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he Unconsciousness of an Ethiopian

Musings of a Blerd

By T.C. Harrison



The Unconsciousness of an Ethiopian

Princess

Musings of a Blerd Volume 3 2nd Edition

By T.C. Harrison



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Thank ou

This is my fifth poetry oo( o+erall and the third and final entry in The Unconsciousness

of an Ethiopian Princess series. ,ts een a year since this "as first pulished and ,+e

decided to ma(e a fe" changes- ut ,m +ery happy to "rite that some things remain the

same. ,m +ery grateful to the follo"ing indi+iduals "ho ha+e encouraged and supported

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irst and foremost all praises to >od from "hom lessings flo".

My mother 1licia and my sister ;orothy ?and her three cats@ for their continued

encouragement and lo+e. 1nd to all the "omen in my family "ho+e gone on efore me-

may you e a lessed memory.

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ad day. To those "ho ha+e "anted to gi+e up- , say thee nayA 4e+er gi+e up- ne+er

surrender. ou can do this- you are special you are lo+ed- and you are "orth itA

*9ith Hul( si7ed hugs-

T.C. Harrison



!ontents

Part ,5 Untitled $

Part ,,5 Poems ;edicated To My People

Part ,,,5 9hat ,t eels 6i(e or This >irl

Part ,V5 Musings of a Blerd

Part V5 Untitled 2

Part V,5 1out the 1uthor



"nt#t$e% &1



'ro( out

8f line

;rop out

8f the s(y

1nd float freely in the sunshine.

Ne)er *#n%+++

The teachers "ho say youre dum

The (ids "ho thin( youre "eird

The police "ho thin( youre nothing ut a target

Those in society "ho thin( that people "ho loo( li(e you are disposale.

The lo+e "ho dumped you for another

The go+ernment "ho lies to you...

oull than( your heart and rain later.

'arkness

Clouds

His heart 9hile he

!leeps only

To e

1"a(ened y

Chaos

'ea )u

,t "as nice to meet you

Enlightenment,t "as sad to see you go

"n#)erse

,s there



More than

8ne

Myself

1m ,

Many

-ee( your ba% %rea*s to

ourself.

6ess you act them out.

1nd

They turn into

4ightmares.

So.#ety

Pursuitful lo+e

earful sadness

Timeless happiness

Enraged courage

6onely ad+enture.

We#/ht$essness+++

reely mo+ing...

Endless time...

irealls illuminate

Doc(y ridges float

>igantic marles eplode

9ith +irant color

Through dar(ness

;iamonds electrify-

1s eautiful silence resides...

, am at peace



y#n/ on the $oor, star#n/ #nto s(a.e,

!tars pass y me as it comes into +ie".

Dising- , run to"ard it- stepping on meteor

Doc(s- )umping o+er lac( holes as comets "hi7 y me.

inally- , tumle do"n through its atmosphere-

9elcoming the coldness.

, am home.



I ent to a ($a.e

,t is +ery far a"ay-

My eyes closed- in an instant , am there.

,t "as an ad+entureF my imagination ran "ild.

, dreamed many great things.

, "ent to a place.

Time stood still and "hen my eyes opened-

, "as ac( in reality.

ur($e

ragrance

8f

6ife

9orthy

8f

Doyalty

1ncient

1nd

Eternal

'ark bron eyes

Mouse*li(e nose..

Carmel s(in.

4arro"ed eyero"s-

,n thought.

N#nety

Healthy-

!ane-

9ise-

1nd en)oying life.



eah thats right honey- ,m still young.

Sur)#)a$ o the #ttest

The strong sur+i+e "hile

The "ea( die

,ts all a unch

8f crap

To me.

In%u$/e yourse$

,n the reality of

Peace.

Be one "ith

reedom

4ot fearing

Chaos.

Bore%+++

9ith societys "ay of life

Confused...

9ith the la"s created y a fe"

Tired...

8f the critics "ho are the real enemies

Who knos

9hat one may get out

8f life

,f one ma(es their

8"n path

,nstead of follo"ing

Paths that

9ere already

Constructed

When #t .o*es to $o)e

1t first the mind is closed to it

1nd the heart is tric(ed y it



9hen lo+e de+elops

The mind thin(s too rationally

9hile the heart is too emotional

9hen heartrea( happens

The mind says /Told you so.0

1nd the heart plunges deeper

,nto sadness

9hen hope aounds

The mind re)ects it

1nd the heart listens

9hen real true lo+e

1rri+es the heart and

Mind are one



!an see the )#s#on .$ear$y

Chaos is loc(ed a"ay

9hile epression is

ree.

9ill not e captured

1nd chained up

By madness and

ear

, am a free spirit "ith

Possiility

ou "ont see me

,n any institution.

!o*#n/ an% /o#n/

Thats ho" their

6i+es are

,ts sad cause

They "ont (no"

Ho" good it is to

Be free

W#n% #n *y a.e

, feel my ,magination run

9ild

The sun at my ac(

, feel the )oy and

6et it

8ut



, am one "ith

Epression

, am one "ith

Possiility

, am so

1li+e

4a#thu$ness %oes not %es.r#be

The "ea(*hearted.

,ts those "ho ha+e

!truggled and (ept hope

1li+e in times of

Chaos.

Sorro

,ts a "onderful thing.

,t rings reali7ation- confrontation- and

Closure

It5s so easy or .r#t#.s to /#)e the#r

T"o cents on "hats said or done

But "hen its the peoples turn

To dish out some feedac(

The hypocrites are no "here

To e found

<!tead theyre hiding under

1 roc( afraid to face the path

They+e chosen.

#e.es o *y $#e s(ra$ unto

The floor

6i(e a )igsa" pu77le needing to e



Put together

9hen its all done "ill it e complete

8r "ill

The pieces ne+er fit

n/u$ yourse$

,n the things that matter

,n life

,nstead of "allo"ing in

The things that

Bring destruction

earn ro* your *#stakes

They say

But are all mista(es really

Mista(es

8r "as learning from the

Mista(es in the first place

The mista(e

4a.es /o by as

Thoughts de+elop

,n each mind

Emotions are

1roused as time

Passes y

They s(eak ant#n/ to be hear%But they are (ept Guiet

They (ill "anting to die

But they are (ept ali+e

They get lost not "anting to e found

But they are sought out

They are lind "anting to see



But they are (ept in the dar(

They are deaf "anting to hear

But they are (ept in the soundooth

They sleep "anting to dream

But they are (ept a"a(e

The hy(o.r#tes

Critici7e the ones

9ho reel against

!ocietys "ishes

!creaming- they "arn them

To oey or face punishment

But the people (eep on

To"ards a ne" hope

9hile the hypocrites

Continue to yell- "allo"ing

,n their o"n ignorance

Why %#% you %o #t 9hy did you run a"ay

,nstead of facing the truth

4o" loo(- its harder

To e strong

,ts harder to ha+e

1 life no" isnt it

Too ad you let it

>et in the "ay 4o" youll ne+er

Be ali+e- youll

4e+er e free.



Nee%s an% ants

8ne ecomes the other

9hen they do

They either ring

Chaos or lessings

Who5s .ount#n/ on *e

4oody no"

=ust myself to learn on

, can only rely on me

,ts a shame- , "as hoping

To e a leader

"n.ons.#ous orry

illed her head

1s she "al(ed

;o"n the street

6ittle does she (no"

1 "hite strand of hair

9ill e gi+en to her

1s a gift from herMind



-#.k ba.k

Deminisce

1out things past and present

Visuali7e the future and

Understand

Hope

Sun #n *y a.e

The "armth comforts me

1s , sit on this green ench

, loo( out to"ard the "ater

, feel at peace

T#*e %oes not rush *e

1s , ta(e in the "onders

8f nature.

