jansuR korZaia

rCeuli lirika

Tbilisi

2002

Tanamedrove qarTul poeziaSi

filosofiuri lirikis SesaniSnavi

warmomadgenlis jansuR korZaias rCeuli

Sedgenilia avtoris mier wina wlebSi

gamocemuli krebulebis (`Sen ukve Sen xar~

_ 1998w., `es saukunec~ _ 1988w., `jer

mxolod erTxel~ _ 1989w., `kvlav vibadebi~

_ 1990w., `im dReebis qronika~ _ 1992w.,

`Semodgoma-1993~ _ 1994w., `balada gia

abesaZeze~ _ 1995w., `azris monologebi _

1997w~., `saukunis dasasrulTan~ _ 1998.,

`Sen Cemi sxva xar~ _ 2000w.) bazaze.

redaqtori naTela xurcilava

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jansuR korZaias poezia

jansuR korZaiam qarTuli poezia

`daamZima~ bevri iseTi filosofiuri

problemiT, romlebic manamde TiTqmis ar

dasmula CvenSi. amiT, man, SeiZleba Tamamad

iTqvas, axal simaRleze aiyvana erovnuli

filosofiuri lirika, gulisa da grZnobis,

fiqrisa da ocnebis quraSi gamoatara goni

Tu logosi, gansja Tu sazrisi, yofiereba

Tu gaucxoeba da yovelive es gaiazra,

rogorc TviTon ambons, `zRapris logikiT~.

swored am `zRapris logikam~ gaxada

SesaZlebeli is, rom uamravi axali

mxatvruli saxe, Sedareba, metafora, epiTeti

gaCeniliyo mis poeziaSi. mkiTxveli rom

davarwmunoT naTqvamis WeSmaritebaSi,

ramdenime magaliTs gamovyof sagangebod:

`Sen miabijeb _ uTvalav mzeSi,

ulurjes mwuxrSi, uTeTres TovlSi,

Seni xilvebiT savse sivrceSi

da Seni ltolviT frTaasxmul droSi~

(`ver damimoneb~)

an

`anTia gremi qedanis ferSi,

mwuxris fers erTvis

nangrevis feri~

(`gremi~)

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jansuR korZaia is poetia, romelsac

xelewifeba TviT urTulesi filosofiuri

sakiTxebic ki araCveulebrivad martivad,

sadad da saCino mxatvruli ostatobiT

gagvixsnas.

urTulesi sakiTxebi-meTqi imitom

vTqvi, rom mis poeziaSi dasmulia iseTi

maradiuli filosofiuri problemebi,

rogoricaa: vin var me, rogorc adamiani,

raSi mdgomareobs adamianuri sicocxlis

sazrisi, aris Tu ara igi Semecnebadi,

arsebobs Tu ara RmerTi, ra aris goni,

gansja, goneba, suli, ocneba, fiqri. saiTken

midis kacobrioba, anu rogori iqneba misi

xvalindeli dRe, ra aris siyvaruli, raze

fiqrobda hamleti, marTali iyo Tu ara

eklesiaste, ra aris, visTvis arsebobs da

visTvis ar arsebobs dro da sivrce: ratom

dakarga samyarom goni da SevZlebT Tu ara

gondakarguli samyaros wvdomas. ratom

awamebs adamianebs gaqrobis SiSi da riTi

unda gadalaxos igi?

es CamoTvla usasrulod SeiZleba

gagrZeldes. es xom swored is sakiTxebia,

romlebic WeSmarit filosofoss unda

awvalebdes, aki ambobda kanti: filosofosi

is ki ar aris, vinc filosofia icis, aramed

is, visac samyaros arsSi Cawvdoma surso.

TviTon poetis mixedviT, filosofoss unda

hqondes dauokebeli survili `samyaros SreTa

aswios farda~, imavdroulad `awamebdes

gaqrobis SiSi~:

`mainc gawamebs gaqrobis SiSi

araraobis pirdapir dgaxar,

gawamebs pirvel da bolo fiqrSi

Seucnobeli: vin xar da ra xar?~

(`ver damimoneb~)

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diax, Seucnobelia adamianisaTvis: vin

aris an ra aris igi, magram amis gamo am

kiTxvisadmi interesi jerac ar ganelebia da

arc odesme gauneldeba (sanam igi

Semmecnebeli arseba iqneba). es is maradiuli

kiTxvaa, jer kidev sokratedan rom iRebs

saTaves (`Seican Tavi Seni~) da dRemde modis.

jansuR korZaiac ar Ralatobs tradicias da

masTanac adamianis Semecneba dgas rogorc

problema, rogorc kiTxva:

`arc araferi vici,

arc imedi maqvs ramis,

ver gamovtace dro-Jams

saocnebari wami

da Seuwyvetel fiqrSi

mawamebs sulis gminva

viT daumcxrali eqo,

vin var, vin var da vin var?~

(`warwera kantis `wminda

gonebis kritikaze~)

es kiTxva laitmotivad mihyveba mTel

mis poezias. sakuTari `me~-s, sakuTari Tavis

Semecnebis problemebis mxatvrul gamosaxvas

didi adgili eTmoba mis leqsebSi. pirveli

rac adamianma icis Tavis Tavis Sesaxeb, is

aris, rom igi iseTi arsebaa, romelsac ar

asvenebs Tavisi sicocxlis sazrisis, sakuTari

`yofnis fesvebis~ Secnobis survili, anu

samyaros uRrmes SreebSi SeRwevis survili.

da mxolod maSin, roca adamiani am survils

aRisrulebs, roca misi azri da gansja,

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fiqri da ocneba sinamdvilis dasabams, anu

samyaroseul pirvelmizezs miagnebs, adamianic

miwvdeba Tavis Tavs, amoicnobs da gaigebs

sakuTar `me~-s.

es Zieba dagvirgvindeba imiT, rom

poeti Cawvdeba samyaros arsebas, dainaxavs,

rom am samyaros RvTiuri gangebiT qmnis

adamianis azri, fiqri, ocneba, gasja. gvxiblavs

poetiseuli qebaTa-qeba azrisa:

`Sen qmni samyaros! RvTiur gangebiT,

azro, da naTlis svetad enTebi,

da elvareben Seni taZrebi,

rogorc samyaros everestebi~.

(`me Cems Tavs veZeb . . .~)

tradiciuli Temebidan j. korZaias

SemoqmedebaSi pirvel rigSi Semodis

samSoblos siyvarulis Tema.

saocrad amaRlebulia j. korZaias

SemoqmedebaSi qarTuli enis motivi. misi

RvTiuri warmomavlobis xotba marTlac rom

galobasaviT Caesmis mkiTxvels. poeti

gveubneba, rom pirvelad iyo sityva da es

sityva RvTis sityva iyo (`pirvelTgan iyo

sityuai da sityuai igi iyo RmrTisa Tana, da

RmerTi iyo sityuai igi~, ioane 1.1). rogorc

am pirveli sityviT iSva mTeli samyaro, ise

qarTuli sityvidan iSva sruliad

saqarTvelo.

diax! swored am RvTiuri qarTuli

sityvidan iSva saqarTvelo, radgan qarTuli

enis wiaRSi aris davanebuli qarTuli sulis,

qarTuli azris, qarTuli fiqris saidumlo.

aseTia qarTuli ena, rogorc `gulis,

grZnobis da logosis triada~. swored man _

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qarTulma sityvam Sekra qarTul miwad es

qveyana friadi. `kiTxulob am striqonebs da

gagondeba giorgi merCules sityvebi `grigol

xancTelis cxovrebidan~, sityvebi, romlebic

qarTuli enis udides rolze miuTiTebs

qarTveli eris Camoyalibebis saqmeSi:

`qarTlad friadi qyeyanai aRiricxebis,

romelsa Sina qarTuliTa eniTa Jami

Seiwirvis da locvai yoveli aResrulebis~.

Tavisebur, SeiZleba iTqvas erTgvar

filosofiur gaazrebas iZens j. korZaias

poeziaSi siyvarulis tradiciuli Temaa:

`miyvarxar! axla es siyvaruli

saxea mTeli Cemi arsebis.

dvritaa Cemi, dvrita faruli

samyaros aRqmis da gaazrebis~. . .

(~miyvarxar!~)

siyvarulis maRali grZnoba, satrfoze

mudmivi fiqri da grZnoba, misi mudmivi

natvra poets gaazrebuli aqvs, rogorc

Tavisi arsebobis wesi. amitomac ar JRers

alogikurad es mSvenieri striqonebi:

`kvlav uSenod var, uSenod! magram

swored amitom ar var uSenod~.

(~variaciebi Senze fiqrebidan~)

aseTia _ azriT, sibrZniT, siRrmiT,

simarTliTa da sinaTliT gamorCeuli es

mSvenieri leqsTa krebuli. am wignis analizi

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gvinda davasruloT poetisadmi sityvebiT,

romlebic man didi galaktionis misamarTiT

Tqva: `man poeturi ardaridebiT samyaros

SreTa aswia farda~. gvinda ase davamTavroT

imitom, rom es sityvebi kargad esadageba

TviT jansuR korZaias, rameTu man, poetma _

filosofosma swored rom poetur

ardaridebiT samyaros uRrmes SreebSi

Cagvaxeda, adamianis sulis idumal moZraobas

axada farda, rac WeSmarit poetebs

xelewifebaT mxolod.

revaz balanCivaZe

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xom miagen

raRas eltvi,

ra gafrenas,

ra ocnebis frTiT da,

romel zaris Camorekvas,

romel mecxre cidan?!

kvlav ra gixmobs,

sad mihyavxar

Sens Jamsa da sivrces,

romel ucnob mwvervalisken,

romel ucnob gzisken?!

xom ainTe lurji zeca

fiqris cisfer gzebze,

xom miagen gaxsnil caSi

Seni yofnis fesvebs?!

xom aqcie dro da wami

Sens Jamad da wamad,

xom dareke elvis zari

Seni qrolvis zarad?!

xom gadawvdi usazRvrobas,

sivrceebad gaSlils,

da xom Cawvdi JamTa farul

da idumal kavSirs?!

xom ainTe lurji zeca

ocnebaTa gzebze,

xom miagen azrSi Seni

yofnis RvTiur fesvebs?!

xom xelT gepyra saWreTeli_

fiqri _ taZris amgebs,

xom Camohkar SeZrul suliT

sims, ebans da Cangebs?!

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xom Sexvedi kelaptrebiT

usazRvrobis nislSi,

xom gaSifre sinamdvile

Sens yofaSi _ fiqrSi?!

xom ainTe lurji zeca

uankares gzebze,

xom miagen siyvarulSi

Seni yofnis fesvebs?!

raRas eltvi,

ra gafrenas,

ra ocnebis frTiT da,

romel zaris Camorekvas,

romel mecxre cidan?!

* * *

magram es ltolvac da ocnebebic

ar Tavdeba da veRar Tavdeba,

aRar Tavdeba axal mzeebiT

axal sivrceTa aferadeba.

aRar Tavdeba!

da inawilebs

yofna ocnebebs drod da sazrisad,

. . . ocneba uZRvis Cems sinamdviles

metafizikur pirvelsawyisad.

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* * *

sanam sulerTi ar aris SenTvis

siRrme gelaTis ulurjes zecis,

sanam sulerTi ar aris SenTvis

sworupovari simaRle breTis,

sanam sulerTi ar aris SenTvis

gancda, sionis zarebs rom erTvis,

sanam sulerTi ar aris SenTvis,

manamde . . . SenTan iqneba RmerTi.

* * *

. . . da Cemi sicocxlis xvedrad

samyaro,

samSoblo,

Sen da . . .

samyaro _ auxsneli,

samSoblo _ dauxsneli,

Sen _ Cemi natvra da sevda.

* * *

veRar avage naocnebari

samyaros burji, cixe da koSki,

. . . mainc ocnebiT galobs ebani

mzeSic, wvimaSic, qarSic da TovlSic.

warmosaxvebSi mainc usazmno,

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ZaliT varisxeb zars Cemi taZris,

. . . mainc vocnebob da am usazRvro

ocnebebSia sicocxlis azri.

* * *

samyaro aris, magram, rom aris,

mxolod axlaa namdvilad cxadi,

...Sen modiodi

da mzisfer TmebiT

gangebis axal saswauls hgavdi.

da Sedga wami,

wamic da gulic,

gulic da quCac,

quCac da martic,

...samyaro aris, magram, rom aris,

mxolod axlaa bolomde cxadi.

sinamdvile

ixsni da wamsve sxvas isxam,

ase TamaSob niRbebiT,

aTasfrad gardisaxebi,

aTasfrad gardaiqmnebi.

Sens niRbebs iqiT ver mogwvdi

verc erTi warmosaxviTa,

ra ar vcade da ver gnaxe

Seni namdvili saxiTa.

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* * *

eli, kvlav eli Jamis moqcevas,

magram vai, rom mainc ar gesmis

is xma,

logosi da saocreba _

idumali xma uzenaesis.

vai, rom mainc, mainc ver xedav

gadamtaneli amden vaebis,

im nebas,

ciur da maRal nebas _

cxad da erTaderT nebas RvTaebis.

Ze kacisa: avtoportreti

/ciklidan ~adamiani~/

vocnebob! ese igi, vbedav

vitvirTo Semoqmedis roli,

am azris gaelveba _ elda _

rwmenaa _ ukvdavebis toli.

vocnebob! sinamdvile _ sfinqsi

guls mixsnis amomcnobs da misans,

da alyad garSemortymul fiqrSi

vatyveveb moelvare mizans.

vocnebob! sawyisebad vanTeb

Cems xilvebs, warmosaxvebs, gznebas,

wyvdiadSi abrialebs sanTlebs

ocnebiT damuxtuli vneba.

vocnebob! ese igi, vwvdebi,

dafarul diademebs vagneb,

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ocnebis aRtacebiT vxvdebi

ocnebiT amozidul sagnebs.

vocnebob! ese igi, viltvi,

mawameb, sivrceebze fiqro,

da sityviT, mignebuli sityviT

samyaros usazRvrobas vipyrob.

vocnebob! siyvaruli Trgunavs

simZafres gadambugvel vnebis,

Cems irgvliv yvelaferi brunavs

Cems sulSi gamokveTil nebiT.

* * *

axla Cemia hamletis eWvic

da avTandilis anderZis sibrZnec,

sokrates mier nayari kenWic

ukanaskneli mimwuxris pirze.

gaukvdavebul wuTebis gala _

dro _ SiSvelia rogorc borkili,

da ukve aRar da veRar faravs

verafers Cemken Tvalmopyrobili.

erTi marWvali _ hamletis eWvi,

erTi marWvali _ anderZis sibrZne,

erTi marWvali _ sokrates kenWi,

nayari sikvdil-sicocxlis pirze.

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* * *

manam

sul unda

vcado, rom avxsna: samyaro risken

da risTvis iltvis,

es sinamdvile, viT Tavkiduri yvela sastik

da ulmobel kiTxvis,

manam

sul unda vZebno sazrisi,

am qveynad Cemi yofnis sazrisi _

Cemi namdvili pirvelmizezi, da dasabami,

da dasawyisi,

manam

sul unda

vusmino zarebs, sasowarkveTiT

darekil zarebs,

gangaSiT, urviT da tkivilebiT avsebul xmebs

da damuxtul qnarebs,

manam

sul unda

vicocxlo mxolod warmosaxvebiT _

TeTri sanTlebiT,

TeTr da usazRvro ocnebebiT da ferad

fiqriT

da ferad landebiT,

manam

sul unda

gadaviazro aw gamovlili Jamni

da droni...

sanam

samyaro

ar gadiqceva,

samyarod

gonis, gonis da gonis.

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da yvela is droc... warwera `Zveli msoflios

istoriis narkvevebze~

...da yvela is droc xsnis gzas eZebda,

axlac rom eZebs dro dRevandeli,

da aRzevebda da aRmerTebda

imeds fiqris da azris kandeli.

yvela...

Cavlili

mRvrie morevad,

nislian caze gamkrTal mTiebad,

samefoebis ConCxad _ morenad,

taxtebdalewil dinastiebad.

...is droc,

is Jamic faraonebis,

piramidebad cisken wasuli,

dro _ iWviT savse mZebnel gonebiT

datyvevebuli da dadaRuli.

...gawamebuli droc gilgameSis,

sulis uRrmesi urvis damtevi,

...Jamic _

aziis SeSlil RameSi

bedTan mebrZoli miTridatebis.

...droc israelis,

qceuli cremlad,

xelapyrobili vedrebac cisken,

ieremias godebac velad

da sjulmdebelis maRali sibrZnec.

...Jamic eladis _

mzeze naxtomi

gadumqrali da maradiuli

mziuri, rogorc gansja platonis,

sanTeli, rogorc xilva RvTiuri.

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...da romic,

Jami kerpebis msxvrevis

da motortmane sisxlSi tiviviT,

sicocxleebze gavlili kevri,

kacis da RmerTis didi tkivili.

da maRldeboda JamTa vedreba

JamTa fiqri da JamTa kandeli,

yvela dro,

yvela,

xsnis gzas eZebda

axlac rom eZebs dro dRevandeli.

* * *

sicocxle, rogorc fiqri gabmuli

da gaxlarTuli fiqrebSi goni,

gaognebuli da dazafruli

amomSifravis amao roliT.

amao roliT!

da ver xsnis niRabs

am sinamdviles verc erTi fiqri,

...da yvela fiqrSi varvarebs kiTxva

da arc erT fiqrSi pasuxi kiTxvis.

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raRac aklia

raRac aklia am sinamdviles...

anTebs, kvlav anTebs ferebs gogeni,

kvlav uxmobs suli ucxo napirebs,

isev daeZebs kacs diogeni,

ebrZvis, kvlav ebrZvis RmerTs gilgameSi,

eZeben frTebs da frTebs ocnebebi...

da varskvlavebiT savse RameSi

hqrian da hqrian lurja cxenebi,

Sifravs, kvlav Sifravs guliT da gansjiT

kacs nicSe da dro, dro ulmobeli,

kvlav eZebs namdvil sicocxles azri,

azri _ sicocxlis azris mpyrobeli,

isev amaRlebs kolumbi afrebs,

uxmobs, kvlav uxmobs zeca gagarins,

isev swyuriaT sicocxle zRaprebs,

suls kvlav awamebs fiqri maRali.

poezia

siTamamiT gamostaca

frTebi

JamTa brunebas

da yvelaze adre gascda

miwis mizidulebas.

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me Cems Tavs veZeb... (ciklidan `adamiani~)

me var!

me vcocxlob!

sicocxlis azri

CemSi ucxades sicocxles eZebs,

eZebs, me rac var, im yofnis sazriss,

eZebs, me rac var, im yofnis fesvebs,

me Cems Tavs veZeb!

da suli wvdeba

samyaros Sreebs da Cems Tavs vwvdebi,

da usazRvrobis gadaSlil gzebad

anTia Cemi sicocxlis gzebi.

me Cems Tavs vwvdebi! da sinamdvilis

dasabams vwvdebi, Cems Tavs rom vagneb,

mze egebeba Cemi tkiviliT

da ocnebebiT frTaaSlil afrebs.

Sen hqmni samyaros! RvTiur gangebiT,

azro, da naTlis svetad enTebi,

da elvareben Seni taZrebi,

rogorc samyaros everestebi.

Sen hqmni samyaros! fiqro da erTvi

Sens gzebad erTvi Jams da droebas,

me, me vaqcie samyaro erTi

uTvalav ferTa samyaroebad.

Sen hqmni samyaros! ocnebav, Sen... da

anTeb miriad uwmindes kocons,

ramdenic cocxlobs Ze kaci qveynad,

samyaroc imden samyarod cocxlobs.

Sen hqmni samyaros! grZneulo gansjav,

Sen, ukmarobis vnebav, maRalo,

me xelT mipyria samyaros maja

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da samyaroobs Cemi samyaro.

me Cems Tavs veZeb!

sicocxlis azri

elvarebs Cemgan gadaSlil gzebze,

vwvdebi, me rac var, im yofnis sazriss,

vwvdebi, me rac var, im yofnis fesvebs,

me var!

me aq var!

samyaros zRvarTan,

me Cems Tavs veZeb da Cems Tavs vwvdebi:

aweulia samyaros farda

mihqrian Cemi sicocxlis gzebi.

viltvi! da ltolvas ara aqvs bolo,

Cems samyaroSi, Cems gzebze mival,

Cemi samyaro rom samyaroobs

iq rekavs zari da vici: vin var!

hamlet!

yofna-ar yofnis Seni dilema,

dilema, rogorc jvarcma gonebis,

da eWvi, rogorc ganamdvileba

Seucnobeli amaoebis,

kvlav cocxlobs!

da Senc

Jamsa da fiqrebs

sulis wamebas kvlav unawileb,

da aqsov SiSs da aqsov tkivilebs

sicocxles, sikvdils da sinamdviles.

kvlav cocxlob: da kvlav iwirav msxverplad

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araraobad qceul didebas,

da isev eZeb miwad Tu zecad

yofnis umaRles WeSmaritebas.

yvelaze maRals! ganawamebi

fiqri kvlav eltvis fiqriT wamebas,

isev rekaven Seni zarebi

yofna-aryofnis gabmul zarebad.

isev rekaven! isev im xmebiT

dResac maRali eWvis gangebiT,

dResac,

rodesac golgoTis gzebiT

sicocxlis

namdvil

azrs

mivageniT.

maRal azrs!

yofna!

yofna, rom azri

miwvdes samyaros arssa da arxes,

da qveynad yofnis idumal sazriss _

yofnas RvTaebis xatad da saxed.

