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THOMAS Á KEMPIS: ON THE LOVE OF GOD
Other books by S. Abhayananda:
The Supreme Self History Of Mysticism Jnaneshvar: The Life And Works The Wisdom Of Vedanta Dattatreya: The Song Of The Avadhut Plotinus: The Origin of Western Mysticism Mysticism And Science The Divine Universe Reflections On The Soul Body And Soul Mystical Theology
THOMAS Á KEMPIS: ON THE LOVE OF GOD
A Modern Rendition of a 15th Century Manual of Devotion
Edited by
Swami Abhayananda
ATMA BOOKS
Classics of Mystical Literature Series
Copyright © 1992, 2004, 2012 by Swami Abhayananda.
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any
manner whatsoever without written permission of the author/editor except in the
case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews. Address
inquiries to: [email protected]
CONTENTS Preface................................................................................................................... 11
Book One:
Admonitions Useful For A Spiritual Life
I. Of The Despising Of All The Vanities Of The World...................................................... …………………15 II.Against Vain Learning And Of A Meek Knowing Of Ourselves....................................................................... 15 III. Of The Teaching Of Truth.............................................................................. 17 IV. That Credence Is Not To Be Readily Given To Words........................................................................... 19 V. Of Inordinate Affections................................................................................. 19 VI. That Vain Hope And Elation Of Mind Are To Be Fled And Avoided ................................................................... 20 VII. That Much Familiarity Is To Be Fled ........................................................... 21 VIII. That We Should Avoid Superfluity Of Words And The Company Of Worldly People.......................................................................................... 22 IX. Of The Means To Get Peace, And The Desire To Profit In Virtues.................................................................... 22 X. Of The Profit Of Adversity............................................................................. 24 XI. Of Temptations To Be Resisted…………………………………………………………………………..25 XII. That We Shall Not Hastily Judge Other Men’s Deeds...................................................................................... 27
XIII. Of Works Done Out Of Love ...................................................................... 28 XIV. Of The Suffering Of Other Men’s Faults .............................................................................................. 28 XV. What Should Be The Life Of A True Religious Person .............................................................................. 29 XVI. Of The Examples Of Holy Fathers............................................................. 30 XVII. Of The Exercises Of A Good Religious Person....................................................................................... 32 XVIII. Of The Love Of Solitude And Silence ............................................................................................... 34 XIX. Of Compunction Of The Heart................................................................... 36 XX. Of Considering The Misery Of Mankind, And Wherein The Felicity Of Man Stands............................................................................. 38 XXI. Of The Remembrance Of Death................................................................. 40 XXII. Of The Fervent Amending Of All Our Life ............................................................................................... 42
Book Two:
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life
I. Of Inward Conversation.................................................................................. 46 II. Of A Meek Knowing Of Our Own Faults ............................................................................................ 47 III. How Good It Is For A Man To Be Peaceful ............................................................................................. 47 IV. Of A Pure Mind And A Single Intent....................................................................................... 48
V. Of The Knowing Of Ourselves....................................................................... 49 VI. Of the Gladness Of A Good Conscience........................................................................................ 50 VII. Of The Visiting Of Grace.............................................................................. 51 VIII. Of the Wanting Of All Solace And Comfort.................................................................................... 52 IX. Of Yielding Thanks To God For His Manifold Graces............................................................................ 53
Book Three:
The Inward Speaking Of God
To A Faithful Soul
I. That The Words Of God Are To Be Heard With Great Meekness ......................................................................... 56 II. That Grace Will Not Be Mixed With Love Of WorldlyThings….……………………………………………58 III. How We Should Forget All Created Things In Order That We Might Find Our Creator ......................................................................................... 59 IV. Of The Differences Between Nature And Grace........................................................................................ 61 V. Of The Corruption Of Nature And Of The Worthiness Of Grace...................................................................... 64 VI. That It Is Sweet And Delectable To Serve God ............................................................................................. 65 VII. Of The Marvelous Effect Of The Love Of God .................................................................................. 67
VIII. How Grace Is To Be Kept Close Through The Virtue Of Meekness............................................................................................. 69 IX. That The Very True Solace And Comfort Is In God ............................................................................. 71 X. That All Our Study And Busyness Of Mind Ought To Be Put In God................................................................... 72 XI. How A Man Should Order Himself In His Desires ............................................................................................. 72 XII. How Our Lord God Savors To His Lover Sweetly Above All Things................................................................. 74 XIII. Of The Acknowledging Of Our Own Infirmities ................................................................................... 75 XIV. That Men Are Not Always To Be Believed.......................................................................................... 77 XV. Of Patient Suffering Of Injuries And Wrongs ............................................................................................... 78 XVI. That A Man Shall Not Be Overmuch Cast Into Heaviness .................................................................................... 80 XVII. That We Shall Put All Our Confidence In God .................................................................................... 81 XVIII. How All Grievous Things In This Life Are Gladly To Be Suffered ................................................................ 83 XIX. How A Man Should Rest In God Above All Things ..................................................................................... 84 XX. Of The Day Of Eternity And Of The Miseries Of This Life ......................................................................... 86
XXI. Of The Desire Of Everlasting Life ............................................................. 88 XXII. How A Man Who is Desolate Ought To Offer Himself Wholly To God..................................................................................................... 90 XXIII. That It Is Good That A Man Give Himself To Humble Bodily Labors When He Feels Himself Not Disposed To High Works Of Of Devotion.............................................................................................. 93 XXIV. That All Our Hope And Trust Is To Be Put In God Alone............................................................................ 93 About The Author ................................................................................................. 95
Preface 11
PREFACE About Thomas a´ Kempis
In the late fourteenth century a number of religious communities
sprouted up in Europe. Disenchanted with the dry theological hair-splitting
of the Scholastics of the preceding century, these communities, made up of
the rural populace, wished to return the emphasis of the Christian faith to the
holy life of devotion. One such community, called “The Brethren Of the
Common Life,” was founded by Gerhard Groot (1340-1384) at Deventer in
Holland. This little band of men and women at Deventer was but one of the
many that constituted the popular devotional movement known as “The
New Devotion” (devotio moderne). There, to Deventer, in 1396, came a young
man named Thomas Haemerlein from Kempen on the Rhine, who was to
become one of the most beloved and influential saints of all time, known to
the world as Thomas a´ Kempis.
Thomas a´ Kempis (1380-1471) entered The Brothers Of The Common Life
at the age of sixteen, was educated in that community, and at the age of
twenty-two became a monk of the Augustine Canons at the monastery of
Mount Saint Agnes in Zwolle, near Utrecht. There he lived, totally obscured
to the world, for seventy years, until his death on July 26, 1471. His daily
work for many years was the artful copying of manuscripts, and his daily
intent was to God, so that he might be continually in awareness of His
presence. In the days he worked, and in the nights he prayed and wrote. He
was eventually made Director of Novitiates, and in this capacity guided the
novices in spiritual life through the snares and pitfalls on the path to
blessedness in God.
In his solitary nights, Thomas wrote down his interior meditations and
prayers, and these pure outflowings of God’s activity in him were eventually
collected in the form of a small book to be shared with his novices in the
interest of their spiritual welfare. In a very short time after his death,
however, his little book was frequently copied and widely circulated, not
only among his fellow ecclesiastics, but among the lay populace as well; and
it was immediately received as a supremely holy book of spiritual guidance.
As the earliest Latin manuscripts of this book were untitled as well as
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unsigned, for purposes of identification it was circulated under the title,
Musica Ecclesiastica, or “Music Of The Church”; but later copiers, forming a
title for it from the first few words of the opening chapter, called it, De
Imitatio Christi, or “Of The Imitation Of Christ.” It is by that name that it is
known to us today.
Because the book was unsigned, and its author indifferent to fame, there
is no way to be absolutely certain that The Imitation Of Christ was the work of
Thomas a´ Kempis; but until it is proven otherwise, he is considered to be its
author. Thomas wrote a few other works, including a biography of Gerhard
Groot, the founder of The Brethren Of The Common Life, but this one little
book of spiritual counsels, known as The Imitation Of Christ, remains the
primary work for which he is justly remembered and revered. It is one of a
very few universally beloved classics, as much honored and loved by non-
Christians as by Christians, and held by many to be the most holy and perfect
guide to the devotional life ever created. About His Book
In one form or another, Thomas’ little book has been published
throughout the world more often than any other book except the Holy Bible.
And, while it is a Christian book written by a Christian author, its appeal
goes far beyond the narrow confines of sectarian religion. To Christians, it is
a testimony of the Christian faith, but to contemplatives of every land and
every religious affiliation, it is a universally beloved classic of devotion to
God. It is in recognition of its universal significance and appeal that it is now
being presented in this revised and non-sectarian edition. It is intended for
men and women of all religious persuasions who treasure and savor the
sweet words of all true enlightened saints and lovers of God.
Originally written in Latin, De Imitatio Christi was translated into English
circa 1530 by Richard Whitford (1476-1542). The present edition, retitled The
Love Of God, is a revised and edited rendition of that magnificent English
translation. It has been altered only insofar as it was necessary to modernize
certain archaic idioms, and to delete certain passages or chapters comprised
of exclusively sectarian doctrines. The result is a book of truly universal
application, a non-sectarian handbook of spiritual contemplation, relevant to
all true seekers of God.
The Love Of God is fashioned in three ‘Books,’ each leading to a
Preface 13
progressively more interior state than the one before: In the First, the stage
is set in preparing the aspirant for contemplation by freeing his mind from
all exterior concerns; in the Second, the aspirant is turned to the interior
examination of his own soul; and the Third leads the purified aspirant on his
upward journey, by the way of loving surrender at the feet of God. The
author’s timeless counsels on the path to God are as meaningful today as
ever. His voice is the archetypical voice of the soul yearning for the pure
Being of its own depths, the Godhood which is always its true and eternal
Self. Such prayerful longing is God’s own voice of longing for His eternal
state; and this longing resides in the human breast as the eternal legacy of all
peoples of every time and persuasion.
The author of this book had experienced that “Unity” of which he spoke;
he had been graced with “the vision of God,” and continued to seek the
recurrence of this vision throughout his life. Evidence of this may clearly be
seen by those who, themselves have known this “vision,” and are therefore
able to recognize it in the author’s writings, though his modesty and the
constraints of the times prevented him from speaking explicitly of it.
Throughout his book, Thomas carries on a prayerful dialogue with God,
leading some to think that he maintained a separation between his own soul
and God; but he was intimately familiar with the fact of his existence in God.
He was also aware that the dialogue between the individualized soul and
God must exist only so long as the soul exists. But when the soul is lifted up
in consciousness, by God’s grace, it becomes merged and dissolved in the
Oneness of God. When this occurs, there is no more dialogue; there is only
the one infinite Self. From that singular perspective, all devotional dialogue
appears foolish and irrelevant, even ludicrous, for the duality of soul and
God is no more, and from that eternal perspective, the one “I” is all that truly
is, or was, or ever will be.
And yet the pure transparency of the soul by which it becomes likened to
God, and fit for that incomparable grace, is accomplished only by the selfless
love of God. That selfless love expressed by Thomas a’ Kempis is the ladder
by which the soul reaches that rare ascension. And so, in the world of men,
in the realm of duality in which most of us live, where souls yet stand apart
from their Source, this humble and prayerful dialogue between the soul and
its God is the highest and most worthy of practices, for it represents the
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highest possible state of the soul prior to its dissolution in the heart of God.
And this rare and divine book is its most eloquent and exquisite expression,
capable of leading those who identify with its voice to that same experience
of unity.
This amazing and wonderful book has often been criticized by the
worldly for its apparent negation of the world; for it repeatedly refers to the
“despising of the world,” the need for solitary prayer and meditation, and
the restraint of the senses. And it is quite true that this book is of no value
whatever to those whose aims are centered solely in worldly satisfactions; it
is addressed to those whose aim is the experiential knowledge of oneness
with that eternal Source who transcends the world.
Therefore, Thomas’ book may not truly be judged according to the
purposes of ordinary men, but only according to whether or not it is
appropriate to its own avowed purpose: the preparation of the soul for the
fulfillment of its desire for union with God. Judged on this basis, this book
has been proven time and time again by countless practicing contemplatives
to be a most perfectly appropriate and trustworthy guide. It has been the
special solace of renunciants and scholars, popes and laymen, statesmen and
kings, for over five centuries. And to me, also, it has proven itself to be an
inestimable treasure, a marvelous and magical source of inspiration and joy.
It is this very book which has served, since the beginning of my spiritual
life, as my most trusted guide and incessant nightly companion. I cannot
express the value that it has had to me and continues to have in my life.
After a long and thorough search of the world’s greatest devotional
literature, this book continues to be, for me, the most perfect, most sublime,
most divine book in existence. I recommend and urge its repeated study to
anyone who wishes to prepare himself for the meeting with God.
—Swami Abhayananda
Admonitions Useful For A Spiritual Life 15
BOOK ONE:
Admonitions Useful For A Spiritual Life
Chapter 1.
Of The Despising Of All
The Vanities Of The World
All that is in this world is vanity, but to love God and to serve only Him.
This is the most noble and most excellent wisdom that may be in any
creature, by despising of this world to draw daily nearer and nearer to the
kingdom of God.
It is therefore a great vanity to labor inordinately for worldly riches that
shortly shall perish, and to covet honor or any other inordinate pleasures or
fleshly delights in this world, whereby a man after this life shall be sorely and
grievously punished. How great a vanity is it also to desire a long life, and
little to care for a good life; to heed things present, and not to provide for
things that are to come; to love things that shortly shall pass away, and not to
hasten thither where is joy everlasting.
Have this common proverb often in your mind: “The eye is not satisfied
nor fully pleased with the sight of any bodily thing, nor the ear with
hearing.” Therefore study to withdraw the love of your soul from all things
that are visible and turn it to things that are invisible; for they who follow
their sensuality hurt their own conscience and lose the grace of God.
Chapter II.
Against Vain Learning And
Of A Meek Knowing Of Ourselves
Every man naturally desires to know, but what avails knowledge without
the fear of God? A humble farmer who serves God is more acceptable to
Him than is a curious philosopher who, considering the course of the
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heavens, willfully forgets himself. He who well knows himself is vile and
abject in his own sight and has no delight in the vain praisings of man. If I
knew all things in this world, without love, what should it avail me before
God who judges every man according to his deeds? Let us therefore cease
from the desire of such vain knowledge, for oftentimes is found therein great
distraction and deceit, whereby the soul is much hindered and withheld from
the perfect and true love of God.
They who have great learning desire commonly to be seen and to be held
wise in the world. There are many things the knowledge of which brings but
little profit and little fruit to the soul, and he is very unwise who takes heed
to any other thing than to that which shall profit him to the health of his soul.
Words feed not the soul, but a good life refreshes the mind and a clean
conscience brings a man to a firm and stable trust in God. The more
knowledge you have, if you live not thereafter, the more grievously shall you
be judged for the misusing thereof. Therefore raise not yourself unto pride
for any craft or knowledge that is given to you, but have the more fear and
dread in your heart, for certain it is that you must hereafter yield therefor the
stricter account.
If you think that you know many things and have great learning, then
know for certain that there are many more things that you do not know.
And so you may not rightly think yourself learned but ought rather to
confess your ignorance and folly. Why will you prefer yourself in
knowledge before another, since there are many others more excellent and
more wise than you, and better learned in the law? If you would learn and
know anything profitable to the health of your soul, learn to be unknown
and be glad to be held vile and unwise as you are.
The most high and the most profitable learning is this, that a man have a
true knowledge and a full despising of himself. Also not to presume of
himself, and always to judge and to think well and blessedly of others, is a
sign and a token of great wisdom, and of great perfection and singular grace.
If you see any person sin or commit any great crime openly before you, yet
judge not yourself to be better than he, for you know not how long you shall
persevere in goodness. We are all frail, but you should judge no man more
frail than yourself.
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 17
Chapter III.
Of The Teaching Of Truth
Happy and blessed is that person whom Truth teaches and informs, not
by images or by deceitful voices, but as the Truth is. Our opinion and our wit
many times deceive us, for we see not the truth. What avails us the
knowledge of such things as shall neither help us to the attainment of God if
we know them, nor hinder us if we know them not?
It is therefore great folly to be negligent in such things as are profitable
and necessary to us, and to labor for such things as are but curious and
damnable. Truly, if we do so, we have eyes but we see not. And what avails
us the knowledge of the kind and working of creatures? Truly nothing. He
to whom the everlasting Truth speaks is discharged of many vain opinions.
Of Him all things proceed and all things openly show and cry that He is God.
No man without Him understands the truth nor rightfully judges. But he to
whom all things are One, and who draws all things into One, and sets all
things in One, and desires but One, may soon be stable in heart and be fully
pacified in God.
O Truth that God art, make me one with Thee in perfect love, for all that I
read, hear, or see, without Thee is grievous to me; for in Thee is all that I will
or may desire. Let all the learned be still in Thy presence, and let all
creatures keep themselves in silence, and Thou only, Lord, speak to my soul.
The more that a man is made one with Thee and the more that he is gathered
together in Thee, the more he understands without labor high secret
mysteries, for he has received from above the light of understanding.
A clean, pure, and stable heart is not broken nor easily overcome with
spiritual labors, for he does all things to the honor of God; and because he is
clearly mortified to himself, therefore he covets to be free from following his
own will. What hinders you more than your own affections not fully
mortified to the will of the Spirit? Truly, nothing more. A good devout man
so orders his outward business that it draw him not to the love of it, but that
he compel it to be obedient to the will of the Spirit and to the right judgment
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of reason. Who has a stronger battle than he who labors to overcome
himself? And it should be our daily labor and our daily desire to overcome
ourselves, that we may be made stronger in Spirit and increase daily from
better to better.
Every perfection in this life has some imperfection attached to it, and
there is no knowledge in this world that is not mixed with some blindness of
ignorance. And therefore a meek knowing of ourselves is a more certain way
to God than is the searching for highness of learning.
Learning well-ordered is not to be blamed, for it is good and comes from
God; but a clean conscience and a virtuous life is much better and more to be
desired. Because some men study to have learning rather than to live well,
they err many times and bring forth little good fruit, or none. O if they
would be as busy to avoid sin and to plant virtues in their souls as they are to
dispute questions, there would not be so many evil things seen in the world,
nor so much evil example given to the people, nor yet so much dissolute
living in religion. Our Lord shall not ask of us what we have read, but what
we have done; not how well we have said, but how religiously we have lived.
Tell me, where now are all the great writers and famous doctors whom
you have well known? When they lived they flourished greatly in their
learning, and now other men occupy their positions and offices and I cannot
tell whether they think anything on them. In their lifetimes they were held
great in the world and now there is little spoken of them. O how shortly
passes away the glory of this world with all the false deceitful pleasures of it.
Would to God their lives had accorded well with their learning, for then had
they well studied and read! How many perish daily in this world by vain
learning who care little for a good life and for the service of God; and because
they desired rather to be great in the world than to be meek, they vanish
away in their learning as smoke in the air.
