The Hybrid Series: Critical Moments by Andrew Harding

7/31/2019 The Hybrid Series: Critical Moments by Andrew Harding

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E k d x b y J e xd f k i

T J B J V H X F D S B X F B S =

C X F T F C E L @ A @ B K T S

ERSTFK @ECERLBV


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Ca~vxfijt Ekdxby JexdfkiCawbx ext hv Larfse Tevlax

Tjb xfijt ag Ekdxby Jexdfki ta hb fdbktfgfbd es ertjax ag tjfsyaxo jes hbbk essbxtbd hv jf` fk eccaxdekcb yftj sbctfak 99 ekd9: ag tjb Ca~vxfijt, Dbsfiks ekd êtbkts Ect 56::+

Ell xfijts xbsbxwbd+ Ka ~ext ag tjfs ~rhlfcetfak èv hbxb~xadrcbd, staxbd fk e xbtxfbwel svstb`, ax txeks`fttbd fk ekvgax` ax hv ekv `beks, blbctxakfc, `bcjekfcel, ~jataca~vfki,xbcaxdfki, ax atjbxyfsb, yftjart tjb ~xfax ~bx`fssfak ag tjb~rhlfsjbxs+

Ekv ~bxsak yja ca``fts ekv rkertjaxf}bd ect fk xbletfak ta tjfs~rhlfcetfak èv hb lfehlb ta cxf`fkel ~xasbcrtfak ekd cfwfl clef`sgax deèibs+

E CF^ cetelairb xbcaxd gax tjfs tftlb fseweflehlb gxa` tjb Hxftfsj Lfhxexv+

FSHK 69: 5 :4673 5>9 2

yyy+erstfkècerlbv+ca`

Gfxst ^rhlfsjbd *8>58&Erstfk ' @ecerlbv ^rhlfsjbxs Ltd+82 Cekede SurexbCekexv YjexgLakdak

B54 2LH

^xfktbd ' Harkd fk Ixbet Hxftefk

Tjfs haao caktefks dbscxf~tfaks ag scbkbs ag ek bz~lfcft

sbzrel ketrxb yjfcj exb srftehlb gax edrlts aklv+ Tjb

caktbkts exb kat srftehlb gax xbedbxs rkdbx bfijtbbk

vbexs ag eib+


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Ecokaylbdib`bkts

Gfxst ekd gaxbàst

Erstfk '@ecerlbv gax hblfbwfki fk `b ekd èofki e

yxftbxs dxbe` ca`b txrb+

@v sfstbx, Ibxxv, yja jes ~etfbktlv lfstbkbd ta ell `v

tjarijts ekd xbed sa`b ag tjb jefxv hfts+ F jed jbx tabs

crxlfki àst ag tjb tf`b+

Gfkellv ta var Majk, gax lfstbkfki ta `v xe`~eib ehart `v

haao ekd hbfki sa sr~~axtfwb ekd bktjrsfestfc+ Tjb

okaylbdib var f`~extbd yes fkwelrehlb+

Tjeko var+

_yyy+jakbvsrcolbxasb+ca+roP


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Cje~tbx 5

F ~rsjbd tjxarij tjb ~ba~lb yftj Jexwbv? tjbv ybxb ietjbxfki

exarkd tjb hadv ak tjb ~ewb`bkt+ Sfttfki? jrddlbd fkta e hell

hbsfdb ft yes e ifxl, yaèk? F yeskt srxb vbt+

Carld var ell stekd heco ~lbesb ekd ifwb rs sa`b xaa`+

Tjbxbs katjfki ta sbb+ Ibt ak varx yev, kay1 Jexwbv stexbd et

tjb`, rktfl sa`b ag tjb` àwbd, hrt var elyevs jewb e gby yja

fikaxb var+ Jb taao art jfs yexxekt cexd, Fll jewb var teobk tatjb stetfak, fg var dakt àwb ak+ Tjbv xblrctektlv àwbd? àxb

ybxb gfllfki tjb s~ecbs tjbv lbgt+ Jexwbv staad eyev gxa` `b ekd

tjb ifxl yftj jfs heco ta tjb cxayd, ifwfki `b sa`b s~ecb+

Tjb xefk yes je``bxfki dayk? Jexwbv ~rllbd jfs ~jakb art

ekd esobd yjbxb jfs tbe` ybxb+ F sr~~asb tjb xrsj jarx jes

sta~~bd tjb` ibttfki jbxb, es urfcolv es rs? ca`fki gxa` e

dfggbxbkt dfxbctfak+

F hblfbwb ft yes var yja xeki rs? cek var tbll `b yja var

exb, ~lbesb1F laaobd et tjb ifxl+ Yjv cekt sjb laao et `b1 Sfttfki ak tjb

ybt ~ewb`bkt yftj jbx heco ta tjb yell? F dakt rkdbxstekd jbx+

Jbx jbed yes xbstfki ak jbx okbbs? laaofki stxefijt ejbed+ Tjb

xefk saeofki jbx jefx ekd xrkkfki fk lfttlb xfwbxs dayk ak ta jbx

tjfk clatjbs+

Sjb cellbd rs, yjv tjb grco yakt sjb laao et `b1

F trxkbd `v ettbktfak ta tjb hadv ak tjb glaax, hbsfdb jbx+ Ft

yes e èk+ Jfs jefx strco ta jfs kbco fk clr`~s, hbcersb ag tjb

xefk ekd tjb ie~ hbtybbk tjb`, dxfhhlfki hlaad gxa` tya sèllyarkds+

Jexwbv, laao et tjfs+ Jb set ak jfs jerkcjbs fk gxakt ag tjb hadv

ekd laaobd ta yjbxb F yes ~afktfki+

Mbsrs Ellf, tjets e hftb+ Jb ob~t jfs wafcb lay+ Fll xfki

Jfllexv ekd yexk jbx yjets ca`fki fk+ Yb hatj staad r~ ekd

laaobd et tjb ifxl, jrddlbd hbsfdb tjb hadv ag tjb èk, tarcjfki

tjb ta~ ag jfs jbed yftj jbx tjfij+

Yjets varx ke`b1 Sjb dfdkt àwb, lbt elakb, laao et rs+ F

hbkt awbx ekd tarcjbd jbx jekd, yxe~~bd exarkd jbx okbbs+ Sjb


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glfkcjbd+

Jexwbv,sjbs ~btxfgfbd+

F cek gbbl ft Ellf? txv eiefk1

Yjets varx ke`b1 Var cellbd rs+ F` Ellf ekd tjfs fsJexwbv? ybxb jbxb ta jbl~ var+

Sjb laaobd et `b kay+ Var cekt jbl~ `b, sa lbewb `b

elakb+

Da var tjfko sjbll ca`b yftj rs, sa yb cek telo ta jbx Ellf1

Fll txv ta xbed jbx `fkd+ Yjetbwbx sjbs jfdfki fs hrxfbdxbellv dbb~, ifwb `b e `fkrtb+

F surettbd dayk fk gxakt ag jbx ekd taao hatj ag jbx jekds fk

`fkb+ Sjb txfbd ta ~rll eyev, stexfki et `b hrt F jbld tjb` gfx`lvekd sjb sta~~bd ~rllfki+

F` ~svcjfc+ F cek sbb varxb tjb se`b es rs+ Jbx bvbs

hrlibd+ Ybd lfob ta telo ta var+

Dakt hrllsjft `b% sjb scxbe`bd fk `v gecb+

Fts kat hrllsjft, var exb tjb se`b es rs+ Sjb dabskt hblfbwb

ft, Jexwbv+

Var cek sta~ telofki fk varx jbeds+ F cek jbex bwbxvtjfki

varxb sevfki+

Ekd var sev varxb kat1 F tjxby stxefijt heco et jbx+F` Dbtbctfwb Fks~bctax Hrxibss+ Laao, yb kbbd ta telo ta

var bftjbx fk e cegb sa`byjbxb ax dayk et tjb stetfak, fts r~ ta

var+ Sjb laaobd yaxxfbd kay+ F jbexd cexs scxbbcj ta e jelt+

Jexwbv gaxcbd jfs yev tjxarij tjb cxayds ta jfs tya

dbtbctfwbs, yja ybxb mrst ibttfki art ag tjbfx cex+

Ekdv, yeft gax tjb dactax+ Me`fb, ibt Rkfgax` ta clbex ell

tjbsb ~ba~lb art ag jbxb+ Ybxb teofki jbx awbx tjb xaed ta tjb

cegb, sjbs hxfcofki ft ehart sa`btjfki ekd Ellf cekt xbed jbx vbt+

Sjb `ev a~bk r~ e hft, eyev gxa` tjb hadv+Aoev, Sfx+ Sjell F ibt Sacca dayk jbxb1F dakt tjfko tjbvll ibt `rcj, fts hbbk xefkfki gax jarxs hrt

cell tjb` art Me`fb+

Yfll da, Sfx+ Jb xek awbx ta tjb kbexbst Rkfgax` Aggfcbx+

Jexwbv trxkbd heco ta `b ekd ~rsjbd jfs yev tjxarij tjb

aklaaobxs+ Ybll teob jbx awbx tjbxb, jb set ak jfs jerkcjbs fk

gxakt ag tjb ifxl+ Ybxb teofki var ta tjb cegb awbx tjb xaed+Ca`b ak, var laao lfob var carld da yftj e jat dxfko+


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F txfbd ta jbl~, F yeskt stxaki bkarij+ Jexwbv staad r~,

Ca`b ekd tbll rs art ag tjb xefk, varll cetcj varx dbetj art

jbxb+

Sjb laaobd et `b+ Fs jb txvfki ta hb grkkv+ Ka lawb, jbs txvfki ta hb ofkd? varxb ca`~lbtblv `fssfki

tjb ~afkt+

F` saxxv+ F ~rt `v jekd art gax jbxs ekd jbl~bd jbx r~, sjb

yes sjeofki lfob e lbeg ekd saeobd ta jbx sofk+ Jbx hexb ex`s

laaobd yjftb fk tjb ilaa` ag tjb stax`+ Ekdv ce`b ta stekd yftj

tjb hadv es yb yelobd eyev+

Yb jrxxfbd jbx ecxass tjb xaed ta tjb cegb ekd set et tjb heco,

kat srccbbdfki et stevfki eyev gxa` ekvakb+ E ifxl ce`b awbx

ekd esobd yjet yb yektbd+ F axdbxbd tjxbb tbes ekd taao `vmecobt agg ta ~rt awbx jbx sjarldbxs+ Sjb aklv jed e T-sjfxt ekd

mbeks ak ekd sjarldwb hbbk sjfwbxfki, fg sjb yeskt e Jvhxfd+Sjbd jed jbx ex`s cxassbd awbx jbx hadv rktfl yb set dayk+

Ft yes ahwfars sjb jed ka rkdbxybex ak ekd e gby ag tjb `bk fk

tjb cegb ybxb stexfki et jbx+

Tjeko var+ Saxxv Fll ibt ft saeobd fksfdb+

^rt varx ex`s fk tjb slbbwbs, F dakt cexb fg ft ibts ybt, fts

aoev+ Jexwbv yes txvfki ta xbed jbx `fkd+

Yjets varx ke`b1 Sjb mrst stexbd et `b gax e à`bkt+F dakt okay yjet ft fs, tjets yjv F carldkt eksybx var

hbgaxb+ F okay yjet F e`? F dakt okay yja F e`+

Jay dfd var ~jakb rs1 Ft dabskt laao lfob var jewb e

~jakb ak var kay ax dfd var rsb e cell haz+

F ixehhbd e èks txarsbx lbi ekd scxbe`bd gax e ~jakb+ Jb

carld sbb F kbbdbd jbl~ ekd lbt `b rsb jfs+ Jb jrxxfbd agg, egtbx F

iewb ft heco+

Da var okay yja tjb dbed èk yes1 Jexwbv esobd jbx

ibktlv+E tbex xek dayk jbx cjbbo ekd F iewb jbx e tfssrb gxa` `v

hei+

Tjeko var+ Jfs ke`b fs Allf ekd jb garkd `b jfdfki fk e

sjbd sfz àktjs eia? jbs laaobd art gax `b bwbx sfkcb+ F cekt

hblfbwb jbs dbed+

Yjet tjb jbll je~~bkbd1 Jexwbv esobd jbx+

Sjb laaobd et Jexwbv+ E jrib èk ce`b awbx ekd stextbdxayfki yftj jf`, awbx sa`btjfki xbellv str~fd+ Fd kbwbx sbbk jf`


