Volume 6: Wisdom

7/30/2019 Volume 6: Wisdom

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Wisdom

By

Abby Humphries


2/51

Table of Contents

Our Separate Ways

Photo by:miggslives

Comfort and Caution

Photo by: alice313

Like a WomanPhoto by:Alaskan Dude

AstrangedPhoto by:Amanda Autumn

Restless Thoughts

Photo by:Alyssa L. Miller

Stranded

Photo by: ronsaunders47

This is the Truth

Photo by:Rhys A.

Coffee Pot

Photo by:Richard Masoner / Cyclelicious

Era Lost

Photo by:jinterwas

Expressiveness

Photo by:DBerry2006

Gave it Up

Photo by:delicategenius

Grasped

Photo by:sydney g

Delusional

Photo by:steph-uh-nini

Overdrawn

Photo by: lfhams_vkingur

Shock Waves

Photo by:NASA Goddard Photo and Video

Ambitious

Photo by: marc falardeau

Going to the MoonPhoto by:NSHabsfan4life

For the BetterPhoto by: the Italian voice

Hearts Heal

Photo by:Neal.

My Dreams

Photo by: Sweet Asian

Someone

Photoby:Diana TrifilFly Away

Photo by: celine nadeau

Second Chances

Photo by:Alyssa L. Miller

About Time

Photo by: SurrealisticSoother

It Hurts to Know

Photo by:Tom (hmm a rosa tint)

Guilty

Photo by: Cpt

You Only See Your Own Side

Photo by:Ed Yourdon

Cultivation

Photo by:D H Wright

Fan the FlamePhoto by:Easa Shamih (iZZo) P.h.o.t.o.g.r.a.p.h.y

ConcentrationPhoto by:Jnos Balzs

Making Progress

Photo by:Bryn Pinzgauer

Denying Respect

Photo by:shutterhacks

Looking Back

Photo by:brdonovan

Commitment

Photo by: hectorir

The More We Know

Photo by:Monica Arellano-Ongpin

No Boundary

Photo by:Alexis Fam Photography

Various Degrees

Photo by:renaissancechambara

Fearing the Worst

Photo by:Jimee, Jackie, Tom & Asha

Pushing it Down

Photo by:JenavieveMarie

Silver Sliver

Photo by: mindfulness

Impulsive

Photo by:Life Mental Health

The Real Me

Photo by: laudu

My Reserve

Photo by:Steve Snodgrass

Patience

Photo by:Jeffrey

FlatteryPhoto by:cliff1066TM

How I FeelPhoto by:Ellipsis-Imagery

Astray

Photo by:eioua

Wisdom

Photo by:zigazou76

TemptationPhoto by:~Ealasaid~

Title PagePhoto by:Rob Young
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3/51

Our Seperate Ways

I still don't know

What I should think

What do you want me

To think?

Are we only friends?

Now that we have done

What we have done?Now that there are

Things left undone?

Now that we have said

All that we have said

Now that there are

Things left unsaid?

What is there to think?

