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Poet TreeVolume One
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Forrever Memories
by Poet Tree
www.forrestfyr.com
Copyright © 2010 by Poet Tree
All Rights Reserved
This book of parts thereof may not be reproduced in any form, stored in a retrieval system, or
transmitted in any form by any menas – electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, orotherwise – without prior written permission of the publisher, except as provided by United
States of America copyright law.
Published by Forrest Fyr
International Standard Book Number: 978-0-557-37861-6
Printed in the United States of America
Second Edition
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“I dedicate this book to Penny, who has been there for me throughout this
journey, always. I could not have accomplished this without you. I love
you.”
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Preface
I have always wanted to be a writer. I think I was born to be a writer, notnecessarily the best with big words but nevertheless I think I do all right. I
began writing a journal before I started creating Poet Tree and then boom I
couldn’t stop the flow of free verse within my fingertips. I would write a
poem only once without correcting or editing the context. This became my
diary, my living story as I saw it affecting my surroundings.
I have written over 400 poems since 1991 but this is the first published
collection of Poet Tree written by me. I describe my writings in this work as
a journal of my life experiences, from early childhood up through my
teenage years. I have recorded many life stories within this text for you toexplore. I hope you enjoy reading about my past trials and tribulations as
they may ease your pains and sorrows. You may relate to any or all of my
experiences. If anything though, I hope you get to learn a little bit about me
and what I went through in my earlier years of life. I wrote about my
struggle to live between the heterosexual world and the gay lifestyle for
which I had become more accustomed to through no fault or choice of my
own. You will soon learn more about this strife as you read on about my
memories that seem to last forever.
The feeling of this published accomplishment is overwhelming. I have tried
numerous times before now to transcribe my poems onto my PC and have
failed to keep track of them as I bought new computers along the way,
leaving my transcripts behind on those hard drives. Now thanks to my
perseverance I ran the race and finally won again. A job I hope you find
was well worth the read.
Although this series of poems were all written in 1991, I have tried to
include all details of their original work, especially when I start thinking
about writing. I first think of how I will start the poem. Next I take amoment to complete some recordkeeping as I am big on writing down dates
of occurrences and such. I record the current date and time before I begin to
contemplate what I was going to write, usually found by use of my watch.
Both the starting and ending times are important to me and perhaps those of
you who want to utilize this detail as a chronological personal diary, it is
quite useful to know when and how long it took me to create such a piece of
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art. Then I write the body of the text and then lastly I think of a neat title
then I write down when I finished the poem. If I listened to music to inspire
me, I would record this fact too. Most of my poetry is free verse. I have had
no technical poetry writing education but loved my high school English
classes. I hope I make my teachers proud. This is my challenge – to getpublished, to get known, to get recognized and to finally make history.
I know that having written the words within this sort of memoir over 17
years ago may seem a bit boring at first, as it is more important to me to
have been first published than to have written a masterpiece. You will see
the darkness and the light filter through my language of metaphors and
perhaps you will see my youth in the writing. I purposely have not edited
the works as I wanted to preserve the content written when I was younger
and not through the influence of my current experiences. You see I have
created history and preserved it for your pleasure and mine. God bless you.
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Table of Contents
Dreams .................................................................................................................................................. 11
“Memories serve me far too well” ......................................................................................................... 13
Saddened Hearts.................................................................................................................................... 15
Torn between two worlds ...................................................................................................................... 17
The pain returns..................................................................................................................................... 20
Wishing I had him back ......................................................................................................................... 22
Memories returning ............................................................................................................................... 24
Forces invading my soul ........................................................................................................................ 25
Butterfly................................................................................................................................................ 26
Gone ..................................................................................................................................................... 28
Squirrels scamper about the meadow ..................................................................................................... 29
Our eyes meet ....................................................................................................................................... 31
Change.................................................................................................................................................. 32
Past and Present..................................................................................................................................... 33
Let Go................................................................................................................................................... 34
That Night ............................................................................................................................................. 36
Days of happiness fill my soul ............................................................................................................... 38
The Rake............................................................................................................................................... 39
Pain....................................................................................................................................................... 43
My Candle ............................................................................................................................................ 44
My Candle (part 2) ................................................................................................................................ 45
Endings ................................................................................................................................................. 47
The Ladder of Light .............................................................................................................................. 49
Buffalos March ..................................................................................................................................... 50
Out of time ............................................................................................................................................ 52
Sunshine................................................................................................................................................ 54
Fading Fast............................................................................................................................................ 56
Tempest Island ...................................................................................................................................... 57
Perfect Lover......................................................................................................................................... 59
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Tempest Island (part II) ......................................................................................................................... 61
Tempest Island III ................................................................................................................................. 62
I will conquer evil ................................................................................................................................. 63
You (part II, or Perfect Lover II) ............................................................................................................ 64
Tempest Island IV ................................................................................................................................. 65
Tortured Soul (becomes a memory forever) ........................................................................................... 66
Precious Jewels ..................................................................................................................................... 68
Tempest Island V .................................................................................................................................. 69
Desires .................................................................................................................................................. 71
I needed this .......................................................................................................................................... 73
Heaven or Hell ...................................................................................................................................... 74
Dead or Alive ........................................................................................................................................ 76
Temptations .......................................................................................................................................... 77
Mood Change........................................................................................................................................ 78
The Rake (part II) .................................................................................................................................. 80
Always .................................................................................................................................................. 84
Steps of Fire .......................................................................................................................................... 85
Taking Risks ......................................................................................................................................... 86
I go crazy .............................................................................................................................................. 87
Walking Alone ...................................................................................................................................... 89
In My Own World ................................................................................................................................. 90
Falling in love with you ......................................................................................................................... 91
Mirror of Hate ....................................................................................................................................... 93
You (part III)......................................................................................................................................... 94
The Test ................................................................................................................................................ 95
Away For A While ................................................................................................................................ 96
Do Not Dwell ........................................................................................................................................ 98
Where are you my friend? ..................................................................................................................... 99
Can’t Endure ....................................................................................................................................... 100
Who should I blame?........................................................................................................................... 102
Fire Mountain (part one)...................................................................................................................... 104
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Dead or Alive (part II) ......................................................................................................................... 106
Pure Torture ........................................................................................................................................ 108
Anchor ................................................................................................................................................ 110
(Storm) Cloud ..................................................................................................................................... 111
Y-Not .................................................................................................................................................. 112
Sacrifice .............................................................................................................................................. 113
Her...................................................................................................................................................... 115
Together .............................................................................................................................................. 116
Funky People ...................................................................................................................................... 117
Who is chasing me?............................................................................................................................. 119
No More Ink ........................................................................................................................................ 120
Crimson Soul ...................................................................................................................................... 121
Tempest Island VIII............................................................................................................................. 123
Until the Dawn Breaks ........................................................................................................................ 125
When the morning comes .................................................................................................................... 126
My Soul’s Shadow .............................................................................................................................. 127
Land of Enchantment .......................................................................................................................... 129
You (part IV)....................................................................................................................................... 130
I’m Human.......................................................................................................................................... 132
Hold Back ........................................................................................................................................... 134
My Only Weakness ............................................................................................................................. 135
All alone in this world ......................................................................................................................... 136
My soul is returning ............................................................................................................................ 137
Get out of my life ................................................................................................................................ 139
We will never part ............................................................................................................................... 140
Wire Basket......................................................................................................................................... 141
Sex without cost .................................................................................................................................. 142
Fall...................................................................................................................................................... 144
Nothing Matters .................................................................................................................................. 145
Alone in the darkness .......................................................................................................................... 146
Between the twilight............................................................................................................................ 147
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The Last Prayer ................................................................................................................................... 148
Vision of Darkness .............................................................................................................................. 150
Against the Wall.................................................................................................................................. 151
Road to Happiness............................................................................................................................... 152
Peace of Pleasure................................................................................................................................. 154
Tempest Island IX ............................................................................................................................... 155
Left Behind ......................................................................................................................................... 157
A Brisk Evening .................................................................................................................................. 158
Sleeping forever .................................................................................................................................. 160
Seasons only change............................................................................................................................ 161
Waiting For The Right Moment ........................................................................................................... 163
Tippy Toes .......................................................................................................................................... 164
Breath of Life ...................................................................................................................................... 166
You (part V) ........................................................................................................................................ 168
Wave Good-bye .................................................................................................................................. 170
Decisions ............................................................................................................................................ 171
Reflection of Happiness....................................................................................................................... 172
Woodland Fantasy............................................................................................................................... 175
Blind man............................................................................................................................................ 176
Dream Book (part 1)............................................................................................................................ 177
Waiting to Return ................................................................................................................................ 178
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01.23.91
12:45:00:pM
Dreams
Dark, blank and colorless
These dreams I have are evil
Messages stripped of their meaning,
Symbolism resides
A hollow tree filled with tears,
A stone cracked in half
A single rose among the desert
Withers in the wind
The sun blocked by a carpet of blackness
Life, desolate
Strange and haunting memories flow into a pool of hate
Clouds drifting among the silent sky
Form a mass of anger
The rose looks to the sky for hope
It begins to rain
The thunder, loud and dangerous
Chills my bones (additions 04:01:00:pM)
Lightning flashes amidst the dunes
Dust turned to snow as everything freezes
My soul encased in ice longs to break free.
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My mind filled with absent memories
As my body gives up hope, death takes over,
My petals fall to the ground.
My tears begin to freeze
A thorn twitches, it falls;
A ray of bright white light emits from the thorn’s home
My eyes are now wide open
Watching as destruction takes place.
04:13:00:pM
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01.22.91
“Memories serve me far too well”
Flying above all limitations
I came upon a mountain of
Unbelievable height
I could not fly as high.
So now I must try to climb over it.
This is a very difficult task for me to accomplish,
Always used to flying and soaring above all problems.
Now I am faced with this force that
I must deal with
Not near to the summit but trying so hard.
