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MUJru~a H08Ko8unrrOPO,lJ;J1QHJ1 BYKBAP

MHJIHn;a HOBKOBHn

113ga8a1iArenuaja aa M3p;aBalliTBo, enyxaunjy M TproBMHy - "I10POP;WIHM Byxsap"

llopoquunu 6YK8apPeuenseniuBnanera Iepornh, aKap;eMMK, ncnxajarap

HUK08HU paqoeuEMlbaHa C. HOBKoBMn, ",lJ;PBO,lJ;o6pMQa"

lby6aB, He paT y canpcsrcnoj IIOpo,Iv·n.J;J1

IlImaMua"EMr urrasma", Beorpan IIpBO gOUYlVeHO U upepaheno u3galVe

TupaJIC500 rrpMMepaKa

Munuua HOBKOBUn

CBa npasa cy saurraheaa.H'Wjenaa neo KlDwre He MO)Ke6WTWpenponyxosau,

y ~W~O KOjOj CPOPMW,6e3 nncaeaor onotipeisa ayropa.6;aBlbWBalDe nerra 6e3 noasone ayropa csrarpa ce

npOTWB3aKOHWTWMWCy,n;CKWje Ka)KlDWBO.

"TIOPO,n;WqHWfiyxaap" nocaehyjex CBOMyqwTelbY Ilerpy Caanhy, TBOp~y CTBa-pallaqKOr aacmrraisa, (npesonryo 1993), CBOjWMyqeHW~WMa, CBOjOj nopomma WCBWMnoponnuaaa y qwjwM he ce pYKaMa nahx OBa KlDwra.

BellWKY 3aXBallHOCT ,n;yryjeM CBOMcynpyry Mxpozsyriy WCBOjOj ,n;e~w IlparanyWDWlbaHw. Pasyaenx cy MOjy nocsehenocr OBOj w,n;ejw, C Jby6aBlby npaxnanonrMOjy norpetiy ,n;aCBOj )KWBOTnOCBeTWM W3HalDY cTBapallaqKOr sacrnrran,a, sac-nWTalDY 6e3 Ka3He WHarpa,n;e, xoje je 6WllO W6whe, aa pa,n;ocT name WCBWXOCTa-llWX, 3HaHWX WHe3HaHWX noponaua,

Iocnoha Bepx 13op1)eBwh caM saxnamta IIlTOje y Cp6wjy nonena aaarse anrepna-TWBHeMe,n;W~WHe,nexerse aa uraua Wcronany, (CY 13oK) qwjw je rsopau rocnonxnTIapK Ilae By, (npesonryo 25.3.2010). Xsana WMIIlTO cy MWnecetironro napoaaznrsaarse KOjWMcaM ycnena HayqHo na YTeMelbwM cTBapallaqKO sacrnrrarse, w,n;OKa-)KeM ,n;a Cpozja WMa allTepHaTwBHw 06llWK aacrnrrarsa, KOjWnaaac rrpencrasrsaBpCTy eMO~WOHallHor nexetsa. Y CKOPOj 6y,n;yhHOCTW TO he 6WTWje,n;wHw 06llWKnacmrraisa. Craapauaxxo nacrnrraise TeK cana, HayqHo yreaerseao, MO)Ke 6WTWnoayheao cBeTY.

Ilocetiao caxr aaxsanna nporpecopy Bnanerx Ieporxhy, aaponnosr yqWTelbY,ncaxnjarpy WaKa,n;eMWKY,KOjWje WMao caao peqw xsane aa "TIOPO,n;WqHW6yKBap"y BpeMeHWMa xana cy CBH aYTopWTeTH H cTpyqHa jasnocr hyrana. OHH cy hyra-llH, xao aYTopHTeTH, amr cy xao po,n;HTelbH Wre KaKO ~eHHllH H nOIIlTOBallH TOIIlTO pa,n;HM, y IIlTa caM ce YBepHlla aetipojeno nyTa.

OTBopeHO cy Me no,n;p)KaBallH: HOBHHapH, ype,n;HH~H TB H pa,n;HO eMHcHja,nerroaaarx nexapa, nporpecopa, nCHXOll03H, ncnxxjarpa, sepoyxaren,a, nacmrra-qH, ponarersa, neua, je,n;HOMpexjy, rronpacasao Me Hapo,n;. Xaarra CBHMa, on cp~a.

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XI1MHA JbYEABI1 PEll AYTOPA HOB OM,IlPEPA1)EHOM I13J=(AlbY

113 upee UOCllaHU~e KOpUHnaHUMaauociuona IIa811a

AKO je311Ke qOBelmje 11anheocxe rOBOp11M, a Jby6aB11 HeMaM, onna caMxao 3BOHO xoje jeq11, 111111K11MBallKOj113Beq11.

M aKO 11MaM ,n;ap npopourrna 113HaM CBe rajne 11CBe aaaise11aKO 11MaMCBYBepy ,n;a11rope npeveurraa, a Jby6aB11 HeMaM H1111ITacaa.M aKO pasnaa CBe 11Malhe csoje, 11aKO npenaa rezro csoje na ce cazcezce,

a Jby6aB11 HeMaM, H1111ITaM11He KOP11CT11.Jbyfias ,n;yro rpmr, 6llarOTBOpHa je, Jby6aB He 3aB11,n;11.Jby6aB ce He

ropna, He Ha,n;11Mace,He q11H1111ITOHe rrp11CToj11,He Tpa:>K11csoje, He pasnpazcyje ce, He M11Cll11

o 3lly.He pa,n;yje ce nenpasna, a pa,n;yje ce 11CT11HI1.CBe CHOC11,CBe sepyje, cBeMY ce nana, CBe Tprr11.Jby6aB H11Ka,n;He npecraje, ,n;OKhe npopourrna HeCTaT11, je311U;11he

3aMYKHYT11,3Halhe he npeCTaT11.Iep ,n;ell11M11qHO3HaMO, 11,n;ell11M11qHOnpopoxyjeac.A xana ,n;o~e caspureao, onna he npecrara IlITO je ,n;ell11M11QHO.Kan 6ejax nere, xao nere rosopax, xao nere M1111IlbaX,xao nere pa3M11-

urrsax, a xan caxr nocrao QOBeK, 0,n;6aU;110caxr IlITO je ,n;eT11lhCKO.Jep can B11,n;11MOxao y ornenany, y 3arOHeTK11, a onna hexro rnnre y mrue,

can 3HaM ,n;ell11M11QHO,a oana hy n03HaT11 xao IlITO 611x rr03HaT.A can oCTaje Bepa, aana, lby6aB, OBOrpoje, arnr on lh11Xaajseha je lby6aB.

KpajeM 2009. ronmre, nocne rryH11Xnecer ronxna llI11pelha anarsa cTBapallaQ-xor aacrnrrarsa, OCeT11lla caM norpetiy ,n;a npepanasr "Ilopo,n;11QH11 6YKBap".

3allITo? On He,n;aBHOM11ce jaarsajy po,n;11Telb1111noje,n;11HU;11,y3 onacKY ,n;aje nouraoTpeHYTaK na pa3rpaH11Q11M rrp11MeHy crnapanaxxor nacmrrarsa, rro 06llaCT11Ma.Ka:>KYM11:"Han1111I11Te HOBe Klh11re y Koj11Ma here jacno nOKa3aT11 KaKO npeharrYT on PATA no JbYEABM, orxnarsajyha KA3HY M HAfPAAY, Y KOMYH11Ka-U;11j11Me~y: rrOllOB11Ma, Me~y lby,n;11May pa,n;HoM oKpy:>Kelhy, 113Me~y aacmrraxa 11Bacrr11TaH11Ka, y BPT11hy 11IlIKOll11, 113Me~y xnaaoaa jenaor ,n;pyIliTBa, a rrp11Map-HOj rropomnra OCTaB11TerrpeQ1111IheH "Ilopo,n;11QH11 6YKBap", KaKO 611 ca naxohoraCXBaT11lla 360r xera ce BO,n;11TaKO :>KeCTOK11paT y rropo,n;11U;1111KaKO na noponauanaxohov na np11MeH11 saarse crsapana-rxor nacnararsa 11yhe y Jb YEAB. BeOMacaM 11Msaxaanaa na rrpennoaasra 11cyrecrxjaaa.

M 3611lba, rrpOQ11TaBIlI11rra:>Klb11BOnocnemse 113,n;alhe .Tloponaxaor 6yKBapa",(2009), xojer Q11Hense Klh11re, OHa 113 1999 11,n;pyra nacrana 2005, sanaaiora caM,n;aOH otiyxsara rOTOBO CBe 06llaCT11 :>K11BOTa,CBe 06ll11Ke cexyanapnnx noponnua(BPT11h, uncorry, rronose, omroce y pa,n;HoM oKpy:>Kelhy, y ,n;PYIlITBY... ). CBe re oozra-CT11cy naxere, a H11CY,n;o xpaja paspabene 113aTO je neonxonaa 03611lbaH pa,n; nacsaxoj on OB11X06ll11Ka "nopo,n;11u;a", 113paBH11 craapana-ncor aacmrraisa,

Y Klh11311je B11,n;lb11BrryT Mora ca3peBalha, Kp03 snarse CTBapallaQKOr BaCrr11Ta-isa, KOj11je MeH116110 aeonxonaa 11je,n;11H11Moryh, a MOj11Mnocanaunsm« Q11TaO-U;11Ma11HTepeCaHTaH, all11 11Ba:>KaHy pa30TKp11BalhY Y3pOQH11Ka KOj11npaBe xaocy lh11XOB11M:>K11BOT11Ma.M OH1111ja CMOcaapeaajyhx, y nocnemsnx necer ronxna,CXBaT11ll11,n;acy Y3POQH11U;11HallI11X MyKa, ayTOp11TapH11 Mo,n;em1, Ka3Ha 11Harpa-na, 11MeHHTelbH aa CBe 06llaCTH uaurer :>KHBOTa.

Cana, xana je nourao TpeHYTaK, na snaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarea, BaCm1Ta-

6e3 Ka3He H 6e3 Harpa~e, H~e y CBeT, 36Hlba je HeBa)l(HO H orrrepehyjyhe na JIH

roje aaaise y "OYKBapy" H3 1999, 6HJIO ~eJIHMH'IHO, na je Mopao HaCTan1 HOBH

rxaap" -2005. ,Uem'lMH'IHO je 6HJIO, jep y BpeMeHY canxuxja y MOjOj 3eMlbH, HHcaM

rna carnenarn u;eJIHHy npoMeHa y nopo~HU;H H ~pylllTBy, xoje cy ce norabaneaery, HeBa)l(HO je lllTO nesenecernx rO~HHa nsaneceror sexa caspenena Tex-

ronrja HHje jour rrpennaaana rpaonnre aesrazsa y TpaH3HU;HjH, na HH Cpfiajy,IiIi'lCaM MOrna carnenarn KOlIHKO OBe TeXHOJIOlllKe Ii'ICBe OCTaJIe npoaeae pYllle

l~Ii'IU;Ii'IOHaJIHy nopomniy H Tpa~Ii'IU;Ii'IOHaJIHOnpyurrao, y u;elIIi'IHH.

,UaHac Bli'Illle HIi'IKOra He mrrepecyje na lIH je 61i'1lIO 61i'1THOlllTO jour HIi'ICaMHMalIa

WlbHO Ii'IcKycTBa y pa~y ca caBpeMeHoM nopO~Ii'IU;OM, HlIH, xana H aa KOjH Ha'IIi'IH

'I ycnena HayqHo na YTeMelbli'lM aaarse crsapanasxor sacnararsa. CBe je TO nOCTa-

nOTnYHO HeBa)f<HO 2010., xana cy ce KOHa'IHO cxnonxne CBe KOU;KIi'Iu;eM03ali'lKa

ra anaisa Ii'IMor 60raTor ncxycrea.

Ca naxohoxr caxr npaxaariora npennore npnjarezsa ~a npe'IIi'ICTIi'IM "I10pO~Ii'I'IHIi'I

csap" on csera lllTO savarzsyje npH'Iy 0 Tpa~HU;Ii'IOHalIHoj, caapeaeaoj Ii'ICTBa-

raxxoj nOpO~HU;Ii'I. PAT ce BO~H y csaxoj caspeaeaoj nOpO~HU;Ii'I, lllli'lpOM CBeTa.

Iba MH ~eMIi'ICTIi'I¢Ii'IKOBaTIi'I Y3POKE rora para, ayTopli'lTapHe "nlIli'IlllaHe" sac-

me Mo~elIe. I1oTpe6Ho je yaeparn 'IHTaOu;e, apryaearosano, na cy "nlIli'Illla-

" BacnHTHH MO~elIli'I, y3pO'IHHU;H MyKa caapesrenor 'IOBeKa, ~a je nocnenaua

XOBe npaxreae, orposmo nacarse, BIi'I~lbHBO na CBaKOM KopaKY, y u;elIOM CBeTY.

THOje ~a npaKTH'IHO nOKa)I(eM, KaKO ~a noponaua, lbeHIi'I 'IlIaHOBH, ocsoje anarsesapanaxxor aacrnrraa,a, KaKO ~a y1)y y npOCTope lby6aBIi'I, Pa~OCTIi'I 1i'I,U06pOTe,

tseha na npHHU;li'Inli'lMa CTBapalIa'IKOr sacmrrarsa. Bepyjesr na je "I10pO~Ii'I'IHH

map", TeK y OBOM 061IIi'IKy crrpexraa na 6y~e npencraszsea Ii'ICBeTY.

rrpE~rOBOP BJIA~ETE JEPOTVI1iA,rrCVIXVIJATPA VI AKA~EMVIKA

BpeMe y KOMe )I(Ii'IBIi'IMO(nO'IeTaK je TO 21. sexa) 3aXTeBa on csaxor O~ Hac TeMelb-

Hli'lje npeacnaraaarse csora nyxoaao-rryureano-renecnor )I(Ii'IBOTa. Ilpaannanoaaurarsa, Mli'Illllbelba Ii'Icyhersa, KaKBa cy aaxcnna MHoro BeKOBa y npOllllIOCTIi'I,

HIi'ICy smue aKTyelIHa. MO)l(eMO aa TIi'IM npOllllIli'IM BpeMeHIi'IMa )I(alIli'ITli'I, ~031i'1BaTIi'I

Ii'IX~a ce BpaTe 1i'I1IHce npeMa lbli'lMa KPIi'lTIi'I'IKIi'I O~HOCIi'ITIi'I.

Y rpaHIi'Iu;aMa OBaKBIi'IX pa3MIi'Illllbalba 0 npoiunocra, canaunsocrn Ii'I6y~ynHo-

CTIi'I,He casro cpnCKor po~a, Ben Ii'IOHOr'IOBe'IaHCKOr, alIli'I npe csera sanamroeapon-cxor, ~O cKopa xpmuhaucxor, mrran,e noponmre, nOpO~Ii'I'IHOr aacmrrarsa, omrocanOlIOBa y nopomnm Ii'Ilbli'lXOBOr rrojemraavaor Ii'I3aje~HIi'I'IKOr omroca npeMa ~eu;1i'I

- najcaspesreaaje je Moryne nrrrarse. 3aWTO? J13 je~HOCTaBHOr, CBIi'IManpIi'lCTyna'I-

nor pasnora Ii'Icnenehax 'Ili'IlbeHIi'Iu;a:

l. Ilarpnjapxanao BpeMe xoje je rpajano BIi'IWe xarsana rO~Ii'IHa y aanannoe-

sponcxoj U;Ii'IBIi'I1I1i'I3aU;li'Ijli'lIi'IKylITyPIi'l (KOjOj HapaBHO Ii'ICp61i'1 npananajy), na

H3MaKY je csora nocrojaisa.2. Jlarano necrajaise narpajapxamtor YCTpojCTBa ~pywTBa Ii'IHapo~a, a y lbli'lMa

nopomme, ~OBO~1i'Ino KpynHHx, jow He~OBOlbHO aanazcenax, (nexan Ii'Iiravep-HO nOTli'lcHYTIi'IX) npoMeHa, npe caera y O~HOCy MywKapu;a Ii'Izceae, a OH~a Ii'I

MY)l(a H »cene y Kpyry nopo~li'Iu;e.

3. TaK03BaHo npeJIa3HO BpeMe, y TOKY xora rpetia na ce 1i'1361i'1CTpenOMeHYTIi'I

O~HOCIi'I nOJIOBa, a OH~a na ce nOCTaBe ~pyK'1li'1jli'l TeMelbli'l 6y~yhe nopomrue

- rpajahe BeOMa nyro H

4. I10CTaBlba ce O~JIyqHO rurraise: WTa ca aacmrrarsea Y canaunsoj, caBpeMe-

HOj nopomrua?

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He MO)f(e ce onpehrr 'IMlbeHM~a zra je 0 MeTo,n;aMa aacmrras,a y caapesreaoj[OpO,n;M~M,y cBeTY M KOP; Hac, MHoro nncaao. Jep;HM ayTopM, MaXOM nenarosx,ICMxon03M, neKapM, CO~Mon03M, aHTponon03M, sanpacasajy ce na onpaB,n;aHOMPMTMKOBalbY KOH3epBaTMBHe CTpaHe narpnjapxanaor nacnararsa (A. Kapaa-.ep), ,n;pyrM ayTopM narnauraaajy, raxohe onpasnaao. onny-ryjyh» anaxaj sacna-alba nerera no naspurene nere ronaae )f(MBOTa nerera (Mapnja MOHTecopM),peha nMcU;M0 sacnaraisy, npennaxcy HOBe Ha'IMHe 60Jber Mycrreunnrjer 6yp;y-

er aacmrratsa y nopop;MU;M.Y OBe nocneruse rrncne cnana Mnama )f(eHa, Mamma HOBKoBMn, xoja je 3aBp-

lMna <I>MnonolllKM ¢aKYJITeT y Beorpany, ynara, MajKa nsoje neue. Ibeaa, Benaauje sarraacena KlbMra, "TIOpo,n;M'IHM6yKBap", aa nyTy je HOBMXM3,n;alba, na jeaaj MOj Ilpenrosop npenopyKa aa 'IMTalbe M npMMelbMBalbe KOPMCHMXcasera[MnMu;eHOBKOBMn. Y 'IeMY je rajna ycnexa OBe spenae KlbMre xojy mnue MMnM-

a HOBKOBMn?Mnznma HaM 0 ce6M xazce na je uenor csor )f(MBOTa"Tparana sa nYTeBMMa KOjM

),n;e,n;o,lJ;06poTe JtlJby6aBJtl y nopo,n;JtlU;Jtl,urxona JtlMet)y Jby,n;JtlMa".Inaaae npenpe-~ua OBOM rryry, naur nacau Jtlnacmrras BJtl,n;Jtly ner aYTOpJtlTapHJtlX BaCnJtlTHJtlXonena, a TO cy: npJtlHy,n;a, n03JtlTJtlBHOycnosrsaaaa,e, npesaurrahaaarse, sepoa-{3aM Jtlanoynorpetia JtlMJtlTaTOpCKor06JIJtlKa ysersa, nYTeM aeraraamrx cap;p)f(a-sapryenae Jtlaymrrnaae CTBapHOCTJtl,y najaehoj MepJtl.Ycneumo ce rpynehn na npJtlCTyna'IHJtlM MjacHMM CTMJIOMnajnpe rroxaxce M

ncazce saurro cy nOMeHYTe ayropnrapae MeTop;e y BacnMTalbY norpeume Mona-e aa 6y,n;ynM paasoj nerera, Manana HOBKOBMnnpY)f(a Mo,n;ennpyrasnjer sacna-isa, y KOMe6M CTepeOTMnaH npMHU;Mn: xaaosaaaise Maarpahanaiee nerera, 6MO

MelbeH, npemraxea y Mo,n;enCTpnJbMBOr pasyaesan,a Morijaunsasaa,a, onpanrra-1M McnpaBJbalba ,n;e'IMjMxrpeuraxa, 6y,n;enM y nerery CTBAPAJIAqKO JE3rpOKOjMMCBaKOsnpaao nere ,n;OJIa3Mna CBeT. Ollf'O] 3A CTBAPAJIAlliTBO non-3YMeBa, npesra MMJIMU;MHOBKoBMn, cnenehe: caMoMHMU;MjaTMBY,caaoyserse,raise caMOCBeCTM y nerery, ycrrocranzsaise pasnoreace M3Met)y paU;MOHaJIHe MOQMOHanHe MHTeJIMreHU;Mje,neroaaise ypohene ,n;e'IMjepenMrM03HocTM ca ypo-HOMnOTpe60M nerera aa pxryamoaa, oTKpMBalbe cKpMBeHMx ranenara, nOKpe-De yayrpaum,e MOTMBaU;MjeM paaanjaise cseyxynaor norenuajana, xoje nereHOCMpoheisea.,lJ;onylbaBajynM csoja reopnjcxa paaxorunsaisa )f(MBMMMy6e,n;JbMBMMnpMMe-Ma M3 concrnene aacnnrae npaKce, MMlIMu;a HOBKOBMn nOCTM)f(e nOY3,n;aHM-vcnex KOP; 'IMTaJIa~a McnylllalIa~a jep CBaKMon lbMXnpMpo,n;HO Te)f(M,n;ay ce6M, CBOjOjOKOJIMHMnOMMpM pa~MOHanHO ca eMOTMBHMM,reopxjy ca npaKCOM.

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He CTaBJbaM na nocneznse MeCTOHMMMlIM'IMHy npMBp)f(eHOCT npaBocnaBHoM,cpncKoM xpaurhancrny, xoje 3anpaBo npO)f(MMa CBe lllTO je 6MTHO y )f(MBOTY,YMMClIMMaM oceharsnraa, y OHaKBOM Mo,n;elIYsacmrraa,a KaKO ra sacryna MMlIM-

ua HOBKOBMn.Onurroj 60p6M 3a eKOJIOlllKOcnacaaaise nnanere 3eMJbe, ca CBMMlbeHMM jour

YBeK Ca'IYBaHMM nenorasra y npMpo,n;M, ceccpnno ce npnnpyacyje y "TIOPO,n;M'IHOM6yKBapy" MMlIMu;a HOBKOBMn.

lby60MMp HeHa,n;OBMn je jep;HoM p;aBHO nanacao p;a cy nse najrexce CTBapM naCBeTY: notipo ,n;p)f(aBOMynpaBJbaTM Mnoopo nere BacnMTaTM. AKO M caao perxenoponane rroxymaaajy p;a y npaKCM npMMeHe nposepeae, y OCHOBM'IOBe'IHe case-re MMlIMu;e HOBKOBMn y OBOM "TIOPO,n;WIHOM6yKBapy", YBepeH caM ,n;a he xao3HaMelbe apennjer nopo,n;M'IHOr aacnxrarsa 6MTM Moryn Mapenajn Ha'lMH sohen,aCBaKe ,n;p)f(aBe MCBeTa y u;elIMHM.

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MJIM

Onroj aa CTBapaJIalliTBO

3aBpweTKOM I1Hp;YCTpl1jcKe 11rrOCTI1Hp;YCTpl1jcKe, TeXHOrrOWKe pesonymrje. YMaTepl1jarrHo aajoorarajea p;erry CBeTa rrOCTl1fHYTO je OHO WTO je 6110 11OCTaon;l1lb CBI1XHapop;a, caaxor 'IOBeKa. HeKO je Mopao 6l1Tl1 rrpBI1 y OCTBapefuY BeKOB-nor CHa, CBI1XHaWI1X rrpep;aKa, KOjl1 cy caisarnr 11csoje CHOBe, TeWKI1M panoa,npemapamr y jasy.

Ilanac rrOTOMn;I1,y TOM aajpaaanjenajea p;erry CBeTa, y*I1Bajy nnonose naaernWMYKOTprrHor pap;a, CBOjJ1Xrrpep;aKa. Ha)KarrOCT, ayTOpJ1TapHa, He'IOBe'IHa CBeCTWnaaac anoynorpetirsaaa orposma MaTepJ1jarrHa nocrarnyha WKOPWCTWJ1Xnpo-TWB'IOBeKa, nnaaere, )KWBOTa, xao WTO je TO 'IJ1HWrra Kp03 BeKOBe. Pasaajeaasraje npexo rrorperian 6p3 p;YXOBHJ1paCT, MYfueBJ1Ta rpaaopopxauaja He'IOBe'IHe,aYTOpJ1TapHe y 'IOBe'IHY, craapanaxxy CBeCT,KaKO 6w J1CXapMOHW30Barrw MaTepw-janno U P;yXOBHO,Y MwrreHwjyMy KOjW)KWBWMO.

IIlTa je ca nepasnajeaaaa J1rrwca OHWMaKOjWcy y pasnojy? OCTarrJ1 neo CBeTa,nepaanajeua, he yCBOjWTJ1W Y)KJ1BaTWy p;ocTwrHyhwMa MaTepwjarrHo paasxje-nor CBeTa, arnr npso Mopajy npoha, Kp03 Bprro 6orrHY, eKoHoMcKY J1jaw 60rrHJ1jyP;yXOBHy TpaH3Wn;J1jy. CBaKW CTaHOBHJ1Knnaaere 6w Mopao rrpoha, raxohe Kp036orrHY, P;yXOBHy rpaasauajy, p;a 6w nocrnrao 6rrarop;aT nyxonaor; )KWBOTa,KOjWhe6WTWxapMOHW30BaH ca 6rrarOp;eTJ1Ma MaTepwjarrHor CBeTa.

vb nenerra nonypaasajene WnOTnYHo aepaaanjeae, TeXHorrOWKe wHP;ycTpwjenepaaaxjenax sexrarsa, HJ1hw he jenan TeXHorrOWKWWeKOHOMCKWpaaanjeaa CBeT.Taj CBeT he 6rrecHYTw y CBOj CBOjOj nenora, TeK nOWTO 6yp;e npennaarsen lby6a-srsy, Panourhy J1 ,1J;06POTOM'IOBeKa, 'IOBeKa, KOjWhe XTeTJ1 W3HaTJ1 KaKO p;a pa3-BJ1je xnxue lby6aBw, Panocra J1,1J;06poTe, ca KojwMa je nourao aa osaj CBeT.

Ilpen HaMa je BpeMe nyxosnor yspacrarsa, jep je cpyweH ayTopWTaPHW CWCTeM.Ocrane cy HaM crryre aenocrojeher CWCTeMa (ner ayTOpJ1TapHWX, cnorsaunsnxBacnWTHWX Mop;erra), KOjJ1 cy nanac aajjaxa npenpeKa aa nyTy xapaoaasauajep;YXOBHor W MaTepwjarrHor. )KWBOT he nOCTaTW ,,6ep3a" MaTepwjarrHwx Wp;YXOB-HWXBpep;HOCTJ1, rrpoaasona zsyncxor nyxa KOjJ1jaxajy ,1J;06pOTy WJbytias, xana ceCBaKJ1'IOBeK nouaocoti, npBO y OKBWPYcsoje noponnue, BOlbHO 6yp;e onpexao ner"nrrWlIlaHWX" BacnWTHWX Mop;erra.

,1J;06pOTY WJbytias, xao spxyacxe, Be'IHe Bpep;HOCTW, 'IeKarrW CMO xarsana-Ma ronmra. Kyuajy na BpaTa rropOp;J1n;e, 'IOBeKa rpeher MwrreHwjYMa. ,1J;a6J1 ceBpaTa OTBOpJ1rra 'IOBeK ce Mapa ocrr060p;WTJ1 rrer ayTopwTapHWX BaCnJ1THJ1XMop;erra, crryry CWCTeMa KOjWanure He nocrojn. qOBeK he wx ce ocrr060p;WTJ1, jepcy TO nanac najja-re npenpeKe, aa nyTy p;YXOBHor paCTa, na nyTy pasaoja CBe-CHOCTW.To he ce noronrrra jep ce, 6e3 pasnoja nyxa WBWCOKeCBeCHOCTWp;albeHe MO)Ke. Marepajanao WP;YXOBHOhe ce ypaBHOTe)KWTW y CBaKOM on Hac, I1rrwHac aehe 6WTW.

HOBM KOHu;eIIT BaCIIMTalba

"HOB- KOB«

CTBaparra'IKO aacmrrarse je eMOn;WoHarrHw yTWIJ;aj 'IOBeKa aa 'IOBeKa, y p;Y)KeMBpeMeHcKOM nepwop;y, y Op;CYCTBYIlET ayTopWTaPHl1X BaCnJ1THJ1XMop;erra.

Craapanaxxo sacmrrarse je eMOIJ;WOHanHwyTWIJ;aj'IOBeKa aa 'IOBeKa 6e3 ynorpetie1. IlPJ1HY,1J;E, 5E3 KA3HE, xao cnozsaunser MOTJ1BaIJ;WOHOrcpencrsa.2. 5E3 Il03J1TJ1BHOr YCJ10BlbABAlhA, 5E3 HArPA,1J;E, xao cnozsaunser

MOTWBaIJ;WOHorcpencrsa.3. 5E3 IlPE3AlllTJ1'RJ1BAlhA 'IOBeKa on pap;a, pep;a, )KWBOTaWV1cTwHe.4. 5E3 BEP5AJ1J13MA, csojespcnor o6nwKa npwHyp;e, xana on 'IOBeKa Tpa-

)KJ1Tena 6yp;e 'IOBe'IaH y He'IOBe'IHWM, aYTOpJ1TapHWM ycnosaaa )KJ1BOTayKojwMa P;OMWHJ1pajy: KrraCW'IHa Wnmnuaxa npanyna.

5. 5E3 3J10YIlOTPE5E J1MJ1TATOPCKOr 05J1J1KA yqElhA, xoje je nanacnajjase nYTeM BwpTyenHl1X Wayp;wTWBHWXHeraTWBHWXcanpxcaja,

Cmapana-rxo aacrnrran,e norraan on J1CTWHep;a je 'IOBeK 60)KaHCKO 6J1he xoje:e paha ca KrrWIJ;aMaIlotipore, lby6aBJ1, ca KnWIJ;aMa eMOIJ;J10HanHe, counjanae,rearanne Wzryxosae J1HTenWreHIJ;J1je, ca n03WTJ1BHWMrrorenuajanoa, ca norpe-iasra xoje pasnajajy J1nyx WTerra, a CBe TO ce MO)Key IJ;errOCTWpearrJ130BaTW, casro. Op;CYCTBYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTW, y OP;CyCTBy ner cnozsaunsax BacnWTHWX Mop;erra.;peMe ayropnrapnor nacrnrraa,a, xao p;pecype 'IOBeKa rrponaan. Bpesre WCTWH-xor BAC-"IlJ1TAlhA", xpaisen,a nerera lby6aBlbY, nonasrr.

II;J1Jb je OCTBapeH. 3aBplIleH je paasoj MaTepl1jarrHor, lIle3p;eCeTI1X rorra-a p;Bap;eceTor nexa, y MaTepwjarrHo aajpaaaajeuajoj 3eMlbJ1 CBeTa, y CA,1J;-y,

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EMO~HOHaJIHa xapsrorraja csnrpyje yM, xapssoaaayje ra. YMce cnynrra y cp~e H rseroao npHpOp;HO CBOjCTBO nocraje,ll;06poTa. I

Op;CYCTBOrre r ayTopviTapHWX, CIIOThallItbWX,BaCIIWTHWXMop;enaYCIIOCTaBThaeMOU;WOHanHYxapscomrjy, TaKO llITO ce WCKpWBThe-He, nacrrojene, sarnaarsene, IIOTWCHYTeesrouaje apahajy y csojeW3BOPHO,IIPWpOP;HOcraa.e, llITO p;03BOThaBacnotionan IIPOTOK3allITWTHWXexonaja.

Be3 norse 'IOBeKOBe, ,ll;06poTa ornapa npocrope Jby6aBH.Jby6aB H p;06pOTa nocrajy HajBebH npnjarersn pa3YMa, Jbero-BH "KOHTPOJIOPH".

O~ TPA~M:UMOHAJIHE,~EJIMMMqHO AYTOPMTAPHE,

TIPEKO CABPEMEHE,TIOTTIYHO AYTOPMTAPHE,

~O CTBAPAJIAqKE,qOBEqHE TIOPO~M:UE,TIOPO~M:UE 3A TPEliM

MMJIEHMJYM

Pa3YM CTH'Ie CTBapaJIa'IKY CJI060p;y H nO'IHJbe p;a xpenpa yHHTepecy 'IOBeKa, y HHTepecy npnpone, YBeK H jennno H3paBHH Jby6aBH H ,ll;06poTe, aa 60)KaHCKHM rrpHH~HrrHMa.

CBeCHOCT H p;YXOBHOCTyspacrajy, To je rryT 'IOBeKa TpeberMHJIeHHjYMa.

Bnhe H Tpeber MHJIeHHjYMa H 'IOBeKa y lbeMY, 'IOBeKa KOjHbe OrrJIeMeHHTH CBe xera ce TaKHe.

IIyTeBH KOjH none y p;YXOBHHpaCT cy 6pOjHH. CTBapaJIa'IKOnacmrraa,e je jenan on rryresa KOjH je HaMelbeH 'IOBeKY KOjHce onpenenn p;a Kp03 rropop;H~y ycneunto rpancdiopaaureayropnrapay, He'IOBe'IHY, y CTBapaJIa'IKY, qOBe'IHY CBeCT.

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ITJIAHETA hE 3ACJ1JATJ1ITYHJ1M CJAJEM

BeKOBY1Maje lIOpOAY1u;a peJIaTY1BHOlIaKO, onrajana rrOTOMKe jep cy y MY1PHO-AOrrCKY1MYClIOBY1Ma6Y1lIa BY1AH~ynorpefizsaaana casro ABa, OA MorynY1X ner

ayTOpY1TapHY1XBaCrrY1THY1XMOAelIa. Onofipasaaa je KlIaCY1qHa, pealIHa Ka3Ha, rrteje 6Y1lIO HopMalIHO yrroTpe6Y1TY1 Y1qm3Y1qKO Y1Bep6alIHO nacxzse HaA AeTeTOM,Y1lIY1 HaA QlIaHOM rrOpOAY1u;eKOjY1HY1je6Y10 na BpXy rrOpOAY1QHerrY1paMY1Ae.YHa-rrpeA je CBaKY1QlIaH rrOpOAY1u;esnao jacaa rrpaBY1lIa, xoja cy ce MopalIa nourroaa-TY1,a xoja cy 6Y1lIaYBeK y CKlIaAY ca rrpaBY1lIY1Maxoja je nocraszsano APYlliTBO roraapeveaa. Ilaxne, nOpOAY1u;aje 6Y1lIa nOTnYHO y CKlIaAY ca ApYlliTBeHY1M, nY1CaHY1MY1HerrY1CaHY1MrrpaBY1JIY1Ma,ca U;Y1lbeMna Y1caxa 6YAe QyBap Tor CY1CTeMa,QyBapKJIaCHOr ApYlliTBa.

Ilaxne, aKO je TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHa noponxua MY1lIOM, JIerrOM pesjy Y1lIY1 CY1lIOM,

6aTY1HOM,Ka3HOM, Bep6alIHOM npY1HYAOM, nOCTY13alIa rrOClIYIIIHOCT Y1rrourrosa-lbe ApYlliTBeHY1X, rrY1CaHY1XY1HenY1CaHY1Xnpaaana, OHAa je OHa 6Y1lIa AelIY1MJ1liHOayroparapna. AKO je OA MorynY1X nET ayTOpY1TapHY1XBaCnY1THY1XMOAelIa (Ka3Ha,narpana, npe3aIIITY1nY1Balbe, Bep6alIY13aM Y1anoynorpeoa Y1MY1TaTOpCKor06lIY1- .

xa y-reisa), TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHarrOpOAY1u;aKOpY1CTY1lIacasto ABa, (KlIaCY1QHYKa3HY Y1Bep6aJIY13aM, xao lIerry pex), onna je jacno Aa je OHa 6Y1lIa, Malbe aYTOpY1TapHa OAcaapesieae noponaue, jep caBpeMeHa KOPY1CTY1CBY1Xner ayTOpY1TapHY1XBaCnY1T-HY1XMOAelIa, 30BY1MOY1X"rrlIY1IllaHY1", jep cy 6aTY1Ha Y1sepoanna npY1HYAa 3aKO-HOM aaopaieena. J1 rropeA satipaxe qm3Y1QKOY1Bep6alIHO aacarse cy npY1cyTHY1BY1IlleHero Y1KaAa.

TpaAY1U;Y10HalIHarropoAHu;a je naxure crrpOBOAHJIa y rrpaKcH OHO IIITO je 6Y1lIaaauprana, xao MorynH BacrrHTHH U;Hlb. DHJIa je snpaaxja, y 0AHOCY na caBpeMeHYnoponmry H 3aTO je H lby6aBH H notipore, na THMe II! craapanaurrna 6HJIO AaJIeKO

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ure. I1pMjeMqMBOCT aa aexae Bpe,IWOCTM, 6MJIa je MHOrO jaxa M xenrha nero KOP;

sexa caspeaeaor p;o6a.

Ila JIMje 6MJIO rrarrse? HapaBHO p;a ce rraTMJIO. fp;e ron je npecypa, rne ron je BaC-

rraise xao rroxymaj na ce HeKO HaTepa na rrOCJIYIllHOCT 6aTMHoM, Ty je M narrsa.

iTM ce xana ron ce Melba M3BopHa npapona qOBeKOBa, cnorsa, ayTopMTapHO.

iTMJIO ce, aJIM MaI-be Hero nanac, jep je nanac KpMBJbeI-be CBMX M3BOPHMX eMOD;M-

rrpMCYTHO, P;OK je y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj KpMBJbeI-be 6MJIO p;eJIMMMqHO.

I1oCJIep;MD;e aYTopMTapHOCTM cy ce CKpMBaJIe, y p;06a Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHe rropo-

ID;e. CBe IllTO P;PYIllTBO HMje p;03BOJbaBaJIO p;a MCrrJIMBa na rrOBpIllMHY )KMBO-

, p;a ce MaHM<pecTyje xao rrp06JIeM, TO HMje .HM nocrojano. Y CTBapM, MHore

:BMjaD;Mje, xoje naaac CJI060P;HO rtnnaajy na rrJIOqM )KMBOTa, nocrojane cy, aJIM

, 6MJIe cxpasane y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj rropop;MD;M. bMJIO je rraronornje, HaCMJba,

ilOD;MOHaJIHMX, <PM3MqKMX M MeHTaJIHMX 60JIeCTM, JIelbOCTM, oryhenocrn, aJIM

~y OBOJIMKOj MepM y KOJIMKOj MX MMa nanac. Ilanac ce OCJI060~eHO 3JIO orsope-:) MaHM<peCTyje, rra TMMe M YMHO)KaBa, jep HeMa CTpaxa ozt 6aTMHe. HaCMJba M

sera OKO HaCMJba, y caapeveaoj rroponnua, My caapereenov P;pyIllTBy MMa nane-

) smue Hero pamrje, y Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHoj. HarreTOCTM, xao rrOCJIep;MD;eayTopMTap-

OCTM,je 6MJIO MaI-be, rra je M norpetie aa rrpa)KI-beI-beM HarreTOCTM, rrYTeM HaCMJba,

(.1JIOMaI-be, Hero nanac.

Jep;HOMopaMO rrpM3HaTM: Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHa noponaua je naaana P;pyIllTBy nane-o 60lbe M nocnyumaje rpabaae, MaI-be HaCMJIHe, Hero IllTO TO rrOJIa3M aa PYKOM

aapesreaoj rropop;MD;M. Y3pOK TOMe JIe)KM yrrpaBo y qMI-beHMD;M na caapenenaopop;MD;a KOPMCTM I1ET rrJIMIllaHMX BacrrMTHMX MOp;eJIa, a xao rrOCJIep;MD;yP;06M-

l HaCMJIHOr xosexa KOjM MaHM<pecTyje nacnrse Hap; C060M, P;pyrMM qOBeKOM, Hap;

PYIllTBOM M rrpMpop;OM.

Illra ce p;OrOp;MJIO, na rrJIaHY MCTopMje, 're je P;OIllJIO no rpancrpopaauaje Tpa-

,MD;MOHaJIHenoponnne y caBpeMeHY, p;o saopane 6aTMHe M rrpeJIaCKa na "rrJIM-

uaaynpanyny! MaTepMjaJIHM paCT je 3aBpweH, (rrojernr CMO jaoyxy), rrOqeTKOM

~pyre rrOJIOBMHe nsaneceror nexa, J.1HP;yCTpMjCKy peBOJIYD;Mjy je CMeHMJIa epa

[MCTe rexaonor-aje, epa qMrra. I1pMpOP;HO je rrpecTaJIa rrorpefia p;a ce qOBeK yrI-be-

-ana 6aTMHoM, CypOBMM <PM3MqKMM Ka)KI-baBaI-bMMa, He 6M JIM ce narnao na pap;.

Iexaonourxa peBOJIYD;Mja je KOHaqHO oxroryhana qOBeKY p;a Y)KMBa y rrJIOp;OBMMa

.sora pana M BeKOBHor sanararsa CBOjMx rrpep;aKa. CTBopeHM cy YCJIOBMaa p;YXOB-

m pacr, aa pacr CBeCHOCTM,sa 6pYIlleI-be yHyTpaIllI-ber p;MjaMaHTa.

CBe je 6MJIO cnpexrao, a MrraK ce noronxo xaoc. YMecTo y p;YXOBHOCT M CBe-

:HOCT caspesrerra qOBeK je yrrJIOBMO y MaTepMjaJIHO, y xenoaasaa, y aecsecnocr,r cnorsaunse, y aacnzse.

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3aKOHOM yKMHyTM 6aTMHY, a TO ce p;OrOp;MJIOy paaaajeirosr CBeTY, y npyroj rrOJIO-

BMHM naaneceror sexa, 3HaqMJIO je pYIlleI-be cnozsaunse, rrMpaMMp;aJIHe opraHM3a-

nnje )KMBOTa xoja ce Op;p)KaBana 6aTMHOM M CTpaXOM on 6aTMHe.

qOBeK je M3ry6Mo CTpax on p;pyror xosexa, xana je 6aTMHa 3aKOHOM satiparseaa.

Ha noapurmry )KMBOTa je M3MIllJIO CBe IllTO je P;O rana 6MJIO rrpMKpMBaHO y KPMJIy

Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHe noponaue M Tpap;MD;MOHaJIHOr p;pyIllTBa. AyTopMTapHM CMCTeM

ce YPYWMO, aJIM cy OCTaJIe rrpeOCTaJIe cnyre cncreaa, nnauraaa Ka3Ha M narpana.Cnyre cy ce onpzcane M nanac rrpaBe xaoc na rrJIaHeTM, yaoce CTpax y CBaKY neJIM-

jy qOBeKOBY. Crpax Y3paCTa, KJIMD;eJby6aBM, Pap;OCTM M ,U06pOTe ce He pasaaja-jy. CBe TO rpaje rrpep;yro, smne on nona sexa, IllTO CTBapa p;op;aTHM crpax. qOBeK

ce YMOPMO, jep rrpenyro srexa npoveae, a rrpOMeHa nehe 6MTM p;OK cnyre cpywe-

nor CMCTeMa nocroje.Ilano« aYTopMTapHor CMCTeMa, a OCTaHKOM I-berOBMX CJIyry, JIOrMqHO je rrpeTM-

JIa nojaxana orraCHOCT on cYK06a Me~y lbyp;MMa. Jep;HMcy 6MJIM HOCMOD;MTpap;MD;M-

OHaJIHMX Bpep;HOCTM M HOPMM, a p;pyrM cy M3MIllJIM KOHaqHO na CBeTJIOCTnana, ca

CBMMrrpMKpMBaHMM MYKaMa M rrp06JIeMMMa, xoje HMje npnaaaaana Tpap;MD;MOHalI-

aa CBeCT,MaKOje CBe TO nocrojano, yHyTap rropop;MD;e. I1aMeTHM lbYP;M pasaajenorCBeTa cy rrOKYIllaBaJIM p;a npenynpene Moryhe cyxotie TaKO IllTO cy YBeJIM "TolIe-

paauxjy" xao rryT na ce nourryjy pa3JIMqMTOCTM, xoje cy CBaKMM p;aHoM 6MBaJIe

CBe BMp;lbMBMje. Y3 TOJIepaHD;Mjy pa3BMjeHM cy TPOIllMJIM orpoMHy CHary M HOBaD;

p;a ce HOBorrOCTaBJbeHa npana xoaexa, xcene M rrerera ncnourryjy.Y3 HerrpeCTaHo anenosan,e M noncehan,e aa norpetiy ronepaaunje M nourro-

sarsa lbYP;CKMX rrpaBa, ys ysoherse p;eMoKpaTMje, y3 3aKOHOM sariparseny 6aTMHY,

HACJ.1JbA je 6Mno M 6MBa CBe amue M amne. Hacarse rpaje M y3paCTa smue onnona sexa, a cana ce M YMHO)KaBa jep je ueo CBeT y MaTepMjalIHoj MP;YXOBHOjTpaH-

3MD;MjM, aJIM na rrpMHD;MrrMMa aYTopMTapHe, rrmnnaae p;eMoKpaTMje.

Orxyna TonMKO nacnzsa? Y caaxoj 3eMJbM, y csaxoj rropop;MD;M, na CBaKOM

MeCTY y P;pyWTBy M npaponn aacarse CBMX 06JIMKa 6yja. CBM ce 6aBe rrocneznrna-

Ma xoje p;OHOCM "rrJIMWaHa"rrpMHyp;a. Baseha ce HacMlbeM, M I-berOBMM CMaI-bMBa-

I-beM, craapajy ce HOBe nocnennue nexenax rrOCJIep;MD;a.KOHaqHO je nourno BpeMe

na ce qOBeqaHCTBO rr03a6aBM yspouaaa xacazsa M xaoca KOjM rpajy, p;a npecra-He na ce jaJIOBO 6aBM rrOCJIep;MD;aMa.Y3POQJ.1 nacazsa y caapeveaoj noponaux M

caBpeMeHOM P;PYIllTBY, y D;eJIMHM,cy "rrJIMWaHM" BacrrMTHM Mop;elIM KOjM cy JIeraJI-

HO YWJIM Y ynorpetiy, xao aasieaa aa <PM3MqKOM Bep6aJIHO aaciose, Hap; qOBeKOM.

"I1JIMWaHO" aacrrrrraise je nonyheno y 3aMeHY aa peaJIHy rrpMHyp;y M ca irene-pOBaTHOM JIaKOnOM je CBaKM qOBeK rrpMXBaTMO OBY "rrpoMeHy", sepyjyha p;a je

pex 0 rrpOMeHM. Y CTBapM, HeMa HMKaKBe nposcene. Ila je TaKO, norapbyje naxohaca KOjOM je ayropxrapaa CBeCT rrpMXBaTMJIa "rrJI(.1llIaHY"Ka3HY M Harpap;y, a OHa

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npl1XBaTa CaMO OHO lllTO je l1CTO,OgHOCHO lbOj CJIl1lJHO,OgHOCHO aYTOpl1TapHO.AYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTHe MO)Kece6l1 rrOTI1l1CaTl1CMPTHYrrpecygy TaKO lllTO he og6a-~l1Tl1 ayTOpl1TapHe BaCIIl1THe MogeJIe. YKl1gajyhl1lbl1X, OHa yKl1ga caMY ce6e l13aTOhe rrpou;ec rpancrpopraauaje aYTOpl1TapHe, HelJOBelJHe, y CTBapaJIalJKY, lJOBelJHYCBeCTrpajarn BpJIO gyro.

Y OBOMrrpeJIa3HOM nepaony rpaaanuaje rryxa Ba)KHOje Ca3HaTl1 KOjl1cy y3pO-U;l1aacarsa, pa3YMeTl1 l1 OCeTl1Tl1 norpetiy ga ce OHl1 yKl1Hy, og6au;e, xao aeurronpeaasnbeao, jep croje aa rryTy Y3,lJ;l13albanyxa l1 CBeCTl1.

AYTOpl1TapHOCT nxxana jaxa. Kao rroczreznnry g06l1jaMo l1CKpl1BlbeHO l13BOp-HO lbygCKO 6l1he xoje, CBe l1,lJ;axohe, He MO)Ke,lJ;a6yge TOJIepaHTHO, Hl1Tl1MO)Ke,lJ;anourryje ce6e Hl1 npyro lbY,lJ;CKO6Mhe, Hl1Tl1MO)KeBOlbHO, 6e3 Ka3He l1 narpane nanourryje npasa lJOBeKa, »ceae l1 nerera.

MO)Ke, aJIl1 jenano Cl1JIOM,je,lJ;l1HOcnozsa, narpabaaan.ev l1JIl1 xaxosaaarsea,ogY3l1MalbeM otiehaae narpane jep ce sanarax aaje 06aBl10. CBe TO ,lJ;O,lJ;aTHOyse-hana aYTOpl1TapHOCT l1l13 3alJapaHOr Kpyra ce reurxo l13JIa3l1. A y TOMsasapanosrxpyry, rrOXJIerrHl1X,arpecxsnax, JIelbl1X TeJIOMl1,lJ;YXOM,3aBl1,lJ;Hl1X,oryheaax, 6JIyg-Hl1X, Hl1KOce He Mallla aa notipo, aa neno, sa l1CTl1Hy, aa lby6aB, sa yHyTpallllbe.He Mallla ce jep y,lJ;YXOBHOjpasna ClIl1lJHOrrpl1BlIalJl1 ClIl1lJHO,a caspeaeaa lJOBeK,)KpTBa Ka3He l1 Harpa,lJ;e nocraje arpecasan, noxnenaa, lIelb, HeCBeCTaH, sasrmaa,oryhen ,lJ;YXOMon ce6e, ,lJ;pyror lJOBeKa l1 npnpone. TaKaB lJOBeKhe ca nnose )Kl1BO-Ta, aa KOjOj rrzrasa CBOnotipo l1 CBO3lIO CBeTa YBeK rrocefHYTl1 aa 3JIOM, jep OHOsanonorsana iserose ncxpaan.ene rrorpetie.

,1J;alIl1 ce MO)Kel13 osor sasapaaor xpyrai Hapasao ga MO)Ke, ana CBe l1Ma CBOjpenocnen xopaxa ITa l1l13lIa3aK l13 aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. Heaoryhe je y l1CTOMMOMeH-Ty yKl1UyTl1 Ka3HY l1 Harpagy l1 na npyurraenosr l1na rrOpO,lJ;l1lJHOMHl1BOy.Hacrao611 ornnrn xaoc. Tpe6a KpeHyTl1 0,lJ;noponaue, npavapae l1 cexyanapae (nopo-,lJ;l1u;a,aprxh, urxona). Ilonaxo he ce lJOBelJHa CBeCT llIl1pl1Tl1 Y pagHoM oxpyace-lby, y gpylllTBy, xao u;elIl1Hl1. Hacarse he ce CMalbl1BaTl1 caao on ce6e, TaKO ,lJ;a611Ka3Ha l1 narpana xojy 611 saxoaonaaau sanpscao 6l1lIa naxreisena HeCBeCHl1Ma. YCKOPOj6ygyhHOCTl1 HeCBeCHl1 l1 HaCl1lIHl1he 6l1Tl1 y xareropajn 60JIeCHl1X TaKO gaje rnrrarse ga lIl1 he l1M MeCTO 6l1Tl1 y 60JIHl1u;aMa, y 3,lJ;paBl1Mrropogl1u;aMa l1lIl1 y3aTBOpl1Ma. Hehexso l1Xxaaosasara n narpahnsara seh hesro l1McTBapaTl1 lJOBelJ-He YClIOBe KaKO 611 ce sparxna CBOMl13BOPHOM6l1hy.

BpeMe CTBAPAJIA qKE, lJOBelJHe rropogl1u;e nonasx. ,1J;OJIa3l1BpeMe y KojeM heCBl1nanm OgHOCl1 6l1Tl1 YTeMelbeHl1 na Jhy6aBl1 l1 ,1J;06pOTl1. KOJIl1KOhe rpajarnTpaHc¢OpMaU;l1ja ayropirrapae, HelJOBelJHe y cTBapalIalJKY lJOBelJHY nopornnry l1na lIl1 he CBaKl1 nojeznrnau gO)Kl1BeTl1 osaj npeotipazcaj, 0 TOMe Hl1KOHe MO)Kenana Cl1rypny rrporH03y. Jenno je jacno na cy Y3POU;l1,nperrpexe gYXOBHOMpacTy

geTeKTOBaHl1. KOjOM 6P3l1HOM he OBYl1CTl1HYrrpl1XBaTl1Tl1 CBeT, CBaKaKO 3aBl1Cl1on rrOJIl1Tl1lJKeCBeCTl1KOjOj ogroBapa, l1JIl1He onrosapa TpaHC¢OpMaU;l1ja lbygcKe

l1Hgl1Bl1gyaJIHe CBeCTl1,a Tl1Me l1TpaHC¢OpMaU;l1ja aYTOpl1TapHe, septianae geMo-KpaTl1je y CTBapaJIalJKY, pagHy.

CBe Ml1ce amue lJl1Hl1ga YCKOPOnehe 6l1Tl1 6l1TH"aHl1aYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTnona-Tl1lJKl1XCTpyKTypa J1 EOrATJ1X ITOJE,1J;J1HAIJ;A, KOJJ1 ,1J;AHAC KPEJ1PAJYCBET, jep he CBeCT nojenxaaua HapaCTaTl1 BelIl1KOM6P3l1HOM, re he KBaHTl1TeTnpepacra y KBalIl1TeT, rrocne xera Hl1KOBl1llle nehe Mohl1, onosro, narepecao naHaMehe pelllelba xoja cy rrpOTl1B lJOBeKa, rrpl1po,lJ;e l1 )Kl1BOTa.

3a cana HaM npeocraje ga llll1pl1MO snarse CTBapalIalJKOr sacmrrarsa y 6a3l1, yCBaKOMKyTKy nnanere, KaKO611ce 6poj CTBapalIalJKl1X lIl1lJHOCTl1l1crsapana-norxnoponmta yaehasao. CaMO he KBaHTl1TeT l13Hegpl1Tl1 KBalIl1TeT. CaMO KOMYHl1Ka-U;l1jOM6e3 YMeTalba Ka3He l1 uerpane, Me~y lby,lJ;l1Ma,Cl1ryPHO l1geMo xa U;l1lby, xaBpeMeHY Jbytiasa, ,1J;06poTe l1 )Kl1BOTarrperryHor Pa,lJ;OCTl1,xa BpeMeHY y KojeM helJOBeK yHyTap ce6e nonahx caBpllleHy, ,lJ;BOCTpyKynl1paMl1,lJ;y.3acl1jahe ,lJ;l1jaMaHT.,1J;l1jaMaHTl1,J1KoHe EO)Kl1je he ureraru rrrraneroxt. ITlIaHeTa he sacajarn rryHl1Mcjajea l1lIerrOTOM, jep he qOBeK l1 nnanera 6l1Tl1 KOHalJHOy XapMOHl1jl1.

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AYTOPMTAPHMBACTIMTHMMO)l:EJIM M

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nOpO~~IlW nanac qHHe: MaMa, rara, 6paha, cecrpe. 6a6e, ~e~e xao H TB, BH~eo,xovrrjyrep, Mo6HJlHH H HHTepHeT, amr rroponmnr rrpHrra~a H CBaKH qOBeK

KOjHBpum CHa)KaH eMO~HOHaJlHH yrnuaj na nere, y ~y)KeM BpeMeHCKOMrrepHo~y,paHor ~eTHfuCTBa. Ilerery rropo~H~y He MO)Keycneumo 3aMeHHTH HH jenaa ~py-urrseaa HHCTHTy~Hja HJlH KOMYHa,sa urra ce MHorH nanac 3aJla)KY. Iloponnua herpajarn. ~OK rpaje rropO~H~a, 6Hhe soaexa, ~OK je xosexa 6Hhe CBeTa.

AyTopHTapHH CHCTeMje pohen y noponnua, H3 xoje je MeTaCTa3Hpao y CBenenose ~pyillTBa. ~aHac je yrpO)KeH caM orrcraaax rroponnue, fueHHX xnaaosa rraH npyurrsa y ~eJlHHH. Iloponaua HHCTHHKTHBHOoceha ~a fueH xpaj 3HaqH H xpaj'IOBeKa na nnaaern. Oryna sanaj, mrratsa H rrOTpara aa KpHB~eM. Iloponaua nana-3H KpHB~a y ~pyIllTBy, Y fuerOBHM HHcTHTy~HjaMa. He MO)Kena CXBaTHna je OHacrapaja O~ CBaKe npyurrneae HHCTHTy~Hje, ~a je OHa ponxna, onrsyzsana, onrajana,npanpevana H aa xpajy, rrocnana csoja 'Ie~a, ~a xpenpajy ~pyillTBO, rro CBOjOjMepH.

KaKO noponxua rroceje, TaKO H rrozose. Ilornenaao nH ~pyillTBO, CBeT,He MO)Ke-MO ce rrOXBanHTH ~a CMO ra ype~HJlH no MepH Hosexa. Macro je CTpaxa, 6eca,rroxnerre, 3aBHCTH, rraKOCTH, oceharsa KpHBH~e, HaCHJba, 60neCTH, saraheae rrpH-pone, a Jby6aBH, notipore, rrCHxO-¢H3HqKOr 3~paBJba, crnapana-nce HHTeJlHreH~H-je HMa caao y TparOBHMa.

PO~HTeJbH sepyjy na je uncona KpHBa aa rraTfuY fuHXOBor nerera. Hajel BH CTe,nparn pO~HTeJbH, O~HerOBaJlH yse, npodiecope, nenarore, Bepyjere ~a cy paTOBHKpHBH sa saura cTpagafua. He! BeJlHKe sojcxosohe cy O~JbyJbaHe y ayTopHTapHHMrropo~H~aMa. Y panov nermscrsy, nyro cy Be)K6aJlH MaJle nopornome paToBe, aOH~a npeumx y ocaajarse CBeTa. TBp~HTe ~a cy rrOJlHTH'IapH KpHBH 3a BaillY MaTe-pHjanHy 6e~y, sa aecpeheno craise y ~pyIllTBy, sa MOpaJlHY KPH3Y. He! Kaxcere ~acy rroxnernra, CBe yseure aa ce6e, a BaMa OCTaBHIlle MpBHl~e. 3a6opaBHnH CTe ~aje xopea noxnene y fuHMa aacrao onor TpeHyTKa xana cy HX porurrezsa novena

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rcnoszsaaarn na nojeny OHO llITO He BOlle, Hy,[(etm: J1M tuapeay lIa)f(y. 0,[( rana, snaj-.e, noxrrena 6yja y lbJ1Ma, HapaCTa, rpaxceha YBeK sehe aa "Malbe".

Ila 1IJ1noopo qyjeM? "KpJ1Ba je TelIeBJ13J1ja, jep Hy,[(J1llIyH,[( l1 aacmse, xaapn HaMteuy!" 3a60paBJ1CTe na 6allI Balli CJ1H, xojer CTe nnaurana Batia-porawa, BellITJ1-~aMa, Bauaxa, ,[(YXOBJ1Ma,MOpalIHJ1M J1 CPJ13J1qKJ1Mnaxaaasra, ypehyje 3a6aBHJ1 J1PJ1lIMCKJ1nporpaa na TelIeBJ13J1jJ1, 6J1pa cpJ1lIMOBeCTpaBe J1yxcaca, a HeKJ1MHOBJ1M,llIJ1llIaHJ1M KlIl1HU;J1MaHy,[(J1najrope Moryhe u;pTaHe cpJ1lIMOBe, nocrre KOjJ1Xaaurerere MO)f(e 6J1TJ1 casro MOHCTPYM, J11IJ1neurro jour rope.

3a Balli paK, lIeYKeMJ1jy, KpJ1BJ1Te saraheny npJ1po,[(y. IlpeBJ1,[(elIJ1 cre na je HeqJ1-

e nere, nanac onpacrao qOBeK, npocyllo nadrry y Mope, 6aU;J11I0 pa,[(J10aKTJ1BHY)OM6y, nYCTJ1lIO BJ1pyC J13 natioparopaje J1 ClIJ1QHO. Mopare ce CYOqJ1TJ1ca J1CTJ1-fOM na nopomrua HJ1je sorrerra OBO nere, nere He MO)Ke na BOlIJ1 ce6e, 3aUITO 6J1101IelIO npJ1po,[(y J13alllTO 6J1 6PJ1HYlIO 0 aauresr 3,[(paBJby. IlpJ1MepJ1Ma HeMa xpaja,

OJ1lIJ1 cy MalIJ1: HJ1KOlIa Teena, Iberour, JOBaH QBJ1jJ1h, JOCJ1CPIlaHQJ1h, OTaU;lanej, Anexcaanap <DlIeMJ1Hr, Ilerap CaBJ1h, MHOrJ1 ,[(06pJ1 nexapn, nporpeco-)11, notipe xoxmnrje, ,[(06pJ1 JbY,[(J1.Ha cpehy qOBeqaHCTBa, lbJ1X HJ1je ycrreo na~ecpopMJ1111e aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeM. TaKBJ1x je MallO, a J1naK ,[(OBOJbHO, na 6J1:BeT rpajao.

BOlIelIJ1 6J1 CTe CBeT 6e3 para, 6e3 npore, 6e3 TelllKJ1X 601IeCTJ1, 6e3 rnarnr, 6e3racarsa]! ,Ua 1IJ1here CTBOPJ1TJ1TaKaB CBeT 3aBJ1CJ1 0,[( nac, Osor rpeaa yqJ1HJ1Tereurro:

• IlpJ1rplIJ1Te same nere xoje cnca npcr, YMecTo lllTO ra rpmrre, ynapare J11IJ1nO,[(MJ1hyjeTe. Baine nere je saura nOCJIe,[(J1u;a, rrocnenaua aYTopJ1TapHJ1X nac-nJ1THJ1X Mo,[(ella.

• 3aXBalIJ1Te ce MajU;J1 J1 cynpy3J1 na ,[(J1BHOMpyqKy.

• OnpOCTJ1Te saureer cynpyry lllTO je ca ,[(J1BJbelbeM nornenao lIeny nesojxy,jep ce MO)K,[(aca Qe)KlbOM CeTJ10 saure nexanaunse nenore J1 csoje MlIa,[(oCTJ1.

• He HY,[(J1Te aauresr MalIl1111aHY J1rpaqKY ,[(a 6J1 nojeo CBe OHO lllTO CTe BJ13aMJ1ClIJ11IJ1.

• He nzraunrre Ballly ,[(eBojQJ1U;y CTpalllHJ1M BYKOM KOjJ1 he je nojecrn, YKOlIJ1-KO He nOKynJ1 nrpavxe.

• OnpOCTJ1Te pO,[(J1TeJbJ1MalllTO cy nac rp,[(J1lIJ1,TyKlIJ1, nOTu;elbJ1BalIJ1, aacrpaunr-BalIJ1, YClIOBJbaBalIJ1, npeaaurrxhaaann, 3axTeBalIJ1 ,[(a6y,[(eTe MOpalIHJ1 y HeMO-palIHJ1M YClIOBJ1Ma )KJ1BOTa. OnpOCTJ1Te J1M xesaaa,e, xoje cy HaClIe,[(J1lIJ1 0,[(CBOjJ1XpO,[(J1TeJba, OnpOCTJ1Te J1MlllTO cy ce nanac onpexnn csoje Tpa,[(J1U;J10HalI-He CBeCTJ1J1aacmrran,a CBOjJ1Xnpenaxa, jep cy J1XHaTepalIJ1 ,[(aycsoje nmnuaaeBaCnJ1THe xronene He 60pJ1Te ce npOTJ1B lbJ1X, jep cy J1OHJ1)KpTBe ayTOpJ1Tap-HJ1XBaCnJ1THJ1XMo,[(elIa, KJIACli1QHli1X li1JIli1 I1JIli1111AHli1X. KpeHJ1Te nYTeM

KOjJ1BaM oTBapa HOBJ1KOHu;enT sacrnrrarsa, onroj aa cTBapalIalliTBo, BaCnJ1Ta-rse 6e3 Ka3He J1 Harpa,[(e, 6e3 nlIJ1111aHe J16J11I0 xoje ,[(pyre npJ1Hy,[(e.

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Mopaao ,[(eMJ1CTJ1cpJ1KOBaTJ1BaCnJ1THe Mo,[(elle aa KojJ1Ma je nOQJ1BalIa Tpa,[(J1U;J1-oHalIHa noponaua J1nocnenaue xoje cy OHJ1OCTaBJ1lIJ1na pasnoj QOBeKa, noponnueJ1P;PYlllTBa Y u;elIJ1HJ1. To je BplIO Ba)KHO jep ·cy caBpeMeHJ1 pO,[(J1TeJbJ1onrajaan aapealIHoj Ka3HJ1, na cTpaxy 0,[(6aTJ1He, na cTpaxy 0,[( sepoannor J1CPJ13J1QKOrxaxosa-Balba J1na Bpe,[(HocHoM CJ1CTeMYcaora ,[(06a, na jaCHJ1M npaBJ1lIJ1Ma urra je notipo,a UITa He, urra ce CMe a urra He CMe. Ilanac cy MlIa,[(J1pO,[(J1TeJbJ1,alIJ1 J16aKe J1nexe,

CBep;0U;J1OrpOMHJ1X npOMeHa, KaKBe He naMTJ1 noponaua Kp03 J1CTOPJ1jy. CBJ1 cy36YlbeHJ1 J1necpehnn, jep He npenosuajy ,[(acy nnmnamt, Y3POQHJ1U;J1lbJ1XOBJ1Xnpo-61IeMa. O'[(paClIJ1 cy 36YlbeHJ1 J1 aecpehan, xcane sa npOllllIl1M BpeMeHJ1Ma. Caspe-MeHa neua MJ1ClIe,[(a je )KJ1BOTO,[(YBeK6J10 aysja jaMa J1,[(aje lbJ1XOBa rrarisa CaCBJ1Mnpaponna. Ibrrarse je na 1IJ1neua, no onsajarsy 0,[( csor J13BOpHOr 6J1ha yonnrre J1MJ1ClIe,[(a nare J11IJ1naTlbY npnxaarajy xao HeMJ1HOBHOCT,xao CBOjy ,[(pyry npJ1po,[(yy KOjOj nOQJ1lbY naTOlIOlllKJ1 na Y)KJ1Bajy. J1 je,[(HJ1 J1 ,[(pyrJ1 nOQJ1lbY ,[(a sepyjy ,[(a jeOBO HeMJ1HOBHOCTna xojy He MO)KeMOYTJ1u;aTJ1.HJ1KO He carnenasa OBO ,[(06a xaonpenasna nepJ1o,[(, xa ,[(06y ,[(YXOBHOCTJ1.He BJ1,[(eJ131Ia3, jep He npenoaaajy y3POQ-HJ1Ke xaoca KOjJ1)KJ1BJ1MOJ1 nOlIaKO ce MJ1pe ca MoryhoM KaTaKm13MoM.

Caspesreaa noponaua pasnajeaor CBeTa o,[(aBHO ce npJ1lIarOp;J1lIa xaocy y KojeM)KJ1BJ1,3a60paBJ1lIa je na p;06a Tpap;J1U;J10HalIHe noponane J1 iseaor Bpe,[(HOCHorCJ1CTeMa. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 J1Majy seh rpehy renepauajy, xoja je onaeroaaaa y nlIJ1111aHJ1Mnoponnuaaa, xoja je YTeMeJbJ1lIa CBOj CMJ1CaO)KJ1BOTa na HOBQY J1 J1CKJbYQJ1BOaa xarepajanaon 61IarOCTalbY, HA XE,UOHJ13MY, xao jep;J1HJ1M Bpep;HOCTJ1Ma J13KOjJ1XnpOJ1CTJ1Qy CBe OCTalIe Bpep;HOCTJ1.

Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 cy npe3alllTJ1TJ11IJ1 csoje nOTOMKe on BeQHe J1CTJ1HE, p;a je p;YXOB-HJ1 pacr, pacr Jby6aBJ1 J1CTJ1HCKJ1U;J1Jbnaurer )KJ1BOTa. Ilpaxsaheua je naxc, p;aje HOBAQ je,[(J1HJ1 J1 caM ce6J1 U;J1Jb,YMecTo p;a je HOBau; J1CKJbyqJ1BO y cpyHKU;J1-jJ1 nyxoaaor paCTa QOBeKa J1 QOBeQaHCTBa. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 QaK HJ1 He aacnyhyjy nacy Ka3Ha J1 Harpap;a Y3POQHJ1U;J1MyKa J1 lbJ1XOBJ1XJ1 namax. HanpOTJ1B, CJ1lIOBJ1-TO rypajy KaMeH y3 6p'[(0, a pacTaQy ce J1 KaMeH J1 ppp;o J1 CJ13J1CP.Ynopao rypajyHOBe napaurraje xa "BJ1CJ1HaMacc KojJ1Ma ce CJ1lIa3J1 y nOHOp.

MO)Kp;a he nopop;J1u;e paaanjeaor CBeTa, y OBOM Op;eJbKY y xojea hy rOBOpJ1TJ1 0TJ1nOBJ1Ma Jby,[(J1xoje je Mop;elIOBalIa KlIaCJ1QHa J1nlIJ1111aHa npJ1Hyp;a, npen03HaTJ1na cy TO l1lbJ1XOBJ1 np061IeMJ1 J1,[(a he nO)KelIeTJ1,[(a ce oClI060p;e Y3pOQHJ1Ka, ,[(pecy-pe, KOjOj Mopa noha xpaj. Hexa OBa KlbJ1ra, nexa aaaise craapanaxxor aacmrrarsa6y,[(e O,[(CKOQHanacxa, 3anOQeTaK ,[(YXOBHor pacra QOBeKa J1 QOBeQaHCTBa. Kpe-HJ1MO0,[( Tpa,[(J1U;J10HalIHe nopo,[(J1u;e xoja je 6J1lIa yrexrezserra aa KlIaCJ1QHoj Ka3HJ1.

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T A" Ma lIJ1 nerera Tpap;J1~J10HalIHe nopop;J1~e xoje HJ1je OCeTJ1lIO,na BlIaCTJ1Toj.v1KO)KJ1,3aKOH npJ1Hyp;e, <pJ13J1'IKeJ1sepfianae. <DJ13J1'lKOxaaosaaaise, OMalIO-nazcanarse, Ka3He, npencraazsajy apcenan opyzcja KOjJ1ce KOPJ1CTJ1y KlIaCJ1'lHojnpJ1Hyp;J1. 0 npJ1Hyp;J1 He rpetia MHoro nJ1CaTJ1, He rpefia nOBpe1)J1BaTJ1 pane, jepKaKO pese H06elIOBa~, MBO AHP;PJ1h: "U;elIor sexa ce lIe'lJ1MO op; 6aTJ1Ha J1 HJ1Ka-,n;ace He J13lIe'lJ1MO". HapaBHO ,n;aje KlIaCJ1'lHa npmryna J1re KaKOp;OMJ1HaHTHay6pOjHJ1M rroponauasia, llIJ1POMCBeTa, y p;elIOBJ1MaCBeTa KOjJ1HJ1je Ylllao y npouecTpaH3J1~J1je, srarepalanae J1,n;YXOBHe.TaKBJ1Xaesran,a HeMa snroro, na HJ1noponn-ua y KojJ1Ma P;OMJ1HJ1pacaxto KlIaCJ1'lHa npJ1Hy,n;a HeMa MHoro, alIJ1 3aTO noponnuay KojJ1Ma ce KOM6J1Hyjy nmnuaaa J1peanna npanyna, J1Ma na nperex.

YKOlIJ1KOy BacnJ1TalbY nerera P;OMJ1HJ1paKlIaCJ1'lHa npanyna CTBapa ce 110)),-PEljEHM TMl1 )),ETETA J1TO:

• 110BY'leHJ1 rnn J1lIJ1aYToarpeCJ1BHJ1 J1• ArpeCJ1BHJ1 TJ1n

netue ; xpua cc

n:OBYQEHM TMl1 je HaCTaO, J13 csor Be'lJ1TO nonpeheaor norroacaja y nopona-ll;J1.MalITpeTJ1paH, CPJ13J1'lKJ1J1 Bep6alIHO xaxosaaan, OMalIOBa)f(aBaH, CPPYCTPJ1-pan J1YBeK rropehen ca ,,60lbJ1M" 6paTOM J1lIJ1ceCTpOM (,,3Be3p;OM") y noponnna.

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BpeMeHOM ce xcxrsy-ryje J13aKTJ1BHOCTJ1noponaue J1oryhyje on ise. Hseroso OTy-ljelbe HJ1je BOJbHO,Ben je nonpehena norroxcaj nerera, noseo P;Oorybeisa. BaCnJ1THa3aHeMapeHOCT 3aYCTaBJba n03J1TJ1BaH paCT osor nerera. Ilere ce ycaMlbyje, 3aTBa-pa, CO~J1jalIHo J130lIyje, alIJ1 je 'leCTO y cYK06y, ca CBJ1M'llIaHOBJ1Ma nopo,n;J1~~.

Hera ron na ce JIaTJ1, y 6J1JIO KOMnpaB~y ,n;aKpeHe, pOp;J1TeJbJ1Bpllle npJ1TJ1-CaK na nere, ca ~J1JbeM na nere npOMeHJ1 aKTJ1BHOCTJ1CMep KpeTalba. To P;OBOP;J1p;o ry6J1TKa BOJbe aa 6J1JIOKaKBJ1Mpap;oM, sa p;pY)KelbeM J1lIJ1CaMOJ1HJ1~J1jaTJ1BoM.)),eTe J1Ma CTalIHO oceharse 0p;6a'leHOCTJ1, HenpaBp;e, lllTO ra p;enpJ1MJ1pa J1ocyje-hyje n03J1TJ1BHe ~J1JbeBe iseroaor )KJ1BOTa.M3BOPHJ1 HarOHJ1 ce KpJ1Be, rronpioaa-

jy HaKa3HJ1 06lIJ1K, p;eTe ce onsaja on J13BOPHJ1Xnorpetia, rytieha Be3Y ca CBOjJ1M6J1heM. Ocehaise HeKOpJ1CHOCTJ1'lJ1HJ1,na nere ry6J1 crrony ca nOpOp;J1'lHOMsajen-HJ1~OMJ1nocraje rpajno J1H<pePJ10PHO,y O,n;HOCyaa OCTalIe 'lJIaHOBe noponnue.