I've told you what I think

What I've thought about

And there's still moreWaiting to be said

Waiting to be heard

Waiting to be felt

As though maybe

If I am lucky

You might tell me how you feel

As though maybe

This was the deal

That we'd goOur seperate ways


4/51

Like A Woman

I'm trying to remember

What it was

That made me remember

How sweet it was

In September

How cool

The nights wereDays still like summer

Sticky and humid

Hot and dry

I couldn't squeeze

A tear drop

From my eye

Maybe it was

The white dress

I wore to bed that night

Still in my bagStill wish I had

Some reason

To wear it again

It's just another

White dress

That makes me feel

Like a woman

Just like how you

Made me feelLike a woman


5/51

Restless Thoughts

My mind is elsewhere

Drifting from this place

Leaving on short notice

Taking a vaccation

Destination unknown

Departing on a whim

Catch your breath

Dive and swimSomething in the air

At a certain time of year

Your heart calling you

To somewhere

You never imagined yourself

To go; to be

Allowing yourself

To float

In a dream stateWhere you're free

Cautiously

And slowly

Merging from unconciousness

To wakefulness

Involuntarily


6/51

This is the Truth

I don't know

How you manage

To make it seem

Like I wanted

Something more

When I could have

Had something elseAnd I chose this

Because it is

What it is

The way you want it

Whatever you decide

I ask you to call the shots

And make the calls

Because nobody

Really falls

In love at first sight

Not overnight

And the only way

To do this right

Is to make up

For that fight

The one that made you

Want to rethink this

And I said I

Wouldn't blame youIf you wanted to

Rethink this

Because I wanted

To make sure

That you were sure

That it was something

That you wanted

I know it was somethingThat I wanted

And the truth is

That I still want this


7/51

Era Lost

Originality

On a thin thread

As though the spool

Has dropped into the pool

Half loaded

On Jack Daniels

Southern Comfort

Southkeys Key Lime

Lemonade and Vodka

Unable to think

Of a witty remark

Saved from a shark

Deep end diving

Marco Polo

No running on the deck

Time to take a head count

Buddy system never fails

Splitting sundaes and gingerailsChocolate popsicles

Dripping down our fingers

Sticky fingers

Touching everything

On the way to the sink

It really makes me think

Of the first time I ever

Drank Dr.Pepper pop

The summer I never wanted

To see the end of

Another era lost

Like a faded sunburn

When I thought

That sting

Would last

Like everything

That kept changing


8/51

Gave it Up

I gave it up

To give you a chance

Because you gave me

A purpose

A reason to be

Happy

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

And you are my blue skyAfter the grey

Has gone away

You give me sails

To sail away

Only with you

The only love

My heart has known

You are my very own

Skin and boneMy bloodline

You'll never be alone


9/51

Delusional

I hope you feel betterBy making me feel worse

I hope it makes you happy

I hope you feel good

And that it was all worth it

Because you are the center

Of your own universe

You are the king

Of your world

A world I wouldn't wantTo live in

To visit

To be or to have

Any part of

You live with delusions

In your head

You forget

That other people

Might have needs, too

But in the endThe only one you think of

Is you


10/51

Shock Waves

If you had only

Made it clear to me

From the start

I would have been

More at ease

Now I cannot

Be at easeWith the way things are

Between us now

I keep thinking back

To when it started

Too fast

For both of us

We didnt give each other

A fair chance

You hardly know me

But you dont likeHow you think I am

We havent talked

For quite a while

And this shock

Is what I read

How you really feel

About me now

You wouldnt tell me

That it was getting this badAnd I really wish you had


11/51

Going to the Moon

Most of your friends

Didnt even knowYou were dating

When you were dating

I think you were ashamed

To admit it

From the very start

I still want to be a part