The sky looks grey and no promised of sunshine.
The ground shakes and the mountain trembles.
I fight to hold on.
I climb on further, a task too difficult.
In the distance a bird of beauty flies toward me.
I miss flying and get jealous.
The bird lands on a branch of a tree next to me.
I look at it and then my eyes meet its beauty.
I stopped and realized that this mountain must be conquered.
The sky brightens but a dark cloud looms near the horizon.
Life seems hopeless.
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The bird calls out my name.
I stutter…don’t know where to go.
I lie back against the mountain.
“I sit here lying on this mountain thinking to myself”…
”my memory serves me far too well.”
I cry…weep…my heart is torn as the earth opens up.
Memories fill the atmosphere. I close my eyes
And hope…I pray “Praying for Time.”
01:43:00:pM
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01.23.91
10:23:00:pM
Saddened Hearts1
Sadness fills my heart,
I never meant to hurt you.
Pain and suffering enter my soul,
As my eyes recall memories.
Can’t face the truth,I’ll never be able to open my eyes again.
I’m scared.
I pray that the future is brighter
I want to forget my past
Lonely and confused I sit thinking to myself.
Don’t leave this love for we can surely make it last.
My crying eyes beg you to stay
Love causes so much pain
Saddened hearts hold onto this lost love
And only you can stop the flow of my tears
I’m scared
I pray that the future is brighter
1Inspired by “Careless Whisper” and “A Different Corner” by Wham
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I want to forget my past
Lonely and confused I sit thinking to myself.
Don’t leave this love for we can surely make it last.
I miss you
I miss our love
I can’t live without you
I need you.
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01.27.91
08:54:00:pM
Torn between two worlds
My life unfolds
Secrets told
Grew attached to love
And then it happened
Together we unitedIn a sharing embrace
Curiosity became reality
My heart filled with true love
But sadness remained in one’s eyes
Voices silent,
Word more unknown
Distance took over
The road of life detoured
Turned away and forgotten.
Wishing nothing occurred
My heart torn apart
My body shook as the bond was stripped
My soul seeking hope
Love, denied.
No place to go
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No one to talk to
Pain is the voice I hear
Crying eyes fill the ocean of tears
But the dam breaks, my eyes open
Filled with terror and with fear
Can’t go on
My life, empty
Forever generic
Memories washed upon the shore
Shredded into a million thoughts
My mind suffered too
Tragic endings remain
Can’t let go
Won’t let go
Attitudes change as the snow arrives
Love seeps through the wall of in-between
My heart begins to tick again
Not so strong
Embraced a love that is untrue
Laughter filled our hearts
Love came and went as did the wind
Then honesty became known
I turn away and run
Scared of the future
I lock myself up in fear
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Trust remained as honesty faded
Eyes of desires seek the past
My heart, torn between two worlds.
-09:25:00:pM
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01.28.91
06:34:00:pM
The pain returns
Smiles gone forever
That look in your eyes
Brings me sweet delight
Tired of trying
My vision of hope
Covered by a blanket of tears
You were so good to me
Whispers spoken carelessly
Now that you’re gone
My life ended
I want to know more of you
Don’t hide, I’ll always find you
The path you took with me
Ended in my being hurt
Wednesday was the best day
But only holds true for one
You left me for her
Why do you try to change?
Your destiny
Love of another kind was destroyed
I’ll still in love
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I’m your man
-06:49:00:pM
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01.28.91
01:30:00:pM
Wishing I had him back
His picture doesn’t satisfy me
Remembering the times we shared
Pain sinks deep into my heart
He’s off in another world
His destiny now altered
Nevermore to return
Passion glows faintly as the sun sets
Darkness approaches
I’m lost, don’t know where to go
My legs are no more
I want my love to come back
Each day as the sun rises
I say a prayer
Along the wind my desire travels
Going nowhere (continued at 11:30:00:pM)
Trouble bothers my soul as it stretches
Out to find someone else
Awesome, can never be found again
Receiving the moments of love I felt
Could never be replaced
Unique is the boy I had
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Now my levity is forever banished
As my body refills with emptiness
-11:34:00:pM
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01.28.91
06:28:00:pM
Memories returning
Can’t take much more
How can I go on?
Feeling this way?
Love is distance
But a picture in my
Mind reminds me of
A warm hug
Silence is my only retreat
Longing for that day
To soon return
Temptation seeping thru my eyes
Tears wash my dreams
And with this my mind goes blank
I drown in fear
That the time won’t come
Never again
08:36:00:pM
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01.28.91
08:45:00:pM
Forces invading my soul
Dark haunting
Memories chill my
Very existence
Life beckons to
Stop the pain (anguish)
09:00:00:pM
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01.28.91
11:00:00:pM
Butterfly
The butterfly dances across the sky
Seeking happiness
In lands on a couple of flowers
But their nectar doesn’t satisfy her
She sees a beautiful red rose andSniffs its fragrance
The nectar was great
She visited that flower
Every day and sipped at its life
She fell in love with it
Soon winter came and so did the cold
The rose wilted and died
The butterfly hid from the winter inside her cocoon
And watched the death of the rose
Gone from this place, forever
Spring came and the leaves were ripe and green
The butterfly came out into the
Fresh air and flew to a field
Of newly grown flowers
She landed on a pink rose
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Its nectar was sweet but not satisfying
She misses the red rose
She cries in the bloom of a buttercup
That image of it dying still fresh in her mind
-11:13:00:pM
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01.28.91
11:15:00:pM
Gone
My eyes fall out and see no one else
Arms carrying the burden of pain
And legs not knowing where to go
The words I speak engulfed by sadness
Know nothing but anguishMy heart throbs painfully as each moment
Passes by
Assured that a sacrifice must be made
I sell my soul to heaven
My body buried beneath the sand
But my mind faces a tragic ending
Encased in ice my mind is hurled
Into a fire of forgetfulness.
Memories ripped of their meaning
I can live again.
-11:27:00:pM
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01.29.91
01:10:00:pM
Squirrels scamper about the meadow
Their tails hanging low
Trees sway as the mighty cold wind blew
Leaves turn grey and fall to the ground
Happiness meets sadness and
A bitter anger forms into an ocean of hate
Everything is a dream
No one is alive
No one is real
Whiteness turns into a shadow of darkness
Light, engulfed by regret
Is blacker than the sun
Moons of love fall apart
They collide and smash the very existence
Of life
Feathers falling from the empty sky
Birds eaten by the monster of hunger
Hungry for the past
Thirsty for the future
No water to quench my lips
But a mist of hatred surrounds the world
Selfish motives everywhere
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Burning desires strike the earth
Fires of fright smother the oceans
Stars exploding
Cellar doors open
A fog threatens the atmosphere
The attic is locked forever
Heat becomes frigid
Candles knocked over
Books are torn into shreds
One book survives
Its cover burnt
Pages torn
A squirrel climbs out of the ashes
Lies down on the soft pages
He sleeps, in the hands of above
-01:38:00:pM
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01.31.91
10:11:00:pM
Our eyes meet
We raise our hopes
Our lips kiss
Gentle windows blow our hair
Our bodies held close together
The full moon shines brightly
Our minds link
I know what you’re thinking
We are one
The love so strong
Will never shy away
Holding you in the light
Brings me awesome delight
A star falls
Our souls come together
We are lock and key
-10:17:00:pM
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02.10.91
09:59:00:pM
Change
Torn from a life of happiness
Imagination fading
Eyes face terror
Body meets change
The fight last foreverTurning toward heaven
Mortal meets the immortal
Eyes ripped and see reality
Love embraces my soul
I am no longer alone
-10:08:00:pM
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02.10.91
10:09:00:pM
Past and Present
Boring are the days of fire
Water is the liquid of the land
Curiosity takes advantage of the young
Eyes blind
Two years passFinally the pool moves home
Memories unfold
Taking a liking to Mars
Remember the shower of transformation
Gone is the time of the past
New beginnings are before me now
The moon of disappearance
Sits hidden in the sky
My heart of desire shifts
Begging for forgiveness
Lips sealed
My life is hers
-10:29:00:pM
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02.11.91
01:26:00:pM
Let Go
Travelling on magic carpets we rode to far away leads our minds led us
Creating a dream we hoped to accomplish
Thru time the knot was tied
The geese flew south as did my shadow
My heart had no rhythm
The knot loosened
One grew apart
The other got scared
His love hidden
But mine was not
Wanting to hear words from the heart
Which none did receive
The sans of time shifted slowly
Hurt filled the air
Clouds of change floated by my life
My mind opens up to the truth
Music sings and fear disappears
Dreams erased
But still one sleeps
Longing to let go
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My hands unclenched
-01:38:00:pM
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02.11.91
10:55:00:pM
That Night
The door closes behind us
No light can be seen
Hands by my wait
Reach inside
I do the sameTo the floor we both move
The feeling intense
Giving the best, I longed for more
Wanting the time to come
My heart soaring higher and higher
Holding each other close
My kiss meaningless
Departed in silence
Months go by and finally
The time arose
Lips spoke words of terror
Tragic endings torture my soul
My love thrown away
The lesson learned
My body used
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Gave the gift of experience
And forevermore both the same
-11:17:00:pM
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02.13.1991
Days of happiness fill my soul
To wish and to want are all a dream
A master of stubbornness we both are
So much alike in many ways
But we live so far
Love is eccentric
Lying there hidden is a special kind of friendship
Only two like us can possess
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02.20.1991
12:10:00:Am
The Rake
To a far away land I am taken
Our destiny is obvious.
She asks “Daj mi buzi” and I say
No, thrice
My lips wet with desire give inIt happens twice and thought of her
I beg for mistakes untold to be erased
That signature meant nothing
All night my mind at ease.
The sun rises as my mind starts to think.
Stone crumbles, Mountain sinks into the
Sea, the earth falls apart
Nothing is forever.
