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Ram Nam (the chanting of
God’s name) kept in check
the activities of the mind, es-
pecially those activities that
made it run after external ob-
jects. Afterwards, the mind
was so calm that it would not
go out even when the chant-
ing stopped.
Swami Ramdas
Unless conjugal love has a
spiritual basis it can never last. If
husbands and wives are to live in
friendship and harmony, they
must be of spiritual service to
each other…when two Souls are
ideally mated, their love becomes
spiritualized and is registered in
eternity.
Paramhansa Yogananda
We are emerging from a dreadful age of darkness, cruelty and
greed. Rare has been the soul who has striven for union with
God. Like the dawn of a new day we are witness to tremendous
souls taking incarnation and parents suited to the noble task of
bringing in such souls. Take heart—a new day has begun.
Yogacharya David Hickenbottom
Babaji’s Remembrance Day, July 25
Dedicated to the Realization of God and Service to Him in All Forms
The Cross and The
Lotus Journal
June 2013, Vol. 14 No. 2
Mother Hamilton (1977)
Dra
wn
by A
rtis
t L
aksh
mi,
An
and
ash
ram
The cross and lotus symbolizes the unity between East and West. The lotus is the sign of
illumined consciousness, the thousand petal lotus of the crown chakra. The cross is the
symbol of the body surrendered to the will of God. Following the way of the cross results in
the resurrection of illumined consciousness.
The Cross and the Lotus, symbol of man. East and West blended, join hand in hand.
Marching toward the infinite light and life divine. Lift up your eyes and see the star,
descending from heaven where e’er you are. Be filled with the peace and ecstasy of God’s almighty love.
Aum-Amen. The Reverend Yogacharya Mother Hamilton
The Cross and The Lotus Journal is published by
The Cross and The Lotus Publishing Mount Vernon, WA, U.S.A.
Website: www.crossandlotus.com
E-mail: [email protected]
© 2013 The Cross and The Lotus Publishing is dedicated to the publication of materials that
promote God-realization. Our spiritual lineage begins with Jesus Christ and Babaji and flows
down to us through Lahiri Mahasaya, Swami Sri Yukteswar, Paramhansa Yogananda and
Yogacharya Mother Hamilton.
The Reverend Yogacharya David Hickenbottom continues this lineage with the help and
support of many sincere devotees. We are dedicated to realizing God and serving devotees of
every race, color, creed and religion.
Mother Hamilton often said she was the product of two fully illumined Masters, her own
Guru, Paramhansa Yogananda, and Swami Ramdas. We therefore feature articles about
Swami Ramdas and Anandashram. We bow to the feet of Saints and realized Masters of all
religions.
The Cross and The Lotus Journal Page 35
Christian-Yoga and Paramhansa
Yogananda’s Praecepta Lessons
We currently have two monthly classes: Christian-Yoga and
Master’s Praecepta Lessons. Topics in the Christian Yoga Class
have included “God-Divine Incarnations & Gurus,” “Baptism,”
and “Purification and Temptation.” Tracing the storyline of Je-
sus we continue to go deeper to discover the blueprint for every
individual’s spiritual growth and development embedded in
these sacred texts. We also have been delving into Master’s les-
sons on such relevant topics as “The Law of Divine Healing,”
“Overcoming Temptation” and “How to Cure the Disease of
Jealousy”.
Through Ustream you may join us live online or contact Carla
([email protected]) to receive a link for an online re-
cording and the writings that go with the class. Here is the com-
ment of one devotee participating on Ustream: “I loved experi-
encing the arising love and happiness in all class members who
shared from Bellingham—it was priceless!”
Journal Editors: Larry & Cate Koler
Calendar of Events June 16 Father’s Day
20 Summer Solstice (9:59 p.m. PDT)
July 1 Canada Day
4 Independence Day
8 Ramadan (sundown)–ends sundown on August 7
22 Guru Purnima
25 Babaji’s Remembrance Day
Aug. 11 Papa’s Mahasamadhi Day (1963)
Sept. 4 Rosh Hashanah (sundown)–ends sundown on Sept. 6
22 Fall Equinox (1:38 p.m. PDT)
26 Lahiri Mahasaya’s Mahasamadhi Day (1895)
30 Lahiri Mahasaya’s Birthday (1828)
Oct. 4 Mother Krishnabai’s Birthday (1903)
12 Swami Satchidananda’s Mahasamadhi Day (2008)
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From the Master’s Kitchen One of the recipes originally published in Master’s Lessons
Baked Macaroni with Asparagus
Macaroni: 1 c. whole wheat (or gluten free)
Cheddar Cheese: 3 oz
Butter: 4 tbsp.
Mayonnaise: 1/2 c. fresh (I
use Trader Joe’s)
Flour: 3 tbsp. whole wheat (or
gluten free flour)
Bread crumbs: 3/4 c. whole
wheat buttered (omitted)
Salt: 1tsp. (omitted)
Asparagus: 2 c. cooked fresh, cut in one inch pieces (quick
stir fry in frying pan with tiny bit of oil & salt)
Milk ~2 c. (this was not on the paper work I had, so I guessed
what the amount should be)
Cook macaroni in boiling salted water until tender; drain. Melt
butter, add flour and salt; mix well.
Gradually stir in milk. Cook until thickened, stirring con-
stantly. Add cheese; stir until melted. Remove from heat; add
mayonnaise, stirring constantly. Arrange alternate layers of
drained macaroni and asparagus in greased casserole dish. Cover
with cheese sauce, then with buttered
crumbs. Bake in slow oven, 300°F,
until brown. Serves 8.
Comments from our C&L chef,
Angela Victory
This cheese sauce was amazing—
gluten free—and then mayonnaise
whisked in at the end. It was some-
thing I could eat as is but considered
other uses, like poured over any
steamed vegetable. The recipe says
this feeds 8 but I think it could only
feed 4 plus a side salad.
Ph
oto
s b
y M
ike
Vic
tory
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Dear Friends,
Mother Hamilton once said,
“When you are in business with
God, you are in business with all of
life!” And this is absolutely true, for
the Author of all of life must be in-
tensely interested in every aspect of
it.
The universal nature of God is
sometimes misinterpreted; at times
it is done so deliberately. It is true
that everything created is from God;
otherwise there would be two crea-
tors, not one. But, from a human perspective, we would not say
that everything thought up by man or creation is equally repre-
sentative of God. That is, from our experience there are things
that lift up the soul to feel closer to God, and other things that
create more separateness from the purity of the supreme Spirit.