Hecro ce oceha xao "Kpna". )),0 osor crarsa, noponaua je ,n;OBeJIanere <pJ13J1'l-KJ1MJ1 Bep6aJIHJ1M Ka3HaMa J1... .Kpna" nocraje nOCJIYlllHa, JIJ1'lJ1 na aYTOMaT J1norrryno je 6e3JIJ1'lHa. Hecro je pe'l 0 nerery, xoje HJ1je poheno J13 Jby6aBJ1 J1JIJ1nere xoje ponnrezs noaene y CBOj HOBJ16paK, J1lIJ1je TO nere xoje po,n;J1TeJbJ1,J13KOPJ1CTOJby6Jba, CBeCHOnpnnpeaajy aa nonpehen nOJIO)Kaj, J1JIJ1je TO He)KeJbeHOnere J1JIJ1je TO nanac CBaKOnere, a CBaKOnere naaac TpnJ1 J1peaJIHy J1nJIJ1lllaHYKa3Hy, xao J13pa3 HeMOhJ1 J1HeYKOCTJ1ponarezsa.

110ByqeHJ1 TJ1n nerera npenyH je crpaxosa, ocehaisa 6ecnOMOhHOCTJ1, npJ1Ta-jene arpecnje J13aBJ1CHOCTJ1.Ilere je npenJIaBJbeHO J1CKpJ1BJbeHJ1MJ1lIJ1nOTJ1CHY-TJ1MeMO~J1jaMa J1 3Ha, na he YBeK 6J1TJ1xaxcn.eao, aKO J1XJ1cnOJbJ1. Ilnaureha ceKa3He nere nOTJ1CKyje arpecnjy, oKpeHYBlllJ1 je xa ce6J1. Ipauxa HOKTe, CJ1ca npcT,aa noxerax. HeCBeCHo, OBOnere 6e)KJ1 y 60JIeCT, xana CXBaTJ1,n;aMpBJ1~e 6pJ1re J1He)KHOCTJ1p;06J1ja caao y TJ1MTpeHy~J1Ma. Ce6e 'leCTO 3aMJ1lllJba na onpy, J1BJ1,n;J1KaKO uerra nopo,n;J1~a nnaxe sa lbJ1M, KajyhJ1 ce sa noaauraise npeMa lbeMy.

Ilere "Kpna" nocraje oryheno on ce6e, pap;a, 'lJIaHOBa noponnue, npyurrna.360r KOHTJ1HYJ1paHOrocehaisa CTpaxa J1 HeMOhJ1, p;OJIa3J1no nOTnYHor sacrojaCBJ1XnOTeH~J1jaJIa osor nerera. 110TnYHa 6ep;a osor nerera YO'laBa ce Y OP;HOCYaanpyro, "ycnelllHo" nere, xoje csoje "ycnexe" rpap;J1 na ocyljeHJ1M rpelllKaMa nere-'ra "Kpne". OBO CJ1POTOnere MO)K,n;aHJ1je HJ1TaKO noute nere, xana 6J1 ce nopennnoca JIOlllJ1jJ1Mnereroa, BaH noponnne. Y CBOjOjnopop;J1~J1, OHOje aa mry xajepap-XJ1jcKeJIeCTBJ1~e J1TO oceharse ra npaTJ1 HenpeCTaHO.

Hanpeheao nere (,,3Be3p;a"), yP;pY)KeH ca pOp;J1TelbeM, aKTJ1BHO pap;J1 na ceynora J1lIJ1Knerera "Kpne" He Melba. Ilere je poheisea p;OHelIO BelIJ1KJ1nOTeHQJ1-jan J1HTelIJ1reHQJ1je, alIJ1 ce OHa 6lIOKJ1pa CTalIHJ1MnpJ1CYCTBOMHeraTJ1BHJ1XeMO-ua]a. 110clIep;J1Qe Tora cy Heycnex y llIKOJIJ111)f(J1BOTYyonurre.

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Ilpanyna He noaaozsana na ce paCI.:(BeTa rOTOBO HWje,o;aH W3BOPHWHarOH, HWTWQeJIOKynHw nOTeHQwjaJI nerera. Ilere HWKa,o;aHe Ha)"IW urra 3Ha'lW npWMWTWlby6aB,re TaKO HWKa,o;aaehe 6WTW cnocotiao na lby6aB naje. Ilerror )KWBOTa he ce ,o;WBW-TW cynepwopHwjWM 0,0;ce6e, KOjW noncehajy aa Ha,o;pet)eHor 6paTa WJIWcecrpy ynoponaua. ",UwBlbelbe" W3aBWCT, rrorpetia na 6y,o;e nopen ,,3Be3,o;e" je rro-rpeoa nace jour je,o;HoM ocerx wH<pePWOpHWM.

Ilere "Kpna" Hwje HaWBHO xana ce nahe y 6JIW3WHWce6w CJIW'lHOr nerera, aJIWjour "noB)"IeHwjer" 0,0;ce6e. Y MOMeHTY he npwMeHwTw Mo,o;eJInonauiaisa, KOjW

notipo nosaaje.qy,o;a ce peTKO neurasajy, jep ce "Kpna" reunco MO)Ke nOKpeHYTW na n03WTWBaH

paCT. Y noponann je ,o;06wo enW30,o;HY yJIory xojy he HaCTaBWTW,o;awrpa y n030-pWlllTy )KWBOTa, 6e3 nane ,o;aWCKO'lWW3JIaHQa HeraTWBHOCTW. Iberosy ayToarpe-CWBHOCTysehaaahe CBW,o;OQHWjWnorahajn, xoja nocrajy lberOB HeCBeCTaH w360p.3a npajarezse, WJIWcynpY)KHWKa rpasorhe, WJIWnpasor arpecxsua, KOjWhe HaCTa-BWTw,o;a wrpa yJIory ponarezsa, WJIWhe Tpa)KWTW aanpehenor (,,3Be3,o;y"), KaKO 6wwcnYHWO CBOjy )KelbY sa oceharsesr wH<pePWOpHOCTW..Kpna" je YCBOjWOMo,o;eJIsac-mrrarsa npwHy,o;OM Woaor TpeHa xana nOCTaHe po,o;WTelb WJIWxana ce nahe y 6JIw-3WHWcnafiajer, HenorpelllWBO ra npwMelbyje na csoje nere, na cnaonjer.

Illtua case CBe»uiiao, a...

ArpeCWBHW rnn nerera je raxohe npoaason )KeCTOKenpwHy,o;e xojy QeJIa nopo,o;wQaynpaaosaaa Ha,o;,o;eTeTOM.CBe no-nose CJIW'lHO xao Wca nOBY'leHWM TwnOM nere-ra: OMaJIOBa)KaBalbeM, spehaise«, Ka)KlbaBalbeM. Ilere ce He npenaje JIaKO, jep WMaW3Y3eTHOjax W3BOPHWHarOH n03WTWBHe, crsapana-nce 60p6eHocTw. CBaKo,o;HeBHo.W3BO,o;WnpaBe MaJIe peBOJIYQwje, 6paHehw )KeCTOKOCBOjy xapaonajy, Bpexenoace WCKPWBWHarOH n03WTWBHe 60p6eHOCTw W npeTBopw y CWJIOBWTYnorpetiy saarpecajov. Arpecaja nerera pacre Wnojaxaaa arpecnjy po,o;wTelba. Y6p30 he OBa-KBO ztere ce6e ,o;O)KWBeTWxao aerarnaua W6PW)KHO he HerOBaTW Ty yJIory.

Herarnsae, xcxpaarseae w3BopHe evouaje jaxajy, nere ce oryhyje 0,0;ce6e, 0,0;nopo,o;wQe. Ilere no-nuse ,o;aTpa)KW WHaJIa3W rpyne, ce6w CJIW'lHe neue, jep cy My ynopoznrua WCKPWBWJIWW3BOPHWHarOH sa n03WTYIBHOM npanamrourhy noponn-moj3aje,o;HWQW.Iloponaua ra ocyhyje, WnOJIaKO orrnrcyje. Q'lYIrJIe,o;HO je pe'l o,o;eTeTYxoje je aa CBeT ,o;OHeJIOjaxy BWTaJIHY eaeprrrjy YIsehy YIHTeJIYIreHQYIjy. Ha)KaJIOCT,caB csoj narrop nere ynaxce na n06e,o;YI pornrrersa, a nOTOM WCBe OCTaJIe KOjYI My ceHat)y aa nyTy sa KOjYI ce OH "onpe,o;eJIYIO". ,UeTe ce oTy1)yje 0,0;pana, y-rersa, ,o;pyrYIX

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Wce6e. Hajarpecnaaaje nere CBYCBOjy eaepnrjy TpOlllYI,o;a 6YI nocno JIYI,o;epHera-TWBHe ,o;pYlllTBeHe rpyne.

ITpwnpeMajY'lOBeKa aa n03WB JIeKapa, WH)Kelbepa, nporpecopa, ayroaexana-ra-pa, a aa ponarezscrao HWKO He xaje. ,UOBOlbHOje ynw ycnaBaHO y 6paK, HeCBeCHOpO,o;WTWnere WBacnWTHW Mo,o;eJI,YCBojeH y paHOM ,o;eTWlbCTBY,cnOHTaHO npO<pYHK-QwoHwllle. Melba ce carao BJIaCT. J)"Ie cw nere, nOTJIa'leH CW,nanac cw ponnrezs,snanaur 6aTwHoM. KJIaCW'lHoj Ka3HW potiyjy W nere W ponarers, 3601' xera lby6aBHe MO)Ke na nore-re Met)y lbWMa. .

AyToarpeCWBHW W arpeCWBHW Twn nerera rOMWJIajy nOTWCHYTW 6ec. QBa nsarnna cy 'leCTO y seaa, ,o;OJIa3WW,0;0cxzranaisa npnjarerscraaa na nouaaje W6paKaW3Met)y OBa zraa Twna. Ienaa ,o;pyror xpaHe TaKO lllTO rrosraacy na ce, C speveaa naspexe, OCJI060,o;e nOTWCHYTor 6eca.

Ornrcamr ranoaa, xao npOW3BO,o;npwHy,o;e, ce Mopajy nOCMaTpaTW MHoro lllwpe.Pacnon je orpoxran y OKBWPY WCTor rnna. Y je,o;HOM TpeHyTKy, MaJIOnpet)allllba"Kpna", nocraje arpeCWBHW JIw,o;ep, jep ce naurao y 6JIW3WHWcnatinjer 0,0; ce6e.Cynpyr je "Kpna" y O,o;HOCyna CBOr oua, acxazsyje 6ec na cynpy3w W aan lbOMWMa yJIory JIw,o;epa, cynpyra ncxarsyje 6ec aa nerery W MaJIOnpet)allllba "Kpna"je nOCTaJIa JIw,o;ep, nere ncxarsyje 6ec na ,o;pyroM nerery WJIWCTBapWMa W TaKOje nere "Kpna" nOCTaJIO JIw,o;ep. Pex je 0 JIaHQY HeraTWBHOCTW KOjW ce He saycra-nrsa, caao ce npaBe nayse. HWKO, HW He CJIyTW, na cy CBW)KpTBe MogeJIa npwHy-ne, <pW3W'lKe WBep6aJIHe.

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Ilaqox CyBO3JlaUlO, a ociuaqox .Jnaqan":

CBe qYfMe ce qOBeK .n;peOlpa, 3apa.n; HeqYfjYfX YfHTepeCa, CBe je TO rrpYfHy.n;a, naxneCBeje TO ayTOpYfTapHO.

Mo.n;epHa rrenaroraja KPYfTYfKyje Yfoxanosaacaaa po.n;YfTelbeKOjYfy BaCfIYfTalbYKopYfCTe xnacsrnry rrpYfHy.n;y Yfseptianno aacazse aan neuor«. Oryna TaKBYf pona-TelbYf ocehajy orposmy YfH<pePYfOPHOCTy O.n;HOCyaa pomrren,e ".n;06pYfu;e", KOjYfKOpYfCTe,y BaCIIYfTalbY neue, Mo.n;enn03YfTYfBHOr ycnonzsaaarsa. Ilpmryna je HerrpYf-[arna, reunca 3a .n;eTe,amr je sa 6y.n;yhHOCT nerera, xnaca-ma npnayna 60lba o.n;n03YfTYfBHOr ycnoezsasarsa, non YCllOBOM .n;ace He KOM6YfHyje ca nnxuraaoxr rrpYf-Hy.n;OM.HapaBHO na TO naaac He nocroja jep amne He nocroja HYfTpa.n;YfU;YfOHall-na rroponnua, HYf .n;OM6e3 "OTBopeHor"eKpaHa.

Y .n;eTYflbCTBY,y rpaznruaoaanaoj noponxua, nere BaCnYfTaBaHO <pYf3YfqKOMM Bep6allHOM rrpMHy.n;OM, HayqYf na npenosaa aenpzjarersa M Yf3rpa.n;YfCYfCTeM0.n;6paHe. Pasaparsa cy orposnra, allM manca osor nerera .n;anperrosaa npajarersaje seznnca, M rana nere no-nose rta ycsaja rr03YfTYfBaH Mo.n;ell noaaurarsa. OBaKBMcnyqajeBYf cy peTKM, arnr MoryhM.

Ponarersa KOjM KopMCTe Mo.n;en rr03MTMBHor ycnoazsaaaisa cy cyrrepMopHM yO.n;HOCyna OHe KOjM KOpYfCTerrpYfHy.n;y. lliYfMa ce He MO:>Kemrurra rrpYfrOBOpMTM.EpMHy 0 nenx, rnenajy .n;aYfM rrpMylliTe CBe "Haj60lbe", He rp.n;e MX, qeCTO rosopena ce »cprnyjy aa lbYfXOBOnotipo, He xasosaaajy MX IIITarrOM, yBpe.n;aMa. HYf nereHeMa pasnora aa CYMlby.n;a My je po.n;MTelb "rrpMjaTelb", HapOqMTO xana ce rropenaca .n;eTeTOMHa.n;KOjMM ce BPIIIYf xrracaxaa npMHy.n;a. Hecr je crryxaj y rropo.n;YfU;Yf,.n;aponrrrezs, aa jermo nere KOPYfCTMHeraTMBHO, sa .n;pyro rr03YfTYfBHOYCllOBlbaBa-lbe. Iloponaua je nonnroa rne ce Be:>K6ajy 6y.n;yhYf O.n;HOCMy .n;pyIIITBy. I10.n;pe~eHOYfnanpebeao nere y noponaun cy .xpaaa" jenao .n;pyroM Yfrrpnnaxa na Yf3Be:>K6a-jy Mo.n;enenonauran,a, KOjM he ynorpetiarx y.n;pyIIITBy .

Il03MTMBHO YCJIOBJbABAI-hE

,IfOhHO sacrnrrtro cpencrao xoje je onpacasaao ayTopMTapHYf CYfCTeM,rroce6-V IHo y paTHYfM YClloBMMa 6YfllO je rr03MTMBHO yczroszsaaarse, narpabasaa,e. Y6a rpananaoaanae noponaue, y MYfpHo.n;orrcKMM yoroaasra n03YfTMBHO ycno-.aaarse je onnasano y ceHKy. Ycrrocraszsana cy ce aexa HOBa npaanna xoja cy ce'palla nourrosarx CMllOM MnYf MMllOM. Y peTKYfM noponnuaaa ce npMMelbMBaoaj BaCrrYfTHMMo.n;ell, y 60raTMjYfM, yrnaanosr, Yfnoaexan Ha.n;HajcTapMjYfM nere-M, pa3Ma:>KeHYfMnpaea-reroa.YrrraBHOM, n03YfTYfBHOycnosrsaaarse je Herr03HaTO Tpa.n;YfU;MOHanHYfMnoponn-

Ma. Hmcana MajKa He 6Yf pexna nerery: "AKO otiepeur HeKOllMKO penoaa KyKy-aa, .n;06Yfheill HOBe uarrene", ,ll;eu;a cy 6ecnoroBopHo naspurasana aanarxe, xoje.ponarezsa jacno nocrasrsana npen lbYfX, He oxexyjyhn Harpa.n;y 3a TO, He o-re-)yhYf .n;ace Yf3Me~y pa.n;a M lbMX YMeTHe MaTepYfjallHYf mrrepec. 3aTO je Tpa.n;M-[OHallHYf qOBeK YfMaOsmne lby6aBYf rrpexa pa.n;y M 3aTO je 6MO Malbe rroxnenan.Kana je nopo.n;Mu;a yurna y TpaH3YfU;Mjy Mnacmrrarsa, xana joj je nonyheao n03M-

BHO YCllOBlbaBalbe YMeCTO xnacaxae Ka3He HMje rrpenosnana rr03YfTMBHOycno-,aBalbe xao nenrro jenaaxo Yfjennaxo cTapo KonMKO M 6aTYfHa.BaCnMTHYf Mo.n;ell xynosxae nerera je nanexo ropa on Mo.n;ella xnacaxae rrpM-

ne. Ha:>KanOCT,0 OBOMyczroazsasan, y ce naaac rOBopM xao 0 HeqeM n03MTMBHOMranpenaoa. To je naaac npyurrneao npxaaar, xsarsea BacnMTHM Mo.n;ell. I10IIITO~YTopM~apHa CBeCTyrexezsena na <pPOHToBMMa,na nonezrasra, y KojYfMa ce YBeKpcapa jenno y O.n;HOCYna npyro, rrpMpo.n;HO je IIITO ce CBeT naaac onpe.n;enMO saMTMKy rrpYfHy.n;e,uerar aanor ycnoezsaaarsa, .n;03BOnYfBIIIJ.1caxto 6nary npYfHy.n;yVBa:>KaBalberr03J.1TJ.1BHOrycnosrsaaaiea. Cana je jacao .n;aje pe-r 0 "rrllJ.1IllaHOj"IJ.1HY.n;J.1·CBe IIITO .n;01Ia3J.1crrozsa, CBeqJ.1Mece Melba J.13BOpHanpapona qOBeKOBa,

3aUlUlO je Mogell U03UUlU6Hof YCllO6Jba 6at« a uoiytiansa gYX06HU paciu qeiueiua?

AKO :>KenYfMO.n;aoMoryhMMo 3.n;paB, n03MTYfBaH paCT CBOMe nerery nOTpe6HO jeCTBOPJ.1TMqOBeqHe ycnose aa casrocnoanajy CBMXM3BOPHYfXnarona. Y M3BOPHOM06nJ.1KYCBJ.1HarOHYf cy, 3.n;paBYfYfxapMOHMqHM. Ilere YfMarr03YfTMBaH CJ.1CTeMoxe-KJ.1BalbaM norpefiy na My ce noiryne rr03~TMBHJ.1canpzcaja, na ce yKJ.1Hy aYTOpYf-TapHJ.1,BaCnJ.1THJ.1Mo.n;ellJ.1.Ha:>KanOCT,aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1BaCIIYfTHJ.1Mo.n;enJ.1,HapOqYfTO, rrJIJ.1ura " ., HJ.1 3aYCTaBlbaJY yHyTpaurlbJ.1 paCT nerera, pymehn My XapMOHJ.1jy, KpM-BeoYf J.13BOpHeeMOU;J.1je,onaajajyhn nere on lberOBe J.13BOpHecyurTJ.1He.

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IIpHHIV1ll rr03HTHBHOr YCJlOBlbaBatba je BpJlO jegHoCTaBaH. Ibera g06po nosna-

pogHTelb, YKOJlHKO je CaM 6HO YCJlOBlbaBaH HJlH ra je HaKHagHO YCBOjHO, yrrpKoc

coj TpagHQHOHaJlHoj CBeCTH. qHM ce nere POgH ponarezs no-nose na npasretsy-geJIOBe MogeJIa n03HTHBHor ycnosrsaaarsa. Ila 6H ponarezs nocrnrao na nere

Ijege CBe UITO je OH 3aMHCJIHO, aehe ra TynH (jep je TO npHMHTHBHO), Ben he ra

,3HTHBHO YCJIOBHTH. AKO nojene OBO, g06Hne OHO, aKO ypagH OHO, rrOKJlOHH-

: My OBO. Kana ce cTBapH ananasapajy, yqHHH ce ga je OHO, WTO nere Mopa ga

:nYHH, peJIaTHBHO JIaKO H He TaKO BpegHo, a OHO WTO pO,AHTelb HY,AH nerery je

aoro spennaje. YMeCTO ga nere pagH H3lby6aBH, pagH H3 HHTepeca. Ine je HHTe-

!C, TY lby6aBH HeMa. ,D;aKJIe,pogHTelb je npBH Y nanuy KOjH HeCBeCHO, ycsajajy-II OBaj"CllaTKH"Mogell, 3aYCTaBlba passe] xnnue lby6aBH xojy CBaKO nere gOHOCH

)t)etbeM. Ty je xopea cpopMHpatba noxnene, sna xoje xapa CBeTOM. Hajsehe 6JIaro

ojeje nere gaJIO, sa HHWTaBHY CTBap (nrpasxa, otieharse, aarpana), 6HllO je OAPH-

aise OA CBOjHx H3BOPHHX narona H rrorpefia, OA ce6e, OA csora TeJIa H nyxa, OA

DAHTelba. Kana caBpeMeHa MajKa xaxce CBOMe AeTeTY: "AKO nojeneur cnanah H

nnntrry, norrycrnhy TH ztanrpam nYQa'lHHe nona cara", OHa He pa3YMe Aa je YBella

ere y npBO oryherse, OA AeJIa ce6e, oA csora zcenyna, jep nere jene 3apaA HrpH-

e, sapan HHTepeca. Ine je mrrepec Ty je sacroj pacra KJIHQe lby6aBH, xoje noce-

yje CBaKO nere.

CaBpeMeHH pomrrezs, HeCBeCHO, OTKpHBa nO)KelbHH ApYWTBeHH. MOAell Bpe-

rena y KojeM noponaua )KHBH H CBe csoje caare YCMepH Aa "nOMorHe" AeTeTY Aa

:pHMeHH raj MOAeJI, KaKO 6H H OH H nere 60lbe npoumn y )KHBOTY (eKOHOMCKH,

CHXOllOWKH). YCllOBlbaBatbe nerera, y CPYHKQHjH OCTBapetba ApYWTBeHO nozcezs-[or MOAella, ycnexa, no MepHllHMa npyurrsa, npaxersyje ce H y CHpOMaWHHM H y

10raTHM rroponauava. ,D;eTeTY je MHoro rezce Aa CXBaTH HeraTHBHOCT rr03HTHB-

[or ycnosrsaaan,a, YKOllHKO noraxe H3 CHpOMaWHe noponaue. Ilere BHAH KaKO ce

eerosa pOAHTelbH ,,)KPTByjy", OAPH'lY ce CBHX CBOjHX 3aAOBOlbCTaBa, caao na 6H

rere OCTBapHllO QHlb, KOjH cy yrnasnoa OHH 3aQPTallH. CaMOM 'lHtbeHHQOM OBa-

csor xcprnoaan,a, saycraszsa ce n03HTHBaH pacr H ponsrrezsa H nerera, POAHTelb

e He3aAOBOlbaH, jep CBOj )KHBOT npeTBapa y onpauaise, 360r xera H nere HeCBe-

:HO narx. He3aAOBOlbCTBO je orpOMHO YKOllHKO ce ynaraise He BpaTH, a naaac je

ro CBe xeurhe. POAHTelbH Ylla)KY orpoxan HOBaQ, BpeMe Aa 6H ce nere WKOllOBa-

'10, 6aBHllO cnoprov, MaHeKeHCTBOM, YHOCHHM 3aHHMatbHMa. AKO aa xpajy rrpH'le

IbHXOBa )KpTBa He 6YAe narpaheaa HOBQeM xoje nere 3apa1)yje, He 3Ha ce KOMe je

rexce. ,D;eTeTY, jep je rOAHHaMa 6HJlO MOTHBHcaHO nOTKynlbHBatbeM, jep je caxroraxo Momo ga H3gP)KH rryroronaunse Harrope on paga KOjH He BOJlH, on pana KOjH

he MO)f(ga 6HTH"Harpa1)eH"y 6ygyOHOCTH. Ynaraa.a cy orpOMHa, 6poj YCJlOBlbaBaHe

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neue npeBeJIHK. IIoXJIenHHx je CBe smne, a MoryoHocTH sa BpxyHcKe ycnexe MaJle.

HOBQa HCTO, HJlH jour Matbe, a nOXJIenHHX CBe smue.,D;pywTBeHo nO)KelbHH MogeJl je npoaeuzsasa xareropnja H crora pororrers Mopa

6Y,AHO Aa npara nposeeae. JeAHoM je noxcezsao npHnagaTH TeXHH'lKoj, gpyrH nyT

XYMaHHCTH'lKOj HHTeJIHreHQHjH; nonexan je noxcezsao H nporparatianno 6HTH

BpXyHCKH cnoprncra, nesax, mYMaQ H CllH'lHO.

Y nepHO,AY BellHKHX eKOHOMCKJ1X norpeca, gpywTBeHH MO,AellH, KOjH gOHO-

ce ycnewHOCT cy HeraTHBHH. OHTH KpHMHHaJIaQ, HepaAHHK, 6HTH cnocofiaa Aa

JlaKO H 6e3 paga nonasaur AO MaTepHjallHor 60raTcTBa, nocraje MO,Aell ca KOjHM ce

sazsa H,AeHTHcpHKOBaTH. Maorn pomrren,x, npehyrao nonyurrajy CBOMe AeTeTY

Aa xpene OBHM nYTeM, nanaseha onpasnan,e Aa je )KHBOT cypoBa 60p6a sa oncra-

HaK. Pes je 0 nepcpH,AHOM MOAellY n03HTHBHor ycnoszsaaarsa. Ilere he, ys 6JIaro-

CllOB pO,AHTelba, ynH y HeraTHBHO, a pOAHTelb he nannararu "YCllYry", oxexyjyhxMaTepHjaJIHY HaAoKHaAY H 6llarOCTatbe.

J13Met)y pOAHTelba H nerera xoje je ycnonzsasaao, cTBapa ce npehyraa nero-

BOp, KOMnpOMHC, npx xojea ce CBaKO onpaxe ce6e. PO,AHTelb ce OApH'le aaroaarr03HTHBHor pO,AHTelbCTBa, jep He A03BOlbaBa na nere 6YAe OHO WTO jecre, Ben OHO

WTO je noacezsrro. CBe norpefie nerera, a H csoje, ponarezs npeTBapa y HCKpHBlbe-

He xcen,e, a 6YHap »cezsa je Ay60K. Ilere ce oApeKllo ce6e, TaKO WTO je A03BOllHJIO

ponxrersy na My HCKPHBH H3BopHe naroae, Aa My norpetie npersopa y )Kelbe, Aa

My CpyWH xapxoaajy, nocne xera ,AeTe smue He nosnaje CBOjy CyWTHHy, nOCTa-

je HeKO gpyrH.

Ilere HMa CHa)KHY norpetiy na peanasyje HarOH sa mYMoM, ana je pomrrersonpenao na nere rpetia Aa 3aBpwH crynaje MeHaI,IMeHTa, jep je TO APYWTBeHO

noacen.an H HcrrllaTHB nocao. Ilere narn, ana He npY)Ka OTnop "HHcnytbaBa )Kelbe

ponarezsa. 3awTo? Ilere HHje CBeCHO ,Aa he ra ponarezs Ka3HHTH, jep orsopena,

KllaCH'lHa Ka3Ha, npH ynorpefin n03HTHBHor ycnoszsaaaa-a, He rrocrojx, Y nere-

Ty nocro]a crpax on ry6lbetba CBeYKynHHx npananeraja, xoje gOHOCH n03HTHB-

HO YCllOBlbaBatbe, 360r xera HHKaga aehe HH rroxyurarx na ce ycnpoTHBH, re nehecaMOBOlbHO HH OTHnH na myMy. IIoXJIena je ra xoja AOHOCH orpostaa crpax, HeKO

KO je HayqHo CTaJIHO na A06Hja, HMa orposraa CTpax Aa TO He H3ry6H. Cseyxyn-Ha KOPHCT je aa nere orpowaa, H OBa canaunsa y rropomnra, H OHa ,ApYWTBeHa y

6ygyhHOCTH (ApYWTBeHH rronoxcaj, npaaaneraje, cnasa, Mon). Ilere he caspurenoI1CnYtbaBaTH CBe sanarxe y canaunsocra, jep crarnra MHcao 0 CBOjHM npxaxnera-

jaMa y 6ygyhHOCTH, XpaHI1 lberOBY nOXJIeny xoja My noraazce Aa yqH naaonohao,ae)f(6a BpegHo, nonaoca Hanope xoje gOHOCH cnopT, My3HKa, WKOJlOBatbe. Ilere-Ty ce 'lI1HI1, na je, cae WTO ynaace, JlaKO H MaJlO y OgHOCY aa OHO, lllTO he g06HTl1

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y 6Y):lynHoCTH. Hajcrpauraaje je llITO nere, BpeMeHOM, llO'IHe na sepyje ):Ia cy TO,6allI iseroae )Kelbe.

OBO nere HenpeCTaHO )KHBHsa 6Y):lynHocT, jep ce )Kelbe YBeKpeanasyjy y 6y):lyn-HOCTH, llITO My ):IOHOCHaecpehy, jep je oTyt)eH 'IaK H 0):1apexreaa y KOMe )KHBH.Bpno 'leCTO na)KHMa H MalliTOM 6e)KH 0):1CTBapHOCTH. ,neTe he 6HTH 3a):lOBOlbHOpeanH30BaHHM )KelbaMa. OCTBapeHH ):IpYlliTBeHO rrozcezsan H ncrrnarnn MO):len):IOHeo My je MaTepHjanHo 60raTCTBO H sroh, caao My HHje jacno nopeKno Henpe-craaor HeMHpa H orposoror CTpaxa KOjH npara Ty ,,6narO):leT".

Ilopexno HeMHpa H crpaxa nere HH He MO)Ke):laYO'lH, jep HeMHp H crpax nona-se 0):1nenpajarersa, a nere ce HHKa):laHHje CYO'lHlIOca aenpajarezsesr, jep je nerrpn-jarezs HeBH):IlbHB.Y CTBapH, "HenpHjaTelb" je rseros ponarers. BOlIHM ):IaKa)KeM nacy ponarersa npBH .rronaonava , csora ):IeTeTa. Ponxrezs norxynzsyje nere na 6Hrreurro rrojeno, nay-noro. Ilere nponaje, neo csor rena, y OBOMczryxajy )KelIy):la~a nOlIaCKOM y llIKOlIY rrponaje CBOjy naaer, Koja je pasmnca xana cyTpa aa HOBa~rpetia rrponarn ueno rezro, nourreise, MWP,ce6e, rrpajarezse. J1 jeznry W):Ipyry npo-najy BpllIW W3mrrepeca, a TO ofiaszsa ca naxohov jep je oTyt)eHOCT 0):1csora renajour y ):IeTHlf>CTBYnocrana orpovna. He ycrpyxaaaa ce ):IaTaKBe ponarezse Ha30-BeM "cnoH30pwMa", KOjWCBOjWMHOB~eM sanosorsaaajy orporaaa 6poj )Kelba csornoxnenaor nerera, Onor MOMeHTa Ka):la noxnena nerera npeaasnhe 6YI,IeT pona-rersa, nere Tpa)KH HOBor, 60raTwjer cnoasopa, Ha)KalIOCT. Bahe OBO601IHe 'lHlf>e-Hw~e Waa ycnonzsasano nere H aa iserosor ponaren,a, aznr je spenao CYO'lWTHceca WCTWHOM,rra BpeMe, y HMe nOTOMCTBa.

YClIOBlbaBaHO, MallO crapaje nere he, y3 ):Iy60KO paayaeaarse ):Iapomrrezs HwjeKpHB, Ben je KpHBO neaaarse, onpOCTWTH CBOMep0):lWTelbYTaKO llJTO he ce BOlbHOonpeha aarpahaaan,a, WlIHxax 3a6paHWTH pO):lHTelby ):Iara YClIOBlbaBa. CYTpa nehenOHOBHTWMO):lelIycnonzsasarsa aa CBOM):IeTeTY.Oxyaahe CBOM):IeTeTY W3BopHeaarone, pa3BWTW wx ):10 xpaja, WTaKO rrosroha ):IeTeTY zra caraopearnrsyje HajBH-ure H):IealIe (Jbyfian, ,1J;06pOTy, ncwxO-¢W3W'lKO snpasrse, cTBapalIa'lKY HHTelIW-reH~wjy W'lOBe'lHOcT). Iberos nOTOMaK he nounaje casr npoaahn CBOj BlIaCTHTHMO):lell )KWBlbelf>a, WTaKO nOCTaTW cpehan H sanosozsaa 'lOBeK. Hehe 6WTWaeo-6W'lHO ):Ia TaKaB 'lOBeK rro-me WY rreneceroj rO):lWHH):Ia caapa KlIaBHp, jep My jeTO OCTana HeCn03HaTa norpetia, nepeanaaosaa ranenar, 0):1xojer ce Hwje OTyt)HO,caxio 3aTO llITO ra HWKOHwje n03HTWBHO ycnoarsaaao, ):10Kje 6HO MalIH, xana jeo):l6wjao ):Ia csapa.

PO):lHTelbH, He nnaunrre ce na he ce HellITO 1I0llIe ):IeCHTHaauresr ):IeTeTY,YKOlIH-KOHanYCTHTe MO):lelIn03HTHBHor ycnoazsasarsa. J13Me1)y "ycnelilHor", noxnenaor,npe60raTor xoaexa, ca Be'lHTHM HeMHpOM H orpOMHHM CTpaXOM y ce6H H -roae-xa sanosozsnor CBOjHMn03HBOM, CBOjHM6paKOM, C060M H aasra, CHrypHO here ce

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onpe):lelIHTH aa osor npyror, ,1J;03BolIHTena TaKO H3rJIe):la name nere, sanoson-xo,

O cpehno na 3allITO He 6H 6HlIO H 60raTO. TaKaB 'lOBeK 6Hne 60raT y CBa-BpeAH, 11 , •

KOMTpeHyTKy caora )KHBOTa, jep he 6HTH sanosozsaa OHWMllITO Y OBOMTpeHYT-Te)KenW HenpeCTaHO xapMOHH30Balf>Y MaTepHjalIHor WAYXOBHor, y ce6HKYWMa,

WY cnOlballIlf>eM CBeTY·MOAelI YClIOBlbaBalf>a crnapa ABa rnna HA,1J;PE1)EHOr nerera:

• Tan ,,3Be3Ae"• Tan npe3allITwheHor nerera

TJ1TI ,,3BE3,1J;E" ponrrrezs crsapa CBeCHOWlIWHeCBeCHO.Hajsenrhe je pe'l 0 3ApaBOMWcnoc06HOM AeTeTY Kp03 xoje he pOAwTelb peanaaoaarx CBe csoje rrepeanaaosa-He norpefie, xoje cy ce npersopane Y »cezse. Majxa Hwje peanaaosana CBOjy norpe-6y Aa nOCTaHe MaHeKeHKa, MO):lelI,OCTalIa je caao )Kelba xojy he OCTBapWTWhepxa.

Hecro je y mrraisy Wreaosa ponarezsa Aa nere ocraapa ApYllITBeHo npasnaraMO):lelIKOjWhe WAeTeTY Wponnrezsy AOHeTW60raTcTBo WMoh. .

YClIOBlbaBaHO nere, jour y paHoM ):IeTWlf>CTBY,Hayqw npaBwlIa wrpe. Bahe ,,3Be-3):1a"CBe AOKcneno wcnYlf>aBa )Kelbe pOAHTelba (A06ap je has, spenna je, nerro sac-mrrana, 6aBW ce cnoprox, MY3WKOM,6alIeTOM, rJIYMOM,CBeCTpaHa je). J1 CBeTa~ce yMOpH H YTpeHY~HMa, xana noxazce BHAaH aeycnex, pOAHTelbW WHaCTaBHW~HnOMa)KY TaKO llITO aeycnex rrpersapajy Y ycnex. ,,3Be3):1a" je, y CTBapH, aerrorpe-urasa WHe CMe 6WTH AeMOTHBwcaHa "HeycneXOM".

,,3Be3):1W"ce onaxmaaa aanopaa )KWBOT,jep HHje lIaKO y CBaKOMrpeiryrxy 6WTW"Haj" WTaKO llITO joj ce naje MorynHocT Aa yqw OAnonpeheaor rnna. HaCTaBHWK Wponxrezs nenpecraao KpWTHKyjy nonpeheno nere, yxasyjy na rpellIKe xoje 'lWHHW Ka)Klf>aBajy ra 360r Tora. ,,3Be3):1a" CBe TO 6Y):IHOnpara. A06wja rOTOBa peme-If>a,He noaaszsa rpellIKe WlIaKO ):IOlIa3H):10~Wlba. Y csaxoj noponaux ,,3Be3AW" cenOMa)Ke na raj Ha'lWH, jep HMa nonpeheaor 6paTa WlIWcecrpy, ,,3Be3):1W"¢OpMW-paHoj y nopOAH~W, je TellIKO xana KpeHe y llIKOlIY,jep ce Mopa H360pWTW sa HajBH,~me MeCTO,sa npeCTO, a y CBaKOMO):le~elf>y nanac HMa MHoro npH):IOllIlIWX,,3Be3Aa .!hHXOB crpax je orpoxas, jep aa npeCTOlIY WMaMeCTa casco aa jemry 3Be3):1y.Y'lW-Telbw~e onafiepy CBOjy ,,3Be3):1y",xoja je MHpHa 6ap 'leTHpH ronane. CBaKa rrpoxe-Ha cpenaae, pa):lHOr MeCTa, nporpecnje aa ,,3Be3):1y" je CPPYCTpHpajyna, jep CBaKHnYT Mopa ):Ia ce 60pH aa ocaajaise npecrona,

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,,3Be3p;y", npannesy HeOp;OlbHBOrrpHBJIalJH ,,6HTaHra", arpeCHBau;. OHH ocrsapyjyKOMrrpOMHCHYBe3y. CBe OHOlllTO He CMe "rrpHHu;e3a", onpanxhe aa lby ,,6HTaHra".

" t;" 3" 6 to.,3Be3p;a je npxanaxna H sa nonpeneno nere, "Kprry ." nesna ce xpaHH ecnosron-aourhy "Kprre", a "Kprra" ,,3Be3p;HHoM" p;oMHHaU;HjoM. CBHMa op;roBapa ,,3Be3p;a",ep je OHa "ycrrelllaH" lJOBeK, cjajae xapajepe, y-rena, CBeCTpaHa. CBH joj sanxne HlpH)f(elbKyjy rseao MeCTO.,,3Be3p;a" je, naxsraen, aanosorsna. [Op;H joj xarepajannaJ;OMHHaU;HjaH Mon xojy nocnoxe npexo MaTepHjanHor. ,lJ;OKje oxpyzcena OHHMaWjH joj ce p;HBe, ocnotiobeaa je HeMHpa H cTpaxa. Kana ce CBeTnOCTH rr030pHH-~e yrace, aaseca crrycrn, xana OCTaHe caaa, 06y3HMa je HeMHp H CTpax. HH cTpa-cy, HH HeMHpy He YMe na rrponahe rropeKno. Kao lllTO y nermscray HHje Momata orxpnje rrpaBor aenpajarezsa, jep je 6HO caKpHBeH y pop;HTelbY, TaKO HH xao)p;paCTaO lJOBeK, naxana aehe OTKpHTHrrpasor nenpajarezsa. Iben npaaa HerrpH-arezs je YBeK oaaj KOjH ce nanaan H3Hap; lbe (xajepapxnja), xao lllTO je H3Hap; lbe)HO H pomrrezs. ,,3Be3p;a" ce HHKap;nehe YCTpeMHTH H rrpa3HHTH CBOjrroTHcHYTH:Tpax rra nexor, H3Hap; ce6e, Ben 06aBe3HO na CBe KOjH cy Hcrrop; lbe, na OHe KOjH>p; lbe aasnce. Hxxana nehe p;onH P;O cYK06a H3Met)y p;Be ,,3Be3p;e" na HCTOjxnje-iapxnjcxoj JIeCTBHU;H,xao lllTO HHKap;a uehe noha P;O opaxa nse ,,3Be3p;e", CnHlJ-re rro KBanHTeTY.

J1HTepecaHTaH je OP;HOC,,3Be3p;e" rrpeMa pop;HTelby, HapOlJHTO xana ponarers»resroha. Ilonpebemr THrrOBHhe HCKa3aTH OTBopeHY HeTprrelbHBOCT npexa 060-lenOM H cana 3aBHCHOM pop;HTelbY. Cserahe My ce H Ka)f(lbaBaTH ra aa 6e36pojIalJHHa. ,,3Be3p;a" he ce lJYP;HTHKaKO HeMa jax eMOTHBaH OP;HOCrrpeMa 60JIeCHOM{CTapOM pop;HTelby. I10111TO,,3Be3p;a" 06HlJHO HMa H HOBau;, OHa he CBe "KopeKT-10" onpamrra. Ilnarnhe aery, 60nHHU;y, CTapalJKH P;OM, aznr je rroxcezsao p;a ce CBeteurasa nanexo on ise. HeMHp KOjHoceha ,,3Be3p;a" y OBHM)f(HBOTHHMcHTyaU;H-aMa noru-re on ocehaisa KpHBHu;e lJHjH joj je Y3POK Herr03HaT.

Kon nonpeheaax THrrOBa nocro]x nenesa HeraTHBHHX eMoU;Hja xoje cy ce cnon-'aHO pasaarre y 60p6H ca aenpxjarezsesr (Mp)f(lba, rraKOCT, 3aBHCT, lby60Mopa)..Ssesna" HHje Moma p;a paaaaje aacnojene essona]e, jep mrje HMana rrpoTHB xora na:e 60PH, HH sa urra p;a ce H360PH, jep joj je YBeK CBe 6Hno na p;OMaKpyKe. ,,3Be3p;a"IMa no'rncny-re, HCKpHBlbeHe esrouaje, HOCHI10TJ1CHYTJ1 CTPAX, on ryfirse-sa npaaanera]a KOjH rrpoaasona HerrpecTaHH HeMHp ca 6pOjHHM nocnenauaxra.3Be3p;a" HeMa H3pa)f(eHe HH H3BopHe eMoU;Hje, lllTO je H JIOrHlJHO, jep ce OTyt)H-ra on ce6e, HHKOje HHje HayqHo na lby6aB rrpHMH, Te He MO)f(e lby6aB HH na na, ai>y6aBH HeMa 6e3 3p;paBIDC,xapMOHH30BaHHX, H3BOPHIDCeMoU;Hja.

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ITPE3AIlITl1lll1BAlhE

Illiua MU UlO paqiuue!

11pym rnrt nerera KOjHje crsopea 06JIHKOM rr03HTHBHor ycnoBlbaBalba je rrpe-,L-J,3alllTHneHo nere, xoje je rrpHBHp;HOnanpeheno. 0 Mop;eny rrpesaurrahaaarsarOTOBOna ce He rosopa, y caspesienoj nenaroraja, 3aTO OH HHje HH H3p;BojeH xaonocetian BacrrHTHH MOp;eJI. Y CBHMy1,16eHHU;HMacaspeaeae nenaroraje rrOMHlbYce caxo 6JIara npanyna H rr03HTHBHO ycrroszsaaaise. Ilpeaaurrahaaaise, xao sac-rrHTHH MOp;eJI, MOry peha, P;OHOCHnenonpasn-asy urrery nerery H uenoj nopona-U;HH 3aTO je spenao H3P;BOjHTHra H rrOCMaTpaTH rrOTrrYHO3ace6HO. BpJIO lJeCTO,pop;HTelbH cy CKJIOHHna npeaanmdurnarse p;eTeTa on pap;a, pep;a, caaor )f(HBOTa HJ1cTHHe, nocaarpajy xao 06nHK )f(pTBOBalba, lby6aBH H He)f(HOCTHnpeva nerery.

Y Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHoj noponana, yrJIaBHOM, ce rrpe3alllTHnHBaJIO 60JIelll~HBOnere, nere ca TeJIeCHHM H rrCHXHlJKHMonrrehersaaa, "PY)f(HO", rro KpHTepH)yMH-Ma npyurrsa rojaaao nere, nere CJIa6HjHx HHTeneKTyaJIHHX crroc06HOCTH.

Y )f(elbH p;a 3alllTHTH csoje nere, op; MHoro rora lllTO nere HH He oxexyje, HHTHMy je TO norpetiao, pop;HTelb ce onnyxyje sa BacrrHTHH MOp;eJI rrpe3alllTHnHBalba.Ponxrezs lllTHTH TaKBO nere, y CBHMMorynHM cHTyaU;HjaMa, HapOlJHTO je TO napa-)f(eHOy caryanxjaaa y KojHMa nere MO)f(errOTrrYHOCaMOCTanHO na pap;H H orrCJIY-)f(yje ce6e H p;pyre. Ilere nocraje neiso, rrapaanrapa H aapaano na ce 3aYCTaBlbapacr CBeCHOCTH,jep ce CBeCHOCTHCKlbyqHBO paasaja Kp03 caxopan H CBaKH pap;KOjHnere otiaszsa C Jbytiaazsy. .

J13Mel)y pop;HTelba H nerera je npehyran norosop, rro KojeM nere rpetia castona rrpHMa yCJIyre pomrrezsa, na ce oceha "u;apCKH" H na He carnenasa csoje MaHe .HHep;OCTaTKe.Ponarezsn TaKBOj nena craapajy Hny3Hjy na cy Hap;pel)eHa H 3aTO HH)e

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tax cnyxaj ,n;anpesaurraheaa neua I1Majy BI1COKOMl1llilbefbe 0 ce611 11nepeanne/be, rra xana He MOry ,n;apeamrayjy xcerse, ,n;O)f(I1BlbaBajyCTpalliHY ¢pycTpaQl1jy.ITpesaurrahenoj ,n;eQI1po,n;I1Telbl1pYllie xapvoaajy, xpxse aarone, jasajy noxne-arpecnjy, HeraTI1BHe eMOQl1je 11rrocefino jaxajy 3aBl1CHOCTon ponarersa. TaKBI1

~I1Telbl1 cy CnpeMHI1 ,n;aHaCTaBe ca npeaaurrahnaarsesr nerera 11xana OHOodiop-f noponauy, Hacraszsajy na npyacajy ycnyre uezroj noponxun nerera, neryjyha\albe napaaarasaa, necpehy 11He3a,n;OBOlbCTBOCBI1X.Ilpeaaurrahaaaise nere ra 6l1no je n03HaTO rpazornaouanao] noponnua.

IMTI1 CBaKa noponaua KaKO je npeaaurrahnnana MylllKO nere, ana casro oneuezse", on pa,n;a y ,n;OManI1MnOCnOBI1Ma. Cecrpe cy npeaaurrnhxaane 6paTa,pKe oua 11onna 11MHl1je 6l1no reurxo na HaCTaBe ca npeaaurrxhaaarsesr cynpy-11CI1Ha, y BnaCTI1Toj noponnua. OCI1M rora TOje 6110 11noacezsaa 06nl1K noaa-lfba KOjl1 Hl1je ,n;OHOCI10Bene npotinexe. Kana ce CBeMY npanona I1CTI1Ha ,n;aMylllKa neua rl1Hyna y paTOBI1Ma Hl1je 6l1no sroper 6l1Tl1 He)f(Hl1jl1 npexra

rlllKOM nerery,,[(aHac ce npesaurnrhyje 11MylllKO 11)f(eHCKOnere on pana, (nexa CI1He,MaMa he),

i pena, (Manl1 je, naysnhe, CBe he TO rtpohn 11aa csoje MeCTOnoha), on )f(I1BO-, (caxpahy on nerera HeMalllTI1HY, 60neCT BOJbeHI1X... , ,n;aHe 6y,n;e y rrartsn), on1B0pHe, Be'IHe JiIcTI1He na HOBaQ Hl1je Ql1lb, ,n;aje MaTepl1janHo casso y ¢yHKll;l1jl1ICTa nyxa 11castcocrnapersa Kp03 Jhy6aB 11,[(06pOTy, xao xpajrser Ql1lba )f(I1BO-0' KOjl1je caM ce611 cBpxa.On nOTnYHo snpasor, cnocooaor nerera ponxrezs craapa, napasara 11'IOBeKa

ecrrocofiaor sa )f(I1BOTjep ra rrpesaurrahyjy on pana, CBe je rroxezro xana je pas-1jeHl1 CBeT yBI1,n;eo ,n;aycnyre CBI1Xspcra Mory ,n;OlIOCI1TI1Benl1KI1 npO¢I1T. CaMOlpa3l1Tl1l1 neaaaznme 3aBl1Ce npso on pana 11ycnyra xoje 11Mnpyacajy pomrrezsa,[lOTOMaacrasrsajy ,n;aKOpl1CTeycnyre xoje 11MnpY)f(a npyurrno. Bpno je aepoaar-:> ,n;ahe napaanr HOBQeMponnrezsa rrnahara ycnyre, 3a,n;OBOJbaBaTI1csoje nOTpe-~, uenor )f(I1BOTa, ira crapa n03HaTl1 Ha'lI1H.o OBOMBaCnl1THOM Mo,n;eny HI1KOjasno He rOBOpl1l1aKO OH,n;OHOCI1aajsehe sno

oponxua. Majxe nO'Il1fby,n;a npesaurrxhyjy CBOjy neuy spno pane, panehx CBe aa,I1X11YMeCTOfbl1X, l1aKO je pe'I 0 snpasoj, nasrerno] ,n;eQI1.,[(eQa paCTY, fbl1XOBaetsocr, HeCBeCHOCT116e30cehajHocT 11HapaBHO aesaxaanaocr po,n;I1TelbY3a ycny-e, nocrajy CBe BI1,n;Hl1jl1.ITpBI1 cYK0611, csahe 11noxymaj ,n;ace nere ynene y pa,n; 11en, noxarsy onna xana MajKa He MO)f(e I1nl1 aehe Bl1llie ,n;aonczryxcyje napasara.:Bat)e cy CBaKo,n;HeBHe, xana nere noonpacre. Jleisocr nocraje 60neCT 11napaanrceCTOKO6paHl1 csoje nosxnaje, CBe ja'lOM 11ja'lOM arpeCl1joM. fIpe3alliTl1hl1Bafbe,n;pana npeHOCI1 ce cnOHTaHO ua CBe 06naCTl1 )f(I1BOTa ,n;eTeTa.

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ITpeBacxo,n;HO MI1Cnl1Maa uncony, Ilere xoje He paaaaje npaBl1naH O,n;HOCnpeMapa,n;y y noponxua, nere xoje HeMa lby6aBl1 ,n;apa,n;11OKOce6e 11aa l?y,n;e xoje BOnl1,Cl1ryPHO nehe BOneTI1 HI1unconcxe otiaaese, xoje cy caao ,n;pyfl1 06nl1K pa,n;a. HaBI1-xa npe3alllTl1nl1Bafba ce npeHOCI1 11aa lllKony. ITpl1 npBOM sehea Hanopy po,n;l1-TeJbI1, yrnaBHoM caspesreaa MajKa, saxrenajy on HaCTaBHI1Ka ,n;a cMafbyjy ,n;eQI1o6aBe3e. CnpeMHI1 cy ,n;ayhy y )f(eCTOKe cyxotie ca HaCTaBHI1QI1Ma, na najy ,n;eQI1na)f(Ha onpasnarsa, na 11Mpa,n;e unconcxe 06aBe3e, na CaTI1Ma cene nopen nererajep je OHOnOTnYHO He3al1HTepeCOBaHO sa Y'IeIDe,,n;a nnahajy npl1BaTHe HaCTaBHI1-xe J1jour MHoro rora, MJ1CnenJ1 ,n;aje TO 06nl1K I1CnOJbaBaIDa Jby6aBI1.

Po,n;J1TeJb 6paHl1 nere Tpa)f(enl1 na J1 HaCTaBHJ1ll;11npesaurrahyjy rOTOBaHa.HaCTaBHJ1QJ1 caspeaeae nncone cy nonnerna 3axTeBJ1Ma, na necpehy neue. Kanace CTBapJ1 nO'lHY KOMnnJ1KOBaTI1, xana nere 0,n;6J1ja norrryay capamsy ca po,n;l1-TeJbeM J1 HaCTaBHI1KOM, xana nO'IHe na oxexyje na ce 6e3 pa,n;a MO)f(e aaapunrraurxona, xana YMeCTOsa KIDl1rOM,nere care npOBo,n;11y rnyBapeIDy J1nJ1npe,n; eKpa-HI1Ma, xana ce 6poj je,n;I1HJ1Qanosehasa, xana po,n;J1TeJbBI1,n;11,n;aMy je nere nornynoHe06pa30BaHO, a ,n;06J1ja npena3He OQeHe, xana ponnrezs Mopa,n;a oncnyzcyje nere-ryaajyh« My xyhaor Jby6I1MQa, npexo cnpeMaIDa xaoca, Kojl1 OCTaBJba sa C060M,xana ... rana cy cyKo6J1 HeI136e)f(HI1.

Tana nO'lI1IDe ysajasoro onTY)f(I1BaIDe po,n;J1TeJba KOje KPJ1B, KO onrosopan aaBI1,n;HOnpona,n;aIDe nerera. ,[(OKce po,n;J1TeJbJ1csahajy nere yna311 y jour Bene npo-6neMe. Be)f(11 ca 'IaCOBa, on xyhe, nocehyje I1rpaOHI1Qe, Kna,n;110HI1Qe,Kpa,n;e Borynane, a I1CTOBpeMeHOpo,n;I1TelbJ1nocrajy O'IajHI1 jep He BJ1,n;eurra cy noure ypa,n;J1nl1,OCI1MlllTO cy "CBe 'lI1Hl1nl1 sa csoje nere, a OHOJ1Mcana TaKO spaha." Kana ce po,n;l1-Telbl1 OCBeCTe11rroxyurajy napuajanao na pellle rrpotinea KaKO6J1 on csor rOTOBa-aa aanpaaann spemrany, TO he 11Mreunco nohx sa PYKOM. Hal1nJ1 he aa Benl1KJ1orrrop KOjl1he ce saspuraaara CBat)OM 11Ty'IOM (nere he HacpHyTI1 na po,n;I1TeJba,n;aMy noxaxce ,n;aje cana HeMoryne BpaTI1TI1 CTBapl1 na nO'IeTaK. Illarse nere rropy-Ky po,n;I1TelbY: "TI1 CI1Me yaeo y Hepa,n;, cana CI1,n;y)f(aH ,n;aaacranaur TI1M nYTeM".Ilere cana )f(enl1 na caxyaa CBOjy noaaunjy rOTOBaHa 11aehe My 6l1Tl1 CTpaHO nace HenpeCTaHO onpenezsyje aa jemror, a onfiauyje ,n;pyror po,n;I1Telba, ca QI1JbeM nal1X aaaamr, Hapaaao ,n;aMy TO nOna311 aa PYKOM. ITO'lI1IDy na My ce ynaapajy, He611nl1 Ca'IYBanl1 HaKnOHOCT nerera. OCI1M rora, caBpeMeHO, rrmmrano nere ,n;o6po3Ha CBe renerpoae cnY)f(611 xoje ra urnrre on "HaCl1nHI1X" po,n;I1Telba. ,[(OBOJbHOjena ce po,n;I1TeJb OCBeCTI1,na noxyura craapa na nosene y pe,n; 11nere he pearosaranpeTIDaMa I1nl1 he ra npl1jaBI1TI1 aa "HaCl1lbe" xoje 'lI1HI1 I1nl1 nOMI1Cnl1 ,n;anO'lI1-Jil1, ('Il1Taj: casro je noxyurao ,n;anpecraae ca npeaaun-ahaaarsea 11Hayql1 nere napa,n;l111 nonrryje pen.)

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,[(aHallll-be "rrmnUaHO" nere je npesaurraheao on pena. y Tpa,n;J1~J10HallHojpO,n;J1~J1nocrojao je Bpe,n;HOCHJ1CJ1CTeMKOjJ1je 6J10 Ba)KehJ1 aa ueno ,n;pyWTBO.axa J1011eonroaopaa rropo,n;J1~a )"IJ1HJ111aje CBe na ,n;eTe nourryje npaanna J11 sa pe,n;. CJ1110MJ111J1MJ1110Mpe,n; ce ycnocrasrsao. 3Hao ce pe,n; y noponaua, yCOllJ1,na yllJ1~J1. EJ1110 je naxo J1 nerery J1 pomrrezsy J1 HaCTaBHJ1KY. IlpaBJ111aaauraisa cy 6J111ajacna, jep je ,n;PYWTBOrrporracasano jacaa rrpaBJ111a rropo,n;J1-, xoja cy 6J111ay <pyHK~J1jJ1'IyBapa CJ1CTeMa,anx J13,n;paBJba J1)KJ1BOTarropoznr-. Pen ce naxo ycnocrasrsao jep je crpax on 6aTJ1He, crajao xao ,[(aMaKllOB Ma'I,aan rnase csaxor 'IOBeKa.Kana je aa cueay crynana ayTopv'ITapHa nrnnuaaa BaCrrJ1THa nexroxparnja,

aa ce YPYWJ111anapasorna jep je YKJ1HYTa 6aTJ1Ha xao l-beH TeMeJb, nacryrrn-je aaapxaja xao aasreaa nocrojehesr peny, CBaKO je no-reo na ycnocraszsa CBOjCTeMBpe,n;HOCTJ1,a HapO'IJ1TO neua, jep CJ1CTeMBpe,n;HOCTJ1ycaajajy on BJ1pTyellHeBepHaHTe, a He o,n;po,n;J1TeJba, TaKO ,n;aje pe,n;, KOjJ1ycnocraarsajy neua, rrOTIlYHOyrrpOTHOCTJ1on onora WTO o-rexyjy po,n;J1TeJbJ1.Po,n;J1TeJbHeMotlHo noxyutasa ,n;aaTJ1 pacrrYUITeHO nere. Po,n;J1TeJbKaCHO CXBaTJ1na je Mopao ycrrOCTaBJ1TJ1 KOH-OllYnan OHJ1MWTO nere rnena, 'IJ1Ta, cnyura.na je Mopao ycrrOCTaBJ1TJ1rpaanue,J16e3 Ka3He J1Harpa,n;e. KaCHO po,n;J1TeJbJ1CXBaTe na l-bJ1XOBOnere HJ1je iseroao) He xornrpa Mo,n;eJIe rronaurarsa xoje My po,n;J1TeJbJ1noxasyjy. CaBpeMeHO nererrJ1pa Mo,n;elle xoje BJ1,n;J1aa "rrllJ1WaHOM" eKpaHY, y CBOjOj spunsasxoj rpyrrJ1,JpTJ1hy, WKOJIJ1,na yllJ1~J1, a CBe je TO TaKO pa311J1'IJ1TOon oaora WTO MO)Kena,n;J1on csor ponnrersa, KOjJ1 J1Ma Tpa,n;J1~J10HallHy CBeCT J1 ,n;pyra'IJ1jJ1 CJ1CTeMe,n;HOCTJ1.MHOrJ1 po,n;J1TeJbJ1he spesseaoa, HeMohHo O,n;YCTaTJ1on J1CrrpaBJbalbaora nerera, aepyjyhn na je ,n;OWlIOHeKO HOBOnotia J1,n;ace CBe Mopa rrpJ1XBaTJ1-xao HeMJ1HOBHOCT.ElIeKTpOHCKJ1 Me,n;J1jJ1cy rnanaa BaCrrJ1Ta'IJ1 caaperaeaor nerera. ,[(OK TO He

nare, po,n;J1TeJbJ1,n;O)KJ1BJbaBajynpaae nohae Mope xana J1XHaCTaBHJ1~J1CYMlbJ1-BO rnenajy sepyjyhx na cy po,n;J1TeJbJ1arpeCJ1BHJ1, HeBaCrrJ1TaHJ1 J1,n;anere casrorx J1MJ1TJ1pa.He Ka)KeM,n;a HeMa TaKBJ1Xponarezsa, allJ1 ja cana rOBOpJ1M 0 cjaj-CMpa,n;HJ1M, rraMeTHJ1M po,n;J1TeJbJ1MaKOjJ1cy csoje nere noxyuraaana rta aay-re,n;y,ana cy aa xpajy onycramr sepyjyha ,n;ahe BpeMeHoM nere 6J1TJ160Jbe. I13ry-[1IJ1cy 6J1TKY. Bnpryenna "rYBepHaHTa" je rrotienana. AKo 6J1 ponarezs noxy-ao na J1crrpaBJ1 rpeurxe nacrojehn na csoje nere norepa y pen, na My passxjer6aB rrpeaa pa,n;y, ,n;anoxae ,n;aKOHTpOllJ1We canpacaje J1 BpeMe xoje nere rrpo-1,n;J1rrpen eKpaHOM, TeWKO he My TO rroha sa PYKOMjep he ra nere 3aycTaBJ1TJ1oj OMarpecajoa. Kaxo 06jaCHJ1TJ1 KOMWJ1jJ1,npajarezsy, saxononaatry, counjarr-)Mpa,n;HJ1KYna BJ1cana casro )KellJ1Te na J1CrrpaBJ1Te BllaCTJ1Te rpeunce. Ilere yplla:lle HohJ1 J1Y3HeMJ1paBa KOMWJ1je,casro 3aTO jep )KellJ1Te,n;a ra J1CTepaTe J13caora

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KpeBeTa (seh necer romraa CJ1Hcnasa ca MajKoM), na CTBapJ1rrOCTaBJ1Te na 3,n;p~-Be OCHOBe. HJ1je pe,n;, HJ1je notipo CrraBaTJ1 y J1CTOMKpeBeTY TOllJ1KOromraa, Ha)-611a)f(e pe'IeHO TOje 601lecHo. A nere CTe rrpBJ1 rryT CTaBJ1l1J1y aaiu xpeser xana je,n;O)f(J1BellOHohHY MOPY, 6y,n;ehJ1 ce y 3HOjy J1BpJ1WTetm. Aa CTe rana nperrosnarraHohHY MOPY, xao rrocnenxuy HaCJ1Jba y ~pTa'IJ1Ma, J1CKJbyqJ1l1J16J1 CTe upraxe J1CTBapJ1 ,n;OBellJ1y pe,n;. Ilere 6J1 cnasano y CBOMKpeBeTY, jep nere rpetia na cnaaa yCBOMKpeBeTY, a MaMa J1rara cxyna. HaKHa,n;HO xcnpaszsaa,e J1,n;eTeWKO jep canaJ1MaTe crpax ,n;axe sac rrpBJ1 xojaunrja npornacarn HaCJ1l1HJ1KOMjep nere yplla,a Ha,n;,n;eTeTOMce He CMe BPWJ1TJ1"HaCJ1Jbe", xazce aaxoaonasau. Ilere o,n;lI)"IyjeUITa he npornacarx HaCJ1JbeM, a YBeK je peallHO ,n;ahe sa rrnamaao nere HaCJ1Jbe6J1TJ1CBe 'IJ1Me »cenare ,n;ara MelbaTe, na 60Jbe. HJ1KO He npernocraazsa ,n;acananere BpWJ1 J1CTJ1HCKOHaCJ1Jbe nan po,n;J1TeJbeM. PeallHJ1M HaCJ1JbeM nere ysapahay,n;apa~, spaha 6yMepaHr pomrrersy, KOjJ1je ro,n;J1HaMaynpasosaaao "rrllJ1WaHO"HaCJ1Jbe nan ,n;eTeTOM.

Kana po,n;J1TeJb, snpase naaern, HarrOKOH CXBaTJ1noxae ra je nosena nmnua-na npaayna, a najnoryfiaaje je CBaKaKO npeaaurruhaaan,e, xana CXBaTJ1rne cyrpeWKe, xana rroxyura ,n;a J1XJ1CrrpaBJ1, xana nere ,n;a)f(eCTOK ornop, ,n;PYWTBOhe3aWTJ1TJ1 nere on po,n;J1TeJba. Morten npeaaurrxhasarsa ornapa rrpocTop aa paTJ13Mel)y neue J1po,n;J1TeJba. A xana ,n;ol)e TpeHYTaK, xana rrynonertro nere noxae narrpaBJ1 npofinesre ,n;PYWTBY,3aWTJ1TY aehe ,n;06J1TJ1.HarrpOTJ1B, 6J1he CaHK~J10HJ1-cano rro MepJ1 3aKOHa.

Ilanac ce po,n;J1TeJbJ1nnaure csoje neue, rrnaure ce aaxosonasua KOjJ1je nenpa-PO,n;HOrrpe3aWTJ1TJ10 HOBe reaepauaje, ,n;OKcy neua, J13aTO po,n;J1TeJbJ1"lIaKO" o,n;y-crajy on csoje neue. HJ1je J1CTJ1Hana cy po,n;J1TeJbJ1Heo,n;rOBOpHJ1 BaCrrJ1Ta'IJ1 J1naJ1MHJ1je Ba)KHOKy,n;axpne lbJ1XOBaneua, naaac. HanpOTJ1B, BeJIJ1KaBehJ1Ha ponare-Jba cy J13Jby6aBJ1 po,n;J1l1J1neuy, caisamr CHOBe0 CBOMnerery xao ,n;06pOM 'IOBeKY,nourrenov, npenaoa. Ha)KallOCT, ,n;PYWTBOje caBpeMeHJ1M po,n;J1TeJbJ1MaHaMeT-HyllO rrmnuaao aacmrraise y 3aMeHY aa peallHy Ka3HY, He 06jaCHJ1BWJ1 J1Mxoje J1XrroclIe,n;J1u;exexajy, Kana CBJ1CXBaTe ,n;acy rrpeBapeHJ1 J1na CMOJ1MJ1J1nena y npo-611eMY,KaCHOje. Po,n;J1TeJbJ1,neua, J1HCTJ1TYU;J1je,,n;PYWTBOy u;ellJ1HJ1,CBJ1cy xcpraerrllJ1WaHe rrpJ1Hy,n;e, Ha)KallOCT.

IIory6Ho je npeaaurrxhaaarse nerera on )KJ1BOTa, on J1CTJ1He. On ,n;eTeTa ceKpJ1je HeMaWTJ1Ha po,n;J1TeJba, ira rrpJ1Mep. Crsapa ce nerery J1l1Y3J1jana pomrrersCBe MO)Ke,xana rpetia na J1CrryHJ1saxreae napaaara. POAJ1TeJb ce 6011eCHO)f(pTBY-je 3a nere, rrosajsosyjyha HOBan, nonaacyhx xpenare, OAPJ1'IyhJ1 ce CBOjJ1Xnorpe-6a, a TO CBe caste 3aTO ,n;aiseroso noxnemro nere He 611 J1MallO Malbe on ,n;pyrJ1X,na He 6J1 "rraTJ1110"

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)J;eTe ce cxnarsa OAcycpera ca cxrphy, CBOjJ1XHaj6JHD!U1X,AOKce J1CTOBpeMeHOieua J13JI(l)f(YcycpeTY ca BJ1pTyeJIHOM cMpny, J1no HeKOJIJ1KOCaTJ1AHeBHO.

rrOCJIeAJ1~e npesaurrahxaarsa cy K06He. OBa neua cy nOTnYHO 6e30cenajHarpeaa OHOMe KO J1Xrrpesaurrahyje. 3alUTO? CBeCHO J1JIJ1HeCBeCHO neua saajyta J1Xje nesnatse pOAJ1TeJba YBeJIO y np06JIeMe, npzce pomrrezse nOA KOHTpO-rosr, cana peaJIHJ1M HaCJ1lbeM. Arpecaja rrocraje lbJ1XOBCTJ1JI)f(J1BOTa. POAJ1Telb>AJIa3J1y orpoMHy naTlbY jep J1Aalbe MJ1CJIJ1Aa je, CBe lUTOje 'lJ1HJ10 sa nere, 6J10Bpa3 orpOMHe lby6aBJ1 J1 'lYAe ce lUTO J1Mneua HJ1CY3aXBaJIHa. TaKBJ1 pOAJ1Te-bJ1 rrocrajy TaMHJ1'lapJ1 Ae'lJ1jJ1x AYlUa, a orrna J1Xneua AO rpotia xaxosaaajy sa'pelliKe xoje HJ1CYCMeJIJ1nO'lJ1HJ1TJ1y BaCnJ1TalbY. HeCpenHJ1 ponarezs YMeCTO>'leKJ1BaHe 3aXBaJIHOCTJ1aa CBOjy ,,)f(PTBY" ):\06J1je He3aXBaJIHOCT J1nacazse cnojeteue HaA lbJ1Ma.

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"MJ1A1iEHA 3BE3~A"

He KOM6uHyj'Uleuuaau U unuiuanelJIllaUluneUle na "nyupuju"

MllaneHa 36e3ga je TJ1n nerera KapaKTepJ1CTJ1'laH aa nonpysja rne je BeKOBJ1MaAOMJ1HJ1paJIacaaxcna npJ1HYAa, a OHAa J13CBeTa, YllleTaO HOBJ1MOAeJIsac-

mrraisa, n03J1TJ1BHOYCJIOBlbaBalbe.POAJ1TelbJ1cy, xao M CBJ1lbYAJ1caspeaeaor CBeTa, A06pJ1 J1MJ1TaTOpJ1.POAJ1TelbJ1

J1MJ1TJ1pajyBaCnJ1THe TpeHAoBe J13npocTor pa3JIora IlITO )f(eJIe Aa J1Mce neua IlITOnaxure YKJIone y APYIliTBO. Oaor nyTa pOAJ1TelbJ1cy, J13AeJIOBaCBeTa y KojJ1Maje AOHeAaBHOBJIaAalIa caaxora npMHYAa, caBlIaAaJIJ1 J1YCBOjJ1lIJ1MOAelIn03J1TJ1BHOryClIO-

BlbaBalba J16JIare npJ1H}7l;e, oAY3J1Malba HarpaAe. BJ1Ae OHJ1Aa neurro HJ1je y peAY.HeBOlbHO npasaajy na J1Mce AeTe nerse aa maBY jep MaJIJ111IaBpJIO 6p30 noxae AaJ1MJ1TJ1paponarezse J1na J1XYCJIOBlbaBa. J.1Ma nere "Haj60lber" yqJ1Telba aa CBeTY,MeAJ1jeKOjJ1cy, Y3 6JIarOCJIOB ponarersa, yllIlIJ1 y nOpOAJ1~y. Tana no-onse onacnaarpa no KOjOjnere npaBJ1 yjAypMe J1 onna YCJIOBlbaBapOAJ1Telba Aa ra uarpanx sa3JIO(aKO MJ1ClIJ1pOAJ1TelbAa OHnpecraae Aa npaBJ1 rrrynocrn, J1lIJ1aKOypaAJ1 A06po,KaKOpOAJ1Telb J1oxexyje, OHAa Mopa 6J1TJ1aarpaheao OHJ1MIlITO nere )f(elIJ1)

PeKlIaMa je TY, a IlITa xaxce peKJIaMa TO je y TpeHAY. AOBOlbHO je na pOAJ1TelbHelliTO 3aXTeBa OA nerera J1 geTe Ben rrocraszsa YClIOB: "J.1cnYHJ1ny TO, aKO MJ1KynJ111ITO J1TO." Kana MaJIJ111IanpeTepa, pOAJ1Telb 6M ra ClIaTKOnpeTYKao, amr TOaa 3ana):ly He MO)f(e, a cana He MO)f(eHH y 3eMlbaMa y TpaH3M~MjJ1. Ty je nOJIM~Mja,Ty cy pa3HO pasaa ApYlliTBa xoja IlITMTe nere, 60pe ce aa iseroaa npaBa. OA xorara lUTJ1Te? OA pomrrezsai! -Ila, A06po CTe 'lylIM. 3aTO cy naunr racrapfiajrepa, AOHeAaBHO, rOBopMlIM CBOjOj necnocnoj Ae~M, na nyTy npeMa CBOjOj AOMOBMHJ1,Y

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oj HJilCYBJIa,n;aJIa rrpasxna paaaajenor CBeTa: ,HeKaj casro na npeljeMo rpaHJiI-Y6Ji1hy Bora y Te6Ji1!"