;ar(ness e+ades me

1s , am surrounded y

The sun.

, am inspired.



eo($e are $#ke bu#$%#n/s

!ome are tall and strong

9hile others are short and "ea(

!ome s"ay in the "ind to the

<Dight direction

9hile others s"ay to their o"n

!ome get toppled "hile

8thers stand for centuries.



The o$$o#n/ (oe*s are %e%#.ate% to *y (eo($e:

● 4ati+e 1mericans

● Blac( people "orld"ide

● =e"ish people

● 9omen especially 98C

● People of color around the "orld "ho are aused- mistreated- and appropriated.

● ;isaled people*especially those "ith mental illness

● Tray+on Martin- Denesha McBride- Eric- >arner- =ohn Cra"ford- Mi(e Bro"n-

;arrien Hunt- and e+ery 4ati+e- Blac(- and Bro"n "oman- man- and child "ho

has een gunned do"n y police and "anna e /+igilantes0*"hom Batman "ould

definitely not appro+e of.

ou #$$ N be or/otten+

ou hear the .r#es o he$( ro* the#r .h#$%ren

But you ignore mine.

ou feed and clothe others

But not me.

ou protest in)ustices and "rongs done to groups of people

But not mine.



ou ta(e a"ay e+erything that the land ga+e my people

et you epect me to li+e on it.

ou offer up apologies

But you dont refuse to understand the damage thats een inflicted.

ou promise to help the situation

et youre adding to the prolem.

ou say , ha+e 1,;!

et you "ont di+ulge "ho de+eloped it.

ou say my home is full of dar(ness

But it is full of light.

ou tell me youre the good guy.

But , (no" youre really the monster.

ou thin( , "ill not sur+i+e

et , am still here.

ook#n/ aroun% I sense the .ur#os#ty+

E+eryones trying to understand

1ll of these atrocities.

4one of them "ant to stretch out their hand.

Theyre afraid of "hat might ta(e place.

Theyre afraid of the past that they need to face.

!tereotypes- riots- and race fights.

Thats in the past they say.alse apologies- ac(no"ledging all the "rongs.

Trying to "in the struggle and ha+e peace that lasts.

They afraid of "hat might ta(e place.




1ll these centuries- from the pillaging and sla+ery.

They "ont accept responsiility

They "ont let students (no" our true history.

9e need to ta(e charge of our destinies.

Theyre afraid of "hat might ta(e place.


Help oursel+es thats "hat "e need to do.

;ont e+en rely on the go+ernment to come through

They ma(e all of these ecuses and al"ays finding

!capegoats- theyre useless.

!o (eep the struggle ali+e until you die.

:ings dream "ill come true.

Stares

Thats all he gets

1s he "al(s into the restaurant

8thers follo" and get the same response

They sit do"n at the counter as the man

Tells the "aiter /, "ould li(e a sand"ich please.0

illed "ith shoc( and anger- the "aiter slides

1 plate across to the man8n it "as a gun.

Wasn5t

Daised in the ghetto

9asnt

!hot at any time in my life

9asnt

Beaten y a gang

But ,+e suffered and struggled

,+e een called 4igger

,m )ust as lac( as you



It5s a$$ (o#nt$ess:

Paying taes

8eying the rules

9hile my people suffer

When they ere .a(ture%, so$%, an% brou/ht o)er #n .ha#ns to be au.t#one%

o as (ro(erty, they .r#e%

/4o =ustice 4o Peace.0

9hen they "ere strange fruit- hanging in the trees- they cried


9hen they "ere (illed y pogroms- death sGuads- and gas chamers and uried in mass

gra+es- they cried


9hen their city "as flooded and they "ere stranded and helpless- left to die on rooftopsand hospitals- they cried


9hen a oy "as gunned do"n as he "al(ed "ith s(ittles in his poc(et and ice tea in his

hand- they cried


9hen a young "oman "as eaten to death in her home for "earing a hi)a- they cried




For the *eo*le o( Ferg'son:

They call us feral and +iolent

1nd accuse us of murdering ourunorn children- "hite people- and the police

oth lac( and "hite.

They say that "e destroy neighors

1nd entire cities "ith garage and drugs

1s "e li+e our li+es off the ac(s of hard

9or(ing 1mericans.

They dont elie+e "ere human.

They dont elie+e that our li+es ha+e any +alue.

1ccording to them "e are monsters.

An% yet

Theyre the ones "ho go on

Dampages and shooting sprees.

Theyre the ones "ho murder each other

1t the rate of % percent "hile ha+ing

;eclared open season on us for the pastT"o hundred years.

They+e omed neighorhoods and

Terrori7ed communities "ith the nooses of

Dopes- the canisters of tear gas- their

;ogs "ho go feral upon the sight of us-

1nd their ullets oth ruer and metal.

Theyre the ones "ho poured drugs and

8ther garage into many a home and poisoned8ur communities.

They dont elie+e theyre doing or ha+e done

1nything "rong.

They elie+e theyre doing >ods "or( and that

8ur people ha+e een cursed.

They dont see color nor do they "ant to.



An% yet

Through all this hell- "e+e remained strong.

9e remain steadfast though the )ourney has

Been long and things ha+e faltered many a time.

9e (no" the truth.

9e (no" "ho "e are.

9e are men- "omen- and children.

9e are 1mericans.

9e are human eings.

8ur li+es are +aluale.

They ;o matter.

We #$$ (re)a#$+

4a$$en

Deu(ed

1n outcast

Thats "hat

He is in societys

Mind

,n my eyesHes an angel

9ho needs

His "ings

To fly



It5s #nterest#n/

Ho" the people

9ho are in po"er

Call the rest of us

Minorities

E+en though theres

More of us than

There are of them



yes o(ene%

To the pain and de+astation

Ears opened

To the cries of those "ho suffer

4oses opened

To the stench of narro"*mindedness

Hands opened

To reach out to those in need

Mouth opened

To inform the "orld.

!5s

6a"yers

;octors

Politicians

=udges

Criminals or "or(ers for the people

9hich one "ill you choose

;ar*ony

,n life is easy to fin8ne must listen and loo( closely

,n order to disco+er it



It5s that t#*e a/a#n:

To sha(e the "orld

1nd ma(e a difference

To spread the ne"s

1nd inform e+eryone

9hat is really going on.

The "orld isnt a nice place

E+il runs rampant "hile

>ood people are hard to find.

People are dying from a man*made

;isease and noody cares cause

Their s(in color is dar(

Children go "ithout food and are

1used.

The poor are ignored "hile

The rich steal "hat

6ittle they ha+e.

4o one "ants to face the

Prolems that racism-

;iscrimination- and pre)udice

Bring.They "ant to mo+e on

9ithout letting the truth e

Heard.

eah its that time again5

To let the "orld (no"

ou cant stop us

9e "ill not go Guietly into the

4ight.

9ere here to stay until=ustice is ser+ed.



'on5t she% any tears or the* to see

:eep on forging ahead

;ont forget "here you came from

8r ho" "hat you learned "ill

Help you get to "here youre going

ou are not ound y your circumstances

8r status in society

The s(y is not the limit

The limit is "hate+er you elie+e

,t to e

nou/h+

,+e heard enough

8f your lies- your

Tric(ery- and your

Ecuses.

Hear "hat the people

Ha+e to say.

9ere smarter

Than "e loo( to

ou.



They $ook at you an% sneer

They call you dum and say

oull ne+er ma(e it.

But "hat theyre really

Trying to say is that

Theyre afraid of your talents

1nd your (no"ledge

Theyre afraid that

oull succeed "here

They ha+e failed.



