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Love Diary
Ruth Huang
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About the Arthur
Ruth Huang was
born and raised in
Chunghua, Taiwan.
Her hometown is not big, but it brings her a lot of
unforgettable memories. She left her hometown when
she was fifteen years old. She wants to experience if she
can be independent without her family, so she decided to
come to Kaohsiung. She makes it and also she starts her
relationship here.
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Content
Introduction………………P.1
Chapter One………………….P.4
Chapter Two………………….P.7
Chapter Three………………….P.18
Chapter Four ...................P.30
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Introduction
If you have seen the following movies:
“Twenty-seven Dress” and “The
Princess Diaries”,
you might have noticed the scene where
two characters were kissing when they
think they are not suitable for being
alone and decide to spend their rest life
with each other. Whether you feel
this is touching or not, you probably
saw the female character moving her
legs in order to show us that this guy
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was her Mr. Right who she found in the
end. When I was watching these films,
I was thinking when I am kissing my
boyfriend, will I do the same action like
the female character in the movie? Is he
my Mr.Right?
In this novel, there are two main
characters who have different
childhoods and opposite
characteristics. The female
character is Daisy. She had a good
memory of her childhood because
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her family all cared about her and
she didn’t need to worry about
money. On the other hand, the
male character is named Gatsby.
His mother left him when he was just
eight years old. He saw his father
physical and mental abusing to his
mother and he really wanted to
rescue her. He didn’t know why his
father wanted to hit his mother and
he was afraid that maybe one day his
mother would leave this family and
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never come back. One day, he went
to the bus stop to pick up his mother
and he had been waiting for three
hours when his uncle told him that
his mother had already abandoned
him and he needed to stay with his
father. He realized that from that
day of his mother were nor able to
accompany with him during his
whole life. Although he had a very
terrible childhood, he didn’t hate his
father or mother. He knew that his
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father had a mental disease and his
mother could not suffer his longer
tolerate. He said to himself he
wouldn’t do these kinds of things to
the girl that he really likes. In his
mind, if he really likes the girl, he
would protect her and absolutely not
hurt her. Even though Daisy had a
beautiful childhood, she also had
some problems in her mind that she
hid that she hid deeply.
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Chapter One On the Internet
On June 21st
I’m almost eighteen years old but really
seventeen. I found my ex-boyfriend
cheating on me last night. I am very
disappointed right now because I don’t
know if I need to leave him or not.
Can I trust this guy and give him a
second chance? However, he refuses
to answer my phone and then sends me
, 2009, it was a sunny day
but in my mind it was raining. My
name is Daisy.
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a text message about breaking up with
me. He said that we were not suitable
at all so he can’t keep holding my
hands forever. I am so confused
because I don’t know what’s the matter
with our relationship I call to my best
friend to tell her this bad news and she
tells me just let it pass, keep walking in
my life. I know every words my best
friend told me, but I am just wondering
that why I can’t find a man who really
loves me and is willing to take care of
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me forever. Until two days later, June
23rd
, 2009, I meet my boyfriend
through Internet.
On June 21st, 2009, it is a sunny day
and today is my one hundred and fifty
days to search the real girlfriend
through Internet. My name is Gatsby.
I’m almost twenty-three years old but
truly twenty-two. I was hurt by my
ex-girlfriend because she said we are
not suitable for each other and our
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distance is longer than before. I don’t
know what happened to her and
suddenly we just broke up. I really
want to find a girlfriend who truly want
to accompany with me and is willing to
stay by my side when I am facing any
difficulties in my career and my life. I
have tried to use Internet for half of a
year in order to find this kind of girl.
However, they are not sincerely and
think that I am a crazy guy. Once time
I invited a girl to have a cup of coffee
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outside the Internet. She said ok to
me and we decided to go to eighty-five
degree coffee shop. When I went to
that place, I saw a totally different girl
from the on-line pictures. I was so
disappointed because she lied to me. I
don’t mind her appearance is good or
bad, I only care about her mind is pure
and optimistic. From that disaster day,
I never went out with a girl until June
23rd, 2009. I meet my girlfriend
through Internet.
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Chapter Two The Meeting Time
On June 22nd , 2009, it is a sunny day,
but I am very terrified about tonight’s
first meeting. Two days ago, I just
surfed on the Internet and went to chat
room to see that why people all like to
come to visit. I remembered that I just
typed a Chinese nick name, heart
broken, because I am really in a bad
mood and pretty sad situation, in order
to get permission to surf this website.
Suddenly, a person rang me by typing
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this sentence “Are you single?” I was
very confused because I didn’t know
why this person wanted to break my
silence. I responded “Who are you?
