EMILY GODDEN

CONTENTS

POETRY IS… > PAGE1

MOTION > PAGE3

LEAVING > PAGE5

NEW BEGINNING > PAGE7

LET > PAGE9

CRY > PAGE11

BREATHE > PAGE13

DAYDREAM > PAGE15

SELF-CALM > PAGE17

THANK YOU > PAGE19

Anthology of poems under the theme of ‘Motion’ to follow up from my first anthology titled ‘Emotion’, each poem is supposed to represent progress, beside each poem is a page with a QR code, once scanned this QR code reveals the title of a poem from the pre-vious anthology titled ‘Emotion’. To view the previous anthology scan the QR code on the right.

Critical and carefully chosen words that Paint a reflection of a distilled mood Poetry is food for the soul Feeding instinctual drives, Spilling thoughts and emotions. Poetry breathes life into my veins Releasing me from restricting chains. Layered with meaning and morals Beautifully formed visually its almost art. The ink of my pen stains my hands There’s no limit to the breadth poetry spans. The written words on paper cut deep, Swirling ink invades my sleep. Poetry touches the soul -it keeps me whole. It writes on my heart it’s embossed on my brain, In poetry I can reveal everything, even pain. Poetry burns my fingertips It alights the page, sets fire to reality- For me its escape. The words profound effect highlight overarching pain and happiness. Tied up in knots and torn apart With poetry you can speak from the bottom of your heart. Trapped inside through poetry I confide Amongst the written lines I can hide. Poetry allows my thoughts the space to breathe Spreading words sometimes they deceive. When writing poetry it’s like I’m dreaming Because nothing else can surpass the feeling. Poetry is the light that illuminates the day The darkness that passes through my night.

POETRY IS...

In awkward ambivalence I sit alone in self-reverence Negating the past I ask; Let me in, let me see underneath Reveal the internal grief. Forced and cleansed My soul- desire Ignited – liar… Envy –beauty Stay strong – my duty. Stay there, don’t worry I still care. It feels… There’s nothing I can say - If you don’t try you won’t know. This is too much- More than I deserve – Leave it, it will preserve. Heading in a separate direction Away from you’re detection – From you’re protection Forgetting the past – This is my new recollection. My new motion.

MOTION

To live, to learn, to lie- To leave, to love, to cry. To turn back and say goodbye, The past guides my present- It holds my memories as Echoes of the past call my future. It takes only a moment to say hello But forever and a day to say goodbye. Every time I leave, I learn - Set fire to the raw reality Watch the emotion burn My vague view of the future Is far from serendipitous , But I must evade the shadows Cast by regret and chase the light.

LEAVING

My internally fractured heart beats to the rhythm of a dis-contented and tormented soul. Captivated by an intense pain that resonates with a sharp bite of bitterness. I remind myself that was the past, this is the present, that To express emotion is to change it, and to change myself I’m not who I was, but I’m not yet who I want to be – Because right now I still don’t feel like me. You’ve found out – big deal. The secret is out, -but not gone. I have to start again Build myself up and hope that I don’t knock myself down. To a new beginning – but not a new past…

NEW

BEGINNING

Let them speak Let them help Let them teach Let them dictate Let them choose Let them support Let them assist Let them … Let them speak Let me see Let me help Let me breathe Let me free Let me decide Let me confide Let me try Let me fail Let me tell you: – one day I will prevail.

LET

It’s ok to cry, To admit that you did try- And accept that it was just a lie; Because the truth is something you cannot deny. Crying is natural, Water flowing – its rain But the moisture permeates pain. I cry in the dark My tears are the spark -glistening from the moonlight they shimmer – but I shake, There’s not much left that I can take! I need to be true to myself, accept and reject Withdraw and protect… This is pathetic. Live in the light- live to survive the fight I wear my heart on my sleeve – I do not wish to deceive – I can’t control this – I need to release – loose grip It’s ok to live- to lie, to accept to deny- to attempt to try – to admit and to cry… These tears whisper secrets and unlock deceit – fate/. Let me cry - Let me try, and know that I How I feel is real – it will take more than tears to heal. Here I am – I wish to stay – I wish say… I swapped the knife for a fork – it’s time now to talk Each time I lean on your shoulder I lie – my world becomes colder.