Of your life

I know

I will never get married

And you asked me

What would happen

If you asked me

Two years down the road

I was hoping that wed last

Two years down the road

I told you

That Id think about it

Your daughter told me

That she hopedThat wed get married

I didnt know what to say

I knew it was too soonTo think about that

Id have the same chance

Of going to the moon

Than I have of getting married

Of finding romance

Of a man

Asking me to dance

A slow dance

I have the same chance

Of this

Than I will ever have

Of even another kiss

Of bliss


12/51

Hearts Heal

After next

All I know

Is that this pain

Wont last forever

Wont last the rest

Of my life

Because something will

Come up for me

ProbablyWill come up for you

Before it does for me

I know I am not perfect

I wanted to be

Good enough for you

This hurts me

More than it hurts you

I gave you the choice

And you made your choice

I saved your messagesOn my answering machine

To hear your voice

To hear you tell me

That you love me

Even though

You dont love me

Anymore


13/51

Someone

I used to have

Something important

Something that made me

Feel important

I used to have

Someone to love

Someone I wantedTo love

Whom I wanted

Love from

I used to have

Someone to talk to

Someone to listen

Someone to care

About what went on

In my life

I used to have

Something special

I wanted to make him

Feel special

And I wanted

To feel special, too


14/51

Second Chances

I know it was my fault

I have admitted it

All this time

I have felt guiltyI still feel guilty

And there is nothing

I can doTo get you back

You dont want me back

Even if I make up for

What I lack

Even if I cut you slack

You cannot find it

In your heart

To forgive me

To give me

A second chanceEven though

Id forgive you

If I were you

And Id give you

A second chance

It hurt to read those words

Because I thought

That you felt the same

About meAs I did about you

I thought that there

Was still hope

Of getting back together

And I know that you

Have lost hope

Because youGave up hope

And now

I can only hope

That one day

You will be happy

With someone

Even if that someone

Isnt me


15/51

It Hurts to Know

It hurts to know how you really

Feel About me

You make it seem as though it was

All my fault

I cannot and I will notTake all the blame; All the guilt

You may as well have spit in my

face

Torn out my heart

And shoved it down my throat

Sans Rootbeer float

All I can do to keep myself afloat

As you push me out of your boat

Under icy waves

Retribution being

The only thing that saves

My final breath

For you alone

So you can walk away

And tell everyone

How I cannot comprehend

When you are the one

Who does not comprehend

What I was fighting to keep aliveNow I'm fighting to stay alive

My heart is breaking all over

Again!

Except this time I will not cry

Because I cannot cry over this

I will not cry over thisYou hurt me this time

And I won't forget how much it

Hurts; Even now; Especially now

But I'll show you

Just how strong I can be

When I learn to be strong

I don't care if you ever

Figure out where you went wrong

I don't care if you ever

Say you're sorry

It won't mean much to me

Just like when

You told me you loved me

How can I believe you

When you told me

That you'd always be there for me

And now you just add insults

To injury

I hope you're happyNow that you've hurt me


16/51

You Only See Your Own Side

I wanted to work it out

You couldn't wait

To get me outOf your heart, of your head

Of your bed, of your life

You said that you'd always be there

You shouldn't have said that

It wasn't fair

Knowing that you don't care

Now I don't care

And I don't want to be there

But I said that I'd go

And now I have to goWhy couldn't you get it over with

So much earlier

Why'd you have to wait

Until I fell for you?

To pull the carpet

Out from under my feet?

Why'd you have to be so sweet?

I think it was a trick and the only treat

This pain and deceit


17/51

Fan the Flame

Why should I

Even want to talk to you?

After what you said about me?

