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Love Diary

Ruth Huang

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About the Arthur

Ruth Huang was

born and raised in

Chunghua, Taiwan.

Her hometown is not big, but it brings her a lot of

unforgettable memories. She left her hometown when

she was fifteen years old. She wants to experience if she

can be independent without her family, so she decided to

come to Kaohsiung. She makes it and also she starts her

relationship here.

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Content

Introduction………………P.1

Chapter One………………….P.4

Chapter Two………………….P.7

Chapter Three………………….P.18

Chapter Four ...................P.30

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Introduction

If you have seen the following movies:

“Twenty-seven Dress” and “The

Princess Diaries”,

you might have noticed the scene where

two characters were kissing when they

think they are not suitable for being

alone and decide to spend their rest life

with each other. Whether you feel

this is touching or not, you probably

saw the female character moving her

legs in order to show us that this guy

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was her Mr. Right who she found in the

end. When I was watching these films,

I was thinking when I am kissing my

boyfriend, will I do the same action like

the female character in the movie? Is he

my Mr.Right?

In this novel, there are two main

characters who have different

childhoods and opposite

characteristics. The female

character is Daisy. She had a good

memory of her childhood because

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her family all cared about her and

she didn’t need to worry about

money. On the other hand, the

male character is named Gatsby.

His mother left him when he was just

eight years old. He saw his father

physical and mental abusing to his

mother and he really wanted to

rescue her. He didn’t know why his

father wanted to hit his mother and

he was afraid that maybe one day his

mother would leave this family and

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never come back. One day, he went

to the bus stop to pick up his mother

and he had been waiting for three

hours when his uncle told him that

his mother had already abandoned

him and he needed to stay with his

father. He realized that from that

day of his mother were nor able to

accompany with him during his

whole life. Although he had a very

terrible childhood, he didn’t hate his

father or mother. He knew that his

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father had a mental disease and his

mother could not suffer his longer

tolerate. He said to himself he

wouldn’t do these kinds of things to

the girl that he really likes. In his

mind, if he really likes the girl, he

would protect her and absolutely not

hurt her. Even though Daisy had a

beautiful childhood, she also had

some problems in her mind that she

hid that she hid deeply.

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Chapter One On the Internet

On June 21st

I’m almost eighteen years old but really

seventeen. I found my ex-boyfriend

cheating on me last night. I am very

disappointed right now because I don’t

know if I need to leave him or not.

Can I trust this guy and give him a

second chance? However, he refuses

to answer my phone and then sends me

, 2009, it was a sunny day

but in my mind it was raining. My

name is Daisy.

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a text message about breaking up with

me. He said that we were not suitable

at all so he can’t keep holding my

hands forever. I am so confused

because I don’t know what’s the matter

with our relationship I call to my best

friend to tell her this bad news and she

tells me just let it pass, keep walking in

my life. I know every words my best

friend told me, but I am just wondering

that why I can’t find a man who really

loves me and is willing to take care of

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me forever. Until two days later, June

23rd

, 2009, I meet my boyfriend

through Internet.

On June 21st, 2009, it is a sunny day

and today is my one hundred and fifty

days to search the real girlfriend

through Internet. My name is Gatsby.

I’m almost twenty-three years old but

truly twenty-two. I was hurt by my

ex-girlfriend because she said we are

not suitable for each other and our

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distance is longer than before. I don’t

know what happened to her and

suddenly we just broke up. I really

want to find a girlfriend who truly want

to accompany with me and is willing to

stay by my side when I am facing any

difficulties in my career and my life. I

have tried to use Internet for half of a

year in order to find this kind of girl.

However, they are not sincerely and

think that I am a crazy guy. Once time

I invited a girl to have a cup of coffee

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outside the Internet. She said ok to

me and we decided to go to eighty-five

degree coffee shop. When I went to

that place, I saw a totally different girl

from the on-line pictures. I was so

disappointed because she lied to me. I

don’t mind her appearance is good or

bad, I only care about her mind is pure

and optimistic. From that disaster day,

I never went out with a girl until June

23rd, 2009. I meet my girlfriend

through Internet.

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Chapter Two The Meeting Time

On June 22nd , 2009, it is a sunny day,

but I am very terrified about tonight’s

first meeting. Two days ago, I just

surfed on the Internet and went to chat

room to see that why people all like to

come to visit. I remembered that I just

typed a Chinese nick name, heart

broken, because I am really in a bad

mood and pretty sad situation, in order

to get permission to surf this website.

Suddenly, a person rang me by typing

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this sentence “Are you single?” I was

very confused because I didn’t know

why this person wanted to break my

silence. I responded “Who are you?