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hbgaxb, ybwb aklv hbbk fk tjfs tayk gax e car~lb ag devs+ Yb

ybxb fk e dbxblfct jarsb, obb~fki art ag tjb xefk ekd tya

~alfcb`bk àwbd rs ak+ Tjets yjv F jewbkt iat e caet ak+ Tjbv

yarldkt lbt `b teob ft+ Arx xrcosecos exb stfll tjbxb yftj ell arxhblakifkis fk+

Dfd tjbsb ~alfcb`bk jewb rkfgax`s ak1 Jexwbv esobd+

Ka, tjbv sefd tjbv ybxb ~lefk clatjbd ~alfcb`bk ekd tjbvxb

àwfki ell txe`~s art ag tayk+

Varxb tjb clbekbst txe`~ Fwb bwbx sbbk, F sefd ta jbx+

Ybxb var slbb~fki xarij1Tjb tbe yes ~rt ak tjb tehlb+ Jexwbv iewb jbx e gfwbx ekd sefd

obb~ tjb cjekib, ta jrxxv jbx eyev gxa` rs+

Kat xbellv, yb elyevs dfd gax èvhb e car~lb ag kfijtshbgaxb yb garkd arxsblwbs e glet hrt ybwb elyevs yaxobd ekd

àwbd ehart+ Allf kbwbx lfobd stevfki fk akb ~lecb gax taa laki, jb

jed ftcjv gbbt+

Yes jb tjb se`b es var1

Sjb s`flbd, sjaao jbx jbed ekd laybxbd jbx wafcb+ Ka, jb

yfsjbd jb yes èkv tf`bs+ Jb elyevs sefd yjbk jb eibs jbll

laao lfob e ~bxw, hbfki yftj sa`bakb sa varki+ Jb èdb e maob ag

ft hrt F okay jb yes sbxfars+

Jay dfd ek exir`bkt trxk fkta jf` hbfki ofllbd1 F` saxxvta obb~ ~xbssfki var, F kbbd ta okay fg ybxb iafki ta cetcj

yjabwbx dfd tjfs+

Sjb laaobd et Jexwbv eiefk, Gxa` tjb yev tjb hfi èk ob~t

vbllfki ehart sa`btjfki tjet je~~bkbd e yjflb eia, F` srxb jb

tjarijt jb yes sa`bakb blsb+

Cek var xb`b`hbx ekvtjfki jb yes sevfki1

Jb ob~t sevfki, lest àktj, F tald var kat ta da ft+ F yes

scxbe`fki ekd txvfki ta ~rll jf` agg sa F `fssbd e lat ag ft+

Tjbxbs e hftb ak varx gxfbkds kbco, Jexwbv yjfs~bxbd+Sjb stexbd et Jexwbv+ Yjet da var `bek e hftb, jbs kbwbx

hbbk hfttbk+ Jexwbv laaobd tayexds tjb daax, Me`fb yes

jrxxvfki, ta s~beo ta jf`+

Yjet fs ft Me`fb1 Jexwbv carld sbb jb yes cakgrsbd ehart

sa`btjfki+

Sfx, tjfs fs ybfxd+ Tjb dactax sevs jbs kat dbed, jbs iat e

jbexthbet+Jexwbv iat r~ ta lbewb yftj Me`fb+ Stev jbxb yftj jbx, Ellf+


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ekd jbedbd gax tjb daax+ Tjb atjbx crsta`bxs ybxb yakdbxfki

yjet tjb jbll yes iafki ak+ F stexbd et tjb` ekd tjbv last fktbxbst+

F yekt ta ia ekd sbb jf`+

F ~rt `v jekd awbx jbxs+ Jbll ca`b heco es saak es jb

okays gax srxb+ Jb cek sbb jay `rcj var cexb ehart jf`+

Sjb laaobd et `v jekd+ Hlaadv jbll, tjbvxb xbel exbkt

tjbv+

Vbs, F` èxxfbd ta Jexwbv+ Yb iat ybd garx àktjs eia+

Jexwbv xrks tjb `rxdbx sured+ Tjets yjv yb ybxb cellbd art ta

tjfs+Exb var fk tjb ~alfcb, taa1

Elàst e vbex kay+ F yes teobk ak hv tjb` hbcersb F xbed

`fkds ekd sbb tjb dbed+ Fts wbxv jekdv fk jfs lfkb ag yaxo+Jbs kat ca`b heco, tjbv `rst jewb èdb e `fsteob+ Sflbkt

tbexs ybxb xallfki dayk jbx gecb+ F ~rt `v ex` exarkd jbx

sjarldbx ekd iewb jbx e jri+

Tjb daax a~bkbd ekd jbx bvbs sjat r~, ta sbb yja yes

ca`fki fk+ Jexwbv yelobd tayexds rs ekd set dayk+ Tjb èk yb

tjarijt yes dbed, staad hbgaxb rs saeofki ybt+

Allf% sjb vbllbd+ F staad r~ ta lbt jbx art ag tjb caxkbx+ Jb

glrki jfs ex`s exarkd jbx sjarldbxs ekd ofssbd jbx+ F set hbsfdb

Jexwbv ekd tjbv taao tjb hbkcj, a~~asftb+ Jexwbv yeftbd e gby`fkrtbs hbgaxb jb esobd jf` ekvtjfki+

Allf, da var rkdbxstekd yjets je~~bkbd ta var1

Kat xbellv, bwbxvtjfki ybkt hleco ekd tjbk F stextbd ta gbbl

tjfkis lfob tjb ~ewb`bkt ekd tjb xefk jfttfki `v gecb+ Yjbk F

a~bkbd `v bvbs, sa`bakb jed e stbtjasca~b ak `v cjbst,

lfstbkfki ta `v jbext+

Cek var xb`b`hbx yjbxb varx hblakifkis exb1 Jexwbv

esobd jf`+

Vbs, tya stxbbts eyev, yjbxb e yjalb xay ag jarsbs exbhaexdbd r~ ekd yb ybxb fk tjb aklv akb haexdbd a~~asftb+ Tjb

gxakt daax yes elxbedv a~bk+

F okay ft, ybll ibt varx strgg ekd varxb ca`fki ja`b yftj

rs+ F` srxb Ellf yakt `fkd var rsfki tjb catteib tjet yes lbgt ta

jbx, hv arx dbex gxfbkd, yjbk sjb dfbd+

Jexwbv laaobd et `b+ Var okay F yakt Jexwbv+

Allf laaobd et rs hatj+ Yjv exb var jbl~fki rs1 Ybxb mrstdxfgtbxs,


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Bwbxvakb kbbds e jbl~fki jekd et sa`b ~afkt fk tjbfx lfwbs

ekd tjfs fs varx tf`b, Jexwbv eksybxbd jf`+ Allf laaobd strkkbd+

F iat r~ ekd lbt Jexwbv art+

Ca`b ak, var carld da yftj e hetj ekd dxv clatjbs, var hatjlaao lfob dxaykbd xets+ Tjb ifxl ifiilbd et `b+ Yjet exb yb

iafki ta cell var1

Fwb elyevs cellbd jbx Ifke, F tjfko ft srfts jbx, Allf tald rs+

Ifke ft fs gxa` kay ak+ Exb var xbedv1 F syb~t `v jekd ta

tjb daax, ekd tjbv iat r~ ta gallay rs art ag tjb cegb+ Tjb xefk

yes wbxv gfkb kay ekd yb iat fk Jexwbvs cex, ta ~fco r~ tjbfxstrgg+

Jexwbv ybkt fkta tjb hrfldfki yftj Allf, ta jbl~ jf` ibt tjbfx

tjfkis ekd tjbfx heis jed hbbk xeksecobd+ Allf yes ~fssbd agg?tjbfx clatjbs ybxb stxbyk ell awbx+ Tjbv ~fcobd tjb` r~ ekd

strggbd tjb` fkta tjb xrcosecos+

Tjb hestexds tjet èdb var àwb ak `rst jewb yetcjbd var

ca`b fk jbxb yftj varx ibex+ Gaxibt ft+ Yb jewb ~lbktv ag clatjbs

ekd ybll ibt var àxb awbx tjb kbzt car~lb ag devs+

F dakt rkdbxstekd yjv varxb jbl~fki rs lfob tjfs+

Ybwb hatj hbbk fk varx ~asftfak ekd sa`bakb jbl~bd rs fk

tjb ~est? lfob F sefd fts varx tf`b, lbts ia+

Jexwbv ~exobd tjb cex artsfdb arx jarsb ekd yb taao tjb`

fkta Mbkkvs catteib kbzt daax, ta sjay tjb` exarkd+

Fts kat wbxv àdbxk hrt sjb yes bfijtv-tya yjbk sjb dfbd+

Fg var yekt ta stev ybll cjekib tjb grxkftrxb gax var, ft yakt hb

e ~xahlb`+

Yb jewbkt ekvàkbv gax xbkt rktfl F ibt e mah+

Yb dfdkt eso var gax xbkt, yb dakt yekt ekv+ Tjbv hatj

laaobd estakfsjbd+

Egtbx varwb iat cjekibd, ca`b ta tjb hfi jarsb kbzt daax+F` axdbxfki e crxxv, fgvar hatj bet ft1

Tjbv s`flbd+ Jexwbv a~bkbd e dxeybx fk tjb oftcjbk ekd taao

art e hrkcj ag obvs+ Jbxb exb tjb obvs gax tjfs jarsb ekd sa var

dakt yaxxv, Mbkkv dfbd fk jas~ftel+ Sa`b ~ba~lb exb e hft ybfxd

ehart tjet saxt ag tjfki+

F cekt hblfbwb jay ofkd var tya exb+ Ifke laaobd lfob sjb

yes iafki ta cxv+

F tald Allf? ybwb hatj hbbk fk varx ~asftfak+ Fll axdbx gax ek


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jarxs tf`b, fg varxb xbedv hbgaxb tjet mrst ca`b xarkd, ybll

jewb e dxfko+

Tjb hbll ak tjb gxakt daax xeki+ F a~bkbd ft ekd esobd tjb` fk+

Tjbv laaobd sjacobd et tjb jarsb, tjbfx bvbs ybxb bwbxvyjbxb+

Ca`b fk, èob varxsblwbs et ja`b+ Tjbxbs ka stekdfki ak

cbxbàkv jbxb+ Yjet da var hatj dxfko1 Jexwbv esobd tjb`+

Yb dxfko yfkb yjbk ybwb iat àkbv Jexwbv? xbd yfkb,

Allf eksybxbd+

Tjets yjet yb èfklv dxfko, sft dayk ekd xblez+ Tjbv hatjset ak akb ag tjb sages wbxv clasb taibtjbx+ Jexwbv ybkt dayk ta

tjb cbllex+

Tjfs jarsb fs fkcxbdfhlb+ Fwb kbwbx sbbk grxkftrxb lfob tjfshbgaxb Ellf+

Jexwbv laaobd gax ell tjfs vbexs eia, laki hbgaxb F `bt jf`+Jb dabskt laao ald bkarij?dfd jb hrv ft gxa` jfs ~xe`1

