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Bolut tfg Butflr
Cburgm Zbccgm `s b e`etggm ygbr-lch i`rc w`tf b vgry vbst
`kbi`mbt`lm, wfl `mhucigs `m wr`t`mi bs b orgbn erlk rgbc`ty.
Q`mag sfg wbs b af`ch sfg fbs oggm argbt`mi afbrbatgrs `m fgrfgbh, `macuh`mi Bmmb Acbws, tfg fgrl`mg le
H`cbtgh
flwgvgr,
sfg fbhmt hgvgcl!gh fgr `mtl tfg bkb"`mi bmh strlmi afbrbatgr
sfg `s tlhby... umt`c mlw#
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H @ C B X G H
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$gh`abt`lm
%f`s olln `s hgh`abtgh tl &rbmhhbh, wfl sbhcy !bssgh bwby `m'braf ()*+.
wluch c`ng tl banmlwcghig bcc le ky aclsg er`gmhs bmh ebk`cy.
aluchmt fbvg hlmg tf`s w`tflut tfgk. Q!ga`bc hgh`abt`lms brg
lwgh tl 'lrbyl Qbmus`, wfl hgh`abtgh fgr t`kg tl fgc! kg gh`t
tf`s olln/ &cb`mb :bkbsbcgf elr bcsl fgc!`mi kg gh`t/ bmh cbstcy,
tl tfg twl !gl!cg wfl fbvg gmalurbigh kg tl wr`tg H`cbtgh4
Bohgcbt`ee 2gcfb? bmh Qbm`g 'gcf`mi.
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H @ C B X G H
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Al!yr`ift Cburgm Zbccgm
%fg r`ift le Cburgm Zbccgm tl og `hgmt`e`gh bs butflr le tf`s wlrn
fbs oggm bssgrtgh oy fgr `m baalrhbmag w`tf sgat`lm 11 bmh 18 le
tfg Al!yr`ift, $gs`ims bmh Zbtgmts Bat *788.
Bcc r`ifts rgsgrvgh. 5l !brt le tf`s !uoc`abt`lm kby og
rg!rlhuagh, stlrgh `m b rgtr`gvbc systgk, lr trbmsk`ttgh `m bmy
elrk lr oy bmy kgbms, gcgatrlm`a, kgafbm`abc, !fltlal!y`mi,
rgalrh`mi, lr ltfgrw`sg, w tflut tfg !r`lr !grk`ss`lm le tfg
!uoc`sfgrs.
Bmy !grslm wfl alkk`ts bmy umbutflr`"gh bat `m rgcbt`lm tl tf`s!uoc`abt`lm kby og c`bocg tl ar`k`mbc !rlsgaut`lm bmh a`v`c acb`ks
elr hbkbigs.
B AZ abtbcliug rgalrh elr tf`s t`tcg `s bvb`cbocg erlk tfg 2r`t`sf
C`orbry.
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Bust`m 'babucgy Zuoc`sfgrs Cth.
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Clmhlm
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=fgm ylu wbcn !bst !gl!cg `m tfg strggt, ylu wluch tf`mn tfbttfgy brg mlrkbc fb!!y fukbms/ ylu wluchmt clln tw`ag bt
tfgk. 2ut rgbccy, tfgy aluch og ocllh r`!!`mi klmstgrs tfbt
wluch n`cc ylu w`tflut b sgalmh icbmag.
bk lmg le tflsg klmstgrs, bmh tf`s `s ky h`bry.
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Xugshby 27tfHgagkogr
?:2?
'y mbkg `s Bmmb Acbws. k rgbccy lch, out ylu wluchmt
ogc`gvg `t `e ylu sbw kg.
luh sby wbs b fb!!y, ouoocy, er`gmhcy twgmty-twl
ygbr lch i`rc. 2ut k b fumhrgh ygbrs lch# fbvg c`vgh `m
Clmhlm ky gmt`rg c`eg - kb`mcy brlumh tfg %lwgr 2r`hig brgb.
Bs b n`h, irgw u! c`v`mi `m b i`ibmt`a kbms`lm tfbt ltfgr n`hs
aluch lmcy hrgbk le c`v`mi `m. Zcus, ky 'uk bcwbys kbhg
surg tfbt hrgssgh acbss`cy bmh wbs bcwbys wgcc-!rgsgmtgh. Qfg
mlrkbccy kbhg kg wgbr or`ift alclurs sl tfbt `t wluch h`strbat
!gl!cg erlk ky !bcg sn`m alk!cgO`lm.
Bctfluif fbvg b !bcg alk!cgO`lm, !gl!cg sby tl kg
tfbt ky ocban, slet, egbtfgr-c`ng fb`r alk!cgtgs ky ogbut`euc
ebag. fbvg ecbkolybmtcy ocug gygs tfbt sf`mg or`iftgr tfbm tfgsny, bmh rbv`sf`mi rgh c`!s tfbt brg hbrngr tfbm ocllh bmh b
mgbr-!gregatcy !rl!lrt`lmgh mlsg. vgrbcc fbvg hgc`abtg, sfbr!
egbturgs tfbt oc`mh !gl!cg w`tf tfg`r ogbuty.
m ky ygbrs vg w`tmgssgh c`eg, ?ly bmh fb!!`mgss.
%fbts slkgtf`mi fbvg tr`gh tl fbvg tfrluiflut ky c`eg,
tfluif bcwbys sggk tl ebcc sflrt le baalk!c`sf`mi `t. ?ust
gmh u! w`tf !b`m, k`sgry bmh hgbtf. lurg !rlobocy
wlmhgr`mi wfbt `t bcc `s.cc stbrt lee w`tf ky ebk`cy. =gcc, ky kuk bmh hbh....
=gcc, nmlw tl ylu fukbms `ts s`k!cy `k!lss`ocg, out ky
hbh `s tfg $gv`c# nmlw wfbt ylu brg tf`mn`mi - flw abm tfbt
ogH
=gcc, tl og !gregatcy flmgst fbvg ml `hgb, bmh rgbccy
hlmt wbmt tl nmlw# :g !rgys lm `mmlagmt fukbm v`at`ks.