Truly he is great who has great love, and he is great who is little in his
own sight and who regards as nothing all worldly honor. And he is very
wise who accounts all worldly pleasures as vile dung, so that he may win
God, and he is very well taught who forsakes his own will and follows the
will of God.
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Chapter IV.
That Credence Is Not To Be
Readily Given To Words
It is not good readily to believe every word or instinct that comes, but the
thing is advisedly and leisurely to be considered and pondered, so that
almighty God may not be offended through our instability. But alas for
sorrow, we are so frail that we believe of others evil sooner than good.
Nevertheless, perfect men are not so credulous for they know well that the
frailty of man is more prone to evil than to good, and that he is in words very
unstable. It is therefore great wisdom not to be hasty in our deeds, not to
trust much in our own wits, not readily to believe every tale nor forthwith to
show to others all that we hear or believe.
Take always counsel of a wise man and covet rather to be instructed and
to be ordered by others than to follow your own invention. A good life
makes a man wise towards God, and instructs him in many things that a
sinful man shall never feel nor know. The more meek that a man is in
himself and the more obedient that he is to God, the more wise and the more
peaceful shall he be in everything that he shall have to do.
Chapter V.
Of Inordinate Affections
When a man desires anything inordinately, forthwith he is inquiet in
himself. The proud man and the covetous man never have rest, but the meek
man and the poor in spirit live in great abundance of rest and peace.
A man who is not yet mortified to himself is easily tempted and overcome
in little and small temptations. And he who is weak in spirit and is yet
somewhat carnal and inclined to outward things may hardly withdraw
himself from worldly desires; and when he does withdraw himself from
them he has often great grief and heaviness in heart therefor, and he is
quickly disdainful if any man resist him. And if he obtains that which he
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desires, still he is inquieted with grudge of con-science for he has followed
his passion which in no way helps to getting of the peace that he desired.
Then, by resisting of passions is gotten the very true peace of heart and
not by following of them. There is therefore no peace in the heart of a carnal
man, nor in the heart of a man who gives himself entirely to outward things.
But in the hearts of spiritual men and women, who have their delight in God,
is found great peace and inward quietness.
Chapter VI.
That Vain Hope And Elation Of Mind
Are To Be Fled And Avoided
He is vain who puts his trust in man or in any created thing. Be not
ashamed to serve others for the love of God, and to be poor in this world for
His sake. Trust not in yourself, but all your trust set in God. So long as in
you is the desire to please Him, He shall well help forth your good will.
Trust not in your own wisdom nor yet in the wisdom or policy of any
creature living, but rather in the grace of God, who helps meek persons, and
allows those who presume of themselves to fall till they become meek.
Glorify not yourself in your riches nor in your worldly friends because they
are powerful; but let all your glory be in God alone who gives all things and
who desires to give Himself above all things.
Exalt not yourself for your largeness or fairness of body, for with a little
sickness it may be soon defouled. Joy not in yourself for your ability or
readiness of wit lest you displease God, of whose gift is all that you have.
Hold not yourself better than others, lest perhaps you be thereby impaired in
the sight of God, who knows all that is in man. Be not proud of your good
deeds; for the judgments of God are other than the judgments of man, and
that which pleases man oftentimes displeases God. If you have any goodness
or virtue in you, believe yet that there is much more goodness and virtue in
others; so that you may always keep yourself in meekness. It hurts not if you
hold yourself worse than any other, though it may not be so indeed; but it
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 21 hurts much if you prefer yourself above any other, though he be the greatest
of sinners. Great peace is with the meek man, but in the heart of a proud
man is always envy and indignation.
Chapter VII.
That Much Familiarity Is To Be Fled
Open not your heart to every person, but only to him who is wise,
discreet, and dreading God. Be seldom with strangers, flatter not rich men,
and before great men do not readily appear. Accompany yourself with meek
persons who are simple in heart, devout and of good governance, and treat
with them of things that may edify and strengthen your soul. Be not familiar
to any woman, but all good women commend to God. Covet to be familiar
only with God and with His angels; but the familiarity of man, as much as
you may, see that you avoid. Charity is to be had to all, but familiarity is not
expedient.
Sometimes it happens that a person unknown, through his good fame, is
much commended, whose presence afterwards we like not so much. And we
think sometimes with our presence to please others, when we rather
displease them through the evil manners and evil conditions that they see
and consider to be in us.
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Chapter VIII.
That We Should Avoid Superfluity Of Words
And The Company Of Worldly Living People
Flee the company of worldly-living people as much as you may, for the
treating of worldly matters hinders greatly the fervor of spirit though it may
be done with a good intent. We are quickly deceived with vanity of the
world and enslaved to it unless we take good heed.
I wish I had held my peace many times when I have spoken, and that I
had not been so much among worldly company as I have been. But why are
we so glad to speak and commune together, since we so seldom depart
without some hurt of conscience? This is the cause: by our communing
together we think to comfort each other and to refresh our hearts when we
are troubled with vain imaginations; and we speak most gladly of those
things we most love, or else of those things that are most contrarious to us.
But alas for sorrow, all is vain that we do, for this outward comfort is no little
hindrance to the true inward comfort that comes of God.
Therefore, it is necessary that we watch and pray that the time pass not
away from us in idleness. If it is lawful and expedient to speak, speak then of
God and of such things as are to the edifying of your soul or of your
neighbor’s. An evil use and a negligence of spiritual profit makes us
oftentimes to take little heed how we should speak. Nevertheless a devout
communing of spiritual things sometimes helps very much to the health of
the soul, especially when men of one mind and of one spirit in God do meet,
and speak, and commune together.
Chapter IX.
Of The Means To Get Peace,
And of The Desire To Profit In Virtues
We might have much peace if we would not meddle with other men’s
sayings and doings that do not belong to us. How may he long live in peace
who willfully meddles with other men’s business, and who seeks occasions
outwardly in the world and seldom or never gathers himself together in
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 23 God? Blessed are the true, simple, and meek persons, for they shall have
great plenty of peace.
Why have many saints been so perfectly contemplative? Because they
always studied to mortify themselves from worldly desires, that they might
freely, with all the power of their heart, tend to our Lord. But we are
occupied with our passions and are much busied with transitory things, and
it is very seldom that we may fully overcome any one vice. And we are not
at all quick to our daily duties, wherefore we remain cold and slow to
devotion. If we were perfectly mortified to the world and to the flesh, and
were inwardly purified in soul, we should more often savor heavenly things
and somewhat should we have experience of heavenly contemplation.
The greatest hindrance of heavenly contemplation is that we are not yet
clearly delivered from our passions and lusts. We enforce not ourselves to
follow the way that holy saints have gone before us, but when any little
adversity comes to us we are quickly cast down therein and turn ourselves
too readily to the seeking of man’s comfort. But if we would, as strong men
and as mighty champions, fight strongly in this spiritual battle, we should
undoubtedly see the help of God come in our need, for He is always ready to
help all those who trust in Him. And He procures occasions of such battle so
that we may overcome and get the victory, and in the end have the greater
reward therefor.
If we place the end and perfection of our religion in outward observances,
our devotion shall soon be ended; wherefore we must set our axe deep to the
root of the tree, that, purged from all passions, we may have a quiet mind. If
we would every year overcome one vice, we should quickly come to
perfection; but I fear rather that, contrariwise, we were better and purer in
the beginning of our conversion than we are many years after we were
converted. Our fervor and desire to virtue should daily increase in us as we
increase in age, but it is now thought a great thing if we may hold a little
spark of the fervor that we had first. If we would at the beginning break the
evil inclination that we have to ourselves and to our own will, we should
afterwards do virtuous works easily and with great gladness of heart.
If you do not overcome small and light things, how shall you then
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overcome the greater? Therefore, quickly resist your evil inclinations in the
beginning, and leave off wholly all your evil customs lest perhaps, by little
and little, they bring you afterwards to greater difficulty. O if you would
consider how great inward peace you should have yourself, and how great
gladness you should cause in others, in behaving of yourself well, I suppose,
truly, you would be much more diligent to profit in virtue than you have
been before this time.
Chapter X.
Of The Profit Of Adversity
It is good that we sometimes have griefs and adversities; for they drive a
man to behold himself and to see that he is here as but an exile, and to learn
thereby that he ought not to put his trust in any worldly thing. It is good also
that we some-times suffer contradiction, and that we are held by others as
evil and wretched and sinful, though we do well and intend well, for such
things help us to meekness, and mightily defend us from vainglory and
pride. We take God the better to be our judge and witness when we are
outwardly despised in the world and when the world judges not well of us.
Therefore a man ought to establish himself so fully in God that whatsoever
adversity befalls unto him he shall not need to seek any outward comfort.
When a good man is troubled or tempted, or is inquieted with evil
thoughts, then he understands and knows that God is most necessary to him
and that he may do nothing that is good without Him. Then he sorrows,
wails, and prays because of the miseries that he rightfully suffers. Then irks
him, also, the wretchedness of this life, and he covets to be dissolved from
this body of death and to be with God; for he sees that there may be no full
peace nor perfect security here in this world.
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Chapter XI.
Of Temptations To Be Resisted
There is no man so perfect nor so holy in this world that he has not at
some time temptations, and we may not fully be without them; for though
they are for the time very grievous and painful, yet if they are resisted they
are very profitable. For by them a man is made more meek, and is purged
and informed in diverse manners which he should never have known but by
experience of such temptations.
There is no Order so holy nor any place so secret that it is fully without
temptation, and there is no man who is fully safe from it here in this life; for
in our corrupt body we bear that whereby we are tempted, that is, the
inordinate lusts with which we were born. As one temptation goes another
comes, and so we shall always have somewhat to suffer; and the cause is that
we are yet susceptible to the desires of the flesh.
Many persons seek to flee temptation and they fall the more grievously
into it. For we may not have victory merely by fleeing, but by meekness and
patience we are made stronger than all our enemies. He who only flees the
outward occasions and does not cut away the inordinate desires hid
inwardly in the heart, shall little profit; and temptations shall readily come to
him again and grieve him more than they did first. By little and little, with
patience and with sufferance, and with help of God, you shall sooner
overcome temptations than with your own strength and importunity. In
your temptation it is good that you often ask counsel and that you be not
rigorous to any person who is tempted, but be glad to comfort him as you
would be comforted.
The beginning of all evil temptations is inconstance of mind and too little
a trust in God. For as a ship without a rudder is driven hither and thither
with every storm, so an unstable man who readily leaves his good purpose in
God is diversely tempted. As fire proves gold, temptation proves the
righteous man.
We know not, many times, what we can suffer, but temptation shows
plainly what we are and what virtue is in us. It is necessary in the beginning
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of every temptation to be well wary, for the evil propensity is readily
overcome if it is not allowed to enter into the heart, but is resisted and shut
out as soon as it proffers to enter. For as a bodily medicine is very late
administered when the sickness has been allowed to increase by long
continuance, so it is of temptation: first comes to the mind an unclean
thought and after follows a strong imagination, then delectation and diverse
evil motions, and in the end follows a full assent. And so little by little, the
evil inclination has full entrance, for it was not wisely resisted in the
beginning. The more slow that a man is in resisting, the weaker he is to
resist, and the evil propensity is daily the stronger against him.
Some persons have their greatest temptations in the beginning of their
conversion, some in the end; some are troubled therewith all their lifetime,
and there are many who are easily tempted. All this comes of the great
wisdom of God, who knows the state and merit of every person, and ordains
all things for the best and for the everlasting health and salvation of His elect
and chosen people. Therefore, we shall not despair when we are tempted,
but shall the more fervently pray unto God, that of His infinite goodness and
fatherly pity He consent to help us in every need; and that He so prevent us
with His grace in every temptation, that we shall be able to endure. Let us
then humble our souls under the strong hand of almighty God, for He will
save and exalt all those here who are meek and low in spirit.
In temptations and tribulations a man is proved how much he has
profited, and his merit is thereby the greater in the sight of God, and his
virtues the more openly shown. It is no great marvel if a man is fervent and
devout when he feels no grief, but if he can suffer patiently in the time of
temptation or other adversity, and therewithal can stir himself also to fervor
of spirit, it is a token that he shall greatly profit hereafter in virtue and grace.
Some persons are kept from any great temptations and yet daily they are
overcome through little and small occasions, so that they shall not trust nor
presume of themselves who see themselves so easily and in so little things
daily overcome.
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Chapter XII.
That We Shall Not Hastily
Judge Other Men’s Deeds
Nor Cleave Much To Our Own Will
Have always a good eye to yourself and be wary that you do not hastily
judge other men. In judging others a man often labors in vain, often errs, and
easily offends God; but in judging himself and his own deeds he always
labors fruitfully and to his spiritual profit.
We judge oftentimes according to our own heart and our own affections
and not according to the truth, for we lose the true judgment through our
private love. If God were always the whole intent of our desire we should
not so hastily err in our judgments nor be so readily troubled because we are
resisted of our will; but commonly there is in us some inward inclination or
some outward affection that draws our heart with them from the true
judgment.
Many persons, through a secret love that they have for themselves, work
indiscreetly according to their own will and not according to the will of God,
and yet they know it not. They seem to stand in great inward peace when
things follow according to their own mind, but if it follow otherwise than
they would, quickly they are moved with impatience and are very heavy and
pensive.
By diversity of opinions are sprung many times dissension between
friends and neighbors, and also between religious and devout persons. An
old custom is not easily broken, and no man will readily be moved from his
own will; but if you cleave more to your own will or to your own reason than
to the meek obedience of truth, it will be long before you are a man illumined
with grace. For almighty God wills that we be perfectly subject and obedient
to Him and that we rise high above our own will and above our own reason
by a great burning love and a whole desire to Him.
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Chapter XIII.
Of Works Done Out Of Love
For nothing in the world, nor for the love of any created thing, is evil to be
done. But sometimes for the need and comfort of our neighbor a good deed
may be deferred, or be turned into another good deed; for thereby the good
deed is not destroyed but is changed into better.
Without love, the outward deed is little to be praised; but whatsoever is
done of love, be it never so little or never so despicable in the eyes of the
world, it is very profitable before God, who judges all things according to the
intent of the doer and not according to the greatness or worthiness of the
deed. He does much who much loves God; and he does much who does his
deed well; and he does his deed well who does it rather for the community
than for his own will. A deed sometimes seems to be done out of love of God
when it is rather done of a carnality, and of a fleshly love, than of a charitable
love. For commonly some carnal inclination to our friends, some inordinate
love to ourselves, some hope of a temporal reward or desire of some other
profit, moves us to do the deed, and not the pure love of God.
Love seeks not himself in what he does, but he desires to do only that
which shall be honor and praising to God. He envies no man, for he loves no
private love. He will not joy in himself but he covets above all things to be
blessed in God. He knows well that no goodness begins originally of man,
and therefore he refers all goodness to God, of whom all things proceed and
in whom all blessed saints rest in everlasting fruition. O he who had a little
spark of this perfect love should feel of a certainty in his soul that all earthly
things are full of vanity!
Chapter XIV.
Of The Suffering Of Other Men’s Faults
Such faults as we cannot amend in ourselves or in others we must
patiently suffer till our Lord of His goodness will otherwise dispose. And we
shall think that perhaps it is best so to be, for the proving of our patience,
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 29 without which our merits are but little to be pondered. Nevertheless you
should pray heartily that our Lord of His great mercy and goodness consent
to help us that we may patiently bear such impediments.
If you admonish any person once or twice and he will not take it, strive
not overmuch with him but commit all to God, that His will be done and His
honor acknowledged in all His servants; for He can well by His goodness
turn evil into good. Study always that you be patient in suffering of other
men’s faults, for you have many things in yourself that others do suffer of
you, and if you cannot make yourself to be as you would, how may you then
look to have another to be ordered in all things according to your will?
We would gladly have others perfect, but we will not amend our own
faults. We would that others should be strictly corrected for their offences,
but we will not be corrected. We dislike it that others have liberty, but we
will not be denied of that which we ask. We would that others should be
restrained according to the laws, but we will in no way be restrained. Thus it
appears evident that we seldom ponder our neighbor as we do ourselves.
If all men were perfect, what had we then to suffer from our neighbors for
God? Therefore God has so ordained that each one of us shall learn to bear
another’s burden; for in this world no man is without fault, no man without
burden, no man sufficient to himself, and no man wise enough of himself.
Wherefore it behooves each one of us to bear the burden of others, to comfort
others, to help others, to counsel others, and to instruct and admonish others
in the spirit of love. Who is of most virtue appears best in time of adversity.
Occasions make not a man frail, but they show openly what he is.
Chapter XV.
What Should Be The Life
Of A True Religious Person
It behooves you to break your own will in many things if you will have
peace and concord with others. It is no little thing to be in monasteries or in
congregations, to continue there without complaining or gainsaying, and
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faithfully to persevere there unto the end. Blessed are they who live there
well and make a good end. If you will stand surely in grace and much profit
in virtue, hold yourself as an exile and as a pilgrim here in this life, and be
glad, for the love of God, to be held in the world as a fool and a vile person,
as you are.
The donning of religious clothing helps little, but the changing of life and
the mortifying of passions makes a person perfectly and truly religious. He
who seeks any other thing in religion than God and the health of his soul,
shall find nothing there but trouble and sorrow; and he may not stand long
there in peace and quietness who does not labor to be least and subject to all.
It is good, therefore, that you remember often that you came to religion to
serve, and not to be served, and that you are called thither to suffer and to
labor, and not to be idle nor to tell vain tales. In religion a man shall be
proved as gold in a furnace, and no man may stand long there in grace and
virtue unless he will, with all his heart, humble himself for the love of God.
Chapter XVI.
Of The Examples Of Holy Fathers
Behold the lively examples of holy fathers and blessed saints in whom
flourished and shone all true perfection of life and all perfect religion, and
you shall see how little it is, and next to nothing, that we do now in these
days in comparison with them.
O what is our life if it is compared to theirs! They served our Lord in
hunger and in thirst, in heat, in cold, in nakedness, in labor and in weariness,
in vigils and fastings, in prayers and in holy meditations, in persecutions, and
in many reproofs.
O how many and how grievous were the tribulations suffered by all the
holy saints! They refused honors and all bodily pleasures here in this life that
they might always have the everlasting life. O how strict and abject a life led
the holy fathers in the wilderness! What grievous temptations they suffered,
how fiercely they were assailed by the clamorings of the flesh! How fervent
the prayer they daily offered to God, what rigorous abstinence they used,
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 31 how great zeal and fervor they had to spiritual profit, how strong a battle
they waged against all sin, and how pure and whole an intent they had to
God in all their deeds.
In the day they labored and in the night they prayed. And though they
labored in the day bodily yet they prayed in mind; and so they spent their
time always fruitfully. They thought every hour short for the service of God;
and for the great sweetness that they had in heavenly contemplation they
forgot oftentimes their bodily refection. All riches, honor, dignities, kinsmen
and friends, they renounced for the love of God. They coveted to have
nothing of the world, and scarcely would they take that which was necessary
for their fleshly nourishment.