I still thought you cared about me

I know you don't love meI was too blind

Out of love for you

To see clearly

At the beginning

Because I felt like I was winning

I felt the best I had in years

Until the doubt

Dug up my fears

Now these fears

Have been confirmed

Another lesson has been learned

Even hearts that have yearned and yearned

Get tossed into enfernos

Where they burned

Why don't you just light the match

Fan the flame

Because I know

You have no shame


18/51

Making Progress

In life we learn

We yearn

For a certain stimulation

Through experience

We are taughtWhat we ought

To do

What we ought

Not to do

And we can learn

From example

From our own example

And from the example

Others set for us

Because they learnSome lessons before us

We can learn

Many lessons

Before we have to experience

These for ourselves

But these lessons we all learn

Are designed to teach each other

And ourselves

So that we can continueTo make progress


19/51

Looking Back

I am trying

To find

My center calm

I realize

That the answers

Won't be before my eyes

Won't fit in the palmOf my hand

I won't be able to see

As clearly

Because these answers

Are hard to look for

Because I didn't know

What to look for

I didn't know where to look

There is no book

Of instructionsTo get back on track

To get onto the right track

But once I do

There won't be any

Looking back


20/51

The More We Know

The more we know

The more we grow

The more we learn

To go with the flow

I don't believe

In a pot of gold

At the end of a rainbowBut I do believe

That we receive

The rewards

Of contant effort

Of commitment to change

Of commitment to growth

We shall reap

What we sew

The seeds that grow

In our soulsBut it's not enough

To plant these seeds

Without nurture

Without deep contemplation

Deep consideration

You must contemplate

Your reason for doing

Anything

If you want to seriouslyConsider anything


21/51

Various Degrees

There are various degrees of nature

Disposition and dispondancy

Achievement and accuracy

Now that I'm in

A better frame of mind

I can look at things differently

ObjectivelyRather than subjectively

I don't have to be

So sensitive to criticism

Because they are

Just opinions

They are opportunities

For growth

For development

For change

And I have to look at themThat way

Rather than

A personal attack

A judgement

Of what I lack

That I always have

Chances to make up for

And I'm glad

That I can now realizeWhat I hadn't before


22/51

Pushing it Down

My mind wanders

Lack of sleep

I cannot keep my mind off

Recent events

It's almost as if I asked for it to

happenIt would not have happened

If I did not let it happen

I have to learn how to value myself

As a woman should

Only if I could

Maybe I would

If I felt like I was worth it I won't

Cry, but my eyes are dry

That night slipped by; over tooquick and I was sick

This morning

In front of a building

I don't even live in

I couldn't keep it all in

I had to sit for a while

Think about things

About where my life is going

Soon it will be snowing

How we can do these thingswithout knowing

How we can do these things

Without showing

An ounce of regret

Because it's a secret

Pushing it down

DenialAs deep in the heart

As it will get

But I haven't forgotten yet


23/51

Impulsive

My desire

Stronger than

What I aspire

To achieve

I had longed

To receive

A reasonTo believe

That I was the one

You wanted

Now I will be haunted

By memories

For centuries

If my soul lives

Longer than I will

Because I have no

Free will

I wake up

To swallow

Another pill

Sit up on the window sill

Because if this doesn't

Numb me

Stupid, dumb me

Nothing

Ever will


24/51

My Reserve

How can two friends?

Make amends?

And still be friends?

After coming

To odd ends?

My reserve

Should have doneIts job

It defends

Protection

Without projection

Why did I have to

Be there?

Beside you?

Why'd I have to

Let you?