Do you really care my answer?” A
few minutes later, this guy didn’t type
anything and I still had no idea who this
guy is. While I am thinking that
perhaps I need to move out, this guy
just sent a message for me and asked
my feeling about love. I just broke up
with my boyfriend in a very miserable
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way then, definitely my answer is
dislike. This stranger asked me if I
need love or not. I responded “I don’t
need love because I don’t believe it.”
For five minutes, I couldn’t type
anything to support my previous idea.
The reason is because my screen
showed the following sentence
“Everyone has the right to have the
happiness.”
On June 22nd , 2009, it is a sunny day
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and I have a very special feeling in my
mind because I have a meeting tonight.
Two days ago, I went to the chat room
to find my ideal girlfriend in these
common days. While I was thinking
that who I want to ring, suddenly a
stranger’s name came into this room
and her name makes me feel she is a
special girl. I tried to type these
following sentences: “Hello, my name
is Gatsby and I am willing to hear your
sad story. Are you single?” After
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few seconds, the screen just show “Are
you single?” At that time, I thought
that I made a big mistake and the girl
wouldn’t respond me anymore.
Perhaps, she would just move out this
room. Fortunately, she didn’t move
out instead of answering my question
angrily. I could understand her anger
because she didn’t know the real me in
the reality. I began to consider that
why this girl carried on so much
sadness. Although we didn’t know
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each other very well, I just feel very
confused about this girl. Finally, I
decided to ask her feeling about love
because I thought that probably I can
know more about her. So I typed
“What’s your feeling about love?”
Her answer seems that I am asking a
garbage question to her. Then I ask
one more question: “Do you need love
now?” I believe love although I was
hurt many times. I never abandon
love because love didn’t abandon me.
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So when she said she didn’t need any
love, I just told her what I believe in
love is everyone has the right to have it.
We didn’t finish our topic of the
definition in love. Both of us agreed
to meet each other in the reality on June
23rd
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On June 23rd ,2009, I saw the weather
forecast on TV last night and it is said
that today will be a sunny day, but the
truth is that it’s raining all day long.
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When I am sitting in the classroom, I
don’t pay attention on what the teachers
taught instead of thinking what will
happen tonight. This is my first time
to meet a friend from Internet, but not
from the real world. Many people
said that Internet is fake and it is very
dangerous to make friends from there.
I just don’t believe this kind of saying,
just like I don’t believe love will have
the element of happiness. Honestly,
I’m not very good at making friends
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with people because some unbelievable
reasons which I don’t even want to say
it aloud. I am extremely nervous
about tonight’s meeting. There is no
clue to show me that what kind of this
guy I met on the Internet. I can’t stop
thinking that “Is this guy a girl or a
boy?” “Is he old or young?” These
kind of questions just come out of my
brain so that I am not able to eat my
lunch and take a nap well. I have his
phone call number. I know I can call
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him, but I don’t know why I don’t want
to do this. Maybe it’s because I don’t
really have a lot of expectation on this
stranger. I was once hurt seriously by
a boy. I sacrificed my time with
friends, my chance to go abroad to
study and my youth in order to show
him that how deep I love him and his
importance in my mind. When I loved
this bad man, my friends told me that I
was too foul to do all of these things.
If I need to cut off my time and
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freedom to love him, then the quality of
this love would change very soon. I
have to admit that my friends’
perspectives are right. They
discovered the fact from me at that time
I was hidden by his sweet lies.
Although my heart is broken, at least
we aren’t married yet, and I am sill
young. That’s the only thing I can
comfort myself to reduce my sadness.
That’s why I don’t have much wish
about tonight’s meeting, but in the other
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hand, I still hope that we can be friends.
When the school ring remains me that
the class is off, I ran very fast to get
ready to go to the meeting early. Our
meeting place is in my school. I go to
the front door to wait for him. Also, I
put my cell phone in my coat pocket
because I guess that perhaps he will call
me when he arrives there. After all,
we don’t know each other. At
six-thirty P.M, my cell phone rings and
I see him. At that time, I really want
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to run away, but I don’t instead of
staying.
On June 23rd, 2009, when I wake up
from my beautiful dream, I see the
outside environment from my window
is raining. I’m not so sure if it is a
signal that tells me today I will have a
bad day and warns me that I’d better
not to go to the meeting. After I finish
my breakfast, I take out my cell phone
and search telephone books to find the
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girl’s phone number. I want to cancel
the meeting because I am very tired of
lying so many times. I don’t give up
finding the true love for me, but I hate
lies. While I am thinking if I want to
cancel the meeting or not, suddenly I
see the symbol of Nicky and let me
think about its slogan “Just do it!.” So
I decide to try again and persuade
myself that this time will be different
and the consequence is not doubtful.