They were poor in worldly goods but they were rich in grace and virtue;
they were needy outwardly, but inwardly in their souls they were
replenished with grace and spiritual comforts. To the world they were aliens
and strangers, but to God they were very dear and familiar friends. In the
sight of the world and in their own sight they were vile and abject, but in the
sight of God and of His saints they were precious and singularly elect. In
them shone all perfection of virtue, true meekness, simple obedience, charity,
and patience, with other similar virtues and gracious gifts of God; wherefore
they profited daily in spirit and obtained great grace of God. They remain as
an example to all religious persons, and more ought their lives to stir us to
devotion, and to profit us more and more in virtue and grace, than the
example of dis-solute and idle persons should in any way draw us backward.
O what fervor we have seen in the lives of religious persons; what
devotion in prayers, what zeal to virtue, what love for spiritual discipline;
and what reverence and meek obedience flourished in them under the rule of
their superior. Truly, their deeds yet bear witness that they were holy and
perfect who so mightily subdued the world and thrust it under foot.
Nowadays, he is accounted virtuous who is not an offender, and who
may with patience keep some little spark of that virtue and of that fervor that
he had at first. But alas for sorrow, it is through our own sloth and
negligence, and through the losing of time, that we are so soon fallen from
our first fervor into such a spiritual weakness and dullness of spirit that it is
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almost too tedious to us to live. Would to God that the desire to profit in
virtue slept not so utterly in us, who so often have seen the holy example of
blessed saints.
Chapter XVII.
Of The Exercises
Of A Good Religious Person The life of a good religious man should shine in all virtue and be inwardly
as it appears outwardly. And the much more inwardly, for almighty God
beholds the heart, and we should always honor and reverence Him, and
appear before Him as angels, clean and pure, shining in all virtue.
We ought every day to renew our purpose in God and to stir our hearts to
fervor and devotion, as though it were the first day of our conversion, and
daily to pray and say thus: ‘Help me, Lord, that I may persevere in good
purpose and in Thy holy service unto my death; and that I may now, this
present day, perfectly begin, for it is nothing that I have done in time past.’
According to our purpose and according to our intent shall be our
reward. And though our intent be never so good, yet it is necessary that we
put thereto a good will and a great diligence; for if he who oftentimes intends
to do well and to profit in virtue yet fails in his doing, what then shall
another do who seldom or never takes such purpose? Though we may
intend to do the best we can, yet our good purpose may happen to be
hindered in diverse manners. And our special hindrance is that we so readily
leave off our good exercises that we used to do before; for it is seldom seen
that a good custom willfully broken may be recovered again without great
spiritual hindrance. The purpose of righteous men depends on the grace of
God more than in themselves or in their own wisdom; for man purposes but
God disposes, and the way that man shall walk in this world is not in himself
but in the grace of God.
If a good custom is sometimes left off in order to help our neighbor it may
soon be recovered, but if it is left off through sloth or through negligence of
ourselves it will hinder us greatly, and hardly will it be recovered again.
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 33 Thus it appears that though we encourage ourselves all that we can to do
well, yet we shall often fail in many things. And nevertheless though we
may not always fulfill it, yet it is good that we always take such good
purpose, especially against such things as hinder us most.
We must also make diligent search, both within and without, that we
leave nothing inordinate unreformed in us, as much as our frailty may allow;
and if you cannot, for frailty of yourself, do thus continually, yet at the least
see that you do it once in the day, evening or morning. In the morning you
should take a good purpose for that day following, and at night you should
examine diligently how you have behaved yourself in word, in deed, and in
thought; for in them we do often offend God and our neighbor.
Arm yourself as a true knight with meekness and charity against all the
malice of your own evil inclinations. Refrain gluttony, and you shall the
more easily refrain all carnal desires. Do not be found entirely idle, but take
heed that you are always reading, writing, praying devoutly, thinking, or
doing some other good labor for the community.
Bodily exercises are to be done discreetly, for that which is profitable to
one is sometimes hurtful to another. And also spiritual labors done of
devotion are more surely done in private than in a public place. All may not
use one manner of exercise, but one in one manner, another in another
manner, as they shall feel to be most profitable to them. Also as the time
requires, so diverse exercises are to be used; for one manner of exercise is
necessary on one occasion, another at a different time; one in time of
temptation, another in time of peace and consolation; one when we have
sweetness in devotion, another when devotion withdraws.
Also there are times when we need to be more diligent in good works
than at other times; to call devoutly for help to the blessed saints, and to
dispose ourselves as though we were to be taken out of this world and
brought into the presence of the everlasting God. And since that bliss is yet
deferred from us for a time, we may well think that as yet we are neither
ready nor worthy to come there-to and therefore we ought to prepare
ourselves to be more ready another time. For blessed is that servant whom
our Lord, when He shall come at the hour of death, shall find ready; for He
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shall take him and lift him up, high above all earthly things, into His
everlasting joy and bliss.
Chapter XVIII.
Of The Love Of Solitude And Silence
Seek for a convenient time to search your own conscience, and think often
on the graciousness of God. Leave off all curious things and read such
matters as shall stir you to compunction of heart for your sins, rather than to
read only for occupying of the time. If you will withdraw yourself from
superfluous words, and from unprofitable runnings-about, and from hearing
of rumors and of vain tales, you shall find time convenient to be occupied in
holy meditation.
The most holy men and women who ever were fled the company of
worldly-living men, as far as they were able, and chose to serve God in the
secret of their hearts; and one holy man said: “As often as I have been among
worldly company I have departed with less fervor of spirit than I had when I
came.” And that we know well, whenever we talk long, for it is not so hard
always to keep silence as it is not to exceed in words when we speak much.
It is also easier to be always solitary at home than to go forth into the world
and not offend. Therefore he who intends to come to an inward setting of his
heart in God and to have the grace of devotion must withdraw himself from
the people. No man may safely appear among the people but he who would
gladly be solitary if he might; no man is secure in authority, but he who
would gladly be a subject; no one may firmly command but he who has
learned gladly to obey; no one joys truly but he whose heart witnesses him to
have a clean conscience; no one speaks surely but he who would gladly keep
silence if he might.
Always the surety of good men and of blessed men has been in meekness
and in the dread of God; and though such blessed men shone in all virtue, yet
they were not lifted up into pride therefor, but were the more diligent in the
service of God and the more meek in all their doings. And contrarily, the
surety of evil men rises from pride and presumption, and in the end deceives
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Therefore, think yourself never sure in this life whether you are religious
or secular; for oftentimes those who have been held in the sight of the people
most perfect have been suffered to fall more grievously for their
presumption. Also it is much more profitable to many persons that they
sometimes have temptations than that they be always without them, lest
perhaps they think themselves to be entirely secure, and be thereby lifted up
into pride, or run to seeking of outward consolation.
O how pure a conscience should he have who would despise all
transitory joy and would never meddle with worldly business. And what
peace and inward quietness should he have who would cut away from
himself all busyness of mind and only think on spiritual things.
No man is worthy to have spiritual comforts if he has not first been well
exercised in holy compunction. And if you will have compunction, go into a
secret place and put away from you all the clamorous noise of the world; for
in your own cell you shall find great grace which you may easily lose
without. Your own cell [or place of meditation] well lived in shall grow
sweet and pleasant to you, and shall be to you thereafter a very dear friend;
but if it is badly kept, it shall grow very tedious and irksome to you. If in the
beginning you are often therein and keep it well in good prayers and in holy
meditations, it shall afterwards be to you a singular friend and one of your
most special comforts.
In silence and quietness of heart a devout soul profits much and learns
the hidden secrets of scriptures, and finds there, also, many sweet tears in
devotion, wherewith every night she washes herself from all sin, that she
may be so much the more familiar with God as she is dissevered from the
clamorous noise of worldly business. Therefore our Lord with His angels
shall draw near to them and shall abide with them who for the love virtue
withdraw themselves from their acquaintances and from their worldly
friends. It is better that a man be solitary and well take heed of himself than
that he do miracles in the world, forgetting himself. It is also a laudable thing
in a religious person seldom to go forth, seldom to see others, and seldom to
be seen by others.
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Why will you see that which is not lawful for you to have? The world
passes away with all its lusts and deceitful pleasures. Your sensual appetite
moves you to go abroad but when the time is past, what do you bear home
again but remorse of conscience and unquietness of heart? It is often seen
that after a merry going-forth follows a sorrowful returning, and that a glad
evening causes a heavy morning. And so all fleshly joy enters pleasantly, but
in the end it bites and slays.
What may you see without your abode that you may not see within? Lo,
within your own cell [or place of meditation] you may see heaven and earth,
and all the elements whereof all earthly things are made! And what may you
elsewhere see under the Sun that may long endure? And if you might see all
earthly things and also have all bodily pleasures present at once before you,
what would it be but a vain sight? Lift up your eyes therefore to God in
heaven, and pray heartily that you may have forgiveness for your offences.
Leave vain things to those who will be vain, and take heed only to those
things that our Lord commands you. Shut fast the door of your soul, that is
to say, your imagination, and keep it warily from the beholding of any bodily
thing, as much as you may; and then lift up your mind to your Lord, open
your heart faithfully to Him, and abide with Him in your own place, for you
shall not find so much peace without.
If you had not gone forth so much as you have done, nor had given
hearing to vain tales, you should have been in much more inward peace than
you are. But since it delights you to hear new things, you shall therefore
suffer sometimes both trouble of heart and unquietness of mind.
Chapter XIX.
Of Compunction Of The Heart If you will anything profit to the health of your soul, keep yourself always
in the fear of God. Never desire to be fully at liberty, but keep yourself
always under some wholesome discipline. Never give yourself to indiscreet
mirth for any manner of thing, as much as your frailty may allow. Have
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 37 perfect compunction and sorrow for your sins and you shall find thereby
great inward devotion. Compunction opens to the sight of the soul many
good things which levity of heart and vain mirth soon drive away. It is a
marvel that any man can be merry in this life, if he consider well how far he
is exiled out of his country and how great peril his soul daily stands in. But
through inconstancy of heart and negligence of our faults we feel not, and we
will not feel, the sorrow of our own soul, and oftentimes we laugh when we
ought rather to mourn, for there is no perfect liberty nor true joy but in the
dread of God and in a good conscience.
That person is very happy who has grace to avoid all things that hinder
him from beholding his own sins and who can turn himself to God by inward
compunction. And he is happy also who avoids all things that may offend or
grieve his conscience. Fight strongly therefore against all sins, and do not
fear overmuch because you are encumbered by an evil custom, for that evil
custom may be overcome with a good custom. And do not offer as excuse
that you are hindered by other men, for if you will leave your familiarity
with others they will allow you to do your deeds without impediment.
Do not meddle with other men’s goods nor busy yourself in great men’s
causes. Have always an eye to yourself, and diligently inform and admonish
yourself before all others. If you have not the favor of worldly-living people,
sorrow not therefor; but let it be your daily sorrow that you behave not
yourself in your conversation as it behooves a good religious person to do. It
is more expedient and more profitable that a man sometimes lack
consolations in his life than that he have them always according to his will,
especially fleshly consolations. Nevertheless, that we do not sometimes have
heavenly comforts, or that we so seldom feel them, is through our own fault;
for we seek not to have the true compunction of heart nor cast fully away
from us the false outward comforts. Hold yourself therefore unworthy to
have any consolation and worthy to have much tribulation.
When a man sorrows perfectly for his sins, then all worldly comforts are
painful to him. A good man always finds matter enough why he ought
rightfully to sorrow; for if he behold himself, or if he think of his neighbor, he
sees well that no one lives here without great misery. And the more
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thoroughly that he considers himself, the more sorrow he has, for always the
matter of true sorrow and of true inward compunction is the remembrance of
our sins, wherewith we are so compassed on every side that seldom may we
behold any spiritual things.
If we would more often think on our death than we do on long life, no
doubt we should more fervently apply ourselves to amendment. But
inasmuch as these things go not to the heart, and we yet love the flattering
and false pleasures of this world, therefore we remain cold and void of
devotion; and often it is through the weakness of the spirit that the wretched
body so readily complains.
Pray therefore meekly to our Lord that He of His great goodness give you
the spirit of compunction, and say with His devotees: ‘Feed me, Lord, with
the bread of compunction and give me to drink water of tears in great
abundance.’
Chapter XX.
Of Considering The Misery Of Mankind,
And Wherein The Felicity Of Man Stands
A wretch you are, wherever you are and wherever you turn yourself, if
you turn yourself not to God. Why are you so easily troubled when it falls
not to you as you would and desire? What is he who has all things according
to his will? Neither you nor I, nor any man living; for no one lives here
without some trouble or anguish, though he may be a king or a pope.
Who do you think is in most favor with God? Truly, he who gladly
suffers most for God. But many persons weak and feeble in spirit say thus in
their hearts: ‘Lo, how good a life that man leads; how rich he is, how
powerful he is, how high in authority, how great in sight of the people, and
how fair and beauteous he is in appearance.’ But if you take heed to the
Goodness everlasting, you shall well see that these worldly goods and
worldly pleasures are worth but little, and that they are rather more grievous
than pleasant; for they may not be had, nor kept, but by great labor and
busyness of mind. The felicity of man stands not in abundance of worldly
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 39 goods, but in abundance of spiritual goods, which are the gifts of God to a
clean heart; and therefore moderation is best.
Truly, to live in this world is but misery; and the more spiritual that a
man would be, the more painful it is to him to live, and the more plainly he
feels the faults of man’s corruption. For to eat, to drink, to sleep, to wake, to
rest, to labor, and to serve all other necessities of the body, is great misery
and great affliction to a devout soul, which would gladly be free from the
bondage of sin so that it might without hindrance serve our Lord in purity of
conscience and in cleanness of heart. The inward man is greatly grieved
through bodily necessities in this world, wherefore all holy men desire that
they might be delivered from such necessities.
But woe be to them who know not their own misery, and woe be to them
who love this wretched and corruptible life! For some love it so much that if
they might ever live here, though they might get their living but poorly with
labor and begging, yet would they never care for the kingdom of God. O
mad and unfaithful creatures are they who so deeply set their love in earthly
things that they have no feeling or taste but in fleshly pleasures. Truly, in the
hour of death they shall know how vile and insignificant a thing it was that
they so much loved. But holy saints and devout lovers of God heed not what
pleases the flesh, nor what is pleasant in sight of the world. All their intent
and desire they hold to things invisible, and fear lest by sight of things
visible, they might be drawn down to the love of them.
My well-beloved brother, lose not the desire to profit in spiritual things,
for you have yet good time and space. Why will you any longer defer the
time? Arise, and now this same instant begin, and say thus: ‘Now is the time
to labor in good works; now is the time to fight in spiritual battle; and now is
the time to make amends for mistakes of the past.’ When you are troubled,
then is the best time to merit and get rewards of God.
It behooves you to go through fire and water before you may come to the
place of regeneration; and unless you can fully have the mastery over
yourself you shall never overcome sin, nor live without great tediousness
and sorrow. Wherefore we must hold ourselves in patience, and with good
hope await the mercy of God till wretchedness is overpassed and this bodily
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life is changed into the life everlasting.
Oh how great is the frailty of man who is ever ready and prone to sin.
This day you repent and tomorrow you fall again. Now you purpose to be
wary and intend to go forth strongly in good works, and shortly after you do
as though you never had taken such purpose. Rightfully therefore we ought
to humble ourselves, and never to think any virtue or goodness is in us, we
are so frail and so unstable. Soon may that be lost through negligence
which with much labor and special grace was hardly gotten. Moreover, what
shall become of us in the end, when we so soon grow dull and slow? Truly,
sorrow and woe shall be to us if we fall to bodily rest now, as though we
were in spiritual certainty, when there appears as yet neither sign nor token
of virtue nor of good living in our conversation. Wherefore it would be
expedient to us that we be yet again instructed as novices to learn good
manners, if perchance by that means there could be found hereafter any trust
of amendment and spiritual profit in our conversation.
Chapter XXI.
Of The Remembrance Of Death
The hour of death will shortly come, and therefore take heed how you
order yourself, for the common proverb is true: ‘Today a man, tomorrow
none.’ And when you are out of sight you are quickly out of mind and soon
shall you be forgotten.
O the great dullness and hardness of man’s heart, that only thinks on
things present, and little provides for the life to come! If you would do well,
behave yourself in every deed and in every thought as though you should
this instant die. If you had a good conscience you should not much fear
death, and it would be better for you to leave sin than to fear death. O my
dear brother, if you are not ready this day, how shall you be ready
tomorrow? Tomorrow is a day uncertain, and you cannot tell whether you
shall live so long.
What profit is it to us to live long when we thereby so little amend our
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 41 life? Long life does not always bring us to amendment but oftentimes
increases more sin. Would to God that we might be one day well conversant
in this world. Many reckon their years of conversion, and yet there is but
little fruit of amendment or of any good example seen in their conversation.
If it is fearful to die, perhaps it is more perilous to live long. Blessed are those
persons who ever have the hour of death before their eyes and who every
day dispose themselves to die.
If you ever saw any man die, remember that you must go the same way.
In the morning doubt whether you shall live till night, and at night think not
yourself sure to live till the morrow. Be always ready, and live in such
manner that death find you not unprepared. Remember how many have
died suddenly and unpre-pared; for our Lord has called them in such hour as
they least thought. And when that last hour shall come you shall begin to
feel entirely otherwise of your life passed than you have done before; and
you shall then sorrow greatly that you have been so slow and so negligent in
the service of God as you have been. O how happy and wise is he, therefore,
who labors now to stand in such a state in this life as he would be found in at
his death. Truly, a perfect despising of the world and a fervent desire to
profit in virtue, a love to be taught, a fruitful labor in works of penance, a
ready will to obey, a full forsaking of ourselves, and a willing sufferance of
all adversities for the love of God, shall give us great trust that we shall die
well.
O my dear brother, from how great peril and dread might you now
deliver yourself, if you would always in this life dread to offend God and
always have the coming of death suspect. Therefore study now to live so
that at the hour of death you may rather joy than dread. Learn now to die to
the world that you may then live in God. Learn also to despise all worldly
things that you may then freely go to God. Chastise now your body with
penance, that you may then have a sure and steadfast hope of salvation.
You are a fool if you think to live long, since you are not certain to live
one day to the end. How many have been deceived through trust of long life
and suddenly have been taken out of this world long before they had
thought. How often have you heard it told that such a man was slain, and
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such a man was drowned, and such a man fell and broke his neck; this man
as he ate his meat choked to death, and this man as he played took his death;
one with fire, another with the sword, another with sickness, and some by
theft, have suddenly perished. And so the end of all men is death, and the
life of man, like a shadow, suddenly slides and passes away.
Think often who shall remember you after your death, and who shall
pray for you; and do now for yourself all that you can, for you know not
when you shall die or what shall follow after your death. While you have
time, gather to yourself the riches immortal. Think abidingly on nothing but
your soul’s health. Set your study only on things that are of God and that
belong to His honor. Make friends against that time by worshipping His
saints and following their steps, so that when you shall go out of this world
they may receive you into your everlasting home.