=fgm fg turms `mtl f`s hgklm elrk `ts c`ng b sflanwbvg tfbta`racgs brlumh ylur olhy rg!gbtghcy. =fgrg ylu brg stbmh`mi
tfgrgs b fuklmilus gbrtf;ubng bmh ylu eggc s`an, ylu eggc bs
`e ylur `ms`hgs brg bolut tl gO!clhg# =fgm fg egghs lm fukbms
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`ts !utr`h. :g r`!s tfgk b!brt bs tfluif tfgy brg kbhg le
t`ssug !b!gr. :g kust fbvg n`ccgh tflusbmhs le !gl!cg/ fgs
gv`c. :g hlgs mlt abrg elr fukbm c`eg - tl f`k, tfgyrg ?ust ellh.
lu wluchmt tf`mn tfbt suaf b klmstgr `s ab!bocg le
clvg, wluch yluH 2ut fg wbs - fg wbs sl `m clvg w`tf ky
kuk.
'y 'uk, sfg wbs ogbut`euc. Qfg fbh ?gt ocban fb`r,
!`gra`mi irggm gygs bmh fbh b ogbut`euc e`iurg bmh wbs slJ
fukbm. Qfg irgw u! wgmt tl safllc, fbh mlrkbc er`gmhs,
mlrkbc !brgmts... m ky gygs, sfg wbs cuany# Qfg nmgw bolut
$bh, tll wgcc... 5lt bt e`rst, bmh wfgm sfg elumh lut sfg ?ust
cbuifgh bmh tfluift `t wbs bcc b ?lng, umt`c fg sflwgh fgr wfbtfg rgbccy cllngh c`ng. Qfg wbsmt sabrgh bt bcc tfluif, ogabusg
wfgm ylu brg `m clvg ylur fgbrt tbngs lvgr, mlt ylur k`mh. :g
mgvgr alk!gccgh ky 'uk lr bmytf`mi c`ng tfbt.
f, slrry, ogt ylu hlmt nmlw wfbt alk!gccgh
kgbms hl yluH =gcc, `ts k`mh almtrlc le b slrt - wfgm b
hgklm c`ets tfg`r sluc erlk tfg`r fgbrt bmh tfgm ?uk!s `mtl
ltfgr !gl!cgs olh`gs bmh k`mhs. =g abm kbng tfgk hl
bmytf`mi tfbt wby.'y 'uk bmh $bh wgrg tligtfgr elr sgvgmtggm ygbrs,
umt`c tfbthby - tfg hby tfbt afbmigh ky c`eg elr gtgrm`ty.
t wbs b abr arbsf. B orutbc, hgbhcy abr arbsf, bmh lmg
tfbt tlln ky 'uk, ky $bh, bmh s`stgr.
'y s`stgr Glsg. Qfg wbs sl ylumi - ?ust s`Otggm. Qfg
fbh suaf b irgbt c`eg bfgbh le fgr b irbhubt`lm, fgr er`gmhs,
bmh lmg hby fgr lwm ebk`cy. Qfg wbs euccy fukbm, wf`af wbswfy sfg mgvgr surv`vgh tfg abr arbsf. Qfg wbs b ogbut`euc
ylumi i`rc wfl wluch mgvgr og elrilttgm. =g wgrg sl aclsg -
kg bmh Glsg, wg wgrg sluc s`stgrs. Qfg fbh ky kuks gygs,
tflsg sfbr! irggm gygs, bmh wfgm tfg sum f`t fgr ebag fgr gygs
ic`stgmgh/ sfg wbs b clvgcy i`rc, sl n`mh.
rgkgkogr lmag wfgm wbs b af`ch fbh hrl!!gh ky
`ag argbk, sl Glsg ibvg kg fgrs `mstgbh# C`ttcg tf`mis c`ng tfbt
kbhg fgr suaf b n`mh bmh tfluifteuc !grslm. Qfg wbs bkb"`mibcc rlumh.
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2ut `t wbsmt eb`r ogabusg sfg wbs fukbm bmh
wbsmt# t wbsmt eb`r, ogabusg lmg hby sfg wluch h`g bmh
wluch fbvg tl sueegr tfbt !b`m elrgvgr.
%fg abr arbsf fb!!gmgh 8( ygbrs bil - rgkgkogr `t c`ng `t
wbs ygstgrhby.
brr`vgh flkg cbtg erlk safllc w`tf Glsg - wg wgrg
oltf tbcn`mi, cbuif`mi, ?ust c`ng b mlrkbc hby >bs mlrkbc bs `t
aluch igt, bmywby3. 'uk wbs bt flkg, bmh $bh fbh ?ust alkg
oban erlk wfgrgvgr fg fbh oggm/ 'uk tlch us tfbt sfg wbs
il`mi tl igt b fukbm ocllh obi elr $bh. Glsg bmh $bh bcsl
vlcumtggrgh elr b abck bmh !gbageuc r`hg `m tfg abr.$usn wbs stbrt`mi tl ebcc, bmh stbygh bt flkg
ogabusg aluchmt tl il lut `m tfg sumc`ift. %fgyh oggm ilmg
elr bolut twl flurs mlw bmh h`hmt tf`mn kuaf le `t, umt`c
fgbrh tfg hlis obrn`mi v`a`luscy. tlch tfgk tl sfut u!#
t wbs lmcy wfgm tfgy rbm tl tfg hllr tfbt fgbrh b
kbss`vg obmi# 2gabusg k b hgklm tfbt aluch fgbr `t erlk b
k`cg bwby. %fg slumh rgvgrogrbtgh tfrluif ky olhy. aluch
eggc tfg rgvgrogrbt`lms sclwcy hbkbi`mi bmh tgbr`mi ky fgbrt.%fg eggc`mi aluch eggc wbs tfg eggc`mi le h`sbstgr, tgrrlr bmh
egbr.
rusfgh lut tl tfg hllr erbmt`abccy tl sgg wfbt tfg
ml`sg wbs. 'y mg`ifolrs wgrg sargbk`mi EBmmb# Bmmb, `ts
ylur ebk`cy#I 'y ebag sbmn bs clw bs `t aluch !lss`ocy il.
rbm bmO`luscy, !bm`an`mi, tl ky ebk`cy. Bmh wfbt
sbw mgOt cc mgvgr elrigt.%fg abr fbh ilmg strb`ift `mtl b alclssus trgg# %fg trgg
fbh tlrm tfrluif tfg abr bmh strb`ift tfrluif ky ebk`cy.
rusfgh tl tfg abr, ybmngh tfg hllr lee bmh tfrgw `t tl tfg s`hg
le tfg rlbh bmh afgangh ky 'uks !ucsg. %fgrg wbs ml ogbt.
wgmt tl ky s`stgr mgOt, bmh sflln fgr bmh afgangh fgr !ucsg.
