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Living Life and Paying for It
Erika Gardiner
ENG 3UI
July 23, 2010
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Erika Gadiner
Mr. Kemp
ENG 3UI
July 23, 2010
Living Life and Paying for It
For you a thousand times over [Amir] heard [himself] say, (Hosseini, 323) he
felt Hassan, the most pure person he ever knew, speaking through him.
Reformation is the act of improvingchanging what was broken, into something better . In
the novel The Kite Runner, by Khaled Hosseini, two minor but crutialcrucial characters,
Sanaubar and Soraya, made similar mistakes in their past that they chose to fix through
reformation , as did Amir, the main character in this novel . The same way, Amir, after
contemplating what Rahim Khan said to him on the phone , realized there was a way to
be good again (2) . TheTheEach negative choice s made by these three
characterscharacterswomen impacted their lives greatly. They each set out to fix their
own mistakes, and through reformation were able to become better people. Sanaubar ,
and Soraya and Amir s example s show shows that through reformation everyone can
become a better person.be good again. One mistake can haunt a person forever ; and
without reformation , this mistake will prevent them from being content with themselves
ever again.
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At some point in their liveslivfes Sanaubar and Soraya both run away from their
homes, both when they were around the same age and both for responsibility reasons .
Sanaubar, Hassans mother , leavesleavesft him less than a week after he was born. [He]
lost her to a fate most Afghans considered far worse than death: shesShe ran off with a
clan of traveling singers and dancers, ( Hosseini, 6). Sanaubar runs away from the
responsibilities of having a child . She., Sshe was young and just wanted to have a fun
life and not be tied down by a child. thought in the circusthe greatest way of doing this
was leaving with the circus. The Afghan people naturally disagree with her choice, and
because of that, talk behind her back. This catches up with later in her life when sherealizes that she should have stayed to be a mother her new born childfor her child . We
learn as well that Sanaubar was disloyal to Ali; Hassan was Babas son, not Alis.
Sanaubar wanted, also, to escape the guilt she felt every time she looked at her baby. She
did not want to live with the guilt of adultery forever ., though Hassan never found out
Baba was his real father, so that secret was always in her heart. Soraya makes a similar
mistake, but insteadinsteadshe runs away to obtain responsibility, as she is tired of her
father controlling her. Soraya wanted to be treated like an adult and felt as though living
like one would help her accomplish this.runs away from her mother and father at the age
of eighteen. Soraya explainsShe explains to her husband, Amir , years after she thought
she had been fully reformed, that when, that wWhen [my family]we lived in Virginia, I
ran away with an Afghan man. I was eighteenrebelliousstupid ,, andhe was into
drugswe lived together for almost a month, (164). Afterwards, she felt as though a
weight was lifted off her shoulders the final stage in her reformation .(164) . Soraya was
not married to this man and, like Sanaubar, was talked about between the Afghan people .
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that knew her because tLiving with a man before marriagemarriagehis is another action is
another Afghan people greatly disapprove of. Soraya realizesSorayahe realizesd that her
family needed her ,,; even though Soraya she was forced to go back come home , but once
there, she comescoomess to knowa knowing that this was best for her, a s well asasnd her
family. Both women have a burden from the mistake they made and are willing to fix it .
They are both persistingpersistingliving in the past, which which doesnt allowprevents
them fromfromto move moving forward in their lives.livfes. The burden they carry is the
reason they decide to change. Soraya ran away to obtain responsibility as she is tired of
her father controlling her. The consequences that Sanaubar and Soraya experience, as a result of their
leaving, are what push them to want to be come better people.
reformed. There are different consequences each woman receives, but each changes their
lives dramatically. Sanaubar used to be the most beautiful and promiscuous girl in all of
Kabul. When her regret of leaving Hassan becomes over-bearing , she has turned into a
grubby and beat up woman. She feels that returning to Hassan is the right thing to do, and
when she shows up on Hassans door step , all anybody sees in her is a toothless
woman with stringy graying hair and sores on her arms. She looked like she had not eaten
for daysOne of the cuts went from the cheekbone to the hairline and it had not spared
her left eye on the way, (184). The retribution for committing the worst crime in
Afghani stani culture, for Sanaubar, is having her beauty takentakenstolen from her.