What It 4ee$s #ke 4or Th#s <#r$



Whene)er

,m sad , feel as if the "orld is passing y and ,m eing left ehind.

9hene+er ,m happy , feel free as though ,m s"imming under

"ater- not ha+ing to e+er "orry aout reathing. 9hen , get

depressed- , hate myself and "ant to die- , (no" if , e+er ma(e

an attempt , "ould )ust go eneath the surface and hold my reath

until it all fades to lac(...

;o(e

is something that , hold in aundance of I#J "hile

Hate is "hat , hold in the other half.

An/ry

is ho" , feel most days at the "orld- at humanitys stupidity "hich they

reathe in and out daily...,K+e ecome hateful to"ards all

humans in general.

There5s

no hope for them- theyre eplicitly fla"ed...

I

guess the man upstairs has an interesting sense of humor. 9hen

The

time comes for an alien race to disco+er our eistence ,ll side

"ith the aliens.

4ore)er

is a long time to thin( aout ones place in this "orld. ,ts an

=.ru.#at#n/

and*(ty

process as one "ill ne+er fully understand.

one$y

is mostly ho" my presence is.

So$e*n

and dar(.

o)e$y

and cheerful- thats ho" my life

Is+

The ying and the yang fighting for dominanceto reign supreme as

-#n/

)er*ore

eing the po"erful of the t"o. E+ery day they

4#/ht

and the



ne

that comes out on top more

e.ent$y

is

The

dar( side and part of me is scared shitless "hile the other

is not and "ants to accept it. But , fight this urge

and its

;ar%

and

I

fail many times. Music- oo(s- and epressing myself

is the only "ay , disco+er

So$a.e

and )oy...ut it lasts only for so long and ,

<ro

so tired of the many attles...

I

"ant to end the "ar. ,t is a hell that , need a

permanent

es.ue

from. They say that

o)e

conGuers all ut do they (no" that misery

and sadness de+astate e+erything in their path



ou or/et I5* here

1nd as time elapses

1nd as years go y-

,ll forget ,m here also

unn#n/

1"ay from people "ho continue

rom the madness of politics

rom the fears that dri+e you insane

1"ay from reality

<oosebu*(s+

Thats "hat , get

E+erytime , see

ou.

A%)enturous (ast#*es,

=oyous rainfalls

;ar( nights 1nd cold summer

;ays



W#n%y %ays

!"eep a"ay

8ld fears

9hile ringing

,n ne" terrors

;o(e an% %#s#$$us#on*ent

1re opposites yet they

1re al"ays in+ol+ed

,n situations

There are al"ays t"o cycles5

9here one finds hope it

Ends in disillusionment

1nd "here one finds disillusionment

,t ends in hope.

But "hich one came first

Hope or disillusionment

I5* 32,+e got the

Blues

Thats nothing ne"

inances are tight

Things arent right



Theres no hope

,n sight

E+eryday , feel

, ha+e no say

,n ho" this orange

9hich is my life

9ill peel

, Guestion "hether

, ha+e friends and

, guess that depends

8n many things

9hich*

8h crap

This part doesnt

Dhyme is that

1 poetic crime

,m 32

,+e got the

Blues

Thats nothing ne"

, get depressed 1nd "ant to die

But then , cry

1nd "ant to li+e

But "hat the hell am

, li+ing for

, really dont (no".

, dont ha+e a guy

But that doesnt

Ma(e me cry , )ust sigh

Because "hene+er

, do ha+e a guy

,n DE16 68VE

, get denied



9hen , first

Told my <friends

1out >ra+es

, didnt get the

eeling that

They cared

!o , regretted

That , shared

,m 32

,+e got the

Blues

Thats nothing ne"

, "onder "hat

9ill the future

6ead me to

,tll most li(ely

Be ad cause

or the most

Part thats "hat

,+e had

,m not ecited

1out life4or do , care

!ometimes

, "ish that the

Earth "as

Bare

9ith no

People to

!hare

The dar( ,s o+erta(ing

Me

Theres nothing

Bright or good

That , can see

People say its



1l"ays dar(est

Before the da"n

, ya"n at the da"n

9ho ne+er stays up

or me

,m 32

,+e got the

Blues

Thats nothing ne"

The #n% .arr#es ne be/#nn#n/s

8ne must listen to otain the

:no"ledge gained from

6istening to the "hispers

8f the "ind in one ears.

A (erson:

,s it )ust eing a human eing

8r is it something more

Deality5

,s it )ust eing in the present

8r is it something more

I ha)e (oe*s

,n my head "aiting

To e "ritten do"n

But , ne+er ha+e a pen

8r a pad- a computer to

Type it out into eistence.

!o there it resides in

My rain. 9aiting for

Me to disco+er it

8nce again...



<ett#n/ the shakes an% #t.h#n/ $#ke a unk#e,

Being o+erheated and "a(ing up

;renched in s"eat.

Heart eating %## times faster

Than it should. 6osing small its of my hair-

and losing pounds faster than , can

Put them on.

Eyes staring into the endless +oid

rea(ing out people as they pass y.

arting and pooping- stin(ing up the

=oint a little more than usual.

Muscles etremely sore.

Hyperacti+e one moment-

The net tiredness o+ercoming me.

;ry eyes-

!hortness of reath-

Etreme grumpiness-

My mental health at its mercy.

6ots of pills of the epensi+e medication to

Ta(e.

Thats me and >ra+es.



I5* broke+

But yet for some reason

, ha+e the desire*no*its

an urge to spend

imaginary money

that , dont ha+e.

,m ro(e.

1nd as , continue

To fall in the deep

1nd dar( red hole

That is credit card det

, curse and yell angrily

1t myself for eing in

This situation.

,m ro(e.

My plunge into the

Ded sea "as only

;ue to paying all of

8f my car insurance

Up front. ,t "asnt the

1mount of det that

, no" carry.

,m ro(e.

,t "as L2

there and L%# there

That ha+e lead me to

9here , am no".

Many of my purchases

9ere necessary e+ils

9hile others "ere

ri+olous ones.

,m ro(e.

, had +o"ed ne+er to

>et into det. Than(fully

, dont s"im "ith the

!har(s in the oceans of

College loans. E+en still



My +o" has een ro(en.

,m ro(e.

But , "ill not al"ays e.

, "ill a+enge myself

, "ill reco+er from this

!tressful urden.

,m ro(e.

But , "ill ne+er e

Bro(en.

A$$ the .he*#.a$

9orld is full of

!urprises

Beating t"ists

1nd turns.

,ll stic( to

My nappy

Thic( locsThan( you.

The troub$e I see

:eeps gro"ing.

,t epands and



Brain"ashes

People e+ery"here.

To you-

The troule , see

;oesnt eist

But youKre lind

To the chaos and

;estruction

Caused y your

8"n Hand.



Are you there

Can you hear me

,m lost- , need help

,m surrounded y

Hopelessness e+eryday

ear and dout torment

Me as , struggle to escape

rom the cuicle of dar(ness

1nd chaos.



I5* suo.at#n/

,m not li+ing

, ha+e no freedom

Please let me e free

8r ,ll e forced to

End this misery

,m 32

9hy "ont you let me go

,m 32

4o longer am , young

,m 32

,m no" old

Please let me e free

8r ,ll e forced to

End this misery

6et me e free

,f not then ,ll

End my misery

6et me e free

8r ,ll end my

Misery

Be ree

End the misery

Be ree

End the misery

Be ree

End the misery

Be ree

End the misery

Be reeEnd the misery

Be ree

End the misery

B 4

E4; THE M,!ED





.ns*ire by Nirvana4s 5l Age

I5)e been to$% nu*erous t#*es

By fol(s "ho are or around the

!ame age as me that "ere

8ld.

