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A LOOK ATKABBALAH

Part 3

Sheila R VitaleCHRIST-CENTERED KABBALAH

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Definitions

THERE IS NO MALE OR FEMALE IN

CHRIST JESUS (Gal. 3:28).

Accordingly, all textual references to

MALE and FEMALE point to spiritual

principles, and the words MAN and

MEN, as well as the pronouns, HE, HIS

and HIM, include, WOMAN, WOMEN,

SHE and HER.

CHRIST JESUS is the only spiritual

male. Accordingly, all powers and

principalities other than Christ Jesus are

identified as female IN RELATION TO

HIM.

The powers and principalities which have

incarnated this fallen world (2 Cor. 4:4)

are male IN RELATION TO FALLEN

MANKIND, and female IN RELATION

TO CHRIST JESUS.

John 7:17-18

17 If any man will do his will, he shall

know of the doctrine, whether it be of

God, or whether I speak of myself.

18 He that speaketh of himself

seeketh his own glory: but he that

seeketh his glory that sent him, the

same is true, and no unrighteousness is

in him. (KJV)Rev 3:18

I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; andwhite raiment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do

not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see. (KJV)

CHRIST-CENTEREDKABBALAH

Unedited, Verbatim Transcript OfMessage # 531 - Part 3

A Look At KabbalahTape 1

This is Kabbalah study lesson # 2, reading from our notes. Asdiscussed throughout the writings of Rabbi Chayyim Vital, in orderfor God to create his universe he first had to create a place for itexist. For prior to creation the light of Ayn Sof was everywhere.There was no place for a universe, an independent aspect other thanGod to exist. We do not say that God had to create a place for theuniverse outside of himself, for there can be nothing outside of God.Now that's a very, well it was a very difficult principle for me tocomprehend, infinity is a very difficult principle to comprehend. Godfills everything and he is infinite, there is nothing outside of him. Sotherefore we exist inside of God.

The TzimTzum, the empty place the circle, we exist inside ofGod, but I remind you that we are at the world of action which is theinnermost of the five worlds. So to reach God, I guess I have to putit on the board. Drawing # 1, we've pretty much seen before, it's adrawing of the five worlds, Adam Kadmon, world of emanation, worldof creation, world of formation, and the world of action which ishumanity as we know it. And I've drawn that pipe that which we knowto be the linear aspect of Adam Kadmon, through which the light of

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the Ayn sof which is infinity filters down into the world of action. Now what I have drawn on the board I can't really explain it

to you as fully as I would like to, but what we know to be theuniverses, the planets, the physical universe out there, all of thisexists within the five worlds. So we see that the Ayn Sof or theendless one, he's outside of the physical universes. What hope couldwe ever have of contacting him on the outside of us, no hope at all.

Our only hope of contacting him, or being contacted by himor finding him is in the very depths of humanity, as he enters into usthrough Adam Kadmon, which we know to be the Lord Jesus Christ.You know there is a such an opposition coming against the humanmanifestation of Adam Kadmon by the the Rabbis that teachKabbalah. It was so strong on my heart today, to call up the Rabbiand say you know, no controversy, could you just explain to me whywhen you teach that Malkhut is inside of a man, you know andMalkhut is right here in the center of the constellation, why can younot believe that the Ayn Sof comes all the way down and dwellsinside of a man. Why can't I, I don't get it, to me it's the most obviousthing as the nose on your face.

They say it's idolatry saying that a man is God, but is itbecause one man could never contain God. But the principles ofKabbalah as I read them right now, is that we're talking aboutvessels and inner light and surrounding light, that the light pours intothe vessel, and when the vessel is filled up, the light pours on theoutside and the surrounds it. Well that's what we are, we're thevessels, we take as much as we can, and then the light surroundsus, you know, I don't get it, I don't understand what they're, theymust just, King James says they have a veil over their face. To meit's you know sometimes you have to come outside of your systemof beliefs to see a simple truth, and I'm marveling today at thecomplicated, at who complicated these teachings are, and I wasreally studying just about this today and Lord willing I'll have anothermessage on it, because that message I would want to post on theInternet, which really expands on just on this issue.

It's so complicated and to us it's so simple, Christ in you thehope of glory, it is just so simple, you know, and this was what Jesuswas talking about when he said, ever seeking after knowledge, butnever arriving at a knowledge of the truth. The truth is so simple thatthis glory that they call the Ayn Sof, or the endless one that the Jewcalls the Ayn Sof, or the endless one, he comes into man, you know

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through this pipeline which is Adam Kadmon, and yes Adam Kadmonis light or spirit, but then he enters into a human being, and when heenters into that human being, everything I'm telling you I've read inKabbalah. When the light enters into the vessel, it purifies the wallsof the vessel until the vessel is of the same quality as the light.

I'm reading it in the book, but they can't get, they can't get it.They can't get it, it's amazing to me that they can't get it, you know!Okay let's go on with this message, I thank you Jesus that we get it,you've helped us to get it. So does anybody not understand thisdrawing? The Ayn Sof could not make a place outside of himself,because he is infinity, but he created this or he sketched out thisempty space in the midst of himself, because there's nothing outsideof him, is everybody okay? Okay.

In order to create this place for the creation to exist, RabbiChayyim Vital introduces to us a concept called the TzimTzum,which is Hebrew for withdrawal or contraction. He states that fromthe center of the infinite light of the Ayn Sof, a withdrawal of lightoccurred. What this center is was discussed in the previous lecture,and we were told that the center, does anybody remember what thecenter is?

A spiritual center is desire, a spiritual center is desire. TheAyn Sof desired according to Kabbalah, to reveal himself in adifferent form, to reveal his substance, there's no change of sub-stance or nature in a different form so that he would have the, nothe, it the Ayn Sof, would able to pour out his abundance upon thatwhich he created, which is really a reflection of himself, okay.

And we too, in human beings, I've heard for years the phrase,you have to centered in Jesus Christ, but I didn't really know whatthat meant until I started studying Kabbalah. Our center is desire,that which is truly most important to us is our center, and our life willwitness and testify to that which is most important to us, because we,whether it's conscious or unconscious, we pursue ardently that whichis most important to us. Every, there are always sacrifices requiredfor everything that's important to us. So if you want to find out wheresomebody is in God, you look at what they're willing to give up, andyou'll know where their center is.

When the Lord sent me to the church that trained me, it wasnot the ideal church for my daughter. I knew it was not the idealchurch for my daughter, I knew that, but I knew that I had to bethere. So she did not go to the ideal church for herself. Most parents

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are concerned about their children, I was concerned about mydaughter, but I had to be in this church, and the Lord will take careof her, and he'll make it up to her some how, some time, somewhere.

So everybody that left that church because it was not an idealchurch for teenagers does not have God as their center. Do Icondemn you? No, I'm just telling you the truth. You have to walk inthe truth. So this empty space came into existence through acontraction. He states that from the center of the infinite light of theAyn Sof, a withdrawal of light occurred. What this center, well let saythis, a withdrawal of light occurred, that's what the contraction is,contraction withdrawal of light.

What this center is was discussed in the previous lecture.Rabbi Chayyim states, symbolically speaking that the withdrawal oflight from the center point occurred equally and round about in acircular form.

Let's take a look at that, let's take a picture so I can draw thenext one please. Drawing # 2. I've split the board into four sections,a, b, c, and d, in an attempt to show you the formation of theTzimTzum. See, all that there is, is bright light, okay, blindingly brightlight, and in the midst of that bright light appears a desire of the AynSof to create an other, an object upon which he can bestow andreveal his greatness, and that desire appears in this light which iseverywhere as a point, that's 2a, and in 2b, we see that the Ayn Sofbegins to extract or remove his light, beginning with that pointforming a circle.

That's drawing # 2, the light begins, I'm sorry it's 2b, lightbegins to be extracted from the center point outward to form theempty space called the TzimTzum, and that empty space is, in mostdrawings it's drawn blackened, I just didn't want to take the time tomake it all black, but it's a black circle in a white background, okay,and 2c shows us that the empty space increases as the lightcontinues to be withdrawn, and finally in 2d, we have a full circle thatis absence of the light of God, which, but there is still something leftin that circle, okay even though the light has been removed, someresidue, some people call it an echo of the light that was withdrawn,a memory of the light that was withdrawn, remains in the circle,because there is no vacuum anywhere in creation, and certainly notin the Ayn Sof.

There is no vacuum, there has to be something in there, and

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it's called black light or negative energy, that's what remains whenthe light is withdrawn, and here we see the introduction of negativeenergy that we know today to be Satan.

Okay, now that negative energy is a part of the creation solong as it's under the control of positive forces, but there was aseparation, and Kabbalah would disagree with me here, but I believethat that separation was not ordained of God, it was a separationwhereby the black light or the echo or the partial part whatever youwant to call it, took up its own direction, and we read about that inZechariah, I'm sorry I can never remember what chapter it is, but itsays, "And the woman went off to establish her own base, see, andthis is the beginning of rebellion, but of course that's another wholestory as to how this separation took place.

Satan or the black energy is not necessarily what we wouldknow to be evil, it only does evil things when it comes out from underthe authority of the light, the black light is necessary for the endlessone to create something other than himself, and he is blinding whitelight. So he created something that was the opposite of himself sothat it could be seen, black light, makes sense to me. ExceptKabbalah does teach that it was the Lord's intention or it was theintention of God for us to be in this condition, and I do not believethat. So the message of Kabbalah, it is so exciting, and yet it has thiselement woven into it that is being taught in the church today, that isjust absolutely incorrect.

The Lord did not choose this for us, God did not choose thisfor us, and I see in Kabbalah a recognition of the fall, from what Icould see so far, Kabbalah deals with the fall by saying, the sparksof light, the holy sparks of light which we know to be, who? Who arethe holy sparks of light that are down here in this world? Okay,there's an answer in the congregation.

