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Afterword As brought up in the Preface, reviewing astrology has brought ever more perspective to that gained by pulling together these stories. Bits of my own astrology are referenced in that Preface. But in the process of reviewing and digging more deeply into the various systems included in the “Know Thyself” report, I was also sorting further through insights of others’ in my life. Incredible what can be found relative to family dynamics and relationship dynamics of all sorts. The “Know Thyself” report - as reflects my own birth data - is available to all, and has much to reveal. Also provided in that report are referenced resources, which can be accessed by anyone for yet further input. And of course, my birth information is available for anyone to consider through any other resources of interest… I have found very little in birth data related systems that has not well reflected my experiences, and that absolutely includes my challenge areas. The more consideration given to birth data in complexity for an assortment of friends and family and acquaintances, the more I have been awed by the refle ctions of what I have known. While people delude and conceal and even lie, astrology does not. Astrological and other birth data knowledge helps us to recognize painful, unhealed areas…to gain clarity on our vulnerabilities and sensitivities and areas of weakness – as well as our areas of strength…and also, very importantly, to identify where we have allowed social programming to define our sense of self and to confuse us and dominate over our authentic self. By recognizing and accepting, we can work with the challenge areas that we are taking on in this life…uncover stumbling blocks that continue to trip us…to continue our evolution toward our contributions as responsible powerful co-creators. Denial weighs us down incredibly and hinders that which we truly and most deeply want in our hearts. Again and again I’ve been struck with the sense made of my life stories, by finding element after element from astrology – and the ways they weave together. By quickly accessing (mainly) basic Western astrology, and considering some of the descriptions that strike as particularly relevant to the prior stories, you too, perhaps, can recognize some of the basis for dynamics described. Below, I offer such insights on, first, an intimate relationship and myself, and then with family of origin. Excerpts – unless noted otherwise – are from “Astrowin” (by Allen Edwall, which offers free birth chart projection and accompanyi ng report, as available online…and further referenced in my “Know Thyself” report). I did not go into much detail with the relationship that spanned a good deal of time and influence, over the prior decade and a half, but enough so that relevant astrological details can both support shares and flesh out a bit more. I am sharing parts from aspects that particularly reflect my angle and experience in my relationship with “R”. There are plenty of positive aspects that make up his more complete picture, as with us all. Many of those positive aspects are among what I first saw and found attractive in R. As we all know, the challenge areas and incompatible areas can often take some time and particular circumstances to reveal. Parts and pieces from the astrology of “R”: Venus discordant to Uranus (power = 8.65 and this aspect is discordant = -6.49) … tend to fall in and out of love very quickly, having little self-restraint or concern for propriety when your feelings have been stirred. Relationships begin with sudden, electric attraction, but they often end abruptly. You are unique, a bit eccentric and unconventional in your tastes and you don't mind experimenting…You enjoy the thrill of the chase … tend to be faithless in love — your strong suit is not in hanging around for the long haul. You prefer non-traditional relationships, ones that give you plenty of freedom and independence as you do not like to feel tied down. You like playing the field and settling down in a permanent, one-to-one relationship may be asking too much from you. In fact, you may intentionally choose partners who are otherwise unavailable because it helps keep things from getting too close and involved. You don't like strings attached to relationships and you prefer to remain rather detached with it all. There is the possibility of clandestine