The taste of hurt embodies my soul
My eyes try to find a way out
Justification holds while truth is ignored
That night in the car he and she touched.
No regret was found and soon it was forgotten
The tool of the garden always in my hand
Part of my forever
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Unseen it may be, but never leaving
Hope is lost
My body shared
Lips are numb, the black is close by
Evil everywhere
I long to escape
Times of terror destroy me
Seeking the light
Needing water I sit in the fire of hell
My body chained
Danger lurking
The monster returns
Scared and helpless I run
Can’t go on
She’s in the distance
My legs disappear
Breath of desires lies before me
Teeth clenched
Holding onto the bead I pray
I lost my heart
He took it
Shut it down
Tears turn to steam as my body melts
Wanting to return
Resisting the flame the claw reaches near
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My body aches
I turn red my life is crimson
I am he
Blackness is the light
Nothing is safe
I look above and see dirt
No heaven, no earth
Where am I?
The song of slaughter rushes thru my soul
Killing love, worshipping hate
I go deeper
My mind in a bottomless pit
Ripped of soul I see death
Smells fires burning
He is wicked and he is bad
Green is the tree of nature
Leaves shine bright red
Wolves howl
The moon fully shines
The eagle rises and flies about
My wish, it dies
Nothing left
But memories
Haunting my mind is love
Fearing it might win
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The song fades
The moon now eclipsed the sky brightens
Scorpio and Aries collide, the flash turns
To daylight
My body returns from the ashes
I am whole again.
I move closer
She is there
Beautiful as the star above us.
We kiss – forgetting our minds
Crying forever it seems
Longing for desires to die
The rake is I and it starts to rain
Breaking in half is the desire
My wish comes true
The wall too high to cross over
I can breathe again.
-12:52:00:Am
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03.05.91
08:00:00:Am
Pain
Pain is my friend
Returning is the sense of stillness
My body aches in agony
My mind can’t render the pain
Can’t control this evilHaunting me till my eyes close
Running no more
The power to heal is just a dream
Seeking to overcome the force
Hands vibrating with a soft green glow
Relaxation sleeps
Can’t win, can’t give up
I’m lost in pain
08:14:00:Am
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03.24.91
09:25:00:pM
My Candle
Dark black candles standing in the wind
Calm night, cool air, no light
Flames shake the candles
Windows blow out the fire
Candles glowing insideMy heart, lifted
Candles burning with a dimming desire
The key lies on the wall
My candle, alone in the darkness
Singing to myself, of love, of lust
A crack appears, the candle melting
Dreams of tomorrow, saddened eyes close
The candle once strong, drained of life and energy
My heart tumbles, lost in flight
Winds cease and the flame shutters, candle rekindled
Back to life it shines bright as the star overhead
My candle, my love
09:39:00:pM
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03.25.91
10:32:00:pM
My Candle (part 2)
We became that everlasting candle
Flames came and went to light the way
The glow always disappeared
The full moon rises and we are one again
The bond stretched too farIt is breaking, withering hopelessly
Can’t fuel the fire any longer
Must move along the wall
Key in my hand – eyes open
Staying together as two beings
Friendship strong as stone doesn’t leave
Love makes its way underground
Reasoning beyond the wall
Legs, tired
Hands, untied
Voices, still
My soul returns regretting each step away
Thrown far above me is the answer
Blinded by fate
Choices are my desires
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The wind doesn’t shift its course without reason
My mind sees the forked road
Unclear is my future
The taste of song still lingers
My ears forever hear all
Resting inside myself for a while
Sleepy are my eyes
Lying down in a place of serenity
The dream unfolds…
-10:56:00:pM
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03.26.1991
11:08:00:pM
Endings
Flowers faints
Trees fall
Kisses die
Love withering
Happiness alteredPurples fade to black
Desires faulty
Songs remember
Dreams shattered
Time slowly moves on
Hope corrupted
Friends replaced
Emotions frightened
Voices mute
Promises forgotten
Pictures erased
Visions gone
Phone off the hook
Letters unwritten
Words unspoken
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Transportation is hatred
Roads forked
Souls abandoned
Minds uncontrollable
Bodies used
The gift of God vacates
Crawled back into my shell
Out of hurt
Weary is my heart
-11:35:00:pM
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03.26.1991
11:37:00:pM
The Ladder of Light
He climbs the ladder
The path to love
Slipping several times
Now he falls
In his heart and mindBut then stops for reasons unsure
Slowly he begins climbing again
Stumbling downward once more
The rungs are becoming icy
Soon no place to hold onto
Forever sliding, always descending
The ladder of light
-11:45:00:pM
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03.29.1991
12:11:00:pM
Buffalos March
Roaming among the buffalos
Leaving the solitary angel
Leaving the shadow of desire
My body returns to when the earth was forming
My back now turned toward heavenLivening as a toy in this world
Batteries are forever
The toy never wearing down
Coming from out of the dark these animals return
Finding me, playing with the toy
Fires change color and melt the candle of love
More and more buffalos arrive
Can’t stop the stampede
Searching for the truth
My mind, downs in the water of lust
He is in the distance, perhaps still watching
Preparing revenge
Death is the only remedy
My shield of will is broken, torn apart
The sun may descend tomorrow
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And I fall into a sleep of no dreams
-12:23:00:pM
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03.30.1991
10:21:00:pM
Out of time
Shining in the darkness
My heart aches in pain
Thoughts are in turmoil
Confusion rattles my brain
The cup of love spilledOverflowing with a passion from before
Running against both good and evil
In my own little home
Shaken with fear my body tries to endure
My watch is smashed against the dead
No revival of light, eyes soon disappear
Trapped in a void of punishment
Hands too full, I drop everything and start over
Now I can’t return
No clock, no watch
No seasons, no heaven or hell
No good, no evil
The wall is crumbling to the ground
The key splits and falls on opposite sides
Trapped amidst the rubble
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No way out
10:32:00:pM
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04.01.1991
02:36:00:pM
Sunshine
Illusions are my friends
They are not real
Neither is myself
We are all but a dream unfolding;
His dream
Emotions exist only in the heart
No one cares
Love is just a miracle of hope
Sacred is a jewel, but what of a mind & soul? (03:20:00pM)
Sheltered from the light I long for
The steps are broken
The inner beauty of my soul sings out loud
Riding upon the horse of death I travel the road to heaven
Pitfalls stuffed with evil, roses stripped of their flower
All adorn the path to goodness
Lies cover all else
The sun will soon burn out & the moon will guide all in darkness
Lights shimmer within the coffin of earth
Opened only to find more evil & hatred
Water splashed about my face, I shun away
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Water and key both unknown – dissolve in the sunshine
Truth behind the clouds
Sailing among other stars, time stilled
Dismal days are now, but tomorrow is a new vision
Waiting until the moon disappears
Here I sit hoping, envisioning a new beginning
-03:43:00:pM
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04.02.1991
09:20:Am
Fading Fast
Gave all my life to that one soul
And now what is left is a deep dark hole
Let her know my heart
Now my life, an empty cart
More than love kept us together
But we knew it wouldn’t last forever
The bond we made
Wasn’t supposed to fade
Our lips outdated
Our souls invaded
Never again we will meet
Even at the end of this dead end street
The fire faded, no more flame
Cold as ice we are all to blame
-09:37:00:Am
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04.04.91
01:12:00:pM
Tempest Island
More blue than the ocean tide
Deeper than the darkest hole
A storm is coming
Dark grey clouds hover above
Rain pours down
Lightning strikes the wave of time
Splitting into two bodies dying
No help is the fiery ball of light
For nights shadow is upon the world
Thunder laughing in hatred
Seaweed tangles the wandering hand
Gulls follow and rescue him
The darker times shine once again
All pearls hold a fool within
Her eyes drown, her voice overcome by thunder
Fallen onto the beach I lay
Sand softens my senses
The tempest stays
The wings still linger
She is the sea – surrounding me
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01:42:00:pM
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04.04.1991
04:28:00:pM
Perfect Lover
You, a beautiful dream
Where love is sacred
And the soul is free.
You, a waterfall of lust
Watering lips of passion
And a desire to fondle.
You, a magnificent unicorn
That magic can’t compare
And beauty can’t fathom.
You, a fairy princess
That dragons can’t harm
And swords can’t pierce.
You, a red rose
Where your fragrance overwhelms
And your thorns are knots of love.
You, my one and only true love
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Which no one could ever replace
And I would never misplace!
04:51:00:pM
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04.07.1991
04:47:00:pM
Tempest Island (part II)
Change flashing by
Raining and pouring
The storm becoming active
Lightning haunts all but the sea
The sea is all of my memory
All of my mind – even in honesty
Dark sky, whirl pools of death
Are before me.
The land I sit upon slowly sinking
Never gonna make it.Behind me is disease
The gulls have no beaks – no ears – no sight.
The sea splashes upon my mind and heart
Nudging my soul.
Body, stubborn
No pains – life unreal.
05:02:00:pM
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04.11.1991
Tempest Island III
Cold water turns my mind
As winds bring back sweet memories
The storm has died down
The sea birds are lost
I’ve fallen into the ocean
I sink into the wetness of my eyes
Crying in torture
The water about me is calm and cool
But one spot bubbles with a harsh, cruel desire
Air is clogged with thick smoke
Where has this cloud of blackness come from?Surrounding my soul
The memories fade
I’m lost again, in a web of choices
Key sinks to the ocean floor
There it will stay
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04.13.1991
10:39:Am
I will conquer evil2
Holding onto the light
I pray in anger and disgust
That my soul covered with the dirt of the devil
May once again be attuned to control.
May once again know respect in all aspects.
Shuttering desire to build up immunity,
Anchoring my heart to hers
Resisting fate I will conquer evil.
12:05:00:pM
2This is when I think I am becoming infatuated.