COMMENT: Abel.SHEILA: Yes, Abel, all the Abels are the holy seeds that fell

down into this world of action. So Kabbalah recognizes that the holyseed is down here, and that they have to be restored to the worldsabove, but from everything that I've seen so far, the teachings ofKabbalah do not relate the condition, the finite and imperfectcondition whereby we're subject to disease and death, I do not seethat Kabbalah relates our condition to the fallen sparks of light, andKabbalah, everything that I've read so far shows that Kabbalahclaims that we're in this condition to be perfected through good

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works, and our works are to restore these sparks to heaven, but it'sjust, they've got the whole message, except there's an essential part,and leaders in our church apparently have been reading Kabbalahfor years. I would read the works in the church and say where arethey getting this stuff from? They've been reading Kabbalah foryears, many of the kingdom preachers, and they bought the wholeball of wax, there's a lot of good material in Kabbala, but they'vebought the whole ball of wax, including what is wrong. Praise theLord, and that's unfortunate, but praise the Lord anyway.

When the TzimTzum, when this TzimTzum of light in thiscircular empty space of light was complete, an empty sphere was leftinto which creation could be created. So we see that creation isbeing brought forth in a womb that consists of negative energy, that'sthe night of the day and night of creation, yet herein lies a seriousproblem, how can there be a place empty of God, this cannot be, forany place without the light of God simply cannot exist. Everything increation and outside of creation is dependent upon the existence ofthe divine light for existence.

So how can there exist an existence based upon the absenceof light, this is impossible, yet this too poses a difficult question, forhow can we say that something is impossible for God.

Are we thereby implying that there is a limit to divine powerand ability? Well we know that that's not true. There are clearanswers to these questions, although the answers themselves mightnot be too settling. Indeed God did withdraw the light of his Ayn Soffrom the center point to create a place for creation. This place forcreation Rabbi Chayyim calls the Halal, the empty space, yet theHalal is not really empty. Rabbi Chayyim hints at this, but does notreally expound on the nature of the Halal, that's the empty space,prior to the creation of the universes. We have to turn to others formore detailed information.

Rabbi Yisrael Sarug, the other student of the Ari'zal, intro-duced in the previous lecture expound in great detail about thisoriginal Halal, that's the empty space, and bases his concept, nowwhat's the difference between Halal and TzimTzum? Let me tell youthat. Halal means empty space and TzimTzum means the contrac-tion, the actual act of contraction where the light is being withdrawn.So the Halal, the empty space is the result of the contraction is thepulling back of the light and the empty space that is formed as aresult of the pulling back of the light is called in Hebrew, the Halal,

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the empty space. So Rabbi Yisrael Sarug expounds in great detailupon this original Halal, and bases his concept on the terminologiesfound in the opening teaching of parashat bereshit of the Holy Zohar.The following translation is my own, while translating, I have stayedtrue to the text regardless of how difficult this makes it to understand.

In the beginning of the revelation of the desire of the king...so we see that at the beginning was the revelation, in the beginningthe king had a desire, and that desire was revealed and that's thebeginning. You know, going all the way back, I heard people sayingthat there was a creation prior to the creation in Genesis 1, and Icould never receive it, because in my mind, and I think that's whatthe people meant who were talking to me, but that there was anothercreation like this one. Now there was something before the creation,but I don't believe it was another creation like this one, because thatimplies that God didn't like the work that he made and he destroyedit, and that teaching was in the church and probably still is in thechurch.

No, what existed before the beginning is the time, whatexisted before the beginning is the existence of the Any Sof, infinitythe endless life existed before the beginning, and the beginning ofwhat, what does the beginning mean? If there's a beginning therehas to be an end. The word beginning signifies time. See, there is notime in the spirit world, there is no time, there is no space, there is nodistance.

I was reading in another book today how in the spiritualplanes everything is in the same place, that you could, if we canascend high enough, we could go around the whole world in coupleof minutes, that's the principle of traveling in the spirit. When themind leads the body we just think of another location and we'rethere, because the mind transcends distance, time, and space.

So you see there was not another creation before this one,but there was and is, there was an existence before time began, see.Does anybody not understand the difference? There was an eternalexistence called the Ayn Sof, the unlimited one, before time began,and this world that we live in it's the world of action, it's the world oftime, space, and distance. But these physical laws have now nopower over the spirit, and there was, I do not believe there was acreation as such as this one, that the Lord didn't like it, or it wasn'tsatisfying to him so he destroyed it, I don't believe that.

Okay, let's go on with our meeting. So we're saying that

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Rabbi Yisrael Sarug expounds in great detail about this originalHalal, this original empty space, and bases his concepts on theterminologies found in the opening teaching on parashat bereshit ofthe Holy Zohar. The following translation is my own, okay I wasreading the translation. In the beginning of the revelation of thedesire of the king... So we know that the king had a desire and thatit was revealed. He engraved an opening in the Tehiru lla'ah, andthat is the supernal light. ...he engraved an opening in the supernallight. That means everywhere there was one simple light, there wereno grades of it, it was not darker or lighter in different places, it wasexactly the same everywhere, that's what the word "simple" means,no variation, no variety, just simple, the same everywhere.

And in this simple light, or the supernal light, he engraved anopening with a Botzina D'Karnu'ta, with a hard spark, whatever thatmeans, it came forth from the concealed of all concealed which is thesecret of the Ayn Sof bound yet and without form. So that spark, thathard spark that came forth, it was all bound up, that means it wasone knot. There could have been ten parts or ten threads to whatwas bound up, that could be unfolded and revealed, but it came forthall bound up in a ball, okay.

Now I know from our studies in the Tree Of Life, that thelights that come forth from Adam Kadmon's mouth are bound, andthey bring forth the world of bound lights. So that's being spokenabout here, a whole bunch of lights all in one ball, with the potentialto be released into a multiplicity of lights. It came forth from theconcealed of all concealed from the secret of the Ayn Sof, bound yetwithout form, fixed within a circular ring, that's what we're talkingabout now, the Halal, fixed within a circular ring, not white, not black,not red, not green, not any color at all, with the great measure, manycolors were made to radiate within from the inside of the Botzina, thehard spark, with the great measure, many colors were made toradiate within, from the inside of the Botzina, the hard spark, thatsounds to me like that means the linear aspect of Adam Kadmon.

One stream came forth, and from it flowed forth the colorsbelow, from the concealed of all concealed, the secret of the Ayn Sofcame forth, and did not come forth his AIR which was not at allcomprehended. Now that word Air, it's not the air that we know of,and I'm not going to comment on that, I know that I've read about it,but at the moment I can't recall what I read, I just know it's not the airof our world.

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So I'll just go on. Ayn Sof came forth and did not come forthhis AIR which not at all comprehended until the forth of the pushwithin the breach, was revealed a single point. After this point wehave no comprehension, for this reason it is called bereshit, the firstof all speech. We cannot understand what happened before bereshit,that's why bereshit is the beginning, because we have no under-standing whatsoever of what existed or what happened before. Theexistence before time began.

These are the opening words of parashat bereshit of the HolyZohar, what this text means is debated by all the Zoharic commen-taries. We do not mean to discuss all the details of this section,suffice it for us to discuss what Rabbi Yisrael Sarug said regardingthis section.

One of Rabbi Sarug's major works is based entirely upon thesection of the Zohar with a greatly significance difference. RabbiSarug's version of the Zohar differs from the printed editions that wehave available to us today.

His version of the above section is twice as long and addsextremely important details which apparently were either not known,not noticed or for some unknown reason ignored by Rabbi ChayyimVital. This deleted section of Zohar is crucial in importance becauseit explains the origins of the Hebrew alef bet, and the names that'sthe alphabet, that means ab, the Hebrew ab, abc as we would say,and the names of the ten Sefirot, something that Rabbi Chayyimdoes not do.

So all of the information that we have about the names of theten Sefirot do not come from Rabbi Chayyim. Before we address thenature of the Halal, that's the empty space and his relationship to theHebrew alef bet, I must digress here for a moment to discuss acritical detail about Kabbalah study. Let it be known, and make nomistake that although a tremendous amount of Kabbalistic texts havebeen written over the last 2,000 years, the real teachings of theKabbalah remain a closely guarded secret, indeed most students ofKabbalah today, and this includes most orthodox Rabbis, even thosein Jerusalem who studied Kabbalistic texts everyday, still have notgrasped the essence of what Kabbalah truly is, and what exactly itis teaching.

Is that amazing, do you hear that? I'm going to say thatagain. Most students of Kabbalah today and this includes mostorthodox Rabbis, even those in Jerusalem who study Kabbalistic

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texts everyday still have not grasped the essence of what Kabbalahtruly is and what exactly it is teaching. It is teaching about man,about what is going to happen to man, and who we are in relation-ship to God, and what our future is. We are the vessels thatKabbalah talks about. In every book I've read so far it talks aboutvessels, we are it, we're the vessels, and the holy sparks that werelost are in us, and the shells and the husks, the demons, they're inus.

As known, there are four levels to the study of Torah, pshat,the plain meaning, Remez, the implied meanings, Drash, theallegorical meanings, and sod, the secret Kabbalistic meanings.Does anyone know what implied meanings, the plain meanings,that's on the surface, what is an implied meaning? The word I usedwhen I taught it is inference, inference. The implied meanings are theinferences where there are certain legitimate inferences conclusionsthat we can draw from the information that we have, then it has theallegorical meanings, the allegorical meaning is when it's parable,and Sod, the secret Kabbalistic meaning. Just as there are fourlevels to learning Torah in general, so there are four levels oflearning Kabbalah in specific. Most students of Kabbalah today onlystudy the pshat of the Kabbalah.

Now that's the plain, and I don't know if I'm pronouncing thatcorrectly, that's the plain message. What's the plain message, Thoushalt not commit adultery, that was the plain message, don't do it.Wash your hands before every meal, it's the law. Most students ofKabbalah today only study the pshat of the Kabbalah, which is themetaphysical philosophy known as theoretical Kabbalah. This is whatis learned in almost all the holy Kabbalistic Yeshiva around the world,including those in Eretz Yisrael, that's the land of Israel. Thetheoretical Kabbalah includes the study of the Zohar and the KitveiHaAri'zal. Learning these most sacred texts is of a measurablevalue, yet nonetheless, the ones learning them are still only learningtheory and not practice.