Sen mainc cocxlob!

mainc!

da cxadad

amaRlebaSic xedav fantomebs,

kvlav rekav zarebs kvlav sulis jvarcmad,

da suls arasdros ar miatoveb.

cocxlob, viT sulis SiSi da Zrwola,

da suli

eWviT da imedebiT

yofna-aryofnis

sazomiT

zomavs

simaRles

Tavis

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Semoqmedebis.

zomavs gzebs mecxre samzeos iqiT,

zomavs gafrenebs,

zomavs naxtomebs,

Sen cocxlob

mtanjvel tkivilad fiqris

da fiqrs

verasdros ver miatoveb.

ver miatoveb! ukvdavi eWvi

mihyveba sulis Jamsa da sivrces,

sicocxle

kvlavac,

isev,

viT SenSi,

yofna-aryofnis kiTxvidan iwyebs.

Canaweri haidegeris kiTxvisas

suli aimRvra RamiT da SxamiT,

zedized rekavs zars uaryofa,

da uaryofis demonis zariT

geslidan dgeba yofna-aryofna.

jvarze gakruli sivrce da Jami

araraobis miraJebs eltvis

da uazrobis Secnobil wamiT

imsxvreva yvela maRali sveti.

SiSiT avsebul yofnaSi glova,

miusafrobis nisli da gesli...

sicocxle, rogorc pirveli codva,

amaoebad micuravs bnelSi.

aRar Tendeba! uTvalav sfinqsad

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qceula fiqris mravalwiloba,

da mizans, rogorc amao mizans,

dumiliT glovobs sulis Wriloba.

suls wewavs kiTxva: `ratom~? da fantoms

emsxvreva suli, sivrce da Jami,

rad kravs kamarad ganwirul naxtoms

maRali vnebis cecxli da rvali?

suli ivseba nisliT da gesliT,

gaCenis wyevliT, natvriT aryofnis,

sicocxliT, rogorc sikvdilis TesliT,

amao gansjiT da uaryofiT.

SiSSi da bnelSi fiqri sisinebs,

SeZrwunebuli amao locviT,

me da Sen, is da... yvela isini...

amao suliT, amao xorciT...

da sivrceebze nagebi xidi

rCeba maradis gauval xidad

da gzad, romelic arsad ar midis

amoebis Sekruli wridan.

suls mainc unda, suls... gzac... da peSviT

Sesmuli SxamiT fiTrdeba suli,

uazro yofnis nislSi da geslSi

gadagdebuli da ganwiruli.

suli martoa, codvebiT savse,

da sikvdils elis da wamebs iTvlis,

mitovebuli gzaze, im gzaze,

rom midis, magram arsad ar midis.

reks uaryofa!

da uceb eldad

Seni Rimili inTeba sulSi,

rogorc yvelafris wamleki elva

ugzoobaSi, zarebSi, mwuxrSi.

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inTeba _ eldad da SeZrwunebad,

tkivilad _ wamiT rom ar maxsovdi,

viT usazRvrobis Semobruneba

savse SeniT da mzis kalmasobiT.

Sen xar!

da gzebi miriad mzisken

Seni

zarebis ZaxiliT migyavs!

...RamiT da SxamiT alanZul fiqrebs

vicileb, rogorc sxviseul niRabs.

* * *

zeca mZimea, mRvrie da blanti,

usaxo, rogorc feri Waobis,

zantad da nela gvSordeba marti

dReTa gayinul sanaxaobiT.

sul unda: Sori dasalieri

da zeca, aTas xilvis mToveli,

da mzenasvami Tvalsawieri

dasasrulebis uarmyofeli.

ver damimoneb!

(poeturi oratoria)

me var!

Sors,

sadRac

arsebobs zRvari,

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sicxade, savse amRvreul nisliT,

dauZleveli da garduvali

bolo samani drois da sivrcis.

samani!

da dro,

viT ltolvis gancda

gaigmireba eldis maxviliT,

maxviliT! zRvarTan, im bolo zRvarTan,

zRvarTan sicocxlis da sinamdvilis.

da sivrce!

feri,

aTasi feri

gaqreba drois gamgmirav wamiT...

me var!

da vici: is wami melis,

melis dumilis SeSlili zariT.

melis!

iq melis!

rogorc napiri,

drois da sivrcis usaxur zRvarTan,

damsxvreul zRvarTan da sinamdvilis

ukanasknel da Seucnob karTan...

...Zeo _ kacisav!

gaqrobis SiSSi

cocxlob da zRvaris pirispir dgaxar,

maxvilad elavs am molodinSi

wyeuli kiTxva: vin xar da ra xar?

Sen miabijeb _

uTvalav mzeSi,

ulurjes mwuxrSi,

uTeTres TovlSi,

Seni xilvebiT savse sivrceSi

da Seni ltolviT frTaasxmul droSi,

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midixar!

sulSi aRmdgari Zrwola

migafrens, qceuls umweo fiqrad,

iqiT,

risganac

jer ase Sors xar,

magram rasTanac

ucilod mixval.

da Tumc gabruebs vardebis feri,

gesmis ivnisis bgeraTa Cqami,

da siyvarulis galobas mReri

siyvarulisgan anTebul wamiT.

da Tumc

mihyvebi afrebs da qarebs

idumalebis povnad da wvdomad,

yvelaze ufro umZafres wamebs

uZRvni yvelaze unaTles xsovnas,

mainc

gawamebs gaqrobis SiSi,

araraobis pirispir dgaxar,

gawamebs pirvel da bolo fiqrSi

Seucnobeli: vin xar da ra xar?

mainc gawamebs kiTxva wyeuli,

kiTxva _ maxvili _ ratom da risTvis?

da uazrobiT suldamsxvreuli

arsebob mxolod xorciT da sisxliT...

...melis!

iq melis!

magram Ze kacSi

cocxlobs poeti, cocxlobs da iwvis,

viT Semoqmedis maRal nebaSi

uarmyofeli drois da sivrcis.

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ver damimoneb!

radgan

is,

rac var,

cocxlobs samyaros mziur gangebad,

cocxlobs Tvalxilul samyaros jvarcmad

da naocnebar qveynis amgebad.

ver damimoneb!

sulis tkivilSi

da sulis cecxlSi, gzebs rom minaTebs,

Cems siyvarulSi da siZulvilSi

iwvis poeti rogorc sinaTle.

iwvis!

da suli,

viT naTlis sveti

elavs RvTiuri da miwieri,

da Jami _ droa mxolod poetis,

sivrce _ poetis Tvalsawieri.

ver damimoneb!

sicocxlis azri

cocxlobs

frTebSi

da

cocxlobs gznebaSi

da sinamdvile

civi da mkacri

iwvis poetur amaRlebaSi.

da ucxadesi sizmrebiT vxedav

sivrces _

gafrenils

poetis etliT,

da dros,

romelsac

ar Tvlian RmerTad

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mxolod

RmerTi

da

mxolod

poeti.

da gzac

poetis gzaa mZebneli,

gza, dadaRuli mziT da fiqrebiT,

gza _ mpovneli da gza _ mimgnebeli

mxolod

poetur

WeSmaritebiT.

ver damimoneb!

elavs maxvili

da yvela sazRvars duelSi viwvev,

rom

Cemi xilviT da sinamdviliT

usazRvroebis mwvervalebs mivwvde...

da me mabruebs vardebis feri,

mesmis ivnisis bgeraTa Cqami,

mzisferi qalis galobas vmReri

siyvarulisgan anTebul RamiT.

mivyvebi cisfer afrebs da qarebs

idumalebis povnad da wvdomad,

yvelaze ufro

umZafres wamebs

vuZRvni

yvelaze

unaTles

xsovnas.

da mivabijeb uTvalav mzeSi,

ulurjes mwuxrSi, uTeTres TovlSi,

usazRvroobad qceul sivrceSi,

dausrulebel da ukvdav droSi.

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Sen ukve Sen xar

Sen ukve Sen xar! da Sen xar, radgan

miwvdi, rom qveynad Seni gaCena

niSnavs am zecis isev da axlad

kidev erTxel da kvlav gadarCenas.

miwvdi! da Jami iSleba gzebad,

gzebad, risTvisac xar gaCenili,

da xedav, rogor ixsneba zeca

zeca Sens mier gadarCenili.

yinwvisSi

ferebgadasul freskebSi cocxlobs

sulis maRali tkivili _ fiqri,

wamic da qristes xelaxla mosTxovs

dro sisxls da... isev mowveTavs sisxli.

yvela freskaSi jvarcmis qaragma,

tkivili _ wvdomis da vermignebis,

da kvlav eZeben: arss da araras

freskebi, rogorc fiqris niRbebi.

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warwera g. tabiZis ArCeulzeA

iyo atmis yvavilebi,

vardisferi fifqi,

iyo, magram . . . Asinamdvile

ar yofila TiTqmisA.

iyo lurja cxenebi da

sivrceebze fiqri,

iyo, magram. . . Asinamdvile

ar yofila TiTqmisA.

iyo mTvare mTawmindaze

blandad qceul bindis,

iyo, magram . . . Asinamdvile

ar yofila TiTqmis.A

nawyveti protagoruli fiqrebidan

eWvma, es yofna rom gaaora,

yofnam, romelic eWviT ordeba,

agivso suli . . . da protagora,

rogorc mesia, giaxlovdeba.

mesia! da Sen erTbaSad wvdebi

am sinamdvilis sawyiss da bolos,

samyaro, rogorc gzebi da gzebi,

iwvis,

radganac Sen xar da cocxlob.

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baraTaSvili

(Asulo borotosA daweris Semdeg)

miusafroba - usaxo tevri,

xilva - undo da eWvi - SeSlili,

akivlebuli fiqri - viT nervi,

nervi - sxeuls da suls mowyvetili.

momiaxlovdi, mdevaro, bedad,

rom ganwiruli amaRldes suli,

da viT namdvili mawamebs vneba,

ise namdvilad viZio Suri.

aTasjer gavCndi

aTasjer gavCndi!

da yovel JamSi,

axlad gaCenis uaxles gzebzec

kvlav vpoulobdi Cems arsebaSi

axal gzebis da sicocxlis mZebnels.

kvlav vpoulobdi

axal simaRles,

axal siRrmes da

axal gansasjels,

da sulis axal SreTa mignebiT

sicocxlis gzebze gavCndi aTasjer,

kvlav vcocxlob!

da kvlav qrian qarebi,

gadaxsnilia Jami da sivrce,

da axal gzebiT miveqanebi

isev axali gaCenis dRisken.

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warsulSi, rogorc JamTa nangrevSi

warsulSi, rogorc JamTa nangrevSi,

Sevdivar Cemi mziTa da xilviT,

rom nangrevebis mdumar zarebSi

Cavwvde Sens suls da vnebas da tkivils.

me vici: vin var!

da Sens suls veZeb,

Sens suls . . . da zarebs Seneul gzebis,

suls, rom elavda Sens ganvlil gzebze,

viT tkivilebi, ltolva da frTebi.

xilva _ es Cemi mzis siTamame

ferflSi kvlav anTebs sizmrebis wyebas,

da stacebs wuTebs da stacebs wamebs

nangrevebs, qaoss da daviwyebas.

zRvars veZeb!

Cvens zRvars!

da JamTa nangrevs

vaRviZeb Cemi mziTa da zariT,

sicocxle eZebs da unda Cawvdes,

sad aris Cveni namdvili zRvari.

zRvars veZeb!

mTavars!

veZeb sxvaobas

Cemi da Seni vnebis da gzebis,

vamaRleb fiqris gambedaobas

da Sens gadamqral sicocxles vwvdebi.

sad aris zRvari?!

sad?

sad?

ltolvaSi?

fiqrSi? sizmarSi? sulis tkivilSi?

sulis frTebSi da sulis qrolvaSi?

sad?siyvarulSi da siZulvilSi?

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sad aris zRvari?!

sad?

sad?

mizanSi?

zRvari _ survilSi? zRvari _ vnebaSi?

SemarTebaSi? gaxsnil ciskarSi?

dacemaSi da amaRlebaSi?

mzis siTamame!

mzis siTamamiT!

mzis siTamamed iwvis sicoxle,

da xilva, rogorc mzis karnavali,

warsulo, Suqad gadmogiwode.

me Cvens zRvars veZeb da Camqral mzeSi

Sevdivar Cemi mziTa da fiqriT,

xels giwvden JamTa gauval tevrSi

saukuneTa miRma da iqiT.

gixmob! me minda survilebs namarxs

mivapyro mziur survilTa mzera,

sulSi Cagxedo da sul erT wamad

vaqcio drois usazRvro dena.

sad aris zRvari?

zRvari _ gznebaSi?

zRvari msxverplSi da zRvari jvarcmaSi?

sad?

sad?

cecxlSi da SemarTebaSi?

gardaqmnaSi da gardasaxvaSi?

sad arsi zRvari?

zRvari _ locvaSi?

zRvari _ xilvaSi? mecxre zecaSi?

zRvari _ povnaSi?

zRvari _ xsovnaSi?

gzebis da gzebis gadakveTaSi?

me mzis Svili var da mzis CqeraliT

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vanTeb warsulis nangrevs da dumils,

da frTaasxmuli, rogorc merani,

Cemsken mocuravs warsulis suli.

me mzis Svili var da viT cdunebas

lurj cas vagebeb nangrevis sizmrebs

da tkivilebi saukuneTa

sulis ucxades TvalebiT mimzers.

micqers! da cxadad elvarebs vneba

Seni da mainc mTlad Cemeuli,

da zRvari,

rogorc qimera, qreba

sivrceebisgan TavdaRweuli.

vxedav anTebul vnebebis wyebebs

gamqral JamTa da Camcxral zecisas

da ver vasxvaveb sakuTar vnebebs

drogadasuli sulis vnebisgan.

Seni sulisgan! waSlili zRvari

da nangrevebSi aRmdgari fiqri

iwvis, viT Cemgan wasuli kvali

saukuneTa miRma da iqiT.

sicocxle! iqac qrolva da ltolva,

iqac _ fiqri da iqac tkivili,

iqac Zieba da iqac povna

da siyvaruli da siZulvili.

sicocxle! iqac elva mizanSi

elva _ survilSi, elva _ vnebaSi,

elva _ frenaSi, gaxsnil ciskarSi,

dacemaSi da amaRlebaSi.

sicocxle! iqac _ sulis maxvilebs

aSiSvlebs maRal sicocxlis qarga:

ar unda dagrCes es sinamdvile

iseTi, rogorc iyo da dagxvda.

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sicocxle! iqac _ usazRvrobaSi

naxtomi, povna da damkvidreba

da usasrulo gzebze ltolvaSi

Senad qceuli WeSmariteba.

da mekargeba dro da sazRvari

Sen sad Tavdebi, me sad viwyebi,

da rekavs Cemi d Seni zari,

rekavs erTad da TavdaviwyebiT.

iwvis Cemi mzis siTamameSi

suli Jamidan JamSi mdinari

CemSi grZeldebi:

Sen _ gilgameSi,

Sen _ promeTe da

Sen _ amirani!

ramdeni fiqri agixda ukve

ramdeni fiqri agixda ukve

da ramden zecas Seaxe xeli

ramdenjer mowydi gadaTvlil wuTebs

da samans gascdi usazRvro freniT.

ramdenjer! magram axdenil fiqrebs

Zveli tkivili igonebs mxolod,

da mainc isev,

da mainc isev,

auxdeneli fiqrebiT cocxlob.

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* * *

dagvxvda smaragdis zeca da mTebi,

mzis naTeli da sizmrebi mTvaris

da xmebi, sulis amwewi xmebi,

drois zaris da sicocxlis zaris.

da unda iqces: zeca Sens zecad,

da mzis moqceva: Seneul Jamad,

sicocxlis dvrita: Sens gulis feTqvad

da zari: Seni gafrenis zarad.

* * *

ras ewireba suli tarigad,

ra hkravs, ra, droTa darRveul kavSirs,

ram Searkina RmerTebs amiran,

ram aamaRla ieso caSi?

ram, ram uarhyo sokrates sulSi

TavgadarCenis mTvare da gzebi,

ram daTmo mwuxrSi, im bolo mwuxrSi,

eladis mze da eladis mTebi?

ra anTebs sulis miriad sanTlebs,

ra iwvis sulis siTamameSi,

ra wvas, ras Cahyva jojoxeTs dante

da empedokle etnis kraterSi?

ra amaRlebda im amay jvarcmas

da galileis tkivils da urvas,

inkviziciis winaSe warmdgars

ram aTqmevina ~is mainc brunavs~?

ra xma esmoda salaSqro dafTan,

awewil sulSi da daxSul zarSi,

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ros saakaZem iranis SahTan

TavmosakveTad datova vaJi.

ram miiyvana cotne urdoSi

anisis zecis cecxlSi da rvalSi. . .

ra anTebs axal mzes sawuTroSi,

ra hkravs, ra, droTa darRveul kavSirs?

* * *

im ocnebebiT savse xar axlac,

kvlav grZeldebi da kvlav im fiqrebad,

rac ar asrulda da rac ar axda

da rac arasdros ar agixdeba.

savse xar da kvlav da isev iTxov

zecisgan RmerTs da sulisgan taZars . . .

. . . Sen ar SegeZlo sxvagvarad im dros,

ar SegiZlia sxvagvarad axlac.

* * *

mxolod Sen ar xar!

sxva yvelaferi,

sxva yvelaferi aris ucvleli,

kvlav SeRameba . . . marjniT naferi,

kvlav gemi . . . portSi Semousvleli.

magram Sen ar xar!

xar Sors da sadRac . . .

da es ca ar hgavs cas im aprilis,

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es zRva da talRa im zRvas da talRas

da im zRvis napirs es zRvis napiri.

ocnebiT mainc (ciklidan ~adamiani~)

Sen gaCndi! da am gaCeniT isic,

is garduvali samyaroc gaCnda,

romelic gixmobs . . . da ferad sizmriT

anTebs Sens mzes da Seni mzis marjans.

da mijaWvuli sivrces borkiliT

da tyve Seucnob drois niJaris

da dadaRuli da SeboWili

imiT, rac pove da Seicani _

Sen,

erTxel mainc,

ocnebiT mainc,

Sens Tavs ocnebiT mainc miagneb,

ocnebiT mainc miawvden Zaxils

ocnebis sivrcis meridianebs.

ocnebiT mainc daipyrob mwvervals,

taZars ocnebiT mainc aigeb,

ocnebis caSi ocnebis elvas

ocnebiT mainc daaTariReb.

ocnebiT mainc daraxtav merans,

ocnebiT mainc daamsxvrev borkils,

ocnebiT mainc miitan RmerTTan

sulis usazRvro tkivils da lodins.

ocnebiT mainc . . .

ukidegano

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ltolvas Seawvden Seni mzis marjans,

rom sinamdviled iqces samyaro,

Sens gaCenasTan erTad rom gaCnda.

rad gawameben horizontebi

rad gawameben horizontebi

usasrulobis idumal zRvebze,

rad ver scildebi,

rad ver Sordebi

fiqrebs Soreul da ucnob gzebze.

rad feTqdebian simaRleebad

vneba _ wvdomis da vneba _ mignebis,

rad geZaxian lurj sivrceebad

gaSlil varskvlavTa paradigmebi.

ratom miuzRe maradis jvarcmad

pirvelsawyisTa Zebna gonebas,

rad eltvi yvela sazRvaris waSlas

da dasrulebul usazRvroebas.

ukve daadgi fexi mTvareze

ukve daadgi fexi mTvareze

da eziare mTvaris fantomebs,

da mainc, marad moaspareze _

suli mieltvis axal naxtomebs,

axal horizonts axali sivrcis,

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usazRvrobaSi gaSlil planetebs,

. . . is ukve iyo, mTvares rom miwvdi

da rom daadgi fexi mTvareze.

* * *

raRac gawamebs . . . sxva misawvdomi,

sxva gza, sxva zeca, sxva molandeba,

sxva sivrceebi da sxva naxtomi,

sxva siyvaruli da monatreba.

sxva saocreba, sxva zmanebebi,

sxva napiri da sxva dasapyrobi,

sxva gaelvebis cecxlis enebi,

sxva elvarebiT savse mnaTobi.

sxva sicocxle da sxva amaRleba,

sxva gazafxulTa mwuxris ferebi,

sxva ocnebaTa amonaTeba,

sxva zari, sxva xma, sxva simRerebi.

sul sxva sawyisi da sul sxva bolo,

sxva gangeba da sul sxva RmerTebi,

. . . ewame, sulo! esaa mxolod,

riTac samyaros gzebs uerTdebi.

