblis, tanpa mereka kita tidak akan tahu mana yang baik.... :) Karena mereka ada untuk menuntun kita menuju kebenaran,... Kita tidak akan pernah tahu mana yang benar jika tidak tahu mana yang salah kan? Jadi salah dan buruk itu ada untuk yang benar dan baik... Terima kasih oh setan :D

Manusia memang kreatif melaksanakan godaan setan, wah, wah

The only thing that alwayas ambigous to me is concept of mind and heart......

Once you have the courage to face doubt of your inner self, your path will find its bright guidance

Besok sekolah.... damn.... Aku masih butuh hari2 damai tanpa urusan sekolah....

Aku bertanya pada bapakku, "Pak, apa fungsi sekolah?" Beliau menjawab "sekolah itu utk lulus." well, itulah pendapat dari mahasiswa S3 manajemen pendidikan..... terasa agak sederhana, ternyata bermakna juga.... Think.....

Well.... my parents will go back to Sumbawa tomorrow....

Apa itu bahagia?

human beings are teachable, improvable and perfectible through personal and communal endeavour especially including self-cultivation and self-creation........

kata orang sempurna itu tidak mungkin, tapi apa salahnya mendekati sempurna

bagaikan limit mendekati tak berhingga........ Two in harmony surprass one in perfection...........

There's something wrong in my mind..... damn

Dengan senyummu, senjata membeku, tentara bernyanyi, ikuti tingkahmu tak ada lagi naluri menguasai, perlahan berganti naluri berbagi.....:)

.......silenced

complexitas menyerang lagi.....

Terkadang, hidup itu tidak membutuhkan tujuan, tapi membutuhkan makna :)

Kau mencari makna hidup kawan? Percayalah, kau takkan menemukannya, karena makna sesuatu hanyalah diketahui orang-orang yang merasakannya :)

لكم دين ولي دينكم Untukmu agamamu dan untukku agamaku :)

Sepertinya sejak dulu ada yang ganjel di otakku.... seandainya penghambat itu bsa hilang, pling tidak kecepatan berfikirku gak selambat sekarang squint emoticon Ayolah, berfikir, berfikir

Statusku smakin tak terupdate akhir2 ini,,, haha Gara2 kelas 3, aku terpaksa mngucapkan selamat tinggal utk sementara kepada pemikiran-pemikiran aneh dan kontroversial yang ku buat,,, :D

I'm the rationalist...... I'm the determinist.... I'm the phsycian..... and I'm the philosopher..... Brain is my sword

Do you know who I am? I am the Truth Seeker

Conspiracy Theory? I'd say goodbye buddy, I won't touch that topic for some month :) Don't ask me anyhing about that anymore

Oktober 2011

I'll show you what my mind can do!

Well, evertyhing's full of mystery, , ,

Kau tahu kawan? kondisi para generasi muda kita yang sedang akan menghadapi ulangan sejarah esok hari ini menggambarkan Indonesia besok saat menghadapi

semua faktor peruntuhnya..... :) As long as you have brain, no fear

Terkadang, semua akan terlihat jelas jika kita melihatnya dari aspek luas.... So, zoom out-kanlah pikiranmu hingga berbagai aspek

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dan hal dapat terhubung dan menghasilkan konklusi yang valid :)

Katakan padaku teman, apa arti sebuah kebahagiaan?

owh damn.....

karena hidup banyak rasa

every transaction in the world must sum to zero.....

Katakan mudah untuk hal yang dibilang orang sulit....

gain something, sacrifice something.....

The time when someone is falling down is the time when he forget his friends.... Don't ever shoulder everything alone.....

kejatuhan cicak, ditertawakan sampe nangis oleh Vallery Voantris n 'Kokopandaz Itu Koko squint emoticon

You need a weapon for all your life problem? It's simple buddy, power of ignorance.... :)

hey dude, do you want to know the greatest mystery in the universe? It's simple, your God

I don't think God goes arround damn people to hell :)

Now I realize something.... The hidden truth can only be seen by courage and bright light in heart :)

Ketika entropi tak lagi meningkat.......

Feel it..... something you never understand....

I don't think God goes around damning people to hell :) Why'd you so afraid?

Find it, understand it, feel it.....

aneh-aneh itanimulli.... besok aku buat namanya Indonesimulli :D

Don't you think life is ambigous?

This universe always needs a harmony, a balance.... That is why there's a law called The Equivalent Exchange :)

Oh sial.....