IIOlllTO je npou;ec npeTfue po,n;JilTeJbJilMa,aesran,a y rpaasanaja, ,n;anehe CMeTJiIryKy CBOjy ,n;eu;y, rpajao ronxnaaa, npnponao je ,n;acy ponarezsa KOM6Ji1HOBa-nnaurany JiIpeaJIHy npJilHy,n;y. Ponaren,a 3eMaJba y TpaH3Ji1U;JiljJilcy KOPJilCTJilJIJiI)60,n;y, jep ce na ycaajaise 3aKOHa 0 nopo,n;JilU;JiI,re JiI3a6paHJiI qm3Ji1'1Ke JiIBep-IHe npaayne, xexa JiIno naanecer remora, JiIxana fuJilXOBa YCJIOBJbaBaHa 3Be-lnpeTepa, (xana pomrrezs Jilcu;pnJil CBa rrmnuatra cpencrsa), OHa 6Ji1Ba)KeCTOKOesrnaheaa, na 3anaMTJiI.Ilocnenaue cy rpanorae.Ilere je nOTnYHo neaopajearxcaao JiIHeBJ1HOnoxyura-ga nponahe y 'IeMY je iseroaa KPJilBJilu;a.He BJiI,n;JiI,n;aje casco xorrapao ponarezseIe,n;Jilje.J.1CToBpeMeHO JiIpomrrezs je osajaa, nyH ocehaisa xpxaaue. Pomrren, He~JiIna cy ra 3JIoynoTpe6Ji1JIJiI nporas pobenor nerera JiI06pHYTO.Ponxrezs BJiI,n;JiIna My nere Jil3MJiI'Ie Jil3 PYKY, a He MO)Ke ,n;a npenosna na My je!BHa xoaxypemnrja, y BacnJilTafuY ,n;eTeTa, na ,n;OMaKpyxe, Pex je 0 HeraTJilBHJilM~p)KajJilMa Me,n;JiljJilMaJiI0 OCTaJIa 'IeTJilpJil nmnnaaa Mo,n;eJIa. IIOllTO TO He BJiI,n;JiI,~JilTeJbHaJilBHOnonyurra nerery ,n;acare npoaona nopen .rysepaanre". To My 'IaKrpaja jep cy TO peTKJiI TpeHyU;JiI o,n;Mopa on MaJIOr ",n;JilKTaTopa". Ponsrrezs Mopace O,n;MOPJilKaKO 6Ji1Morao ,n;a JilcnYHJiI3aXTeB caapexene nenarornje rro KojeMpa ,n;a"rrpaTJiI" csoje nere. Kana nere YCTaHe, rj. 3aBplllJil ca "rYBepHaHTOM" OHure HJilje MaJIJillla, OH je HJilHI,Ia, OHje MohHJiI PeHI,Iep, Exnm MeH, rrOKJilMOH,CBecajao HJilje OH. Haje JIaKO po,n;JilTeJbYna rrparn "cBoje" nere, jep y pOKY on nOJIa

" 6ra "fuerOBO nere rrpoveaa ap ner ynora. Iloxan,e na ce ,n;eJIJiIllJil30¢peHJiI'IHOMe1)y )KeJbe ,n;anocnyura notipe casere CBOjJilXpomrrezsa JiIJilMJilTJilpafua BJilPTy-aor aacxzsa, xoje ca naxohosr ycsaja jep je OHO nOTrrYHO y CKJIa,n;yca iseroaoaKpJilBJbeHOMnpxponoa. IIJIJilllaHO nere BpeMeHOM ry6Ji1 cnoc06HOCT ,n;apa3a3Ha-notipo o,n;3JIa, aerrorpeunmo ce onpenersyje sa 3JIO JiIJilMJilTJilpara. Kana ponnrezsIry6Ji1 JiIOHaKO JilCTaH'IaHe aepse, jep He MO)Ke ,n;ace Jil360PJil ca nenorrycrnaaaIHalllafueM nerera, (He carnenasa ,n;aje Jil3BOP y Me,n;JiljJilMa,y nrpmrasra), cneneTJilHe jep caapesrena ponnrezs xaxce: "BHhelll ssesna, a xana rrpeTepall yMJIa-h I" B 6 ., y re: . op a nocraje reurxa JiIaenpaaenna. YMeCTOna JilCKJbyqJilJil3BOpe 3JIa JiIIpa'lyHa ce ca Y3p0U;JilMa, ponarezs JilJIJiI6Ji1je, JilJIJiInarpahyje HecpeTHO nere, HeI JIJiIaa 6Ji1JIOxojx Ha'lJilH y6JIa)KJilJIo nocnennue, y6JIa)KJilo nacazse, Hepa,n;, JIa)K,')KHe pexa, O,n;HOCnpesra po,n;JilTeJbY,6pahJil, cecrpasra, aacnara-noaa.OBaKaB O,n;HOCponarersa npeMa ,n;eTeTY je 60JIaH JiIaa ponarezsa JiI sa nere.

),n;JilTeJbHeMa ,n;OBOJbHOcxare ,n;ace o,n;yrrpe nnaiuaaov BacnJilTafuY. BJiI,n;JiIponn-Jb na My je nere noxnerrao, nerso, HeBaCnJilTaHO, arpecxano, aJIJiIHeMa cnary, a HJiIraise na xpeae ,n;pyrJilM nYTeM. HeM a xpa6pOCTJiI, jep aKO CBJiInpJilcTajy na HOBe

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Mo,n;eJIeaacrnrrarsa OH He )KeJIJiIna ce Jil3,n;Bajajep ce nnaunr na he nere 6Ji1TJiI,n;py-ra'lJilje on OCTaJIJilX.To aehe 6Ji1TJiInotipo sa nere, MJilCJIJiIpo,n;JilTeJb. J.1CToBpeMeHopO.n;JilTeJbBJiI.n;JiIna HJiI)KeCTOKa rrpJilHy,n;a He HOCJiIpellefue. IIpOllJIa cy 'ra BpeMe-Ha xana cy ce np06JIeMJiI y nopo,n;JilU;JiIpelllaBaJIJiI Ka3HaMa JiI6aTJilHaMa. Ha)KaJIOCT,Halla "MJIaheHa" sseana JilMa npofinesre xoje peTKO KO MO)Kena Jil3JIe'lJil. Pomrrezsje HeMohaH, jep He BJiI,n;JiIHOBOpellefue, HOBJiIrryT. J.1xana po,n;JilTeJb6Ji1Bacnpeaan.n;arrOCJIe ,n;Ba,n;eceT romma rrpeTfue ycsoja 3aXTeB .n;aHe ryse csoje nere, oana cenojase aYTopJilTapHJiI rrCJilXOJI03Ji1JiInenarosx KOjJil,6pJilHyhJil sa Jil3ry6JbeHJiI ayropa-TeT po.n;JilTeJba, rrpe,n;JIa)KY rrOHOBHOyBo1)efue 6aTJilHe. OHJiI ce CBJilMcpu;eM 3aJIa)KYaa spaharse fiarxae (OHaKO, no ryax, xana nperepa, Ka,n;ncupnaxo csa nnauranacpe,n;CTBa, xoja raxohe 3.n;YllHO nonpxcaaajy), Hexa HaM je Bor y nOMohJil. OnpOCTJiIJilMIocnone jep He snajy urra npe,n;JIa)Ky. IIa sap HJilCMOCBe,n;OU;JiI,n;acy ponarezsxyrrpaBo KOM6Ji1HOBaJIJiI6aTJilHY JiInmnnano, rryHJilx nsartecer ronaaa, y 3eMJbaMa yrpaaaauaja, na ,n;06Ji1CMOaacazse HeBJil1)eHJilXpa3Mepa.

3arOBopHJilU;JiI caxo nmnuane npJilHy,n;e ce cxeure, jep saajy ,n;acy fuJilXOBereo-paje cynepJilOpHe, caMOM 'IJilfueHJilU;OM,n;a nsa fuJilXCTOjJilKOp.n;OIi60pau;a JiIKOH-seanaja 0 .n;e'lJiljJilMrrpaBJilMa. OHJiI he notienara, ,n;eu;ahe onaxayrx, ponarezsx JiIHaCTaBHJilU;JiIhe ce ynnaureno nosyha y MJilllJilje pyrre, MOJIehJilBora na neua He snajy6all YBeK 6poj coc TeJIe¢OHa aa xoja he JilXnpajaarsasara aa rnynocrx, xoje henmnuaaa neua npornauraaarx HaCJilJbeMonpacnnx, Ha,n;fuJilMa. Pe3YJITaTJiI? Hacn-Jbe eHOpMHJilXpa3Mepa, jase JiIjaxe Jil3,n;aHa y,n;aH.

OTKY,n;aacnzse xana je 6aTJilHa 3aKOHOM YKJilHYTa?Saro urro nmnnaao aacarsey BacrrJilTafuY nOTnYHo saycraszsa eMOU;JilOHaJIHJiI,MeHTaJIHJiI, ¢Jil3Ji1'1KJiI,JilHTeJIeK-TyaJIHJiI, ,n;YXOBHJiI,paCT JiIpassoj nerera, Pex je 0 eHopMHOM rtnmnarroxr HaCJilJbY,HeBJil1)eHoMy xcropa]n passoja rrenarornje, a nacarse je tracazse, 3BaJIO ce OHO JiInmnuano. Kana ce CBe Jil3JIOMJiI,JilCKPJilBJiI,aacnojz, norncae yHyTap aecpehnornJIJilllaHor nerera, cnenx 6YMepaHr.ll,eTe yaspaha y.n;apau;, peaJIHOM KOHKpeTHOM?aTJilHOM. KOMe yaspahai He,n;Y)KHOMpo,n;JilTeJbY,He,n;Y)KHOM,n;pyrapy, 6paTY, npJil-jarezsy, caMOM ce6Ji1 . J.1 HaCJilJIHJilU;JiIJiI)KpTBe cy HeBJilHJiIjep JilXje HOBa nzrmuanane,n;aromja y6e,n;JilJIa na nesrajy .n;pyrJil Jil360p, ceM nznniraaor aacrnrrarsa,. ll,aKJIe, npso ponarersa nap ronana Bplle rtmrurano nacarse Ha,n;neuoa, ()KpTBa~e nere, ponarezs je HaCJilJIHJilK),a rrOTOMneua ysspahajy peaJIHJilM HaCJilJbeM (npa-)aBlbyjy irx, npere JilM,spehajy MX, snoynorpetizsaaajy M HapaBHO, y xpajisoj HY)KP;11Hacphy ¢Jil3M'IKJiIna ponarezse). Cana cy caste 3aMeHJilJIJiIYJIore (ponarezs je )KpTBa,,n;eTe je HaCJilJIHJilK). Hazrasr ce na cana paayscere ¢pa3y caspexreae nenaroraje:"HaCJilJIHMK M )KpTBa cy MCTO" .:

n Ka)~a HaCMJbe nocrarae orposrae paaaepe, rana ,n;PYlllTBO, Y TOTaJIHoj HeMO-11,BPlUl1 nonarno aacazse Hap; MJIa,n;MMa,xaxosaaajyhn JilX,npeaacrrnraaajyha

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[ MeKO H rpyoo, urranosr H llIaprapenOM HJIH HXp;aHHMa H rOp;HHaMa ryura jaJIO-1Mnporpascoaa KOjH He peurasajy np06JIeM HaCHlba jep ce 6aBe nOCJIep;Hu;aMa,se y3pOU;HMa. "PeU;H p;porH He, IlIKOJIa 6e3 nacazsa" JIel.£elbeM rrojenauxx 06JIH-I 3aBHCHOCTH, MO)f(p;a nOMa)f(Y, aJIH rpajao H u;eJIOBHTO ce He peuranajy aaro-vlJIaHe nocaenaue nacazsa, OBa ce Hrpa 6aBlbelba HCKlbYl.£HBOHaCHlbeM, xao>CJIep;HU;OM,Mopa 3aYCTaBHTH, aKO MHCJIHMOna rpajeao, HHp;HBHp;yaJIHO, rropo-{l.£HO,rJI06aJIHO.

"MJIaneHoj 3Be3p;H" je najrexce. Hap; lbOM ce xopacre nJIHllIaHH y sacnararsy, alp;a npeTepa, crapa, notipa 6aTHHa HJIH 6ap npHl.£a 0 lbOj, crynajy na cueny, ynpxoc.KOHYH 3aKoHop;aBU;Y. Y KpaTKHM BpeMeHcKHM pa3MaU;HMa ssesna p;O)f(HBlbaBa.ehan,e p;a je u;apHu;a, a nOTOM je pop;HTelb )f(eCTOKO6au;a na "nop;". Pe3YJITaTH OBa-lor aacmrrarsa he ce BHp;eTH sa HeKOJIHKOronnna, xan OBa renepauaja neue craca,Y pa3BHjeHHM 3eMlbaMa, y KojHMa saxononasau Ben rop;HHaMa Mallie poznrre-

~Ma 3aKOHOM, no KojeM je 6aTHHa aafipaiseaa, noraba ce neurro l.£YP;HO.POp;J1TelbJ1ocrajy npasn BJ1pTy03H y KOM6HHOBalbY nJIJ111IaHHX J1 6aTJ1He. Jep;aH HeCpeTHJ1ran, HOBHHap rrosaaror axepasxor nneanor JIHCTa MH ncnpma csoje J1CKYCTBOonrajarsy csoje p;Be neaoj-mue. Kazee, KaKO MajcTopcKH 6Hje csoje nesojaaue,HHKap;a ra HHCY npnjaaane. "CHrYPHO he sac TynJ1 xana MaJIO ojaxajy", peKox.-IE, nenojxaue, norryr MOjHX, He TyKy cxeae, TyKy cnoje MY)f(eBe", p;op;ap;e 3JIy-1p;0. Ianan l.£OBeK.OH je caao cnaurasao CBOjy p;YlllY, J1JIJ1je 6ap TaKO MJ1CJIJ10.

OHH HeBeIlITH, CTpallIlbJ1BJ1jJ1 nourryjy 3aKOH, aJIH KOM6HHyjy nmnuaae, rrosroh:HXOJIOra H nHJIYJIe, H sa ce6e, J1 sa CBOjy p;eu;y. A xana, ynpKoc cBeMY rrnmnaxa!u;a H3pacTY y HaCHJIHHKe, a ponarezs noxyura p;a ce HeBJ1HO 6paHH, nojasrsyje!raj J1CTH,CTpOrJ1 saxoaonasau, Ilpornaurasa ponnrezsa Hecnoc06HHM, HaCHJI-~M, 0p;Y3HMa My nere 3apap; "BHIlIHX" p;pYIllTBeHHX HHTepeca.

BeHY on Tyre H neua H pop;HTelbH, a HHKO p;a ce nocern H nOCTaBH npaBO rnrra-e: KO ce TO Ben nyHHx uresnecer ronnna He3HaJIal.£KH nOHrpaBa noponanascasera, )f(HBOTHMa lbYP;H, HaMenynJ1 HM npesasaheay ayTopHTapHy, TOTaJIHTapHYflHllIaHY p;pecypy. Ko J1Ma npaso na p;pecypy Ha3HBa BaCnJ1TalbeM? 3arOBopHH-~ osor JIyp;HJIa OP;JIyqyjy 0 Cyp;6HHH MJ1JIHOHaneue. OHH cyne caspesreaoa POP;J1-!lbY, Ka)f(lbaBajynH ra aajcrpaunraje, MaTepHjaJIHHM Ka3HaMa J1JlJ10p;Y3HMalbeMeue. Ileuy HM csreurrajy y xpamrrezscxe rroponaue, xoje U cawe KopHCTe nnxura-o nacrnrraise, jep sa p;pyro He aaajy, A xana HH xpaHHTelbH He nOMorHY, neua censone y nonpaaao-nacrnrrae YCTaHoBe. A IlITa HX TaMO xexa? Iloroznrrel!

Ha cpehy, xana ponarersa OTKPHjy JIenoTY saarsa CTBapaJIal.£KOr aacmrrarsa,yriaa nocraje cnoaa xoja seayje neny H pop;HTelbe, rroponmry u;eJIy. IloponmryP;pyIliTBO. Ine je lby6aB Ty nacazsa nexra, rp;e aacazsa nexra, sa 3aKOHOM H 3aKO-

onasuea rrorpefie HeMa.

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JJ:OEPO JJ:ETE- JJ:OEAP qOBEK

E, ga HaCje scano 6UUle

Jep;aH on peTKHx THnOBa nerera cTBopeH ayTOpJ1TapHHM aacmrraisex, y Tpa-p;HU;HOHaJIHoj noponaua, je noopo nere - OTaU; xoaexa (nofiap l.£OBeK). Ilpano

je l.£yp;ona nocroje Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHe rroponaue xoje cy ycnene na u3Hep;pe UCTHH-CKH notipor xoaexa, l.£J1jJ1je CBaKH xopax, CBaKO p;eJIO YTeMelbeHo na Jhy6aBJ1. YcTBapu, Tpap;J1U;UOHaJIHa noponana xoja je 6J1JIa U OCTaJIa p;eJIJ1MJ1l.£HOayTopHTap-na, jep je ynorpetizsasana p;Ba, on MorynJ1X rrer aYTOpHTapHHX BaCnJ1THHX Mop;e-JIa, npxponao je CBeTY CJIaJIa p;eJIHMHl.£HOnotipe lbyp;e. a l.£eMYje pex! He pap;H ceo p;eTeTY nOTnYHo Ol.£YBaHexapvoaaje, nOTnYHo oCTBapeHJ1X J13BOPHJ1Xnarona,nOTIlYHo xoaexae CBeCTH, jep cy yTJ1u;ajJ1, sacmrratsa y nopop;HU;H, yrnnaj umpenopop;Hu;e H p;pYIllTBa BpJIO jaxx. 3Hal.£H, He nocroja CTBapaJIal.£KO nere y u;eJIOCTJ1y OKBHPY Tpap;HU;HOHaJIHe nopop;J1u;e.

To cy 6HJIa neua, xoja cy HMaJIa cpehy, p;a ce y paHoM nermscrsy, naby MaKapnopep; jenne ocoee (MaMe, rare, 6aKe, nexe, KOMlllHHHu;e, TeTKe), xoja je H casraHMaJIa Ol.£YBaHYXapMOHJ1jy H H3BpllIUJIa n03HTHBaH eMOU;HOHaJIHHyrxuaj na nere,BacnHTaBajynH ra 6e3 aYTopUTaPHOCTJ1. Hajsaacaaje je 6uJIO, y paHOM p;eTHlbCTBY,6HTH nopep; TaKBe ocotie, TaKBHX lbYP;H. CBH P;OU;HUjHyrauaja HJ1CYHMaJIH Monna y nOTnYHocTH cpyllie xapaoanjy nerera.

Taj MOp;eJI H3 nerarscraa ce xyaao, xao rpYMeH 3JIaTa H KOPHCTHO Y TpeHYU;H-Ma CBeCHOCTH. Y 6pOjHHM )f(HBOTHHM crrryanxjaxra l.£OBeKayTopHTapHe CBeCTHKOPJ1CTJ1aYTopHTapHY p;06pOTY. To 3HaqH CeJIeKTHBHY, J1HTepeCHY, HayqeHY aJIJ1 HJ1CTJ1HCKY,l.£J1CTY,Y TpeHyU;HMa CBeCHOCTH. Tpap;J1U;HoHaJIHa nopop;Hu;a je on aaj-paHJ1jer nermscraa YJIHBaJIa CBOMe l.£ep;y, MHJIOM J1JIHCJ1JIOM,CJ1CTeM MOpaJIHJ1XHOPMJ1J1Bpep;HOCTJ1, BpeMeHa y KojeM )f(HBe. ,1J;eTeje yHanpep; 3HaJIO IlITa je noopo,

urra noure, WTa rrpJ1XBaTJ1TJ1,a WTa OCYP;J1TJ1,a CBeje 6J1JIOy CKJIap;yca MOpaJIOMoje je p;J1KTJ1paJIOnaro P;pyWTBO. To cy nponasne Bpep;HOCTJ1J1aKOje HeWTO 6J1JIO)6po 3a jenno BpeMe, 3HaJIO ce p;a nehe 6J1Hf noopo y HOBOMspesreny.

TorrJ1JIe cy ce nponaaae, aJIJ1 cy ce y CBaKO Hapep;Ho p;06a rrpeHOCJ1JIe Be'IHe,enponasne Bpep;HOCTJ1. ITpOJIa3He Bpep;HOCTJ1rroTpe6yjy J1 rrpOJIa3Hy p;06pOTY..nax MO)f(eMOcrrpaBoM 3aKJbyqJ1TJ1 p;a je J1TaKBa p;06poTa 6J1JIa aa KOPJ1CTP;py_(TBa J1rropop;J1u;e. PeTKJ1 cy 6J1JIJ1rrospeaeno CBeCHJ1J1y TJ1MTpeHYU;J1Macy jacnopaBJ1JIJ1pa3JIJ1Ky J13Meljy CTBapaJIa'IKe, Be'IHe, YHJ1Bep3aJIHe A06poTe J1aYTopJ1-lpHe, rrpOJIa3He notipore. Kana 6J1 ce BpahaJIJ1 HeCBeCHOCTJ1¢YHKU;J10HJ1CaJIJ1cya rrpJ1HU;J1rrJ1MaaYTOpJ1TapHe, J1HTepeCHe notipore J1JIJ1notipore J13crpaxa.

Ha cpehy y CBJ1MBpeMeHJ1Ma cy nocrojane CTBapaJIa'IKe, u;eJIOBJ1Te, CBeCHeJ1'IHOCTJ1KOjJ1cy y CBaKOMTpeHyTKy J1MaJIejacaohy J1MoryhHOCT na pa3JIJ1KyjypOJIa3HO on Be'IHOr, nourryjyha J1CKJbyqJ1BOBe'IHe Bpep;HOCTJ1.TaKBJ1 JbyP;J1cye 3aJIaraJIJ1 aa J1CTJ1HCKOA06po, sa 'IOBeKa J1'IeCTO cy J1MaJIJ1cYK06e ca Jbyp;J1Maoja cy J1HCJ1CTJ1paJIJ1aa rrourrosarsy, KJIaCHJ1X,MOpaJIHJ1XBpep;HOCTJ1.BJ1JIJ1cyo P;J1BOBJ1KOjJ1cy BOP;J1JIJ1'IOBe'IaHCTBO aanpen.

Ca TJ1M A06pJ1M, CTBapaJIa'IKJ1M p;eTeTOM, 'IOBeKOM (OH HJ1je y KaTerOpJ1jJ1lIyP; J1nooap"), rOTOBOCBJ1zcene p;a ycnocraae Be3Y, aexan J1can, CBJ1Ma onrosa-a ja'IJ1Ha, BJ1p;HaXapMOHJ1ja J1CJ1ryPHOCT KOjOMapaxe TaKBJ1JbYP;J1.YKOJIJ1KOOBOere, OBaKaB 'IOBeK HeMa jacny CBeCT0 Bpep;HOCTJ1csoje A06poTe, J1aKO 360r fbe: csoje pa3JIJ1'IJ1TOCTJ1,'IeCTO J1Ma J1npotineaa, CBJ1p;pyrJ1 he HeCBeCHO noxyuia-am p;a ra spare na aYTopJ1TapHY P;06pOTy.

Kon p;eu;e J1onpacmrx, KOjJ1rrocep;yjy CTBapaJIa'IKY A06pOTy, raj rrojasr Be'IHelotipore HJ1je ocseurhen. ITOCTOjJ1peanaa orraCHOCT p;a J1Mcpenaaa y KOjOjpacTy( )f(J1BepyWJ1 XapMOHJ1jy J1p;a speaeaov TaKBJ1JbYP;J1onycrajy on A06poTe, oP;y-rajyha on ce6e.

AaHac je Ba)f(HO na A06po nere J1Majacay CBeCT0 CBOjOjrr03J1TJ1BHOCTJ1,CBeCTt Bpep;HOCTJ1TaKBe A06poTe, na ynanpehyje snaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa J1BeCHO, p;y60KJ1M rrapTHepCKJ1M Op;HOCJ1Ma,ovoryha p;aJbJ1 rr03J1TJ1BaH paCT ce6J1( rr03J1TJ1BaH pacr CBJ1MaOHJ1MaKOjJ1ce aa rsera sesyjy J1JIJ1y 'IJ1jeM ce OKpY)f(e-by Halje.

ITocToje JbYP;J1KOjJ1cy, J1nopen CHa)f(HOr yrmraja aYTOpJ1TapHOr aacmrrarsa, y(OPOP;J1U;J1J1WJ1pe, O'IYBaJIJ1CBOjyXapMOHJ1jy. Pe'I je 0 reHJ1jJ1Ma KOjJ1cy rrop;apJ1-(J1'IOBe'IaHCTBY nnonose, KOjJ1cy oMoryhJ1JIJ1 J1CTJ1HCKJ1MaTepJ1jaJIHJ1 J1p;YXOB-IJ1pacr JbYp;J1.feHJ1jJ1 crsapajy J13 'IOBe'IHe paBHJ1, 'IOBe'IHa nena, yrexezseaa nale'IHJ1M rrpJ1HU;J1rrJ1Ma.

MHOrJ1 BeJIJ1KJ1cTBapaOU;J1 cy 6J1JIJ1reHJ1jJ1 y 'IJ1Hy craapaisa, na 6J1 y CBaKO-~HeBHoM )f(J1BOTY6J1JIJ1jaxe aYTOpJ1TapHe JIJ1'IHOCTJ1,ca KJIaCHOM, rrpOJIa3HOM

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6 OTOM. H)J1XOBa reHJ1jaJIHOCT rrorryr cYH'IeBe CBeTJIOCTJ1,)f(J1BJ1y lbJ1XOBJ1MAO P . ., .

a lbJ1XOB J13BOPHJ1HarOH aa CTBapaJIaWTBOM Je J13Y3eTHo jax, Jep reHJ1Je~-. .J.1Maurra p;a nonynx 'IOBe'IaHcTBY· IJ;eJIOBJ1TOCTpa3BoJa csora nyxa HJ1CYnocernn,. ie aYTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeMaacmrratsa 6J10 MohaH.Jep J .

A una ce p;eIllaBa ca caBpeMeHJ1M, rrJIJ1WaHJ1Mrenepauajasra J1fbJ1XOBOMnoopo-TOM? J.1Majy JIJ1je yonurre? CBaKO nere aa CBeT P;OHOCJ1KJIJ1U;yA06pOTe, aJIJ1 ceOHa non yTJ1u;ajeM rrJIJ1WaHe, a jour rope y KOM6J1HaU;J1jJ1peaJIHe J1rrJIJ1WaHe rrpJ1-

e vonurre He MO)f(epa3BJ1TJ1. 3aTo nanac TOJIJ1KO'IeCTO JbYP;J1Tpap;J1U;J10HaJIHeHYA,cBeCTJ1nocrarosaiy mrrarse: "lliTa ce TOp;aHac neurasa, 3aWTO BJ1We HeMa p;06pJ1XJbYP;J1"?OHJ1 ce mrrajy, jep J1Majy cehafb~ aa BpeMe y xojex cy pa~JIJ1. ITJIJ1WaHereHepaU;J1je J1He nocrasrsajy OBOrnrran,e Jep P;06pOTY He rrperrosnajy y ce6J1, HJ1TJ1J1Majy norpeoy aa fbOM.

KaKO MO)f(enoxnenan, arpecxaaa, 3aBJ1p;aH zreis, HeCBeCTaH, oryhea, a TaKBJ1cy MHOrJ1,jep cy )f(pTBe rrJIJ1WaHOr sacmrrarsa, p;a npenosaajy A06pOTY y ce6J1J1p;pyroM. Caapesrene renepauaje nesrajy 'IaK HJ1cpehy p;a J1XHeKO y'IJ1 KJIaCHJ1MBpep;HOCTJ1Ma,rrpOJIa3HJ1M jep je OBO speae y xojesr cy CBe Bpep;HOCTJ1aa rrJIO'IJ1)f(J1BOTa,J1notipo J13JIO ce HYP;J1.ITJIJ1WaHJ1'IOBeK ca re rrJIO'Ie 6J1pa carao OHOWTOje fbeMY CJIJ1'IHO.Ha J1HTepHeTY nocroje Be'IHe Bpep;HOCTJ1,aJIJ1 ce y TOj KyTJ1jJ1xpaje J1CBO3JIO CBeTa. ITJIJ1WaHJ1MaJIJ1WaHJ1nehe OTBapaTJ1 cajrose 6J16JIJ10TeKa,YMeTHJ1'IKJ1Xranepxja ... aJIJ1he 3aTO care rrpOBOp;J1TJ1ua J1rpJ1u;aMa, HajHeJbyp;CKJ1-jer canpscaja, aa rropaorparpaja CBJ1X06JIJ1Ka, na caxynrsarsy J1crrpa3HJ1X J1H¢Op-MaU;J1ja,na xcnpasnoa heperaisy J1oroBapafbY, na HeKOM¢ejc6yKy J1JIJ16pOjHJ1Mrrpa3HJ1M ¢opYMJ1Ma, y3 aajsehx WYHp;,ysrpezcaaajyha ce ca ce6J1 CJIJ1'IHJ1Ma.

Casro na jenao mrrarse je Ba)f(HOp;aTJ1onrosop. "Aa JIJ1je nofipora HOBJ1Xrerre-pauaja rpajao J13ry6JbeHa"? Ha cpehy, HJ1je. Oaor xaca xan noponaua OP;JIyqHO0p;6aU;J1 rrJIJ1WaHY J1 peaJIHy rrpJ1HYP;y, sane-nose rrpou;ec spahatsa nerera, aJIJ1J1pomrrersa J13BOpy, J13BOPHJ1MeMOU;J1jaMa, J13BOPHJ1Mnorpefiasra. KOJIJ1KOhenyro rpaiara rrpou;ec "Op;BpTafba" Te HaKa3He crrJ1paJIe Y KOjOj je CrraKOBaHO 3JIO

J1 CBJ1HaWJ1 rrp06JIeMJ1, CBaKaKO 3aBJ1CJ1on J1CKpJ1BJbeHOCTJ1J13BOPHJ1XeMOU;J1-ja. Ty apexse He J1rpa Ba)f(HY yJIory. Bazcno je KpeHyTJ1 J1CTJ1hJ1hesro CJ1rypHo nanpaBJ1 rryr, BOJIJ1Mrta Ka)f(eM: "Byp;J1Te CTprrJbJ1BJ1.AKo CTe KPJ1BJ1JIJ1necer ronx-ua, pap;J1Te aa J1CrrpaBJbafbY, na KOMYHJ1KaU;J1jJ16e3 Ka3He J1 narpane, 6ap necernana, a rrO)f(eJbHO 6J1 6J1JIO J1 necer MeCeU;J1".Bpesrexosr, y Op;CyCTByayropnrap-HOCTJ1,BpahaMo ce na noxerax, aa 113,BopHe eMOU;J1jexa JbYTfbY, 3p;paBy J1 rrpeKonOTpe6HY, xa panocr 6e3 xoje ce He MO)f(e, aa 6pJ1ry xao 3aWTJ1THY eMOU;J1jy,naryry, jaxo Ba)f(HY J1 na J13BOPHJ1,peaJIHJ1 CTPax, aa 'IYBapa HaWJ1X )f(J1BOTa.Tana~O'IJ1fby eMOU;J1jena KpY)f(e CJI060P;HO, onpxcaaajyha TOJIJ1KOnorpetiay XapMOHJ1-JY u;enor rena J1 HapaBHO zryxa. TeK cana CMO3aKOpa'IJ1JIJ1 na rryT CBeCHOCTJ1,na

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fT ,U06poTe, CTBapaJIaqKe, se-nre, na nyT ,U06pa, KaO YHl1Bep3aJIHe xareropaje.I ,U06poTa ce He YQl1cnozsa, iso] ce He nrarryhe urra je ,U06po, a urra Hl1je, jep jeI ,U06pOTa ynucaaa, yHyTap csaxor xoaexa.

J1CTpajaBajynl1 na qOBeqHl1M Op;HOCl1Ma,na OP;HOCl1Ma,6e3 Ka3He 116e3 narpane,Ia311MO y cnxpazry BpJIl1Ha, YJIa311MOrpajao y crarse eMOQ110HaJIHe xapvoaaje.ana CBe llITO ql1Hl1MO, ql1Hl1MO 113paBHl1 ,U06pOTe. Bpara Jhy6aBl1, OHe ca KOjOM\10 pohena ce orsapajy 6e3 Hallie BOJbe. ,U06pOTa 11Jhy6aB rrocrajy "KOHTPOJIO-a" pa3YMa, nOCJIe xera ce ayTOpl1TapHa CJI060p;a, naaac 3BaHa aaapxaja, MOP;l1<pl1-yje y BPXYHCKYCJI060p;y Y KOjOj ce 113paBHH ,U06pOTe H Jhy6aBH )KHBH H pana,

JhYP;H craapanasxe ,U06pOTe cy 6yp;ynHocT nnaaere. Ilanac HX HeMa MHoro,JIH HX HMa P;OBOJbHO,H CBeT rpaje. TaKBHx he CBaKHM p;aHOM 6HTH CBe smue Hmue, Eory XBaJIa.

Ilanac )KHBHMO, KaKO )KHBHMO. Ayropnrapaocr HHKap;a jaxa, MyKa zsyncxa'axohe, aJIH je aa panoaaise, llITO ce CBeCHOCT6YP;H, a 6YP;Hce, jep ce naaac CBaKH10BeK,6ap ncspeveno rnrra: "J1Ma JIHH3JIa3a H Kyp;a Hp;eonaj cseri" J1 TOje P;OBOJb-

10 sa rroxerax. "J1Ma H3JIa3a", peKOX 6e36poj rryra. YKHHHMOp;pecypy -rosexa, jep;MOTO 3aCJIY)KHJIHCBH, nOCJIe BHllIeMHJIeHHjYMCKe narrse. qOBeK je sa Pap;OCT, aaIoopo H Jhy6aB pohen H lbOj XpJIH Y cycpeT.

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BEPEAJIJ,13AM - rrYCTe peQJ1

"He tyuiutae Me U He cMapajUle, MOllUM eac"!

Bep6aJIH3aM je MohHO opyzcje nmnnaae npHHyp;e, xoje He p;03BOJbaBa n03HTH-BaH paCT xosexa, jep 6H qOBeKOBHMp;YXOBHHMocraapersea H3yMPJIa aYTopH-

rapaa CBeCT, a nOTpe6HO je caxo 0p;6aQHTH nmnuaae, llITO 3HaqH H Bep6aJIH3aMH aYTOpHTapHa CBeCT rpajao aecraje,

IIlTa je aarrpaso Bep6aJIH3aM? To je nocetiaa 06JIHK ,,<pHHe", "MeKe" npnayne.To HHje Bep6aJIHa npHHyp;a. Tpe6a npaBHTH pa3JIHKy. Bep6aJIHy npaayny KOPH-CTHMOxao cpep;cTBo KJIaCHqHOr xaxosanaisa. Tana spehaao, BHqeMO, ncyjesro,nOBpe~yjeMo aajropaa peqHMa, ra~aMo y aajcrrafiaje raxxe HallIHX HajMHJIHjHx,oroaapaac, OMaJIOBa)f(aBaMO, nopemoao ca najropaaa. Jbyrrsa ce rpancdiopsonuey 6ec, japocr, y MP)KlbY na Hp;e xax H no raesa y xojea HaCHJIHHK)KeJIH H p;a y6Hje)KPTBY,HJIH06pHYTO. Monepaa nCHXOJI03HH nOpOp;HqHH TepaneYTl1, npHCTaJIHQenJIHllIaHor nacrrararsa, snajy p;a He nocroja KOHTpOJIHCaHa Bep6aJIHa H <pH3HqKanpHHyp;a, sapo-nero y Op;HOCYaa caapesreao nere, H crora crajy na CTpaHy 3aKO-Hop;aBQa, KOjH jacao Tpa)KH 3a6paHY 06a nacmrrna MOp;eJIa, H3 notia rpannnao-HaJIHe nopop;HQe. Bep6aJIHo HaCHJbe ca JIaKOnOM CKJIH3Hey <PH3HqKOxaxosaaarse,a <pH311qKOxazosaaan,e je rOTOBO YBeK npaheao H Bep6aJIHHM HaCHJbeM. PeTKl1nCl1XOJI0311rrpenaaxcy na 3aKOHop;aBaQ OCTaBl1MorynHocT pOp;HTeJbYna np"MeHH»KOHTPOJIl1CaHy" Bep6aJIHy H <PH3HqKYnpHHyp;y, cxarpajyha na )Kl1BHMOy nofiy,xana HeMaMO MHoro BpeMeHa aa y6etHBalbe neue na 6yp;y 6p3a H e<pHKacHa l1 p;aH .l1)e rpex rroaexan H yp;apHTH nere.

Tpe6a pa3YMeTH p;a cy 11jep;Hl1l1 p;pyrl1 nCl1XOJI03113arOBopHHQl1 aYTOpl1Tap-Hor Bacnl1Talba. CBaKa cnozsaunsa npl1Hyp;a, 3BaJIa ce OHa nnaurana, Bep6aJIHa

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11qJl1311'IKasaycraazsa paCT QelIoKyrrHor yxyrpaunser noreauajana. xoje nereHOCI1pohersesr.vb paBHI1 craapanaxxor aacrnrrarsa Bep6alII13aM je najaezaopamraja 061II1Ksac-raisa, xana og nerera TpCDKI1Tega 6yge MopalIHo y HeMOpalIHI1M, aYTopl1TapHI1MrIOBI1Ma)l(MBOTa. CBI1 CaBeTI1 pororrersa cy, yrnaanosr, y cKlIagy ca 60)l(aHCKI1MII1HQl1rrI1Ma.Ponarezs caseryje na nere 6yge y Jby6aBI1, na 6yge ,Uo6po, spenno,11liTeHO,rryno BplIl1Ha, 11CBe TO 61Iarl1M pe'-lI1Ma, ca g06pOM HaMepoM. Haxca-ICT,360r nenpecraae ynorpetie rrmnnane 111I11peanne rrpl1Hyge CBe ocraje narrl1M pe'-lI1Ma, jep nere He MO)l(e 611TMnourreao, aKOje rrOXJIerrHO,a rrOXJIerrHOje? ra rr0311TI1BHOYClIOBlbaBaMO, He MO)l(e 611TI1BpegHo, aKO ra npeaaurrahyjere.Ha)l(alIOCT, CBI1CaBeTI1 pomrrezsa ce He MOry crrpOBeCTI1 y rrpaKCI1, YKOlIl1KOce

rerxonao He yKI1Hy Ka3Ha, narpana 11npeaanrrnhaaaa,e, y BaCrrMTal-bY.0 '-leMY:pagl1?

Kana rrlIl1111aHI1pomrrezs CXBaTMga I1Majaxo nyno rrporryCTa y BaCnI1Tal-bY,naT pe3YlITaTI1 nlIl1111aHOr sacnararsa 1I01ll11,na je nere arpeCI1BHO, HenOClIYlllHO,DXJIerrHO,nerso, HeCBeCHO,6e30cehajHo, rana pororrers y cTpaxy, npelIa3M na yrro-Je6y Bep6alIM3Ma y BaCnMTal-bYnerera, 11nan.e ynopHo npnaeisyjyh« nlIl1111aHe.

Ilere ClIYllla npasne pe'-ll1, KaKO 6116111I0nerro na ypagM OBOMlIl1OHO,ga Mopaa 6yge notipo, naMeTHO, rrocrryurao, nerro BaCnI1TaHO, ga He xpane, ga He nazce,a nourryje crapnje, HaCTaBHI1Ke, ponarerse, na, na, ga je OBOnerto, OBO PY)l(HO,BO nocanao, OBO 3a6aBHO, OBO je "I1H", OBO "OYT". CBe OBO pomerezs 113rOBapanOMl1plbl1BOM TOHy, 61Iaro, ca )!(elbOM na nere CXBaTI1KaKO My je pogl1Telb naj-eha npnjarezs. CBe OBe septianae 3aXTeBe nere )!(elIl1 ga YCBOjl1,jep cy iserose[3BOpHe rrorpetie, y cxnany ca pe'-lI1Ma pogl1Telba, ana cy 113BopHe norpetia onas-[0 I1CKpI1BlbeHe, Ha)l(alIOCT.

Ilere )!(elIl1 na 6yge y Ml1py ca CBI1Ma,He )l(elIl1 nonerre 11cyxotie 113aTO Henpe-:TaHO otiehasa na he I1cnyHMTI1CBe 3aXTeBe pogl1Telba. Ha)!(alIOCT, xana nere MallOIOpaCTe 11CXBaTMga Te 3aXTeBe He MO)l(e I1cnYHI1TI1, OHO BplIO gpCKO npeKl1gaiomrrezsa pe'-lI1Ma: "IlpecTaHI1 ga Me ryunnu, csrapanr!" KaKO MO)l(e neiso nere,coje BI1nenpecrano npesanrrahyjere on paga na BaM ofieha na he on cyTpa 6MTl1spenno, xana KOg iseroaor aeacnyisenor sanarxa BI1onsrax nonsrehere aaura neha.

Ilpl1HygoM, n03MTMBHI1Mycnosrsasaisea, npesaurrahaaarsea, 31I0ynoTpe60MVlMI1TaTOpCKor061II1Ka yxetsa, ponarezs cTBapa nexoae-rae YClIoBe )l(I1Blbel-ba, KOjl1He noaaozsasajy ga nere peannsy]e 11jenaa Bep6alIHI1 3aXTeB pomrrezsa. Pacxopax113Meljy »cersa 11MoryhHocTI1 gOBOgl1 go cyxotia.

AYTopl1TapHO aacmrraise, 61II1)1(eseptianasaa, 3aXTeBa nesroryhe: 611TMMopa-nan y HeMOpalIHI1M YClIOBI1Ma)l(I1BOTa, 611TI1cnooonas y YClIOBI1MaKOjl1He OMO-ryhasajy cnooony, noha go caraopeanaaauaje, a rrpeTxogHO TI1rrlIl1111aHI1I1CKpl1Be

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CBe M3BopHe rrorpetie, 611TI1y xapMoHl1jl1 ca gpyrl1Ma a 11Te611 11TOM gpyroM jeHapYllieHa xapnoaxja.

HeMohaH pogl1Telb KOPMCTI1Bep6alIM3aM aa crsaparse '-lBpCTI1XCTABOBA.CTaBoBI1 cy neonxomnr casro lbygMMa KOjMHI1CYY xapssoaaja. Kana pomrrezsO'-lyBa nerery xapssonajy, xana CTBOPI1 xoneane YClIoBe )l(I1Blbelba, )l(I1BOT 6e3ayT0pI1TapHOCTM, rana nere )l(I1BI1y rrornyaoj xapxoaajx ca C060M, ponxrezsn-Ma, gpYlliTBOM 11npxponosr 111IaKOI1cnYl-baBa BI1COKOMopalIHe 3aXTeBe npyurrsa,HapO'-lI1TOaKO ce noxnanajy ca Be'-lHI1Mspemrocrroaa xoje nexce y OCHOBI1naurer113BopHor 6Mha. CBe l-berOBe peaxuaje cy rr03I1T11BHe,y cxnany ca 113BOPHI1MnOTpe-6aMa, nere pearyje 1136l1ha, a He 113rnase.

CaMO cy rnasn nOTpe6HI1 CTaBOBI1,611hy He. HapaBHO ga Hl1je CBaKI1pa3rOBOpca geTeToM sepoanasaa. AKO ce noponxua norosopa 11BOlbHO YKI1HeynorpetiynlIl1111aHI1X,oana pa3rOBOpl1 rrocrajy rrpaaa, '-lOBe'-lHM,nocne KOjMXMnere MPOgM-rers yspacrajy y ,U06pOTM MJby6aBM. To amue HMje Bep6alIM3aM, seh xoaexaa pas-fOBOp KOjMnerery ocserzsasa nYTeBe reurxor )l(MBlbel-bay aYTopMTapHOCTM, xojeje csyna OKOHac, y OBOMnpenaanoa nepMogy, noczre xojer Hac xexa BpeMe paB-aorezce M3Meljy MaTepMjalIHor M gYXOBHor. Ilopen CBMXnperrpexa aa xoje nereHaMlIa3My CBOMOKpY)l(el-bY,craapanaxxa lIM'-lHOCThe ycnerx na OCTaHe na nyTy'-lOBe'-lHOCTMMgYXOBHor y3paCTalba. 3aTO cy '-lOBe'-lHMpasrosopa MelleM aa gylilynerera. Kana rroxaere ga capahyjere ca nereroa, aa CTBapalIa'-lKMM npMHQMnMMa,Bep6alIM3aM aecraje, a l-berOBO MeCTO3aY3MMajy npaBM lbygCKY pa3rOBopM, nocneKOjl1Xyspacra 11nere, amr 11ponxrezs.

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3JlOYITOTPEEA J1MJ1TATOPCKOrOEJlJ1KA YQElhA

[{038011UlUe MU ga 6ygeM opuiunanan U C80j

Bep6aJIJ13aMjeYYCKOj Be3J1 ca HAJH}DKJ1M OElIJ1KOM yqEIhA, yqEIhEMIlO,JJ;PA)J{ABAIhEM, 3AIlAM'liJ1BAIhEM, J1MJ1TJ1PAIhEM. Pe'lJ1 J1nona-

urarsa ponarezsa, pe'lJ1 J1 CJIJ1KeBJ1pTyeJIHe rYBepHaHTe, nere J1MJ1TJ1pa,ycsaja, J1>KJ1BJ1.,JJ;eTe aYTOpJ1TapHOr CJ1CTeMa rOTOBO HJ1KaAa He cnoana cHary J1 JIenOTYBJ1IlIer 06JIJ1Ka yqelba, CAMOyqEIhA, CAMOPA,JJ;A J1CAMOBACIlJ1TAIhA.

qOBeK je pohersea AOHeo HarOH aa nOApa)KaBalbeM J1 HarOH sa caMoyqelbeM.VI jenan J1 APyrJ1 06JIJ1K yqelba cy nOTpe6HJ1 'lOBeKY. Ha necpehy, aYTOpJ1TapHOsacnararse He A03BOlbaBa 'lOBeKY Aa KOPJ1CTJ1BJ1IlIJ106JIJ1K yseisa, caMoyqelbe,J1TaKO AOJIa3J1AO 3aYCTaBlbalba paCTa CBeCHOCTJ1,AO HapYlliaBalba eMO~J10HaJIHexapxoaaje J1KpJ1Blbelba J13BOPHJ1Xrrorpetia.

OAYBeK je 'lOBeK KOPJ1CTJ10HJ1)KJ106JIJ1K yqelba J1AOCTJ1raOMaKCJ1MYMy OKBJ1-PYosor 06JIJ1Ka yqelba. HJ1KaAa 'lOBeK HJ1je 6J10 BehJ1 J1MJ1TaTOpHero IlITOje naaac.y TpaAJ1~J10HaJIHoj nOpOAJ1~J1 AeTeTY je OCTaBlbeH npOCTOp Aa pasnaje CBOjy OPJ1-rJ1HaJIHOCT,jep je 6J10 HeraTJ1BHO YCJIOBlbaBaH J1 'leCTO je 6aIlI Ta 6aTJ1Ha AOnpJ1-HeJIa na nere, xana nopaCTe, xazce ce6J1: "E, 6aIlI nehy rta 6YAeM xao MOj pOAJ1Telb,HaCTaBHJ1K,APyr ... " To J1Mje J1nOJIa3J1JIO aa PYKOMjep je y oKpY)KelbY nocrojanoMHoro BJ1IlIe n03J1TJ1BHJ1Xy30pa.

Kpajev nsaneceror sexa yqelbe nOApa)KaBalbeM ce MaKCJ1MaJIHOpa3BJ1JIO, napo-'lJ1TO nojaaosr MeAJ1ja J1MoryhHollihy Aa ce CBe npxxasce aa lbJ1Ma J1CBe KOnJ1pa.Casto jenaa MaJIa npJ1BJ1JIerOBaHa rpyna cTBapa, CBJ1OCTaJIJ1J1MJ1TJ1pajy.Hax je nOA3HaKOM ITJ1Talba na JIJ1je pe'l 0 CTBapaJIaIlITBY J1JIJ10 aanosorsersy J1CKpJ1BlbeHJ1X

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6 np0J13Bol)a'la, sapan crnuaisa nporpara J1sanoaozseisa csoje ITOXJIenHeI10rpe a

a He sapan AYXOBHor Y3AJ13alba -rosexa, rrorpouraxa.eaeeTJ1,

IllTa ce CBe nOApa)KaBa? .~"'aBalbeM ce YCBa)'ajy CBa rOTOBa Bep6aJIHa anatsa, KO)aCTJ1)KYOAaYTOpJ1-OOAPcv., . 6

vz a)'ajy ce nOApa)KaBajy, nasrre, J1MJ1TJ1pa)y:YTBpl)eHJ1 CTaBOBJ1,aep aJIHJ1rera. JCB ,

OTOBJ1MOAeJIJ1rroaauraisa, CTJ1JIOBJ1,MOAeJIJ1aacmrrarsa: nonpazcaaa-3axreBJ1, r .

TTKBHJ1J1n03J1TJ1BHJ1Y30PJ1, J1AOJIJ1,J1AeaJIJ1,J1Ae)e, MOAa, MY3J1Ka,nOJIJ1-'yce Hera nJ 'KBlbelba eMO~J10HaJIHa craisa APyrJ1x, HapO'lJ1TO ponnrezsa, a naaacrJ1Ka, crM )Kn, .

'Kille eMO~J10HaJIHa craisa CBO)J1XBJ1pTyeJIHJ1Xy30pa.eae Bn . . hKpaj ABaAeceTor aexa je ojaxao yqelbe nOApa)KaBalbeM )ep cy MeAJ1)J1MO HJ1

a CBJ1lbyTTJ1npJ1XBaTe nOHyl)eHe MOAeJIe J1TaKO, Ha)KaJIOCT, CBJ1JIJ1'leJ1I10Ma)KYAM.. .'eAHJ1 na npyre. IlJIJ1IlIaHe renepauaje KOH3YMJ1pa)y Ha)HeraTJ1BHJ1)e BJ1pTyeJIHe~aAP)Kaje, ycsajajy J1XJ1nO'lJ1lbY na J1X)KJ1Be.He BJ1AJ1MHJ1KaKBYonaCHOCT y rex-HOJIOrJ1jJ1,HanpOTJ1B, onaCHOCT JIe)KJ1y HeraTJ1BHJ1~ BJ1pTyeJIHJ1M J1aYAJ1TJ1BH~MeaAP)KajJ1Ma, xoje neua ryrajy, Ta -ryna TeXHOJIOrJ1)e Hy~e J1 soaexae canpxcaje,anJ1 J1XnnJ1IlIaHO nere He )KeJIJ1,jep J1XHe pa3yMe. To HJ1)e neo iserosor, yHyTpa-unser, J1CKpJ1BlbeHOrCBeTa. MHOrJ1 naaac ocyhyjy HeraTJ1BHe BJ1pTyeJI~e CaAP)Ka-je J1csrarpajy na 6J1 lbJ1XOBJ1MYKJ1AalbeM neua 6J1na noopa. He, TO HJ1)e AOBOlbHOJ1TOje npexa cxpaja. IlpBO ce Mopajy yKJ1HyTJ1nJIJ1IlIaHJ1 BaCnJ1THJ1~OAenJ1, OMO-ryhJ1TJ1 spaharse J13BOPHOjCYIIITJ1HJ1,a na J13BOPYCBaKOnere rrpaan )aCHY pa3nJ1-Ky J13Mel)y nofipa J1sna, uenorpenrxao ce onpeAelbyjyhJ1 aa notipo. .

Ileua TpaAJ1~J10HanHe noponxue cy cnyurana 6ajKe y KojJ1Ma je 6J1no J1 sna J1Ao6pa, anJ1 neua cy YBeK npenosnaaana Ao6po, ycsajana ra J1J1MJ1TJ1pana. ,JJ;BaBa~-nJ1THa MOAeJIacy caao AenJ1MJ1'lHO KpJ1BJ1na J13BOPHO6J1he, lby6aBJ1 J1Ao6pOTe)e6J1JIOAOBOlbHO,na cy lby6aB J1Ao6pOTa y KlbJ1raMa, y <pJ1nMOBJ1Ma,y YMeTHOCTJ1,y nOpOAJ1~J1 JIaKO npJ1XBaTaHa J1 J1MJ1TJ1paHa.

Ilaaac HeMa nOpOAJ1~e Y KOjOj ce HJ1je CTBOPJ10 OTBopeH <pPOHT, cyxof J13Me~I)y ponarersa, na jezmoj CTpaHJ1 J1 nerera J1 rserose eneKTpOHCKe "rYBepHaHTena npyroj. 3no y6J1pa AaHaK, jep nznnuaaa neua, nOTnYHO oryhena OA ce6e, caM.OJ1MJ1TJ1pajyJ1 IlITO je HajCTpaIlIHJ1je aanaxcajy J1 J1MJ1TJ1pajycavo sno. TaMO rne )enOApa)KaBalbe, HeMa lby6aBJ1 npesia paAY, HeMa crnapanaxxe J1HTenJ1reH~J1je, aesracaMOBaCnJ1Talba, HeMa n03J1TJ1BHOr paCTa. IlnJ1IlIaHJ1 spure nonene, na J1 noneny113MeljyOHI1XKOjl1np0I13BOAe, xpeapajy J1OHJ1XKOjJ1KOH3YMJ1pajy J1HeKpJ1TJ1'lKJ1nOApa)KaBajy. PeTKJ1, npJ1BJ1nerOBaHJ1, najy rOTOBa pelllelba sa CBe 06naCTJ1 )KJ1BO-'ra, a rOTOBO CBe lbJ1XOBe J1Aeje cy npOTJ1B AYXOBHor paCTa xoaexa, jep cy J1CaMJ1nocJleAI1~a nJIJ1IlIaHJ1X. Orposora BehJ1Ha CTaHOBHJ1Ka nnaaere nonpaxcaaa, rj.I1MI1Tl1pa.,lJ,OBOlbHOje nornenarx casso TeJIeBJ13J1jcKe xyhe. CBJ1 J1Majy nJ1~eH~J1-palie nporpaMe, OA KOjJ1Xce He oncr yrra. CaMO APyrJ1 lbYAJ1,APyre 3eMlbe, APyrJ1

je3Yl~YI. Taxo je y CBYlM061IaCTYlMa YMeTHOCTYl, apXYlTeKType, 06pa30Bafba. HaCTaHAapAYlMa CBYlXBpCTa HYl'le jenaa KlIOHYlpaHYlCBeT.

Ilmnnana neua TaKO BellITO YlMYlTYlpajyOApaClIe, jep neua YlMajy npYlpOAHO CHa-)f(aH YlMYlTaTOpCKYl061IYlK yxeisa, 're xonxja nocraje 60lba on oparnaana. Caspe-MeHYl'lOBeK je 3aAYlBlbeH xomrjaaa, aznr HYlHe nacnyhyje na xornrja YlMaCBOj POKrpajarsa, y3 HeMoryhHoCT na YlKaAanOCTaHe 0pYlrYlHalI. Ilornenajre, Ae'lYlje eranre,Ae'lYlje eapoaasaje, Ae'lYlje My3Yl'lKe <peCTYlBalIe, noxasxaatse CBOjYlXraneaara,MOAHe peanje, Yl360pYl aa MYlC... CBe nanarnen sanasrsyjyhe, a 601IHO sa csaxoraKO 3Ha urra 3Ha'lYl anoyrrorpetia YlMYlTaTOpCKoryMa.

qOBe'laHCTBO oceha na onaj HYl)f(Yl061IYlK Y'lefba Mopa 6YlTYl aanrpahen BYlllIYlM061IYlKOMyxersa, caaoy-rea.exr, ana He 3Ha rryT YlHa'lYlH. Kana nopomma CXBaTYlAaje sa pasnoj nerera nozcezsao Aa y npBe TpYl ronxae roTOBO He KOH3YMYlpaBYlPTy-enae canpzcaje, Aa KfbYlra, xao HYl)f(aBYlpTyelIHa crsapaocr Mopa YlMaTYlnpxvar,Aa CBe AO nesere ronane MopaMo KOHTpOlIYlCaTYlurra nere rnena, cnyura, 'lYlTa ...(AalbYlHCKYlHe 6Yl CMeo, AO ceAMe romme, 6YlTYl y pYKaMa nerera), rana CTBapYlA06Yljajy ApyrYl TOK.

Y rrpBe TpYl rOAYlHe je rrozcersao Aa ce Yl3BOpHe eMO~Ylje pasnajajy llITO smuey pearnnoa OKOlIHOCTYlMa.Y npOTYlBHOM nere he ce YTeMelbYlTYly BYlpTyelIHYlMeMO~YljaMa. OCYlM'rora, AO cenae ronane AeTeTOB yM je oTBopeH. TIpYlMa aecenex-TYlBHOYlHeKpYlTYl'lKYlCBe llITO My ce nOHYAYl.YKOlIYlKOra rryHYlMO HeraTYlBHYlM,BYlpTyelIHYlM caAp)f(ajYlMa, rrpnponao je Aa he TaKBYlcanpxcaja, OTYlhYly nOACBeCT,a nOACBeCThe, TaKBa KaKBa je, KpeYlpaTYllIYl'lHOCT onpacnor xoaexa. Pe3YlITaTe sehBYlAYlMO.Ilmnuaae renepaunje )f(YlBey sxpryennoa cBeTY, norrryao orybene OAce6e, npyrax lbYAYl npnpone Yl)f(YlBOTa,oryheae OA cnorsaunser CBeTa.

Tpaquuuouannn, xujepapxujcxa opianusauuja JlCUBOWayuopcquuu euuie He uociuoju

Ilana je rrnpasoma, rrao je YlMyllIKapa~ ca fbeHor spxa. 3a BPX aerrocrojehe napa-MYlAeOTYlMajy ce nere Yl»ceaa

Y TpaAYl~YlOHalIHoj nopomrua je nocrojana 'lBpCTa xajepapxxjcxa oprarnr-sauxja )f(YlBOTa. Ha Bpxy mrpaxorne je 6YlO MyllIKapa~. 3HalIO ce: "Ko KOCYl,a KO

" ITBOAYHOCYl. ,....,eTece sozreno, arrn My ce 3HalIO MeCTO. Y OKBYlPYrnaane nopomr-r-He mrpasome, na 'lYljeM je BpXy je 6YlO jenan "oAa6paHYl", nocrojano je jour HeKO-lIYlKO MafbYlXrnrpasorna Hnp. ouy cy rronpebenn CBYl'llIaHOBYl nopOAI1l\e, CBeKpBYlMajKa Ylneua, Majl\Yl neua, crapajesr AeTeTY MlIal)a neua I1T,n;.

JIorYl'lHa rrocnenmra npxanarra nnpasome cy <pPOHTOBYlKOjYlce 'leCTO YlTpaH-C<pOpMYlllIYYKOlIYlKOce Mefbajy YlHTepeCYlrpyrra Ylnojezmaana. [Ae cy <pPOHTOBYlTY je Yl60p6a, Ty je HaneTOCT, Ty je nanau HeraTYlBHOCTYlYlYBeK npYlcyTHa cpen-CTBa aYTOpYlTapHOr CYlCTeMaaacmrraisa, Ty cy HeMOpalIHYl, He'lOBe'lHYl OAHOCYlYl3Mel)y CBYlX'llIaHOBa noponxue . .A1lYl6aTYlHa YlcTpax OA fbe cy cTBapalIYl pena-TYlBaH peA, 'leCTO npnaanaa, crrozsaunsn, amr npexo norpetiaa Aa 6Yl noponnuaq,YHK~YlOHYlCalIaY cKlIaAY ca O'leKYlBafbYlMa ApYllITBa.

A onna ce AorOAYllIO pYllIefbe MaTepYljalIHe nYlpaMYlAe. TIaAoM nYlpaMYlAe rraoje YlMyllIKapa~. 3aKoHoM saoparseaa 6aTYlHa je OCOKOlIYllIanonpehene na ce cpxa-HO 60pe aa CBOjy cll060AY. CBe je 6YllIO npYlrrpeMlbeHo aa nosorperee MYllIKap~a Yl)f(eHe, aa rrosrapeise CTpOrYlX o-resa ca CBOjOMAe~OM, CBe je 6YllIO npxnpescseaoaa pacT Jby6aBYl Yl,IJ:06poTe.

OA csera ce HYlje amura AOrOAYllIo. CBYl usrrne nOA PYllIeBYlHaMa aYTOpYlTap-He nYlpaMYlAe, o-rexyjyha na he HeKO APyrYl nonnha CTapy nYlpaMYlAY YllIYl 6ap TyHOBY,AYXOBHY,xoja HaM je TOlIYlKOnorpetina, ,IJ:OK,xexajy Ionoa KOjYlnehe nohx,lbYAYlorrryxcyjy jeAHYl Apyre, )f(YlBey crpaxy jep CBe nenyje npeTKaTaKlIYl3MYl'lHO.Ilenyje, TOje Ta'lHO, allYl je YlCTOTaKO Ta'lHO Aa he CBaKO MOpaTYl Aa Ha'lYlHYllIYl'lHYlaanop Ylnoxae na )f(YlBYly OACYCTBYnnmnane YlpealIHe npYlHYAe. Hanop je y3alIy-AaH YKOlIYlKOce npeTXOAHO He YKlIOHe npenpeKe AYXOBHOMpaCTY, Ka3Ha YlHarpa-Aa y OAHOCYlMa.Mallo ce KO YlCTYlHCKYlnaaac noxpehe. BehYlHY xao na je 3alIeAYlOcrpax jep OABYlllIenyro HellITO xexajy, Ill'ra 'leKajy? Hexajy YlCTYlHYAa cy rrznnua-HYlrnaaaa y3pO~Yl MyKa caBpeMeHor xonexa Yluenor ApYllITBa YlAa YlXy OKBYlPYnoponnne MopaMo CaMYlOTKlIOHYlTYl,KaKO 6Yl CMOynlIOBYllIYly lIyKy AYXOBHOCTYl.

Ilocroje Ylnpyra nYTeBYl AYXOBHor pacTa, Bory xsana, amr nYT snarsa crsapa-nasxor nacrnrran,a je nax Yl'lYBa rrOpOAYl~y xoja Mopa na rpaje. Tpajahe Yl6YlTYl

yqeCHYlK y KpeYlpafby AYlBHOrA06a xoje je npeA HaMa. TIpBO rpetia Aa ce Yl3BpllIYlTpaH3Yl~Ylja TpaAYl~YlOHalIHe, AelIYlMYl'lHOaYTOpYlTapHe, rrpeKo caapesreae, nOT-nYHO ayropxrapne AO crnapanaxxe nOpOAYl~e, noponnne aa rpehn MYllIeHYljYM.

/{eUle nuje WpaJICUllO BPX uupaMuge, Hap04.UWO He BPX,HeuocUlojel1e uupaMuge

Ha pYllIeBYlHaMa aYTOpYlTapHe nYlpaMYlAe HYlhYlhe YCKOPOjenaa HOBYlCBeT xojer heI<peYlpaTYlYly fbeMY )f(YlBeTYl'lOBeK cTBapalIa'lKe, xoaexae CBeCTYl.To he ce noro-AI1TYlTeK nOllITO ce yHyTap csaxor -ronexa, yHyTap CBaKe nOpOAYl~e, ¢OpMYlpaCTBapalIa'lKa, ,n;BOCTpYKa,AYljaMaHTcKa nYlpaMYl,n;a, ca BpXyHCKYlMBpe,n;HoCTYlMa,

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BeqHMM Bpep;HOCTMMa,aa CBOMBpXy. TaKaB qOBeK he <pOpMMpaTMCnOlbaIlllbM CBeT

M3 paBHM Jby6aBM M ,il;06pOTe.Ilaaac, P;OK jour rpaje, MJIM ce seurrasxa onpzcaaa ayroparapaa nMpaMMp;a, ya

rrojaoh ner npe)f(MBeJIMX cnozsaunsnx BacnMTHMX MOp;eJIa,norabajy ce nojase npo-TMBHe snpaaoj naxerx. ,il;eTe je CTaBlbeHO aa BPX nopomorae "nMpaMMp;e", MorynaTOJIMKMxaoc. Ilere je CTaBlbeHO M na BPX npyurrseae, orrer aenocrojehe "nMpaMM-ne", CBM ce ynaryjy Haj60lbeM norpourasy, KaKO je Moryne na aac "nJIMIllaHO" nereBOP;My KpeMpalb y Mrapa, xyrroanae, P;OKOJIMQe, IllKOJICKMXnporpava, xana TO HMjenere Ben BMpTyeJIHM jYHaK, KOjM CBe IllTO Tpa)f(M on Op;paCJIMXjecre aanosorsen,eCBOjMXnJIMllIaHMX, MCKpMBlbeHMXnorpetia. Kaxo MO)f(e,TOMCKpMBlbeHOBMpTyeJIHOnere na sanoaena pomrrezsroaa, na y neceroj rop;MHM )f(MBOTa Tpa)f(M p;a onnyxyje 0CBOMnyry, jep OHT060)f(e 3Ha nrra je sa isera notipo, Kaxo MO)f(e BMpTyeJIHM MaJIM-ma, crapau y MJIap;OMTeJIY, p;a xasce p;ep;M op; cenavnecer ronana KaKO OH paayne)f(MBOT 60lbe on nene. Illro je aajcrpaumaje Op;paCJIMno-nosy na sepyjy y TO, a HeBMp;ena je MaJIMllIa BMpTyeJIHM crapau KOjM nonYT nanaraja noaaazsa OHOllITO Myje cepsxpao expan, rseroaax "CMTHMX" necer romma )f(MBOTa. He yotipaxcaaajrena cy OBe reaepauaje nasreraa]e on rrperxonnax. OHe )f(MBe y MH<popMaTMqKOMP;pyllITBy, y BMpTyeJIHOM CBeTY KPQaTOM MH<popMaQMjaMa, rrOJIYMCTMHaM JIa)f(M.J-bMXOBOTBopeH yM CBeTO HeKpMTMqKM ycsaja, BellITO penponyxyje, MaHMrrYJIMllIe

Op;paCJIMMaM crsapa JIa)f(HY CJIMKY0 CBOjOj "BeJIMKOj" nasrern.Pes je 0 jaKoM MMMTaTopCKOMyMy KOjMpaHO YJIa3My craise BMpTyeJIHe MyP;pO-

CTM,MyP;pOCTM6e3 )f(MBOTHOr MCKYCTBa.YM caspesreaor nerera HMje y CPQYM rrpe-ocraje My p;a aHOpeKCMqHO ryTa orpouan 6poj MH<popMaQMja, p;YXOBHor csreha Mp;a MX 6YJIMMMqHO nospaha, KaKO 6M rrpMMao HOBOcsrehe. YM sarpnan cMeheM HenpMMa nposepene Bpep;HOCTM,xoje HyP;MllIKOJICKM, 06pa30BHM CMCTeM.AKO MX MnpMMM, jep TO oxexyjy pomrrezsa "crrOH30pM", rOTOBO CBe ce ycsaja sarraver, aamrenae norpetie, xao rroTpollIHM MaTepMjaJI, 6e3 cnocotinocra na ce CBe aayseaoCMMCJIeHOrroseayje M KOPMCTMY <pyHKQMjM pasaajarsa CBeCHOCTM.TaKBo yqelbe(6y6albe M rryKo perrporryxoaaise) orrrepehyje yM M 3aTO ce yM crrOHTaHO oCJI06a-l)a M OBMXMH<popMaQMja, KaKO 6M Morao p;a BpllIM yJIory xoxmjyrepa, xojer nospe-MeHO rpefia oCJI06al)aTM nenorpefianx <pajJIOBaM BMpyca.

Ilourro cy nere rrOCTaBMJIMM na BPX nenocrojehe llIKOJICKe napaxnne JIOrMqHOje p;a nporpecopn rrpaTe BMpTyeJIHOr, nmnuaaor haxa, yrahajylu« MY, npesaurr»:hyjyh« ra, a p;a HM caMM He snajy, 3allITO TO qMHe. Ilanac rOTOBO xexrare rrpo<pe-copa KOjM He naj aBlbyj e p;aH rrpOBepe aaaisa M rpazniao xoje he 6MTM 06YXBaneHO.YqeHMQM yqe xasmarscxa, rrpep;MeT, rro npenwer a rrOCJIeCBaKe p;06MjeHe oueaerpaace on pop;MTelba na ce MaJIO op;Mope op; yqelba, oxexyjyh« naacaa orrpaBp;alba.Ileua 36Mlba ocehajy yMOp M cnpaBoM Tpa)f(e OP;MOP,aJIM HMje CTBap y OP;MOPYon

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CBaKe nmnuaae nernue, Ben je rnrrarse xana he pop;MTelbM npeCTaTJII ca nmrura-tn-fM BacnMTalbeM M neua p;aTM rrpMJIMKy na Hac saceae MCTMHCKOM,craapanax-KOM MHTeJIMreHQMjoM.

HapaBHO p;aBMpTyeJIHOM nerery rop;M llITO ca Bpxa sarrosena, aJIMnerne p;y60KO,

p;eTe oceha p;a HellITO HMje y pep;y. Ilere 6M 6MJIO cpehno p;a ra CTaBMMOaa MeCTOKoje My onrosapa, TO CBaKaKO HMje raj BpX. ,il;eTe HMje )f(eJIeJIOp;a nocraae p;MKTa-TOP, a MM CMOnxxraropa on isera CTBOPMJIM.,il;eTe CBe OBO HMje Tpa)f(MJIO on Hac,OHOqeKa p;a pop;MTelbM npenosaajy Y3pOqHMKe rserosax M}'Ka M crrycre ra y p;OJIM-

HY, Y csoje KPMJIO.OCMM rora nere je nere, 6e3 MyP;pOCTM)f(MBOTHe, 6e3 'MCKYCTBaM caCBMMje npa-

pO,n;Ho,n;aonpacna Mopajy BO,n;MTMnere Kp03 rrpallIyMy )f(MBOTa. Ilere je nanac, sehca ce,n;aMronaaa crapau BMpTyeJIHe My,n;POCTM,KOjMsarroaena, onpehyje, aapehyje,Hexana ce rOBOpMJIO: .Ko ca p;eQOMcrrasa, nonauraa ce 6y,n;M".3HaJIM cy TO lby,n;M

Tpa,n;MQMOHaJIHeCBeCTMKOjM cy, M re KaKO BOJIeJIMnere M HaCTojaJIM, KOJIMKOcyMM ,n;03BOlbaBaJIa ,n;BaayTopMTapHa sacmrraa Mo,n;eJIa,na on Tor nerera narpanexosexa. Hnxana HMKOMe, y npOllIJIOCTM, HMje nano aa naaer, na nere rrOCTaBM aaBPX rrOpOp;MqHe rmpasome M rrOCTaBM ra aa rocrrop;apa.

BpJIO 6P30, nourro pop;MTelbM M CBMOp;paCJIMqJIaHOBM noponmte yKMHy ayro-pMTapHOCT, <popMMpahe ce crrOHTaHO craapanaxxa rrMpaMMp;a y CBaKOMnoaaocoti,a rana nehe 6MTM <PPOHTOBa,cYK06a, 3JIe HaMepe, Maehe ce p;orop;MTM p;apop;MTelbxazce: "XpaHMO caxr rrcero, a nanac Me yjena."

CaBpeMeHM ponaren,x rOBope M MMCJIejour uprse M rope 0 CMMCJIYpaharsaneue, jep cy neua 6YKBaJIHO rrOCTaJIaJIOWMrocnonapa po,n;MTelbMMa.3aWTO? Pa3Y-MeJIMCTe qMTajyhM "EYKBap" p;a cy CBMBacnMTHM MOp;eJIM aa CQeHM)f(MBOTa, p;ace nMpaMMp;a cpyunora cnyna, a rrpBO y noponaun. HeM a 're cnare CMCTeMaKOjMhe rrop;MM rrpexoraeny, ayTopMTapHy, crrolballIlbY nMpaMMp;y, jep CMCTeMaHeMa,MMa caxio rrer npeaoraenax ayropnrapaax BacrrMTHMX MOp;eJIa,KOjM npase xaoc.fhMXOBO apesre MCTMqe, xa cpehy,

CTBapaJIaqKa noponxua je 'ra xoja he npna yKMHyTM aYTopMTapHOCT, cnoa-TaHO ,hop

't' MMpaTM qOBeqHY rrMpaMMp;y, yHyTap csaxor xosexa, rra he CBMOp;HOCM6l1Tl1 rrpO)f(eTI1 Jby6aBlby I1 ,il;06POTOM. Ilp06JIeM je 6MJIa I1 OCTaJIa ayTopMTapHalhYACI<aCBeCT.JbYP;11 nanac He rpetia na rpoure cHary M3MMllIlbajyhM HOBe 06JIM-I<e BJIaCTI1. Tor opraaasoaaa,a. CBe CTpyKType M 06JIMQM opranxsosan,a KOjM cynOCTO)aJII1. y aYTopMTapHOM CMCTeMY,nocrojahe M y BpeMeHY p;YXOBHOCTMxojeje npep; aa Ma, a crnaparraxxa CBeCT he KOHaqHO nOKa3aTM YHMBep3aJIHOCT OBMXCTPYI<TYpa, HapOqMTO YHMBep3aJIHO aaaserse noponxue. Ca npoMeHoM CBeCTMAona3e qOB . .eqHe Mp;e)e - Mp;e)aMa M p;eJIMMaaYTopMTapHe, MMMTaTopCKe CBeCTMje

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OP;3BOHHlIO.Ilaxne, rrOpOp;HIJ;anehe HeCTaTH, casro he nposreaa CBeCTH CTBOPHTHHOBe onnoce, ITa THMe H HOBe canpxcaje.

Y craapanasxoj rrOpOp;HIJ;H,Ma xojer o6lIHKa OHa 6HlIa, lbyP;H he qyTH jep;Hl1npyre, )KHBehe y P;OlIHHH, ca qBPCTHM ynyrpaunsioa p;HjaMaHTHMa, CBeCHl1 11npenyaa Jhy6aBH H Ilotipore. Ine cy Jhy6aB H ,[(o6p0Ta, Ty je xspcra sesa Me1)ylbyp;HMa. Ty je xapaoanja nojenanua, Ty je xapaoazja y Op;HOCl1Ma,CBe ce CYCTl1qe11nornouaace na ce CBHcaaocnosnajy, cavopeanasyjy 11cassoocrnape, YBeK Kp03Jhy6aB. ,[(eTe He )KelIH Hl1 BlIaCT, Hl1poncrao, jep 11jenno H npyro pyllIl1 XapMOHl1jyy lbeMy, y noponaux. J.13aTO nere nopyxyje, casro ra Ml1 He qyjeMO: Hehy BlIaCT!Xohy npaso na cTBapalIaqKY noponauy, xohy npaso na Jhy6aB!