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mwvervalebi siyrmis megobrebs

isev aq var, Cems bagratze, Cemi yrmobis

parnasze,

CaxCaxa mze aelvarebs siWabukis darbazebs,

isev aq var, am naTelSi, am unazes ferebSi,

kvlav anTebul zmanebebSi, gacocxlebul

bgerebSi,

hei, ltolvav, im dReebis, - mwvervalebis

dapyrobis,

ltolvav zRvarTa gadalaxvis, horizontTa

gaqrobis,

ra namdvili iyo fiqri aq anTebul

mwuxrebSi,

ra namdvili tkivili da ra namdvili nugeSi,

ra namdvili ocnebebi, ra namdvili feri da

ra simaRle _ atyorcnili namdvil

imedebidan,

ra namdvili aRtaceba, ra namdvili qadili,

ra namdvili monatreba, molandeba _

namdvili,

hei, ltolvav, im dReebis sulis gamonaTebav,

hei, ltolvav, im dReebis RvTaebav da

gangebav,

maSin, roca mwvervalebze gaelvebas

vnatrobdiT,

roca gvZravda biZgi maRal mwvervalebis

dapyrobis,

ros sizmrebi mnaTobebad maRldebodnen

zecaze,

maSin vmdgarvarT umaRles da unamdviles

mwvervalze,

. . . isev aq var, Cems bagratze, Cemi yrmobis

parnasze,

CaxCaxa mze aelvarebs siWabukis darbazebs.

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ukanaskneli foTlebi

ukanaskneli Wkneba foTlebi,

sivrce ivseba yviTel fantomiT,

Tvalsawiero, kvlav imosebi

qariT, noembriT da SemodgomiT.

erTad atotebs miriad argans,

awydeba xeebs noembris qari,

da foTlebs rCebaT sul erTi . . . magram

usazRvrobaSi gafrenis wami.

sad var yvelaze metad maRali

sad var yvelaze metad maRali,

mcxeTis jvarze Tu cotnes anisSi,

Tu iq, sad elavs mzis karnavali _

qarTuli leqsi _ SoTas SairSi,

didgors SemarTul xmalis gznebaSi,

yinwvisis freskis naTel RimilSi,

lurja cxenebis gaelvebaSi

da sulxan-sabas sulis tkivilSi,

mernis frenaSi gzebze qariSxlis,

Sumeris mzeSi mignebul fesvSi,

banas zarSi Tu velze krwanisis

Tu iq, Sirazis anTebul cecxlSi,

sad var yvelaze metad maRali,

suls unda misi dasturlamali,

sad var yvelaze metad maRali,

sad var yvelaze metad maRali?. .

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* * *

xom marTla iyo da CemSi iyo

siyrmis dReebi, zeca, sizmrebi,

is usaxelo da uTariRo

mwvervalebi da kaTarzisebi.

xom xelSi mepyra rionis talRa,

xom mmorCilebda arsi yoveli,

rac CemSi iyo . . . rad gaxda axla,

ase Sori da miuwvdomeli . . .

* * *

kvlav cocxalia yvela is mwuxri,

yvela is gza da yvela tkivili,

im martis Tovlic da zamTris susxic,

is mTebic da is talRac yvirilis,

im natvris sevdac, usazRvro sevdac,

yvela Sexvedra da ganSoreba,

kvlav cocxalia . . . radgan im dReTa

eqoa mTeli Cemi cxovreba.

es saukunec . . .

rogorc sxva yvela iesos win da

rogorc sxva yvela iesos Semdeg,

es saukunec . . . im pirvel dRidan

da jvarcmis gzebiT . . .

da jvarcmis gzebze

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eZebs,

kvlav eZebs

da isev eZebs,

imedis napirs, koncxebs, Suqurebs,

da miabijebs

im sastik

gzebze,

Ziebis gzebze . . .

es saukunec.

. . . da erTxel ukve

da erTxel ukve jvars vacvi Rame,

da erTxel ukve davRvare sisxli,

da erTxel ukve mivagen, hamlet,

pasuxs, Sens mier dasmuli kiTxvis.

ram gaaSiSvla axla es wami -

moulodneli da ucabedi,

vin Camoreka xelaxla zari,

vin dasva isev kiTxva hamletis?

* * *

axlac sanTeli mipyria, axlac,

Tumca mze koSkebs zenitze agebs

da usaSvelo sinaTle axlavs

zecas da miwas, nivTebs da sagnebs,

Tumc yvelaferi kaSkaSebs mzeSi,

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Tumc yvelaferi mzis sxivebs miaqvs . . .

mainc usanTlod am sinaTleSic

ver Seabijeb samyaros wiaR.

* * *

Sen xar!

Sen cocxlob!

da radgan cocxlob,

garduval nebiT zecis da miwis,

Sen

sakuTari sicocxle mogTxovs

pasuxs

pilates sastiki kiTxvis,

pasuxs

keisris sastiki kiTxvis,

pasuxs

hamletis sastiki kiTxvis.

da mainc . . .

ukve aRar Tvli saocrebebad,

ukve aRar Tvli saswaulebad,

. . . arc tkivilebad da imedebad

da ocnebebad gaSlil bunebas,

aRarc sisxlian JamTa qaosSi

cisken aRmarTul TeTr piramidebs

arc Secnobil da cxad samyaroSi

Sens sicocxles da Sens sinamdviles,

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aRar gaocebs wvdoma logosSi _

sakuTar Tavis ZebniT da wvdomiT,

arc gakvleuli gzebi kosmosSi,

arc miuwvdomel varskvlavTa xomli,

aRarc umwvanes rtoTa StrixebiT

aelvarebul alvis Sriali,

arc usasrulo galaqtikebis

triali, brunva da xetiali,

veRar gakvirvebs feriscvaleba

zRvis moqcevisas cdomil mnaTobis,

verc mrume caze fermkrTal qarvebad

amotvifruli irmis naxtomi,

verc daZleuli Jami da sivrce

verc xmebi, Sori da mkveTri xmebi,

da Sen

yvelafers

saocrad mtkice

da Seuvali simSvidiT xvdebi.

. . . aRarc Sens ltolvas da ocnebebad

gafrenil mernebs da ferad aprils,

ukve aRar Tvli saocrebebad . . .

. . . da mainc

eli

saswauls

namdvils.

Sebindebisas (fiqri)

mwuxrSi irRveva droTa kavSiri,

mwuxrSi irRveva JamTa logika . . .

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. . . rad gaCnda axla fiqrSi _ taSiri . . .

da rogor mohyva taSirs _ mobidan.

ras, ras gadahyavs hamletze fiqri

fiqrSi sinaTlis uswrafes sxivze

an basianSi daRvrili sisxli

ram amoanTo fiqrebis mZivze.

riT daixata _ TeTri alJiri,

Cemi da mainc ucnobi xanZTa . . .

darRveulia droTa kavSiri

darRveulia logika JamTa.

* * *

. . .da ki ar vnatrob, mwams da moveli,

rom kvlav amavsebs, isev amavsebs

dRevandel dReTa uarmyofeli

sxva gazafxuli da silamaze,

sxva zeca da sxva zecaze sxva mze

(rom aaelvebs sxva meteorebs),

sxva siyvaruli, romelic arc erT

winandels

aRar

gaimeorebs.

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* * *

Zala Tu hqonda qveynis gaCenis,

Zala Tu hqonda naTlis mofenis,

rom hqondes Zalac

sastik damsjelis

da am samyaros uarmyofelis?!

maSin,

o, maSin . . . sasjels saSinels.

wamidan wamze unda velodeT,

da, aha, RmerTo, es sinamdvile,

da minda Seni marTla mjerodes!

azris monologebidan

. . . da mainc ar hgavs es sinamdvile

imas, romelsac ocnebiT vxatav. . .

ramdenjer unda gafiTrdes fiqri

yofna-aryofnis dawyevlil zRvarTan,

ramdenjer,

TeTri piramidebi

ramdenjer unda gafrindnen cisken,

ramdenjer unda SeZras sikvdilma,

RmerTis da sulis sikvdilma nicSe,

ramdenjer unda SeZrwundes goni

uRvTod wamebul macxovris xatTan,

. . . da mainc ar hgvs es sinamdvile

imas,

romelsac ocnebiT vxatav.

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minaweri Seqspiris samocdameeqvse sonetze

vkiTxulob Seqspirs!

tribunaze,

drois pirispir

xelaxla vuxmob

oTxasi wlis

tribuns da poets,

da rogorc dasturs

poeziis

maradJamobis _

dRevandeli dRiT

vaTariReb

Seqspiris sonets!

jer mxolod erTxel

jer kvlav Sorsaa is sinamdvile,

jer mxolod erTxel ewama qriste,

jer mxolod erTxel

tatos meranma

erTxel moaswro naxtomi mzisken,

jer mxolod erTxel,

sicocxlis azri

erTxel gansaja eWviT hamletma,

codvil samyaros codvili gzebi

warRvnam jer mxolod erTxel waleka,

jer mxolod erTxel

mostaca cecxli

promeTem zecas da RmerTad iqca,

jer mxolod erTxel Tqva gilgameSma

arsis siRrmeTa mxilvelis sityva,

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jer mxolod erTxel

daeca romi,

erTxel aiRo van gogma funji,

jer mxolod erTxel movida mose

da Ze kacs erTxel Caxeda sulSi,

jer mxolod erTxel

aanTo kanti

varskvlavebian ciT gaocebam,

jer mxolod erTxel aRmarTa Subi

wminda giorgis TeTrma ocnebam,

jer mxolod erTxel

umRera muzam

mamis tkiviliT SeZrul aqilevss,

. . .jer kvlav Sorsaa,

jer kvlav Sorsaa _,

jer kvlav Sorsaa

is sinamdvile.

* * *

amoxsnilia amosaxsneli,

Secnobilia Sesacnobeli,

anTebulia yvela sanTeli,

gaSifrulia arsi yoveli,

da mainc,

mainc

gadauSleli

kvlav rCeba raRac am Sreebs iqiT,

kvlav idumali da auxsneli,

viT yru da munji patimris fiqri.

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demokrite

me Tvalebs viTxri! da gadaqreba

es mzec, es zecac da es ferebic,

da parTenonis svetebis wyebac,

da SegrZnebaTa efemerebic.

unda gadaqres! . .

elvarebs lurjad

almodebuli mxurvale rvali . . .

me Tvalebs viTxri, samyaros unda,

Sevxedo

mxolod

gonebis

TvaliT.

parTenoni

es sicxadea Tu eCveneba

zecac sxvaa da mzec sul sxvagvari,

da ganTiadic . . . sul sxva ferebad

sxva zRvis napirze nakalmasari.

nuTu ise, viT warRvnis zRaparSi,

samyaros bWeni marTla SeiZra,

da mas . . .

sxva mzis qveS, sxva qveyanaSi,

da sul sxva mTaze gamoeRviZa.

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boroti saukune

uaryo RmerTi,

viT absurdi

jvarcmul gonebis,

cecxli Seugzno

qristes gzebs da

qristes samarTals,

viT aiazma,

sisxli Sesva

milionebis

da mzis bomonze

kaligulas

Zegli aRmarTa.

uaryo azri,

viT Ze kacis

samyaros arxe,

rogorc

usazRvro grigalebis

pirvelsawyisi,

sikvdili uzRo

sicocxlisTvis

SemarTul grakxebs,

da CiraRdnebiT

izeima

es kaTarzisi,

dro, dro SeboWa,

rogorc gvelma

laokooni,

da cisfer miraJs

mianiWa

JamTa dideba,

gzajvaredinebs

daeufla,

rogorc drakoni

da sukunod

daatyveva

WeSmariteba.

uaryo fiqri!

Ze kacisa

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dadaRa eldiT

da moTmineba CauRvara

sulSi iobis,

wamebul gansjas

Tavs daadga

gvirgvini eklis

da daaviwya

istoria

kacobriobis.

uaryo RmerTi,

viT absurdi

jvarcmul gonebis,

cecxli Seugzno

moses gzebs da

moses samarTals,

viT aiazma,

sisxli Sesva

milionebis

da mzis bomonze

kaligulas

Zegli aRmarTa.

* * *

. . .da araferi,

sul araferi,

aRaraferi

aRar Secvlila,

im dRidan, roca

yofna-aryofnis

kiTxva dausva

ufals Seqspirma.

. . . da araferi

sxva da ucnobi,

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da araferi

sxva da siaxle,

im dRidan, roca

amaoebad

gaSifra yofna

eklestiastem.

. . .da araferi

Sesacnobi da

gamosacnobi

rogorc mizezi,

im dRidan, roca

cecxlad ainTo

JamTa wrebrunva

heraklitesi.

* * *

Sens fiqrSi axlac naTlad Cans kvali

qristes fiqris da demonis fiqris,

da krTeba zari, eqo da zari

eklesiastes mwuxare wignis.

da unda Candes!

Sens fiqrSi

zarad

unda usmende bibliis striqons,

radgan samyaro isaa marad,

rac iyo . . . erTxel da ukve iyo.

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* * *

varskvlavTmricxvelno!

galaqtikebis

mzeebs rom ipyrobT teleskopebiT,

roca zeimobT

ciur mignebiT,

roca maRldebiT

ciur ocnebiT,

SexedeT zecas: lurji tatnobi

gadauqargavT wvrilTvala qarvebs,

da aris mTvare _ zecis mnaTobi

da aris kidev

mTawmindis mTvare.

heraklites monologebidan

goni rom Cawvdes samyaros logoss,

pirvelsawyisebs rom miwvdes azri,

sulma rom axsnas: riTi da rogor

agebs kamaras sakuTar taZris,

rom davinaxo kosmiur gzebze

maradi cecxli rogor gizgizebs,

me uars vambob

Cems RvTiur xvedrze _

mefis taxtze da mefis gvirgvinze.

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azris apologia

. . . da sinamdviles

aujanya

gilgameSi da

eklesiaste

aumxedra

drosa da sivrces,

sicocxlis dvritad

gaielva

jvarcmis freskidan

da sikvdiliTa

sikvdilisa

daTrgunvis sibrZned.

Jami misia!

da Jamidan JamSi

gadadis

Jamad sicocxlis,

Jamad ngrevis,

Jamad Senebis,

da Jams daeZebs,

Jams RvTaebrivs,

ukvdavs,

maradiss,

Jams _ mzis zeobis

da gafrenil

lurja cxenebis.

misia arsi . . .

da elvarebs

azri _ sityvaSi,

azri _ gansjaSi.

siyvarulSi,

taZris TaRebSi,

azri _ maxvilSi,

azri _ fiqrSi,

azri _ mizanSi.

azri _ locvebSi,

ocnebebSi,

warmosaxvebSi.

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da sinamdviles aujanya

amirani da

baraTaSvili

aumxedra

drosa da sivrces,

hqmnis da uaryofs,

da isev qmnis,

kvlav da Tavidan

sinamdvileebs,

viT sakuTar

samyaros niRbebs.

kvlav aujanyebs,

kvlav uaryofs,

kvlavac daamxobs,

kvlav gadalaxavs

Seucnoblis

zRvars da napirebs,

rom sakuTar Tavs

piramidad

wamoumarTos,

fiqrSi rom xedavs,

mziur fiqrSi _

is sinamdvile.

kvlav vibadebi

kvlav vibadebi . . .

rocaa irgvliv,

rasac tyved hyavda azri da gansja,

yvelafers vSifrav ganmkiTxvel fiqriT,

yvelafers erTad vusinjav majas.

yvelafers erTad vacileb niRabs,

yvelafers erTad vuSiSvleb saxes,

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yvelafers erTad, viT axsnil igavs,

yvelafers varqmev mis namdvil saxels,

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

da vibadebi.

* * *

samyaros, rogorc TvaldaTxril ciklops,

gza aebna da axla brmad midis,

da sinamdviles,

viT velur ciklons,

qaosebisken miafrens bindi.

mxolod Sen ZalgiZs,

ZaliT grZneuliT,

azro, brma Tvalze kverTxis Sexeba,

Torem samyaro gzaareuli

bnel ufskrulebSi gadiCexeba.

* * *

es is ferflia. . .

im fiqris kocons,

abrialebul kocons rom darCa,

roca danebdi sves, rogorc monRols,

roca satanad movida gansja.

da darCa ferfli! Jami ki mihqris,

viT sivrceebze cxeni ubelo,

isev aRsdgeba fiqri, viT sfinqsi,

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da am ferfls . . .

suli ar Seubero.

* * *

es kosmiuri usazRvroebac,

es unazesi vardis konebic,

amRvreuli da Smagi droebac

da SeSlil JamTa stiqionebic,

es zaric, sivrces gadanafeni,

es fiqric gzebze, miuwvdom gzebze,

. . . rogor lagdeba suyvelaferi

sakuTar Tavis mignebis Semdeg.

* * *

ara, ar axda fiqri arc erTi,

ocneba mainc ocnebad mrCeba,

da miuwvdomlad _ cis sasarkeTi,

da es qveyana _ auxsnel qveynad.

da gzebi isev miuval gzebad

da gauSifrav anad da hoed,

. . . raRacas mainc xom vtoveb qveynad, -

am auxdenel ocnebebs vtoveb.

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* * *

gadian wlebi

da saukunec

uaxlovdeba zRvars dasasrulis,

dReebi miaqvs Jamis ukuneTs,

Sen ki,

Sen

mainc ar gaqvs warsuli.

ar gaqvs! da kvlavac da isev is xar,

is xar, vinc pirvel bWesTan iyavi,

isev ar ixsnis samyaro niRabs

da isev rCeba gauSifravi.

ar ixsnis niRabs! . . bgera da feri,

da mocimcime varskvlavT krebuli . . .

da isev is xar _ Semmecnebeli,

da isev is xar _ Seyvarebuli.

minaweri platonis dialogebze

davtove mRvime!

da es qveyana

mainc landia, landi da landi,

landi gzebad da landi zekarad,

landis aprili da landis marti.

landia!

. . . CemSi sicocxlis dvrita,

namdvilad awrTobs namdvil maxvilebs,

. . . imis landia, rac msurs da minda,

imis landia es sinamdvile.

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monanieba

es iyo rwmena!

mere ki, roca

gansjam eWviT da eWvma ZiebiT

niRbebi moxsnes sisxlian droJams,

suli SeZrwunda monaniebiT.

da vinanieb!

rom im mxurvale

rwmeniT rekavdnen zecis zarebi

da saukunis wlebi brunavdnen,

rogorc oqtombris Tanamgzavrebi.

niRbebi

niRbebi gvesxa . . .

da viT

amay triumfatorebs

gundruks vukmevdiT

tribunebze

Semdgar niRbosnebs,

da gvTxovda Jami,

rogorc

morCil gladiatorebs,

mis mier

Seqmnil arenaze

sisxls da sicocxles.

niRbebi gvesxa . . .

da vuZRvnidiT

maRal sonetebs

niRbis parnasze

amaRlebul

niRbebs _ cezarebs,

qveynad

avznian grigalebad

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mosul oqtombers,

Tebervlis caze

bediswerad

mbrwyinav kentavrebs.

niRbebi gvesxa . . .

da SiSisgan

naboZeb niRbebs

zecad ahqondaT

taSis xma

da taSis kamara. . .

da drom akrZala

WeSmariti eWvi

da nicSe,

akrZala eWvi

da drom

gansja daasamara.

brunavda Jami. . .

dro _

niRbebis karnavali da

Jami qceuli

niRbis qveynad,

azrad, miznebad,

da suls ferflavda

demonuri

cecxlis ali da

inkviziciur

koconebis

agizgizeba.

niRbebs iqiT ki . . .

SeSliliviT

kioda fiqri,

SiSis kldeebze

gadaCexil

fiqris kiviliT,

kioda fiqri _

siZulvili

satanur niRbis,

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fiqri _ gankiTxva,

fiqri _ glova,

fiqri _ tkivili.

kioda fiqri. . .

da iTxovda

sastik Jamisgan,

dakargul zecas,

dakargul jvars,

dakargul zarebs,

namdvil sicocxles,

namdvil jvarcmas,

namdvil qariSxals,

namdvil siyvaruls,

namdvil mwuxrebs

da namdvil mTvares.

kioda fiqri . . .

da dakargul

RmerTs daeZebda,

miznad,

sawyisad,

Tavkidurad,

pirvelmizezad,

gankiTxvad mosuls

miriadi niRbis

fesvebTan _

gaucxoebul

da gulborot

sinamdvilesTan.

me vixsni niRabs!

morCilisa

da munjis niRabs,

niRabs zeimis,

aRtacebis

da imedebis,

da maxviliviT

vaelvareb hamletis kiTxvas,

RmerTs veZeb CemSi

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da RvTis mZebnel

gansjas vnebdebi.

me vixsni niRabs!

Jamis mier

naboZeb niRabs,

mignebul RmerTis

da frTagaSlil

fiqris imediT,

da RvTis im sityvas,

qveynis Semqmnel

im pirvel sityvas,

viT Cemi sulis

imperativs, -

vemorCilebi.