Pling tidak aku bisa membantu membereskan ruang ambalan sebelum diambrukkan.... mnyusun kmbali memori "Memories are ambigous, a new ones replaced the old ones, creating a new reality" - Pharos

If limit x approach zero of 1/x is infinity, then zero will be the initial, infinity will be the end, and one will be the God :)

Kesempuranaan sepenuhnya hanya ada pada pada perbedaan selaras..... layaknya yin dan yang, gelombang stasioner, hitam dan putih...... "Two in harmony surprass one in perfection" :)

Full of ignorance..... I always want to be

Now I've got another fundamental theory.... :) The theory of harmony perfection

Ex ratione causae efficens

Tuhan..... "Sesuatu" yang orang-orang bilang sebagai tempat mengadu, atau apapun itu..... aku rasa.....

Tuhan, ku merindukanMu

Everything should be balanced.... in harmony.....

Mau download film, tpi bngung film apa....

Human hearts are weak.... Human minds are pity....

Thou shalt hear the voice of thy inner heart.....

As foolish as you point it..... Human never want to admit it..... with this foolishness, an answer will come "two in harmony surprass one in perfection"

Fate, the bearer of cruelty..... Tell me buddy, do you belive in fate?

Making the wisest of decisions requires one to escape from the desires of temptation..........

Jadilah seperti gas mulia, :)

When one is plagued with doubt, it is hard to see what truly makes one shine......

November 2011

Savvy?

Apple of knowledge..... As I thought..... the boundaries is more than any human can imagine

It's all just illusion....all this world..... even the God itself hmm

If something would happen, so be it......

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struggling with my doubts...... Losing over self-confidence..... Leaving a twisted logic of mind.....

you believe it.... but you don't know it.....

Information..... another concept of souls.....

aw, forget it.... stucked at loneliness..... pure emptiness......

Damn it.... my old personality come back.... bring again a complete doubt and emptiness in my struggling heart.....

Again... I don't know which way I'm going, I don't know what I've become...

hmm...... thoughtless

Something doesn't feel right.

Feeling lifeless..... sucks.....

bangkitkan....

When the other men blindly follow the truth, remember, Nothing is True.

When the other men are limited by morality or law, remember, Everything is Permitted.......

none,,,,, nothing,,,,,

strange....

And.... in the end, we lie awake... and we dream to making our escape......

Limited by morality, traditions, law, and religion? Remember, Everything is permitted....

Niente è vero. Tutto è permesso

Remember amici, Nothing is true.....

as complex as your cell.....

Walaupun aku tak bisa merasakannya, biarlah orang lain merasakannya.... Tataplah kebahagiaan orang lain dengan kelegaan,.....

Matikan matamu, nyalakan hatimu.... Tutup telingamu, buka hatimu.....

I'm lack of self-confidence........

I don't feel anything.... It feels..... empty

Desember 2011

Dasar pemikir.....

I feel nothing..... It's really empty....

follower of destiny..... follower path of fate thou shalt control thyself, bringth the truth upon humankind....

oh sial, penyakit lama... squint emoticon

Dasar otak reptil

thou art I and I am thou....

Sloth... damn you!

C'mon dude, give me some idea and inspiration....

Every teardrop is a waterfall..... :)

WAKE UP HUMAN RACE. All of us are the brothers and the sisters. We have the power to finish all of the wars and the darkness. If we do not wake up, we will be too late and the darkness will arise...

I'll see a new sun rising..... new light new world... :)

In this world, there are strong men and weak men. Strong men take everything and weak men die..... Hmm.... close to evolution thory

Musuh dari musuhmu adalah temanmu.... :)

Every siren is a shymphony and every tear is a waterfall..... :)

As we saw oh this light, I swear you, emerge blinking into.....to tell me it's alright As we soar walls, every siren is a symphony and every tear's a waterfall...

Hear it, feel it.... every their teardrop is a waterfall

Death and all his friends.....

Thou, son of man, feelth thy power throughout you, faceth any destiny, change thy fate.....

HUMAN, such an arrogant creatures.... you have the power, but you still don't understand Only man with a pure eyes to face destiny can find a great answer of life's greatest question.... Remember, Nothing Is True

Teman dari musuhmu adalah musuhmu, musuh dari temanmu adalah musuhmu, teman dari temanmu

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adalah temanmu, musuh dari musuhmu adalah temanmu....

Nothing is but the truth.....

Every lie contains truth and every truth contains lie..... remember that :) In other words, NOTHING IS TRUE

Enjoy the moments you have together, because nothing lasts forever.... :)

If you want to fly, all you need is friendship... :)

The world is overflowing with many things, reveal every unknown to you...... I am but a seeker of truth

Sometimes hope can turn people into madness.... isn't that right buddy? :)

When other people blindly follow the truth, remember Nothing Is True. When other people are limited by morality or laws, remember Everything Is Permitted. We work in the dark, to serve the light.