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I1ET I1JIMIIIAHMX. - I1ETM3BOPHMX EMOUMJA

06paUlUUle UaJICtby

qOBeK ce paha ca ner W3BOPHWX eMo~wja, xoje wMajy 3alllTWTHY cpyHK~wjy.

KaKO 6w 6e6a noasana MajKy Wyn030pwlIa je p;a je rnanna, na HeMa eMO~W-

jy lbYTlbe. KaKO 6w joj noxasana p;a je 601IW cToMatmh p;a HeMa eMo~wjy r yre,

KOjOM he W3pa3WTW 601I Wnorpefiy aa MajqWHWM npwcycTBOM. Ilaxzre, poheisevP;OHOCWMO:lbyTlby, panocr, 6pwry, Tyry, CTpax. Marro nere je qWCTO, na W3BO-

py je WlIaKO ycnoCTaBlba eMo~woHalIHy xapaoaajy jep ce xpehe y OKBWPY OBWX

ner exouaja.BpeMeHOM y ayTopwTapHWM YClIOBWMa )f(WBOTa esrouaje ce aacnojasajy, Melba-

jy CBOjy CTpyKTypy, op; W3BOPHWX, 3p;paBWX, 3alllTWTHWX eMo~wja, npeKO nOTW-

CHyTWX, aacnojemrx, aarnann-ennx, WCKpWBlbeHWX, CBe P;O CMpTHWX rpeXOBa. BpojeMO~wja nocraje orpoxraa jep je peq 0 cyticrpyxrypaaa, Ha eMo~wjw rsyrise, ca

rrojaqaHOM npWHyp;OM, janzsa ce HOBW 061IWK rsyrne, lbYTlba aa lbYTlbW, 3HaqW

6ec W TaKO CBe P;O CMpTHor rpexa. KOlIWKO W KaKBO he ce xpxsn.ea,e W3BOPHWX

eMOl~wja P;OroP;WTW,3aBWCWop; 6poja ayTopwTapHWX BacrrWTHWX Mop;elIa, lbWXOBe

jaqWHe WyqeCTalIOCTW lbWXOBe npnxese, Hap; qOBeKOM W HapaBHO CBe 3aBWCWW

op; rrpWpop;He KOHCTwTy~wje xoaexa. Hxcy CBW lbyP;W jenaaxo OTnopHW xa rroje-Al1:He BaCnl1:THe Mop;elIe.

y TpaAl1:~l1:0HalIHoj nopop;w~w cpW3WqKaKa3Ha Wnerra peq cy 6WlIW rrpwcyTHW,

alll1: je Ka3Ha ynpaxosaaana pelIaTWBHO peTKO jep je CBaKO nere yHanpep; 3HaJIO

rrpaBl1:11axoja Mopa na nourryje. TeK nOIllTO 6w rrpaBWlIa 6wJIa rrpeKpllleHa nere

6l1: 6l1:1I0 )f(eCTOKO xaaosaaaao, QH13W'IKH HlIH Bep6aJIHO. nOCJIe,o;H~e HHCY 6HJIe

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ronmco TpaYMan1qHe jep je peJIanmHO snpasa rraTpHjapXaJIHa noponnua KOPH-

CTHJIa peTKO <PH3HqKY, Bep6aJIHy HJIH 6HJIO xojy p;pyry BpCTy Ka)l(lbaBalba.

Y caspeaenoj rrOpOp;HIJ;H CBaKa H3BopHa eMOIJ;Hja je rrOKpHBeHa jep;HHM rrJIH-

uraHHM BacrrHTHMM MOp;eJIOM. To rpaje y KOHTHHYHTeTY, y noponaun, y BpTHny,

Y lllKOJIH, na YJIHIJ;H. Kpnazserse je BeJIHKO, HarreTOCT orpoMHa, norpefia aa npa-

)f(lbelbeM HarreTOCTH rrpeBeJIHKa, a JIOrHqHa rrOCJIep;HIJ;acsera rora je, rrpHcYCTBO

orposrnor aacnzsa y caapevenoj rrOpOp;HIJ;H, nnmuaaor, a rrOTOM, peannor, HaKO

je OHO H 3aKOHOM saoparseao.

,1J;aHHcaM naaurna na yqelbe rocnonana Ilapxa, na yqelbe 0 neroenexsetrrno]eMOIJ;HOHaJIHoj CTpyKTypH He 6HX HMaJIa HaqHHa na crrojasr sacmrrae MOp;eJIe H

H3BopHe eMOIJ;Hje, He 6HX Moma p;a p;OKa)l(eM urra ce neurasa y rrpHcycTBy HJIH oncy-

CTBY aYTopHTapHOCTH, OP;HOCHOner nnauranax, Haxana He 6HX HayqHO YTeMelbH-

JIa CTBapaJIaqKO aacmrraise. Cpehna caM lllTO je rocnomm Ilapx ycrreo na qYBeHH

"KHHecKH", eneprercxn car ncrryaa eaepnrjaxa qOBeKOBHM. ,1J;OKHHcaM ynoaaana

yqelbe rocnonaaa Ilapxa ja casr, xao H MHorH, YBeK y OKBHPY osor "caTa", BHp;e-

JIa caao cnozsaunse eneprnje, eaepruje xoje p;OJIa3e H3 npxpone, xoje CHJIOBHTO

YTHqy na xoaexa, aJIH HHKap;a He YTHqy y TOJIHKOj MepH KOJIHKOYTHqe aYTOpHTap-

HOCTxonexa Hap; qOBeKOM. Crpaunro je xana sarpeaa, rrpHpop;Ha crnxxja, yHHlllTH

P;01\1, HMalbe, qelbap;, aJIH je neyrropenaso crpauranje xana BaM KOMlllHja, KOjH sac

Mp3H, aanann onsmure MJIH xana paTHM rrO)l(apH, noxcapa noxnerme, arpeCMBHe

CBeCTM, ymnnrasajy CBe saure M naunrx HajMMJIHjMX, samer Hapop;a.

Ilpxponae crnxaje ce npaxsarajy, xao HeMMHOBHOCT, nenena rsyncxa, xao

lIyP;OCT, xoja Tpa)l(M OCBeTY »cprse. Ilpxpona pap;H CBOj nocao M OHa HMje ayTo-

pMTapHa, qOBeK qHHM nenena, aaaocehx naTlbY npyrox qOBeKY, CBeCHOMlIH HeCBe-

CHO M TO je aYTopMTapHOCT.

Barpa ronn MeT all, sona racn BaTpy, rne je amue npseha, Malbe je 3eMlbe H TaKO

penoa, Metre OBaKBa nOCTaBKa KMHeCKor cara HHje naaonana p;a na ClIMqaH HaqHH

ycnOCTaBHM Be3Y M3Mel)y ayTopMTapHHX BacnMTHMX Mop;elIa H qOBeKa. J1CKlbyqH-

BO Me je OP;HOCner enesreaara, (npso, BaTpa, 3eMlba, MeTalI H sona), aCOIJ;MpaOaa

OP;HOCxoaexa M npMpop;e, a OH MH HMKap;a HMje 6MO TOlIMKO satipmsaaajyha, KOlIM-

KO caM BelIMKO 31I0 BMp;elIa y He3p;paBHM Op;HOCHMa Mel)y lbyp;MMa.

IlOClIe nyroronaunser M3yqaBaiba OBe p;MBHeamepHaTHBHe Mep;HIJ;MHeM ,,<pMlIO-

30<pMje" xoja je npaTH, YBHp;elIa caM Be3Y, H3Mel)y lbYP;CKHX eMOIJ;Hja M BacnMTHMX

Mop;elIa. Jep;HOCTaBHO cast, na neT M3BOPHHX eMOIJ;Hja nocnarana onrosapajyhcaacrnrrae Mop;elIe, crrojrora HX M p;06HlIa HayqHy 3aCHOBaHOCT CTBapaJIaqKOr sac-

mrran,a, iseron rr03HTHBaH yTMIJ;aj aa pasaoj CBeCTH csaxor -roaexa, xao H rrory6-

HOCT yrmraja ayropxrapaor aacmrraor CMCTeMa.

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»ouueo 110cMaUlpajUle UleMY U pasyweheiue Be3Y

leMO on senene KpY)f(HHlJ,e, on KpY)f(HHlJ,enon 6pojeM jenan. OHa npeztcraarsa(Hjy lbyTlbe. IlOTOM nocaarpajao KpY)f(HHlJ,epanocra, 6pHre, .ryre no cTpaxa.:y TO 3aIllTHTHe, npexo norpefiae eMOIJ,Hje, xoje y cTBapalIa'-IKHM yClIoBHMa,[OBHMa 6e3 Ka3He H aarpane, 6e3 "nlIHIllaHHX" KppKe clI060.n;HO, xynajylu«,[pel)yjYOH, rronpanrsajyha eMOIJ,MOHalIHO,<pM3H'-IKO,MeHTalIHO M .n;YXOBHOarse.:eMa nacnojasaisa, nOTMCKHBalba, HeMa KpHBlbelba H3BOPHMXeMOIJ,Hja,y oncy-aYTOpMTapHOCTH. CTBopeHM cy YClIOBM3a passoj eMOIJ,MOHalIHeMHTelIMreH-, xoja ce ycnOCTaBlba npH clI060.n;HOM npOTOKY H3BOPHHX eMOIJ,Hja.ana HMaMO pasnore .n;ay peaJIHOM CBeTY 6y.n;eMO lbyTH, pa.n;OCHH, 6PM)f(HH,'IH, ynnaurenn, TaKBMrpetia M.n;a6y.n;eMO.Hexa peaJIHa IbYTlba craca H y 6ec,aexa He rpaje npe.n;yro, nexa ce 6p30 BpaTM M3BOPY,na ce He 6H aarrraanna,ojxna, HCKpMBMlIaMJIHnOTMCHYlIa. Hexa 6pHra, Y3pOKOBaHa peanmor yClIO-1 )f(HBOTa rpaje, uexa Hac HMKOHe y6el)yje .n;aje pe'-I 0 aerarnnaoj eMOIJ,HjH.POTHB, 6pHra je BpJIO 6HTHa eMOIJ,Mjajep HMa orpoMHy 3aIllTHTHY <PYHKIJ,Hjy.Hac yMHpH, na HaM BpeMeHa .n;apa3MHClIHMO urra H KaKO narse, alIH aKO 6HImaBHJIH na eMOIJ,HjH6pHre, TeIllKO 6H pa3peIllHJIH CBOj np06JIeM H )f(HBOTna craje sa Hac. Hexo rraxerarr pe'-Ie: "IlaTOlIOIllKOM 6pHrOM noxasyjeao na)jHMO aexer IllTO ce anje HM .n;Oro.n;HJIO,HJIH ce HHKa.n;a nehe HH noromrrx."~a xoja HHje nOTHCHYTa, nacnojena, sarnaarseaa BO.n;Hy CBeCHOCT.CBaKa .n;pyra'a, HapO'-IHTO OHa xoja je Y3pOKOBaHa BHpTyeJIHOM CTBapHOIllOY HJIHje nOCJIe-1 KOHCTaHTHe ynorpetie npeaaurrahasan,a, casro HaM IllTeTH.BeK HanOMeHeM: YKOlIHKOHeKO HMa sarrrasrsexe eMOIJ,Hje, a He rrosraace MyTBapaJIa'-IKO nacrorraise, MJIHHeMa CTpnlbelba.n;a xexa na ce norona noaparaxIPY,)f(HBeOH na npHHIJ,HnHMa CTBapaJIa'-IKOr aacrnrrarsa, nexa nOTpa)f(M no MOO'pHaTHBHHX MeTo.n;a M TeXHHKa rrexetsa, Ty cy M lIeKapH KJIaCH'-IHeMe.n;HIJ,HHe,COJI03H, ncaxrrjarpx, IJ,pKBa, MOlIHTBa (naaac HMa anan.a y H306HlbY. CBaKOfIaTH urra My uajamue onroaapa. Ba)f(HO je IllTO npe na ce BpaTHMO H3BOPY.)lKOce O.n;JIyqHMOsa nOMOO, 6Hoe TO noopo jep ce, nocne peIlleHor np061IeMa,• je narrpanao sacroj, spahaao nopo.n;HIJ,H, aacraarsajyha .n;aynpa)f(lbaBaMObe CTBapaJIa'-IKOr nacmrraisa, xpneha xa BPJIHHCKOMnyTy )f(HBOTa, ynarrpe-OH lJ,elIOKynHH nOTeHIJ,HjalI CBHX'-IJIaHOBarroponxue. OBO suaise HaM novaxcee '-IHHMMOrpeurxe xoje cy '-IHHHlIMnaunr po.n;HTelbt1. MH aehevo 6HTH Y3POKO;HOHalIHHXrrarrs a naure neue, a CBOjHMpo.n;HTelbHMa hesro ca naxohoxr onpo-rH rpeunce xoje cy '-IHHHlIHy neanan.y,

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AKO HeMa BeJIHKHXeMOIJ,HOHalIHHxnopesrehaja, aKO HeMa nO.THCKHBalba, HaClIO-

aKO ce HH )'enna eMOIJ,MjaHe sarnaaa npenyro, rana )e npHpo.n;HO na HejaBalba, .

'u HM rryroTpa)'HM crpec KOjM yrpO)f(aBa TeJIO, KO)HyrpO)f(aBa aaur MeHTalI-~a~n M .1I0KynHM eMOIJ,MOHalIHM,na H .n;YXOBHHHMBO, He yrpO)f(aBa Tpa)HO HaIllY}lH,lJ,e

J{apMO}lHjy H yHyTpaIlllbM MHp.AKO cy O.n;HOCMMel)y lby.n;HMa '-IOBe'-IHH,6e3 YMeTalba Ka3He H aarpane, oana

HalIHa HHTelIMreHIJ,H)'a Y3pacTa, Y3pacTa CBeCHOCT,HapO'-IHTO A06poTa, reeMOIJ,HO .je H cnoc06HOCT npMxBaTalba, onpaurraisa H 3aXBaJIHOCTH npHpo.n;Ha nOCJIe.n;H-

lJ,aTor pacTa. . . .Hexa Hac He '-Iy.n;Hsaurro canpextene, nnmnaae renepauaje aesrajy ocehaj

3aXBaJIHOCTH. Ha '-IeMY6M MomH na ocehajy 3aXBaJIHOCT? MJIa.n;MHe Mory H aehena 6y.n;y 3aXBaJIHMjep CMOMX nesaarsea, ynorpecox CBHXner aYTOpHTapHHX sac-nHTHHX Mo.n;eJIa,YBeJIMy CMpTHe rpeXOBe, y narisy, y CTalIHY rrorpecy na ce Mallla-

jy sa 31I0. .'Ila)f(lbMBO nocxarpajre Be3Y M3Mel)y npnayne, eMOIJ,HJeIbYTlbe H opraH a KOJe

nOKpHBa eMOIJ,MjaIbYTlbe M TaKO pe.n;OM.HeM a ponjrren,a, HH.n;eTeTa xoje 6H HCTpa-jaBaJIO na Ka3HM H aarpana, nOIllTO carnenajy HeraTMBHe nocnemme ayTopMTap-HHXBacnMTHMX Mo.n;eJIa,Y OBOMcnysajy pealIHe MlIH nmnuaae npmryne.

Je.n;HHapa31IHKa je IllTO ynorpefiosr caao peaJIHe Ka3He (<pM3M'-IKe H aepoanaenpmryne), eMOIJ,MjaIbYTlbe, 6MBa nacnojeaa, anx ce nOCJIe .n;06HjeHHx 6aTHHa nereHeKaKO CMMpHjep je Hcnpa3HMlIO 6ec. YnoTpe60M caao peaJIHe Ka3He, YKOlIHKOOHa HMje npeTelliKa H onaaure '-IeCTa, '-IOBeK roTOBO HHKa.n;a nehe .n;OOHy CT~lbernesa. Moxee .n;OOHno adiexra, aJIM aKO HaCHlIHMKHMa cpehy .n;aMy »cpraa HHJe y61IH3HHH, arpexar he rrpohn H aacxrse nehe 6HTH H3BpIlleHO.

Ha)f(alIOCT, ynorpefiosr 61Iare npHHy.n;e, 0.n;Y3MMajYOMnerery 06eoaHY narpa-.n;y,jep HHje 06aBHlIO sanarax, <PPYCTpHpaHO, nOXJIenHO nere norxcxyje IbYTlbY,jep He CMe pomrrezsy .n;aynyTM arpecajy, jep Mopa aa 6HlIO KOjH, Haj60lbe cnozsanOMHplbMBH Ha'-IHH,.n;anohe no )f(elbeHe narpane. Ta nOTHCHYTa eMOIJ,HjaIbYTlbe ceYHYTap rena, TpaHc<popMHIlle y CBe Moryoe csoje 061IHKe, norncxyje ce H aacnoja-aa, TaKO nOTMCHYTa. Kana reno He MO)f(e BHIlle na H3.n;P)f(H,IbYTlba, y BM.n;yrneaa,nOKYlba H nacarse najroper 061IHKa, nacarse xoje rpaje, je HeMMHOBHO.IlOBO.n;aaHaCHlbe je aeaaacan H yrnaanoa y nosony He nezce npaBH Y3PO'-IHHIJ,H.)l{ecToKoMMOMKYHeKOje yrryrno npeKM nomen. Cesayhe HO)f(, aa CKOPO HeBMHY)f(pTBY· AY3pOKje nyroronaum.e, CHCTeMaTCKO,rrJIMIllaHO MalITpeTIlfpalbe nerera y noponn-1J,I1,HaI13MeHH'-IHOMnpHMeHoM narpahasatsa M nnamaaor xaxoeaeaiea.

Ila JII1BaM je cana jacno 3aIllTO MlIa.n;'-IOBeKxojer je .n;pyr casto Bep6alIHO nospe-AI10, 111IHMy je o'reo narxxe HJIH je rtornenao lberOBY nenojxy, He '-IHHH HaCH-Ibe y arpexr-y, IlOJIaKO 0.n;lIa3H KyhH, Y3HMa naurrors, nOTnYHo CBeCHO ce apaha,

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IpOHalla3H CBOra p;pyra H y6Hja ra. CBe llH'-lH na y6HCTBO C rrpep;YMHIIIJbajeM.

ieMa xcyptie, jep arpexar npohe y TpeHY, amr rnes, xao rrOTrrYHO 60lleCHO cran.erMa, rpaje H '-lHH HaCHJba MO)Ke 6HTH p;yro onnaran, aznr he 6HTH H3BpIIIeH. Hajxe.,uhe )KpTBa 6HBa casro OKHp;a'-l sa npaaosea,e "rrpeTHc noaua", 110BOP; HHje MHoro

JHTaH, 6HTHO je na ce HaCHllHHK oCll060P;H orpoMHor TepeTa KOjH HOCH Y ce6H,

na ce oClI060P;H orposrae HarreTOCTH, xao nocnenaue rryroronxnnse rrOTHCKHBa-

ae zsyrrse, xoja ce xonuenrpoaana y rnes, xao CMpTHH rpex.

Carta je lIaKIIIe carnenarn H pa3YMeTH rrojasy HaCHJba y u;elIHHH, xao H orpou.aor cexcyannor HaCHJba, y <PYHKU;HjHnpasosersa HarreTOCTH. HarOMHlIaHa, HeH3-

o;p)KHBa HarreTOCT ce Haj6p)Ke rrpa3HH rrYTeM cexcyannor '-lHHa. Bazsa caao HahH

>KPTBy. He npeaa ce p;a )KpTBa 6yp;e H HeKO KO je y aenocpenaoj 61IH3HHH, y nopo-gHU;H. Saro cy H HeBHHa neua TaKO '-leCTO )KpTBe cexcyazmor HaCHJba y rroponn-

U;H, na YlIHU;H ...

A CBe je noxeno p;aBHO H TaKO HaHBHO: "E, cana HeheIII rnenara uprah, jep HHCH

cxynao nrpavxe!", H TaKO 6ap nernaecr rryTa p;HeBHO, rryHHx nernaecr ronnna.OHlIO 6H CBe npyra-raje, casro na je pOp;HTeJb saao KOllHKY orraCHOCT HOCH rrlIHIIIa-

aa rrpHHyp;a, Mop;epHa Ka3Ha.

EMOU;UOHallHOMUHUlellufeHu;ujoM gociaeapananxe /{06pOUle

Kana je rrpoToK H3BOPHHX esrouaja HeCMeTaH, notiap, a notiap je aKO y onnoce ca

p;pyrHMa H ca caMHM C060M He YMeheMO HH jenan 061IHK rrpHHyp;e. HapO'-lHTO jerrO)KeJbHO oClI06a1jaTH ce CBeCHO yHyTpaIIIlbe rrpHHyp;e (casronpaayne) xojy cy

HaIIIH pOp;HTeJbH yrpap;HlIH y Hac. OHllO je p;OBOJbHOna Hac HeKO xaxosasa cnozsa

HeKOllHKO romma, a rrOTOM HaCTaBJbaMO ce6e caMH p;a xaxosanaxto. Hexana ce

rOBopHlIO: "BacrrHTaBaj nere no ocasnraecre romrae, a nocne He 6pHHH". OHlIO jeP;OBOJbHOcavo ocavaaecr romme p;a ce yrpap;e MopallHH "qHrrOBH" H p;a op;paCTao

qOBeK pearyje oceharsev KpHBHu;e, xana ron H3HeBepH YTBp1jeHe MopalIHe rrpHHU;H-

rre, xnpcre CTaBOBeyrpaheae y p;eTHlbCTBY, nocne xera p;01Ia3H P;OCaMOKa)KlbaBalba.

Kana novaesso CBeCHOna ce ocrrotiahaxro CaMOKa)KlbaBalba, rana, H3 nana y p;aH,

pamoao na jaxarsy eMOU;HOHalIHe HHTelIHreHU;Hje. [a-rajyh« xapvomrjy BpahaMO

ce H3ry6JbeHOM YHYTpaIIIlbeM MHpy. To ce Haj6p)Ke rrOCTH)Ke y rropop;HU;H xoja ce

CBeCHOocnotiaha ayTopHTapHHx BacrrHTHHX Mop;ella, rropop;Hu;a y KOjOj CBaKO CBa-

KOMe nossazce na ce oCll060P;H csaxor 06llHKa npnayne.

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Tap;a IIIeCTa eneprnja, (nornenajre OpaH)K KPY)KHHU;y), eneprnja Panocrx, 3ap;0-

BOJbCTBa,.I(06poTe, .I(06pe HaMepe, P;OHOCHCBaKOM qllaHY rropop;Hu;e yHyTpaIIIlbH

MHP, jaxa cnocotiaocr p;a ce H 31I0 H notipo rrpHxBaTe xao .I(06po. Moj Hapop; rreno

Ka)f(e H sa HajTe)KY caryannjy y KOjOj ce '-lOBeK aahe: .Ko 3Ha 3aIIITO je TO notipo",A rne je .I(06poTa, .I(06pa HaMepa, yHyTpaIIIlbH MHP, 3ap;OBOJbCTBO,Jby6aB ce,

Kao cep;Ma enepnrja, nojasrsyje 6e3 HaIIIe BOJbe. Jby6aB H .I(06poTa rrocrajy yHy-

TpaIIIlbH "KOHTPOlIOpH". CBe H na xohe qOBeK He MO)Ke p;a qHHH 31I0, aKO je OCBOjHO

rrpOCTope craapanaxxe .I(06pOTe. Ty BpCTy .I(06poTe noxpehe YBeK H jemrao .I(06pa

HaMepa, KOjOj rrpeTXop;e xapMOHH30BaHe H3BopHe esrouxje. Hrrxana .I(06py HaMepy

Hehe rrOKpeHYTH rraTOlIOIIIKH crpax, mrrepec HlIH jax CMpTHH rpex. AKO YKllOHH-

MO npaayny y HaIIIHM Op;HOCHMa,noxpenyhe ce yHyTpaIIIlba MOTHBaU;Hja, Jby6aB.

YKOlIHKO rrpHHyp;a HHje xecra, HHje jaxa H caao je OCTaTaK ayroprrrapne CBe-

CTH, xoja ce npeotipazcasa, jasnhe ce JbYTlba, alIH JbYTlba xoja noxpehe xosexa na3p;paBY, KOHCTPYKTHBHY axuajy, nocne xoje ce 6p30 H e<pHKaCHOpaspeuraaa HeKH

ropyhH, BlIaCTHTH HlIH rrOpOp;HqHH rrp061IeM.

EMOU;HOHalIHO HHTelIHreHTaH qOBeK, onaj KojeM je oxoryhea clI060p;aH rrpo-

TOK H3BOPHHX eMoU;Hja, je y craisy .I(06poTe, .I(06poTe xoja HeMa rpanaua, xojaHHje HHTepeCHa, xoja He 3Ha IIITa je <pPOHT,IIITa cy nonene aa notipo H 31I0. Jep;HOM

pesjy CBeje aa lby .I(06po. qOBeK craapanasxe .I(06poTe je notiap y u;elIOCTH, aece-lIeKTHBHO, cayna H na CBaKOM MecTy. Moj aapon BelIH: "AKO TH He Mory novoha,op;MohH TH CHryPHO nehy" AYTopHTapHa CBeCT aajxeurhe Op;Ma)Ke, xana MHClIH

na je aa BpXyHU;y p;06pOTe.

qOBeK qHjH ce YM crrYCTHO Y xapMOHH30BaHO "cpu;e", 3Ha p;a He rpeoa xaxosa-

BaTH, aarpabasara a HapOqHTO He rpetia xoaexa rrpe3aIIITHhHBaTH. YBeK narro-

MeHeM na Op;CYCTBOaYTopHTapHOCTH, He 3HaqH xaoc, aaapxnjy, Hepep;. HarrpOTHB.

l.JoBeK yayrpaunse xapaoanje rrorpetiyje CrrOJbaIIIlbH pep;, xapraoaajy. Kana oncy-CTBO OBa TpH aacmrraa Mop;elIa rrocraae 3aKOH aa qOBeKa, razra He rpetia pa3MH-

lliJbaTH MHoro p;a lIH je yqHlbeHo HlIH He yqHlbeHo, qHH .I(06poTe. Tana CTe qOBeKOCBeIIIheHe .I(06poTe.

Hexana he TaKBa, oCBeIIIheHa .I(06poTa, ra rrpaBa eMOU;HOHalIHa mrrenaren-

U;H)a, llHqHTH aa CBe, casro He xa .I(06pOTY, y OqHMa xoaexa ayTopHTapHe CBeCTH.

HeKa sac TO He 6pHHe . .I(a lIH je BaIIIe qHlbelbe HllH HeqHlbelbe HCTHHCKa .I(06po-Ta P;OK .aayje ce casro MHpOM H 3ap;OBOJbCTBOM06a xoaexa. OBH noxaaarezsn nona-

ae BpeMeHoM, a nexana BpllO 6p30 ce rrOKa)KY.

CTaBHheTe rpaaxue BaIIIeM nerery, op;Y3HMalbeM HrpaqaKa, KojHMa ce norre-AaBHO Hrpa . II 6'0, P;OK jene. perxonao CTe My 0 )aCHHllH rta CTe My y He3HalbYA03BOJbaBa to..t. llH na ce Hrpa, p;a rnena uprane, na CTe )ypHlIH aa lbHM, na CTe My 06e-lIaBallH CBe H CBaIIITa, a CBe y HaMepH na ra aaxpamrre. Cana 3HaTe p;a H3Me1jy

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jena H isera He rpetia YMeTaTH 6HllO UITa, rra HH Hrpa'lKY, KaKO 6H nere HMallOjacay CBeCTrta jene H UITa jene, na 'reno MO)Kena nperrosna xana My je H KOllHKOxpaae AOCTa H TaKO peAOM.

,1J;eTeje CBe HaH3meA CXBaTHllO, anx xana My rrpBH rryT rrOCTaBHTe pY'IaK, aHrpa'IKy He nare, nonynehe OA6eca, oA6Hjahe xpaHY, ynapahe aac. MHpHO yxno-HHTe raisnp, 3aMOllHTe na one y CBOjycotiy, KaKO6H OCTallH pyqallH na MHpy. ,1J;eTehe y 6ecy rOBopHTH Aa BH HHCTeA06pa MajKa, Aa CTemyrrH, Aa aac He BOllH... CaMOMHpHO. Baura eMOQHOHallHa xarexarenuaja caspureno CPYHKQHOHHIlle,BH CTe,HaH3meA rpyria, allH pe3YllTaTH CTBapalla'IKe ,1J;06poTe he YCKOPO6HTH BHAHH.Banre nere rrocraje 3aAOBOJbHO,jep cllYIlla cnoje rene, BH 3aAOBOJbHHjep je KOHa'I-HO QHPKYCOKOxpalbelba ormuao H3 name xyhe, 3aYBeK H TaKO peno«.

Y aYTopHTapHoM CBeTY H A06pOTa H eMOQHOHallHa HHTellHreHQHja cy HeIllTOcnorsaunse H CBe Mopa Aa 6YAe cnozsa H Apecypa H MaHHcpeCTaQHja rrocnenxuaApecHpalba. EHTHO je cnozsaunse, a yHyTpaIlllbH HeMHpH ce TpeHyTHo He BHAe,crora HHCYHH Ba)KHH. ,1J;0HeAaBHO CTe MHCllHllHna 6HTH A06pa MajKa 3Ha'IH nereHaKJbYKaTH rOMHllOM 3ApaBe HllH aesnpase xpaHe, a Ha'IHH na KOjH CTe TO paAH-llH, HOCHnecarnenase rrocnennue y 6YAyhHOCTH. Ilocnenaue, OHe y 6YAyhHOCTHHe 11HTepecyjy ayTopHTapHy CBeCT.Cnozsaunsn QHJb je rrOCTHrHYT. ,1J;eTeje CHTO.

Y CTBapalla'IKOM je CBe H3HYTpa. Knnue ,1J;06poTe H lby6aBH cy y HaMa. YHy-TpaIlllbe ce He ApeCHpa. Onroj sa craapanaurrso CTBapa YCllOBe y KojHMa xnnuenapacrajy. He Mopa ce ,1J;06poTa MaHHcpecToBaTH, na O'IeKHBaHH Ha'IHH, allH je yHy-TpaIlllbH MHP, KOjHce BpeMeHoM CTH'Ie, rrOTBpAa na je ,1J;06pO'IHHHTeJb na A06pOMrryTy. Baure nere, jene Malbe, y OAHOCYna APyro, allH BH He nopemrre same nereHH ca KHM,jene OBO,a oA6Hja OHO,IllTO BH nourryjere, He pacre y rroxnernror 'IOBe-xa jep He jene H3 HHTepeca, jene xana je maAHO, a He xana ra rrOACTaKHe pexnaxa,saute nere je 3ApaBO, HaKO MpIllaBO, aaure nere je 3aAOBOJbHO,xao H BH. 3aAOBOJb-CTBO,,1J;06pOTa H Jbyfias nonase H3HyTpa, IllTO HerrorpeIllHBO ocehajy CBHy aaiuevOKpY)KelbY, a TO aajjaxe ocehare BH H saure nere.

Onpacrao CTe 'IOBeK, BpeAaH, HayqeH aa OHO: "Y ce H y caoje xzsyce", jep CTe6HllH BpllO crporo sacnaraaaaa, y TpaAHQHOHallHoj rropOAHQH. qHTaBo AeTHlb-CTBOCTe 6HllH Jby60MOpHH na Mlla1)er 6paTa KOjHje 6HO npesaurrnhen OApaAa,pena. TIOCTaOje napasar KOjHje OCTao ys pOAHTeJbe, CBeAOlbHXOBe CMpTH. A OHAacy BaM y HaClleACTBO OCTaBHllH, cana onpacnor, CPH3H'IKH3ApaBor arnr H3Y3eTHoneisor 'IOBeKa. JIe)KH, He paAH, rrOTpOIllHO HMeTaK, a onna nourao na aaura spara.na I1 aasra sezce OM'Iy OKOBpaTa.

11MaTe ABa rryTa: TIPBI1 je na HaCTaBHTe na ra npeaaurrnhyjere, xao lIlTO cy TOpOAHTeJbH paAI111H.AKO CTe CHpOMalIlaK, onpauahere ce MHoro xera, na 6H napa-3l1TH narse napaasrrapao. AKO CTe MaTepl1jallHo 60raTH, ca naxohos, here OABOjHTI1

rrOBellHKYCyMy HOB~a H 36pHHyTH iseroao neiso reno, saycraarsajyha TaKO rserosp;YXOBHHpaCT. CBH he aac XBallHTH, Aa CTe npaBH xpaurhanan, KOjl1He A03BOJbaBap;a My 6paT 6YAe rnanaa. BH here ce XBallOM rroropp;HTH, ana here I1MaTHnOTI1CHY-TI16ec jep CBeCTnpenosaaje na onaj rryT HHje A06ap, na saure nezro HHje 113paBHHI1CTI1HCKe,1J;06poTe, jep na lbeMY HeMa nyxoaaor Y3paCTalba saurera 6paTy. ,1J;OHO-Cl1heTe My csaxor nana rOTOBYpafiy, YMeCTOna ra Hayql1Te Aa rreua, rrOKpeHYBIllHra na paA H peA· Pe'I je 0 KBa3H A06pOTH, xoja je naaac BHAHa y csaxoj noponn-QI1,y neno» ApyIllTBy.

,1J;pym rryT je craapana-nor. Ha TOM rryTy 'IOBeK nosraxce 611H)f(lbeM na nyreapap;a pasnaja ce6e, xao CPI1311'IKOH AYXOBHO6l1he. Osaj nyT he 6l1Tl1 6011aH H sasac I1 sa isera. Baur 6paT he MOpaTI1 Aa crpana, Aa 6YAe I1 rnanan, na aac ocyhy-je, Aa sac Mp3H, Aa BaM 3aBI1AI1,Mopahe Aa OCeTI1noczrenxue caor nyroronaunserrrapa3l1THpalba. (CeTI1Te ce CTape 6aCHe 0 QBP'IKy H MpaBY). JeAI1HOje TO rryT Aace noxpene "QBp'IaK" I1 no-me Aa Y3paCTa.

CBaKY 3ApaBY axunjy nersor 'IOBeKa sazsa nOAP)f(aTI1, MOTI1BI1CaTHra, HaY'II1-TH ra paAY, a paA je MHoro rora, TIOHYAI1THMy HayK H YCllOBe aa paA, YCllOBe saorxpaaarse 3aMpllHX raneuara, aKO HayK H YCllOBeaa pan OAsac xohe HllH Tpa)f(H.fOTOBYpH6y My He AOHOCI1TI1.Pl16a Mopa 6HTH yneuana 111111sapaheaa, 11 noxehena neua, 3anaMTI1Te. YCKOpOhe BaM 6l1Tl1 Ay60KO saxaazran jep KOHa'IHO no-nosena crrosaaje ce6e, xao JbYACKO,paAHO 6Hhe. HHCTe ra xaxosaaana, HH aarpahaaa-nH aa npenysere axuxje, HaKOje MHore saure rrocTyrrKe AO)f(HBJbaBaOxao Ka3HY, a)f(eCTOKOce JbYTHOxana lberOBe CHTHexopaxe HI1CTefioraro narpahnsana. HHCTera npesaurrahaaana, jep 'IOBeK crsapana-nce ,1J;06poTe 3Ha Aa je TOBacnHTHH MOAen,KOjHOCTaBJba najnorytinaje nocnenaue. ,1J;06pO'II1HHTeJb he 3HaTH urra My aarsa'IHHHTH, YKOnl1KOce napasxr He noxpeae H CKllH3He y 60necT. HapOA je 0AYBeKaaao na on neisocrn nesra rope 60necTH. Bonecmoaa H HeMohHHMa noponnuaMopa novoha. Bpzro CllH'IHO ce neuraaa H na HHBOYAPYIllTBa.

CaBpeMeHO APYIllTBO ce AellH na CBeT npefiorarnx H cxposraunorx, na CBeTMan06pojHHX "cpehHHKa" KOjHpane I1ysehaaajy 60raTcTBO npetiorarxx H orpo-MaH 6poj He3anOClleHHX. TaKBo APYIllTBO rrO'IHBa na nazcno] A06pOTH 60raTHx.OrpOMaH HOBa~ KOjHcy caxymora excrmoarxuryhn Mall06pojHe sanocneae, KOjH~aAe AaHOHohHO, oryhyjyh» ce OAce6e, OAcsoje nopoAHQe, OA)f(HBOTa, AO~HH-)e, 3apaA couajanaor MHpa H MaHl1cpeCTOBalba KBa311A06pOTe, nene CI1POTHlbH.D:ene MpBH~e csor orposraor xamrrana, a CBe TO ry6H CMHcao.

CBe rpa rpynannje HeMajy urance na yspacrajy xao JbYAH.Sanocnean cy )KpTBe>l<eCTOKenpanyne H ycnoazsaaarsa, 60raTH cy HaCHllHHQH, )KpTBe csoje yHyTpa-lUlbe rrOXlIerre, a CHpOMaIllHH cy MpBH~aMa Tyl)er 60raTCTBa cy npeaaurrxheaa OApaAa If 'lOBe'lHOr pacra.

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Hajryxcaaje je llITO y pa3BJ1jeHoM CBeTY, MJIaAJ1,3ApaBJ1 JbYAJ1napa3J1TJ1pajyaa 60JIeCHOM TKJ1BYnOpOAJ1IJ;eJ1JIJ1ApylliTBa, ryfieha ce6e jep J1MHJ1KOHJ1je AaonpJ1JIJ1KYAa cnoaaajy ce6e, a cn03HaTJ1 ce6e, caoje TaJIeHTe MO)f(e ce caxro Kp03paA, paA CJby6aBJb y.

,lJ;aKJIe,6e3 XapMOHJ130BaHJ1XJ13BOPHJ1XeMOIJ;J1jaHeMa eMOIJ;J10HaJIHeJ1HTem1-reHIJ;J1je, jeAHoM penjy, HeMa crsapanaxxe ,lJ;06pOTe. IDe nehe 6J1TJ1AOKJ1Ma ayro.pJ1TapHOCTJ1,a AOKqeKaMO aa speae ,lJ;06pJ1x JbYAJ1,jour MHoro 3JIa heno nOqJ1HJ1TJ1y J1Me aYTopJ1TapHe A06pOTe.

,lJ;OJIa3J1speae xana 60raTJ!! nehe HYAJ1TJ1MpBJ1IJ;e,sapan COIJ;J1jalIHorMJ1pa, Benhe na jenao paAHo MeCTO 3anOClIJ1TJ1 ABa xosexa. Tana he paAHO spexe, YMeCTOcanaunsnx ABaHaeCT xacona, rpajarn HOpMalIHJ1X urecr, BOraTJ1 Mopajy rrpaxsa-Tl1Tl1Aa ce CBeT He BpTl1 OKOlbl1X, na CBl1nOA OBl1McyHIJ;eM l1Majy npaso na pan,KOjl1he 6l1Tl1 AOCTOjHOnnahen KaKO 611CBaKOOCTBapl10 npaBO aa BpeMe npose-AeHO y Kpyry csoje nOpOAl1IJ;e, CBOjl1XHajMl1lIl1jl1X. BplIO 6p30 he CBeCT 60raTl1Xl1 Cl1pOMallIHl1X MOpaTl1 Aa ce Melba. Hcropaja xnacaor APYlliTBa je na l13Al1Cajy.Ilocnemse ABe KJIaCe, xnaca 60raTl1X l1 xnaca Cl1pOMallIHl1X, onacao yrpoacasajyMJ1P y CBeTY. IDl1XOBe onaoce he l1CXapMOHl130BaTl1 crnapana-nca ,lJ;o6poTa, xojaKyIJ;a na BpaTa CBJ1XnOpOAl1IJ;a, a carao cTBapalIaqKa nOpOAl1IJ;a MO)f(eCBeTYnona-pl1TJ1 l1CTl1HCKY,lJ;06pOTy, xoja rpetia cBeTY y KojeM )f(l1Bl1MO.

Cnotioqa - HegoCa1-baHU can 1108eK08

Ine HeMa aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, rne HeMa nacnzsa xosexa HaA qOBeKOM, Ty cy eMOIJ;l1jeXapMOHl130BaHe, Ty je eMOIJ;l10HalIHa narenareaua]a, Ty je crnapana-nca ,lJ;06po-ra, Ine je ,lJ;06pOTa, Ty je 0ACYCTBOera, rOpAOCTl1, Ty je Jby6aB 0 KOjOjje xoaesan-CTBOcaisano BeKOBl1Ma, Jby6aB xoja BOAl1OAJby6aBl1 npeMa qOBeKY AOJby6aBl1npexa Bory,

,lJ;06POTOM l1 Jby6aBJby YlIa3l1 ce Y ClI060AY, xoja je 6l1lIa BeqHl1 HeAocalba-Hl1 can qOBeKOB. OCMa enepnrja, enepnrja CJIOBO,lJ;E, y OACYCTBYaYTOpl1TapHO-CTl1, Hl1KaAa He npepaCTa y aaapxnjy, jep CTBapalIaqKa ,lJ;06pOTa l1 Jby6aB AOHoce,lJ;YBOKY CBECHOCT, y3 xojy, CBe l1na xohesio He MO)f(eMOHl111ITaql1Hl1Tl111ITOje npOTl1B ce6e l13BOpHOr, npOTl1B JbYAl1,npOTl1B Dora J1 rrpnpone. Y qJ1HY CTBa-pans-nee Iloopore pacTe l1 qOBeK Ilotipore J1CBJ1KOjJ1rpetia J1Mory Aa ocere 611a-rOAaT Te Ilotipore. Crnapanaxxa Ilotipora rrpencrasrsa 60rOqOBeqaHCKI1 nporpec,xao aHTJ1Te3Y XYMaHJ1CTJ1qKOMnporpecy.

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AyTOpl1TapHa notipora l1 Jby6aB aYTOpJ1TapHe CBeCTJ1,xao xYMaHJ1 nporpec ceyqe crrozsa, sariopaszsajyha Aa CBe Ben nocenyjexro poheiser« J1Aa YHYTpallilbeMHe Tpe6a Apecypa.

CTBapaJIaqKa ,lJ;06poTa l1Jby6aB ce He yqe, OHe ce y OACYCTBYcnozsaunser nac-!1I1Talba caae 6YAe, l13HyTpa, yspacrajy. To je nporpec OAxosexa AO DOrOqOBeKa,OAqOBeKa AOJ1KoHe Boxorje. Y OACYCTBYKa3He l1 HarpaAe l13BOpHe eMOIJ;l1jece HeTpaHccpOPMl111IYY rpexose, seh ce rpaacrpopsonuy y BplIl1He. BplIl1HCKl1qOBeK, je!1po6ytjeHl1 DOrOqOBeK. Hserosa JIl1qHOCT,lberOBO neno, rseros )f(l1BOTnOql1lbY na60je iseroao cpIJ;e, AyllIy, nOpOAl1IJ;y, onaoce, iserona nena, HapoA KojeM npnnana.Ee36poj CTBapaJIaqKl1X lIl1qHOCTl1ofiojnhe CBeT 6YAyhHOCTl1.

YHYTpallIlbJ1 nOTeHIJ;l1jalI ce y CTBapaJIaQKJ1MYClIOBl1Ma,caaocrroaaaje, casro-peaJIl13yje J1 caaoocraapyje, YBeK l1 jeAl1HO Kp03 ,lJ;o6po l1 Jby6aB, y ancorryr-HOj CJI060Al1. 0 BPJIl1HCKOMnyTy carsajy JbYAl1,caisajy BepHl1IJ;l1, cBellITeHl1IJ;l1.Csoje CHOBe MO)f(eMOnpeTBOpl1Tl1 y craapaocr. CBaKl1 pOAl1TeJb KOjl1 TBPAl1 naBOJIl1csoje nere, CBaKl1cynpyr KOjJ1ce saxmnse na BeQHYJbytiaa, ca naxohosr hece onpeha aYTOpl1TapHOCTl1, 3apaA re l1CTe Jby6aBl1. Tana je OTBopeH nyT pacTyl1 paasojy J13BOPHl1XeMOIJ;l1jay cyticrpyxrype BplIl1Ha, (y CMl1peHOCT,napeaosn-BOCT,CBeCHOCT,,lJ;06pOTy, Jbytias, 3aXBaJIHOCT, cnocofiaocr npaxsaraisa, Ay6o-xor paaysresarsa, onpaurraisa ... )

,lJ;elIyjeYTOnl1CTl1QKl1,amr je l1CTl1HaAa je anaise CTBapaJIaQKOr sacnararsa jenanOAnyreaa xa AYXOBHOMpacTy, KOjl1aano-nuse Kp03 Jby6aB nonosa, Kp03 Jbytias yrrOpOAl1IJ;J1,l13Metjy QJIaHOBa rrOpOAl1IJ;e,y llIKOJIl1,Y npyurrsy, Kp03 Jby6aB rrpeMapaAY, peAY, )f(l1BOTY,npl1pOAl1, alIl1 YBeK l1 jeAl1HO y OACYCTBYaYTOpl1TapHOCTl1.OBO je jenan oA rryresa KOjl1BOAl1xa Bory,

POAl1TeJbl1KOjl1cy TeK A06l1JIl1 nOToMKe, YKOlIl1KOce onpenerre sa CTBapaJIaQ-~O aacnaran,e, crnapahe YClIoBe aa 6ytjelbe uenoxynaor yHyTpallilber nOTeHIJ;l1-jana, csor TeK poheaor nerera, a l1CTOBpeMeHOhe ce6e l1CKpl1BJbeHOr, rpexosaorBpanaTl1 cnOHTaHO l13BOPY l1 BPJIl1HCKOMnyTy.

YKOlIl1KOce crapnje, l1CKpl1BJbeHOnere l1 J1CKpl1BJbeHpOAJ1TeJb CBeCHOorrpe-AeJIe aa CTBapaJIaQKO aacrrararse, raxohe he ce l1 pOAl1TeJb l1 nere BpaTl1Tl1 ce6l1,CBOMl13BOPy, a Tl1Me l1 BPlIl1HCKOMnyTy.

AYTOpl1TapHa CBeCTje BeKOBl1Ma, AYXOBHl1paCT, Kp03 Jby6aB xao l1 anCOJIYT-By CJIo60AY, rrpornauiaaana YTOnl1joM. A nojasr YTOnJ1je je l1 CMJ1CJIl10aYTOpl1-TapHl1 yM, ocnopanajyhn 6allI OHO ~ carao OHO llITO yrpO)f(aBa, lbera career, llITOyrpO)f(aBa ayropxrapay CBeCT.ITOCTaBI10je npenpeKy, ayTopl1TapHe MOAelle, Hl1jeA03BOJIl10' . . 6 "-eMOIJ;l1JaMaXapMOHI1JY,a OHAa Je BeKOBl1May enasao ce6e 11APyre Aa~ Ao6pOTa, Jby6aB 11CJI060Aa, casro npamorensja peTKI1X, 111111je Jby6aBJby l1

06pOTOM npornauraaao neurro llITO je 611110AellI1MI1'iHO 11nponaano, neurro

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nrro HaM je ~OHOCHlIO smne narrse Hero pa~OCTH, amue rpexoaa Hero BpllHHa HyHyTpallllber Mapa.

AKO CTe na)f(lbHBO npoxarana onaj neo TeKCTa Ben BaM je jacna cyurrana CTBa-pallaqKOr nacrnrrarsa. EMOQHOHalIHHyrnua] xosexa aa xoaexa, y O~CyCTByayropa.TapHHX BacnHTHHX sronena, y ~y)f(eM BpeMeHCKOMnepHo~y, jecre CTBAPAJINIKOBACrU1TAlhE. IhHMe ce Ylla3H y npocrope lby6aBH, ,lJ;o6poTe H Cnooone, OHe HOHaKBe KaKBe CMOqeKallH BeKOBHMa.

YMecuw jUH-jaHf, xewepO-XOMO

BelIHKY nazcrsy caM nOCBeTHlIa npmryn», xoja je noaesaaa ca eMoQHjoM n-yrise,na npaoj KPY)f(HHQH.AKO CTe pa3YMelIH OBe omroce, na)f(lbHBO nocsrarpajre cBaKYKPY)f(HHQY nonaocoti H pasyjaehe're O~HOC avropxrapaor nacnarnor Mo~elIa,H3BopHe eMOQHje H CBe nOClIe~HQe xoje cnene H3 osor onnoca. Y OBOMnezry neMonocaarpara nse rpyne eMOQHja. Xerepo H XOMOrpynaunje, KaKOHXHa3HBa r. Ilapx,

06paTHTe naxcsy na 3elIeHY H QPBeHY Kpy)f(HHQY. Kaxo xasce rocrtonxa Ilapx,lbYTlba H pa~ocT cy eMoQHje xoje Hac none y axunjy, y )f(HBOT.OH HXHa3HBa xere-po eneprrrjaraa, To cy eaeprnje CBojCTBeHe saure MylllKapQY, csojcraene ~eQH, MlIa-~HMa, smne Hero apenoj )f(eHH, Hero CTapOCTH.

Ha npyroj crpaan cy: 6pHra, ryra H crpax. (zcyra, 6paoH H rerer KPY)f(HH-ua), exouaje KapaKTepHCTHqHHje sa xcencxy eaeprxjy H 3a crapnjy nonynannjy,6aKe, nexe. OHe none y MHp, yHyTpa, y ce6e. Ilapx HX Ha3HBa XOMOeneprajava.J.1MylllKapaQ H )f(eHa HMajy H XOMOH xerepo eneprxje, amr je KO~ MylllKapQa jaqHxerepo, KO~ xcena je jaqH XOMO.

To je OHa npenosnarnoma pexenmta: "MylllKapQH cy 6HlIH BeKOBHMa 1I0BQH HpaTHHQH, ~OK cy »ceae qYBalle orrsmure H nOTOMCTBO".Y YClIOBHMa6e3 ayropx-TapHOCTH xerepo H XOMOeMOQHje YlIa3e y paBHOTe)f(Y, a ca lbHMa H name cpH3W·I-KO,MeHTalIHO, ~yXOBHO H COQHjalIHo 6Hne ce ypaanorexcyje. J.1MylllKapaQ H )f(eHahe y o~cyCTBy aYTOpHTapHHX BacnHTHHx Mo~elIa ypaBHOTe)f(HTH MyIllKy H )f(eH-CKYcTpaHy, y ce6H, nocrahe YQelIOBlbeHH, 6e3 MyKe, a OH~a he MylllKapaQ H )f(eHanOCTHnH, TOlIHKO)f(elbeHY xapssoaajy, y CBOjHMO~HOCHMa, ca CBOjHMnOToMQH-Ma, y CBOjHMnoponxuaaa, aa CBOjHMpa~HHM MeCTHMa.

Kana Mel)y lby~HMa, y lbHXOBHM O~HOCHMa, He 6y~e Ka3He H narpane. nOTe-nH he lby6aB. Tana nehesro yqHTH lby~e cnozsa KaKO na nOCTHrHY eMOQHOHalIHY,COQHjalIHy, ~yXOBHy mrrenareauajy. To ce He yqH. To je y HaMa, carao cY nOTpe6-HH YClIOBHH O~HOCH6e3 ayropxrapaocrx, ~a 6H CBe TO Y3paClIO.

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CBaKa eMOQHja nOKpHBa no nsa TelIeCHa opraH a, O~ KOjHXje jenan YBeK XOMO,(jeTpa, nYH opran) a ~pym xeTepo ()f(yqHa xeca, lllynalb opran), H TaKO pe~OM.XeTepo H XOMOopraHH cy xao na KlIaQKallHQH, re YKOllHKOjenaa 0601IH H ~pyrHje yrpO)f(eH.

CBaKa eMOQHja raxohe HMa H CBOj xeTepo H CBOj XOMO0611HK. XOMO lbYTlba[e nOTHCHYTa, xeTepo lbYTlba je aacnojeua, Y aYTopHTapHHM YClIOBHMa)f(HBOTanocTojH se-nrra 60p6a H3Mel)y XOMOH xerepo crpane. Mallo n06e~H jenno, naOH~a Ha~jaqa ~pyro. Harne cycpeTa, HHr~e xapvoaaje. Kana ce OTKlIOHeCBH061IH-

1I;Hnpanyne rana ~01la3H no xapaoaasaunje XOMa H xeTepa, (r. Ilapx OBO craiseHa3HBa neyrpo). TeK xana ce6e yBe~eMo y craise HeyTpa, y craise xapaoaaje, xanaTaKBH OMorynHMo H Haj61IH)f(HMa HCTOcran-e, rana MO)f(eMOrOBopHTH 0 rroxer-xy pacTa CBeCHOCTH H lby6aBH rOBopHTH 0 OqYBalbY H yaanpeheisy CPH3HqKOr,MeHTalIHOr, nyxosnor snpaszsa y uenoj nopO~HQH.

,lJ;parH MojH qHTaOQH, cana here nOlIaKO H3aHalIH3HpaTH UITa CBe nmne yHy-Tap CBaKe 060jeHe KpY)f(HHQe. Y isoj cy cxrenrreaa: eMOQHja, (rsynsa), eneprnjaxoja je na MeHTallHOM HHBOy, (axuaja) no rrsa renecaa opran a KOjHcy nOKpHBeHHOBHMeaeprnjaaa (jerpa H »cyx). 3a CBaKYKPY)f(HHQYcaM sesana jenaa BaCnHTHHMo~ell H ~06HlIa HayqHy 3aCHOBaHOCT craaparraxxor aacrnrrarea, xao H ~OKa3e 0norytiaocrx CBHXner aYTOpHTapHHX BacnHTHHX Mo~elIa.

Iloceouo casr y3 CBaKH BacnHTHH Mo~elI nenana H CMPTHJ.1 fPEX, xao xpajisyMaHHcpecTaQHjy, H3BopHe, HCKpHBlbeHe eMOQHje HCKpHBlbeHe MeHTallHe eneprnje,CHarOM aYTopHTapHOCTH. AKO He 6H 6HlIO aYTopHTapHOCTH, He 6H 6HlIO CMpTHHXrpexosa, He 6H 6HlIO oceharsa KpHBHQe, He 6H 6HlIO eMOQHOHalIHHX, MeHTalIHHX,na HH CPH3HqKHXnopeaehaja, y MepH y KOjOj HX HMa nanac.

OEPATJ.1TE DA)KlhY HA oprane xoje nOKpHBa CBaKa H3BopHa eMOQHja KaKO6H CXBaTHlIHKOlIHKOnaure TelIeCHO 3~paBlbe MO)f(ena QBeTa y YClIOBHMa6e3 ayro-pHTapHOCTH. KOlIHKO6H Malbe 6HlIO CpqaHHX otiorseisa ~a HeMa n03HTHBHor yClIO-

BlbaBalba, na HeMa noxnene HlIH 6e)f(elbHOCTH, xana noxnerra Ha~paCTe casry ce6e.KOlIHKOMalbe 0601IelIe jerpe H )f(yqH ~a HeMa H aacnojeae H nOTHcHYTe rsyrn-e,6eca, arpecaje, ayroarpecnje, rnena KOjH cy nOClIe~HQa, 6aTHHe, HlIH 61Iare, nmr-WaHe npHHy~e.

KaAa OBYnpHqy npaTe pOAHTelbH, na MOjHMnpenaaarsaaa, na lbHXOBHMlIHQH-Ma npen03HajeM MHp H 3a~OBOlbCTBO jep CBe ~O)f(HBlbaBajy xao CBOjy HCTHHYxojyHI1KOHe MO)f(e Aa 060pH. Ocehasr lbHXOBYPanocr jep Ben aa npe~aBalby CXBaTeI<aI<Oje lIaKO noxoha ce6H H caojroaa H ~a HHje norpelllHo lllTO craapana-nco aac-nl1Talhe Ha3HBaM BACDJ.1TAlhE EE3 MYKE.

DpenopyqyjeM HM na nazczsnao npoyqe llleMY no KOjOj npWlaM, a HalIa3H ceY "BYI<Bapy" H rra Hayqe xanaxser OBYlIorHqHY Be3Y H3Mel)y rezra, eMOQHje, yMa,

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:aKO 6J.1 Y CBaKOM TpeHY, xana J.1X06Y3Me JIYP;J.1JIO aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1 J.1Herrpl1-

" ".nararsa Ty!)e pa3JIJ.1ql1TOCTJ.1, BOJbHO J.1JIaKO 3aYCTaBJ.1JIl1 "rrJIJ.111IaHY J.1peaJIHyIPJ.1HYP;y, P;03BOJIJ.1BIlIl1 J.13BOPHJ.1M eMOU;J.1jaMa na TeKY CJI060P;HO, 3apap; 3p;pa-IJba J.1lhy6aBJ.1.

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AKO Hap; HeKJ.1M yrroTpe6JbaBaTe KJIaCJ.1QHY rrpJ.1Hyp;y npaponno je p;a JbYTlba, xao3aIIlTJ.1THa eMOU;J.1jaY3paCTa, npenaaa y 6ec, rpaacdiopsonue ce y cso]e Cy6CTPYKTY-pe jep aa eMOU;J.1jJ.1JbYTlbe J.1MaMO JbYTlbY, cana y BJ.1p;y6eca J.1TaKO pep;OM. Hapaanop;a npJ.1Hyp;a J.1Ma pa3He 06JIJ.1Ke. MJ.1 CaMJ.1 Hap; C060M Mo*eMO BPIlIJ.1TJ.1 CaMOrrpJ.1-HYP;y y op;pe1)eHJ.1M CJ.1TyaU;J.1jaMa, jep CMO TJ.1Me YCJIOBJbeHJ.1 jour y CBOM p;eTJ.1lbCTBy.y CTBapJ.1, HeYKJ.1, aYTOpJ.1TapHJ.1 pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1 cy YCJIOBJ.1JIJ.1aaur yM, yrrorpefizsasajy-hJ.1 HenpeCTaHO Ka3HY J.1aarpany, p;a 6J.1 TOKOM uenor )KJ.1BOTa CaMJ.1 ce6e xaxcn,a-

BaJIJ.1, y CJIJ.1QHJ.1MCJ.1TyaU;J.1jaMa.)l{eJIJ.1MO p;a ce orrYCTJ.1MO rrOCJIe pyqKa aJIJ.1 Hac je MajKa npJ.1CJ.1JIOM HayqJ.1JIa na

ce CYP;OBJ.1OP;Max Mopajy orrparx. AOK BJ.1nepeTe cynose, saur My)K JIeIliKapJ.1. Pea-ryiere JbYTlbOM, qaK J.16eCOM. Baur cynpyr He paayve Y3POK sante JbYTlbe, jep sacje nsa rryra rroasao p;a Op;MOpJ.1Te, rra here cxyna 3aBplIlJ.1TJ.1 rrocao. Cana CTe jourJbyhJ.1 jep nexrare BJ.1lI1e caao MajQJ.1HY rrpJ.1Hyp;y y ce6J.1, cana J.1MaTe J.1mynJ.1 CTaBp;a ce YBeK CYP;OBJ.1Mopajy orrparu op;Max, rro 3aBplIleTKY pyqKa. Jbyrtsa ce HaCJIO-jasa, naaau HeraTJ.1BHOCTJ.1 ce lIIJ.1PJ.1. [emra MY)KeBJbeBa peQ yseurhe aac y raes.Hajrezce je pa3YCJIOBJ.1TJ.1 CBOj BJIaCTJ.1TJ.1,YCJIOBJbeHJ.1 yM J.1rrpaTJ.1TJ.1 csoje rrorpe-6e J.1zcezse, npanarohene onpeheaoj )KJ.1BOTHOj CJ.1TyaU;J.1jJ.1.J13Hap; caera je TelIlKOOCJI060P;J.1TJ.1 ce CTaBOBa xoje cy HaM yrpap;J.1JIJ.1 J.13au;eMeHTJ.1paJIJ.1 y naur yM, ayTo-pJ.1TapHJ.1 pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1.

Crsapanaxxa JIJ.1QHOCT pearyje J.13 6J.1ha, nourryjyha nare OKOJIHOCTJ.1, spexe.csoje TpeHyTHo craise J.1CJI. AyTOpJ.1TapHa JIJ.1QHOCTpearyje J.13HaMeTHYTor CTaBa,J.13rnase, J.13YCJIOBJbeHOr yMa. Kana ce OCJI060P;J.1MO CTaBOBa, xana ce OCJIo60p;J.1-MO BJIaCTJ.1Te J.1Ty1)e aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1, MO)KeMO J.1p;aJbe rrpaTJ.1 cynose onsrax, aJIJ.1HaM TO nehe HaCJIojaBaTJ.1 6ec, J.1JIJ.1OP;JIO)KJ.1TJ.13a KaCHJ.1je, lIITO HaM nehe CTBOPJ.1-TJ.1oceharse KpJ.1BJ.1u;e.

Yrr03HaJIa caM MJIap;y MajKy xoja je 6J.1JIa ynopna na CBOjOj p;eu;J.1 He P;03BOJIJ.1BJ.11)albe ca CTpJ.1u;eM, MY)KeBJbeBJ.1M 6paTOM. TOJIJ.1KOje 6J.1JIa ynopHa p;a je TO CTBO-PJ.1JIO OrrlIlTJ.1 xaoc y noponaua J.16paKy. 3alIlTO, yrrJ.1TaJIa caM je? ,,3aTO lIITO jeCTPJ.1U;JIeQeHJ.1 aJIKOXOJIJ.1Qap, a Moja neua He cxejy na 6yp;y y 6JIJ.13J.1HJ.16J.1JIO xojeraTIKOXOTIJ.1Qapa, rra J.1aKO je y nJ.1TalbY pohenn CTpJ.1U;",op;rOBOpJ.1TIa je JbYTJ.1TO. "To jeMoj CTAB", pexna je OP;JIYQHO. TIoQeJIa caM p;a 6pJ.111IeM lbeH CTaB KOjJ.1joj je MajKarrpJ.1Hyp;OM, HerrpeCTaHJ.1M Bep6aTIJ.13MOM, yrpap;l1lla y noncsecr J.1OH cana p;J.1pJ.1ryjelheHOM cseurhy, TIOJIaKO je noxena P;~ paaaexurasa CTaB, CXBaTJ.1BlIIJ.1 na OHa rrpe-3aWTl1nyje p;eu;y on )KJ.1BOTa. KaKO he OHa cyTpa OTKJIOHJ.1TJ.1CBe Jbyp;e J.13oxpyace-n.a, a J.1Ma J.1XMHoro (aJIKOXOJIJ.1Qape, p;pOrJ.1paHe, rrerse, noxnenne, KpJ.1MJ.1HaJIu;e J.1na TIl1je TO YOIlIUTe norpetiaotl).

"JIociUoju neiaiiu: uuuo 6u ce MOIllO naseaiuu essouuonannusc cMeneMOHO ce ciueapa y ifJa6pUKaMa MUCllU. To cy tionoeu KOjU cy eet: MUHy-nu U caga HeMajy HUKaKay cepxy"

TaQHo je TO lIITO je J.13peKaO BeJIJ.1KJ.1nacau Koezso. Y YCJIOBJbeHOM, aYTOpJ.1-rapaosr yMy p;enOHOBaHO je eMOU;J.10HaJIHO csrehe, xoje BJ.1lI1e HeMa CBpxy, aJIJ.1 racao TeMrrJ.1paHY 60M6y HOCJ.1MO ca C060M, Kp03 )KJ.1BOT J.1YHOCJ.1MO ra Y rtoponn-W na ra rrOKa)KeMO J.1CBOjOj neua, p;a YBeK pearyjesro J.13re rOMJ.1JIe csreha, xojae nocnenmra rrpJ.1Hyp;e J.13 speaeaa xoje BJ.1lI1e He nocroja. Mauresro TJ.1M CMe-'leM, rrOHaBJbaMO rpelIlKe CBOjJ.1X pomrrezsa, YQJ.1TeJba, KaKO 6J.1 HalIlJ.1 rrOTOMU;J.1lITO npe rrOCTaJIJ.1 HaJIJ.1K HaMa. To eMOU;J.10HallHO cxrehe je nocrrenxna rrJIJ.1lI1aHe J.1inase p;pyre npJ.1Hyp;e xoja ce CJIJ.1BaJIa CBaKop;HeBHO na Hac, rrponapyhx p;y60KOy Hac, He p;03BOJbaBajynJ.1 p;a J.13BOpHe eMOU;J.1je TeKY CJI060P;HO, He noaaorsasajy-:m p;a ce paaaajajy KJIJ.1u;e lhy6aBJ.1, Pap;OCTJ.1, Ao6poTe, p;a ce paasaje rrOTeHU;J.1-ian nonecen pohersea.

Ca C060M, TaKBJ.1M "HepacU;BeTaHJ.1M", OCJ.1MBJIaCTJ.1TOr eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr csteha,HOCJ.1MOJ.1npesasaheae aYTOpJ.1TapHe BaCrrJ.1THe Mop;elle, xoje cap;a MJ.1, xao HOBJ.1pOp;J.1TeJbJ.1, ynopno CTaBJbaMO J.13Me1)y Hac J.1HalIlJ.1X najnpaxorx, J.13Me1)y HalIlJ.1XHajMJ.1JIJ.1jJ.1XJ.1pap;a KOjJ.1rpefia p;a 06aBe, He p;03BOJbaBajynJ.1 paCU;BeTaBalbe KJIJ.1u;e7by6aBJ.1.

J13 onor JIyp;J.1JIa rroaaszsarsa rpetia Vl3J.1nJ.1.Hesaaise nazsa 3aMeHJ.1TJ.1 3HalbeM.KaKO? Op;6aU;J.1TJ.1 CBaKY BpCTy npanyne y Op;HOCJ.1Ma J.1TJ.1Me 3aYCTaBJ.1TJ.1 YCJIOBJba-Balle YMa, rena, cpua. Csora YCJIOBJbaBalba, y BJ.1p;y eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr CMena, ce OCllO-6a1)aMo, y OP;CyCTBy aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1, a CBOM nerery QJ.1HJ.1MOaajsehe Ilotipo, HeYCJIOBJbaBajynJ.1 ra, He TOBapenJ.1 TOHe, BJIaCTJ.1TOr, eMOU;J.10HaJIHOr cxeha y lbera.He YCJIOBJbaBajyhJ.1 CBOjy p;eu;y J.1MJ.1ce spahasro CBOMe J.13BOpy. (He YCJIOBJbaBa-TJ.1 He 3HaQJ.1 p;orrYCTJ.1TJ.1 p;eTeTY na pap;J.1 lIITa xohe, crnapajyhx xaoc OKO ce6e,noaanzsaxr.)

Aa 6J.1 CMO TO yqJ.1HJ.1llJ.1ca naxohosr, rpetia na 3HaMO IlITa ce 36J.1Jba neurana yHy-Tap Hac, yHyTap HalIlJ.1X HajMJ.1llJ.1jJ.1X,yrrorpedosi rrJIJ.111IaHe rrpJ.1Hyp;e, xojy cy rrpJ.1-XBaTJ.1JIJ.1caBpeMeHJ.1 pOp;l1TeJbJ.1, yaonehn ce6e J.1nere, QeCTO, y orpoMHy peamryrrpJ.1HYP;y, y HaCJ.1Jbe CBJ.1X06JIJ.1Ka, xao rrOCJIep;J.1U;y rrJIJ.111IaHJ.1X.

Ha fbeH HaqMH, KOHTP01IMlJlytm nere npe3alJlTMnMBafbeM, MajKa ry6M orposr,Hy eaeprnjy, xoja he rra xpajy casro fbOj lJlTeTMTJ.1.CTPMU;je CTPMU;,KpB HMje aona,Mozena je M CTPMU;YlJlao y allKOXOllM3aMjep je 6MO y p;eTMfbCTBYrrpeaaurrahn.BaH op; csoje MajKe. Haj60lbM nyT y ocnofiaharsy jaxax CTaBOBa, xao 06llMKa caMO-npaayne, jecre npI1MeHa craapanaxxor aacrnrrarsa y CBOjOjHOBOjnOpOp;MU;I1.AKOOTKllOHMMO"rrllMlJlaHe" y BacrrMTafbY csoje neue, OHMHMKap;aaehe I1MaTI1norpeey3a allKOXOllOM,p;porOM, xao nOTpe60M on caaosaoopasa, npeMa TOMe fbl1Ma neherrpeTI1TI1 onaCHOCT on 6l1llO xojer nexeaor I1lll1 CTBapHor azrxoxoznrsapa y fbI1XO-BOMOKpY)l(efbY. Bahe TO cjajHl1lbyp;l1, oCll060~eHI1 HarreTOCTI1, rra TI1Me ocnotio.~eHI1I1 I1CKpl1BlbeHenorpetie na HarreTOCT yMl1pyjy allKOXOllOM.Craapajyha TaKBeYClloBe CBOjOj p;eU;M11MI1 ce cnoaraao ocaotiahasro csoje caaonpnayne, CBOjl1Xorpanasasajyhax CTaBOBa.

MCTI1HCKOpa3yclloBlbaBafbe Majql1HOr YMa on CTaBa KOjI1je ypesaa y fbeHYnoncsecr, )l(eCTOKOMrrpI1Hyp;oM, noxehe onor TpeHyTKa xana OHa npl1XBaTI1 sac-mrrarse 6e3 Ka3He, 6e3 Harpap;e, 6e3 npeaaurrnhaaaa,a, 6e3 Bep6alll13Ma 116e3snoynorpetie MMI1TaTOpCKoryMa. Iben yM je isena MajKa ycnonana CBOjI1Mycno-BlbeHMMYMOM11TaKO ce CTaB npeaocno I1I1MI1Tl1paO113reaepannje y renepauajy,3a CTBapallaqKY lll1qHOCT, sa fbeHY neuy aehe Ba)l(I1TI1ayTOpl1TapHa 113peKa "C KI1MCI1,TaKaB CI1".Craapanaxxa lIMqHOCT je uena, I13BOpHa 11He Ylla3l1llaKO y MMI1TI1-pafbe OHI1Xca Kojl1Ma je. HanpOTI1B, aYTOpl1TapHM he no-tern na rezce na nOCTaHYHallI1K craapanaxxoj llI1QHOCTI1,a CTBapallaqKe lll1QHOCTMhe nOMaraTI1 aYTOpl1-TapHMM p;a 113I1~yaa npaBI1 nyT.

M rropep; rora lJlTOje y Tpap;I1U;I10HallHoj nOpOp;MU;I16MllO CPl13l1QKOrxaxcrsaaa-isa, QOBeKHl1je TaKO QeCTOyrrap;ao y rnes, Hl1je QeCTOofionesao, Hl1je 6l1llO .rozor-KOeMOU;110HallHI1X11MeHTallHI1X rropeuehaja, KOllMKO I1Xnanac I1Ma. 3alJlTo? 3aTolJlTO je I1MaO P;OBOlbHOBpeMeHa 11npocropa na OP;llyql1 na yHarrpep; peQeHa npa-Bl1lla nourryje, I1lll1 p;a l1X CBeCHO KPlJlI1. EMOU;l1jecy ce naxure spahane 113BOPYjep Hl1je nocrojana "rrlll1lJlaHa" rrpl1Hyp;a xoja je nanac CI1CTeMaTCKa,6e3 rrayse.spno npl1MaMlbl1Ba I1llaKO npncrajeao na fby. CllaTKO HaM je narpabaaaa,e, npe-aaurrnhnnan.e, na npMMep, Map;a CMOnerne p;y60KO He3ap;OBOlbHI1 lJlTO TO Mopana pap;I1MO, I1lll1lJlTO TO HeKO 06aBlba YMeCTOHac. Ilonaxo, aznr Cl1rypHO nocraje-MO 3aTOQeHI1U;11.rrmnnaaax" KOjl1Hac xao cannea rajraa nase, ana HaM je 11raj-TaH npar, jep je CBI1lleH.

Cnozsa, MO)l(p;a Y)l(I1BaMO, 113HyTpa rraxao, na eMOU;110HallHOM,CPl13l1QKOM11MeHTallHOM nllaHy. CaMO je mrratse TpeHyTKa KO he xana CTl1nl1 P;O op;pe~eHorCMpTHor rpexa. Iaes, rtoxnena, nersocr rena, rrpO)l(p;plbI1BOCT,HeCBeCHOCT,3aBI1CT,naxc, yHMHl1ja, oryheaocr on rena M nyxa, cexcyarnre p;eBMjaU;l1je,6llYP;, ana HaMe-pa. Caspesreaa nnnuraaa neua Ben P;O cenxre rOp;I1He )l(I1BOTa I1Majy rOTOBO CBe

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CMpTHe rpexose y ce611 11)l(I1Be pyKoBO~eHI1 fbl1Ma. CaBpeMeHI1 pOp;I1Telb, caBpe-MeHI1BaCrrI1TaQ, y He3HafbY rrpaBI1 HeBI1~eHy lJlTeTY nOTOMU;I1Ma,P;PYlJlTBY,uerroj

rrllaHeTM.CBe eMOU;110HallHenenajauaje, xao nocnennuy rrpMHyp;e MO)l(eMOYCMepI1TMaa

ce6e I1lll1na uexor no ce6e. Crpanajy 11OHI1rropep; Hac, alll1 ce nanexo Bene pa3apa-l-bep;ora1)a Y HaMa CaMI1Ma, HaMa KOjl1BPlJlI1MOrrpMHyp;y. Y CBa Tpl1 cay-raja: xanaCMO)l(pTBa Ty~e npaayne, xana CMOHaCl1llHI1U;11Hap; p;pyrl1M I1lll1 xana BPlJll1MOHaCl1lbe Hap; C060M, crpanajy jerpa 11)l(YQ, aa noxerax. ITa)l(lbl1BI1M rrocMaTpa-lbeM lleMe MO)l(e ce aanasrrra p;a je 11MeHTallHI1 HI1BO,y OBOMcnyxajy, ITOKPET,AKUMJA, TaKO~e noxpasen eMOU;l1joMlbyTH>e. 3p;paBa lbYTH>aje p;o6pa, jep HallyM rroxpehe na snpany axnnjy, aa oparmranaa rrpl1CTyn csaxoj )l(I1BOTHOjCI1Tya-l\l1jl1, amr aKOje lbYTH>anpejaxa, TaKBa lbYTlba HI1Ka.n;aHe MO)l(e113Hep;p11TI1panocr,HI1TI1naaeray 110pl1rl1HallHY axnnjy.