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relationships. You have a highly unusual and explosive emotional nature. You are temperamental and change emotionally as easily as the wind changes direction. You are troubled with the emotional ups and downs which you don't understand and you have the tendency to blame whoever is handy for your emotional lows. The crazy emotional tides which you feel are coming from within and they are because your creativity cannot find a decent outward expression. Mars blending with Pluto (power = 6.18 and this aspect is discordant = -1.55) … When you want something, I mean, you really want something and you do whatever it takes to get what you want. Hopefully, you will go about this in the right manner, respecting the wishes and needs of others rather than simply walking over whomever you feel is getting in your way. You are very zealous and almost fanatical when you get an idea into your head…Sometimes in the pursuit of your goals, you lose all objectivity and are completely driven by your desires and your passions. At times like this you let no one stand in your way. You insist on being completely right about everything you say or do. Power fascinates you and most things you do may be because you want more and more control, over things, situations and people. This can make you a real tyrant to be around. Your tendency is not so much to work around things as it is to run over things, especially anything that gets in your way…You can be ruthless and impersonal when it comes to achieving your ambitions and goals in life. … You have the ability to exercise subtle control over others… Jupiter discordant to Neptune (power = 2.69 and this aspect is discordant = -1.34) …may have a distorted sense of the truth. What is in your head might be totally different than what is in reality… Moon in Capricorn … are not comfortable displaying your emotions for all to see and you certainly don't want them to think that you need help and support. You never want to appear emotionally weak. There is a great sense of ambition within you, perhaps because you feel unloved, unwanted or inadequate. You then work very hard because it makes you feel important or needed. You need to feel secure in your own authority. Security needs are what drive you…. You are especially uncomfortable with emotional dependency, and will tell yourself and others (even children) not to be a "baby". You need to accept that no one is self-sufficient all the time, and to be gentler with your "childish" emotional needs and wants. To others, you may appear to be rather hard-nosed and tough, with a business-like attitude toward their personal concerns and feelings. Your feelings and loyalties run deep, but you often do not let people know how much you care…On the negative side, you may be ruthless in your desire for power and success. Selfishness and manipulation are possible… can be quite cold. Sun in Cancer… have a strange way of moving through life in a sideways manner, never approaching life head-on, but always from the side…generally do not tackle anything straight away, but always from the flank. Emotionally…are up one minute and down the next. These mood swings are sometimes difficult for others to understand and deal with… Saturn in Capricorn … On the negative side, prestige and social standing may be extremely important to you and you will be tempted to do whatever you have to do in order to acquire them. Selfishness and a great love and desire for power can also be present Mars in Virgo…Sometimes an unwillingness to take risks or venture from the tried, beaten track can sometimes limit your opportunities. Mars in 4th house… an early striving for independence and a desire for security and a home of your own. There may be tension or antagonism in your family environment. Perhaps you are too demanding of those closest to you. You must overcome your hidden antagonisms and quarrelsomeness. Your strong emotions must be toned down and controlled. Mercury in Cancer….may simply change your mind constantly. Venus in 12th house …love of solitude and being your own best company …Pleasures are enjoyed in secret…clandestine relationships are possible. …You seldom reveal your innermost feelings…

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Moon in 8th house …You desire security…may be subject to jealousy, envy and possessiveness... Sun in 2nd house … A desire for power through personal possessions, talents and money … You must watch a tendency to be possessive of or "lord over" people and things… Among the issues in the mix for R and his life path is premature loss of his father, preceded by years of illness of that father during R’s latter formative years…and very much further exacerbating already difficult financial means of the family. Now, for the other half of the dynamics equation, following are some more parts and pieces from my astrology – selected as reflect the way that I experienced dynamics (again, I more than invite a look at my fuller astrological picture for identification of other angles): Venus discordant to Neptune (power = 9.23 and this aspect is discordant = -6.92) You tend to be what some people call the hopeless romantic… You need to transform your material values into spiritual values and to turn personal desires into universal desires. Personal property and possessions may disappear in strange, mysterious ways in order to teach you that material possessions are easily replaced and therefore are of limited value. The only thing you can take with you when you die are your spiritual and personal growth, your experiences. You need to learn to love without expecting love in return. You must learn to forgive and thus release inner resentments. You need to learn how to turn the other cheek while not becoming a doormat for all to walk on Moon harmonizing with Mars (power = 10.34 and this aspect is harmonious = 7.75) …are assertive and you face your difficulties in a direct, no-nonsense sort of way. You do not brood about your problems, you simply go ahead and try to eliminate them by working through them. You do not have much sympathy for others who will cry about their troubles and not try to do something about them. You have learned to use your emotions and desires along positive and constructive lines…You are resourceful and courageous and willing to take calculated risks… Uranus harmonizing with Ascendant (power = 7.79 and this aspect is harmonious = 7.79) You have definite ideas and tend to be very independent. Your mind is creative, innovative, quick and ever on the alert for new information and knowledge. You enjoy working on a variety of projects, all at the same time. You are adaptable to situations and the changes that are required in life. You prefer to experience everything for yourself first-hand. Venus harmonizing with Saturn (power = 7.45 and this aspect is harmonious = 5.59) You are loyal and steadfast in matters of love and affection. The feelings of others are a serious matter to you and you don't play games with people's affections. Fidelity is highly valued and you don't want to settle for less. Security plays an important part in your life and you have a fine enough opinion about yourself … want to be sure you can trust whomever you are involved with. Your tastes and needs are simple and although you appreciate beauty and luxury, you do not need every luxury and convenience in the world in order to be happy. A person's character and inner nature matter more to you than their appearance. Casual or superficial relationships are not what you want and you aren't looking for them. You understand that the best kind of love takes time to develop and real love only gets better, deeper and more satisfying with age… Stability of emotions is one of your hallmarks. You have an innate sense of duty and responsibility towards your loved ones. Self-control is relatively easy for you to practice. You wouldn't be considered a party animal as your outlook on life is a little more serious and reserved than that. Still, others appreciate the fine qualities you have spent lifetimes developing. You have an inborn strength and courage to face life's difficulties. Neptune discordant to Ascendant (power = 6.86 and this aspect is discordant = -6.86) You can be selfless in relationships, perhaps too much so, at your own expense. …Stay strong and do not allow others to use you just because you are so kind and gentle. Mars harmonizing with Ascendant (power = 6.49 and this aspect is harmonious = 4.86) You tend to be independent, courageous, strong-willed and self-assertive. You do not really care what others think about