Don't ever comment everything just with a mere translation.... It full of mysteries..... Like they said, every lies contains truth and every truth contains lie Remember amici, Nothing Is True

This world contains profound mysteries, You need to understand it, before believe in it..... Every truth just a mere imagination, , , , ,

well, it's really a "perspective"

I know the sun must "set" to "rise".... :)

Through chaos as it swirls, It's us against the world. :)

"For some reason I can't explain I know Saint Peter won't call my name Never an honest word But that was when I ruled the world....."

Hey everyone... don't forget to smile with each other, okay? :) Life will be more beautiful with every smile on everyone's face :)

So you can hurt, hurt me bad.... but still I'll raise.... the flag

The heaven is in sight..... :)

No one ever said it will be this hard......

I am Phoenix, and I'm searching for every truth in this cruel world. I am a truth seeker...... All knowledge, all wisdom, all truth, will bow down before me.....

You don't need a brawn if you have a brain...... remember.... brain defeats brawn

Inget tadi AMT, keynotenya ngomong mslah spiritual quotient dgn terbuka..... (yng ikut pasti tahulah mkdku) Padahal aku Islam, tapi aku benar2 muak saat dia berbicara mslah islam dimana ada "Tuhan" lain di ruangan itu... "Hey, mbak, apa kamu pikir semua orang itu Islam?"

Go and do what you need to do human! You have all freedom you need to do anything! You don't need laws, religions, traditions, or morality to limit your whole deeds!! Freedom is everyone's right, you know!! Everything is permitted, human! But in one condition.... don't harm the other's freedom............

We don't need any laws, religions, traditions, or morality.... because remember human, Everything Is Permitted

Leaving Bantul To dark, cold, rainy cruel world outside, alone. . . .

Bgtu smpe lmbok, aku lngsung brtmu hal yg tdak mngkn aku temui di Jogja, tpat d.smpingku Orang makan pke tangan kiri, hahaha Akhrnya aku kmbali k.pradaban yg dulu lg :D

Sucks, 3 hours floating on a tidal wave of sea. . .

It has been 30 months since I leave this city It's getting bigger

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Aku? Galau? kau bercanda?

God, the Answer now is all I need..... I don't need anything, just answer my confusion and question..... every riddle and mysteries You gave us, human race........

Hey Human! Smile while you can! Smile to everyone you meet, smile to each other, smile and give every happiness to every hearts in this cruel World.... Feel happiness together! Feel pain together...... WAKE UP HUMAN RACE! We must unite, to face this crazy universe, TOGETHER!

Swimming the sea faces.... tides of human races.....

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Empty...........? Phoenix always reborn everytime its spirit dies......

Va bene.....

forget and forgive :)

Well, well buddy.... home sweet home :)

Ada 3 cara untuk mencapai puncak pohon 1. Memanjat sendiri 2. Duduk di atas daun/batang yang lagi tumbuh 3. Berteman dengan burung

"Many ways lead to Rome" :) Dengarlah pepatah lama, Banyak jalan menuju Roma kawan, jangan terpaku pada 1 jalan

Death is personified as an anthropomorphic figure or fictional character from the beginning of humanity.

Belajar bagaikan menyusun rantai yang sangat panjang :)

Sebelum kau berharap memiliki kepercayaan orang lain, buatlah dulu kepercayaan akan diri sendiri :)

It's not about winning, it's about fun! :)

Tiada yang abadi... Dunia selalu berubah dan ditata ulang... Jadi tubuh dan bahkan kesadaran sebagai pribadi hanyalah ilusi...

Remember buddy, Enjoy every moment you have together.... because nothing lasts forever :)

Tujuan hidup adalah mencari makna hidup......

Belajar itu mengisi air ke sumur tanpa dasar.... tidak akan pernah berhenti :)

Best music in my ear this year: "Every teardrop is a waterfall" and "Paradise" by coldplay in their last album "Mylo Xyloto" :) It really inspirative!

Everything I know is wrong Everything I do, it's just comes undone

And everything is torn apart.... It's the hardest part.

Orang pintar tidak akan berhenti mempintarkan dirinya, orang kaya tidak akan berhenti memperkaya dirinya, orang yang bermimpi tidak akan berhenti menggapai mimpinya, orang beriman tidak akan berhenti memperkuat imannya.... itu sebuah pola kawan, utopia, jangan kaget melihatnya, itu hal yang wajar, kalian manusia :)

wake up human race.... Jangan melihat segala sesuatu secara sempit, jangan mendeklarasikan sesuatu tanpa fakta dan kebenaran, jangan melakukan sesuatu tanpa alasan, jangan berfikir dengan kesederhanaan, jangan maknai tiap kata dengan kebodohan!