Keep yourself as a pilgrim and as a stranger here in this world, to whom
nothing belongs of worldly business. Keep your heart free and always lifted
up to God, for you have here no abiding home. Send your desires and your
daily prayers always upward to God, and pray perseveringly that your soul
at the hour of death may blessedly depart out of this world and go to God.
Chapter XXII.
Of The Fervent Amending Of All Our Life,
And That We Shall Especially Take Heed
Of Our Own Soul’s Health Before All Else
My son, be waking and diligent in the service of God, and think often
why you are here and why you have forsaken the world. Was it not that you
should live to God and be made a spiritual man? Yes, truly.
Therefore stir yourself to perfection; for in short time you shall receive
the full reward of all your labors, and from thenceforth shall never come to
you sorrow nor dread. Your labor shall be little and short, and you shall
receive therefor again, everlasting rest and comfort. If you continue faithful
and fervent in good deeds, without doubt our Lord will be faithful and
liberal to you in His rewards. You shall always have a good trust that you
shall come to the palm of victory; but you shall not set yourself in full
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 43 certainty thereof, lest perhaps you grow dull and proud in heart.
A certain person who oftentimes doubted whether he was in the state of
grace or not, once fell prostrate before God and said thus: ‘O that I might
know whether I shall persevere in virtue to the end of my life.’ And
immediately he heard inwardly in his soul the answer of our Lord, saying:
‘What would you do if you knew you should persevere? Do now as you
would do then, and you shall be safe.’ And so immediately he was comforted
and committed himself wholly to the will of God, and all his doubtfulness
ceased, and never after would he curiously search to know what should
become of him; but rather he studied to know what was the will of God
concerning him, and how he might begin and end all his deeds that he
should do, to the pleasure of God and to His honor.
One thing withdraws many from profiting in virtue and from amendment
of life: that is, a horror and a false worldly dread that they may not endure
the pain and labor that is needful for the getting thereof. But they shall most
profit in virtue before all others who enforce themselves mightily to
overcome those things that are most grievous and most contrarious to them.
For a man profits there most, and there wins most grace, where he most
overcomes himself and wherein he most mortifies his body to the soul.
But all men have not the same amount to mortify and overcome, for some
have more passions than others have. Nevertheless a fervent lover of God,
though he have greater passions than others, shall yet be stronger to profit in
virtue than another who is better mannered and who has fewer passions, but
is less fervent to virtue. Two things help a man much to amendment of life:
that is, a mighty withdrawing of himself from those things that the body
most inclines him to, and a fervent labor for such virtues as he has most need
of.
Study also to overcome in yourself those things that in other men most
offend you. And take always some special profit in every place, wherever
you may be: if you see any good example, enforce yourself to follow it; and if
you see any evil example, see that you avoid it. As your eye considers the
works of others, just so and in the same way your works are considered by
others.
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O how joyous and how delectable it is to see religious men devout and
fervent in the love of God, well mannered, and well taught in spiritual
learning! And contrarily, how heavy and sorrowful it is to see them live
inordinately, not using those things that they have chosen and taken
themselves to. Also how ill-befitting a thing it is that a man be negligent in
the purpose of his first calling and set his mind to things that are not
committed to him.
A good religious man who is fervent in his religion takes all things well,
and does gladly all that he is commanded to do. But a religious person who
is negligent and slothful has trouble upon trouble and suffers great anguish
and pain on every side; for he lacks the true inward comfort, and he is
prohibited from seeking any outward comforts. Therefore a religious person
who lives without discipline is apt to fall to great ruin. Also he who in
religion seeks to have liberty and releasing of his duty shall always be in
anguish and sorrow, for one thing or another shall ever displease him. Take
heed how other religious persons do, who are very strictly kept under the
rule of their religion. They go seldom forth, they live hardly, they eat poorly,
and are clothed grossly; they labor much, speak little, watch long, rise early,
make long prayers, read often, and keep themselves always in some
wholesome discipline. Behold the monks and nuns of various Orders; how
they rise every night to serve our Lord. And therefore it would be a great
shame to you that you should grow slow and dull in so holy a work where so
many laud and praise our Lord.
O how joyous a life would it be, if we should do nothing else but with
heart and mouth continually praise our Lord. Now truly, if we should never
need to eat, drink, nor sleep, but might always laud Him and only take heed
to spiritual studies, then would we be much more happy and blessed than
we are now, when we are bound of necessity to serve the body. O would to
God that these bodily nourishings were turned into spiritual refections
which, alas, we taste but seldom.
When a man comes to that perfection that he seeks not his consolation in
any created thing, then begins God first to savor sweet unto him, and then he
shall be content with everything that comes, whether it be pleasurable or
irksome. And then he shall not be glad for any worldly profit, be it never so
Admonitions Useful For a Spiritual Life 45 great, nor sorry for the wanting of it, for he has set himself and established
himself wholly in God, who is to him all in all. For nothing perishes nor dies
to God, but all things live to Him and serve Him without ceasing, after His
bidding.
In everything remember the end, and that time lost cannot be called back
again. Without labor and diligence you shall never get virtue. If you begin
to be negligent, you begin to be feeble and weak. But if you apply yourself to
fervor, you shall find great help of God; and for the love of virtue you shall
find less pain in all your labors than you did first.
He who is fervent and loving is always quick and ready to all things that
are of God and to His honor; and it is more labor to resist vices and passions
than it is to strain and sweat in bodily labors. He who will not flee small sins
shall little by little fall into greater, and you shall always be glad at night
when you have spent the day before fruitfully. Take heed of yourself, and stir
yourself always to devotion; admonish yourself, and whatsoever you do for
others forget not yourself. So much shall you profit in virtue as you can
break your own will and follow the will of God.
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BOOK TWO:
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life
Chapter I.
Of Inward Conversation
He to whom all things are esteemed as they are and not as they are taken
to be by worldly people is very wise and is rather taught by God than by
man. And he who can inwardly lift his mind upward to God and can little
regard outward things needs not to seek for time or place to go to prayers, or
to do other good deeds or virtuous works. For the spiritual man may soon
gather himself together and fix his mind in God because he never allows it to
be fully occupied in outward things. Therefore his outward labors and his
worldly occupations, necessary for the time, hinder him but little; for, as they
come, so he applies himself to them and refers them always to the will of
God. Moreover, a man who is well ordered in his soul heeds little the unkind
demeanor of worldly people nor yet their proud behavior. As much as a
man loves any worldly thing more than it should be beloved, so much his
mind is hindered from the true ordinate love that he should have to God.
If you were well purged from all inordinate affections, then whatsoever
befell to you should turn to your spiritual profit and the great increasing of
grace and virtue in your soul. The cause why so many things displease you
and trouble you, is that you are not yet perfectly dead to the world nor fully
severed from the love of earthly things; and nothing so much defiles the soul
as an impure love of creatures.
If you forsake to be comforted by worldly things, you may behold more
perfectly the things of eternity, and you shall then sing continually lauds and
praisings to God with great joy and inward gladness of heart.
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Chapter II.
Of A Meek Knowing Of Our Own Faults
Regard not much who is with you nor who is against you, but let this be
your greatest study, that God may be with you in every thing that you do.
Have a good conscience and He shall well defend you; and whomsoever He
will help and defend, no malice may hinder nor grieve. If you can be still
and suffer awhile, you shall without doubt see the help of God come in your
need. He knows the time, place and means to deliver you, and therefore you
must resign yourself wholly to Him. It pertains to Him to help and deliver
you from all confusion.
Nevertheless it is oftentimes much profitable to us for the more sure
keeping of meekness that other men know our faults and reprove us of them.
When a man humbles himself for his offences, he readily pleases others and
reconciles himself to those whom he has offended. The humble man
almighty God defends and comforts; to him He inclines Himself and sends
him great plenty of His grace. To the humble man also He shows His secrets
and lovingly He draws him to Himself; and after his oppression He lifts him
up to glory. The humble man, when he has suffered confusion and reproof,
is in good peace, for he trusts in God and not in the world. Moreover, if you
will come to the highness of perfection, think not yourself to have anything
profited in virtue till you can feel meekly in your heart that you have less
humility and less virtue than any other man.
Chapter III.
How Good It Is For A Man To Be Peaceful
First put yourself in peace, and then you may the better give peace to
others. A peaceful and patient man profits more to himself and to others also
than a man well learned who is disquieted. A man who is passionate
oftentimes turns good into evil and readily believes the worse part, but a
good peaceful man turns all things to the best and has suspicion toward no
man.
He who is not content is often troubled with many suspicions, and neither
is he quiet himself nor does he allow others to be quiet. He oftentimes speaks
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what he should not speak and he omits to speak what would be more
expedient to say; he considers greatly what others are bound to do but to that
which he is bound to himself he is fully negligent.
Therefore, have first a zeal and a respect to yourself and to your own
soul, and then you may the more righteously and with the more due order of
charity, have zeal toward your neighbor’s. You are often ready to excuse
your own faults, but you will not hear the excuses of your brethren. Truly, it
would be more charitable and more profitable to you that you should accuse
yourself and excuse your brother; for if you will be borne, you must also bear
others. Behold how far you are yet from the perfect humility and charity of
good religious souls, who cannot be angry with any but with themselves.
It is no great thing to be well conversant with good and gentle men, for
that naturally pleases all people; and all men gladly have peace with them
and most love them who are like themselves. But to live peaceably with evil
men and with ill-tempered men who lack good manners and are untaught,
and who are also contrarious unto us, is a great grace, and a manly deed and
much to be praised; for it cannot be done except through great spiritual
strength. Some persons can be quiet themselves and also can live quietly
with others; and some cannot be quiet themselves, nor yet allow others to be
quiet; they are grievous to others, but they are more grievous to themselves.
And some can keep themselves in good peace and can also bring others to
live in peace.
Nevertheless all our peace while we are in this mortal life stands more in
meek suffering of troubles and of things that are contrarious unto us, than in
not feeling them; for no man may live here without some trouble. Therefore
he who can best suffer shall have most peace; and he is the very true
vanquisher of himself, the lord of the world, and the true inheritor of the
kingdom of God.
Chapter IV.
Of A Pure Mind And A Simple Intent
Man is borne up from earthly things with two wings, that is to say, with
simplicity and purity: simplicity is in the intent, and purity is in the love. The
good, true, and simple intent looks towards God, but the pure love tastes His
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life 49 sweetness. If you are free from all inordinate love, no good deed shall hinder
you, but you shall therewith increase in the way of perfection. If you intend
well and seek nothing but God and the profit of your own soul and of your
neighbor’s, you shall have great inward liberty of mind. And if your heart is
reconciled with God, then every creature shall be to you a mirror of life and a
book of holy doctrine, for there is no creature so little nor so vile but that it
shows and represents the goodness of God.
If you were inwardly in your soul pure and clean, you should then,
without doubt, take all things to the best; for a pure heart transcends both
heaven and hell. Such as a man is in his conscience inwardly, such he shows
himself to be by his outward conversation. If there is any true joy in this
world, it is had by a man of pure conscience; and if there is anywhere
tribulation or anguish, an evil conscience knows it best. For, as iron put into
the fire is cleansed from rust and is made entirely clean and pure, just so, a
man turning himself wholly to God is purged from slothfulness and
suddenly is changed into a new man.
When a man begins to grow dull and slow to spiritual endeavor, then a
little labor greatly frightens him, and then he takes gladly outward comfort
of the world and of the flesh; but when he begins perfectly to overcome
himself and to walk strongly in the way of God, then he regards those labors
as little that before he thought were very grievous and insupportable to him.
Chapter V.
Of The Knowing Of Ourselves
We may not trust much in ourselves nor in our own wit, for oftentimes
through our presumption we lack grace, and very little light of true under-
standing is in us. Many times what we have we lose through our negligence;
and yet we see not, nor will we see, how blind we are. Oftentimes we do evil
and in defense thereof we do much worse; and sometimes we are moved
with passion and we think it is of a zeal to God. We immediately reprove
small faults in our neighbors, but our own faults which are much greater we
will not see. We feel often and ponder greatly what we suffer from others,
but what others suffer from us we will not consider. He who would well and
rightly judge his own faults should not so rigorously judge the faults of his
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neighbors.
A man who is inwardly turned to God takes heed of himself before all
others, and he who can well take heed of himself can easily be still about
other men’s deeds. You shall never be a spiritual man and a devout lover of
God unless you can keep yourself from meddling in other men’s deeds and
can especially take heed of your own. If you take heed wholly to God and to
yourself, the faults that you see in others shall little move you. Where are
you when you are not present to yourself? And when you have run all about
and have much considered other men’s works, what have you profited
thereby if you have forgotten yourself? If you will therefore have peace in
your soul and be perfectly united to God in blessed love, set apart all other
men’s deeds and only set yourself and your own deeds before the eye of
your soul; and if you see anything amiss in yourself, shortly reform it.
You shall much profit in grace if you keep yourself free from all temporal
cares, and it shall hinder you greatly if you set value on any temporal things.
Therefore let nothing be in your sight high, nothing great, nothing pleasing
nor accept-able to you, unless it be purely God, or of God. Think all comforts
vain that come to you by any creature. He who loves God, and his own soul
for God, despises all other love; for he sees well that God alone, who is
eternal and incomprehensible, and fulfills all things with His goodness, is the
whole solace and comfort of the soul; and that He is the very true gladness of
heart, and none other but only He.
Chapter VI.
Of The Gladness Of A Good Conscience
The glory of a good man is the witness of God that he has a good
conscience; have therefore a good conscience and you shall always have
gladness. A good conscience may bear many wrongs and is ever merry and
glad in adversities, but an evil conscience is always fearful and unquiet.
Thus, you shall rest sweetly and blessedly if your own heart reprove you not.
Be never glad but when you have done well. Evil men never have perfect
gladness nor feel inward peace, for there is no peace to wicked people. And
though they say: ‘We are in good peace; no evil shall come to us! Lo, who
may grieve us or hurt us?’’ believe them not; for suddenly the wrath of God
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life 51 shall fall upon them, unless they amend, and all that they have done shall
turn to nothing, and whatsoever they would have done shall be undone.
It is no grievous thing to a fervent lover of God to joy in tribulation, for all
his joy and glory is in the Lord. It is a short glory that is given by man, and
commonly some heaviness follows shortly after. The joy and gladness of
good men is in God and of God, and their joy is in virtue and in a good life.
He who desires the very perfect joy that is everlasting sets little value on
temporal joy; and he who seeks any worldly joy, or does not in his heart fully
despise it, shows himself openly to love but little the joy of heaven.
He has great tranquility and peace of heart who regards neither praise
nor censure, and he shall soon be pacified and content who has a good
conscience. You are not the better because you are praised, nor the worse
because you are criticized, for as you are, you are; and whatsoever is said of
you, you are no better than almighty God, who is the searcher of man’s heart,
will witness you to be. If you behold well what you are inwardly, you shall
not care much what the world speaks of you outwardly. Man sees the face
but God beholds the heart; man beholds the deed but God beholds the intent
of the deed. It is a great token of a meek heart, that a man ever shall do well
and yet think himself to have done but little. And it is a great sign of purity
of living and of an inward trust in God, when a man takes not his comfort of
any creature. For he who has his mind always lifted up to God and is not
bound with any inordinate affection outwardly, is in the degree and in the
state of a holy and blessed man.
Chapter VII.
Of The Visiting Of Grace
When the grace of God comes to a man, then he is made mighty and
strong to do everything that belongs to virtue; and when grace withdraws,
then he is made weak and feeble to do any good deed, and is, as it were, left
only to pain and punishments. And if it happens so with you, yet despair
not overmuch therefore and leave not your good deeds undone, but stand
always strongly in obedience to the will of God, and turn all things that shall
come to you to the laud and praising of His name. For after winter comes
summer, and after the night comes the day, and after a great tempest shows
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again very clear and pleasant weather.
Chapter VIII.
Of The Wanting Of All Solace And Comfort It is no great thing to despise man’s comfort when the comfort of God is
present. But it is a great thing, and that a very great thing, that a man should
be so strong in spirit that he may bear the wanting of them both; and for the
love of God and to His honor should have a ready will to bear, as it were, a
desolation of spirit, and yet in nothing to seek himself nor his own merits.
What proof of virtue is it, if a man is merry and devout in God when
grace comes and visits the soul, for that hour is desired by every creature?
He rides very safely whom the grace of God bears and supports; and what
marvel is it, if he feels no burden who is borne up by Him who is almighty,
and led by the sovereign guide who is God Himself? We are always glad to
have solace and consolation; but we would have no tribulation, and we will
not readily cast from us the false love of ourselves.
It behooves a man to fight long, and mightily to strive with himself,
before he shall learn fully to overcome himself, and freely and readily set all
his desires in God. When a man loves himself and much trusts to himself, he
falls immediately to man’s comforts. But the very true lover of God and the
diligent follower of virtue falls not so easily to them; he seeks little such
sensible sweetness and bodily delights, but rather is glad to suffer great hard
labors and pain for the love of God.
Nevertheless, when spiritual comfort is sent to you of God, take it meekly
and give thanks humbly for it. But know for certain that it is of the great
goodness of God that it is sent to you, and not of your deserving. And see
that you are not lifted up therefore unto pride, nor that you joy much thereof,
nor presume vainly therein, but rather that you be the more meek for so
noble a gift, and the more watchful and fearful in all your works; for that
time will pass away, and the time of temptation will shortly follow after.
When comfort is withdrawn, despair not therefore, but meekly and patiently
await the visitation of God, for He is able and of sufficient power to give you
more grace and more spiritual comfort than you had first.
Such alteration of grace is no new thing, and no strange thing to those
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life 53 who have had experience in the way of God; for in all great saints and in all
lovers of God similar alteration has often been found. Wherefore the
Psalmist, when he had abundance of spiritual comfort, said to our Lord that
he trusted he should never be removed from such comfort. But after, when
grace withdrew, he said: “O Lord, Thou hast withdrawn Thy spiritual
comforts from me and I am left in great trouble and heaviness.”
Yet nevertheless he despaired not therefor, but prayed heartily unto our
Lord, and said: “I shall busily cry to Thee, Lord, and I shall meekly pray to
Thee for grace and comfort.” And immediately he had the effect of his
prayer, as he witnesses himself, saying: “Our Lord hath heard my prayer,
and hath had mercy on me, and hath now again sent me His help and
spiritual comfort.” And therefore he said afterwards: “Lord, Thou hast
turned my sorrow into joy, and Thou hast encompassed me with heavenly
gladness.”
If almighty God has done thus with holy saints, it is not for us, weak and
feeble persons, to despair, though we sometimes have fervor of spirit, and
are sometimes left cold and void of devotion. The Spirit comes and goes
according to His pleasure, and therefore Job said: “Lord, Thou graciously
visitest Thy lover in the morning, that is to say, in the time of comfort; and
suddenly Thou provest him in withdrawing such comforts from him.”
