Morning Star: Chapter 3

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3. Winning & LoseMY TEAM MATES ARRIVED AN HOUR LATER; WE STARTED WARMING UP SHORTLY

after. I had almost forgotten to take my medicine before running onto the field. Along withthe medicine, since I was only living off of human food and not blood, I was weaker. With along drink of water after taking the meds, I ran onto the field to join them with their pre-game warm-up. It consisted of simple exercises such as stretching and lunges--which werent ateam favorite, then followed by kicking the ball into the large net.

My aim was flawless, I never missed. By now people knew to get out of the way when I kicked

since you might end up hurt. It wasnt something to be proud of; at the beginning of theseason Id seen one too many bloody noses...I cringed at the thought, and my mouth slightly watered.

The fight I had gotten into with Jacob was constantly popping into my mind, and Idesperately needed to get the issue off of my mind. I narrowed my thought to the game. To


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me, the principal of winning wasnt very important to me, but it was to my team and theydesperately wanted to win this, they counted on me.That aspect made me ten times more nervous at every game.

The referee blew his whistle to start the game. To me, it sounded as if a child with a very high

soprano voice was screaming in my ear. It momentarily stopped me from moving.Before the game started they announced that this would be the championship game since itwould be pointless for both teams to play again. It was guaranteed that we would bothadvance and play in the final for first place.Great more pressure I thought to myselfI gained possession and quickly made my escape towards our oppositions net, I gently kickedthe ball and it flew like a fire ball into the net--front right and center. I felt bad for theirgoalie.The crowd cheered to the first goal of the game. As I was running back I noticed Johnnycheering at the score keeping table, smiling and waving once he saw that I was looking at

him--I waved back.

Like our two previous games, the points just kept pilling up on our side of the board. Whenthey called a time-out our coach told us to go easy, so we did. I graciously let them have theball and didnt go too tough on them on the defense. It didnt help their score as much is Iwould have suspected, they only went up by three points. Yet, I had noticed a seriousimprovement in my teammates performance. They were all pushing themselves, more then Idever seen us. The result was clearly shown in our score.

Half-time soon rolled along, and we went back to the locker rooms for a short intermission.

Just as I was entering I saw my three fans looking above, still cheering. I looked away,embarrassed, and followed my teammates.

What a game girls! Every single one of you is playing amazing! I saw the University scoutsup in the stands and they seemed very impressed! Im so proud of you girls she encouraged.Lets win this for Nicole! she cheered, then we all followed.She went off to take a phone call, most likely from the scouts.Most of the girls continued to chat and gulp down massive amounts of water. I sat down inthe corner and checked the messages on my phone. Eight total, five of them from Jacob sayingsorry, the three others from my family wishing me good luck; Alice again ruining it by hinting

who would win.You never knew--her visions were subjective after all.

Our coach passed by and sat down next to me.Good game Renesmee, I think your playing one of your best games. I just got off the phonewith the scouts and their saying that youre the one theyre thinking of giving one of thescholarships to she emphasized. These our big schools Renesmee, and your family would be


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so proud of you. Keep playing as well as you are right now and youll definitely get it! Shepatted me on the shoulder and went to talk to the other girls.

Knowing that I was definitely in consideration for a scholarship to one of the big universitiesand colleges in this country would normally make someone jump for joy or want to perform

even better, but it didnt for me. I felt like I was cheating, as if I were using anabolic steroids.It was unfair to all the other girls who were working so hard, putting much more effort intothis then I was. For me to accept the scholarship would be incredibly selfish, not to mentionId feel guilty all the time.I also knew I could also receive scholarships for my good grades in everything, that too wouldbe unfair.

We continued the second half of the game with more of a difficulty. They had definitely uppedup their game. I did the same, I focussed on keeping the ball in my possession and do my best

to pass it around to the others. My tactic worked, all our opponent were mostly covering meso I could easily nudge the ball to my teammates so they could score. After a while it startedto get tiring, and boring--score after score.Nessie, remember go easy...go easy I continued to tell myself.For the last rotation I sat out, and the opposing team managed to score one last time.

The crowd was full of excitement, and they never seemed to stop cheering--it was a neverending cycle of screaming. The ending buzzer was even louder then the whistle, I felt as if myears were going to explode. It seemed like I was the only one being affected by the earsplitting sound. The crowds cheering didnt help my condition either.

My head was pounding. It reminded me of the actions that the jackhammers made whilehitting the pavement. I could feel a major headache on the way. We lined up into two parallellines, preparing to hand out the player of the game award and the first and second placetrophies.They started with the loosing team. They handed the player of the game award to this reallytall and thin as a rail girl with short blond hair. She looked as if she just walked off a runway,modeling some fashionable soccer uniforms. She seemed like somebody I wouldnt like;snobby and a definite attention seeker. Following, they handed the trophy to the coach andtheir team captain.

I zoned out for about three minutes while they were giving out the medals. I was lookingaround at the hanging banners that surrounded the oval shaped arena, dating back from theeighties.For the Forks High School team, the player of the game award goes tooRenesmee Cullen,center forwardThe sound of my name snapped me out of my temporary, conscious coma.


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I jogged to the head and accepted the medal. I was uncomfortable accepting the award. Thereferee slipped the bronze medal then the gold medal around my neck. The metals were coolagainst my skin, making me shiver for a moment.She will also be accepting the trophy as team captain with coach Erin Hope. he spoke intothe microphone. The sound echoed and bounced of the walls making doubling the sound. He

handed both of us the trophy. Congratulations he said as he was shaking both of our hands. Ijust stood there with an uncomfortable smile.