Orang yang mengatakan Indonesia mengecewakan adalah orang yang hobinya kecewa :) Ayolah kawan, berfikir positif, jangan kebanyakan kritik, kecewa, mengeluh, dan lain2.... Jika kita ingin yang terbaik untuk Indonesia, just do it!!

2012, the beginning of the end

Once upon a time, we burn bright Now all we ever seem to do is fight On and on... And on and on and on...

Target 2012 : 1. Timeline umum sejarah peradaban manusia dari mulainya Bronze Age hingga renaissance selesai 2. Pemahaman kesalahan sistem ekonomi dunia selesai 3. Mampu menganalisa ilmu sosial lebih cepat dari sekarang (Just you see dad :), my skill's not just in exact science) 4. Berhasil mengontrol paling tidak 2 dari 7 musuh manusia (Pride, lust, greed, envy, sloth, gluttony, wrath) (ini yang tersulit) 5. Meraih inner peace (ini yang lebih sulit lagi!) yah, smoga tercapai.... Go on phoenix, reborn everytime your spirit dies!

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Januari 2012

Hey, I feel it, the peace in my heart, a moment :) So this is how it feel to hav an inner peace...... I like it :)

Well dude...... now it's really time to get serious. Tomorrow's the beginning of the Last semester and I'm still not completely prepared for the Final Exam.... Now phoenix, forget all your research, forget all your curiousity, forget all your endless thoughts, This is the time for FOCUS!

*sniff*.... masa2 pabrik di hidungku aktif berproduksi... sial *sniff*

Computer science, or Computer Engineering..... hmmm

Capitalism is the root of all evil in the world.....

Once upon a time somebody ran Somebody ran away saying fast as I can I've got to go... got to go

Kena sindrom berfikir lagi.... damn!

Don't you know, everyone, even everything always change......

This world is just a mere illusion....

Lari ada peningkatan jadi urutan 2 malah pusing siangnya, payah,

makin lama fb mkin sepi, pada sibuk belajar unas apa ya? ya aku jga kurangi ajalah.... mnghormati yang pada belajar :)

Confussion never stops....

All I want to be....living in perfect symmetry

It just for somebody listen into what you say.....

How can you know it if you don't even try?

Every step that you take Could be your biggest mistake It could bend or it could break But that's the risk that you take What if you should decide.....?

kenapa akhir-akhir ini sering pusing ya.... (dasar penyakitansquint emoticon, payah)

Apa ini cuma aku atau memang orang lain merasakan hal yang sama? Apa tiap orang akan merasakan seperti ada cacing menggeliat di otaknya ditambah dengan denyutan teratur di kepala setelah berfikir keras cukup lama?

Well,,,, now I'm stuck in my own dualism riddle of this world.... so many puzzles, so many mysterries..... so many truth

Learning how this country works...

Kita tidak tahu apa yang ada di balik pintu jika tidak membukanya :)

You want to be wise? then think... Philosophy is the god of knowledge, god of wisdom

Payah

Semakin lama semakin kehilangan keinginan untuk update status.... udah lama gak berfikir

People moving all the time Inside a perfect straight line Don't you wanna curve away

Reign of love I can’t let go To the sea I offer This heavy load Locusts will Lift me up I’m just a prisoner In a reign of love...

Locusts will Let us stop I wish I’d spoken To the reign of love Reign of love By the church, we’re waiting Reign of love My knees go praying How I wish I’d spoken up Or we’d be carried In the reign of love...

Februari 2012

You can climb a ladder up to the sun Or write a song nobody has sung Or do something that's never been done

Dan sekarang aku merasakan dunia di sekililingku berputar.... Oh god, what's happening to me?

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Trapped.... in this illusion....

Mendengarkan curhat pak ********* disaat kagalauan kami menatap cahaya senja menyelimuti pekarangan sekolah semakin menghilang di horizon barat, hanya sekedar untuk sebuah memori. Damn you "Godfather"!

I want to save this earth, this world, not in the name of God, not in the name of divinity, but in the name of humanity

Remember human! Religion divide us, but faith and belief unite us. So let's unite, in the name of humanity, in the name of this world!

fallacious arguments.... those who not understand...... Those who trapped in simplicity and illusion....

Well, well.... It's a memory

Now, it's time to move, for battle of illusion...... Recognize it, laws arise not from divinity, but from reason

For me, it's still the end of the beginning.... but for world, this is the beginning of the end.....

17 eh? oh damn, my time is running out.... Well, C'mon Phoenix, we don't hav much time left.... We must do! For our world, for humanity, for better future!