* * *

. . . da SenSi, rogorc imperativi,

arsebobs raRac da ar gaviwyebs

arc erT sixaruls da arc erT tkivils,

saxeebs, xilvebs, gzebs da TariRebs.

da ar gaviwyebs . . .

im yrmobis dReebs,

gelaTis zarebs da Sebindebebs,

im martis TovliT anTebul mzeebs,

im guliT napovn WeSmaritebebs.

ferebs, im ferebs, mowameTaze

lurj gazafxulad mosul iebis,

RvTaebriv ferebs yrmobis zecaze

varskvlavTa pirvel misteriebis.

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da piramidis qviSisfer tanis _

caSi atyorcnil xvamlis _ xatebas,

da utkiviles Wrilobas _ krwaniss,

viT bedisweris gamocxadebas.

xmebs, im vardebTan im naCurCulevs,

zurmuxtisferad gaSlil ivnisebs,

didgoris mTebis fiqrs da siCumes

ar, ar gaviwyebs. . .

da ver iviwyeb.

da yvela xilva,

da yvela saxe

maradisia da uTariRo,

ar SeiZleba Tan rom ar gaxldes,

ar SeiZleba SenSi ar iyos.

* * *

da meordeba . . . kaenis codvac

da amiranis brZolac arwivTan,

tanjvis igavic _ sizifes lodad,

moses udabnoc da Tavganwirvac,

qristes jvarcma da iudas vercxli _

sxva paradigma ra aqvs samyaros?!

isev inTeba Camqrali cecxli,

da ase: kvlav da dausabamod.

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* * *

WeSmariteba, viT maradisi

samizne, ezRo azrs da gonebas,

. . . Sen _ sparazeni mSvildiT da isriT,

da dro _ tyorcnebis ganmeoreba.

tyorcni da tyorcni! Cubinobs Tvali,

isari mizans rom ar agicdes. . .

sxvagan miafrens Sens isrebs qari,

yvela isari scdeba samiznes.

poezias

sinamdvile,

naZerwi

Seni siTamamidan,

Seni gadaelvebiT anTebuli wamidan,

sinamdvile,

Seqmnili

Seni mziT da ritmebiT,

SeniT aelvarebul cisfer WeSmaritebiT,

sinamdvile,

nagebi

Seni warmosaxvidan,

SeniT amotyorcnili sivrcidan da Jamidan,

sinamdvile,

Seqmnili

Seni xmiT da himnebiT,

namdvil zecis siRrmis da namdvil RmerTis

mignebiT,

zeobs

sulis sicocxlis

dvritad,

arsad,

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mTiebad,

yofnis eWvze ueWvo yofnis SurisZiebad.

* * *

erTxelac kidev mozide mSvildi,

erTxelac kidev daZabe Tvali,

erTxelac, sanam dadgeba bindi,

erTxelac, sanam cxelia kvali.

erTxelac, sanam yvelafers xedav,

sanam Seni dro Seni gziT midis,

sanamde RmerTi gegulvis RmerTad,

erTxelac kidev mozide mSvildi.

* * *

droo, gaxsovs, im lamaz

ocnebebiT droobdi,

mzisfer qalze RvTaebriv

fiqriT sawuTroobdi.

axla mogonebiT da

uRrmes sevdiT droob da . . .

sevdiT . . . Jamze . . . romelic

im dros samyaroobda.

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pirveli nawyveti ciklidan ~ dro~

yvelafris amxsnel

azrs

ar ZaluZs

axsnas is faqti,

rom arsebobda,

rom cxadad da

namdvilad iyo

dro _ Cemi,

magram dro _ Senadeli.

meore nawyveti ciklidan ~dro~

yvelafris damtev mogonebas ar SeuZlia,

rom gaixsenos dro,

romelic namdvilad iyo,

magram rodesac ar iyav CemSi.

JamTa wamebad qceulo fiqro

kvlav grZneul xelSi gipyria kenWi

xelT gipyria da kvlavac gemonvis

darRveul JamTa cxraTvala eWvi,

eWvi, viT daSlil JamTa demoni.

dro ki, Cemi dro, jvarze gakruli

gyavs da dro gzas da horizonts iTxovs.

ahyare kenWi, ixsen jvarcmuli

JamTa wamebad qceulo fiqro.

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* * *

rogor TandaTan qarwyldeba eWvi

miriad eWviT dawyevlil fiqrSi,

rogor TandaTan gadneba xelSi

gardauvali sikvdilis SiSi.

rogor TandaTan ecvleba feri,

feric da bgerac drosa da sivrces,

cis gaxsnas rogor imediT eli,

rogor TandaTan miiwev RvTisken.

Seican Tavi

Seican Tavi! da Semoqmedi

aelvardeba Secnobis wilad

da amaRldeba namdvili RmerTi,

rogorc pasuxi kiTxvaze _ vin var?

da Sen mixvdebi, rom Seni gzebiT

datvifrulia Seni droeba,

rom Seni frTebiT, gaSlili frTebiT

cocxlobs sivrceTa usazRvroeba.

vaterlooze sdums saukune

vaterlooze sdums saukune,

viT obeliski, mwuxare saxiT,

da mtvrad qceulebs sZinavT ukuneTs

avangardebis cecxlsa da maxvils.

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da es dumili, cisken wasuli,

aris bilingva gangebis nebis,

epitafiac mZleveli sulis,

epitafiac daZleul vnebis.

vaterlooze sdums dro . . . da frTxilad

Jami dumilSi bilingvas Sifravs,

da rac orives rgebia wilad,

mxolod da mxolod Sendobas niSnavs.

sulo, verasdros ver damSviddebi

sulo, verasdros ver damSviddebi,

radgan ar ici naTlad da cxadad:

Tu sad,

rodis

da rogor

miwvdebi

mSvenierebas ucnobs da axals.

sulo, verasdros ver damSviddebi,

radgan,

qceulma maRal xilvebad,

ar ici,

romel xilviT miwvdebi

axal da ucnob WeSmaritebas.

70

sicocxle

sul gzebs eZebs, ucnob da

ucxo gzebs da traversebs,

ekvatorze, polusze,

sigrZedze da ganedze,

da maRali fiqrebiT

sawyisze da RmerTebze,

miabijebs usazRvrod

gaSlil kontinentebze.

eZebs gzebad qceul

da miznad qceul mizezebs,

mwvervalebze, qvesknelSi,

zRvebze, materikebze.

afrialebs ocnebis

uspetakes merdinebs,

dros swiravs da suls swiravs

wyeul gzajvaredinebs.

verc faravs da arc faravs

maradiul cdunebas,

ebrZvis aTasferian

miwis mizidulobas,

zmanebaSi frTebi da

usazRvroba rialebs.

xedavs: gadalaxul da

mimqral meridianebs.

da kvlav ise SevdivarT. . .

da kvlav ise SevdivarT. . .

miTosidan _ miTosSi,

fiqrebidan _ fiqrebSi,

TiTqosidan _ TiTqosSi,

naocnebar sivrcidan _

naocnebar sivrceSi,

burusidan _ burusSi,

71

sizmrebidan _ sizmrebSi,

lodinidan _ lodinSi,

imedidan _ imedSi,

taZrebidan _ taZrebSi,

zvirTebidan _ zvirTebSi,

qaosidan _ qaosSi,

xilvebidan _ xilvebSi,

. . . viT Zvel sinamdvilidan

axal sinamdvileSi

erTxelac kidev. . .

erTxelac kidev

dareke zari,

mZebnel da mpovnel fiqrebis

zari,

erTxelac kidev ocnebis qnarebs aubi gansjis

simi da lari,

erTxelac kidev

suls STaagone

Semmecnebelis xvedris gaZleba,

sawuTros aRqmad, sawuTros wvdomad,

gaazrebad da gadaazrebad

erTxelac kidev

aabriale

usazRvro ltolvis Wiakokona,

rom yvelaferi gadaanaTos cas miwvdenilma

borjRla

koconma,

erTxelac kidev

miugde yuri

samyaros xmebiT savse niJarebs,

72

erTxelac, raTa idumalebis yvela Sre erTad

gadaiSalos,

raTa faruli gadiqces cxadad da uCinari

gaxdes saCino,

erTxelac,

kidev erTxelac, raTa

sulSi RvTaeba aRmoaCino.

meore nawyveti fiqridan ~saocrebani~

is Svidi sxvaa . . .

es ki TviTon RvTaebam Seqmna

saxed

zeciur wamosaxvis da silamazis,

da

unamdvils saocrebad

aanTo RmerTma

stiqionebad moelvare

veli alaznis.

suli saganZuri

suli saganZuria

natif margalitebis,

mziur qvesknelebidan

amozidul kiTxvebis.

elvareben kiTxvebi

sulis uRrmes Sreebad,

sulis saunjeebad,

73

sulis simaRleebad.

rialeben xmebad da

rialeben ferebad,

sulis usazRvroebad,

sulis bediswerebad.

gizgizeben kiTxvebi

umZafresi vnebebis

sulis _ Semoqmedis da

sulis _ Semmecnebelis,

sulis _ moasparezis,

sulis _ RmerTis mmosvelis,

sulis _ meocnebis da

muxlmodrekil mlocvelis,

sulis _ Tavganwirulad

mZebnelis da mpovnelis,

sulis _ aRmomCenis da

sulis _ uarmyofelis.

elvareben kiTxvebi,

rialeben kiTxvebi,

sulis tkivilebi da

sulis megaliTebi.

da ha, isic _ kiTxvebis

gvirgvinic da mwvervalic,

sulis Tavkiduri da

maradisi mdevari.

sulis dasabami da

urva dausabamo:

~saiT viltvi, sad mival,

saiT mimyavs samyaro?~

. . . suli saganZuria

natif margalitebis,

misi qvesknelebidan

amotyorcnil kiTxvebis.

74

gapaeqreba eklesiastesTan

swored dRes vdavob!

gaugonari

drois mxilvelis SeZrul gonebiT,

ros dailewa msasoovari

taZrebi velur stiqionebiT.

ros moskda Jami _

aRmgveli lava,

moskda _

yvelafris wamleki zvavi,

da rCeba cecxlis grigalis kvalad

nangrevis buRi,

mtveri da

Svavi.

xelTa maqvs Seni RvTiuri wigni,

Cavyureb JamTa Seneul qargas,

gaognebisgan qvavdeba fiqri

es dro

qargaSi

arc erT dros

ar hgavs . . .

Sens ganuzomel da maRal sibrZnes

me qeds vuxridi da axlac vuxri,

sibrZnes . . . da xilvis usazRvro sivrces,

sibrZnes . . . da sulis usazRvro wuxils.

da Seni gansjis da gulis msjavri

CemTvis arafers tovebs sadavod:

. . . rom yvelaferi devnaa qaris,

. . . rom yvelaferi aris amao. . .

me sul sxvas vdavob!

xom marwmunebdi

mmosveli moses sjulis da taZris,

rom miageni JamTa brunebis,

JamTa trialis azrsa da sazriss.

75

rom isev im gzebs,

rac gaviareT,

xelaxla mivdevT kvlav da Tavidan,

rom yvelaferi wreze trialebs

ukunisamde _ dasabamidan.

droc!

da aq vdavob.

aq, dRes da axla,

ros dro _ucnobi, dro-uecari,

moskda, viT velur stiqiis talRa,

da sisxlSi curavs Cemi taZari.

es dro,

Cemi dro,

ugono Jami,

Jami qaosis, ngrevis da SiSis,

cecxlisfrTiani avi grigali

ver vpove me Sens RvTaebriv wignSi.

ar gyvedri!

Sen xom gaSifre asgzis

dro, yoveli Sris wvdomis imediT,

warmoudgenels rogor da ra gziT,

risTvis da ratom warmoidgendi?

xom gagiSala gonebam Tvalwin

yvela gamovlil drois naxati,

ukve arsebul yvela Jams gaswvdi,

aryofils rogor dainaxavdi?

JamTa da droTa niSans da detals

Semmecnebelis WvretiT arCevdi,

Jams,

rac ar Canda

arsad da . . . versad,

ra ZalisxmeviT aRmoaCendi?

xom dagafiqre!

76

da me ki ara,

sul ucnobma drom Tavis zvavebiT,

Cvens mkerdebze rom gadaiara

Tavawyvetili dinozavrebiT.

Jami,

es Jami,

Sens qargas mirRvevs,

da eWvi mimRvrevs suls da gonebas,

rom yvelaferi _ albaT da iqneb _

ar aris Zvelis ganmeoreba.

ras brZanebT axla?

Sen rom gansaje

arc erT dros

es dro,

Cemi dro

ar hgavs,

da vxedav: Seni suli gangaSebs

da Cems dros frTxilad usinjavs majas.

. . . dro ucnobi da verCaxatuli

Sens wignSi da Sens JamTa gammaSi,

vernafiqrali,

verdanaxuli,

vermignebuli

warmosaxvaSic.

dro,

roca gundruks ukmeven Ralats,

dro,

roca ufals ar cnoben RmerTad,

dro,

roca kraven codvebis galas

da

yvela mcnebas arRveven erTad.

dro_

cecxlovani stiqiis zvavi,

dro_

77

saocreba JamTa brunebis,

dro_

kacis mier sakuTar Tavis,

sakuTar sulis ganadgurebis.

. . . Sens ganuzomel codnas da sibrZnes

me qeds vuxridi da axlac vuxri,

sibrZnes. . .

da gansjis RvTaebriv miznebs,

sibrZnes . . .

da grZnobis usazRvro wuxils,

da momiteve es Sesityveba

(Sens wigns CarTuli Strixi mciredi). . .

. . . . . . . . . .

Cven gadavrCebiT!

naTel miznebad

davrekavT zarebs . . . RmerTis imediT.

sionTan ~jvars ecvi Tu ginda, saSveli

ar aris, ar aris, ar aris~.

g. tabiZe

sionTan dgaxar,

da veRar arkvev,

bindi dgeba Tu dila Tendeba,

mwuxrisferebi eSveba cidan Tu ganTiadis

SemoTeTreba.

gadigriala drom

Tavawyvetil

da gaxelebul remis floqvebiT,

78

sivrce ixrCoba Sxamian buRis

sulSemxuTav da

yomral bolqvebiT

veRar ixseneb

im siSoridan

rogor moxvedi bWesTan sionis,

RmerTTan moxvedi da sulSi kivis

jvarcmis

striqoni galaqtionis.

da ise dgaxar,

viT nangrevebSi

moyolili da gamosresili,

dakargulia yvela imedi,

yavlgasulia yvela

veqsili.

gadigriala drom

Tavawyvetil

da gaxelebul remis floqvebiT,

sivrce ixrCoba Sxamian buRis

sulSemxuTav da

yomral bolqvebiT,

mainc aq dgaxar

da sionia

TavSesafari ukanaskneli _

sulmac da dromac aq unda povon

unamdvilesi xsna

da saSveli.

79

* * *

dro

uswrafesad moiTxovs pasuxs,

uzustessa da unaTles pasuxs,

amomwurav da erTaderT pasuxs,

azri ki,

azri,

Jamisagan eldanacemi,

velis wyaluxv mdinaresaviT,

deltas

miRweul

mdinaresaviT

mRvried

da zantad

miizlazneba.

jer gaCnda. . .

(mistikuri gansja)

mawvalebs azri. . .

azri macduri,

azri Semcode da mkrexeluri,

gansjis da gonis zRvars gadasuli,

dauokebi, rogorc veluri.

mawvalebs azri. . .

da modis Rame

inkviziciis mZvinvare cecxlad,

. . . . .. .

jer gaCnda kaci da mere mTvare,

jer kaci, mere miwa da zeca.

80

kidev erTi saswaulic . . .

kidev erTi saswaulic

kidev erTic, gangebav,

sanam suli ukanasknel

samsjavroze warsdgeba.

ocnebebSi sinamdvilis

ra xatebac Sevqmeni,

ra zeciT da ra mziT _ zecis

moelvare refreniT,

ocnebebSi ra taZrebic

ra xomlebad avanTe,

ra sivrceebs, usazRvrobad

gaSlils, gadavanaTe,

ocnebebSi sinamdvile

ra gzebiTac davraxte,

ra sicocxled mivaniWe

bedisweris qaragmebs,

ra ferebi gadavagzne

mokaSkaSe aprilebs,

sinmdvile swored imgvar

saxiT gaminamdvile,

imgvar saxiT . . . amomtyorcne

am sastiki droidan,

daundobel vnebebis da

sisxlis Teatronidan,

qariSxlebad gaduqrole

uborotes fiqciebs

da ocnebis sinamdvile

sinamdviled miqcie,

kidev erTi saswaulic,

kidev erTic, gangebav,

sanam suli ukanasknel

samsjavroze warsdgeba.

81

saukunis dasasrulTan

sul mcire droc da

dasruldeba

es saukunec,

bolo akordebs

aiReben

JamTa qnarebi,

. . . ocdameerTe

ukve anTebs

ucnob Suqurebs

da Cvenc

Seucnob sivrcisaken

miveqanebiT.

asi wlis win ki . . .

imedebis

TeTri zarebi,

zari _ ocnebad

gadaqceul

ganmsjel gonebis,

zari _

ocnebiT mooqrovil

warmosaxvebis,

zari _

ocnebiT daunjebul

metaforebis.

dro iwyeboda . . .

uspetakes

idealebiT.

Tavisuflebis

fsalmunebad

qceul odebiT,

ajanyebebis

sagaloblad

gabmul larebiT,

mZafr

orkestrebad

aJRerebul uaryofebiT.

82

ra siRrmis fiqriT _

ra feradi

saswaulebiT.

saswaulebiT _

RvTaebrivad

amqveyniuriT,

gonis samyaros

Seqmnisa da

xilvis cdunebiT,

sulis SemZvrel

da amaRlebul

uvertiuriT.

naTel miznebiT

Seabjruli

avangardebiT,

qvesknelebidan

amofrqveul

cecxliT-miTebiT.

aelvarebul

da zecisken wasul

sanTlebiT _

mrwamsis,

zneobis,

gankacebis piramidebiT.

rogor ibrZoda . . .

ra qariSxlis

agangaSebiT,

ra Smagi gancdiT,

Smagi JiniT

Smagi gonebiT,

revoluciis

awyvetil da

velur raSebiT.

usazRvro ltolviT

da usazRvro

zeSTagonebiT.

83

ra SemrCa xelSi . . .

damsxvreuli

iluziebi,

fantastikuri

ocnebebiT

savse izmebi,

miuRweveli

miznebi

da yalbi mTiebi,

amao sisxli

da

amao kataklizmebi.

gawamebulTa

da jvarcmulTa

misteriebi,

apokalifsis

mZvinvarebiT

mqroli omebi,

atomur bombiT

Zalmosili

imperiebi,

xirosimas da

nagasakis

Teatronebi.

xedav, sad moxvel?

kvlav sawyisTan,

kvalav am bWeebTan.

isev im zRvarTan,

im samanTan,

kvlav im diresTan,

isev dasamxob

bastiliis

simagreebTan,

kvlav tkivilebiT

guldaseril

sinamdvilesTan.

84

aha, Sescqeri

isev cocxal

eklesiastes,

dro kvlav trialebs,

kvlav vaebad,

da kvlav wamebad,

da sinamdvile

isev,

kvlav

da axlac rialebs

milionobiT

niRbosanTa

karnavalebad.

isev iq dgaxar. . .

da sisxls giSrobs

kiTxva _ maxvili:

nuTu amao

ltolvas niSnavs

ltolva yoveli?

da zecas wvdeba

Semzaravi

Seni Zaxili,

da RvTis wamyofas

da cis gaxsnas

erTad moeli.

sul mcire droc da

dasruldeba

es saukunec,

bolo akordebs

aiReben

JamTa qnarebi,

. . . ocdameerTe

ukve anTebs

ucnob Suqurebs

da Cvenc

Seucnob

sivrcisaken

miveqanebiT.

85

* * *

Cemi am wuTis cnobiereba

CiraRdnad inTebs

idumal `TiTqoss~,

. . . TiTqos iq var da TiTqos ise var,

rogorc Cems nebas

unda da iTxovs.

TiTqos amqveynad batonobs goni,

da mxolod goni

marTavs cxovrebas.

adamianTa nabijebs, zraxvebs, vnebebs,

ocnebebs da STagonebas.

TiTqos gons,

yovlis garegadamwvdoms,

aRumarTia kverTxi grZneulad

da sinamdvile adamianur

sinamdviled da qveynad qceula.

TiTqos amoxsna yofna-aryofnis

yvela kiTxva da

yvela dilema

WeSmaritebis, mSvenierebis

da saTnoebis Zalmosilebam.

TiTqos iq var da TiTqos ise var,

sadac da rogorc

unda viyo da

TiTqos mamaRlebs Cems arsebamde

gonis mofenis gzebis miyola . . .

eocnebebaT damkvidrebuli

gonis sufevis Jami

rafsodebs _

cnobierebam fiqrSi `TiTqosi~,

rom ar ainTos aRarasodes.