As aspirants for realization you most definitely are influenced
by certain thoughts, emotions and outer conditions. When you
are in a sacred place, in the presence of a divinely realized per-
sonage, or you read something uplifting and purifying, you are
brought into closer attunement with your spiritual nature. And
when you encounter a sensually charged environment, sur-
rounded by crass individuals, or find yourself in a spiritually
dark place, then, unless your mind is very strong, you will be
drawn into a greater sense of separation from God.
When the mind is purified of all sense of separation from God,
the universal vision enlightens your mind; Spirit is seen through-
out creation. The delusive idea of isolation and the downward
turn of mind have no hold on you, and a pervasive experience of
peace and joy resonate not only throughout your being, but
throughout all creation; which is not seen as separate from your
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greater Self. This universal vision results in complete spiritual
freedom.
From this enlightened state Papa can rightly proclaim that the
world is God, and Mother can perfectly know that to be in busi-
ness with God is to be in business with all of life. When you have
paid the complete price of realization, total surrender to God,
then you too may live in this world without any attachments that
binds your mind to the senses.
However, before this final liberation occurs you must strive to
have a spotless mind. In speaking to Swami Satchidananda,
whose state of spiritual attainment was tremendous, he said that
he had not yet reached that perfect state of Sahaja Samadhi (what
Master called Brahma Nirvana). This highest state of Sahaja
Samadhi, he explained, meant that you do not need any effort to
stay perfectly attuned to God; he noticed in himself that, no mat-
ter how little it required, he needed to extend effort to draw the
mind away from some idea of separation and put his full atten-
tion upon God.
Swamiji’s was the highest veracity. There were many around
him who would think he had attained that complete liberation,
however he was clear—at least at that time—that he was not in
the highest state of realization. He is a tremendous example to us
all for complete honesty and integrity in our spiritual odyssey.
Attachment acts like Velcro for the mind; certain things of the
world stick to it and can be easy or hard to tear away. The easiest
way to rid yourself of attachment is to lovingly keep your mind
upon God. Meditating deeply, chanting God’s Name, feeling His
Presence, loving Him, and serving Him in all forms purifies the
mind of all separation from the One.
God’s very nature is ever-new joy, freedom, enlightened
thought and great peace. These virtues do not allow attachments.
So, in your meditation, your chanting of the divine Name, unless
you are feeling these virtues, you are not going far enough in
your sadhana (spiritual practice). You can say you are on the
spiritual path, but if you are not experiencing increasing close-
ness to God, then you are only fooling yourself.
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others. Instead of worrying about having the “right answers” or
trying to “fix” someone, I focus on staying connected to however
I’m experiencing God in the moment. This allows me to be a
conduit of God, allowing God’s light, love, joy, and peace to
flow through me. I’m connected to my intuition, which guides
me to call the right people at the right time to best serve them.
By seeing and experiencing God in them, I can help awaken
them to that experience also.
The chanting and singing are also a powerful part of the
retreat. This song best sums up the experience and is my wish for
you:
May the long time sun shine on you
All love surround you
And the pure light within you
Guide you all the way home.
Om Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram.
Tif
fan
y a
nd
Jo
nn
i
Pet
er a
nd
Ch
rist
ine
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Loon Lake Spring Retreat by Joy Putnam
I’m so grateful for the opportunity to partici-
pate in the spring retreat, because it’s so up-
lifting to be around David and the other devo-
tees on the path, while learning key distinc-
tions that guide me home to God.
The topic was “New Dimensions of Peace”,
and we focused on how to connect to that
spiritual peace within us. This is so important,
because in that peace and stillness we are connected to God and
God can reveal Himself to us.
We explored a new way of working with the fear, anxiety,
shame or doubt that pulls us out of our natural place of peace. In-
stead of trying to resist or push through the fear, we focused on
hearing the message behind the fear, aligning with the positive
intention, and painting a new picture to gain the cooperation of
that part within us.
Personally this process helped me transform my anxiety about
my spiritual practice. Now I focus on experiencing God however
He shows up, trusting that He is in charge of the process and will
lead me home.
T h i s h a s
moved me out
of my head
trying to fig-
ure it all out,
and into my
heart feeling
the peace and
joy of God in
this moment.
This trans-
formation also
benefits my
service to Peter, Ric, David, Carla, Christine, Judy, Joy
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Why do we not make progress? It is because the ego-mind has
a great sense of self-preservation and going to God makes the
ego-mind feel it will lose control, even die. So you work to pre-
serve the life you have, even if you are unhappy with your cur-
rent state.
You must make your mind become single focused. Jesus said
that you cannot serve two masters, you must choose; you must
love God more than this world or your self. This total dedication
to breaking through the shell of ignorance that keeps you in a
state of separation is what allows you to enter the much greater,
more expanded realm of the kingdom of heaven.
In this final emergence you are in the realm of pure light, an-
anda-bliss; knowing that you and your heavenly Father, divine
Mother, are ever one. Now you see the sacred splendor spread
throughout this creation; every atom of space scintillating with
the aura of love and enlightened intelligence. You experience the
world as God.
With this enlightened state of being you continue in service to
the One, which is in all creation, and you continue to explore the
vast nature of God. From this realization you may truly say that
being in business with God is being in business with all of life;
for there is nothing but one life, one religion (that religion is the
realization of God, by whatever name you may call Him), and
one Creator (which is one, without a second).
A practice we may utilize to great effect along the way to the
emergence into oneness is to practice seeing God as our all and
all in all. However, let us not confuse the practice of seeing God
in all with the total liberation that comes with actually having the
universal vision. Let us practice the utmost integrity, following
in the steps of Swami Satchidananda, and bend every effort to
enter into this great and highest state, Sahaja Samadhi.
Then, like Mother, you will spontaneously and continuously
be in the divine Presence, every part of you will resound with the
name of God and the Light of God, and you will know that you
are ever one with Him, enlightened with the universal vision.
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Letter to a Devotee Dear _________,
Receiving an angry letter from a family member like the one
_______ sent will in most cases cause a reaction of hurt, fear and
anger. The key is to discharge those feelings quickly, honestly
analyze the truth of what is said and take only what is yours, let-
ting the rest go—see it going into a flame of Light.
It is understandable that there will be emotional charges in
your family, especially considering there was no opportunity for
siblings to have a place to release those natural feelings earlier.
While you were not directly responsible for what happened, you
can understand such feelings. When you depersonalize the situa-
tion and say, “Well, if I were in their shoes I might have some of
those feelings myself,” then you can have compassion for the
charged emotional field of the family.
That said, the letter from _____ was not clean and clear. When
you are clean and clear you take responsibility for your own
emotions and you do not project your thoughts onto others. Such
projections result in inaccuracies and assumptions in what be-
come verbal “drive-by assaults.”