5ltf`mi. 'y ebk`cy wgrg cy`mi hgbh `m erlmt le kg.
f ky ilh, $bh# :lw aluch fbvg elrilttgmH
cllngh brlumh bmh ky $bh wbs mlt `m tfg abr - fg wbsmlwfgrg tl og sggm#
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@ nmlw wfbt fgs hlmg, tfluift.Fgs cget tfgk cy`mi
fgrg, ilt sabrgh bmh rum bwby erlk bmltfgr prlocgk. @ fbtg
f`k! @cc mgvgr elri`vg f`k elr tf`s!
2gelrg nmgw `t, wbs sl bmiry tfbt sfbr!,
!gmgtrbt`mi ebmis stbrtgh b!!gbr`mi erlk ky iuks. bk b
$gklm, mlt b Fbk!`rg, sl hlmt rgbccy fbvg ebmis - ky tggtf
brg klrg c`ng acbws agkgmtgh `m ky klutf. :lwgvgr, fbvg
twl fuig ebmis tfbt c`g h`rgatcy `m tfg !cbag le fukbm abm`mgs.
%fgy strgtaf clmigr tfbm ky af`m, tfgsg twl ebmis brg cgtfbc#
%fgy abm n`cc kurhgrluscy, flrr`e`abccy# Betgr tfbt, ltfgr,
skbccgr ebmis ogi`m tl b!!gbr, bmh tfgm ky gygs turm !urg
ocban#2ut wfgm tfluift le ky 'uk bmh Glsg, stbrtgh tl allc
hlwm. aluchmt hl bmytf`mi tl sbvg tfgk, ogabusg wg abmt
turm ebk`cy `mtl $gklms.
e ylu hlmt nmlw wfbt tfbt kgbms, wgcc, cgt kg gmc`iftgm ylu.
t kgbms tfbt wfgm ylu o`tg slkglmg, tfgm eggh tfgk ky r`af
ocllh, tfgm n`cc tfgk, bmh tfgm eggh tfgk fukbm ecgsf, tfgy
w`cc ogalkg b $gklm. :lwgvgr, wg abmt turm tflsg wg abrgbolut ogabusg le tfg bmigcs/ tfgy !ut b tgrr`ocg aursg lm us
lmag, wf`af kgbms tfbt wg ylu abmmlt turm lur ebk`c`gs lr tfg
!gl!cg wg clvg `mtl $gklms. ts tfg wlrst aursg tfgrg `s.
%fgrg `s lmcy lmg ltfgr tfbt `s bcklst bs obh - tfgrg brg lmcy
sgvgm hgklms `m tfg wlrch ogabusg le tfg Fbk!`rgs.
%fg Fbk!`rgs brg lur `kklrtbc gmgk`gs. %fgy stbrtgh
lm us# %fg $gklms wgrg argbtgh ogelrg tfg Fbk!`rgs. %fgwlrch wbs slrt le !gbageuc oban tfgm, ogabusg wg lmcy n`ccgh
elr ellh. =g btg fukbms, out wg h`hmt abrg bolut tfgk -
nmlw tfbt slumhs obh, out `ts tfg trutf#
%fgm tfg Fbk!`rgs b!!gbrgh. %fgy tlrturgh tfg
fukbms, !cbygh w`tf tfgk bmh tfgm n`ccgh tfgk. Bcc le us
$gklms wgrg ogkusgh/ wg fbh ml `hgb wfbt tfgy wgrg. %fgm
tfgy stbrtgh turm`mi tfg fukbms tfbt tfgy n`ccgh `mtl Fbk!`rgs
sl tfbt tfgy fbh b o`iigr brky.'lrglvgr, tfg Fbk!`rgs elumh lut tfbt tfgy wgrgmt
tfg lmcy `kklrtbcs `m tfg wlrch. %fgy ilt ?gbclus, ogabusg
Fbk!`rgs brg b vgry sgce`sf bmh umabr`mi rbag. Ql tfgy tfgm
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tr`gh tl grbh`abtg us. %fgrg wgrg tflusbmhs le $gklms `m tfg
wlrch tfgm, bmh tfg Fbk!`rgs wgmt brlumh n`cc`mi us lmg oy
lmg. %fg $gklms aluchmt ?l`m tligtfgr, ogabusg `e wg alkg
`m b *0 k`cgs rbh`us w`tf lmg bmltfgr tfgm wg w`cc e`ift tl tfg
hgbtf# Bmh wfgm wg e`ift, lmg le us w`cc hge`m`tgcy h`g, tfbt
aursg `s tgrr`ocg. t wbs umeb`r, ogabusg wfy sfluch tfg st`mn`mi
vbk!`rgs fbvg oggm bcclwgh tl ?l`m elrags, ygt tfg klrg
su!gr`lr rbag wbs cget tl egmh elr lursgcvgsH
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=g w`cc ourm `m tfg sumc`ift bmh s`k!cy gO!clhg. 2ut
wg elumh b wby tl igt brlumh tf`s aursg, bmh wg abcc `t
obanirbt. ts b s!ga`bc eumius tfbt wg fbvg tl gbt gvgry hby tl
kbng us `kkumg erlk sumc`ift - `ts elumh `m tfg sgwgrs bmh
ygs, wg fbvg tl igt `t lursgcvgs# ts c`ng b slrt le eumius tfbt
irlws hlwm lm tfg ecllr le tfg sgwgrs. il gvgry ygbr tl
alccgat b fuig stbsf.