1s if "e ha+e done e+erything

That "e "ere supposed to do

1s if "e can regret all of the

Certain opportunities that may

Ha+e eluded us.

They say "ere old.

1s if "e ha+e

8ne more day to complete our ser+ice

8ne more high to decay our ner+ous

9ondering ho" "ere gonna find a "ay

,tKs o+er.

But , say thee nayA

9ere only half"ay

Through our li+es

Before "e eginTo decay.

They say "ere old.

But ,m not that old.

, ha+e more life ahead

8f me.

, ha+ent done e+erything

That , "as supposed to do

, ha+e to capture the certain

8pportunities "hich hadEluded me pre+iously...

They say "ere old.

, call shenanigans.



The sa*e o$% th#n/

rom day to day

, "onder "hen

Things "ill change

,t gets mundane...

1t times , "ant to sleep

1nd ne+er "a(e up

,t gets mundane...

1t times ,Km happy and ecited

only to e let do"n

o+er and o+er again

*an endless cycle

,t gets mundane...




1nd ne+er "a(e up

,t gets mundane...

8ften , feel insane

9anting to get out of this

trapped life

and escape to a

ne" eginning

,t gets mundane...


1nd ne+er "a(e up

,t gets mundane...

Mundane- mundane- mundane....

Shar( (an/s r#n/ #ns#%e *y hea%

;i77iness occurs...

Tears try to eit

The corner o+er me

1s my mind enters a

4e" dimension...

!ounds that arent thereEnter my ears

1s , fall do"n

The lac( hole

1nd enter the

;ar(ness....

-no.k#n/

:noc(ingThats all , hear

Theyre al"ays

Trying to get inside

, ma(e sure , (eep the

;oor olted.

4e+er "ant them to come



,f they entered- my mind

9ouldnt e the same...

o.ke% "( #/ht No

6oc(ed up right no"-

Thats "here you are

Trying hard not to

6ose your sanity

1l"ays de+eloping

Philosophies "hile

9atching your ac(...

,ts hard no"

But soon youll

Be free

1nd then thats

9here the enlightenment

Can egin



'#sa((ear+++

ThatKs "hat ,Kll do

rom the group of friends-The ig cro"ds and

!ociety.

,Kll go underground

Deappearing only

4o" and then.

,Kll e a ghost

ouKll only see

!igns of "here

,K+e een.

;isappear...

ouKll ne+er find me

,Kll slip a"ay.

ouKll "ish that

ouK+e paid more

1ttention- appreciated

My eistence

;isappear...

ThatKs "hat ,Kll do

See( aay

The dirt

Mop a"ay the

!pilt mil(

9ipe a"ay the

>rease

8n the counter

1nd clean out our soul.

au/h out $ou%

!"ay in the ree7e

En)oy the moment

6ie on the grass

Bas( in the rain



!lide do"n the raino"

Eplore undersea trenches

;ance "ith dolphins

Hide amongst coral eds

=ump across canyons

9ade in the rapids

Charge up the mountains

9al( on the clouds

1s time passes

6oo( elo"

1nd see life



ose >yse$

, "ant to e

,n lo+e on a

T"o "ay

!treet.

, "ant to gi+e my

1ll

Put $##J in

1nd get a full

Deturn on my

,n+estment.

9hat ,m loo(ing for

,snt the mundane

E+eryday thing

9hat ,m searching for

,s a special treasure

9hich occurs e+ery"here

8n a daily asis

To those "ho disco+er it.

, "ant someone

9ho , can lose

Myself in

1nd they can

6ose themsel+es

,n me.

#e #s a beaut#u$ th#n/

,t can e a curse or 1 lessing in disguise.

,tKs "hat "e ma(e it

To e*or thatKs "hat

9eKre told- though

9e donKt ha+e total

Control of e+erything.



The %ark s#%e be.kons

To me li(e a sharp pang in my

!tomach

9hile the good uses a

lashlight to guide in the

;ar(ness.

,n my head

The !on and ;aughter attle

or supremacy as the ather

!earches for alance.

inally it all ends and alance

,s restored.

'ark %ays an% sk#es ahea%

;ar( nights emrace my ed

1ll of these sad thoughts mo+ing

Through my head

>ost %ays are *eh %ays or *e+

8nce in a"hile , get a good day.

1 est day is li(e a unicorn- it +ery

Darely happens...

Bad days are al"ays fighting for

1ttention.

Hoping to o+ercome the meh and

Transform it into an undead 1utoot or ;ecepticon...

Meh days are normal for me.

, get good and ad or nothing.

, ne+er ha+e to "orry aout

Ecitement on a meh day...



But ,m not /normal0

, dont "ant a meh day

, "ant ecitement and ad+enture.

,m Belle and ,m s"itching places

9ith my parent in the Beasts

Castle...

Most days are meh days for me.

!oon that "ont e the case.

!oon ,ll ha+e many good days

!oon ,ll capture that unicorn and

Ha+e the est days of my life.

!oon meh days "ill rarely happen...

I #na$$y rea$#?e% that you %on@t .are about *e+

9hen , "as depressed and had cut myself-

, reached out to you for help*

But , "as othering you.

ou didnKt e+en call or tet me to see if , "as o(ay-

, had to let you (no" a fe" days later "hen , teted you

1nd still you didnKt epress concern., really care aout you my ass...

9hen mom called and left a message for you-

The first thing out of your mouth "hen you called ac( "as

,tKs four in the morning. 48T ,s my daughter o(ay

My daughter is my first priority my ass...

, finally reali7ed that you donKt care aout me

, "onder if , had died "ould you had cared

1nd thatKs a scary thought to ehold...



;o(e an% 'es(a#r

1re the in and ang

ighting for dominance

,n me.

6ife and ;eaths

Minions lead the

Charge in an endless

9ar "hich continues from

The day , "as orn.

This is "hat it feels li(e

or this girl.

My 9ildness is contained,nside of my Mind- Body and

!oul.

6ogic and aith meld together

,n my mind creating images

That are 6i+ely and Beautiful ut also

;eadly and ;estructi+e.


or this girl.

The thirst for ad+enture and

;anger runs through my +eins

Deality holds me ac( and ,m

6eft to Guench it in my imagination.



6o+e and Hate feud itterly

1s , "al( through my daily

Mundane routine- "ondering

9here the location of the field is

9here my na(ed and "ea( ody

Desides in a liGuid*filled +essel

1"aiting rescue from the Neb'chane66ar ...


or this girl.

Constantly my !elf*;estructi+e

4ature attac(s my Creati+e !elf

6i(e the mighty armies of

!parta and ;ahomey.

,ts +enom stings as it gra+ely sings

1 allad of !taind5

78't .9m on the o'tsie, .9m looing in

. can see thro'gh yo', see yo'r tr'e colors

9Ca'se insie yo'9re 'gly, yo'9re 'gly lie me

. can see thro'gh yo', see to the real yo';

This is "hat it feels li(eor this girl.

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>us#n/s o a B$er%



. wrote this in "##" an *ro'ly rea it o't lo' in creative writing class where my

classmates res*one with snicers an rolle eyes.4ll never grow '*< Blossom- Bules- and Buttercup

Theyre superheroes you (no"

,n their edroom theres a phone that they ans"er,ts their hotline that connects them to the mayor

9hene+er theres troule they fly right out the "indo" They can fly and ha+e laser eyes that urn through anythingThey run real fast- VroomA They tear up the streetA

They fight the ad guys- 9ham- Baam- !lamAThe ad guys peel off the "alls- falling- falling- falling-

1ll the "ay do"n- and !platA They hit the groundMy friends "on the fight of course

4o" they can come and play 9hen its se+en ocloc(- professor calls them insideThey "a+e as they />oodnight- 6illy. !ee you

Tomorro" at school.0 1nd so they did "hat they do e+ery nightThey sa+ed the "orld efore edtime

Thun%er ru*b$es

!(ies turn into

Blac(est nightClear darts fall

rom the s(y

!troe lights

lic(er

The goddess

,s here.



