Secret Love

Sheila Xu

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Content

Author……………………………….01

Introduction…………………………03

Chapter one………………………….04

Chapter two………………………….04

Chapter three………………………..06

Chapter four…………………………09

Chapter five………………………….12

Chapter six…………………………..15

About the author

I, Sheila Xu, am the author of this

book. I was born in Kaoshiung, Taiwan,

on October 16,1987. After coming to the

world, I didn’t live with my parents. My

mom took me to my elder aunt’s home

where I stayed till I was almost one year

old. During this one year, I seemed to

have two mothers. Both of them took

good care of me. I am very thankful even

now. After that, Mom and I returned to

Gangshan and lived with Dad. From that

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time on, I met two people who are the

most important ones to me in my life. I

call them Grandpa and Aunt. In fact, we

don’t have a blood relationship. However,

we are much closer than the ones who do

have a blood relationship.

Now, I’m nineteen-year-old student

who doesn’t really know what to do in the

future. I’m trying to find my way now.

Hope you guys enjoy my story.

Wish you the best

Sheila Xu 2007/1/8

Introduction of the Story

I think some people will think Secret

Love sounds like a soap opera. But, don’t

you think life is just like a drama and

drama is just like life? Maybe you won’t

believe it, but the story which I wrote is a

true story. Of course the characters’ names

have been changed because I have to

protect and keep their secrets.

I want to show you when people love

someone, they won’t care whether the

others have the same sex or not. Because

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of common customs, people always seem

to only love the opposite sex. It is

forbidden to fall in love with a person of

the same sex.

CHAPTER ONE

Brit started his new school life and

was ready to be a senior high school

student. He was very nervous but looking

forward to his new classmates and new

school life.

It was a brand new day today. He saw

his classmates. Every one was so different

and unique. They were not just only

different from the classmates from junior

high school but also different from each

one in class. Brit was very happy going to

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know them. He wanted to make many

friends very much because he was afraid

of loneliness. However, he was too shy to

be active making friends. Although Brit

would like to make friends with his

classmates, he still felt he must lose

something which was very important. He

felt he couldn’t get enough. He didn’t

know what he really wanted but he knew

these classmates weren’t the special kind

of people who he would like to know.

The third day of the beginning of this

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semester, he found a special person, Wat,

in class. Wat was very cool. He never

talked to others. He seemed difficult to

approach. Brit didn’t know why his eyes

were always caught by Wat and always

paid attention to him. Furthermore, he

would like to make friends with Wat.

This was the first time Brit won

attraction to someone. He didn’t know

why and didn’t want to think about these

emotions. What he knew was there was a

strange feeling that he had never had

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before emerging.

CHAPTER TWO

Time went by, it was the middle of the

semester. Brit had never talked to Wat

even once. He was too shy and Wat’s

coolness was unapproachable. Brit knew

that if he wanted to be friends with Wat,

he must catch a chance. Although he knew

what he should do, he still kept doing

nothing.

In Brit and Wat’s class, they changed

their seats every two weeks. The way to

decide who would sit together was

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drawing lots. Brit thought he had no

courage to talk with Wat, so he hoped to

know more about Wat by sitting together

for two weeks. Every time when the class

leader drew lots, Brit always prayed to

God to let them to sit together. However,

God seemed to never hear his wishes.

CHAPTER THREE

At the end of the first semester,

Christmas was coming, Brit finally sat

together with Wat. He was very, very, very

happy but very, very, very nervous seeing

the seats chart on the blackboard. He

thought that was a Christmas present from

God. It was an amazing grace for him. So

unbelievable! He couldn’t believe it was

the truth! The night before the day which

his class changed seats, Brit was not able

to fall asleep.

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The first three days, Brit didn’t talk to

Wat, and he didn’t even look at Wat’s face.

They sat together but were like two

strangers. Their first interaction was a

“conversation” from the text book.

One cold Tuesday afternoon, they

were taking an English grammar class.

The teacher asked the whole class to

practice the conversation that they just

finished with their partners. Brit was

startled at this requirement. His heart beat

was all but out of his chest. He turned his

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head gradually and saw Wat with vagrant

eyes. “Who will start this conversation

first?”, Wat asked. Suddenly, the time

seemed to stop. Brit felt like he almost

couldn’t breathe. He did a few deep breath

and said” Alright, I will go first.” These

were their first talking.