I know I'm not strongAs strong

As I should be

I know it was wrong

But it's just another

Break-your-heart

Song

Maybe I stayed

Too long

But I'm not readyTo say So long


25/51

Flattery

He told me not to think

Of it as more than it was

Because

It was nothing more than what it was

Loneliness

Comes at different times

To everyone

What was said was said

What was done has been doneI just have to chalk it up

To genuine stupidity

Because I knew

From the get-go

He didn't want me

And even if he could see

Why I did what I have done

It wouldn't matter

It was nothing but flatteryAnd it should not matter to me


26/51

Astray

I should be feeling good

Instead of this feeling of

Disbelief

Angst and grief

I have to take some time

To get over my crimeI can't punish myself

Not this time

Because it could have been worse

A million times worse

And I could feel worse

Than I already do

Maybe he does

And he has a lot to think about

I have a lot to think about

And figure out

Even when I want to make out

I have to stake out my heart

So that it doesn't tear me apart

I lead myself astray

Each and ever day

Because I don't have the guts to

say that I'm done for the day

And find my own way

Now I will have to payThe price I always pay

When I lead myself astray

Living in my filthy ashtray

I can only hope and pray

That I don't become the prey

I'm safer at home anyway

A lot safer alone; Safer that wayThen I could really say

That at least I stayed away

From leading myself astray

Just like the other day


27/51

Temptation

Mustard maniac

Ketchup on eggs

Onions and pickles

Round holes

And square pegs

So much pain

That I never want

To do it againTemptation a tease

Nobody sees

The insecurities

When they have

Their own priorities

Their own vulnerabilities

I used to cry

Hugging my knees

My back up against the wallNothing ever mattered at all

Or maybe it mattered

Just too much

It was all just too much

And I used to pray

For that touch

Because I used to want

To be worth

That much


28/51

Comfort and Caution

It was the warmth

I was after

That I sought

Comfort

Was all I wanted

A peace of mind

I wasn't hoping to findAnother way to escape

There should have been

Red tape

There should have been

Some cautionary measure

I should have put the wall up

Used it as a shield

A barrier

On the other side of the line

I should have had my limits

The guilt isn't yours

It is mine

And when I think

About these things

I think

I will loose my mind

Because I know I will never find

A reasonable excuse

I could have putThese thoughts to better use


29/51

Astranged

How did a friendly

Suggestion

Become

Regression?

After I had startedTo make some

Progress?

And I was finally

Starting to see

My strengths

And weaknesses?

And every

Part of me

That needs

To be changedAnd carefully

Rearranged

So that I don't become

Astranged

To my life

To myself


30/51

Stranded

Why do I cause myself

Such stress?

Put myself

Under duress?

How'd I get myselfInto this mess?

I have to get

It off my chest

And keep hoping

For the best

Give it all a rest

Before I put myself

Up to another test

A test that I will fail

I want to jump

Over that rail

Grab the tiger

By the tail

Learn to fly

At full sail

Get a million dollars

In the mail

Or just feel

Like a million dollarsRunaway

On the lam

I want to be better

Than this letter

Scarlet letter

On my foreheadStamped and branded

My heart broke

When I landed

When I discovered

That I was stranded

Judgement day

Has been remanded

Nobody handed

Me this opportunity

I created my own

Design

I need to resign

Because

I have received a sign

That all my decisions

Are mine


31/51

Coffee Pot

You look hot

Coffee pot

Hamburger for breakfast

I can smell

That breakfast smellAs far as I can tell

It will do you very well

I won't tell

If you don't tell

We may as well

Just forget

I wish I could forget

I already regret

Not following through

On the goals I had set

Coffee too hot

In my stomach

Walking home

Early morning rain

Now I'm going insane

When it was really plain

To see

That I'm the one

Who causes meMy anxiety

And secretly

I wanted it to be

More of my fantasy

Even though

It will never beAnything

Healthy

For me


32/51

Expressiveness

One more for the road

Because I'm in that mode

When I start this expressiveness

Creativity

It's hard for me; To stop

I go over the top

I am too open

Like a flower always in bloomInviting my doom

Scared of the gloom

Of winter arriving

Silver on white

Bare trees

The things nobody sees

A particular spot

Lost from my thought

Whatever caught

My eyeAs I was passing by

I always gave

That game a try

Pointless as it is

Nobody will miss

What they don't know

What they don't see

What they don't care

Enough about To think aboutOne day

That will be a game

Someone will play

Passing by my grave

One day after I am old

And grey

And there won't be

Anything left to say


33/51

Grasped

What are promises

If they are not worth

Keeping for yourself?

When you go to sleepWhen you should be

Waking up?

When you have

Coffee in your cup

And beer in your gut?

I don't have the guts

To avoid

Even paper cuts

Because I am a stupid clutz

And I stumbleIn my own ruts

There are no ifs or buts

Astray full of cigarette butts

When will I say

That I will walk away?

When will I know

When to say no?

When to put on

My shoesMy jacket?

Out the door

I must go

When will I know

The proper wayTo grow?

So that I can grow

And grasp something

Without letting go?

And be grasped

Without being let go?


