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FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 29, 2006

I would take you around the world but..I wish I could just run into you at Village Inn and hang out and have dinner and chat.

I wish I would run into you at Barnes & Noble and talk about books that we both like.

I wish I could pick your brain about histories and societies.

I wish I could sit and talk about philosophy and religion.

I wish that I could tell you my favorite joke.

A LOT.

it's tuesdayand I love your eyes. I love that you don't give up on me. I love that you still talk to me even

though half the time I don't understand. :-)

MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 25, 2006

Coloring My WorldI was thinking today and I realized that you add color to my life. It wasn't that I wasn't okay before

you, you just made it better.

And, when you go, it will be like going back to black and white. It isn't bad... it just isn't as good.

And I will wonder how I ever was able to view such a drab place with such utter contentment.

Although, one does wonder how I am able to claim contentment now when all I really do is get to

watch (and be amazed by) you.

I was thinking today, watching everyone around you, how many other people love you, too? And,

I was fleetingly jealous. I must confess.

I think that ... well, regardless. I do so adore you.

SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 24, 2006

If I could give you moreDearest -

So, I was thinking of you today and realized how much you sacrifice and it made me love you

more. Amazing how that happens, don't you think?

There is this song by Harry Connick, Jr., and it's mellow and random but when I think of you that

is the song that goes through my head...

See that you are sainted

Remain true and pure


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So that you never get lost

No matter what you may endure

If I could give you more

I'd hand the world a phrase

That could not be erasedAnd tells of a love that's never been before

Oh, I will give you more

well, okay - that song and the one from "Guys and Dolls," "More I Cannot Wish You," which is just

as ridiculous and appropriate -

Velvet I can wish you

For the collar of your coat

and fortune smiling all along your way

but more I can not wish you

than to wish you find your love

your own true love this day

I would definitely send you everything you needed and everything you wanted.

So, instead, and foolishly, I'll just write here.

SUNDAY, OCTOBER 08, 2006

before the snowwe only have a few weeks until the snow flies and i hope that you and your boys have plans and

that you'll enjoy the last few days of summer time before we bypass fall completely and start to

play in the snow.

i so wish I could just tell you these things myself.

FRIDAY, OCTOBER 06, 2006

your laughUsually I hear you laughing - and it's silent and it lights up your eyes and your smile is so

gorgeous

but today,

oh, today

today I heard you laugh and it was

an explosion of laughter

and I loved it.

and it made me laugh

and i was glad to hear it.


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you're phenomenal.SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 25, 2006

troubleyou are trouble - big, huge, awesome trouble.

and you're stuck in my brain.

i wish i could kick you out - but there are reminders

ALL over the place.

i see the a license plate like yours

or a car like yours

or a hand like yours

or hear a laugh like yours

or a smile like yours

or i'm downtown

or across town

i hope your thanksgiving was good - i hope it was better than good

i hope you went to the game; i hope you had fun

did you put up a tree?

will you put up a tree?

does Santa still come to your home?

I hope so.

i hope... i hope.. i hope.

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 27, 2006

Betwixt Christmas and New YearsHey,

I was thinking of you today and realizing just how incredibly stupid I am.

I want to run things by you and just talk to see how you are and I missyou!

Valentine's Day is going to be hell, isn't it?

Love,

me


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SATURDAY, DECEMBER 23, 2006

I miss you

do you miss me?

do i even cross your mind?

what are you doing?

are you happy?

are you busy?

are you excited for the holidays?

i wish i could call -

i wish i could bake you cookies

i wish i could pop popcorn and watch old movies with you

i wish i could hold your hand as we walked around the old market

i wish i could decorate a tree with you

i wish i could sit next to you at church

.... will you be there tomorrow?

i hope so.

i so so so so so hope that you will be there

you haven't been there recently

more honest to say

you have never been there at all

maybe i was wrong

i probably was

oh well

you haven't been there recently

and i hope that tomorrow you will be

it is christmas eve

maybe you will be there with the the lower casesthat would make my whole holiday

i hope you are busy, excited for the holidays

that you are busy and

hanging out with your friends and family

but i also hope that i cross your mind


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and maybe you think of me,

sometimes.

merry christmas

MONDAY, JANUARY 29, 2007

I missed youI missed you.

A lot.