Oh damn.... apa gak ada kata yang lebih panjang dikit daripada "HBD"? HBD... HBD.. dan HBD....

Gak usah ngucapin klw gak niat... menuh2in timeline aja.

It's how to force.... and how to hold

Aw dude... Coldplay, you are very awesome! :D

argumentum ad ignorantiam, ab uno disce omnes

Right or wrong....?

From one person, learn all people.

Remember, all learn from one....

Remember, you are mortal...

Remember, everything's changed...

Remember, l'm losing doesn't mean I'll stop...

Remember, big gamble has big risk...

Remember, a man can always change his destiny.....

Remember, the sun always set before rise

Remember, your dream is your reason to live....

Remember, winner takes nothing.....

Remember, nothing lasts forever....

Remember, forget doesn't mean forgive....

Remember, this world is an illusion....

Remember, life is for living.....

Maret 2012

Remember, running away is not a survival.....

Remember, to live is to love.... and to understand

hmm, what a mess. I never thought I broke through right in the core of the pseudo-tornado yesterday. Glad I'm okay. It can be our lesson. Remember, nature gives what human give...

Happy brithday for Christopher Anthony John Martin (Chris Martin) in your 35. You're the best musician I ever know. Hope u with Coldplay can make more awesome music for us. I'll always be ur fans :D

Come on, remember, everything's not lost.....

Remember, love bounds you.....

Remember, to keep is more difficult than to get....

Remember, wisdom needs sacrifice and sacrifice needs wisdom....

Remember, God understands us.... If not, then He is not God.

well, I'm glad I've been recovered from my ill. Just "hold" my healthy condition as long as I can. Remember, life is a cycle of good and bad....

For years I learned conspiracy just from books and internet. And yesterday, I've seen it with my own eyes. What a f*ck! Remember, a smallest seed can always be a biggest tree.

Facts are always different than the ideals.... Remember, this world is not as beautiful as we think.....

Like what crusader said.... Remember, always speak truth even it means your DEATH.

Remember, your fate and future is not predetermined......

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Remember, beyond the relative always lies the true absolute....

Remember, time is a cruel changer.....

Remember, to find the one true path one must seek guidence admist uncertainty

Now I see its true meaning, Remember, We forgive, for give and we forget, for get.....

To give is the opposite of to get, then forgive is also the opposite of forget. So remember, if you don't forgive then you must forget and if you don't forget then you must forgive.......

What a persepective things..... Remember, every lie contains truth...

Now it comes to my mind again.... Remember, social links are the base power of your mind....

One advice for any conspiracy researcher or truth seeker... Remember, every truth contains lie and every lie contains truth... o be wise is to recognize and understand every truths and lies you get....

Now I'm learning the past for the future.. haha Remember, learning history means learning uncertainty....

Believing in fate will give me nothing I guess... hmm... Remember, it's for you to decide, viva la vida or death and all his friends... Memento mori o humana!!

Beyond the absolute end, lies an unpredictable path Beyond the beaten paths, lies a glimmer of hope Beyond the destroyed hope, lies a drop of tear Beyond that drop, lies a huge waterfall of will and determination. Beyond that waterfall, lies a bright future. Remember, light in thy heart is thy only guide to walk through dim paths of life.

Well, sometimes we didn't recognize the limitless power we have... Remember human, we're not animals...

At least, that's what I learned... Remember, lack of information can turn your emotion to uncontrolled.

It's not about where you will go, but it's about how you go there... Remember, better lost with honor and justice than win with disgrace and dishonor.....

It's all about your honor and meaning as human! Don't make yourself as animal by disgracing every deed you've done. Remember human, even at our most powerless, human's existance is never without meaning!

well, it looks like some people didn't fully understand some of my status... Maybe I better write the meaning for my every status Remember, human's perspective always creates thousands meaning.

Sorry for my thousands meanings status update guys. I just don't want my facebook wall become a wailing wall (Tembok ratapan) like jews. My wall is a reminder wall, a wisdom wall..... Remember, I'm a philosopher....

It's about how to hold thyself.... Remember, just do what you need to do, speak what you need to speak, and think what you need to think....

It's the most difficult and the most wanted thing in my life, wisdom.... the highest degree of knowledge Remember, be an owl...

It's disappointing, just few people realize the true essence of knowledge.... Remember, no knowledge is useless.....

well, let's call it a day... Remember, life is a cycle of black and white, good and bad, fall and rise, yin and yang....

It doesn't matter how long you will keep, it's always changed... Remember, faith and trust is your life force in society....

same destination, same reason, same target, different everything... that's unity Remember, your true power comes from colleagues with whom you share your ideals.....