Illra rypa QOBeKay opKaHCKY, aesnpasy, naronouncy lbYTH>Y,y rHeB? Oner npn-Hy.n;a, 6Mlla sepoamsa I1lll1 cpI13I1QKa,KaKBY nosnaje Tpa.n;I1U;110HallHanopomma,I1lll1 "rrlll1lJlaHa ", caapeveaa nopo.n;l1l\a. Kon KllaCI1QHe rrpl1Hyp;e pearyjeao OTBO-peHoM lbYTH>OM,6ecoM, BI1KaH>eM,yp;apaH>eM. Onyja npohe, CMI1PI1MOce 11nexa-KOMO)l(eMOy HOBOj aKl\l1jl1 CTMllI1no panocrn.

Kana je 6llara npI1Hy.n;a, nmnuaaa npI1Hyp;a, y rrI1TaH>Y,xana nere xaxcisaaa-Te o.n;y3MMajynl1 My OHOQI1MeCTe MI1Clll1lll1.n;ara aarpamrre, oana nere nOTMCKY-je 6ec, npaaehn ce .n;aje CBe y pep;y, npernapajyhn ce na he ce 6p30 rrOnpaBI1TJ.1,aapan .n;o6I1jaH>aHarpa.n;e. TaKaB CaKpl1BeHI1 6ec, nenyje pa30pHo na jerpy 11)l(yq113aTO Hl1je Qy.n;o.n;acaM y npaKCI1 I1Malla MallI1llaHa on urecr rOp;I1Ha ca KaMeHOMY)l(yqI1· Caxo caM rrOMI1Clll1lla: "bo)l(e, KOllMKO llI1 je nyTa sa urecr ronana, osajMallMllIa I1MaOnacnojea CTpax na, nOTI1CHYTOM6ecy. Crpax, .n;aHe 113ry6I1 Harpa-.n;y,116ec jep iseroaa rroxnerma CBeCTHe npncraje aa ry6I1TaK.

Carra aac npenyurrasr caaootipasosaay. Aaanasapajre KPY)l(HI1U;y,rro KPY)l(HI1-ll;y, .n;o6l1neTe )l(elbeHe onrosope. "ITlll1llIaHI1" KpI1Be 113BOpHeeMOl\l1je, a eMOll;l1jep;albe Kpl1Be CBe OCTallO. 3aTo ce 11xaxce: 80% .n;o6pa I1lll1 ana nonoce esronaje, CBeOCTallo y xpexpaisy .n;o6pa 11ana yxecreyje ca 20%. Ilpenopyxyjea BaM .n;aHay-QI1Te HanaMeT urra I13lla3I1 113csaxor 113BOpa, 113CBaKe ooojene KpY)l(HMll;e, xaollITO CTe HaYQl1llI1na 113seneae KpY)l(HI1u;e 113lla311113BOpHa esiouaja zsyrise, aaTelIeCHOMHI1BOYTO cy jerpa 11)l(YQ, a na MeHTalIHOM HI1BOYTO je 113BOpHaQOBe-KOBa rroTpe6a aa 3~paBOM aKll;l1joM xoja P;OHOCI1Opl1rI1HallHOCT, craapanaurrso,Kao HellITO csojcrneao yMy KOjl1je y cpu;y. Kana je rrpl1Hyp;a jaxa lbYTfba he Bpe-MeHOMrrpepaCTI1 y rues. Ilaxne, 6e3 rrpl1Hyp;e y Op;HOCI1MaI1MaMOpaj, ca npsnry-AOMY OAHocI1Ma, I1MaMOnaxao.

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Kaga ce YM cuyctu« y cpue, Ibytiae u Ilotipoiiu:Boge y Ceecnociu

BeKoBHa rexosa csaxor xoaexa, nocetiao BepHHKa je 6HlIa H OCTalIa,LIaCBOjyM cny-CTey cpue, KaKO He 6H 6HlIH pacnerrzsemr H3Me~y YMa H cpu;a. YM ce MO)KecnYCTH-TH y cpu;e casto aKO qOBeK Ha,LIqOBeKOM, Ha,LIC060M YKHHe pealIHy H "nJIHllIaHy"npHHy,LIy. Ilaaac Ka,LIaje HaYKa TOlIHKO Hanpe,LIOBaJIa ,LIOKa3aHoje na ce H eM0U;11-je aanase y YMY, Y M03ry. To je Malbe Ba)KHO rne ce IlITa, HalIa3H, amr je 6HTHO ,LIapaU;Ho rro-nnse na ",LI11Blba",,LIaKOHTpolIMllie xosexa, YKOlIHKO qOBeK HHje y cTalbY,LIaxapaonasyje eMOU;11je.

XapMoHM30BaTH ejrouaje 3HaqH 6HTH y cTalbY EMOIJ;J10HAJIHE YfHTEJIYf-fEHUYfJE. Haj3,L1paBHjH H HajnpHpO,LIHMjH nyT KOjM BO,LIM,LIOpacra eMOU;MOHalIHeHHTelIHreHU;Hje, xojy TaKO~e, xao KlIMU;y, ,LIOHOC11MOpobersea, ,LIOeMOU;HOHalI-He xapaoanje je KOMyHMKaU;11jalby,LI11y O,LICyCTBy.rrmnuane" 11pearme np11Hy-,LIe.Ilanac HHje H11KaKBa rajna ,LIanocroje 6pojHe TeXHMKe, xao 11Me,LIMKaMeHTHsa CM11p11BalbeYMa, alIM je non 3HaKOM mrrarsa Ky,LIaraj nyT BO,LI1111IlITa, Ka,LIacerrpexxne ca TeXHMKaMa 11n11lIYJIaMa. TexHHKe cy cMrypHo O,LIBeJIHKe nosroh« ,LIa6p30 M e<pHKaCHo xcnpasaao HCKpHBlbeHe, sarnaazseae HlIH nOTHcHYTe eMoU;H-je, xao nocnemnry "nlIHllIaHMX", alI11 ,LIalbHnyT y crarse xoje rpajao jaxa eMOU;110-HalIHY MHTeJI11reHU;Hjyje CBaKaKO )KHBOT M KOMyH11KaU;11ja6e3 aYTopHTapHOCTH.

Illra 3Haq11 Ka,LIaHeKOMe xaxcere: .Baure exrouaje rpetia ,LIacy y xapvonaja"CB11O,LIMaxnOMHClIe ,LIaje TO HeKO craise norrryaor MMpa. KlI11HU;11qeCTO, aa CBeIlITO HX HepBHpa Ka)KY "McKylI11paj". AJIM TO HHje TO. To BO,LIHy neaamrrepecosa-HOCTaa )KHBOT, aa Haj61I11)Ke,TO BO,LI11Y HeO,LIrOBOpHOCT,y paBHO,LIYIlIHOCT.)KHBOTH naunr O,LIHOCH,Ma KOlIHKO y nOpO,LIHU;H6111I11y YClIOBMMa 6e3 aYTopHTapHOCTH,He 11CKlbyqyjy noxaaxsarse 3allITHTHMX eMoU;Hja. ITp11pO,LIHOje ,LIace pO,LIHTelb 11HalbYTH, YKOlI11KO,LIeTeaeh HeKOlIMKO nyTa npaBH MCTY rpellIKY, HaMepHO HlIHcnyxajao, ,LIeTeje nnax ,LIeTe,a pO,LIHTelbje cavo qOBeK, carxan O,LIrrpeocern.nsoreMOU;HOHalIHor npe,LI11Ba.

BplIO qeCTO MallO ,LIeTepearyje HaCMlIHO,y,LIapaponxrezsa, jep HeMa cnOC06HOCT,LIajacao 11CKa)KeIlITa ra MyqI1. ITp11pO,LIHOje, ,LIapO,LIMTelbMCKa)Ke lbYTlbY, jep raje ynapan 3a601Ieo. Ta,LIa,,LIOKje "Bpyhe", nehere ,LIp)KaTMseprianae np11,L1HKeKaKOHHje neno y,LIapHT11MaMY, seh here ra 6p30 3aYCTaBHTH, lbYTHTO ra O,LIryPHyBIlIH,OTMh11O,LIisera, ,LIace CMHp11TeHJIH 3aMOlIHTe ,LIeTe,LIace y,LIalbH ,LIa6H ce CMHPH-1I0. AKO TO 6y,LIy BallI11 npeTXO,LIHH,LIOrOBOpHKaKO pearosarn Ka,LIaeMoU;Hje"lIY,LIy-jy", OH,LIa,LIeTeaehe saute ynarsasaa,e ,LIO)KMBeTHxao 0,LI6aU;11Balbe,xao rrpnnyny-TeK nOIliTO ce ,LIeTeCMHPH, a CMMpMTe ce H BH, MO)KeMOpa30TKpHTH npaBH Y3POK

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p;eTeTOBor noaauraisa. MO)K,LIahexro y qy,LIy OTKpHTH ,LIaHaM ,LIeTespaha HeIlITO, O,LInpe TpH ,LIaHa,Ka,LIaje 6HO y orpoMHoM 6ecy, jep HHCMO,LI03BOlIHlIH,LIaCKHHe ,LIYKC,He nOIlITyjyhH iseroa npeocerzsna TepMoperYlIaU;HOHH CHCTeM.KOlIHKO nyTa caxry HacTyny sanynra M HeMoryhHoCTH ,LIa6p30 CKHHeM neo onehe rrofiecnena, B11K-HyBIllH 6e3pa31I0)KHO na cynpyra, KOjH ce naurao y 61IH3MHH M Y qy,LIy.

qOBeK je eMOU;HOHalIHO npeoceTlbMBO 6Hhe. ,JJ;a6M CMOra yn03HalIH norpeti-HO HaM je aaaisa H lby6aBH. lby6aBM, rrocetino. ,JJ;aCMO 36Mlba y CTalbY lby6aB11Ka3yjy Hallie npaBe O,LIlIYKe,rrpase peaxnnje, cnoc06HOCT 6p30r spaharsa nOlIy-p;eJIe eMoU;Hje, H3BOpy. ITpHpO,LIHOje M HopMalIHO nOKa3aTI![ crarse CBOjMXM3BOp-

HHX eMoU;Hja, anx Ka3HH M narpanx MeCTa HeMa.CaCBHM je HopMalIHO ,LIa,LIeTey~e y 6pMry, aKO je ,LI06MJIO He,LIOBolbHYoueay,

EpHra xao 3allITMTHa estouaja he My rroaohn ,LIanoxae smne H KBalIMTeTHHje ,LIayqH. Ilpexo je nOTpe6HO,LIa ,LIeTey~e y Tyry Ka,LIaM3ry6H BOlbeHY 6aKy HJIM ,LIeKy.CBe TO He OMeTa eMOU;HOHalIHY xapaoanjy, YKOlIMKO je npOTOK eMoU;MjaMa ,LIony-IlITeH, YKOlIHKO ce esrouaje He naczrojasajy, He nOT11CKyjy, He sarnaazsyjy.

3aMHCJIHTe, na IlITa 6M lIHqHJIO sante ,LIeTeaKO 6H CTe ra nenpecrano rrpesa-IllTHhHBalIH O,LIryre. 6pHre, CTpaxa, lbYTlbe, na H 6eca. To 6H 3HaqHlIO,LIa CTeyllilIHY rrpeaaurrahasaa,e ,LIeTeTaO,LIpeanaor )KHBOTa, O,LInorpetia iseroaor H3BopHor6Hha, ,LIapearyje a,LIeKBaTHOH npHpO,LIHO na pealIHy caryaunjy, Ilorrycrnre ,LIeTe-Ty ,LIaca ryroa HcnpaTM 6aKy aa BeqHH nYT. To HHje TpayMa. CMpT je npHpO,LIHHnparanau )KMBOTa.

AlIH heao CHryPHO nOKa3aTH,LIa CMOHe3HaJIHu;e aKO ,LIeTeTY,T060)Ke, H3 lby6a-B11,,LIOnYIliTaMo ,LIa6ecHM, crpaxyje, ryryje, ceneha npe,LIBMpTyelIHHM, arpecxaaax11rpHu;aMa, HJI11npen IlInaHCKHM cepajaaa, no HeKOlIHKO earn ,LIHeBHO.He 3a60-pamoao ,LIaBHpTyelIHe enouaje HMajy orpoany pasapajyhy cnary, ,LIalIeKOjaxy O,LIeMoU;Hja Koj11Ma Hea,LIeKBaTHOpearyjerao aa CTBapHOCT.

Ka,LIaje CBe npHpO,LIHO, Ka,LIa,LIOnycTHMo eMoU;HjaMa ,LIanpOTHqy OH,LIace' 6p30BpahaMo pa,LIOCTH,na KOjOj He rpetia HHCHCTMpaT11jep H aacnojeaa pa,LIOCT,non-CT11u;aHan0311THBHHM YCJIOBlbaBalbeM, ,LIOHOCH6pojHe np061IeMe. IIlTa MHClIMTeaKO ,LIeTey TOKY ,LIaHa,LI06Hje 6ap TpH HrpaqKHu;e, nornena 6ap TpH upraha, earn-Ma ra 3a6aBlbaTe jep OH HeMa pa,LIOCTHaKO OCTaHe casr, ,LIaJIH he reno MohH ,LIaOTpn11 Ty orpcsnry KOlIHqMHY pa,LIOCTHy xojy nenpecraao noranare saure ,LIeTe.EMOU;11japanocrn 6M nocrana je,LIHHa MaHH<peCTHa eMoU;Hja. ,JJ;OIlIJIO6H ,LIorsenorHacnojaBalba, amr na lbOj 6H ce 6p30 nacnojao cTpax, 360r ry6HTKa ce6e, xao nernr-He. CTpax je onpasnan jep ce sarnasana eMoU;Hja pa,LIOCTH,CTpax jep eMoU;Hje HeKPY)Ke, crpax O,LIry6MTKa narpane, O,LIry6HTKa aac, xao HeYMopHor aatiaarsaxa. To611,LIoHeno, YKOlIHKO rtorpaje, 6pojHe KOMnlIHKaU;Hje na eMOU;HOHalIHOM, <pH3Hq-KOM, MeHTanHoM, cOU;HjalIHoM HHBOy.

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CBe esrouaje xoje HMCY MMalIe npOTOK, ce nOTMCKyjy M onaane p,MpMryjy noaa-

lbeM saurer nerera, xoje BaM 3arOp'laBa )f(MBOT, a BM ce HeBMHO rnrrare: "lllTa

je, a CBe caM yqMHMO p,a MMa CBe, casro na He narn, na Y)f(MBa."

o CBMM OBMM np061IeMMMa He passonuzsare, aKO yhere y CB. Tana ce )f(MBOT

!Mja rrpaponno, cnOHTaHO. 3awTo 6M 6MlIO crpaumo p;a pop;MTelb BMKHe, MO)f(p;a

tzsecne nere, aKO cy ce HaWlIM y OKOlIHOCTMMa y KojeM je )f(MBOT nerery 6MO

'O)f(eH. Taj CTpax je 3aWTMTHM'IKM M pop;MTelb je pearoBao cnonrano. CaBpeMeHM

~MTelb He nenyje HM 3aWTMTHM'IKM, HM cnOHTaHO jep MMa CTpax on saxononasna,

iax na he ra nere npMjaBMTM. CBe je TO aa WTeTY ponarersa, nerera M npyurrna.

Kana noponaua y~e y crsapanasxo aacrnrrarse ponarezsa he jour nyro pearosa-

BMKalbeM M nzsecxaisexr, jep je TaKBa peaxun]a BeKOBMMa 6MlIa ycabasana y yM

rOpMTapHOr 'IOBeKa. OBaKBMM npMpop;HMM peaxuajana mrxana nehexo rpajao

pyWMTM xapaonnjy HM nerera HM ponarersa, jep CBM ocehasro lIenOTY npoae-

y nopomnnr, YlIaCKOM y crsaparrasxo sacmrran,e. CBM C panourhy oxexyjeao

ajay npoMeHY CBeCTM, a crnapanaxxa CBeCT He norpetiyje nzsecxarse, apeharse.

'BapalIa'lKa lIM'IHOCT je onnyxna, jacaa, 'IBpCTa, HMKap;a He M3HeBepM nere, alIM

M 61Iara, norrycrzsasa, xana OHO na 'IeMY MHCMCTMpa nere, He yrpO)f(aBa HM'IM-

MHTepece, )f(MBOT, 3p;paBlbe. Crsapanasnor pop;MTelb 3Ha on KOlIMKe je Ba)f(HO-

M BlIaCTMTO MCKYCTBOp;eTeTa, na KojeM nere TOlIMKO MHCMCTMpa, nOBpeMeHO.

Xapsronaja y noponaua ce nanac yfipaaao pyWM, y BpeMeHY xana 3aKOHM onpe-

'jy rronamarse pomrrezsa, xana je pop;MTelb 24 xaca y CTPAXY, mrrajyha ce WTa

!6MTM aKO BMKHe, M3rpp;M, nrsecne, MlIM je y CTpaxy sa ce6e, aa csor napraepa,

:0 nonaaxae, aKO ce He MCKOHTpOlIMwe, rra M3 Tor CTpaxa npOM3MlIa3e aenpe-

'aHM cYK06M. Y OCHOBMcTpax on 3aKOHa M Ka3HM, xoje je nponncano p;eMOKpaT-

:0 P;PYWTBO, 061IMK )f(eCTOKe npMHyp;e p;pYWTBa Hap; nopop;M~OM, a ra npnayna

)HOCM nOTnyHO nopeaeheae nOpOp;M'IHe omroce,

Onpasnaao CMO y HenpeCTaHOM BMpTyelIHoM cTpaxy on MorynHocTM na ce

arnr p;MKTaTOp nocern M npxjaaa Hac aa COCrenedio», npornaCMBWM Hac HaCMlI-

M~nMa. A oana cnene nnmuaae Ka3He saxoaonaaana, a HOB~a MMaMO TaKO MallO.

[OBa~ HaM rpefia na, J.13Me~y OCTalIOr, norxyrrrsyjeao MalIor ~apa.

Crpaxyjy PO,Il;I1TEJhli1 jep MX P;PYWTBO MO)f(e npornacnrn Henop;06HMM M

p;Y3eTM J.1Mnere. 360r cnera rora caBpeMeHa nopop;M~a ry6J.1 cnOHTaHOCT, npM-

OP;HOCT,ynana y CBe ja'lM CTpax jep He MO)f(e na orxpnje na "rrlIMWaHJ.1" p;MpJ.1ryjy

>MXOBJ.1M)f(J.1BOTMMaM none J.1Xy CBe Bene oryherse M y TOTalIHM ry6MTaK eMO-

;MOHalIHe XapMOHJ.1je, M eMO~J.10HalIHe MHTelIMreH~Mje. Crpax rocnop,apM HaWMM

mBOTMMa, a nocefino )f(J.1BOTMManaure neue: crpaxyjy aKO He ypane sanaro, jep

rehe P;06MTM Harpap,y, crpaxyjy on HeYKOCTM jep MX HeKO CTalIHO npesaurrahyje.

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CTpaxyjy jep He MOry na OCTBape ce6e M CBOj norenuajan, crpaxyjy on ry6J.1TKa

ce6e, MMMTMpajynJ.1 p;pyre, crpaxyjy on 601IeCTM.

pop;MTelbM crpaxyjy on ry6MTKa ersacreaunje, crpaxyjy on HeM3BeCHe 6yp;yn-

HOCTM, crpaxyjy sa nOTOMCTBO, crpaxyjy on casrohe, on lIa)f(HMX J.1HcpopMa~Mja

J.1MaHMrrylIa~Mje Mep;Mja, on 601IeCHt-lX YMoBa, KOjJ.1HaM M3 natioparopxja walbY

601IeCTJ.1M rrpecKyrre lIeKOBe, jep;HoM pexjy caBpeMeHM 'IOBeK MMa orpoaan crpax

on BlIaCTJ.1TOrM ryber CTpaxa. CBM TM CTpaxOBM, HapO'lJ.1TO OHM nOTMCHYTM, CTBa-

pajy orpoMHy HarreTOCT, xoja ce MaHJ.1cpecTyje HaCJ.1lbeMCBMX061IMKa. 3anaMTMTe:

HeMa xacnzsa aKO y rr03ap;MHM HeMa CTpaxa, 6MlIO xoje BpCTe. >KMBOT caapesre-

aor 'IOBeKa OMe~eH je CTpaXOBJ.1Ma M HaCMlbeM, orpOMHMM CTpaxOM on )f(MBOTa

6e3 pap;OCTM, 6e3 3ap;OBOlbCTBa J.1MJ.1pa yHyTpaWlber. JIerro pexe BelIMKM mrcau

Meura CelIJ.1MOBMfl: "Eoj ce OBHa, 60j ce rOBHa M npohe TJ.1)f(MBOT".

CaBpeMeHM 'IOBeK je yrpozcea, xao HJ.1Kap;aP;Ocana. Crpax je nacnojea na CBa-

KOj eMo~Mjt1. JhyTJ.1 CMO M3 CTpaxa, pap;OCHM y3 crpax, 6PJ.1)f(HMon CTpaxa, TY)f(HJ.1

jep CMO y crpaxy ry6J.1TKa ce6e, M y crpaxy CMO jep CMO M3ry6J.11IJ.1ce6e, cnoje

M3BOPHO 6Mne.

li1Ma lIM nanac ,lJ;06poTe, Jhy6aBJ.1 M YHYTpaWlber Mapa? Marro, MlIJ.1HM MallO.

J1Ma MX casro y CHOBMMa, y rrecaaxa, y pe'lMMa M caao y pe'lMMa. li1 3aTO je CTBa-

palIa'lKO nacmrraise nex, KOjJ.1Mce oClI06a~aMO crpaxosa M YlIa3MMO y Jbytiaa.

J1cTMHa xojy CBaKO HOCMy ce6M, xao norpetiy p;a ce He 60jJ.1MO, ocraje xao npasna

cppa3a, P;OK rpajy nlIMWaHJ.1 y onaocxaa lbYP;J.1.

Bpeaeaosr he cTBapalIa'lKM pomrrezs noxern crrOHTaHO p;a pearyje, M3 paBHJ.1

'IOBe'lHe CBeCTJ.1,TaKO na he peaxuaje ponarezsa M neue 6MTM rroTnyHo npnponae,

6e3 MKaKBJ.1Xnocnenaua, rro eMO~J.10HalIHy xapxoanjy uene rroponaue, Y raxaoj

rropop;M~M HMKOMe nehe rraCTJ.1aa nasrer na nexora npajaan, ~J.1HKapH, 0p;6a~M.

)KMBOT he panourhy, a He CTpaxOM 6MTM rrpennaszsea.

Og U380pHe JlCelbe U sqpaee eonie, go 6eJICelbHOCWu U6e380lbHOCWU

I-IMje na onsrer p;a BaM CKpeHeM rra)f(lbY na nocrojaise YHYTPAIllIhli1X 3AKOHA,

Y HaMa, KOjJ.1CPYHK~MOHJ.1WYna KOCMM'IKMM npJ.1H~MnMMa. JhYP;MOBe 3aKOHe P;OHO-

ce na caer, xao p;ap EO)f(MjJ.1.Haure M3BopHe eMo~Mje, HaWJ.1opraHM, Haw YM, pap;e

caBpWeHO, aaxsarsyjyha OBMM3aKOHMMa, xana MXHMWTa He OMeTa na cpyHK~MOHM-

lUy, Kap;a HeMa aYTopMTapHOCTJ.1 'IOBeKa Hap; 'IOBeKOM MlIJ.1cnozsaunsnx, npMpop;-lilix ClilIa, KojMMa CMO nenpecraao M31I0)f(eHM.

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CBe nosrazce CBeMY,yHYTap HaC CaMI1X.Hesra ycnosrsaaarsa, HeMa npesaurru.Il1Balba, HeMa I1MI1Tl1palba, CBaKI1 naur AelIl1h je caspureacrno no ce611. Taxo 6t1'CTalIO, jep ce TaKBI1 pahasro, YKOlIl1KOHac seh Y YTpo611 Maj'll1Hoj HI1CYHa'lelIt1,t onna "nlIl1rnaHOM" 11pealIHOM npl1HYAoM CBe 1131IOMl1MOy Harnl1M nOTOMQI1Ma,mer ce rrarajyha rne CMOnorpeunorx.

He rpetia 'IOBeK na rrosaaje OBY HayKy 6ecnpeKopHo. J1 na HI1IlITa He 3Ha 07HyTpaIlIlbl1M 3aKOHI1Ma, 3Ha, xao nanx, jep TO 11oceha, Aa eaeprnja )Kelbe, MOpa)I1TI1y paBHOTe)K11 ca eneprxjoa nozse, (nornenajre QPBeHY 11CHBy KPY)KHI1QY).\KO neurro )KelIl1M Mopa Aa I1MaM 11jaxy BOlbYAa AOrora Ao~eM. Ha)KalIOCT, nOArTl1QajeM aenpecranor n03l1Tl1BHOr ycnoazsanarsa, )Kelba eHopMHo napacra, CBeto CMpTHor rpexa noxnerre. JIorl1'1HO je Aa napacra 11sozsa, na ApyroM AelIY KlIaQ-<alII1Qe, sozsa ce rpanopopscnue y TBpAornaBocT. Bes jaxe TBpAornaBOCTI1 He 611.e Morao nOCTaBlbeHI1 3aAaTaK aaotiahn, jep ce HI1 jenaa nOCTaBlbeHI1 "nmuua-:m" 3aAaTaK He otiasrsa CJby6aBlby. Tspnornasourhy I1AeMOYBeK nporns ce6e 11wyrl1x. Iloxnena HapaCTa, pOAI1Telb oceha Aa noxnena yrpO)KaBa rseroso nere 11'hera, npeocraje My na Bep6alI113MOM: "Hl1je rreno, IlITO CTalIHO neurro Tpa)KI1IlI",ia'll1HI1 jour sehy rpelliKy. ,1J;eTeKpl1Bl1113BOPHYBOlbYYTBpAornaBOCT. TOM nere-ry nehe 6l1Tl1 cTpaHo na YKpaAe, na naxce, na aac I1CQpnlbyje, I1HCHCTl1pajyhl1 CaTI1-\1a aa CBOjOj)Kelbl1, ytiehyjyh« aac na CTe BI1AY)KHI1Aa My CBe )Kelbe peannsyjere.KaKO nere paCTe, »cezse yspacrajy, neisocr TaKO~e. Arpecrrjoxr he sac HaTepaTI1 naMy CBaKOAHeBHOnonyrsasare npa3HI1HY, y xojoj, YMeCTOJby6aBI1, cnazce MaTepl1-ianae CTBapl1 11AYXOBHOcsrehe.

Y YClIOBI1Ma6e3 aYTopI1TapHOCTI1, 113BOpHe)Kelbe 611YBeK6111Ienpaheae 113BOp-HOMBOlbOM, a sozsa ce peanasyje panon, 3HalbeM, TaKO na y YClIOBI1Ma6e3 ayro-pl1TapHOCTI1 nere I1Ma »cezsy, I1Ma 11BOlbY Aa :>KelbYOCTBapl1 paAoM, BlIaCTI1TI1Mrpynoa, I1Ma anaise KaKO na TO ypaAI1 11xana CBe 3aBpIlIl1 ocraje My HaTalIO)KeHaMYAPOCT,xao nOClIeAI1Qa caMopaAa. Jby6aB je ra] yHyTpaIlIlbl1 noxperax, ra yHy-rpaunsa MOTI1BaQl1ja. J1 "KlIaQKalIl1Qa na KOjOj cy sozsa 11:>Kelbaje y paBHOTe)KI1".

Me~YTI1M, CBe IlITO eHopMHO HapaCTa, a HapaCTa xana cy "nil I1IlIaH11" npara-OQI1y aacrnrran.y, nonYT 6alIoHa he 11nyhx, KaA - TaA. JeAHa BpCTa "nyQalba"he YBeCTI1nere y arpecnjy, na here MO)KAaAo6l1Tl1 116aTl1He aKO no-mere na Myycxpahyjere xcerse. Ilpyra BpCTa nYQalba, YHYTpallilba, BOAI1Y OACYCTBO)Kelbe, y0ACYCTBOCMI1ClIa)KI1BOTa,y nenpecajy, na xpajy 11y CYI1QI1A.KaKO here 3HaTl1 Aace rrparrpexra OBO31IeXYAO"nYQalbe"?

IlpBI1 3HaQl1 6l1he: "MeHI1 je AocaAHO, CBe je CMOPHO, HeMoj TO BI1IlIe na MJ.1xyrryjeui, He mrrepecyje Me uncona, 1131IaCQI1,ApyrnTBo, na 'IaK HI1 KOMnjYTep.".nOTOM npl1MeTI1Te na nere HeMa paAOCTI1. El1lIO urra na My xyrurre, 111I11na Myyql1HI1Te, nocraje HeBa:>KHO.Ilpnponna nOClIep;I1Qa nap;a xcerse je nap; sorse, xoja

MYje, y craisy noxnene 6111Ia11Te KaKO rrorpetiaa, na 06aBl1 nOCTaBlbeHI1 3aAaTaK,KaKO6u p;o6uo otiehairy HarpaAY. ry6ehl1 :>KelbYnere nosxrse na ry61111 BOlbY,lIaKOop;yCTaje on axunje xoja 611 My Morna AOHeTI1 HarpaAY, xojy nere cana He Tpa:>Kl1.

Tap;a pOAI1Telb 3a6pl1HyTO xoacraryje Aa je nere He3al1HTepeCOBaHO aa paA, aayqelbe, He )KelIl1 HI1 MaTepl1jalIHe CTBapl1, pOAI1Telb BI1IlIe He 3Ha 'II1Me 611 Moraop;a ra MOTI1BI1IlIe. CBI1 cy CpehHI1 YKOlIl1KOrrponahy neurro HOBO na TP)KI1IlITYqUMe 611 MOTUBUCalIl1nere aa paA, na ofianese, 'II1Me 611 My nOKpeHYlIU paAOCT.Tap;a 6upajy cnozsaunsa cpencraa KOjl1M 611 p;OAaTHO BpaTl1lIl1 AeTeTY )KelbY 11BOlby. HeKpI1TU'IKI1 ycnajajy CBe IlITO Tp)KI1IlITe HYAI1.Cnyurajy casere nporpare-pa: "Ap;peHalIuHoM nporxs npore, npOTUB nerrpecnje", eKCTpeMHI1 cnOpTOBI1 cy"npaBa craap", -ryjy, 3a6opaBlbajy, 11jeAHI1 11p;pyru p;a nocne excrpesraor cnop-ra, nocne eKCTpeMHe p;pa)K11 ayTOpl1TapHU yM Tpa)K11 CBe jaxy 11jaxy npaxc. Kanace p;pa)K11UCQpny, p;pora na xpajy xexa, xao 1131Ia3113osor He3aHl1Mlbl1BOr CBeTa,MI1ClIUsaure nere. POp;I1Telb ce orrer HeBI1HOrnrra: "lliTa 611, a CBe casr My nao",

Tpetiazro je casro OTKlIOHI1TI1n03UTl1BHO ycnosrsaaaa,e 11Bep6alIl13aM 11CBe6u ce 113perYlIl1CalIO caao op; ce6e, jep yayrpaunsn 3aKOHl1 pane xao IlIBajQapCKI1car, 6YAuTe Cl1ryPHI1.

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He yhes« llU y paqocui. cneqyje MU eenuxa tiputa

Xajne Aa nornenavo jour jenay "KlIaQKalIuQY". AKO je npl1Hyp;a Hap; HeKUM orpOM-na, na je jour KOM6I1HOBaHa, CPI13I1'1KOM,Bep6alIHOM 1161IarOM npI1Hyp;oM, CBaKaKOHe MO)KeMOO'leKI1BaTI1 na he nere paAI1Tl111 )KI1BeTI1Cpanourhy, ,1J;aKlIe,paAoCT heU30CTaTI1, a reno he cnOHTaHO yha y 6pl1ry. Ilornenajre na)KlbI1BO. Crpenaua OA3elIeHor xpyra (zsyrise) I1Ae xa )KYTOMKpyry. Ilon TepeToM npl1Hyp;e "rocnoAap"(lbYTlba je rocnop;ap 6PI1311), MO)Kep;a 0601I11. Morna 611na 0601I11 jerpa UlIl1 )Kyq,p;a P;06l1jeMo TpeMop MI1IlIl1ha, napalIl13Y 111I11HeKI1 BI1P;TI1Ka. YHYTpaIlIlbl1 3aKO-Ht1cy caBpIlIeHl111 cnyra, (tipara) npeysxsra BO~CTBO,TaKO IlITO ce 'IOBeK YlIaCKOMy 6pl1ry CMI1PI1,a CBe TO 61IarOTBOpHO nenyje 11aa jerpy 11aa )Kyq 11na MI1IlIl1h-~t1 Ct1CTeM.Bpara je, KaKO xazce rOCnOAI1HIlapx, 3aIlITl1THa eMOQl1ja, 61IaropOAHa,)ep P;OK Ml1pyjeMo 'reno ce orropaszsa, AOKyM rpetia Aa nponahe npaBO peureise.DOlIlTO npT.<· .nHYAa 11nazse TpaJe yM reurxo HalIa311 pernelbe 11eMOQl1ja 6pl1re OABI1-ure p;yro rpajs,

To oner Hl1je notipo jep CMO ce cana 3arnaBl11I11 xa eMoQl1jl1 6pl1re. Cana cyHaM yTp O)KeHI1 :>KelIYAaQ11ClIe3l1Ha. MO:>KeMoA06l1Tl1 11mehep. Oner caBpIlIe-Ht13aKO .HI1 cnauraaajy HecpeTHO nere OA aac 11aaure HeYKOCTI1,nparn pOAI1Telbl1.

Carta "clIyra", y OBOM cnyxajy, CTPax, cnauraaa nere, Knanxanxna Jil3Me1)y 6pJilreJiICTpaXa ce ycrrocrasn,a, aaxaarsyjyha naMeTHOM Telly. Amr aKO ce pomrren, HJiIcana He p;OCeTJiIJiIHe npeCTaHe ca KlIaCH'IHOM, nmnuanoxr npJilHyp;oM, npJil TOMHaMje nere JiIp;albe na aajcrpaumajaa BJilpTyellHJilM canpacajasra, ,,6allOH" crpaxa cerrynx, nYHJiI. Kana KOllJilqJilHa CTpaxa, peallHor JiIBJilpTyellHor nocraae Henop;HO-urzsxsa aa nere, eHOpMHJiI crpax. noxpeae eHopMHY lbYTlbY, xoja ce MaHJiI<pecTyjeKp03 pa311Ji1qJilTe0611Ji1Keaacazsa, (arpecnja ayroarpecnja, 601leCT, neisocr, CMPT-HJiIrpeXOBJiI, anxoxonaaasr, napxosraaa]a, KpJilMJilHall, BpWlbaqKO aacazse JiIClI).

He rpetia 6Ji1TJiIMHoro naaeran JiI3aKlbyqJilTJiI p;a je OCHOBHJiIY3POK CBJilX0611Ji1Kaaacazsa y OBOMBpeMeHY rapnornaso ncrpajaaaa,e aa yrrorpetia llPY1HY.D;E CBJilX0611Ji1Ka,qJiljJilcy HOCJilO~JiIaYTopJilTapHJiI BaCnJilTHJiIMOp;ellJil.Ine cy OHJiI,Ty je crpaxCBJilX0611Ji1Ka,rne cy CTpaxOBJiI, lbYTlba je orposora, JiIHe P;OHOCJiIpanocr. Ee3 pano-CTJiIqOBeK p;albe He MO)Ke. AKO caspeveaa qOBeK, HapOqJilTO pOp;JilTelb JilMay pyxa-Ma aaaise cTBapallaqKOr sacnxrarsa snahe nyT ocnofiaharsa ce6e JiIcsor nerera onCTpaXOBa. Op;CYCTBOaYTOpJilTapHOCTJiI, Op;CYCTBOp;pecype, P;OHOCJiICMJilpelbe CBJilXJil3BOPHJilXeMo~Jilja. CBaKa naura esrouaja, nop;CTaKHYTa cnorsaunsna JiIyHyTpa-WlbJilM np0611eMOM, a 6Ji1he JilXYBeK, 6Ji1he JilCTJilHCKJiI3aWTJilTHa.

3aMJilClIJilTe,HeKO aac je Hara3Ji10 y ayrotiycy JiIjour sac nanana, P;OK ce BJiICMeWJiI-re JiIJil3BJillbaBaTe. To 36Ji1lba HJilje 3p;paBo, xao WTO He 6Ji16Ji1110anpaso na Jil3Bap;JilTeopyzcje JiIy6Ji1jeTe Tor xonexa. 0 cpep;lbeM, 3p;paBOM nyTy, 6pJilHy same 3aWTJilT-He eMO~Jilje, a OHe HaM nOMa)KY p;a P;OHOCJilMOsnpaaa JiI6p3a pew eisa, caao aKOHJilCMO)KpTBa nepMaHeHTHe npJilHyp;e, y noponaua, unconn JillIJiIpap;HOM MecTy.

Ilocne caao jenaor cycpeTa ca noponauoxr na KojeM ce pop;JilTelbY JiInerery ooja-CHJiIsaxoaoaepnocr "KlIa~KallJil~e" )Kelbe JiIaozse, lbYTlbe JiI6pJilre, 6pJilre JiIcrpa-xa, JillIJiIcaMO na)KlbJilBJilM qJilTalbeM KlbJilre, pOp;JilTelb JiInere he, CaMJiI,ya noraohurejae, MohJil p;a aaannaapajy WTa ce noraha non nejcrsoa yHyTpawlbJilx 3aKOHa, aWTa non nejcrnoxr ner "nllJilWaHJilX", rrparehn naxosxao TOK crpemma na weMJiI.

CBJiI 3HaMO, y CBaKop;HeBHOM )KJilBOTY,p;a 3aKOH p;aBalba JiIY3BpaTHe <pyHK~l1-je nenorpeurxso <PYHK~l10HJilwe. PeTKO l111Ji1rOTOBO HJilKap;a He onere y rOCTe, a p;aHe nonecere nOKlIOH. Ilocne Jil3BeCHOr BpeMeHa noronxhe ce Y3BpaTHa <pyHK~l1jal1 cana cy OHJiIBaWJiI rocrn JiIyaaparnhe BaM nOKlIOHOM, qaK JiICKyrrlbJilM on oxorxojer cy p;06Ji1l1Ji1on sac. AlIJiI peTKO KO3Ha rta ce CBe TO neurasa JiIy nauresr Telly.

BeKOBJilMa HJilCMOJilMallJilOBa npep;l1BHa aaaisa l1 BepOBaTHO HJilCMOHl1Tpe6alll1na JilXJilMaMO. .D;ace Ta snaa,a imax He 6Ji1aafiopaaxna xoaex je CBe Op;l1rpaBaO nacnorsaunsesr nllaHy. BeKOBJilMa ce rOBOpl1110 na y rOCTe He Jilp;ew "npa3Hl1X pyKy"JiITO ce JiInaa nanac nourryje. PYKe cy HaM ymaBHoM nyHe "OTpOBa", jep ymaB-HOM P;OHOCJilMOnpajarersroaa JiIpoharnoaa xadiy l1 nnhe. Y3 Kacpy JiI rnrhe qeCTO

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p;OHOCl1MOl1 aYTOpl1TapHOCT (csahy, npenJilpKY, oroaaparse, naaerosau,e, YHOCJiI-MO HeMl1p y onaoce JiIClI.)

Ha cpehy, qOBeK he YCKOPO CXBaTJilTJiIna he nocere JiIOP;HOCJiIY Kojl1Ma HeMaaYTOPl1TaPHOCTJiI, 6l1TJiIaajaehx napoaa, xoje HeKOMe MO)KeW p;OHeTJiI,jep je MY1P36l1lba HajBehl1 p;ap, jep "aKO je jenaa Ml1paH, CTOTJilHeOKOrsera ce CMJilpe". Tana heHaM npl1jaTelbl1 JiIpohaua, xonere aa noclIY, Y3BpahaTJiI aajnernuoa MepOM, MepOMlbYP;CKOCTl1.Tana heao 36Ji1lba pa3YMeTJiI 3aKOH xpearnaae JiIY3BpaTHe <pYHK~JiljeKP03, p;06po 3HaHY Jil3peKy: "KaKo cejeur, TaKO )KalbeW, KaKO npocrpeur, TaKO hewp;a lIerHew". CBl1 HaWJiI 06Ji1qajJil cy 6l111Ji1JiIocrana paryanna JiIcnOlbaWlbJil, JiICBl1ymaBHOM yxasyjy aa OBe KOCMJilqKe3aKOHe. Inenajre OKOce6e JiIysepahere ceo

Y OBOM BpeMeHY cnozsaunse je ,o;OCTJilmOMaKcJilMYM. Ilornenajre KOlll1KO ceneTapp;l1 xcnana aa HOBY ronaay, WJilPOM CBeTa, KOllJilKOce nyua Jil3CBJilXopyxqaKa,o;ace po,o;JiInere JillIJiIxana ce MlIa,o;JiI»cene JiIynajy, Ca CBaKOM HOBOM ro,o;JilHOMcrpax ce rrojaxa jep CMOCBe crapajn, a CBe CMOp;albJil 0,0;ce6e xaaopnor. Cnorsa-WlbJilM BaTpOMeTJilMa noxyurasasro p;a noxpeaexo yHyTpawlby panocr xoja je CBeraisa. Yayrpaunsa panocr 6Ji1rpetiana na 6y,o;e y XJillba,o;enpenenxx 60ja, rrorryrsarpoaera. EOjJilMOHe60, rryuaao, rallaMJilMO, BPJilWTJilMO,.rreaaao", CKaqeMO, onn-jaMo ce, y TOj "Hajllyljoj Hohl1. Kana ra noh npohe, na 3eMlbJil JiIy Ba3gyxy ocrajynocnenaue aaure lIygOCTJiI (aasnrcmrre KOllJilKOje saraherse rrnaaere casro rrocneHajlly1)e noha). Eygl1MO ce MaMypHJiI, He3agOBOlbHJiI, 6e3 nane na he HaM uena OBaronnaa gOHeTJiI MHoro panocrn JiIMJilpa. ClIJilqHO ce neurasa na BeHqalbJilMa, na6Ji1ce npe uaspureae rozntae 6paKa, 6paK, y BellJilKOM6pojy cnyxajeaa, l1 pacnao,

lly~aMo JiIonajaxro ce xana g03HaMO na HaM ce CJilHPOP;l10, a gOBOlbHO 6Ji1611110na HaM cpue nyua on panocrn. Ha)KallOCT, y cp~y panocrx 6aw JiIHeMa MHoro jep~BaKor oua nerne MOPJilcyMlba na 1IJi1he, y OBOMTeWKOM BpeMeHY, ycrrern na onra-)JiIcaaa, no MepJil csoje nyure, Cl1Ha - noopor sroaexa.. MOfJIJil6Ji1 CMO3aKlbyqJilTJiI na je CBaKa rrpejaxa, crrorsaunsa "KpeaTJilBHa"aK~JiI-ja, 36Ji1lba casro rrOKY .wa) rroxperaisa ynyrpaunse panocrrr, alll1 y3 yrropHy yno-Tpe6y aYTOpJilTapHJilX, panocr nehe gOHeTJiI nerapne, CBe he jour gyro OCTaTJiIcaxoHeycneo n . . hTlil o xyur a) , )OW gyro e crrozsaunsa, aeycnezra, WTeTHa "Kpea~Jilja", g06l1-

3aY3BpaT, YHYTpaWlbY y3BpaTHy <PYHK~l1jy 6e3 panocrn.AKO y1)eMo y JilCTJilHCKl1,CTBapallaqKY, KOPJilCHYaxunjy, yresrezserry na lby6a-

Blil l1 .D;06 hPOTl1 Kpel1pa eMO panocr YHYTpaWlbY, a panocr he HaM no 3aBpweT-

I<y aI<~l1)'e npe hernrivAxo i ', nnaaara cBaKY naury ellJil)y. AKO )e aaura axmqa nerarasaa, aKOCMo y npeBe' " .IiIJI JIIiII<O)"lbYTlbJil , panocr HaM aehe Y3BpaTJilTJiI,jep he panocr notiehx

iiiy 6plilry JillIJiIY Tyry.Aal<JIe ITa 61i1 .1L ' M CTe yWlIJiI y panocr, saura axinqa Mopa 6l1TJiI Jil3 paBHJiI 3gpaBe

YTlbe, 1i13pa 6BHJiIgo pe HaMepe, norxpenzsexa 3HalbeM, Mopa 6l1TJiI nogp)KaHa

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jaxoxr BOJbOMM HapaBHO, MOpa 6MTM npaheaa MYAP0uID.y, xoja YHanpeA 3Ha MCXOATaKBe axuaje, AK~Mja MOpa 6MTM npaaa, 'IOBetIHa, y KOPMCT'IOBeKa, npnpone, APY-urrsa. Y KOpeHY CBMXHaIllMX axuxja MOpa 6MTM CTBapaJIa'IKa Jby6aB.

He 3aAOBOJbMTMOBeYCJIOBe,ytm y axnajy arpecMBHo, 6e3 A06pe HaMepe, He3Ha-JIa'IKM, paAocT ce nehe nOKpeHYTM. ITo saspureaoj aK~MjM MJIM here OTMhMy 6PMry,na ce cnycrrrrx y ryry M cTpax, MJIM he paAocT cnOHTaHO nperrycrxrn 'IOBeKa eMO-~MjM Tyre. Hesrojre MeIllaTM crnapa, xana yhere y axnnjy, ca orposmoa JbYTlbOM,HeraTMBHM, natroceha 60JI APyroMe, MO)I(eTe oceTMTM 3JIypaAocT. 3JIypaAocT HMje

paAocT, 3anaMTMTe. Y3 3JIypaAocT He XpJIMTe AYXOBHOCTM.MCTO ce neurasa xana jeAaH 'IOBeK xpeapa APyror, Apym My yaspaha npasosr

MepOM. AKO csoje nere, KpeMpaTe C panomhy jep CTe My AonYCTMJIM .n;acasr panaOHOIllTO MO)I(e, jep CTepa.n;OCHM.n;OKnere cavo pa.n;M,nere he BaM Y3BpaTMTM pane-urhy, 3a.n;OBOJbCTBOM,snpaazsea, 3aXBaJIHoIIIhy. To je OHOxana napon xaxce: ,~MHM

notipo He 60j ce, 'IMHM 3JIO aanaj ce."Cana npenosaajeao rpelliKy. qOBeK rroxyutasa .n;acnorsaunsroa xpeapa yHy-

rpaunse, IllTO .n;OBO.n;M.n;ocTBapalba yHyTpallilber xaoca. Yrryrpaunsn 3aKOHM 6ec-npexopno <pyHK~MOHMIllY. He rpetiajy MM HOBe narnxe .n;a6MX ce noxpenyo aa'IMTalbe JIeKTMpe. MeHM narxxe rpetiajy jep MM rpefiajy, a JIeKTMpy hy 'IMTaTM CJby6aBJbY, aKO TO pa3YMeM, MJIM C ornopoa aKO He pa3YMeM urra 'IMTaM, aJIM hy'IMTaTM. ITaTMKe M JIeKTMpa HMCYHM Y xaxsoj Be3M, rrpaanahere.

Caga je U geUleUlY jacuo 3aUlUlO ee, YMeeUlO y Ibytiae,cpma y nacune unu qeupecujy

ITO.n;HerrpecTaHMM nejcraoa rrer "rrJIMIllaHMX", non nenpecraamr napacrajyhaaBMpTyeJIHMM, aJIM M peaJIHMM CTpaXOM, 'IOBeK JIaKO M 6p30 CTM)I(e no CMpTHMXrpexoBa, jep ce aapyurasajy yHyTpaIlllbM 3aKOHM. CBe M3BOPHOce "KpMBM" YHy-Tpallilba HarreTOCT je eHopMHa, a rne je HarreTOCT Ty je norpefia aa rrpa)I(lbelbeMHarreTOCTM. Kaxo? Ilornenajre Jby.n;eOKOce6e: arpecannx cy MJIM ayToarpecMBHM,rryure, nnjy, npornpajy ce, 6e)I(e y 60JIeCTM, JIelbM cy, oryhena on ce6e, ca nenpe-CTaHMM ocehaisesr KpMBM~e MJIM rpM)I(e caBeCTM, 3ap06JbeHM pa3HMM 06JIM~MMa3aBMcHoCTM, oryhea« on ce6e, .n;pymx, on npxpone M)I(MBOTa, 6e30cehajHM. AHap-xaja MHaCMJbe,xao nocnennua CMpTHMXrpexoBa, nocrajy CJIMKacaspeaeaor CBeTa.

CBM ce ooBe casro HaCMJbeMM Ha'IMHMMa KaKO .n;ara csrarse, aaycraae. To 'IMHeoner Ka3HOM M Harpa.n;OM, Bep6aJIM3MOM (peux .n;porM M HaCMJbY"He"), JIeKOBM-Ma, TeXHMKaMa, 'IMrrOBMMa.

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Jib osor aaxceurerezscrna ce M3JIa3Mcasro YKM,lJ;AIhEM ner "rrJIMIllaHMX". CaYKM.n;albeMKa3He, Harpa.n;e, npesaurrahasarsa M Bep6aJIM3Ma, M.n;epeJIaTMBHOJIaKO,aJIM HajBehM rrp06JIeM aacraje xana nere, xoje je 3aBMCHOon MrpM~a, MHTepHeTa,MrpaOHM~a, KJIa.n;MoHM~a,rropaaha, cexca, rpetia BOJbHO.n;ace o.n;peKHe TMX 06JIM-

xa 3aBMCHOCTM,KaKO 6M nocne'vraurhea.a'; uena rropo.n;M~a OCBojMJIanenore snarsaCTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa. ITo "CKM.n;alby" .n;eTeTaca jenner 06JIMKa 3aBMcHoCTM, y3TpajHo YKM.n;albeaYTopMTapHocTM, nere amue HMje 3aBMcHo, HM on jenaor 06JIMKa3aBMCHOCTM.Tana nere KOH3YMMpa 6JIaro.n;eTM caBpeMeHe TeXHOJIOrMje, YJIa3M6e3CTpaxa y caapeaeaa )I(MBOT M HM on xera HMje 3aBMCHO,'He nocraje HM )I(pTBa, HMHaCMJIHMK,jep nocenyje, CTBapaJIa'IKY, KPMTM'IKY CBeCT, rrpM TOM HeMa yHyTpa-unse HarreTOCTM, rra TMMe M nexa rrorpetie sa saaxcaonrhy, xao 06JIMKOM HaCM-Jba. 0 MOM MCKYCTBYKaKO caspesreao nere OCJI060.n;MTMBMpTyeJIHe 3aBMCHOCTM,peha hy sxure y nornaszsy CTBapaJIa'IKO y npaxca, f.n;e HeMa rrJIMIllaHMX, lhy6aBMM Pa.n;OCTMMMa aa nperex.

uuaa je peanno onexueaiuu uocne cuosnaje ga cauoxapMOHU30aaHe emouuje aoge y fby6aa?

,lJ;eceTrrynax ronaaa, rtpenaaatsaxa, rrOMa)I(eM Jby.n;MMa.n;aOTKpMjy MCTJ.myy ce6M,.n;ace cere M ocere .n;acy MKOHe 60)I(Mje, xoje cy noume y osaj )I(MBOT .n;ace Herrpe-CTaHO ycaspuranajy, jep cy neo 60)J(aHcKe eneprnje. Ilpenaaaise je ycneno, aKOCTeorynrajyh« MOjy MCTMHY,OTKPMJIMCBOjy MCTMHY,Y ce6M M npenosnana yspo-xe KpMBJbelba csora yayrpaunser 6Mha. ,lJ;06po je aKO CTe MOjMM pe'IMMa .n;o.n;aJIMCBOjy MCTMHY.n;aHac caxo xapMOHM30BaHe eMo~Mje none y Jby6aB.

AKO ce MpIllTMTe rra MOjy rrpM'Iy 0 Jby.n;CKOjrrorenuajanaoj caBpIlleHOCTM, aaKOHCTaTa~Mjy .n;aje 'IOBeK MKOHa60)I(Mja, o.n;Maxnpenoaaajev na sepyjere y peMH-KapHa~Mjy, rra TMMe M MoryhHOCT nonourersa repera, M3 rrperxonnor )I(MBOTa, MJIMB .

epy)eTe .n;apohersess .n;OHOCMMOrpexe CBOjMXrrpenaxa, MJIM CTe aTeMCTa. Hapas-HO.n;arroIllTyjeM BaIllY MCTMHy.AKO CTe aTeMCTa sepyjre na here YJIaCKOMy CTBa-pana'lKO aacmrraa,e onaj jenaa je.n;MHMBalli OB03eMaJbCKM)I(MBOTrrpOBeCTM ca IllTOMalbe MYKa, a HapO'lMTO ca Malbe MyKa y onrajaisy CBOjMX rrOTOMaKa.

OHMMa KOjM aepyjy na pol)elbeM .n;OHOCMMOM CBe rpexose rrpe.n;aKa, naxerenpeTXO.n;HMX)I(MBOTa, TaKBMMa ronno npenopyxyjea aaaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr sac-nl-lTalba' t:. •. • t:., )ep lie CBO)O) HeCpeTHO) .n;e~MrrOMOIIM na He rrOHOBe csoje rpeXOBe, M3:peTxo.n;HMX )I(MBOTa, a MpTBMM rrpeuasca hesro AOHeTM cMMpelbe, YKOJIMKOrrpe-

l-iHeMO rrpouec noaaszsarsa M yl)eMo y BepTMKaJIY, y pacr, OHMMa KOjM sepyjy y

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peMHKapHalVljy Ka)l(eM na he y3 novoh osor anarsa ycneTM na OqMCTe rpex 360r

xojer cy nOHOBO AOlliJIM y )l(MBOT M na he aa raj HaqMH 6p)l(e 3aBpllIMTM 60paBaK

na nJIaHeTM 3eMlbH.Y OACYCTBY aYTopHTapHOCTM, He nOACTMqyhM nacarse, MO)l(Aa here nOMO-

hH CBOMe AeTeTY Aa He nOHOBM y6HCTBO xoje je nOqHHHO y npeTXOAHOM )KHBO-

r y. Carnacaa caM na CBaKO ynpa)KlbaBa TeXHMKe, xoje My npajajy, Aa CBaKO eepyie

HJIM He sepyje, aJIH YBeK MOJIMM Aa H3Met)y ce6e M csoje neue YKJIOHHTe "nJIHllIa-

He", YKJIOHHTe Ka3HY H aarpany. V13BOPHY npHpOAY neue aehere MelbaTM, caoje,

HJIH MCKpHBlbeHO 6Mhe csora nerera, here BpaTHTH H3BOpy. )J;OhH he AO spaha.lba CBOMe M3BOPY, a aa M3BOPY npnxsarare ce6e M CBe oA6aqeHe qJIaHOBe nopo-

AHu;e, ycrrocrauzsaiyh« nOpOAHqHH nopenax lby6aBH. Tana ce noraha cnOHTaHH

onpourraj. Onpaurra ce aeaaatse pOAHTelbHMa, onpaurrajy ce rpecx npeuasra. Besonpourraja He MO)l(eMO y AYXOBHH M lbYACKH paCT.

Ipexosa na M3BOPY HeM a MMa caao BpJIHHa: Ilotipa nasrepa, )J;o6pOTa, Jbytiaa,

3aAOBOlbCTBO, MHp H xana je neurro "Ao6po" M xana HHje, CMepHOCT, BeJIHKOAY-

llIHOCT, paAHHOCT, TpnelbHBOCT, MOJIHTBa, nOCT, KPOTOCT, CaMHJIOCT, 3aXBaJIHOCT,

Ay60Ka peJIHrH03HOCT ... )

Y TOKY OBHX necer rO,lJ,MHa,nOCJIe 6e36poj H3rOBopeHHX npenanaisa, nonanzsace TMllIHHa. Ilo 3aBpllIeTKY npeAaBalba HHKO He ycraje, HaKO HeKOJIMKOnyTa nOHO-

BMM Aa je npenanaise aanpureno, HMKO HeMa )KelbY Aa 6HJIO urra rnrra H YBeK casrMOpaJIa na yno30pHM opraHH3aTope Aa He MHCHcTHpajy aa nHTalbHMa. J1aKo HX

6oM6apAyjeM orposmoa KOJIHqHHOM nonaraxa, Hece6HqHO HM napyjyha aaarse, He

BHAHM yMOp MJIH aejacaohy, HHTH norpeoy na HeKYA )l(ype. Ocehasi Aa cy lbHxoBe

eMoU;Hje xapMOHH30BaHe, na cy npenJIaBlbeHH M YTonlbeHH y Jbytias.

)J;MpeKTOpKa jenne llIKOJIe Me je OrpaHHqHJIa nOJIyqaCOBHOM H3JIaralbeM, jep

HaCTaBHMqKO sehe HMa MHoro np06JIeMa sa pelliaBalbe H na joj ce 360r rora )l(ypH.

Ilocne Mor nsnaraisa H OHa H HaCTaBHHU;H cy CeAeJIH MHPHO, oqeKyjyhH HaCTaBaK

npHqe, a AHpeKTopKa je HCKpeHO peKJIa: .Flocne OBe npHqe, HHrAe He )l(ypHM, jep

CBe 360r -rera caM )l(ypHJIa je nOCTaJIO 6eCMHCJIeHO."

Iloxyurahy na nojacnasr OBY nojasy. 'Eyre, jep CJIa)l(Y aenocrajyhe KOU;KHU;e

M03aHKa csoje MCTHHe. CBe AOJIa3H na cnoje MeCTO H nOTpe6HO HM je aa TO BHllIe

apesreaa Hero llITO Tpaje npenasan,e. MHorH, seh aa rrpenasarsy, nOTnYHO OCBe-

CTe CBOjy HCTMHY M 3aTO cy MHpHH H amne He )l(ype.

He rnrrajy HHllITa, jep MM je CBe jacno. CBM ocehajy na cy OHM cana na nOTe3Y,

Aa anarse npaKTHqHO npMMeHe M na he npasa rnrraiea HMhM H3 npaKce. OHM naj-

ayropxrapna]x CTHAlbMBO yrnrrajy: "A urra YMeCTO rrer?", I10MHJIyjeM HX nome-

AOM H OHH CXBaTe Aa he 6ap HeKOJIHKO npenaaaa-a 6MTM norpetino lbHXOBOj jaxoj

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aYTOpMTapHoj CBeCTM, xoja He MO)l(e ca naxohosr Aa yoe yHyTpa y ce6e, seh H

Aalbe oc'raje cnozsa,3Halbe xoje CTe Ao6HJIM qHTajyhH KlbHry HJIM cnyurajyhn npeAaBalbe, je saure

3Halbe H aKO caM npo6YAHJIa y BaMa )l(elbY na OBMM 3HalbeM pellIHTe csoje ropy-

he np06JIeMe, ycneJIM CMO. Osaj TeKCT aac HHje yMOpHO. J1MaTe cHary na ra npo-

qHTaTe jour HeKOJIHKO nyrai To je cajro 3HaK na CTe Ao6HJIH CYllITHHCKO aaarse.YMapajy aac npeAaBalba xoja ce He TMqy same CYllITHHe, xoja sac "paCTaBe"

aa caCTaBHe AeJIOBe, a He najy OArOBOp KaKO Aa ce caCTaBMTe M 3aTO CTe OCehaJIH

yMOP H He3aAOBOlbCTBO. OBO saarse BaM AOHOCHpellielbe KaKO Aa novoraere cefia,

CBOjOj AeU;H, CBOM 6paKY, CBOMe KOJIem, CBOMe APyllITBy. Ine cy PaAOCT H OITTM-

MH3aM, Ty yMopa HeMa. PaAOCT je npoacera 6pMrOM, 3aTO H nocroja OBaKaB MMp

nOCJIe npenasan.a. 3allITO 6pHHeTe? Bpanere jep 3HaTe KaKBe np06JIeMe HMaTe y

nopOAHU;H H CYMlbaTe na he OCTaJIH npMcTaTH aa rrpoweae.Ilpo6JIeMH aacrajy TeK nourro CBOj onTHMH3aM H3pyqMTe npeA qJIaHOBe csoje

rroponnue, a He Ao6HjeTe OqeKHBaHY nOApllIKy. 0 TOMe urra nOCJIe npenasarsa,KaKO u;eJIy rropomnry AOBeCTH na HeKO HOBO npeAaBalbe HJIH ceMHHap ornrcahyy nornaszsy IlPAKCA. Carta je MHoro Ba)KHHje pa3YMeTH HCTHHY Aa ayTopHTap-

HH BacnHTHH MOAeJIH aaycraszsajy pasnoj csecnocra, paasoj Jby6aBM y CBaKOM

qOBeKY. Iler nJIMllIaHMX 6JIOKMpajy BallIY CBeCT, nOTnYHo HJIM AeJIHMHqHO KpHBe

H3BopHe eaepraje y qOBeKY. Ha npaoa MecTY KpHBe ce esrouaje, a nOTOM CBe OCTa-

JIO. OJIOKHpa ce paasoj uenoxynaor nOTeHU;HjaJIa, TaJIeHaTa.

qOBeK KOjH je yurao y cMpTHe rpexoBe CMryPHO He MO)l(e 6HTH y CBeCHOCTM.

)J;aHac rOTOBO na HeMa nOTnYHO CBeCHHX lbYAH, jep je CMJIaaYTopHTapHOCTM saro-

cnonapxna HallIMM )l(MBOTMMa. PeaJIHO je OqeKMBaTH Aa he CBaKa caspesreaa nopo-

AHu;a, xoja OCBOjH saarse CTBapaJIaqKOr sacrurratsa, xoja yhe y onaoce 6e3 Ka3He

H HarpaAe, y3 npanovoh AYXOBHMX TeXHHKa M AYXOBHMX snarsa, yha y Cnecaocr,y Jby6aB H )J;06pOTy.

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o nYEOKOJ CBECHOCTI1,KOJA JbYEAB 3HAql1

MOJICe llU 1.f.06eK, KOjU y OK6Upy uopoquue UpUMe1byje

snaiee ciueapanauxoi 6aCUUUla1ba, 6UUlU na UYUlY

yspaauaiea C6eCHOCUlU? Kaxo ga UpeU03HaMO j{YEOKOC6eCHOf 1.f.06eKa?

Y<pYiJIMYEsorpa Kycrypnue npo-nrrax "PYi6a He MYiCJIYi,OHa 3Ha". To 6.YiMor~a6YiTYi .n;e<pYiHYiQYijaCBeCHor xoaexa. He MYiCJIYi,a 3Ha, npen03HaJe CBOJY

MYiCaOxao CBOjy YiCTYiHy,Bel.my YiCTYiHy,OCJI060~eHY CBYiXnpYiMeCa npOJIa3HOrYiYCJIOBJbeHOr, npYiXBaTa je, 6e3 Hanopa, y TpeHy npouersyje lbeHY YiCnpaBHocT,CJI060.n;HO je Yi3pYiqe Yi xpa6po npeTaqe y .n;eJIO, y )l(YiBOT, aKO rpetia. M03aK jeKO.n;CBeCHor xoaexa casro MeXaHYi3aM npeKO xojer ce MYiCJIYi,Yi3rOBapa Yipeaml-syje YiCTYiHaxoja je seh y lbeMy. TaKBa MYiCaOhe 6YiTYiy KOPYiCTpaCTa CBYiX.Ibynparx YBeK ,IJ;06pa HaMepa Yi YiHTYYiQYija.Y KopeHY TaKBe J.1cTYiHe je Jby6aB,sexaa YiHenpOJIa3Ha.

Je.n;HoM pesjy, ,IJ;y60KO CBeCHa MYiCaOHYije KJIaCHa, HYije HYiqYiMYCJIOBJbeHa, naHYi eMoQYijOM jep cy eMoQYije CBeCHor xosexa, nOTnYHO XapMOHYi30BaHe. Jby.n;wayropnrapae CBeCTYi he MYiCaO YiJIYi.n;eJIOCBeCHor xoaexa aajxeurhe ocy~wBaTWjep he Tor TpeHyTKa r a MYiCaO,TO .n;eJIOMO)l(.n;a6YiTYinpOTYiB lbYiX, npOTWB lbWXO-BYiXWCKpYiBJbeHYiXWHTepeca, oxexaaarsa, nanarsa. lhWMa cy, MYiClIYiCBeCHWXJbyp;wpanxxanae, urrerxe sa canaunsa TpeHYTaK Yi3aTO ce HeCBeCHYi60pe nporas CBe-CHYiX.AJIYi, aKO 6Yi HeKO ynopHo npaTYiO neuraean-a, no W3pYiQafbY, npaxaarare)'

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WJlWHenpWXBaTalbY MYiClIYiWnena CBeCHYiXJby.n;w,aa xpajy, a xpaj MO)l(e na 6y.n;e YiHa Kpajy HeqYijer )l(YiBOTa, YiJIYijour .n;aJbe YCTaHOBYiO6Yi na je HenOrpelllYiBO peq 0

CTWHWxoja BO.n;Yi,YiJIYixoja 6Yi somora noje.n;YiHaqHOM Yionurrev notipy.W . .•

Ta Mwcao, xoja .n;OJIa3YiYi3Yi3BOpa CBeCTYi,a Yi3BOPnocenyje CBaKO, Jep Je CBaKOKopelbeH Y 60)l(aHCKOM, WMa Te)l(wHY se-mor, HenpOJIa3Hor. Csecnocr MO)l(e .n;a

~a3BWja caMO qOBeK qYijYiYM Hwje YCJIOBJbaBaH, qwjYi YM HYije ayropirrapaa. ,IJ;aKJIe,CBe je Y HaMa rra Yiaexna YiCTYiHa.Ha Yi3BOPYje Yicnocotiaocr .n;a npenoaaavo Yipa3JIyqwMo J.1CTWHyo.n; "WCTYiHe",,IJ;06po on ".n;06pa", Jby6aB 0.n;."Jby6aB~".

Kana y O.n;CYCTBYnpYiHy.n;e Yinmnuaae npmryne wcXapMOHYi3YJeMo csoje Yi3BOp-He eMOQwje, rana ce YM crryurra y cpQe Yi6YiBa KOHTpOJIYiCaHJby6aBJby Yi,IJ;06po-TOM. Tana ce neo 60)l(aHCKe eaepnrje, Ilyx y HaMa rroseayje ca Yi3BOPOM,ca Borov.KaHaJI nyiue, KaKO xasce rocnonaa Ilapx, je orsopea. Tana 36YiJba He MYiCJIYiMO,MYi3HaMO, jep CMO BYiCOKOCBeCHYiCBaKe MYiCJIYi,CBaKe MYiCJIYinperoseae y pex WJIYiaKQYijy, CBeCHYijep OHa .n;OJIa3YiYi3J.13BOPA W6YiBa ocsenrheaa y irauresr yMy. 3aTOce sa neuy xasce na anajy WrOBope YiCTYiHy,aJIWra YiCTYiHamrje ocsemhena. Hazca-JIOCT,aYTopWTaPHOCT BpJIO 6p30 YiCKpYiBYiYi3BOPHO 6Yihe, Yixana .n;o~e TpeHyTaK.n;ace yHyTpallllbe YiCTYiHeocseurhyjy Kp03 )l(WBOT,TO nocraje rOTOBO HeMoryhe.KJIaCHe YiCTYiHe,nayseae cnozsa Yinpnxaahene npecypoa YiBYipTyeJIHOM CTBap-aourhy, y npBYiX cenass ronxaa caapexenor nerera, norncxyjy, sarprraaajy se-nseMCTMHey MaJIOM qOBeKY, 6y.n;yheM "OQY xosexa"

MHorO Jby.n;Yinaaac Tpara aa nYTeBYiMa KOjMsone xa CBeCHOCTM YiJby6aBYi. ToqMHMBeJIMKa sehana, na osaj MJIYionaj HaqYiH. 3aTo je JIOrYiqHO nOCTaBYiTYirnrra-lbe: "Mo)l(e JIM qOBeK, KOjWy OKBYiPYrroponnue, npYiMelbyje saarse CTBapaJIaq-xor aacnnraa,a, 6MTYi aa nyTy KOjM nostazce Y3paCTalbe CBeCHOCTYi"? HapaBHO.n;aMO)l(e. CTBapaJIaqKO sacrnrrarse je y CTBapYi O,IJ;fOJ 3A CTBAPAJIAlliTBO, aCBeCHMCTBapaJIaQ KpeMpa CBOj )l(MBOT, csoje onnoce ca .n;pyrMM qOBeKOM, BorOMWnpMpo.n;OM, YBeK Mjenxao y CKJIa.n;yca KOCMMqKMM,60)l(aHCKWM npMHQYinMMa.To ce He yqYi cnozsa, jep je TO CBe y HaMa, casro rpefia oscoryharn HOBMMreaepa-QMjaMa )l(YiBOT6e3 ,IJ;PECYPE, BE3 AYTOPJ.1TAPHOCTJ.1.

HapaBHO, na je onrosop oxpaopyjyha, .n;aje nyT paCTa CBeCHOCTM Kp03 CTBa-paJIaqKY rtoponxuy, .n;06ap, noxcersaa YiJIaK nyT. Hnje aa OqeKMBaTYi .n;ahe CBaKYiqnaH nopo.n;MQe KpeHyTM nyT paCTa CBeCHOCTM,jep MHore OKOJIHOCTYiYTYiqy naTO, anM jenao je cnrypao na he HOBe renepauaje, y o.n;cYCTBYnJIMlllaHWX nocraja-r CBe CBeCHYije YiCBeCHYije. Ponrrren,x, BaCnMTaqM, HaCTaBHWQM he raxohe OCBe-IlIhl1BaTM ce6e, caoje sexae MCTMHe, yxrraisajyh« Ka3HY M Harpa.n;y y O.n;HOCYiMaca nOTOMQMMa.

l..{eTp.n;eceToro.n;YillIfbe MCKYCTBOxoje caM npOllilla y pa.n;y ca yqeHMQMMa, fbMXO-811MnopO.n;MQaMa, y pa.n;y ca caBpeMeHMM "nlIMlliaHYiM" po.n;MTeJbMMa MfbWXOBOM

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Ae~OM, MJ1naje OrpOMaH OnTJ1MJ13aM. Pe3YllTaTJ1, y paAY ca lbJ1Ma, cy 6J1llJ1 OXpa-6pyjytm, 6J1he JOIll 60lbJ1 xana senxxa BehJ1Ha YCBOjJ1J1CTa 3Halba, J1 3aTO AOK)f(J1BJ1Mnacrojahy Aa OCBeTlbaBaM nOpOAJ1~aMa J1 nojeAJ1H~J1Ma nyT KOjJ1BOAI1YCBeCHOCT, Kp03 CTBapalla'lKY nOpOAJ1~y.

OCBPHJ1MO ce na nojaa CBeCHOCTJ1,113paBHJ1 TpaAJ1~J10He J1 canpesreae, Haja-yroparapnaje nOpOAI1~e, AO cana, AyTOpJ1TapHJ1 CJ1CTeM)f(I1BOTa 11aYTOpl1TaPHI1CJ1CTeMsacmrrarsa nocroja KOllJ1KOJ1 'lOBeK nOCTojJ1. OAYBeK cy nocrojans TPI1rpyrre lbYAJ1,y 0AHOCY na CBeCHOCT.

1- CBECHJ1- lbYAJ1 KOjJ1nperrosnajy aexae J1CTJ1Hey ce6J1 J1y cxnany ca lbl1Manenpecraao ycaspurasajy ,lJ;06pOTy, Jbyfiaa, qOBe'lHOCT, ~elloKynHy CBOjy 113BOp-Hy npapony, CBe IllTO pane je y <PYHK~J1jJ1passoja 'lOBe'lHOCTJ1, pasnoja 60rO'lOBe-xa, He rrare, ana CBOjJ1M)f(J1BOTOM,He ysehasajy rraTlbY ApyrJ1x. To cy lbYAI1KOjl1He MOry Aa 6J1pajy J13Mel)y ,lJ;o6pa J1 notipa, J13Mel)y lby6aBI1 J1 lby6aBJ1, J13Mel)yIlotipa J13lla. OHJ1 nocenyjy HeCelleKTJ1BHY ,lJ;06pOTy. OHJ1 cy J1KoHe Boxca]e, OHI1cy Jbytian, OHJ1cy Ilotipo, JEP JE fbJ1XOB YM Y IbJ1XOBOMcp~y.