Pictures followed, too many pictures for me to counts and for my liking. The press, theparents, everyone. As soon as that was over I rushed to the locker room. The cheering followedme, everybody was holding up their medals in pride. Letting it shine in the dim light.Congratulations girls! This just put the cherry on top of a great year! I cant believe how farweve gotten, and Im immensely proud of every one of you. Everybody put their all into this,and you all deserve this trophy as much as anybody else. she laughed. How about we gocelebrate and grab a little bite to eat--well put it on the schools card! She continued,

finishing off with a little giggle to her last words.

We were all still hyped up as we were getting dressed. I shook my hair out of its ponytail andquickly sneaked out of the changing room. I didnt have a strong desire to stay for a quickbite, but I would probably be forced into it by everyone, more so since I was the captain. Atleast my head ache had started to fade partially.

Nicole hadn't passed my mind threw the whole time, and I felt bad for not even thinking hername. I desperately wanted to visit her in the hospital and see how she was doing--I wanted toknow if she remembered anything from her attack. I also felt partially responsible for her

getting hurt in the first place.

I walked quickly, looking down at my feet. Id accidentally collided with Johnny as I wascoming out of the locker room.Oh. Im sorry he apologizedIts fine, I really should be looking where I walk--Im such a klutzHe chuckled. Congratulation of your win, you played great!I smiled with the corners of my mouth, and I nervously played with my fingers behind myback Thanks...oh and your score keeping was totally pro--You should do it for a living Ijoked.

He laughed again Ill definitely look into thatYou should come grad a bite to eat with the team, Id be fun. Come on, a room full ofteenage girls. Im not a guy but that seems like a big go ahead for guys I suggested, deepdown I really wanted him to come. Ive see it on TV I added with reassurance.

Im not like most guys, Im more of a one woman guy. But sure, sounds good. Do...Our conversation was interrupted by my parents walking in. They both hugged me togetherand congratulated me. The congrats seemed like it was on repeat, and the thank-yous kept


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coming out of my mouth. I noticed my mom looking at Johnny, curious to find out who hewas. I briefly introduced him just as I had before with my dad.I quickly noticed that somebody was missing.

Wheres Jake? I asked, looking around.

Hes outside, he still thinks that youre mad at him. My mom murmured.I rolled my eyes, was he that immature that he couldnt come over and talk to me? Im notmad at him, Im just slightly ticked off. Anyway, the teams going to get together to grab abite to eat, you know, to celebrate... Is that okay?

Sure, we will just leave to go home later on my father answered.Johnny interrupted If youd like, I could drive Renesmee back home instead of you stayinghere. I wouldnt mind at all

My father looked down at my mother; I could tell he had some doubt. If it was up to him

alone the answer would be No, but because my mom was there to fight for me, there wasmore consideration. She looked at him and give him a look telling him to go easy.Only if you dont mind Johnny, it would be very nice of you she gratefully accepted. Wellbring your stuff home with us, I guess well see you when you get back homeYup, and dont worry Ill be safe. We wont be back late, I promise. Ill see you two later Ismiled.

They walked away hand in hand after saying goodbye. They were at the door when I heardmy mother say quietly, a human wouldnt be able to hear from this distance, Edward, shesnot a little girl anymore, we dont have to hold her hand all the time. Trust her, give her a

little more space. Shell be fine she reassured him.I was surprised by her comment since usually my mom was more protective then my dad was,maybe it was because I was with a guy?

We arrived at the restaurant at the same time as the rest of the team, they had the eight tableset up for us in the far part of the restaurant. We sat at the same table as Julie, Amy andKendra. We ordered some appetizers to share and a few drinks. Amy was gushing over

Johnny, but he didnt seem interested although he went along with it. I wondered why, Amywas one of the prettiest girls and Id heard shed kissed almost every guy at school. Even after

a few drinks we could hear the parents were having fun, laughing loudly at jokes that werenteven humorous.I left the three of them alone for a while when I went to personally congratulate all the othergirls. Most of the graciously accepted it and said it in return, the bitter ones would say thank-you and look away.I was thankful I wouldnt have to see them again.


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Soon everybody had to start checking out of their hotel rooms and heading back to Forks. Wemade our escape right after that.I was starting to miss Forks, yes, if that was possible? It was home and where my family waseagerly awaiting my arrival. I figured they had already arrived.Then I thought about Nicole again. She was one of my best-friends and it would be nice if I

visited her. It would give me a sense of relief to realistically see that she was fine.Hey, do you mind if we take a little detour, I just wanted to visit Nicole in the hospital, to seehow shes doing I asked, nervous that I would impose.Not at all he graciously accepted and changed his direction. He must have been here beforesince he knew how to get to the hospital.If you dropped me off on the corner of a street in Seattle or any big city I would definitely getlost. I just wasnt used to the hype and craziness of the big citys. Again, It reminded me that Imissed Forks.

Johnny waited in the car while I went inside, I told him I wouldnt be long. The hospital was

crowded, as I passed by the rooms that lined the long, white hallway all the beds were beingoccupied. Maybe something was going around, like the flu or something I thought. I didntponder on the thought for too long. I arrived at the room with the 23 written on the door, thiswas the one the nurse at the counter had told me she was in.I quietly opened the door fully, it was half closed. Nicoles mother was sitting in the corner,sleeping soundly. She had bags under her eyes, she mustnt have had much sleep last night--too busy worrying about her daughter.