>o)#n/ ree$y (ast the .$ou%s, her

Curly ro"n hair s"ays as her

9hile ang constantly hits her face

1n irresistile southern elle-

Her s(in holds her dar( secret

9ith one touch- ne" memories-

Thoughts- and sometimes po"ers

Enter her mind and ody.

Though a lo+er she has

!he "ill ne+er hold him

This urden she carries

1s she flies- her ody

lo"ing freely "ith the "ind.

BA>4

The smell of rimstone fills the air.

The smo(e clears...

8ut of the shado"s- he appears.

Elf*li(e ears- curly indigo hair-

ello" eyes- hind legs- and pointy tail.

His appearance to some is Guite de+ilish-But they dont (no"5

The (indness he shares-

The laughter he rings-

1nd the interest he launches.



They dont (no" hes

1n angel in disguise.

n the ay to ork you $au/h at *e be.ause I@* ear#n/ a /oth#. %ress+++

ou donKt understand "hy , lo+e roc( n roll ut itKs totally fine for e+eryone to lo+e hip*

hop...

ou donKt get "hy , en)oy comics and anime and not The Classic...

*ET*

,K+e een called a KniggerK

=ust li(e you.

S.#en.e:

,s a =ec(yl and Hyde

!u)ect

>y u$$ #st

1s , egin my )ourney into mystery- , find a deadpool of 7omies

Criminals cra+ing to de+our the punisher if their souls.

Mo+ing on- , end up in the middle of a fight et"een a teenage mutant nin)a turtle

"hose stri(ing "ith his o" at a Bat"ing.

inally , end up ac( in ;ahomey training amongst the 1ma7ons and , meet a real

9onder 9oman.

Ne.ro.a$#a:They say that death is only the eginning**

**They ha+e no idea.

**,t is the truth.

,ts an endless nightmare**

,ts an endless hunger**

**,+e een surrounded y it for so long.



,t feels num and cold.**

,t feels li+ely and "arm.**

**=ust li(e space.

;eath**

**4e+er ends.

**9ill end.

No atta.h*ents+

Thats "hat the =edi say

1nd no" , see "hy

9hen you ma(e attachments

ou create emotions

9hen you create emotions

They cloud your )udgement

9hen they cloud your

)udgement

ou ma(e decisions ased

on your emotions

9hen you ma(e decisions

ased on your emotions

ou ma(e ad ones

9hen you ma(e ad decisions

ou ecome 1na(in !(y"al(er

9hen you ecome 1na(in !(y"al(er

ou fall to the dar( side of the force

9hen you fall to the dar( side of the force

9hen you fall to the dar( side of the force

ou get your ass soundly

:ic(ed y your master

9hen you get your ass soundly

:ic(ed y your master

ou ecome ;arth Vader

9hen you ecome ;arth Vader ou get to use force lightning and force cho(e

To epress your frustrations

9hich isnt half ad

1fter you+e done all of that

ou get reminded y a 6u(e !(y"al(er

That theres still good out there



9hen you get reminded y !(y"al(er

1out all the good out there

ou destroy the Emperor

9hen you destroy the Emperor

ou come ac( to the light side of

The force

9hen you come ac( to

The light side of the force

The "hole damn cycle starts all o+er again.

1nd thats "hy

ou shouldnt ma(e

1ttachments.

#e an% %eath.

1 hungry ghost and

1 ree !pirit...

Thats "here my imagination

Ta(es me.

Dainy days and

Thunderous nights



9here danger lur(s in

1n etra shado"...

Thats "here my ,magination

Ta(es Me.

1n orphan on a

!earch to

;isco+er "ho she is and

9here she comes from

1nother orphan in a different

Time and place rought

,nto the "orld through loody

1nd deceitful means...


Ta(es me.

!ame place ut different time

9here a samurai has

something on his mind

1 "oman scorned and

1n apple eaten

Bringing forth a heart of ice.


Ta(es me.

T"o est friends separated

By a fe" states

>ossiping o+er the phone...Thats "here my imagination

Ta(es me.

Deminiscing aout days

>one y riding the

Pulic transportation

!ystem...


Ta(es me.

1 snippet from a future

Post*apocalyptic "orld 9here the undead roam in

T"o e+olutionary states.


Ta(es me these days...

9ont you )oin me on this ne" ad+enture



!e$ebr#ty !rush

I+

1s you sit in your chair-

your piercing lue eyes

stand out amongst the

coming and going

of your cre". , "onder

,f you "ould go on

1 lind date "ith me.

II+

our eautiful smile

1nd laughter placesMe in a trance. our

6aughter- "it and gentleman

1ttire are so attracti+e.

, "ant to get into mischief

9ith you.



III+

our ama7ing singing

Brea(s sound arriers

1s your +oice re+i+es;ead Mans Bones. ,f you

!aid /Hey girl.0 to me-

My ody "ould e on fire.

I+

our ody is li(e a "onderland

, "ould e so happy getting

6ost in it. ou ma(e eing

1 captain too damn easy.

, "ould go "ith you to

The end of the line

1nyday pal.

+

, "ould go "ith you

1ny"here to fight

:ai)us in order to

Cancel the apocalypse

1nd defend 1sgard.

I+

, "as introduced to you

,n Nth grade and y

$#th you had my heart.

,t "ould go on to en)oy 1ll the rilliant performances

That you ha+e gi+en and

Continue to gi+e.

, "ill ne+er let go.

oure o+erdue for



1n 8scar.

II+

;ri+ing through the>eorgia countryside

Crosso" in hand ,

9ould "ant you in my

>roup fighting the dead

1nd fearing the li+ing.

ou can rest your

Head on my oos

1nyday.

III+

9atched you and your

Best friend gro" up together

1nd go from oys to men

Meeting the "orld.

oull al"ays e one

8f my crushes.

I+

ou+e gone from

>oofy older rother

To the dar( (night

8f the future.

ou+e al"ays

Been Guite sey.

+

, tore pictures of

ou out of BopA



Maga7ine.

The 6ion :ing

9ill al"ays e

8ne of my fa+e films.

, "ill ne+er forget our three letter initials.

I+

The "orld lost t"o of you

To suicide

9hile the other "as murdered.

ou "ere all so gifted "hether it

9as music- TV- or the ig screen., "ish you "ere still here

!o "e could go on a !eaGuest

Through 4ir+ana...

Hail Mary.

II+

9hat can , say

ou do it all.

rom acting

Teaching- "riting-

oure a poetA

8ne "ho is so

!o damn fine.

, find you attracti+e

8n so many le+els.

III+The mouse used his

Magic on me to li(e you.

1nd you al"ays ta(ing off

our shirt didnt help

Either.



I+

oure young-

But you+e got an

8ld soul.Plus you (ic( ass-

, li(e that aout you.

+

8nce a scra"ny nerd

4o" a hot and sey

Man "ho slays "al(ers

1nd ad humans ali(e.

4e+er once ashamed of

His eginnings...

I+

ou seem to e

The strong and silent

Type- yet theres something

More to you than

Being a "inter soldier

II+

, "atched your

Chronicle and

!a" ho" talented

1nd handsome you

1re you can flame on

My heart any day

III+

1 talented actor from the

Emerald ,sle- you ha+e no

!H1ME aout the ladys s(in color



9hom you date and rightfully soO

, )ust "ish that lady "as me+

I+

=ane said you 9ere hot

1nd y god

!he "as right

ou roc( that

>uitar li(e noodys

Business and , "ant to

6earn more aout

The ;ar( Matter inside ou. ,m proud to

Be a ;.4.1.