Do you really care my answer?” A

few minutes later, this guy didn’t type

anything and I still had no idea who this

guy is. While I am thinking that

perhaps I need to move out, this guy

just sent a message for me and asked

my feeling about love. I just broke up

with my boyfriend in a very miserable

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way then, definitely my answer is

dislike. This stranger asked me if I

need love or not. I responded “I don’t

need love because I don’t believe it.”

For five minutes, I couldn’t type

anything to support my previous idea.

The reason is because my screen

showed the following sentence

“Everyone has the right to have the

happiness.”

On June 22nd , 2009, it is a sunny day

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and I have a very special feeling in my

mind because I have a meeting tonight.

Two days ago, I went to the chat room

to find my ideal girlfriend in these

common days. While I was thinking

that who I want to ring, suddenly a

stranger’s name came into this room

and her name makes me feel she is a

special girl. I tried to type these

following sentences: “Hello, my name

is Gatsby and I am willing to hear your

sad story. Are you single?” After

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few seconds, the screen just show “Are

you single?” At that time, I thought

that I made a big mistake and the girl

wouldn’t respond me anymore.

Perhaps, she would just move out this

room. Fortunately, she didn’t move

out instead of answering my question

angrily. I could understand her anger

because she didn’t know the real me in

the reality. I began to consider that

why this girl carried on so much

sadness. Although we didn’t know

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each other very well, I just feel very

confused about this girl. Finally, I

decided to ask her feeling about love

because I thought that probably I can

know more about her. So I typed

“What’s your feeling about love?”

Her answer seems that I am asking a

garbage question to her. Then I ask

one more question: “Do you need love

now?” I believe love although I was

hurt many times. I never abandon

love because love didn’t abandon me.

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So when she said she didn’t need any

love, I just told her what I believe in

love is everyone has the right to have it.

We didn’t finish our topic of the

definition in love. Both of us agreed

to meet each other in the reality on June

23rd

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On June 23rd ,2009, I saw the weather

forecast on TV last night and it is said

that today will be a sunny day, but the

truth is that it’s raining all day long.

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When I am sitting in the classroom, I

don’t pay attention on what the teachers

taught instead of thinking what will

happen tonight. This is my first time

to meet a friend from Internet, but not

from the real world. Many people

said that Internet is fake and it is very

dangerous to make friends from there.

I just don’t believe this kind of saying,

just like I don’t believe love will have

the element of happiness. Honestly,

I’m not very good at making friends

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with people because some unbelievable

reasons which I don’t even want to say

it aloud. I am extremely nervous

about tonight’s meeting. There is no

clue to show me that what kind of this

guy I met on the Internet. I can’t stop

thinking that “Is this guy a girl or a

boy?” “Is he old or young?” These

kind of questions just come out of my

brain so that I am not able to eat my

lunch and take a nap well. I have his

phone call number. I know I can call

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him, but I don’t know why I don’t want

to do this. Maybe it’s because I don’t

really have a lot of expectation on this

stranger. I was once hurt seriously by

a boy. I sacrificed my time with

friends, my chance to go abroad to

study and my youth in order to show

him that how deep I love him and his

importance in my mind. When I loved

this bad man, my friends told me that I

was too foul to do all of these things.

If I need to cut off my time and

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freedom to love him, then the quality of

this love would change very soon. I

have to admit that my friends’

perspectives are right. They

discovered the fact from me at that time

I was hidden by his sweet lies.

Although my heart is broken, at least

we aren’t married yet, and I am sill

young. That’s the only thing I can

comfort myself to reduce my sadness.

That’s why I don’t have much wish

about tonight’s meeting, but in the other

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hand, I still hope that we can be friends.

When the school ring remains me that

the class is off, I ran very fast to get

ready to go to the meeting early. Our

meeting place is in my school. I go to

the front door to wait for him. Also, I

put my cell phone in my coat pocket

because I guess that perhaps he will call

me when he arrives there. After all,

we don’t know each other. At

six-thirty P.M, my cell phone rings and

I see him. At that time, I really want

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to run away, but I don’t instead of

staying.

On June 23rd, 2009, when I wake up

from my beautiful dream, I see the

outside environment from my window

is raining. I’m not so sure if it is a

signal that tells me today I will have a

bad day and warns me that I’d better

not to go to the meeting. After I finish

my breakfast, I take out my cell phone

and search telephone books to find the

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girl’s phone number. I want to cancel

the meeting because I am very tired of

lying so many times. I don’t give up

finding the true love for me, but I hate

lies. While I am thinking if I want to

cancel the meeting or not, suddenly I

see the symbol of Nicky and let me

think about its slogan “Just do it!.” So

I decide to try again and persuade

myself that this time will be different

and the consequence is not doubtful.