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04.13.91
04:15:00pM
You (part II, or Perfect Lover II)
You, gracious as the evening clouds
Floating softly across the midnite sky
Where desires unfold and lips become aroused
Making everything a shadow except for you and me
As we lie side by side on a beach glittering
With silver sand in the light of the mighty moon above
Surrounded by the presence of Jesus himself
Who hath shed happiness into our souls and
Who protects us from the wanderers of the dark?
We are one – uniting into a force of never-ending
Love.
04:28:00pM
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04.21.1991
01:26:00pM
Tempest Island IV3
Rising from the hot desert sand
I leap into the cool refreshing ocean
Love capturing my heart once more
Dark clouds still drift in the morning sky
Swimming deeper into a love I remember well
Waves full of happiness, encircle my mind
The heart shaped place where love is battered
By the sea of confusion is my home
Basking in the sunlight I gaze at the water around me.
She is here now and forever
Clouds and gulls threaten me no more
She is my boundary – the sea of safety protecting the very essence
Of a love that just won’t die.
03:02:pM
3This is when I fall back in love with Jessica, perhaps in the middle of going out with Shane, or when we first broke
up, and I slept with Mark, Paul, and Greg…then we started again…but shortly after, we ended it because of that
guy…exboyfriend from military and her doing stuff…also my love with her protects me from getting a disease such
as Aids. Revised 07.07.93 06:47:00Am
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04.23.1991
011:22:00pM
Tortured Soul (becomes a memory forever)4
Dreams can be shattered
Hearts can be broken
But memories can never be erased.
Torn up poems and love letters
Will always be pieced together, not to find mockery and lies of the moment
But to discover that truth will remain constant!
Never forgetting the horrible pain – worse than hell,
For a lover to send such anguish upon my eyes
And set my lips on fire, speaking unkind but honest words.
Never will I send this soul another piece of my heart
For it to be mailed back in shreds!
No love could have matched mine.
Chasing a heart and soul to find it filled with games of revenge.
Overlooking her eyes and seeing nothing but torture for future plans.
A crystal heart cracked in half does more than foreshadow a break,
It’ll lead you to a road of torture.
Kissing a shell of deprivation – and realizing we shall not unite as one force.
4Note: when Jessica sent me back all those poems and collages I sent her, she wrote all over them, nasty words
and hurtful messages…I saved them all…I pieced everything back together…she cut them all up and put them in a
separate envelope and sent one big package…it is kinda neat that she did that…kinda romantic…I believe she
ruined my 2 voice tapes I sent her…but I kept hers. Revised 07.06.93 07:00:00pM
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Desiring only me satisfies me not!
What of my inner self which is filled with
Those memories that will stay forever.
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04.24.1991
01:17:00pM
Precious Jewels
Will this be agony?
Will I ever feel true love once more?
Sight is shuttered against them,
And now she fills my vision
Roses stepped upon by a heavy soul,
Love may have been silent but why must gifts of passion
Receive the hurt instead of the giver
I hate these games – detest them always
To test and to play do nothing but grief
Her friends know all – how come I stay?
Her voice not silent to all but me – should it be?
She is a girl I wish I knowest not
For now she’s become a chest full of precious jewels,
And the key is in her possession.
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04.29.1991
08:15:00pM
Tempest Island V5
Comfortable is my mind,
As I sift my feet through the dry sane.
Happy and reserved my heart lies to sleep
Interrupted by the call of a fish
I look about and see a shiny fin skim the sea surface.
My eyes look deeper and behold a dolphin
The beautiful creature that I am tempted to capture.
I remember such a time of amazement
That I held such wholeness of beauty and love
But that ended in a sad outburst of tears.
Now my eyes turn toward that slim silver creature
It whistles and calls out my name but not to tease –
But as a friendly gesture many humans lack.
MY insides scream and fight the temptation.
It will work, I hope to God.
Never do I wish to cry – I don’t want that dolphin to die.
I just want to join its presence and hold onto its beautiful body.
5(Note: My troubles getting over Bob…and Jessica, and Mark and that bunch…Bob is the storm, Jessica is the
sea…and the gulls represent Mark and Greg and that other guy Paul..who is this dolphin? I bet it is Shane…oh
God!! It could have been Michael J. too, when he was coming to K-Mart. So far, I think it must be Michael J.)
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It can rescue me from the fate of the storm
Which slowly passes silently overhead.
It can rescue me from the gulls and possibly from the sea.
Do I want to leave or swim off to a new world of pierced walls?
We are much alike in Nature – but do our hearts fit like a puzzle?
The sea is now mixed – should I enter it?
Can I become a dolphin too?
Safest route is to friendship – but should I blame my ears which hear thesinging?
The music attracts my sexuality
Shun my eyes from the lovely sight?
I’ll sit and sleep and fantasize.
My gut will lead and fate will reveal what God has in store for me.
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05.02.1991
01:49:00Am
Desires
Tearful eyes
Burning with pain and regret
Speaking softly is deaf to his ear
Agreed and contradicted
Sleepy and tired
My mind is exhausted
Untouched was not my body
Delving further and deeper into my soul
I reach that desire
Thrown to a distant place of nowhere
Control ticks once more –
Ever so slowly
Weakened by the old
Won’t last much longer
Short is my span of existence
Stomach ache begs to release the thoughts
The memory pushed to the far side of my head.
Life is forever damned
Others concerned are sorry too.
The devil took my reasoning away
No logic, no control
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Just a tremendous desire.
02:00:00Am
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05.03.1991
03:50:00pM
I needed this
Unchained myself
Let go of the gripping desire
Spoke words of leaving
Being involved no more
Listened to my heart,
And followed my friends’ advice
Released all tension as did his hands
No free from pain and anger and regret
I needed this
Gaining control
Sex no longer
The key is in my pocket
Locked in a room of restoration
At last the fires of desire burns out
Free is my body
Thank you
04:17:00pM
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05.03.1991
07:31:00pM
Heaven or Hell
Concentrating on the unseen force
Wanting Him to come back into my life
But He never left, I did
Praying before my bedside
I ask for forgiveness
The ultimate challenge has been conquered
Looking toward heaven
Running toward the light
Soul free of all burdens
Rising up towards Jesus himself
Offering my love
Whispers float thru my mind
All the evil destroyed
Only goodness remains
Was my choice too late?
Fate is in control now
When did the scissors cut?
Tomorrow I will live, whether my home
Is heaven or hell
The Earth mistreated
Darkness blankets her soul
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Heaven, a place of peace and protection
Happiness resides
Fill my soul once more
Enter it now,
And forever we will win this war.
07:55:00pM
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05.04.1991
11:27:00pM
Dead or Alive
Lonely nights beckon at my feet
Running thru a field of voids
Cobwebs falling to the floor
Dried up bugs in the corner
Water, rusted and cold
Lifeless shadows disappear
Crows calling
Wolves howling
Bones are old and twisted
Chewed bits of the worm
The shovel lies beside
Stench worse than shit itself
Marble eyelids
Grazing upon the garden of Winter
Blizzards of poison
Cover my mind
Am I dead or alive?
11:56:00pM
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05.05.1991
09:04:00pM
Temptations
Following me everywhere I go
Never giving up
He worships the master of temptation
I stood up under His love and
Damned the devil’s presence
He tried again
I never gave in
The horned creature crawled away.
Lying in my dream machine
Thinking of going downstairs
Gods’ light dim
The temptation finally destroyed
The black smoke emitting evil.
Shining bright is the road to Him
I pray in mercy & thanks
Awoke from a fantasy
Free of Satan’s grip
I have full control.
09:19:00pM
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05.08.1991
07:58:00pM
Mood Change
Off and on our moods change so quick
Voices pounding other’s hearts
The shrill of hate penetrating deep
Far into the lines of friendship
Sparks flying and burning holes
Calling for a muzzle to silence
Assuming everything no matter what
Leads to a path of regret
I back off
Defending no one, not even myself
Waiting for a response
Suspended is my one and only thought
Why do we do this?
Shouting and violence are blind to
Quietness and passion
Start over
Begin again – forget all
Let time flow
Stop my heart nevermore
Pondering the fate of friends
Believing in yourself
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Hold onto them in times of grief
Take strength to your soul
Wait, for time is on our side
Then, they will run
And want to try again.
08:19:00pM
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05.11.1991
08:32:00pM
The Rake (part II)
As the sky fades away
I listen to the soft melody
Of the night air
Tree tops swaying in the breeze
Remind me of summertime
All alone
Outside in this terrible world
As star or two shines above
My lips are cool, I’m in wonderment
Counting the days till school is outSummer will be fascinating and exciting
Darkness is waiting outside my door
To capture my soul and take it
To the devil
But I am wide awake, nothing will
Penetrate even the surface of
Bad memories
Reoccurring lies and shameless doubts
Tremble my touch and send chills to the
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Marrow of my bones
Why can’t we all live in peace?
Harmonious tunes, elegant fashion
And mindful of the attitudes of men
Overwhelming memories strike my home
Afar is my friend, yet he has been here
Beside me, always with me
Wish this time could forever
Thinking and feeling like a starry sky
Watching everything and everyone
I hear Satan climbing the stairs
He bangs the door
And I begin to write
He smiles and laughs a terribly evil laugh
Surface dead
Looting souls and escaping all goodness
To arrive in the tome of evil
Where ghosts scream and witches cackle
This dark cloud hovering
Above, this song of evil,
This tune too hard to hear
Withstanding all light sitting
In the dead darkness of hell
Falling so fast into the pit of
Shrieking souls
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Calling upon the name of the black bird
Malicious crow and dead ravine
Blood toothed fools hit me and knock
Me into a world of helplessness
Breathing is scarce and my weakness
Seems open – ready to fall into the
Clawed hands of the evil faced devil
Red scars slashed across my face
Wounds too large to comprehend
Those crevasses filled with the poison
Of hell.