+

oure ne" to me

, "atched your

1lmost 1(ira*li(e

Performance

1nd "as in+ited

To that place ehind

The pines.

,m curious as to

9hat life after eth

6oo(s li(e as your

>olin esGue "as

;efiantly creepy...

ou+e got a deep

6o+e that only

our "ife "ill

1l"ays cherish

, "ish you all the est



I+

8n TV youre a

Motor i(er !on of 1narchy

,n real life you still

1ide y the i(e 9hile li+ing in the

Country.

, "ish , could ha+e

ought (ai)u and

!a+e the day

Diding in >*;anger "ith

ou.

II+

The youngest out of a

Trio of hot rothers- youre

The only one "hos funny-

>ot the magic touch- and

Has o+ercome death onscreen.

1fter all- youre one of the

our horsemen.

III+

9hether youre !ith or

=edi- it matters not.

ou+e already defeated

:iller aliens "hen they

1ttac(ed your loc(.

Please grace me "ith

our presence sometime-

,n fact

16689 ,T.

I+

!mart- charming- and hot.



ou+e made me ecome an

1nglophile and after "atching

our sho"- ,m asolutely

!ure you (no" ho" to

>et a"ay "ith snatching my heart.

+

9hether youre fighting ecause they

:illed your pup or dealing "ith

Hundreds of copies of 1gent !miths-

ou al"ays ta(e my heart on an ecellent

1d+enture.

I+

9hether youre an angel

!ent to help a pastor elie+e again- or using

our s(ills to eGuali7e the situation-

ou+e got a commanding

Presence on screen

My heart "arms up ecause of you.

II+

T"o hot rothers "ho*"ith their mothers

creati+e spirit*cla"ed their "ay

8ut of the muddy an(s of the Mississippi

To go on and ecome creati+e indi+iduals

Ma(ing ama7ing and eautiful music together.

,m )ust 3# seconds a"ay from falling in lo+e "ith

Both of you.

III+

, met you first as the hairy lue *man-

Then you made my heart

Melt as the undead D.

4o" anytime , hear your +oice



8r see your gorgeous lue eyes

, ha+e a lo+ely- lo+ely dayA

or you are the /Belo+ed 8ne



There #s no bo=+

!(ateoarding

Doc( Music

Comics Boo(s

!urfing

!no"oarding

!"imming

There is no o

ashion

ood

Tra+el

Culture

There is no o

9ho , :no" , 1m

Vs.

9ho ou & !ociety Belie+e Me To Be

There is no damn o

=ust thin(

Belie+e & ;o

THEDE ,! 48 B8

'ra*a

The high intensity

That rings suspense

1nd surprises

!o*e%y



The uling factor

9hich rings hope

1nd youth

;orror

The terrifying su)ect

9hich in+ites fear

1nd death

S.#en.e 4#.t#on

The curious ad+enture

9hich encourages disco+ery

8f ne" "orlds

A.t#on

The high*speed roc(et

9hich launches interests

1nd hea+y reathing

o*an.e

The eating melody

9hich enchants e+erything

1nd ma(es it more eautiful

"nt#t$e% &2





I r#te be.ause

,Km free

,Km free ecause

, stepped out of the o

!tepped out of the o

Because , "asnKt happy

, "asnKt happy ecause

, didnKt (no" "ho , "as

;idnKt (no" ecause , "as lost

, "as lost ecause

, "as in dar(ness

9as in dar(ness ecause

ThatKs ho" life "as ac( then

But no" ,Km in the light...

1nd , "rite ecause...

eo($e@s .on)ersat#ons

1t times ma(e no

!ense to me ut

Their actions

, understand

T#*e $os on

1s people stop

;oing things.

They slo"ly rot a"ay

Until they lay

1s corpses "hile

Time flo"s on

-ee(#n/ *y hea% u(

My dreams ali+e, "onder "hy am

, still douting

time...

>oing round and

round in circles

"ondering "hen



this chase "ill

end...

1niety mounts

Pressure eplodes

Bules urst

1s the 1cid

Dain falls

;o"n...

1nd then ,

Enter the day

;ream ne+er

9anting to

lea+e...

But something

1l"ays interrupts

1nd , come

Bac( to the

;aily chaos

8f life ne+er

9anting to

!tay...

1s "orlds continue

To crash into mine

, try to sort outThe senseless from

The ones that do and

Then try to eplore

The senseless and

Ma(e sense out of

Them.



!ake% %#rt #n/erna#$s

!ho+el

Blood s"eat and tears

1ll for nothing...

Noth#n/ness+++

leeing from the

Bad dreams and the

Boogey man as you

9ait for the light to

Come...

I say th#n/s but

People donKt hear

Them

, do things and

People see them

A$$ n#/ht!tars are right

9e are one tonightA



Wat.h#n/

9ondering

6istening

,gnoring

8ser+ing

Concentrating

Pondering

Thin(ing...

These are things that , do.

Wat.hes an% T#*e(#e.es

1l"ays reminding me

9ith the tic(*toc(

That the days are

Becoming shorter

The hours- minutes-

1nd seconds

>oing y sooner

The Earth spinning

aster

Until time comes

To an end and the 9orld stops and

Eists no more



#)#n/ #sn@t breath#n/

,tKs finding your "ay

Through chaos

,tKs o+ercoming destruction

1nd leaping o+er

Those "ho "ant you to fail..

,tKs dro"ning the failures

9hile ringing dreams to

The surface...

6i+ing isnKt )ust reathing

,tKs find your

9ay through chaos

;ot %ays *ake one

!leepy and drift

8ff to dreamland

To en)oy a life

That one "ishes

They had or "ants

To ha+e.

!ount#n/ %on

The days to

9hen one can

Be ree from

The loridian "ays

That imprison them

Sha%osTell the

True stories

8f "hat

Each person

,s concealing

,n their hearts



1nd minds

#e .o*es

1nd (noc(s

ou out of

our comfort 7one

1nd then )ust "hen you

Thin( youK+e learned

!omething

,t (noc(s you out again

There5s a$ays a .ho#.e

But theres hardly any

Peace of mind

$a.#n/ ho(e

,n one "hos

T"o*faced is a

ools errand As I s#t an% (on%er on th#n/s

That donKt ma(e sense to me

6ife comes to a standstill

1s e+erything and e+eryone

Come and go in slo" motion

1round me

1nd then , "onder if

,Kll e+er ma(e sense out

8f the senseless things

That life hurls at me 1li+e yet not dead

;ead yet not ali+e

Caught in et"een t"o "orlds

1m ,

;ay after day , go aout my

Earthly routine



Clearly unhappy...

9hat does it

Mean

, am ali+e

But no one cares

, "ish , "as dead

But no one "ould

Miss Me

, thought , had purpose

et , "as fooled

,n friendship , dont gain

, lose

1 time

To e othered "ith me

They pic( and choose.

,m destined to e alone

, see that no"

9hoe+er said

That it "as etter to

Ha+e lo+ed and lost

Then ne+er to ha+e

6o+ed at all

6ied

Ho" easy and nai+e it is

To trust,n the end your hearts

laid out to rust-

1 million plus tears

ou ha+e cried.

8h yeah they

;id sinisterly lie.

,m not ali+e

,m not dead

,nstead

, am an Earthound spirit 9hom friendship and lo+e

9ont inherit.

, "ont crosso+er )ust yet

Because that little sli+er of hope

,n my heart

Has me in a et



To pro+e me "rong

To tell me that it "as right

1ll along.