86

meordebian

meordebian

ocnebebidan

amonTebuli warmosaxvebi.

kvlav iRviZeben Zveli ltolvebi,

Zveli miznebi, Zveli zraxvebi.

meordebian

Zveli fiqrebi,

Zveli ferebi, Zveli natvrebi,

kvlav cocxldebian sulSi odesRac

amotvifruli Canaxatebi.

meordebian

Zvel tkivilebSi

Cabudebuli Zveli wylulebi,

meordebian saswaulebi _

sulSi aRZruli sinanulebi.

kvlav maRldebian

Zvel kvarcxlbekebze

varskvlavTmricxveli Cemi mogvebi,

meordebian im siyvarulTa

prologebi da epilogebi.

meordebian

frTebi da frTebi,

da gafrenis da qrolvis vnebebi,

kvlav elvareben daviwyebaSi

CaZirul JamTa mogonebebi.

meordebian

sparazenebi

bneli, undo da uRvTo eWvebi,

sulSi, gancdaSi, grZnobaSi, azrSi,

sicocxlis gzebis anabeWdebi.

meordebian

87

ganTiadebi,

rogorc gafrenil

drois zvirTebi,

meordebian sadRac, odesRac

tanjviT ganvlili labirinTebi.

meordebian kvlav amaRlebul

cisken wasuli

TeTri gedebi

da kvlav vnebdebi, qrolvis da ltolvis

elvare vnebebs isev vnebdebi.

iluziebi

Rameul fiqrSi

suls ipyroben da

gons atyveveben iluziebi,

iluziebi _ ise brwyinvale,

rogorc maRali zecis mTiebi.

aha, sacaa amaRlebuli

xilva ulurjes cargvals miwvdeba,

TiTqos gadaxsnil cis karnavali

mxolod axla da CemiT iwyeba.

CemiT iwyeba . . .

da vafrialeb da vaelvareb

lurj bairaRebs,

rogor iolad vwvdebi da vSifrav

yvela siRrmes da yvela simaRles.

ra iolia

frTebis gaSla da

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gaukvalavi gzebiT gafrena.

da sivrceebze axal ferebis

amziureba da gadafena.

viT Semoqmedi,

vqmni da verTvebi

sxva sivrceebSi sul sxva droebebs,

da gamarjvebul mzeriT vacileb

landiviT gamqral amaoebebs.

ra advilia rwmenad aqcio

is, rac aqamde

eWvebiT gklavda,

ra advilia dacxres tkivili,

yvela tkivili droTa da JamTa.

ra advilia

miuwvdomelis

damorCileba, wvdoma, gageba,

ra advilia naocnebaris

ganamdvileba da gasagneba.

iluziebi . . .

ise brwyinvale,

rogorc maRali zecis mTiebi,

da mimafrenen, da mamaRleben,

da matyveveben iluziebi.

* * *

gasagnebuli fiqria . . . mcxeTis

maRali cisken aRZruli jvari,

fiqri, romelSic elvarebs RmerTi,

RmerTi da zecis Sexsnili kari.

89

fiqrSi sawuTros wamebs Tvlis zari

da gaSlil sivrces Jamad moeltvis,

gasagnebuli fiqria jvari _

idumal gzebze mfiqral poetis.

* * *

Cemi gamocdileba,

Cemi cnobiereba

zust formulas mkarnaxobs;

`mwams gonis Zliereba~.

xsnis samyaros SreebSi

yvela daxSul karibWes,

yvela idumalebas

azrs da sazriss aniWebs.

imoseba qveyana

mokaSkaSe ferebiT,

gonis ZalmosilebiT

da gonis ZlierebiT.

da sicocxles, ocnebebs

axvevs bediswerebad,

. . . mwams gonis Zliereba,

. . . mwams gonis Zliereba.

90

fiqri

Sen cocxlob . . . da fiqria

Seni pirvelsawyisi,

miabijeb

Sens fiqrSi

gamokveTil sazrisiT.

fiqrSi _ qveynis mZerwavo,

fiqrSi _ qveynis misano,

fiqrSi unda ewamo,

fiqrSi unda iwamo.

Seni sulis taZari

iSva Seni fiqridan.

fiqris gzebze miiltvi,

fiqris gzebze miqrixar.

fiqriT aqcev idumals

da dafaruls saCinod,

xvdebi: ra da rogor da,

ratom aRmoaCino.

fiqrSi _ qveynis mZerwavo,

fiqrSi _ qveynis misano,

fiqrSi unda ewamo,

fiqrSi unda iwamo.

Seni sulis taZari

iSva Seni fiqridan.

fiqris gzebze miiltvi,

fiqris gzebze miqrixar.

fiqriT aqcev idumals

da dafaruls saCinod,

xvdebi: ra da rogor da,

ratom aRmoaCino.

91

fiqrSi _ qveynis mZerwavo,

fiqrSi _ qveynis misano,

fiqrSi unda ewamo,

fiqrSi unda iwamo.

fiqri zustad gamokveTs

rac iyo da ar iyo,

dro da Jami riTi da,

rogor daaTariRo.

magram, vaiTu . . .

vici, dadgeba is bolo wamic,

is, Cemi bolo wamic dadgeba,

da Seuvali nebiT da ZaliT

RmerTTan warmadgens dro da gangeba.

mere gankiTxva . . . da viT RvTis neba . . .

suls mobjenili RvTaebis msjavri,

magram vaiTu Tavis migneba

im wardgomamde ver movaswari.

warwera kantis ~wminda gonebis kritikaze~

roman Sengelias

arc araferi vici,

arc imedi maqvs ramis,

ver gamovtace dro-Jams

naocnebari wami.

92

da Seuwyvetel fiqrSi

mawamebs sulis gminva,

viT daumcxrali eqo,

vin var, vin var da vin var?

rad, rad ar axsovs?

gamarjvebuli Semodis romi,

Semodis romi, viT zecis Zleva,

me ki RmerTebis da zecis wyromiT

Zleuli, magram... jer isev me var.

dalewilia Cemi javari,

roms moaqvs risxva, Zrwola da SiSi,

da ikargeba Crdili galavnis

legionerTa droSebis CrdilSi.

me suli mtkiva da Sen ver mismen

triumfatoris amayi smeniT,

me cremli mtkiva, mware da mqise,

zeciT ganwirul Zekacis cremli.

...rad, rad ar axsovs roms is triumfi?

mcxeTa ki... isev TvalnaTliv xedavs:

roms, Zlevis niSnad mze rom miuZRvis,

da Surisgebad wamomdgar mcxeTas.

93

`galobani sinanulisani~

mogvyveba qari, yinva da marti

da SeRameba megzurad gvavs,

saqarTveloSi uwmindes adgils _

vuaxlovdebiT _ daviTis saflavs.

vuaxlovdebiT! da gamToS mwuxrSi,

gelaTis zarTa idumal xmaze,

`galobis~ xmebi Semodis sulSi

da zeciuri siwmindiT gvavsebs.

gazafxuli qarTlis gzaze

Sexede, erTi wamic da,

gadaielvebs zedized,

mzeSi mze gamoiRviZebs,

amomzevdeba mzeSi mze.

ucqire erTi wamic da,

gadmoinTeba qarvebad,

mzeSi mze amoanaTebs,

mzeSi mze aelvardeba.

Sexede erTi wamic da,

gadaisivrcebs zedized,

mzeSi mze daibadeba,

amomzevdeba mzeSi mze.

94

* * *

gelis maRali zeca mcxeTaSi

da alaverdis naTeli gelis,

gelis didgorSi, mterTa ZlevaSi,

aelvarebul droSebis feri.

gelis nangrevi armazis karTan

rogorc pirveli locvis siwminde,

maT ver acdebi . . .

radgan Sens TavTan,

sakuTar TavTan unda mixvide.

farnavaz

zeca mxolod zeca iyo,

miwa mxolod miwa iyo,

Jamic mxolod Jami iyo

uJamo da uTariRo.

SeniT: zeca qarTul zecad,

SeniT: miwa qarTul miwad,

SeniT: Jami qarTul drod da

qarTul Jamad gadaiqca.

95

ikorTa

aRmarTi Sewyda da molodinSi

mainc uecrad gaCnda taZari,

simaRle _ JamTa SemZvrel tkivilSi

xanZriT, qariT da mziT gadamwvari.

sivrce caxcaxebs SuadRis sicxiT,

Sors ukidia cecxli tirifons,

. . . da dgas taZari, isev viT biZgi,

. . . rom me vifiqro da sul vifiqro.

saba orbelianis gaxseneba daviT aRmaSeneblis saflavTan gelaTSi

daviTi . . . mze da miwa qarTuli

JamiT da xmaliT amravalwila,

da samSoblosTvis SubSemarTuli

iqca qarTuli miwis nawilad.

sabam ki, sabam . . . mRvrie qar-wvimiT

gzac daiqca da Jamic daiqca . . .

ver aisrula bolo wadilic

da qarTul miwad ver gadaiqca.

96

dioskuriis nangrevebTan

gagimeoreb, rac vTqvi mcxeTaSi,

rac ukve giTxar Tmogvis bWeebTan,

rac ukve giTxar mzisfer gelaTSi

da nariyalas simaRleebTan,

rac ukve giTxar zedaznis mTebTan

(Tavze rom gvadga zeca Svidive),

am nangrevebTan da tkivilebTan

gagimeoreb zustad igives.

zedaznidan

tkivils hqvia iberia,

farnavazis fiqrs da tkivils,

droo, rogor gifrenia

gzebze mware sinamdvilis.

tkivils hqvia iberia,

gorgasalis zars da tkivils,

zaris xmaSi sizmrebia,

Zaxilia qarTlis Wiris.

tkivils hqvia iberia,

arsakiZis sisxls da tkivils,

sveticxovlis cis feria

suli _ taZars Senawiri.

tkivils hqvia iberia.

97

kimoTes ubanSi

aqac, am mTebSic, am zecis karTan,

Camcxral freskebSi aqac ielva,

serobis Ramem da qristes jvarcmam,

golgoTas gzam da Tvalsawierma.

aqac ielva!

da suli aqac

kvlav gzas eZebs da simaRles eZebs,

eZebs am mTebSic, am zecis karTan,

Sefarebuli am Camcxral freskebs.

* * *

raRac sxva, vidre mxolod nangrevi,

raRac sxva, vidre burji daSlili,

vidre CuqurTma, cecxliT narbevi,

JamiT waSlili da gadaSlili,

raRac sxva, vidre qvaze avazad

amotvifruli xsovna xaldesi,

ara!

swored is,

swored raRac sxva

aris mTavari da umTavresi.

98

TmogvTan

ra fesvebs da ra siRrmes da romel

simaRleebs eZeb,

ra xilvas da ris Cawvdomas eltvi

usazRvrobis gzebze?

nangrevebi Tmogvis burjTa, vneba _ Cakiruli

kldeSi,

Jami sunTqavs ulurjesi zecis umarjanes

mzeSi.

ha, fesvebic, aha, siRrmec da simaRlec

usasrulo,

Sexede da SeigrZne da Seican da Cawvdi

sulo!

bosforTan

darCa stambuli . . . wminda sofiiT,

viT mziur sivrces lurj metaforiT,

napirs vSordebiT TeTr ~olimpiiT~

da lilisferad modis bosfori,

me ki . . . mimyveba sevda da Sxami

sevda da Sxami - sxva araferi,

iatagani da sisxlis Rvari

naxevarmTvariT gadanaferi.

99

Tbilisi mTawmindidan

aq aris raRac imaze meti,

rac aris da mzis sicxade axlavs,

rac ganuzomel tkivilad erTvis

mtkvars da mTawmindas, metexs da kalas . . .

meti! . . is, cxadad rac ar Cans, magram

rac aelvarebs sions da krwaniss,

rac ar arsebobs dRes, aq da axla

da ucxadesad mniSvnelobs mainc.

baTumi

me kvlav vbrundebi, magram vbrundebi

im uflebiT, rom axlac momeli,

kvlav melis Seni iagundebi

da ca _ yvela cis uarmyofeli.

da Sens quCebSi Cemi warsuli,

is sanapiro, wvima da . . . fiqri . . .

da gauxsneli is saganZuri _

mobarebuli dReebi siyrmis.

sarfi

aq esizmrebaT yvelaze cxadi

sizmrebi, magram . . . natvris sizmrebi,

da zmanebaSi zecamde adis

zaris xma _ sizmrebs Senaxiznebi.

100

zaris xma oSkis maRali taZris,

uidumales naTlis mfeneli,

. . . aq esizmrebaT yvelaze cxadi

sizmrebi, magram auxdeneli.

oqros cixidan saqarTvelos

cxadia _ riT da rogor gadarCi,

isic cxadia _ risTvis gadarCi,

. . . oqros cixidan elvarebs zarzma

da mze loculobs zarzmis taZarSi,

zeca iRvreba CorCanis Tavze,

mesxeTis mTebi iwvis qarvaSi,

. . . me ukve vici _ risTvis gadarCi,

da isic _ riT da rogor gadarCi.

. . . da is, rac CemSi

da is,

rac

CemSi

JamTa svlas

101

ar sdevs,

isev TeTr xidTan miarRvevs talRas,

isev Tavs adgas bagratis nangrevs

da zarzmis zarebs arisxebs axlac,

isev alaverds udgas darajad,

kvlav mecixovned udgas kveteras,

da ninowmindis daSlil galavans,

gremis samreklos da bedisweras,

isev darajobs

jvarsa da mcxeTas,

myinvarisa da uSgulis afrebs,

didgoris mTebs da bediis zecas,

Suriscixis da mTawmindis kalTebs,

kvlav mcvelad udgas

gonios sizmrebs,

da adigenTan gaSlil gvirilebs,

da wiwamuris xilvebs da fiqrebs,

viT maradiul urvis tkivilebs,

da isev cocxlobs

simaRliT oSkis,

gelaTis freskis maRali azriT,

cisken wasuli svanuri koSkiT

da varZiaSi nakveTi taZriT,

qarviT dadafnul likanis mTebiT,

da foTolcvenis feradi wamiT,

da ocnebebSi . . .

daxatul gzebiT,

da molodinSi . . .

daxatul JamiT . . .

da is,

rac

CemSi

JamTa svlas

ar sdevs

102

isev TeTr xidTan miarRvevs talRas,

isev Tavs adgas bagratis nangrevs

da sionis zars arisxebs axlac.

gelaTis monastris karibWesTan

movel, rom isev, isev da kvlavac

vusmino: Seni zarebis rekvas,

da davuCoqo: daviTis saflavs,

da veTayvano: mesiis freskas,

vucqiro: Sens cas, rogorc minanqars,

viT xatavs Seni mze mewamuli,

da umZafresad,

da umZafresad,

da umZafresad

vigrZno mamuli.

hei, fiqro . . .

hei, fiqro qarTlis bedze, fiqro,

maradiulo,

qarTul sulSi Cakirulo, imediviT mziuro,

hei fiqro _ he, lileov, dalewili xundebis,

fiqro borkilawyvetis da fiqro

Tavisuflebis,

hei, fiqro, usasrulo, fiqro, Cauqrobelo,

qarTul natvris da ocnebis da zmanebis

mpyrobelo,

103

hei, fiqro, usaSvelo, fiqro, samaradiso,

qarTul sagalobelis da qarTul zRapris

sawyiso,

hei, fiqro, usazRvro, da fiqro

ganuwyvetelo,

qarTul sulis cixe-burjo, kldekaro da

kedelo,

romel mzidan amoenTe, romel bedisweridan,

romel jvarcmis tkivilidan, ra gangebis

wyevlidan?

ra ZaxiliT mohkiodi dros bibliur Jamidan,

ra simaRle amostyorcne qaosidan daviTad?

ra naxtomiT gadaevle ra ufskruls da

galavans,

ra frTiT Sehkar tatos mernis naxtomi da

kamara?

ra freskebiT elvarebdi alaverds da yinwviss

da,

ra zarebad maRldebodi zecad qarTul

miwidan?

ra mSvildebad mozidulxar, ra qrolvad da

qariSxlad,

ra droSebad gadaSlilxar ujarmas da

taSiskars?

ra, ra wamma amoganTo, romel stiqionidan,

ra simaRlis xilvidan da ra gangebis

wyromidan?

hei, fiqro, uwmindeso, fiqro, qarTlis

cxovrebav,

sulxan-sabas cremlis wveTo, qeTevanis

godebav,

104

riT amaRldi, ra urvidan, wamebidan,

jvarcmidan,

ra taZridan, ra tkivilis, ra ocnebis

taZridan?

riT gadarCi martosulo, devnilo da eulo,

wiwamurSi sinaTled da ukvdavebad qceulo,

hei, fiqro, meamboxev, mesiav da mmosavo,

fiqro, Cemo Sevardeno, meSurdulev, mgosano,

hei, fiqro, simaRleo, sunTqvao da saSvelo,

mexmleo da sparazeno, meabjrev da damcvelo,

he, fiqro, duRabo da kiro qarTul cixeTa,

fiqro, amoSenebulo xerTvisad da cxireTad,

hei, fiqro wvrilTvalav, da hei, fiqro

abjaro,

didgorSi da basianSi zvavad CamonaSalo,

hei, fiqro, amiranis Wrilobidan aRmdgaro

ra gawamebs, ra tkivili, ra ocnebis samyaro?

ra gawamebs, idumali, ra xma dausabamo,

ra zmaneba usaSvelo, ra ocnebis samyaro?

ha, elvareb qarTlis bedze fiqro,

maradiulo,

bibliur mziT anTebulo, imediviT mziuro,

da Jamidan JamSi mdinars, maxviliT da

zaradiT,

Tan gadagaqvs saqarTvelos ukvdaveba maradi,

Tan gadagaqvs xma, zaris xma, viT sicocxlis

sZlispiri:

-ar gabedo,

ar gabedo,

ar gabedo sikvdili!

105

1959 wlis 17 marti

warwera vaxtang javaxaZis wignze ~ucnobi~

sabediswero fanjris rafidan

qvafenilamde ra manZilia. . .

~maSin gaTavda epoqa didi,

wiwamurSi rom mohkles ilia.~

axlac Tavdeba! raRac diadi

da usaSvelo axlac Tavdeba,

erTi wamic da . . .

saqarTveloSi

ra gaognebiT SemoRamdeba.

cameti tyvia . . . da bolos mainc

naocnebari frTebi gaSala. . .

ase usazRvro da uboloo

da mRvrie sivrce ram gadaSala.

ra manZilia . . . am naxtomidan

ukvdavebamde ra manZilia. . .

~maSin gaTavda epoqa didi,

wiwamurSi rom mohkles ilia~.

gismendi da . . .

megobar mwerals jansuR Rvinjilias

gismendi da. . . gismendi da . . .

gismendi da . . . vxedavdi . . .

ukvdavia is tkivili

oSkisa da gelaTis.

ukvdavia, ise rogorc

106

nawamebi qriste da

cocxlobs pirvelsawyisad da

cocxlobs pirvelmizezad.

ra vTqva,

sxva ra metafora

ufro metis damtevi. . .

ra gawamebs,

ra aprili

da ra argonavtebi.

ra, ra fiqri gadaSale

imedad da kirTebad.

qarTul wuTisofelze da

qarTul Jamze fiqrebad.

ra jvarcmis gzebs gadafine

ra maRali ocneba,

ra fsalmunad aelvardi,

ra leqsad da locvebad.

ra simaRled aenTe da

ra, ra gulad _

sakired,

sad miafren,

ra sivrceSi

gundad qarTul arwivebs?

ra gklavs,

ra,

ra warmosaxva,

sizmari da zmaneba,

romel zecis xateba da

ra mzis aelvareba?

sad iwyebi,

ra Soridan,

ra simaRlis

siRrmidan,

pirvel qarTul simReridan,

107

pirvel qarTul sityvidan.

pirvel qarTul tkivilidan,

pirvel qarTul zRapridan,

pirvel qarTul CuqurTmidan,

pirvel qarTul jvarcmidan.

pirvel qarTul nangrevidan,

pirvel daSlil lodidan,

ra Soridan,

ra sisxliT da

ra wamebiT modixar!

riTi gasZel,

ra imediT,

ra ocnebiT gasZeli,

ra rwmeniT da

risi rwmeniT,

ra RmerTiT da taZrebiT?

ras,

ras natrob,

ra sanatrels,

ra mziani Ramidan,

raze rekav

kvlav da isev

darekili zaridan?

ra sivrceebs gadahyureb

ra xvalindel dReebis,

ra dasapyob mwvervalebis,

romel simaRleebis?

ras mieltvi,

romel frTebiT

ra gafrenebs mieltvi,

riTi cocxlob,

romel mziT da

romel sinamdvileTi?

108

gismendi da . . . gismendi da . . .

gismendi da . . . vxedavdi . . .

ukvdavia is tkivili

oSkisa da gelaTis.

* * *

gavCndi . . . da mere werda da werda,

sulze, viT sufTa dafaze werda,

uidumales xilvebiT werda,

werda tkivilis asomTavruliT,

daviTis qarTlis nangrevis sevda,

bagratis daSlil CuqurTmis sevda,

yinwvisis freskis ukvdavi sevda

da maradisi fiqri: mamuli.

* * *

. . . da erTi wuTic . . . da bagratidan

Sexedav gelaTs da gaocdebi,

. . . mze ocnebobs da mzis naxatidan

cad mifrinaven TeTri frTosnebi,

mTebs, silurjeSi SeboWril koncxebs,

mze feradebad aRvris ocnebas,

. . . winaswar ici,

rom gagaocebs

da mainc gipyrobs es gaoceba.