Beauty is the most precious characteristic to a woman, especially to Sanaubar , as she uses
it to her advantage :; She had a dimpled smile and a walk that drove men crazy. No
onononone on who passed her on the street man or woman could look at her only
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once, (184 her brilliant green eyes and impish face hadtempted countless men into
sin, (7 ). Beauty gives confidence, and gives them an identity. Without her beauty
Sanaubar is lost , and weak, and without identity. When she shows up to Hassan and
Rahims gate Rahim asks: who are you? (183); her family and friends dont recognize
her because she is not the same beautiful woman she was before she ran away. It is
expected, as well, that people of Afghani culture have children. When Soraya feels she
cannot have children , she, as well as her parents assume it is the price she is paying for
running away with another man before marriage :.
Sometimes it takes a while. [Amir] told Soraya one night.A year isnt a while, Amir! She said, in a terse voice so unlike her.
Somethings wrong, I know it.
Then lets see a doctor. (161)
Soraya has an intuition that she is paying for her past sin and this frustrates her. She longs
to have a baby of her own and is feeling much regret for her actions and wishes there was
something she could do to take them back . Amir doesnt understand that Soraya not
being able to have a child is the long term consequence shesheSoraya has to pay for from
her mistake in the past ., and does not want to believe it either. Because of his
disbelief ,idisnbelief he assumes that something can be done medically to help them have
a child. With the Afghani stani culture working against them, adding to their retribution
both woman seek a reformation they hope will help them in becoming content with
themselves.
The reformation of both women allows each of them the opportunity to fix their
mistakes, but at the same time pay for them. Soraya and Sanaubar are put into a
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reformative environment s while in a sort of prison. As Sanaubar returns to Hassan, she
must be nursed back to healt h.h after being beaten so badly before she can start
improving her life. The way she is beat and her rough lifestyle is her version of a prison.
Sanaubar wants to be reformed because she realizes that life is improved when family is
around. She shows she has come to accept this by almost immediately asking where is
Hassan? (184) for Hassan after collapsing on their driveway after and appearing for the
first time in decades: [Rahim Khan] patted her brow with a wet cloth and she opened her
eyes. Where is Hassan? she whispered. (184). Her punishment period was by one way
or another being turned from a beautiful woman to a scraggly old hag one , as well as being shunned by her son the first time she sees him since the day she left :. Hassan
dropped her hand and bolted out of the house, (184). Sanaubar knew deep down that
Hassan would reject her as she came unexpectedly. Hassan was a big influence on her
reformation Sanaubar cameSanaubar caomes back to her family , is slowly forgiven by
Hassan for leaving all those years ago. and T t o show that she is willing to be and
becomes reformed ; she helps raise her grandson Sohrab like she should have years ago
with Hassan .: [Sohrab] became the center of her existence the two of them were
inseparable, (185). Sanaubar had no one to ever call her world, or pride and joy. After
running away from Hassan her life went down hill, and never found its way back up until
she helped bring Sohrab into the world. When Sanaubar died she looked calm, at peace,
like she did not mind dying, (185). Until her own death Sanaubar did everything she
could for Hassan and his family so that when she died she would not die with guilt on her
soul. Her reformation allowed her to die peacefully.
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Likewise, Soraya also endured a prison from the minute she returned home. My
father took me to my bedroom and at me in front of themirror. Hetold me to cut off
all of my hair. He watched while I did it, (156). General Taheri was ashamed of his
daughter ;, he couldnt stand to look at such a beautiful girl who committed a terrible sin .