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you — you are your own person. You like and have active, energetic friends. You have integrity and loyalty and will defend your beliefs and ideals. Moon harmonizing with Uranus (power = 4.64 and this aspect is harmonious = 4.64) … Your life is full of many types of unusual experiences which bring sudden and unexpected changes… Uranus blending with Pluto (power = 4.50 and this aspect is neutral) There is power here to help you change outdated social systems and structures should you desire to do so… Mars harmonizing with Uranus (power = 4.30 and this aspect is harmonious = 3.23) You are dynamic, decisive, quick, impulsive, inventive …You respond immediately to almost every situation, you prefer spontaneity rather than routine Venus discordant to Ascendant (power = 4.10 and this aspect is discordant = -3.07) … You like to be with warm, sociable people. Mars harmonizing with Neptune (power = 1.38 and this aspect is harmonious = 1.03) You enjoy and have a flair for coming up with creative solutions to problems…You have the ability to be patient and lovingly assertive. Because of your kindnesses to others in past lives, you have some degree of spiritual protection from hidden enemies who might seek to undo you. You have learned that patience will bring you whatever you desire and to this end you will work hard… Sun in Leo … enjoy telling stories, being the center of attention, having a good time, and running the show. Mean and cruel acts are generally beneath them, but they do not hesitate to use force when needed. No matter what their actions, they always have the belief that whatever they do is for the other person's benefit…If a Leo is angered, he immediately goes into his kingly role, "mounting his throne" and quickly putting the opposition or challenger in their proper place. Leos literally roar at people when they are angry. But once their tirade is over, they forgive and forget and never hold a grudge….Leos need to admire their marriage partner. If they don't, the marriage may not last very long. In the end, Leos need to feel appreciated Venus in Leo In affairs of the heart you are warm-hearted, spontaneous, ardent, affectionate, loyal and generous. You hate pettiness and stinginess in your partner….You crave love, appreciation, and attention from others and like to be at the center of things. You are rather susceptible to flattery and love to feel SPECIAL. Sun in 4th house … There is pride in the home and that is where you want to shine and show your creativity. That is where you can be the real you. You want to be king of your castle… Uranus in 5th house You definitely possess creative originality… Neptune in 6th house Strange things can happen at the workplace or to your health… In your work, you may encounter people who are "two-faced", causing you pain and suffering. You are extremely sensitive to your workplace conditions and you need pleasant and peaceful surroundings. If these are not present, then you may experience unusual health difficulties… You are a psychic sponge that absorbs the atmosphere around you… You are capable of making great sacrifices in your work… Pluto in 5th house You have unusual talents and hobbies. Great creativity and self-expression is possible…

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And just one excerpt – the one with the strongest energies among all of our aspects - from the Astrowin report for the synastry/compatibility between R and I follows. Important to consider when astrological synastries are referenced here (and in any consideration of synastry), dynamics between two specific people are be ing identified…when interacting with anyone else, very different energies can be instigated. So, dynamic energies do not necessarily reflect either individual or what others might expect to experience – but only what is brought out specifically between specific individuals. Therefore, compatibility. R is Mars and Kay Campbell is Moon (discord = -14.83) -- Moon square Mars - This aspect may indicate an attraction in some cases, but the attraction is usually temporary unless there are many other favorable aspects in the comparison to promote endurability. R can be highly irritating to Kay Campbell. R's actions can upset the poise and disposition of Kay Campbell. This aspect produces serious personality conflicts.