2 - HECBECHJ1 - lbYAJ1 KOjJ1 J1Majy rrornyao J1CKpJ1BlbeHO J13BOPHO 6J1he,nOTl1cHYTe J1llJ1 J1CKpJ1BlbeHe eMO~J1je. OTyl)eHJ1 cy OA csor J13BOpHOr 6J1na, naCaMJ1MTJ1M J1 OA Be'lHJ1X J1CTI1Hay ce6J1. "He nare", aznr CBOjJ1M)f(J1BOTOM'lJ1HeMHoro rora IllTO yaehasa rraTlbY APYrl1X. OHJ1 ce HerrOrpeIllJ1BO xsarajy aa 3ll0, axana Ylla3e y notipo, TO 'lJ1He J1CKlbyqJ1BO3apaA CBOjJ1Xmrrepeca. CBOjJ1M Ha'lJ1-HOM )f(J1BOTa CBeAO'le CBOjy HeCBeCHOCT.

3 - IlOJIYCBECHJ1 - lbYAJ1 KOjJ1 J1Majy AellJ1MJ1'lHO J1CKpJ1BlbeHO J13BOPHO6J1he. Y oApel)eHI1M TpeHy~J1Ma, xana cy y eMO~J10HallHoj XapMOHJ1jJ1,rana y noje-AJ1HJ1McerMeHTJ1Ma paAa J1)f(J1BOTa,J1Majy rroTrryHy CBeCHOCT.Ta pa3aneTocT J13Me-I)y CBeCHor J1 HeCBeCHor craisa J1MAOHOCJ1BellJ1KY naTlby. To cy OHJ1IllTO 6J1pajyJ13Mel)y notipa J1 11Ilofipa, a HJ1je J1MHJ13110 cTpaHo, xana sarranay y HeCBeCHOCT.

OBe TpJ1 rpyne nocrojane cy y TpaAJ1~J10HallHoj, a nocroje J1y MOAepHoj nopo-AJ1~J1. Ilpoxeazsaa je cajao rrpo~eHaT OBe TpJ1 rpynauaje.

CBe )KJ1BOTHeaKTJ1BHOCTJ1,CBeCHe craapanaxxe llJ1'lHOCTJ1cy, 6e3 iseroae BOlbenpahene ,lJ;06POTOM, Jbytiaszsy, qOBe'lHOIllhy. Tpeha MJ1lleHJ1jYM je Ao6a CBE-CHJ1X lbYAJ1, KOjJ1 nehe J1MaTJ1 J1360p J13Mel)y notipa J1 J1 Ilotipa, jep nocenyiv6e3J1HTepecHY ,lJ;06pOTY. ,lJ;OEPO je 'lOBeKOBa J13BOpHa npl1poAa. Caecna cTBapa-naaxa llJ1'lHOCT He MI1CllJ1J1He Y'lJ1 0 ,lJ;06POTJ1, OHa 3Ha urra je Ilotipo, jep je KllJ1~yIlofipore 'lOBeK AOHeo poheisera. Y 0ACYCTBYaYTOpJ1TaPHOCTJ1 Iloopora J1lby6aBce aenpecraao ycaapurasajy, ocseurhyjy Kp03 pe'l J1 nezro. 3ll0, casro no ce6J1 ceTOnJ1, aKO je nocrojano xao J1CKpJ1BlbeHOIlotipo.

Kp03 HeKOllJ1KOBa)KHJ1Xrnrrarsa noxyurahy na OArOBOpJ1Mna TeMY CBeCHOCTJ1.

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,aa nu je OgCy~W80 aytuopuuiapnux 8aCUUWHUX Mogefla,sa U01JeWaK, uyw xa C8eCHOCWU?

KaAa ce noponaua J1llJ1nojenaaau onpenenn aa crsapazraxxo aacrnrran,e, xana ceo,o;peKHYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, y OAHOCJ1Ma,sarroxmse npouec ycaapurasan,a CBeCTI1,KOjy AOHOCJ1MOpobeisea. Kana 6poj rropomma 11nojemmaua 6YAe KBaHTJ1TaTI1B-HO npepacTao y KBallJ1TeT, rana he rrpJ1pOAHO AohJ1 AO pacra, TOllJ1KOrrorpefineCTBapalla'lKe CBeCTJ1APYIllTBa.

,lJ;OKce TO He AOroAJ1, J1MaheMO YBeK OBe TpJ1 naseneae rpyne, a rronaranx pacrCBeCHOCTJ1he ce Aoral)aTJ1 y OKBJ1PYcraapanaxxax noponaua. Ba)KHO je J1MaTJ1HaAY J1 snatse na ce nana peamrayje. JeAaH OA nyreaa je CBaKaKO snarse cTBapa-lla'lKOr sacnxrarsa.

Ila nu je woiyhe OCW8apUWU C8eCHOCWllU 6ap sutu« namOM uywy, y OK8Upy ciueapanauxe uopoquue, uaxo CMOC8Una gpYWW8eHOM unany ypoieenu Y ayiuopuuiapnocui.

,lJ;a! Craapazraxxo aacrrrrrarse je yrrpaBo TO xoje "o6yqaBa" lbYAe KaKO na yhy ycsecnocr, AYXOBHOCT,y rrpocTope Jby6aBJ1 J1,lJ;o6poTe, y OKBJ1PYCBOjJ1XnOpOAJ1-ua J1 nopen orpoxrae rrpJ1HYAe xoje BpIlle BaCnJ1THI1 MOAellJ1, cBYAa J1 na CBaKOMMecTy. Ba)KHO je na ce nOpOAJ1~a onpenena sa npJ1MeHY cTBapalla'lKOr aacmrrarsa.

MOJICellU C8eCWaH «oeex ga ifjYHKu,UOHUWeyayuwpuwapHOM gpYWW8Y

CBeCHOCTje craise YMa, YMa KOjJ1je naurao csoje MeCTOy XapMOHJ130BaHOM cpuy,].Yio Je M 6e3 nartse, arnr YBeK Ay6oKO pasysre lbYACKYnarrsy, lbeH xopea J1rryre-Be nOMaralba 'lOBeKY, KOjJ1 naTJ1 J1 )KellJ1 Aa J13J1l)e J13 rrarrse. CBeCTaH 'lOBeK heYBeK paAJ1TI1 aa ,lJ;o6po xosexa, jep je KOHTpOllJ1CaH Jby6aBlby J1 ,lJ;06POTOM. CBe-CTaH 'lOBeK 6J1ll0 xor J1HTelleKTyallHor, oripasoanor, couajarmor cTaTyca CBe csojeaI<TI1BHOCTI1I1onnoce npO)KJ1Ma ,lJ;06POTOM J1Jby6aBlby. Ilaxne, Ilofipora, Jby6aB11CBeCHOCT Aellajy J1CTOBpeMeHo. V13BOpJ1IllTeje jenao. Crarse Jby6aBJ1 ce norahaI<ao 11CBecHocT, y 0ACYCTBYaYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1, allJ1 aKO aYTOpJ1TapHOCT nOCTojJ1 yOI<PY)f(elbYCBeCTaH 'lOBeK nponanasa Ha'lJ1He na aYTOpJ1TapHOCT npyror:

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- TpaHCcpOpMltIllie y CBeCHOCT- na y61Ia)KltI ryby aYTOpltlTapHOCT- na npltlXBaTltI Tyljy aYTOpltlTapHOCT, 6e3 narrse- na ltIMa cnare Aa ce CPltl3lt1qKltIonsoja on ayropnrapae, HeCBeCHe ocotie, aKO

OHa yrpO)KaBa lberOBY CBeCHOCT.

KaK6e cy uiance geUleUla, caepeuene uopoquue, gaoaaeapu cuiatee C6eCHocUlU?

,UOKHltIje 6lt1lIOaerarasnor yrnuaja MeAltIja aa nere, ltIOBOlIltIKOayroparapnocrny APYllITBY,nere je ltIMalIO aennxe uraace na paasaja KlIltIl.l;yCBeCHOCTltI,AOHeceHYpohersea. Ha)KalIOCT, BplIO 6p30 nere ce onnaja OAcsoje J13BOpHe CYllITJ1HeJ1pacrCBeCHOCTJ1rOTOBO na crarnapa. YrnaBHOM, y3 ABa ayTopv1TapHe MOAelIa, qOBeKje 6J10 nOlIYCBeCTaH, llITO je 60lbe OAcrarsa HeCBeCHOCTJ1,xoje AaHac AOMJ1HJ1pa.

Hexana je 6J11I0AOBOlbHOAa, caao y3 jenny ocotiy oClI060ljeHY ayropJ1TapHOCTJ1,nere ycaspuraaa CBeCHOCT.To je naaac rOTOBOHeMoryne nocTJ1nJ1 jep je yraua] 'rene-BJ13J1jeMonaH, a J1MopalIHe BpeAHOCTJ1TpaAJ1l.l;J10HalIHeCBeCTJ1,xao J1aexne BpeAHo-CTJ1HJ1CY"J1H".Y CTBapJ1, Mon J1Majy HeraTJ1BHJ1CaAP)KajJ1na KojJ1Ma ce BaCnJ1TaBanere, BJ1pTyelIHa craapaocr J1MaBelIJ1KYBacnJ1THY Mon, jasy OAMOnJ1ponarezsa J1nacmrraxa jep expan BPllIJ1 CBaKOAHeBHJ1jax J1nyrorpajaa eMOl.l;J10HalIHJ1yrauaj nanere, a CBe J13paBHJ1 ner ayTOpJ1TapHl1X BaCnJ1THJ1XMOAelIa.Kpxszserse, uacnojasa-ise, nOTJ1CKJ1BalbeeMOl.l;J1jaje CHa)KHOjep cy CaAP)KajJ1KOjJ1ce HYAenpOTJ1B lby6a-BJ1, ,U06pOTe, npOTJ1B )KJ1BOTa.Hexia xoaexa KOjJ16J1 J1 HajjaqOM lby6aBlby xoraoJ13BPllIJ1TJ1n03J1TJ1BaH yrauaj aa nere, KOMeje TelIeBJ13J1ja rYBepHaHTa OAKOlIeBKe.CaMO nere, xoje 6YAe J1MaJIOcpehe Aa )KJ1BJ1y crnapanaxxoj nOpOAJ1l.l;J1,pa3BJ1jaheCBeCHOCTJ1nopeA orpoxnre aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1na xojy he HaJ1nJ1YlIaCKOMy APYlliTBO.

Ila llU cy HelaUlU6HU euptuyenuu caqpscaju UCKlbyttU6Uxpueau KOjU sayauaensa pacta C6eCHOCUlU?

He! TB, ltIHTepHeT, BpllIe CBaKaKO Hajjaqltl aerarxsaa yrnuaj na nere, jep caspe-MeHY neuy npxenaxe caao HeraTltIBHJ1 canpacaja ltIOHltIltIXHenOrpellIJ1BO npona-nase. Ocrajy nOTnYHO aeaamrrepecosamr sa n03lt1TltIBHe canpacaje KOjJ1XltIMa aanperex. Ilp061IeM je llITO cy CBltIxzraaoaa noponaue HeKpJ1TltIqKltIycaojann CBe

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PTA"TapHe061IltIKe aacmrrarsa. Hacarse nan nererosr je orpoMHo. Y caBpeMe-ayro n .

HOj nopOAJ1U;J1He nOCTojJ1 rOTOBO HJ1jenaa lIltIqHOCTy3 KO)y 6J1 caBpeMeHO nerer.lOrlIO na Y3paCTa y CBeCHOCTJ1,jep cy rOTOBO CBJ1nonnervnr ynorpefin nlIJ1l1IaHJ1X.Meljy 6aKaMa J1nexassa, TpaAJ1l.l;J10HalIHe CBeCTJ1,J1Ma AOBOlbHOCBeCHJ1XJ1nOlI!-CBeCHJ1X,alIJ1 caspeaena pOAJ1Telb cxnaisa nere OA lbJ1XOBOrBaCnJ1THOr yrnuaja,nlIallIenJ1 ce pa31IJ1qJ1TOCTJ1,na 6J1lIa OHa J1A06pa.

CBJ1CMOYxanuaaa ner nlIJ1l1IaHl1X.AKo CBeCHaJ11IJ1nOlIYCBeCHaocotia J1noCTO-jJ1, lbeH yrnuaj je He3HaTaH na nere, y OAHOCYna CBe Apyre aYTOpJ1TapHe YTJ1~aje.MHOrM MJ1ClIena 6J1 casto YKJ1Aalbe J11IJ1KOHTpOlIa HaA BJ1pTyelIHJ1M caAp)Ka)J1Ma6J11IJ1AOBOlbHJ13a rpancdiopaauajy qOBeKOBe CBeCTJ1.Bazsa KpeHyTJ1 OAYKJ1AalbaqeTJ1pJ1 nlIJ1l1IaHa BaCnJ1THa MOAelIa (finara J1peanna npJ1HYAa, n03J1TJ1BHO yClIO-BlbaBalbe, npeaaurrahaaarse J1Bep6alIJ13aM). Kana ce YKJ1HY,y nOpOAJ1qHJ1MOAHO-CJ1Ma,OBJ1MOAelIJ1,AOlIa3J1AOnpol.l;eca y xojesr ce J1nere J1pOAJ1Telb spahajy CBOMeJ13BOPY,ce6J1, cnOC06HOCTJ1 Aa pasrmoje ,U06po OA31Ia, yapacrajyhn y CBeCHOCTJ1.

AHa J13BOPJ1lllTYje CBe npyraxaje, aa J13BOPJ1lllTYje ycnocraszseaa XapMOHJ1-ja, a caMO XapMOHJ1QaH QOBeKaehe J1MaTJ1norpefiy sa aKyMylIal.l;J1joM J1QJ1lbelbeM31Ia, na aehe 6J1TJ1 HJ1 npJ1jeMQJ1B sa HeraTJ1BHe BJ1pTyelIHe J1 CBe APyre CaAp)Ka-je. He 6J1TJ1npJ1jeMQJ1B He 3HaQJ1 na he QlIaHOBJ1CTBapalIaQKe noponaue, J136era-sarn HeraTJ1BHe canpscaje, no CBaKY ueay, He, jep HJ1je np061IeM y HeraTJ1BHJ1Mcanpacajasra, Ben je np061IeM y HeMOnJ1 HeCBeCHor QOBeKa na pa31IYQJ1 KlIaCHOA06po OAYHJ1Bep3alIHor, xao A06po J1,U06po OA31Ia. Kaxo MO)Kerroxnenaa J1lIelbQOBeK, xao nOClIeAJ1u;a nlIJ1l1IaHJ1X,na nperroaaa na rrocnennue lberOBJ1X rpexoBanoaoce J1lbeMY J1CBJ1May nOpOAJ1l.l;J1carao 31I0. He MO)Ke,jep OH J1Ma J1CKpJ1Blbe-Hy norpetiy sa 31I0M.

Meguju U paseoj C6eCHOCUlU

fOAJ1HaMa nlIJ1l1IaHa rreua, KOH3YMJ1pajy HajHeraTJ1BHJ1je canpxcaje na TB, na KOM-njYTepy, y xrpaoaauaaa ... Ha)KalIOCT, TJ1 CaAp)KajJ1 cy J1CKlbYQJ1BOHeraTJ1BHJ1(HecTallIlIYl.l;J1, "y6J1CTBa", 6e306pa31IyK, oroBapalba, nonererarsa ...). TpaAJ1l.l;J10-HanHJ1 CaAp)KajJ1 HaMelbeHJ1 Ael.l;J1J1 MnaAJ1Ma rpahenn cy na npanuany 60p6eA06pa M sna, na eCTeTMQKOMMAeany. Y csaxoj rpanauaoaanaoj npMQM npaxasa-Ho je sno M A06po, alIM cy ce neua YBeK M HenOrpellIJ1BO onrry-rasana aa MMltITltIpa-Ibe M npMXBaTalbe notipa M HMKOHltIje nocraszsao 6ajKy, y KOjOj je M3pa)KeHO 31I0,Kao np06neM. Hanporas. HeraTltIBHO y npltlQM, nere je npen03HaBalIo ltI 0,n;6aU;M-Bano ra, 3allITo? Ilourro je rpaznnmoaazraa noponaua ynpa)KlbaBalIa casco nna,

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in MorynMx ner BacnMTHMX MO~eJIa, M3BOP ca xojer ce ~pnM aerrorpeunrn Ocenaj

sa ~06po, HMje 6MO 3aTpnaH. ,lJ;06po ce npen03HaBaJIO M MMMTMpaJIO.

,lJ;aHac, non yrnnaje« ner nJIMllIaHMX, neua BpJIO paHO ry6e cnoc06HOCT na npeJ03Hajy M3BOPHO notipo. IIlTo je jour rope nere HeM a HM M360p jep MM KpeaTopM

:aBpeMeHMX canpacaja HM He ayne notipo, xao xoryha anrnnon 3JIy. I1orne~ajTe

~pTaHe Q)J1JIMOBe,sehxaa HM HeMa n03MTMBHor jynaxa. 3JIO Mje~aH MJIM MHOIliTBO

fl:eraTMBHMX jynaxa y lbeMy.

AKO MM M nonyne notipo, yrnaBHoM je pes 0 HaMeTalbY HecTBapHMx jynaxa, KOjl1:

cnaurasajy nJIaHeTY on 3JIa, a ca KojMMa ce neua M~eHTM¢MKyjy, Y3 ~o~aTHO yse-haise crpaxa, Ha oaaj HaqMH crpax ce ~o~aTHO ysehasa 360r TaKO reuncor 6peMe-

aa KOjM MM ce crasrsa na aejaxa nneha.J13HeHa~a, nOCJIe MHoro rO~MHa rposarsa neue peqeHI1:M ca~p)J(ajMMa, nojaBI1:JII1:

cy ce ¢MJIMOBM y xojasra cy jacuo pa3rpaHI1:qeHM ~06pl1: o~ JIOIlIMX jynaxa. Y3MI1:-

MO ¢MJIMOBe 0 MaJIOM HO~Mjy. PO~MTelbM cy onaxaymr. KOHaqHO canpzcaja KOjl1:

JIMqe na canpscaje M3 aaurer ~eTMlbCTBa. Ha)J(aJIOCT, nrnnuaaa neua rnenajy HO~I1:-

[a, spennauy, nourreisaxaay, a xana YCTaHY, MMMTMpajy 3JIe jynaxe KOjM HonnjaMCMeBajy, nozniehy MY, Myqe ra. 3aIlITO? J13ry611:JIM cy cnOC06HOCT npenoaaasa-lba notipa. YHMIlITeHa MM KJII1:~a Ilotipa, xoja nenorpeunrno nerexryje 3JIO M ycsa-ja ra. OHM caxio MMMTMpajy OHO IlITO je lbMMa CJIMqHO. CaBpeMeHO nJIl1:llIaHO nereje neiso, 3aBM~HO, noxnenao, arpeCMBHO, sacrpaureao, a TaKBI1: cy M 3JIM jynaua.

,lJ;eJIMMMqHOpeurerse? YKI1:HI1:MOneua TeJIeBM3Mjy, caxyaajao MX O~ HeraTMBHMX

canpzcaja. I1JIMlliaHa neua He Mopajy cenern y BJIaCTMToj KynM nope~ TaKBMX canp-xcaja, aJII1:Ben npM npBOM cycpeTY ca 3JIOM na yJIM~M, y sprnhy, y IlIKOJIM, Y Ka¢M-

hy, na TpeHMHry, noxymrhe ra, a BM nehere 3HaTM IlITa ce noraha. I10cnYllIaJIM CTe

caspeaene cTpyqlbaKe yKMHyJIM My Y nOTnYHOCTM CJIMKeca eKpaHa, a KOPMCTHI1:Ka-

KBa. Ee3 yKM~alba qeTMpl1: nrnnuaaa MO~eJIa M3JIa3M3 osor JIaBMpl1:HTanehesro HaDI1:.

Kana ~OHeceMO O~JIyKy ~a ca nopO~M~OM y1)eMo y CTBapaJIaqKO aacrnrrarse, y

npouec passoja CBeCHOCTM, Jby6aBMI1: nOBpaTKa J13BOPY rana MopaMO nOIliTOBa-

TM HeKM pe~ CTBapM. IJ;eJIa nopO~M~a, xax M MaJIa neua, ~OBOlbHO je na cy nporo-

BOpI1:JIa,Mopajy ~y60KO pa3YMeTM ~a cy nmnuaaa MO~eJIMY3pO~MlbMXOBI1:X MyKa

M rpetia MX Bep6aJIHO, 3HaJIaqKM yn030pMTM na cy TO y3POqHM~M 3JIa M ~a MX ce sanoxerax rpetia BOlbHO OCJI060~MTM.

Hajseha MyKa je O~BMKaBalbe O~ BMpTyeJIHe"M ay~MTMBHe 3aBMCHOCTM. Malba

neua MMajy CJIMKY xao npory, crapxja MY3MKY, xao ~pory. ]JaKO he ce npOBepJl!-

TJI!KO je 3aBMCTaH O~ BMpTyeJIHe M ay~MTJI!BHe ~pore, a KO je casro seha 6poj caTJI!

npe~ eKpaHOM, MJIM ca CJIyllIaJIM~aMa aa YIlIJI!Ma, a HJI!je 3aBMCHMK.

Hac raje npaBa naaxxa KO~ 3aBMCHMKa xana npe~JIO)J(MM na ce 6ap ce~aM

nana HanpaBM rnyBa coria on xyhe, na ce CBe MCKlbyqM, na ce CBM eKpaHJI! norace.

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nOHy~l1M MJIa~MMa nOTnYHo pa~MKaJIHO o~pM~albe on TB, xosmjyrepa. Yrnas-HOM MJIa~JI! lby~M, neua npxsaajy na 3a TO HJI!CycnpeMHM. Tana ce ~oroBopMMO ~a

ce cKJI!~ajy nocryrmo. ,lJ;anpaTe M cscaisyjy 6poj earn xoje npoBo~e nope~ eKpa-

na (HJI!Cy 6MTHM canpzcaja), Ilorosopavo ce yHanpe~, YKOJIMKO He 6y~y MOrnl1:

caMI1:~a cseny rnenaise na MJI!HMMyM M ~a ce nOTnYHO o~peKHy Jl!rpJl!~a y KojMMa

cy y6J1!jalbe, nacazse, nopHO ¢JI!JIMOBM, rnasna TeMa, OH~a he My pO~MTelbM nOMO-

nJl!, TaKO IlITO he Jl!CKlbyqMTM CBe eKpaHe, 6ap na Mece~ nana.Yn030pJl!M caaoxpane MajKe ~a "IlIOK" reparmjy, 6p30 M nOTnYHO cxanan,e, He

MOry 11:3BeCTJI!caMe jep nere, MaKO je npMCTaJIO aa capa~lby, no yKM~alby csera,nOCTaje HeBepOBaTHO arpeCMBHO. Ty Mopa noaohx 6MBllII1: cynpyr, yjax, CTpl1:I.J;,

npJl!jaTelb. Eop6a ca HeCBeCHMM ~eTeTOM rpaje 11:no HeKOJIMKOearn, BMKa, rpmse,nCOBalbe, rrpeionosarse, nporonosarse, y~apalbe M o~je~HoM MMp. Kao ~a ce nexaxonpena MaKJIa nerery ca M03ra.

AncTJI!HeH~Mja o~ BMpTyeJIHOr, nOCJIeosor MyqHor CKI1:~alba, rpetia ~a rpaje OHO-

JIMKO KOJIJI!KOje norperino ~a ~o1)e ~o qMllInelba M03ra, (nerne MeCeI.J;,rrerne M no

nOJIa rO~JI!He). To HMje JIaK nepMo~ M y lbeMY He rpetia Tpa)J(MTM 3aMeHY TaKO IlITO

here reparx ~eTe ~a qMTa KlbMre, Mrpa ~OMMHe, KapTe M CJI. CBe cy TO 06JIMI.J;M HM)J(e

BMpTyeJIHe CTBapHOCTM. Y nepMo~y CKM~alba M~MTe ca nereroxi y npMpo~y, 6aBMTe

ce cnoproa, nesajre, TpqMTe, rnenajre ce KaKO zaraenare jep MM HM He 3HaMO KO MMa

rmase, a KO upae OqM y rroponmm ... ITpBM 3Ha~M onopaBKa cy xana nere no-nose ca

JIaKOnOM~a yqM, ca JIaKOnOM ~a npeTBapa TeKCTy CJIMKe,xana MO)J(ernac HaCTaBHM-

xa MJIM pomrrersa ~a npeTaqe y CJIMKe.I10JIaKO aJIM CMryPHO nere no-nose ~a paasajaCBeCHOCT,Jby6aB npexra ysea.y, pa~y, BaMa, npeMa lby~MMa yornure, npeMa ~06pMM

TB M KOMnjYTepCKMM canpacajava, ~06pMM KlbMraMa M peaJIHMM aKTMBHOCTMMa.

~HO IlITO crporo Mopa na ce nourryje TO je saopaaa apahaisa HaCMJIHMM ca~p-

)J(aJM~a. Kana ce M03aK nOTnYHo OqMCTM o~ BMpTyeJIHMX "BMpyca" razta nehenocToJaTM HM saopaaa, nere ce spaha eKpaHY, aJIM HMKa~a BMllIe xao 3aBMCHMK.

TaAa CBe M ~a xohe He MO)J(e~a ynpaxosaaa HeraTMBHe canpxcaje, HMTM MO)J(ecare)f(I1:BOTana ry6M rmnryha 6eCMMCJIeHe nopYKe na ¢ejc6yKy M CJI. OBaKaB HaqMH"CKI1:Aalba" 6 ., ys AO POBOlbHM npMCTaHaK AeTeTa, ys MCToBpeMeHo nOTnYHo M TpaJ-

HO YKMAalbe Ka3He, aarpane, rrpesanrrahasan,a M Bep6aJIM3Ma BO~M CBecHocTM,a 3aBI1:CHOCT, xao MyKa caspesrenor aYTopMTapHor xoaexa ce amue He noaasrsaHI1: . "y JeAHoj 06JIacTJ1.

lieKM CTpyqlba~M TBPAe na je 21. BeK, BeK 3aBMCHOCTM.3allITo? Saro llITO ce nJIM-lUaHI1:Mna .'cnaran.ev onaajasro on ce6e, on caor M3Bopa, O~ csor 6MDa, a MCTOBpe-MeHO ce M. opasto npMBe3aTM sa HeKM cnozsaunsa jap60JI, na Hac BeTap He oznrece,a )ap60JIa .c je na nperex. Kana CMOMaJIM Ty cy eKpaHM, MaJIO crapnja YJIa3e y 3aBJI!-

liOCT on . .M MY3J1!Ke,a JOlli CTapJl!)JI!Y 3aBJI!CHOCTon MeHTaJIHOr cexca, 6p3e aoxose,

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aesnpaae XpaHe, KOU;KeJ1 CJI. Csaeha je cBy,n;a OKO nJIJ1UlaHJ1X lby,n;J1,CaMO Tpe6a6aU;J1TJ1nearep. Ha cpehy, CTBapaJIa'lKa CBeCT HJ1je 60JIeCHO 3aBJ1CHa HJ1 on KOraJ1HJ1on xera. ,lJ;y60KO CBeCTaH 'IOBeK je ua CBOMJ13BOPY,aeoryhea o,n;ce6e J1CBor6J1ha. TaKaB 'IOBeK npaBJ1 3,n;paB J1360p y )l(J1BOTY,jep 3,n;paBo 6J1pa snpaso.

Cana HaM je jacaaje 3aUlTO ce caspesren 'IOBeK, J1nope,n; rora UlTO My je rocno,n;nao J1360p J13Me1)yIlotipa J13JIa, HenOrpeUlJ1BO seayje sa 3JIo. HJ1je np06JIeM y 3JIY,isera je 6J1JIO J16J1he, np06JIeM je y O,n;CYCTBY,lJ;y60Ke cBeCHOCTJ1,y oTy1)eHOCTJ1 o,n;60)l(aHCKe, J13BOpHe npJ1po):le, y O):lCyCTBylby6aBJ1 J1,lJ;06pOTe. ]e):lHOMpesjy, J1CKPJ1-nzsena lby6aB, ,lJ;06poTa J1CBeCHOCT He rrpenosaajy cnorsaunse Ilotipo J13aTO J1XHenOrpeUlJ1BO oxapaaa cnorsaunse 3JIO. Ha cpehy, BeJIJ1KJ16poj lby,n;J1caBpeMeHorCBeTa he ce BpaTJ1TJ1 CBOMe J13BOPY,npeMa TOMe J1 cnozsaunsea Ilotipy, YKOJIJ1KOCXBaTe na je 6J1JIO xoja ,n;pecypa 'IOBeKa nnanecer npBor sexa J13JIJ1UlHa, na 3BaJIace OHa J1 nJIJ1UlaHa. YKJ1HYTJ1,n;pecypy aan ,n;pyrJ1M, nan C060M 3Ha'lJ1 noaparaxJ13BOPY,a aa J13BOPYje ,lJ;y60Ka CBeCHOCT.

BpaTJ1MO ce MJ1aauroj npJ1'1J1U;J10 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1aaure ne-nrue on "nplbaBe" CJIJ1KeJ1JOIll "nplbaBJ1jer ,,3BYKa. CKpeHYJIa caM BaM naxosy, ,n;parJ1 MOjJ1ponnrezsa, naCBaKJ106JIJ1K xazcrsaaan-a nerera, TaKO IllTO My Meceu; nana YKJ1HeTe eKpaH, J1JIJ1J1CKlbY'lJ1TeMY3J1KY,HeMa BeJIJ1KOranasaja. M03aK je BeJIJ1Ka'IeKaJIJ1u;a. OH je CMJ1-peH y CBOjOjHeCBeCHOCTJ1,jep OH 3Ha nrra xexa, a KOJIJ1KO,n;yro, HJ1je My 6J1THO. ToHe 'IJ1HJ1Te. Y noroaopy ca CBOjJ1M,n;eTeTOM,n;OHeCJ1TeO,n;JIyKyna KOjJ1Ha'lJ1H he cenere CKJ1,n;aTJ1ca BJ1pTyeJIHe J1JIJ1ay,n;J1TJ1BHe",n;pore". Ilocreneno J1JIJ1o,n;je,n;HoM.

MYKa, aJIJ1 J1peIlleI-be np06JIeMa nacraje xana caxr 3aBJ1CHJ1K,na nO'leTKY Tepa-naje, nourarse CBOMeM03ry J1H<popMaU;J1jy):laje ca J1rpOM HeCBeCHor YMa aaspureno.,lJ;eTe rpeoa ,n;anourazse J1H<p0pMaU;J1jy M03ry ,n;aHJ1Ka,n;aBJ1Ille aehe ynpa)l(IMBa-TJ1ne-rosexae canpzcaje, nonYT J1rpJ1u;a rryuaxana, norryr ... nere 3Ha CBOjy MyKy.Teunco jecre, aJIJ1pe3YJITaTJ1 cy CJ1rypHJ1, TpajHJ1. ,lJ;OKrpaje "CKJ1,n;aI-be",ynpaxosa-na ce BaCnJ1TaI-be 6e3 Ka3He J1 6e3 Harpa,n;e, nere ce YBO,n;J1y caraopan ... To je rryrrpajaor oCJI06a1)aI-ba 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1,y u;eJIOCTJ1.

ITocJIe nO'leTHJ1X MyKa rpetia HaCTaBJ1TJ1ca BaCnJ1TaI-beM 6e3 Ka3He J16e3 narpa-ne. HOBJ1 CTJ1JI)l(J1BOTa,n;OHOCJ1HOBe omroce Me1)y lbY):lJ1Ma,aJIJ10 HOBJ1O):lHOC):IeTe-Ta npeMa BJ1pTyeJIHoj J1 ay,n;J1TJ1BHojcTBapHOCTJ1. Ilere he npJ1JIa3J1TJ1 KPJ1TJ1'1KJ1csaxoj nojaan xojy onaunose eKpaH. ITOUlTO BJ1Ille HeMa 3aBJ1CHOCTJ1y u;eJIOCTl1nere, xana J1 aKO 6J1pa HeraTJ1BHe canpzcaje, Y3J1Ma caxro OHO IllTO je y <PYHKU;l1jl1pacra lby6aBJ1, ,lJ;y60Ke CBeCHOCTJ1.Cana je YM nerera KOjJ1yspacra y cBecHoCTl1,KpJ1TJ1'1aH J1CeJIeKTJ1BaH, jep YBeK J1CBe MepJ1 apIlll1HOM csoje J13BOpHe J1CTl1He.

PeTKO 6J1 xoje nere TO nOCTJ1fJIO6e3 nOMohJ1 uerre noponaue xoja je ,n;06POBOlb-HO yuma y CTBapaJIa'lKO sacmrrarse J16e3 iseroaor nytioxor pa3YMeBal-ba CYIllTl1-He aYTOpJ1TapHOCTJ1 J16JIaro,n;aTJ1 CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacrrrrrarsa.

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ITpJ1MeTJ1JIa caM na MajKe y CBOMnpeTepaHOM npe3aUlTJ1hJ1BaI-bY nere ra YBeKl1Majy J1CTJ1KOMeHTap: "AKO ce nere o,n;pJ1'1eeKpaHa TO 6J1 Mopao, Y'lJ1HJ1TJ1J1orau,O,n;HOCHOCBJ1".To je seh nOBO,n;aa oTnop npeMa OBOM BaCnJ1TaI-bY. Saurro 6J1 CTeKa)i{lbaBaJIJ1 oua J1OCTaJIe 'IJIaHOBe nopo,n;J1u;e, aKO HJ1CY3aBJ1CHJ1U;J1on BJ1pTyeJI-nor. ,lJ;a 6J1 nerery 6J1JIO JIaKUle eKpaH ce MO)l(e CTaBJ1TJ1y HeKJ1 Mal-bJ1 npoCTop,YKJIOHJ1TJ1ra J13nnesne eerie, J13):Ie'lJ1je cofie, Y1Ha'le eKpaH :rrOCTOjJ1,TOje rrorpetiacaBpeMeHor 'IOBeKa. To je nOTnYHo HeBJ1H J13yM CBe ,n;OKra He 3JIoynoTpe6J1MO, aHeheMO ra 3JIoynoTpe6J1TJ1 YKOJIJ1KOCMOCBeCHJ1.CBeCTaH 'IOBeK he KOH3YMJ1paTJ1ca,n;p)i{aje KOjJ1He saycraazsajy rseros ):IYXOBHJ1paCT, a J1xana ce aahe npe,n; HeraTJ1B-Hl1Mca,n;p)l(ajJ1Ma nehe 6J1TJ1 I-bJ1XOBa)l(pTBa seh aYTeHTJ1'1HJ1,CBeCHJ1KpJ1TJ1'1ap.

,lJ;eU;J1HapaBHO, xao 6l1hJ1Ma y paasojy MopaMO nOMohJ1. Moj caner je jacan, ,lJ;0Tpehe romnte nere HeMa urra na Tpa)l(J1 npe):l eKpaHoM. Mopa ce eMOU;J10HaJIHOyqBp-CTJ1THY peaJIHJ1M eMOU;J1jaMa.Ilepaon no ce,n;Meronxae je speae orsopenor, ymrja-jyher YMa, KaKO xaxce rocnoha MOHTeCOpJ1 J13aTO CBe IllTO CTaBlbaMO y ,n;e'lJ1jJ1yM,n;oce,n;Meronxae, ,n;OU;HJ1je,n;J1pJ1ryjenereroxr, J13 iseroae noncaecrn. 3aTo,n;0 ce,n;Mero,n;J1He,n;albJ1HCKJ1Mopa 6J1TJ1BaH ,n;oMaIllaja nerera, a po,n;J1Telbje raj KOjJ16J1pa urrahe J1KOJIJ1KO,n;yro he nere HeUlTO ,n;arnena. CTBapaJIa'lKH po,n;HTelb npecraje ,n;aKyKaKaKOje ,n;pyurTBO KPJ1BOIllTO CTBapa nporpaMe, KOjJ1cy na IllTeTY lbJ1XOBeneue, CaTHMBeTpelba'laMa ce nopo,n;J1u;a He MO)l(e H360pJ1TJ1. YOCTaJIOM,CBJ1JIOIllJ1BJ1pTyeJI-HH J1ay,n;J1TJ1BHJ1np0J13Bo,n;J1 ce MOry KynJ1TJ1 J1y npo,n;aBHJ1U;J1,a xyrryjy ce BaIllJ1Mnapaaa J1y3 saur 6JIarOCJIOB. Crsapajao MJ1 HOBJ1KOBCTBapaJIa'lKe neue, KOjJ1hecyrpa KpeJ1paTJ1 )l(J1BOTJ1CBe nporpaMe J13paBHJ1 caoje crnapanaxxe CBeCTJ1.

,lJ;0rana, Y3MJ1Te Cy,n;6J1Hycsoje noponmre y caoje pYKe, 3HaJIa'lKJ1, aa PanocrnOTOMaKa. AKO CJIJ1KOBHJ1u;e,KI-bJ1re ca IllTO Mal-be CJIJ1KaJ1notipe npJ1'1e ponrrre-zsa 6Y):ley J1306J1lbY, ,n;oce,n;Me ronnae, y O,n;HOCYna expan, J1MaheTe notipor 1)aKa,notipor J1CBeCHor 'IOBeKa. Hapaano na caspeveaa poznrrers nOJIy,n;J1na MOj pa,n;J1-KaJIHJ1CTaB rrpeva eKpaHY, a ja casro ,n;o,n;aM:"BaIlle nere, saura 6pl1ra. Ko He rrJIaTJ1na MOCTY,nnaha na hyrrpnjx".

3az,uulO je 8aJICHO uociuauu: C8eCUlaH? JJa nu UlO gOHOCUtto8eKY HeKY UOCe6HY cpehy U KOpUCUl?

~aAa Me rrJ1TaTe 0 Ba)l(HOCTJ1 oxysarsa, yaanpeheisa J1 paaanjarsa CBeCHOCTl1,TO~e MCTOKao na Me nJ1TaTe 3aIllTO ,lJ;YHaBMopa na re-re 6aIll TJ1M KOPJ1TOM, xana

MCMOMy MOfJIl1npOMeHJ1TJ1 TOK. Carta BaM je jacao na ce TOKrrpJ1po,n;e 'IOBeKa HeCMeMel-baTl1. Pobersesr ,n;OHOCl1MOKJIl1u;e,lJ;y60Ke CBeCHOCTl1, Ilotipore l1 lby6aBl1,

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P;OHOCl1MOl1 Ilorenuajan, KOjl1HaM sazsa OCTBap"T" sa )I(l1BOTa.,Uy60Ka CBeCHOCTje nama seaa ca EorOM, a OH je J;1cTl1Ha l1 ITyT.

Ha BaCnl1Tal.Il1Maje p;a nOTOMQl1Maosroryhe )I(l1BOTl1 pap; y ycnOBl1Ma 6e3 ayro.p"TapHOCT". AKO CMOCBe nouena poheisei«, sazsa HaM TO l1 pa3Bl1Tl1.

J.1aKo CTBapanal.JKl1 ycnOBl1 naaac, na urnpea nnaay He rrocroje, P;OBOJbHOjena l1XCTBOP"MO nerery y noponnua, y HajBa)l(Hl1joj npyurraenoj henaja. AKO jenoponxua BOJbHa p;a yt)e y craaparrasxo aacnaraise, TO je rtoxerax CTBapanal.JKeTpaHC<popMaQl1je p;pyllITBa.

3aUlUW je y Ulpaguu,uoHam·lOj uopoquuu 6UllO UleUlKOoaueapuiuu caeCHOCUl, a y caepeueno] je UlO totuoooneuotyhe?

Tpanauaona noponnua rOTOBOHe nOCToJ~1y caBpeMeHOM CBeTY,jep cy l.Jyp;aBl1PTy-enaor CBeTa l1H<pl1Ql1pana CBaKYnoponauy na Kyrnl1 aextazscxo]. CBl1Xner BaCOl1T-Hl1XMop;ena je YllIno y CBaKl1p;OM. PeKOCMOseh p;a je nyT P;O CBeCHOCTl1, ,U06poTel1 Jby6aBl1 rOTOBO HeMoryh, ys norrryay aYTOp"TapHocT.

Y nojyxepannsoj rpannuaonanaoj noponaun 6l1no je MHoro Bl1llIe CBeCHl1XJbYP;l1,jep je Tpap;l1Ql10HanHa noponaua KOp"CT"na caao rrpmryny l1 neptianasaa(xao onurre np"3HaTe BaCnl1THe MeTop;e). OCMM Tora, y rpanamroaanuoj nopona-Ql1, nl1paMl1p;a je, uearpanasauajoa BnaCTl1, onpehxsana nopomorne l1npyurrseaeBpep;HOCTl1.Ca Bpxa mrpasome ycrrocrasrsao ce Cl1CTeMBpep;HOCTl1.Hiera je saaoCBaKl1l.JOBeK,CBaKa noponnua, onpehenor acropnjcxor nepaona. Te Bpep;HOCTl1,MaKaKBe p;a cy, Mopane cy ce nOllITOBaTl1, Ml1nOM(Bep6anl13MoM) l1nl1 Cl1nOM(npmry-p;OM). ql1TanaQ Mopa 3anaMTl1Tl1 p;a cy l1 Bep6anl13aM l1 npl1Hyp;a 06nl1Ql1 npl1Hyp;el1 3aTO je npOnl1CaHe Bpep;HOCTl16l1no TellIKO l1CnOllITOBaTl1.CBl1 cy ce Tpyp;l1nl1 p;aHaMeTHYTO, nayseno nourryjy, jep ayropnrapna CBeCTYBeK l1Ma crpax on pasna-l.Jl1TOCTl1l1 CTpax p;a he 6l1Tl1 caHKQl10Hl1CaHa YKOnl1KOHe nourryje MopanHe, xna-CHe Bpep;HOCTl1,BpeMeHa y KojeM )I(l1Bl1.Ilornenajao 0 KaKBl1Mje Bpep;HOCTl1Mapes.

Mopanne epeqnociuu

Mopanae Bpep;HOCTl1 cy 6l1ne Bpep;HOCTl1Bnap;ajyhl-iX xrraca. Y OKBl1PYnopOp;l1-ue, xao l1 y OKBl1PYTpap;l1Ql10HanHOr npyurrsa Ta'lHO ce snano xoja je xnaca. l1nJ1

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J(ojJ1 je nojep;l1HaQ aa BpXy onpeheae p;pYllITBeHe nl1paMl1p;e. Ha BpXy nopomrs-He nl1paMl1p;e BeKOBl1Maje 6110 MyllIKapaQ, OTaQ. CBe je 6l1no rronpeheno tbeMY,re cy ce Tal.JHOaaane MopanHe HopMe xoje je aarsano nOllITOBaTl1 P;OK OTaQ )I(l1Bl1.

MajKa je 6l1na na BPxy nOpOp;l1l.JHenl1paMl1p;e, y Op;HOCYna neuy, aajcrapnje nere je6J1no aa spxy y OP;HOCYaa Mnaljy netry ... YBeK cy MopanHe Bpep;HOCTl16l1JIe y KOP"CTOHora ca apxa napasorne. Y paHOM Kanl1Tanl13MY, xa npMMep, na BPxy nl1paMl1p;e6J1JIaje BJIap;ajyha Kanl1TaJIl1CTl1l.JKaxnaca. CBe IllTOje OHaYCTaHOBl1JIaxao Bpep;HOCT,MopaJIa je nOllITOBaTl1OHa npyra crpana, l1aKOje MHOrl1Ma6l1JIOjacno na cy TO nOT-nyHO l1HTepeCHe Bpep;HOCTl1,a He l.JOBe'IHe (xana l.JOBeKeKCnJIOaTl1llIe l.JOBeKa,TOjeMopaJIHO, aJIMHeMa OP;JIl1KYse-nre Bpep;HOCTl1,jep l.JOBeKl.JOBeKYje l.JOBeK,a He "BYK").

,Ua 611noponaua, P;PYllITBO,nojenaaau YCBOjl1JIl1OBe Bpep;HOCTl1,nocrojano je6e36poj ayTOpl1TapHl1X Hal.Jl1Ha. KOp"CTMJIa ce KOH<pOPMl1CTl1l.JKaYMeTHOCTxojaje Tpajana caxo OHOJIl1KOKOJIl1KOrpaje l1 snanajyha KJIaCa, a l1MaJIa je sa Ql1Jbp;a na"nJIl1llIaHl1 Hal.Jl1H"nasene l.JOBeKap;a rrpxxsara YCTaHOBJbeHe Bpep;HOCTl1. Kopa-CTl1JIace npl1Hyp;a Bep6aJIHa. [OBOP"JIO ce: "Be)l(l1 xorsa, rne Tl1 rasna xazce", llITO6113Hal.Jl1JIOp;a ce onaj ca Bpxa nl1paMl1p;e Mopa 6e3YCJIOBHOCJIYllIaTl1l1 oana xanaHl1je Hl1 Ml1CJIl10,Hl1 panao p;o6po.

Te Bpep;HOCTl1cy 6l1JIe npOJIa3He, aJIl1 y BpeMeHY y KojeM cy Ba)l(l1JIe, MOpaJIe cy6l1Tl1ycsojeae l1 6l1JIe cy ycaajaae 6aTl1HOM l1JIl1Bep6aJIl13MOM, Cl1JIOMl1nl1 Ml1nOM.

Benne epeqnociuu

qOBeK Tpap;l1Ql10HaJIHe CBeCTl1l1MaOje MHoro sehe mance na nOBpeMeHO npeno-3Ha craise Jby6aBl1, ,Uo6poTe, CBeCHOCTl1y cetia, npeMa TOMe JIaKOje re spenao-CTl1npenoaaasao Y.3anl1Cl1Ma CBeCHl-iXJbYP;l1.ITP0l13BOp;e p;yxa, CBeCHl1XJbYP;l1,JbYP;l1Jby6aBl1l1,Uo6pOTe, renepauaje cy naMTl1JIe l1xyaane. TaKBl1Xsanaca HeMaMHoro, ana ax je YBeK 6l1JIOP;OBOJbHOna 6yp;y onoveaa, aKO l.JOBeKCKpeHe ca rryrat{oBel.JHOCTl1.Ilornenajao CBeTe Ktbl1re. Ilornenajsro casro naponae nOCJIOBl1Qe,He CBe, norxenajao KaKBe jaxe, sexae nopyxe npeHoce BeKOBl1Ma l.JOBel.JaHCTBY.nornep;ajMo noeanjy, Ktbl1)1(eBHOCT,MY3l1KY,YMeTHOCT,<pl1JI030<pl1jy xoja npOHO-eM Bet{He spenaocra, on nOCTaHKa l.JOBeKaP;O naaac. OBaKBl1X OHTOJIOllIKl1Xnena,HeMa MHoro, aJIl1l1X l1Ma P;OBOJbHO.Te l1TaKBe Bpep;HOCTl1cy npe)l(l1BeJIe cyn Bpe-MeHa M 3aTO ce aosy sexae spenaocra. Bexae Bpep;HOCT cy ce l.JYBaJIe l1 npeno-CMlIe CKoneHa aa xonexo. Bpesre xoje je npep; HaMa je BpeMe Bel.JHl1XBpep;HOCTl1.AaHae l1XHl1KOHe rrosonse, alll1 mrraa.e je nasa xana he 'lOBeK y tbl1Ma rroxern naTpa)f(M MHCnl1paQl1jy aa crsapanaurrao y rpehea Ml1neHl1jyMy.

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Ha)KalIOCT, 360r ynorpetie nsa ayropnrapaa, BaCnl1THa Mop;elIa, 360r orpOMHeHare aYTOpl1TapHOr CI1CTeMay OKBI1PYxspcre nl1paMI1p;e, MallO je OHI1XKOjl1cy[MalIl1 cnary p;a OBe aexae Bpep;HOCTI1)KI1Be11cnenoae CBOjl1M)KI1BOTOM.3aTO cy:e 11OBe Bpep;HOCTI1yql1lIe Ml1lIOM111I11Cl1lIOM.

,IJ;aHac BI1P;I1Mna je 11TO I1MalIOCBOjyBpep;HOCT,jep oaaj KOy paHOM p;eTl1lbCTBYrayxa, MeMOpl111IeHeKOlIl1~I1Hy BeqHI1X Bpep;HOCTI1I1MaBelIl1KYllIaHCY, xan op;pa-.re, na noxyura 11p;a I1Xnpl1MeHI1 y )KI1BOTY111I11p;a I1Xnecefia-mo, ann oner Bep-5alII13MOM,rrpeHOCI1 rrOTOM~I1Ma. EOJbI1je 11septianaaaxr Hero 3a60paB, OTytjelbe)P; BeQHOr, zsyncxor, Ee3 BeQHI1XBpep;HOCTI1HeMa paasoja CBeCHOCTI1.

Bpeqnociuu caepemenoi ceetua

IIojaCHl1lIl1 CMOpa31Il1Ky l13Metjy MOpalIHl1X l1 BeQHl1XBpep;HOCTl1.Mopanae npen-HOCTl1 cy ce MelbalIe, a BeQHe CMO rrpeaocnna, l13 crapor, y HOBl1 l1CTOPl1jCKl1rrepl1op;. BeQHe Bpep;HOCTl1 cy yrnaaaoa npaxsaraae na Bep6alIHOM Hl1BOY,jepayTOpl1TapHl1 Cl1CTeM Hl1je p;03BOJbaBaO QOBeKY cran-e Jby6aBl1, a 6e3 Jby6aBl1HeMa 3a)Kl1BJbaBalba BeQHl1XBpep;HOCTl1y )KI1BOTYJbYP;l1.

IIOlIOBl1HOM rrpOllilIor sexa, a CBe ce noxnornoro ca pYllielbeM aYTOpl1TapHOrCl1CTeMal1 napasorne, QOBeKpasanjeaor CBeTa nmue KOHBEHIJ;J1JE 0 IIPABM-MA qOBEKA. Beh rana cy paaaajemr l1MalIl1 npenocehaj na he ce ayTOpl1Tap-Hl1 Cl1CTeMYCKOPOCpyllIl1Tl1 Y ~elIOM cBeTY. 3HalIl1 cy p;a neurro Mopa p;a aexceCBe Jbyp;e CBeTa. IIPABA, TO je 36l1Jba onronapajyha peQ. YCTaHOBJbeHa npaaa ceMopajy rrourroaarx. Heurro llITO ce Mopa nourrosarn MO)Kece nocrxhn Ml1lIOMl11Il1Cl1lIOM(oner ayropnrapaonrhy Y BpeMeHY y xojea ce crrpeMaMo aa narryurra-ise aYTOpl1TapHOCTI1).

qOBeK paannjenor CBeTa 3aTO l1 Hl1je ynorpetino peQ YHMBEP3AJIHE BPE,IJ;-HOCTM seh KOPl1CTl1peQ IIPABA. Kana Ka)KeMOYHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1,l1CKJbY-Ql1BO Ml1ClIl1MOna Bpep;HOCTl1 xoje cy rrocnemma ,IJ;06poTe l1 Jby6aBl1, CTaIbaQOBeKOBe CBeCTl1, y Op;CYCTBYaYTOpl1TapHOCTl1. Kana ce rra)KJbl1BO aHalIl13l1pajyIlpasa QOBeKa l1 Ilpaaa nerera Mopa ce rrpaanarn na, na Bep6alIHOM Hl1BOY,Behl1-na npasa l1Ma YHl1Bep3alIHo aaaxerse. Heurro llITO je YHl1Bep3alIHO, neurro llITO jey cxnany ca yayrpaunsroa norpeoaaa CBl1XJbYP;11CBeTa, He MO)Ke3a)Kl1BeTl1, YKO-lIl1KOce crrposona HaCl1lIHO (a HaCl1lIHI1cy CBl1ayTOpl1TapHl1 MOp;elIl1)

Kao llITO pOp;I1TeJb He MO)KeCl1lIOMHaMeTHYTI1 nerery 6l11I0 urra, rra Hl1 Bpep;-HOCTxoja je 36l1Jba IberOBa rrpl1pOp;Ha norperia, a xana Ka)KeM HaCl1lIHO Ml1ClIMMna ynorpetiy 11Ka3He l1 narpane. Y 06a cny-raja Kpl1BI1ce 113BOpHa rrpl1pop;a rra M

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MorynHOCT na OHO llITO HYP;I1MO3a)KI1BMKp03 Jby6aB. MCTO TaKO HI1 pasnajenxlieMajy ycnexa y crrpoaohersy Ilpasa QOBeKa Mnerera jep TO pap;e HaCl1lIHO.

KaKo oCTBapMTMIlpaso nerera na )KI1BMy rrOpOp;M~11oKpY)KeHO Jby6aBJbY, aKOraj MCTM pa3BMjeHl1 CBeT Hl1je CXBaTMOna Ka3Ha 11Harpap;a rrOHI111ITaBajyJby6aB

nopOP;M~M. ,IJ;aKlIe IIPABA QOBeKa l1 nerera aehe Mohl1 p;a 3a)Kl1Be y peanaosry . .)Kl1BOTYCBe P;OK ce He YKlIOHe y3POQHl1~l1 KOJl1OMeTaJY Ibl1XOBO3a)Kl1BJbaBalbe,ayTOpl1TapHl1 BaCrrl1THl1MOp;elIl1.,IJ;aKlIe,BelIl1Kl16poj IIPABA nerera l1 QOBeKa cyy paBlil1 BeQHl1XBpep;HOCTl1,alIl1 aa septiamroa Hl1Boy.lllTo ce Bl111Ie6yp;y HaCl1lI-no crrpOBOp;l1lIa aehn he oTrrop nocrojarx (urranoxi l1lIl1l1IapraperroM, l1CTOje)

BeQHe Bpep;HOCTl1cy nocnenaua Jby6aBl1 l1 Mory caxona 3a)Kl1Be TaMO rne jeJby6aB. Ha npyroj CTpaHl1 re YHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1norpeunro cy CTaBJbeHe yKaTerOpl1jy IIPABA. Kana xazceur npaso onna Ml1ClIl1l1Ina 3aKOH, a xana xaxceur3aKOH Ml1ClIl1l1Iaa Cl1lIy. Cl1lIOM ce MOry crrpOBeCTl1 rrpaBa, rrpolIa3He Bpep;HOCTl1,YHMBep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1He. HeKO noxyurasa na cronano yrypa y pyKaBl1~y. Osajnyr He BOP;l1y CBeCHOCT.Ine cy 3aKOH, anenosarse, narpahaaarse Ty je p;pecypa.Ine je npecypa, CBeCHOCTl1 HeMa.

Hexa upaea uoeexa uMajy meJICUHY 6et.tHUX epequoauu,a eenno ce He nauehe CUllOM.

IIlTa je y CBeMYTOMe p;06po, a urra je TO llITO he pasnajenn MOpaTl1 na MeIbajy aKO)KelIe, a xcene na YHl1Bep3alIHe Bpep;HOCTl1Be)KY CBe Jbyp;e CBeTa, jep je TO y CKlIa-P;y ca BpeMeHOM xoje je npen nasta.

qOBeK pasaajeaor CBeTa je l1HCTl1HKTl1BHOOCeTl10 p;a 360r pYllieIba aYTOpl1-TapHe rrl1paMI1p;e nehe I1MaTI1KOp;a YCTaHOBI1YHl1Bep3alIHl1 CI1CTeMBpep;HOCTI1.Mehy rrpoKlIaMOBaHI1M npasxaa I1Ma 11rrpOlIa3Hl1X Bpep;HOCTI1,anx TO cana Hl1je6I1THO. BI1p;elIl1 cy na HI1KOBI111IeHI1KOMeaehe Mohl1 na HaMeTHe onurreaaaceheMopalIHe Bpep;HOCTI1.IIpe Hero llITO ce xaoc, xao nocnernma pYllieIba ayTOpl1Tap-He rrl1paMI1p;e, noronao HeKOje aarrpasao Cl1HTe3YBeQHI1XBpep;HOCTI1.

Kao llITO cy nexe reaepannje samrcane ztecer 60)Kl1jl1x 3arrOBeCTI1,TaKO cy HeKI1JbYP;11pa3Bl1jeHor CBeTa CaQI1Hl1lIl1 cnncax YHl1Bep3alIHl1X Bpep;HOCTI1 Be3aHl1Xaa MYlIIKap~a, )KeHY 11nere. JbyP;}!!'MaTepl1jalIHo najpasaajeaajer nena CBeTa cynpeAOCeTl1lIl1 Moryhl1 xaoc KOjl1nacraje pYllielbeM aYTOpl1TapHOr CI1CTeMa11,I1CTO-BpeMeHo P;I1BJbalbener BaCrrl1THI1XMop;elIa. Aa JbYAI1He 611113ry6 111I11xovrrac, jep jeCBaI<arpyrra, CBaKI1QOBeKno-reo Aa ¢opcl1pa csoje BpeAHOCTI1,YjeAI1IbeHe Ha~l1je

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cy 1948.06jaBJ1JIe YHJ1Bep3aJIHY nexrrapaunjy 0 JbYP;CKJ1Mnpaanera. ,lJ;eKJIapaU;J1ja,xao CBOjU;J1Jb,rrpomallIaBa OrrllITJ1J1p;eaJIKOjJ1rpetia na rrOCTJ1rHYCBJ1HapOp;J1J1CBeHaU;J1je.Y rrpBoM KaTaJIory YHJ1Bep3aJIHJ1XJbYP;CKJ1XrrpaBa y J1CTOPJ1jJ1,rrpOKJIaMy_jy ce J1p;eq,J1HJ1llIYcanpxcaja JbYP;CKJ1XrrpaBa J1OCHOBHJ1XcJI060p;a aa CBe Jbyp;e aacBeTY.OBe 0p;pep;6e cy YCMepeHe aa MyllIKapu;e J1»cene, a otiyxsarajy J1npasa nerers,

1959. rOp;J1HeYjep;J1lbeHe HaU;J1jecy YCBojJ1JIe,lJ;eKJIapaU;J1jy0 npamoaa nereranpaxsarajyha, J13Me1)yOCTaJIOr, na nere rpetia p;a pacTe y rropomomoj Cpep;I1HI1,y arsrocrpepa cpehe, Jby6aBI1 J1pa3YMeBalba. AKO rra)J(JbJ1BOql1TaMO npaaa nere-ra, BJ1P;J1MOnotipy HaMepy 11)J(eJbY lbJ1XOBI1XayTopa p;a Y q!1TaBOM cBeTY CTBopejenan MaTepl1jaJIHO ypehen CBeT KOjl1rpetia na 6yp;e 3aCHOBaH na qOBeqHI1M npan.U;l1rrJ1Ma.Ka)J(eM na 611rpetiao, aJII1 HI1CYcTBOpeHI1 OCHOBHI1YCJIOBI1na 611qOBeKre rrpJ1HU;J1rre)J(J1Beo. KaKO MO)J(eHeKO KO)J(I1BJ1na rrpJ1HU;l1rrJ1MaayTOpJ1TapHO-CTI1,HeqOBeqHOCTI1, na crrpOBop;11 QOBeqHa npasa?

KaKO MO)J(erroxnenan, 3aBI1p;aH, arpeCI1BaH, 3aCTpallIeH, HeCBeCTaH, He3ap;OBO-zsan, ropn QOBeKp;pyroM QOBeKY,cynpysn, pOp;I1TeJbY,nerery p;a crnapa QOBeQHeYCJIOBeaa ocraaperse QOBeQHJ1XBpep;HOCTI1,xana je QOBeQHOCTlbeMY nenosaaraxareropnja. Pa3BJ1jeHJ1 CBeTje OQJ1mep;HOMI1CJII10p;a je P;OBOJbHO3a6paHI1TI1 6aTI1-Hy pOp;I1TeJbaJ1HaCTaBHJ1Ka,a CBe OCTaJIe 6aTI1He nojasarn n p;a cy CTBOpeHI1yCJIO-BI1aa QOBeQHOCT.OaTJ1HOM113aKOHOM ce He MO)J(eQOBeKHaTepaTJ1 na QOBeQHOCT.3aKOHOM J1CI1JIOMce MO)J(p;aMO)J(eycrroCTaBJ1TJ1 rrpJ1BI1p;aHcnorsaunsa pep;, aJIJ1y TOMpep;y HJ1KOHJ1Kora He MO)J(eHaTepaTJ1 p;a 6yp;e I1CTI1HCKI1notiap, jep notiapHI1Kap;aHJ1jep;06ap J13crpaxa I1JIl1l1HTepeca seh YBeKJ1jep;J1HO113Jhy6aBJ1. qOBeQ-HOCTJ1JII1J1MallI I1JII1HeM<lllI. Ty CJ1JIaHe rrosrazce. fp;e je CI1JIaTy je HeCBeCHOCT,arue je HeCBeCHOCTTy cy:

Ellyg U noeau KaO .epxyncxe" epequociuuCaapeMeHOf~oaeKa

CaBpeMeHJ1 CBeT je YMecTo y Jhy6aB, y Csecaocr J1p;YXOBHI1paCT, xao BpXyHCKI1U;J1Jbnaurer )J(I1BOTa, 3arrJIOBJ10 y MaTepJ1jaJIHO. Ha)J(aJIOCT, "BpXYHCKe" Bpep;HO-CTJ1rOTOBOCBJ1Xrpyrra J1rrojemmaua, caBpeMeHor p;pYllITBa cy oJIY,lJ; J1HOBAU·OJIYP;je BpXyHCKO3ap;OBOJbCTBOxpajise He3ap;OBOJbHOr,aaneror caapesreaor QOBe-xa, rrOCJIep;J1U;J1nnmuaae rrpJ1Hyp;e J1MoryhHOCTJ1 na ce Mep;J1jJ1MaHaMeTHe JIa)J( nacy 6JIyp; J1HOBau; jernrae J1J1CTJ1HCKeBpep;HOCTJ1.

Ha rrJIOQJ1)J(J1BOTacy J1p;YXOBHeJ1 KBa3J1 Bpep;HOCTJ1.CBe rrJIJ1Ba J1 na p;OMaKje pyxe caaxor QOBeKa. CBJ1 ce MallIajy 3a KBa3J1, aa rrpOJIa3HO, sa Xep;OHJ1CTJ1QKO,

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. rrOCTa)'e casro ce6J1 CBpxa. Saurro? I1eT rrJIJ1llIaHJ1Xy KOM6J1HaU;J1jJ1ca peaJI-KO)e .flOM npJ1HYP;OM,cnyna rrpJ1CYTHOM,He p;03BOJbaBa)y paCT KJIJ1u;eP;YXOBHOC~J1,ca

. M ce CBaKJ1QOBeK paha. qOBeKY KojeM ce KJIJ1u;ap;YXOBHOCTJ1He pa3BJ1)a, na1(0)0npBOM MeCTYJhy6aBJbY, ,lJ;O~POTOMJ1Panourhy, HeMa cHary na rrpenosna p;YXOB-

BeQHO a KaMOJIJ1na CBO)I1M)J(J1BOTOMTO CBep;OQJ1.flO, 'OJIYP;je CBe llITO ce pap;J1 y Op;CYCTBY,J1OHO MaJIO, Tp.ap;J1U;J10HaJIHeJby6aBJ1, a

flOBaU;[e cpep;CTBO na ce 6JIyp; peamrsyje. AyTOpJ1TapHJ1 J1HTepeC je BOp;J1Jbacaspe-MeflOr QOBeKa. MHTepec He3ap;OBOJbHOr, naneror, YMopHor caBpeMeHor QOBeKa jeAa npoHa1)e 3ap;OBOJbCTBOKp03 xoje 6J1 npa3HJ10 HaneTOCT J1OCTBapJ10 BpxyHcKeI<Ba3J1Bpep;HOCTJ1,xoje cy Mep;J1jJ1MaHaMeTHYTe (60raTCTBO, Moh, 6p3a JIaKa sapa-

KOJIJ1KOJ1MallI TOJII1KOapemen, J1MaTJ1,I1MaTJ1J1caxo I1MaTI1). I10llITO 60p6aAa,sa J1MaTJ1P;OHOCJ1orpoxnry HaneTOCT, Ty je HarOMJ1JIaHJ1HOBau; KOjJ1Mce npa3HJ1HaneTOCT J1MaHJ1q,ecTyje 60raTCTBO J1Moh. Ty cy nOJIJ1TJ1Ka,BJIaCT,cnOH30pCTBa,p;OHaTopCTBa, KpJ1MI1HaJI,npOCTJ1TYU;l1ja,aJIKOXOJI,p;pora. Ha TOMnyTy rrpenpeKeHe CMe 6J1TJ1.A rne je HOBau, Ty rrpenpeKa aexa.

,,3ap;OBOJbCTBO" canpesrenor; naneror J1 He3ap;OBOJbHOr QOBeKa ce nOCTJ1)J(eKp03: Moh, )J(eHCKOJ1 MyllIKO TeJIO, 6aBJbelbe nOJIJ1TI1KOM,KarrJ1TaJI, BJIaCT, npa-BJbelbe "pep;a" na nJIaHeTI1, paT, Kp03 XYMaHe, J1HTepeCHe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1... a sa CBeOBOje norpetian HOBan,

HOBau; je nanac nOQeTaK J1 xpaj CBaKe npJ1Qe. CBe ce MO)J(e KynJ1TI1, CBe cenponaje, J13Y3eBJhy6aBJ1, Pap;OCTI1J1Ilotipore, xao npennopja p;YXOBHOCTJ1.Dran-na nyma xynyje, nenpecrano ce aanajyha p;a he 6allI. y OBOMnaxery 6J1TJ1 J1oaollITO ce KyrrJ1TJ1He MO)J(e.ql1M 06aBJ1 jenny, YJIa3J1y cnenehy KynOBJ1HYxpanehanoxnerry, p;O)J(I1BJbaBajyhJ1 MaTepl1jaJIHe nrpa-nce xao nanoxnany sa Jbyfiaa. CBellITO QOBeKxyrryje J1JIJ1nponaje nerne je p;y60KO CKpJ1BeHa norpefia na ce p;o1)e P;O

ce6e, P;O csor yHyTpallIlber 6JIara.Y cnerroj yJII1U;11y KOjOj ce naurao caBpeMeHJ1 QOBeK nesroryhe je OTKPJ1TJ1

OBO 6JIaro y ce6J1. I1eT BaCnI1THJ1X MOp;eJIa cy rrpenpexa na ce p;o1)e P;O BJIaCTJ1-Tor, yHyTpallIlber finara. AOKJIe rap; QOBeK 6yp;e 6J10 y OBOj cnerroj YJIJ1U;J1,yMe-CTOJhy6aBI1 HaJIa3J1he ropnocr, YMecTo A06poTe HaJIa311he J1HTepecHY P;06pOTY(xYMaHocT), YMecTo 3ap;OBOJbCTBa, yHyTpallIlber MJ1pa, xapvoaaje J1Mahe yHy-TpallIlbe HeMJ1pe, HaneTOCT xojy he npa3HJ1TJ1 6JIYP;OM,xao BpXyHCKJ1M 06JIJ1-KOM3ap;OBOJbCTBa.

BJIYP;,Ha)J(aJIOCT,He P;OHOCJ1HI1XapMOHJ1jy, HJ13ap;OBOJbCTBOJ1QOBeKTO oceha.YCKOpOhe MOpaTI1 na BJ1P;J1llITaMy,je QJ1HJ1TJ1.AOK CBaKOHe nahe CBOjnyr, JbYP;11he BOP;I1TI16ecoMyqHY TPKYna ,,6JIYP;OM"OCTBape CBOjBpXyHCKJ1J1HTepeC, KaKOp;aI1cnpa3He HarreTOCT, KaKO6J1 ce HaHOBOHarrYHJ1JIJ1.Ila 6J1 ce raj J1HTepeC OCTBapJ10nOTpe6aH je HOBAU. Cana je jacno 3allITO je HOBau; rrOCTaO BpxyHcKa spemrocr

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aBpeMeHor xoaexa. To je ,,60)f(aHCTBO" xoje ce CJIaBH naaac. qOBeK He 6Hpa CpeA-

TBO Aa AO HOBu;a nobe. He nocrojx HH jenaa MOpaJIHa, HHTH se-ma BpeAHOCT

:oja 6H Morna 3aYCTaBHTH caapesreaor; nOXJIenHOr, HeCBeCHor xoaexa na nYTY noICTBapelba U;HJba.

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.J8eCHOCUllbygU KaO uocnequua unuucaue Upeanuetpunyqe - YUlBpgUMO nexuujy

1 nanac, pexocsso, rrocroje TpH xareropnje JbYAH. CBeCHJ1, HeCBeCHH H rronycse.

:HH, caste je 6poj pa3JIH'fHT Y 0AHOCY na spesre TpaAHU;HOHaJIHe noponaue. Kpe-

ryhesio OA HajMaJI06pojHHjHx - OA CBeCHHX.

Hnje reurxo 06jacHHTH 3allITO cY naaac Y MalbHHH. PeTKH cY JbYAH KOjH Y

'pOTJIy TOTaJIHe ayroparapaocrn ycnejy Aa carnenajy CYIlITHHY osor npexeaa

t BHAe IlITa je H3a. To cY ]bYAH KOjH HMajy jacnohy na je OBO spexre npOJIa3HO

t Aa AOJIa3H spezre Y KojeM he CBH ]bYAH 6HTH onneraerseaor nyxa. To cy JbYAH

WjH He nare 360r orposme narrse 'fOBe'faHCTBa, HeBHt)eHe Y HCTOpHjH passoja

~HBHJIH3aU;Hje. To cY JbYAH KOjH Tpa)f(e nYT KaKO Aa np06YAe Ty orpoMHY sehn-IY ApeMJbHBHX, nonycsecaxx, na noxyurajy Aa pa36YAe H OHe HeCBeCHe, KOjH

.naaajy Ay60KHM CHOM. Caao he np06y1)eHH npexornern OBO reunco apexe H

)MoryhHTH nOToMcTBY na )f(HBH Y npenenosr BpeMeHY rpeher MHJIeHHjYMa, xojee npeA HaMa.

Hecsecnax ]bYAH je nanac najsxure. HH TO HHje reurxo 06jacHHTH. BehanalOJIYCBeCHHX, xao nOCJIeAHu;a TpaAHU;HOHaJIHe rroponxue H ABa sacrurrna MOAe-

ra, cy JbYAH KOjH cy AO jyse )f(HBeJIH na npHHU;HnHMa TpaAHU;HOHaJIHHX, aJIH H

3e'fHHX BpeAHOCTH. Te BpeAHOCTH, aehnaa nOJIYCBeCHHX je MeHTaJIHO YCBajaJIa,

I peTKO HX )f(HBeJIa. Brune je pe'f 0 BpJIO CHa)f(HHM CTaBOBHMa. Hnp. TpaAHU;HO-

razraa noponnna je KOA nOJIYCBeCHor xoaexa yrpaznora jax CTaB na je HeMOpaJI-

iO npeaapxrn CBOjy cynpyry. Herne Ay60KO y CBOM HCKpHBJbeHOM 6Hhy, MHOrH

lOJIYCBeCHH cy caxto npH)f(eJbKHBaJIH raj rpex. IIOJIYCBeCHH 6e3 jaxxx CTaBOBa

:y BapaJIH na rajno (TO cy JbYAH ABOCTpYKor MOpaJIa), nOJIYCBeCHH jaxxx CTaBO-

sa HHKaAa TO HHCY ypaAHJIH HHTH cy aa TO nOMHIlIJbaJIH. HeCBeCHH HHCY HMalIU

iHKaKaB np06JIeM jep cy PYIlIHJIH CBe MopalIHe H se-rae BpeAHOCTH H nOCTajalIUKa3aHOBe, ynpxoc CBeMY.

Kp03 pexeaa npHMep HHje reurxo CXBaTHTH IlITa ce AOrOAHJIO ca orpOMHOM rpy-rroxi nOJIYCBeCHHX, 6e3 jaKHX MOpaJIHHX CTaBOBa. Onor TpeHa xana je rrer BacnHT-

fIHX MOAeJIa nOCTaBHJIO 6JIYA H HOBau; xao BpxyHcKe BpeAHOCTH xoje cy nOCTalIe

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U APYlllTBeHO "npH3HaTe" CBe je HIlIJIO na PYKY nOJIYCBeCHHM JbYAHMa. He rpetiar,1Horo naMeTH, na pa3YMeTH KaKO je 6HJIO JIaKO Aa nOJIycBecHH naAHY Y TOTaJIHH

caH U npxnamry xareropaja HeCBeCHHX. Pexocsro na HeCBeCHH He nare, a CBOjHM

)f{UBOTOM ysehaaajy orpOMHY naTlbY rropomnte, APYIliTBa.

Sap U UlU gega?

,Ua lIU je CTapOCHa rpaHHU;a 6UlIa YClIOB Aa ce U3 rpyne nOlIYCBeCHUX ynanne y nOT-

nyay HecBecHocT? He. Ilornenajre crapaje JbYAe. II punaAalIu cY BpeMeHY TpaAJ1U;J1-

OHalIHe nopOAJ1U;e, 6J11IJ1'feCTJ1TJ1O'feBJ1, BepHJ1 MY)f(eBJ1. ,U01lI1IJ1AO nexor HOBu;a,

a npupOAHO je Aa ra J1Majy Y TJ1M rOAJ1HaMa, 06YKlIJ1 cpapMepKe, ofiyna "HJ1Ke" J1

KpeHyJIJ1 Y OHO 0 'feMY cy, xao nOJIycBeCHJ1, caste CalbaJIJ1.