And I know that I probably shouldn't, but I did and I do and I love you.

I love your laugh and your smile and your smirk.

I am so glad that you are here and I am so glad that I get to love you -

even if you don't know.


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exuberant enthusiastic clever gregacious encouraging nurturing

hilarious talented active neighborly

SATURDAY, JANUARY 13, 2007

You have a freckle in your right ear that I love

and I love that when you are slacking off

you talk in txt spch on your sidekick--

god you're great,

i hope i see you tomorrow

SATURDAY, JANUARY 06, 2007

32 . 5 H O U R SI'm so excited~

12 - 8 I'll be asleep

9-10:15 Before Church

10:15 - 12:30 Sunday School

12:30-1 Driving across town

1-4:30 Church

4:30 - 8:00 getting ready

8:00 - 10:00 playing

10:00 - 6 am sleeping

6 - 8 getting ready, going - on my way!

8:30 --- I'll get to see you!!!

24 + 8 = 32 + .5 = 32.5 yay!

whew, just needed to get that out of me.

WEDNESDAY, JANUARY 03, 2007

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without

complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way.

I was driving down the street today and felt your hand on my back- Could you do that again?


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MONDAY, JANUARY 01, 2007

I'd like to clarifyI am obviously biased in my love for you, insanely so; I would confess it to whomever asked me

directly. But, since no one has asked, it just sits in my heart and is protected there.

* * * * * * * *

In regards to our conversation yesterday I have a couple things I wanted to add:

"Really? It's nice. Did you want me to stop by with a movie and pizza, we could all hang out.

Because I'm not all that sure about my own plans for the evening."

and later, I would have told you

* * * * * * * *

"I'm really sorry. I was under the apparently wrong impression that you were active and they knew

you. I'm glad you weren't there because that would have made for some interesting, and sadly

wrong, conclusions. ............. It would have been nice to see you, though."

* * * * * * * * *

While I was there your name did come up (which is when I realized that I was erroneous in my

assumption of your ...er, faithfulness?) and while she wasn't rude or mean, I think that she was

wrong.

AND, on top of the fact that she was wrong --- how would she know enough to make the

assumption? I don't think she realizes that you change your vernacular to fit who you are

speaking with; she watches you talk to others and doesn't realize that you base your language off

of the other person's skill.

((I still maintain you're a freaking genius.))

But, suddenly, I was glad you weren't there, even if it was only to protect you in my mind.

Snow, Church and you knowWow -

I've been gone so long and I've missedyou!

I love seeing you and it's been killing me;

I do hope that you can forgive me my ...

................... youth? - I've been coming when I

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your smile

and your eyes

and your draw...

your like a magnet

i love

that you

smile

laugh

tease

joke

teach

learn with me

with us

.

soak in the world around you

I can't wait for tomorrow.

WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 14, 2007

You are killing me.

Hello again, hello

(HELLO, HELLO)

Just called to say hello(CALL-YOU TELL-YOU HELLO)

I couldn't sleep at all tonight

(NOW TONIGHT ALL-NIGHT SLEEP CAN'T CAN'T)

And I know it's late

(LATE NIGHT I KNOW)

But I couldn't wait

(WAIT++ CAN'T)

A little Ozzy, anyone?All these tears I cry.........Don't you wonder whyIs it all a dream (Never what it seems)Gets under my skin, Should I let you in?Don't you think it's bad yo give me something that I never had?

Every word I say.....Everytime I pray


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.......... Look into my eyes

.....Distant voices cryIs there light in me..........Tell me what you seeYou are what I have

.......... Can't get something that I never hadCan't get something that I never had

Should I think about tomorrow ohh.....Should I live for just todayTake the light that burns inside you......................... Let it burn away...............Let it burn awayLet it burn away

Will I see the dayWill I have to payWhat's inside of meYou will never seeWon't you let me inDon't you let me seeDo you think I'm badCause I want something that I never hadCause I want something that I never had

Give me something that I never had

collegeI wish that I had gone to college with you.

I would have loved to have been a peer -

adding to comments, having inside jokes.

We have them now, yeah, but, it's not the same.

I'm jealous of those that wasted their time not getting to know you

or not treating you the way they should have.

How could they have looked into your eyes and not seen you?

............................. I am amazed.