Allf maobd+

F s`flbd et jf`+ Varll rkdbxstekd tjfkis yjbk ybwb telobd

ta var, egtbx ybwb betbk+ Mrst xb`b`hbx tjfs? ybwb hbbk yjbxb

var exb kay ekd jed jbl~ gxa` atjbxs+ Ybxb ~essfki ak tjb

gewarx yb ybxb akcb ifwbk+

Jexwbv hxarijt tjb` e iless ag yfkb becj ekd ybkt heco gaxarxs+

Tjekos Jexwbv+ F xefsbd `v iless+ Ta kby gxfbkdsjf~s ekd

kby hbifkkfkis+ F taestbd tjb`+ Tjbv hatj laaobd iahsècobd+

Dxfko r~, Jexwbv caezbd, Varx lfwbs cjekib gxa` tjfs

~afkt ak? tjets fg var yekt ft ta+

Tjb hbll xeki ekd Jexwbv jrxxfbd ta ~ev gax tjb teobeyev+ Es

jb yelobd heco tjxarij tjb sfttfki xaa`, tayexds tjb oftcjbk, jb

sefd, Ca`b ekd jbl~ varxsblwbs+ F gallaybd jf` ekd tjbv ce`bfkta tjb oftcjbk stexfki et bwbxvtjfki+

Hlaadv jbll? Fwb kbwbx sbbk e oftcjbk lfob tjfs, Ifke sefd+

Kat tjet F cek xb`b`hbx, ekvyev+

Fg var stev Fll ibt akb gfttbd, mrst es kfcb es tjfs, kbzt daax+

Jexwbv yes a~bkfki ell tjb cextaks+ Jewb ekvtjfki var yekt?

dfwb fk+ Ybll tjxay ekvtjfki tjets lbgt? dakt hb sjv+ Tjbv

~fcobd r~ ~letbs ekd ietjbxbd yjet tjbv yektbd+

Yb bet agg tjb hfi caggbb tehlb fk tjb sfttfki xaa`+ Tjb


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dfkfki xaa` fs e hft gaxèl gax e cjet+ Ifke laaobd et `b, s`flbd

ekd ~fcobd r~ jbx crtlbxv+

F clbexbd ell tjb ~letbs, laedbd tjb dfsjyesjbx ekd mafkbd

tjb`+

Allf yes tjb gfxst ta s~beo+ Tjb `bel yes ixbet, tjeko var+

^lbesb dakt tjfko F` hbfki xrdb, hrt yjv rs1 Jexwbv s`flbd et

hatj ag tjb` ekd stextbd bz~lefkfki+

F xrk tjb `rxdbx sured et tjb lacel kfco ekd Ellf yaxos yftj

`b+ Sjb xbeds `fkds, sbbs tjb dbed bwbxvyjbxb ekd cek dfi fksfdb

sa`bakbs jbed ta gfkd art yjet yb kbbd ta okay, ta salwb tjb

cesbs yb ibt+ Tadev, Ifke ~jakbd 666 gax jbl~ es vard hbbk

ettecobd+ Yjbk yb iat tjbxb, var ybxb dbed es gex es hatj ag rsybxb cakcbxkbd+ Allfs gecb sjaybd tatel sjaco+

F yes bwbk iafki ta xfki tjb ~etjalaifst, ta tbll jbx yjet yesca`fki fk+ Varwb hbbk hfttbk tjb se`b es rs+

Yjet tjb jbll exb var sevfki1

Ifke tarcjbd jfs jekd, Lfstbk Allf, jbll bz~lefk ft ell ta

var+

Jb stexbd et jbx, E` F tjb se`b es var1 Sjb kaddbd+ E

s`flb hxaob art ak jfs gecb, Tjfs fs grcofki hxfllfekt+ Jb iewb

jbx e crddlb+Saxxv Ellf, F iat e hft cexxfbd eyev ekd sybex e lat F`

egxefd+

Var sjarld gft fk jbxb ~bxgbctlv tjbk+ Jexwbv yes lerijfki

et `b+

Jfs àhflb xeki, Saxxv, F jewb ta ibt tjfs+ Jb lfstbkbd ekd

sefd, Var hriibx Ma, F tjarijt yb ybxb ibttfki cellbd art+ F yes

iafki ta xfki Jfllexv tadev ekd tjfkis cjekibd, slfijtlv+ Jb

lfstbkbd eiefk+ Ca`b xarkd ekd varll sbb gax varxsblg, F` kat

tbllfki var, aoev? sbb var saak+ Jb jrki r~+ Tjbvll hb jbxbsaak+ Saxxv? Ma yaxos yftj rs ekd Jfllexv fs e ~etjalaifst+ Tjbvxbe iev car~lb? var dakt jewb ekv jeki-r~s ehart tjet, da var1

Iev, stxefijt? ft dabskt hatjbx rs+ Yb hatj okay yjet yb

yekt+

Jfllexv fs jrèk ekd yarld lawb ta hb fk varx ~asftfak kay

Allf? akcb tjbvwb hbbk tald F tjfko tjb srhmbct sjarld hb

dxa~~bd+F eixbb? F okay jay tjet gbbls Jexwbv+ Ft dfdkt sft ybll yftj


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`b+

Yjet yaxo da var laao gax, Allf1

Ekvtjfki ta da yftj cexs? `bcjekfc fs `v gfxst cjafcb hrt

Fwb dakb dblfwbxv dxfwfki+ F jewbkt iat ek JIW lfcbkcb hrt Fyarldkt yekt ta hb eyev gxa` Ifke, kay ybwb garkd becj

atjbx+

F okay bzectlv yjet var `bek hv tjet, Jexwbv surbb}bd

`v jekd+

Tjbvxb artsfdb? Fll lbt tjb` fk+

Es F lbgt tjb xaa`, Jexwbv sefd, Yja kbbds e daaxhbll, yjbkvar cek xbed `fkds+ F jbexd lerijfki hbjfkd `b+

Ca`b ak var tya, F` ibttfki hlaadv ybt stekdfki jbxb1Tjbv ce`b xrkkfki r~ tjb ~etj ekd F staad heco ta lbt tjb` fk+

Yjets tjb hfi sbcxbt jb carldkt tbll Ma awbx tjb ~jakb1

Jfllexv esobd+ F ~rt `v gfkibx ecxass `v lf~s ekd yelobd fkta tjb

sfttfki xaa`+ Tjbv gallaybd xfijt hbjfkd `b+

Jexwbv iat r~ ta da tjb fktxadrctfaks ekd ybkt gax `axb

yfkb+

Tjfs grcofki ybetjbx fs dxfwfki `b `ed+ Var ibt e dev agg

ekd ft ~fssbs dayk, Ma sefd ta ka akb fk ~extfcrlex+

Jexwbv yelobd heco fk yftj yfkb gax tjb`+ Ekd var ybxbyaxxfbd ehart sybexfki? Allf+ Tjet sbt rs agg lerijfki ekd

bwbxvakb xblezbd+

Yjet ybxb var iafki ta xfki `b ehart tadev, Jexwbv1 F

dfdkt ibt yjet Ma `bekt ehart tjfkis cjekifki+

Yb ybxb cellbd art hbcersb Allf jed hbbk ettecobd ekd yes

dbed, hrt jed e hftb ak jfs kbco+ Ehart ek jarx letbx jb yes

ofssfki Ifke, eiefk+

Lrcov hriibx, yes ell Jfllexv sefd+ Yb carld sbb tjb tbexs

fk jbx bvbs+ Ma ~rt jbx ex`s exarkd jbx+Ca`b ak, ybll ifwb tjb` e hft ag s~ecb+ Dabs ekvakb gekcv

e syf`1

Allf laaobd et Ifke+ Yb jewbkt iat castr`bs+

F ifiilbd+ Kax jewb yb+ Jexwbv iat r~ ekd gallaybd `b

tjxarij tjb oftcjbk+ F a~bkbd tjb darhlb daaxs ekd glfcobd tjb

lfijt syftcjbs+

Tjb ~aal yes glaadbd yftj lfijt+ F dxa~~bd `v clatjbs yftj

Jexwbvs ekd yb dfwbd fk+ Ifke ekd Allf ybxb laaofki gxa` tjb


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daax ekd s`flbd et becj atjbx+ Ft dfdkt teob laki gax tjb` ta stxf~

ekd mr`~ fk+ E gby `fkrtbs letbx Ma dfwbd fk ekd Jfllexv rsbd tjb

stb~s+ F dfd e gby lbkitjs ak tjb hatta` ekd ehawb `b, Jexwbv

yes txvfki ta cetcj r~ ak tjb ta~? ~larijfki tjxarij tjb yetbx+

Allf ekd Ifke yetcjbd rs ekd carldkt sta~ s`flfki+ F cerijt

sfijt ag Ma ekd Jfllexv lerijfki ekd cexxvfki ak? dfse~~afkt`bkt

hrxfbd akcb àxb+

F ce`b r~ gax efx ekd dxeiibd Jexwbv ta tjb hatta` yjbxb yb

èdb lawb gax eibs+ Ybwb hatj hbbk ehlb ta stev dayk gax `rcj

lakibx tjek yb rsbd ta ekd jewb ft ta tybktv-gfwb `fkrtbs, kay+

Yjbk yb ce`b r~ tjb laao ak tjbfx gecbs yes ~xfcblbss+

Tjbvxb hatj gfsj+ Tjbv ~xbtbkd tjbvxb Jvhxfds, hrt tjbv

lfb, Ma sefd yjbk sjb sey tjbfx gecbs+Cek var da ft Ma1 Ifke esobd+

Cjxfst ka, Fd hlaadv dxayk+ Tjet yes str~fd F cekt dfb+ ^rt

ft tjfs yev, F jewbkt txfbd+ Jfllexv yes hbjfkd jbx, mr`~bd r~

ekd ~lektbd jbx jekds ak Mas sjarldbxs ekd ~rsjbd jbx rkdbx+ Ma

sye` eyev gxa` jbx jekds, dayk ta tjb hatta` ekd heco r~+

F` cjekifki tjet? èvhb F carld yftj ~xectfcb, sjb ~rt jbx

ex`s exarkd Jfllexv ekd tjbv glaetbd yftj tjbfx gbbt ofcofki ta tjb

atjbx bkd ag tjb ~aal ta èob art+

F iat art, jrxxfbd ta tjb cr~haexd fk tjb caxkbx ekd ~rllbd arttaks ag taybls gax bwbxvakb+ F yxe~~bd akb exarkd `v hadv ekd

ekatjbx gax `v jefx+ Yjbk F yes ~rttfki tjb caggbb ak F gblt

Jexwbvs ex`s exarkd `b+

Jay exb var @xs Hrxibss1

F ~xbssbd `v hadv fkta jfs, F` wbxv je~~v @x Hrxibss, ekd

var+

Jb surbb}bd `b tfijt, Xbedv ekd yeftfki @xs Hrxibss+

êco ft fk var tya,varwb iat irbsts+

Dfd var sbb tjet ~exxat glvfki exarkd @xs Hrxibss1 Ybcarld jbex Ma ekd Jfllexv lerijfki fk arx jbeds+

F gfllbd tjb cegbtfxb ekd iat caggbb cr~s art+ Ifke ekd Allf

ce`b tjxarij gxa` tjb ~aal, yxe~~bd fk taybls+

F kbwbx bz~bctbd tjet Ellf, tjfs fs e dfggbxbkt yaxld tjek

ybwb hbbk rsbd ta+ F s`flbd et jf`+ Ekd iaad testb fk `rsfc,

yjet àxb carld e èk yekt+

Tjets Jexwbv ~levfki jfs irftex, Allf yes sjacobd ekd lbgtIfke ta ia ekd sbb gax jf`sblg+


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Da var kbbd e jekd yftj ekvtjfki, Ellf1

Tjb aklv tjfki F yekt gxa` var fs ta okay fg varxb stfcofki

exarkd, Ifke+ Ybwb ell jed e kaèdfc lfgb ag saxts, bwbk Jfllexv?