The fallen angel – just like a mirror of
Me
This white being falls downward
And hope is no more, we speak different
Languages and the chariot of fool’s gold
Blackened by the soot underneath
The feet of dead men burning in hells
Fiery fire pit
Let him take me, let me die
Help me, rescue this boy from the
Temptations set before him
God grant me the serenity
Hold me tight, unto your soul
And clutch my heart within your
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Hands and tenderly lick the evil
Undone.
Save my soul, make me whole
Star shining bright, save me tonight.
08:55:00pM
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05.12.1991
06:53:00pM
Always
Always by my side, He stands forever
Always praying when I kneel
Always offering guidance to the light
Always loving me no matter who I am
Always within my heart and soul,
Seeking hope to rescue me from troubles
Always here, always there
Always watching over me
Always fighting my temptations
Always forgiving
He is my lord, Jesus Christ.
07:01:pM
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05.14.1991
10:17:00pM
Steps of Fire
Gorgeous flames stare at my eyes
That fiery beast that I love so much
So close, but still so far
I wish I worked
Desires overflowed but I calmed down
Looked back to see the flame move
My wood is cold and dry
Wanting to start a fire
To heat up my soul
Stuck between two opposing forces
Still always my vision to be clear
Seeing only the steps of fire
That he left behind.
10:26:00pM
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05:15:1991
06:38:00pM
Taking Risks6
Life is precious yet lasts for only a short time
Death is a reward, rescuing you from pain
Foolish it is to take one’s life and throw it away
God will be blind to such a blasphemy
You’d be cursed in hell with no second chance
Taking risks and not caring
What I’m doing is so daring
If my fate is death then let it come
To the dead beating of the destiny drum
Tan and gorgeous the fire is hot
Something I want but haven’t got
Love is thin
Why do I always sin?
-09:02:00pM
6 I stopped writing a couple of times around 7 and 8pM)
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05.16.1991
08:20:00Am/09:02:00Am
I go crazy
Clothes worn loosely if worn at all
The fabric brings comfort to the skin
Thread weaved thru dark material
Soon shirts are taken off
And pants pulled down
The object of abuse for the rest of the night
Why not just put a knife to my chest?
All my chances gone
How can I change my fate?
I think the end is truly near
Blood filled with poison
Took too much, gave my body up
Hope that my soul goes to heaven
Friendly voices hurt forever
All my fault!
As the sun rises my mind realizes the truth
More and more I go crazy till I know for sure
Control is now solid
It will become clay again
Scars left on body and in my mind
Happy only for a moment till I think again
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05.17.1991
01:13:00pM
Walking Alone
Stab me more
You’re such a whore7
No communication
No wonder why we fight
When does this end?
Will it ever?
I don’t care
You should understand.
Yet realize not the reason
A big issue,
In my life,
Death to us all,
Surprisingly fast for me
Walking alone forever
01:25:00pM
7Originally is was “bore”
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05.21.1991
07:16:00pM
In My Own World
Looking upon the lands of fantasy
The sun strikes my face
The wind roars and tries to blow fear
Into my soul.
High in a tree causes a new sensation
An outlook beyond imagination
Pine leaves are incomprehensible
What message lies below the horizon?
Comfortable yet I feel as if I
Travelled to the other world
Unlocked the door to reality
Is Natasha speaking? Or is God?
The smell of fast fresh air lightens my mood
I caution the unbeliever
A bird can see all happenings
As does the observer that climbs that high
In the distance creatures roam the field
I become weary and realize that I’m
Still here – in my own world
07:28:00pM
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05.23.1991
07:39:00Am
Falling in love with you
Never thought it would be like this
I feel so secure
Satisfied and happy
Mysterious eyes you have, they sparkle
In the moonlight
I can taste your lips from here
Your kiss sends me to heaven
Moving as one, our bodies rub
I tingle with joy at the touch of your hand
Feels so good
Your mouth blows fiercer than a hurricane
And yet gentle as a soft breeze
Falling in love with you
Wanting more - somewhat greedy
Your smile and gaze deepens my interest in you
I can see your beautiful soul,
Full of kindness and understanding
Your words of humor make me laugh and lighten the mood
My love was never ending and will be from now on
No regret – no bad memory
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I want to hug and caress you constantly
Your personality intrigues me
I want to know you more, how you think and act.
This is all part of a relationship that formed that nite
And whether or not I explode, you will always turn
Me on more than anyone else
I write this in all honesty
Can we be together, forever?
08:08:00Am
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05.31.1991
12:35:00pM
Mirror of Hate
I gaze upon this mirror of hate
Why do I look the way I do?
Why do I see tearful eyes?
Help me; I’m drowning within my soul
All black and evil, where is the light?
Thought my eyes spotted the source
His image threatens me
Why? Why? Why?
Won’t this torture stop?
So many questions – where are the answers?
Lust fills my mind, but not of the right kind
There is a chance that time will heal
I am sure that this is real
12:48:00pM
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05.31.1991
11:09:00Am
You (part III)
You, a soft blanket of never ending comfort which I will always hold close
to my heart and wrap you around me every night and I will never be alone so
long as you are here hugging my body which causes the greatest sensation, I
think it’s called love.
11:18:00Am
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06.03.1991
09:41:00Am
The Test
Eyes looking, staring, gazing upon my helpless shell
Eyes smile and kiss me sweetly
Eyes behind masks yell out my name silently
This challenge, my resistance fails
I return the attractive eye and smile cautiously
Not touching his soul but admiring his aura
I see beyond looking
Can’t end my staring
My love is kind but so fast the bond was made
Desires unfold before my eyes
Craving and wishing, too excited, too confused
Silence became my friend for a moment of sadness
Eyes watered
My love stripped in half
Now sewed back together
This was a test, I failed
But then again I would have failed
10:08:00:Am
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06.08.1991
10:04:00pM
Away For A While
I’m sorry for the things I say
I’m sorry for the things I do
This is not a game of give and take
No rules & no tests
Me for you & you for me
There are no locks binding our minds
Opinions never become secrets
Open to each other always
Plant your seed of trust & patience
Let it grow tall & wide
No affection & you turn away
Too much dims the meaning
Tears wash my eyes
Overlooking the possible truth
Is this real?
Should we continue?
Fall backwards & hit the wall of hurt
I will not go
The anchor has settled to the bottom
Of the sea of dreams
Days go by alone
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The night is also lonely too
Has the wind ceased
Or is a hurricane near?
10:22:00pM
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06.14.1991
01:19:00Am
Do Not Dwell8
You push, I ponder
Being totally the best
Scares me
The future grows nearer
Talking to each other in honest tones
Holding onto a love that doesn’t want to die
We think and speak truth
You’ll be mine to the very end
Not a lie, I love you
My hurting past, do not dwell
Crying in the distance – we are apart thinking
Late nights, short phone calls
I’m too young to be involved
Stay friends and save for later
We should have dated and slowed down
Your last wish to start over
And I don’t blame you
We are alike in many ways
01:33:00pM 8
This poem is about Shane
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06.14.1991
06:12:00pM
Where are you my friend?
Dying to live longer, a more happy life
Wanting to change all of the past and the future too
Where are you?
Life is stricken with no hope to survive
Why live? Why try?
Where are you my friend?
Don’t hurt yourself, there’s no need
I’ll search and find you
I won’t let you go - I love you
Too much love, too much pain, too much hurt
Stand tall and I’ll always be by your side
Promising you freedom, giving you all my love
You’re always on my mind and in my heart
No time to talk, I’m on my way
But – where are you my friend?
06:47:00pM
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06.15.1991
08:09:00pM
Can’t Endure
Can’t endure this feeling,
This feeling of losing a friend
A lover, a relationship.
Can’t endure the fact that
My life is messed up; I’m
So confused yet not confused
Each time a relationship rises,
So does the fire that burns
From a new soul.
Hopping and skipping along
This crazy road wanting
But a perfect friend,
Someone who fits this puzzle.
Raging about going further
In my mind to search for
The reasons why I hurt myself
Over someone – everyone.
Flings are ok but
Why is this true?
If done safe, how can it hurt?
We all need someone and
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We hurt sometimes but
Life doesn’t end like a
Relationship – move on and
Continue the journey of
Figuring out life itself.
08:27:00pM
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06.19.1991
03:29:00pM
Who should I blame?9
Where am I going?
What am I doing?
Is this right or wrong?
Can’t hold out for long.
Flipping through the pages of The Book
But where should I look?
Thru love and death I maintain this fear
Afraid of a relationship that starts here,
Here within my heart
Don’t want to lie or cry
Wish they were honest
Don’t want them to be high
Handsome bodies are my fondest
These features I must choose them
To pick between two foes is an unhealthy decision
Why should I?
Let my destiny find him
The road will appear before me soon enough
Not thinking is hard and tough
His beautiful hands – his open mind
9Inspired by Michael W. Smith’s “Go West Young Man”
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His fiery tan – his awesome blow
I know what I want but still things
I can’t cope with, remain
It’s all the same
Who should I blame?
03:48:00pM
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06.22.1991
06:55:00pM
Fire Mountain (part one)
Climbing this mountain swiftly
With jagged rocks and a smooth
Slippery pathway upwards
Leads to a cave
A dark and haunting entrance
Brings me to a fire pit
The flames are bright white
Too hot to touch but
Fills me with a vitality – as long
As no wind finds the fireI can call this fire my own
I want this fire forever but
You can’t fool reality
I leave the fire and the torch I held
But the torch is out, lying beside
The pit of sweltering heat – the heat of passion.
These flames flicker – no doubt they mean lies.
Climbing down the mountain – winds
Rise and blow my thoughts in circles.
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The stones beneath my feet warn me
Of the future – but my ears block out all truth
They hear the windy lies.
I return to this mountain each day,
Begging to gain entrance to this
Godlike pit of fire.
Most of the time it tricks me and
Lets me in, but I get lost and backtrack my steps.
I hate playing games
But my desire draws me closer
To this cave and when the sun rises
I seek out my life today.
The wind follows me,
I sometimes see the pit again – full of lustful flames.