Nicole was awake on the bed, her back was propped forward, fluffy pillows were supportingboth her head and back. She was reading a book, Romeo and Juliet; we had an essay due in a

few days and she hadn't even finished the book. Typical, I though.Hi I whispered quietly, careful not to disturb her sleeping mother. I also noticed that thesecond bed was occupied by another sleeping patient.She slightly jumped Oh, hey--I didnt hear you come in she had the same level of power invoice then I did. To my eye she looked much better then the last time Id seen her, anddifferent. Maybe it was because she wasnt covered in blood.How are you doing? I noticed that her leg was uncovered by a blanket. Her entire leg hadbeen plastered into a Plexiglas cast. Her night gown covered the bandage that was surelywrapping her wound. I could see minor scratched covering her arms, and one on her forehead.Im doing okay, I feel a lot better though! My doctor is totally Dr. Handsome! I mean not as

hot at Carlisle, but pretty close. Oh wait, it must be weird for me to say that your dad is hot?Anyways... Ooo, by the way do you have any lip gloss--I want to be prepared when he comesback to check up on me she asked. Right away I could tell she was back to normal. I laughedand dug threw my handbag, finding the cherry lip gloss at the bottom then gave it to her. Shegenerously applied it to her lips then smacked them together. Thanks


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Being careful not to disturb her fractured leg, I sat at the foot of her bed. So, do youremember anything that happened last night? Anything at all? I asked, trying to put at leastsome pieces together to this complicated ordeal.

Just by her facial expression I could see that it hurt her to remember. I told your brothersome of what I remembered earlier, but now I have some more she told me

I was on the balcony finishing up to talk with my mom. I stayed out there for a minute, justlooking out because it was really beautiful. There werent any lights, it was practically pitchblack. I couldnt see anything. Something just zoomed by me, it made me step back. I lookedaround to see if it was still there or if it was just me.

Then something pushed me...hard, against the wall. I hit my head and then it was hard tosee, I felt so dizzy. Thats when I fell on the table and it broke. I screamed. Then you came. AllI really remember that happened between then was all the blood and how much my leg hurt,and that there was like, a dark figure standing over me. Oh and, I remember your dreamybrother carrying me downstairs

I nodded, trying to piece everything together. What could have done something like that? Iasked quietly, more to myself then to her.I have no idea. If it was a person, which Im pretty sure it was, how did they get up there?she asked to herself, not expecting an answer.And what did they want?We both just sat there, thinking. Then Nicole asked another question, she never really wasgood with silence.How did the game go? Did you guys winI pulled out the medal that was tucked underneath my shirt. Her mouth made the circular

shape of an O and mumbled oh my god. You guys won! she cheeredWe won I corrected, putting emphasis on the we. Without you we couldnt have gottenthat far. Your good spirit helped us I continued. Before I forgot I took the extra gold medal inmy bag that belonged to her. ...and this is yoursHer O got even bigger as she saw the gold medal shine in the light. I never thought Id everget one like this. For all the years Ive played, I never got medal. Because of you I finally gotmy chance! she raved as she held out both of her arms in front of her.I got up and bent down to hug her. Hospital rooms were so cold, her cool skin startled me asher arms rounded my neck.

I should go, let you get some more rest and finish your R & J essay I whispered as I got upIll see you when you get back to Forks, call me when you get there. If you need anything,dont be afraid to call, kay?Ill be fine Renesmee. Thank-You for everything by the way. Oh, can you do me one lastfavor; tell Mrs. Payton to give me an extension on the essay?I quietly giggled Sure, no problem. You just get better. ByeBye!


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I gently closed the door half way as it had been when I had arrived. Family members crowdedthe rooms on the floor, many of them looked distressed. The elevator was full of people,including doctors and nurses. The main floor had the same look as the other floor. A stretcherwith quickly passed by on their way to emergency, stopping me in my tracks. The body waslimp, lying on the stretcher. His skin was fair, almost white. Scratches leaking blood covered

his arms. I held my breath afraid if something would happen. To look at the cold frail bodygave me chills.

The lobby was filled with patients walking with IVs attached to them or wheeling themselvesin wheelchairs. Guests gulping down hot coffee, nurses and doctors on their breaks and newmothers smiling down adoringly with their fragile, new born babies wrapped up like burritosin thick blankets.

Clouds had grew darker. When Id first entered, it had been only a slight drizzle. Now it waspouring with thick water drops. A light mist was present in the cool spring air. Johnny had

pulled up as he saw me exit the building. I quickly opened the door and got inside, gratefulthat I was dry. He had the radio softly playing in the background. How did it go? he askedas I clicked the seatbelt and he gently pressed onto the gas pedal.Fine I answered wryly She told me what happened, well at least the portion that sheremembered. Im just glad that shes feeling betterWell, thats good. Does she know when shell be back to school? he asked. I was glad that hehadn't asked me what shed told me that had happened last night. I had a strong compulsionthat it was best if I didnt tell people the truth. By Nicoles expression, I dont think shed tellpeople too.No, she didnt mention anything on the subject. All the talked about was how handsome her

doctor was I giggled shyly.Those doctors, always get the ladies he joked, making me giggle even more.