While I’m working in my office, I am

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so exciting and can’t concentrate on my

working. I try to tell myself that do

not have a lot of expectation because

the more you expect successfully, the

more you feel disappointed. So I try

very hard to pull my concentration back

to my job. When I finish my working,

I go to the meeting. I arrive in that

meeting place early than six-thirty P.M.

I don’t call the girl as soon as my

arrival. I keep waiting her to show up.

Suddenly, a middle-high girl walks into

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my eyes. Honestly, she is not very

beautiful and not very thin, but she has

a clear appearance and white skin. I

don’t feel any disappointment and feel

that at least this time this girl doesn’t

cheat on me. Finally, I decide to call

her to make sure that I don’t recognize

the wrong person. While we are

meeting with each other, I can feel that

she really wants to run away from me.

Fortunately, she doesn’t do that cruel

thing for me. Otherwise, I will be

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very embarrassing at that moment.

After we finish our supper, I drive her

to see the sea and the night view.

While I am driving, I say a lot of finny

jokes to her and she gives me a lot of

positive responses. I can feel that she

is a quite interesting and talkative girl.

We decide to see each other when she

wants to find somebody to say

something. After that day, we become

very close friends.

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Chapter Three In Our relationship

On August 8th ,2009, today is a typhoon

day, and the weather is very horrible.

The worst thing is that I am still in my

school. My hometown is not in

Kaohsiung and I am from the other city

to come here to study. The whole

summer vacation I don’t go back to my

hometown. The reason why I need to

stay here is because I am one of the

members in World Games and when I

finish this course, I need to be a school

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assistant in my school. I don’t think

that I will face a huge disaster when I

am not in my family instead of staying

alone. While I am working in school,

suddenly my colleagues come to tell me

that a huge typhoon is coming and all

the trains and public transportations

can’t take. I can’t say anything and

feel fearful. Also, my colleagues warn

me to take my own packages as quick

as possible in order to protect my life

security. I just do what they ask me to

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do, but in my mind, I have no idea

about what can I do after I go back

home. While I arrive in my apartment

which I rent with my classmate but she

goes back home. I keep thinking who

is able and willing to help me. At the

end, I think about him. When I decide

to ask him to help me, I call him, but I

am terrified that maybe he will think it

is none of his business and refuses to

help. Fortunately, he promises me that

he will ask his best friend to drive his

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car to take a ride for me because he

only has a motorcycle. When we are

at his house, I put away my package

and take a short rest. I haven’t rested

because I am in a hurry situation. I

ask him to wake me up when he wants

to have supper. However, both of us

don’t feel hungry and keep sleeping

because the temperature is really cold

and we don’t want to move our body.

At midnight, I feel that I get a fever. I

wake him up and tell him that I want to

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go to the hospital to see the doctor

because of the fever. He tells me that

the time is very late and there is no

doctor, only emergency. He hugs me

and I yell at him “Why you can touch

me?” “It’s so rude.” Then he said he

just want me to get rid of the high fever.

He explains that he won’t hurt me and

to hug me just want me to feel better

through his body. I realize his

kindness and let him hug me. A few

minutes later, I feel very comfortable

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and he said I can relax to sleep in order

to get more rest. I am so tired and

frustrated to fall asleep deeply. The

next day, typhoon is still around Taiwan

and we can’t go anywhere. So we

decide to stay in his house and watch

some DVDs to spend our long typhoon

day. While we are watching these

films, I just think that what happened

last night. I know he didn’t cross the

line although I have no consciousness

at that time and he really takes good

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care of me. At that time, I know I

don’t want to be his friend anymore and

instead of being a girlfriend who can

accompany with him all the time.

On August 8th ,2009, I don’t have many

works to do today because a huge

typhoon is coming and my mind

suddenly comes out of her, my close

friend. I am not afraid of being alone

because I get used to it. I am

wondering if she will call me to ask my

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help or not. I just want to pick up my

phone to check her phone call,

suddenly she calls me. I can feel that

right now she feel fearful, but still she

pretends that she is very brave. While

she is asking my help, I am very happy

that he calls me, not anyone else. I

don’t refuse her asking and then find

my best friend to do a favor for me- to

drive his car to pick up her. After she

comes to my house, I know that she is

very tired of being fearful the whole

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day. I promise her that if I want to

have supper at night, I will wake her up.

However, both of us are too tired to

have the supper. At midnight, while I

am having a bad dream, she shakes me

and tells that she doesn’t feel well and

it seems that she gets a high fever on

her body. She asks me to take her to

the hospital, otherwise she is afraid that

she will become an idiot. I check my

cell phone and it shows three o’clock.

It is too late to find a doctor, especially

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tonight is a typhoon night. I tell her

that it is not appropriate to visit the

doctor right now. I just remember that

when I wan a child, my grandmother

would hug me in order to let me get rid

of the high fever. I follow my

memory to help her, but I forget to tell

her this so that she shouts at me and

think that I am a 變態. I ask her to

calm down and explain that what I try

to do is to help her and swear that I

don’t have the second thought about her.