%fgrg brg mlt kbmy tf`mis tfbt abm n`cc b $gklm c`ng
kg, b!brt erlkir`n- b elrk le sbct. ts sl rbrg tfbt vg mgvgr
batubccy sggm `t# %fg geegats brg rgvlct`mi - `e ylu !ut `t lm tfg
sn`m, `t w`cc ouoocg lvgr c`ng b w`tafs abuchrlm. vg fgbrh
cgigmhs tfbt `e slkglmg `m?gats `t `mtl ylur olhy, `t bigs ylu tlylur rgbc big. kbi`mg `e ylu brg 998 - ylu wluch ?ust turm tl
bsf# Bcsl, ltfgr hgklms sby tfgy s!r`mncg `t `mtl ylur gygs bmh
ylur gygs gO!clhg. Abm ylu `kbi`mg tfg !b`mH
2ban tl tfg `ma`hgmt. wbs bm g`iftggm ygbr-lch i`rc, !gtr`e`gh
lut le ky w`ts, bmh tfgrg wbs mltf`mi tfbt aluch hl. aurcgh
u! w`tf ky 'uk bmh s`stgr bmh ar`gh, bcc tfg wf`cg sargbk`mi
elr fgc!. Bs stbrtgh tl stl! ary`mi fgbrh bm bkoucbmagbrr`vg. 'y fgbrt stbrtgh tl eggc fl!g# %fgy aluch rgv`vg
fukbms, aluchmt tfgyH
Qfbr!cy, tfg kgm rbm lut le tfg bkoucbmag w`tf b
strb`ift, !cb`m ebags bmh olhy obis, E@ust `m absg,I tfgy tlch
kg. egct s`an ib"`mi bt tfgsg ec`ksy, usgcgss, lvgr-s`"gh o`m
obis, nmlw`mi tfbt ky 'uk bmh s`stgr aluch ?ust og stueegh
`mtl tfgsg obis bmh mgvgr sggm bib`m. %fg bkoucbmag kgmirboogh kg, try`mi fbrh tl igt kg bwby erlk ky ebk`cy.
4`gragcy, tr`gh tl e`ift tfgk. %fgy sggkgh sl kuaf strlmigr
tfbm kg bt tfbt klkgmt alms`hgr`mi wbs b $gklm# egct bs
wgbn bs b t`my bmt.
4`vg kgkogrs le tfg argw fbh tl flch kg oban erlk
ky ebk`cy. 'y fb`r swumi `m ky ebag, tgbrs iusfgh erlk ky
gygs, bmh ky tfrlbt wbs ogi`mm`mi tl eggc slrg erlk
sargbk`mi. 'y wflcg olhy wbs stbrt`mi tl eggc muko/ wbse`mh`mi `t fbrh tl stbmh. wbs cuany tfg argw wbs su!!lrt`mi
kg, ltfgrw`sg wluch fbvg alccb!sgh.
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Bs slkg le tfg argw rgstrb`mgh kg, sbw tfg rgst
abrry twl eucc olhy obis lut le tfg abr. %fg olhy obis wgrg
"`!!gh u! tl tfg tl! bmh ylu aluch sgg tfg lutc`mg le b e`iurg
`ms`hg. 'y fgbrt ogibm tl arukocg. =fgm sbw ky 'uk bmh
s`stgr `m tfg olhy obis ogabkg s`cgmt. ml clmigr egct wlrtfy
gmluif tl sargbk lr ary. %fgy aluchmt ary bmyklrg, sl wfy
sfluch fbvg oggm bocg tlH
%fgy rgcgbsgh kg sl tfbt aluch sgg ky 'uk bmh
s`stgr elr tfg cbst t`kg. D`!!`mi l!gm tfg olhy obi abrgeuccy,
sbw ky kuks !bcg, c`egcgss ebag. stbrtgh tl s!gbn tl fgr.
E'uk, k slrry aluchmt !rltgat ylu# Zcgbsg
elri`vg kg, !cgbsgH clvg ylu. 'uk - bcwbys rgkgkogr tfbt.IBetgr s!gbn`mi tl ky kltfgr rbm tl ky s`stgr bmh
um"`!!gh tfg obi bmh sb`h, EGlsg, ky c`ttcg oboy s`stgr.
Ggkgkogr flw `t wbs, ylu bmh kg !cby`mi, cbuif`mi bmh
fbv`mi briukgmts lvgr s`ccy c`ttcg tf`mis. @ust rgkgkogr tfbt.
nmlw ylu abm fgbr kg slkgwfgrg, !cgbsg# lu wgrg tfg n`mh
bmh fb!!y lmg lut le us/ `t sfluchmt fbvg oggm ylu. t
sfluchvg oggm kg. k slrry, k slrry. $bh w`cc !by elr tf`s,
cgbv`mi ylu fgrg w`tflut sby`mi illhoyg. %rust kg# clvgylu, s`s, hlmt elrigt tfbt.I
cgbmgh hlwm bmh n`ssgh Glsgs fgbh sletcy, bmh tfbt
wbs tfbt. 'y lmcy ebk`cy wbs hgbh. %fgy wgrg ilmg elrgvgr.
5lw wbs cget lm ky lwm tl hgegmh elr kysgce - tf`s wbs
wfgrg ky !bst gmhgh bmh ky euturg ogibmJ
nby, sl, cgt kg tgcc ylu b o`t klrg bolut kg# =gcc, k b$gklm ylu nmlw tfbt oy mlw. gs, k bm gv`c ecgsf gbtgr#
$gs!`tg tfbt, hlmt eggh lee le fukbms - vg c`vgh lm bm`kbcs
elr hgabhgs.
wbs olrm b $gklm, s`mag b fukbm abmt og afbmigh
`mtl b $gklm. fbh b vgry fbrh c`eg lr hgbtf, ylu aluch sby.
fbvg kbmy !lwgrs.
fbvg tfg bo`c`ty tl almtrlc k`mhs, rgbh !gl!cgs
k`mhs, su!gr`lr strgmitf, c`iftm`mi s!ggh bmh kbmy klrg. 2uttfg wlrst `s wfgm igt fumiry. gbt fukbm ecgsf/ hr`mn ocllh
bs wgcc, out wg mggh tl surv`vg lm ecgsf. Ggkgkogr, k mlt b
Fbk!`rg#
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=fgm turm erlk ky mlrkbc fukbm ebag, wgcc, ylu
w`cc fbvg mgvgr sggm bmytf`mi c`ng `t ogelrg. %fg vg`ms `m ky
ebag b!!gbr tl og !uk!`mi w`tf ocllh. %fgm ky acbws, wgcc,
ogt ylurg wlmhgr`mi wfgrg igt ky mbkg erlk. 'y nmuancgs
!usf lut le ky sn`m bmh turm tl sfbr!, !l`mty, ocllh r`!!`mi
acbws. $g!gmh`mi lm flw bmiry bk, ky acbws abm irlw bs
o`i bs %-GgO acbws# %fgm, wfgm sgg wgt ocllh ll"`mi erlk
slkglmgs olhy ky i`ibmt`a ebmis stbrt tl irlw erlk ky
iuks. Betgr tfbt tfg rgst elcclw, sclwcy arusf`mi tfg fukbm
tggtf bmh tbn`mi lvgr ky wflcg olhy. =f`cg ky ebmis irlw,
ky gygs afbmig alclur tll. %fg !u!`cs ogalkg sl h`cbtgh erlk
tfg ?ly bmh gOa`tgkgmt le sgg`mi ocllh, tfgy alvgr tfg wflcgle ky gygs. Qlkg !gl!cg sby `ts c`ng stbr`mi `mtl b ocban flcg
tfbt mgvgr gmhs tfbt `s, tfg !gl!cg wfl fbvg surv`vgh, le
alursg.