CHAPTER FOUR

During this period of time, Brit was

really happy. He was lost in himself with

happiness. Every night, he expected the

next day to come fast. Every morning, he

expected to go to school hurry. These

expectations pushed him up because he

had a purpose for living. Their

relationship was much better than what

Brit thought. Wat started to talk to Brit

and smiled at him. One day, Wat asked

Brit for help. Brit was very surprised. He

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thought Wat trusted him so he was also a

little happy. These changes made Brit feel

although he was special to Wat. They were

closer to each other.

Day after day, Brit discovered that he

had a different feeling through Wat. He

couldn’t take his eyes away from Wat. He

couldn’t stop thinking of him. He didn’t

like to see Wat be good with somebody

else. He didn’t want to see Wat together

with somebody else. He became envious

very easily and very often. He knew it

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wasn’t normal for a MALE to care about

someone who was MALE, too.

Brit finally understood it was love.

This love was a forbidden love. It is not

acceptable by society. However, he still

couldn’t control himself. Due to this thrill,

shock, suspense love, Brit was almost

getting mad. He just couldn’t stop loving

Wat.

CHAPTER FIVE

Happy days always pass so quickly,

and these two weeks were over. It was

time for Brit and Wat to separate. Brit was

depressed because he didn’t want to

change seats. He was afraid that Wat and

he would be strangers again. After they

changed seats, his eyes were still caught

by Wat. He always paid a lot of attention

on what Wat did, what Wat said, where

Wat went, who Wat talked to, and

everything about Wat. It seemed as if he

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was going mad. Now, he was very sure

that Wat must be special to him.

One day in P.E. class, they had a

funny activity. The teacher’s first directive

was to ask them to hold hands with the

one beside themselves. Brit and Wat they

stood together but when everyone started

to hold each others’ hands, Wat avoided

Brit and shied at once.

Brit saw Wat’s avoidance very clearly.

He was harmed absolutely and completely.

He thought if he behaved too obviously

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Wat wouldn’t discover that he loved him.

Because he didn’t want Wat to hate him,

he decided to stay away from him so that

he would control his love for Wat.

CHAPTER SIX

The last summer of Brit’s senior high

school, the season of graduation was

coming. Classmates were discussing their

future, their universities. Some were

worried about their exams. Some were in

a hurry to leave every one’s personal

information and messages for a class

book.

Brit was as same as other students. He

shared with classmates. He was busy for

the class book, too. He also worried about

something. What was he worried about? It

was Wat.

Brit received a surprising news in

April from a classmate who was with Wat

for a long time: Wat was going to emigrate

to England after graduation.

Brit lost his purpose immediately. He

suddenly didn’t know what to do next. His

heart was bleeding. His heart was crying.

His heart was shaking. His heart was

broken. He never thought that Wat would

be so far away from him. He thought even

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though they might not go to the same

university after graduating, he still could

see Wat in the same city and the same

country. However, Wat was now gone.

Brit couldn’t accept this truth.

So, the rest of the last semester, Brit

cherished everyday Wat was in school

very much. He didn’t waste anytime they

hit it off together.

Brit regretted that he hadn’t been

good friends with Wat. He regretted

wasting so much time that they were being

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together. He should not be so shy. He

should not be so passive. He hated his fool.

He regretted always avoiding seeing Wat.

He hated himself for not being true to his

heart. So many regrets would not change

anything. So many regrets would not turn

the clock back to yesterday. Everything

happened past. It was too late.

At graduation, Brit left earlier than

other classmates. He refused all dates

because he wanted to be alone and in a

silence place thinking something about

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Wat.

Now, Wat was really gone. His heart

was gone with him, too. The weather was

sunny, but his heart was cloudy. The

weather was hot, but his heart was cold. It

was crowed outside, but his heart was

empty. Here was a summer breeze kissing

his face but there was a storm destroying

his heart. As his eyes were covered by the

hair which was blowing by the wind, tears

were falling down to the ground. Nothing

would comfort him.

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A few minutes later, he dried his tears

and stared at the sky. He recalled

everything that belonged to Wat and him.

Those memories were full of happiness

and sadness. There were so many

differences after Wat left for England.

Happiness was still happiness, but sadness

becomes happiness now. Furthermore,

Brit and Wat were really strangers now.