The drive was quiet, occasionally wed talk and ask each other questions that we hadn'tthought of previously. Johnny had popped in a mix CD of his favorite songs into the new carstereo. I had to admit to myself that he had great taste in music, and Id ask him the namesand artists from the songs. Figuring that I was asking for the name of every song he offered toborrow it to me. Of course, I didnt refuse his offer.

His truck ran at a decent speed, but it was nothing compared to any of my family cars.

Although it was enjoyable to be able to really take in the scenery around me instead of seeingat a hundred miles per hour. The music was just loud enough to mask the quiet rumble of theengine. Although I kept my eyes either on the road or outside the window, I had caught

Johnny looking in my direction a few times with the corner of my eye--smiling shyly thenlooking back towards the road.

Once we had approached the last traffic sign telling us that Forks was a few miles ahead, heasked me where I lived. I gave him quick directions, pointing out where we had to turn when


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we approached. We neared the corner of the unpaved, unmarked stretch of road that leg to myhome. I think he found it odd how I lived so far out of town, and on an unmarked road, buthe didnt comment as we turned.He continued driving down the road until he saw the house that was in view behind the tree.His jaw dropped as he saw its size.

By now it was pitch black outside, the rain had followed us here. The lights were on. To mysurprise I didnt see somebody spying out the window.This is a beautiful home he remarked as he parked out front. Lights flickered on the frontporch as the car had completely stopped. Then I saw my fathers figure then followed by mymothers by the window, looking down.

Thanks for the ride home Johnny, I really appreciate it I thanked him with a grin.Anytime, it was my pleasure. The ride back was funner with a road companion anywaysI unbuckled my seat belt and leaned over the seat to hug him.

I leaned over and grabbed my hand bag that was at my feet then opened the door. Ill see youtomorrow at school! I called as I was outside the truck about to close the door.Yeah, see ya tomorrow he called back, with a smile stretched across his face.The door closed with a loud thump. I waved from behind as I lightly jogged towards the frontdoor not wanting to get too wet.

The door was unlocked. Once he was sure I got inside he left, circling the driveway and drovedown the dark road that was only illuminated by a few lights along with way.I kicked off my wet sneakers and hung up my damp jacket. Before I headed towards the livingroom, where I guessed everybody was, I locked the door and turned off the porch lights

making the dim night look even darker.

As I entered the living room my mother was nagging my father about something, it seemedlike the whole conversation had recently started...you told me that my truck would never work again she nagged And now I see it workingperfectly!My father couldnt help himself from chuckling Love, I never said it would never work.Besides I wanted to buy you a new car. One that you could rely onI held up to be acknowledged. What are you guys talking about? I asked with a hint ofconfusion.

They both turned to face me, almost as if they hadnt notice me come in.Its nothing honey my father said before my mother interruptedActually, that truck that your friend just drove you in looks awfully like my old truck when Ifirst got here. See, Charlie got me an old, beat up Chevy that Jacob had rebuilt the engine.

Just before we got married, it broke down on me and she paused as if she was leaving out adetail and your father got me a new car, to be specific one that wasnt even being sold or legalin the country yet she continued. My father started laughing under his breath and walkedtowards the couch and sat down. I could tell that this was going to be an interesting story.


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He said it was the before car she said adding the quotation marks with her fingers Thenafter the wedding, and we came back from the honeymoon and of course had you, I got mynon desired, flashy after car being the Ferrari in the garageSo...what does this have to do with Johnnys car? I asked trying to relate this to the

conversation.She paused for a while, putting her hands on her hips Did he say when or where he got thecar? she asked, herself putting together some pieces.I thought about what hed told me about his car He said that his dad bought it a few yearsago from a used car dump, Im guessing probably around here. Him and his dad completelyrebuilt it with a new engine, some new paint, a new stereo because it was ripped out andreupholstered the seatShe sighed in content Well, well, well. Dont you see Edward, thats my old car! See I toldyou! she bragged from being right. He just sat there and sighed.Mom, how can you prove that its yours, any old truck like that would have to be rebuilt I

commented.

Because of the stereo. It wasnt...working so I had to take it out and I never got it replaced.Besides, what are the chances that you find a fifty year old red Chevy truck around here sheanswered in a mater-o-factly fashion. Its fate, really she joked and giggled as she went overto the couch to sit beside my father. As he put his arm around her she sarcastically asked Iwonder how much hed want for it? Maybe I could trade him the Ferrari?!

I smiled at her joke, wanting to see how my father would react to her wanting to trade in apractically new and gently used Ferrari for an old Chevy truck.

I sat across from them in the leather arm chair, pulling up my legs and tucking them to myside.I went to visit Nicole this afternoon I said wryly, not exactly sure if it was the best thing tosay.It caught both of their attention. How is she doing? my mother askedShe looked a lot better then yesterday, and she told me she felt better I explained She saidthat she found her doctor very handsome I added, smiling at the comment that she had madeto me earlier.

Did she tell you anything about what happened last night my father asked seriously. To look

at him, he looked very tense but my mother didnt notice it from his grip on her.I hid my thought to the back of my mind No, she didnt tell me anything I lied asconvincingly as I could.He dropped the subject and nodded, almost relieved that she supposedly hadnt told meanything. I was also glad that he did believe me, and hadnt found the truth by reading mymind.