Brethren this is what we're learning in our studies of the TreeOf Life. I put those gemetrical studies, you know examples orproblems up on the board for you, I show you how 100 is found inTevunah, and Binah, it means nothing. I've told you it's just anexercise for your mind, it's developing the mind of Christ in you, butit's purely theoretical, what you see is what you get, I read it out ofthe book, and I tell you this is what you're suppose to learn.

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But I also have been telling you that I don't know how to applyit, I understand that in the later volumes of the Etz Chayyim, we aretold how to actually apply these teachings that have been coming outof the Tree Of Life to our everyday life. This I've got to see, I really,it really would be amazing to see it.

So that is called theoretical Kabbalah, it's all theory and nopractice. That's the same thing as me telling you when I teach youhere, you're all getting theory, and then every once in a while theLord sends us out into the field to do the lab work. When I bring upa situation, either a political situation or a situation that's happeningin someone's life, and I ask all your opinions, okay, that's more orless, that's a form of lab work, okay. I'm sorry when we go out it'sfield work, okay, when I ask your participation to analyze somethingthat's going on, that's lab work. I'm trying to help you to use whatyou've learned to manifest the mind of Christ. So we have theory, wehave lab work, and we have field work in this ministry.

I don't know about you, but I don't know any other ministrythat even talks like this, but that's okay, I thank you Jesus foreverything we have. In our many sins by contrast, the members ofthe Kabbalistic cults are studying these texts, but without thenecessary balance provided by Tamudic study, and the observanceof the Mitzvahs. What he's saying is that theory isn't enough, youhave to keep the law. That's what he's saying. Now I've beenteaching you here that it really is important when you study Kabbalahto either keep the law or what? Okay.

COMMENT: Have Christ formed in you.SHEILA: And what can happen to you if you study Kabbalah

and you don't either keep the law or have Christ formed in you? COMMENT: You will ascend in the wrong time line.SHEILA: Exactly, exactly, these kinds of spiritual studies

raises up your Fiery Serpent, and the Jews because of a specialdispensation by Jehovah through the covenant he made with themon Mount Sinai, are protected by keeping the carnal commandmentsof the law, why? Because Jehovah said, if you keep these carnalcommandments I'll protect you when you ascend, and Jehovah is nota man that he should lie, you see.

But today, those of us who have Christ Jesus and, let me sayare living out of him, those of us who have Christ Jesus formed in us,and are living out of him, he is protecting us, or protecting us fromhaving our Fiery Serpent ascend in the wrong time line. We do not

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have to keep the law, but we do have to keep the moral law. Thesepoor misguided souls are in, and he's saying they're misguidedbecause they're studying Kabbalah without keeping the law. Thesepoor, and he says without the observance of Talmudic study, and theMitzvah. I'm not sure, but I think that Talmudic study is the study ofthe Bible which I agree with him on that. I don't think anyone shouldbe studying Kabbalah, unless they've been a student of the Scrip-ture, the King James translation, and the doctrine of Christ.

We have been prepared for this. I think that's what he meansby Talmudic study, but the observance of the Mitzvah is the law,there are certain, Mitzvah means a good work or a blessing, andthere are certain things that you are required to do by the law. Thesepoor misguided souls are in reality not receiving the true teachingsof the Kabbalah. This is because the cult leaders are filtering andperverting the Kabbalah's true meanings and relationship to generalJudaism. Unfortunately the Kabbalah cults are bigger in Tel Aviv andLos Angeles, then are the kosher and legitimate Kabbalistic circlesof the holy Rabbis. Members of these groups should not be calledstudents of Kabbalah, for what they are learning is not Kabbalah atall, but rather some new age mishmash of Kabbalah coated garbage.As the old Latin saying goes, caveat emptor, let the buyer beware.Does anybody know what caveat emptor, what language that is?That's Latin, yes.

Outside of the cults and away from the academic studies ofthe holy theoretical schools of Kabbalah, a small number of studentsdelve into the Remez of Kabbalah and seek the emotional effectsthat this type of study has upon their soul. These individuals willperform rudimentary forms of meditation, rudimentary meansbeginning type forms, rudimentary is beginnings. They'll sing songsand possibly dance. Their study of Kabbalah leads them to act outthe joy in their hearts. Their experience of Kabbalah study isemotional and full of passion. They may or may not excel in thephilosophical studies of the theoretical Kabbalah, because those ofthe Remez level manifest the Sefirat Tiferet, which is in the heart, alltheir learning is heart centered instead of head centered. Cananyone relate that to the church, what aspect of the church have Ijust described? Yes?

COMMENT: The Holy Spirit.SHEILA: Yes, the Holy Spirit filled church, yes. Everything is

emotionally centered, is that bad? No, it's something that God is

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doing, it only becomes bad if God calls you out of it into the headstudy, which is what we're in to the head study, if God calls you outof the emotional life in Christ, in the Holy Spirit, and you don't wantto come out, then for you it becomes an evil thing, because you're indisobedience. The third group, the Drash of Kabbalah group,correspond to the Sefirah Binah. As such these students arerectification centered. This group works with serious mental constructmeditations of he Abulafia system and, he's a famous Rabbi,Abulafia system, and the Sefer Yetzirah. Now the Sefer Yetzirah,that's one of the foundational books of Kabbalah and it's said to havebeen written by Abraham, and it's also said to contain the secrets ofspiritual and physical alchemy, and as I've told you on other tapes,the ability to create a golem, which I'm sorry to report, seems to becommented on, seems to be a high issue of interest, at least in thewritings that I've read so far.

I don't know why anyone would want to be creating a golem,to me I want the power to heal, I want the power to heal people. Allthese people that have been attempting to influence president Bushto approve stem cell research on living embryos, people there arepeople out there, you know they're just lusting and crying andbegging and calling out to be healed. So I don't know, if this is acritical spirit, Jesus help me, because I don't see why anyone wouldwant to be making a golem with that power. I want to be healing allthe people that are sick, and I want to be healing their spirit, so thatthey can recognize and thank Jesus for the healing. And what'scoming to me, is that this is God's mind, and Jesus manifested God'smind apparently at thirty years old, Jesus was a master Kabbalist,and he used the power to heal the sick and cast out demons.

Now this could be an insight, at least to one of the reasonswhy the Pharisees were enraged at him. He never tried to make agolem, he never tried to turn lead into gold, he didn't raise up anarmy to fight off the Romans, he used the power to heal the sick anddeliver the oppressed, and maybe that was shocking thing for theRabbis, I don't know I'm trying to make some sense out of this.

That's what it sounds like doesn't it? They were mad at himthat he had the power, and second of all, they were mad at him thathe was using it for the poor. But being a Christian, I can't imaginedoing anything else with it. But apparently that was not, feeding thepoor, healing the leper, and feeding the poor, was not, according toeverything I've read, does not seem to be a priority of the Pharisees.

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And I want to tell you something brethren, when you do somethingthat's right in front of people who are not doing what's right, even ifyou don't mean to harm them, you show them up, you show them upand they go into a rage.

Jesus came saying in so many words, look this is what you'resuppose to do with the power. There have been Rabbis that havehad the power and misused it, you've made gold out of lead, that'snot what this is about. So they were enraged at him, totally enragedat him. Being that their purpose is, now we're talking about the mindpeople now, the people that come out of Binah understanding, that'sus, being that their purpose is drastically different from that of thefirst two groups, okay the first group studies without, it studies just intheory, the second group is just interested in singing and dancingand being full of passion. But these people who come out of Binah,that's us, their purpose is drastically different from that of the first twogroups, their methods and topics of study also differ. Those involvedin Sefer Yetzirah, and Abulafian studies often do not spend muchtime mastering the philosophical works of the theoretical Kabbalah.

These souls are also not ones to be singing and dancing. Assuch this type of Kabbalist is usually secluded, well that sure soundslike my life, is usually secluded and very rarely make themselvesknow even to other Kabbalists. Let me tell you brethren, this ministryis, it's really not well known, even, I don't care how many peoplehave our materials through the web page, me personally, and thesemeetings that take place here, are not well known. Can anybody notsee that? I've known for years that we're in hiding, I stopped fightingit a long time ago.

The Drash of Kabbalah students excel in the practice and notjust the study of the Ma'aseh Bereshit, the secrets of creation. Theyexcel in the study and the practice of the secrets of creation, whichincludes knowledge of science and technology complimented by thespiritual disciplines, that's us brethren, spiritual disciplines, that'swhat I'm trying to teach you, spiritual discipline, which means thediscipline of your mind, which includes discerning between yourChrist mind and your carnal mind. This group endeavors to rear-range spiritual matters above in the heavenly spheres through theintricate mental constructs. Rabbi Chayyim states in his Sha'areiKadusha, and the older Kabbalists gave this group a special name.They are called the Mitbodedim, the secluded ones, that's usbrethren. The Lord has brought your life into a measure of seclusion,

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any where it's because you're a member of this group, we not onlystudy but we practice spiritual disciplines, and we do, we havelearned something of science and technology. All the computers aretechnology, that's for sure.

The fourth and final group of Kabbalist are the true masters,these are the ones who study and practice the true secrets of theKabbalah. Unfortunately many, and I believe that we're entering intothat now, that the Lord is giving us an opportunity to move into thisfinal realm of degrees of Kabbalists. Unfortunately many of thetheoretical schools believe the deepest levels of the their philosophi-cal pursuits entails the Sod of Kabbalah. Sod means mysteries.What he is saying is every school believes that their school has themysteries, therefore they are closed to learning new things. He saysbut nothing could be further from the truth. Those who know the Sodof Kabbalah, the mysteries, the true mysteries of Kabbalah, are thegraduates of the Drash of Kabbalah level.

These are those few individuals in a generation who candescend before the Merkava, and commune daily with the angels.The Merkava is a word for the chariot, it means chariot in Hebrew,and it's basically talking about entering into the heavenly constella-tion, and speaking, it's talking about entering into spiritual plane andspeaking to the angels. It's what we have available to us today inChrist Jesus. I talk to the angels all the time, my angel is ChristJesus, the Lord Jesus. I talk to the Lord Jesus all the time, heanswers me and solves my problems. He gives me visions, heteaches me.

