8/9/2019 Spirit Trip
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Spirit Trip?Yea She closed her eyes and sat back. I waited until
her breathing ev
ened out from its drug-induced rattle.Cassidy Monroe, tell me
what happened? I knew Cassidy would be happy t
hat I asked, she was. Bouncing on the couch she looked at me
with over excited eyes.
Well, that guy I was talking about, Spike, he went on a spirit
trip andhe says that he found Him, Elle, he said that he found God.
And he sold it all
to me for so cheap Elle Holy shit. Id known that putting her
name on my bankaccount was a bad idea but it made it easier for the
bills to be paid. All the while Cassidy had been taking things out
of her purse. Thank God, she finally handed me my weed. I broke out
enough for a joint and rolled while she continued with her
explanation. I didnt think itd be bad, Gram had never taken
advantage of usor let Cassidy get taken advantage of when I wasnt
around.
He said that wed need all of this, ecstasy, coke, lsd, acid, and
I gotmore weed This was way more expensive than we could afford. It
was just with
our last checks that wed been able to say that we had enough to
cover rent andbills for next month. It was the 22nd, there was no
way we could make up any feasible amount of required for all of
this.
Even Gram said that it was a deal, only 2 thou even. Oh God.
Ohoh dear God. Shed spent everything. Every fucking dime. I was
going to murder her. Watching my eyes flash her demeanor changed.
Fear.
GODDAMMIT! I roared. Do you think?! You spent every dime we had.
Ithad taken a lot to get what we had. Our parents didnt approve of
either of us moving out at our young ages. If we had to move back
in with our parents now, they would never let us get out ever
again. But Id have to calm down, Cassidy didnt respond well to
anger.
What are we going to do Cass? Next month we wont have a place to
live. Goddamn her, Goddamn her, Goddamn her. The mantra was oddly
soothing so I litthe joint and hit it twice before I handed it to
her. It was about time she come
down. The reality was that I was used to taking care of
Cassidy.***
Some how Cassidy convinced me to take a spirit trip and then we
convinced her parents to let us stay in their cabin in Utah. And
thus, a week later we
were stashed in the frigid mountains. Wed been there three days
when Cassidy decided that we should try mixing ecstasy and acid.
Wed been keeping a one druga day, with the exception of weed
maximum, up to this point and hadnt found God
yet. I guess I agreed because I felt like we needed a little bit
of excitement.
So was how Cassidy started the whole conversation. Lets take two
ofeach right now, and two more later. I should have known better, I
should have
told her no. But instead I lifted my bottle of water and said,
Bottoms up. Afew hours later we found ourselves lying on a sheet in
the sun. The snow meltedas it met our fevered flesh the wind calmed
our heaving bosoms. Before I knew it
her hand was caressing my thigh, we made love in the front yard
of the Weismans cabin that day. I dont think either of us had ever
considered lesbianism, wed never talked about it before, and there
was never a chance after.
***By nine pm we were both suffering from extreme chills and
dehydration. W
ed been sitting in the den with the almost equal suffering that
only drugs canprovide. We were out of our souls#. Cassidy looked at
me with overly excited but
dead eyes,Heydo you want to take a walk with me? I need to come
down, and I thin
k if I walk around a little I might be able to sleep.GodId kill
to fall asleep. I was being honest. The monster# was eati
ng me. My attention span was shot. I couldnt even focus on her
face.Okaywell, she lit a cigarette and stood up, I have to do
this.
The last thing I said to her was, Put on a sweater at leastI was
absorbed for the next hour with the anti-reality surrounding me.
Lights swam along the polished wood of the cabin, until they went
out. When the lights w