Qlkgt`kgs, slkg le tfg olmgs `m ky olhy k`ift
orgbn, ogabusg ogalkg lvgr bhrgmbc`"gh bmh tfg olhy abmt
tbng `t. 2ut abm bcwbys ?ust !l! tfgk oban `mtl !cbag
betgrwbrhs.
egct c`ng afbmi`mi elrks lm tfg hby le tfg `ma`hgmt.2ut tl tf`s hby, tfgrg `s st`cc ml gv`hgmag tl sby tfbt ky $bh
wbs hr`v`mi c`ng b kbh kbm lr clst almtrlc le tfg wfggc.
Ql wlmhgr, flw h`h `t batubccy fb!!gmH r h`h
slkglmg hl tf`s lm !ur!lsgJH
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Er`hby 25tfHgagkogr
?:2?
%lhby `s tfg s`Otggmtf le $gagkogr ()*(. ts ky o`rtfhby.
k lmg fumhrgh ygbrs lch tlhby/ yluh sby tfbts lch `e ylu
wgrg b fukbm, out elr kg `ts ?ust tfg ogi`mm`mi le ky c`eg.
2gc`gvg `t lr mlt, il tl wlrn. lu kust tf`mn bk
arb"y# 2ut wbmt tl fbvg b ?lo, sl b!!gbr tl og mlrkbc bmh
fukbm. hlmt il lut alk!gcc`mi !gl!cg elr klmgy bmh n`cc`mi
tfgk elr `t# 'lrglvgr, wlrn `m tfg a`ty, `m b alk!bmy abccgh
'`arl-=bys. =g try tl orggh k`arl- s`"g bm`kbcs sl tfbt tfgy
abm ogalkg flusgflch !gts elr ebk`c`gs. =g brg aurrgmtcy
wlrn`mi lm k`arl hlc!f`ms# =g wlrngh lm tf`s elr b egw ygbrs
mlw, out st`cc ml cuan#
%lhby bt wlrn tfgy oluift kg b abng sby`mi N((
tlhby. e lmcy tfgy nmgw tfg h`sturo`mi trutf# Qur!r`s`micy, hl fbvg clts le er`gmhs - k b vgry m`ag, sla`bocg !grslm# 2ut
hlmt rgbccy fbvg bmy aclsg er`gmhs ogabusg nmlw tfbt tfgy
w`cc gvgmtubccy h`g le lch big, s`anmgss lr h`sgbsg.
5gvgrtfgcgss, hl fbvg lmg vgry aclsg er`gmh. lurg !rlobocy
tf`mn`mi wfbt b ellc bk. 2ut fgr mbkg `s Guoy. Qfg batubccy
`stwgmty-twl# Qfg wlrns `m tfg sbkg ?lo bs kg/ sfg fbs suotcg
fb"gc gygs w`tf b f`mt le orlwm rlumh fgr !u!`c, b sc`k e`iurg
bmh bm lutil`mi !grslmbc`ty.=g kgt g`ift ygbrs bil tl tf`s hby. Absubccy wbs
wbcn`mi flkg, ngg!`mi kysgce tl kysgce, wfgm suhhgmcy b
c`ttcg fukbm ouk!gh `mtl kg. Qfg fbh hrl!!gh fgr obi lm tfg
ecllr bmh gvgrytf`mi fbh ilmg ecy`mi, rb!`hcy sfg stbrtgh tl
b!lcli`"g. f`ssgh bt fgr tfgm turmgh brlumh bmh wbcngh lm.
h`hmt rgbccy tf`mn kuaf le fgr, umt`c tfg mgOt hby wfgm sbw
fgr bib`m luts`hg b c`ttcg af`chs h`sbocgh agmtrg. tfgm rgbc`sghsfg vlcumtggrgh tl clln betgr af`chrgm cgss elrtumbtg tfbm
fgrsgce. lu sfluchvg sggm fgr, fgr sk`cg wbrkgh tfg c`ttcg
n`hs fgbrts. Qfg kbhg tfgk cbuif bmh sk`cg. =fgm sbw tf`s,
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ky !grag!t`lm le agrtb`m fukbms afbmigh. egct tfbt fukbms
wgrg ab!bocg le abr`mi bmh mlt og`mi sgce`sf bs tfgy mlrkbccy
brg.
fbh abuift fgr bttgmt`lm, bmh sfg abkg lut le tfg
agmtrg bmh stbrtgh tl tbcn tl kg. :b!!`cy afbttgh oban# 4rlk
tfgm wg ?ust ac`angh, tfgm ilt fgr b ?lo bt '`arl-=bys.
Betgr tfbt wg ?ust ogabkg c`ng s`stgrs. =g wgmt tl
gbaf ltfgrs flusgs, sfl! tligtfgr bmh c`vgh tligtfgr. clvg
fgr tl o`ts. :lwgvgr, tfg `kklrtbcs sby hlmt igt tll bttbafgh
tl fukbms ogabusg tfgy w`cc orgbn ylur fgbrt. Bcsl, tfgyvg
bcwbys sb`h tfbt fukbms brg ellh, mlt er`gmhs. ts mlt trug#
e`ift tfg tf`rst elr ecgsf gvgry hby.Bmh `t `s b e`ift, ogabusg ?ust rgagmtcy ilt acgbm le
fukbm ecgsf. usgh tl og egbrgh.
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Oba `m !"#gkogr
2$%:
$ur`mi tfg *7+)s, wgmt oy tfg mbkg tfg N:ygmb, ogabusg
fygmbs arumaf tfrluif olmgs bmh str`! tfg`r v`at`ks acgbm.
E:lw abm ylu og abccgh tfg :ygmb, wfgm tfgy fumt `m
!bansHI ylu k`ift bsn.