So apparently I am both in the, I think it's the third and fourthlevel of Kabbalistic study, and to what ever degree you are involvedwith the Lord, let every man judge himself, you know where you are,and if you're not there, you know that you could ask for it. Becauseof this kind of relationship, this kind of mystical relationship isavailable to everyone that pursues the Lord Jesus Christ. Pant afterhim and you will have it too. The Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis have donetheir study, did I finish reading that? These are those few individualsin a generation that can descend before the Merkava, that means godeep in the spirit and commune daily with the angels. They are themasters of God's good name, the Ba'al Shem Tovs.

The Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis have done their study ofphilosophical works, but they are not theoretically inclined. Suchphilosophical theoretical pursuits are smiled upon by them for being

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what they are, beginner levels, beginner levels. So brethren if you'resitting in this meeting, you're at the third level, you're at the thirdlevel. The Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis share the passion of the Remezgroup, but rarely express it externally as do the Remez group. TheSod or the mysteries of Kabbalah Rabbis are very much in tune withand work hand in hand with the Drash of Sod group, for they arestudents of the Sod, that's the mysteries of Kabbalah Rabbis.

Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis no longer study Kabbalah from anyteacher of flesh and blood. Okay now, I have told the Lord I don'tknow where this puts me, because for years, the Lord Jesus hasbeen teaching me the doctrine of Christ and now that we're inKabbalah, I'm learning from books, but of course the Lord justreminded me that even though he has me in books right now, Ireally, there are a lot of issues I could not understand if he didn'texplain it to me. But I don't where this puts me because I am learningfrom books. But thirteen or fifteen years, I got everything from theLord directly, so I'm not sure where I stand in this category. Theylearned directly from either form Eliyahu HaNavi, that's Elijah, otherascended souls, or directly from the angels. So they're saying theystudy either from Elijah, from the angels which I believe to be thepersonification of the Sefirot, or other ascended souls, the Kabbalistsdo believe in reincarnation for example, they believe it's possible thatIsaac Luria can come to you in spirit form and teach you, and I reallyhave to reject that unless the Lord should show me otherwise, andthe only angel that I know that teaches me is the Lord Jesus Christ.So if there's something here that I don't understand, he'll have toshow it to me, but I'm resisting this principle.

And also Kabbalist, they go and pray at the graves of theirRabbis that they respect and I can't receive that either. So there isa lot, a great deal of glory in Kabbalah, but there is a great deal, Idon't know about great deal, but there are definitely things inKabbalah that I cannot receive, the Lord would really have to showit to me, and of course there has to be mistakes, because they don'tseem to relate the whole teaching of Kabbalah to humans, as I'vetold you earlier, and the fact is that they've had these teachings forthousands of years and have not ascended into perfection.

So there is definitely error in the teaching okay, and we haveto be very careful to eat the chicken and spit out the bones. Manytimes members of this group are actual prophets, well I'm a prophet,but because of the times that we live in, they cannot reveal the

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nature of their unique relationship with God. The members of theSod of Kabbalah Rabbis are very secretive bunch. You know forlongest time I wondered about myself, and my tendencies to besecretive about who I am in Christ Jesus, you see, and apparentlyI'm, even though I didn't understand it, I'm acting like I'm suppose tobe acting, and I have told you many times, I really don't particularlywant anyone to know who I am. Why not? I don't believe it's only anissue of pride, I believe that when you stand up, people shoot at you,and we're only suppose to be revealed to those that the Lord isrevealing us to. This is a hidden ministry, and there is no, if you'relooking for the glory of being acknowledged for what you do, you'rein the wrong place. The members of the Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis area very secretive bunch, they shun publicity, and have the ability tocloud the minds of men to maintain their anonymity. So they havehigh mind powers.

Now I know that I have high mind power, but I don't believeI've ever done that. But what I have done, to be honest with you,what I have done is ask the Lord Jesus to shield me, and if thecircumstances are right, I try very hard only to pray correct prayers,he will do it for me. The Lord has blinded people to me. They are thetrue masters of spiritual power here on earth. Well I cannot claimthat, I believe I have some spiritual power, but I'm certainly not amaster of spiritual power. And their number is very few, I have noproblem with that, I have been telling you this for years, our numbersare very few, and we are the sons, we are the inheriters of spiritualpower. We are suppose to be masters of spiritual power, but we'rethe children of Jesus Christ that are being born, and that power, atleast it's not been imparted to me yet.

I have some very limited power that I can only use as thatLord leads me. Possibly only 36 souls per generation, although somesay as many as eighteen thousand, who are masters of this spiritualpower. The Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis are the innovators of entireKabbalistic systems, that means they understand spiritual things,and what we're learning, the Tree of Life, from Isaac Luria, he hascreated a system out of spiritual knowledge, a system that explainsto us the ten Sefirot, and the partzuf, the partzufim, that's what theymean by a system.

These Rabbis are the ones whom God has charged to revealthe revelations. These Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis do not just gathermaterial from older sources, they receive innovative new material

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from their heavenly teachers. These Rabbis are also the ones whodecide which aspect of Kabbalistic teaching are exposed to themasses and which aspects are to remain secret. The Sod ofKabbalah Rabbis included among them Rabbi Chayyim Vital. All thewhile that he was busy writing so many Kabbalistic works, he knewin prophetic foresight, and they have in parenthesis, RuahhaKodesh, and Ruah haKodesh means Holy Spirit. So we see thedefinition of the first of all, we should know that the Kabbalistsbelieve in the Holy Spirit, and what's interesting is that a lot of Jewswill say to you, a lot of secular Jews will say to you, whoever heardof a holy Spirit, secular Jews that are trying to defend againstChristianity, but the Holy Spirit is even in the King James translation,if you look for it, but according to the this, to the man writing thispaper, the Holy Spirit is considered by the Kabbalists, to be what Iwould call the spirit of revelation. He knew with prophetic foresight,the holy Spirt, that his works would eventually be studies by themasses. That's like a word of knowledge or a word of wisdom.

Even when he died, Rabbi Chayyim was buried with certaintexts, they buried it in his coffin, which allegedly he never meant forpublic consumption. Years later a story is told that the books weredug up, and removed from Rabbi Chayyim's grave after a familymember received a dream allowing him to do so. This story revealsa great secret, that Rabbi Chayyim was buried with a number ofsacred secret texts. Rabbi Chayyim was buried in Damascus, doesanyone know where Damascus is? Anybody? It's in Syria. And do tothe present state of war between Israel and Syria, Rabbi Chayyim'sgrave was unreachable for decades. Now I will reveal to you twosecrets, one that is little known in Israel, and the second even lesserknown than the first. As part of an arrangement for the release of theSyrian Jewish population in the early 1990s, Rabbi Chayyim's Vital'sbody was secretly exhumed, does anybody know what that means,exhumed? It means dug up, and brought back to Eretz Yisrael, that'sthe land of Israel, where he was, where he was interned in a secretlocation known only to certain Kabbalists. Amongst the Kabbalists,many have visited his new grave sight, so this secret is not so secret.What is not known except to a very few, is that when Rabbi ChayyimVital was exhumed there were other books in his grave, these werethe, you see that's amazing to me that the books didn't turn to dust.There were the ones that were indeed not meant for public consump-tion and will never see the light of day.

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The Rabbis who have these special texts will deny theirexistence even to those of their students, whom they have not yetbrought into the secret inner circles. These texts deal with specialholy names and practices, what some would call, Kabbalah Ma'asitor magical Kabbalah. I reveal the existence of such knowledge, onlyso that those who think that they know Kabbalah will question twicewhat it is that they really know.

Now I believe that the Lord is bringing us into this last level,I don't know to what degree he's going to bring us into it, but he'sgoing to bring us into it at least to the degree that we need, toascend into the brow center, where we become a supernaturalperson.

If it were not for my Rebbe giving me the password of certainmeditations and holy names, I would never have become aware ofall that which I have now written. So apparently I'm finding out thatKabbalists are very much into meditation, and that they use particu-lar techniques to get into meditation, I've talked to you somewhatabout meditation and the recent message Permanent MeditativeConsciousness. I don't know that much about it because I've neverdone it, I just know that they use names and chants and words tocatapult themselves into other spiritual planes. That's what he seemsto be talking about here.

I would never have become aware of all that which I havenow written, if he did not tell me these things, I would never havefigured them out for myself. It is similar to a computer password,unless you given it, you will not guess it. This is why Kabbalahmeans to receive, Kabbalah means to receive. Reception is not donefrom books and the learning of books, reception is a living chain, itcan only come about from another link in the chain, not just fromsomeone who is self taught, you see.

This is the belief here, that you have to really become aKabbalistic master, you have to be taught by a master. Well thatremains to be seen, of course Jesus is the master, that is teachingus, but we're still preschool, we haven't even learned the basic yet,but we're going forward, and of course we are a unique group, wehaven't even learned the basic yet, but we have the doctrine ofChrist behind us, and everything that the Lord has prepared us with.

So as far as I'm concerned, it's going to be very interestingto see where we are a year or two from now, because we're notgoing forward like the average Kabbalistic student, we're different but

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I don't know how that difference is going to manifest. I do believethough that once we get caught up to the brow center we'll know allthings, we'll know all the secrets that the masters know. Okay. Thestudents of the theoretical schools of the pshat Kabbalah, that's thesurface Kabbalah, the literal translation are usually never aware thatsuch a group as the Sod of Kabbalah Rabbis exist as a separateentity. He's saying, the students or the Rabbis of Kabbalah that dealwith the surface Kabbalah, just the theory of it, they don't even knowthat the Kabbalists that practice the mysteries, the supernaturalRabbis exist.

They usually, these are the ones that just do the theory, theyusually ascribe their own teachers as being of this Sod of Kabbalahgroup. So everybody thinks they're the highest, that's what he'ssaying, the Kabbalists that just study theory, they think their teachersare masters of the mysteries because the pride of the man's mindusually doesn't want to believe that there's something higher thanwhere they are. However this is not the way the Sod of KabbalahRabbis are to be identified. They do not take their students from thetheoretical pshat Kabbalah groups. No Rabbi of the theoreticalschools of Kabbalah can create a golem or descend before theMerkava and speak with the angels.