Wherein then may I trust, or in whom may I have any confidence, but
only in the great endless grace and mercy of God? For the company of good
men and the fellowship of devout brethren and faithful friends, the having of
holy books or of devout treatises, the hearing of sweet songs or of devout
hymns, may little avail, and bring forth but little comfort to the soul when we
are left to our own frailty and poverty. And when we are so left, there is no
better remedy than patience, with a whole resigning of our own will to the
will of God.
Chapter IX.
Of Yielding Thanks To God
For His Manifold Graces
Why do you seek rest here, since you are born to labor? Dispose yourself
to patience rather than to comforts, to penance rather than to gladness. What
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temporal man would not gladly have spiritual comforts if he might always
keep them? For spiritual comforts exceed by far all worldly delights and all
bodily pleasures. All worldly delights are either foul or vain; but spiritual
delights are only joyful and true, brought forth by virtues and sent by God
into a pure soul. But such comforts no man may have whenever he wishes,
for the time of temptation follows swiftly after.
The false liberty of will and the inordinate trust that we have to ourselves
is much contrary to the heavenly visitations. Our Lord does well in sending
such comforts, but we do not well when we yield not all thanks therefor to
Him again. The greatest cause why the gifts of grace may not readily come
to us is that we are ungrateful to the Giver and yield not thanks to Him from
whom all goodness comes. Grace is always given to them who are ready to
yield thanks for it again, and therefore it is more likely given to the meek and
taken from the proud.
I would have none of that consolation that should take from me
compunction! And I would have none of that contemplation that should lift
my soul into presumption! Every high thing in man’s sight is not holy; every
desire is not clean and pure; every sweet thing is not good; all that is dear to
man is not always pleasant to God. We shall therefore gladly take such gifts
as make us the more ready to forsake ourselves and our own will.
He who knows the comforts that come through the gift of grace and
knows also how sharp and painful the absenting of grace is, shall not dare
think that any goodness comes of himself; but he shall openly confess that of
himself he is very poor and naked of all virtue. Yield therefore to God that
which is His, and to yourself that which is your own; that is, thank God for
His manifold graces and blame yourself for your offences. Hold in you
always a sure foundation of meekness, and then the highness of virtue shall
shortly be given unto you; for the high tower of virtue may not long stand
unless it is borne up with the low foundation of meekness.
Those who are greatest in virtue are least in their own sight; and the more
glorious they are, the meeker they are in themselves, full of truth and of
heavenly joy, not desirous of any vainglory or praising of man. Also those
who are fully established and confirmed in God may in no way be lifted up
unto pride. They who ascribe all goodness to God seek neither glory nor
vain praisings in the world. They covet only to joy and to be glorified in
Admonitions Drawing To The Inner Life 55 God, and desire in heart that He may be honored, lauded, and praised, above
all things, both in Himself and all His saints; and that is always the thing that
perfect men most desire to bring about.
Be loving and thankful to God for the least benefit that He gives you, and
then you shall be the better prepared and the more worthy to receive of Him
greater benefits. Think the least gift that He gives is great; and the most
despicable things take as special gifts and as great tokens of love. For if the
greatness of the Giver is well considered, no gift that He gives shall seem
little.
It is no little thing that is given by God, for though He send pain and
sorrow, we should take them gladly and thankfully, since all that He allows
to come unto us is for our spiritual health. If a man desire to hold the grace
of God, let him be kind, and thankful for such grace as he has received, and
patient when it is withdrawn; let him pray devoutly that it may shortly come
again, and then let him be meek and humble in spirit, so that he lose it not
through his presumption and pride of heart.
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BOOK THREE:
The Inward Speaking Of God
To A Faithful Soul
Chapter I.
That The Words Of God Are
To Be Heard With Great Meekness,
And That There Are But Few Who
Ponder Them As They Ought To Do
“My son,” saith our Lord, “hear My words and follow them, for they are
most sweet, far surpassing the wisdom and learning of all philosophers and
of al the wise men of the world. My words are spirit-ual and cannot be fully
comprehended by the wit of man. Neither are they to be turned and applied
according to the vain pleasure of the hearer, but are to be heard in silence,
with great meekness and reverence, with great inward affection of the heart,
and in great rest and quietness of body and soul.”
O blessed is he, Lord, whom Thou informest and teachest, so that Thou
mayst be merciful unto him, and so that he may not be left desolate and
comfortless in his last days.
Then saith our Lord again: “I have taught those who love Me since the
beginning, and I still continue to speak to every creature. But many are deaf
and will not hear, and many hear the world more gladly than Me, and more
willingly follow the pleasures of the flesh than the pleasure of God.
“The world promises temporal things of small value and yet is served
with great affection; but God promises high things and things eternal, and
the hearts of the people are slow and dull. O who serves and obeys God in
all things with so great a desire as he does the world, and as worldly
The Inward Speaking of God 57 authorities are served and obeyed? I think none. And why? For a little
employment great journeys are taken, but for the life everlasting the people
will scarcely lift their feet once from the ground. A thing that is of small
price may be busily sought — sometimes for a penny men strive against one
another; and for the promise of a little worldly profit men will strain and
sweat both night and day.
“But alas for sorrow! For the everlasting prize, for the reward that may
not be esteemed by man’s heart, for the high honor and the glory that never
shall have end, men are slow to take any manner of pain or labor. Be
ashamed, you slow servant of God, that they are found more ready to works
of death than you are to works of life, and that they joy more in vanity than
you in truth. And yet they are often deceived by that which they have most
trust in, but My promise deceives no man nor leaves any man who trusts in
Me without some comfort. What I have promised I will perform, and what I
have said, I will fulfill to every person, so that they abide faithfully in My
love and dread unto the end; for I am the rewarder of all good men, and a
strong prover of all devout souls.
“Write My words in your heart diligently, and often think upon them; for
in time of temptation they shall be much necessary unto you. That which
you understand not when you read it, you shall understand in the time of
My visitation. I visit my servants two manner of ways; that is, with
temptation, and with consolation. And two lessons daily I read unto them,
one whereby I rebuke their vices, another whereby I stir them to increase in
virtues. He who knows My words and despises them has that which shall
judge him at the time of his death.”
O my Lord! Thou art all my riches; and all that I have, I have it from
Thee. But what am I, Lord, that I dare thus speak to Thee? I am Thy poorest
servant and a worm most abject; more poor, and more despicable than I can
or dare say. Behold, Lord, that I am nothing, that I have nothing, and that of
myself I am worth nothing. Thou only art good, righteous, and holy; Thou
orderest all things, Thou givest all things, and Thou fulfillest all things with
Thy goodness, leaving only the wretched sinner barren and void of heavenly
comfort. Remember Thy mercies, and fill my heart with Thy manifold
graces, for Thou wilt not that Thy works in me be made in vain. How may I
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bear the miseries of this life unless Thy grace and mercy do comfort me
therein? Turn not Thy face from me; defer not Thy visiting of me: withdraw
not Thy comforts from me, lest perhaps my soul become as dry earth without
the water of grace, and become an unprofitable thing to Thee. Teach me,
Lord, to fulfill Thy will and to live meekly and worthily before Thee, for
Thou art all my wisdom and learning. Thou art He who knowest me as I am,
and who knewest me before the world was made, and before I was born or
brought into this life.
Chapter II.
That Grace Will Not Be Mixed
With Love Of Worldly Things
“My son, grace is a precious thing and will not be mixed with any private
love nor with worldly comforts. It behooves you to cast away all hindrances
of grace if you will have the gracious gift thereof. Choose therefore a secret
place and love to be alone, and keep yourself from hearing of vain tales and
fables. Offer to God devout prayers and ask earnestly that you may have a
contrite heart and a pure conscience. Think all the world is nothing, and
prefer My service before all other things; for you may not have your mind on
Me and therewithal delight in transitory pleasures. It behooves you,
therefore, to withdraw yourself from your dearest friends, and from all your
acquaintances, and to sequester your mind wholly from the inordinate desire
of worldly comfort as much as you may.
“O how sure a trust shall it be to a man at his departing out of this world,
to feel inwardly in his soul that no earthly love nor yet the affection of any
passing or transitory thing has any rule in him! But a weak person, newly
turned to God, may not so easily have his heart severed from earthly desires,
and the worldly-living man knows not the freedom of a man who is inwardly
turned to God. And therefore if a man will perfectly be spiritual and holy, he
must as well renounce strangers as kinsfolk; and especially before all others
he must be most wary of himself, for if he overcomes himself perfectly he
shall the sooner overcome all other enemies. The most noble and most
perfect victory is for a man to have the victory over himself. He, therefore,
who holds himself so much subject that sensuality obeys to reason, and
The Inward Speaking of God 59 reason in all things is obedient to Me, is the true overcomer of himself and
the lord of the world.
“But if you covet to come to that point, you must begin manfully, and set
your axe to the root of the tree and fully cut away and destroy in yourself all
the inordinate inclination that you have to yourself or to any private or
material things. For of that vice, that a man loves himself inordinately,
depends nearly all that ought summarily to be destroyed in man. And if that
is truly overcome, immediately shall follow great tranquility and peace of
conscience. But inasmuch as there are but few who labor to die to
themselves, or to overcome themselves perfectly, therefore many lie still in
their fleshly feelings and worldly comforts, and may in no way rise up in
spirit above themselves; for it behooves him who will be free in heart and
have contemplation of Me, to mortify all evil inclinations that he has to
himself and to the world, and not to be bound to any creature by an
inordinate or private love.”
Chapter III.
How We Should Forget All Created Things
In Order That We Might Find Our Creator
Lord, I have great need of Thy grace, and of Thy great singular grace,
before I may come thither where no creature shall hinder me from the
perfect behold-ing of Thee; for as long as any transitory thing holds me or
has rule in me, I may not fly freely to Thee. He coveted to fly without
hindrance who said: ‘Who shall give me wings like a dove that I may fly into
the bosom of my Lord!’
I see well that no man is more restful in this world than is that man who
always has his mind and his whole intent upward to God, and nothing
desires of the world. It behooves him therefore who would perfectly forsake
himself and behold Thee, to rise above al creatures, and himself also, and
through excess of mind to see and behold that Thou, maker of all things, hast
nothing among all creatures like Thyself. Unless a man is clearly delivered
from the love of all creatures, he may not fully tend to his creator, and that is
the greatest cause why there are so few contemplatives; that is to say,
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because there are so few who will sequester themselves willingly from the
love of created things.
For contemplation great grace is required, for it lifts up the soul and
ravishes it up in Spirit above itself. And unless a man is lifted up in Spirit
above himself and is clearly delivered in his love from all creatures and is
perfectly and fully united to God, whatsoever he knows or whatsoever he
has, either in virtue or learning, is worth but little before God. Therefore he
shall have but little virtue and long shall he lie still in earthly pleasures, who
accounts anything great or worthy to be praised but God alone; for all other
things besides God are nothing, and are to be accounted as nothing. There is
great difference between the wisdom of a devout man, enlightened by grace,
and the learning of a subtle and studious scholar; and that learning is much
more noble and much more worthy that comes by the influence and gracious
gift of God than that which is gotten by the labor and study of man.
Many desire to have the gift of contemplation, but they will not use such
things as are required for contemplation. And one great hindrance of
contemplation is that we stand so long in outward signs and in material
things, and take no heed of the perfect mortifying of our body to the spirit. I
know not how it is, nor with what spirit we are led, nor what we pretend, we
who are called spiritual persons, that we take greater labor and study for
transitory things than we do to know the inward state of our own soul.
But alas for sorrow, as soon as we have made a little recollection to God,
we run forth to outward things and do not search our own conscience with
due examination, as we should, nor heed where our affection rests, nor
sorrow that our deeds are so evil and so unclean as they are. In ancient
times, the people corrupted themselves with fleshly uncleanness, and
therefore followed the great flood; and truly, when our inward affection is
corrupted, our deeds following thereon are also corrupted, for of a clean
heart springs the fruit of a good life.
It is oftentimes asked what deeds such a man has done, but of what zeal
or with what intent he did them is little regarded. Whether a man is rich,
strong, fair, able, a good writer, a good singer, or a good laborer, is often
inquired; but how poor he is in spirit, how patient and meek, how devout,
and how inwardly turned to God, is little regarded. Nature beholds the
outward deed, but grace turns her to the inward intent of the deed. The first
The Inward Speaking of God 61 is often deceived, but the second puts her trust wholly in God and is not
deceived.
Chapter IV.
Of The Differences
Between Nature And Grace
“My son, take good heed of the motions of nature and grace for they are
very subtle and much contrary, the one to the other, and hardly may they be
known asunder, unless it is by a spiritual man who is inwardly illumined in
his soul through grace. Every man desires some goodness and pretends
somewhat of goodness in all his words and deeds, and therefore under
pretence of goodness many are deceived.
“Nature is wily and full of deceit, and draws many to her whom she
oftentimes snares and deceives; and ever she beholds her own wealth as the
goal of her work. But grace walks simply without deceit, she declines from
all evil, she pretends no guile, but all things she does purely for God, in
whom finally she rests.
“Nature will not gladly die, nor gladly be oppressed or overcome; neither
will she be gladly under another nor be kept in subjection. But grace studies
how she may be mortified to the world, and to the flesh; she resists
sensuality, she seeks to be subject, she desires to be overcome, she will not
use her own liberty. She loves to be held under holy discipline, and covets
not to have lordship over any one creature but to live and to stand always
under the fear of God, and for His love is always ready to bow herself
meekly under every creature.
“Nature labors for her own profit and advantage, and much beholds what
winning comes to her by others. Grace beholds not what is profitable to
herself, but what is profitable to many. Nature gladly receives honor and
reverence, but grace refers all honor and reverence to God. Nature dreads
reprovings and despisings; but grace joys, for the name of God, to suffer
them both and takes them, when they come, as special gifts of God. Nature
loves idleness and bodily rest; but grace cannot be idle without doing some
good deed, and therefore she seeks gladly some profitable labors.
“Nature desires fair and curious things. But grace delights in meek and
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simple things; she despises not hard things, nor refuses to be clad in poor
clothing and simple garments. Nature gladly beholds things temporal, she
joys at worldly winnings, is heavy for worldly losses, and is quickly moved
by a sharp word. But grace beholds things everlasting. She trusts not in
things temporal, and is not troubled with the loss of them, nor grieved by an
angry word; for she has laid her treasure in God and in spiritual things,
which may not perish. Nature is covetous and more gladly takes than gives;
she loves much to have property and private things. But grace is piteous
and liberal to the poor, she flees singular profit, she is content with little and
judges it more blessed to give than to take.
“Nature inclines to the love of creatures, to the love of the flesh, to
vanities and runnings-about, and to see new things in the world. But grace
draws a man to the love of God and to the love of virtues; she renounces all
created things, she flees the world, she hates desires of the flesh, she restrains
liberty and wandering-about, and avoids as much as she may to be seen
among gatherings of people. Nature gladly has some outward solace
wherein she may delight in her outward senses. but grace seeks only to be
comforted in God and to delight her in His goodness above all things.
“Nature does all things for her own winning and singular profit; she may
do nothing free, but hopes always to have the same back again, or more, or
applause, or favor of the people; and covets much that her deeds and works
be greatly pondered and praised. But grace seeks no temporal thing, and no
other reward for her hire but only God. She will have no more of temporal
goods than shall be needful for the getting of the goods everlasting, and cares
not for the vain praise of the world.
“Nature joys greatly in many friends and kins-folk, and glories much in a
noble place of birth and in her noble blood and kindred; she joys with mighty
men, she flatters rich men, and is merry with those who she thinks similar to
her in nobleness of the world. But grace makes a man to love his enemies,
she has no pride in worldly friends; she regards not the nobleness of kin, nor
the house of her father, unless the more virtue is there. She favors more the
poor than the rich, she has more compassion for an innocent than for a
mighty man; she joys ever in truth and not in falsehood, and always comforts
good men more and more to profit and grow in virtue and goodness, and to
seek daily more high gifts of grace, that they may through good virtuous
The Inward Speaking of God 63 works be made into the sons of God.
“Nature immediately complains for the wanting of a very little thing that
she would have or for a little worldly sorrow. But grace bears gladly all
neediness and wantings of the world. Nature inclines all things to herself
and to her own profit as much as she may; she argues for herself, and strives
and fights for herself. But grace renders all things to God, of whom all things
flow and spring originally; she ascribes no goodness to herself and presumes
not of herself; she strives not and prefers not her own opinion before other
men’s, but in every sentence she submits her meekly to the eternal wisdom
and judgment of God.
“Nature covets to know and to hear new secret things. She will that her
works be showed outwardly, and will have experience of many things in the
world by her outward senses; she desires also to be known and to do great
things in the world, whereof applause and praising may follow. But grace
cares not for any new things nor for any curious things, whatsoever they may
be; for she knows well that all such things come of vanity, and that no new
things may long endure upon earth.
She teaches to restrain the outward senses and to avoid all vain pleasure
and outward show, and meekly keeps secret things that in the world would
be greatly marveled at and praised. And in everything and in every science
she seeks some spiritual profit to herself, and praise and honor to almighty
God. She will not that her good deeds nor her inward devotion be
outwardly known, but most desires that our Lord be blessed in all His works,
who gives all things freely of His great and excellent love.
“This grace is a light from heaven and a spiritual gift of God. It is the
proper mark and token of elect people and a guarantee of the everlasting life.
It lifts a man from love of earthly things to the love of heavenly things, and
makes a carnal man to be a man of God. And the more that nature is
oppressed and overcome, the more grace is given, and the soul through new
gracious visitations is daily shaped anew and formed more and more to the
image of God.
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Chapter V.
Of The Corruption Of Nature
And Of The Worthiness Of Grace
O Lord God, who hast made me to Thine image and likeness, grant me
this grace that Thou hast shown to be so great and so necessary to the health
of my soul, that I may overcome this wretched nature which draws me
always to sin and to the losing of my own soul. I feel in my flesh the law of
sin fighting strongly against the law of my spirit, which leads me as a slave to
obey my sensuality in many things; nor may I resist the passions thereof
unless Thy grace doth assist me.
I have therefore great need of Thy grace, and a great abundance of it, if I
shall overcome this wretched nature which always from my youth has been
ready and prone to sin. In my inward self, that is, in the reason of my soul, I
delight myself in Thy laws and in Thy teachings, knowing that they are
good, righteous and holy; and that all sin is evil, and to be fled and avoided.
Yet in my outward self, that is to say, in my fleshly feeling, I serve the law of
sin when I obey my sensuality rather than my reason. And of this it follows
also that I will good, but I may not for weakness perform it without Thy
grace. And sometimes I intend to do many good deeds but, because the
grace that should help me is lacking, I go backward and fail in my doing. I
know the way to perfection, and I see clearly how I should do; but I am so
oppressed with the heavy burden of this corrupt body of sin, that I lie still
and rise not to perfection. O Lord, how necessary therefore is Thy grace to
me, to begin well, to continue well, and to end well; for without Thee I may
do nothing that is good.