Having a clear mind you may have compassion for others and
it allows you to recognize what is true; not taking on another’s
venom. Clearly the ugliness and tone of the letter you received
does not belong to you and it is not the truth.
In India the supreme swan (paramhansa) is seen as a divine
symbol. In legend it is said that a swimming swan is able to
separate out milk from lake water, taking in only the sweet milk.
This ability to separate “what is mine versus what is yours” is
essential for knowing the truth. And you, being a seeker of truth,
must learn to not only separate truth from untruth, but then im-
bibe only that which belongs to you; rejecting another’s poison-
ous projection.
When you encounter pain in the family you may justly mourn.
Jesus said, “blessed are those who mourn: for they shall be com-
forted.”1 What is essential in mourning is that you give it to God,
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Yoga and Health Modified Downward-Facing Dog (Adho Mukha Svanasana)
By Briana Jones
A gentler version of down-dog for a more luxurious elongation
of the spine.
Props: a sturdy,
level surface around
knee height to press
hands against, such
as a couch, the back
of a chair set
against a wall, a
counter, or a table.
Practice: Open
your fingers wide
and press your
hands against your prop, shoulder width apart. Step your feet
back to a distance that allows you to tip forward from your hips
and release the torso through your arms, creating a nice long di-
agonal with your spine. Reach your sit bones up to the sky, and
set your feet slightly wider than the hips. Rotate the shoulders
outward, feeling the arms reaching deep into the shoulder sock-
ets. Feel the life force flowing in the arms connecting into the
heart, torso and all the way back to the hips and heels. Allow for
deep, calming breath. This should feel wonderful!
Benefits: This pose is both energizing and mood lifting as an
inversion, and restorative as a
forward bend. Releases tension
throughout the entire spinal col-
umn. Builds strength in the arms
and shoulders, and opens the
backs of the legs and hips. Re-
laxes the nervous system and
relieves anxiety and depression.
Enjoy the calm and bliss.
Namaste.
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Her autobiography is a touching account of a young woman
whose devotion to the child Jesus echoes his own words; to be-
come as little children. In her writings she stresses God’s love
and mercy. Her absolute love for God lives on in her book and
letters and inspires us to also open our hearts and feel His love
for us. She reminds us that great love, not great deeds is the es-
sence of sainthood.
If you have never read her little book I urge you to do so. [The
Story of a Soul: The Autobiography of Saint Therese of Lisieux]
This book has been translated and published all over the world.
In one of her last letters she wrote: “I’m not really going to die.
I’m just entering another life—one I can’t exactly describe here.
I’ll tell you all about it from heaven!”
The Silence of Love
Sister Genevieve tells of this incident a few days before
the death of Therese:
“I got up a number of times during the night, in spite of
her requests. On one of these visits, I found my dear sister
with her hands joined and her eyes raised to heaven:
— What are you doing? I asked her, you should be
asleep.
— I cannot, I am in pain, so I pray…
— And what do you say to Jesus?
— I don’t say anything, I just love him!” -Therese of Lisieux
To enter the contemplative life truly, you have to go
through a narrow, lonely place in your being, where you
face all your fears and selfish patterns, even when you
don’t know what these are.
- Mother Delores Hart
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all of it: your sorrows, your fear, your shame, whatever is associ-
ated with grief, give all to the Supreme Lord. In giving it to God
you will be comforted and the old emotional charge is neutral-
ized.
Another lesson comes to mind from the great Galilean Master:
He instructed his disciples that “whosoever shall not receive you,
nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city,
shake off the dust of your feet.”2 You also may shake off the dust
of someone when you offer truth and peace and it is not re-
ceived.
When you are clean and clear you will find peace and healing;
rest assured of this. When you are on the receiving end of an-
other’s hatred, it can seem like a crucifixion. Turn then to God,
tell Him everything; be humble and surrender it all at His feet.
Not everyone is willing to work out his or her anger and fear
in this life-time because they will not surrender the situation to
God. However, leave those recalcitrant ones to God’s care; shake
the dust off your feet and continue your journey to God without
hindrance.
My heart goes out to you. Be brave and stand fast in the Light,
and let the Divine Light be your sword and shield.
With all love and blessings,
1. Matthew 5:4
2. Matthew 10:14
Many picture God as an old man sitting up in heaven on
His golden throne, dispensing His laws, dispensing favors
and punishments. Now, God is not that. He is every old
man, sitting on the throne of everyone’s consciousness!
And as Christ came to teach us so beautifully, God and the
kingdom of heaven are to be found only within ourselves.
Mother Hamilton
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Hidden Power An Excerpt from a Talk Given by
The Reverend Mother, Yogacharya M. Hamilton
in Seattle on November 2, 1980
[Bible Reading: 1 Corinthians, Ch. 2, 1-16.]
Only the Tip of the Iceberg
I want to speak to you this morning about hidden power. This
title was inspired by… [a devotee]…who was telling me a story
of his own experience. He…was taking a music lesson and he
was trying to get his voice out. But he was singing just from the
surface of the power that he had within himself, and his teacher
said to him, “That is the tip of the iceberg. Why do you not go
below and open up, and bring forth this tremendous power of
God, and let it flow through you? It comes from within you.”
And he learned a great lesson.
This is true of each and every one of us. We’re dealing with
the tip of the iceberg. And when you stop to think about it, that
iceberg is very solid; it is very deep. It is hidden under the
ocean—much of it—and it stands there, sometimes a threat to
the ships. But also, it stands there so that when a change
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St. Therese of Lisieux By Lorraine Bourcier
Therese Martin was born on Janu-
ary 2nd, 1873 in Alencon, France
into a devout Catholic family. St.
Therese, the Little Flower, lived a
short life but one totally filled
with love for God. When she
made her first communion at age
11, she described it this way:
“there were no demands made, no
struggles, no sacrifices; for a long
time now Jesus and poor little
Therese looked at and understood
each other. That day, it was no
longer simply a look, it was a fu-
sion; they were no longer two,
Therese had vanished as a drop of water is lost in the immensity
of the ocean. Jesus alone remained.”
Her desire to join the Carmelites was so intense that at the age
of 14 she and her father travelled to Rome so she could petition
Pope Leo XIII to let her enter at the age of 15. She was given
permission. Her ideal was simple and direct: “I want to be a
saint.”
The rest of her short life was, on the outside as uneventful as
her early years. In 1895 in obedience to her Superior, she began
to write the story of her childhood which expanded into her auto-
biography “the Story of a Soul”. She died at the age of 24. Pope
Pius XI decreed that Therese of Lisieux was to be the equal pa-
tron with St Francis Xavier, of all the missions and the secon-
dary patron of France with St. Joan of Arc.