Flickering ones.
Ones that lie.
The torch is re-lit and
The same habitual ritual motions come into place.
Hopefully this fire won’t burn me to death.
07.19.00:pM
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06.27.1991
01:27:00pM
Dead or Alive (part II)
Life is becoming distant
This isn’t a game any more
Shouting out lies
Turning away, heading for a new hope
Someone to take me in their arms
And love me for who I am
Can’t endure – not now
What a mistake that would be
Could I do it?
Living my future todayShards of glass by my dirty feet
My blood is drained of all energy
Some doors are broken but open
Some doors are closed behind deadbolt locks
The walls are blank
Is this just another scary dream?
Or is it the reality that I never believed in?
Am I dead or alive?
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01:37:00pM
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06.28.1991
11:44:00Am
Pure Torture
He came & talked to me
Whispered in my ear
Time has no meaning
Morning soon came & we parted
The garden grew as flowers bloomed
Violets scattered all around
It rained a horrid precipitation
Not a cleansing, more of a flooding
I was washed away but the violets remained
The summer was hot
Fire followed me, red hot flames amazed
To see that I still longed for him
We travelled afar, beaches – many
We rode thru & searched for more fire
Haven’t seen him for a while, can’t fall in love
It would be too dangerous
Next came another from a land not too far
The woods became a sanctuary of playtime
He spoke few words – kept to his job
Was he in love?
Will I ever be in love again?
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Do I want to?
Soon I will miss everyone to see my
Best fiend – pure torture
12:00:00pM
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06.29.1991
01:23:00pM
Anchor
He penetrated hi soul absent from protection
Further it travelled down the tunnel of darkness
A journey of abstractness
Strange tingling feelings throughout my body
Bouncing upon the vehicle of waterThe safety line was never attached
The water level is rising by pure excitement
Was the anchor thrown overboard?
Overflowing with a splashing sensation
Injected with a poison needle
To suffer with the knowledge of many lies
I break even with trust & satisfaction
Absorbing lust & leaving love behind
This will go on forever until I receive his fate
There is no end – ever
02:05:00pM
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07.01.1991
02:11:00pM
(Storm) Cloud
Time is shattered into a million broken pieces
Nothing left but a reach less dream
Thoughts of fading away
Running no where
Fighting inside & outsideClouds pass overhead knowing nothing
Soft & passive they can change
Transforming into a storm cloud
Full of hate & anger
Crying out of love
Puffy & crystal like they are beautiful too
Let me ride upon their destiny
Wind carries them – destination unknown
Am I a cloud?
02:35:00pM
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07.05.1991
10:30:00pM
Y-Not
Calling to me
The boy is so giving
Honest & true
I’m a special someone
In his eyes
& in other eyes
But he offers different
No different than others
Out of town
But in my heart
Money, distance, & love – nothing stops him
He has problems
But takes mine & helps them out
We sing the same tune
Friends we are,
Nothing more – he’s too far
10:39:00pM
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07.08.1991
01:24:00pM
Sacrifice10
Must travel alone
No where do I belong
They have left
No more chances
No more risks
I must decide
Whether to continue onward
My music sooths the pain & torture
Wanting to resolve all of this
My future is set aflame
Should I let my dream go
Turn to ashes – never to be fulfilled
I’m giving up – my life
I don’t care anymore
Tears threaten my soul
Drown my face in sobs
Life seems meaningless
Can’t take it away
What would they say?
Handling too much
10“Everything by When In Rome
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Run away, far away
Till death takes over
I’m not confused – such a big decision
School must be put aside
Work forever & suffer throughout every crisis
No more help available
Start over – go for the wilderness
Nothing stays forever
Change my lifestyle
I must give it away – put it aside
My mistake – my learning
Breakdown into a life of death
Of tears filled with poison
Sacrifice my soul
My support – gone
No strength to go on
All I see is a knife in my hand
A scream & it’s over
01:43:00pM
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07.13.1991
11:23:00pM
Her11
Wishing I had her back
Her soft touching voice
The laughter that strengthened our souls
Missing her caring letter
Her warm lips touching mine
Saddened heart now begging to beat again
The energy wants to be activated
Her body – so beautiful, inside and out
Burning eyes shut out pain
No running tears – just a still pool of shouting thoughts
Thoughts tortured thru the memory
Why did I leave?
But now because of broken poems
My life is half hers and could never be
All his.
11:30:00pM
11“Say Once More” by Amy Grant & “I Don’t Wanna Lose You” by REO Speedwagon
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07.12.1991
02:58:00Am
Together
So weak, yet a stronghold
Love is distant, but never too far
Talking & resolving – leaving hatred
Inseparable minds
Two hearts beat as one
Direction of life opposite in ways
No barriers
No protection
Running & fighting
Love & romance
Sex too early
Proud & envious
Alike & different
Active yet passive
Together as friends forever
03:19:00Am
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07.14.1991
08:15:00Am
Funky People12
Walking down this darkened road
Dancing with the thrill of lust
Waiting for the touch of his tan hands
My life could be his, if he would tighten his grip
Reaching out, I can sense him with another
Lying next to him the next morning atop water
We floated together after the flames died down
There was no passion – only from me does he receive love
Only sex which is so sacred but never new
Letting him lie – giving him space
Revolving around many friends – funky people
He never stops but he desires a boyfriend
I must be crazy to want such a guy
It’s too good to stop having sex with him
Body versus body – his so perfect
Weekly visits to do just one thing – unprotected
I don’t mind at all
Chasing him in his wonder car
That speeds thru the air
12“Save Some Love” by Keedy
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Unclothed is his best side
Picture perfect face & hands
Lustful thoughts behold my eyes
Let me kiss him forever
Satisfying my chasing heart
Laughing at his lies – nothing stops me from being with him
Hurt for only a short time, the chase better
Than the catch
This is my life as well as his
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07.16.1991
03:14:00Am
Who is chasing me?
She’s standing there in the darkness
Waiting for only you
Haunting visions of evil taunt your mind
Screams from hell bellow out from his mouth
He falls to the ground, held in Satan’s grip
Begging for the mercy of God, he prays
Who is chasing me?
The dark air envelops around them
Kissing tenderly & then he cries
Weeps in pain & can’t find the answer
She’s frightened & shouts
Collapsed in fear he rebuked the devil
Call out to the Lord for help
The evil disappeared
They held each other into the night
& then he left – left behind the answer
-03:30:00Am
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07.16.1991
03:33:00Am
No More Ink
A capped black ink pen lying on a bed
Worn & torn the label erased
Scars across its surface
Body bent out of shape
Loose cap cracked in half
The bed moves & the cap slips off
Falling to the floor becoming lost
Light colored ink form words of lust on paper
Used too many times – no available pens close-by
Writing every nite with tiring hands
Soon the ink drains – fading forever
Smeared the remaining fluid upon my hands
No more writings of romance & poetry
All out of ink
The pen is capped once again
Thrown into a drawer waiting to be refilled
Time rushed & now too late
An empty pen, passionate memories & a handful
Of poems remain
04:02:00Am
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07.17.1991
10:48:00pM
Crimson Soul
Unstoppable laughter
Can’t stop the tears
An incredible time of joy
No fears or worries – all gone
Night gives way to day
She arrives in her white car
Small & cute
Drover here & there
Playing with balls we moaned
The sticks were hard & long
Upon a table she laid outstretched
Beautiful & ready
Long crimson hair, an added plus
The smile was gorgeous & attractive
Lips pure & unique
My soul was touched
His body touched by a spark of love
Friends for only a short time
The clock will soon strike three
Images trapped by technology
Never forgetting the eye piece
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Trapped with emotions & now mine
The ring of silver, his for tonight
Near perfection, she won’t be forever
Letters unspoken, knowledge will find
She is owned by no one
But who is this someone?
No restrictions in her hand
So close – yet not for long
Dying to hold her, be backs away
Understanding his road, won’t be her walkway
11:11:00pM
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07.18.1991
09:28:00pM
Tempest Island VIII
The storm erupted
Blackened sky – thunder but no lightning
Crashing rain waiting to fall
The island – once peaceful
Shipwrecked soul trapped
He searches for the dolphin
Swimming around this isle
He found his soul – lost soul that begs to leave
The sane is scattered with tears
Changed meaning this tempest
Praying for the rain to stop
To cleanse his soul – rescue his heart
Buried already up to his mind
Follow his heart and the soul will escape
The clouds will dissipate and be gone
This land has many memories
And I’ve been dreaming
This scary nightmare – so true
Real and so like the past – yet different
Goodness grows thru the palm tree
The only tree that shades this island
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Shades it from the danger of death
Death by guilt and love
Swirling up above is the answer
Blow it away – far and distant
Or it will destroy you
09:55:00pM
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07.18.91
11:55:00pM
Until the Dawn Breaks
Mystic places I do seek
Away from worries and distress
Trying to be strong and never weak
Is this right? Or am I in a mess?
Patience, until the dawn breaks
Dusk is gone with hope I fear
It’s not yet real but not even fake
Is the motive and action in the right gear?
Speak of only love
Sinking in the sand
Dreading the moment that I’m thinking of
Will she be hurt? Or will she understand?
012:07:00Am (7.19.1991)
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07.19.91
12:20:00Am
When the morning comes13
Be strong,
I’m with you,
And God is with you
If you fall in again
She will gain control
Twist your road
And weaken your soul
Your tears will never be free
12:31:00Am
: “Be good to yourself cause nobody has the power to make you happy” –George Michael (01:10:00aM)
13“Be good to yourself cause nobody has the power to make you happy” quote by George Michael’s “Heal The
Pain” song
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07.20.1991
01:00:00Am
My Soul’s Shadow
We are all lonely
Searching for the right move
My watering eyes still hidden
Closing them to all but few
Accepting a friend
But will he accept me?