109

* * *

rogor SemZvrelad aris lamazi,

ra mtkivneulad aris lamazi,

es CuqurTmebi am Camongreul

da gadalewil cixe-darbazis.

am daSlil mtevnebs, am danacrebul

jvrebs, mzeebs, orbebs, lomebs, avazebs

rogor anaTebT Rrma sinanuliT

da cremliT savse es silamaze.

artanuji

librad gadaukravs xsovnas

dro, viT xavsi nangrev burjebs,

da ar axsovs artanuji

axla arc erT ardanujels.

vai, Jamo, warecxilo,

vai, nawamebo sulo,

vai, warsulo, walekilo,

vai, xsovnav, gaZarculo.

110

mwuxris zarebi gelaTis monasterSi

eSveba mze, viT mwuxris faskunji

da efineba sivrces giSeri,

ismis zaris xma . . . raRac diadis

mauwyebeli da aRmniSvneli.

zarebi reken . . . da gierTdebiT.

Tqven gierTdebiT, zecis hangebo.

zaris xmebs moaqvT raRaca wminda,

raRac mTavari da sagangebo!

sizifes lodi (nawyveti saqarTveloze fiqrebidan)

wamidan wamze mZimdeba lodi

wamidan wamze xSirdeba sunTqva,

. . . dro awrTobs axal da axal borkils

Cemi miznis da ocnebis xundad.

. . . magram me viwyeb kvlav da xelaxla,

imav fiqriT da isev Tavidan. . .

da mainc,

mainc

mival mwvervalTan

da lods mwvervalze mainc avitan.

111

* * *

Cems pirvel SviliSvils Tornike korZaias

aha, Seni pirveli

ganTiadi gabrwyinda,

aelvarda cis fonze

metexi da mTawminda,

iwyebi!

da ainTo

dasapyrobi mwvervali,

Sens gasavlel gzebs Zerwavs

Seni bedismwerali.

iwyebi!

da modixar

gulad, grZnobad, gonebad,

ra, ra gadaielvebs

maRal zeSTagonebad.

iwyebi!

da Ze kacis

jvarcmis gzebi mogelis,

gzebi _ garduvalic da

gzebi _ moulodnelic,

hoi, ra droni mogelis,

ra gancdis da vnebebis,

Jami _ siyvarulis da

Jami _ Semmecnebelis,

ra samyaro mogelis

usasrulo fiqrebis,

sadac taZars aageb

yvela siRrmis mimgnebi,

ra tkivili mogelis

da ra urva qarTuli _

warsuli da mermisi

erTad gadaxlarTuli,

112

ra mernebi mogelis,

daraxtuli mernebi,

ra gangebiT,

ra qrolviT

da ra bediswerebiT.

ra sevda gelodeba,

cremli saniaRvaro,

saiT gauZRvebi da

sad

waiyvan

samyaros?

Seni bedismwerali

mamaRlebs da madardebs _

. . . .

saukune gadivlis

bolo ganTiadamde.

warwera iaponiaSi gasagzavn ~deda enaze~ Cems SviliSvils jansuR korZaias

~deda enas~ gigzavni

saqarTvelos despanad,

rom sul erTad

zeobdeT

Sen da Seni qveyana,

rom samyaros bWeebSi,

Sen win rom aRmarTula,

Seabijo qarTuliT,

qarTuliT

da qarTulad

113

qarTul goniT!

da zRaprul

qarTul asomTavruliT,

qarTul guliT da gancdiT,

STagonebiT qarTuliT.

qarTul ocnebebiT da

qarTul zecis ferebiT,

qarTul leqsis simaRliT,

qarTul cnobierebiT.

~deda enas~ gigzavni,

saqarTvelos despanad,

rom

sul

erTad

zeobdeT,

Sen da Seni qveyana.

meored dabadeba

gia abesaZis xsovnas

gia abesaZem 1991 wlis Semodgomaze,

roca saqarTveloSi politikuri

destabilizacia mefobda da samoqalaqo omis

garduvaloba aSkarad ikveTeboda, rusTavelis

prospeqtze Tavi daiwva. sikvdilis win man es

striqonebi dautova STamomavlobas: ''Tu

qarTvelTa Serigebasa da saqarTvelos

aRorZinebas msxverpli sWirdeba, dae, es

msxverpli me viyo, RmerTma qnas, bolo.

Svilo, mapatie. vici, rom gamigeb''

gansjam amotyorcna da

simwriT amoizida

daskvna . . .

tkivilidan da

114

damsxvreuli miznidan.

daskvna . . . nangrevebidan,

fiqris gaognebidan,

gadabugul mzidan da

mRvrie qaosebidan,

kanonadagadavlil

sivrcis ferflis feridan,

Seucnob da auxsnel

sastik bedisweridan

gabzaruli gulidan,

dacxriluli vnebidan,

akivlebul cremlidan _

JamTa saocrebidan,

daskvna . . . sicocxleebze

gadavlili kevridan,

ganwiruli zecidan

dakarguli rwmenidan,

gamoucnob Zrwolidan,

sasikvdilo eldidan,

gaqvavebul majidan,

usaSvelo sevdidan,

damiznebul srolidan,

SeZrwunebul xilvidan,

gaorebul,

gaxleCil

qarTul sinamdvilidan,

cas miwvdenil urvidan,

sisxliT natbor miwidan,

mexTatexad,

eldad da

zarad

115

amoizida _

daskvna,

viT bedisweris

ucxadesi qaragma:

saqarTvelom goni da

TavisTavi dakarga.

irgvliv sivrce, morTuli

mongoluri karvebiT,

sivrce, gadalekili

sisxlis niaRvarebiT.

da erTbaSad,

SeZruli

SeSlil sinamdvileTi,

gondakargul qveyniT da

daSretili imediT,

miwvdi,

rom amaoa

sityvac,

locvac,

RaRadic,

rom am wamSi samSoblos

samudamod kargavdi,

im uwmindes miwas da

im zmanebebs kargavdi,

Sen rom mTeli sicocxle

ocnebebiT qargavdi.

im simaRles kargavdi

qarTul sulis simaRles . . .

. . . . . .

yvelaferi mihqondaT

grigalebs da niaRvrebs.

saqarTvelo TavisTavs

Tavis xeliT marxavda . . .

116

. . . . . . .

yvelaferi morCa da

yvelaferi gaTavda.

irgvliv sivrce-morTuli

monRoluri karvebiT . .

sivrce savse boRmis da

Surisgebis zarebiT. .

idga ubnelesi da

SemxuTveli qaosi . .

. . . . . . . .

goni ram daukarga

Semqmnels vefxistyaosnis?

goni ram daukarga

Semkrebs qarTul hangebis,

ra RvTis wyromiT,

ra ZaliT,

ra daundob gangebiT?

goni ram daukarga

mSobels petre iberis?

. . . . . . . .

vin gaaqro

cisferi,

zRvisferi da

mzisferi.

goni ram daukarga

qristes jvaris aRmmarTvels,

bagratsa da gelaTs da

mcxeTasa da alaverds.

irgvliv sivrce _ morTuli

monRoluri karvebiT,

mooWvili boRmis da

zizRis minanqarebiT

da akivldi!

117

is wami

da im daskvnis sazrisi

yvelas rom gaeazra,

viT axali krwanisi.

yvelas rom ganecada

bedisweris qaragma:

qarTlma goni, azri da

Tavis Tavi dakarga.

magram vai,

yru iyo

sivrceca da Jamic da,

yru iyo, viT udabno

da yru . . . dasabamidan.

vervis ver miawvdine

xma Sens akivlebidan,

gamwarebul gulidan,

SeZrwunebul vnebidan,

xsna ar Canda!

gars gertya

udaburi Waobi,

usicocxlo, umzeo,

da bnel sanaxaobiT.

xsna ar Canda!

gexvia

gauvali tevrebi,

gadaferadebuli

mrume akvarelebiT.

ra wamma Cagagona,

romel siRrmis mxilvelma,

ram amoxsna

aTasi

kiTxviT savse dilema?

118

ra wamma Cagagona

risma amolandebam?

ra fiqridan,

ra mwveli

cecxlis amonaTebam?

ra gansjam Cagagona,

romel fiqris wamyofiT,

ram miagno:

ar smenils,

ar nanaxs da

ar yofils?

ra gansjam Cagagona

romel fiqris wamyofiT,

rom qveyanas SeZravdi

mxolod TviTuaryofiT.

mxolo Tavis SewirviT,

mxolod Tavis ganwirviT . . .

. . . . .

da afrinda Sens caze

frTagaSlili arwivi.

mxolod cecxliT!

mzisTvaliT,

cecxliT _ pirvelmizeziT,

cecxlad abrialebiT,

cecxlad agizgizebiT.

ra Zala SeimarTa,

aborgda da amboxda,

ra gansjam Cagagona

romel fiqris wamyofam?

ra Zala,

ra damuxte

tanze cecxlis momdebad,

ram CaaxSo tkivili,

wameba da godeba?

119

cecxli, viT stiqioni,

cecxli _ pirvelmizezi,

cecxli amiranis da

cecxli heraklitesi.

da cecxlwakidebuli

cisken waxvel nisliviT

cecxlad amoelvardi,

cecxlad amogizgizdi.

enTo wami! _

tkivilad

anTebuli lampari,

rogorc yofna-aryofnis

samani da sazRvari.

da afeTqda samyaro,

mrume,

yru,

udaburi,

da kioda samreklo,

rekda zari gabmuli

da sul bolo xilvaSi

aferadda giSeric. . .

da ainTo

cisferi,

mzisferi da

zRvisferi,

Sen ki,

vinc qaosidan

cecxlad amoityorcne,

kvlav grZeldebi!

ukvdav da

maradiul sicocxled.

120

da yvelafers, rac CemTvis

. . . da es gancda ~Cemia~

cisfer idumalebad

axlavs yvela aRqmas da

erTvis yvela zmanebas,

da yvelafers, rac iyo,

da yvelafers, racaa,

da yvelafers,

rac CemTvis

saqarTvelos gancdaa.

gancdas

myinvarwveris da

uSbis amay simaRlis,

Suriscixis burjebis

simtkicis da simagris,

erTvis

SoTas striqons da

striqons galaqtionis,

mtkvris talRebis Srials da

cisfer zarebs sionis,

axlavs

sveticxovelis

zecad asul xatebas,

da aCrdilad ilias

naTel amonaTebas,

gancdas

mTawmindisas da

misi zecis ferebis

da uwmindes saflavebs

didi mTawmindelebis,

axlavs

krwaniss, marabdas,

gonios da martyofs da

121

gorgasalis isrebis

mozidvas da gatyorcnas,

alaverdis gumbaTs da

gelaTs _ aRmaSeneblis

da bagratis CuqurTmebs

jvriT da

mziT da

mtevnebiT.

alaznis vels _ mooWvils

qarvis minanqarebiT,

erTvis

mravalJamiers

mogugune banebiT,

Tamar mefis xsovnas da

deda enis foliants,

didgors _

azris,

gonebis

da maxvilis goliaTs.

akakis Cangs!

vefxvis da

moymis ukvdav baladas,

TeTri CiCilakebiT

amonTebul kalandas.

da yvelafers, rac iyo,

da yvelafers, racaa,

da yvelafers,

rac CemTvis

saqarTvelos gancdaa.

122

samSoblo _ mcneba

dimitri da kaxaber korZaiebs

vcocxlob da viRvwi

gonebis mier

mcnebad aRTqmuli

samSoblos wiaR,

samSoblo-mcneba, romelsac qveynad

upirvelesi simaRle hqvia.

goni da mcneba!

aq sibrZnecaa.

aris vnebac da

uryevi nebac,

ara, samSoblo ar aris cneba,

igi mcnebaa _

maRal mizanTa,

wminda zraxvaTa

TavganwirvaTa Semkrebi mcneba.

samSoblo aris

sulis sawyisi,

da dasawyisi,

arsi da dvrita,

sul CemTanaa warmosaxvebad,

yofnis sazrisad, ocnebad, miTad.

xelidan xelSi,

sagogmanebi,

pirvelmizezi

yvelgan da marad,

sicocxlis azrad sulis yivili:

sdeq mtkiced! burjad! Seuval karad!

goni da mcneba!

Tavis dadebis

da TavSewirvis

ukvdavi mcneba,

samSoblosaTvis Tavganwiruli

yvelaze lamaz sikvdiliT kvdeba!

123

goni da mcneba!

Tavganwirulebs

rom unTebs wminda

da frTian kocons,

samSoblosaTvis Tavdadebuli

yvelaze lamaz sicocxliT cocxlobs.

rac minda,

swored imgvarad minda,

rogorc samSoblos

unda da nebavs,

igi mcnebaa:

locvaTa,

zarTa,

TavganwirvaTa,

gzaTa da sulTa

Semkrebi mcneba.

. . . da iocnebe

iaponia, q. kioto,

Cems SviliSvils luka korZaias

dadgeba dro da

Sen Cawvdebi

am Cems striqonebs,

zustad gaigeb

ra da

ratom meocnebeba,

da vxedav,

rogor agitacebs

da gagiyolebs,

es Cemi locva,

Cemi aja,

Cemi vedreba.

124

gaiTavise

sinamdvile,

rom mis ucilo

Sred gadaiqces

Seni azri,

gansja, goneba,

rom arvin darCes

qveyanaze

arvin uwilod

Sens

ulamazes da uwmindes

zeSTagonebas.

icocxle ise,

rom Sen mier

nageb darbazebs,

ver gauCinos

versad bzari

drom da bunebam,

da sul geweros

sulze,

rogorc wminda dafaze.

samSoblo,

rogorc

umaRlesi Rirebuleba.

da iocnebe,

da mohfine

mTel saqarTvelos,

Seni ocneba

imedebis

naTel taZrebad,

qarTveli

mudam

meocnebe suliT qarTvelobs.

qarTvelad

mxolod

meocnebes ZaluZs gaZleba.

aha, es leqsic,

125

Cems guls vatan

me am striqonebs,

am Cems ocnebas

am Cems ajas,

am Cems vedrebas,

ha, modis is dro

/Jami

swrafad gadaiqrolebs/,

CvenSi rom

Seni

saukune amomzevdeba.

mowameTa

zenaaris CagonebiT da RvTaebis karnaxiT

mowameTad moinaTla es smaragdis sanaxi.

mowameTa . . . saqarTvelos istoriis qaragma,

vinc daarqva, swored amgvar gaazrebiT

daarqva.

mowameTa Cveni miwis tkivili da sevdaa,

qarTul gzebze, qarTul cis qveS yvelgan

mowameTaa.

da sicocxle . . . samSoblosTvis Sewiruli

zvaraki,

yvelgan jvarcma da jvarcmulTa wminda

ZvalSesalagi,

Cveni miwis yvela goji Wriloba da eldaa,

Cvens mTebze da Cvens velebze yvelgan

mowameTaa.

mowameTa _ tfilisi da mowameTa _ zadeni,

yvelgan mowameTaa da yvela sisxldanadeni.

126

mowameTa _ wiwamuri _ ganwiruli titani,

da kojori _ wamebuli miriadi wmindani.

mowameTa _ Zveli mcxeTis dafleTili sxeuli,

yvelgan mowameTaa da yvela sisxldanTxeuli.

da mamuli mofenili urviT _ mowameTebiT,

mudam, marad da niadag Casafrebul eldebiT,

mowameTa . . . vaeba da godeba da wameba,

reks qarTuli yvela zari mowameTas zarebad.

Cveni miwis yvela goji cremlia da sevdaa

da friadi saqarTvelo didi mowameTaa.

mowameTa . . . saqarTvelos istoriis qaragma,

vinc daarqva, zustad amgvar gaazrebiT

daarqva.

. . . da Cven Seni simaRlidan

daviT CxikviSvilis xsovnas

isev aq varT,

kvlav aq varT da

uSenod varT mcxeTaSi,

Tavze gvadgas lurji zeca

armazis da zedaznis,

da xilvaSi kvlav cocxldeba

127

Semodgomis gzebi da . . .

isev dgebi im noembris

Ramis mogonebidan:

. . . cecxli enTo buxris TvalSi,

cecxli genTo sityvaSic,

cecxli enTo maRla, jvarze

amowveril ciskarSic,

sufras adga Semodgomis

SeTenebis surneli. . .

da Sen

gaxsnil gulis kariT _

sevdiT ganukurneliT,

zeca gaxsen sveticxovlis,

zeca gaxsen mecxre da

amobrwyinda mze qarTuli

taoxsa da mesxeTs da,

gadaxsnili gulis kariT,

rogorc maRal gangebiT,

fesvebs miwvdi diaoxSi

Zvel megruli hangebis,

da Cven

Seni mwvervalidan

avicxadeT saTave,

riTac qarTli uZvelesi

axlac rCeba qarTladve,

da Cven Seni simaRlidan

Sens jvarTan da armazTan

Cvens sicocxles CavwvdiT qarTul

sulis jabadarbaSad . . .

imRvreoda savse mTvare

ciskris pirvel tatnobiT,

JRerda zari!

128

usasrulo

gafrenis da naxtomis,

iyo Rame _ garduvali

bedisweris sworferi,

viT erT wamSi dateuli

mTeli wuTisofeli,

iyo Rame _ gaTanguli

Semodgomis surneliT,

gadaxsnili Seni guliT

sevdiT ganukurneliT . . .

dRes kvlav aq varT,

isev aq varT,

uSenod varT mcxeTaSi,

Tavze gvadgas lurji zeca

armazis da zedaznis,

isev rekavs zari

Seni

gaxsnil gulis karis da . . .

sanam vcocxlobT, is mimwuxri

mudam

mova

Tavidan,

da is Ramec,

Sen rom uZRven

mcxeTas mzian Ramed da,

is ciskaric da im pirvel

ciskris mkrTali mTvarec da,

im noembris ca _ gaxsnili

im tkivilis oranic,

. . . fexze vdgebiT da ismeva

Seni mosagonari.

129

mdumarebaSi, tkivilSi, cremlSi (1937)

gaucxoebul da SeSlil JamSi

demons pirispir SerCa SiSveli,

mere daimsxvra xilvebi bavSvis,

eldiT! . . . da gaqra dRe guSindeli.

darRveul sulis meufem _ SiSma

Caaqro mze da dastova bnelSi,

. . . da Seabija patara biWma

mdumarebaSi, tkivilSi, cremlSi.

samyaros sikvdili

evgeni miqelaZis xsovnas

moulodnelad dakarges xmebi

nabijma, qarma, foTlebma, wvimam,

da mere uxmo, sul uxmo cremliT

itira sulSi Camwydarma simma.

mere uecrad daeSva farda,

sruli siCume da garindeba,

samyaro mokvda!

radganac gaqra

xma - viT samyaros WeSmariteba.

130

recenziis magier sandro axmetelis Canawerebidan

yvelaferia am did dramaSi,

namdvil speqtaklis yvela detali,

reJisurac da niRbiT TamaSic,

remarkac zusti da gambedavi,

da gamokveTil mizanscenebis

gamWoli azric . . . qveteqstic. . . fardac.

aTasferian rampis enebic . . .

sulyvelaferi . . . simarTlis garda.

ra eSveleba?

mose gogiberiZis Canawerebidan

dros,

im dros,

im wlebs

ra eSveleba,

ros borkils awyvets WeSmariteba

da garduvalad Caesveneba

dRevandel dReTa mze da dideba?

im Semazrzen da SemZvrel tkivilebs,

damsxvreul kerpTan im SeCerebas,

ra eSveleba im sinamdviles,

dros,

im dros,

im wlebs

ra eSveleba?

131

ara! mxolod is . . . mixeil javaxiSvili

. . .da is ki ara - me rom gamwires,

. . . da is ki ara - me rom mawames,

ara! am saknis bneli sakire

da es tkivili ki ar mamwarebs,

arc es - nagvemi Cemi sxeuli,

arc es - mzaravi miusafroba,

arc fiqri - ase gzaareuli,

arc xvalindeli dRe da gaqroba,

ara!

mxolod is -

rogor viqeci

mowmed samyaros uRvTod daqcevis,

d am simarTlis usastikesis -

adamianis amgvar dacemis.

im dReebis qronika

mainc mwams,

mainc,

da mainc azris,

da mainc gansjis da mainc gonis,

. . . Tumca nangrevma daqceul taZris

eklesiastes marguna roli.

132

roli _ yvelafris mxilveli mefis,

sicocxlis azris gamSifrav brZenis,

. . . da sisxlis Jami aRgvis Jams erTvis

da mewamuli elvarebs feri.

da dro savsea gasrolis xmebiT,

da denTis suniT da zecis ngreviT,

da gaognebiT da SeZrwunebiT

CasaZiravad ganwirul gemis.

da siZulvili velurad kivis

da kivis tyvia, Wurvi da naRmi,

iwvis da saxe SeSlia Tbiliss

saxe _ qalaqis, quCis da saxlis.

da Tumc nangrevma daqceul taZris

eklesiastes marguna roli . . .

mainc mwams,

mainc,

da mainc azris,

da mainc gansjis da mainc gonis.

nawyveti gaucxoebul qalaqSi sicocxlis sazrisze fiqrebidan

Rirda jvarcmad da Rirda wamebad?