O heavenly grace, without which our merits are worth nothing, and the
gifts of nature to be considered nothing; and beauty, strength, wit, and
eloquence may avail nothing! Come Thou, shortly, and help me! The gifts
of nature are common to good men and to bad; but grace and love are the
gifts of elect and chosen people, whereby they are marked, and made able
and worthy to reach the kingdom of God. This grace is of such worthiness
that neither the gift of prophecy, nor the working of miracles, nor the gift of
wisdom and knowledge, may avail anything without it; nor yet may faith,
hope, or other virtues, be acceptable to Thee without grace and love.
O blessed grace, that maketh the poor in spirit to be rich in virtue and
The Inward Speaking of God 65 him who is rich in worldly goods to be meek and low in heart! Come and
descend into my soul, and fulfill me with Thy spiritual comforts, so that I do
not fail and faint for weariness and dryness!
I beseech Thee, Lord, that I may find grace in Thy sight, for Thy grace
shall suffice to me; though I am tempted and vexed with troubles on every
side, yet I shall not need to fear while Thy grace is with me. For she is my
strength, she is my comfort, my counsel and help. She is stronger than all
my enemies and wiser than all the wisest of this world. She is the mistress of
truth, the teacher of discipline, the light of the heart. She is the comfort of
trouble, the driver-away of heaviness, the avoider of dread, the nourisher of
devotion, and the bringer-in of sweet tears and devout weepings. What am I
then, without grace, but a dry stock to cast away! Grant me, therefore, that
Thy grace may prevent me and follow me, and make me ever busy and
diligent in good works unto my death. So may it be!
Chapter VI.
That It Is Sweet And Delectable To
Serve God, And To Forsake The World
Now shall I speak yet again to Thee, my Lord, and not cease. And I shall
say in the ears of my Lord: My God and King who is in heaven! O how
great is the abundance of Thy sweetness which Thou hast hidden and kept
for those who dread Thee! But what is it then to those who love Thee?
Truly, it is the unspeakable sweetness of contemplation that Thou givest to
those who love Thee. In this, Lord, Thou hast most showed the sweetness of
Thy love to me, that when I was not, Thou madest me; and when I wandered
far from Thee Thou broughtest me again to serve Thee, and commandest me
to love Thee.
O fountain of love everlasting, what shall I say of Thee! How may I forget
Thee who hast promised thus lovingly to remember me! When I was about
to perish, Thou has shown Thy mercy to me above all that I could have
thought or desired, and hast sent me of Thy grace and of Thy love above my
merits. But what shall I give to Thee again for all this goodness? It is not
given to all men to forsake the world and to take a solitary life and only to
serve Thee. And yet it is no great burden to serve Thee, whom every
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creature is bound to serve. It ought not therefore to seem any great thing to
me to serve Thee, but rather it should seem a great wonder to me that Thou
wilt receive so poor and so unworthy a creature as I am into thy service, and
that Thou wilt join me to Thy well-beloved servants.
Lo, Lord, all things that I have and all that I do Thee service with is Thine.
And yet Thy goodness is such that Thou rather servest me than I Thee. For
behold, heaven and earth and the planets and stars, which Thou hast created
to serve man are ready at thy bidding, and do daily that which Thou hast
commanded. And Thou hast also ordained angels to the ministry of man.
But above all this, Thou hast promised to serve man Thyself and hast
promised to give Thyself unto him.
What then shall I give to Thee in return for this thousand-fold goodness?
Would to God that I might serve Thee all the days of my life, or at the least
that I might one day be able to do Thee faithful service; for Thou art worthy
all honor, service, and praising, forever. Thou art my Lord and my God, and
I Thy poorest servant, most bound before all others to love and praise Thee;
and I never ought to grow weary of the praising of Thee. This is what I ask
and desire, that I may always laud Thee and praise Thee. Promise therefore,
most merciful Lord, to supply whatsoever is lacking in me; for it is great
honor to serve Thee, and for Thy love to despise all earthly things.
They shall have great grace who freely submit themselves to Thy holy
service. And they shall find also the most sweet consolation of the Spirit and
shall have great freedom of spirit here who forsake all worldly business and
choose a hard and strict life in this world for Thy name.
O glad and joyful service of God, by which a man is made free and holy,
and blessed in the sight of God! O holy state of religion, which makes a man
similar to the angels, pleasing to God, dreadful to wicked spirits, and to all
faithful people very highly commendable! O service much to be embraced
and always to be desired, by which the high goodness is won, and the
everlasting joy and gladness is gotten without end!
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Chapter VII.
Of The Marvelous Effect
Of The Love Of God
O my Lord God, most faithful lover, when Thou comest into my heart, all
that is within me doth joy! Thou art my glory and the joy of my heart, my
hope and my whole refuge in all my troubles. But inasmuch as I am yet
feeble in love and imperfect in virtue, therefore I have need to have more
comfort and more help from Thee. Consent, therefore, oftentimes to visit me
and to instruct me with Thy holy teachings. Deliver me from all evil passions
and heal my sick heart from all earthly pleasure, that I may be inwardly
healed and purged from all inordinate affections and vices, and be made
ready and able to love Thee, strong to suffer for Thee, and stable to persevere
in Thee.
Love is a great and goodly thing, and alone makes heavy burdens light,
and bears in the same balance things pleasing and displeasing. It bears a
heavy burden and feels it not, and makes bitter things to be savory and
sweet. The noble love of God perfectly printed in man’s soul makes a man to
do great things and stirs him always to desire perfection and to grow more
and more in grace and goodness.
Love will always have his mind upward to God and will not be occupied
with things of the world. Love will also be free from all worldly affections,
that the inward sight of the soul may not be darkened or lost, and that his
affection to heavenly things may not be diminished by an inordinate winning
or losing of worldly things. Nothing, therefore, is sweeter than love, nothing
higher, nothing stronger, nothing greater, nothing more joyful, nothing
fuller, and nothing better in heaven nor in earth; for love descends from God
and may not rest finally in anything lower than God. Such a lover flies high,
he runs swiftly, he is merry in God, he is free in soul, he gives all for all and
has all for all; for he rests in one high goodness above all things, of whom all
goodness flows and proceeds. He beholds not only the gift, but the Giver,
above all gifts.
Love knows no measure but is fervent without measure. It feels no
burden; it regards no labor; it desires more than it may attain; it complains of
no impossibility, for it thinks all things that may be done for his beloved
possible and lawful unto him. Love therefore does many great things and
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brings them to fruition, wherein he who is no lover faints and fails.
Love wakes much and sleeps little, and sleeping, sleeps not. It faints and
is not weary, is restrained of liberty and is in great freedom. It sees causes of
fear and fears not; but as a burning ember or spark of fire, flames always
upward by fervor of love unto God, and through the special help of grace is
delivered from all perils and dangers.
He who is thus a spiritual lover knows well what his voice means which
says: ‘Thou, Lord God, art my whole love and my desire! Thou art all mine
and I all Thine! Spread my heart into Thy love that I may know how sweet it
is to serve Thee, and how joyful it is to laud Thee, and to be as though I were
entirely melted into thy love.’ O I am immersed in love and go far above
myself for the great fervor that I feel of Thy unspeakable goodness! I shall
sing to Thee the song of love; and my soul shall never be weary to praise
Thee with the joyful song of love that I shall sing to Thee. I shall love Thee
more than myself, and not myself but for Thee. And I shall love all others in
Thee and for Thee, as the law of love commands which is given by Thee.
Love is swift, pure, meek, joyous and glad, strong, patient, faithful, wise,
forbearing, manly, and never seeking himself nor his own will; for
whensoever a man seeks himself, he falls from love. Love is circumspect,
meek, righteous, not weak, not frivolous nor heeding vain things; sober,
chaste, stable, quiet and well restrained in his outward senses. Love is
subject and obedient to his superior, vile and despicable in his own sight,
devout and thankful to God; trusting and always hoping in Him, and that
even when he has but little devotion or little savor in him, for without some
sorrow or pain no man may live in love.
He who is not always ready to suffer, and to stand fully at the will of his
beloved, is not worthy to be called a lover; for it behooves a lover to suffer
gladly all hard and bitter things for his beloved and not to decline from his
love for any contrarious thing that may befall unto him.
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Chapter VIII.
How Grace Is To Be Kept Close
Through The Virtue Of Meekness
“My son, it is much more expedient, and the surer way for you, that you
hide the grace of devotion, and speak not much of it nor much regard it, but
despise yourself the more for it, and think yourself unworthy any such
gracious gift of God. And it is not good to cleave much to such affections as
may be soon turned into the contrary. When you have the grace of devotion,
consider how wretched and how needy you were when you had no such
grace. The profit and increase of spiritual life is not only when you have
devotion, but rather when you can meekly and patiently bear the
withdrawing and the absence thereof; and yet cease not your prayers nor
leave your other good deeds that you are accustomed to do, undone; but to
your power, and as far as you are able, to do your best therein and forget not
your duty, and be not negligent because of any dullness or unquietness of
mind which you feel.
“Nevertheless there are many persons who, when any adversity falls to
them, are immediately impatient, and are made thereby very slow and dull
to do any good deed, and hinder themselves greatly. For the way that he
shall take is not in the power of man; but it is in the grace of God only, to
dispose according to His will, and to whom He will, as it shall please Him,
and not otherwise. Some unaware persons, through an indiscreet desire that
they have had to obtain the grace of devotion, have destroyed themselves;
for they wished to do more than was in their power to do. They would not
acknowledge the measure of their gift nor the littleness of their own strength;
but would rather follow the pride of their heart than the judgment of reason.
And because they presumed to do greater things than were pleasing to God,
therefore they lost suddenly the grace that they had before. They were left
needy and without comfort, who thought to build their nests in heaven, and
so they were taught not to presume of themselves, but meekly to trust in God
and in His goodness.
“Such persons also who are beginners and yet lack experience in spiritual
travail may easily err and be deceived unless they will be ruled by counsel of
others; and if they must necessarily follow their own counsel and in no way
be removed therefrom, it will be very perilous to them in the end. It is not
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often seen that those who are wise and learned in their own sight will be
meekly ruled or ordered by others. Therefore it is better to have little
learning with meekness, than great learning with vain pleasure therein; and
it is better to have little learning with grace, than much learning whereof you
should be proud.
“He does not discreetly who in time of devotion sets himself entirely to
spiritual mirth and, as it were, to a heavenly gladness, forgetting his former
desolation and the meek dread of God. Neither does he well nor virtuously
who in time of trouble or of any manner of adversity or gravity, bears
himself exceedingly desperately, and feels not and thinks not so trustfully of
Me as he ought. He who in time of peace and of spiritual comfort thinks
himself overly secure, shall commonly be found, in time of battle and of
temptation, overly dejected and fearful. But if you could always remain
meek and little in your own sight, and could order well the motions of your
own soul, you should not so soon fall into presumption or into despair, nor
so readily offend almighty God. Wherefore, this is good and wholesome
counsel: that when you have the spirit of fervor, you think how you shall do
when fervor is past; and when it happens so with you, you think that fervor
may soon come again, which to My honor and to your proving I have
withdrawn for a time. And it is more profitable to you that you should be so
proved, than that you should always have prosperous things according to
your own will.
“Merits are not to be thought great in any person because he has many
visions or many spiritual comforts, nor because he has clear understanding of
scriptures, or is set in a high position. But if he is stably grounded in
meekness, and is filled with love; if he seeks wholly the worship of God, and
in nothing regards himself; if fully in his heart he can despise himself, and
also covet to be despised of others, then may he have good trust that he has
somewhat profited in grace and that he shall in the end have great reward of
God for his good travail.”
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Chapter IX.
That The Very True Solace
And Comfort Is In God
Whatsoever I may desire or think to my comfort, I look for it not here, but
I trust to have it in Thee. For if I alone might have all the solace and comfort
of this world, and might use the delights thereof according to my own desire
without sin, it is certain that they might not long endure. Wherefore my soul
may not fully be comforted nor perfectly be refreshed but in God only, who
is the Comforter of the poor in spirit, and the Embracer of the meek and low
in heart. Await, my soul, await the promise of God, and you shall have the
abundance of all goodness in Him. If you inordinately covet these goods
present, you shall lose the goodness eternal. Have therefore goods present in
use and goodness eternal in desire.
You may in no manner be satisfied with temporal goods, for you are not
created to rest yourself in them. For if you alone might have all the goods
that ever were created and made, you might not therefore be happy and
blessed; but your blessedness and your full felicity stands only in God who
has made all things. And that is not such felicity as is commended by the
foolish lovers of the world, but such as good men and women hope to have
in the bliss of God, and as some spiritual persons, clean and pure in heart,
sometimes do taste here in this present life, whose conversation is in heaven.
All worldly solace and all man’s comfort is vain and short, but that comfort is
blessed and reliable that is perceived by the soul inwardly in the heart.
A devout follower of God bears always about with him his Comforter
and says thus unto Him: ‘My Lord, I beseech Thee that Thou be with me in
every place and every time, and that it be to me a special solace, gladly for
Thy love to want all man’s solace. And if Thy solace is lacking also, grant
that Thy will and Thy right proving of me may be to me a singular comfort
and a high solace. Thou shalt not always be angry with me, nor shalt Thou
threaten me forever. So may it be.
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Chapter X.
That All Our Study And Busyness
Of Mind Ought To Be Put In God
“My son,” saith our Lord to His servant, “allow Me to do with you what I
will, for I know what is best and most expedient for you. You work in many
things according to your human reason and as your affection and your
worldly policy stirs you, and so you may easily err and be deceived.”
O Lord, it is true, all that Thou sayest. Thy providence is much better for
me than all that I can do or say for myself. Wherefore it may well be said and
verified that he stands very uncertainly who sets not all his trust in Thee.
Therefore, Lord, while my wits abide steadfast and stable, do with me in all
things as it pleaseth Thee, for it may not be but well, all that Thou dost. If
Thou wilt that I be in light, bless Thee; and if Thou wilt I be in darkness, bless
Thee. If Thou wouldst comfort me, bless Thee; and if Thou wilt I live in
trouble and without all comfort, bless Thee in equal measure.
“My son, so it behooves you to be. If you will walk with Me, as ready
must you be to suffer as to joy, and as gladly be needy and poor as wealthy
and rich.”
Lord, I will gladly suffer for Thee whatsoever Thou wilt shall fall upon
me. With the same thanks will I take of Thy hand good and bad, bitter and
sweet, gladness and sorrow; and for all things that shall befall to me, heartily
will I thank Thee. Keep me from sin, Lord, and I shall dread neither death
nor hell. Put not my name out of the book of life, and it shall not grieve me,
whatsoever troubles befall me.
Chapter XI.
How A Man Should Order Himself
In His Desires
“My son,” saith our Lord, “in everything that you desire, you should say:
‘Lord, if it be Thy will, let it be done as I ask; and if it be to Thy praising, let it
be fulfilled in Thy name. And if Thou regard it as good and profitable to me,
The Inward Speaking of God 73 give me grace to use it to Thine honor. But if Thou know it hurtful to me and
not profitable to the health of my soul, then take from me such desire.’
“Every desire comes not of the Spirit though it seem right and good, for it
is sometimes very difficult to judge whether a good or an evil thought moves
you to this thing or to that; or whether you are moved by My will. Many are
deceived in the end, who first seemed to have been moved by My Spirit.
“Therefore, you should desire and ask whatsoever comes to your mind
with a fear of God and with meekness of heart; and with a whole forsaking of
yourself, you should commit all things to God and say thus: ‘Lord, Thou
knowest what thing is to me most profitable; do this or that according to Thy
will. Give me what Thou wilt, as much as Thou wilt, and when Thou wilt.
Do with me as Thou knowest best to be done, as it shall please Thee, and as it
shall be most to Thine honor. Put me where Thou wilt, and freely do with
me in all things according to Thy will. I am Thy creature and I am in Thy
hands; lead me, and turn me where Thou wilt. Lo, I am Thy servant, ready
to all things that Thou commandest, for I desire not to live to myself, but to
Thee. Would to God it might be worthily and profitably to Thine honor!’”
Most benign Lord, grant me Thy grace, that it may always be with me,
and work with me and persevere with me unto the end. Grant that I may
ever desire and will that which is most pleasing and most acceptable to Thee.
Let thy will be my will, and let my will always follow Thy will and best
accord therewith. Let there always be in me one will and one desire with
Thee, and grant that I have no power to will or not to will, but as Thou wilt
or will not. Grant me that I may die to all things that are in the world, and
that for Thee I may love to be despised and to be as a man unknown in this
world. Grant me also, above all things that can be desired, that I may rest in
Thee, and fully in Thee pacify my heart. For Thou, Lord, art the very true
peace of heart and the perfect rest of body and of soul, and without Thee all
things are grievous and unquiet. Wherefore, in that peace which is in Thee,
one high, one blessed, and one endless goodness, shall I always rest me. So
may it be.
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Chapter XII.
How Our Lord God Savors To His Lover
Sweetly Above All Things
And In All Things
Our Lord God is to me all in all! And since He is so, what would I more
have, or what can I more desire? O this is a savory and sweet word, to say
that our Lord is to me all in all; but that is to him who loves the Lord and not
the world.
To him who understands is said enough, but yet to repeat it often is
pleasing to him who loves. I may therefore more plainly speak of this matter
and say: Lord, when Thou art present to me all things are pleasant and
agreeable, but when Thou art absent all things are grievous and despicable.
When Thou comest, Thou makest my heart restful and bringest into it a new
joy; Thou makest Thy lover to feel and understand the truth, and to have a
true judgment in all things and in all things to laud Thee and praise Thee. O
Lord, without Thee nothing may long be agreeable nor pleasant, for if
anything is to be pleasant and savory it must be through help of Thy grace
and be seasoned with the spicery of Thy wisdom.
To him to whom Thou savorest well, what shall not savor well? And to
him whom Thou savorest not well unto, what may be joyful or pleasing?
Worldly-wise men and they who savor earthly delights fail of this wisdom,
for in worldly wisdom is found great vanity, and in fleshly pleasures is only
death. Therefore they who follow Thee, Lord, by despising of the world and
by perfect mortifying of their fleshly lusts, are known to be very wise; for
they are led from vanity to truth, and from fleshly pleasures to spiritual
purity. To such persons God savors wondrously sweet. And whatsoever
they find in created things, they refer it all to the laud and to the praising of
their creator; for they see well that there is great difference between the
creature and the creator, between time and eternity, and between the
created and the uncreated light.
O everlasting light, far passing all things that are made, send down the
beams of Thy light from above, and purify, gladden, and illumine in me all
the inward parts of my heart! Quicken my spirit with all the powers thereof,
that it may cleave fast and be joined to Thee in joyful gladness of spiritual
ravishings. O when shall that blessed hour come that Thou shalt visit me and
The Inward Speaking of God 75 gladden me with Thy blessed presence, so that Thou art to me all in all? As
long as that gift is not given to me, there shall be in me no full joy.
But alas for sorrow! My old nature, that is, my earthly affection, still
lives in me and is not yet fully mortified and perfectly dead in me. For yet
strives the flesh strongly against the spirit, and moves great inward battle
against me, and suffers not the kingdom of my soul to live in peace.
But Thou, good Lord, who hast the lordship over all the power of the sea
and dost assuage the streams which from it flow, arise and help me! Break
down the power of mine enemies which always move this battle in me!