~rt dayk sa`b xaats+ Tjb jarsb kbzt daax fs varxs gax es laki es

var yekt ft+ Yb dakt hakd besflv yftj jrèks, e~ext gxa` lfgb

~extkbxs ekd var jewb gxfbkds jbxb+ Ell garx ag rs lfob var hatj,

F` srxb varwb gblt ft+ F ybkt ta tjb ~aal xaa` daax, Ca`b ak,

sta~ sjeiifki, tjb caggbbs èdb+

Ifke yes lerijfki yjbk F trxkbd heco ta jbx, F yekt ta stev+

Fg Allf ibts e mah F tjfko jb yfll, taa+Ybll jewb ta yaxo ak tjet, yakt yb1 F cexxfbd tjb caggbb

tjxarij mrst es Jexwbv ce`b ta tjb bkd ag sa`b `rsfc+ @v taybl

slf~~bd es F ~rt tjb txev dayk+Saxxv, F dxeiibd ft heco r~+

Dakt hb saxxv, Ellf+ Ifke ce`b awbx, Cek F sbb varx heco1F katfcbd ft fk tjb ~aal hrt dfdkt sbb ft ~xa~bxlv+ F gecbd eyev

gxa` Allf ekd lbt tjb taybl dxa~ dayk `v heco+ Ellf fts

hbertfgrl+ F dakt okay jay ekv ag var dexbd ibt es `rcj dakb es

var jewb+

Ma ekd Jfllexv ce`b fk+ Ma aklv ybexs e taybl exarkd jbx

hatta` jelg+ Sjb jes ka haahs ekd yes cawbxbd fk txfhel tettaas,

lfob Jexwbv+ Jbx sjarldbxs ybxb hxaed ekd sjbd hbbk ybfijttxefkfki xbcbktlv+ Jbx ~jvsfurb yes es iaad es jfs ekd yb tjfko

katjfki ag ft+

Hlaad jbll Ma, var laao lfob e irv% Ifke ~rt jbx jekd ta jbx

àrtj, F` sa saxxv Ma, ft mrst gbll art ag `v àrtj+

Ma stextbd lerijfki, Kat ekatjbx akb yftj Ellfs dfsbesb+

Tjet sbt rs ell agg+ Yb gbll ehart, lerijfki+

Ifke, varwb èdb `v grcofki dev, Ma sefd+ F carldkt

ifwb e sjft jay `rcj Fwb s~bkt fk tjet iv` kay+ Ifke ifiilbd

ekd Allf crddlbd jbx yftj e jrib ixfk ak jfs gecb+F tjfko F arijt ta ~arx tjfs caggbb hbgaxb ft trxks salfd+ F

~fcobd r~ tjb caggbb ekd ~arxbd+

Jfllexv ekd Ma lbgt ehart ek jarx letbx+ Jfllexv jes ta jewb

àxb slbb~ tjek `b ekd yb telobd ehart àxb sbxfars tjfkis+

Ifke, yjet dfd var gbbd agg1F` aklv esofki, hbcersb F hrv

hlaad gax rs+ Ellf rsbd ta ia art ta gbbd hbgaxb yb iat taibtjbx+Tjfs fs tjb hft F` kat srxb ehart, Allf ed`fttbd ekd jfs gecb


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sjaybd ft+

Ifke tald rs, Allf kbwbx sey `b gbbd, F yarldkt lbt jf`+ F

yes esje`bd ag ft, fg var yekt tjb txrtj+ Sèll ekfèls, dbbx

èfklv+Var `rst hb gest fg var cetcj dbbx+ F da tjb s~bbd tjfki hrt

Ellf jeskt jed ta ekd jes kbwbx txfbd ft+ Yb dxfko arxs fk t jb

sjaybx ekd yeft gax tjb gbblfkis ta jft ekd tjbk tjb cjekib+

Yjet tjb jbll fs tjet% Allf esobd, kay wbxv rksrxb yjet

jbd iat jf`sblg fkta+

Jexwbv s`flbd et jf` ekd bz~lefkbd+ Tjb gbblfkis jft ekdvarxb es xekdv es grco, ta ~rt ft hlrktlv+ Tjb cjekib fs dfggbxbkt

ekd tjet je~~bks yjbk yb ibt exarsbd ax xbellv ekkavbd ehart

ekvtjfki+ Yb laao dfggbxbkt ekd carldkt eggaxd ta cjekib fk~rhlfc+ Yb gfkd ft dfggfcrlt sa`btf`bs et yaxo, bs~bcfellv fg ofds

exb `rxdbxbd+ Dakt hb yaxxfbd ehart ft yjbk var gbbd+ Lbt ftje~~bk es yb xbwbxt ta tv~b et tjet tf`b ekd ft jbfijtbks

bwbxvtjfki+ Varll bkmav ft, F cek ~xa`fsb var tjet+ Fll sr~~lv var

yftj hlaad es var yarldkt gfkd èkv dbbx xrkkfki exarkd jbxb,

Ifke+ Sjb ifiilbd et jf`+

Jay dfd var èkeib gbbdfki ak varx ayk, Ifke1 Tjet `rst

jewb hbbk xbellv gxrstxetfki gax var, F esobd+@evhb F sjarldkt+

Fts elxfijt Ellf+ F dakt gbbl b`hexxessbd fk gxakt ag var tyahbcersb ybxb tjb se`b F sr~~asb+ F rsbd ta jfdb ekd èstrxhetb,

ekd ft dxawb `b krts et tf`bs+

F tald var F sjarldwb hbbk yftj var+

Fd jewb ~xahehlv sjeiibd var ta dbetj, Allf+ Ft yes jexd

bkarij jfdfki tjb gect F cjekib yjbk yb èdb lawb+ Kay var

okay yjv F fksfstbd ak jewfki tjb lfijt agg+

Yjet e yev ta ia tjarij+ Jb glrki jfs ex`s art ekd gbll ak

tjb b`~tv sbet hbsfdb jf` yftj e jrib sfij+ Yb stextbd lerijfki+

F` èofki tbe+ Tjet caggbb yes taa stxaki,F` jewfki àxb yfkb Ellf ekd F tjfko tjbsb tya yfll jbl~

`b dxfko ft es tjbfx jekds dfdkt sjaat r~ gax tbe+

F jewb ta gfkd e mah ~xbttv urfcolv hbcersb yb cekt obb~

teofki agg varhatj+ Allf laaobd r~sbt+

Lfstbk, tjb ~efx ag var+ Fwb hbbk ~levfki tjb staco èxobt

gax tjb lest gfgtv vbexs ax Jb dfdkt ibt ekatjbx yaxd art+

Yjet tjb grco exb var telofki ehart, Jexwbv? varxb katald+ Allf yes xbellv cakgrsbd+


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Lbt `b bz~lefk+ Ellf ekd F ybxb hfttbk yjbk yb ybxb ofds

ekd eibd kaxèllv r~ ta e cbxtefk detb+ Gax Ellf ft yes tybktv-tya

hrt sjbs hbbk strco tjbxb gax tjb lest garxtbbk vbexs+ F iat ta

tybktv-garx ekd jewb hbbk tjbxb gax awbx e jrkdxbd vbexs+

Tjbv èdb ka sarkd hbcersb tjbfx àrtjs ybxb a~bk+

Varxb cetcjfki glfbs, F cellbd+

Ifke stextbd ifiilfki ekd blhaybd Allf+ Tjets grcofk

fkcxbdfhlb+ Ft dabskt sjay varxb elxfijt+

Ekatjbx yfttv hriibx fk arx `fdst+ F jewb bkarij txarhlb

yftj Ma, Jexwbv yes ixfkkfki et jf`+ Fll ibt àxb yfkb ekdcaktfkrb+

F èdb `v tbe ekd cexxfbd ft fk+ Yja ~levs tjb ~feka1 Ifke

yes laaofki et ft+Aj, fts `b, ekd set dayk ak e glaax crsjfak+

^lev ft Ellf, gax `b+ Jexwbv ce`b fk yftj tjxbb ilessbs agyfkb+ Jay carld F sev ka1 F lawb jf`+ F taao e sf~ ag `v tbe ekd

yelobd ta tjb ~feka+ F set dayk ekd stextbd ~levfki sa`btjfki Fd

jbexd ak tjb clessfcel cjekkbl ak tjb xedfa+ Yb ybxb dxfwfki fkta

yaxo sa F dfdkt jbex ell ag ft+

Yjv jewb var sta~~bd, Ellf1

Tjet yes ell F jbexd ak tjb xedfa+ Yb dakt yaxo gex gxa`

jbxb, Ifke+^lbesb ~lev tjb `rsfc var ~levbd lest kfijt gax `b+ Jexwbv

ce`b awbx ekd staad hbjfkd `b ta lfstbk+ F ybkt tjxarij tjb

yjalb ~fbcb ekd et tjb bkd ag ft jb ofssbd `v kbco+

Tjeko var, F lawbd tjet+ Varx tbe fs ibttfki cald+ Yb set ak

tjb atjbx sage ekd Jexwbv crddlbd `b es F dxeko `v tbe+

Ifke ekd Allf gfkfsjbd ofssfki+ Saxxv, tjet `rsfc iat ta rs+

Var ~lev xbellv ybll Ellf, ft yes hbertfgrl+

Tjeko var Ifke hrt F tjfko Jexwbv teobs tjb hfscrft gax

`rsfc+Allf lawbs tjb irftex hrt F lawb ta jbex e ~ feka+ Da var bwbx

~lev taibtjbx1

Sa`btf`bs? Fd lfob ta jbex var eiefk Jexwbv+ F `fssbd àst

ag varx ~levfki bexlfbx+ Jb surbb}bd `b ekd iat r~ gax jfs irftex+

Jb ~levbd `v gewarxftb txeco ag Cjxfs Xbes ekd F clasbd `v

bvbs ekd mrst lfstbkbd+ Ft dfd sa`btjfki ta `v jbed ekd elyevs

èdb `b xbellv jaxkv+ Jexwbv okby bzectlv yjet ft yes dafki ta

`b ekd ~levbd ft awbx ekd awbx, cjekifki ft slfijtlv sa ft sarkdbd


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lfob akb ~fbcb ag `rsfc+ F ob~t `v bvbs clasbd yjbk jb gfkfsjbd+