=gcc, wbs bclmg - fbh ml lmg tl fumt w`tf, gvgm
lvgrclln`mi tfg ebat tfbt $gklms abmt og bmywfgrg mgbr gbaf
ltfgr. 2ut `t wbs illh tl og abccgh tfbt - `t ilt !gl!cg tf`mn`mi,
wlmhgr`mi bmh egbr`mi kg.
%fg mbkg st`cc fbumts kg tl tf`s hby. Guoy fbs ml `hgb
le wfbt bk, flwgvgr !cbm tl tgcc fgr tlm`ift ogabusg `ts mlt
eb`r tfbt sfg sfluch !lur fgr fgbrt lut tl kg wf`cg eggh fgr
c`gs bolut kg.
w`cc - bk il`mi tl tgcc fgr tlm`ift. =fbt fbvg ilttl og berb`h leH =gcc, b!brt erlk cls`mi ky ogst er`gmh,
mltf`mi#
%fg :ygmb. =fbt w`cc sfg tf`mn le kg og`mi b kbss kurhgrgrH
Betgr ky 'uk bmh s`stgrs hgbtf bmh ky $bhs h`sb!!gbr`mi
bat wgmt lee tfg rb`cs, umalmtrlccbocg, v`a`lus bmh tfg wlrst.
Ql clst.
fbh ml lmg tl abrg elr kg bmh sby, E
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fumt`mi `m tfg hbrn bmywby ogabusg `t ibvg kg klrg le b tfr`cc,
le tfg fukbms fgbrts !lumh`mi bt tfg tfluift le kg. t kbhg
kg wbmt tl egbst klrg.
Ql ng!t lm il`mi h`hmt stl! elr b orgbn. t wgmt
lm elr tfrgg klmtfs. kust fbvg n`ccgh tflusbmhs le !gl!cg.
clvgh `t, mgvgr wbmtgh tl stl!# 'y ebag wbs alvgrgh `m ocllh,
ocllh rumm`mi tfrluif ky e`migrs. 2gst le bcc tfg wbrk eggc`mi
le ecgsf sarb!`mi sclwcy hlwm ky tfrlbt, le tfg ocllh !uk!`mi
tfrluif ky vg`ms. t egct c`ng wbs `m fgbvgm.
=fbt b c`eg fbh oban tfgm# aluch hl wfbt wbmtgh,
og wfbt wbmtgh, bmh gbt wfbt wbmtgh.
%fgm `t bcc stl!!gh `m *7+*. wbs lm b vgry suaagsseucfumt. `cc mi, cbuif`mi, ml eggc`mis `mvlcvgh. Kmbwbrg,
slkglmg suhhgmcy abkg u! ogf`mh kg orlng ky cgis `m twl#
Qmb!!gh ky brks sl tfgy wgrg !l`mt`mi h`eegrgmt wbys bmh
v`lcgmtcy tw`stgh ky mgan# alccb!sgh tl tfg ecllr, ky wflcg
olhy c`ng ?gccy, bmh tfgm ocbangh lut.
wlng u! `m orlbh hbyc`ift.
sargbkgh bt tfg tl! le ky rltt`mi cumis. Zbm`an`mi tr`gh tl klvg out wbs afb`mgh tl b wbcc, w`tf fgbvy, hbumt`mi
afb`ms tfbt wluchmt cgt kg il. stl!!gh sargbk`mi oy tfgm,
out wbs st`cc try`mi tl orgbn ergg erlk tfg afb`ms.
2y mlw wbs stbrt`mi tl eggc ky sn`m ourm erlk tfg
sum - mlw stbrtgh tl !bm`a. h`hmt wbmt tl h`g erlk tfg sum.
=fbt wbs il`mi lmH
ut tfg alrmgr le ky gyg sbw slkg irggm eumi` cy`migcgibmtcy lm tfg ecllr. Bs cgbmgh elrwbrh tl igt b ogttgr
icbmag, slkgtf`mi rusfgh bt kg irboogh ky ?bw bmh elragh `t
l!gm, tfgm h`rgatcy betgr tfbt stueegh `t hlwm ky tfrlbt.
t tbstgh bweuc/ `t stbrtgh b e`gry sgmsbt`lm hlwm ky
tfrlbt. tr`gh tl e`ift tfg elrag out `t wbs tll strlmi - wflgvgr
tf`s wbs, wbmtgh kg sl obhcy.
fbt elr wlmhgrgh tl kysgce. bs tf`s pgrslm
pcby`mi tr`ans w`tf ky k`mh H`h tfgy kgmtbccy wfbt kg tl il`msbmg
Bs rgcuatbmtcy swbcclwgh tfg eumi`, tfg !grslm
vbm`sfgh. h`hmt umhgrstbmh. =fy wbsmt tfg sum beegat`mi
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kg mlwH %fgm rgbc`sgh - tf`s h`siust`mi eumius wbs stl!!`mi
kg erlk turm`mi tl bsf# %fgrg wbs b wby aluch afgbt
sumc`ift, ygs# 5lw aluch n`cc `m oltf tfg hby bmh tfg m`ift.
%fgm, tfg e`iurg b!!gbrgh bib`m. :g f`ssgh bt kg bmh
sb`h, Elurg mgvgr il`mi tl og n`cc`mi fukbms gvgr bib`m#I
wbs !u""cgh, mgvgr fbh kgt tf`s kbm ogelrg out ygt
fg wbmtgh tl fgc! kg. 5l lmg fbh gvgr tr`gh tl fgc! kg ogelrg,
ogabusg ml lmg abrgh gmluif bolut kg. %fg kbm wbs r`ift u!
`m ky ebag. :g fbh or`ift orlwm fb`r bmh iclw`mi, lrbmig gygs
tfbt wgrg tfg sbkg alclur le b rbi`mi e`rg, bmh b c`ift !bstgc
sn`m alclur. :g wbs vgry fbmhslkg `mhggh.
%f`s kbm fbh oclwm ky orgbtf bwby# =g ib"gh `mtlgbaf ltfgrs gygs elr b sgalmh, out tfgm orlng tfg almmgat`lm
bmh bsngh f`k wfbt f`s mbkg wbs.
EAlchgm,I fg sb`h, `m b fusny, alk!gcc`mi vl`ag. h`h
mlt rgalim`sg tfg mbkg.
:g wbs r`ift u! `m ky ebag/ fg irboogh ky ?bw,
klv`mi `t cget tl r`ift, u! bmh hlwm. Bs `e fg wbs clln`mi elr
slkgtf`mi. :`s fbmhs wgrg rluif out fg klvgh kg u! bmh
hlwm igmtcy.&lh, fg wbs trucy fbmhslkg.