Jlorneaajre caao Te 60raTe crapue KaKO 6JIYAHJ1'fe ca nesojxaaa rOAJ1Ha CBOjJ1X

YHYKa, KaKO 61IYAHJ1'fe Y KpJ1MJ1HaJIY,Y KopynU;J1jJ1... J1KaKO nOCJIe csera A06J1jajy

arrnays, npasnarsa, KaKO cy naxehy J1cnanaxosxaourhy CBe TO OCBOjJ1JIJ1.TaKBJ1

HeMajy oceharse KpJ1BJ1u;ejep pane casro OHO IlITO paAJ1 BehJ1Ha. "OnpOCTJ1 J1M

Boxe, He aaajy IlITa 'fJ1He", jeAJ1HO je IlITO MOry peha.IIOCTOjJ1 J1rpyna CTapJ1XnOlIYCBeCHJ1XJbYAJ1KOjU 'fUHe J1CTOIlITO 'fUHe J1HeCBe-

CHJ1,casro IlITO uMajy nOBpeMeHO ocehaise KpJ1BJ1U;e.HapaBHO na Me1)y nOJIYCBe-

CHHMa HMa JbYAU BpJIO jaxxx TpaAHU;HOHaJIHHX CTaBOBa, KOjH jour HUCY nO'feJIH

Aa 'fHHe IlITO H CBH OCTalIH, aJIH nerne Ay60KO y ce6H 3aBHAe aajxpafipajaaa. OHU

TO He 'fHHe, aJIH nO'fHlbY Aa MUCJIe (BepOBaTHO) Aa cy 6YAaJIe xoje xcrpajasajy y

BepHocTH xao ,,6YAalIaIlITHHJ1". V1 OBO cy nOJIycBecHH JbYAH. JeAHH nare 360r rpe-

IlIHHX AeJIa, ApyrH 360r rpellIHHx MHClIJ1.

Ila JIH rpetia pehx neurro 0 CBeCHHMa, a Be3aHO aa OBYTeMy. CBeCTaH 'fOBeK 3Ha

Aa JIHje y Jby6aBu ca )f(eHOM. AKo je y Jby6aBH, ca TOM jeAHoM )f(eHOM he AO)f(UBeTH

CBYJIenoTY AYXOBHor paCTa. Hexo KOje na TOM nyTy HeMa HaneTOCTH rra HU norpe-

6y 3a npa)f(lbelbeM 6J1JIOKOjHM rryresr, na HH HenpeCTaHOM npOMeHOM napraepa.

IIpH'fe 0 TOMe KaKO Jby6aB ca jeAHHM napTHepOM rpaje casto ABe AO TpH rOAH-

He npoTypajy HeCBeCHH H nOJIYCBeCHJ1JbYAH KaKO 6H AaBaJIH npOJIa3 OHOMe IlITO

'IHHe. IbJ1XOBa rrpxxa Huje XJ1Pseh norpetia lbJ1XOBe HCKpJ1BJbeHenpHpOAe. BplIO

'IeCTO lbHXOBa npxxa je H HayqHo 3aCHOBaHa jep je noaauraise sehaae, napaxe-

Tap BPJIO Ba)f(aH HaYU;H. AKO je sehnaa HCKpHBJbeHa OHa he HCKpHBJbeHe Hayq-

lie nOKa3aTeJbe rtpornacarn BaJIHAHHM. Ben ce nporypajy HCTHHe sehaue KaKO je

lby6aB onTepehelbe sa xosexa, KaKO OHa HH He nocroja, Cana BaM je jacao OTKy-

na npH'Ia 0 npeBa3H1)eHocTH nopoAHu;e, 6paKa ... Ha cpehy H OBHM HAejaMa BpeMe

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npona3H, jep CTH)Ke BpeMe lby6aBH a lby6aB je nerrponasaa Bpe.n;HOCT,xao H 3.n;paB

6paK H 3.n;paBa nopo.n;Hu;a.

AKO cy ciaapu aanu na UCUUUly t.t08et.tHOCUlU, MllaguMa ceUlO qoioquno JOUl naxiue

Ilornenajao Mna.n;e cynpY)KHHKe, Mna.n;e cynpyre, reaepauajy xoja can HMa H3Me-

~y rpanecer H xerpnecer ronaaa. Ilornenajao cynpyxcaaxe, cynpyre, reHepaU;Hjy

xoja je npoacrsena .n;eTHlbCTBOH 3penOCT y Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHOM.n;yxy, (sesose y rpaa-

3HU;HjH, Hepa3BHjeHH). To cy reaepaunje xoje notipo snajy urra je MopanHo, xna-

CHO, urra je BeqHO, UITa je qOBeqHO. 3aTeqeHH CMO6P3HHOM KOjOM H3 norrycsecaor

crarsa yna3e y crarse HeCBeCHOCTH. HeKH cy jOUI y crarsy nozrycaecnocra CKlIO-

nHlIH 6paKoBe, jep cy naysenx na je nopo.n;Hu;a caermsa, UITO OHa H jecre, yrrpxoc

CBHM npHqaMa 0 lbeHoj npeBa3H~eHOCTH. OBH MlIa.n;Hlby.n;H cy BplIO 6p30 YUIlIH Y

61IY.n;,YCBojHnH HOBau; xao BPXYHCKY spennocr, nanx y HeCBeCHOCT. Carta HaM je

jacanje orxyna TonHKO pasaona, rrpesapa, aecpehe, ocraszseae neue, OTKY.n;noja-

xaao aacarse Me~y nOlIOBHMa. OrpOMaH 6poj nonycsecaax npezrosor ce y Ta60p

HeCBeCHJ-IX. Hesrajy oceharse KpHBHu;e, ca zraxohosr ce O.n;PHqy CBHX Tpa.n;HU;Ho-

HalIHHX H BeqHHX spenaocrx. Cpehaa cy UITO npnnanajy BehHHH. Macae .n;acy

"cool". Bnaro lbHMa, jep H OHH He snajy UITa qHHe.

Ilpyra rpyna MlIa.n;HX CBe TO pamr, ana ca nOBpeMeHHM oceharsesr KpHBHu;e.

KynHlIH cy KapTY, xexajy B03 sa HeCBeCHe. TaKBH Mp3e csoje po.n;HTelbe qeCTO

rosope: ,,3aUITO CTe Me sacnarana norpeurao!", a non THM .rrorpeunro" MHClIe

na "jaKe" yrpaheae CTaBOBe y.n;eTHlbCTBY, xoje cana BOlbHO pYUIe, H YBeK saajy .n;a

OHO UITO pa.n;e HHje qOBeqHO, 360r xera naTe. Hexajyha cHary .n;anpey3My onro-

BOPHOCT aa OHO UITO qHHe, rOBope KaKO cy po.n;HTelbH KpHBH 3a TO UITO OHH qHHe

cana, jep HX HHCY notipo sacmrramr y nermscrny, Y crnapa, nopYKa TeKCTa je crre-

neha: ,,3aUITO Me HHCTe npHnpeMHnH sa BpeMe xoje )KHBHMO, seh CTe MH yrpa.n;HnH

xoaexae Bpe.n;HOCTHxoje naaac HeMajy npohy." THMe cMalbyjy oceharse KpHBHu;e,

npe6aU;HBUIH onrosopsocr na pomrrezsa. OBH cy n06pKalIH nOHqHhe.

Ilarrsa je jOUI seha aKO npe.n; C060M HMajy CBeCHor ponnrezsa HlIH po.n;HTelba

jaKJ-IX CTaBOBa. HH jenaa, HH .n;pyrH po.n;HTelb HHKa.n;anehe .n;aTHCBOM nerery 6na-

rocnos sa qHlbelbe sna, UITO nonarno ysehaaa naTlbY Tor Mna.n;or xosexa. Ta naTl-ba

he HX o.n;BeCTHy 60necT, y norpeoy YSHMalba nHnyna HnH npore. TaKBH he, aKO He

o.n;y y .n;pory, OTJiIhH he y nOTnyHy HeCBeCHOCT H npecrahe .n;anare 360r onora UITO

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qHHe. CBe UITO qHHe npHxBaTHhe xao nopsranao rosopehx, na je CBe TO y cxnany

ca BpeMeHOM Y KojeM ce )KHBH. Ilocroja onaCHOCT na nOqHY na Mp3e po.n;HTelbe

J{OjH he HM 6HTH orrosreaa YBeK xana qHHe HeUITO UITO HHje notipo.PeTKH cy OHH KOjH 360r jaiorx MopalIHHx CTaBOBa OCTaHY BepHH nopo.n;HU;H xao

BeqHoj Bpe.n;HocTH, y BpeMeHY xana y rroponauy MallO KO sepyje. Ilaraise je Bpe-

MeHa xana he OHH HanycTHTH csoje jaxe CTaBOBe HnH he HMaTH cpehy .n;aocsoje

JIenoTe cTBapaJIaqKOr aacnaraisa H JIaKO y~y y CBeCHOCT.CHrypHo.n;a H Me~y caCBHM MlIa.n;HMa HMa CBeCHHX lby.n;H. IlpH)KelbKyjeM.n;a ce

UITO npe cpeTHy ca 3HalbeM crnapanaxxor aacrnrraisa H He nOKlIeKHY npe.n; nane-

TOM ayTopHTapHJ-IX, "nlIHUIaHJ-IX" Bpe.n;HOCTH xoje 1I0Me H CBeCHe lby.n;e, a KaMO-

JIH nonYCBeCHe.

Hacume y oopoquu» ce ceaxoqneeno yeehaea. Hacursejat.te, C8eCHOCUlcnatiuja

Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHY nopomnry HOBHjer .n;aTYMaqHHHnH cy: OTaU;,MajKa, neua H pO.n;H-

TelbH (xana OTaU;H MajKa aacrynajy cxyna), OTaU; je rOTOBO YBeK 6HO na spxy nHpa-

MH.n;e.Y CBOjHM pYKaMa je HMao 6aTHHy HlIH CTpax on ise, Mopanne Bpe.n;HOCTHcy

6Hne aajxeurhe Y lberOBY KOpHCT. Han )KeHOM H .n;eU;OMje npHMelbHBao npHHy.n;y

casto aKO HHCY nOUITOBalIH nncaae H aernrcaae MopalIHe aopsre.

Majxa je 6HlIa na BpXy napasome y O.n;HOCyna neuy, Y CBOjHM pYKaMa je HMana

Bep6alIH3aM xao caojespcraa 061IHK aacnrsa. Bep6alIH3MOM cy ce "MHnOM" npH-

xsarane npOJIa3He, na H sexae Bpe.n;HOCTH, xoje cy Ba)KHlIe y TOj noponnux, y TOM

gpyUITBy.

Kana cy OTaU; H MajKa HCTynalIH cxyna, xao ponaren.a, no.n;p)KaBajyhH jenao

npyro, sa .n;eu;yje 6HO 3aKOH, TO UITO cy po.n;HTelbH on lbJ-IX Tpa)KHnH. Tpa)KHO ce

pan, pen H .n;HcU;HnnHHa. 3Hano ce "Ko KOCH, KO sony HOCH". IlaTHJIo ce, pa.n;OBa-

no H )KHBelIO. IlpH3HaJIH MH TO HnH He, y rpanxuaoaanaoj noponaun HHje 6HlIO

OBOlIHKor nacarsa KOlIHKO ra HMa naaac,

Y yrlIe.n;HHM Tpa.n;HU;HOHanHHM noponauasra ("HopMalIHHM") 6aTHHe cy ce

g06Hjane BplIO peTKO. ~OBOlbHO je 6HlIO .n;aOTaU; nornena nere, ga MajKa noxaace

ua Bapjaqy H .n;anere 3Ha UITa CMe; UITa He CMe.

HaCHlba je 6Hno y np06neMaTHqHHM nopomruaaa (nHjaHU;H, »cene CYMlbHBor

MOpalIa, KpHMHHanU;H ... ). TaKBe noponaue Morne cy ce H36pojaTH aa npcre y jen-

HOM cerry, na npHMep.

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J.1 Y jennoj H y npyroj BpCTH nOpO~Hu;e oxeaa pex je 6HJIa nocnenn,a. CaMO y

KBa3H Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHoj nOpO~HU;H, HOBHjer ~aTyMa, My)f( H )f(eHa cy 3aMelbHBa_

rIH YJIore. CaMO noaexa xcena je ,,06JIaqHJIa naHTaJIOHe", Y3HMaJIa xoptiax y pYKe

101 iseaa je 6HJIa nocnemsa, aa 3rpa)f(albe MelIlTaHa.

. rrpylliTBO nO~CTHqe na OTBopeHH <pPOHT npOTHB MylliKapu;a. HHKO HM HHje1(0)y f-'06jaCHHO ~a ~OJIa3H speae najnernue Jby6aBH H3Me1)y MylliKapu;a H )f(eHe, HHKO

J1MHJ1je YKa3ao xa nnnurane xao rnasnx Y3POK lbHXOBHX CY~OBa, xao rnaBHY npe-

npel<Y llITO Jby6aB HYfje nOTeKJIa Me1)y lbHMa. HHKO HX HH)e mrrao »cene JII1 OHH

nJIJ111IaHeY CBOjHM O~HOCHMa, »cene JIH PaT, xao nOCJIe~HU;y nJIHllIaHHX.

HajBenH <paBOPHT aa aenocrojehe BHCOKO MeCTO je nere. Ilere He 3Ha urra je

rJJ1paMH~a nopO~HqHe BJIaCTH, aJIH caCBHM notipo rnyMH ynory urerpa jep ra no~p-

)l(aBa APYlllTBO ca CBOjHM 3aKOHHMa H 6aTalbOHH 60pau;a sa Ilpana nerera H xcene.

CBH 3aKOHH, CBa npaaa HHKaKO Aa aaxorae y npaxca, Hehe HH 3a)f(HBeTH AOK ce He

YKJIOHH BJIa~aBHHa ner nJIHllIaHHX, Ka3Ha H aarpana, y aacmrrarsy,

Y HajBeneM qy~y aaurao ce MYllIKapau;, BeKOBHH rasna. Ilanac OH cavro nOKY-

llIaBa Aa caM OA6paHH csoja npasa, jep cy ce CBH ypOTHJIH npOTHB isera, a CTanH

aa CTpaHY »cene H nerera, KOjH BHllIe HHCY )f(pTBe xao llITO cy 6HJIe. HanpOTHB

A06HnH cy BnaCT. He JIHqH JIH BaM HOBO na Hrpy Kypre H Mypre, jenaa cxnrao,

APYrH ce noneo.YicToBpeMeHO, zceay enyxyjy ~a 6y~e eMaHU;HnOBaHa, cn060~Ha, paBHonpaB-

na, 3aXTeBHa, Mo~epHa H Aa npBa noxae ca npHMeHoM "nnHllIaHHx" BacnHTHHX

MOAeJIa y noponanx. OHa TO qHHH HeKpHTHqKH, jep npaxsara rOTOBO CBe, cpeh-aa llITO je KOHaqHO y uenrpy naxcise uenor ~pyUITBa. CaMO nOCJIe penaTHBHO

KpaTKe yrrorpetie "nJIHllIaHHX" BacnHTHHX MOAena, OHa YBH1)a ~a ce neua OTHMa-

jy KOHTponH. CBe je YMopHHja, He3aAoBolbHHja, ynnallleHa H 3aTO )f(enH na none-nH onrosopaocr ca MY)f(eM, TaKO llITO My ce CTanHO )f(aJIH ua neuy, oxexyjyhn naOH HcnpaBH iseae rpellIKe.

Myzc je norrpamrsno 36YlbeH, jep rraMTH Aa ce MajKa TpaAHU;HOHanHe nopona-ue peTKO xcamora ouy H na je MHoro rora y aacmrrarsy pelllaBaJIa caaa. ,,3Bou;a-

lbe xceae H HeMHpJIYU;H neue" ra ~o~aTHO orrrepehyjy, Kana noxyura Aa rrpHMeHH

KnaCHqHO Tpa~HU;HOHanHO cpe~CTBO y aacmrrarsy (6aTHHy H xamu), npasrehyjena TO He ~OHOCH xcezsene pe3YJITaTe. Y6p30 MHorH OqeBH onycrajy OA 6aTHHe, jep

BH~e Aa je 6aTHHa 3aKOHOM satiparseaa, yrrJIallle ce ~a ra »ceaa H neua He npnjaaeBnaCTHMa. BH~H OH na )f(eHY H ~eu;y nonyxaaa reneaasxja, urraxrra, pa3He opra-

HH3aU;I1je, HaCTaBHHU;H, KaKO ~a ce 6paHe OA eaearyanaor nacxzsa y noponnua. AKOje HacHnHHK, mrra ce OH, MylliKapau;. Je~HHH xojer aarsa rrpornaCHTH HaCHnHH-KO .

M)e MYlliKapau;, jep Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHa CBeCT,casro MyllIKapu;a rrasrra xao HaCHn-

HHKa, rraMTH na cy xcena H neua YBeK 6HnH )f(pTBe.

HHKO He nosorunsa na 6H xceua H~eu;a MornH 6HTH HaCHnHHU;H. CTBapH He croje

6aUI TaKO. Monepaa )f(eHa notipo yqH nexuaje H3 xaconxca, O~ pa3HHX )f(eHCKHXHeBnarru. .w.HI1X opranasauaja, aacrnrraaa neuy rrnmuaao H TO oxexyje H O~ MylliKap-ua. npTAV~ .·UU)aTa CBe UITO Je y TpeH~y.

Illiua ce iuo gOfa1)a qauaci

ITpe casro HeKOJIHKO rO~HHa, y HalllY Tpa~HU;HoHanHy rropo~HU;y, yfHe3~HnH cy ceCBH ayTopHTapHH MOAenH, npaaehx xaoc Herr03HaT Tpa~HU;HOHaJIHoj rropOAHU;H.

Orau, zcena, CBaKO nere noaaocofi, CBaKO ycrrOCTaBlba CBOj CHCTeM Bpe~HOCTI1.

Morao 6H CBaKO ~a ocayje CBOjy rrOpO~HqHy CTpaHKY jep CBaKO HMa nexe csojemrrepece xoje 6paHH H He 60jH ce ~a HX 6paHH, jep je 6aTHHa H 3aKOHOM aaopaaena.

ITpHHy~y y KnaCHqHOM CMHCJIY aaxersyje ,,6nara" npHHy~a, xoja HHje HHllITa

npyro Hero xaxcisaaarse, 0~y3HMalbeM MaTepHjanHHx 3a~OBOlbCTaBa na xoje cy

HaBHKJIH qJIaHOBH noponaue. Ilopen 6JIare npxayne, yseneaa je "rrJIHlIIaHa" npH-

Hy~a y BH~y KyrroBHHe xoaexa, T3B. rr03HTHBHO ycnosrsaaaa,e, nOTOM rrpe3allITH-

haaarse O~ pana, pena H )f(HBOTa H septiarnrsaa. Hajjaxa npmryna KJIH3H ca espanaH raxohe je "nJIHllIaHa" jep nenyje HH~HpeKTHO. Y raxsoj noponana CBaKO ce 60PH

na OCTaHe na BpXy napasome, He cxsarajyhn ~a HeMa BHlIIe HH nnpasome, HH spxa,Y TOM OTHMalbY sa BPX aenocrojehe rrHpaMH~e rrpaBa je KnH3aBHu;a. CBaKO )f(eJIH

~a 6y~e rasna, )f(eJIH ~a ra ~pyrH CJIY)f(e, na My ApyrH xyrryjy CBe llITO noacemr H

CJI. OCHOBHH pe~ Hen03HaT je caspesreaoj ayroparapnoj rropomnra.

Myiuxapaui

Myxca, KOjH je no He~aBHO, 6HO na BpXy nopomorae nHpaMH~e, HeMHnocpAHO

cnyurrajy ca lbe HJIH jour CJIHKOBHTHje YPYllIHJIa ce rrHpaMH~a, a ca fuOM H OTau;.

Kan ce nana ca Bpxa MHoro 60nH. ITpH TOM My HHKO HHje nao pa3YMHO H rrpHXBa-

TlbHBO 06jallilbelbe 3alIITO je ~O rrana ~OllIJIO. HHKO My ce HHje 3aXBaJIHO sa CBO

notipo xoje cy yqHHHJIH OH H iseroan MylliKH rrpeU;H, Kp03 1<ICTOPHjy.HHKO ce HHje

3aXBanHO )f(eHH H lbeHHM )f(eHCKHM npeU;HMa llITO cy OqYBaJIe ortsnurre H nopo-

~HU;y, Kp03 BeKOBe.

Myurxapau je CKHHyT ca npeCTOJIa, rpyoo, na urra OH pearyje rpy6011Ihy, YCBOM orpOMHOM cTpaxy. Hserono MeCTO noxyurasa na 3aY3Me caBpeMeHa )f(eHa,

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- »ceae MOpa 611Tl1y napJIaMeHTY 6ap rpnnecer nOCTO, aa nO'IeTaK- y 6113Hl1CYje MOpa l1MaTl1 KOJIl1KO11MylllKap~a- .r.\0611JIaje CJI060.r.\y xojy je O.r.\YBeKl1MaO CaMO MylllKapa~. Karpane, .r.\pY)f(e-

ise, 113JIaC~11,nYTOBalba.- nepahaise .r.\e~e.- Tpa)Kl1 on MylllKap~a na paBHOnpaBHO ca lbOM 06aBJba CBe xyhne nOCJIOBe 11

nOCJIOBe OKOneue,

CBe TO 11Hl1je noure, aJIl1 aKO CBe TO)f(eHa OCTBapl1, a 113ry611MylllKap~a, nopo-.r.\l1~y,neuy, ce6e, onna CBe TO ry611 lbY.r.\CKl1CMl1Cao. Myuncapau 11)f(eHa MOpajyrrOCTaTl1lbY.r.\l1CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCTl1,p0.r.\l1Telbl1CTBapaJIa'IKe CBeCTl1KOjl1he sajen-Hl1'IKl1, lby6aBlby 11,lJ;06POTOMonraiarn rrOTOMKe.O.r.\aKJIexpenyrni On caapesre,He noponxue. Kana rrpl1MeHe aaaise CTBapaJIa'IKOr aacmrrarsa 11neua 11p0.r.\l1Telbl1ce spahajy CBOMe 113BOpy, na KojeM cy CBeCHOCT 11lby6aB.

3aUlUlO HUKO nuje upuupeuuo scyiuxapua sa fy6uUlaK

8JlaCUlU y uop09UlAsU?

Ilnrarse 11Hl1je urazsxso xao lllTO ce 'Il1Hl1. 3611lba je MOpaJIa rrocrojarn nCl1XOJIO-lIIKa npl1npeMa MylllKap~a aa iseroa HOBl1nonozcaj y nopo.r.\l1~l1 11.r.\pylIITBy. SaroHe rpeoa na ce 'IY.r.\l1MOnOHalllalbY MylllKapa~a. Je.r.\Hl1ononre y HaCl1JIHl1Ke, 6pa-neha csoje BeKOBHe n0311~l1je, a .r.\pyrl1 ce rente y sarpzsajaaa MylllKapa~a l1JIl1yaarpzsajaaa MJIa.r.\l1xnesojaxa. Illra 11Mje npeOCTaJIO xana He pasyaejy lIITa l1XjeCHalllJIO, He Bl1.r.\expaj CBOjl1MMYKaMa.

Mozena je CBe OBO lllTO ce noraha y canpextenoj rropo.r.\l1~l1 11notipo aa 6Y.r.\yh-HOCT, aJIl1 MopaMo pa3YMeTl1 36YlbeHocT 11rnrrarsa soja rrocraszsa ce611, caape-MeHl1 xryuncapau. Ilpyurrso My je MOpaJIO novoha na ce caahe y OHOMe lIITO ce o.r.\isera o-rexyje. CaM ce CHaJIa31111y crpaxy 'IeCTO nocezce sa npxnynox. xoja JIaKOrrpepacra y aacazse jep y0611'IajeHa rrpl1HY.r.\aHe noxasyje pe3YJITaTe. IIpe yrroTpe-6e Cl1JIe cnrypao ce rnrra y CTpaxy:

- urra he 611Tl1ca .r.\e~OM,xyhoa, pyqKOBl1Ma?- »ceaa je no cana .r.\p)KaJIaTpl1 crytia y xyhx. )KeHa ce 113MaKJIaa OH Hl1je crrpe-

MaH aa HOBYyJIory. OH 6pl1He, aJIl1 ot; 6pl1re Hl1KOKOPl1CTI1HeMa.- KaKO npl1XBaTl1Tl1 YBpe.r.\e xoje My neua urarsy, lbl1XOBa Hl1rrO.r.\alIITaBafba,

lbl1XOBYHenOCJIYlIIHOCT, lbl1XOBYCJI060.r.\y na 'II1He lIITa 11Mje aorsa 11cnpeM-HOCTMajKe na YBeK 6paHI1 neuy, jep Tl1Me 6paHl1 ce6e.

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Ty je xopea np06JIeMa. Taj KopeH ce npeCKa'Ie 11xana MylllKapa~ YJIeTl1y CTape06JII1Ke nOHalllalba, npornace ra HaCl1JIHl1KOMy nopo.r.\l1~l1.

HeKl1 MylllKap~l1l1CTpajaBajy na o.r.\p)Kecraise KaKBOje 611JIOy Tpa.r.\11~110HaJI-1I0j nopo.r.\l1~l1 lIITO ysehaaa nacrose jep »cena 11neua ycrajy y 0.r.\6paHY .r.\0611jeHecJI060.r.\e. MHOrl1 onycrajy on noponaue rrxrajyhx ce lIITa he My nopozmna, »cena,,geU;a.0,gJIa3e y )Kl1BOTY KojeM Cl1ryPHO He HaJIa3e Ml1p.

MJIa~l1 MylllKap~l1 rnenajy CY.r.\611HYcaspeaenor oua 11He nana 11Mna naner,ga OCHI1Bajy noponaue, lllTO nonarno ¢pycTpl1pa nesojxe 11CTBapa HOBe 06JII1KeHaCl1lba Me~y MJIa.r.\l1MlbY.r.\l1Mapa3JIl1'Il1TOr norra .

Kana ce jaaao rOBOpl1 0 naciosy, 113BO,g11ce BpJIO norpeuran 3aKlbyqaK - .r.\acyHaCl1JIHI1U;l1rrl1jaH~l1, Kpl1Ml1HaJI~l1, CYMfbl1Bl1Tl1nOBl1. TaKBo Ml1lIIlbefbe npeo-BJIa.r.\aBa,jep OHl1 KOjl1 nonoce cyn, MI1CJIe113 l1CKYCTBaTpa.r.\11~110HaJIHe CBeCTI1.J.1CTI1Haje .r.\pyra'Il1ja. CBe je Bl1lIIe 'IeCTl1TI1X MylllKapa~a "HaCl1JIHl1Ka" y "HOP-MaJIHl1M" rpahaacxasr noponauaaa, y 6paKOBl1Ma KOjl1 cy CKJIOrrlbeHl1 113lby6a-BI111ca )f(elbOM .r.\anoponnna rpaje.

Caepesrean MylllKapa~, y CTpaxy on canxuaja, 360r Y'Il1fbeHOr nacazsa iran)KeHOM11.r.\e~OM,rrpOHaJIa311 HOBe 06JIl1Ke rrpa)Kfbefba HarreTOCTl1 Kp03 BaH6pa'IHesese xoje ce 6a311pajy caao na MeHTaJIHOMcexcy, KOJIl1KOje caapeaemr MylllKapa~113ry6110 lby6aB rrpesra )f(eHl1l1 nOTOMCTBY,rroponaux xaayjy rserose aBaHType caMJIa,gl1Mneaojxasra xoje cy crape xao iseroae hepxe l1JIl1jour rope xana cTynl1 yonaoce ca .r.\e'IaU;l1Ma,Y3paCTa CBOjl1XCl1HOBa.

HarreTOCT 11MyKy MylIIKap~a .r.\O.r.\aTHOysehaaa 113aKOHO.r.\aBa~KOjl1ce YBeKCTa-szsa na CTpaHY "HeBI1Hl1X", )KeHe 11neue. A HeBI1Hl1Xnaaac HeMa. J.1Ma casto JIyKa-BI1XKOjl1ce xpajy 113a"rrJIl1lIIaHOr" aacnrsa 11OHI1XHal1BHl1XKOjl1rrpa3He HaneTOCTyrroTpe60M KJIaCl1'IHe 6aTl1He xoja JIaKO npepacra y nacazse xana ce nahe y pyKa-Ma MylIIKap~a. A onna 3aKOH npecyhyje,

IIeT nlIl1lIIaHl1X .r.\I1Blba,aYTOpl1TapHa nl1paMl1,ga ce pyllll1 11nocnemsesr KyTKy~lIaHeTe, MOpaJIHe npenaocrn ce ypynrasajy, Be'IHe Bpe.r.\HoCTl1ce He npen03Ha-JY 11He npl1XBaTajy, neua cy nocrana rocrro.r.\apl1 caBpeMeHe rroponnue, EJIY,lJ; J.1HOBAll;, xao npxyncxe Bpe,gHOCTl1,cy y l1CKpl1BlbeHoj CBeCTI1sehaae, MylliKapa~ 11)f(eHa cy CBe .r.\albl1... To je crnapnocr xojy )KI1Bl1MOrrO'IeTKOMnsanecer rrpBor sexa,

YIIPKOC CBEMY lbYEAB, ,lJ;OEPOTA, CBECHOCT CE IIOJIAKO, AJIJ.1CI1rYPHO IIOMAlbAJY. Bahe TO TeMelbl1 na Kojl1Ma he )Kl1BeTI1HalIIl1 rrOTOM-~11.y l1Me fbl1XOBO,y I1Me cpehae 6y,n;yhHOCTl1 MHOrl1 he ce onpenemrra na Kp03CTBapalIa'I . ..Ky nopornnry, XapMOH113YJY113BOpHe eMO~l1Je 11CBOJ)Kl1BOTYTeMelbelia lhy6 aan, Panocrx 11,lJ;06POTl1, je,n;HoM pe-rjy aa CBECHOCTJ.1.

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Ha U011eUlXY ceeia je gy60KO pasysceeawe, UllUHepa3YMeBa1-be. Kpaj je YBeK Y cKllagy ca U011eUlKOM

TT ere ce paha ca OrpOMHJ!fM CTBapaJIaqKJ!fM nOTeHl.J;J!fjaJIOM.Ilere <PYHKl.J;J!fOHJ!fllle,J-J, aa npJ!fHl.J;J!fnJ!fMaCTBapaJIaqKOr aacmrratsa, aJIJ!fHeMa CBeCHOCT0 CBeMYTOMe.Ha J!f3BOPYje, aJIJ!faeocseurheao. Ilere aenorpenmao naroaapa J!fCTJ!fHe,KOjJ!fXHJ!fjeCBeCTaH. Hxje CBeCTaH na je na J!f3BOPY60)KaHCKOM J!fy eMOl.J;J!fOHaJIHojXapMOHJ!f-jJ!f. Ilnaxe, panyje ce, 6pJ!fHe, ryryje, crpaxyje xana rpeoa TaKO na 6yp;e.

Ha)KaJIOCT, J!f3BOP je 6J!fCTap KpaTKO, P;OK je y MajqJ!fHoj YTpo6J!f, aa MajqJ!fHojgojl.J;J!f,non ycnosora na je MajKa, 6ap rana y esrouaoaanaoj XapMOHJ!fjJ!f.Kana rpetiaga ce yqBpCTJ!f y 3p;paBJ!fM norpetiaaa, p;a ocseurhyje yspacran,e y P;yxy, nere BJ!fllleHJ!fje aa 6J!fCTPOM H3BOpy. Ayropxrapno aacmrrarse sarana J!f3BOP H TO Mano60)KJ!fje 6J!fhe. A CBe je, no 60)KHjOj npOMJ!fCnJ!f, HJIJ!f3aKOHJ!fMa npJ!fpop;e rpetiano6J!fTJ!fnpyraxxje, jep ce nere paha ca KJIJ!fl.J;aMalh YBABYI, PA,lJ;OCTYI, ,lJ;OBPOTE,paha ce ca OrpOMHJ!fM n03J!fTJ!fBHJ!fMnorenuajancn, ca TaJIeHTJ!fMa, ca KnJ!fl.J;aMaeMOl.J;J!fOHaJIHeH CBaKe p;pyre HHTeJIJ!freHl.J;J!fje.Ilere gO)KJ!fBJbaBa sacroj y passojycaor nonecenor 6JIara. ,lJ;aKJIe, qOBeK ce paha ca cnocotiaomhy p;a CBe llITO pap;J!f,pana C lhy6aBJby H C Panourhy 3apap; Ilotipa xosexa J!fqOBeqaHCTBa. ,lJ;eTeTY cejaxo JIaKO aapyurx crnapanasxa rroreauxjan, HapOqJ!fTO naaac, xana y aacrnrraisygOMJ!fHl1pa "nJIllllaHa"np"Hyp;a, xoja norrryno HapyrnaBa eMOl.J;J!fOHanHYxapvo-~"jy, Te ce KJIl1l.J;eIlotipa He paaaxjajy J!fnere je CBe nazse on csora 113Bopa. Ilanacje P;OBOJbHOcasio cenaanaecr MeCel.J;J!fp;a MajKa xoacraryje na KOP; iseaor nereraMHoro rora He sazsa. Ha cpehy CTBapaJIaqKO aacmrran,e ca naxohoxr spaha 11nere11POP;l1TeJba CBOM J!f3BOpy.

PeTKl1 JbYP;l1,nonYT ",lJ;PBETA ,lJ;OBPYlQE", (KOjJ!fje 113alllTJ!fTHH 3HaK crnapa-naqKor BaCnl1Talba), cy OCTBap"JIJ!f CBOj, BorOM nar, nOTeHl.J;l1jaJI, ynpKoc CBeMY, 11nOCTaJIl1 nOTnYHO CBeCHl1 rrraanxx npenpeKa, xoje naaac croje aa nyTy gYXOBHorpa3B . .

oja xoaexa 11 iseroaax CBeYKynHl1X noremmjana. TaKBH snajy, TaKBl1 Hyp;eH3na3 113OBe cnene ynaue.

Kao aYTopy, Ml1 ce yql1Hl1JIO na je noopo na CylllTl1Hy aaaisa CTBapanaqKOr aac-nHTaI-ba l1CnpHqajy Yl3BOPHO ,ll;ETE YI ,ll;PBO ,ll;OEPYlQA. OHl1 cy Tl1 KOjl1 he,

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CBOjHM XapMOHH30BaHHM eMo~HjaMa, CBOjOM eMO~HOHalIHOM HHTelIHreH~HjoM,

na HaM npeHecy snaise H HCKYCTBO. OHH he HaM nOKa3aTH BpaTa Jhy6aBH, aKO

CMO aa TO cnpeMHH.

Ilere na 6mKaHCKOM H3BOPY H My,n;ap, OCTBapeHH 'fOBeK, saajy nyT H saajy nacy BpaTa Jhy6aBH jenana BpaTa xoja CBaKO caM Mopa,n;a OTBOPH H3HyTpa, jep OBa

BpaTa crrozsa KBaKY nexrajy,

AKO na nO'feTKY paCTa CBaKe nopomnie, csaxor -ronexa, 6y,n;e ,lJ;YBOKO

pa3YMeBalbe, cnosnaja na cy "nlIHlllaHa" H pealIHa npHHyp.a, Y3POlJ,11 CBOM

nanaunsea 31Iy H HaCHlbY, xoje ce YMHO)f(aBa CBaKHM ,n;aHOM, rana he H lbHXOB

,n;YXOBHHpacT, KOjH 3anpaBO xpaja HeMa, 6HTH YBeK y cxnany ca nO'feTHHM ,lJ;YBO-

K11M pa3YMeBalbeM H 6Hhe nenpecraao yresrezsea na npHH~HnHMa O,lJ;rOJA

sa crsapanaurrao.

ITa)f(lbHBO 'fHTajTe H npo-nrrasajre IT11CMO xoje cy BaMa H nauroj noponn.~H ynyTHlIH 113BOPHO ,lJ;ETE 11 ,lJ;PBO ,lJ;OBP11lJ,A. Hecro he ce lbHXOBa npasa

npenmrrara, na aehere 3HaTH KO BaM npaxa npH'fy, llITO HHje HH 6HTHO. Ba)f(HO

je na cy 060jH~a aa CBOMe H3BOPY H ,n;aHac nenorpeumso spahajy aauresr H3BOpy.

,lJ;06HheTe o,n;roBOp aa mrrarse xoje nocraszsare rrocne caaxor npenaaan,a, nocne

crrosnaje na rpefia 0,n;6a~HTH ITET ayropxrapaax BacnHTHHX sronezra: "A urra

YMecTo ITET?"

ITOlliTOBAH11 Q11TAOqE,

[a caM ,lJ;PBO ,lJ;OBP11lJ,A. Ilornenaj Me! ITa)f(lbHBO, OCMOTPH MOj snpas,

caaxcan KopeH, Moje BHTKO, npaso CTa61I0 H MOjy 6yjHy KPOlIllbY npeny-

Hy CO'fHHX rmonoaa. Je,n;HOMpexjy: 3,n;paB can, naxeran, notiap H nperryx

Jhy6aBH, OTKa,n;3HaM sa ce6e.

,lJ;alIH 6H »ceneo na 6y,n;elIl MeHH HalIHK? Ila lIH carsaur ,n;aTBOjH nOTOM~H

6y,n;y pa,n;OCHH,3,n;paBH, naMeTHH H,n;a Hece6H'fHO otiacxnajy lby,n;e H npnpony

,n;06POTOM,,n;elbelbeM csor yayrpaunser 60raTcTBa? He 6y,n;HlIa)f(HO CKpoMaH!

Ko TO He 6H )f(elIeo? )KelIHllI H TH, cavo ce rnrraur KaKO crehn TO yHyTpa-

unse 60raTCTBO. ITpaTH MOjy npxsry. HellITO heur HayqHTH 0 CBeMY TOMe.

Pohea caM ca orpOMHHM MoryhHocTHMa, xao H CBO npsehe osor CBeTa.

11Mao caxr p'HBHe ponarerse KOjH cy 3HalIH p'a je rroponxua MeCTO rne ce -rysaH ynanpehyje snpasrse, MeCTO rne ce pasnaja reHeTCKH noreuuajan nonecea

po~elbeM H na ce CBe TO nOCTH)f(e 3HalbeM CTBapalIa'fKOr sacnaran,a. PO,n;HO

caM ce y nopo,n;H~H xoja je saana na Me 3alIlTHTH nopo,n;H'fHOM MaTepH~OM

H TaKO MH osroryha na ce npBJ1X cenaa ronana, )W 3aBpllIeTKa Moje ,n;pyre

cpa3e nCHxocpH3H'fKOr paasoja, xpehesr H paaaajasr, yqHM H cavocrtoaaajeaHCKlbY'fHBO Y KPyry noponaue H Y pealIHoM cBeTY. Cse llITO je ,n;01Ia3HlIO

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,n;oMeHe, Mopallo je na npobe H Kp03 Moje cp~e. Ha raj Ha'fHH po,n;HTelbH cy

'a'falIH Moje H3BopHe, 3alIlTHTHe eMo~Hje.} . .

Balballo je npno casnanarn H ,n;O)f(HBeTHMHHHKOCMOC noponane, }ep )e y

MOM paaaojy xao H y CBeMY Mopao nocrojarn npHpo,n;aH pe,n; CTBapH. CHa-

)KHOM MaTepH~OM noponaue, CBOjOM Jhy6aBlbY, lIlTHTHlIH cy Me on npe-

aHor YlIaCKa "CBeTa" y ,n;OM,HlIH Mor npepaHor H31IaCKa y CBeT, H3 ,n;OMa.p K . 6 . .nHTaTe ce 0 KaKBOM je CBeTY pe'f. ana caa ja HO MalIH nOCTO}aO }e rene-BH30P, rrocrojano je 06,n;aHHlllTe. Me~yTHM, MOjH po,n;HTelbH cy Me ,n;y60KO

IllTHTHlIH, rrocefino no TPE'R.E rO,lJ;11HE Mora )f(HBOTa, on B11PTYEJIHOr

CBETA, nocetiao lberOBHX HeraTHBHHX canpzcaja. IIITHTHlIH cy Me, y TOM

nepHO,n;y, on H31IaCKa y CBeT, o,n;lIaCKOMy llIKOlIH~e 6HlIO xoje BpCTe. Hajse-hy IllKOlIY )f(HBOTa yqHO caa H caananasao y KPyry noponxue ya MaMY, TaTY,

6aKY, nexy, KYMOBe, rrpnjarerse, TeTKe, CTpHHe ...

CBH KOjH cy Me OKpY)f(HBalIH, xpeayznr cy on csor H Mor cp~a. 06aCH-

namr cy Me H3BOPHHM eMo~HjaMa: lby6aBlbY, panourhy, carypaourhy, sano-

BOlbCTBOM, xpaopourhy, alIH HHCY npe3alIH na Me YBeK 3alIlTHTe CBOjOM

lbYTlbOM, na BHKHy cnOHTaHO KaKO 6H Me 3aYCTaBHlIH y 1I01ll0j HaMepH, aa

xojy HHcaM MHClIHO na je 1I0Illa, jep TaKO MalIH HHcaM snao urra je CBe orra-

CHOsa MeHe y pealIHOM CBeTY BHlIO je caCBHM HopMalIHO ,n;aMH nocraszsajy

rpaHH~e jep ja TaKO MalIeH HHcaM saao xana H rne rpetia ,n;ace 3aYCTaBHM.

Ha cpehy rrocraszsarse rpaHH~a HHKa,n;a HHje 6HlIO npaheno HH pealIHoM,

HH nnanraaoxr npHHy,n;oM. Hexana 6H jenaocrasno pexzm: "He MO)f(e!!", 6e3

nyao oojaunseisa, jep Moja ,n;e'fHja, xeTepo eaeprnja, HHje Morna,n;a pa3YMe

KOlIHKO caspexreaa ~HBHlIH3a~Hja HOCH onaCHOCTH, H no nere, H no -rosexa.Hexana caa ce 60PHO aa CBOjy "lIy,n;OCT" rrrraxexr, BHKalbeM, BalbalbeM no

no,n;y. HHKO Me HHje saycraszsao HaCHlIHO na ce CMHpHM. IIITO cy OHH 6HlIH

cMHpeHHjH, ja 6HX ce 6p)f(e ypaBHOTe)!(J1o. YrnaBHoM cy MH HaKHa,n;HOnoja-

llllbaBalIH saurro cy Me MopalIH 3aYCTaBHTH y csaxoj HaMepH xoja je 6HlIa

onacna 3a MeHe, ,n;pyrora HlIH onacaa H aa MOj )f(HBOT, noaexan. Jhy6aBlby

caM HM apahao. Hajenny rpelliKy HHcaM noaasrsao. Y'fHO caM xopax, no

KopaK, KaKO CPYHK~HOHHcaTH y OBOM, aa cana BplIO KOMnlIHKOBaHOM, cnorsa-

llllbeM CBeTY. Yparsarra cy Me y xapaona-me eMO~HOHalIHe YClIOBe )f(HBOTaK .

ole cy HenpecTaHo CTBapalIJ1, npeTxo,n;Ho YKlIOHHBlIlH CBaKH 061IHK npH-

HYP'e.113 csera casr xapaisao nYH Jhy6aBH, Pa,n;OCTH,CHrypHOCTH, sanosozs-CTBa,xpa6poCTH. '

3alllTO cy KpeHYlIH on cpnai 3Ham1 cy,n;a CaMOcnoj cpna. npenYHor Jhy6a-

BI1I1 naMeTHe rnaaaue, naje CTBapalIa'fKY HHTelIHreH~Hjy xoja he YBeK pa,n;l1-TI1 aa Moje ,n;o6po H notipo ,n;pyrHX.

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3Ham1 cy MOjJ1pO~J1TeJbJ1na ce ,,6JIaro" HaJIa3J1 y MeHJ1, y MOMKOpeHy.MojJ1 6J10JIOllIKJ1J1~yXOBHJ1HarOHJ1 cy qeKaJIJ1 na MeHe, qeKaJIJ1 na CafJIe~aMCBe caoje MoryhHOCTJ1, na cnosnaa ce6e Kp03 casropan, a je~J1HO je caao.pa~ npahen Jby6aBJbY.

IIJ1Talli ce KaKBa je ynora MOjJ1XpO~J1TeJba 6J1JIa y CBeMYTOMe, aKO caM~O csera Mopao ~ohJ1 caa. OrpOMHa je 6J1JIa lbJ1XOBa ynora, aJIJ1 3a~aTaKHJ1je 6J10 Te)KaK. Hy~J1JIJ1 cy MJ1aJIaTKe, Ha'lJ1He pana, Hy~J1JIJ1cy MJ1MoryheaKTJ1BHOCTJ1,rrpexo KOjJ1XcaM crroaaasao ce6e, csoje 6pojHe J13BOpHe naro.He, csoje TaJIeHTe, lbJ1XOBYcaary, lbJ1XOBeMoryhHOCTJ1. Je~HO cy HerrpeCTa-HO rrOHaBJbaJIJ1MOjJ1pO~J1TeJbJ1: "MJ1 heMO Hy~J1TJ1,aJIJ1 nyr Mopalli npehxcan, ys rrosroh rramer snarsa, naurer )Kl1BOTHOrJ1CKYCTBa,Hallie nonpurxe."

HJ1Ka~a Me Hl1CYrp~l1JIJ1, spebana, OMaJIOBa)KaBaJIl1, 3aCTpallIl1BaJIl1,TYKJIl1. HJ1Ka~a Me HJ1CYxynonamr na 611Xneurro ypanao, nporxs csojeBOJbe. Hxxana HJ1CYYMeCTO MeHe pa~J1JIl1 611JIOurra, llITO caM Morao ~aypa~J1M caa, 3a60paBl1JIl1 cy aa rrpJ1Hy~y, na rr0311TJ1BHOYCJIOBJbaBalbe, xanpesaumrhaaan,e, na Bep6aJI113aM. IIpl1HQl1rr ~06pOBOJbHOCTl1, y J1360pycaxro onor llITO je BO~J1JIOMOM rr0311TJ1BHOMpacTy, 6110 je 3aKOH KOjJ1cenourrosao. 3aycTaBJbaJIl1 cy Me, ca naxohoxr, y cnaxoj aKTl1BHOCTl1xoja je6J1JIa rrpOTJ1B MeHe, nporas npynrx, xoja HJ1je 6J1JIa y CPYHKQl1jl1Mor xoaes-nor pacra.

PO~l1TeJbJ1 cy CTprrJbl1BO 116e3YCJIOBHO xexana pe3YJITaTe Mora pa~a.Pe3YJITaT je 6J10 YBeK Haj60Jbl1 jep je 6110 y CKJIa~y ca MOjJ1MrrCl1XocpJ13J1tI-Kl1M MoryhHOCTl1Ma, ca MOjJ1Mronaaasra )Kl1BOTa. )KJ1BeO caa 11pa~J10 y'lOBe'lHl1M, XapMOHl1'lHl1M YCJIOBJ1Ma)Kl1BOTa,y CJI060~11, xoja je YBeK 611JIanpahena lbl1XOBOM11MOjOMJby6aBJbY. J13paCTaO caM y 'lOBe'lHO, XapMOHl1'l-HO 11CJI060~HO 6J1he.

PO~l1TeJbl1 cy caaxonaesuo rrJIaHJ1paJIJ1 pa~ rra MOMonrojy aa CTBapaJIa-llITBO, Hy~l1JIl1, MOTJ1Bl1CaJIJ1Me aa 6pojHe aKTJ1BHOCTJ1,a MeHJ1~aBaJIJ1 CJIO-

60~y na rroayheno rrpJ1XBaTl1Ml1JIJ10~6aQJ1M, ~a aanoxaev, npexxaea, ~a cerrOHOBOBpaTJ1M J1CTOjaKTJ1BHOCTJ1,aKO )KeJIl1M,MOTJ1BJ1CaJIl1Me ~a HaCTa-Bl1Mxana rrpJ1MeTe ~a caM pohea aa Ty aKTJ1BHOCT,aKO Ml1je aeurro ~pyro,y TOM 'rpenyrxy HeBa)KHO, rrpJ1ByKJIO nazosy, Y)KJ1BaJIJ1cy na rrocvarpajyKaKO ce Kp03 casropan J1caMOBaCrrJ1TaBaM. Henpecrano cy Me rrO~CTJ1QaJIl1~a rrpOHaljeM CBOj rryT casrocrroanaje Kp03 caaopan, "Je~J1HO caaopanosr,caMOaKTl1BHollIhy, caaooopaaoaarsew J1caaoaacnararsea MO)Kece OCTBa-pl1Tl1 cavocnosaaja", ynopao cy rrOHaBJbaJIl1 ponnren,a.

HY~l1JIl1 cy MJ13~paBy xpaHy, YCJIOBesa 3~paB can, YCJIOBeaa 06aBJba-lbe TeJIeCHJ1X aKTJ1BHOCTJ1,aa casropan, Hy~l1JIJ1 cy, a ja cast aenpecraao

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OCJIYllIKJ1BaOrrorpetie csora TeJIa, rrorpetie CBOjl1XJ13BOPHl1Xaarona. Cpueje HerrOrpellIJ1BO 6J1paJIo, Y3J1MaJIOl1JIJ10~6aQJ1BaJIO nonyheao.

Kana caM ojaxao JIeTeO caM )KJ1BaXHOca noczmha aa neenah. YBeK casrTa'lHO anao urra MOry 11KOJIJ1KOMory. IIpBO Moje rrpalbe cyha, rrpalbe CBO-jl1X xapanaua, npao 6p"Calbe rrpallIJ1He, 'lJ111Ihelbe ~BOpJ111ITa, crrpeMalbeTaBana ca ~eKOM, npaszsetse CeH~BJ1'la. 3a MeHe je CBe TO 6l1JIa BeCeJIa J1rpa.Ca~p)Kaj xrpe caM 6p30 3a60paBJbaO, aJIJ1 caM xyaao rr03J1Tl1BHe eMoQJ1jere xrpe J1rrpeHOCJ10 J1Xna CBaKl1pa~ KOjl1caa ~OQHJ1je 06aBJbaO Y)KJ1BOTY.

Tajna Moje Jby6aBl1 npexa )KJ1BOTYJ1pa~y JIe)Kl1 J1y TOMe llITO cy MOjl1pO~l1TeJbJ1 CBaKO~HeBHO rrpaBJ1JIJ1 fJI06aJIHJ1 nnaa aKTl1BHOCTJ1,pe~OBHl1XrropO~l1'lHJ1X aKTl1BHOCTJ1. Ja casr, xao HajMJIaljl1 'lJIaH noponnne, J1MaOrrpnexcrno y 6J1palby aKTJ1BHOCTl1.BpJIO 'leCTO caM caKyrrJbalbe nrpasaxaOCTaBJbaOCTapJ1jl1Ma. HJ1CYMe rrpeKOpeBaJIJ1, snajyha ~a )KeJIJ1M~a ce onpo-6aM rOTOBO y CBeMY,a na hy ce CBOjl1Ml1rpa'lKaMa Cl1ryPHO YCKOPOBpaTJ1-Tl1. Y fJI06aJIHJ1 nnau noponxne YKJIarraO caM ce CBOjl1MMl1Hl1rrJIaHOM KaKO6J1 )Kl1BOTY noponaun 6110 llITO rrpJ1jaTHJ1jJ1.CBaKO je 0~pa~110 rroneurro J1TO 6allI OHO, llITO je BOJIeo. )Kl1BOT HaM je 6J10 necaa.

Y6p30 caM Hayq110 na npasaa JIJ1'lHJ1nnaa CBOjl1XaKTl1BHOCTl1J1 06a-aesa. PO~l1TeJbl1 cy ce ~06pOBOJbHO YKJIarraJIl1 CBOjl1MMl1Hl1rrJIaHOM y MOjJIl1'lHl1 nnarr. Taxo cy pe3YJITaTl1 Mora nrrana 611JIl1canpxcajaaja, 60raTl1jl1,a )Kl1BOTy nopomnm je 11nazse 6110 npnjaraa.

)Kl1BOTje CPYHKQ110Hl1CaOaa rrp"HQl1rrl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOr sacnrrratsa: aa,n;y60KOMpa3YMeBalbY, rro KojeM ce rrpl1XBaTa l1CTl1Ha~a cy KA3HA, HArPA-,lJ;A, rrpesaurrahaaarse, Bep6aJI113aM l1 anoynorpetia l1Ml1TaTOpCKOr 06JIl1-xa yxersa Y3POQl1 MyKa caspeveae noponnne: na rrpl1HQl1rry YBa)KaBalbarrpl1pO~HOr rropeTKa CTBapl1 (Maj'll1H rOBOp, CJIl1KOBHl1Qa,TeKCT6e3 CJIl1Ke,rra Bl1pTyeJIHO, nere, nesojxa, MOMaK, onpacrao 'lOBeK 11zceaa, ~OKOJIl1Qa3a ~eQY, MJIa~e, onpacne, canpzcaja sa ~eQY, MJIa~e, onpacne): na ~y60KOMrroBepelbY, y3 nasarse nerery caao rroxernax yrrYTCTaBa Y parry: aa ~y60-Kl1MrrapTHepCKl1M, 6ecKOMrrpOMl1CHl1M O~HOCl1Ma; xa rrpl1HQl1rry notipo-BOJbHOCTl111360pa casro oaora llITO BO~l1 rr03l1Tl1BHOMpacry, (He MO)Kecenere rrO~113aTl1 6e3 rrOCTaBJbeHl1X rpaHl1Qa, aJIl1 YBeK 11jenaao 6e3 Ka3He11Harpa~e); aa crrOC06HOCTl1 npexanan.a JIaHQa HeraTl1BHOCTl1; aa 6P30M,'lOBe'lHOM peurasarsy npotineaa, npaxaararsesr l1JIl1cnocotiaourhy npesaaa-JICDKelbanpotineva, na rrpl1HQl1rry caaopana KOjl1BO~l1caaocnosaaja, casro-peaJI113aQJ1jl111caMOOCTBapelbY, YBeK J1je~J1HO Kp03 Jby6aB; aa onpourrajy,Kao HOBOM rryTy, na rrpOMeHl1 CBeCTJ1;na rrpJ1HQl1rry pa~He, a He Bep6aJI-He ~eMOKpaTJ1je, xoja ce 3a'lJ1lbe y rropO~J1QJ1, y O~CyCTBy aYTOpJ1TaPHOCTJ1;

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aa npwHu;wny HenpeCTaHOr TaKMWqel-ba y CTBapal-bY n03WTWBHWX eMOU;l1:-OHaTIHWX YCTIOBa )KWBOTa, HenpeCTaHOM CMWllllbal-bY n03WTWBHWX aKU;l1:-ja; rra npwHu;wny no KojeM je rpelllKa nYTOKa3 sa .n;albWn03WTWBaH pacr, aHe npe.n;MeT noncaexa W xazosaaaisa W HapaBHO na npwHu;wny 6e3YCTIOB-nor xexaisa rta CBWqTIaHOBW nopo.n;wu;e npJ1XBaTe npJ1HU;J1ne CB W pa3BJ1jyKTIWu;eJby6aBJ1 J1Ilotipore.

Pe3YTITaTW Mora pa.n;a cy YBeK n03J1TJ1BHW,jep cy YBeK y CKTIa.n;yca MOjl1:Mro.n;J1HaMa, reHeTCKWM nOTeHu;wjaTIOM W TaTIeHTJ1Ma xoja cy MJ1 no.n;apJ1TIJ1MOjJ1 ponarersa.

YKOTIJ1KOMJ1ponarezsa J1BaCnJ1TaqJ1 osroryhe YCTIOBeaa pa.n;, nourryjy-hJ1 CBe aaseneae npamnme, ja hy YBeK .n;aTJ1CBOj MaKCJ1MYM, KOjJ1je y CKTIa-.n;yca MOjJ1M ro.n;J1HaMa, WHTeTIeKTyaTIHJ1Mcnoc06HOCTWMa WTaTIeHTJ1Ma.

Y)KJ1BaTIJ1CMO y cnOC06HOCTJ1 .n;aCBaKO OqWTaBa exrouaje npyror, PeqJ1cy sa Hac 6wTIe sapxa J1HWCMO WM npnnaaana snaxaj. "Peqw cy nOCTIe.n;J1-ua eMOU;WOHaTIHOrcraisa J1aexa YBeK cpu;e pa3roBapa ca cpnesr,' TBp.n;WTIaje Moja MaMa. Hajcpehnaja CMO 6J1TIJ1xana CMO npen03HaBaTIJ1 na w3Mel)ypeqJ1 W cpu;a CTOjJ1 3HaK je.n;HaKOCTJ1.OWOje TO noxerax ycneunror ycno-craszsarsa paBHOTe)Ke w3Mel)y eMOU;WOHaTIHeWpaU;WOHaTIHe J1HTeTIWreHU;W-je, 6e3 xoje HwcaM Morao y )KWBOT.Kana cy peqw 6J1TIepY)KHe, nOKYlllaBaTIJ1CMO .n;aOTKpJ1jeMo xojy nopyKy urazse oaaj KO J1Xyrryhyje HeKOM. CBW CMOce cnOHTaHO nWTaTIJ1na JIWje rpeunca y HaMa.

Kana caM MaTIO onpacrao, xana caM ca xaxohosr caananasao pa.n;W)KJ1BOTY noponaua, y MOM cpu;y cy jaxane J13BOpHe eMou;wje, nOTIaKO aTIJ1CWryPHOKpeTaTIJ1 CMO ce BPTIWHCKWMnYTeM. Y HalllWM O.n;HOCJ1Ma6WTIOje WlbYTl-be J1Tyre Wcrpaxa, aKO rpetia W xana rpeoa, aTIJ1HJ1jenna eMou;wja ce HJ1je nyroHaCTIojaBaTIa, KpWBWTIa,nOTJ1CKJ1BaTIa.Pa3YM je 6J10 KOHTpOTIJ1CaHlby6aBlbyJ1.n;06POTOM, a lby6aB je nOKa3aTJ1 J1lbyTl-by J1Tyry J16pwry ... sapan saurrx-re ce6e J1BOlbeHJ1X. Je.n;HOHaM je 6WTIOBa)KHO: 6p30 ycnocramrra rrozsyzsa-Hy eMOU;WOHaTIHYXapMOHJ1jy.

Y TaKBJ1M YCTIOBJ1Ma)KWBOTa HWKa.n;aHWKO Hwje snoyrrorpetin.asao MOjcrpax, HJ1TWcy ce rOMWTIaTIe WCKpJ1BlbeHe J13BOpHe eMOU;J1jey BJ1.n;y6eca,Mp)Kl-be, rnena, noxnene, TIel-bOCTJ1TeTIa n nyxa, HeCBeCHOCTJ1,naKOCTJ1,3aBJ1-CTW,lby60Mope, HJ1oana xana ce aaura nopomma YMHO)KaBaTIa, HWoana xanaje )KWBOT.n;OHOCWOnp06TIeMe. 3HaTIJ1 CMO.n;aje.n;HOCTaBHOW6p30 npeKWHe-MO nanau HeraTWBHOCTW, xana ce ron jasxo HeKW np06TIeM, y noponan» J1unrpe. BpTIO 6p30 CMO npeBa3WTIa3WTIWaenpnjarae cnryauaje. HaneTOCT ceHwje CTBapaTIa. Ine nesra HaneTOCTW W HeMwpa, Ty WMa snpaan,a, naMeTJ1,.n;06pOTe. Ine HeMa HaneTOCTW Ty HeMa norpefie aa lbeHWM npa)Kl-bel-beM, Ty

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HeMa ayroarpecnje, arpecnje, csabe, Tyqe, u;wrapeTe, aJIKOXOTIa,.n;pore, jen-HOM pesjy HeM a HACJ.1JbA. .. Ty WMa casio xyaatsa WYHanpe1)wBal-ba 3.n;pa-Blba, Ty J1Ma nocrenesor, aTIWcnrypuor ocaajarsa xonexae CBeCTW.)l{WBOT

je npOTJ1u;aO y pa.n;OCTW,snpaazsy W3a.n;OBOlbCTBY·0J10 caM na npaBJ1M MYKaMa xana je sazsano 0.n;a6paTW )KJ1BOTHWn03WB.

Kp03 caxopan casr onpofiao 6e36poj CBOjJ1XJ13BOPHJ1Xaarona, nposepaocsoie TaTIeHTe. OTKPJ10 caM na ycnelllHo MOry 6J1TJ1nexap, nexap, anorexap,npocpecop, J1H)Kel-bep, MeHaI,Iep, rnyMau; J1.n;a6J1XKp03 CBaKY OBY aKTWBHOCTMorao .n;pyrl1Ma.n;a nOHy.n;WMHaj60lbJ1.n;eo ce6e, a na 6J1XCWryPHO Kp03 CBaKWon OBJ1Xn03J1Ba HaCTaBJ10 ycneunro .n;aocsajaa qOBeqHY CBeCT.

J.1naK, onpe.n;eTIJ10caM ce sa My3J1Ky, jep je TO 6J10 MOj HajjaqJ1 HarOH, najja-qJ1J1Hajpa3BJ1jeHJ1jJ1 TaTIeHaT, a CaMJ1MTJ1MHaj60lbJ1 HaqJ1H.n;ace Kp03 n03J1BMy3J1qapa HajycnelllHJ1je caMOpeaTIJ13yjeM. YnopHJ1M, OrpOMHJ1M caaopanox,Y)KJ1BajyhJ1y caMOM pa.n;y J1CBeMY urro je npaTWTIO pa.n;nocrao caM npBa BJ10-TIJ1Hay opxecrpy nosopaume cpJ1TIXapMOHJ1jeJ1MY3J1qKW nenaror, CBOjWMCTIYlllaOU;J1Ma,CBOjJ1MBaCnJ1TaHJ1U;WMa,a HapOqJ1TO CBOjOj .n;eu;wnecetixsnocaM naaao Haj60lbJ1 neo ce6e Kp03 MyJJ1Ky. Kp03 My3J1Ky caM wx YBO.n;J10y)KJ1BOT,HenpecTaHo nourryjyhn npWHU;J1ne CTBapaTIaqKOr aacrnrrarsa. 3Haocaa na neaa n03J1Ba Kp03 xoja ce .n;pyrJ1 He MOry YBeCTJ1y )KJ1BOTna CTBa-

paTIaqKJ1M, QOBeqHJ1M npJ1HU;WnJ1Ma.Ila 6J1ce TO OCTBapJ1TIOnocrojana cy nsa YCTIOBa:BOTIeTJ1OHOlllTO pa.n;Wlll,

W6WTJ13HaTIau; csora nOCTIa, a 3HaTIau; ce nocraje caao Bpe.n;HJ1MWynopHwMpa.n;oM. [a casr, saxsazsyjyha CBOjJ1Mpo.n;J1TelbWMa,6ecKpajHo BOTIeOCBe lllTOcaM pa.n;J1o, a aajseha 3HaTIau; caM 6wo y My3J1U;W.Taj cnoj lby6aBJ1, pa.n;a,)Kelbe, aorse, aaaisa J1J1CKYCTBa,je nasao orpoxme pe3YTITaTe, KojwMa CMO

ce nOHOCWTIJ1MOjw ponarersa Wja.CTIe.n;norahaja, y MOM )KWBOTY,je 6J10 npnponaa. Ionaaaxa caM y nopo-

.n;WU;J1npJ1MaO Jby6aB. Kana caM 6J10 cnpeaaa .n;aJby6aB .n;aM,3aBOTIeO caMCBOjy J13a6paHwu;y. Kpyna naure lby6aBJ1 6J1TIa cy neua, nama HOBa, MaTIanopo.n;J1u;a. 060je CMO 6wTIWnOTnYHo CnpeMHJ13a caMOpeaTIJ13aU;J1jy Haj60-rser nena ce6e, caor yHyTpallll-ber 6TIara, Kp03 ponarezscrso. YcneTIJ1 CMO,jepCMO3HaTIJ1na ce snpaazse QYBa Wyaanpehyje y nopomma, npJ1MeHOM npan-U;J1naCTBapaTIaQKOr aacnaraisa. Jby6aB CMO 3HaTIJ1na .n;ajeMo jenno .n;pyroMl1:CBOjOj neux, a aa Y3BpaT CMO .n;o6wjaTIw .n;eceTOCTpYKO amue. Hece6J1QHOcaM CBOjOj w3a6paHWU;W Hy.n;J10sxaise CTBapaTIaQKOr sacnaraisa, a onna CMOra cxyna, xapMOHWQHO npeHOCWTIWCBOjOj neua,

Ilyro, BpTIO rryro, rpajao je nponec caaopeanasauaje Kp03 noponauy,PO.n;J1TelbCTBO,onaopana n03WB W6e36poj aKTWBHOCTWxoje cy 6wTIe YBeK W

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je~l1Hl1 y <}lyHK~l1jl1llOpO~l1~e 113aHl1MaI-ba. Y'll1JIl1 CMOje~Hl1 O~ ~pyrl1x.HacTaBl1JIl1 CMOca caxocnoanajow CBOjl1X113BOPHl1Xnarona, CBOjl1XTaJIeHa-ra, CBOjl1Xnoreanajana, jep MHOrOrora Hl1CMOycneJIl1 na ypa~I1MO y Hajpa-Hl1jeM ~eTl1IbCTBy. YBenaBaJIl1 CMOcsoje yHyTpalUlbe 6JIaro, 113naaa y naa.

Kpounsa je 6yjaJIa, nenpecraao crsapajyhn HOBe,CJIaTKenJIO~OBe.)KI1BOTje npOJIa3110. Ilaaac 113a6paHl1~e MOra cp~a nesra. Ibeaa nofipora )KI1BI1Kp03aaure nOTOMKe.[a npOBO~l1M 3peJIY, snpasy 11Tl1XyCTaPOCT,6JIa)KeH jep caanoxexao na y ~y60KOj CTapOCTl1Bl1~l1Mna MOjl1nOTOM~l1 saajy ~a ce anpa-szse 'IyBa 11ynanpehyje y rroponaua. 3Hajy ~a je nopomma aJI<}la11oxrera)Kl1BOTa.O~aBHO ce Ben OHl1casropeanaayjy Kp03 n0311B KOjl1BOJIe11nopo-~l1~y xojy cy C Jby6aBlby 0CPOPMl1JIl1.[a ce 3a~OBOlbHO CMelUKaM,jep caano-rexao ~a Bl1~l1Mcsoje nOTOMCTBO3~paBO, naMeTHO 11cpehao, HapaBHO,~a aacrasrsaa, ~a Haj6olbl1 neo ce6e, Hece611'1HOnapyjea nOTOM~l1Ma, CBI1Mlby~l1Ma y MOMOKpY)KeIbY,~pylUTBy, npl1pO~l1.

Moje snpanzse? 3~paB caM 11KpenaK cTapa~, Bory XBaJIa, aJII1 ce nOJIaKO,6e3 cTpaxa, np"npeMaM sa rauteise. He )KaJIl1M.Bpeneo je )Kl1BOTy KojeMcaM ce cavocrroanao, caMOpeaJI1130BaO 11caaoocraapao. Bpeneno je cno-3HaTl1 ~a 'IOBeK )KI1Bl1,nOCJIe csoje cp11311'1KeCMPTI1,OHOJIl1KO~yro KOJII1KO)Kl1BenOTOM~l1 KOjl1sac BOJIe, lby~l1 11nena y xoje je 'IOBeK yrpa~l1o najtio-lbl1 neo ce6e.

J1 ~albe ~ajeM, jep 11MaM urra ~a ~aM. Moje yHyTpalUlbe 6JIaro je 'Iy~HO.lIITO ra nmue napyjea OHOce CBe nmue ysehaaa. Mopasr ~a np113HaM, l1MaMeCTa 113a npxsraisa. Y nOBepelbY hy Tl1pehx na ca YHYKOMCO<}ll1jOMOBl1Xnana cnoaaajev CBOjHecn03HaTl1 HarOH sa nJIeCOM.CaBJIa~aBaM xopaxe BaJI-~epa, ranra, TBl1CTa11carrce. Cocpl1ja Ml1je najsehn nOMOnHl1Ky MOMcasso-pa~y xao lUTOcaM ja rso] aexana 6110 BO~l1'1Y cBeTY YMeTHOCTl111)Kl1BOTa,npaseha on Ibe YMeTHl1Ka)Kl1BOTa.

CJI060~He care ca 3a~OBOlbCTBOMnocsehyjesr MaJIl1lUaHY113KOMlUl1JIY-xa, nexaxy KOjl1l1Ma jour ceharse na 113BOPHYnpl1po~y CBOjy,xojy My Hl1CYl1CKPl1Bl1JIl1,ynpKoc lUTO iseroaa nopO~I1~a 3Ha carao sa rrpnauane ayro-pxrapnor aacmrratsa. Hece611'1Ho yBO~l1M MaJIl1lUaHa y rajne crnapana+xor nacrnrraisa, y 'Iap06Hl1 CBeT MY3l1Ke,Hy~enl1 My CBe lUTOnocenyiea.

Ilpara 'Il1TaO'le, nl1CMOxoje re xexa y OBOjKlb11311mrcana CMOnexa« 11ja.OH y'll1 O~ MeHe, ja O~ Ibera. Y~py)Kl1JIl1CMOMoje )Kl1BOTHO11pa~HO l1CKy-CTBO,MOjy My~pOCT, I1CKYCTBOCTBapaJIa'lKOr aacmrraisa, 11lberOBY xapMO-Hl1jynoaeceay pohersezs, xoja <}lyHK~110Hl1rnena npl1H~l1nl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOrnacnxraa,a, ynpKoc CBeMY.Kana ce y~py)Kl1 xapsronnja o~pacJIor 'IOBeKa11xapsromrja nerera CBe nocraje Kpl1CTaJIHOjacno. Carzrenasajy ce npaan

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y3pO'lHI1~11 KOjl1pyrne xapxromrjy, orxpasajy ce nYTeBl1 xojasra ce xapMo-Hl1ja xyna l1JIl1ycnocraszsa, aKOje Ben HapyrneHa. Xapsromrja je npe~yCJIOB3~paBlba 113aTO je sazsa O'lYBaTl1, a 'IyBa ce najfiozse y Kpyry nopO~l1~e, yo~CyCTBy nznnnaae 11peaJIHe npI1Hy~e.

[a caM cana 'IJIaH 11lberOBe, a OHMoje nopO~l1~e. Ilpoxarajre 11Bl1"Ilopo-~~HI1 6yKBap" ce6e 11Ibera pa~l1. Ilpoxarajre ra, jep CMOCBl1Ml1 iseroaaBeJIl1Karroponxua. MO)K~a heur 6arn Tl1 npxjarezsy, 611Tl1lberOB rrporpecop,Bl1, rocnoho rseros nexap. Bl1 MJIa~a ~aMO, MO)K~ahere Bl1 611Tl1113a6paHl1-ua n.eroaor cp~a, Bl1, na Bl1 rocnonaae, rseros rrperrrocraszseaa na nocny,a Bl1 npeCBeTJIl1, iseros CBernTeHI1K, a Bl1, Bl1 YBa)KeHl1rocnonnae, MO)K~ahere 6arn Bl1 611Tl1npencenaax iserose sesose. CBl1 CMOMI1je~Ha BeJIl1Kanoponxna, a snpaazse ce 'IyBa 11ynanpehyje y noponaux.

J1Ma JIl1nexor ~a TO He )KeJIl1?He )KeJIl1Te,BI1?! Y pe~y. To je Barn 11360p.,lJ;OBOlbHOje urro CTe CTpnlbl1BO rrpo-nrrana MOjy npl1'1y. Ilpo-nrrajre je 6apjour je~HoM. Bahe 11TO ~OBOlbHO.XBaJIa! A cana sac nperryurrasr nexaxy 0KojeM BaM rOBOpl1M. J1MajTe nosepeisa y isera 11lberoBY npl1'1y. To je nexa-~a 6l1JIa 11Barna npl1'1a, caao CTeje 3a6opaBl1JIl1 jep je aYTOpl1TapHOCTYsac-nl1TalbY 611JIa11OCTaJIa Barn np06JIeM.

IIJ1CMO IIOPO~J1I{J1

,lJ;PAfM MOJM, MaMa, Tan, 6aKo, nexo, CTpl1'1e, CTpJllHa,yjxo, yjna, TeTKe,Te'le ... BaCIIJIlTa'lJll~e, y'lJllTelbJll~e, HaCTaBHJIl~e, npotpecopn, nexapn, qy~aTeXHOJI' .ornje ... JIlCBJIlKOJJIlaa AHpeKTaH JIlJIJIlJIlHAHpeKTaH uaxaa, xpaheJIlJIJIl~y)f(e apesre, yxecrnyjere y MOMBaCIIJIlTaIbY. Basra ce otipahaa OBJILMnJllCMOM . ., Jep CTe BJilMOJa BeJIJIlKa IIOpO~JIl~a. [a 6e3 aac He MOry. Ba 6e3MeHe MO)f(eTe, aJIJIlca MHOMJIlMaTeBeJIJIlKeuraace ~a ~yXOBHO pacrere.

Ko caM ja?! [a casr nere xoje he csoje ~eTl1IbCTBO 11MJIa~OCT,ueo CBOj)KI1BOTnpoxoraer« y 2l. BeKy. OTKy~ Ml1rrpaBo rta BaM ce 06paTl1M, rnrra-Tece CaM ." 11CTeMI1~aJII1 npaBo, KpaJeM osor aexa ~a 6y~eM rocno~ap nopo-~I1Qe, a TOO~ nac Hl1CaMrpaxoro. Oryna Moja norpetia ~a BaM ce 06paTl1M,y I1Me CBe IT' •. neue, KOJa cy, xao 11ja, )KpTBe Barner aesaarsa. Hcxpeno hy, 113CBoJepasna, npaxasarn KaKOja Bl1~l1Mname 3a6JIy~e, 36m KOjl1XCBe sauteAo6peHaMep .e y nomrsarsy nOTOMaKa, na~aJY YBO~y. Ilosroha hy BaM, nosia-lIo Bac 11K . toJb 6 pl1Tl1KYJYlll1,ca l1CKpeHOM)KelbOMna ysenere Barny nopO~I1~y y

Y aa, aa npl1H~l1nl1Ma CTBapaJIa'lKOr aacrnrran,a.