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I yawned widely, and I felt my eyes getting slightly heavier. I think Ill go to bed now, Impretty wiped from this weekend I murmured as I got up from my chair.Okay honey, you sleep well tonight my mother was at my side the next instant kissing mycheek. Good night sweetheart

I picked up my handbag that I had left at the foot of the stairs and quickly climbed bothflights of stairs that led to my bedroom.

My bedroom light was on. Nothing had changed since the last time Id been here. My luggagehad already been put away, I knew this because my suitcase was put away in its designatedspot in my closet.My pajamas were already laid out on my bed. I stripped down and threw my clothes into thehamper.A pair of pajama shorts and a white T-shirt was all I needed, none of the fancy silk nightgowns

that Alice had gotten me.As I approached my bed I saw that there was a little note that had been messily folded fourtimes over itself. My name was written on its surface in Jacobs hand writing.

I picked it up and kept it in my left hand while I pushed away the thick duvet so I couldsqueeze between them. I carelessly unfolded the paper which had many creases.At the beginning, there was a lot of the text that had been crossed out and difficult to read. Iskipped to where the writing was legible.

Look, Im really about what happened this weekend. I realize

I was being a jealous jerk...well your mom told me but Ifigured she was right, shes always right.

Im really sorry Ness, and I wanna make it up to you!We need to talk, and Ill explaineverything

Jake

Beside his name was a little smiley face that hed drawn. As I leaned over to put the note in

the drawer of my bedside table I thought about the last line.Ill explain...everything. Those three words scared me, thinking about all the possibilities thatit could mean. I tried not to think about it because it would undoubtedly make me restless.

I must have been more tired then I had realized. I fell asleep within minutes.It wasnt long until I could feel a presence looking over me. The presence kept me safe andprotected me from bad dreams that would creep inside my mind.


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As I slept deeply, I could still feel the ice cold hand that brushed my cheek, carefully strokinghis thumb to sweep the hair away from my stone carved features.

I had the oddest dreams. Usually, I was seeing what was going on threw my perspective but

tonight I was overlooking myself. Maybe that was the weirdest part, that I could see myselfand not be able to control my actions. As if I was under control.I was wearing a long, silk ivory gown with thin delicate lace straps that draped down my body.It resembled much to a night gown that was hanging in the depths of my closet, but hadnever even thought to wear. My long brown curls with the hint of red flawlessly fell down myback and over my shoulders.

I was slowly walking threw a meadow of delicate flowers mixed with different hues of violets,pinks and whites. The sun was faintly glowing in the sky, almost as if it were approaching thesunset. The scene looked absolutely marvelous, just like an oil painting that belonged in a

fancy Paris museum.I was looking to the earths floor as I stepped barefoot on the crisp green grass, sweeping thebottom of the night gown as I passed. Between my fingers was a white rose, the pedals werebeing plucked off one by one. I saw my lips slightly move every time a petal was taken off, asif I was saying something, but it couldnt be heard at the distance that I was overlooking.

When all the pedals had been taken off, Id crossed half of the meadow. I dropped the stem ofthe flower to the floor and waited, not moving an inch. From the looks of it, I could read thatI had made a decision.The sun had set, one again the nights darkness came to pay us a visit. The only light was

being provided my the full moon above.Suddenly, something moved from out of the woods, slowly walking towards the center of themeadow where I stood.

From its outlining I could have easily recognize who the mysterious figure was. Solely wearinga cut off pair of jean shorts he approached quicker then before when he saw the smile on myface and the little nod. When he was finally at my side he carefully picked her up in his strongarms and kissed her.

The figure was Jacob.

I was awakened by the sound of the doorbell downstairs. I wondered who it could be so earlyin the morning, it must have only been six am. The door opened and closed downstairs, andquiet chatter that I couldnt quite hear clearly. Maybe it was Charlie?I turned around to face my alarm clock and suck in a breath when I saw the real time. It wasalready seven forty-five, an hour later then I was supposed to get up. I was momentarily angry


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that my mother hadn't came up to wake me up, as well as wanting to crush my alarm clockfor not going off. I quickly got up and rushed to the bathroom.As I was splashing water on my face and getting ready to brush my teeth, somebody knockedon the door.Come in! I yelled with the toothbrush in my mouth.

Julie walked in and found me in my bathroom. I guess someone got up late this morningshe said, it sounded like she was on the verge of laughing her guts out.She more then anyone knew that I absolutely hated being late for absolutely anything.

Can you do me a favor please, can you go in my closet and pick me out something to wear.Go to town in there, I dont care whatever you pick is all good! I asked as I spit in the sink. Isaw her expression in the mirror and it was priceless. She looked like a little kid that wasanxiously awaiting to go into the candy store with endless amounts of money. Okay! shechirped.

I quickly ran the brush threw my hair and figured that I was having a bad hair day since it justwouldnt cooperate. After struggling for too long, I gave up and pulled it up into a pony. Iswiped the mascara brush along my eyelashes and put a hint of pink lip gloss on my lips tofinish.When I walked back into my bedroom, Julie was walking in with a pile of clothes, a smilestretched across her face. I hope you like this!

It wasnt that bad, Alice would be proud I thought as I looked at myself in the mirror beforewe left. Shed picked out skin tight black pants with a white tank top and black leathercropped jacket. Of course, she had to add the high heeled ankle bootie. The only thing I

dreaded about it was the too tight pants and the shoes that were going to make me scream bythe end of the day.She threw me my school bag and we were out the door a second later.