How did an obscure nun reach such an exalted honor so soon
after her death? Her sanctity was very ordinary: she wanted to do
the most for everybody and she wanted to do everything with
love.
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They are called the ‘slayers of the Self.’ Ye ke cha atma hano
jana—‘Those who are slayers of the Self.’ Actually, the atman
cannot be slayed. But people, for whom the most important
things in the world are those seen through their senses, who be-
lieve that there is nothing beyond their senses, are called ‘slayers
of the atman,’ ‘slayers of the Self.’
In another meaning, they are also ‘slayers of their own Self’
because they are metaphorically killing themselves, shutting out
the immortal light of the inner being and believing that they are
only physical bodies. They are successfully slaying themselves!
Such people go into worlds of enveloping darkness, layer upon
layer of darkness. So what the rishi is saying is, ‘Please wake up
and look; there is something beyond this physical body.’
The famous sage Ramana Maharshi of Tiruvannamalai defined
the whole of Vedanta in a nut-shell, in one sentence which he
used to oft repeat—deham naham koham soham. This is the es-
sence of Vedanta. If you know this, not just theoretically but ex-
perientially, you have known all the Upanishads, the entire Ve-
danta. Deham—‘this body,’ naham—‘I am not.’ Just as, when I
am wearing clothes, you can separate me from my clothes—
these are my clothes and I am different from my clothes. In the
same way, Vedanta says, the Inner-Self is the atman, and the
clothes that one wears is the physical body and that which be-
longs to me cannot be me. Therefore, I am separate and what
belongs to me is separate.
So, deham naham—if ‘I am not the body,’ koham?—then,
‘who am I?’ If somebody says, ‘I am just a bundle of flesh and
bones,’ it is fine. Let them be content with this feeling. But if
someone says, ‘Let me go deeper into this matter; I may not be
just a bundle of flesh and bones, I may be something different.
But who am I?’ Ramana Maharshi said that when one is asked
this question, koham! ‘Who am I?’ koham? Soham is the an-
swer—‘I am not different from That Supreme Being.’ ‘That Su-
preme Self is not different from that Supreme Being.’ ‘That Su-
preme Self am I’ is similar to the Upanishadic statement ‘tat
twam asi’— You are That!’
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comes—a change of weather perhaps—the iceberg will melt and
become a part of the ocean. And this is what all of us have to
think of, the power, the tremendous power of God which is
within us. And that power is expressed not by God in the sense
of His absoluteness, but by God who manifests as the Christ
within each and every one of us.
The Hidden Power
But we are born the sons of man. We are all that it describes of
here, in the human sense, with our attachments to worldly de-
sires, worldly things, worldly possessions, worldly goals. And
yet we must go beyond those things. We must go within the
sanctuary of our own souls, and discover that hidden power.
There is a whole universe inside of us, waiting to be explored.
We have the power to travel through the air. We do not concen-
trate on power to be used for such a purpose, but we have that
power within us. We have the power to go to the heart of some-
thing, to discern it, to know what is within each and every indi-
vidual, within each and every atom of space. That hidden power
manifests every moment of our lives. It manifests in the universe
outside of ourselves when it brings the sun up in the morning
and puts it to bed at night, when the stars twinkle in the sky,
when the moon is there to light the way for us in darkness. That
power is hidden in the roar of the ocean. It is hidden in every
creature that is beneath that ocean, and the whole land. And
there is a whole world underneath that ocean surface.
The waves come and they lap on the shore, and then they re-
turn again to its bosom. And we are like those waves. We come
from the ocean of God, sent by Him for a purpose, to touch the
shore of earth in order that we might become one with His Infi-
nite Love, His Infinite Consciousness, His Infinite Will and Be-
ing and Power. But we waste our time, and we cannot do this.
We must wake up and realize who and what we are! We must
wake up and use that hidden power within us.…
I Was with You in Weakness
…I am reminded in this first verse: And I, brethren, when I
came to you, came not with excellency of speech or of wisdom,
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declaring unto you the testimony of God. For I determined not to
know anything among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified.
And I was with you in weakness, and in fear and in much trem-
bling. And that is the way I started out my ministry because I
was down south with my Guru and asking him to send a minister
up to help us, (I was merely a Center Leader) because we needed
somebody to—that was far more capable than I, I felt—to per-
form marriages and to officiate over baptisms, and burials
(hopefully, we wouldn’t have any). But nevertheless, I felt we
needed a minister because we were developing a crowd of peo-
ple and we needed that service.
So all of a sudden, out of the clear blue, he said to me, “I’ll
make you a minister.” And I thought, ‘Oh, no’ and I wished that
the ground would open up before me and that I could sink six
feet under it. And I said, “But sir, you cannot do that. I haven’t
been with you like your other devotees down here. I never gradu-
ated from any school in my life. I am uneducated insofar as the
standard educations go. I cannot do that.” And he said, “Mildred,
I look in the heart and if I see that the heart is pure, then I make
that one a minister.”
Well, I have lived with me from the beginning of my sojourn
on earth, until that time, and I couldn’t look in my heart and see
it was all that pure! You know, I was human. I had done all of
the things that other human beings had done, and I was strug-
gling. But there’s one thing I had above all others, and that was a
love and a trust for God in this man, this great God-man, who
had one evening, after twenty years of my life, changed my life
completely, my whole outlook—who had taken my conscious-
ness from looking for God and the Christ outside of myself, in
the skies up above, to the place where he told me that Christ was
to be found within myself, that He was that intelligence, that
power, that will, that presence, everything that was life within
myself, that He surrounded me. And all of a sudden I was lifted
up and wrapped in the bliss of His infinite presence.
I Come not with Excellency of Speech
And that is the condition in which I started my ministry, just a
poor, uneducated fool, you might say. And in the beginning it
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who denies the Self.’ So, asurya nama te loka means ‘Those
who deny the Inner Reality, who think that this world is all that
is real, that there is nothing more than what they see around
them—they go into worlds of darkness.’
Even without going into the philosophical aspect, one can un-
derstand this. There are people who think that all that there is, is
this world. There is nothing else, there is no inner-world, there is
no atma. We had such believers in ancient India—the charvaka.
They said, ‘Any time you may die—so eat, drink and be merry
as there is nothing else.’ Atheists and agnostics are not only
found in modern times—they have existed since time immemo-
rial. Such people are in utter darkness and misery when they get
a disease or when they lose something, which they consider to be
most precious. They have no one to depend on, no place to put
their faith in, nothing to go back to, no solace, because whatever
they think is real, is finished.