Show the strength of Thy goodness, and let the power of Thy right hand be
glorified in me! For there is to me no other hope nor refuge but in Thee only,
my Lord, my God! to whom be joy, honor and glory everlastingly.
Chapter XIII.
Of The Acknowledging Of Our Own Infirmities
And Of The Miseries Of This Life
I shall acknowledge against myself all my unrighteousness, and I shall
confess to Thee, Lord, all the unstableness of my heart. Oftentimes it is but a
little thing that casts me down and makes me dull and slow to all good
works. Sometimes I intend to stand strongly, but when a little temptation
comes, it is to me a great anguish and grief. Sometimes of a very little thing a
grievous temptation rises, and when I think myself to be somewhat secure
and imagine that I have the upper hand, suddenly I feel myself all but
overcome by a light temptation.
Behold, therefore, good Lord, behold my weakness and my frailness, best
known to Thee above all others! Have mercy on me, Lord, and deliver me
from the filthy bogs of sin, that my feet never become fixed in them. But it
often grudges me sorely and confounds me before Thee, that I am so unstable
and so weak, so frail to resist my passions. And though they draw me not
always to consent, yet nevertheless their cruel assaults are very grievous to
me, so that it is tedious to me to live in such warfare. But yet such battle is
not entirely unprofitable to me, because thereby I know the better my own
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infirmities, for I see well that such wicked fantasies do rise in me much
sooner than they go away.
But would to God that Thou, most mighty God, lover of all faithful souls,
wouldst consent to behold the labor and the sorrow of me, Thy poorest
servant, and that Thou wouldst assist me in all things that I have to do!
Strengthen me, Lord, with heavenly strength, so that neither my own
inherent inclinations nor my wretched flesh, which is not yet fully subject to
the spirit, have power or lordship over me!
But alas, what life is this, where neither trouble nor misery is lacking,
where every place is full of snares and of mortal enemies! For while one
trouble or temptation is going away, another comes; and while the first
conflict is yet enduring, many others suddenly arise, more than can be
thought. How may this life therefore be loved that has such bitterness and
that is subject to so many miseries? And how may it be called a life that
brings forth so many deaths and so many spiritual plagues? And yet it is
beloved and much delighted in by many persons. The world is often
reproved that it is deceitful and vain, and yet it is not easily forsaken,
especially when the lusts of the flesh are allowed to have rule. Some things
stir a man to love the world and some to despise it. The lust of the flesh, the
lust of the eye, and the pride of the heart, stir man to love the world. But the
pains and miseries that follow them cause hatred and tedious-ness of it again.
But alas for sorrow, a little delectation overcomes the mind of those who
are much inclined to love the world, and drives out of their hearts all
heavenly desire, insomuch that many account it as a joy of paradise to live
under such sensual pleasures, and that is because they neither have seen nor
tasted the sweetness in God, nor the inward gladness that comes of virtues.
But they who perfectly despise the world and who study to live under holy
discipline, are not ignorant of the heavenly sweetness that is promised to
spiritual men, and they see also how grievously the world errs and how
grievously it is deceived in diverse ways.
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Chapter XIV.
That Men Are Not Always To Be Believed
Lord, send me help in my troubles, for man’s help is worth little! How
often have I not found friendship where I thought I should find it; and how
often have I found it where I least presumed it to be. Wherefore it is a vain
thing to trust in man, for the real trust and health of righteous men is only in
Thee. Therefore, blessed art Thou, Lord, in all things that happen to us; for
we are weak and unstable, soon deceived, and soon changed from one thing
to another.
Who may so warily and so assuredly keep himself in everything, that he
shall not sometimes fall into some deceit or into some perplexity? Truly,
very few. But he who trusts in Thee and who seeks Thee with a pure heart
slides not so often from Thee. And if it happen that he falls into any trouble
or perplexity, whatsoever it may be and howsoever grievous it may be,
immediately he shall either be delivered by Thee or be comforted by Thee;
for Thou never forsakest him who trusts in Thee.
It is very hard to find a friend so faithful and so true that he will
persevere with his friends in all his troubles; but Thou, Lord, art most faithful
in all things, and none other can be found like Thee. O how that soul well
savored spiritual things who said: ‘My mind is established in God, and is
fully grounded in Him.’ Truly if it were so with me, the dread of man should
not so quickly enter into me, and other men’s words should not so soon
move me.
Who may foresee all things? Or who may prevent all evils that are to
come? And yet if things foreseen oftentimes do great hurt, what shall those
things do that are not foreseen? But why have not I, wretch, better seen to
myself? And why have I so readily believed other men’s sayings? Truly,
because we are men, and that but frail men, though we are esteemed and
thought by many to be as angels in our conversation. Whom may I believe
but only Thee? Thou art the Truth that deceivest no man, and mayst not be
deceived. And on the other side, every man is a liar, weak and unstable, and
sliding, most especially in words, so that scarcely may that be believed which
seems on the surface to be true.
I am taught with my own hurt, and would to God it might be as a
warning to me and not to my greater folly! Some say to me, “Beware!
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Beware! Keep close to yourself what I shall show you.” And when I keep it
close and believe it to be secret, he cannot be secret in what he himself
desired, but immediately he betrays both himself and me, and goes his way.
From such tales and from such unstable men, Lord, defend me, that I fall not
into their hands, and that I never commit such things. A true and stable
word, Lord, give unto my mouth, and a deceitful tongue drive far away from
me; for that which I would not have others do to me, I ought to beware that I
do not to any other.
O how good and how peaceful is it to keep silence of other men’s words
and deeds, and not to give full credence till the truth is tried; not to readily
report to others all that we hear or see, and not to be moved with every blast
of words; to open our heart fully but to very few; to seek Thee always who
art the beholder of man’s heart, and to desire that all things in us, inwardly
and outwardly, may be fulfilled according to Thy will!
How sure a thing is it also for the keeping of heavenly grace to flee the
conversation of worldly people all that we may, and not to desire things that
seem outwardly to be pleasant and enjoyable; but with all the study of our
heart to seek such things as bring fervor of spirit and amendment of life. A
virtue known and repeatedly praised has been truly a great hurt to many
persons; and on the contrary, a grace kept in silence and not readily reported
to others has been very profitable to some in this frail life that is full of
temptation and secret envy.
Chapter XV.
Of Patient Suffering Of Injuries And
Wrongs, And Who Is Truly Patient
“My son, what is it you say? Why do you thus complain? Cease, cease!
Complain no more! Consider the tribulations of the saints, and you shall
well see that it is very little that you suffer for Me! You have not yet suffered
to the shedding of your blood, and truly you have suffered little in
comparison with those who have suffered so many things for Me in time
past, and who have been so strongly tempted, so grievously troubled, and so
many ways proved. It behooves you, therefore, to remember the great
The Inward Speaking of God 79 grievous things that others have suffered for Me, that you may the more
easily bear your little griefs. And if they seem not little to you, see that it is
not your impatience that is the cause; but nevertheless, whether they are little
of great, study always to bear them patiently without grudging or
complaining, if you may. The better that you can dispose yourself to suffer
them, the wiselier you do, and the more merit shall you have; and by reason
of your good custom and of your good will your burden shall be the lighter.
“You should never say: ‘I cannot suffer this thing of such a person, nor is
it for me to suffer it; he has done me great wrong and accuses me of that
which I never thought; but of another man I will suffer as I shall think.’ Such
kinds of sayings are not good, for they consider not the virtue of patience,
nor by whom it shall be rewarded; but they consider rather the persons and
the offences done unto them.
“Therefore he is not truly patient who will suffer only as much as he will,
and of whom he will; for a truly patient man heeds not by whom he suffers,
whether by his superior, or by his fellow who is equal to him, or of any other
who is under him; nor whether he is a good and holy man, or an evil and
unworthy man. But whenever any adversity or wrong falls unto him,
whatsoever it be, and by whomsoever it be, and howsoever often it be, he
takes all thankfully, as from the hand of God, and accounts it as a precious
gift and a great benefit; for he knows well that there is nothing that a man
may suffer for God that may pass without great merit.
“Therefore, be ready to battle, if you would have the victory. Without
battle you may not come to the reward of patience, and if you will not suffer,
you refuse to be rewarded. Wherefore, if you will be rewarded, resist
strongly and suffer patiently. For without labor no man may come to rest,
and without battle no man may come to victory.”
Dear Lord, make possible to me by grace that which is impossible to me
by nature! Thou knowest well that I may little suffer, and that I am
immediately cast down with a little adversity. Wherefore I beseech Thee that
trouble and adversity may hereafter, for Thy name, be beloved and desired
by me; for truly, to suffer and to be vexed for Thee is very good and
profitable to the health of my soul.
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Chapter XVI.
That A Man Shall Not Be Overmuch
Cast Into Heaviness Though He
Happen To Fall Into Some Faults
“My son, patience and meekness in adversity please me more than much
consolation and devotion in prosperity. Why are you so heavy for a little
word said or done against you? If it had been more, you should not have
been moved therewith. But let it now overpass; it is not the first, and it shall
not be the last if you live long. You are manful enough so long as no
adversity falls to you; and you can well give counsel and well can you
comfort and strengthen others with your words. But when adversity knocks
at your own door, you fail immediately both of counsel and strength. Behold
well, therefore, your great frailty of which you have daily experience in little
temptations. Nevertheless it is for your spiritual health that such things, and
similar things are allowed to come to you.
“Intend in your heart to do the best that is in you to do, and then when
such tribulations shall happen to fall unto you, although it grieves you, yet
let it not wholly overthrow you, nor let it long remain with you. And at the
least suffer it patiently although you may not suffer it gladly. Moreover,
though you are loathe to hear such things, and though you feel great
indignation thereat in your heart, yet thrust yourself down low in your own
sight and suffer no inordinate word to pass out of your mouth, whereby any
other might be hurt. Then all such indignation shall be immediately
assuaged and soon appeased in you. And then also that which before was
taken as so great heaviness to you, shall immediately be made sweet and
pleasant in your sight. For yet I live, ready to help you and to comfort you
more than ever I did before, if you will wholly trust in Me and devoutly call
to Me for help.
“Be quiet in heart; prepare yourself to yet more sufferance. For it is not
all lost though you feel yourself often troubled or grievously tempted.
Think you are a man and not God; a fleshly man and no angel. How may
you always stand in one state of virtue when that was not given to angels in
heaven, nor to any of my saints? I am He who raises up them who are
sorrowful to health and comfort; and lifts them up who know their
The Inward Speaking of God 81 unstableness, to be established in the sight of My Godhead forever.”
Lord, blessed is Thy holy word! It is sweeter to my mouth than
honeycomb! What should I do in all my troubles and heaviness if Thou didst
not sometimes comfort me with Thy sweet and wholesome words?
Therefore it matters not what trouble or adversity I suffer here for Thee, so
that I may in the end come to the port of everlasting salvation. Give me a
good end and a blessed passage out of this world. Have mind on me, my
Lord and my God, and direct me by a straight and ready way into Thy
kingdom, I beseech Thee.
Chapter XVII.
That We Shall Put All Our Confidence In God
When Evil Words Are Spoken To Us
“My son,” saith our Lord, “stand strongly and trust faithfully in Me.
What are words but wind? They fly in the air but they hurt never a stone on
the ground; and if you know yourself not guilty, think that you will suffer
gladly such words for God. It is but a little thing for you to suffer sometimes
a hasty word since you are not yet able to suffer hard strokes. But why is it
that so little a thing goes so near your heart, but that you are yet carnal, and
heed to please men more than you should? And because you dread to be
despised you will not gladly be reproved for your offenses, and you search
therefore busily and with great study how you may be excused. But behold
yourself well and you shall see that the world yet lives in you, and a vain
love also to please man. When you refuse to be rebuked and punished for
your faults, it appears evident that you are not yet really meek and that you
are not yet dead to the world, nor the world to you.
“But hear My words, and you shall not need to care for the words of ten
thousand men. Lo, if all things were said against you that might be most
maliciously and untruly feigned, what should they hurt if you simply allow
them to overpass and go away? Truly, no more than a straw under your
foot, and one hair of your head they might not take from you. But he who
has not a man’s heart within him, and sets not God before the eye of his soul,
is soon moved with a sharp word; when he who trusts in Me, and will not
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stand in his own judgment, shall be free from all the dread of man. For I am
the judge who knows all secrets. I know how everything is done, and I know
also both him who does the wrong and him to whom it is done. Of Me this
thing is wrought; and by My consent it has come about. So that the thoughts
of men’s hearts may be known, when the time comes, I shall reveal both the
innocent and the guilty; but first, through My righteous examination, I will
prove them both. The witness of man oftentimes deceives, but My judgment
is true and shall not be subverted. And although it is sometimes hidden and
known but to few, yet it is ever true and errs not; nor may it err, though in
the sight of some unwise persons it seems not so.
“Therefore in every doubt it behooves you to come to Me and not to lean
much to your own reason, but with everything that I shall send you to be
content; for a righteous man is never troubled with anything that I shall
allow to fall unto him. Insomuch that though a thing were untruly spoken
against him, he should not much care for it, nor should he much joy, though
he were sometimes reasonably excused. For he thinks always that I am He
who searches man’s heart, and that I judge not according to the outward
appearance; for oftentimes that shall be found in My sight worthy to be
blamed which in man’s sight seems much worthy to be praised.”
O Lord God, most righteous judge, strong and patient, who knowest the
frailty and the malice of man, be my strength and my whole comfort in all
necessities; for my own conscience, Lord, suffices me not, and Thou knowest
in me that which I know not. And therefore in every reproof I ought always
to humble myself, and patiently to suffer all things in charity according to
Thy pleasure. Forgive me, Lord, as often as I have not so done, and give me
grace of greater sufferance in time to come. Thy mercy is more profitable,
and a more sure way for me to the getting of pardon and forgiveness of my
sins, than a trust in my own works, through defense of my darkened
conscience. And though I dread not my conscience, yet I may not therefore
justify myself; for if Thy mercy is taken away, no man may be justified nor
appear righteous in Thy sight.
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Chapter XVIII
How All Grievous Things In This Life
Are Gladly To Be suffered For
Winning Of The Life That Is To Come
“My son,” saith our Lord, “be not broken by impatience with the labor
that you have taken for My sake; nor allow tribulation to cast you into
despair, nor into unreasonable heaviness and anguish in any way. But be
comforted and strengthened in every tribulation by My promises and
behests, for I am able and of sufficient power to reward you and My other
servants abundantly, more than you think or desire. You shall not labor long
here, nor always be grieved with heaviness. Await for awhile My promises,
and you shall soon see an end of all your troubles. An hour shall come when
all your labors and troubles shall cease. And truly that hour is at hand, for all
is short that passes with time.
“Therefore, continue to do as you do; labor busily and faithfully in My
vineyard and I shall shortly be your reward. Write, read, sing, mourn, be
still and pray, and suffer adversity gladly, for the kingdom of God is worth
more than all these things, and much greater things than they are. Peace
shall come one day that is known to Me, and that shall not be a day of this
life, but a day everlasting, with infinite clearness, steadfast peace, and secure
rest, without ending. And then you shall not say: ‘Who shall deliver me
from this body of death?’’ Nor shall you need to cry: ‘Woe is to me, that my
coming to the kingdom of God is thus prolonged!’ For death shall then be
destroyed, and health of body and of soul shall be without end; insomuch
that no manner of unrestfulness shall be, but blessed joy, and sweetest and
most fair company.
“O if you saw the everlasting reward of My saints in heaven, in how great
joy and glory they are who sometime seemed to be as men despicable in the
world, you should immediately humble yourself low to the ground; and you
should rather covet to be subject to all men than to have sovereignty over
any one person. You should not desire to have mirth and solace in this
world, but rather bear with tribulation and pain; and you should then
account it as a great grace to be taken as nothing among the people. O if
these things savored well to you and deeply pierced into your heart, you
should not once dare complain for any manner of trouble that should befall
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you! Are not all painful things and most grievous labors gladly to be
suffered for the joys everlasting? Yes, truly; for it is no little thing to win or
lose the kingdom of God!
“Lift up your face therefore unto heaven, and behold how all My saints
who are with Me there had in this world great battle and conflict; and now
they joy with Me and are comforted in Me, and are sure to abide with Me
and to dwell with Me in My everlasting kingdom.”
Chapter XIX
How A Man Should Rest
In God Above All Things
Above all things and in all things, rest, my soul, in your Lord God, for He
is the eternal rest of all angels and saints.
Grant me, Lord, special grace to rest in Thee above all creatures, above all
health and fairness, above all glory and honor, above all dignity and power,
above all wisdom and policy, above all riches and crafts, above all gladness
of body and of soul, above all fame and praising, above all sweetness and
consolation, above all hope and promise, above all merit and desire, above all
gifts and rewards that Thou mayst give or send besides Thyself, and above
all joy and mirth that man’s heart or mind may feel. And also above all
angels and all the company of heavenly spirits, above all things visible and
invisible, and above all things that are not Thyself.
For Thou, Lord God, art most good, most high, most mighty, most
sufficient and full of goodness; most sweet, most comforting, most fair, most
loving, most noble, and most glorious above all things; in whom all goodness
and perfection is, has been, and ever shall be. And therefore whatsoever
Thou givest me besides Thyself, it is little and insufficient to me; for my heart
may not rest nor fully be pacified so that it ascend above all gifts and above
all manner of things that are created, unless in Thee.
O my Lord, most loving spouse, most pure lover and governor of every
creature! Who shall give me wings of perfect liberty that I may fly high and
rest in Thee! O when shall I fully tend to Thee, and see and feel how sweet
Thou art? When shall I gather myself together in Thee so perfectly that I
The Inward Speaking of God 85 shall not, for Thy love, feel myself, but Thee alone, above myself and above
all bodily things, and that Thou shalt visit me in such a way as Thou dost
visit Thy faithful lovers?
Now I often mourn and complain of the miseries of this life, and with
sorrow and woe bear them with very great heaviness. For many evil things
happen daily in this life which oftentimes trouble me and greatly darken my
understanding. They hinder me greatly and put my mind from Thee, and so
encumber me many ways so that I cannot have a free mind and pure desire
toward Thee, nor have the sweet embracings that to Thy blessed saints are
always present. Wherefore I beseech Thee, Lord, that the sighings and the
inward desires of my heart, along with my manifold desolations, may
somewhat move Thee and incline Thee to hear me.
O Lord, the light and brightness of everlasting glory, the joy and comfort
of all Thy children walking and laboring as pilgrims in the wilderness of this
world! My heart cries to Thee by still desires without voice, and my silence
speaks unto Thee and says thus: ‘How long tarrieth my Lord God to come?
Truly, I trust that He will shortly come to me, His poorest servant, and
comfort me and make me joyous and glad in Him, and deliver me from all
anguish and sorrow.