Rirda eWvebiT SeZrul fiqrebad?

Rirda tkivilis TeTr RameebSi

sulis golgoTad da garindebad?

Rirda mignebad _

ase cxadi da

uborotesi WeSmariteba?

133

* * *

amaze metma ra sisxlisRvram da

amaze metma ra tyviis wvimam,

amaze metma ra codvis warRvnam,

amaze metma ra urvis simma,

ram Sva,

ra cxadma udabnoeTma

is saxe, sulSi mwuxris momfeni,

gadaiazra riTac poetma

wuTisofeli viT cru sofeli.

* * *

rogorc abraams, rom aRmiTqvas mec zecierma,

rom Cems mamulSi, Cems miwaze, Cems

samSobloSi,

gangebis sasjels, usastikes da aRmgvel

sasjels,

RvTaebis risxvas gadaurCeba qalaqi, sadac

Tund aTi kaci mainc cxovrobs aracodvili,

me, am dReebis,

am ugono qaosis momswrem,

am Cems mamulSi, Cems miwaze,

Cems samSobloSi

romel qalaqze mivuTiTo mamazeciers?

134

arc maSin

arc maSin,

roca monRolebma gadagviares

da Cvens mkerdebze velur cecxliT

gadiTareSes,

roca tkivili _ SeZrwunebul qarTul

iarebs

simwris zarebad arisxebda qarTul zarebze,

arc maSin,

roca qarTul caze avbediT xmebiT

gadiSriales orTavian arwivis frTebma,

da roca dadrknen kavkasiis maRali mTebi _

ar darRveula

qarTlSi

erTad

aTive mcneba . . .

dRes ki, dRes,

RmerTi _ ase uRvTod daviwyebuli,

sisxlis udabno, sisxlis mze da sisxlis

mTiebi,

zecisken ltolva _ ganwirulad damiwebuli,

mZvinvare Jami da mkvlelobis misteriebi.

dro codviani siZulvilis RerZze trialebs

_

(kaenis suliT da maxviliT moaspareze),

RmerTo,

moxede eldanacem qarTul iarebs

da Seni xeliT Camohkari qarTul zarebze.

135

locva

am gondakargul samyaros momswres,

am daundobel sixlisRvris Semswres,

am siZulvilis aRmqmels da mowmes

Sen erTi mrCebi,

RvTaebav, Semwed.

sxva,

sxva vin ityvis,

logoss,

Sens saTqmels,

sxvam vin gansajos Jamni da droni,

gaimeore, RmerTo, Sesaqme,

gaimeore, RmerTo, Sesaqme,

gaimeore, RmerTo, Sesaqme,

da daubrune samyaros goni.

Semodgoma - 93

aRarc ocnebebia,

arc feradi sizmrebi,

. . . mxolod sasowarkveTa,

marto kataklizmebi.

aRarc simRerebia,

aRarc leqsis strofebi,

. . . mxolod sulis gangaSi,

marto katastrofebi.

aRarc afrebia da

arc mTrTolvare landebi,

. . . mxolod miusafroba,

marto kanonadebi.

136

aRarc aRmafrenebi,

arc elvare lalebi,

. . . mxolod qariSxlebi da

marto qarborbalebi.

rogor erTbaSad

morigi satelevizio qronikis

mosmenis Semdeg

rogor erTbaSad TeTrdeba sisxli,

rogor erTbaSad cofdeba Sxami,

rogor erTbaSad Savdeba nisli,

rogor erTbaSad mokldeba wami,

rogor erTbaSad imRvreva yofna,

rogor erTbaSad irRveva maja,

rogor erTbaSad zvavdeba boRma,

rogor erTbaSad qvavdeba gansja,

rogor erTbaSad dumdeba gongi,

rogor mefdeba siCume sruli,

da vgrZnob. . .

viT damcvelaxsnili bombi,

ise erTbaSad gaskdeba guli.

* * *

xom naTlad xedav _ drom da dReebma

mxolod usazRvro fiqrad gaqcies,

Segwires fiqris simaRleebma

gzebis koSmarul variaciebs.

137

Tavs ver daaRwev _ fiqri wyvdiadSi

JamiT, SiSiT da ZrwolviT devnili,

bewvis xidebiT da miriadi

gzajvarediniT xar dawyevlili.

Senze naTqvami striqonebi jvarTan

miyvarxar ise, rogorc arasdros

ar hyvarebia arvis aravin,

. . . da agvistos cis maRal faraons

mzes _ gaduxsnia ca uTvalavi.

da qarvisferad anTia jvari,

sivrce iSleba rogorc marao,

miyvarxar ise, . . .ise viT arvis

ar hyvarebia arvin arasdros.

mistikuri xilva

RvTaeba nanobs . . . da ufro mwared

vidre Ze kacis Seqmnas nanobda. . .

samyaro iqca mkvlelobis ared,

siZulvilis da geslis Waobad.

suli bnel codvebs ram aziara?. .

vin dagaduma, daviTis qnaro? . .

. . . da axla mxolod kacis ki ara,

RmerTi samyaros Seqmnasac nanobs.

138

radgan sxva arvin /terenti granelis arqividan/

marto var!

marto!

ugono Jamis

stiqionebis xilviT SeZruli,

bneli RamiT da vaebis RamiT

datyvevebuli da gzebSekruli

da martoobiT da SxamiT savse

kivis suli da iwvis taZari,

dros rCeba velur zvavebis kvalze

sivrce SeSlili da naxanZrali.

pirispir SevrCi am mRvrie nislebs,

ocnebebisgan gaZarcvul sevdas,

marto var,

radgan sxva vervin ismens,

marto var,

radgan sxva vervin xedavs.

Cveulebrivi dRis qronika

zedized samjer gaisma srola,

da quCa SekrTa uecar sroliT,

da kvlav aqcia sakuTar rolad,

viRacam mkvlelis uteqsto roli

wami ki, wami, wamier kivils

celavs wamier eldis celebiT,

da uxmo SiSi dahyurebs sikvdils

wina dReebis mizanscenebiT.

139

* * *

giyvars da... mziur ocnebiT

ixsni qveyniur niRabs,

samyaros ki ar mihyvebi,

miuZRvebi da migyavs.

* * *

...da is dRe damrCa, damrCa da... CemSi

samyaroc darCa ase maRali,

is dRe ivnisis mewamul mzeSi

SeniT da Sengan naqandakari.

...da is dRe damrCa, damrCa da... CemSi

samyaroc darCa ase maRali.

* * *

Tu Ze kacisa,

es aris fiqri,

ra vrCebi me Sens siyvaruls iqiT.

* * *

sevdiT avsebula sivrce,

sevda gafenila zRvaze,

sevda miiswrafvis cisken,

suli sevdiTaa savse.

suli awewila urviT

da Zrwis martosulis ZrwoliT,

sevdis moRerebul luliT,

140

sevdis daxanebul sroliT.

sevdiT avsebula sivrce,

sevda gafenila zRvaze,

sevda miiswrafis cisken,

suli natvriTaa savse.

vardTa uTeTresi TovliT

vardTa uTeTresi TovliT

maTovs mogoneba Jamis,

wamis, wuTisoflis tolis,

im, im RvTaebrivi wamis.

iwvis amaRlebul mzeSi,

rekavs idumali zariT

zecis gaRimebad _ CemSi

Seni aRmoCenis wami.

* * *

zeca moqufruli... bindi...

nisli gaukvalav gzebze...

mrCeba erTaderTi xidi:

fiqri _ mzis biliki Senken.

141

* * *

moulodnelad gaRebul karSi

moulodneli Rimili Seni,

da aTinaTi _ Sens Zvirfas TmaSi

mziT gadamwvari mindvrebis feri, _

da sul uecrad SemkrTali suli,

SemkrTali suli... da realoba...

axla, am wuTSi, Cans rogorc sruli,

rogorc ucilo garduvaloba.

gamogeTxove wamis win

gamogeTxove wamis win

da ukve: viTvli wamebs,

momyveba: Seni nabiji,

vrekav: ivnisis zarebs,

vismen: uecar beThovens,

vuxmob: gardasul mwuxrebs,

wamis win gamogeTxove

da menatrebi ukve.

* * *

Tofi _ uSenobis,

tyvia _ dumilisa,

da me samizne var martoobis velze.

142

* * *

miyvarxar!

da Sen es erTi sityva

ise, viT eqo, marad da mudam,

gagimeorebs, rac SenTvis miTqvams

da rac ar miTqvams da ris Tqmac msurda.

gagimeorebs! es erTi sityva

gagimeorebs yvelafers erTad,

imas, rac miTqvams, rac ukve miTqvams

da rac ar miTqvams da unda meTqva.

* * *

geli!

uSenod ar acxaddeba

garsSemoxveul mTebis zmaneba,

unda moxvide

am martoobiT

savse mwuxrebis feriscvalebad,

unda dareko

aRtacebebis

da amaRlebis cisfer zarebad,

geli!

uSenod ar acxaddeba

garSemoxveul mTebis zmaneba.

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* * *

es gza, kldeebSi gamokveTili,

aq wydeba, Cemi ocnebis mTebSi,

aq geli, nislSi gamoketli,

martoobaSi, viT siwmindeSi.

geli! da vici, vici, rom moxval,

rogorc sicocxlis `morCi keTili~,

da gacocxlebul da aRmdgar dro-Jams

vucdi am mTebSi gamoketili.

Sen isev mismen

Sen isev mismen da ise mismen,

TiTqos pirvelad mismen da gesmis,

da is, rac gesmis, umal da myisve

aTasfer sanTlad inTeba SenSi.

gasudrulia Jami _ mosisxle,

kvlav imedi maqvs miwis da zecis...

Sen sul momismen, ise momismen,

TiTqos pirvelad mismen da gesmis.

* * *

vwvdebi da vSifrav, me mxolod axla

vwvdebi Cems suls da bolomde vSifrav,

axla, rodesac cxadad da naTlad

vici, Sen CemTvis ra xar da vin xar.

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Sen erTi cocxlob gaSifrul sulSi!

Seni RimiliT,

wviT da

fiqrebiT!

elvarebs suli Sens siyvarulSi

Tavis namdvili WeSmaritebiT.

axla iq, mTebSi

axla iq, mTebSi, kvlav SarSandeli

Jami anTia mzisfer elvaSi,

da sivrce, aTas oqros sanTeli,

gaxveulia foTolcvenaSi.

da Sen gigonebs ferTa talRebad

gardaqceuli dro da sinaTle,

da natrobs ise im monatrebas,

SarSan, iq, mTebSi, Sen rom minatre.

Sen mudam myavdi

Sen mudam myavdi da ise myavdi,

rom garduvalad unda myolodi,

rom mivsuliyav sakuTar gzamdi,

rom amomexsna suli bolomdi,

rom yofiliyo sicocxle cxadi,

rom hqoneboda azri molodins,

Sen mudam myavdi da ise myavdi,

rom garduvalad unda myolodi.

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* * *

fiqrTan, romelic wamiT miwydeba,

iwyeba fiqri, fiqri meore,

da is meorec...

radgan iwyeba,

SeniT iwyeba da gimeorebs.

Sen gimeorebs!

Sen, viT biblias,

ise maradiss da uTariRos,

radganac Cems fiqrs ar SeuZlia,

iyos da Senze fiqri ar iyos.

* * *

qalaqi elis ocdaerT ivliss

da sdums qalaqi da Sen mogelis

da am dumilSi CaZirul tkivils

natvris niRbebad xatavs gogeni.

warmosaxvebis TeTr zmanebaSi

qalaqi Sen da sicocxles elis,

da moxval

da am garindebaSi

amoZravdeba suyvelaferi.

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uecari mogoneba manqanidan petres cixis danaxvisas

ca - lurjad mooWvili,

sivrce - mziT anagebi,

mTebis fonze moWrili

petres cixis nangrevi.

kvlav elvarebs, o, im dRis

Soreuli fantomi,

Cveni ltolva - sicocxlis

ltolvas gadanatoli.

vmaRldebodiT bilikze

umsubuqes frTebiT da

mogoneba ivnisze

eSveboda zecidan . . .

axla cisfer TovaSi,

is dRe ise cxaddeba,

rogorc uSenobaSi

Seni gamonaTeba.

am foTolcvenis usazRvrobaSi

am foTolcvenis usazRvrobaSi

SemoWrilia rogorc sinaTle

is dRe, ros mzis da Jamis WknobaSi

mTebSi, maRali natvriT minatre.

SemoWrilia . . . da kvlav elvarebs

im Semodgomis ferTa nakadi

da aTovs, aTovs irgvliv yvelafers

es dRe . . . im dRidan gadmonaxati.

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* * *

Sen moabijeb!

da ise, rogorc

mzis zenitze

Cinaris Crdili,

ukan ixevs amaoeba.

* * *

is dRe gadarCa! is erTi dRec da . . .

damrCa maRali xilva: beTani

da beTaniis cisferi zeca,

rogorc ulurjes zecis dedani,

da beTaniis ivlisis funjiT

moxatul mTebSi _ TeTri taZari,

da gadarCenil dRis zari sulSi:

Sen _ taZris fonze naqandakari.

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* * *

sxva raRa darCa . . . mogonebaSi

marad cocxali im wamis garda,

da gazafxuli ferad-feradSi,

da Sen gelaTis aRsavlis karTan,

da es eJvani,

SeniT da Sengan

aJRerebuli oqros eJvani,

da im dRis gulis da majis feTqva,

da im dRis natvra da kaeSani.

siyvaruli meored

ar SegeSindes! erTbaSad mogwyda

samyaro, Sen rom samyarod Tvlidi,

mogwyda da axla nisliviT moCans

uceb gadaxsnil sivrceebs iqiT.

maRldebi! sadRac SoreTSi rCeba

tkivili uxmod darekil zarSi,

da Cndeba, sul sxva napiri Cndeba

da sul sxva zeca gexsneba caSi.

mwuxrebs, romlebic cocxlobdnen SeniT

mwuxrebs, romlebic cocxlobdnen SeniT,

da Seni sunTqviT savse xeobebs,

im bilikebiT da varskvlavTcveniT,

verasdros veRar gavimeoreb.

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sicocxle anTebs, viT meteorebs,

im dReebs . . . da suls stkiva ~sada xar?~

. . . verasdros veRar gavimeoreb,

magram verasdros ver gadavlaxav.

* * *

Seni pirveli danaxva hgavda

garindebul mdumarebaSi

moulodnelad SemoWril zarebs.

* * *

is siyvaruli xsovnaa axla

is mwuxrebic da is monatrebac,

is Semodgomac,

qceuli qarvad,

mTebad,

zarebad,

da monastrebad,

is povnac,

zecis, is zecis povnac

is tkivilebic da is iarac . . .

xsovnaa,

magram

im sulis xsovna,

im simaRleebs rom eziara.

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* * *

sxva gzebs,

sul sxva gzebs

gadahyva suli

xvedriT _ sastikiT da umkacresiT,

. . . magram xom iyo is siyvaruli

unamdvilesi da umZafresi,

magram xom rekda is siyvaruli

im simaRlidan da im zarebiT,

. . . da sastik gzebze Tan mdevs warsuli _

im maRal zarebs naziarebi.

* * *

me rom mjerodes,

rom Senc tkivilad

gagyva is dRe da wami SemkrTali,

rom sul SemTxveviT mowvdil gvirilas

SerCa agvistos mzis naRverdali,

rom Senc am wuTSi igoneb farcxiss

xvatSi anTebul lurji ferebiT,

maSin . . .

sicocxlis RvTaebriv sawyiss

da bedisweras davijerebdi.

* * *

giyvars!

da ukve amoxsnilia

Seni sicocxlis namdvili azric

da saidumloc qveynis gaCenis.

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* * *

naTeli mitom mohfina RmerTma,

sicocxle qveynad mitom gadarCa,

rom Sen Cagevlo

rusTvelis ZeglTan

ase lamazs da ase lamazad.

* * *

mxolod es Rrublis nafleTic kmara,

es danamuli vardis furcelic,

rom

kvlav gacocxldes im dReTa gala,

kvlav mziuri da kvlav ferucvleli,

rom kvlav ginatro!

kvlav. . . da ocnebiT

kvlav gavyve caSi arwivTa gundebs,

da im dReebis kvlav gacocxlebiT

Cems Tavs, sakuTar Tavs davubrunde.

* * *

ar maxsovs wami,

Sen rom CemSi

ar yofiliyav _

natvrad,

siwminded,

tkivilebad,

locvad,

lirikad.

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* * *

im simaRlidan

me rom Senze

fiqrSi avedi,

samyaro aris

mxolod

Senze

fiqris fragmenti.

* * *

Seni Rimili

da Cemma gulma

CemTvis ukvdavi dRis beWedi daisva im dRes.

* * *

yvela fiqrs Tavis zusti feri aqvs

suli yvela fiqrs xatavs ferebiT,

zogs umrumesi guaSebiT da

zogs unaTlesi akvarelebiT.

dro aelvarebs am fiqrebs ferads,

ferad ocnebebs da suls nawamebs,

. . . Cemi ocneba TeTria yvela,

radgan Sena xar maTi saTave.

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* * *

dRes rom gipovo _

gamarTldeba qveynad gaCena,

qveynis gaCenac gamarTldeba,

dRes rom gipovo

mognatrebivar foTolcvenaSi

mognatrebivar foTolcvenaSi,

moglandebivar ferTa rialSi,

ferTa zvavSi da ferTa CqeralSi

ferebis qarSi da xetialSi.

mognatrebivar! ferTa tevridan

wamomifrina natvram orbebi,

Tavs ver daaRwev foTolcvenidan

da aw verasdros gaucxovdebi.

variaciebi Senze fiqrebidan

. . . kvalav uSenod var!

uSenod!

magram,

swored amitom ar var uSenod!

. . . da dro romelic uSenod midis,

droa,

romelic savsea SeniT!

. . . da me vicileb JamTa siaves

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Senze ocnebis mexamridebiT!

. . . Sen, Sen,

Sen akldi Cems sinamdviles,

amitom erqva yofnas _ lodini,

da sinamdviles _

sinamdvilis SesaZlebloba.

. . . am samyaroSi Cemi mosvlis garduvaloba

cxadia

mxolod

axla da SeniT!

. . . me var!

es niSnavs, rom vfiqrob Senze,

es fiqri Cemi yofnis wesia.

* * *

gadikarge da aivso

suli mistikur landebiT,

siSoriT _ gauRweveli

sinaTlis weliwadebiT.

geZaxi! is dRe sad aris

im musikiT da hangebiT,

im xmebiT _ im ganTiadis

im cisfer zanzalakebiT.

axla rom marTla

axla rom marTla,

axla rom wamiT

Seni Rimili cxadad maCvena,

am gaelvebiT da mxolod amiT

gavamarTlebdi qveynad gaCenas.

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vaJebSi gogo gamoeria Cems SviliSvils salome korZaias

amdeni vaJi memkvidris Semdeg

uecrad gaCnda qali - salome,

Tmebi - mwveli mze danaTis zegnebs,

xma - bulbulebi vardze galoben.

vaJebSi gogo gamoeria,

gogo, ra gogo, ra Tvalxatula,

ulamazesma TeTrma feriam

wamwami nazad daafaxula . . .

biWebSi gogo gamoeria,

gogo ki ara, qali Tavadis,

ha asparezi TeTro feriav,

ltolvis, gafrenis da maskaradis.

Cems gvarSi gogo gamoeria,

da sixarulma Sekra kamara,

da aRtacebam, Cemo feriav,

usazRvroeba Semomatara!

me isev aq var . . .

me isev aq var,

me kvlav aq var,

kvlav am mTebSi var,

mTebSi, romlebic

inaxaven rogorc zmanebebs,

naTels, im naTels,

Cauqrobel mzed rom efina

aq,

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SenTan erTad

Segebebul SemoRamebebs.

Jams inaxaven,

Jams im ltolvis,

Jams amaRlebis,

Jams,

mTvariT naqsov bilikebze

mwuxris nabijebs,

im Jams, romelic

bedisweris

maRal gangebiT,

SeniT aRsavse

im dReebma,

rom momaniWes,

xmebs inaxaven,

idumal xmebs,

xmebs im zarebis,

im bilikebis,

im talRebis da im tevrebis,

xmebs im wvimebis,

im Zaxilis,

xmebs im qarebis,

im siyvarulis,

im mwuxrebis

im Sadrevnebis.

Sen aq elvareb,

foTolcvenis miriad ferSi,

Sen aq anTixar,

varskvlavTcvenis aTas bgeraSi,

aq iwvi

lurjad amaRlebul mTebis naTelSi,

am xeobebis

sizmareul

gulisZgeraSi.

aq,

aq cocxloben

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is dReebi

mziT da qarwvimiT

da im ltolviT da

usazRvrobiT

savse dReebi

dReebi

savse zmanebebiT da sinamdviliT,

im siyvarulis

moelvare

simaRleebiT . . .

da me kvlav aq var,

isev aq var,

kvlav am mTebSi var,

mTebSi, romlebic

inaxaven rogorc zmanebebs,

naTels,

im naTels,

sizmareul mzed rom efina

aq, SenTan erTad

Segebebul SemoRamebebs.