Such personalities who do not have any understanding, who
do not even give a thought to the idea that there might be some-
thing other than this world, finally go to worlds of absolute dark-
ness. That is one meaning.
The other meaning is that ‘without the knowledge of the Self,
one keeps wandering in the darkness of ignorance.’
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Wisdom of the Rishis By Sri M
I have recently been reading some of Sri M’s teachings, both
his autobiography, Apprenticed to a Himalayan Master: A
Yogi’s Autobiography, and this book, Wisdom of the Rishis.
Phyllis had been to one of his talks in India where she had the
opportunity to meet him and recommended his books. (After
reading about him, I think I may have heard him give a talk at
Anandashram, but I did not meet him face to face.) Both books
have very much inspired me and reading these discourses is
really the first time I have approached the Upanishads, having
being drawn more to the Gita in the past.
Sri M’s (Mumtaz Ali) story is rather unique. He was born into
a Muslim family in south India and as a child was attracted to
Sufi and Hindu saints. At nineteen he felt an irresistible call to
the Himalayas where he was reunited with his guru, a disciple of
the peerless Babaji. He was initiated into Kriya Yoga, spent a
few years with his master in the high Himalayas and then was
sent back to live in the world, where he familiarized himself with
varied spiritual and religious traditions, adopted the life of a
married householder and when prompted by God, began his life
as a teacher. Perhaps because of his background, he is very uni-
versal in his approach. He says: “Spiritual evolution is not di-
verse from regular living. Intervals of solitude are necessary but
you cannot shut yourself totally. The world around you is your
touchstone to spiritual practice.” Cate Koler
Ishavasya Upanishad: Shloka 3
asurya nama te loka andhena tamasaurutah tams te pretabhi-
gacchanti ye ke cha atma hano janah
Asurya nama te loka andhena tamasa. This means, ‘There are
some worlds which are enveloped in darkness to which those of
demonic nature go.’ ‘Demonic’ does not mean people who look
like devils or monsters. It means demonic nature. Demonic
means ‘one who denies the performance of the Inner Self,’ ‘one
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was very, very difficult. Believe me I came not with excellency
of speech or of wisdom. Today, perhaps, I am somewhat differ-
ent than I was then because I have been through tremendous
spiritual experiences, and many, many experiences in life which
have brought me to whatever I am now. Only God knows that.
But in the beginning I tried to give sermons and I would work
over them for hours. And I did a passable job.
The first time, as I think I’ve told you before, I thought I
would just get up and talk about this Master whom I loved with
everything I had, and whom I would have followed to the ends
of the earth! There is nothing I wouldn’t have done for him, even
to give my life—which finally I did—because of my great love
for God in this man. But I talked about him, and all of a sudden I
couldn’t think of another word to say. And I’m sure that I could
have gone on for months and years, speaking about everything
that was in my heart for him. But everything stopped still, and I
was just about to say, “Well, that’s all there is, folks. There isn’t
any more,” when I got another thought and I was able to con-
tinue on.
Forget Myself and Remember Him
But gradually, as I went on in my ministry, I found that if I
would forget myself and open myself to God, and let Him speak
through me, that I didn’t even need to prepare very much. I had
to have a sermon subject, it’s true, and perhaps something to
read from a good book, or something that someone had written,
and certainly a chapter out of one of the scriptures—but I learned
to get up there and just let God speak through me.
In the beginning I prepared more. But as the years went by and
I went through the experiences, and finally the one great experi-
ence of the transformation of ‘the son of man’ within myself, to
the ‘Son of God,’ then the Christ-within-me took over. And then
it came about: But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he
himself is judged of no man. [1 Corinthians 2: 15] And I took
that within myself. And I knew that having paid the tremendous
price I had, that I had paid the full price under the law; therefore,
I was no longer subject to it and I had risen above it.
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I Am not Always What You Would Expect
Many who see me in everyday life, see the fun and the gai-
ety—sometimes the wisdom and sometimes just plain foolery—
wonder, ‘is this woman really God-realized? Is she really?’ I
have done some strange things to test people. I remember meet-
ing one individual who sits in the audience now and a relative of
his had brought him to me and was lauding me with praises
which, at that time, in no way did I deserve. But anyway, I went
upstairs and I wondered what I should wear to meet this person
whom she told me was a great soul, and who was searching, but
he was very orthodox. And so I had a kelly-green skirt and it was
all woven with gold thread around the bottom, a border. I had on
a very sheer, beige blouse, a see-through blouse, if you will—
very high heels—and then to top it off, I had long, green, leather
earrings that were in hoops! And that’s the way I came down to
meet this future man who was going to be my disciple. I’m sure
he remembers it well.
So he sat there, and he was a great follower of Saint Paul and
he said, ‘Well, what do you think about what Saint Paul says
about this?’ And, ‘Saint Paul says that’, and so on and so on. We
started from there. And he fought me because he was very ortho-
dox in his thinking. And I don’t remember what I said to him,
just whatever God directed—I hadn’t gone through this tremen-
dous experience at that time so I was still a neophyte. But any-
way, it came to pass that although I had the church open—our
home was the church—every single Thursday evening and every
Sunday, sometimes he was the only one who came. And I was in
the position sometimes when no one came, perhaps because of
weather conditions.
I Begged God to Lift Me Up
And in the beginning I blamed myself. I thought, ‘Well, I’m
not worthy. I told the Master that I wasn’t worthy and he should
have listened to me.’ But anyway, I would sit and meditate. I
would meditate, asking God if I was not worthy, to please make
me fit to be His vessel, that I might help those that were seeking
Him. And gradually the people started to come. And I venture to
say that by now there have been thousands of people who have
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her answers satisfied my mind, but although uplifted, I left not
thoroughly convinced.
The next day Althea told me that al-
though she had planned to return home
that week, she felt that she should not
leave until I saw Mother again. So it
was arranged that Mother’s daughter,
Billie, would pick me up after I taught
my Sunday school class at the college
Free Methodist Church.
I was impressed and inspired with the power and spirituality of
Mother’s sermon and stayed afterward to talk with her further. I
knew then that she was the guru for which I had prayed and that
this path was to be mine with her as my guide. From then on I
attended all of the services that I could and often stayed after-
ward on Wednesday evenings to talk into the wee hours with
Mother. (Actually, she did most of the talking.) Always in these
sessions the room would be filled with a soft golden light and
from the incense burner on the altar below Master’s picture
would sound a “ping.” Mother said that this was a sign of his
presence. During one of these sessions Mother gave me the same
pledge of her undying love that Sri Yukteswar gave to
Yogananda. I was speechless to be so blessed!