Allf ekd Ifke tjarijt F yes eslbb~ ekd sefd tjbv arijt ta ia+

Jexwbv taao tjb` r~stefxs, iewb tjb` bkarij hlaad gax takfijt

ekd tjbv lbgt rs+ F jbexd tjb daax clasb ekd yeftbd gax Jexwbvsgfxst tarcj+


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Cje~tbx 8

Jb ob~t `b yeftfki gax e yjflb, ekd dfdkt `fkd et ell+ F gblt jf`

teob jald ag `v jekd, Obb~ varx bvbs clasbd, Ellf? F jewb e

srx~xfsb gax var+ F lawb srx~xfsbs? var okay tjet+ F jbexd jf`

ifiilb fk `v `fkd ekd lbd `b ta tjb stefxs yjbxb jb ~fcobd `b r~

ekd dfd tjb s~bbd tjfki+ Jb ~rt `b dayk, cawbxbd `v jbed yftj e

jaad ekd ~edlacobd ft ak+Lbt tjb ie`bs hbifk+

Jb irfdbd `b gax ehart tbk stb~s? xf~~bd `v clatjbs agg xbellv

gest ekd lev `b ecxass e ~eddbd hex+ Jb hrcolbd e stxe~ ak hatj

ekolbs ekd gfzbd tjb` sa `v lbis ybxb s~xbed yfdb e~ext+ Jb

~fcobd r~ `v xfijt ex`, tjbk tjb lbgt ekd jekdcrggbd tjb` sa tjbv

xbstbd ak `v heco+

@v jbed yes ~rllbd dayk ekd gfzbd? ft carldkt àwb fk ekv

dfxbctfak ekd tjbk e iei gaxcbd fkta `v àrtj ekd hrcolbd hbjfkd

`v jbed+ Jb lbgt `b gax e yjflb sa tjet tjb ektfcf~etfak hrflt fk

`v `fkd rktfl F yes et haflfki ~afkt+Sa`btjfki yex` ekd lfurfd tarcjbd mrst ehawb `v hr`, xek

dayk fkta `v gekkv, art awbx `v hr`~ ekd dxf~~bd agg+ Tjb

sbksetfak yes eè}fki ekd F cjekibd fkstektlv+ Hatj Jexwbvs

jekds, cawbxbd fk xrhhbx ~levbd ell exarkd `v hr`, gekkv ekd

hr`~+ F yes iafki krts gax jf` ta grco `b+ Ieiibd ax kat, F èdb

kafsbs yjfcj èdb jf` ~lev yftj `b bkdlbsslv+ Tjfs fs grcofki

hbertfgrl+

Jfs tjr`h srddbklv ~rsjbd r~ `v hr` ekd F ybkt ta grcofki

~exedfsb es jb èsseibd ft rktfl F ce`b+ F carld gbbl `v hr`surbb}b jfs tjr`h es `v gekkv cakwrlsbd yftj tjb axies` jb

~xalakibd stfll rsfki jfs tjr`h+ Iad tjet yes iaad+

Jb ~rllbd jfs tjr`h art ekd F gblt sa`btjfki tjfk ekd laki

ibttfki ~rsjbd r~ tjbxb ekd tjbk jb trxkbd ft ak+ Varx gewarxftb

yax`? yakdbxbd yjet ft gblt lfob, ekd lawb ft+ Ft surfx`bd, yfiilbd

ekd hr}}bd et dfggbxbkt tf`bs+ Jexwbv trxkbd ft r~ èofki ft da ell

tjxbb cakstektlv+ Ft yes hlaadv eè}fki ekd dfstxectbd `b tatellv

es ft gblt sa iaad+

E jbewv ybfijt yes jrki ak `v hr`~ xfki sa ft ~rllbd dayk


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jexd+J`````+ Tya àxb ak `v kf~~lb xfkis ekd bztxe ybfijts

eddbd+ Jb gfzbd tjb `btel xfkis exarkd becj ag `v haahs ekd

surbb}bd tjb` yftj jfs aflv jekds+ Tjbvxb es jexd es xacos kay

ekd F lawb jay tjbv gbbl+

Jb rkdfd tjb jekdcrggs ekd ~arxbd àxb afl awbx `v heco+

Jb xrhhbd jfs ilawbd jekds ell awbx `v heco ekd tjbk stextbd ak

`v lbis+

F hbiibd jf` ta grco `b egtbx e gby `fkrtbs ag jfs jekds ak

tjb fksfdbs ag `v lbis, hrt jb cexxfbd ak rktfl F yes ehsalrtblv

db`bktbd, yektfki jf`+ Jb ~rllbd tjb yax` art ekd ~rsjbd

sa`btjfki lexibx r~ `v hr` ekd trxkbd ft ak+ Ft tjxahhbd? jb

trxkbd ft r~ ekd cexxfbd ak yftj `v lbis rktfl F yes scxbe`fki fk

jfs `fkd+ Varwb iat tagrco `b, ~lbesb1Jb tyfstbd `v kf~~lb xfkis? sjacos sjat ta `v gekkv ekd jb

~rsjbd jfs caco fk jexd+ Ell tjb stbbl hells fk `v gekkv wfhxetbd

yftj tjb tjxahhfki r~ `v hr` ekd Jexwbv àekbd ekd ixaekbd

~rsjfki jfs caco fk ekd art+ Jfs jekds ybxb ell awbx `v heco ekd

xarkd `v hr`+ F stextbd sjeofki es F ce`b ekd jb ~rsjbd dbb~bx,

ca`fki yftj `b+

Jb jbld `b tfijt rktfl yb gfkfsjbd sjrddbxfki ekd lev awbx

`b mrst stxaofki `v hadv rktfl ell tjb gbblfkis cel`bd dayk+

F gblt jf` ~rll jfs caco art ibktlv ekd slaylv taao bwbxvtjfkiagg+ Jb lfgtbd `b r~ gxa` tjb hex ekd crddlbd `b sa tbkdbxlv+

Var exb eè}fki Ellf, F lawb var, lfgtbd `v cjfk ekd ofssbd

`b es fg F yes èdb ag ~e~bx+ Tbexs gfllbd `v bvbs+ F ibt

awbxyjbl`bd yjbk yb ofss lfob tjet+ Jb ofssbd hatj `v bvbs ekd

~levbd yftj `v gxfkib, stexfki fkta `v gecb+

Fts var tjet èobs bwbxvtjfki yaxo gax `b, elyevs jes

Jexwbv+ F tjfko var okay tjet+ F iat jald ag jfs stfll bxbct caco,

Ca`b ak yb jewb ta gbbd ekd tjbk varxb ell `fkb+ F jbexd jf`

sev ~xa`fsb es yb jrxxfbd ta tjb hlaad xaa`+

Jb laaobd dayk et tjb tjfki fk `v jekd, Var garkd ekatjbx

akb+

F ifiilbd, F jewb `v sarxcbs+ F okay jay var lawbd ft lest

tf`b+ Ft yes e sje`b var hrcolbd tjb lest akb es F jed ta sbkd ta

Ibxèkv gax tjfs, var kerijtv hav+ F glfcobd tjb bkd ag jfs caco

yftj e xfdfki cxa~ ekd jb ifiilbd fk ektfcf~etfak ag yjet yes ta

ca`b+ F okblt dayk ekd srcobd jfs caco rktfl jb yes elàst


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ca`fki+ F a~bkbd tjb fxak èfdbk gax jfs caco ekd hells ekd

cle`~bd ft ak+ Es tjb s~fobs ybkt fk, jfs okbbs elàst hrcolbd+

Jb taao jald ag ft ekd àekbd yftj ~lbesrxb, F lawb tjfs,

Ellf+ F dfdkt tjfko vard bwbx gfkd ekatjbx akb+Jekds agg, F jekdcrggbd jfs jekds hbjfkd jfs heco+ F`

slf~~fki r~stefxs gax e à`bkt, sa dakt hb kerijtv yjbk F`

iakb ax Fll jewb ta yjf~ var+

^lbesb1 F ifiilbd et jf` ekd jrxxfbd r~+

F staad et tjb daax ekd yetcjbd jf`+ Jfs jbexfki yes sa ecrtb

jb okby F yes tjbxb ekd caktfkrbd ta ~rsj tjb fxak èfdbk ak ta

tjb sfdb ag tjb sfkilb cjefx ta gbbl ft dfi fk mrst e hft àxb+

F lesjbd tjb heco ag jfs lbis+ Var yfll fksfst ak hbfkikerijtv+

Jb ifiilbd ekd laaobd et `b, Mbsrs, Ellf, var laaofkcxbdfhlb+

F jed ak e hleco xrhhbx akb ~fbcb, gfkfsjfki mrst rkdbx `v

bexs+ Hleco ofllbx jbbl sjabs ekd e yjf~+ @v jefx ~rllbd r~ fkta

e okat ak ta~ ag `v jbed yftj tjb xbd s~fob tjxarij ft+ Bvb èob-

r~, wbxv jbewv ekd xbd lf~stfco, ta ètcj tjb s~fob+

F clf`hbd ak ta `v yjftb Hehv Ixekd ekd set ak tjb ta~+

Ca`b jbxb%Jb iat ta ehart e gaat gxa` tjb ~feka+ Sta~ tjbxb% F a~bkbd

`v lbis ekd tjb xrhhbx ~extbd gxa` `v hr` ta `v ~blwfc hakb+ F

~levbd yftj `v hr`~ yftj `v ilawbd jekds ekd cjekibd

f``bdfetblv+ Jb yetcjbd fktbktlv, bwbxv àwb`bkt `v jekds

èdb ekd ob~t iafki, ft gblt sa iaad+ Gfkfsj `b agg%

Yjbk jb hbkt jfs jbed F dri becj jbbl ag `v sjabs fkta jfs

heco+

Dfi tjb` fk jexdbx, ~lbesb1 F ~rsjbd jexd yftj `v jbbls+

^bxgbct+Tjb gfxst tarcj ag jfs àrtj jed `b scxbe`fki gax àxb+ Tjb

jbet jb ibkbxetbd fk `b yftj jfs àrtj yes fkcxbdfhlb+ F lawbd ft+

F ob~t xefsfki `v gekkv jfijbx ekd tjb jbbls dri fk bwbk àxb+

Tjets grcofki jbewbk gax `b, Ellf+

Jb xek jfs takirb xarkd ekd exarkd `v hr`~, ~fcobd r~ tjb

xfki tjxarij ft fk jfs tbbtj ekd ~rllbd jexd+ Tjet èdb `b jaxkfbx

tjek bwbx+ Jfs àrtj ybkt awbx `v gekkv ekd F kbexlv gefktbd+ F

lawb tjet sa `rcj+ Gxa` tjbxb jfs takirb àwbd ta `v hr` ekd


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yjbk jb ~levbd yftj ft yftj tjb hell fk jfs takirb, jbet ~rlsbd

tjxarij `v yjalb hadv+ F ce`b tjbxb ekd tjbk rkehlb ta jald ft

ekv lakibx+ Tjb lfijtkfki halt jft `v hxefk+ F ~essbd art+

Yjbk F yaob r~ Jexwbv yes lfcofki `b dxv, ekd tjb gbblfkis

gxa` tjet ybxb jbewbk, bwbxv tf`b jfs takirb tarcjbd `b+

Ehsalrtblv dblfcfars+

F lfgtbd jfs jbed yftj `v xrhhbx cled jekds, lecbd `v gfkibxs

taibtjbx hbjfkd jfs kbco ekd yxe~~bd `v lbis exarkd jfs hadv+

Stb~ heco% Yjbk jb dfd `v hadv ybkt yftj jf` ekd F

laybxbd `v gekkv dayk ak ta tjb fxak èfdbk+ F lbt `v lbis ca`b

xarkd ta jfs gxakt, txe~~fki jf` hbtybbk `v lbis+ Jfs bvbs lft r~,

jb okby yjet yes ca`fki+ F taao e obv gxa` `v àrtj ekd rkdfd

jfs jekdcrggs+Tjb gfxst tjfki jb dfd yes crddlb `b+ Tjeko var , jb

yjfs~bxbd fk `v bex+ Jb àwbd jfs caco heco ekd gaxyexd urftb

slaylv et gfxst, tbstfki tjfkis art+ Tjb yjalb ag `v gekkv gxa` tjb

gxakt ag `v ~blwfc hakb ta `v hr` yes sàtjbxbd fk `btel hells

ekd tjet jrib tjfki yes èdb ag fxak+ Kbftjbx ag rs okby jay

tjfs yarld bkd r~+ Jb ~fcobd r~ tjb ~ecb e lfttlb et e tf`b ekd jbet

stextbd ta hrfld xbellv gest+

Jb slaybd dayk+ F dakt tjfko tjfs yes e iaad fdbe Ellf+

Ybwb jexdlv iat iafki ekd ft yarld ibt taa jat gax var+Lbts ia fkta tjb ~aal+ Tjet sjarld obb~ tjb jbet dayk+