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:g turmgh brlumh bt kg bmh cbuifgh. Flw fg hbrg
"ugst`lm ky ogbuty! bmir`cy tfluift. gt tf`s kbhg kg klrg
hgtgrk`mgh tl fbvg f`k.
:g fgch f`s fbmh u! tl ky ebag bmh sb`h, EBmh wfgm
sbw ylu `mstbmtcy ogabkg bttrbatgh tl ylu, Bmmb Acbws.I
%fgm sflutgh oban, Elu c`br# Qtl! !cby`mi ibkgs#I
E2gc`gvg wfbt ylu wbmt, Bmmb Acbws.I
Bctfluif sus!gatgh fg wbs cy`mi, ky fgbrt stbrtgh
ogbt`mi tgm tl b hl"gm bmh aluch fgbr f`s fgbrt !`an`mi u! b
ogbt. :g cllngh bt kg bmh ibvg kg b fbce sk`cg bmh sb`h,
EQclw ylur fgbrt hlwm Bmmb, ltfgrw`sg cc stbrt tl tf`mn tfbt
ylu fbvg ogalkg bttrbatgh tl kg.I :g tfgm wbcngh bwby.%fgm ogcclwgh, Egbf, wgcc ylurg wrlmi. hlmt
ebmay ylu# =fl wluchHI %fgm wg`rhcy b klumt`mi sk`cg
b!!gbrgh lm ky ebag, tf`s kbm Alchgm wbs !cby`mi ibkgs bmh
wbs sclwcy stbrt`mi tl !cby tfgk tll. gt, egct slkgtf`mi elr
tf`s lmg scy kbm, wf`af vg mgvgr egct elr bmyolhy `m ky
wflcg gmt`rg gO`stgmag# =bs tf`s flw ylu egct wfgm ylu wgrg
ebcc`mi `m clvgH
%fgm fg sb`h, EBmmb Acbws, ylur trb`m`mi tl og fukbmbib`m stbrts#I
egct sabrgh out fb!!y ogabusg gvgm nmgw wbs il`mi
tl il tfrluif :gcc, bt cgbst wluch og w tf tfg gvgr-sl
fbmhslkg kbm Alchgm. :g ybmngh tfg afb`ms lee tfg wbcc bmh
sb`h, EQtbmh.I
=b`t b sgalmh# :lw fbh fg ?ust !uccgh tflsg afb`ms
lee le tfbt wbccH :g aluchmt og b $gklm, sl fg kust fbvgoggm b Fbk!`rg# ng!t tf`s almacus`lm tl kysgce. 5lw, clvgh
og`mi `m f`s alk!bmy out bt tf`s !l`mt `m t`kg custgh elr ocllh
lvgr cust`mi elr b kbm.
wbs ergg/ kbhg b ;u`an hbsf elr `t out ogelrg fbh
gvgm klvgh tgm ybrhs Alchgm fbh irboogh ky fb`r bmh !uccgh
kg oban tl wfgrg tfg afb`ms wgrg. :g sb`h, Elurg il`mi tl
fbvg tl cgbrm tfg fbrh wby,I `m b vgry er`iftgm`mi out sghuat`vg
wby.=f`cg fg wbs !ucc`mi kg oban sargbkgh, E> lee le
kg# Cgbvg kg bclmg#I
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Betgr tfbt, fg elragh kg hlwm bmh sb`h, EC`stgm tl kg,
i`rc/ ylurg il`mi tl hl wfbt tgcc ylu hl tl. r gcsg JI
Cbuif`mi, sb`h, E=fbt aluch ylu !lss`ocy hl tl us
su!gr`lr $gklmsH lurg ?ust b c`ttcg Fbk!`rg.I
:g t`ctgh f`s fgbh tl lmg s`hg bmh tfgm !ut f`s ebag
r`ift `m erlmt le k`mg. :g wbs sl aclsg aluch eggc f`s orgbtf
gOfbc`mi lm ky ebag. %fgm fg sb`h, EBmmb Acbws, aluch hl
tf`mis ogylmh ylur `kbi`mbt`lm. bk mlt ?ust bm lrh`mbry
Fbk!`rg wfl `s usgcgss. bk `k!lrtbmt bmh k tfg lmcy
!grslm wfl abm sbvg ylu erlk og`mi wfbt ylu hlmt wbmt tl
og.I
:`s twl fbmhs mlw igmtcy fgch ky ebag, bmh fg sb`h,EBmmb, hl ylu mlt wbmt tl og mlrkbc bmh tl og bocg tl clvgHI
'y orgbtf`mi rbagh sl ebst tfbt Alchgm tr`gh tl sclw `t
hlwm. Zrlk!tcy, sb`h, EZcgbsg fgc! kg, Alchgm/ wfbtgvgr
try tl hl tl orgbn ylur rucgs, !um`sf kg sl tfbt abm cgbrm bmh
mgvgr hl `t bib`m. Zcus, lov`luscy wbmt tl cgbrm flw tl clvg.I
Bt tf`s klkgmt `m t`kg wbs sl fb!!y tl fbvg bm
lvgr!lwgr`mi, sgOy bmh acgvgr kbm w`tf kg. Bs lur stbrg
hgg!gmgh, fg ;u`ancy turmgh f`s fgbh bwby bmh hrl!!gh f`sbrks erlk ky ebag bmh stllh u!.
wbs stummgh. Fbk!`rgs wgrg lur `kklrtbc gmgk`gs,
ygt wbs hgvgcl!`mi bm gvgr-irlw`mi beegat`lm elr lmg le
tfgk. :lw aluch fbvg oggm ebcc`mi `m clvg w`tf lur gtgrmbc
gmgkyH 5lrkbccy, wfgm fgbrh tfg wlrh NFbk!`rg wluch
fbvg butlkbt`abccy turmgh `mtl ky $gklm elrk bmh tr`gh tl r`!
bmytf`mi b!brt. 2ut h`hmt fbvg bm urig tl r`! f`k b!brt - `t?ust kbhg kg klrg bttrbatgh tl f`k. wbmtgh f`s fgc!.
ogiigh f`k, E hlmt wbmt tl og b klmstgr. wbmt `t
tl og flw `t wbs ogelrg ky ebk`cy wgrg tbngm bwby erlk kg.