CRY

Breathe- stay calm-stay attentive Think thoughts that are preventative Ignore the hurt – prevent the harm Cover up the damage to my forearm. Before I failed- but now I’ve prevailed Breathed in-breathed out- I exhaled. I’ve lost so much time, so much thought But I will learn from what I’ve been taught. Repaired but still fragile, not broken I cannot forget what has been spoken. The tears take their course, My arm highlights my lack of remorse. You thought I was intelligent Uncovered that I was negligent. You highlighted my faults -I ignited them And even attempted to ignore them. I never realised quite what I was doing Leaving the emotion inside, boiling and brewing. Rewind, rethink, walk away and clean the sink And wash away my own brave ink. Concentrate-focus, feel at peace not pieces. I will forever try until this harm, it ceases.

BREATHE

I feel like I’m loading…awaiting your

Signal.

Closing my eyes I imagine clear blue

Skies:

Celebrate the week I’ve remained in one

Part.

And suddenly my thoughts awake become

Free.

Together I move forward and take flight now I’m

Alive,

Here I hide from unsuspecting eyes-

Your-

Overarching freedom in my own new

Utopia.

I can’t go on like this life is no

-Abyss

Our fate no longer bounds me to this-

My reality.

DAYDREAM

Breathe in reality and exhale fiction – Calm down – ignore the addiction. Shut your eyes- and look closely At what you value mostly. Look to your heart It’s the right place to start, And remember inside You’ll always be able to confide. Step back, ignore the clock Ignore the past, ignore the shock. The future appears rosy Sit back and enjoy it- keep it cosy. Stop- that was too close Extinguish the thought before it rose. Make no noise no sound Hide the thought before it’s found. I’ve spent too much time apart From who I am, I’m forced back to the start. Allow yourself to see Allow yourself to be free… Inside I’m still hurting inside I feel fear On the outside it’s no longer so clear. Ignore the past, ignore the harm And Indulge yourself in some soothing self-calm.

SELF-CALM

I can’t thank you enough, I am who I am, and I’m not who I was, I want to thank you because: I won’t lie it was scary to start But now I’ve let go I can say this from the bottom of my heart: To all those times that you’ve listened To all those times that you’ve told I will never forget. You’ve helped me overcome my deepest sense of regret The scars will linger and fade But what I know now, will never degrade. To all the poems I’ve written To all the poems you’ve read I won’t forget what has been said. You’ve helped me to accept Words can’t say how grateful I am But here I’m saying thank you in the best way that I can. To the emotion I’ve concealed To the emotion I’ve revealed I can never thank you enough You helped me through the worst To be where I am now, towards my best. I am where I am – I honestly feel blessed. To the times I was low You made me strong, you helped me to grow I tore myself apart And you’ve stitched me together To the giggles and the laughter Thanks to you- there is a happy after-

THANK YOU

To the memories good and bad I’m forever grateful, forever glad. For now I am healed (hopefully) The strategies you created are now my shield I want to share any success with you Because I feel I really owe it to you! I know you were always there- I am grateful for your considerate care To the times I was anxious And at times overwhelmed Thank you for being so understanding You picked me up, enabled me to stay standing. Thank you and goodbye, I’m no longer stressed but now I’m going to cry. This poem is a release, I’ll go forward now –allow the harm to cease.

Anthology of poems under the theme of ‘Motion’ to follow up from my first anthology titled ‘Emotion’, each poem is supposed to represent progress, beside each poem is a page with a QR code, once scanned this QR code reveals the title of a poem from the previous anthology titled ‘Emotion’.