So we're talking about spiritual supernatural Rabbis asopposed to Rabbis who teach theory. This ministry is called to be asupernatural, everyone that's called to this ministry, you're called tobe a supernatural man, to speak to the angels, to speak to the LordJesus, and to have supernatural experiences, some of which I haveshared with you. By definition therefore, such Rabbis are not of theSod of Kabbalah group. Therefore against such claims have to bedismissed because of a very clear lack of evidence. The Rabbis thatteach Kabbalah, they're not of Sod group, of the mysteries, of thespiritual Rabbis, because they're lacking evidence. What evidence?The spiritual experiences, they're lacking the spiritual experiences,that's the evidence.

I do not say these things to God forbid diminish the value ofthe theoretical of Sod Rabbis. They are all holy men, and their workis crucial in that they are the ones dealing with the masses of people.Do not be discouraged because modern Kabbalistic Rabbis do notperform miracles, they are not suppose to. I reveal to you theexistence of others so that you will know that the true power remainsin Israel, although it is in concealed hands. Isn't that exciting, he's

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saying that there is true spiritual power in Israel, that's it's notcommon knowledge, and don't be dismayed because the Rabbis thatyou see don't do miracles, they're not the real thing.

And in the same manner brethren, the real thing is not out inthe church world today, we are the real thing. The real thing that theLord is working with is always hidden, always, he's always doing ahidden work. With these insights, we can now return to the discussthe teachings of Rabbi Yisrael Sarug.

Rabbi Chayyim Vital wrote most of his books for the studentsof the theoretical school. Rabbi Sarug wrote his books for the deeperinitiates. An initiate is a word that's used for people like us that arestudying the mysteries. This is why Rabbi Chayyim states in manyplaces that the area spoken of by Rabbi Sarug are forbidden areasto the general public of Kabbalah students. All the more so to thosewho are not fully observant of Torah, and Mitzvah.

Remember he's talking about studying the Bible and keepingthe law, and he's saying that the book that Rabbi Chayyim wrote arefor the masses and not for the initiates and even more so that they'renot for the people that don't keep the law and study the Bible. RabbiSarug on the other hand speaks about the origins of the 231 gatesof the Hebrew Alef Bet. This material is essential if one is to practicethe Ma'aseh Bereshit, and later the Ma'aseh Merkava. He's talkingabout supernatural experiences. Without knowledge of the Alef Bet,no golems will be created and no miracles will be performed.

Now when he talks about the knowledge of the Alef Bet, he'stalking about a knowledge of the Hebrew letters. And we have noteven started to study the Hebrew letters, we're only a couple oflessons away from it, depending on how long it takes me to teachyou the next couple of pages of the Tree Of Life, we're still onGemetria right now. But the study of the Alef Bet, it's the study of theform of the letter and what the letter means, because Kabbalah isintimately related with the Hebrew letters, and the forms, and whatthe forms mean. And he's saying no golems will be created and nomiracles will be performed, because according to our writer here, theway miracles are performed are according to a formula. I don'tunderstand that, you know, and he says it's not magic. To me that'smagic, if you say abracadabra, or if you say Alef bet gimo dalat, andhe miracle happens, I don't know what the difference is betweenmagic and using the Hebrew letters other than maybe it's a differentspirit.

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I believe that it's possible that the techniques that the Rabbisused before Jesus was to say these, what do I call them, chants orI don't want to call them spells. But words, that they brought forthhealing with words, today we bring forth healings by saying behealed in the name of Jesus. You see, it's not really the word, it's thespirit that's speaking, but apparently you have to have something tosay to perform the miracles. So if it's not abracadabra and it's notAlef Bet Gimo, it's be healed in the name of Jesus. It's the spirit, it'sthe vocalization, the pronunciation or the vocal expression of thespirit that does the work apparently.

Remember I'm a student just like you are, I'm a student andI'm teaching you what I'm learning. Rabbi Sarug's teachings were forthe inner circle. Although his works are studied today by many of thetheoretical schools. Very few of them ever attempt to put RabbiSarug's teachings into practice. The reason for this is becauseunless they have a Rabbi with the secret password that opens themto the secret usage of the 231 gates, then all they are reading arewords, and all they're learning is philosophy. So this 231 gates, thisis talking permutations of the Hebrew letters, and I guess I have toshow you that again. I know I put it on the board for you.

Why don't we take a picture here and I'm going to look forthat drawing where I showed you the permutations. Apparently Idrew you an example of the permutation of the Hebrew letters. Anintroduction lesson 1 part 1, drawing #3, and I'll pass this drawingaround if you want to check it out, you can either take the drawingfrom your notes or off the Internet, it will be on the Internet shortly.We learn here that the expression the 231 gates, which we will hearfrom time to time, is talking about the permutation of the Hebrewletters, and apparently when you know how to do it, the pronuncia-tion of these Hebrew letters and the combinations of their permuta-tions produce spiritual mystical miracles, that's what we're being toldhere. See, I don't know I would really like the Lord to explain that tome. My guess would be, it has to be the spirit behind it you see.Either the Lord Jesus, or whoever I think it's the Lord Jesus mani-festing himself to them today, they just don't understand that it's him.

Either his spirit is in it or it's the spirit of this world, and I wantto tell you if they're using the permutations of these Hebrew lettersto make a golem or change lead into gold, I believe it's the spirit ofthis world. And as I told you on a prior tape, this is a horrible thing forme, but I really believe that the Lord has told me that Hitler or that

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the Jews were in a position where they could be so violated by Hitlerbecause it was the reaping of the sowing of using the word of Godfor magic, and for self gain, and for wrong motives. It's a horriblething for me to believe, but I really think there is truth to it.

And again you have to ask yourself what they're using it for,you know. I mean it's, I'm still such a young student, you know, butI haven't heard anything about using it for healing, it's just blowingmy mind, you know. I cannot reiterate enough that with regards tothe Kabbalah, the dictum of Pirkei Avot rings ever so true. I don'tknow what that means. Lo HaMidrash Halkar Eleh Ha Ma'aseh,which means, it's not the learning that is essential but the practice.And I tell you that all the time, you can sit here for fifty years listeningto me, you could listen to my tapes all day long, but at some pointyou have to start manifesting this thing, it has to start manifesting inyour heart, in your spiritual being, because the only reason youshould be here is because you want more of God, because you wantunion with God, and through union with God the benefits of thegodhead.

See nobody could get in here that wants, there have peoplethat have come in here, and they've even told me they just want tolearn the message so they could go out and teach it, but no one hasever succeeded in doing it, the Lord got them out of the ministry, orthey couldn't understand it you know. This is a holy word. So youcan't use it for your own purposes, great evil would come upon youif you ever succeeded in doing it. If anyone ever succeeded inunderstanding this message and using it for their own selfish or evilpurposes, great evil would come upon them. I mean I still, I'm tellingyou I am Jewish and this is just horrible to me to think that this is theanswer to the mystery of why God didn't help the Jews in Hitler'sGermany.

Well what does mean? Let me explain that to you. BrethrenI have had some really bad situations in my life, aside from almostdying, I've had a lot of hard times, and let me tell you something, ifyou've got bad trouble in your life, and God is not answering yourcries, what you have to do to get help, is to find out what you did andare doing wrong. And I could see all these terrified Jews in Germanyand in Poland, crying out to God to help them, but how many said,Lord what did I do that this should, this evil should come upon me,and I want to tell you that the Jew in western Europe that fell downon his knees and cried Lord what did I do, and what correction must

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I make, and what must I repent of, that this evil is coming upon me,that is the Jew that escaped.

Because I know this to be true, that the man who is willing tobe corrected by God, the man who is willing to look at his horrendoussituation and say, how did I contribute to this? That's the man thatgets delivered, and I am that man. I was sick since I was elevenyears old, you would say what can a child do to deserve the life I'vehad? Well the Lord showed me and I didn't die.

You know the average mind can't deal with that. Someonecomes to you and they're in trouble, and you say to them, what isyour part in it, they say you have no compassion and no mercy. I'llhelp you, I'll feed you, I'll take care of you, but you want to get ahealing from God, you have to find out what you're doing, did, whatyou have done, what you're doing now that is wrong, and it has to dowith your thinking, it has to do with how you think. I tell you the truth,I tell you the truth, that most people don't want to believe.

Now back to the Halal, the empty space. The empty spaceleft after the Ayn Sof vacated it. So we see that the writer of this workis using the words Ayn Sof, and empty space, I'm sorry Ayn Sof andlight interchangeably. Remember that no space can ever really beempty of the Ayn Sof. Even Rabbi Chayyim writes that the Halal wasnot exactly empty. Rather the Ayn Sof left an echo of its light therein.Rabbi Chayyim calls this echo the Reshimu or the residue, theresidue. The Zohar calls it the Tehiru lla'ah, the supernal light. It iswithin this Tehiru lla'ah, the supernal light left over from theTzimTzum withdrawal of the light of the Ayn Sof, that the letters ofthe Hebrew Alef Bet, first came into being. This residue of the lightof the Ayn Sof, that remained in the empty space, I have called itblack light, negative energy. Now the writer of this paper doesn't saythat. I took, some how I get teachings from other books in my mindand they cross over.

We got that information from the book called Inner Space, byAryeh Kaplan, from which I preached Permanent MeditativeConsciousness, and the writer of this work is saying it's that residue,that black light, that negative energy that formed the Alef Bet. That'slike saying the abcs the Alef Bet. The Alef Bet, the permutations ofwhich are the 231 gates, is that the right number? 231 gates. Eachpermutation is a gate, a gate to what? A gate to accessing spiritualpower. So we're being told that the Alef Bet, the Hebrew letters,came into being from that negative energy, or that echo of the light

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of the Ayn Sof, that was left in the empty space. 22 letters, from Alefto Tav, from the first alef form, I'm sorry form the first Alef Bet, thenthe begins the next one beginning with bet, and ending with alef,what does that mean? They have a whole chart, it goes it's bet, plusevery other letter of the alphabet, and they start with the last letterand ends with the alef. I'm not going to get into that right now it's tooconfusing.