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Ilanac, Ha)KaJIOCT,ja )KapMM, rraJIMM, JIy,n;yjeM, ,n;OHOCMMO,n;JIYKe,yueisy.jeM, JIeH'JapMM, cnasaa ,n;aI-bY,)KMBMMnohy, a aKO rpetia Mynapxhy oaora KOMMCTaHe na rryT. OTKY,n;MMOBOJIMKaxpatipocri Xpa6ap caM jep y BaUIMMpYKaMa He BM,n;MM6aTMHY. Y CTBapM, "cTpyql-ba~M" cy TaKO o,n;pe,n;MJIMna6M 3alllTMTMJIM MeHe, rrOTpOllla'la Ha,n; rrorpoura-nora. CTaBMJIl1 cy Me nanpecro. BM rrpOM3Bo,n;l1Te,panxre, sapahyjere, a ja TPOIlll1M. Iyraa CBe, on)KBaKe, rrasmepca, rrpeKO Mrpa'laKa, CBliX rrorpetiaxx MHerrOTpe6HMX CTBa-pl1, npexo IllKOJIl1~a, KOJIeI,Ja,xoxnjyrepa, CBMXTeXHl1'1Kl1Xno crnrnyh a l1...CBe IllTO je jyxe npoaaseneao, nanac je 3aCTapeJIO l1 Mopa ce 6a~MTl1. IlocraocaM HOBl1 xpearop CBeTa. Ilpasaa HOBe rrJIaHMHe on nenoanja ornana. CJIaKOnOM YHl1IllTaBaM 6l1CTPMHYpeKa MMel-baM ~eJIOKyrrHl1 l13rrre,n;npnpo-ne, xrpajyha ce Bora.

CBe Te CTBapl1 xoje Ml1 nynnre cy rrorrYT OHe KO~Ke urehepa xoja ce naje)Kl1BOTl1l-baManpa ,n;pecypM. Cana CTe, nparn ponarezsn, Hay'll1JIl1 zta 6aTl1Ha,rpy6a pe'l, rrCOBKa, Hl1CYaa ~l1Bl1JIl130BaHy nopo,n;l1~y. OCTaJIa BaM je caao6JIara npMHy,n;a, n03l1TMBHO ycnosrsaaaise (noopa, CTapa, KO~Ka urehepa),npeaanrrahaaaise MBep6aJIl13aM. ] a caa aecrainaa, nenocnymaa, 06eCTaH,HerroKopaH, ny,n;lbMB, arpeCl1BaH. TaKaB casr, jep l1MaM BJIaCT. ]e,n;MHOMe,aa KpaTKO, MO)KeTe CMl1pl1TMaauron HOBOM KO~KOM urehepa. 3aXTeBaM,Kyrrl1Te, nornenaa, l13JIOMl1M,a onna, CBe MCrrO'leTKa. Tpe6a rrpo,n;aTl1 CBeTe xojeurrapnje. MO)K,n;a l1 Bl1 rpzsare pYKe, aJIl1 CTe 3a60paBl1JIl1, ,n;aCTe l1Bl1 ponrrrezsn.

ql1TaM BaM MMCJIl1:"BpaTMneMO Ml1 6aTl1HY l1 YKJIOHl1Tl1retie ca BJIa-CTl1!" 3Hao caa. Hnurra ,n;pyro Hl1 He 3HaTe. Xazsane ronana ce BpTl1Te yKpyry CKJIepOTl1'1HOr, ayropnrapaor Cl1CTeMasacmrrarsa, a cana CTe )KpTBaCJIyry Cl1CTeMa, KOjMsmue Hl1 He nocroja. YMl1llllbaTe na ce neurasa neurro

"HHOBO, xana BaM noayne "HOBO. e, HeMa HM'Ier CYIllTl1HCKMHOBor, ,n;OKcyronnuamr BaCrrl1THl1 Mo,n;eJIl1y BalllMM pYKaMa. fIOHy,n;l1JIl1cy BaM nmnua-He, ca ~l1lbeM o-rynaisa CTapor, npeaaanbeaor BaCrrl1THOr Cl1CTeMa. ]e,n;l1-HO HOBO, Y l1CTOPl1jl1 CTape noponxue, je 6l1JIa <popMaJIHa CMeHa BJIaCTl1.MaJIo je MaMa Ha,n;l1rpaBaJIa TaTY, nOTOM rara MaMY, a ja caxr YBeK 6110 p06.J1 TaKO BeKOBl1Ma.

CaMO je,n;HoM,a TOje nanac, ja, BeKOBHl1p06 nocranox rocnonap ("HaIllJIace Bl1JIa y '1eM' Hl1je 6MJIa"). Kao IllTO Bl1,n;l1Tecasro HOBl1 rocnonapn l1 HOBpacrropen nasrenrraja, a CBMaanpxcanajy CTapa onpotiaaa cpencrna aacn«-'raisa: fIPJ1HYJJ:Y, fI03J1TJ1BHO YCJIOBJhABAI-hE, fIPE3AIIITJ1'BM-BAI-hE, BEPEAJIJ13AM J13JIOYfIOTPEEY J1MJ1TATOPCKOr OEJIMKAyqEI-hA. CTAJIHE fIOJJ:EJIE J1 TPA)KEI-hE KPJ1B~A.

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AOIllJIl1 CMO,n;OrOp,n;l1jeBor '1Bopa. CBe spetae, OBl1MnMCMOM,nparn MOjl1

eibU xohy ITaBaM Ka)KeM:uehy ja BJIaCT,nehy KOU;Kyurehepa, aJIl1 uehypOAUT Yl, M . OPO

walbe aa crapo nehy narisy. Xohy HOBY, CTBAPAJIAqKY IT -;~~y,KaKBa ,n;OJIl1K;je '1oBeKY 21. sexa, xohy CTBAPAJIAqKO BACfIJ1-TAlliE, jep OHO npl1JIl1'1l1 fIOPOJJ:J1~J1 U )KJ1BOTY Y 21. sexy.

He 6y,n;eTe JIl1 l1CIlYHl1JIl1saury M MOjy norpetiy. ,n;a ce npecypa '10BeKa

KUHe Ml1MaJIl1lllaHl1 Ben Kp03 HeKOJIl1KOrOAl1Ha, 6l1neMO p060-KOHa'lHOy Yl , '

• t.. Te noaaiuatse reunco KaHaJIl1CaTl1 l1 KOHTpOJIl1CaTl1.P060T cpu;aTU '1uJe He l;

a KO cpu;a HeMa TaJ' He 3Ha Hl1 sa cpehy, HU sa necpehy. AKO AOI)e TOHeMa,BpeMe, a namena ,n;OJIa3l1,'10BeK p060T npOTepane '10BeKa ca OBe npenas-He nJIaHeTe. He BepyjeTe?! He ,n;03BOJIMTena 6y,n;eTe CBe,n;OU;l1.Carao MOJIl1-re Bora Aa ce p060Tl1 He rr06YHe. qOBeK l1Ma MorynHocT Aa rrpl1Ml1 HOBOM

he HOBl1Mrryrexr, p060T He. qOBeK MO)Kena nosene paT l1 Aa ra saycra-nOI) . 6'BU. KaA p060T xpene, paryje no nornynor YHl1IllTelba, Jep pO OT Je OTBO-peH caMO sa [enaa nyr, aa oaaj KOjl1je y lbeMY yrrMcaH.

fIJIaIlll1M sac! AaJIeKO on rora. CaMO noxymasaa na BaM YKa)KeM naje 6y,n;ynHocT CBeTa y pYKaMa CTBAPAJIAqKE I10POAJ1U:E. KOpMl1JIO)KUBOTa l1ManeTe y CBOjl1MpYKaMa xana ce o,n;JIy'll1Te aa CTBAPAJIAqKOBACI1J1TAI-hE, AYEOKO PA3YMEBAlbE :>KJ1BOTA, 3A ,JJ;YEOKE fIAPT-HEPCKE OJJ:HOCE, KO]J1 HJ1CY 3ACHOBAHJ1 HA KOMfIPOMJ1-CY, BE'B JhYEABJ1, 3A ,JJ;YEOKO fIOBEPElbE, 3A HAIBJ1IIIJ1 OEJIJ1KyqEI-hA, 3A CAMOPA)J;, CAMOYQEfbE, CAMOOEPA30BAI-hE J1CAMOBACfIJ1TAfbE, KO]E 'BE OTBOPJ1TJ1 HOBE CfIOCOEHOCTJ1HAlliEr YMA J1 fIOJJ:MRM CBECHOCT qOBEKA HA HECJIYREHEBJ1CMHE; KA)J;A CBO]MM PO)J;MTEJhMMA OfIPOCTMTE HE3HA-lbE, KA)J;A fIPECTAHETE )J;A CE EOPMTE fIPOTMB fbMX, KA,JJ;A CEJ1 BJ1M OHM OKPEHETE 3HAlbY HOBOr CTBAPAJIAqKOr KOH-

QEfITA BACfIJ1TAfbA.He nnaunrre ce, CBe je JIaKO jep je y CKJIa,n;yca npl1pOAHOM xapaon»-

JOMKojy l1Ma '10BeK. Y CTBapl1, BaMa je 6l1JIO remxo y CTapOM 06JIl1Ky aac-rnrrau,a, jep CTe rrmraana Y3BO,n;HO.PYIllMJIl1 CTe xapMoHMjy '10BeKa. Ilanac}l(l1Bl1Tena Tl1M pa3BaJIl1HaMa. CaMO xpa6po peU;l1Te: ",JJ;A",CTBAPAJIAq-KOM BACfIJ1TAI-hY.

BeKOBl1Ma je av-roptrrapao BaCITVlTal-be,n;eJIl1JIOneuy or; pornrrersa, say-CTaBlhaJIOn03l1TMBaH pacT '10BeKOBe CBeCTl1.He 3aHOCMTece Aa '10BeK ,n;aHacI1Ma Bl1111l1AYXOBHl1pacT, OA'10BeKa rrpeTxOAHMX BeKOBa. CTBapl1 cy nopa-ClIe, HapO'll1TO opyzcje, '10BeK He.

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CTBapaJIa'fKO aacmrraise cnaja neuy J.1pO)l,J.1Telbe,yKJ.1)l,aCBe <PPOHTOBeJ.1)l,OHOCJ.1casnaise )l,a HeMa KPJ.1BJ.1X.CTBapaJIa'fKJ.1M BaCIIJ.1TalbeM lby)l,J.1IIpBO)l,O)f(J.1BeII03J.1TJ.1BaHpaCT y IIOpO)l,J.1U;J.1,a IIOTOM rpa)l,e )l,PYlliTBO J.1)f(J.1BOTKojJ.1JIJ.1'fe aa lbJ.1X.,IJ;a JIJ.1CTe CXBaTJ.1JIJ.1KOJIJ.1KOCTe BJ.1Ba)f(HJ.1?IIopO)l,J.1-ua je crapxja on )l,pyIIITBa, IIOpO)l,J.1u;aKpeJ.1pa )l,pyIIITBO, 6e3 IIOpO)l,J.1u;e)l,py-IIITBO He IIOCTOjJ.1.

,IJ;parJ.1MOjJ.1,He 3aMepJ.1Te na 036J.1lbHOCTJ.1osor IIJ.1CMa.BeKOBJ.1MaCTe6J.1JIJ.1y 3a6JIy)l,J.1na caM ja BaIIIa J.1rpa'fKa J.1BPIIIJ.1JIJ.1CTe J.1H<paHTJ.1JIJ.13aU;J.1jyMor )f(J.1BOTa,J.1JIJ.1caM 6J.10 BaIII p06. Mozena he aac OBO IIJ.1CMOIIoKpeHYTJ.1na II03J.1TJ.1BaHpacr, na paCT CBeCHOCTJ.1.To J.13Ha)l,csera )f(eJIJ.1M.He 'fY)l,J.1-re ce IIITO caM IIPBJ.1rocnonap y J.1CTOPJ.1jJ.1CBeTa KOjJ.1)f(eJIJ.1)l,a ce onpexaeIIpeCTOJIa. )l(J.1BOTy 21. BeKY he J.1MaTJ.1.xxjepapxajy" xoja nehe JIJ.1'IJ.1TJ.1aanaaaunsy, EJ.1he TO CTBapaJIa'IKa xnjepapxaja 3aCHOBaHa xa )l,y60KJ.1MIIapT-HepCKJ.1MO)l,HOCJ.1Ma,aJIJ.1he ce 3HaTJ.1)l,a cy nena, 6a6a J.1pO)l,J.1TelbCTapJ.1jJ.1onMeHe. BJ.1CTe MOjJ.1BO)l,J.1'IJ.1.HJ.1caM BaM ja sa IIpecTo. CJ.1JIa3J.1M!He IIelbJ.1Tece, MOJIJ.1Msac! He IIelbJ.1Te ce, na nerrocrojehy 11J.1paMJ.1)l,y.II0)l,J.1)f(J.1TeCBOjy)l,BOCTpyKy IIJ.1paMJ.1)l,y,yHyTap ce6e.

YJIaCKOMy CTBapaJIa'fKO BaCIIJ.1Talbe CBaKO on Hac he rrOCTaTJ.1,aajssp-IIIha rrJ.1paMJ.1)l,a,nocrahe ,IJ;JII]AMAHT. A )l,J.1jaMaHTje )l,J.1jaMaHT,Haj'IBpIIIhJ.1,u;eJIOBJ.1T,a caao u;eJIOpaarosapa ca u;eJIJ.1MKp03 lby6aB, caao u;eJIO, pa)l,J.1aa,IJ;06po xoaexa, )l,PYIIITBa J.1rrpJ.1po)l,e, aa notipo nerera, sa notipo rrOTOMaKa.

YKOJIJ.1KOsac je rrJ.1CMOnoxpenyno, 'IJ.1TajTe narse. He 60pJ.1Te ce rrpOTJ.1BCTBAPAJINIKOr BACIIJ1ITAIhA.

BOJIe sac J.1xexajy aac crpnzsnao: HA]MJIA1)JII qJIAH BaIIIe noponn-ue J.1,IJ;PBO,IJ;06pJ.1u;a

AyTOpJ.1TapHJ.1 CJ.1CTeMsacrnrrarsa, rserose cnyre xoje naaac rrpaBe xaocna rrJIaHeTJ.1CMO)l,eMJ.1CTJ.1<pJ.1KOBaJIJ.1.Y'IJ.1HJ.1MOTO J.1ca CTBapaJIa'IKJ.1M aac-mrrarse, )l,eMJ.1cTJ.1<pJ.1KyjyhJ.1rrpmnnme na KojJ.1Ma noxxsa noponnua rpe-her MJ.1JIeHJ.1jYMa,CTBapaJIa'IKa rropO)l,J.1u;a. KpeHJ.1MO on ...

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nYEO KOr PA3YMEBAlhA

3Ha1-be U pasyueeaiee cy jeqno, gy60KO pasysceeaseeHemUW CaC6UM gpytO

IT anac, xao HJ.1Ka)l,ano cana, 'IOBeK J.1Maorposmo anaise 0 ce6J.1 xao )l,e~y rrpJ.1-,L-J,pO)l,e, 0 )l,pyrJ.1Mlby)l,J.1Ma,0 rrpnpona. JlICToBpeMeHO 'IOBeK HJ.1Ka)l,HJ.1JeMalbepa3YMeo ce6e, )l,pyIIITBO, rrpJ.1po)l,y. HJ.1Ka)l,HJ.1je6J.1JIOMalbe XapMOHJ.1jey noponax-HJ.1M,)l,PYllITBeHJ.1MO)l,HOCJ.1Ma,y O)l,HOCJ.1MaMet)y rrOJIOBJ.1Ma,y O)l,HOCJ.1Malby)l,J.1ypannoa oKpY)f(elbY, y O)l,HOCJ.1MaBJIaCTJ.1J.1napona, y O)l,HOCJ.1Ma60raTJ.1X J.1CJ.1pO-MaIIIHJ.1X... OCTaJIa je XapMOHJ.1ja casro y )l,eJIY'IOBeKa, y )l,eJIy YMeTHOCTJ.1J.1)l,eJIynpnpone. CBe rrpOJIa3He "Bpe)l,HOCTJ.1"xoje cy Ba[KJ.1JIey rrpOIIIJIJ.1MBpeMeHJ.1Ma,xoje ce crsapajy nanac, rrnxsajy aa rrJIO'IJ.1)f(J.1BOTaJ.1orpOMHOM CHarOM rrpJ.1BJIa-xe rrJIJ.1IIIaHereaepaunje. II pe)f(J.1BeJIa cy J.1nena HenpOJIa3HJ.1X Bpe)l,HOCTJ.1,J.1nanacrroje)l,J.1HU;J.1crnapajy nena nenponaana, aJIJ.1OHa HJ.1CYrrpe)l,MeT J.1HTepeCOI~albacaBpeMeHor xosexa. Ta nena cy nanac y MpaKy, anx he YCKOPOCJ.1HYTJ.1Y CBOj CBO-joj JIerrOTJ.1,nena xoja he qOBeK cTBapalla'IKe CBeCTJ.1Ha)l,BJ.1CJ.1TJ.1CBOjJ.1M)f(J.1BOTOM,jep he )f(J.1BeTJ.1)f(J.1BOT60rOQOBeKa.

qOBeK nanac, na BPXYHU;y aYTOpJ.1TapHOCTJ.1J.1ry6J.1TKa 'fOBe'fHOCTJ.1 J.1CJI060-ne, rroKYIIIaBa)l,a aahe KpJ.1Bu;aKOjJ.1My yopsaao YHJ.1IIITaBa,6JIaro 6e3 xojer isercs)f(t1BOTHe npemr, ry6J.1 CMJ.1Cao.CaMO ,IJ;YEOK: PA3YMEBAIhEM 'IOBeK MO)f(eca3HaTJ.1 J.1rrpJ.1XBaTJ.1TJ.1)l,a je je)l,J.1HJ.1KpJ.1Bau;J.1jenxaa rrperrpeKa iseroso« rr03J.1-Tt1BHOM'IOBe'IHOM pacTy, nanac, rrJIHIIIaHa J.1peaJIHa rrpJ.1Hy)l,a, IIET cnyry ayro-Pt1TapHor CJ.1CTeMa,CJ.1CTeMaKOjJ.1BJ.1IIIe He nocrojn. IIpJ.1XBaTJ.1TJ.1OBY J.1CTJ.1HY,oc 6 6 ..rro O)l,J.1TJ.1ce ner BaCrrJ.1THJ.1XMO)l,eJIa, 3Ha'IJ.1 BpaTJ.1TJ.1XapMOHJ.1jy ce J.1,CBOJO)nopO)l,HU;t1, )l,PYIIITBYH rrpHpO)l,H.

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Bnara rrpJ.1Hy~a, rr03HTHBHO ycnonrsaaaise, neptiarrnaast, rrpe3alllTHnHBalbe ,snoynorpeoa HMHTaTOpCKOr 06nHKa yqelba pYllle xapxromrjy xojy qOBeK ~OHOCJ.Ipoheisesr. Ha lbHXOBHMTeMelbHMa He MO)KeHHnH 06nHK yqelba npasrepea qOBeI<yrpeher MHneHHjYMa, CAMOyqEIhE. Be3 CAMOyqEIi>A, CAMOPA,1J;A, pa~a clby6aBlby He MO)Kece y HOBHMHneHHjYM. Il03HTHBHe, H3BopHe eMo~Hje ce KPHBe,aacnojaaajy, norncxyjy H TaKBe, HaKa3He 6yjajy, y CBeTY y KojeM )KI1BI1MO~aHac.Ilanac nonaxo "HeCTajy" 11rr0311THBHe11HeraTI1BHe eMo~l1je, qOBeK CBe amue nl1'IJ.Ina 6e30cenajHor p060Ta. Pa~110HanHa 11exromronanna paBHOTe)Ka je HapYllleHa yKOPI1CTpa~l1oHanHor, y KOPI1CT"HeraTI1BHHX", I1CKpl1BlbeHI1XeMo~l1ja, HaI<a3HJ.lXMHCnl1 11rrorytinax axuxja.

,1J;y60KOMopaMO pa3YMeTI1 11I1crryHI1TI1 norpefiy 'IOBeqaHCTBa ~a qOBeK rrpe-CTaHe ~a rypa CH311<pOBKaMeH y3 6p~o, jep ce 6p~0 otiypnano. Mopaao paayve-TI1 3aKOHHTOCTI1aYTopHTapHor CI1CTeMasacrnrrarsa xoje HI1 y Tpa~I1~110HanHojrroponaua Hl1je noaaozsasao ~yXOBHI1 paCT xoaexa. 3aKOHI1TOCTHayropnrapaorCI1CTeMacy 6Hne:

• Ayropnrapaa xajepapxnjcxa opramrsauaja )KHBOTa• OTBopeHOCT aa "HOBO"• EKBH<pI1HanHOCTOBe 3aKOHI1TOCTHCI1CTeMacy snanarre qOBeKOM, a He qOBeK lbl1Ma. Ayropirrap-

aa xnjepapxajcxa opraaasanaja, na ql1jeM BpXy je 6HO MylllKapa~ 611na je qBPCTa,jacaa, noxxsana je na CTpaxy O~ Ka3He H jacHI1M rrpaBl1nHMa. CI1CTeMje norryurraocaao OHO"HOBO" lllTO cnY)KH OqYBalbY caaor CI1CTeMa.EKBI1<pI1HanHOCT,3Haql1 naje xpajisa pesynrar, no ynobeisy "HOBor", Mopao 611TI1xao rrpeTXO~HI1. OxyearseCI1CTeMa je YBeK 611no, 113Ha~ csera. Mea-ana cy ce lby~I1, rrpaBl1na, Bpe~HOCTI1,ana CHCTeMHI1Ka~. qOBeK je 6HO y cnY)K611 oxynatsa Tor CI1CTeMa.

Ha cpehy ayTopl1TapHI1 CI1CTeMce YPYllll10, ynacKoM xonexa y TeXHonOlllKYpesonyuajy, BpeMe eKBI1<pHHanHOCTI1je saspiueao. Tpehn Ml1neHl1jYMje Ml1neHI1-jyM ~yXOBHOCTI1jep je paCT MaTepHjanHor 3aBpllleH. Bpeae je na ce I1cxapMoHl13yjeMaTepl1janHo 11~yXOBHO, rrpBO y qOBeKY, a rrOTOM~a ce Ta nenora MaHI1<peCTyje Ycrrozsaunsesr CBeTY. Ilanac, ca rryno OrrTHMI13Ma, Mory peha na je qOBeK cnpeMaHsa HOBO, jep je ayTopl1TapHa rrl1paMI1~a cpYllleHa, a ca lbOM H ayropnrapaa xnje-papxnjcxa opranasanaja )KI1BOTa.

OHO lllTO KOql1yopsaa ~yXOBHI1paCT xoaexa jecy aYTOpl1TapHI1 BaCnl1THI1MO~e-nl1 xoje HeMa KO~a 3aycTaBI1. To he MOpaTI1 ~a yql1HH CBaKHqOBeK noaaocoe, YKO-nl1KO )Kenl1 na 6y~e CBe~OK rrpenerror BpeMeHa, xoje je Ben CTl1rnO, anl1 ce TeWKOrrpenosaaje 360r rtorrnase aYTopl1TapHor ana, Jlas je Hajjaql1 xana yMl1pe. A rrnJll-uraaa YMI1PY,~pecypa xoaexa necraje 6ecrroBpaTHo, 6Y~I1Te Cl1ryPHI1.

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3Halbe 0 cnorsaunsesr, 0 MaTepl1janHoM, nanac je orpoMHo, sehaaa TI1Xsaaa,a cyIlOTIlYHOnpeBa3J1l1)eHa 116ecrroTpe6Ha. 3Halbe 0 ~yXOBHOM, YHYTpallllbeM rrOCTO-'JIly JIl306J1llbY,anH qOBeK Hl1je crrpejaan aa isera. ,1J;YXOBHOsuaise je qYBaHo BeKO-~JIlMa, Kp03 Klbl1re, 06Hqaje, otipene, yrnaBHoM je 611no na HI1BOYYMa, xa HI1BOYJIlMJIlTaTOpCKor.CBe je TO 6Hno norpetiao na ce He yracJIl 11nocnemsa )Kl1lllKa nyxa

pora )KJIlBora y nasra.,U01la3J1lspesre, y KojeM he yKJIl~albeM rrpl1Hy~e, yKJIl~albeM Ka3He H Harpa-

ne, qOBeK y~ellOBHTI1 ce6e, I1cXapMOHJIl30BaTI1 MaTepJlljallHo 11P;YXOBHOY ce611 11IloKpeHYTJIl nllaMeH nyxa 60)Kl1jer y ce6J1l. Ha TOMCMOnyry, alll16e3 rrpBor npaa-~JIlna, rrpJllH~l1rra ,1J;YBOKOr PA3YMEBAfhA 11npaxsararsa I1CTI1Hena cy y3po-~JIl3acToja naurer ~yxoBHor paCTa, naaac: IlET ayroparapnax BaCrrl1THI1XMo~ella(Ka3Ha, narpana, npe3alllTI1nl1Balbe, Bep6anl13aM 11anoynorpetia I1MI1TaTOpCKor

0611J1lKayqelba).OHI1 KOjl1cy ~OHelll1 rr0311TI1BHYonnyxy, nexa KpeHy na nyro, rrllO~OHOCHOrryTo-

Balbe xoje ~OHOCl1CTBAPAnAqKO aacrnrrarse. Yn03HajTe ce ca MOjl1M11BalllI1M...

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M3BOPHMM OlJEKMBAfbMMA

3a cpehy je uOUlpe6HO UlaKCIsiano

H a OBOMrrYToBaI-bYBa)KaH caM ja. [a caM 113BOPBarner .n;YXOBHor3a.n;OBOlbCTBa11oaaj KOjl1 he 11aaxra oMoryhl1Tl1 QOBeqHl1 pacr. [a Hy.n;l1MrrpaBe spenao-

CTl1, a CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAIhE Hy.n;l1snarse na He 3aJIYTaMO na nyry.nace He rrcrytiasro xao y aYTOpl1TapHOM Cl1CTeMYnacmrraisa, y KojeM je CBe 611JIOBa)KHl1je on nac 11MeHe.

CTBAPAJIAqKO BACITJ1TAIhE YQl1 .n;aje CBe na cBeTY, 6arn CBe: Barn 11MOjpa.n;, CBe .n;YXOBHe11MaTepl1jaJIHe Bpe.n;HOCTl1... CBe, CBe je y CJIY)K611Harner .n;YXOB-nor pacra, oceharsa 3a.n;OBOlbCTBa11cpehe y aaurea TOrrJIOMnosry, CBe je y <PYHK-Ql1jl1 onrajaisa snpaaor; qeCTl1TOr rrOTOMCTBa.

Moja OqeKl1BaI-ba?! J1cTa cy xao 11nama!' Hl1CY BeJIl1Ka, Hl1Tl1l1Xje reunco ncrry-Hl1Tl1. C npanov ovexyjexro: OqYBAIhE XAPMOHJ1JE KOJY CY HAM PO)JJ1-TElhJ1 ITO,n:APJ1JIJ1 ( na je fiaxa TO 3HaJIa, .n;parJil rara, HJilKa.n;aHe 6Jil .n;03BOJIJilna.n;aJIJiljern cy3e nan npenyaav ratsnpoxr).

Y uearap aacmrrarsa CTaBJilTe pexa, arnr JilXncrrymrre qOBeqHJilM ca.n;p)KajeM(,n:YEOKO PA3YMEBAIhE, OITPOlllTAJ PO,n:J1TElhY, ,n:YEOKO ITOBEPE-IhE, ,n:YEOKJ1 ITAPTHEPCKJ1 O,n:HOCJ1, CAMOPA,n:, CAMOOEPA30BAITIE,CAMOBACITJ1TAIhE, EE3YCJIOBHO qEKAIhE). CBe peqeHO, MO)KeTeOCTBa-para, YKOnJilKOce onpexirere onaxnx JilrpaqaKa. Bazsna CTe no cana CXBaTJilnJil.n;aMopa na ce onpexnere rrpJilHy.n;e, rr03JilTJilBHOryczroan.aaan,a, rrpe3arnTJilhJilBaIba,Bep6anJil3Ma JilMopaTe CTaBJilTJilnon KOHTPOJIYBJilPTyenHy ryBepHaHTy. TeK nOlllTOO.n;JIO)KJilTeopyzqe CTapor aacmrrxor CJilCTeMa,Moryhe je ocrnaperse BPXOBHJilXeTJilqKJilXJil.n;eallanoponaue: rrCJ1XO-<I>J13J1QKOf 3,n:PABlhA, CTBAPAJIAQKE

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J1J-1TEJIJ1fEHIJ;J1JE J1 QOBEQHOCTJ1, 3A CBE rrOTOMKE, rrPETKE J1 BAC,~fY1JIJ1 MOJJ1. Ee3 I-bJilXxapsronaja HJilje Moryha.

CUlUJlCeM! OUlKpujUle MU lleUOUlY JlCU80Ula!

TaKO MJilje npnjarao, ronno, He)KHO, yrozmo, XapMOHl1qHO y MaMJilHOMCTOMa-Ky. ,n:parJil rara, 6y.n;11aaxsanaa MaMJilrnTO he rseaa yrpotia 6arn MeHe nonapn-TJil)KJilBOTy. [a caM rrona rx, rrona OHa. [a caM QeJIo. He Ma3Jil rara, casto CBOjyrrOJIOBJilHY.Ey.n;l1 .n;BOCTPYKOHe)KaH, .n;BOCTPYKOnaxe'ran, jep je MaMa pe6porsoje, raoja nozrosxna, oner QeJIo. Y)KJilBajTe .n;OKrrpl1po.n;a pa.n;Jil sa CBe Hac.Csahy, 6YKY, HepB03y, He nonnocioa. Kana MaMJil 3aKYQa cpue on crpaxa 11Moje 6Jilje y JilCTOMpJilTMy. J1MajTe caste rroaepersa y )KJilBOT11crpnzsnso, 6e3-vcnonao qEKAJTE.

,n:OKxexare noroaopnre ce ca qnaHOBl1Ma nopomnie (6a60M, .n;e.n;OM,TeTKOM,CTPJilHOM,MOjJilM6paTOM JilKyhHOM noaohmmca) .n;aMe onrajare jenaaxo, KaKOsazsa Jilnpxcraje qOBeKY xoja he saxopa-nrra y 21. BeK. TOnJilKO)KenJilMO.n;a rajBeK 6y.n;e BeK rr0311Tl1BHl1Xnpoaena, a I-bl1XHeMa .n;OKMoja 11Barna oxexaaarsa He6y.n;eTe JilCrrYHJillIJilKaKO nazsa.

Iloxexajre Me Clhy6aBlby 11xana BaM .n;ol)eM, OHaKaB KaKBJilMMe HJilCTe3aMJil-urrsanx. MO)K.n;a hy noha xao 611he ca rrOCe6Hl1M norpefiawa, MO)K.n;ahe JIeKa-pJil aanpaarrra HeKY rpernKy, MO)K.n;ahere BJil,nparx MOjJilponarezsn HaqJilHJilTl1HJil3 HeCMOTpeHJilX rpeuraxa y nepnony .n;OKce aaxxrse Jil paaaxja MOj )KJilBOT,Y MaMl1Hoj yTp0611. MO)K.n;a? Ko 3Ha!? Je.n;HOsanasrnrre: CBaKJil )KJilBOTje Bpe-naa, jep je .o.ap Bozcajn, jep rroce.n;yje .n;yx, xao neo 60)KJilje enepraje, a .n;yx ceMopa 11MO)Ke pasnarn aKO My oxoryhaao zta yspacra y lhy6aBJil, y o.n;CYCTBYaYTOpl1TaPHOCTJil.

Bl1.o.eheTe KOnl1KOMOry, caao MJilnajre rrpJilJIJilKy,He npesaurrnhyjre Me, jep YBeKhy pa.o.l1Tl1c lhy6aBlbY 11y cxnany ca CBOjJilMMoryhHOCTJilMa. Ilonaurajre ce npesraMeHl1 xao l1KOHl160)Kl1joj Jilcawo Me urrxrrrre TaMO rne MJilrpetia Barna saurrn-'ra, He rrl1TajTe ce JilHe oxajaaajre urro casr 6arn sac rrparprmo, .n;parJil MOjJil.[a caMnaw, a CBOjl1ce 6ecKpajHo Bone.. TaTa, MOlIl1MTe, xana xyjeur .o.ace MaMa cpehao rropo.n;JilJIa HeMoj .n;ace narrn-Jew. Yl)l1 rpesaa y 21. BeK. HeKa TBoje cpQe, cpQe CBJilXxrraaoaa rropo.o.JilQe, 6y.n;eI<ao MaMl1HO, 0.0. cpehe rnrjano. He nynaj, 'rara, Jil3 mrurrozsa. Hexa )KJilBOTrrYQa0.0.pa.o.OCTl1.

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Illiua 6aM eansa «unuiuu KaKO 6u cute UCUYHunu uoja Ueauia ouexueatea

3a noxerax Ha6aBWTe HeKY KlbWry xojy cy nWcaJIWnexapa. J1Ma WX6e36poj WCBaKaje, Malbe amue A06pa. Jlexapn cy CBe peKJIW WHeMa rrorpetie Aa CJIYIllaTe Haralja_isa OHWX,KOjw no cehaisy rrpnsajy, KaKO cy nOAW3aJIWAeQY. Kn.nry npeJIWCTaBaj_re, a y MeHe sapoanre CBWMcPQeM WCBWMqYJIWMa.

Ha CBeT caM AOHeo npednnseae MexaHW3Me xoja ce ornaurasajy nJIaqeM W3aTOHe namrsare, KaA aarmaxesr. Moj nnax je MOj rOBOp. Bame je casro na nnaa qyje-re, npenosaajere, HYAWTe W oncnyzcyjere. [a caM TaKO MaJIW, aJIWqWCT xao cyaa.YBeK hy BaM nJIaqeM jacno AaTWAO aaarsa urra rpefia Aa paAWTe. Jbyr caM jep caMrnanan, a BW npnxare ca KOMIllWHWQOM. PaAOCTaH caM jep ocehan TBOjy paAOCTMaMa, AOK ryryheur caMHOM, 6pW)f(aH caM jep ce HenpeCTaHO cnaham ca TaTOM,TY)f(aH caxr jep ce npwnpeMaTe, npara MOjw pOAwTelbw, na Me ca urecr MeceQw CTa-BWTey jacnaue, sacrpaurea caxr jep Me, TaKO MaJIOr, caraxa AP)f(WTenpen expanoa,a OHAa ce aohy 6YAWM y xounraproaa W BPWCKOMaacrojaa Aa OCTaHeM y sanrevKpeBeTy. EMoQwje KpY)f(e, a ja BaM nJIaqeM jacno xasyjea urra paznrre A06po, arne rpeunrre. He nzraunrre ce, HwcaM ja HW napa3wT, HW AWKTaTop. [a casro 3HaMrne rpeIllwTe WKaA naaeaepaaare Moja 3ApaBa o-reroraarsa. IIJIaqeM sac cano ono-MWlbeM. AKO Me npaBWJIHO, OHaKO KaKO ja oxexyjea, oncnyacyjere, BpJIO 6p30 hynOCTaTWaesasacaa Wjax.

Y npoTwBHOM, aKO MOj nna-r He rrperrosaajere WpaAWTe CBenaonaxo, (rypaM ceca BaMa y KpeBeTY, MyqWM Wce6e Wsac, a BWHWKaKOAa ce nocernre Aa MWYCKpaTW-re arpecnaae uprahe, TaKO MaJIeHOM), BpJIO 6p30 hy nOCTaTWWCTWHCKWAWKTaTOp.

Cnyiua] tueno wo]« iuu, wawa, He 6PUHU

IIoHYAWTe MWxpaHy xana 3aTpa)f(WM, aJIWce He lbYTWTe, aKO rronyheao oA6wjeM.Mojn MexaHW3MW npeQw3Ho saajy urra rOAw MOM TeJIy. 3Hajy KOJIWKOMOry Aanojenea, nonajea Wxana rpetia Aa ce ornacast. CaMO xexajre WHYAwTe. He 6YAM-re HaCWJIHW,MOJIWM sac. Macro Me nnaunr xana CTporo napehyjere na MopaMnojecrn CBe, IllTO CTe BW 0ApeAWJIW. Te xpne xpaHe Me yzcacasajy, [a TaKO MaJIM,a rarsnpa MW JIwqe na nJIaHMHe. He rrrraunrre Me npasanajyha: BeIllTMQe, Ea6aPore, AOKTope C 60QOM, JIOnOBe, nomruajue, pa3Hopa3He EaI,Ie, CMpOTe nOillTape,crpore 'rare, (urra JIWcy BaM OHM CKPWBMJIW);He nnaunrre Me rpmsov. 6aTMHOM,

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J{a3HOM,crporroa M3pa30M JIwQa, CBOjOM60JIeIllny WeBeHTyaJIHOM cMpny WCBWMoCTaJIMM, IllTO y MeHWjaxa cTpax, a 3aycTaBlba n03WTMBaH pacT.

MaMa, rrpecraan na MW TOKOM uenor npenoAHeBa najeur, CBe OHO IllTO HYAeeKJIaMe (HOBY )f(BaKY, HajHoBMjw -nmc, "BpXyHCKY" naurrery, coxnhe 6e3 npeM-

~a, qOKoJIaAMQe, rpwcMHe ... ). [ooj, MaMa, na Moj CT~MaqMn je TaK~ MaJIW.CBe TO, aOHp;aM pyqaK. He rpAM Me, He TYQW Me, He YQelbY) Me IllTO oA6w)aM pyqaK nOCJIeCBera. OP;JIyqW p;a re peKJIaMa nehe 3aBeCTJ.1.IIoHYAW MW3ApaBY xpaHY, y rrpaaosrTpeHYTKY, xana MOj CTOMaqWn3aQBWJIM.J~TO 3aCJIY)f(yjeM. Bnneheur, cYK06a HeMa.noCTaHM KpeaTwBHa y cBeMY, na Wy OBO) 0AJIYQW.

06paTw nasosy, MaMa, p;a cy KOJIWQa,y KojwMa Me B03WIll KaA WAeMOy IlleTlbY,npenyHa HeKWX Mpe)f(WQa. IhwXOBW npoasaobana Tw HWCYpeKJIW nrra rpetia AaCTaBMill y lbWX. Ta csr nrtax wcnYHWJIa lbWXOBe )f(elbe. CTaBWJIa CWy lbWX WrpaqKe,<pJIalllWQe, »csaxe, qwnc, rpWCWHe, ycnYT KynWJIa naanepc neneae W KO 3Ha urrajour, IllTO MW rpeoa, WJIWHe rperia, 3a60ra, MaMa, MW CMOY npwpoAw. He osierajMe, KlbyKajynw Me, He TpqW W3npOAaBHWQe y npOAaBHWQY. ,IJ;03BOJIWAa y)f(WBaMOTKpMBajynw JIenOTe CBeTa, y KojeM caM ce Tor TpeHa aaurao.

3HaM CBe 3aMKe xoje MW cnpeMaTe. ,IJ;aHac Me MaMa aeheur rpAWTW, neheuireparn na care npOBop;WM HaA XJIap;HWM 06POKOM, aarrnaajyhn ra CY3aMa. E,xana 6w Ta, MaMa, 3HaJIa KaKO Moje cpQe rana sene. Carypan caM Aa WTw TO He)1<eJIWIll,aJIWCWCBeA06po caBJIaAaJIa paneha WCTOlllTO je Te6w 6aKa paAWJIa, aJIWWOHO IllTO HWCWBWAeJIa OA 6aKe, Ben na reneaasnja. Ilanac hem Me aatianrsa-TWnrpa-ncaaa, QPTaHWM <pWJIMOBWMa,npaxxnaaa, aBWOHqWnWMa, "nwjaQaMa",crasxheur KaBe3 ca rranarajesr wcnpeA MeHe, onanaxaheur MW na)f(lbY mYMOM,neCMOM, WJIWheur Me CTaBWTWnpeA YKlbyqeHW TB, jypnheur HeYMopHO aa MHOM,no c06w WJIWABOpWillTy.

Kana ce Ta yMOpwlll HaCTaBWne 6aKa, nexa ... CBaKO nasreran ce rnrra Aa JIWjeQWpKyCcrnrao y HaillY xyhy, He, CBe OBO CJIY)f(W,Aa Me na npeBapy aaxpanare.He Aajynw MWuraacy WnpaBo Aa ce 6paHwM on oaora lllTO Moje TeJIOHe )f(eJIw. HeAajeTe MWnrancy xax HWna ce raAWM, jep Me TaKO A06po aatiasrsare, p;a ja xax HWHe 3HaM, na y craapa jeAeM. Pe3YJITaTW: OTe)f(aJIW CTOMaqWn, ytipsano xaapeise<PI1HI1XMeXaHI13aMa KOjWYCKOPOCTBapHO nehe 3HaTW urra, KOJIWKOIi xana rpetiaMOMe TeJIY, nOJIaraHO aJIW CWryPHO oryherse OA cnor TeJIa, aJIW W op; sac, AparwMojl1 POAI1Telbl1.

OA MeHe CTe HanpaBWJIW CKJIaAWIllHW npOCTOp y KOjW, HeCBeCHO TpnaM, CBelIlTo MI1 nOHYAI1Te, BW Wpexnasse. Beh sa xojy rOAWHY Tn hem MaMa 6WTW BpJIOHecpenHa WTO je Taoja CJIaTKa 6e6a nOCTaJIa npO)f(AplbWBa netiezsyna WJII1paxw-ll1qHa .

MpWaBI1Qa. Y HeMonw W lbYTlbW Ta hem, MaMa, WCMeBaTW MO) W3rJIeAH3a311 . 10-

BaJYlll1 Me CBOjOM sxrxouihy xojy nocrxaceur CYJIYAWMAMjeTaMa. Aa TM

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6aKa HMje noxsaprora <pMHe MexaHM3Me He 6M ce MyqMlIa HM jep;HoM P;MjeTOM

.MyqMlII ce, a MyqMlII M MeHe npxrrpesrajyhn Me aa CBeT, KOjM ce p;elIM na Ae6e_ne, rra OHe KOjM nerrpecrano p;p)f(e p;MjeTY, rra neyxparsene M OHe KOjM CaTl1pyorpOMHe KOIIMqMHe xpaHe, a lIMqe na CKelIeT. Mozena hem Me BplIO paHO n OBe_CTI1aa lIeqelbe jep cy zrexapn KOHCTaTOBalIl1 anopexcnjy MlIM 6YlIMMMjy, xao MO.MTBOj rrp061IeM. )

Tsojy aecpehy ysehaaahe 6ec, jep He nonrryjea nOTpOlIIeHM HOBau; 11TBO)·TPYAOKOcrrpexrarsa otipoxa. M Aalbe neheur pa3YMeTM Aa nere CBe TO nourryje, alIl1 He

MO)f(e p;a ncrryax rnoja osexaaarsa, jep CMMy CTaBMlIa npenone xoje He MO)f(e Aanpecxoxa. Heheur pa3YMeTM na je CBe TO y nyooxo] Be3M ca rrpO)f(p;plbMBOM Ae6e-lbYU;OM,paXMTMqHOM MplIIaBMU;oM, ca HapYlIIeHoM xapaoaajosr.

II03MTMBHo ycnoezsasaa,e je 31I0 20. sexa. 3alIITo? 3aTo lIITO KBapM <pI1HeMexa-HM3Me, KOjM csoje MeCTO ycryrrajy noxzrerrn. CBe je noxeno TaKO HaMBHO. AKonojeneur M rrormjeur OBO, p;06MhelII OHO. ,1J;eTeje pa3YMelIO npamora nrpe. ,1J;0611jaYBeK sehe aa "Malbe". CMrypHO na je snpas "MexaHM3aM" Bpep;HMjM on rroHyryeHenrpasxe, aznr BMCTe 31I0ynoTpe6MlIM MOj HarOH aa panoaaanourhy, HYAI1Te HelIlTOHOBO, a CBe je sa MeHe HOBO, a Moja paA03HalIOCT npMpop;Ha M orpoxna. KaCHO jexazra CXBaTMM,p;a CTe MM aa rrOqeTKY nOABalIMlIM, Hyp;ehM MM TaKO MallO sa OHOCyBO 31IaTO. Ty nOqMlbY MYKe, Maanre M Moje. Op30 CXBaTMMna je ycnoarsaaaise yCTBapM yneaa, HenOlIITeHa Mrpa. Mano yuetsyjere BM MeHe, MallO ja nac. YBeK jey u;eHTpy aexa CTBap xojy A06MjaMo MlIM AajeMO. ,1J;aHac nrpasxa, cyrpa Mop;epHanaTI1Ka, excxypanja, »cypxa ... CBe OHO lIITO je y TpeHAY, a lIITa je y TpeHp;y xasaheMep;MjM. Iloxnena pacre, pacre nesanoaozscrao, cana saute jep ja BplIO 6p30 Hay-'111MAa yu;elbyjeM aac, Kparax MMp AO cnenehe )f(elbe, a )f(elbe HMCYlIITO MrrOTpe-6e, HMCYlIITO M Moja rrpnponaa osexasaa,a. OqeKyjeM C npasoa p;a MMOqYBaTenpMpoAHy xapMOHMjy Msnpase M3BopHe narone, HapOqMTO HarOH aa xpaaox, jepTBpp;MTe rta Me MBOlIMTe.

YMOpMCMOce MBMMja, npar« ponnrezs«, ja nmuyha, a BMqMTajyhM 0 HaqMHYxpalbelba nerera. qyp;MTe ce 3alIITO caM TaKO onunrpan. Mopao caM na aac y6eAMMAa cy OBe rrpse rpeurxe <paTalIHe, jep ce Moja nonecena xapaoanja HerrorrpaBlbMBOpynnr. McxpaHOM, y3 ynorpetiy aYTopMTapHOCTM, snpaazse ce HapYlIIaBa HajBM-ure jep je xpana uenrap aaurer noponaxaor )f(MBOTa. Myxe ce rronaazsajy 6ap TpMnyra p;HeBHO PYlIIMTe 11ce611 M MeHM xapsroaxjy na 6e36poj aa-nnra, KOjMp;elIy-jy TaKO HaMBHO. 3aTO hy BaM MallO rrpa-rara 0 CBOMOqeKMBalbY na MMaM CABKaKaB je onpemora rrpnpona.

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Holi je ga ce MUPHO cuaea, (CaaKO y CaOM xpeeeiuy)

UITa OqeKyjeM on nac? ,1J;aMe He p;pMycaTe, zsyrsare, nocare, YMM.lIIlbajyhM KaKOMJ1CBe TO npaja. He craszsajre Me y BalII xpeaer. caao 3aTO lIITO )e BaMa naxure,

here Me xana MallO nopacrev M36aU;MTM,a TelIIKO J1TaTY BpaTMTMy 6paq-~m~ll ,M ..rezsy He qMHMTe Me 3aBMCHMMon caera rora. CBe )e )ep;HOCTaBHO: castoHY noc .

MJ1PHO,He)KHO, naxparseao, na BpeMe, yp;06HO, ys KpaTKY, He)KHYnpMqJ1U;y, ycna-

KY He)KHOr MaMMHor maca Mcan cnehe na Moje OqM.BaH ,Pa3YMeM BalIIY norpetiy na ce p;pY)KJ1Te. Mnana CTe. CTMmo je p;pYlIITBaHu;e.

BJ1KOce aehe lbyTMTM, aKO Me aa BpeMe M3ByqeTe M3AMMa,6YKe, ryzcne MrrpMnpe-MJ1Te3a can. "CaMO p;a op;mep;aM <pMlIM!"HMKaKo, MaMa! JOlII P;OK rpaje urrnrua,nOTpe6a aa CHOMhe onnenpurarx, M rana he rro-rern Moja n06YHa, xojy he,;e BMnpJ1XBaTlttTM.Osrerahy aac AOKrnenare <pJ1lIMMlIM p;OK BOAMTeTaKO "Ba)KHe pa3-rosope ca npajarezsrora. He clIYTMTe na caM rrporrycTJ10 Haj60lbM neo aoha aaOP;MOP,pacT. M3ry6Mo caM pMTaM cnasarsa KOjMje op;pep;MlIa npnpona.

[op;J1HaMa hy BaM aaropsaaarx )f(MBOT, rpaacehn p;a, paBHonpaBHO ca nasra,)KJ1BMMaohy, 3HaMo xpaj rrpMqe: yp;apU;M, BJ1Ka, rnras, jeuaja, HeMMpaH can. ,1J;0npep; 30py jeuahy, jep he MMreno M3MapaTM KOlIIMapHMCHOBM.TeK rrpep; 30py noxe-he npaBM OP;MOPMrpajahe, 6ap p;o nonne. MO)KAa TO BaMa J1 onrosapa, jep lIITa6M CTe BMca p;eTeTOM xoje ce npotiyn» na BpeMe, ca npBMM cynuea, a BMCTe TaKOMaMypHM MyMOpHM on ncnpaaaor 6p;elba. 3a nap rOp;J1Ha 6Mhy y TpeHp;y ca APY-lIlTBeHMM36MBalbMMa. Ca naxohosr hy npMxBaTMTM )KMBOTnohy, HohHO ,,6p;elbe"aa MHTepHeTY, MrpMu;aMa MlIM Mcnpa3HMM cenezsxava, a cnasatse narsy. Cana hereoner 6p;eTM, xexajyh« 30py MMeHe J13nohaor )f(MBOTa.Oner cyse, cana sanre. Kaxoje lIaKO HapylIIMTM xapxonajyl IIlTa xaxcere?

Y craapa, CBe je lIaKO, na naxure He MO)Ke 6MTM. Iloroaopnna CMO ce na MenpaTI1Te cpnev MqylIMMa. JOlII npe Hero npertosnare cnrnane CHa (cncaise npcra.Tplbalbe OqMjy, apherse npaxiena xoce, M3HeHap;HMcMMpaj rena ... ), p;parM ponsrre-lbl1, y'iI1HMTe CBe p;a YClIOBMy KojMMa Me cnpeaare aa onnasax y u;apCTBO neno-re 11CHOBa, 6YAY eMOU;MOHalIHOn03MTMBHM. CaMO panoaarse M3aXBalIHOCT, lIITOce jour jenan AaH 3aBplIIMO, a CBMCMOna oxyrry, 3p;paBM Mcpehan. Bnhere sana-BlbeHI1 KaKO hy 6p30 HayqMTM na CBe 06aBlbaM cara. CaM hy ce oxynarn, onparn3y6l1he, 06yhl1 nMI,IaMY, pa3MeCTMTM KpeBeT, nOlby6MTM nac, MaxHYTM BalIIMMrtp .

l1)aTelbI1Ma, xyneh« ce lIITO lbl1XOBa neua M narse cene nopep; lbMX, mrrajyhnce, KOlIl1KOhe 6MTM caru Kap; 6yp;y cnpeMHM aa KpeBeT. Ilonana BaM ce OBa rrpM-'ll1ua .. 6 C ., 0 KO)O) yP;HM caisare. 3HajTe TO je pealIHOCT, a He cax. aMO rrOlIlTYJTenpaBl1lIa I1rpe.

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HajBa)KHY1je npaaano Mrpe xoje Ba)KMaa CaBpeMeHY rrOpO~M~Y rnaca: "He CTa-szsajre Me rrpe~ TelIeBM30p, xosmjyrep ~OK He HarrYHMMTpH ronaae, ~OK ce MojeH3BopHe exrouxje He YKopeHe Y pealIHOM CBeTY· OCMM rora, MHpHor CHa HehyHMaTH, rrO'IHeM lIH ~a ce ~py)KHM ca BHpTyelIHHM KapaKOHI,IYlIaMa. 3a6opaBl1TeBaIIIY lIOIIIYHaBHKY na ueo ~aH TelIeBl130p 6y~e YKlbyqeH. CBe CHHMaM, MaKOBaMce 'Il1HM ~a ce 3a6aBlbaM CBOjl1Mxrpasxaaa. A OH~a here ce 'IY~l1TH IIITO xohy,ocserzseay co6y, IIITOxohy YBaIII KpeBeT, IIITOxohy rrpl1'IY, rrocne csera, rro KO3HaKOjl1 nyr, xohy HOIIIY,BO~y... Bnhere lbYTl1, orrryacyjyha Me na casr He3aXBanaH ,jep He ~orrYIIITaM na ce l1 Bl1 O~MOpl1Te, a Y CTBapl1, ja Y yrny co6e Bl1~l1M~eMOHa ,rrpaBor, npasuaror, xao Y OHOMuprahy KOjl1 rne~aM y HaCTaB~l1Ma.

o ycnOBl1Ma aa notiap caa, ja TonHKO, a l1 Bl1here ynacxoa Y CTBapana'IKO sac-mrraise MMaTMsnpasxx l1~eja na nperex.

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CAMOPA,U

Maua, ja WO MOlY

Kana ceMaIIIMM~a~OXBaTMMMrpa.IKy.HeCKa.Il1Te. ,1J;oxBaTMnyje, 6y~MTe CMrypHl1.Kana ce MaIIIMMsa KaIIIMKYna ce caM naxpamoa, He orxaajre MM je M3 PYKY,Y)Ka-casajyha ce nosnare cmrxe (BMIIIe pe3aHa~a na rraTOCY M aa rnasn, Hero y CTOMa-xnhy, rrpa3aH TaJ-bMPaaha he ce na MOjOj rnaBM~M ... ) CaMO 3allITMTMTe Balli cKyrrMrenax H OCTBapl1Te MOjy CHnHY norpetiy sa CAMOPA,1J;OM.

CBH KOjHMe oxpyxcyjere, caBpllIeHO 6p30 H crrpeTHo oriaszsare CBenocnose. Heyofipaacaaajre ~a je ra 6p3HHa sa rHHHca. OHa casro onrosapa BallIHM ronnnasra.oe36poj rryTa rrOHOBHnH CTe l1CTe onepaunje, ana npxsaajre na rOTOBO CBe pa~H-re 6e3 pa~OCTl1 H 6e3 lby6aBH. He )KenHM ~a ce TO MeHl1 norona, He rroaanrsajretpeuncy BaIIIHX ponarersa. Kan Y0'il1Te MOjy norpetiy ~a caM o6yqeM xapamnry,CTprrlbl1BO xexajre, najre MH llIaHcy ~a caM casnanasr ueny onepauajy. )KypJ1Te?Bl1 Hl1CTe 'iOBeK sa 21. BeK. Inenajre, Y)KHBajTe, rrOMa)KHTe, caao aKO 3aTpa)KHMnOMoh, 6e3ycnoBHO xexajre H xexaise he ce HCrrnaTl1Tl1. He 6y~eTe nl1 HcrrYHH-1Il1Moje O'IeKHBaJ-be na peanaayjev norpeoy sa CAMOPA,1J;OM, rrnarahexo uex,l1 Bl1l1 ja. MManeTe YCKOPOnapasirra, a HHcaM pohen sa rrapa3HTa. Casto CTe MHHapYUIl1nl1 xapsroaajy. Ipeuncoa CTe rrporrycTHnl1 rrpaBH TpeHYTaK na rrO'IHeM caCAMOPAJJ:OM H pasaajarsea lby6aBH rrpeMa J-beMY,rrpeMa pa~y, rrpeMa BaMa.Qello AeTMJ-bCTBO,IIIKOlIOBaJ-be6Hne MyqHO, H BaMa H MeHH, jep Ka~ ron 6y~eMMopao HeUlTO na yparnoa, MopaneTe'~a H3ByqeTe HnH 6aTHHy HlIH KO~Ky urehe-pa. TaKO je MallO norperino ~a ce ~eCH YHYTpaIIIJ-ba EBOflYIJJ1JA, KOjOMhy npe-8a3l10 6CB l1 l10nOlliKO 6Hne y cefia H HCTHHCKH,rro rrpBH rryT y HCTOPHjH, rrOCTaTH

ECTAH QOBEK. Baur TO MallO pO~HTelbH BeKOBHMa He noaaozsasajy CBOjOj

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neux, a TBpp;e na HX Bone. 3arraMTHTe: casso pap; 06aBJbeH C Jby6aBJbY, KOjH je yCPYHK~HjH paCTa CBHX, BOP;Hxa CBeCHOCTH. Ovoryhare MH TO, p;parH MOjH pOP;I1-

TeJbH, BH TO MO)l(eTe.

Ja case uenuua

Ilpenasxao na "p;enHKaTHy" TeMy. Ilpaxrehyjere p;a ce pap;o HrpaM CBHM p;elIO-

BHMa csora rezra, Ilp061IeMa HeMa, P;OK ce He MalllHM aa rrOlIHH oprax. 3alllTO ce

MplllTHTe, saurro BH'leTe "cpyj", xana H caMH 3HaTe KOlIHKO 3ap;OBOJbCTBaP;OHOCI1

CBe TO. He pa3YMeM saure rrypHTaHcTBo, P;OK HCToBpeMeHo KPHlllOM, rnenare H

nopao cpHnMoBe. He pa3YMeM saurro Me yqHTe p;a ce rap;HM HeKHX nenosa csorarena, Ja caM ueo, a TeK je uemnra nenora. Baur 3a6pHHYT nornen, crpor H3pa3 mruanoxehe p;a H3a3HBajy ocehaise KpHBH~e Y MeHH. 3ap MeHH, TaKO MalIOM H nejaxo«TaKaB TepeT. Iloxerax je CTBapHO HaHBaH. Haxana HHCTe pa3MHClIHlIH 0 nopexnyaaunrx pe'lH.113 sac nporosapajy sanm pOp;HTeJbH.l1cTH H3pa31IH~a npahen crpa-XOM. Y MeHH he nenor )l(HBOTa 6yjaTH ocehaise KpHBH~e xan ron MH )l(HBOT none-ce aeurro y 'leMY hy Y)l(HBaTH. Hehy HH 3HaTH na je CBe rrOTeKlIO on onora "cpyj".

YBeK hy ce rrHTaTH saurro P;OK Y)l(HBaM y npennanoa 3alIacKY Cynua HCTOBpeMe-

HO ocehaa H KpHBH~y.

Ka)l(eM BaM, CBe je TaKO lIaKO. Kan rrpHMeTHTe na Y)I(HBaM Y CBOM TelIY, HCTpa-

)l(yjyhH ra, He npnnajre TOMe anaxaj. Ilpohx he. AJm aKO Me pano CTaBHTe ripen

TelIeBH30p ca p;aJbHHCKHM Y PYKaMa, aanerahy xa rropHO cpHlIMOBe. Ca THM ce He

nrpajre. He YBop;HTe Me y neurro lllTO He rrpHrrap;a MOM y3paCTy. 3aTo sa CBaKH

cnyxaj p;aJbHHCKH Mopa 6HTH non KOHTPOlIOM pOp;HTeJba. He YHocHTe TB H CBa

'lyp;a rexnozrornje y MOjy cotiy, Mann caa, panosaao, naxo hy nacrx y ncxyure-

lbe na ce nyro, P;OK BH MHpHO crrasare, P;PY)l(HM ca HajHeraTHBHHjHM BHpTyenHHM

canpacajasra, aanehesr na HaCHJbe CBHX 06nHKa, rra H HaCHJbe y ceKcy. Heaojre ce'lyP;HTH xana rrpHMeTHTe p;a cy MH ce rroKpeHYlIH XOPMOHH, HaKO HMaM TaKO Mano

ronana, aKO na 'lacy He 'lyjeM urra y'lHTeJbH~a rrpH'la Hero caM onceznryr lbeHHM

TenOM, aKO no-raesr p;a Tpa)imM p;a ce CT060M, MaMa, Jby6HM cpHnMCKH, H na 3a60-

paBJbaM p;a CH MH TH MaMa.

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1. I1crryHHTH Moja oxexaaarsa 3Ha'lH OQYBATI1 XAPMOHI1JY noaeceny pohe-lbeM. YKonHKo pap;HTe OKO MeHe KaKO CMO ce norosopann, Moja o-rexxsarsa 6Hhe

HcrrYlbeHa. A urra je ca aaurox, rrpHlIH'lHO HapYllleHoM xapMoHHjoM? Bynere nH

ypoHHnH y MeHe KaKO peKox cp~eM H 'lynHMa, H3ry6JbeHa, HapYllleHa XAPMO-

HI1JA he ce y aasra ycrrOCTaBHTH. Yaepxhere ce caMH. Saro caM BaM ja H rroTpe-

6aH, aKO HHCTe 3HanH. [a caM nama maaca p;a ce BpaTHTe CBOMe H3BOpy.

2. He npxcxzsaaajre Me HH aa nrra ayTopHTapHHM BacrrHTHHM cpencraasra.

CBaKa rrpHCHna CTBapa MeHTalIHH crpax H 6ec y MeHH. He CMeTe snoynorpetia-TH cTpax KOjH CTe MH nonapaznr. Iberona H3BopHa ynora je rrpep;HBHa. OH 'lYBa

MOj )l(HBOT, xana ce nojaax H3HeHap;Ha jaxa H aenosaara p;pa)l(. HeM a norpetie nara jaxare. YrraMTHTe, CBaKO jaxaise crpaxa je snoynorpetia H BpeMeHoM he crpaxP;06HTH HaKa3HH 06nHK KOjH he MH aaropxaaara )l(HBOT.

He rrpHCHJbaBaTH He 3Ha'lH aaapxaja, OP;CyCTBOpep;a. Ilere Mopa 3HaTH OCHOB-

aa npasxna Hrpe, a BH MopaTe 3HaTH Ha'lHH, KaKO here C Jby6aBJby MOTHBHca-

TH saure nere, na TO xcnourryje, AKO CTe 3a60paBHnH noncehau p;a je Jby6aB Hhje

npe3alllTHhHBalbe on pep;a. Ipanaue MH rrOCTaBHTe anH HeMa norpetie na Me Ty'le-

re Hnl1 Harpa~yjeTe na 6HX Me~e nourrosao. Caxo OCTaHHTe p;ocnep;HH, 6p30 hyCXBaTHTH p;a KOP; aac nehe npohn Moje ypnalbe. Ep30 hy ce CMHPHTH, a onna BaM

npY)!(aM rrpHlIHKy p;a Me ytienare KaKO je H OBa aatipaaa onpasnana. BH Haj60Jbe

3HaTe urra je 3a MeHe onacno, y OBOM KOMrrnHKOBaHOM BeKY TeXHHKe. YCKOpO hyca nOBepelbeM H panouihy nourrosarx same satipaae, jep 3HaM p;a cy OHe aa Moje

Ao6po. AnH aKO MH sariparsyjere CBe H CBaWTa, casro 3aTO lllTO BH TaKO xazcere,UlTo TpeHHpaTe CBOj na)l(HH aYTopHTeT Hap;aMHOM, aatiparsyjyha MH H OHO lllTO He

YfPO)!(aBa HH MeHe, HH aac, onna ce nesiojre 'lyP;HTH lllTO hy BaM p;aBaTH Herrpe-CTaHI1 .

OTIIOP, )ep BaM mnnra nehy BepOBaTJ.1.CyK06e nehere H36ehH. MonHM eaclie IIp

e3aUITlIlhyjTe Me on )l(HBOTa H )l(HBOTHOr HCKYCTBa. Mopa H ja na npohesr

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uncony BnaCTJ!ITOr J.1CKYCTBa. J1 ja irexana MOpaM rnaBOM Kp03 3J.1p;.BJ.1here CJ.1ryp_HO 3HaTJ.1p;a npOJ.~eHJ.1Te xana J.1KaKO MJ.1CTaBJ.1TJ.1Melje. AKO CaM ManJ.1 Op;BY~J.1TeMJ.1rraxosy on axuaje xojy HacTojJ.1M p;a 06aBJ.1M, a BJ.1CTe npO~eHJ.1nJ.1 na je ona,CHao Kana Mano nopaCTeM o6jaCHJ.1Te MJ.1,J.1nJ.1jenaocraano peuare, "HE", pap;e-I'm J.1p;albe CBOj nocao, ocnyuncyjyha MenOp;J.1jy Mora nnaxa. IlOTpYP;J.1Te ce na aacrsapana-nor Ha'-lJ.1Hycnocraaare y MOM J.1aauresr )KJ.1BOTY,PE,lJ,.

3. He y~noBlbaB~jTe Me, jep ycnoarsasarse paha noxneny. A cTpax J.1noxnena cynsa sna KOJa Bnap;aJY CBeTOM.

4. He pasaajajre MJ.1ocehaise KpJ.1BJ.1Qe.Ilpecxoxare OHO '-IYBeHo "cpyf'. Y'-IJ.1-HJ.1TeCBe, jep BJ.1TO MO)KeTe, na CBaKO Moje Y)KJ.1Balbe 6yp;e npaheno BaIllJ.1M p;y6o-

KJ.1Mnoaepersex. Yxecrayjre cPQeM Y MOM )KJ.1BOTY.5. Oaoryhare MJ.1HajBJ.1IllJ.106nJ.1K Y'-Ielba, CAMOYl-IEIhE. Ee3 osor 06nJ.1Ka

Y'-Ielba '-IOBeKHe MO)Kena OCTBapJ.1ce6e, jep CAMOYl-IEIhE BOP;J.1yayrpaunso] eBO-nYQJ.1jJ.1,CKOKYop; '-IOBeKa, 6J.10nOIllKOr 6J.1ha, p;o '-IOBeKa npenyHor lhy6aBJ.1. CanaCJ.1ryPHO CXBaTaTe urra 3Ha'-lJ.1Moja norpetia Aa ce caM XpaHJ.1M, na caM 06na'-lJ.1M'-IapanJ.1QY, na ce caM CnpeMJ.1M sa cnasarse, Aa caa onepeM cyhe, Aa caM nocnpe-MJ.1MBaIllY co6y, Aa caM cnaxyjesr KlbMre aa urxony, aanauresr p;oMahM. CBe TOMopa 6MTM nonybeno y npaBOM TpeHyTKy. Mopa 6MTM npaheno BaIllMM ,lJ,YEO-KJ1M IlOBEPEIhEM. He npesaurnrhyjre Me op; paAa, pep;a M )KMBOTa, MonMM sac,p;pafJ.1 pomrrezsx. Haje groper 3aMonMTM Aa Me 3aIllTMTMTe op; npepaHor ynacKaBMpTyenHe CTBapHOCTM y MOj )KMBOT.

6. MonMM sac p;a Me 3aIllTMTMTe on CBMX KOjM P;OBOlbHO nyro Y'-IeCTByjy y MOMaacmrrarsy, y TOKY nana, IhMX 06Y'-1MTe 3HalbY crnapanaxxor aacrnrrarsa. HeM aspnarsa. Mopa na Me sacmrraaajy, xao M BM. Y npOTMBHOM, HaljMTe 3aMeHY sa lbMX.

XAPMOHI1JE

Pohenx MOjM,

Mucro nyTa caM M3peKao pe'-l XAPMOHJ1JA. Ilrraurehn ce p;a xap-MOHMjy y sasra, M OKO sac TeIllKO rrpenosaajere jep cy BaM je p;pyrMaapyunonr sanpzcahy ce na nojsry ...

"XAPMOHJ1JA JE CKJIA,lJ" ycarnarnaBalbe nerrosa y jennoj ~enMHM. IlocetinaBpCTa noperxa y KojeM ce pa3nM'-IMTM p;enOBM nOTnOMa)KY CyCTM'-Iy y jep;HoM,3ajeAHM'-IKOM pesyzrrary", CKnaA CTe MM nonapana pobeisea. CBe CPYHKQMOHM-ure 6ecnpeKopHO. CBM nenoaa Mor 6MonOIllKor M nyxosuor 6Mha ce nOTnOMa)KY,CyCTM'-Iy... ana MM rpetia saura rrosroh na 6M ce nO'-leTHM cxnan o-rysao M pa3BMO.Ilorpetiaa MM je aaura onnyxa na satiopaaare na aYTopMTapHOCT, xoja je jenan OAaajja-noc Y3pO'-lHMKa KOjM pYIlle xapaoaajy noaeceay poheisea. 3a6opaBMTe aanllMIllaHY M OHY »ceurhy npMcMlIy.

Ilourao caa aa CBeT xao 6Mhe noreaunjanne caspurene A06pOTe. Iloneo caMKlIM~y Ilofipore xoja he ce pa3BMTM MnM rpaaopopsorcarx y 3110. CBe 3aBMCM onsaurer npncryrra BacnMTalbY. AyTopMTapHO MlIM craapanaxxo nacmrraisei IlMTa-lbe je name 0AlIYKe. Y'-IMHMTe MaKCMMYMAa re A06pOTe nOCTaHeM CBeCTaH. EYAe-re 11MMM rtoraormr na O'-lYBaM xapvoaajy, Moja HapaB nocrahe Ilotipora M Jbytiaa,a TO y CTBapM npencrann,a noxerax p;YXOBHor paCTa caaxor '-IOBeKa. CaMO '-IOBeK,lJ,06poTe M lhy6aBM MO)Ke CTpeMMTM xa Bory.

AKo 6M CTe BM, CBM QllaHOBM nopop;MQe, nOp;p)KallM M OQYBallM MOjy xapvona-~y, ja 6J.1XnOCTaO YMETHJ1K )l{J1BOTA. Hansramao 6MX canaunse YMeTHMKe,Jep OHMcraapajy xapvoaajy casro y Ae1l0BMMa csoje YMeTHOCTM. [a hy XAPMO-Bl1JY CTBapaTM Kp03 CBe: onaoce, paA, craapananrrso, )KMBOT.Onpas Moje yHy-TpalUlbe XAPMOHJ1JE, BJ.1p;ehe ce y MeHM, aaxta, )KMBOTY.)l{ellMTe TaKBO nere]!BJ.1CTeHecKpoMHM, carao sazsa paAMTM. )l{ellMTe 1IJ.1Aa M BM 6YAeTe YMeTHMK)KMBO-Tal? J.. a caM saura uranca.

3a nOQeTaK ce op;peQMTe Mp;eje p;a casr ja aaur oojexar KOjJ.1BM rpetia Aa p;peCM-paTe, BaCnJ.1TaBaTe, ocaaocrarsyjere, na npesaaahena HaQJ.1H.BAC-IlJ1TAIhE, je"nl1Talb "e , xparseise Jby6aBlbY, a TaKBO aac-nararse je Moryhe aKO ce onpexaexso

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npmryne, rr03l1Tl1BHOr YCJIOBJbaBaI-ba,Bep6aJIl13Ma npesaurrnhana '-La TA a' u> n KOgon

CTl1Te ga KOPl1CTl1Ml1 pa3Bl1jeM Bl1111l106JIl1K yxersa, CAMOYQElhE, CAM06-EPA30BAlhE. Ilocrahy l1CTl1HCKl1cy6)· eKT KO)·l1Kp03 CAMOP'A IT . -, ~ crr03Ha)e CBO·el13BOpHe norpetie, caMOBaCmITaBa ce Kp03 pan l1 peg, qyBajytm BJIaCTl1T a JBalllY xapxronajy, y, JIl1 11

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EE3YCJ10BHO qEKAlhE

YKOJIJ.1KOCTe ogJI~J.1JIJ.1 ga MJ.1norrycrnre BJ.1111J.106JIJ.1K~eI-ba HeMojTe ga ynan-sere y 3aMKY 0 KOjOj hy cana rOBOpJ.1TJ.1.Casnanahy pano ofinaxerse qaparrJ.1-

ue. Mcosna nehy 3agoBOJbJ.1TJ.1saura oxexaaarsa, aJIJ.1yrraMTJ.1Te na je CBaKJ.1pagB.A)KHA, CIIOPE~HA CTBAP, a ga je 3agoBOJbCTBO xoje caM OCeTJ.1006JIaqenJ.1xapanauy, y3 aanre gy60KO rrOBepeI-be, Haj6J.1THJ.1ja.To je KarrJ.1TaJIKOjJ.1YHOCl1MYcneneh» pag. He nnaunrre ce, HeMa qOBeKa KOjJ.1HJ.1jeHa~J.10 na 06JIaql1 qaparry.MaJIo J.1Xje KOjl1TO page ca 3agoBOJbCTBOM.

IIpl1MeTJ.1neTe ga, qJ.1M CaBJIagaM jeznry aKTJ.1BHOCT,3arrOCTaBJbaM rrpeTxog-Hy. lbYTJ.1Te ce, rrpomalliaBaTe Me JIeHQyroM, rrapa3J.1TOM, a CBe TO HJ.1CaM.[a casrcasro MaJIl1111aHKOjJ.1He MO)f{ey J.1CTOBpeMe ga caananasa HOBO J.1nonasrsa Hay-QeHO. TOJIJ.1KOrora J.1Mana ce Ha~l1. CaMO rrOJIaKO, sparahy ce ja J.1onyureanhysac. AKO y Me1)YBpeMeHY rpmrre, pY)f{J.1Te,OMaJIOBa)f{aBaTe, sparahy ce ja CBOjOjQaparrl1U;J.1,aJIJ.16e3 lby6aBJ.1. Ee3YCJIOBHOxexajre, noxaxorre ga CTe pogJ.1TeJbl1 aa21. BeK. CaMO nesnarse J.1HeCBeCHO spaharse na CTapJ.1ayTOpJ.1TapHl1 06JIJ.1Knac-nl1TaI-ba ca JIaKOnOM pYllie XapMOHJ.1jy.~aKJIe, 6e3 CTBAPAJIAQKOr BACIIli1TA-lhA HeMa HaM rrarrperxa. A nacnrrrarsa 6e3 Ka3He J.16e3 Harpage HeMa 6e3 rrpaBor3HaI-ba. Y cnenehes, rrOmaBJbY rrl1CMa rrpyxorhy BaM snan,e a MOjJ.1Ml1 BalllJ.1M...

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