While I’m working in my office, I am
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so exciting and can’t concentrate on my
working. I try to tell myself that do
not have a lot of expectation because
the more you expect successfully, the
more you feel disappointed. So I try
very hard to pull my concentration back
to my job. When I finish my working,
I go to the meeting. I arrive in that
meeting place early than six-thirty P.M.
I don’t call the girl as soon as my
arrival. I keep waiting her to show up.
Suddenly, a middle-high girl walks into
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my eyes. Honestly, she is not very
beautiful and not very thin, but she has
a clear appearance and white skin. I
don’t feel any disappointment and feel
that at least this time this girl doesn’t
cheat on me. Finally, I decide to call
her to make sure that I don’t recognize
the wrong person. While we are
meeting with each other, I can feel that
she really wants to run away from me.
Fortunately, she doesn’t do that cruel
thing for me. Otherwise, I will be
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very embarrassing at that moment.
After we finish our supper, I drive her
to see the sea and the night view.
While I am driving, I say a lot of finny
jokes to her and she gives me a lot of
positive responses. I can feel that she
is a quite interesting and talkative girl.
We decide to see each other when she
wants to find somebody to say
something. After that day, we become
very close friends.
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Chapter Three In Our relationship
On August 8th ,2009, today is a typhoon
day, and the weather is very horrible.
The worst thing is that I am still in my
school. My hometown is not in
Kaohsiung and I am from the other city
to come here to study. The whole
summer vacation I don’t go back to my
hometown. The reason why I need to
stay here is because I am one of the
members in World Games and when I
finish this course, I need to be a school
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assistant in my school. I don’t think
that I will face a huge disaster when I
am not in my family instead of staying
alone. While I am working in school,
suddenly my colleagues come to tell me
that a huge typhoon is coming and all
the trains and public transportations
can’t take. I can’t say anything and
feel fearful. Also, my colleagues warn
me to take my own packages as quick
as possible in order to protect my life
security. I just do what they ask me to
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do, but in my mind, I have no idea
about what can I do after I go back
home. While I arrive in my apartment
which I rent with my classmate but she
goes back home. I keep thinking who
is able and willing to help me. At the
end, I think about him. When I decide
to ask him to help me, I call him, but I
am terrified that maybe he will think it
is none of his business and refuses to
help. Fortunately, he promises me that
he will ask his best friend to drive his
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car to take a ride for me because he
only has a motorcycle. When we are
at his house, I put away my package
and take a short rest. I haven’t rested
because I am in a hurry situation. I
ask him to wake me up when he wants
to have supper. However, both of us
don’t feel hungry and keep sleeping
because the temperature is really cold
and we don’t want to move our body.
At midnight, I feel that I get a fever. I
wake him up and tell him that I want to
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go to the hospital to see the doctor
because of the fever. He tells me that
the time is very late and there is no
doctor, only emergency. He hugs me
and I yell at him “Why you can touch
me?” “It’s so rude.” Then he said he
just want me to get rid of the high fever.
He explains that he won’t hurt me and
to hug me just want me to feel better
through his body. I realize his
kindness and let him hug me. A few
minutes later, I feel very comfortable
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and he said I can relax to sleep in order
to get more rest. I am so tired and
frustrated to fall asleep deeply. The
next day, typhoon is still around Taiwan
and we can’t go anywhere. So we
decide to stay in his house and watch
some DVDs to spend our long typhoon
day. While we are watching these
films, I just think that what happened
last night. I know he didn’t cross the
line although I have no consciousness
at that time and he really takes good
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care of me. At that time, I know I
don’t want to be his friend anymore and
instead of being a girlfriend who can
accompany with him all the time.
On August 8th ,2009, I don’t have many
works to do today because a huge
typhoon is coming and my mind
suddenly comes out of her, my close
friend. I am not afraid of being alone
because I get used to it. I am
wondering if she will call me to ask my
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help or not. I just want to pick up my
phone to check her phone call,
suddenly she calls me. I can feel that
right now she feel fearful, but still she
pretends that she is very brave. While
she is asking my help, I am very happy
that he calls me, not anyone else. I
don’t refuse her asking and then find
my best friend to do a favor for me- to
drive his car to pick up her. After she
comes to my house, I know that she is
very tired of being fearful the whole
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day. I promise her that if I want to
have supper at night, I will wake her up.
However, both of us are too tired to
have the supper. At midnight, while I
am having a bad dream, she shakes me
and tells that she doesn’t feel well and
it seems that she gets a high fever on
her body. She asks me to take her to
the hospital, otherwise she is afraid that
she will become an idiot. I check my
cell phone and it shows three o’clock.
It is too late to find a doctor, especially
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tonight is a typhoon night. I tell her
that it is not appropriate to visit the
doctor right now. I just remember that
when I wan a child, my grandmother
would hug me in order to let me get rid
of the high fever. I follow my
memory to help her, but I forget to tell
her this so that she shouts at me and
think that I am a 變態. I ask her to
calm down and explain that what I try
to do is to help her and swear that I
don’t have the second thought about her.
