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Narrative Reflection
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NARRATIVE REFLECTION
INTRODUCTION
Between three and four years ago, I did not believe I had the academic strength
to let alone enter a graduate program, never mind graduate. As it stands now, I
plan begin a doctorate degree in the next four to six years. Quite the
developmental journey has occurred since August 2013, below is a snapshot of
that development.
MOST IMPORTANT COURSE CONTENT
Critical self-reflection and dialogue are concepts that I began to develop
right from the beginning in our Multiculturalism for Social Justice and Student
Affairs Profession class. It was in these classes I realized I was socialized to be
comfortable, ashamed of my privileged identities, and reluctant to believe I could
be an oppressor. Dialogue, as defined by Paulo Freire as a moment where
humans meet to reflect on their reality, as they make and remake it helped me
develop the skills to go hard on ideas, but not people, and to challenge myself
though critical self-reflection by reflecting on my own privileged and oppressed
identities, my socialization, and my values.
Student development theory provided a map for me to use in discovering
where I can be good company with students. Identity development, cognitive
development, and intersectionality theory receive the most use in reflecting on
students journey. I also apply student development theory on myself, as I have
developed and will continue to develop throughout my professional career.
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Critical social theories and leadership in higher education, both taken in
the first semester of my second year, have been the most impactful classes I have
taken during the program. During critical social theories I learned the important
concepts of liberation pedagogy and critical hope. Liberation seeks to discover
educational practices that disempower people, and through restorative practices
of working with not for, providing efficacy for them to empower themselves.
Critical hope troubles hokey hope, and challenges us to end oppressive practices
despite the outcomes, essentially making a movement bigger than oneself.
In our leadership course, I learned I am the leader I have been looking for.
Before and during my undergraduate experience, leadership was constructed as
traits, values, and positionality. During the course, I learned to deconstruct,
reconstruct, and appropriate oppressive theories instead of dualistically
dismissing them. We are the leaders we have been looking for, as Grace Lee
Boggs noted, and that leadership for me is empowerment, liberation, and efficacy
building.
CONTENT TO PRACTICE
My motivation for working in queer student affairs in general, and as a
graduate assistant in the gender and sexuality resource center in particular stems
form my own higher education journey of feeling excluded from my first higher
education institution before transferring to Roosevelt University. However, my
practice has developed significantly because of our course content.
The program has made my think critically of what social justice means. I
realized I was a practitioner who would label something as socially justice,
without thinking critically about the definition of social justice. I now see
programs, policies, and practices in a spectrum ranging from diverse and
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inclusive, to multicultural, to socially just. This framework is not meant to
privilege one over the other, but rather to intentionally think of the outcomes of
our programs, policies, and practices. This framework particularly helped me
redevelop the Safe Space Ally Workshop, which promotes diversity and
inclusion, but moves beyond to discuss oppression, privilege, and positionality
in the context of LGBTQIA students, staff, and faculty at Northwestern.
Leadership has taught me to build efficacy for students leadership
potential, and validate the diverse array of leadership roles students choose.
This is particularly true with students who identify as activists at Northwestern,
who historically have not had student affairs practitioners to rely on for
navigation, mentorship, and leadership development. The leadership course has
provided a framework for me to develop leadership programming that looks
beyond traits, values, and positions; but rather mentorship and community. In
my internship at Northeastern Illinois University, I have begun to build
relationships for a mentorship program for men of color, to be paired with NEIU
staff, faculty, advanced graduate men of color.
PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
The most consistent development I have learned to struggle with is the
ability to delegate and manage multiple tasks with a limited amount of time.
The director-less Gender and Sexuality Resource Center has challenged me to
facilitate new and developed programs, while doing my best to maintain 20
hours per week. This has required me to reach out to multiple campus partners
to assist in different GSRC initiatives, particularly folks I work with in Campus
Inclusion and Community and Multicultural Student Affairs. In areas of low
efficacy or with knowledge that a professor or practitioner may judge work I
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have created, I create the paper, program proposal, or presentation with
perfectionism, which has roots deep in shame. I have challenged myself to
rethink what my motivations are when writing academic work or creating a
program or presentation for student affairs colleagues.