Also notable, a consideration of my Meyers-Briggs personality type – INFP, and that of R – ISTJ; this particular take is more irreverent, let’s say, than typical descriptions found on Meyers-Briggs, & one that I particularly appreciate:

from https://www.xeromag.com/fun/personality.html , “Not Your Typical Personality Types”, INFP: The Idealist:

The INFP is a dreamy, imaginative, idealist, capable of finding the good in anything or anyone, even something as foul as Newark, New Jersey. INFPs are sometimes dangerous to the well-being of society as a whole, as they are prone to adopting subversive and destructive ideologies like "The world should be fair," "People should treat one another well," and "You know, 'Friends' is a really, really stupid television show."

These irrational thought patterns may sometimes cause INFPs to run off and join the circus, the Resistance, or the Rebellion, where they tend to do well in any position requiring excellent hand-eye coordination or mastery of the Force.

Famous idealists include that girl in your sixth-grade homeroom who got the teacher fired for saying that girls aren't good at math; that guy in the cubicle next to yours who got the manager fired for saying that women don't make good employees; and Anais Nin.

COMPATIBILITY: INFPs and ISTJs generally exhibit a natural predator/prey relationship, which, though it might appear harsh and cruel

from the outside, is all part of the natural cycle of life. In fact, were it not for the predation of the ISTJ, the population of INFPs would soon grow to unsustainable levels, overwhelming the ability of their ecological niche to support them

In regards to family (of origin) dynamics and what the astrology reveals, I will share just a tidbit of the incredible reflections that are to be found. I did cross -referencing among each of the five members of my immediate family, looking at synastries as well as at individual astrology. Unfortunately, I do not have birth times for my family members and so the data is partly limited, never -the-less a good deal of insight, as reflects experience, does show itself. In the test comparisons I have done of synastries both with and without times, the scores most often have not changed significantly, but occasionally do shift dramatically. So with birth times, adjustments may show. Curious to see what might be found, I did find it both reflective and even more dramatic than anticipated. By the way, some thoughts on synastry scores are included in my “Know Thyself” report, with recommendation on perspective considerations that can be sought in evaluating any particular synastry. My parents’ show an extremely negative/challenging synastry. My mother’s and sister’s synastry is near perfect – I have never seen anything like it or even close, in the many different synastries that I have checked out along the way. My mother’s and brother’s is also extraordinarily positive. Even mine and my mother’s is in the positive, in the moderate range. I always knew that my experience in my family, and particularly with my mother, was much more reflective of my parents’ struggles and issues than anything else. I have seen parent/child synastries in the negative (often not extreme, but never -the-less in the red) in which the relationship challenges are handled rather well and family dynamics at least seem to be healthy and functioning reasonably well for all. A strong focus on image and appearances (as shows clearly in some