I cocoon myself from him
He was once the mirror in front of me
I never shit the door completely
Wanting no one to hate me
He was my souls’ shadow
Attractive, but must be careful
Unsure of his beliefs
He is my friend’s friend
Cannot take him away
Shove him away from my body toward my soul
Slipping on my tears I break
Don’t touch me for I will move backwards
In fear and in doubt
The door to his side ajar
Doorknob too hot to handle
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Am I interfering?
I must remind him of my past
Wanted so hard to become part of his shadow too
Not likely.
Time running as quick as us
What do we have in common?
My life is different
Someone struck me with an arrow of caution
Against what should I fear?
His liking me?
Informed that I don’t like him
So untrue – but how do I prove it?
Reminding me of me
I’m scared
Reminding me of another friend afar
Don’t become overwhelmed
This guy is silent, but I hear him
No more mistakes
I will try and open the door totally
Hoping he won’t fall and run away
01:21:00Am
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07.21.1991
10:23:00pM
Land of Enchantment
Travelled to the magic land
The land of everlasting enchantment
Where friends become known quickly
These special people touch my heart
I still recall my friends back east
Some causing me grief, other bring love
This new place is great
Changing my home would be good
Missing where I lay already
I don’t want to leave
Wanting now to live my life
Not his or hers
I will do what I want to do
Under the conditions of need and not greed
Things will certainly change
I’ve stepped into God’s light once more
Will I give in to temptation?
May evil be gone and become lost
For I have found myself.
10:33:00pM
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07.23.1991
04:19:00:Am
You (part IV)
You, someone special that I truly love
Who brings out the fun and enjoyment of life
You, radiant and enchanting
Who cats spells of laughter
You, a friend so dear to me
As precious as the air around me
As strong as the ground below me
As beautiful as your presence before me
You, a cherished drop of water
That will never slip through my handsYou, an ocean full of understanding
That will quench my mind forever
You, a gift of love
Full of truth and honesty
You, a bag of hope
Filled with the sand of happiness
Tied with the ribbon of life
You, caring and loving
A best friend in the end
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04:53:00Am
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07.30.1991
12:37:00Am
I’m Human
Strength to conquer my sin
Believing in faith, rising from shame
Hope exists in the mind
We all have the power
To endure the forces of evil
Never follow your footsteps
Draw the light into your soul
Thru His eyes you’ll always be loved
Open your curtained thoughts
Live today, what you are
Scrape off the lies
Label yourself human
Not perfect, nor unsinful
Don’t wander in the past
You had no control
What is right – is wrong
What is wrong – is right
You decide
Make up the rules
Don’t be pushed and cornered
Break all the memories
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Hatred and lust – all a sin
Everything controlled by one mind
Your mind
My mind
01:01:00Am
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08.01.1991
08:09:00pM
Hold Back
Hold back
Hold back this feeling
Of lust, of love
Hold back the temptation
Erase my memory
Walk towards the light
Seek the Father
And the Son
Don’t give in until my day is done
08:11:00Pm
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08.01.1991
09:39:00pM
My Only Weakness
Tangled in a sticky web of lust
Trapped within a box of powerless hands
Charmed by his smile
Is it the gaze of death?
It certainly is the gaze of torture
Causing me to enter his darkness
Feeling the pain and pure anguish
Throughout my entire soul
The spider fangs sank deep into my mind
No escape from this entrapment
The third eye can take this away
Destroy my desires and replace them
Is he my only physical hope on earth?
My only weakness – the deadliest
09:50:00pM
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08.07.1991
09:40:00Am
All alone in this world
Strangers staring at you
All alone in this world
But rays of sunshine fill your heart
Along the sidewalk street
Glittering gold float down the sewer
Disappearing without a trace
Your life surrounded by cardboard
Used bits of food splattered on your face
Your hair is like a dirty rag
Blackened and weathered
Walking from each garbage can on bare feet
With a stomach growling for more
Lying on the cold wet surface at night
Waiting to be loved by God’s light at dawn
Struggling thru season’s change
Where’s your blanket?
Approaching a slow death
Awaiting judgment day
Will I rise or fall?
10:05:00Am
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08.13.91
09:06:00Am
My soul is returning
Great happiness through music
Fading the whirling thunderstorms in my head
Smiles shine on the screams & shouts
Holding my ground, looking away from evil
The spirit of my soul is returning
Whispered tears of love
Strengthen my mind
It’s never too late to try
My eyes see thru the madness
The light of love is dim
Barely noticeable to my heart
Sleeping thru horrible fits of rage
Dreaming of his unshaven face
In the purple background
Letting his touch comfort me
Coming into my fantasies
With his shield of lust
All thru the night his energy grows
Passing me the power to move forward
Never falling backwards
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09:24:00:Am
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08.15.91
12:19:00pM
Get out of my life14
He’s gone
But he’s always around the corner
Trying to get over the terrible lust
Hope my brains explodes
Take away the memory
It haunts me everyday
He came
I rode in his car once again
No rearview mirror – my eyes calm down
Before we left – he puckered up
Silence & then I kissed
His screams, temper & lost love
Make me crazy
My lips tighten – forever?
12:26:00:00pM
14“Get Out Of My House” by Dead Or Alive
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08.21.1991
04:13:00:pM
We will never part
Our friendship is too close at heart
04:15:00pM
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09.07.1991
01:42:00Am
Wire Basket
I’m a wire basket
Tangled in knots of rust
Holding an emptiness of confused love
My handle is that serpent’s body
Carried by rough hands
Tossed about by waves of teardrops
Always swinging
01:50:00Am
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09.17.1991
12:50:00Am
Sex without cost
The horned devil seized him
Like the fire of hell he became hot and bothered
His window opened
The devil spoke words of lust
Sec without cost
The door then opened
My heart was gouged out
The Spirit of the Lord being used
No shield but a necklace of love
Desires peaked – he creamed
Wanted to go to a place of darkness
Satan led the way towards the cinema
Grabbed hold of my consciousness and faith
Turned away and cried out for help
My hands trembled
dwelling upon the desire
It faded – I made it
Praised the Lord in sorrow for forgiveness
Begging for the devil to leave
Did I lose him?
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12:57:00Am
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09.18.1991
12:47:00Am
Fall
They walked in countless circles together
Sliding past hope
Felt a spark of real emotion
And I closed my eyes
In fear? Or in wonderment?
The pile of pain between us grows higher
The leaves begin to rustle in the wind
Dried, cracked and crumbled lives
We all will soon lost stability when the snows arrive
12:59:00Am
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09.20.1991
01:09:00Am
Nothing Matters
Wooden fences and brick walls
Stop signs and red lights
Locked door and closets
Friendships and lovers
Hearts and minds
Past and future
Religion and faith
Sexuality and freedom
Time and energy
Emotions and memories
Life and death
These restrictions disappear
When we float on the clouds above.
Can only imagine such a place,
A reality within a dream
Nothing matters until we start to think,
Interfering with instinct and habit
What is left?
Beginnings and endings.
01:22:00Am
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09.21.1991
01:15:00pM
Alone in the darkness
The wall crumbles down
Feelings mixed
Don’t have to prove my love
I have no love
Thinking about the situation
Helps only the evil one
Speaking to myself
The hurtful messages inside
Motivated towards honesty
Only bringing shame
Kisses are like the wind
Coming and going
Never talking like fireworks
Comprehending things differently
Praying for mercy
He hears my call
01:34:00Am
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09.23.91
08:15:00pM
Between the twilight
We don’t know the difference
We love and we think
Confusion and sadness enter the scene
So beautiful together – alone
A warm embrace
Brings us closer – again
Will this day ever end?
Hoping for God’s continued love
Stuck between the twilight
In between comfort and happiness
In-between a love and GOD
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09.26.1991
10:54:00Am
The Last Prayer
Must give up my sin for God
Suffer thru pain like my Lord
Resisting all temptation & badness
Change my life before I take it away
The biggest & hardest choice to undertake
Give up my friends for God
Give my life to God
For he is greater than I
Whether it’s me or not, I don’t care
Love & happiness are so far away
Beyond the mountains
Beyond the heavens
I’m not going to live in hell anymore
Wanting all the harsh voices
All the torments to disappear
Never too late – so I fall back into God’s arms
Carry me till I grow strong again
I ask this one thing
Be there when I’m weak
Giving up so much will be very difficult
I trust in the Lord
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Amen.
11:08:00Am
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09.28.1991
11:00:00pM
Vision of Darkness
Driving, Darkness,
Eyes,
White devil,
Turning,
Remembering,
Statue?
Mary?
Devil?
Vampire?
God?
Sign?
Visions,
Worship,
Distant,
Memory
11:05:00pM
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10.02.1991
01:03:00Am
Against the Wall
Choices – too many futures
The hardship of a decision
Stuttering to think
Silence to meditate your feelings
Never making your mind up
This feeling of constant comfort
Secure and satisfied to the point of confusion
Only a distant thought of sex
Blasting my ears to find the right song
Standing alone, in prayer, to find the right someone
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10.03.1991
07:02:00pM
Road to Happiness
The phone rattles
Shouts of rage & anger
Over my happiness
No understanding
I take hold of my faith
But the devil was unleashed
Automatic shut off hearts
They are stoned with poisonous blood
Acting like evil creatures
The boy puts up his weak shield of hope
Broken in half immediately
Terrible thoughts of death
So close to my grasp
A car, a wall – dead!
Almost falling, a steep downhill race
Sealing up my faith in a memory
Needing to rest upon another soul
Lonely as hell
The fire enrages my mind
So many up & down directions
Should I follow the straight path?
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Money & sex mean nothing
A close friend – his heart aging too quickly
My peace of mind shattered among my family
Being stepped upon all my life
My foot goes down
No more secrets
The ending is near
Love falling apart
But being picked up
By whom?