Everything must have a reason.... that's how nature works Remember, we all are part of a system, part of a plan...

It's how you decide things.... Remember, fight uncertainty with flexibility......

Damn, this problem won't end softly I guess... Remember, faith and trust is the most powerful weapon of your heart....

Hey you "maha"student (LOL)!, Can't you just sit and watch with faith and positive thinking to goverment? You make riots with the name of intelectuals, but you all do all those riots like u don't have brains. Remember, deeds represent thoughts.... what you think shape what you do

Do you remember why we are different? because our intelect, our brain differ us from other creatures.... but I

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think the reality is far away from the ideals...... Brain is misused.... Remember, Brain defeats Brawn....

A word or two, my friend There's no telling how the day might end And we'll never know until we see That there's gold in them hills..... So don't lose heart Give the day a chance to start :)

Nothing matters Except life and the love you make....

Untuk semuanya... Ingat, orang yang mngatakan bahwa Indonesia mengecewakan adalah orang yang hobinya kecewa.... :) Indonesia gk akan maju jka orang yg berfikir positif terus berkurang :)

wah payah, kasihan demokrat.... (salah sendiri main politik) Ingat, ada 2 pembual dan pembohong pling besar, politikus dan pengacara....

akhir-akhir ini wallku jadi gak "bersih"... pyah... dlu aku pke status rumit berbahsa inggris, gak ada yg intervensi, skarang mlah pada mainan di wallku squint emoticon Back to old self again I think, think with complexity and enjoy the abstraction.... then anyone won't distrub...

Don't ever underestimate the power of knowledge.... Remember, complex exist from the simple and simple exist because of the complex....

Aw, why I never have a period of liberty of my "carrier"? Remember again and again, life is a cycle of virtue and evil, black and white, yin and yang.....

we live in liberty, do anything we like, because we have the full control of our lifes. Yeah, Everything is permitted.... But remember, don't ever disgrace your degree as human and the essence of humanity.....

April 2012

*whistle*..... too much perspective.... Remember, your thought represent your world you see.....

If you really realize it, number is the only absolute guidance in your path..... Remember, the infinite is imaginary and irrational number.... Ad infinitum et absurdum! So, everything must have an end

See! It's really number I can't see.... Damn, the essence of number is too hard to be thought as a firm understanding. Remember, the signs and guidances are all over around you.... only those who have determination can see it

Well, there's so many things in this world I don't know yet... too complex, too vast, too wide..... celeberate its magnificence, its brilliance Remember, more things you know, more stupid you feel you are....

Well, this will be the last time I log on facebook 'till next week.... Hocus pocus phoenix, Focus! No thoughts, no complexity, no curiousity....and... no emotion. Thy path will be opened with guidance.... thy determination will light upon streets of mind and time..... follow it o seeker of truth. Thou shalt get what thee deserve. Remember, what u get depends on what u give.......

One statement for UN.... "Come back!! and I'll destroy you again!!" --(N-gin)-- Let's celebrate our liberty :D

Well, I hope it will be a nice holiday :) Too much task to be done.... Make film, research some issues, create a history timeline, end some game, watch some anime, study for more knowledge, bike for health, practice music...... et cetera, et cetera..... And thanks for 2 movies, 1 dinner, and 1 film survey "adventure" for Sasongko and Vallery.....

Hey human, do you want to know the most crucial and important things in this world? It's Information.... Only those who hath determination and a brightful heart can understand the true meaning of information and knowledge.... Remember, what you know shapes what you see....

Be an owl doesn't means u must wait forever.... Do small things is part of do big things... It's one way progress. Remember, every existance is never without meaning....

Be a chandelier of hope, light up every dim souls from eternal darkness of solitude and sorrow.... Guide thy own path with bright glimmer of determinations and dreams.... then guide the other... Remember, better protect the small glimps of hope than curse over the darkness in vain.....

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Truth... sometimes hidden in an abstraction of complexity, waiting for the lighten ones, the true seeker come...... only those with clear and clean faith of mind can understand its presence. Allow me, the truth seeker, to begin my journey for you..... Knowledge, Information, Wisdom.... all contains truth. I pledge my oath for it

Every one have its own ideals.... its own world....

We have liberty but we don't see it, we have time but we don't use it, and we have love but we don't feel it....... Liberty, time, and love.... provide your life to have its meaning....

The good thing about science is that it's true whether or not you believe in it.... Truth is one.... and absolute....

Everyone's opinion is just a relativity persepection.... blur the true color of the truth... Well, just imagine so many colors combined together, all you get will just a black and dusty color...

We must use the ideal ways to develop practical ways.... Be flexibility......