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She trusts me and we just hug each
other. She is a adorable girl because
she keeps saying that she is very hot ,
but hug me tightly. At that moment, I
really want her to be my girlfriend and I
can introduce her to my friends, but I
don’t know if she will promise or not.
I just wish that we can become a couple
one day. However, if she doesn’t want
to accept me, at least she is a special
girl for me and I will wish her to find a
good boyfriend to take good care of her.
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She is worth of a good man.
On September 2nd ,2009, our summer
vacation is almost over and tonight I
have a date with my best friend. It is a
sunny day and the weather condition is
quite nice. However, I don’t have a
good mood instead of being sad. I am
so complicated that why I can’t be his
girlfriend, but just a normal friend.
He said that in my age, I need to study
very hard and concentrate on my
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education. I don’t understand that
why he can make a decision for my
future. Every time, when I go to his
apartment to watch some DVDs, we get
closer and closer since the movie
begins. While the plots of movies
make me feel scared, I hold his hand
tightly and never want to leave him and
he does the same thing to me. Both of
us never tell each other that we want to
be a couple, not just only a normal
friend. I try to do some actions to let
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him know that I really want to fall in
love with him, such as: clean his
apartment with him and stay by his side
when he feel frustrated and comfort
him that everything would be fine. I
do my best, but he seems pretending
that he can’t see and feel it. At seven
o’clock P.M, my best friend and me go
to shopping mall to go shopping and
have our supper. On our way, she
feels that I am not very happy and a
little bit sadness in my mind. She has
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no idea that why I feel sad. So she
tries to ask me that what happened to
me during her trip to England. I tell
her every details about how we meet
with each other and what our
relationship is between ours. At the
end, she asks me and said “You love
him, right?” I do love him and I don’t
just want to be his normal friend. I
want to be his close girlfriend. After a
piece of silence, I tell her that I have no
idea that what I can do to figure out my
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own problem. She said if I care about
my face, then let this man run away, I
will regret it forever. She also
suggests me that maybe I need to talk to
him and tell him that I really like him
an also ask him what his opinion in his
mind. Around ten o’clock P.M, I
decide to call him and get ready to tell
him everything.
On September 2nd ,2009, today I am out
of work early and I call her to ask if she
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wants to have supper with me.
However, she doesn’t pick up the phone
and I have called her for five times.
Still, nobody answers the phone.
I don’t know that why she doesn’t pick
up her phone. At this moment, I am
thinking that perhaps we can’t be
friends ever. I want to tell her that I
love her and wish that she can be my
girlfriend. I can’t do this because one
of my girl friends asks me if I want to
be her boyfriend and I already promised
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her. I can’t betray my promise. In
the other side, I wish that she can ask
me ,but not that girl. I hate being
alone and very tired of being alone.
Every time when I am alone, I always
think about her and let me feel warm.
I just stay at my apartment to watch
some stupid TV programs. I watch TV,
but my mind is thinking about her and
wondering that why she doesn’t want to
pick up her phone. I almost fall asleep,
suddenly my cell phone ring and I see
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her phone number on it. I pick it up as
soon as possible and she asks to see me
in Zuo-ying station near my apartment.
I said that I can pick her up, but she
refuses me and her sound seems that
she cried before. While I am driving
my motorcycle, I begin to think if
tonight is our last meeting. After all,
we don’t have enough courage to cross
the line. When I see her who is
getting closer than me, I pray secretly
in my mind that she won’t say “We
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shouldn’t be friend anymore.”
Fortunately, she doesn’t say anything
instead of being silent. I try to ask her
something, but she doesn’t give me any
responses. When I send her to her
house, she starts crying and said that
she really likes me. She also doesn’t
understand that why I don’t want to
cross line automatically. This is the
first time a girl cries for me. I am so
shocked and touching because what she
said is also what I want to said. I give
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her a hug and tell her that I will go to
deal with my own thing. I tell her that
wait me for one week and after one
week, I will come back to find her.
She nods her head and said she will
wait for me until I figure out my own
thing. At midnight, I call her and talk
to her for two hours. I keep telling her
that I will come back as soon as
possible. I know she trusts me just
like the way she trusts me in the
typhoon night.
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Chapter-4 Our Wish
On January 13th ,2010, we have been a
couple for several months and until
now we feel the happiness all day long.
We feel that both of us are so lucky that
we can meet each other and we can
accompany with each other every time
when we face difficulties. We share
our life and the happiness with each
other every day. We don’t know if in
the future, what kind of problems we
will face. One thing we know is we
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are very happy right now and every
moments when we think about each
other, our face have a big smile!!!
~The End~