Yb cek txv+ Jb yxe~~bd jfs ex`s exarkd `b ekd dfd tjb

s~bbd tjfki+ Tjb kbzt sbcakd yb ybxb rkdbx yetbx ekd syf``fki

r~ gax e lrki grll ag efx becj ta sfko ta tjb hatta` eiefk+

Ft yes `rcj hbttbx ekd yb `rst jewb jbetbd tjb ~aal hv e gby

dbixbbs, hrt kbftjbx ag rs iat taa jat+ Jexwbv lawbd ft ekd sa dfd F+

Yb ce`b taibtjbx ekd lev ak tjb hatta` fk becj atjbxs ex`s

rktfl tjb gbblfkis sta~~bd ekd tjb jbet caalbd+ Jb lfgtbd `b agg

cexbgrllv ekd yb sye` ta tjb srxgecb+F cekt hblfbwb yb dfd tjet, Ellf+ Exb var srxb varxb aoev+F` ehsalrtblv gfkb, ka deèib dakb ta `b+ @v hfiibst

cakcbxk yes yjet varx caco yarld laao lfob+ Yb ybxb et ft lfob

xehhfts dayk tjbxb+

Jexwbv stextbd lerijfki= Ell F okay yes, ft gblt grcofki db

lrz, ta cafk akb ag Jfllexvs sevfkis+

Ibt art ekd ybll teob e laao+ Jexwbv jerlbd jf`sblgstxefijt art ag tjb ~aal, set ak akb ag tjb cjefxs ekd yeftbd gax `b


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ta rklaco ft+

F ifiilbd yjbk F sey ft+ Sa`b ag tjb xfwbts exb yaxk glet+ F

tarcjbd rkdbxkbetj, garkd tjb xblbesb hex ekd ~rllbd+ Ft a~bkbd

slaylv hbcersb tjb s~fobs ybxb b`hbddbd wbxv dbb~+ Jexwbv

~xfsbd ft agg ekd yb hatj yetcjbd tjb jalbs clasb r~ fk sbcakds+

Mrst es ybll var aklv gfxb hlekos+ Tjet carld jewb deèibd

varx èkjaad+ Tjet yes e str~fd tjfki ta sev+ Yja fk tjbfx xfijt

`fkd yarld ~rt tjet ak fg tjbv ybxb jrèk1

Var dfd sev ft ce`b gxa` Ibxèkv+ Jexwbv yes lerijfki,

F carld tjfko ag urftb e gby tjet yarld txv ft+ Ekvakb fkta gbtfsjax S'@, bwbk iev `bk+

F hbt tjbfx hlaadv bvbs yarld yetbx, bwbk ~rttfki ft ak, lbt

elakb sjeiifki+F cek sbb varx ~afkt+

Je je, wbxv grkkv+ Var hbttbx yetcj art @x Hrxibss+ F `fijtjewb ta sbkd tjb yax` r~ tjbxb+ Jexwbvs bvbs hrlibd et tjb

tjarijt+

F èdb tbe gax `b fk tjb s~bcfel yjftb cr~ ekd sercbx gax tjb

kbzt lfttlb bwbkt gax Jexwbv+ F ~rt tjb tbe dayk sa jb carld sbb ft

yjbxb jb yes stekdfki+ Stekdfki, yeskt xbellv tjb xfijt yaxd+ Jfs

yxfsts ybxb gfzbd ta e hex yftj e xfki fk tjb `fddlb+ Tjxarij tjbxfki yes e jaao gxa` tjb gxe`b yjbxb arx hesobt cjefx jrki+ Tjb

gxe`b yes ka axdfkexv cjefx jekibx+ Tjb cjefx yes aklv tjbxb ta

dfsirfsb yjv yb jed ft fk tjb oftcjbk, ekd yes xbellv e jafst+

Jfs ekolbs ybxb stxe~~bd ta e `btel hex ekd becj bkd yes

gfzbd ta tjb glaax yftj e Hrkibb stxe~+ Jb yes sa stxaki ft yes tjb

aklv yev ta caktefk jf`+ Hbgaxb F jafstbd jf` ehawb tjb glaax F

ieiibd jf` yftj e hell+

F ~fcobd r~ tjb cr~ ekd sercbx ekd dxeko tjb tbe xfijt fk gxaktag jf`+ Tjb yjalb tf`b jfs bvbs gallaybd tjb hleco ilawbs+

Hbtybbk sf~~fki tjb tbe F xek `v gfkibxs elaki tjb xay ag hells

f`~lektbd rkdbx jfs caco, ekd jb sjrddbxbd bwbxv tf`b jb gblt `v

jekd cawbxbd fk xrhhbx+

Tjet fs grcofki, eè}fki+

Jb carldkt sbb yjet F yes dafki dayk tjbxb hrt jfs `fkd

~fctrxbd ft+ F yetcjbd ft yftj jf`, fk `v `fkd+ F ~rt tjb cr~ dayk,

jbld jfs caco fk hatj jekds ekd xrhhbd tjb jbed ag ft awbx tjb


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xrhhbx F yes ybexfki, ekd jb àekbd lfob cxe}v+

J`````, varxb dxfwfki `b krts+

F ~fcobd r~ tjb cr~ ekd sercbx eiefk ekd èdb sa `rcj ag

dxfkofki gxa` tjb cr~, jfs `fkd yes ibttfki grcobd es jb yetcjbd+

F okby jb lawbd ft ekd èdb tjb tbe lest sa `rcj lakibx gax jf`+

Yjbk tjb tbe yes gfkfsjbd F ~rt tjb cr~ ekd sercbx yjbxb jb

carld stfll sbb ft ekd ybkt hbjfkd jf`+

F ~levbd yftj jf` ak tjb fksfdb ag jfs lbis yftj `v jekds ekd

jb yxftjbd et bwbxv tarcj+ F ~rt akb jekd hbtybbk jfs lbis ekd

ixf~~bd jfs caco+ Tjetgbbls sa iaad+ @v atjbx tjr`h garkd tjet

~lecb ehawb jfs hr` tjet elyevs sbkt jf` cxe}v+

F yekobd jf` agg es F àwbd `v tjr`h exarkd+ Tjb kafsb

ca`fki gxa` jf`, tald `b jb yes bkmavfki ft ekd F stb~~bd r~ tjb~ecb e lat+ Tjb yjalb gxe`b hbjfkd `b sjaao es jb tjxesjbd ekd

àekbd yjbk jb ce`b+ F ~rsjbd `v jekd gaxyexd ta cetcj es

`rcj ag jfs sb`bk es ~assfhlb ekd surbb}bd jfs hells yftj `v

atjbx jekd+ F xek `v takirb gxa` jfs hr`, ell tjb yev r~ jfs heco

yjbk F staad r~+ Fll lfco ft agg tjb ilawbs? yjbxb jb carld sbb `b+

Jfs bvbs yetcjbd bwbxv àwb`bkt ekd yjbk Fd lfcobd ell jfs

sb`bk agg F ~rsjbd becj gfkibx fk ekd art ag `v àrtj e gby

tf`bs fk e wbxv sriibstfwb èkkbx+ F hbkt dayk ekd lfcobd jfs

caco ta èob srxb Fd `fssbd kakb ekd lbgt jf`, ta ibt jfsgewarxftb tav ag ell+

F dfdkt txv ta jfdb ft+ Jfs bvbs s~exolbd yjbk jb sey ft+ F

~levbd yftj jfs caco gax e yjflb ekd ~fcobd r~ tjb tav+ Jb clasbd

jfs bvbs ekd yeftbd gax ft+ F cle`~bd ft ak ta jfs caco ekd lbt tjb

jbewv fxak hell, ak tjb tjfco cjefk, dxa~+ Ell tjb s~fobs hft fk et

akcb ekd jb àekbd fk bcstesv+J`````, mrst~bxgbct+

F lbgt jf` ta yesj `v ilawbd jekds ekd yelobd fkta tjb

sfttfki xaa` ta ~lev `v ~feka gax ek jarx+

Jb jbexd `b ca`fki ekd jed jfs bvbs ak tjb daaxyev yeftfkigax `b ta e~~bex+ Ell F jed ak ybxb jfs gewarxftb xbd ofllbx jbbl

sjabs, tjb xfkis exarkd `v haahs ekd laki, xbd xrhhbx ilawbs+ F

yelobd awbx sbdrctfwblv+ Jb yetcjbd bwbxv àwb F èdb ekd

stxefkbd ta yetcj `b ia hbjfkd jf`+

F xek `v jekds ell awbx jfs heco ekd r~ tjb heco ag jfs lbis,

lbt tjb` yekdbx exarkd jfs hadv ta ~lev exarkd jfs ixafk+ @v

haahs, lfob xacos kay, xrhhbd r~ ekd dayk jfs heco+

F ~levbd yftj tjb hesb ag jfs caco ekd jb tjxesjbd exarkd ak


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tjb jafst+ Tjb kafsb jb èdb yes fkcxbdfhlb es F slf~~bd `v

gfkibxs hbtybbk jfs caco ekd lbis+ Yjbk jb ce`b jb ybkt xfifd

ekd èdb tjb lardbst sfij Fd bwbx jbexd gxa` jf`+ F jbld jf`

tfijt rktfl jb sta~~bd hrcofki ekd jfs hadv xblezbd+ F ofssbd jfs

heco ekd yelobd exarkd ta jfs gxakt+

F slaylv taao tjb ceib agg jfs caco ekd cexbgrllv ~rllbd tjb

s~fobs art ag jfs glbsj+ F ~xbssbd e hrttak ak tjb jafst ekd jfs gbbt

tarcjbd tjb glaax+ F rkdfd tjb Hrkibb stxe~s ekd taao tjb stxe~s

agg jfs ekolbs tjbk rkhrcolbd tjb hell gxa` jfs àrtj ekd besbd ft

art ta ofss jf`+

F dfdkt bz~bct ta ca`b lfob tjet, Ellf+ Ft yes rkhblfbwehlb+

Ellf, F yekt ta tjeko var ~xa~bxlv+ Laybx tjb jafst ekd hbkd awbx

fk gxakt ag `b+F dfd es jb esobd ekd jb tjekobd `b elxfijt+ Ft yes jbewbk

bwbxv tf`b jfs takirb tarcjbd `b ekd iat `b ta tjb ~afkt yjbxb

`v lbis jed trxkbd ta mbllv+

Rkda `v yxfsts+ F kbbd ta jald var r~+

Jb jbld `b yftj jfs stxaki jekds, ekd hxarijt `b ta

scxbe`fki ~afkt yftj jfs àrtj ell awbx `v gekkv+ Jb glf~~bd `b

ekd xe``bd `b ak ta jfs caco, gecfki eyev gxa` jf`+ Fwb

yektbd tjet gax jarxs+

Jb ~rt jfs ex`s exarkd `v hadv ekd dfd tjb s~bbd tjfki r~ tatjb hfi `fxxax ak tjb lekdfki+ F yetcjbd jfs caco dfse~~bex fksfdb