07:16:00pM
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10.06.1991
05:48:00Am
Peace of Pleasure
Turned off the light
Grew weak & suffered too much pain
Confusion on all my sides
Love sparkled as He cried
Happiness overruling faith
Let go for now – perhaps forever
Parents gone
Future changing drastically
Staying with this one
05:59:00Am
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10.08.1991
02:40:00pM
Tempest Island IX
The isle has no more meaning
My future changing
The sea is almost dried up
Running away from no more gulls
One last swim to remember my past
A clam washes ashore
Many days go by before I take it
Admiring its shiny shell
A sea turtle sits beside it
Trying to move away the clam comes to me
What does the turtle think?
Neither not wanting to hurt him
The clouds darken for a moment
Then a soft glow brilliantly shines from inside
Inside the beautiful clam
What could this be?
An island appears beside this one
We go to that one
Lying upon the sand, the clam upon my heart
Still near to our past but the sun doesn’t hide
Brightest light in the sky burns off the clouds
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With a smile on my face, I see the turtle
A fear covers my mind – closing my mind
I look to a new dream
It’s glowing near my heart
03:01:00pM
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10.08.1991
09:26:00pM
Left Behind
Lost in confusion
Walking down a long road going nowhere
Thinking about life
Thinking about love
The passion was lost
& time together was too short
Full of anger that’s waiting to burst
What is the truth?
An empty home
An empty heart
Only a few excuses left behind
09:35:00pM
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10.16.1991
02:53:00pM
A Brisk Evening
The cold night air
Warmth by the fireplace
The water opened my mind
Realized that the truth is not a lie
Words do have a meaning
An important part of a conversation
What I feel is right
No one’s opinion is mine own
Recalling my thoughts of past
They are no alive
Gone away to make room for the future
Here I stand in a place of paradise
Always glad to see a smile
Time moves on
Sometimes it’s better to let go
Don’t need to think
Don’t need to wonder
A day is here
Take it & make it
The rain falls softly overhead
A song of happiness tapping at our souls
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03:09:00pM
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10.17.1991
12:13:00aM
Sleeping forever
Understand the warmth
A dreary shower of suffocating love
Beneath the sweltering heat of flames
Tossing & turning till my heart turns cold
A desire too strong to put aside
Too full of change
Where does my life end?
Because this love will never die
Hurting,
Scaring,
Leaving…
12:29:00Am
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10.21.1991
11:28:00Am
Seasons only change
Leaves falling into the earth
Decaying memories fly away
Wind carrying hurtful thoughts
To the blackened cloud above
In our minds, the pain resides
Speaking many tongues
Chopped up & sewn back together
A constant threat
Travel around their hearts
So magnets don’t draw you
Closer than shadows
But blacker than coal
Eating at your soul
Tearing away love
To fill hearts with confusion
Stop stealing my mind
Seasons won’t change the situation
Cold turns to anger
Heat brings power
Too many secrets aren’t secrets
Used as a dagger they are
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These deaths aren’t real
Only wishing my lips would exile them
11:50:00Am
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10.22.1991
03:37:00pM
Waiting For The Right Moment15
Behind the glass wall
Seeing what I long for
Waiting for the right moment
To touch his lips with mine
Once more I try to resist
The chain of respect holds me back
Happiness overturns depression
Crawling backwards
Always behind me
Stepping forward into the rhythm
Sharing moments of passion
When the moon rises
Shifting time for us
Licking the sweat of romance
My watch falls off
03:57:00pM
15Listened to George Michael’s “Faith”
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10.23.1991
12:16:00pM
Tippy Toes
Complaining about living
Chasing everyone’s hearts away,
Yelling at the distance
Driving herself too far,
Not knowing the words to speak of
No anger, no tension when he comes
She disappears within his soul,
Rocking back and forth she laughs
Laughing with them,
Going to her room silently
Waiting for his sweet return
Sleeping upon the thought of anxiety
He holds her happiness
Dreaming that she lay beside his side
Wanting everything within her grasp
Until they open her eyes,
She still shouts and begs for more
Soon she won’t have a door
Taken away with stress,
Leaving for her honey
The door closes behind
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12:32:00pM
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10.26.91
03:52:00pM
Breath of Life
Standing before this mountain
A great mass of confusion
All the lakes surrounding it are dry
Love has evaporated like the water
Is there a rainy season?
Will my lips be quenched again?
Has my heart taken too much?
Waiting forever with a terrible pain
Deep inside me a small light shines
But I will stay in the darkness
This is where I belong
In torture – wrapped in chains
Never walking again, my shoes are too worn
Letting it pass over
Not hanging on anymore
Climbing the rocky hill before me
I’ll get over it
Sometimes it’s hard to get over it
Falling backwards, giving in
The steps in front of me always weary
I caution myself
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I fell into the pit of love
Now I’m suffocating
The breath of life - gone
04:19:00pM
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10.29.91
03:50:00Am
You (part V)16
You, an eternal flame of everlasting love
That burns deep inside my soul
You, a chariot of purest gold
Which I will always follow
You, a happy smile that brightens my day
To the point of mutual laughter
You, a pair of jeans that I can snuggle into
And feel at ease
You, a soft melody that whispers in my ear
Which I will forever listen toYou, a shooting star that fell into my arms
With a desire to make many wishes
You, a key of trust, honesty and understanding
That unlocks my heart
You, a blue candle of friendship
That no hurricane could ever blow out
You, a magical force of power and strength
That no sorcerer could even attempt to fathom
16Listened to “Eternal Flame” by The Bangles
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You, a haven of golden delight
This lifts my life above the clouds
You, a person that I can call my friend,
My forever friend
04:18:00:Am
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11.03.1991
04:06:00pM
Wave Good-bye
Wave good-bye to the future
Lying here at peace
All the pain is gone
Drained of energy and life
Lost in a picture
You can find it on the wall
The wall of memories
04:13:00pM
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11.03.1991
04:14:00pM
Decisions
Can’t climb the wall before me
Can’t open the door behind me
Can’t jump over the pitfalls beside me
Can’t shovel any deeper below me
Sitting on a hilltop with my mind deep in thought
Is there a way out?
Can I escape?
Is it too late?
The Son is above me
Shining brightly
Opening my eyes I see death
I fell to the ground
Kissing it sadly
Holding the dirt close to my heart
Never letting it go
Time stops, twists and alters
My soul reaches toward the sky again
Staying there to be saved
04:31:00pM
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11.05.1991
09:22:00pM
Reflection of Happiness
Running through the raindrops
Losing everything
Your life is nothing without him
Hardest part I shim leaving
Losing your life
Chasing after the dream
The song of love fills your heart
Falling down the stairs
Tumbling over memories
Crazy without reason
Temporary good moods
Laughter after it happens
He dies
You die
Running after the dream
The song that brought us together
The flame is dim
The door closes
Solid and strong – you cannot break through
Death is permanent
Stopping the mood
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Halting love
Destroying the friendship
My hands are tired
I’m lost within his soul
Threw my body over the wall
My soul is in heaven
Lust took over
The secret of happiness
Obsession of him
Smelling the scent upon his body
Licking his soul
Touching his heart
Within me is this love
He holds my feelings
He caught my emotions
They are at ease
My mind is numb
Knowing my surroundings
Not caring about life
Just happy
My music satisfies me
He drew me closer
I listened
He spoke words of craving
I fell apart
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I gave in
He gave in
The glass was empty
The water within me shouts a smile
The taste of lust
Locked up my feelings of love
Happiness is a mere thought
Disappearing like death
Over and over I wait
The day and night we’re together
Flowing feelings of love
We love
Hoping he realizes it!
Sitting in a position of I don’t know
Listening to the advice of a song
Am I being taken through heaven?
Am I seeing a dream?
Will I sleep?
Help no one
Safer than ever
Staying here until time stops
Numb feelings obstruct my real thoughts
Give me a mirror
09:42:00pM
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11.08.1991
12:11:00Am
Woodland Fantasy17
Days of fantasy ride upon a memory
Along the peaceful steps,
A young heart with a curious mind
Seeking pleasure by walking along side a friend,
The woods were our home
A place to call our own,
So close to being one
A symbol of true friendship
The world divided around us
Keeping us together, forever.
12:26:00Am
17Listening to “Rhythm in the Pews” Deep Breakfast tape by Ray Lynch
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11.08.1991
12:28:00Am
Blind man18
Colors splash upon the canvas
The blue sky melts into the greenery of trees
Stars shine off their whiteness
Every color mixing with every symbol
The sun attracts rain
Winds blowing leaves into springs’ buds
Mountains crash into the sea to form islands
Snowstorms in the summer heat
The sweat of sadness drips off his fingertips
Merging his soul with creation
Depression & happiness find the missing emotion
In between the two without a name
Wishing masterpieces to unfold
Not knowing that his existence alone
Is a work of art
12:54:00Am
18Listening to “Celestial Soda Pop” Deep Breakfast” tape by Ray Lynch
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12.05.1991
12:06:00Am
Dream Book (part 1)
19
The essence of pure beauty
Melting with the beat of two hearts;
Footsteps filled with strength and compassion
Walking together, always as one;
Higher than the flying eagle
The moments expanding towards infinity;
A morning kiss to awaken an exhausted soul
When dreams and reality clash and blend into
A mass of growing love;
Holding hands in the air
Moving faster than lightning,
Pounding mightier than thunder,
Gluing our minds at the same time;
Dropping over torches
Letting the fire burn around us
Keeping us warm and secure,
“Think about it”
12:28:00Am
19Listening to “Super Trooper” by ABBA
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12.28.1991
05:57:00pM
Waiting to Return
The face changes
Doubts fade into smiles
Nights are always warm
Stranger no more
As I step away
As I close my eyes
His voice is there, within my heart
Calling me back
A golden path leads toward his soul
So close to reaching this summit
Arms of love embracing, protecting, loving
No depths can fathom his passion
Celebrating memories of fun & laughter
But now scaredom resides
Where did I go?
Why did I leave?
My stomach aches in anxiety
Waiting to return,
To balance my soul once more
06:12:00pM
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