34/51

Overdrawn

Periodic Persistance

Rambling Resistance

Associated Assistance

Listening to the soundRaindrops

Splashing onto glass

Ducks swimming

In muddy puddles

Fighting the seagulls

For french fries

One of them flies

Into darkening skies

They have no need

For alibis

They have no need

For apple pies

I wonder what it'd be like

To see the world

From their eyes

I think I'd be in for

A surprise

Suitcases and suit ties

A knot at the neckAn affectionate peck

Crashing like the wreck

That I am

Overdrawn

And emptyI go back to sleep

As soon as you leave

I close my eyes

And drift

Into a dream

Where you seem

To enjoy

Hot sauce

And icecream

A dream

Is just a dream


35/51

Ambitious

I think it's funny

How you told me

About your girlfriend

After being so friendlyTowards me

She must be some girl

Lucky

To have a guy

So seemingly

Perfect

And ambitious

Caramel

Delicious

One of my wishesLike a dream

That will never come true

And I can't stop

Thinking of you

What should I do?

To get you

Out of my head?

Off my mind

I know I must findSomeone else


36/51

For the Better

Something tells me

That this is just a start

That I am growing

With or without

My knowing

That I will discover

My true place

In life

In my own worldMy distorted views

Will somehow

Make sense

If not to others

Then to myself

My sense or reality

Is unrealistic

My expectations

Had always beenToo high

I've always wondered why

But things are starting

To make sense

A little at a time

Peeling away that film

That had distorted

My perceptions

That caused my mind

To be comfortable

With the way things were

With the way I was

With the way I am

But I will change

The more I understand

The more I can stand

That things

Must change

For the better


37/51

My Dreams

I am in charge of myself

Of my actions, of my inactions

Of my infractions

Socially or otherwise

I am putting the pieces together

Hoping to have something

That will last forever

If only this thingIs just enabling myself

To be a better person

Because

I want to be a better person

I want a better life

Because I'm the one

Who has to live this life

And hopefully

I will achieve my goalsSo that I can achieve

My dreams

I really have to believe

That I can achieve

My dreams


38/51

Fly Away

Open your tinfoil

Covered window

Open your eyes

And look to the skies

Ask yourself:

"Where would I go? If I could fly?"

Sometimes IThink I should try

From eight floors high

But I

Know that only birds can fly

Airplanes

Helicopters

Balloons

Hot-air or blown up

Like the balloons

I blew upFor my Grandmother

On her eighty-first

Birthday

She put them out

On her balcony

Let them fly away

Into the sky

On that January day


39/51

About Time

My goals

Are like pieces

Of a bigger picture

Each section

A smaller picture

That I have to focus

My energy on

Instead of looking

At a million things

At the same time

Focus

On one thing

At a time

Instead of wasting

My time

I have to makeThe best of

My time

Because it is

My time

And it is about time

That I get my life

Together


40/51

Guilty

Guilt is a hard thing

To let go of

It permeates my soul

Self-control

Is a goal

One of the only thingsThat can save me

From constantly

Feeling guilty

I allowed people to take

Advantage of me

I cannot manipulate

Myself

As well as they manipulate

My mind

Me, generallyI have to learn

How to manipulate

So I can concentrate

On goals

Like self-control

So that I don't

Give myself

Any more reasons

To feel guilty


41/51

Cultivation

Secretly

I long to be

Something of a beauty

Something of popularity

Something of a personality

But what would

Any of that

Really do for me?Distractions, delusions

None of that matters

I just want to know

How to cultivate

My spirituality

Culturally, socially

Appropriately

I don't want to

Be afraidOf accepting myself

But how can I?

Even have respect

For myself?

When I can't seem

To control myself

To take responsibility

For my mistakes

Thus making

The same mistakesTime and time again


42/51

Concentration

I'm wondering why I

Try as hard as I try

For someone else

Instead of

Focussing on turning my

Passion and devotionIn another direction

I know I can concentrate

If I try hard enough

To let it all soak through my skin

You don't have to rub it in

Pride is a sin

I'm okay today

And every day is an opportunity

To get something

AccomplishedYou have to have

Determination

And point yourself

Towards the best

Direction


43/51

Denying Respect

Funny how

We figure out

We find some answers

When we ask

Specific questions

Detailed explanations

Clarify and unify

Together on the same pageWhat book is it?