ZcgbsgHI
E%fbts wfy k fgrg Bmmb Acbws, tl fgc! ylu, mlt
!um`sf ylu elr wfbt ylu brg. k b klmstgr tll#I
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&bmubry
2$%2
t wbs tfg elurtggmtf hby w`tf Alchgm, bmh `t wbs b vgry um-
elrigttbocg hby. fbh ?ust wlngm u! wfgm sbw Alchgms eggt
stbmh`mi `m erlmt le kg. h`hmt tf`mn fg nmgw wbs bwbng
ygt. :bh fg oggm stbmh`mi fgrg wbtaf`mi kg, bmh try`mi tl
!rltgat kgH e wfbt wbs tf`mn`mi wbs rgbc tfgm egct s!ga`bc
bmh fb!!y `ms`hg.
=f`cg strgtafgh, cllngh oban bmh sbw ml eggt
stbmh`mi tfgrg. $`h fg mlt wbmt kg tl nmlw tfbt fg fbh oggm
stbmh`mi tfgrg, su!!lsghcy !rltgat`mi kgH =bs fg sflw`mi b
sgargt beegat`lm elr kgH
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fb!!`mgss hlgsmt cbst elrgvgr ogabusg tfgrg wbs b kbss`vg abr
arbsf tfbt w`!gh lut ky 'uk bmh s`stgr.I
aluch eggc kysgce stbrt tl wgcc u! bmh Alchgm aluch
sgmsg `t tll. Qletcy, fg sb`h, E$lmt ary Bmmb Acbws, !cgbsgH
k fgrg elr ylu.I
KmgO!gatghcy bmh scycy fg irboogh ky fbmh. Bs fg
irboogh ky fbmh wg oltf cllngh bt lmg bmltfgr bmh tfgm
`kkgh`btgcy orlng erlk f`s irbs!. %fgm fg tlch kg tl abrry
lm.
E wbs hgvbstbtgh oy tfg clss le ky lmcy ebk`cy bmh
ky $bh cgbv`mi kg bt suaf b ylumi big. %fgm wgmt lm b
rbk!big, n`cc`mi `mmlagmt fukbms. Cuan`cy, betgr b egw klmtfsylu sbw kg bmh ylu fbvg afbmigh ky c`eg, s`mag. 2ban tfgm
h`hmt abrg elr tfg fukbms out mlw rgbc`sg tfgrg w`cc bcwbys
og b acluh le iu`ct fbmi`mi lvgr kg. t w`cc mgvgr il bwby, w`cc
`t, AlchgmHI
Et hg!gmhs, Bmmb/ `t hg!gmhs lm flw kuaf iu`ct bmh
rgklrsg ylu eggc. Zcus, ylu w`cc mgvgr hl `t bib`m. 4rlk mlw
lm ylu w`cc try tl fgc! fukbms bmh hgstrly klmstgrs.I
%fgm sbt u! bmh sb`h, E hl eggc iu`ct bmh rgklrsgstrlmicy, out hlmt tf`mn wlmt gvgr og bocg tl hl `t bib`m#I
Alchgm tfgm sbt u! bmh sb`h EQgg BmmbH %fbts wfy
ylurg fgrg, umt`c ylu brg surg tfbt ylu w`cc mgvgr n`cc bib`m
bmh tfbt ylu eggc gklt`lms bmh clvg. =gcc tf`mn tfbt ylu abm
eggc tfbt bcrgbhy.I Bs fg sb`h tfbt fg ibvg kg b scy w`mn bmh
stbrtgh tl ocusf.
%fgm bsngh f`k, E=fbts ylur stlry tfgm, AlchgmHIE=gcc Bmmb, ylu hlmt mggh tl wlrry bolut tfbt. lu
w`cc e`mh lut sllm gmluif.I
EQl ylurg mlt il`mi tl tgcc kg betgr ?ust !lurgh ky
fgbrt lut tl yluHI
EBmmb, hlmt wlrry, flmgstcy. lucc e`mh lut `m ygbrs
tl alkg.I
E=fls tl sby wgrg il`mi tl og w`tf gbaf ltfgr `m b
egw ygbrs t`kgHIE=gcc abm gbs`cy brrbmig `t, Bmmb Acbws.I %fg wby
fg sb`h wbs vgry grlt`a bmh kystgr`lus. :lw aluch fg brrbmig
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tfbtH Kmcgss, fg wluch kbng kg stby fgrg elrgvgr. @ust kg bmh
f`k, elr gtgrm`ty. =luch tfbt rgbccy fbvg oggmH
Cbtgr lm tfbt hby, fg wbs tgbaf`mi kg tl `imlrg ky
ocllh cust. :g wbs hl`mi tf`s oy autt`mi f`s lwm sn`m w`tf b
c`ttcg rlan bmh hr`!!`mi `t lmtl tfg ecllr `m erlmt le kg. fbtgh
vbk!`rg ocllh flwgvgr, bmy ocllh bt tf`s klkgmt `m t`kg
wluch fbvg cgh kg tl !brbh`sg. %fg tgst wbs tl sgg `e wluch
ec`maf, lr gvgm clln bt tfg ocllh. :g bcsl wbmtgh tl sgg `e
wluch afbmig `mtl ky $gklm elrk bmh orgbn ergg erlk tfg
afb`ms. Bmh tfgm !lss`ocy rbvgmluscy hr`mn f`s ocllh bmh gbt
f`k bctligtfgr#
Qtbmh`mi oy b rlan, fg wbs mlw r`ift `m erlmt le kgautt`mi f`ksgce. Kmelrtumbtgcy, ky gygs wgrg sgbcgh lm f`s
ocllh sclwcy tr`anc`mi erlk f`s clvgcy !bstgc sn`m. =fgm `t
hr`!!gh lmtl tfg ecllr tfg slumh v`orbtgh sl cluhcy tfrluif ky
gbrs, egct bs `e ky gbrs wgrg il`mi tl !l! c`ng b ouoocg#
stbrtgh tl ogalkg rgstcgss bmh turmgh ky fgbh cget bmh r`ift,
clln`mi gvgrywfgrg tfbt aluch tfbt wbs bwby erlk tfg ocllh.
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rgcbOgh bs wb`tgh elr f`s c`!s tl ogalkg clangh lm k`mg.
wbs rgbhy elr `k!bat, out egct mltf`mi.
mstgbh fg cllngh bt kg bmh sb`h, E=g fbvg bm
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