They have charts that show you all this. What I might do,what I might do is find a chart and make a photocopy of it, and sendit out with these notes, so you could all look at it, I think I'll do that foryou. Within them all are 231 letters. These then are the RalahSha'arim, the 231 gates of the letters through which all of creation isformed. This is the teaching of Kabbalah, that everything in creationis formed from the Hebrew letters. And the Hebrew letters are madefrom the black light that was left in the empty space after the Ayn Sofwithdrew. I find that very interesting. This proceeds until we have anAlef Bet beginning with each letter of the Hebrew alphabet, for a totalof 21 Alef Bets within them all, there are 231 letters.

Okay there are 21 permutations, but a permutation means acombination of letters, but if you count all the letters, there are 231letters. These are the 231 gates of the letters through which all ofcreation is formed, this includes according to Rabbi Yisrael Sarug,the worlds of Adam Kadmon. The Ralah Sha'arim are discussed indetail in the Sefer Yetzirah, and that Ralah Sha'arim, that's the 231gates, are discussed in detail, in the Sefer Yetzirah, that is the bookthat we're told was written by Abraham.

However their forms are also discussed in the openingsection of the Zohar. See the forms of the Hebrew letters are veryimportant. As I've told you, we, that's just like a few pages away inour studies in the Gates of Light, we will start studying the Hebrewletters, we haven't done that yet, the forms of them are veryimportant, and apparently have spiritual significance.

Parashat Bereshit, that Rabbi Sarug, I'm sorry, however thereforms are also discussed in the opening section of the Zohar, thepart Bereshit that Rabbi Sarug had but is not included in the printededitions.

So we see, now that's going to be very interesting to see, ifthis part is in this newest edition of the Zohar that's coming out now,but this writer is saying all the existing printed editions of the Zohardoes not have this teaching about how the Alef Bet, the Hebrew

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letters were formed out of that negative energy that was left in theempty space. Now while Rabbi Chayyim Vital does not speakoutright about the source of the, oh I wish he wouldn't use theseHebrew words, the source of the Ralah Sha'arim, that's the 231gates being in the worlds that exist above Adam Kadmon, he doesnonetheless hint to them, in a very subtle way.

Now that's a little confusing for me because I didn't thinkthere were any worlds above Adam Kadmon, I thought above Adamkadmon, you went into the Ayn Sof, but that's what the writer says,that there are worlds above Adam Kadmon. Throughout his works,after he discusses the Agulim or the spheres and the Yosher, thecolumns of light, which form Adam Kadmon. So that's talking aboutthe circular and the linear Sefirot. Rabbi Chayyim Vital teaches thatthe light that comes forth from within Adam Kadmon is in the form ofthe Hebrew letters, TaN'T'a. I don't know how they pronounce it,TaN'T'a, stands for, and this is what those letters stand for, Ta,that'stav, nun, I don't why one is a Ta and one is just a T, and an alef, andit stands for Ta'amim cantellations, nekudot, vowels, tagin crowns,and Otiyot letters. That's in a future, that's in the next chapter fromour Tree Of Life, and I'll tell you basically what they are. Thecantellations, these are all marks that have to do with the letters.

We all know what vowels are, cantellation marks are marksthat you don't usually see, at least I have not usually seen them, butin the Hebrew texts, they tell you where the intonation is, where theinflection is, so that you can sing the word, that's what a cantellationmark is, and the crowns are little crownlets the Scribes write on topof the letters and they all have spiritual significance which we will gointo, I'm going to wait for the Tree of Life to go into that, because Ihaven't really studied it myself yet. In other words, the light thatcomes forth from Adam Kadmon, is already in the form of letters.The light that comes forth from Adam Kadmon is already in the formof letters, because the letters are formed above the place whereAdam Kadmon is.

So the light that comes forth from Adam Kadmon's linearSefirot is in the form of letters. Yet no where does Rabbi Chayyimdiscuss from where did these letters originate. Therefore we see thathis subtle omission of the origins of the letters signifies their higherorigins in worlds about which Rabbi Chayyim would not discuss. NowI would like to know where these worlds are. I guess they're, youknow I look at the drawing, I'm thinking of a drawing that I see in a

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book that I'm reading right now, and there is what I see, let me showyou what I see. Now it's interesting because the drawing that I haveon the board is a simulation of a drawing that I just saw today in thelatest book that I'm studying which is ten luminous emanationsvolume 1, and this is what I saw, and I was wondering what thesedouble lines were, and I just realized, I just thought well, these notdouble lines, but these thin rims between the different worlds, thatthe artist was just drawing it that way to indicate the separation of allof the five worlds, and I thought it was that particular artist perceptionof the five worlds, but now as I see that there are worlds aboveAdam Kadmon, which means there have to worlds between AdamKadmon who is the first, concerning the second Sefirot, concerningthe circular Sefirot, Adam Kadmon is the outer most ring.

And so for there to be worlds above Adam Kadmon, but yetbelow the white light of the Ayn Sof, that would have to be what thisvery narrow ring is.

So I'm now going to draw an inference, okay, because nowI'm going to receive this as a truism that there is a thin rim of lightbetween each of the five worlds, and the highest rim separatesAdam Kadmon from the Ayn Sof and not only does it separate AdamKadmon from the Ayn Sof, but that this spiritual activity in this thinrim, which are called the worlds above Adam Kadmon. So now I'mgoing to draw an inference. Well what about this rim that separatesAdam Kadmon from the world of emanation? What is different aboutthe worlds that exist in this rim and the actual world of emanation, isanybody not following me? Anybody need me to say that again? Sothat's a question, I don't know the answer to it, you see.

And apparently the writer or the artist that drew the drawingin the other book, in the book the Ten Luminous Emanations, musthave some knowledge that there are circles of black light becauseeverything in the empty space is black light, that there are degreesof black light, that's what I have written up over here. There aredegrees of black light, what does that mean? You can have tenshades of black light, going from black to dark grey. See, there aredegrees of black light, but there are no degrees of white light. All ofthe white light of the Ayn Sof is the same, no degrees whatsoever.

So we see that there are worlds that exist between the worldsperhaps, but I'm going to stop here because I don't know. The onlything I know for sure, if I can say I know it for sure, is that this rimbetween the circular Sefirot of Adam Kadmon and the Ayn sof

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contains worlds, in which the Alef Bet were formed. Is everybodyokay? This thin rim of a different grade of black light then the gradeof black light that is Adam Kadmon's circular Sefirot...

Tape 2...about spiritual alchemy. Now at the beginning, the creationwas on the level of spiritual, of light and spiritual sound, both ofwhich are recognized with vibration, see. And the next thingthat came into existence was form, form representing thesespiritual vibrations that are so powerful that they are creative.In other words someone with that kind of power would say,chair and a chair would appear in front of us. So we will find outthat the Hebrew letters, some of them are simple and some ofthem are compound, the Alef for example is a compound letter,because it can be made from a vav, and two yods, I can't getinto that now, it's much too late, that's coming in our look atKabbalah series. So this is a very interesting concept and we'retold that Rabbi Chayyim Vital, does not talk about the worldsabove Adam Kadmon. The worlds in this think rim, yet that iswhere the Hebrew letters were formed. It took me a while to getit, the Hebrew letters are the expression in form of the spirituallight which became spiritual sound, which became the Hebrewletters of which everything that is made is made. Streams ofspiritual power, streams of spiritual power that poured in to thelinear aspect of Adam Kadmon, and literally laid hold of thisblack light and formed it.

Praise the Lord are there any questions about any ofthis? Okay we're going to pick up with the same tape nextThursday. Praise the Lord, this one week since the beginningpart of this tape, we will finish up lesson 2, Lord willing we'llfinish up lesson 2, continuing on the same tape from last week.We're on five, page five of the notes of lesson 2. Any discus-sion about the primordial letters must include an understandingof the Botzina D'Karnut'ta, the hard spark which God engravedinto the primordial Tehiru, and that word Tehiru means thesupernal light. That's the light of Ayn Sof that entered into the

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empty space. Remember that the light of the Ayn Sof entered into the

empty space and then contracted, and was drawn out, okaythat's what this is talking about. The entire concepts ofTzimTzum, does anybody remember what the TzimTzum is?Yes. Okay.

COMMENT: The contraction of the light.SHEILA: Yes, the contraction of the light which caused

the light to be withdrawn from the empty space. The entireconcept of TzimTzum, a withdrawal of light, signifies an aspectof what would later become known as God's judgment asopposed to God's grace. Now what that means is that when thelight was contracted, and the only thing that was left in theempty space was an echo of that light, that echo was whatultimately came to be what today we would call Satan, and thatis how it became God's judgment.

Now I am reading some very interesting, a very interest-ing study concerning the details of the contraction, which Lordwilling I'm going to preach as a separate message, and I don'tknow what that message would be called yet, but if you'rehearing this tape and you would like to listen to the messagethat I haven't preached yet concerning the details of thecontraction, maybe I'll call it the TzimTzum, if the name is notavailable in our tape listings, you can just contact the ministryand I'll tell you or someone here will tell you what the name ofthat message is. But for now we're going to finish up with thisstudy.

So does everybody understand that after the light waswithdrawn because of the contraction that the echo of that lightthat was left is what we know today to be Satan, God'sjudgment. Satan is the executor or the enforcer of the sowingand reaping judgment. And who is Satan, that's the question,let's do this in this place here, who is Satan? Now, it's a bigproblem for me, or it was a big problem for me relating evil inSatan to the ten Sefirot, but this is the understanding that theLord has given me. In the highest spiritual realm where the AynSof exists, the Ayn sof exists in perfect unity. It the Ayn Sof, it

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is a simple light of perfect unity. That means that there arewithin the Ayn Sof, many different attributes which are notmanifest. You can't see them, they're not acting out, okay, theyare in a state called potential, they're in a potential state, justas a woman is a potential mother, because she has within herso many eggs. And as the Ayn Sof descends, well the Ayn Sofdescends to the degree that it enters into the empty space andforms Adam Kadmon, Adam Kadmon is just another name forthe highest Sefirot called Keter, Adam Kadmon and Keter arethe same. And it's important that we understand that, that whatwe're dealing with, all that we've been learning and studying upuntil now, are the worlds of Adam Kadmon, what's going onwithin Adam Kadmon. He and Keter are one, and they are justone little bit lower than the Ayn Sof.