It wasn’t until recently that I learned from “The Cross and The
Lotus” magazine that Mother was experiencing a “dark night of
the soul” at this time. It was not at all evident from the way she
expressed herself so positively with her dynamic and loving per-
sonality.
In those early years sometimes only I or a few others would be
attending the evening services. There was never a large number.
No matter how few or many came, the talk she gave she deliv-
ered with the same dynamics. Sometimes she would be so weak
and in pain that she had to drag herself out of bed to lead the ser-
vice, she was so dedicated to God. But always, as the Spirit filled
her with Its presence, power and inspiration flowed through her
as if nothing had been wrong.
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and anything contrary to these laws doesn’t last long. It contains
within itself the seeds of its own destruction. The good in every
human life always makes it possible for us to obey these laws.
We do have free will about all this, and therefore how soon we
obey and thereby find harmony, both within ourselves and
within our world, is up to us.
MEMORIES OF MOTHER Meeting Mother
by Herlwyn Lutz
[It seemed fitting to reprint this article because in Mother’s
talk this edition (Hidden Power) she speaks about the very inci-
dent Herlwyn describes here. Our dear Herlwyn left the body
almost a year and a half ago. He was the first of Mother’s stu-
dents to become a disciple and is surely with her now.]
A sister of a professor for whom I did garden work was visit-
ing her. She bubbled with joy as we talked, describing how she
followed her inner leadings each moment. I had read of
Yogananda in his autobiography. She said that he was her guru.
While in Seattle, she had been attending the services of his cen-
ter leader and minister, Yogacharya Hamilton. She suggested
that I should meet her. Mother had told her several things about
me. So an appointment was set up.
Greeting me at the door of her home was a beautiful middle-
aged woman wearing Gypsy earrings, heavy makeup and a sheer
blouse. (Mother later told me that God had asked her to do this
as a test of my rising above my fundamentalist training of how a
woman should dress. Apparently I passed the test.) Cordially
welcoming me we went into her living room to talk. I told her
about my search for a deeper spiritual life since the age of 12 and
how at age 17 Yogananda confirmed what I reasoned and intu-
ited about the ultimate nature of the universe and humanity, but I
was still unsure about certain doctrinal matters. I quoted several
verses from the New Testament that, according to my Christian
education, seemed to contradict some of what she and
Yogananda said. (She later used to tease me about this.) Some of
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come before me, and I have been before thousands. But gradu-
ally, through the experiences which came to me through my min-
istry, I came to the point where I was opening my heart totally to
God, where I cried for Him. I reached for Him. I yearned for
Him! And I knew that no earthly person, no earthly possession,
no earthly dream could ever fulfill that tremendous longing I had
within myself.
I had to reach out. I had to go through what was necessary, and
I begged God to lift me up, with every bit of strength I had
within myself. And it was then that I went into spiritual experi-
ences. They were the preliminary ones, and some of those were
really something. And it brought me to the point where, after my
Master’s passing, and Swami Ramdas had come to America and
had invited my husband and myself to return there and be with
him, that I was directed to go over there. And I went with the
idea that I was going to help my own Master, my Guru. And it
didn’t turn out that way, in one sense, because I wasn’t able to
change a thing of that which was being done to his works, to his
teachings.
But what did happen was that God lifted me up and He put me
through all of the experiences that are in this New Testament. I
had lived the ones in the Old Testament because that’s the story
of the son of man and all of the things that he does—his begin-
nings in this world and the beginning of the universe, and man’s
beginnings, and all of the things that he goes through until he
comes to that point where he is ready to really realize that the
Christ is within him.
The Hidden Glory
So I went through this tremendous experience of the ‘mystical
crucifixion,’ and I know what every bit of this Bible [means],
although to this day I have never read all of it. I have lived it!
And I can go to any chapter and I know the truth behind the par-
ables that are written because I lived them, not through my own
will, but through the will of God. But it was through opening
myself up that I discovered this hidden power within myself, that
power that has the ability to work miracles! And yet I of myself
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do nothing. It has the power to raise man from the dead—and yet
that has happened through this form, but I myself have done
nothing—the power to heal, the power to change man’s con-
sciousness, the power to help him discover within himself all of
the hidden talents and the hidden glory, and to bring it forth and
to change himself from a groveling human being sometimes, to
one who walks with a tall, broad stance and holds his head high.
And there’s a great light in his face and he knows that he can be
counted!
I have tried to dig within each one who has come to me, and
find out where they kept this hidden glory, what their special tal-
ents were, and then to encourage them to develop them so that
they might become themselves. It’s terrible to walk in fear, to
live in fear. If God is directing you to do something within your-
self, for heaven’s sakes, do it! And stop fearing the result be-
cause if He is directing you, He will also take care of it. He will
take care of everything and everyone, about that particular cir-
cumstance, if you will only have faith in Him. There is no hold-
ing back, none whatsoever.
The Supreme Intelligence Within
And yet what do we do? We try to do everything ourselves!
We’re never willing to let go and let God, to let this power, this
tremendous ice that has developed under the tip of the iceberg,
melt and flow and work for us! When something is finished, let
it go! It is finished. It was brought into your life for a purpose,
and when that purpose is finished, to hold yourself in such a po-
sition is to retard your spiritual progress and the progress of
those around you. You must release yourself and stand straight
and tall, and say, I Am That I Am. And you’re also I Am That I
Am, as I told you a few weeks ago, because God is not only the
Supreme Cause, the Supreme Intelligence, the Supreme Every-
thing of the universe, but He is every individual thing within it,
which can be called, I Am That I Am.
And so everything flows together. Everything works together
in this hidden power, the power that helps you to move and live
and breathe and have your being, the power that takes one seed
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Then there is the third relinquishment, and that is the relin-
quishment of all attachments. No one is truly free who is still
attached to material things, or to places, or to people. Material
things must be put into their proper place. They are there for use.
It’s all right to use them; that’s what they’re there for. But when
they’ve outlived their usefulness, be ready to relinquish them
and perhaps pass them on to someone who does need them. Any-
thing that you cannot relinquish when it has outlived its useful-
ness possesses you, and in this materialistic age a great many of
us are possessed by our possessions. We are not free.…
Now the last: the relinquishment of all negative feelings. I
want to mention just one negative feeling which the nicest peo-
ple still experience, and that negative feeling is worry. Worry is
not concern, which would motivate you to do everything possi-
ble in a situation. Worry is a useless mulling over of things we
cannot change….