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of the insights available from my mother’s birth info) has played stro ngly into my parents’ marriage challenges (further exacerbated by the many ways in which I have threatened those cherished images). Dad’s synastry with my brother is very high, is moderately positive with my sister, and barely – but still - in the positive with me. As far as between us siblings, both my sister and I, as well as my brother and I have an overall positive synastry that is approximately around the average, and my brother’s and sister’s synastry shows to be moderately negative. However, with a close look at specific aspects between family members & within the various energies of each, many more issues that are reflective of my experiences were identified. Noteworthy between my sister and I, a good example of the recommended type of considerations in analysi s shows itself and speaks to a modification of the potentials of our specific overall compatibility. Looking at only the strongest of synastry energies between my sister, “C”, and I, here is what was found/and what life’s reality has found: C is Saturn and Kay Campbell is Venus (discord = -11.24) -- Venus square Saturn – Kay Campbell, you are likely to have many unhappy experiences through this aspect. C will prove to be demanding, restricting, selfish, condemning, resentful, critical, disapproving, jealous and may even dislike you. Kay Campbell, you might find it difficult to give affection to C, or if you do, it would be mere show inspired by fear or anxiety. This is an unfavorable aspect. Kay Campbell, C will bring sorrow, worry and responsibilities to you and you will probably try to escape in some way if possible…C tends to impose too much responsibility on Kay Campbell and often blames Kay Campbell for troubles encountered together… Additionally very reflective of my own experience, this particular aspect of C’s astrology really speaks to me and to part of the prior stories: Venus in Scorpio… Uncontrolled jealousy and possessiveness may help destroy the relationships you are most intense about… Although your feelings run deep, you may have trouble expressing them. Once burned you never give another a second chance. It is all or nothing at all. There can be a deep religious devotion which can serve as an outlet for your overcharged emotions. You need to learn the value of self-control. Misuse of the creative force in previous lifetimes has forced you to again deal with issues surrounding sex, passion, desire, and regeneration… Among my mother’s energies, very relevant to my experiences, are several as follow: Mars discordant to Pluto (power = 11.73 and this aspect is discordant = -14.66)….Your desire for power and control over others is probably quite developed and you need to watch this as no one likes feeling controlled…You have a secret side to you and will not reveal your intentions to others until it best suits your purpose. You want to know everything about others, yet at the same time you do not want to tell them anything. You always try to keep the upper hand, no matter what the subject or situation… Venus discordant to Pluto (power = 7.01 and this aspect is discordant = -5.25)…The challenge here is to transform your values. Important psychological problems are being worked out because of and through your relationships with others. Because of this you may attract people…(who) are mirroring the same type of acts you yourself have done in former lives. You are now reaping what you have sown previously… This aspect shows a readiness on your part to atone for past mistakes and cruelties. In matters of health, this aspect tends to interfere with the magnetic forces in the veins and prevents proper drainage of toxins and waste material from the tissues. It can also hinder the filtering process in the kidneys. This leads to improper cleansing of the blood, with the result that toxins and waste material seek exit through the lungs and skin in the form of lung congestions and skin eruptions. The spiritual lesson here is to let go of ill feelings (emotional toxins) and forgive (elimination, transformation), rather than trying to get even or seeking revenge. Venus discordant to Mars (power = 6.73 and this aspect is discordant = -6.73)… There is a lot of tension in your love life because you often put your own needs ahead of your partner's or you are impatient when it comes to having your own needs met…You probably find yourself releasing your "hate" through verbal or physical fights when there are differences of opinion with your partner and after your hostility is released, then you once again feel "love" for that person. Of course, while your emotions might be back to normal, you partner is still trying to figure out just what happened and what hit them. You are ready to go again, but they are not and you can't understand why. This can create a great deal of frustration and disappointment that you do not easily shrug off because you cannot understand what the other person's

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"problem" is. If you are not in a love relationship, then you want to be in one and if you are, then you don't want to be. Your emotions are not stable and you have problems dealing with them. You are indecisive and your values and standards of behavior change from one moment to the next. You need to learn how to compromise with others so that your anger does not erupt when you do not get your way…it is not right to use other people, especially loved ones, as verbal punching bags or as objects of your assault tactics. Additionally, you need to overcome your feelings of love and hate toward the people you care about. Among my father’s energies, are included the following: Sun blending with Uranus (power = 14.44 and this aspect is neutral) … innovative, unusual, intuitive, clever, creative, unconventional, unorthodox and you identify with the role of the rebel, the reformer or the weirdo. You are very independent and hate to be told what to do and when to do it. You do not easily adapt yourself to other people's needs and wishes…Some people think you're from another planet, or at least ahead of your time. You do not want to feel controlled in any situation, and especially in relationships…Rest and creative outlets are needed in order for you to keep your balance and not go off the deep end…There is a certain genius about you that can be brought out by the proper application of self-control and self-discipline. Sun discordant to Pluto (power = 9.24 and this aspect is discordant = -9.24)… you will seldom reveal your own motivations, plans and activities….You need to recognize that your strong will and stubbornness create difficulties for you because you are not allowing others to teach you the lessons you need to learn…If you refuse to transform your ego, then things will only get worse, as the universe will get its way with you. You think you know it all and you believe that you are always right… Saturn discordant to Pluto (power = 8.00 and this aspect is discordant = -12.00) …You experience power struggles and roadblocks to your ambitions. Things or people always seem to get in your way of doing things …Competition with and through others is designed to teach you how to better cooperate with people. Great personal and soul growth can come about with this aspect, but you must be willing to put others first instead of yourself. In previous lives you have been too domineering and now you must learn to listen to other people's viewpoints and opinions with an open mind. If you choose not to do this, then things will go from bad to worse. Power must be used wisely,…people are put into positions of power, so they can learn these lessons. Great reform and regeneration is possible but your selfish nature must be put aside first…You dislike change and want to be in a position of authority over others… And among astrological insights for my brother, most noteworthy for me are one of his personal aspects, and one of the aspects that show in the synastry between he and the eldest of his two sons: Saturn discordant to Uranus (power = 7.54 and this aspect is discordant = -11.30) …Conflicting attitudes toward responsibility and freedom cause you emotional turmoil… Little things set you off. You need to develop tolerance for others' quirky ways, just as they must do concerning you and your ways. Forgive and forget… brother with eldest son: bro is Saturn & A is Pluto (discord = -14.41) -- Saturn square Pluto - A will probably act as the transformer or reformer and, K, A will challenge your attitude toward your own responsibilities of life…If there are many adverse aspects (my note: there are!!), such a combination as this indicates mutual resentment, hateful attitudes and a desire to harm each other. This is an especially difficult combination when found in the charts between parent and child. Heads-up helpfulness is potentially offered if openness to this sort of insight and forewarning is allowed in, by various associated parties. Herein lies the type of guidance towards growth and healing that can make an enormous difference in our world as we seek to very actively participate in the transformation work of our time.