9hat does it mean

That , am

Clearly hopeful and unhappy

1s , go aout my daily

Earthly routine

, am

Caught in et"een t"o "orlds

1li+e yet not dead

;ead yet not ali+e...

,s it a lie



ur (arents

Encouraged us

!aid "e could e

1nything that "e

9anted to e

9e (ept that in our

Minds and hearts

1s "e gre"

9e spread it to

8ur o"n younglings

More accepting tolerant

1nd lo+ing

9e+e mastered the

,nternet

9e+e captured pop culture

,n the palms of our

Hands

6i(e generations of the

Past "e+e had our

!hare of the good- the ad-

The ugly and the horrile

Though "e+e een

:noc(ed do"n in our

8"n +arious "ays

9hene+er "e fall

9e+e al"ays got an

1lfred "ho tells us that

9e pic( oursel+es up

The torch has een passed

;o"n to us from Vash the !tampede

To continue the fight of

6o+e and peace for

Man(ind

Though it al"ays



>ets dar( efore

The da"n

The future is the

Brightest e+er

9ith great

Epectations

Here "e are

>eneration

The Millennials



The ($a.e that

9e find oursel+es

,n is usually the

Place "here ideas

1re orn

'on5t ask *e to

Eplain lo+e its

Best defined

Through actions

Too ad not many

Understand it

Ne)er *#n% the

9ords , spo(e...

4e+er mind the

1ffection , ga+e...

4e+er mind the

Person , appear

To e...

,m really trapped

1nd loc(ed up

,nside...



In *ourn#n/

or the soldiers

9ho had

;ied and gone

8n

,n mourning

or good

Causes that

Ha+e een (illed

,n mourning

or my cousin

9ho hanged

Himself in

March

So .onsu*e%

9ith the little

;etails...

1l"ays eing

Pic(y aout the

Minor fla"s...

Co+ering up

The natural

Beauty "ith

1 mas(...,ts a shame

Truth

Can help and hurt

But in the end

,t is a source

or understanding

eo($e are $#ke $oers!ome stin(

!ome smell eautiful ut are dangerous

!ome are ugly on the outside ut ha+e

1n important role

!ome are missing a part of themsel+es

9hile others ha+e a painful sting



!han/e

!ometimes it can e for the etter

But often it ends up ma(ing things

More chaotic than efore

*ot#ons

De+eal truth

9hile rational

Thin(ing re+eal

,llusions

;a((y %ays

1re fore+er

,mprinted in memory

9hile ad days

Come and go

W#nter

Brings hugs and "armth

!ummerBrings hugs and coolness

Sno

Thats the est (ind of "eather

or me

Dainy days

1re the est (ind of days for

,nspiration

ull moons are the est

:ind of moons

1prilsThe est (ind of month

or fun

As he s#ts there on the $oor

,mages of his lo+e appear



1nd he "onders "hen "ill

!he gets ac( to earth

To see him.

There .ou$% be (ea.e

,ts not impossile

But no one "ants

To stop the hate

Theyre greedy for

Po"er



Say th#s

!ay that

Be this

;o that

Change this

,gnore that

1re you (idding me

o)e #s a$ays sear.h#n/

or a roof to nest

But the e+ils of

6ife dri+e it a"ay

What .an I %o

But sit here

1nd d"ell on

The positi+e other"ise

The negati+e

9ill lead me

To"ards chaos

An u/$y .reature

9ith a eautiful

Heart stands

8n the line et"een

Chaos and peace

#e.es o the #/sa (u??$e

1re spread out the floor...!hards of the )e"el

1re scattered through

The s(y...

These are the pieces of

Her life that she forgot

Ho" to put together



'#% anyone

Help you

9hen you cried

8ut

8r did they

6et you sin(

To the ottom

8f the ocean of pain

'#)e

,nto the "aters of

Peace

Thats "here , "ant to

Be

>onsters are

Created e+eryday

By people "ho

Teach hate Why .an5t you $ea)e *e

1lone

ou ma(e the pain

Come ac(

eo($e h#%e the#r $o)e

But epress their hate

1ll the time

There are t#*es

9hen "e feel

=aded and

9ant to die



-no$e%/e

Can e found as

6ong as one

,s curious



The (r#%eu$ an% the oo$#sh

1mong us are the leaders

9hile the "ise and the

Courageous are not

4o "onder the "orld is in turmoil

To $o)es

Cant choose

8nes from the past

The others from the future

Both resemle the other

#e, $o)e, an% %eath

1ll go together

6ife rings lo+e

6o+e rings life

;eath rings ne" lo+e

1nd ne" life

6ife and lo+e oth

End in death



S#$en.e+

Thats all she heard

1s the +ase dashed onto

The floor

Eyes "ildly loo(ing

1out- hair s"aying

Violently- the "oman

:neels do"n

6oo(ing at the pieces

6aughter erupts from

Her loody mouth

1s she thro"s

The )agged pieces

E+ery"here...

4e+er again

9ill she e ro(en



;ot #n%y %ays

1re the est time

To come outside

!it y the pool

9hile holding

1 drin( in your hand

1nd chilling "ith

our friends...

,ts also "here

Pools of lood

1re uilt and

Endless screams

1re heard in the

4ight.

eah its

=ust another

!cary mo+ie

!cenario "aiting

To happen.

<ro//y an% u$$8f ehaustion

They enter

;reamland

8ne y one

1nd they

9a(e no more

;e s#ts #n the bree?e

1s the sun shines do"n et he doesnt feel a thing

He calmly grips the soda

,n his hand holding onto

;ear life- his eyes "ide open

4e+er lin(

His reathings gone



4o mo+ement at all

8ne "onders if hes

;ead or )ust +ie"ing

1nother "orld as he

!its in the ree7e as

The moon shines do"n

Cust $#sten

To the "ind

=ust loo(

1round you

=ust hear

The +oices "ithin

Then follo" your dreams

An.#ent %ays

Teach lessons

That goes unlearned

Until tragedy

!tri(es

o)e an% (ass#on

>o hand in hand

9hen a storm

Brea(s they

Cannot e

!eparated

They %#e% years a/oBut their cries are

!till heard

Their odies are uried

,n massi+e piles in the

Earth

Their descendants li+e



8n ut they are

!till persecuted

Beauty

,s such a east

4e+er s(in deep

8r on the outside

1l"ays loo(ing for

1 "ay out in order to

Be free and spread



Nohere on earth

Can there e found

!uch as person as

ourself

To %e#ne beauty #s

6i(e trying to hide an

Elephant ehind a

!mall ush

Ins#%e o the o.ean

1 continuous stream

Dolls on

1s the earth surrounds

The "aters

The ay o a (erson

,s so complicated

That it "ill remain

1 mystery

#)#% #*a/es

Cross her mind

1s she sits and

Contemplates

Her destiny

Duarre$s

Happen 2%QRPeace happens

Hardly e+er...