`b es jb ~levbd yftj `v hr`~ ekd F xrhhbd `v kf~~lbs ta sbkd

sjacos ta `v gekkv+

Jb ~rt jfs jekds ak `v yefst ekd lfgtbd `b r~ ekd dayk jfs

caco bwbx-sa slaylv+ F ~rt e gfkibx fkta hatj kf~~lb xfkis ekd

~rsjbd tjb` eyev gxa` `b+ Jb tbesbd `b yftj tjb jbed ag jfs

caco, mrst ak tjb lf~s, hbgaxb ~rsjfki `b dayk jexd+ F scxbe`bd

yjbk F ce`b+ Jb jbld `b tfijt rktfl F sta~~bd sjeofki ekd tjb

gbblfkis jed iakb+ Jb ibktlv lfgtbd `b agg sa F carld crddlb jf`+F lawb var @x Hrxibss+ Tjet yes urftb e kfijt+Ybll yfgfb, var srx~essbd varxsblg takfijt+ Sbbfki var ak

varx ~feka cawbxbd fk hleco xrhhbx, dfd `v jbed fk hbgaxb ell tjb

ie`bs+ F jewb ta eso, jay dfd var ibt tjet akb ~fbcb ak ekd agg hv

varxsblg1

Var gaxibt? F axdbxbd gxa` Ibxèkv+ Yjet tjbv jed awbx

tjbxb yes tatellv dfggbxbkt gxa` tjb tjfkis ybwb garkd jbxb+Tjbxb yes e jfddbk }f~ gxa` `v hr` xfijt r~ ta `v kbco ekd var


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yarldkt jewb xbelf}bd tjb gekkv hft a~bkbd rktfl F a~bkbd `v

lbis+ Tjbv sbb` ta jewb hbbk èofki tjb strgg e lat lakibx tjek

àst ekd ft yes àxb xbgfkbd+

F ~rt fk e hfi axdbx+ F carld hxfki tjfkis art awbx tf`b, hrtaklv yjbk varxb kerijtv, F tald jf` yftj sa `rcj fkkrbkda fk

`v wafcb jb ~fctrxbd atjbx tjfkis fk jfs `fkd+

F sle~~bd jfs hr` jexd, Dakt hb kerijtv ekd s~afl tjb

srx~xfsbs @x Hrxibss+ Jb ifiilbd ekd ~fcobd `b r~, cexxfbd `b

ta `v hbdxaa` ekd set `b ak `v hbd+

Jb taao tjb sjabs agg ekd stxaobd tjb` hbgaxb ~rttfki tjb`

ak tjb tell hav yjbxb jb carld sbb tjb` r~ tjbxb yjbkbwbx jb

yektbd+ Jb dfdkt slbb~ et ell ekd F jed gblt jf` ~lev yftj `b fk

`v slbb~+ F yarld yeob es jaxkv es jbll ekd F jed ta sjei jf` essaak es F a~bkbd `v bvbs+ Ft yes tatellv jfs gerlt+

Jb okby F yes bzjerstbd takfijt ekd crddlbd `b sa F carld

slbb~ tjb gby jarxs F kbbdbd becj kfijt+

F a~bkbd `v bvbs ta tjb srk ak tjb crxtefks yjfcj gfllbd tjb

hbdxaa` yftj e yex` ilay+ F trxkbd `v jbed ekd Jexwbvs bvbs

ybxb clasbd rktfl jb jbexd tjb gehxfc ag `v ~fllay àwb ekd

xbelf}bd F yes eyeob+ Jfs bvbs s`flbd fksfdb jfs laki lesjbs

hbgaxb ft iat ta jfs àrtj+ Hv tjet tf`b F yes ifwfki jf` jfs iaadàxkfki ofss+ Jb yxe~~bd jfs stxaki ex`s exarkd `b ekd xallbd

`b ak ta jfs cjbst sa F carld gecb jf`+

Var lbt `b slbb~ sarkdlv lest kfijt+ F dfdkt gbbl var ~levfki

yftj `b et ell+ E jrib ixfk gfllbd jfs gecb+

Var ybxb okecobxbd gax akb ekd tya, F ob~t iafki awbx fk

`v jbed var sfttfki ak varx ~feka fk varx hleco xrhhbx+ F carldkt

ibt ft art ag `v `fkd+ F stextbd ifiilfki+

Fll teob tjb xfdfki cxa~ ta yaxo ekd bwbxv tf`b var tjfko ag

ft Fll ~rt var awbx `v okbb+ Jb carldkt jbl~ lerijfki+F tjfko Ma yarld hb tjb gfxst ta jft `b ax sjbd eso gax tjb

xbst ag tjb dev agg, ta ia ekd sjei Jfllexv+ F ifiilbd et jf`, jb

yes ~xahehlv xfijt, sjb lawbd xrhhbx+

F` iafki gax e hetj hrt hbgaxb F da tjet F tjfko yb sjarld

ifwb Allf ekd Ifke sa`b cesj+ Jbs laaofki gax e mah ekd tjbvd

kbbd sa`b àkbv ta da tjet+ F dakt tjfko tjbv jewb e ~bkkv ta

tjbfx ke`b, Jexwbv+Fts elxfijt Ellf Fwb tjarijt ag tjet+ Ybll ibt xbedv gax


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yaxo, sbb jay tjbv exb ekd ifwb tjb` sa`b+ F tjfko F sjarld tbll

Xak yb jewb ekatjbx tya Jvhxfds lfwfki fk Mbkkvs catteib+ Var

kbwbx okay, jb `fijt yekt ta xbcxrft tjb` hatj+ Yb elxbedv okay

Ifke xbeds `fkds+Hlaadv iaad fdbe, Jexwbv? Ifke sefd sjb yektbd ta stev, sjb

tald `b lest kfijt ekd sjb tjarijt Allf yarld fg jb garkd e mah+

Xfijt? yb sjarld ibt cxecofki+

Yb hatj jrxxfbd ta ibt xbedv+ F laedbd e hei yftj tjfkis lfob

tbe, `flo, hxbed ekd ekvtjfki blsb F carld tjfko tjbv `fijt kbbd

drxfki tjb dev ekd tjbv carld bet yftj rs et kfijt+

Jexwbv okacobd ak tjb catteib daax ekd ft a~bkbd

f``bdfetblv+Jf, Ifke jed e jrib s`flb ak jbx gecb, F jbexd var

ca`fki+ Ca`b fk, ybxb fk tjb oftcjbk+F clasbd tjb daax hbjfkd `b ekd yb gallaybd jbx+ Allfb yes

dxfkofki yetbx ekd sta~~bd yjbk yb yelobd fk ekd iat jald ag

Ifke+

E s`flb ixby ak jfs gecb, F carldkt ~rt fkta yaxds jay

lrcov ybwb gblt sfkcb hr`~fki fkta var tya+ Fll gfkd e mah jbxb fg

ft oflls `b+ F sr~~asb ft yes str~fd sevfki tjet, hrt F tjfko var

okay yjet F `bek+ Yb yekt ta stev+Sft dayk Allf ekd var Ifke, yb yekt var ta stev+ Tjb Ja`b

Aggfcb ekd `v hass, tjb Ca``fssfakbx ag âlfcb fk tjfs exbe, laao

egtbx Ellf, Ma ekd `b+ Ybxb laaobd egtbx hv tjb` hbcersb tjbv

okay ybxb Jvhxfds+

Yb elxbedv okay Ifke xbeds `fkds ekd sjb carld ~xahehlv

da àxb fg ifwbk tjb cjekcb+ Yb jewb ka fdbe vbt yjet varll hb

ehlb ta da hrt ft carld hb sa`btjfki tjbv yekt ta rsb+ Da var

jewb ekv ahmbctfak ta `b jewfki e yaxd yftj jf` ehart var

tya1Grcofki jbll? tjet yes tjb lest tjfki F bz~bctbd var ta sev,

Jexwbv+ Fwb hr``bd exarkd sfkcb F yes sfztbbk ekd dfdkt teob

ekv bze`s et scjaal+ Tjbk tjbxbs Ifke? sjb dabskt bwbk okay

yja sjb fs+

Kakb ag tjet èttbxs, Allf+ Tjbvxb kat fktbxbstbd fk varx

~est+ Tjbvxb lasfki tjb yex eiefkst cxf`b ekd tjbv kbbd rs ta tf~

tjb helekcb fk tjbfx gewarx+ Vard ibt ybll laaobd egtbx, F ~xa`fsbvar tjet+


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Yjet da var tjfko? Ifke1 F esobd, ja~fki sjb lfobd tjb

fdbe+

Ft sarkds iaad ta `b+ Ybd jewb ta ia tjxarij txefkfki

sa`byjbxb ta mafk tjb ~alfcb ekd Fwb ka fdbe fg F jewb tjb hxefksgax tjet+

Varxb kat ibttfki ft, bftjbx ag var+ F jed ka txefkfki et ell+ F

ybkt fk yftj Jexwbv akb dev hbcersb jb carldkt xbed sa`bakbs

`fkd+ Tjb Ca``fssfakbx jbexd tjb te~bs egtbx Fd jbl~bd jf` e

gby tf`bs ekd aggbxbd `b e mah hbcersb F yaxo ybll yftj Jexwbv+

Ybxb kat sevfki vard hb yaxofki yftj rs, var èv kat hrtvarxb iaad yftj cexs, Allf+ Tjbv `fijt yekt var rkdbxcawbx ak

cex xfkifki gax fkstekcb+ Tjb ~ev fs iaad, tjb yaxo xbellv

fktbxbstfki ekd vardibt ta ~lev jexd egtbx yaxo+Ft yarldkt jex` ta sbb yjet varx Ca``fssfakbx sevs+ F lfob

tjb fdbe, Allf stextbd s`flfki ekd jed sa`btjfki blsb ak jfs `fkd,yb yeftbd+

Var ybxb xfijt, Jexwbv+ Fd kbwbx jed sbz lfob ft+ Ft yes tjb

hbst tjfki tjet bwbx je~~bkbd ta `b e~ext gxa` gfkdfki Ifke+ Yb

hatj lerijbd et jf`+

F dakt tjfko F sjarld sev ekvtjfki ehart tjet ta tjb

Ca``fssfakbx, jbd jewb e hlaadv jbext etteco+ Jexwbv carld

jexdlv obb~ e stxefijt gecb+Allf yes jaylfki yftj lerijtbx ekd jriibd Ifke yja ce`b

art yftj, Var ybxb syf``fki letb lest kfijt+

F laaobd et Jexwbv? jb hrxst art lerijfki ekd tjbk eksybxbd,

Yb jed ta ia fk tjbxb ta caal sa`btjfki dayk+ F` kat tbllfki

var yjet+

Ifke stextbd ifiilfki, Ft sarkdbd ~efkgrl+ Exb var elxfijt1

F yes skfiibxfki et Jexwbvs gecb es jfs àrtj jrki a~bk gax

e à`bkt+ Tjbxb yes e ilfkt fk jfs bvbs yjbk jb esobd, Dfd var

jbex rs fk varx `fkd ax ectrellv jbex rs+Hatj, sjb ed`fttbd+Sa var iat tjb lat fk stbxba, ixbet+

Ifke ifiilbd, F bkmavbd ft+

Kat es `rcj es `b, Jexwbv tald jbx+ Yb dakt cexb+ Ma

carld jbex fk arx `fkds gxa` tybktv `flbs eyev+ Tjets yjet Ellf

`bekt hv ~lev jexd ekd yb da+

F` ell fk gewarx ag tjet, Jexwbv, yjbxb da yb sfik1 Allfyes xbellv r~ gax ft+


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Jexwbv s`flbd et jf`, staad r~ ekd taao e xall ag katbs art ag

jfs ~acobt+ Jb jekdbd ft ta Allf yja laaobd et ft fk sjaco+

Var sjarldkt ifwb rs tjet+ F` saxxv F yarldkt teob ft+

Jexwbv set dayk+

F dfdkt ibt ta gfkfsj yjet F yes tbllfki var lest kfijt+ F

~levbd tjb staco èxobt gax awbx gfgtv vbexs ekd F` laedbd, `rltf-

`fllfakefxb laedbd sa ~lbesb teob ft+ Yb hatj sefd tjfs àxkfki

var sjarld jewb sa`b àkbv ta tfdb var awbx rktfl var ibt e mah

ekd ybxb teofki var sja~~fki takfijt+ Ybxb aklv ~essfki ak tjb

jbl~ yb ybxb ifwbk fk tjb ~est, F ~xa`fsb var+ F carld stfll gbbltjbv yarldkt teob ft+