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Extremely important to point out yet once again also, yes, my shadow side has come roaring out many times over -

wildness that I have known in myself has often shocked me. I have battled mightily with emotional reactivity and with an

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array of responses, at times successfully and at other times in defeat. And various addictions, yes, have absolutely also

been part of the picture.

We each release any and all denials and delusions, with which we humans have all been weighed down…and earnestly do

the work to authentically transmute. When we each own our shadow sides, embrace them, work with them and through

them, integrate them – as dramatically opposed to denying them, hiding them, placing them on others – brilliant

evolution is achieved. The individual responsibility has a radical impact on our collective and the health of our

culture…towards wholeness within ourselves and the collective.

The many challenge areas that we each have can be located with the help of both astrology and numerology, and various

related system. In owning all aspects, gifts and challenges, we have opportunity to be and do what we are truly here to

be and do. Our soul is cheering us on, as these personalities that we have taken on try to make out the authentic aims

yearning inside.

“It is important that you acknowledge that there is pain or discomfort. Humans have been taught to resist that which is in

the body, which has caused an evolutionary process of more pain and disease. Because essentially pain and disease is

resistance of a cellular structure to pattern itself as God. So when you are in resistance to anything going on in your

physical body, you are strengthening that pattern of resistance.”

– “The Path of a Master | Mary Magdalene”: live lecture by Micheila Sheldan, https://awakeandaware.ca, 3/2/19

Here I am going to share a little more food for thought and insight on the dynamics between J & I, and for us each

individually – adding to the shares of Story 10. Consider the below, especially, within the context of a very difficult Pisces-twelfth-house moon (& ruler-of in 7th house of partnerships) of J, and Aries-twelfth-house Saturn (ruler in 3rd house of communications) of Kay - as pointed to in Story 10. (The insights of Tracy Marks relative to twelfth house trauma is especially recommended.) The below challenges are extraordinarily difficult to breakthrough in the context of

extraordinarily challenging twelfth house issues. J also has squares to his North Node – with both his Venus and his Chiron: blocks to achieving his North Node calling become extra difficult, and healing becomes that much more his calling. Throw in significant lack of societal understanding and support for certain tasked directions of growth, and wow! On top of that, throw in “interferences” as have been pushed by the 1%, and the degree of challenge can mount yet higher. Even those among us who had the capacity to take on the highest level of challenge, and yet experienced massive levels of interference, can potentially - with recognition and excellent support – still achieve the transformation potential. Perhaps some of the greatest help to our collective might come from such prioritizing and valuing?