THURSDAY, MARCH 15, 2007


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this week and nextthe past week did nothing but emphasize how much I love you -

I don't know how

or why

because

heaven knows

I'll never be

the right one

or

good enough

and

really

but now I've got a whole week and I'll miss you!!

THURSDAY, MARCH 08, 2007

MondayYou're funny and you're smart and you're wise and you're patient

and how the heck did I get lucky enough to get to know you?

wow.

MONDAY, MARCH 05, 2007

Speechless

You know -

...........I see you I see you I see you

.............................................and I LOVE you.

SUNDAY, MARCH 04, 2007

how did I get *that* lucky?

Thank youthank you

for today.

for staying to play-

i know you were busy

with lots of things to do -


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but thank you

thank you

for your stories

and your smiles

and your laughter

wow. you. are. amazing.

SATURDAY, MARCH 03, 2007

hey

Hey,

I missed you yesterday. A lot. But, with the weather, I am glad that you stayed in wtb.

You know, I love you. I love you. I love you.

and I shouldn't.

I am hoping and waiting that someone out there finally recognizes how wonderful

and smart

and funny

and witty

and clever

you are and snatches you up so I can finally put my heart to rest concerning you.

Please, please, please. This is my wish.

MONDAY, APRIL 30, 2007

by the wayyour son invited me to come and play and it took everything in me to say, "wow, sweetie, I'd love

to but i can't." .... and I'm sorry your mom is a crackhead.

Hey! i didn't realize how trite "looking into my own soul" was... i'll need to come up with somethingdifferent.

i wish i had the guts to write about my fantasies with you. whew.


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3 daysit was only three days ago that i posted and already i feel the need to just reiterate how much i

adore you.

i do want to say though, that when i see e- i think that, hopefully, i can get over you.

simply because i love you too much not to.

FRIDAY, APRIL 27, 2007

Hey, Deafie, I *still* love you.They didn't have you where I come from

Never knew the best was yet to come

Sometimes, I look at you and think, "Thank God, if only for a little while I'll get to have you here

with me." And, other times, I cry because it's only for a little while that I'll get to be here with you.

Life began when I saw your face

And I hear your laugh like a serenade

You laughed today, you yelled today; You made my day today. I love that everyday you give me

something to look forward to.

How long do you want to be loved

Is forever enough, is forever enough


Is forever enough

Cause I'm never, never giving you up

Things that I could never tell you.

I slip in bed when you're asleep

To hold you close and feel your breath on me

I would give anything for one night with you. It would be perfect; because it would be just ...

normal. I would come home; make dinner. We would sit and talk and talk and talk; maybe watch a

movie, maybe go for walk, maybe play with the boys, maybe play a game, maybe just sit and

read... whatever, it does not matter. Then we'd get ready for bed and it would be nothing ... we'd

laugh and probably tease each other. We'd say our prayers and cuddle up together. And I could

hold you close while you slept. And just for a little while you could be mine.

Tomorrow there'll be so much to do

So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

We have the crazy life that we lead, and how on earth I ever got to collide into your world, how I

love it!, together we've rushed and rushed and have had deadlines and commitments and

craziness -- but we've never just been together. Without the roles we each must keep.


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One time Calvin said to Hobbes, "If we're in each other's dreams we can be together all the

time."and sometimes ... there you are.


Is forever enough

Cause I'm never, never giving you up

I guess it's true that you'll always be in my heart, a little bit, anyway.

As you wander through this troubled world

In search of all things beautiful

I know that you seek humor and beauty and laughter... I know that someone is out

there for you. I know that you deserve her with all of my heart. I pray that you find her.

You can close your eyes when you're miles away

And see my hands like a serenade

I know that you take pride in your Deafness; hell, I take pride in your Deafness ... it's you. How

could I not? I just wish that you wouldn't always wear it like a damn shield; it's okay for some to

NOT be Deaf, you know.

Do you see in my eyes that I love you; when I watch you can you see my rose colored filter?

When Im there do you see me strive to meet your standard when there is no chance? (yet)

When Im there do you see that everything in me is trying to meet you on your level? (soon)

TUESDAY, APRIL 24, 2007

not my normal dayUsually Tuesday is not a day that I particularly love; I really prefer Monday and Wednesday and

Friday, but Tuesdays are growing on me.

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