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She trusts me and we just hug each

other. She is a adorable girl because

she keeps saying that she is very hot ,

but hug me tightly. At that moment, I

really want her to be my girlfriend and I

can introduce her to my friends, but I

don’t know if she will promise or not.

I just wish that we can become a couple

one day. However, if she doesn’t want

to accept me, at least she is a special

girl for me and I will wish her to find a

good boyfriend to take good care of her.

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She is worth of a good man.

On September 2nd ,2009, our summer

vacation is almost over and tonight I

have a date with my best friend. It is a

sunny day and the weather condition is

quite nice. However, I don’t have a

good mood instead of being sad. I am

so complicated that why I can’t be his

girlfriend, but just a normal friend.

He said that in my age, I need to study

very hard and concentrate on my

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education. I don’t understand that

why he can make a decision for my

future. Every time, when I go to his

apartment to watch some DVDs, we get

closer and closer since the movie

begins. While the plots of movies

make me feel scared, I hold his hand

tightly and never want to leave him and

he does the same thing to me. Both of

us never tell each other that we want to

be a couple, not just only a normal

friend. I try to do some actions to let

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him know that I really want to fall in

love with him, such as: clean his

apartment with him and stay by his side

when he feel frustrated and comfort

him that everything would be fine. I

do my best, but he seems pretending

that he can’t see and feel it. At seven

o’clock P.M, my best friend and me go

to shopping mall to go shopping and

have our supper. On our way, she

feels that I am not very happy and a

little bit sadness in my mind. She has

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no idea that why I feel sad. So she

tries to ask me that what happened to

me during her trip to England. I tell

her every details about how we meet

with each other and what our

relationship is between ours. At the

end, she asks me and said “You love

him, right?” I do love him and I don’t

just want to be his normal friend. I

want to be his close girlfriend. After a

piece of silence, I tell her that I have no

idea that what I can do to figure out my

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own problem. She said if I care about

my face, then let this man run away, I

will regret it forever. She also

suggests me that maybe I need to talk to

him and tell him that I really like him

an also ask him what his opinion in his

mind. Around ten o’clock P.M, I

decide to call him and get ready to tell

him everything.

On September 2nd ,2009, today I am out

of work early and I call her to ask if she

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wants to have supper with me.

However, she doesn’t pick up the phone

and I have called her for five times.

Still, nobody answers the phone.

I don’t know that why she doesn’t pick

up her phone. At this moment, I am

thinking that perhaps we can’t be

friends ever. I want to tell her that I

love her and wish that she can be my

girlfriend. I can’t do this because one

of my girl friends asks me if I want to

be her boyfriend and I already promised

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her. I can’t betray my promise. In

the other side, I wish that she can ask

me ,but not that girl. I hate being

alone and very tired of being alone.

Every time when I am alone, I always

think about her and let me feel warm.

I just stay at my apartment to watch

some stupid TV programs. I watch TV,

but my mind is thinking about her and

wondering that why she doesn’t want to

pick up her phone. I almost fall asleep,

suddenly my cell phone ring and I see

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her phone number on it. I pick it up as

soon as possible and she asks to see me

in Zuo-ying station near my apartment.

I said that I can pick her up, but she

refuses me and her sound seems that

she cried before. While I am driving

my motorcycle, I begin to think if

tonight is our last meeting. After all,

we don’t have enough courage to cross

the line. When I see her who is

getting closer than me, I pray secretly

in my mind that she won’t say “We

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shouldn’t be friend anymore.”

Fortunately, she doesn’t say anything

instead of being silent. I try to ask her

something, but she doesn’t give me any

responses. When I send her to her

house, she starts crying and said that

she really likes me. She also doesn’t

understand that why I don’t want to

cross line automatically. This is the

first time a girl cries for me. I am so

shocked and touching because what she

said is also what I want to said. I give

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her a hug and tell her that I will go to

deal with my own thing. I tell her that

wait me for one week and after one

week, I will come back to find her.

She nods her head and said she will

wait for me until I figure out my own

thing. At midnight, I call her and talk

to her for two hours. I keep telling her

that I will come back as soon as

possible. I know she trusts me just

like the way she trusts me in the

typhoon night.

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Chapter-4 Our Wish

On January 13th ,2010, we have been a

couple for several months and until

now we feel the happiness all day long.

We feel that both of us are so lucky that

we can meet each other and we can

accompany with each other every time

when we face difficulties. We share

our life and the happiness with each

other every day. We don’t know if in

the future, what kind of problems we

will face. One thing we know is we

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are very happy right now and every

moments when we think about each

other, our face have a big smile!!!

~The End~