Keter is very high, he, Keter is incomprehensible to man,to humanity, the mind of man cannot comprehend Keter at all.Keter is still undifferentiated, he's undifferentiated, that meanseverything, the essence of Keter is unfolded, unrevealed, stillsimple and one, the whole ten Sefirot are within Keter, yetunfolded. The potential for the ten Sefirot are within Keter, butunfolded okay, unrevealed, okay, there in one sack, just like anatom before it's divided. And let me tell you this also, the lightof the Ayn Sof, does not go below Keter, Keter wraps himselfin Chokhmah, wisdom, wisdom inclothes Keter, and that's asfar as the light of the Ayn Sof goes. Everything from that pointdownward, that means starting with Binah, everything fromBinah downward is an expression of Adam Kadmon, or anextension or an emanation of Adam Kadmon. It's no longer theAyn Sof itself.

Let me put this on the board for you. Okay drawing #1,first of all let me show you that this outer most rim which I'vetried to draw smaller than the lines showing the Sefirot, thecircular Sefirot. This outer most rim is a rim of light thatseparates the Ayn Sof, the Ayn Sof is out here all around, allaround the outer rim and this rim of light separates Ayn Soffrom Keter who is Adam Kadmon, and that's the first circularSefirot. See there has to be something that is going to separate

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Keter from the Ayn Sof because Keter is receiving all the lightof the Ayn Sof, and if there's nothing separating them, therewould be no circle. The light of the Ayn Sof is pouring into keterand there's no rim in the empty space, the empty space willcease to exist when it fills up with light. Is everybody okay withthat? Okay.

So this is the rim and if there, I'm sure there's a Hebrewname for it that I don't know right now what it is, and the firstcircular Sefirot is Keter, and the Ayn Sof is on the outside, andwe see the light of Ayn Sof pouring into the linear aspect ofAdam Kadmon, and going as far as Keter, the first circularSefirot, and if you could see what I've drawn here, I've shownyou the line where Chokhmah is, and Keter is as if an envelopefilled with water, let's say, he just, I can't think of the word todescribe it, if you have a rubber sheet filled with water, thesheet hangs down because it's filled with water. So that's that,the rim of the sefirot of Keter is weighted down under theweight of the light of the Ayn Sof, and rests on the border of thecircular Sefirot called Chokhmah. So it looks like, you knowdepending on what principle the Kabbalist is trying to put forthor what point he's trying to make, we can say the light of theAyn Sof that enters into the linear space, goes down as low asthe level of the circular Chokhmah, but it doesn't enter intoChokhmah, because Keter is enclothed with Chokhmah.Chokhmah supports or is underneath Keter. Can everybodysee that? Did I make my point there? Okay, so the light of theAyn Sof only goes as far as Keter, if you want to think of Keteras a barrier, but that barrier itself descends under the weightand goes down to the level of Chokhmah, but yet it's still onlyin Keter.

That's as far as the light of the Ayn Sof goes. Everythinglower than Chokhamh, and that's starting with Binah all the waydown, is an emanation from Adam Kadmon, it's himself, that isto say for example, I receive revelation from the Lord Jesus.When I give you that revelation, it's not pure revelation from theLord Jesus, it comes into my mind, it mixes with my thoughtsand it's preached through my personality, its' a different

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product as the light that comes directly from the Lord Jesus tome.

So that is the difference between the light of the Ayn Sofand the emanations of Adam Kadmon, the emanations ofAdam Kadmon, you have passed through and probably mixedup and picked up aspects of Adam Kadmon.

So they're in a different form, the light below Chokhmahis in a different form then the light of the Ayn Sof, a very smalldifference but a different form. The light itself of the Ayn Sofgoes no lower than Keter. The light Ayn Sof does not descendbelow Keter and Keter enclothes himself with Chokhmah,which means that the light in Keter rests in Chokhmah.Everything lower than that is an emanation of Adam Kadmon.Is everybody okay?

Alright we'll go back to our message. So we see that theconstricted light is God's judgment, or the echo that's left afterthe light constricts, is God's judgment, and the free flowing lightthat comes from the Ayn Sof is God's grace. And as I said, Ihave a more detailed study on that for you, Lord willing we'll dothat another time.

With the formation of the Halal, does anybody rememberwhat the Halal is? Okay.

COMMENT: Empty space.SHEILA: Yes, the empty space. With the formation of

the Halal and the manifestation of the Tehiru, does anybodyremember who the or what the Tehiru is? Okay.

COMMENT: The supernal light.SHEILA: The supernal light, yes, so with the formation

of the Halal, the empty space and the manifestation of theTehiru, the supernal light, God in essence created an other,something opposite, an other, something that was other thanhimself, and although this other is and always will be nothingmore than an aspect of God, you see. The bottom line is this,God is the Ayn Sof, the creator and he is all that there is. Theonly thing that can come forth from him is something of himselfin another form, because the essence of all life, the foundationof all existence is the Ayn Sof, there would be nothing without

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it. Okay. Therefore everything that comes into existence, thisother that came into existence, it is still the Ayn Sof in adifferent form. And this is a mystery in the spiritual planes,there are no space or time or distance, okay.

So when we talk about being close to somebody orbeing like somebody, we think in physical form, okay well youlook like the person or you feel like that person, or you act likethat person, or you think like that person, the Ayn Sof isbeyond mind. So the word think does not apply to the Ayn Sof.So in what way could you be like Ayn Sof, and yet we're toldthat we're made in the likeness and in the image of God.

So in what way can we possibly like him, okay. We canbe similar to him, similar and we did have a lesson in A Look AtKabbalah on similarity. I explained to you the differencebetween equal triangles and similar triangles okay. So the waywe are close or are in the likeness of spirit, and the Kabbalistsdon't even call the Ayn Sof spirit, they call it light, so I'm goingto stay with that. The way we can be close to or in the likenessof the light of the Ayn Sof is to have at our very foundation hisessence.

We are made from his essence, the same essence asthe Ayn Sof, but we are in a different form, that is the only, andthis is the spirit, this is the similarity of spiritual, I don't evenknow what the right word is, spiritual entities, similarity is inessence, the essence the very foundation of our being. We hada recent controversy in this country over stem cell research,and issue was, are these fertilized embryos human beings.

Now to the carnal mind that's ridiculous, it's a micro-scopic mass of well I think less than five cells, see, but theissue is not what the embryos look like, the issue is not whatthey look like, and the issue is not, someone called me up andsaid, but they're not conscious, how do we know whetherthey're conscious? The issue is not consciousness. If you havea person in the hospital that's unconscious, does that give youlegal grounds to pull the plug on them. The issue is not inconsciousness, the issue is in essence, you see. That embryois a human being, that embryo is made out of the same

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substance, the same spiritual essence that we are made out of.The only thing that's different is the form, its form is different.It is just as human as we are in a different form, and in thismanner we are made out of the essence of the Ayn Sof, but weare in a different form.

And as we get into the study of the Hebrew letters, it'svery interesting to see how one Hebrew word with its lettersswitched around means the exact opposite. Let me give you anexample of this. This is drawing # 2 and I wanted to show youthe principle or demonstrate to you the principle of how theKabbalists use the Hebrew letters. Now we're at a disadvan-tage because I am at a disadvantage because I don't knowHebrew, but I'm starting to get very excited when I see whatthey do, and once again you have to understand that they dothis under the anointing. They play with these Hebrew lettersbecause these Hebrew letters are living things that can bemanipulated and moved around under the anointing, and thereare certain rules and guidelines that the Kabbalists go by. Andbasically they're saying no matter what form you put the lettersin, the word has the same numerical value, like just to jumpahead of myself, the word neset is the same as Satan, theytook the s, they made the e, the vowels e, and a, are inter-changeable in Kabbalistic Hebrew so they made neset, nasatand they changed nasat to Satan.

And the basic principle here without going into the wholeteaching is that, the word neset came out of the word veshet,which is the Hebrew word for esophagus, which is a positiveword. It's the spiritual esophagus that consumes the spiritualfood. I've known for a long time, I've preached for a long timethat we're always offering up spiritual sacrifices to the Lord,that when we choose his mind we sacrifice the carnal mind, wesacrifice Satan to him, and when we choose to agree with thethoughts of Satan we sacrifice Christ, and when we sacrificeChrist the Lord doesn't receive that offering you see.

Have you heard that in the Scripture, don't receive hisoffering? That's in the Old Testament, don't receive hisoffering, maybe it's in the New Testament I don't know, don't

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receive his offering. Well I really to be honest with you, well Iknew that it could have meant a physical sacrifice, and thatbasically it meant you know, don't receive his prayer, but it'smuch, much deeper than that, okay. When someone says,Don't receive his offering Lord, it means it's coming from an evilmotive, and when we offer something from an evil motive,whether we know that we're doing it or not, it's Christ that'sbeing sacrificed, you see.

So there is a spiritual sacrifice going up continuously.Didn't, in the Old Testament, didn't they have a continuoussacrifice? There was a continuos burning, okay. We have acontinuos burning, every time we think, and we think continu-ously, the sacrifice goes up continuously, either our carnalmind or Christ. But the whole reason that I put this on theboard, I just way late here, the whole reason that I put this onthe board is to show you the manipulation of the Hebrew letterswhich is a legitimate practice under the anointing. The Hebrewlanguage is a supernatural language. So up at the top ofdrawing # 2, we see the word Ayn, means nothingness, notnothing now, not no value, nothingness, something that isincomprehensible which is Keter and the Ayn Sof, so incompre-hensible that to us it's nothing. This room is filled with air andall kinds of airborne microscopic life, but as far as I'm con-cerned, this space that I'm moving my hand through right now,there's nothing here, because I cannot see it, I cannot compre-hend it, I cannot relate to it, so it's not there, for all intents andpurposes, it is not there.

