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Like dominoes I fell for you and you fell for another.

We transferred in together. In the rst weeks of class, I hated you. I was jealous

of you. You were like the sun. Everybody knew you, talked to you, laughed with

you they revolved around you. You gave them laughter with your jokes. Your

!resence shone the room with your bright smile that re"ects the sun#s own rays.

$nd there I was, the awkward loner in the corner, trying to live life day by day

with as little drama as !ossible. I will never be hurt by anybody%everybody

again. &ut you were just too bright. 'y eyes would unconsciously follow you,

while my !u!ils would contract to take in your !resence. You became someone I

would routinely eye. It became a want, then a habit, then a need. You were like

the sun, and I, a sun"ower.

I wanted you in the bluntest way. I wanted your hair, your hands, your heart. I

wanted you the way rain wants to fall, the way !lants want to grow, the way

words want to be read. &ut I was the darker side of the moon and she the

brighter side. $ll you will ever see is her.

You saw me looking at you, and you teased me as you grinned. You would never

truly know how much that smile meant to me. I smiled back. I was about to

tease you back. (hen the lunaa!!eared with her long, smooth black hair and

her soft, slender, !etite body, red !lum! li!s and !osture like )enus. (hen she

smiled and sat down beside you. You were fascinated by her luminescent glow.

*he had all your attention.

I looked down and looked at the window, thinking dee!ly. Should I stop liking

you already?

I looked at you again. You were talking to her. +ust like the sun and moon who

belonged in the same sky. If only I had the divine !ower to make her me. (hen

the sun would fall for me thinking I was the moon that I was not. &ut still I

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thought if I fooled the you I still would not have been satised with your love

because I knew it truly was not for me but for her you chose to love. *he was

the moon, and I the sun"ower who was not worthy to receive it.

(hinking dee!ly, why can#t I be her Why can#t he fall in love with me instead

Why can#t I tell you my feelings (he feelings that would be locked in my heart,

stored there forever, waiting for some celestial !ower to turn me into her. $

moon who shined over everyone beneath the dark sky. $ moon who fascinates

every single !erson who ga-es u!on her. $ moon who you can see even against

the !itch black of the night.

(he class was dismissed.

*he likes me too/0 You grabbed my shoulders and told me that loudly.

You were so ha!!y. Your eyes gleamed like the diamonds in the night sky. Yet I

looked at you with lonely eyes, trying to smile.

Actually, I really like you.1ood for you/0

I just can#t bring myself to say it out loud. &ut I didn#t want it to be awkward

between us. I knew you liked her, you always did. You belonged with each other.

*he was the moon and you, the sun.

You looked at me once, grinned and said thank you.0

You ran away leaving me, ready to ecli!se with the moon. I looked down and I

hadn#t noticed the distance getting further and further, then my eyes followed

you and I wanted you to sto!. &ut as both the sun and moon reached their

-enith, darkness shrouded my world. $nd as the moon covered the sun, the

sun"ower lacked the sunlight it wanted and slowly wilted. I hated myself for not

having been truly honest to you. 2or not telling you what was locked dee!

within me. &ut I was ha!!y and so was the sun"ower, for although she wilted

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away she allowed the sun and moon a ha!!y ending and that was the most

im!ortant thing. 2or you to be ha!!y. Even at the e3!ense of the "ower wilting

because with just a bit of water and sunlight it can once again bloom into a

beautiful "ower. &ut when the sun dies it forever stays a white dwarf until it

fades. You belonged in the a-ure sky and verdant earth. (he hori-on has and

always will be between us anyway.