One last comment about negative feelings, which helped me
very much at one time and has helped others. No outward
thing—nothing, nobody from without—can hurt me inside, psy-
chologically. I recognized that I could only be hurt psychologi-
cally by my own wrong actions, which I have control over; by
my own wrong reactions—they are tricky, but I have control
over them too; or by my own inaction in some situations, like the
present world situation, that needs action from me. When I rec-
ognized all this, how free I felt! And I just stopped hurting my-
self. Now someone could do the meanest thing to me and I
would feel deep compassion for this out-of-harmony person, this
psychologically sick person, who is capable of doing mean
things. I certainly would not hurt myself by a wrong reaction of
bitterness or anger. You have complete control over whether or
not you will be hurt psychologically, and any time you want to,
you can stop hurting yourself.
These are the steps toward inner peace that I wanted to share
with you. There’s nothing new about this. This is universal truth.
I merely talked about these things in my own everyday words in
terms of my own personal experience with them. The laws which
govern this universe work for good as soon as we obey them,
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There is one more purification, and that is purification of mo-
tive. What is your motive for whatever you may be doing? If it is
pure greed or self-seeking or the wish for self-glorification, I
would say, Don’t do that thing. Don’t do anything you would do
with such a motive. But it isn’t that easy because we tend to do
things with very mixed motives, good and bad motives all mixed
together. Here’s a man in the business world: his motives may
not be the highest, but mixed in with them are motives of caring
for his family and perhaps doing some good in his community.
Mixed motives!…I’ve met a few people who had to change their
jobs in order to change their lives, but I’ve met many more peo-
ple who merely had to change their motive to service in order to
change their lives.
Now, the last part. These are the relinquishments. Once you’ve
made the first relinquishment you have found inner peace, be-
cause it’s the relinquishment of self-will. You can work on this
by refraining from doing any not-good thing you may be moti-
vated toward, but you never suppress it! If you are motivated to
do or say a mean thing, you can always think of a good thing.
You deliberately turn around and use that same energy to do or
say a good thing instead. It works!
The second relinquishment is the relinquishment of the feeling
of separateness. We begin feeling very separate and judging eve-
rything as it relates to us, as though we were the center of the
universe. Even after we know better intellectually, we still judge
things that way. In reality, of course, we are all cells in the body
of humanity. We are not separate from our fellow humans. The
whole thing is a totality. It’s only from that higher viewpoint that
you can know what it is to love your neighbor as yourself. From
that higher viewpoint there becomes just one realistic way to
work, and that is for the good of the whole. As long as you work
for your selfish little self, you’re just one cell against all those
other cells, and you’re way out of harmony. But as soon as you
begin working for the good of the whole, you find yourself in
harmony with all of your fellow human beings. You see, it’s the
easy, harmonious way to live.
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and develops it into a child in the mother’s womb, and brings it
forth. And then that power is still in the child and it continues to
grow. Why? Does the mother or the father have anything to do
with that? No! It is the God within, the intelligence within, that
keeps that body growing and growing and developing and devel-
oping, which puts thoughts in the mind and helps the child to
speak and to think and to walk and to gradually become a whole
human being but for one purpose, and that is to find that indeed
you have the presence of God, the power of God within you,
every moment of your lives, if you will only use it.…
You Must Put your Mind on Him
…I am not God, but God is within me, and it is He who speaks
to you, who thinks through you, who acts through this form to do
for all of you. And I am like what the Master said. That is an ex-
act description of my life. I am totally surrendered to God and I
live only for the purpose of serving Him in each one of you. But
I cannot get inside of you and do the work for you. You must
take the techniques that have been given to you. You must take
time out from your busy world and sit and commune with God
and meditate upon Him and listen to His voice of direction, and
raise yourselves up from the sons of man to the Sons of God be-
cause each one of us has that power within us, that power and
that intelligence which, if we will open our hearts—if we will go
beneath the tip of the iceberg, if we will tap that hidden power—
has the power to change our whole lives and our whole world.
And we will never be the same again.
You know how much you have developed since first you
came, the changes that have taken place in your life. But you are
still in mid-stream, many of you, and you still have a way to go.
But it can happen overnight because there is within you a greater
miracle than you will ever find anyplace. And that miracle is the
all-powerful God. And He will guide you. He will direct you. He
will take care of you. He will supply your needs. But you have to
go above your human consciousness, above the idea that you are
doing something, and let God do it. Just relax! Get at peace with
yourself. Open your whole being to Him and put your mind on
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Him. Imagine yourself being lifted up into the arms of God.…
Your Destiny in God
…You have a responsibility as a child of God, to go within
yourself, to find out what your destiny is in God, and to take the
necessary means to let go of the past, to let go of anything and
everything which is retarding your spiritual progress, and make
the Christ your sweetheart, your lover, your constant companion.
Go forth in the knowledge that you were brought here but for
one purpose, and that was to be the bride of Christ. And you will
find such light, such satisfaction, such peace, such wonder, such
love, such power starting to develop within you and around you
that you will never be the same again.
Know ye not that ye are Gods? You have the son of God in
you. He is your light, your love, your everything. Go to Him. Be
one with Him. And you will abide in His bliss and in the power
and beauty of His Presence forevermore.
Out of the Mouths of Babes Over the years I have noticed how little chil-
dren respond to seeing the pictures of the saints
we have hanging in our home. Some adults (who
are not devotees) will kind of advert their eyes
when they see them but our grandchildren re-
spond with delight. They have no mental barriers
to the love and joy they see in the eyes of the mas-
ters.
A few months ago our three year old grand-
daughter, Frances, was taking a nap in our bed-
room. She often likes to have Om Sri Ram playing
while she sleeps. This day I entered the room to
see her gazing up at the beautiful large framed
photo of Swami Satchidananda.
“Swamiji loves children,” Frances said authoritatively. “Can I
go see him someday?” -Cate Koler
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There is also a fourth preparation and it is the simplification of
life to bring inner and outer wellbeing—psychological and mate-
rial well-being—into harmony in your life. This was made very
easy for me. Just after I dedicated my life to service, I felt that I
could no longer accept more than I needed while others in the
world have less than they need. This moved me to bring my life
down to need-level. I thought it would be difficult. I thought it
would entail a great many hardships, but I was quite wrong….I
discovered this great truth: unnecessary possessions are only un-
necessary burdens.
Then I discovered that there were some purifications required
of me. The first one is such a simple thing: it is purification of
the body. This has to do with your physical living habits. You’d
think this might be the first area in which people would be will-
ing to work, but from practical experience I’ve discovered it’s
often the last because it might mean getting rid of some of our
bad habits, and there is nothing that we cling to more tena-
ciously.
There is a second purification I cannot stress too much be-
cause it is purification of thought. If you realized how powerful
your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.