As we went down the stairs she gawked as she was looking around You know, every time Icome here, it seems like this house it getting bigger and bigger! she commented.As we neared the corner to the kitchen I waved goodbye to my parents that were both sittingat the table, with their prop coffee mug and the newspaper.Dont you think you should eat something? my mother asked as I rushed towards thegarage door.

No, Ill be fine! See you two later! Oh, Ill be a little late tonight--I have to do something Ishouted as I closed the door.Love you both I thought, hoping that my father had heard it.

As Julie walked across the extensive line of cars, she struggled to keep her mouth closed. Itwas time for my good deed of the day.I cant drive in these heels, do you want to drive? I asked as I giggled the keys in my hand.


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Her face lightened as she heard those words. Are you serious?! I couldnt, its your car and Imtoo scared that Id break it she stuttered.I tossed her the keys and went to sit in the passenger seat Take chances once and a while!She didnt have to argue. She immediately got into the drivers seat and put the car in the

ignition. As soon as the garage door opened, she slowly drove out.

If I thought I drove slow, she was practically a snail. I hoped that maybe Charlie wouldnt pullus over for being excessively slow. Although, I bet she was only driving like this because shewanted to make sure she didnt break the car. That was the last of my worries, I was moreworried on not making it to school on time.We finally pulled into the parking lot with a whole seven minutes to spare. It was starting todrizzle, we both made our way quickly inside to start our day.My feet were already starting to hurt.

Oh boy, this is going to be a long day I mumbled under my breath when I was sure thatnobody could hear me.

Thankfully the day had passed by quickly. I handed in my Romeo and Juliet essay that Idfinished a week ago and politely asked for an extension for Nicole which was sympatheticallyaccepted by M. Payton. At lunch, I ate more then usual since Id missed breakfast. All myfriends got to know Johnny as he had lunch with us. The guys even invited him to go see amovie in Port Angeles that evening.We were mentioned in the morning announcements for our win this weekend, and they just

had to mention me. I could feel the blush come to my cheeks as everybody looked at me inPhysics.

After school I left right after the bell. As I drove threw town I called my mom to remind herthat Id be out late, telling her that Id be at Jacobs if she needed me. By the tone of her voice,I could tell she was surprised that I was going to visit. I was grateful that she didnt ask for myreason to visit, but she probably had the feeling that it was for him to apologize.

Before heading out of town, I stopped at the grocery store to grab a few things. I never wentto the grocery store often, other then picking up the odd thing that I needed, but never a big

list. It took me some time and asking employes were I could find everything.

I wanted more then just talking to Jacob about what hed done this weekend as an excuse so Idecided to cook Billy and him dinner. The two lacked good cooking skills, they always ravedwhenever theyd come over for dinner. I hoped Id learned enough from watching Esme cookand cooking channels that I could make then a decent meal. Seeing how much Jacob ate, Imade sure I bought more. I felt bad for Emily who would cook for all the boys. As I laid out


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everything on the counter I reached for a candy bar and put it with the rest of my things,knowing that it was Billys favorite.

The cashier was a young girl that I recognized from my French class. I wouldnt have knownher name if she didnt have a name tag. We both said hi, but that was it after she told me the

total. She gave me a weird look of She thinks shes so cool when I pulled out the gold creditcard that my father had given me. To my knowledge, nobody else in our school had a, or manycredit cards. I left as soon as the transaction was complete with the three bags, my heelsclicking against the laminate flooring, everybody looking back as I passed by. I felt my cheeksflush.

I was so thankful that Id hidden a super secret pair of flat shoes in my car for cases were Iwore heels for too long and was on the verge of wanting to rip off my feet.The familiar drive to La Push was calming and relaxing. Id called their house when I washalfway there, I hated to just barge in. I talked to Billy, Jacob was in the garage working on

Julie car and he was definitely looking forward to me cooking their dinner.I passed the Third and Second Beach where Jacob would take me when I was younger, andstill now, the first was a little ways away at the edge of town. It was filled with amazingmemories or watching the crashing waves coming to the shores, bonfires with the rest of thepack, exploring the tidal pools that were spectacularly beautiful, and collecting seashells andthe interesting rocks that I encountered on the sandy rocky beaches. I noticed Embry andQuil, Jacobs friends and fellow pack members, walking towards Embrys mom store. Ihonked and waved when I zoomed by, in my rearview mirror I could see them wave back.

La Push was almost my second home. It brought me peace, joy and relaxation. The thick air

filled with the smell of the pacific ocean and cool air blowing against my skin was so calming

The small red house behind the tree off of the 101 highway was in view as I parked in front.The garage was out back, and nobody had poked out to see who it was, that is if they heardme; my car was practically silent and Jake always listened to music while he was back in hissanctuary as he called it.

I grabbed the plastic grocery bags from the back seat and made my way towards the rampthat led to the front door. From the window I could see Billy watching their small television,holding a beer in his left hand. I transferred the bags into one hand and knocked on the door.

Come on in! he shouted. I fidgeted with the knob until I could open the door.The first room I entered was the kitchen that led into the living room. I set down the bags inthe kitchen then went to see Billy.Hey Billy!Hey there kid, what have you been up to lately? Its been a while he said with his deep rusticvoice. His hair was black just as Jakes, but his had grey streaks. He had skin just like his sontoo, slightly darken though and with age detail. His deep brown, almost black eyes could tellstories. He took another swig of beer waiting for my response.