!houldnt it e

The other "ay

1round



To*orro #$$ .o*e

1nd today "ill e o+er

Their ne" li+es "ill

End soon

S.are% but .oura/eous

Cra7y ut steadfast

,ts nothing he cant

handle

Wat.h yourse$

1s you enter their

9orld

Theyre "aiting for

9hen you fall and

Then theyll

Eat you ali+e

=(ress#on:

Ho" do you use it

;o you (eep it inside

or chaotic results

8r do you let it out

To enlighten

W#n% b$os

Carrying the

Paper through

The hori7on

Deaching the "indo"

8f a poor man



9ishing for a etter life

4oticing the paper

He pic(s it up and

!urprise and ecitement

8+ercomes him for the

Paper has )ust made his

;ream come true

What

;oes my appearance not fit the norms

9hy

;o you "ant me to change

9hen

9as it o(ay not to e myself

9ho;ecides "hats eautiful

9here

Can , go in order to fit in

Ho"

Can they )udge

!an5t sto( *e no

,m so close 9hen , ma(e it

Theyll apologi7e

Too ad- they "ont

En)oy my success



No *an5s $an%

,s paradise

or creati+ity

9hile ci+ili7ation

,s paradise

or uncontrolled

;estruction

I /rab *y (en

1nd egin to "rite and

ight

or those "ho thin(

8utside the o

1nd get critici7ed for it

or the ones "ho spea(

8ut against the in)ustices

,n the "orld and ecome

Pulic enemy numer one

or my people and culture

9ho ha+e suffered for!o long ut continue to

!ur+i+e and stay strong

inally for those "ho

Eat- sleep- and reathe

Creati+ity

ou "ont e

orgotten

our fight "ont e,n +ain



<o ahea%

1nd try to

,ntimidate me. oull only succeed

,n ma(ing a fool of

ourself

S.ary #sn5t #t

9hen society

Tells you that youre

4ot good enough.;ont "orry- theyll

Be gro+eling at your

eet soon enough.

>#ss#n/:

, cant find my heart

Perhaps you+e seen

,t fluttering some"hereTrying to find my ody

Hopefully my true lo+e

9ill capture my heart

Before someone else

;oes

Why are you try#n/ to te$$ *e

That e+erything is fine

ou (eep on elie+ing "hat

ou "ant ut "e oth (no"

oure lying



Why ha)en5t you oun% *e

1re you still out there

6oo(ing

8r ha+e you gi+en up

:eep searching dont gi+e

Up hope

9ell find each other

Tou/h

Thats "hat you appear

To e though in reality

oure a co"ard

'r#t#n/ o #nto s(a.e

Turning out the comments

Eyes closing and mouth

8pening you start to drool

No one kne h#*

Until he "as gone

He "as in+isile

9hen he "as there

4o" a ghost- he finally

has their attention

The stor* a((roa.hes

Consuming their souls

Burning their odies

1nd stripping them



8f their dignity

Bore% out o your *#n%

9aiting for it to e o+er

Hoping and praying

or a miracle to stop

The lecturing

'are to %rea*

;are to thin(

;are to spea(

1out your life

I one /oes throu/h $#e

9ithout e+er eing made

un of they are not

UniGue

For 1orothy

#tt$e s#s

,ll e there for you

6ittle sis

oure eautiful and smart too

6il sis

Be encouraged and spea( up

6il sis

oure etter than good luc(

6il sis

, lo+e you more than you (no"

6il sis>od lo+es you more though

When th#n/s /et you %on

Theres al"ays surge to

>et you up



A/e %oesn5t re)ea$

Ho" mature one is

9isdom does

eo($e ear

9hile one person

Understands

4u$$ *oons are theBest (inds of moons

The light cuts through

The dar(ness

Stress k#$$s

Delaation heals

4#n%#n/ onese$ #s a ourney

1ll must ta(e in order to

ind the truth aout

9ho "e really are

!$osure en%s a ourney

9hile curiosity egins

1 ne" one

eo($e a$ays ant to be

6i(e other people "hen in

Deality theyre afraid to e



Themsel+es

The Eu#et ones

Theyre the (ind you need

To find in life

They ha+e a lot to say

1nd do

Theyre more outspo(en

Than you thin(

au/hter

8pens the mind

rees the soul

1nd lets ideas

8ut

;e s#ts outs#%e 9aiting for a ca

,ts 3NS

But his "hole ody

,s hot urning "ith

Purpose

Be#n/ *yse$

9hat does that mean;o , let my true nature out

8r do , hide ehind a mas(

1nd pretend that e+erything

,s alright

No one sa#%



That life "as

Easy ut then

1gain neither is

Being dead

A$$ they %o

,s sit at their

;es(s and

;ictate "hats "rong

,n my life "hile their

8"n is getting closer

To destruction

Inte$$#/ent (eo($e

1re the ones

9ho often end up

6oc(ed a"ay from the

Dest of society

So*e %oors o(en

9hile others close

!ome things die

9hile others are orn

Thats ho" periods

,n my life are

Ne be/#nn#n/s

Thats "hat , seeThings that are full

8f life- hope- and

Happiness



The youn/ an% the rest$ess

Usually end up eing the

Elderly and the "ise

The old and the foolish

8ften ecome the hypocrites

1nd sur+i+e as the "ise

;ie efore their time

The *e$o%y

lo"s freely

Through the

!(y as the "oman

!its on a ench

Deminiscing aout

The good times

9hen the music

!po(e for itself

Not asha*e%

8f "ho , am

;ont care "hat

ou thin(

9ill continue

To stun and

1ma7e you

Cant stop

Me no"

Cant stopMe e+er

Beauty .annot be %e#ne%

,t doesnt lie in the eye of



The eholder

,t is not outer appearance

8r stature

,t is among the caring- the

9ise- and humle.

>o)e an% %ey

The social gra+ity

That ounds your soul

:ic( up the dirt

1nd contro+ersy

!pread the good ne"s

To the "orld

o.s

Perms*curly or straight

Braids

9aterfalls

Bantu (nots

arn raids

T"ists 1fros

1nd more

,ts all good

1nd it elongs to us

1nd 48B8; else

Touch it- you ;,E

There5s so *u.h

To do

>o

!ay

:no"

!mile aout



6augh aout

Be angry aout

,ts interesting "hat can happen here.



'ark .$ou%s

Mo+e a"ay

De+ealing

The sunlight

1nd happiness

That , ne+er (ne"

9as there

The sun r#ses an% sets

9hat goes up al"ays comes do"n

1fter fall comes "inter

These are the order of things

But her life ne+er has a set order

There are al"ays t"ists and turns

Bumps and "alls to clim and

1lternati+e routes

et she al"ays remains set

8n reaching her goals



4e*#n#st >e:

Belie+es that "omen and men are eGual

That "ere human eings and should e treated

1s such

Belie+es that a "oman

Can ta(e or not ta(e her husands name

Can gyrate on stage- in the clu- mosh and dance any "ay she sees fit

Can e a mother or not

Can go to "or( or stay at home or "or( from home

!hould recei+e eGual pay

Can dress any"ay she pleases*short s(irt- long s(irt it dont matter

14; 48T BE B61ME; 8D ,T

!hould e ale to "al( do"n the street in peace "ithout eing harassed

;oes not reGuire her education ac(ground to +ouch that shes a feminist

,s not reGuired to suscrie to others rigid +ie" of feminist should e.

,

1m a 9oman of Color

,

1m a Blac( 9oman

,

1 eminist

;ear *e roar



I a* .$ass#.a$$y beaut#u$ *e

, am creati+ely free

, "ill not ecome "hat society has

Predestined for me

, rise ao+e the hate to succeed

Breathing under trouled "aters

!oaring through stormy s(ies

,n order to reach the secret location

9here all of my dreams lie

, am someodys daughter

,m lac( and ,m proud

, "ont elong to any

Part of the in cro"d

Both a nerd and a gee(

Deading multiple oo(s

To asor the information

9hich , see(

1 feminist "hos not here

or your +ersion that is

Dacist and +enomous

1 =e" of Color

1n intelligent "oman

9ho "ill ecome a

!cholar

, choose to egin my )ourney

8n less tra+eled paths

This is M story that

!ociety "ill not dismiss4or appropriate

6ess it feels my

9rath

, "holeheartedly re)ect

!ocietys self*appointed fates



1nd fully emrace the truth

That it is completely mine

To ma(e

I A> "TSI' T; B



n.e a/a#n a .ha(ter has .o*e

To a close

But the story is not

inished



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