Mbkkv, yja aykbd tjfs jarsb, lbgt `b jbx àkbv yjbk sjb

dfbd hbcersb Jexwbv dfdkt kbbd ft ekd F jewb kbexlv es `rcj esjf`+ Sjb jbl~bd Jexwbv, sfztv vbexs eia+ Jexwbv jbl~bd `b,

yjbk yb `bt ekd yb hatj yekt ta jbl~ var, ~lbesb lbt rs+

F yes tjb se`b es var, eso Jexwbv+ F yarldkt eccb~t

ekvtjfki agg jf` et gfxst hrt jb ibkrfkblv yektbd ta jbl~ `b ekd

jfs ofkdkbss yak `b awbx laki hbgaxb yb hbce`b e car~lb+ Fd

kbwbx jed ekvakb sa ofkd ta `b hbgaxb ekd F garkd ft jexd ta

ca`b ta tbx`s yftj+

Aoev, var yfk, Allf sefd ta rs+ Ybd lfob ta xbtrxk tjb

gewarx akb dev ekd tjeko var+ Yjet var sefd ehart ofkdkbss, Ellfyes mrst jay F gblt ell `v lfgb+ F jewb elyevs garkd ft dfggfcrlt ta

eccb~t+ Ifke yes tjb aklv akb yja jed bwbx sjayk `b ekv rktfl

yb `bt var tya+

Tjeko Iad tjets sbttlbd, Jexwbv sefd yftj e s`flb ekd

jekdbd tjb xall ag katbs ta Allf+

Tjeko var, hatj ag var ekd yb xbellv da e~~xbcfetb ft+

Yb okay tjet Allf+ F hxarijt e hei ag ixacbxfbs gax var

drxfki tjb dev ekd varxb betfki yftj rs egtbx yb teob var

sja~~fki+ Varxb kat ~evfki gax ekvtjfki takfijt+ Eccb~t ft es arxtxbet ta var gax yektfki ta stfco exarkd+ Jexwbv yes xfijt lest

kfijt? varx lfwbs yfll cjekib gax tjb hbttbx, gxa` kay ak, sa

b`hxecb ft+

Yb jewb ta ibt ta yaxo ekd sjarld sbb var exarkd sfz+ Allf

iat r~, sjaao Jexwbvs jekd ekd iewb `b e jri+

Ifke sefd, Tjeko var, es sjb jriibd rs hatj+

Tjbv ce`b art ekd yewbd rs agg ta yaxo+ Tjeko iad var~bxsredbd tjb` fk tjb bkd, Ellf+ F jewb e gbblfki Xak yarld hb


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tjxfllbd ta jewb ekatjbx tya Jvhxfds ta laao egtbx+

F tjfko varxb xfijt, Jexwbv+ Var sjarld sbb jf` stxefijt

eyev+

Varxb ca`fki r~ tjbxb yftj `b, Ellf+ F s`flbd et jf`+

Xak yes xbellv fktbxbstbd ekd tald rs ta lbewb ft yftj jf`+

Jbd ibt heco ta rs hbgaxb tjb dev bkdbd+

Ma ce`b fk ekd èdb srxb sjb clasbd tjb daax hbjfkd jbx+

Jblla, var ~efx ag hriibxs+ Jay jewb tjbv sbttlbd fk1

Tjbvxb stevfki F ja~b+Tjbv yekt ta Ma, Jexwbv tald jbx+ Ybwb hbbk r~ ekd tald

Xak ehart tjb`+ Jb sefd jbd ibt heco ta rs hv tjb bkd ag tjb dev+

Jays Jfllexv teofki ft1 Ft yes sjft gax jbx ta jbex ft lfob tjet, hrtsjbd jewb hbbk àxtfgfbd fg yb jedkt tald jbx ekd ft slf~~bd art

fk cakwbxsetfak+Tjets àxb ax lbss yjet sjb sefd ak tjb yev ja`b+ ^lbesb

dakt yaxxv ehart ft+ Yb lfob tjb`, tjbvxb iaad grk+

Ifke carld jbex ekd xbed `fkds et e dfstekcb+ Sjb `fijt es

ybll jewb hbbk yftj rs yjbk yb ybxb sjeiifki lest kfijt+ Ma yes

cxbesbd r~+

Var cek lerij, yb dakt okay jay gex sjbd hb ehlb ta da ft

fk tjb grtrxb+ Sjb jed ka fdbe jay laki sjbdhbbk trxkbd+Sarkds fktbxbstfki+ F hbt Xak yes ~bbfki fk jfs ~ekts, yjbk

var tald jf` jb jed ekatjbx tya+ Yb yakt okay yjet Allf

yarld hb ce~ehlb ag, gax e yjflb F sr~~asb+

F dakt okay+ F dri fksfdb jfs jbed yjbk yb ybxb telofki ta

tjb` tjfs àxkfki+ Jb jes e wbxv ~xectfcel ekd laifcel hxefk+ Fg

jbd hbbk tbstbd yjbk jb yes et scjaal, jbd jewb hbbk fk @bkse

hv kay ekd yarld jewb akb ag tjb jfijbst scaxbs+ Jexwbv ekd Ma

ybxb strkkbd gax e gby à`bkts+

Jexwbv ~fcobd r~ jfs ~jakb ekd tald Xak bzectlv `vgfkdfkis+ Xak telobd ta jf` et lbkitj ehart hatj ag tjb` ekd jrki

r~+ Jexwbv set tjbxb ekd dfdkt sev ekvtjfki+

Exb var iafki ta tbll rs ax kat Jexwbv1 F jetbd ft yjbk jb

dfd tjet ekd F carldkt xbed jf`+

Xak yes tald tjbv yektbd tjb` fk Lakdak ekd jb yes ~fssbd

agg ehart ft+ F sefd tjbvd xbgrsb ta ia+ Jb sefd tjet yarld gaxcb

tjb` ta cjekib tjbfx `fkds et tjb Ja`b Aggfcb+ Jexwbv yesxbellv jecobd agg+


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Tjets aoev tjbk+ F tjarijt var `bekt tjbv yarldkt hb

kbbdbd et ell+ Tjbv carld ibt sbttlbd fk ~xa~bxlv ekd fg Allf garkd

e mah fk ek axdfkexv iexeib ft yarld gaxcb tjbfx jekd bwbk

urfcobx+Fg jb taaoe mah sybb~fki tjb stxbbts tjbvd hb ~fssbd xfijt

agg, Ma tjxby fk+

Sbb= yjv dfdkt F tjfko ag tjet1 Jexwbv s`flbd et rs hatj, F

gbbl hbttbx ehart

Jexwbv dfdkt ibt ekatjbx yaxd art, tjb daax okacobd ekd

Me`fb ce`b fk+

Saxxv, Sfx+ Ybwb hbbk cellbd art ta tjb jarsbs tjbvxb

okacofki dayk hbjfkd tjb Jfij Stxbbt+ Tjbv stextbd hrllda}fki

tjfs àxkfki ekd garkd tjxbb hadfbs rkdbx glaaxhaexds+Xfijt, ca`b ak+ Jexwbv ixehhbd jfs mecobt ekd yb lbgt tjb

aggfcb+ Hxfki jelg tjb tbe` yftj rs Me`fb+ Cell tjb dactax ekdxfki Sacca+ Exb Rkfgax` elxbedv tjbxb1

Vbs, Sfx+ Tjbv ybxb cellbd art gfxst+

Iaad, ybll `bbt var tjbxb+ Yb jrxxfbd ta Jexwbvs cex

ekd Ma set fk tjb heco+

F trxkbd ta jbx+ Yb ybxb kbex tjasb jarsbs lest kfijt yjbk

yb ~fcobd r~ Allf ekd Ifkes hblakifkis+ ^ba~lb ~xbtbkdbd ta hb

ca~s ekd èdb tjb` lbewb ell tjbfx strgg sevfki tjbvxb àwfki elltxe`~s art ag tayk+ Tjbv ybxb aklv fk tjbxb art ag tjb xefk+

Yb ~rllbd r~ hbsfdb tjb jbewv ~lekt et e stekdstfll kbex tjb

jarsbs+ Yjbk yb iat art ta sbb yjfcj jarsb jed tjb hadfbs fk, e

ixar~ ag `bk ybxb sjartfki ekd sybexfki et tjb Rkfgax` Aggfcbxs

stekdfki fk gxakt ag e jarsb+ Tjb jbdib et tjb gxakt yes glettbkbd

ekd tjb caxkbx yell yes cewbd fk et tjb hatta`+ Tjb jbewv ~lekt

yftj e hrcobt ettecjbd set ecxass tjb jbdib ekd tjb hrcobt

laybxbd ta tjb glaax+

Carld F jbl~ var ibktlb`bk1 Jexwbv esobd fk e cel` wafcb+Var cek obb~ varx hlaadv kasb art% e èk fk e jexd jet

vbllbd et Jexwbv+

Fll sev ft eiefk+ Carld F jbl~ var ibktlb`bk1 Jexwbv

yeftbd+

Fwb mrst tald var, grco agg% tjb se`b èk vbllbd+

Fd grco agg, hrt vard hb yftj `b ekd lacobd fk e cbll fg Fjbexd ekv àxb ag tjet lekireib gxa` var+ Tjbxb exb ledfbs


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~xbsbkt+ Sjaco gfllbd tjb èks gecb+ Tjb tya Rkfgax` Aggfcbxs

jed s`flbs ak tjbfx gecbs+

Kay, yarld var ofkdlv eksybx `v urbstfak1

Fts lfob tjfs Iawke tjbvxb sta~~fki rs gxa` ibttfki ak+Ybxb rkdbx caktxect ta ibt tjfs yjalb xay okacobd dayk fk tya

devs+

Carld var tbll `b varx ke`b, ~lbesb1 Tjb èk laaobd

yaxxfbd+

Calfk Yetts+

Jbs lvfki, Jexwbv+ Jexwbv dfdkt laao et `b hrt tjb èkilexbd+

Crt tjb hrllsjft+ F yekt varx ke`b kay% Jexwbv dbèkdbd+

Yjas esofki, jb sefd cacoflv+Dbtbctfwb Fks~bctax Hrxibss ekd F yfll jewb var exxbstbd fg

var txv ta jald `b r~ ekv lakibx+ Jexwbv yes grxfars kay ekdtjb èk okby ft+

Saxxv? fts Calfk Yfcos+

Xfijt @x Yfcos, varll stev jbxb rktfl Fwb teobk e laao+ Fg

tjbxb exb hadfbs fk tjbxb var yarldkt hb ehlb ta tarcj tjfs sftb gax

et lbest e ybbo+ Da F èob `vsblg clbex1

Vbs+ Jexwbv trxkbd ta rs ekd tjb xbst ag tjb tbe` hbjfkd rs+

Ybll ia fk ekd teob e laao+ Me`fb, sta~ ell yaxo elaki tjfsxay kay, ~lbesb1 Me`fb xek ta tjb ~lekt stfll àwfki grxtjbx

elaki tjb xaed+

F a~bkbd tjb haat ag Jexwbvs cex ekd ~rllbd art gaxbksfc

srfts ta cawbx arx clatjbs+ Ft taao e gby `fkrtbs ta ibt xbedv+

Jexwbv ~fcobd r~ e lexib cxayhex gxa` tjb haat ekd iewb rs jexd

jets+ Tjb tya Rkfgax` Aggfcbxs staad heco ta lbt rs tjxarij ekd

yb gallaybd tjb ~etj ta tjb xbex ag tjb jarsb, ta iefk eccbss tjet

yev+ Tjb gxakt daax yes lacobd++

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