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Ive been good, busy with soccer but good. How about you?You know, same old, same old. Its hunting and fishing season, which is like Christmas for meand your granddad he enthused; almost every weekend during this time or year, theyd goout and bond over fish frying. Speaking of fishing, how did your little excursion go lastweekend? he asked, unsuccessfully trying to stop himself from laughing. I guess the news had

spread.It was...interesting, thats all I can say but I bet Jake gave you an ear full. I better startdinner I murmured as I walked back into the kitchen.

Speaking of, what are you making us? Is there anything I can help you with? he askedturning around to face where I was standing.Lasagna, and other then your amazing skills at taste testing, no. You relax. Do you wantanother beer?No, Im still good. Good call on making Jakes favorite. Just call if you need anything. Oh,and between you and me he whispered Im glad your here, Jakes cooking is shameful he

laughed as he wheeled himself back to the TV.

I prepared the meat sauce first, trying to remember all the spices to put in. After that it waseasy. Laying layers of noodles, meat sauce, cottage cheese and spinach, with extra cheese ontop wasnt exactly a hard skill. The big heavy pan, looked like it could have fed a small army. Iset the oven at the correct temperature and put the timer for twenty-five minutes.I put the key lime pie that Id bought for desert in the refrigerator and prepared the garlicbread. I loved garlic bread, but Jake would always make fun of me just for the combination ofgarlic and vampire. Id correct him by saying half vampire.

Im gonna go out back to see Jacob. If I dont back before the timer goes off, just tell me Idirected as I put my leather jacked back on, I could hear the rain hitting the windows.Sure, sure he said casually still paying attention to the television.

I ran to the garage where I could hear music playing loudly and tools being used. Jacobs car, ared Volkswagen Rabbit that he proudly rebuilt, was parked out front. For once he was wearinga shirt and actual jeans. He was leaning into the hood of the Honda coop. I kicked a rock tohis feet to get his attention as I walked in.Embry, I swear if thats you again Im not answering your stupid babe survey I gruntedwithout looking back.

I giggled quietly Its not Embry, and I dont have a babe survey? for you I muttered. Hefroze for a moment to the sound of my voice then turned around. He looked as if he wasshocked to see me, or as if I was a ghost. What are you doing here? he askedDid I really need a reason? I told myself.Im honoring my word on helping you with the car. I knew your just aching to have a goodlaugh and tell Billy about it so he can tell Charlie. News flies fast around here I joked And...Igot your note. On my pillow. Smooth


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He put down the wrench he was holding on the towel hed laid out with all the others. Iwasnt expecting you to come. I was a real turkey jerky he chuckled. I couldnt stop myselffrom sneaking a little giggle.I took a step forward and sat down on the crate beside him. You were. Although Im happy

that you realized it without me telling you. Just...stop worrying. You know your my bestman I looked at him with the corner of my eye. He sat down on the other crate and I couldsee his eyes widen in what looked like joy along with a shy smile.I could never stay mad at you for anything. Just remember to turn down your jealous radar,okay?He pulled his arm around me and squeezed me against his chest, moving me slightly from myspot I promise! Im just glad your not mad at me

We, well he continued to work on the car. I tried to fulfill my word by helping, so he put meto work by handing him the tools he needed. Meanwhile, he explained me as simply as he

could what was wrong with the car.Billy called after a while telling me that the timer had just gone off. We both directedourselves towards the house.What is he talking about? Jake asked and he pulled my arm to slow me down.Youll see

We walked threw the threshold and the wonderful rich aroma of marinara sauce and spicesfilled our noses. Jacob followed me into the kitchen to see what exactly I was up to. As Ipulled out the lasagna with bubbling cheese on top, he licked his lips. In the other room, Billywas already setting the table for three. As I set it down on the counter and put the bread in

the oven he looked at me with a look that said, You shouldnt haveI answered his question I wanted to do something nice, and cooking for you two seemed likethe perfect idea. Besides, I never get to cook for other people, its a treat for me too

He picked the lasagna with the oven mitts and started to bring it into the dining room, beforehe left he looked back and muttered Youre amazing

We all enjoyed our evening munching on the delicious food that Id made, and that I wasproud of and talking. Billy brought up the topic of Charlies birthday which was quickly

approaching in the next week or so. Over desert we started making plans on a surprisebirthday party. We decided that we should get Sue in on it so she could help. Planning a partywith Billy and Jacob was much easier then with Alice and Esme, everything was Sure or Yupinstead of how about thisBilly offered to take Charlie out for a day of fishing while I would prepare his house for a smallget-together. He started calling out names for the guest list, most of them Id heard of beforebut a few that I hadn't--I just guessed men that were on the police force.


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Throughout the whole thing, Jacob mostly stuffed his face with a second piece of key lime pie,occasionally nodding.

After doing the dishes, Jake and I excused ourselves, Billy had already gone to contact theguests to advise them of our little party. It only accrued to me then that like my mother, he

didnt enjoy parties. I told myself it wouldnt be that bad since it would be his close friendsand family.