They can be a powerful influence for good when they’re on the
positive side, and they can and do make you physically ill when
they’re on the negative side….If you’re harboring the slightest
bitterness toward anyone, or any unkind thoughts of any sort
whatever, you must get rid of them quickly. They aren’t hurting
anyone but you. It is said that hate injures the hater, not the
hated. It isn’t enough just to do right things and say right things,
you must also think right things before your life can come into
harmony.
The third purification is the purification of desire. What are
the things you desire? Do you desire new clothing, or pleasures,
or new household furnishings or a new car? You can come to the
point of oneness of desire just to know and do your part in the
Life Pattern. When you think about it, is there anything else as
really important to desire?
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Peace Pilgrim’s 12 Point Plan [from Steps Toward Inner Peace. Peace Pilgrim walked more than
25,000 miles spreading her message of peace. This material was used
in Yogacharya David’s recent workshop at Loon Lake.]
…I would like to mention some preparations
that were required of me. The first prepara-
tion is a right attitude toward life. This
means—stop being an escapist! Stop being a
surface-liver who stays right in the froth of
the surface. There are millions of these peo-
ple, and they never find anything really
worthwhile. Be willing to face life squarely
and get down beneath the surface of life
where the verities and realities are to be
found. That’s what we are doing here now.
…The second preparation has to do with
bringing our lives into harmony with the
laws that govern this universe. Created are not only the worlds
and the beings but also the laws that govern them. Applying both
in the physical realm and in the psychological realm, these laws
govern human conduct. Insofar as we are able to understand and
bring our lives into harmony with these laws, our lives will be in
harmony. Insofar as we disobey these laws, we create difficulties
for ourselves by our disobedience. We are our own worst ene-
mies. If we are out of harmony through ignorance, we suffer
somewhat; but if we know better and are still out of harmony,
then we suffer a great deal….
…There is also a third preparation that has to do with some-
thing which is unique for every human life, because every one of
us has a special place in the Life Pattern. If you do not yet know
clearly where you fit, I suggest that you try seeking it in recep-
tive silence. I used to walk amid the beauties of nature, just re-
ceptive and silent, and wonderful insights would come to me.
You begin to do your part in the Life Pattern by doing all the
good things you feel motivated toward, even though they are just
little good things at first. You give these priority in your life over
all the superficial things that customarily clutter human lives….
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Who But You Could Deck the Flower
with Pearly Dew? By Swami Yogananda
(Dedicated to all Yogoda Students)
Thy baby bud-flower
On the breast of Mother Earth,
Nursed by wind and shower
Opens its lily lips, and in mirth
Sips Thy milk of sunny rays,
While the cradle of the breeze sways.
Then it opens its ruby lips,
spread with the honey of light and dew,
And softly sobs and cries for You.
Then You sing your lullaby soft,
With the rustle of the leaves aloft.
Who but You could deck the flower
with color and pearly dew.
Then your dame nursemaid, Nature,
Grows the baby bud’s stature
Into a full-grown lady flower,
With costume of painted petals.
Then she learns to dance in the hall of bowers,
And in joy drops from her silken tassels
The wealth of fragrance to all and You.
Such beauty and perfumed heart,
Who but You could start
In the flower with lips of pearly dew.
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In Memorium: Ramamani 1927-2013
M.K. Ramamani was born on October 6, (Saraswati’s puja
day) and left the body April 17 in Bangalore. She had been a
teacher of Sanskrit at various institutions, including the National
Education Society, a musician and singer, and a lover of saints.
In 1996, when Larry stepped out of the taxi at Anandashram
for the first time, he met Swami Vishwananda and they were in-
stantly bonded. When Yogacharya David, Phyllis, Larry and I
traveled to India in 1998, Swami V was our tour guide. Devotees
of this path met him when he came to US and Canada. Later,
when some of us (including David and Carla) visited Swamiji at
his home we were attended by Swamiji’s niece, Ramamani
(nicknamed Papu), who served him for 25 years. All of us came
away from our time with her feeling like we had just visited a
dear mother. One rarely receives such a loving welcome and
witnesses such an example of selfless service. Dear Mother, you
are now in the bosom of the great saints you revered. - C. K.
A Life of Service By Phyllis Victory
Papu. She is a tiny woman; maybe 5 feet, if she stands on her
tiptoes. She might be easy to miss if you are not listening or
watching for the invisible.
Papu is about 82, and is Swamiji’s niece (the daughter of Swa-
miji’s eldest sister). She lives
with Swami Vishwananda,
looking after his every need.
She came to live with him when
he got sick many years ago and
has stayed. She knows how to
serve; quietly, elegantly and
whole-heartedly.
My real relationship with her
began two visits before, when
our love for each other began to
shine in our eyes. I noticed
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mine lit up when she walked into the room; she would enter so
very, very quietly. She almost slips around the door frame; her
own light frame silently appearing. The presence of her body is
followed by a gentle smile and then her eyes light up and she
pours oceans of love into you before she ever so slightly lowers
hers to the floor. She refuses help in the kitchen and a small ex-
plosion arises when I try to move the dishes off of the table and
into the kitchen. ‘It is my duty’ she says, with her eyes shining
invisible beams of light straight into my heart and I know that
she really means it. “It makes me SO happy to serve you…”
She drifts in and out of the room as Swamiji tells me story af-
ter story of his experiences with great saints, but today, at the
end of the second day of stories and pictures, his stories drifted
into the life of Papu and pictures and stories of her spiritual life
came out to lie on the same table where a lifetime of stories
about great Masters and those who love to be in their presence,
had lain. There she was, with Papa and Mataji. Next came a
story of Anandamayi Mai and the time that Ma heard this sweet
girl (Papu) singing Bengali chants. Ma was captivated by her
voice and would always make Papu sing; when Anandamayi Ma
came to Bangalore, Papu composed a beautiful song to Ma, right
on the spot. Everyone in the audience was wildly and apprecia-
tively clapping. Later I came to learn that she plays the Veena
and is quite a composer.
When she visited Anandashram, Papa used to ask her to sing
Om Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram in the hall. Once when she had
chanted for over an hour, Mataji brought her buttermilk to sooth
her throat. There is a picture of Mataji and Papa which is very
special to both Swamiji and Papu, as Papu was allowed to stand
next to Papa; something that Swamiji himself never had the
privilege to do.
And then, in the quiet afternoon, inside the yellow house in
Bangalore, in early March, with Swami Vishwananda and my-
self, Papu unexpectedly burst into song. For 15 minutes we were
treated to the heartfelt Bengali songs that she had also sung for
Anandamayi Ma. She has stolen my heart one more time.