‘Come, Lord, come, for without Thee I have no glad day nor hour! Thou
art all my joy and gladness, and without Thee my soul is barren and void. I
am a wretch, and as though imprisoned and bound with fetters, till Thou,
through the light of Thy gracious presence, consent to visit me and to refresh
me, to bring me again to liberty of spirit, and to show Thy favorable and
lovely countenance unto me. Let others seek what they will, but truly there
is nothing that I will seek or that shall please me but Thou, my Lord God, my
hope and everlasting health.’
And I shall not cease my prayer till Thy grace return to me again, and
Thou speak inwardly to my soul and say thus: “Lo, I am here! I am come to
you for you have called Me! Your tears and the desire of your heart, your
meekness and your contrition have bowed Me down and brought Me to
you!”
And I shall say again: ‘Lord, I have called Thee and I have desired to
have Thee; I am ready to forsake all things for Thee. Thou hast first stirred
me to seek Thee, wherefore bless Thee always who hast showed such
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goodness and mercy to me. What has Thy servant, Lord, more to do or say,
but that he humble himself before Thy majesty and ever have in mind his
own iniquity? There is none like to Thee, Lord, in heaven or in earth. Thy
works are good, Thy judgments are righteous, and by Thy providence all
things are governed. Wherefore to Thee be everlasting joy and glory! And I
humbly beseech Thee that my body and soul, my heart and tongue, and all
Thy creatures, may always laud Thee and bless Thee.’
Chapter XX
Of The Day Of Eternity
And of The Miseries Of This Life
O blessed mansion of the heavenly city! Most clear day of eternity that
the night may not darken, but the high Truth that God is illumines and
reveals, always merry, always secure, and never changing its state into the
contrary! Would to God that that day might now appear and shine upon us,
and that these temporal things were at an end! That blessed day shines to
saints in heaven with everlasting brightness and clarity, but to us pilgrims on
earth it shines but afar off, as through a mirror or glass. The heavenly
citizens know well how joyous that day is. But we exiles weep and wail the
bitterness and weariness of this day, that is, of this present life; short and evil,
full of sorrows and anguishes, where man is oftentimes defiled with sin,
encumbered with passions, inquieted with dreads, bound with obligations,
busied with vanities, blinded with errors, overtaxed with labors, vexed with
temptations, overcome with delights and pleasures of the world, and
grievously tormented sometimes with penury and need.
O when shall the end come of all these miseries! And when shall I be
delivered from the bondage of sin! When shall I, Lord, have my mind only
on Thee, and fully be made glad and merry in Thee! When shall I be free
without hindrance and in perfect liberty without grief of body and of soul?
When shall I have peace without trouble, peace within and without and on
every side, steadfast and sure? O Lord! when shall I stand and behold Thee,
and have full sight and contemplation of Thy glory? When shalt Thou be to
me all in all? When shall I be with Thee in Thy kingdom, that Thou hast
ordained for Thy elect people from the beginning?
The Inward Speaking of God 87 I am left here poor and as an alien in the land of my enemies, where daily
are battles and great misfortunes. Comfort my exile, assuage my sorrow, for
all my desire cries to Thee! It is to me a grievous burden, whatsoever the
world offers me here for my solace. I desire to have inward fruition in Thee,
but I cannot attain thereto! I covet to cleave fast to heavenly things, but
temporal things and passions unmortified pull me always downward. In
mind I would be above all temporal things; but whether I will or not, I am
compelled through my own fault to be subject unto my flesh. Thus I, most
wretched man, fight in myself and am made grievous to myself, while my
spirit desires to be upward and my flesh downward. O what I suffer
inwardly, when in my mind I behold heavenly things and immediately a
great multitude of carnal thoughts enter into my soul! Therefore, Lord, do
not be long from me and depart not in Thy wrath from me, Thy servant!
Send to me the light of Thy grace and break down in me all carnal
thoughts. Send forth the darts of Thy love and break therewith all fantasies
of sin. Help me, Thou everlasting Truth, that no worldly vanity hereafter
have power in me! Come also, Thou heavenly sweetness, and let all bitter-
ness of sin flee far from me!
Pardon me, and mercifully forgive me when I think in my prayer of
anything but of Thee! I confess for truth that in time past I have used myself
very unstably therein, and many times I am not there where I stand or sit, but
rather I am where my thoughts lead me. For that comes into my mind which
by custom pleases me best to think upon; and where my thought is
accustomed to be, there is that which I love. Wherefore it has been said:
“Where your treasure is, there is your heart.” Wherefore if I love heaven, I
speak gladly of heavenly things, and of such things as are of God and pertain
most to His honor and to the glorifying and worshiping of His holy name.
And if I love the world I joy immediately at worldly felicity, and sorrow at its
adversity. If I love the flesh, I imagine oftentimes that which pleases the
flesh; and if I love my soul, I delight much to speak and to hear of things that
are to my soul’s health. And so whatsoever I love, of that I gladly hear and
speak, and bear the images of that often in my mind.
Blessed is that man who, for the Lord, forgets all created things and learns
truly to overcome himself; and who with fervor of spirit has victory over the
flesh, so that in a clean and pure conscience he may offer his prayers to Thee,
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and be worthy to have company of blessed angels, all earthly things
excluded from him and fully set apart.
Chapter XXI
Of The Desire Of Everlasting Life
And Of The Great Reward That Is Promised
To Them Who Strongly Fight Against Sin
“My son, when you feel that a desire of everlasting bliss is given to you
and that you covet to go out of the tabernacle of your mortal body, that you
might clearly behold Me, beyond all forms, open your heart and with all the
desire of your soul take that holy inspiration. And yield most large thanks to
the high goodness of God who so worthily does to you, so benignly visits
you, so burningly stirs you, and so strongly bears you up, that through your
own burden you fall not down to earthly desires. Think not that that desire
comes from yourself or by your own working, but rather that it comes by the
gift of grace and by a lovely beholding of God upon you. Such grace is given
in order that you should profit thereby in meekness and virtue, and that you
should also prepare yourself to be ready against another time, for battles that
are to come; and the more surely to cleave to God with all the desire and
affection of your heart, and to study with all your power how you may most
purely and most devoutly serve Him.
“Take heed of this common proverb: ‘The fire often burns, but the flame
does not ascend without some smoke.’ So likewise, the desire of some men
draws to heavenly things, and yet they are not all free from the smoke of
carnal affections, and therefore they do not always seek purely for the honor
and love of God that which they so desirously ask of Him. Such oftentimes is
your own desire which you so importunately ask, for that desire is not clean
and perfect that is mixed with your own commodity. Ask therefore not that
which is delectable and profitable to you, but that which is acceptable and
honor to Me; for if you will do well and judge aright, you shall prefer My
ordinance and My will before all your desire, and before all things that may
be desired besides Me.
“I know well your desire. You would now be in the liberty of the glory of
the sons of God; now your everlasting home and country full of joy and
The Inward Speaking of God 89 glory, delights you much; but that hour comes not yet. For there is yet
another time to come, a time of labor and of proof. You desire to be fulfilled
with the high goodness in heaven but you may not yet come thereto. I am
the full reward of man. Await Me till I shall come and you shall have Me to
your reward.
“You are yet to be proved here upon earth and more thoroughly to be
tried in many things. Some comfort shall be given you, but the fullness
thereof shall not yet be granted. Therefore, be comforted in Me, and be
strong, as well in doing, as in suffering things contrary to your will. It
behooves you to be changed into a new man; and you must oftentimes do
that which you would not do, and that which you would do, you must
forsake and leave undone.
That which pleases others shall go well forward, and that which pleases
you shall find no favor. That which other men say shall be well heard, and
that which you say shall be disregarded. Others shall ask and have what
they ask; you shall ask and be denied. Others shall be great and have great
applause and praise from the people; and of you no word shall be spoken.
To others, this office or that shall be committed, and you shall be judged
unprofitable in everything. For these and other similar things nature will
murmur and grudge, and you shall have a great battle in yourself if you bear
them secretly in your heart without complaining and contradicting.
Nevertheless, in such things and other similar things, my faithful servants
are proved: how they can deny themselves and how they can in all things
break their own wills.
“There is nothing that you shall need so much to overcome yourself in as
to learn to be contented not to be valued in the world, and to suffer such
things as are most contrary to your will; especially when such things as, in
your sight, seem unprofitable are commanded to be done. But, My son,
consider well the speedy end, and the great reward; and then you shall feel
no grief or pain in all your labors, but the most sweet comfort of the Spirit
through your good will. And for that little will which you forsake here, you
shall always have your will in heaven where you shall have all that you can
desire.
There, your will shall be ever one with My will, and it shall covet no
strange or private things. There, no man shall resist you, no man shall
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complain of you, no man shall hinder or withstand you; but all things that
you can desire shall be present there, and shall fulfill all the powers of your
soul unto the full. There shall I yield glory for reproofs, and a robe of praise
for your sorrows, and for the lowest place here, a seat in heaven forever.
There shall appear the fruit of obedience; the reward of your labor of
penance shall be joy, and your humble subjection shall be gloriously
crowned.
“Bow you now, therefore, meekly under man’s hand. Regard little who
says this, or who commands this to be done; but with all your study take
heed that whether your superior, or your fellow, or any other lower than
you, ask anything of you or will anything to be done by you, that you take it
always to the best, and with a glad will study to fulfill it. Let this man seek
this thing, and another that; and let this man joy in this thing and another in
that, whatsoever it may be; and let them be applauded and praised a
thousand times; but joy you neither in this thing nor in that, but only in your
own contempt and despis-ing, and in My will to be fulfilled; and, whether it
is by life or death, that I may always be praised and honored in you and by
you.”
Chapter XXII
How A Man Who Is Desolate
Ought To Offer Himself Wholly To God
Lord, holy Father, Thou art blessed now and forever! For as Thou wilt so
it is done and that which Thou dost is always good. Let me, Thy poorest and
most unworthy servant, joy in Thee and not in myself nor in anything else
besides Thee. For Thou, Lord, art my gladness! Thou art my hope, my
crown, my joy, and all my honor! What has Thy servant but that which he
has from Thee, and that without his deserving! All things are Thine that
Thou hast given and made.
I am poor, and have been in trouble and in pain ever from my youth; and
my soul has been in great heaviness with weeping and tears, and sometimes
it has been troubled in itself through manifold passions that come of the
world and of the flesh. Wherefore, Lord, I desire that I may have from Thee
The Inward Speaking of God 91 the joy of inward peace, and the repose of Thy chosen children who are fed
and nourished by Thee in the light of heavenly comforts; but without Thy
help I cannot come thereto. If Thou, Lord, give peace, or if Thou give inward
joy, my soul immediately shall be full of heavenly melody, and be devout
and fervent in Thy praisings. But if Thou withdraw Thyself from me as Thou
hast sometimes done, then Thy servant may not run the way of Thy
commandments as he did first; but he is compelled to bow his knees and to
strike his breast, for it is not with him as it was before, when the light of Thy
spiritual presence shone upon his forehead and he was defended under the
shadow of Thy mercy from all perils and dangers.
O righteous Father, ever to be praised, the time is come that Thou hast
ordained for Thy servant to be proved! And righteously is it done, that I
shall now suffer somewhat for Thee. Now is the hour come that Thou hast
known from the beginning: that Thy servant for a time should outwardly be
regarded as nothing, and inwardly live to Thee; and that he should a little be
despised in the sight of the world and be broken with passions and sickness,
that he might afterward rise with Thee into a new light and be illumined and
made glorious in the kingdom of God.
O holy Father, Thou hast ordained it so to be, and it is done as Thou hast
commanded. This is Thy grace to Thy friend: to suffer and to be troubled in
this world for Thy love, howsoever often it may be, and by whatsoever
person it may be, and in whatsoever manner it is allowed to fall unto him.
Nothing is done upon earth without Thy counsel and providence, nor
without cause. O it is good to me, Lord, that Thou hast humbled me, that I
may thereby learn to know Thy righteous judgments and put from me all
manner of presumption and highness of heart. And it is very profitable to
me that confusion has covered my face, that I may learn thereby to seek for
help and succor of Thee, rather than of man. I have thereby learned to dread
Thy secret and terrible judgment that scourges the righteous man with the
sinner, but not without equity and justice.
I yield thanks to Thee that Thou hast not spared my sins, but hast
punished me with scourges of love, and hast sent me sorrows and anguishes
within and without, so that there is no creature under heaven who may
comfort me but Thou, Lord God, the heavenly physician of man’s soul, who
strikest and healest and bringest a man near unto bodily death, and after
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restorest him to health again, that he may thereby learn to know the littleness
of his own power, and to trust the more fully in Thee.
Thy discipline is fallen upon me and Thy rod of correction hath taught
me. Under that rod I wholly submit myself: strike my back and my bones as
it shall please Thee, and make me to bow my crooked will unto Thy will;
make me a meek and humble disciple as Thou hast sometimes done with me,
that I may walk entirely according to Thy will. To Thee I commit myself and
all mine to be corrected; for better it is to be corrected by Thee here, than in
time to come. Thou knowest things to come, before they occur; and it is not
necessary that any man teach Thee or warn Thee of anything that is done
upon the earth. Thou knowest what is to my advantage, and how much
tribulation helps to purge the rust of sin in me. Do with me according to Thy
pleasure, and disdain not my sinful life, to none so well known as it is to
Thee.
Grant me, Lord, to know that which is necessary to be known; to love that
which is to be loved; to praise that which highly pleases Thee; to regard that
which appears precious in Thy sight; and to refuse that which is vile before
Thee. Do not allow me to judge according to my outward senses, nor to give
judgment after the hearing of unwise men, but in a true judgment to discern
things visible and invisible, and above all things always to search and follow
Thy will and pleasure. The outward senses of men are often deceived in their
judgments. And, likewise, the lovers of the world are deceived through
loving only visible things.
What is a man the better simply because he is taken to be better? Truly
nothing! For one deceitful man deceives another; one vain man deceives
another; and a blind and feeble creature deceives another when he exalts
him, and rather confounds him than praises him. For why? How much
soever a man is in the sight of God, says the meek Saint Francis, so much he
is, and no more; however holy and however virtuous he is taken to be in the
sight of the people.
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Chapter XXIII
That A Man Should Give Himself To Humble
Bodily Labors When He Feels Himself
Not Disposed To High Works Of Devotion
“My son, you may not always stand in the high fervent desire of virtue
nor in the highest degree of contemplation, but you must of necessity some-
times descend to lower things, and against your will and with great
weariness bear the burden of this corruptible body. For as long as you bear
this body of death, you must feel some tediousness and grief of heart, and
you shall oftentimes beweep and mourn the burden of your fleshly feelings
and the contradiction of your body to the soul; for you may not, for the
corruption thereof, persevere in spiritual studies and in heavenly
contemplation as you would wish to do.
“Then it is good for you to flee to meek bodily labors and to exercise
yourself in good outward works; and in a steadfast hope and trust to await
My coming and My new heavenly visitations, and to bear your exile and the
dryness of your heart patiently, till you shall be visited by Me again and be
delivered from all tediousness and unquietness of mind. When I come I shall
make you forget all your former labors and have inward rest and quietness
of soul.
“I shall open before you the meadows of the scriptures, and you shall,
with great gladness of heart, perceive them with a new and clearer
understanding. Then shall you follow the way of My commandments, and
you shall say with great spiritual gladness: ‘The sufferings of this time are
not worthy to be compared with the coming glory that shall be revealed in
us.’”
Chapter XXIV
That All Our Hope And Trust
Is To Be Put In God Alone
O Lord, what is the trust that I have in this life, or what is my greatest
solace of all things under heaven? Is it not Thou, my Lord God, whose mercy
is without measure? Where has it been well with me without Thee, or when
has it not been well with me, Thou being present? I would rather be poor
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with Thee, than rich without Thee. I would rather be with Thee as a pilgrim
in this world, than without Thee to be in heaven; for where Thou art there is
heaven, and where Thou art not, there is both death and hell. Thou art to me
all that I desire; and therefore it behooves me to sigh to Thee, to cry to Thee,
and heartily to pray to Thee. I have nothing to trust in that may help me in
my necessities but only Thee. For Thou art my hope, Thou art my trust,
Thou art my comfort, and Thou art my most faithful helper in every need.
Man seeks that which is his, but Thou seekest my health and profit, and
turnest all things into the best for me. If Thou send temptations and other
adversities, Thou ordainest all to my profit, for Thou art wont by a thousand
ways to prove Thy chosen people. In which proof Thou art no less to be
lauded and praised, than if Thou hadst fulfilled them with heavenly
comforts.
In Thee, Lord, therefore, I put my trust, and in Thee I bear patiently al my
adversities; for I find nothing without Thee but unstableness and folly. I see
well that the multitude of worldly friends profits not; that strong helpers
may avail nothing; nor wise counselors give profitable counsel; nor cunning
of doctors give consolation; nor riches deliver in time of need; nor secret
place anything defend. For all things that seem to be ordained to man’s
solace in this world, if Thou art absent, are worth nothing; nor may they
bring to man any true felicity. For Thou, Lord, art the end of all good things,
the highness of life, and the profound wisdom of all creatures who are in
heaven and in earth. Wherefore to trust in Thee above all things is the
greatest comfort to all Thy servants. To Thee, therefore, the Father of mercy,
do I lift up my eyes! In Thee, only, my Lord, my God, do I put my trust!
Bless and hallow my soul with Thy heavenly blessings, that it may be Thy
dwelling place and the seat of Thy eternal glory; so that nothing may be
found in me at any time that may offend the eye of Thy majesty. Behold me,
Lord, according to the greatness of Thy goodness and Thy manifold mercies;
and graciously hear the prayer of me, Thy poorest servant, outlawed and far
exiled into the country of the shadow of death! Defend and keep me among
the manifold perils and dangers of this corruptible life, and direct me
through Thy grace by the ways of peace into the country of everlasting
clearness without ending.
- Here ends the Third Book -
About The Author 95
About The Author
Swami Abhayananda was born Stan Trout in Indianapolis, Indiana on
August 14, 1938. After service in the Navy, he settled in northern California,
where he pursued his studies in philosophy and literature. In June of 1966,
he became acquainted with the philosophy of mysticism, and experienced a
strong desire to realize God. Abandoning all other pursuits, he retired to a
solitary life in a secluded cabin in the mountain forests near Santa Cruz,
California; and, on November 18, of that same year, became enlightened by
the grace of God.
He spent four more years in his isolated cabin, and subsequently met
Swami Muktananda who visited Santa Cruz in 1970. Shortly thereafter, he
joined Muktananda in India as his disciple, and later lived and worked in
Muktananda’s Oakland, California ashram. In May of 1978, he returned to
India and was initiated by his master into the ancient Order of sannyas, and
given the monastic name, Swami Abhayananda (ub-hi′-uh-non-duh), “the bliss
of fearlessness.”
As a Swami, he taught in various cities in the U.S.; but in 1981, unwilling
to condone what he saw as abuses of power, Abhayananda left
Muktananda’s organization, and went into retreat once again. It was during
this time that many of his books were written, and Atma Books was founded
to publish them. At present, Swami Abhayananda is residing on the
Treasure Coast of Florida, where he continues to work, teach, write, and
publish his works on the knowledge of the Self.
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