We went back to the garage where we continued our work on the car. A thing he rarely askedme about was school, but he happened to today. I mentioned that I had a few tests at the endof the week and that there would be a dance on Saturday, of course that I wasnt planningattending.What are you talking about missing it? he asked, slightly upset that Id chosen not to go.Well...I haven't gone to all the others, better just go with the flowHe put down the wrench and wiped his hands on the towel. Come on Ness, you gotta go. I

though dances and stuff like that were supposed to be exciting and fun for girls your age?!I sighed I guess Im not like all the other girls...But I felt like I was giving in If it means somuch to you Chief, Ill go--But only if you go with meHe reacted oddly, much better then Id thought. A smile stretched across his face then herelaxed and answered cooly Fine, if thats what will make you goIf I didnt know better, Id say he wanted to go with me. Odd.

I better get going before it gets to late. I have an early dismissal tomorrow so Ill come overand swing by I murmured as I wiped my hands on the towel that was attached to Jacobsbelt loop.

Sounds good! Dont eat lunch though, its time for me to show you my amazing sandwichmaking skills he laughed, without getting up from under the hub.I got up and walked over to his back and looped my arms around his shoulders and softlypecked his cheek Bye Jakey, get some sleepBefore he could turn around I was already on my way towards my car. Suddenly my heartstarted beating even faster, and that odd spark went threw my spine. Then as I turned the keyto the engine, it left as quickly that it had came.

The sun was slowly setting on the horizon between the trees creating a beautiful mixture of

oranges and purples. Everything was exactly the same when I arrived home. My mother was instudy working on the computer. I knocked on the door before entering since it seemed as ifshe hadn't heard me.Sorry Im late I whisperedShe closed the window on the screen and turned around. Dont be sorry, its only nine. Whydont you come and sit, I need to tell you something she said as she gestured to the chairbeside her.


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I swiftly walked over to the chair and sunk into the maroon leather chair. What is it? Did Ido something wrong? I asked, starting to think if I had broken or done anything wrong.No, nothing like that she laughed Your dad and I are going away for the weekend,throughout Friday to Sunday. We should be back by Sunday early afternoon. So, youll bealone

I couldnt believe what I was hearing. They were leaving me alone? Never had they left mealone before, nor did an opportunity ever arose. I figured that since everybody was gone, thenthat really left me alone. Instead of acting like all other teenagers at this opportunity, I stayedcalm.

Although, I hate to think of the idea of you being all alone in this house. Why dont youinvite a few of your girlfriends over for a girls night? Only if you promise their will be nopartys she taunted, well-knowing that I would clearly never do such a thing.

After thinking about her suggestion, it sounded perfect. The spring dance was on Saturday,

and all my friends were planning on going. Id invite Jennifer and Julie over for a girlsweekend and we could get ready for the dance together. I puzzled over including Nicole in thewhole thing, but I doubted shed go since she had a broken leg; thats if she was out of thehospital by then.

That sound good, I could invite Jen and Julie over. Theres a dance on Saturday that theywant me to attend, we could all get ready together I left out the part about me bribing Jakeinto going so I would go.Then its settled she smiled. I cant believe your going to the dance. I didnt think you likedthose?

I sighed Im like you were mom, Im not big on the dancing but it will make my friendshappy. Oh, and before I forget. Billys and I are planning a little surprise party for Charliebirthday on Sunday. It would really suck if his own daughter wasnt there to suffer as well IgiggledYoure right, it wouldnt. Ill be there, and make sure to make it extra horrible she mimickedmy laugh. It was odd how we sounded so much alike.

I stretched my arms and a yawn broke out. I think I better go upstairs and get ready for bedbefore I pass out here, Im so beat I yawned again.Go ahead sweetheart, Ill be upstairs soon to wish you goodnight

I nodded and made my way outside. I hadnt noticed until now that my father was missing. Itdidnt look as if he was here, all the rooms were unoccupied and dark, and I doubted he wasupstairs. I shrugged and figured hed be in the cottage.The cottage is quite a distance away from the main house, set in the middle of the forrest. Itswhere my mom and dad stay, a present from Esme for my mothers birthday and conjoint witha wedding present. I used to live there also, but eventually I grew too quickly for the smallbedroom.


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My pajamas were folded exactly where Id left them in the morning. I walked into thebathroom and splashed warm water on my face and let my hair out of its ponytail. The curlsfell to my shoulders; now they wanted to cooperate. When I walked into the closet to put myclothes in the hamper, I found the tornados path of destruction. Shirts, pants and otherarticles of clothing were everywhere. Maybe it had not been the greatest idea to let Julie

explore my closet. It was too much to handle, even for me. I should have seriously consideredto put up a sign indicating: Beware to enter.

I threw the pile of pillows off my bed to the floor and crawled between the layers of sheets andblankets. Normally before going to bed Id read or write in my diary--but tonight I was justtoo exhausted. Maybe a week long break from school would do me some good. Before I couldlay my head down, a soft knock on the door interrupted me, and the door opened. Mymothers head peaked in threw the small space and then quickly came to my side and satdown.Goodnight sweetheart she whispered as she looked down on me with a soft smile and

moved the strand of hair from my face and stroked my cheek with her soft thumb. Thecoolness of her skin against my warm skin was now normal, no longer did it make us bothreact.I love you mama I whisperedI love you too she paused before continuing More then my own life she recited the wordsthat were inscribed in the gold locket that hung everyday from my neck. She softly kissed myforehead and stepped outside the room.

I turned to my other side and looked outside. The dreamcatcher that Jacob had given me formy birthday three years ago hung by the window, exactly where the moon was placed. As I

started drifting to sleep, her words kept repeating in my head.

...more then my own life

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