J: from Café Astrology: L i I l i t h I n P I s c e s: He may have felt ashamed or off for being needy, compassionate, or

wishy-washy, or for his spiritual side; T r u e N o r t h N o d e i n S c o r p i o : He is learning to be less self-reliant and set in his ways, as the path to greater success and satisfaction is to share the load from time to time. He tends to stick with his habits, methods, and things. Learning to loosen this grip opens him to his deeper need for transformation, intimacy, change, and regeneration. Qualities to develop: Courage to make changes, going all in, sharing, intimacy. N o r t h N o d e

i n V I I I : N o r t h N o d e i n t h e E i g h t h H o u s e : He should watch for holding too tightly to his ways and things for fear of change, as this can limit him and his opportunities. Qualities to develop: sharing, intimacy, willingness to go deep.

J’s Chiron opposes his Venus, Mars, and Mercury. I recommend the insights of Barbara Hand Clow, among considerations in understanding the impact and potential indicated by these Chiron aspects.

Note also that J and I both have our natal Chiron in the 11th house – another area of recognition, understanding and compassion, and shared energies.

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Kay: from Café Astrology: L i l l i t h I n G e m i n i : She can feel uncomfortable if speaking too much or too little;

N o r t h N o d e i n A r i e s She is brilliant at mediating and cooperating but in the first half of life, she learns many lessons

regarding codependency, indecision, and fear of making errors or striking out independently, perhaps the hard way. For

happiness and success, she must discover and embrace her independence and build confidence in her decisions. Qualities

to develop: self-confidence, assertiveness, decisiveness. N o r t h N o d e i n X I : N o r t h N o d e i n t h e E l e v e n t h

H o u s e Her path is to share and cooperate with others more often, as she seems to naturally fall back on a personal

approach. While it is not instinctive to be a team player, as she develops this side of her, she grows and this growth brings

more opportunities and fortune into her life. Qualities to develop: collaboration, participation, impartiality.

…Natally, I have (4) trines to my Chiron, all quite supportive of positive Chiron work. (And with my birth info available to

all, can be accessed and considered as of further interest…)

And now, one last little story before going. This shares another side of my relationship with my sister & also reflects well

beyond. I wish I could peg our ages for this story more precisely, but believe I may have been in Junior High and my sister

just prior to. We lived in a split level house in the suburbs. The bathroom was just at the top of the short stretch of upper

stairs that quickly led to our bedrooms…and my sister and I shared a bedroom. My sister had become afraid to go to the

bathroom in the middle of the night, and had taken to waking me up to accompany her to and from. I was easily very

obliging, and yet a time came when this had been going on for a long stretch and I could see no end in sight. Clearly this

was not good for any of us, and I needed to do something to help the situation. I told my sister that, with my help, she

was very gradually going to begin to go further and further downstairs when she awoke at night, until she could go all the

way into the unfinished basement/Dad’s workshop by herself. At that point, she would no longer have any fears about

the very short distance from our bedroom to the bathroom. Bit by bit, over the course of weeks, with a sensitive increase

in distance, while providing a shadowing reassurance, the deed was accomplished. I remember how happy and freed she

felt – truly successful. I don’t know that Mom ever even knew of the issue or the “cure”. I am struck in many ways by this

memory. In fact, we are all needing to face the fears and imagined boogeymen of the unknown…to push ourselves, and

yes, assist each other, to recognize that we can move beyond our own traps and into expanded abilities and freedoms.

Many can take a bow once we reopen that curtain to give credit to those helping push us - in so many different ways and disguises - to reclaim our power….and aiding us towards gaining in consciousness, greater recognition and awareness of that which we individually and collectively encompass and support.

Without a doubt, the prior stories are only the tip of the iceberg of the noteworthy experiences and stories of

my life. I cannot argue for a second with yet another piece included in the Human Design system description of

my own unique design: “…natural storytelling…reflective, sober, and not highly embellished…smacks of

authentic life experience…(with) a magical moral…accounts stem from the stories that the Universe makes you

sample…the experiences and challenges come so thick and fast that you must retreat from time to time and

take a complete break from everything…sends you into the thick of action in order to subsequently guide others

by using your storehouse of accumulated experiences…memory capacity is also sharp…there is a database

inside you that would overwhelm any publisher or moviemaker with an embarrassment of creative riches.

More can happen to you in a day than can happen to most people in a week!...knowing when to retreat from

the front line. If you don’t get it right, you can face chronic fatigue and near collapse…” (This is a description of

the Gate 33 that I have defined, as activated when in contact with those who have a defined Gate 13.) …the

stories have been hard earned fair and square, and there is a reason…

And that’s my story…his story…our story…history…on to bigger, brighter, & lighter!!!!