"Tiba-tiba langkahku terhenti. Sejuta tangan telah menahanku. Ingin ku maki mereka berkata, Tak perlu kau berlari mengejar mimpi yang tak pasti Hari ini juga mimpi, maka biarkan, ia datang di hatimu" --Ebiet G.Ade (Camelia II)--

Power of Destiny, eh? I understand now.... It's an odd of change. It's the foundation of your deeds....

Somehow, I felt something I can't understand.... It's like... a new candle of hope light up far beyond our future. I'm glad seeing it. Light of reliefness and determination flows in my mind. All this time my thought always full of the fact that our future doesn't have much hope. But I know it's wrong.... Remember, don't ever curse the darkness if a glimmer of hope still exist.....

We were born to fight and we will die with honor.....

Mei 2012

Knowledge is power... too much and too great for human.... that's why religion limit your mind by "believe"..... Now it's makes sense... But unfortunately, vast majority of people don't understand the true essence of knowledge. Its power to destroy, or its power to help Yet, because of it, many common people are so easily "fooled" by the intellegence....... believing what they shouldn't believe Remember, knowledge is power, and every power needs responsibility to use it

Weak mind, less control.... strong mind, full control....

That's 'thing' inside thee..... What thou call it "emotion", what thou mention it "desire"

This is Fate, not a mystical higher power, but a system created by human's hands....

It's obvious now, It's not like our destiny or fate are predetermined, it's all a system created by human.... No mystical power controls our fate.... it's all on our hand. But abstractly, it's like a web with so many influence of millions people. Even our actions just influence small factors of our own fate with some complex chain of reactions of people's actions.

It's complex, but now I understand, how "Fate" works.....

The fundamental theory is that everything MUST have a reason,

The only way to predict our future is by shaping it ourself.... Manipulate the chain of reactions in a predictable sequence with limitaion of choice and factors... and voila, we control our fate. It's hard to do it anyway, u must be an expert strategist to make a plan to shape our future properly by synchronize every factors of millions people in a great web of destiny. And you know what? the only one who can do it perfectly is God :) But in my research, human can do it too... of course, with intelligence.... that's why Knowledge is always be a greatest power.

heh, as I predicted before, understanding is better than believing........ Believing is for something unseen, something abstract, and something that out of possibility..... At least, now I understand Fate with some logical explanations....

The sign that I couldn't read, or a light that I couldn't see, some things you have to believe, but others are puzzles, puzzling me........

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Still.... mysteries really won't leave us

Kita bisa berpengetahuan dengan pengetahuan orang lain, tpi kita tidak bisa bijaksana dengan kebijaksanaan orang lain..... Because you just can lead anyone to know, but you can't make him think... Find your own wisdom human..... But do it with faith and guidance will come upon you and light your way to a bright hope.

You can exit your fate human.... you can escape from every destiny that awaits you.... but remember, you change your fate means you change the other's too. Remember, Fate is a huge great web of everyone's choices, influences, and possibilities....

Life is for living... so live up your life human :)

We live in a beautiful world.... :) Even the imaginery can be counted... the true essence of math

you live with people,... so ur success depends on the people, or how u interract them.

X and Y..... The land, sea, rivers, trees, the stars, the sky That and this.... We're part of a bigger plan Don't know what it is

You can take a picture of something you see In the future where will I be? You can climb a ladder up to the sun Or write a song nobody has sung Or do something that's never been done.....

You are wise if you don't think you are wise..... Remember, wisdom is abstract perfection of knowledge...

Mysteries are all around you, giving you meanings of life.... Even what happen a second later is still a mystery... That's why everyone, remember, mysteries won't leave us, never.

Nobody is innocent.... even a sheep watching 2 wolves fight each other is guilty.... Remember, in a great web of destiny, a little deed can influence a big effect....

The moral of any story matches the temper of the man who tells it... well, that explains the variations of story in history..... We can't avoid it

Assume every person have at least 10 different paths, and assume in an isolated area, there are lived 100 people... That made 10x100 possibilities of that area fate... Imagine it in this world, millions of people with

hundreds choices of life paths, that made a very huge abstract web of fate.... That's why religion forbid you to think it, or at least question it.... It's too abstract and complex to be thought by human. Just believe in it :)

men's struggle for peace is only and always be a journey.... it's never be an arrival. But at last... you can have the smallest peace exist.... because you can love

Someimes hope can drive people mad.... That's why even hope must be controlled in our deepest mind.

"My name is Ezio Auditore. When I was young man, I had liberty but I did not see it; I had time but I did not know it; and I had love but I did not feel it. It would be thirty long years before I understood the meaning of all three."