* * *

rasac miveswrafvi da

rac rom meocnebeba,

rac sizmrebad miqcies

umZafresma vnebebma,

yvela sagalobeli,

sulis yvela ebani,

Cemi molodini da

Cemi mogonebani,

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da sicocxlec _ uwyveti

warmosaxvis dineba . . .

Seni

natvris

umkacres

kanons emorCileba.

* * *

ra RvTaebrivi grZnobaa: natvra,

ra idumali gancdaa: gnatrob,

gnatrob!

da axla es natvra marTavs

sulis yvela Sres da yvela atoms.

da aha, Cemi sicocxlis qarga:

xar Sors da sadRac,

gixmob da gdardob.

rac uaRresad abstraqtul: natvra-s

aqcevs konkretul tkivilad: gnatrob.

im mwuxris Semdeg

im mwuxris Semdeg

sul sxva zecidan

ibadebian ganTiadebi,

sxva ferebis da

sxva ritmebis da

sxva elvarebis

sxva triadebiT.

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sxva ocnebebis

gaSlil afrebiT,

frTebiT, sanTlebiT, diademebiT,

siRrmiT,

sxva siRrmiT,

da usasrulod,

da ubolood mbrwyinav tevrebiT.

sxva orbitaze

brunavs samyaro,

sxvagvar brunviT da sxvagvar

wreebiT,

sul sxva eJvnebiT,

sxvagvar zarebiT,

sul sxva xmebiT da

simaRleebiT.

da Sen anTixar

yvela ltolvaSi,

yvela frTaSi da yvela afraSi,

SeniT savsea

yvela elva da

yvela bgera da

yvela kaSkaSi.

im mwuxris Semdeg

sul sxva zecidan

ibadebian ganTiadebi

sxva ferebis da

sxva ritmebis da

sxva elvarebis

sxva triadebiT.

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* * *

is ki araa mTavari:

sad var,

rom Tavs baTumis zeca damnaTis,

rom ~olimpiis~ gembanze vdgavar

da makravs zRvis da mzis andamati.

aramed is,

rom am wuTSic, axlac,

savse var Senze fiqriT da natvriT,

mivyvebi Senze fiqrebis nakads

da Seni natvriT vcildebi napirs.

vcildebi! cxreba portis xmauri,

baTumi moCans sivrcis fragmentad . . .

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

da umTavresi,

is siyvaruli,

am fiqrs rom adgas Saravandedad.

ar dasruldeba

ar dasruldeba!

Sen ufro cxadad

da sul bolomde

unda gaigo,

da unda Cawvde, rom CemTvis rac xar,

usasruloa da uTariRo,

rom Cems sicocxles

Jamidan JamSi

eqod gadaaqvs

Senze ocneba,

Senze ocneba, rogorc samyaros gabrwyineba

da gasxivosneba. . .

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ar dasruldeba!

Sen ufro cxadad,

da sul bolomde

unda gaigo,

da unda Cawvde, rom CemTvis rac xar,

usasruloa da uTariRo.

* * *

waxvedi!

davrCiT me da baqani,

ukacrieli da mowyenili,

bindi _ civi da miusafari,

saaTi _ droJams CamorCenili.

dasrulda!

da aw es yru baqani

samaradJamod memaxsovreba,

dasrulda, rogorc sevdis zRapari,

sadac uniRbod cxovrobs cxovreba.

Sen Cemi sxva xar. . .

Sen Cemi sxva xar, im gaazrebiT,

rogorc `Tavis sxvas~

Sifravs hegeli,

hegeli, rogorc am mimarTebis

aRmomCeni da

mauwyebeli.

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da momesaja Cvens ziar velze

sul Senken ltolva,

ltolva da swrafva,

Senze ocneba da ocnebebSi

Caumcxral natvrad

gaSlili afra.

swored is sxva xar, uromlisodac

Cems arsebobas

ver gaviazreb.

me mavsebs Seni sulis simaRle,

Seni xibli da

Seni sinaze.

swored is sxva xar, romlis gareSec

Cemi sicocxlis dvritas

ver vwvdebi,

da mifrinaven usazRvrobisken

Cemi da Seni

zecis mercxlebi.

da Sen gangicdi Cemi meobis

da Cemi yofnis

mziur nawilad,

vinc Cemi fiqri da warmosaxva

aamaRla da aaarwiva.

Sen Cemi sxva xar, im gaazrebiT,

rogorc `Tavis sxvas~

Sifravs hegeli,

hegeli, rogorc am mimarTebis

aRmomCeni da

mauwyebeli.

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* * *

Sens silamazes, poetis garda,

qveynad veravin ver Sebedavda,

Sens sulis Sreebs, poetis garda,

qveynad veravin ver gaSifravda,

Sens aRmoCenas, poetis garda,

sicocxles vervin ver Seswiravda,

me aq var, aq var, aswieT farda,

sul ase mwamda, sul ase mwamda.

prologi

me Segegebe:

Cems sulSi Seni

aRmoCenisgan

SeZruli goniT,

datyvevebuli

SeniT da Senken

Cemi ocnebis

umZafres ltolviT,

mTvareuliviT

gadmodgmul bijiT,

Semcbar guliT da

SeboWil majiT,

da uTqmel gansjiT,

idumal gansjiT,

mdumar gansjiT da

ganabul gansjiT.

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aanTe sivrce

zRapris qargidan

mzisferi TmebiT

mosul aliviT,

fermkrTalma,

nazma da zeciurma

seqtembris

mwuxris winandaliviT.

da Sen win Sevdeq:

aburdul fiqriT,

da SeSfoTebul

da irib mzeriT,

da aRtacebul

suliT da gancdiT

da savse SeniT,

SeniT da SeniT.

da idga wuTi,

wuTi dumilis,

wuTi gangaSis,

xilvis da wvdomis . . .

gareT ki, gareT,

fanjrebis miRma

sivrces ipyrobda

Tebervlis Tovli.

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siyvarulis metafizika

vgrZnob, rogor ipyrobs mTel Cems arsebas

idumalebiT savse naTeli,

erTi wamic da, suls moaskdeba

natvra,

viT zari da gansacdeli.

* * *

is karnavali im mzian RamiT,

im gulisZgeris is mZafri wuTi,

im gaRimebis elvare wami,

yelSi gaCrili sityva da burTi,

sul CemSia! da marad da yvelgan

sulSi kaSkaSebs, rogorc arili,

sul CemTanaa, Cems RvTiur xvedrad

da maradiul TanamgzavriviT.

* * *

gpove, radganac ulamazesis

mZebneli suliT im gzas gavyevi

(riTmad mawydeba sityva: ramzesi,

meore riTmad: gadasaxvevi),

uTuod SenTan da mxolod SenTan,

da zustad SenTan rom momiyvanda . . .

moapyar yuri am gulis feTqvas . . .

axla xom gjera, rom sul miyvardi.

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galaktioni poeturi esse

samyaro enTo sxva sivrceebze,

sxva mziT, sxva zecis SuqTa kamariT,

sxva mwvervalebis simaRleebze,

sxva ocnebebiT naqandakari.

mere movida: kosmiur xilviT,

ganSorebaTa tkiviliT _ cremliT,

zenitze mdgari mzis sinamdviliT _

is,

erTi, rogorc qveyana mTeli.

da man: poetur ardaridebiT

samyaros SreTa aswia farda,

sulis musikis mZafri zvirTebi

aaSriala daZleul zRvarTan.

sworupovari CangiT, TamamiT,

aRtacebebis zRvaSi Sevida,

da aelvarda Jami ~dalandiT~

da usazRvrobis ~efemeridan~.

moxetiale cecxlis dReebiT,

amfeTqebeli sulis ZiebiT,

TvalebSi Camdgar saSinelebiT,

cremlTa maRali SurisZiebiT,

yvelafers, ise viT niaRvari,

moedo yvela sazRvris mZleveli,

aRmoaCina mTeli samyaro,

qveynisTvis jerac miukvleveli.

moedo axal sicocxlis talRad,

da, rogorc maRal zraxvaTa mefem,

Seqmna qveyana isev da axlad,

Seyvarebulma da meocnebem.

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da gaCnda: mRvrie da mware qari,

mogonebaTa qari _ ~sada xar?~

da qaris totiT Serxeva mTvaris

da marti, qaris tots rom gadahyva.

moTova ucnob, iisfer TovliT,

vardisfer TovliT da TovliT libris,

aivso lomfer oqtombris ltolviT

ivlisisferi Tasebi yinvis,

da daibada: mRvrie mSveneba _

SeSlil saxeTa ConCxi _ tyeebi,

da qaosebSi SemoWeneba

apokalifsur lurja cxenebis.

mze miicvala Ria TvalebiT,

sastiki zecis faruli dardiT,

uucxdes da SeSlil zmnebiT

gaCnda: nawvimar silaSi vardi.

ainTo mwuxrSi mTawmindis mTvare,

maRal zambaxTa mcelavi celi,

da xilvis siRrme da siTamame:

gadazneqili sizmrebis weli.

aRsdga mcuravi suli Walebis,

gaCnda atmis xe, viT nazi qali,

xats Selekili elva sanTlebis,

zarTan grigaliT mebrZoli zari.

gaCnda samyaro! horizontidan

zenitze maRla gadaSlil gzebze,

Sori alpebis wyaroze wminda,

udiadesi samxreTis mzeze.

gaCnda! ainTo im sivrceebSi,

im mziT, im zecis SuqTa kamariT,

im mwvervalebis simaRleebze,

im ocnebebiT naqandakari _

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man rom pova

da igi rom Cawvda,

man rom Seqmna da

samyaros uZRvna . . .

da dgas sakuTar samyaros karTan

usazRvroebis maRali muza.

* * *

. . . da roca vigrZen, rom Sen miyvardi

daiwyo. . .

Cemi samyaros Seqmna.

* * *

samyaro, riTac movel Senamde.

Senamde, rogorc maRal rwmenamde.

Senamde, rogorc Cemi sicocxlis

transcendentalur bedisweramde,

aq Sedga, Sen win, suli eloda

am diad wams da grZnobis gandobas,

miyvarxar! unda gaagrZelo da

daaboloo Cemi qmnadoba.

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sarCevi

jansuR korZaias poezia _ n. xurcilava . . .3

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

xom miagen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .9

. . . magram es ltolvac da imedebic . . . 10

. . . sanam sul erTi ar aris SenTvis . . 11.

. . . da Cemi sicocxlis xvedrad . . . . . .11.

. . . veRar avage naocnebari . . . . . . . . .11.

. . . samyaro aris, magram rom aris . . . . 12

sinamdvile . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .12

. . . eli, kvlav eli Jamis moqcevas . . . . 13

Ze kacisa: avtoportreti . . . . . . . . . . .13

. . . manam sul unda vcado rom avxsna . . 15

da yvela is droc . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16

. . . sicocxle rogorc fiqri gabmuli . . 17

raRac aklia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .18

poezia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 18

me Cems Tavs veZeb . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .19

hamlet! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .20

Canaweri haidegeris kiTxvisas . . . . . . . . .22

. . . zeca mZimea, mRvrie da blanti . . . .24

ver damimoneb! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 24

Sen ukve Sen xar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .29

yinwvisSi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .29

warwera g. tabiZis `rCeulze~ . . . . . . . .30

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nawyveti protagoriul fiqrebidan . . . . .30

baraTaSvili . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .31

aTasjer gavCndi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .31

warsulSi, rogorc JamTa nangrevSi . . . . 32

ramdeni fiqri agixda ukva . . . . . . . . . . 35

. . . dagxvda smaragdis zeca da mTebi . . .36

. . . ras ewireba suli tarigad? . . . . . .36

. . . im ocnebebiT savse xar axlac . . . . .37

. . . mxolod Sen ar xar! sxva yvelaferi .37

ocnebiT mainc . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 38

rad gawameben horizontebi? . . . . . . . . . 39

ukve daadgi fexi mTvareze . . . . . . . . . . 39

. . . raRac gawamebs . . . sxva misawvdomi ..40

mwvervalebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 41

ukanaskneli foTlebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . .42

sad var yvelaze metad maRali . . . . . . . .42

. . . xom marTla iyo da CemSi iyo . . . . 43

. . . kvlav cocxalia yvela is mwuxri . . .43

es saukunec . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .43

. . . da erTxel ukve . . . . . . . . . . . . 44

. . . axlac sanTeli mipyria, axlac . . . . 44

. . . Sen xar! Sen cocxlob! da radgan

cocxlob . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 45

da mainc . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .45

Sebindebisas . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .46

. . . me ki ar vnatrob, mwams da moveli . 47

. . . Zala Tu hqonda qveynis gaCenis . . . .48

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azris monologebidan . . . . . . . . . . . . . 48

minaweri Seqspiris samocdameeqvse sonetze ..49

jer mxolod erTxel . . . . . . . . . . . . . .49

. . . amoxsnilia amosaxsneli . . . . . . . . 50

demokrite . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .51

parTenoni . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 51

boroti saukune . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 52

. . . da araferi, sul araferi . . . . . . .53

. . . Sens fiqrSi axlac naTlad Cans kvali 54

. . . varskvlavTmricxvelno! . . . . . . . . . .55

heraklites monologebidan . . . . . . . . . .55

azris apologia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .56

kvlav vibadebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .57

. . . samyaros, rogorc TvaldaTxril

ciklops . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .58

. . . es is ferflia . . . . . . . . . . . . . .58

. . . es kosmiuri usazRvroebac . . . . . ..59

. . . ara, ar axda fiqri arcerTi . . . . .59

. . . gadian wlebi da saukunec . . . . . . .60

minaweri platonis dialogebze . . . . . . . .60

monanieba . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .61

niRbebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .61

. . . da SenSi, rogorc imperativi . . . .64

. . . da meordeba . . . kaenis codvac . . 65

. . . WeSmariteba, viT maradisi . . . . . . .66

poezias . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .66

. . . erTxelac kidev mozide mSvildi . . .67

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. . . droo, gaxsovs im lamaz . . . . . . . .67

pirveli nawyveti ciklidan `dro~ . . . . . .68

meore nawyveti ciklidan dro . . . . . . . .68

JamTa wamebad qceuli fiqri . . . . . . . . . 68

. . . rogor TandaTan qarwyldeba eWvi . ..69

Seican Tavi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 69

vaterlooze dums saukune . . . . . . . . . ..69

sulo, verasdros ver damSviddebi . . . . . 70

sicocxle . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .71

da kvlv ise SevdivarT . . . . . . . . . . . . .71

erTxelac kidev . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .72

meore nawyveti fiqridan `saocrebani~ . . . 73

suli saganZuri . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .73

gapaqreba eklesiastesTan . . . . . . . . . . . .75

sionTan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .78

dro uswrafesad moiTxovs pasuxs . . . . . .80

jer gaCnda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .80

kidev erTi saswaulic . . . . . . . . . . . . .81

saukunis sasasruls . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 82

Cemi am wuTis cnobiereba . . . . . . . . . . .86

meordebian . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .87.

iluziebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .88

gasagnebuli fiqria . . . mcxeTis . . . . . . .89

. . . Cemi gamocdileba . . . . . . . . . . . . 90

fiqri . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 91

magram, vai Tu . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .92

warwera kantis `wminda gonebis kritikaze~ 92

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rad, rad ar axsovs? . . . . . . . . . . . . . .93

`galobani sinanulisani~ . . . . . . . . . . . .94

gazafxuli qarTlis gzaze . . . . . . . . . . .94

gelis maRali zeca mcxeTaSi . . . . . . . . . 95

farnavaz . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 95

ikorTa . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 96

saba orbelianis gaxseneba daviT aRmaSeneblis

saflavTan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 96

dioskurias nangrevebTan . . . . . . . . . . . .97

zedaznidan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .97

kimoTesubanSi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .98

. . . raRac sxva, vidre mxolod nangrevi . .98

TmogvTan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .99

bosforTan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .99

Tbilisi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 100

baTumi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 100

sarfi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 100

oqros cixidan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .101

. . . da is, rac CemSi . . . . . . . . . . . .101

gelaTis monastris karibWesTan . . . . . . 103

hei, fiqro . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 103

1959 wlis 9 marti . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .106

gismendi da . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 106

gavCndi . . . da mere werda da werda . . .109

. . . da erTi wuTic . . . da bagratidan 109

. . . rogor SemZvrelad aris lamazi . . 110

artanuji . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 110

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mwuxris zarebi gelaTis monasterSi . . . . 111

sizifes lodi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 111

. . . ai, Seni pirveli . . . . . . . . . . . . 112

. . . warwera iaponiaSi gasagzavn `deda

enaze~ . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 113

meored dabadeba . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 114

da yvelafers, rac CemTvis . . . . . . . . . 121

samSoblo _ mcneba . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 123

da iocnebe . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 124

mowameTa . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .126

da Cven Seni simaRlidan . . . . . . . . . . . 127

mdumarebaSi, tkivilSi, cremlSi . . . . . . 130

samyaros sikvdili . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .130

recenziis magier . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .131

ra eSveleba . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .131

ara, mxolod is . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 132

im dReebis qronika . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 132

nawyveti gaucxoebul qalaqSi sicocxlis

sazrisze fiqrebidan . . . . . . . . . . . . . 133

. . . amaze metma ra sisxlis Rvram da . . 134

. . . rogorc abraams . . . . . . . . . . . . 134

arc maSin . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .135

locva . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .136

Semodgoma _ 93 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 136

rogor erTbaSad . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .137

. . .xom naTlad xedav _ drom da dReebma 137

Senze naTqvami striqonebi jvarTan . . . . .138

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mistikuri xilva . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .138

radgan sxva vervin . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .139

Cveulebrivi dRis qronika . . . . . . . . . .139

. . . giyvars . . . da mziur ocnebiT . . 140

. . . da is dRe damrCa, damrCa da CemSi .140

. . . Tu me kacisa, es aris fiqri . . . . .140

sevdiT avsebula sivrce . . . . . . . . . . . 140

vardTa uTeTresi TovliT . . . . . . . . . .141

. . . zeca moqufrul . . . bindi . . . . . 141

moulodnelad gaRebul karSi . . . . . . . .142

gamogeTxove wamis win . . . . . . . . . . . . .142

. . . Tofi _ uSenobis . . . . . . . . . . . 142

. . . miyvarxar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .143

. . . geli! uSenod ar acxaddeba . . . . . .143

es gzaa, kldeebSi gamokveTili . . . . . . . .144

Sen isev mismen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .144

. . . vwvdebi da vSifrav . . . . . . . . . . 144

axla iq. mTebSi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .145

Sen mudam myavdi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .145

. . . fiqrTan, romelic wamiT miwydeba . .146

. . . qalaqi elis ocdaerT ivliss . . . . .146

uecari mogoneba manqanidan petres cixis

danaxvisas . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 147

am foTolcvenis usazRvrobaSi . . . . . . .147

. . . Sen moabijeb _ . . . . . . . . . . . . .148

. . . is dRe gadarCa! is erTi dRec da . 148

. . . sxva raRa darCa . . . . . . . . . . . . .149

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siyvaruli meored . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .149

mwuxrebs, romlebic cocxlobdnen SeniT . 149

. . . Seni pirveli danaxva hgavda . . . . . 150

. . . is siyvaruli xsovnaa axla . . . . . .150

. . . sxva gzebs, sul asxva gzebs . . . . . 151

. . . me rom mjerodes, rom Sen tkivilad 151

. . . giyvars! da ukve amoxsnilia . . . . . 151

. . . naTeli mitom mohfina RmerTma . . . 152

. . . mxolod es Rrublis nafleTic kmara152

. . . ar maxsovs wami . . . . . . . . . . . . .152

. . . im simaRlidan me rom Senze fiqrSi

avedi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 153

. . . Seni Rimili . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .153

. . . yvela fiqrs Tavis zusti feri aqvs .153

. . . dRes rom gipovo . . . . . . . . . . . .154

mognatrebivar foTolcvenaSi . . . . . . . .154

variaciebi Senze fiqrebidan . . . . . . . . .154

. . . gadikarge da aivso . . . . . . . . . . 155

. . . axla rom marTla . . . . . . . . . . . 155

me isev aq var . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 156

. . . rasac miveswrafvi da . . . . . . . . . 158

. . . ra RvTaebrivi grZnobaa: natvra . . .158

im mwuxris Semdeg . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .159

is ki araa mTavari, sad var . . . . . . . . .160

ar dasruldeba . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 161

waxvedi! davrCiT me da baqani . . . . . . . . 161

Sen Cemi sxva xar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .162

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. . . Sens silamazes poetis garda . . . . .163

prologi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 163

siyvarulis metafizika . . . . . . . . . . . . 165

. . . is karnavali im mzian RamiT . . . . .165

. . . gpove, radganac ulamazesis . . . . . .165

. . . da roca vigrZen, rm Sen miyvardi . .166

. . . samyaro, riTac movel Senamde . . . .166

sarCevi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .167

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