What is this title?

A romance theme?

A tragedy?

Mysterious mastery

Analitical Anology

Theoretical Anthology

Appropriate Appology

You want to denyWhat you must accept

You would

If you had any respect

And you should

If you had any respect


44/51

Commitment

I have hope after the way

This day has turned out for me

Unusually satisified

With how I've tried

Feeling good inside

And I cannot hide; This smile

It's been a whileYou say that we need to talk

And I hope you won't hurt me again

Because I can't bear the pain

Because I'm trying

To start again

Maybe we can

Start again

But neither of us

Are ready

For a seriousCommitment

Even though

I'd be honoured

To have

A serious

Commitment


45/51

No Boundary

I have a strong sense

That I'm missing out

On something

That I may never

Have for myself

But maybe I

Shouldn't thinkOf myself

When everyone

Has their own lives

To live

What could I give?

To any man?

Except for my heart?

Devotion?

Love without limits

Even thoughEverything has a boundary

My love

Knows no boundary


46/51

Fearing the Worst

Rapidly approaching

This time; A time

When we can

Talk to each other

About some issuesAnd get things cleared up

Once and for all

And I am scared

That you want to tell me

That you don't want me

In your life any longer

I am scared

That I won't get

My second chance

Even thoughI am starting

To make changes

I am scared

But I can't assume

The worst

Because it will

Make me fear the worst


47/51

Silver Sliver

Sometimes

You get a blessing

In disguise

A chance

You don't recognize

Potential

ProbabilityPossibility

When it looks

Straight at you

Direct eye contact

Blink

And you could miss it

Flashed before your eyes

A sliver of silver

A slight sight

A limp glimpseTossed a crumb

Out the window

And it becomes

A loaf of bread

Even if it's in your head

Your heart

Wants to believe

What it is lead

To believe


48/51

The Real Me

I have to learn

That hope isn't everything

That optimism has to be met

With realism

The truth can really hurt

If we let it hurt

If we let ourselvesHurt each other

I don't know what to say

You know the way

The way; That I feel

You know that I still want

To be with you

And you

Had a change of heart

That's all part

Of learning to forgiveAnd hopefully

You will learn

To forgive me for

What I take responsibility for

It takes a lot of courage

To take responsibility

It is a form of integrity

Hopefully

When I get to see the trueThe real me

You will see the true

The real me

And maybe

You will fall in love with me

All over again


49/51

Patience

By giving me

A second chance

You say that

Once bitten

Twice shy

I understand why

But you don't realizeThat I have been bitten too

Bitten by you

And the things that you do

Like getting angry

So easily

I know you are frustrated

And frustration

Is just one aggrevation

That neither of us need

HopefullyIt will teach us

That patience

Is more of a virtue

Than we thought

I know that I have

To have

Patience with you

But please

Be patient with me, too


50/51

How I Feel

I don't want to

Argue

With you

I just want to tell you

What I think

How I feel

Without you telling meThat I'm being dramatic

Because I don't feel

As though that helps

It makes me mad

When you tell me

That I'm putting words

In your mouth

Because you should know

That I'd never do that

I want you to tell me

What you are thinking

What you are feeling

And you tell me that

You are not sure

There is no cure

For how I feel

And you know

How I feel

Because I told you

How I feel

And I shouldn't have to

Tell you how I feel

Because if you knew me

Truly knew meYou'd know

How I feel


51/51

Wisdom

I have to keep

Moving ahead

No matter how I feel

No matter what I think

No matter

How much stronger

The urge is

To relapse

No matterHow much stronger

The urge is

Than I am

Because I do have

Strength and potential

Of spirit and of change

It just takes time

Commitment and courage

EverythingThat I never had before

That I never sought before

That I never fought for before

B t thi i h

To get even further

Than I have already come

And by getting there

I will hope to have

Gained some

Wisdom

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