3 good news today... but... it's not totally good. Still out of my hope, but that's okay, I won't regret it, life goes by.....

"How could I regret the only life I ever know?" -- Altair Ibn La'Ahad, The Master Assassin –

Don't tallk big about fate.... it's too complex for you to understand... Just do what you think is right, and let the great webs of destiny react your deeds with some kind of chain of reactions, result in one event and destination.... Thought that the variables of this equation is way too many, the possible future created will be many too.... That's why future is not predetermined, there is no fate.

"you won't know what will gonna happen 'till you try it!" What is predetermined fate for then? :) Future is virtual multiinterpreter human.

My journey won't reach its end.... Thought that this is an endless flow of process, I just do what I think is right. I am seeker of truth....

Do you need some guidance? Then find the answers in your heart, hear the most profound voices in your deepest maze of thoughts.... Thou shalt find thy path :)

Brain defeat brawns... That's why strategy is always needed, not only depends on power....

"To defeat 20,000 army with just 2,000 army, we need the right strategy" --Apple, Suikoden 2--

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Orang berani bukanlah orang yang tidak memiliki rasa takut, tpi orang berani adalah orang yang tidak pernah memikirkan rasa takutnya :)

Two in harmony surpasses one in Perfecion....

The balance of the world is the its true soul,

black and white, night and day, good and bad, yin and yang....

Juni 2012

You live in universe, so u must obey the law of universe.... You live with people, so u must follow the way of the people... You live by the God, so u must do everything in the name of your God........ You're not alone human, u must obey and follow the way of your surrounding.

Magic is just a science which we don't understand yet... Remember, everything must have a purpose, and a reason...

Seeing the past... feeling nostalgic... Ternyata aku udah seperti ini cukup lama, aku bahkan tidak mengira SMP sdah mulai berfikir akan kompleksitas dunia :) I was.. and always be a lone philosopher

Thanks to the vast wonderful world that gives us life, and keeps us guessing... The essence of mysteries... is not the solution, but the way u solve it. U just can keep guessing, wondering, suspecting, every complexity and beauty of this world... Remember, mysteries won't leave us

Feel free to use ur liberty, as long as u hav it.... But remember, u live with people, so ur liberty will be limited by the ways of the people :)

simplicity is the source of complexity.... a great complex tree of life, must be based on one simple thing.... That's why everything in this world must be connected somehow, nothing is totally different or opposite.... even religion, magic, and science hav a connection. It is all united in one fundamental simple thing.... God

U can climb a ladder up to the sun, or rather song nobody has sung, or do something that's never been done... Do anything outside of ordinary.... because normal is boring.

I'll leave bantul.... :) Goodbye everyone

buset dah, gila pisan euy hidup di bandung, ayak2 wae Makan ama Jundy Makhshuddien, batagor 10rb, mie ayam 12rb... Bisa tekor aku mah lama2 hidup di sini squint emoticon

Keliling2, jadi hobi naik angkot nih :D dan gramed Bandung trnyata lebih gede daripada gramed jogja.. #puas lihat buku-buku

Lari keliling Saraga 13 menit baru 5 putaran, aduh... Pdhal harus 6 putaran 12 menit bsok. Capek skaligus seger :)

Bener kata Jundy, di Bandung entah knapa mngalami dilatasi waktu, sgalanya terasa lama disini....

Belum 1 minggu disini, sandal udah hilang di masjid wktu shlat magrib squint emoticon

jalan2 di area car free day smpe dpan gdung sate. Rame bgt euy, ada smacam sunday morningnya ugm di sktar gedung sate.

time to get serious....

For few days, I left my complex thoughts somewhere in the mazes of my mind.... but now, it all haunt me again, remind me about this vast wonderful world of mysteries..... The world that I can't leave, the world that I can't enjoy... the world that I need to reveal....

Now I missed my old self... I must get free from this 'illusion' as soon as possible. Time can't wait.

Damn, what kind of sickness is this....

That's it....proof of perspective ambiguity in human's mind.... We can't avoid it... we live in thousands worlds of image and perspective

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Walau mungkin sebagaian dari kata-kata itu merupakan kutipan, yang terpenting dari pengarsipan bukankah pengabadian memori dan informasi? Walau juga mungkin semua ini tidak akan berarti untuk kebanyakan orang,

tapi yang terpenting terkadang kata-kata yang terlepas itu memiliki makna tersendiri yang juga terkadang mengingatkanku akan banyak hal yang sering ku lupakan. Meski hanya rentetan status-status, semua ini tetaplah

karya. Dan bukankah karya sekecil apapun harus bisa dihargai dan diapresiasi?

(PHX)