He.; Hhe made her cut off all of her hair so she could to be ugly so she could see herself
the way that he saw her , ugly and disgraceful . Along with having to shave her head she
didnt step out of the house for weeks, (156). She was forced to shave her head and stay
inside for weeks as her family banned her from contact with anyone on the outside. The
time she spent alone gave her plenty of time to think and reform herself. She re-evaluatesherself and realizes that reformation was the only way to get this sin off her chest. The
first action Soraya took in making things better was properly marrying Amir . Although
they didnt have a Shirini-khori , they had a traditional wedding;, this made the Taheris
very proud of their daughter . Taking Tand taking care of Baba and her own motherwas
Sorayas next task. . After their wedding Soraya suggested that she move in with Baba
and [Amir], (150). Soraya wanted to establish good relationships within her new family.
She realized that moving in with them would give her an opportunity to get to know Baba
better while helping him around the house for the last months of his life. She wanted to
impress her father even more than she had when she took care of her own mother after
her stroke. Soraya never felt like she was enough for her father, and this made her want to
change to gain possible forgiveness from him. When Soraya and Amir considered
adoption it was frowned upon by General Taheri. Blood is a very powerful thing
never forget that, (163), General Taheri told Soraya and she never forgot. Because
Soraya was notpaying for her mistake by not being able to have a child, when Amir
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called from Afghanistan to tell her about Sohrab, she was overjoyed . She took this as a
great opportunity to finally have a child, and have her father be accepting to it because
Sohrab was from good blood, Babas blood. because even though she was damned to not
have children Soraya diddidshe was able to do everything in her power to help her
nephew come to America to live with Amir and herselfthem. Soraya realizes that even
though she was never able to carry her own child, that she could still bring a child into
the world. Her reformation process allowed her to finally have what she desired most.
To conclude, Sanaubar and Soraya are put into a reformativ e e and retributive state after
running away which helps them become more content with themselves, and their lives .Amir is the biggest character example in the Kite Runner , to go through a
reformation during this novel. Being a victim of tough love, Amir fights continuously for
attention from his father over Hassan. For this reason alone Amir lives with hatred
towards Hassan because he is jealous of him. Amir does not realize that Babas love goes
out to Hassan because Hassan is his son, as well.
Ali was sterile, Rahim Khan said
Then who
I think you know who. (195)
Rahim knows that Amir is a passive kid, thought of no one but himself and needed his
help in becoming active, the biggest step in reformation. The winter of 1975 when Amir
watched Hassan be raped, he did nothing to help him because he was too afraid. This
event scared Amir and he is haunted with this memory. Rahim realizes that Amir is living
with a burden and wants to help him become a better person. Rahim calls Amir, not for
himself, but for Amir to help him with his reformation. Amir realizes that he needs to do
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what Rahim asked him to go back to Afghanistan to do, or else he will never be able to
forgive himself.
Amir agha? Fahrid said Why are you here?...For the boy?
For the boy.
Its hard to believe.
Sometimes I myself can hardly believe Im here
Amir knows that he has to help Sohrab, and once he begins to he never stops. Khaled
Hosseini makes it known in the novel that to become reformed one must become active,
and strive to complete their reformation. A full reformation comes when one stopsthinking about themselves and puts the ones that they will help, in turn helping them,
first. Amir put Sohrab first, and he felt relieved with himself. Sohrab is Hassan to Amir
he is given the opportunity, because he finally took action in his life. Amir fights for
Sohrab and makes sure he can someday make Sohrab as happy as Hassan made him. a
smile. It didnt make everything all right. It didnt make anything all right. Only a smile.
A tiny thing. A leaf in the woods, shaking in the wake of a startled birds flight, (324).
The first time Amir saw Sohrab smile was like a rainbow after the storm. Amir knew he
had accomplished what Rahim had wanted and knew he would be proud of him.
In conclusion, Amir, along with Sanaubar and Soraya, are greatly affected
by the mistakes each of them made in the past. They find a way to reform themselves
because reformation allows them to become better people while fixing their mistakes.
None of them want to continue living with their past errors as a burden and they are not
content with themselves. Thomas Carlyle wisely states: To reform a world, to reform
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a nation, no wise man will undertake; and all but foolish men know, that the only
solid, though a far slower reformation, is what each begins and perfects on himself.
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