That is the kind of nothingness that is Keter, and youjust switch the letters around and you switch it from Ayn, toany, and any means I, which is the word for Malkhut. AndMalkhut is the full revelation of the incomprehensible Keter. Soyou just switch the letters around and they can mean the exactopposite. But of course the numerical value of both Ayn andany, they're the same.

And this is the way it's suppose to be that Malkhut issuppose to be the full explicit revelation of Keter, but shedoesn't always live up to her name, see. And then the second

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example that I gave you which is a very complicated example,it just came to me to put it on the board, veshet, the spiritualesophagus is spelled vav shin tet. What are we talking abouthere? The manipulation of the Hebrew letters. When I first sawit, it was total confusion to me. I'm starting to feel an excitementabout it, and I have to believe that the Lord will make a waywhere there is no way. The Lord knows that we don't speakHebrew, he knows that, you know, but I have to believe thathe's going to start doing this with our mind, that Christ Jesus isgoing to start doing this. He's going to start manipulatingspiritual principles once they get into our mind, somehow it'sgoing to have to bypass the Hebrew language, because wedon't know it, and he's going to show us spiritual truth thoughthis technique. I just know that in my spirit.

And as I told you all, I picked up I think it was my Biblelast week and it clearly said King David, and I know it was asupernatural experience, because I've experience, becauseI've experienced it before. The mind of Christ completely tookover and I read David King. And the only thing that I have fromthe Lord, was that it was a practice manipulation, Christ Jesuswas practicing in me because I couldn't see any reason for it atall. I was fully aware that another mind, the mind of Christovershadowed the mind that I was reading with.

Now either it was, if I was reading with my Christ mindthen it was the glorified Jesus Christ that came and did thatmanipulation, something like that, it was specific manipulationof what I was looking at. The spirit that was upon me changedwhat I was looking at, and it was right in front me as I looked atit. So brethren we're on a very exciting journey, who knowswhere we're going from here, and I'm reading and studying asfast I can.

So this is the principle, I just got all carried away and putthis on the board for you, I can't teach this whole thing now. Idon't even know if I'm ready to teach it. But here's the principle,the spiritual esophagus is a positive thing, it consumes thespiritual sacrifice that we give up to the Lord, and that spiritualsacrifice is Leviathan and Satan, we're suppose to be sacrific-

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ing them everyday. So the spiritual esophagus is the good thing, and there

is a whole teaching in the book that I can't go into it now, butNetzach and Hod, Netzach on the right side and Hod on theleft side of the heavenly constellation. Remember the Sefiroton the left side are always restricting the Sefirot on the rightside and the ultimate goal is for all ten Sefirot to be perfectlybalanced, okay, perfectly balanced, so they war against oneanother, so that they restrict one another and be perfectlybalanced, okay. And in this perfect balance, Netzach and Hodare the spiritual esophagus warring against each other to bringforth that perfect balance, okay. And when something goeswrong with that process you see, the Hebrew esophagus,veshet becomes Satan. Can you hear this Netzach on the rightand Hod on the left, constantly war against one another.Netzach is victory, okay, is a good thing, and Hod is the mindof Christ okay, when the carnal mind is covered over. WhereNetzach and Hod war against one another, and Netzach isvictorious, Hod manifests the mind of Christ, but if Hod isstronger than Netzach okay, then Hod manifests the carnalmind. So they constantly war against one another, and thebalance, the perfect balance is that the mind of Christ comesforth, but when Hod is too strong for Netzach, okay, we nolonger have esophagus, but the esophagus which is positive,the esophagus which brings forth the mind of Christ, when Hodis too strong, that word changes into Satan.

Satan is merely the unbalanced left side of the heavenlyconstellation. But the purpose of this drawing here, # 2, it's totry to familiarize you with the manipulation of the Hebrew lettersbecause it's shocking to the carnal mind that you would take aword and radically change the meaning of it. And even whenthe, if you want to say that the vav becomes a nun, and thereason this vav becomes a nun, if you look at the vav and youlook at the nun, you see that they look like the same letterexcept that the nun is elongated, and the fact that this nun iselongated, it's just a way of saying that it's the Hod andNetzach together, it's like a double vav you might say. But

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when Hod gets too strong, that's what happens, the vavbecomes a nun, and veshet becomes neset and all of thesudden it's Satan.

So I'm just trying to familiarize your mind, I'm trying toprime your mind to get ready for this kind of thinking. It doesn'tgo with logic and to some people it could be very frightening,I'm not frightened by it now, but I do know that God was tryingto show this to me when I was still bringing forth the doctrine ofChrist, and I didn't think it was God, I didn't even pray about it.I saw my mind trying to do things like this, and I completelyrejected it. So we're taking off, we're going up, and we're goinginto very mature spiritual studies which will require our lettinggo of a lot of rules that we have been applying for many years.Is everybody okay? Okay.

So we're dealing with a sentence that talks about Godcreating an other, something other than himself, and I've putthis on the board to show you how that happens, how the verysame word or the very same name, when it becomes unbal-anced, becomes the exact opposite, and it's the same letterswhich means the word has the same numerical value, just theletters placed in a different order, and brethren this is what hashappened to us.

We are made out of the essence of the Ayn Sof. Youknow I've heard this for years, but I never believed it like Ibelieve it now, just be careful that you don't get all carried awaywith pride. We are gods, but our letters are switched around,and we became evil, but brethren the exciting part of it is, thatif this is truly our condition, that we are made out of theessence of God but our letters got twisted, well then surely wecan get untwisted. And this is what the Lord Jesus is come todo, to come put the letters back in the right order. So that wecan be sons of God and manifest the primordial power of God,and enter into eternal life to return to our first estate and be apart of the team that will be working, and that already isworking with all of humanity, to regenerate the creation. Whatdoes that mean to regenerate creation.

When the Lord first showed me that Scripture, he

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pointed that Scripture out to me when I was brand new in thechurch and I didn't even know what it meant. Brethren we havebeen cut off from the source of energy. And the reason we're,you know, the reason the creation has fallen, or you might saypeople are living longer than twenty years ago, but we're notliving 800 or 900 years anymore. We're not in eternal lifeanymore, the creation is dying because we are trapped with aspecific measured amount of energy. There is no new sourceof energy coming in, that's why we get sick and die, and thenwe're recycled, and that is the hard truth.

So Jesus is come to regenerate us, to reconnect us tothe endless source of energy, we're not suppose to die, and it'snot the will of God that we die. So with the formation of theHalal, the empty space and the manifestation of the Tehiru,that's the supernal light, in essence God created an other,something different from himself, but different only in the form,because as far as essence goes, there is nothing other thanGod.

There is nothing other than him, but he can producesomething in an other form. In other words all apparentseparations and distances from God, are only from ourpersonal point of view, there is no distance in the spiritualplane. From God's point of view all is still one and within him.We are within God and we are one with God, it is only our sinthat separates us from him. As far as he's concerned, thatseparation doesn't even exist. Nonetheless, the concept ofwithdrawal is the opposite of the infinite expansiveness of theAyn Sof.

The Ayn Sof, well we're not suppose to know anything,okay, we don't know anything about his essence, but we doknow something about the, we do not know anything about hisessence, but we do, we can draw some inferences about it, theAyn Sof, and that is that it is infinitely expansive. Just like ouruniverse, scientists now tell us that outer space and theuniverses are infinitely expanding, and all of the universes arewithin the Ayn Sof. The universes okay, which are the echothat was left in the empty space after the contraction, are doing

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the same thing that the Ayn Sof does, infinitely expanding,even humanity is expanding, infinite expansion. And of coursethe infinite expansion of the universes as we know them, isonly for this age, when this age comes to an end that infiniteexpansion will come to an end. So it's only our personal pointof view that we are far from God. God is not far from us, he isvery near, I believe Paul said that, he's very near, even in themidst of us, and in every pore and cell of our being.

Nonetheless the concept of withdrawal is the oppositeof the infinite expansiveness of the Ayn Sof. As such God nowhas two opposing forces that express his essence. See, bothexpansiveness and contraction are made of the same essence,but they're opposites of each other. God exists in the expan-sive Ayn Sof, in the form of the well no the Ayn Sof has noform. God exists in the expansive Ayn Sof, and he exists in thecontractive Tehiru of the Halal, in the contractive supernal lightof the empty space. So we see that God, they Ayn Sof exists,I don't know what the right word is, in two different states, orjust as opposites, he exists as opposites.

This dichotomy of light is essential for Kabbalists, doeseveryone understand what I mean by dichotomy? The light hasbeen dichotomy, the prefix di means two, and chotomy meansto divide. The light is now divided in two. It was all the same, itwas just simple light of the Ayn Sof, and now some of that lightis expansive and some of that light is contractive. The dichot-omy of the light is essential for Kabbalists to understand, forjust as one can create a universe, so can one uncreate it. ForI failed to mention earlier that just as there are 231 gates in theforward positions from Alef to tav, so there are 231 reversegates, from tav to Alef. Does anybody remember what the 231gates are? Nobody? The 231 gates are the letters of all of thepermutations of the Hebrew alphabet. Each one, each letter ina different position is a gate to a different aspect of the spiritualpower of God, and it is the spiritual alchemy, the mixing andmatching and the manipulation of these different streams ofpower, that can produce the manipulation of matter in ourworld.

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So, if there are 231 reverse gates from tav to Alef, it'salmost like saying there are 462 gates, that's what he's saying.Both of these forms manifest the essence of God, one inexpansion and one in contraction, they're both the essence ofGod, one expanding and one contracting. Together thesegates form what Rabbi Sarug calls the alum Hal Malbush, theworld of the garment. For the letters of the Alef Bet, are thecloak of the light of the Tehiru. So we're told in our study thatthe letters of the Alef Bet are the cloak of the light of he Tehiru.I don't see an explanation for this in this study, but what I thinkthe Lord is telling me, is that of the supernal light that was leftin the empty space after the contraction.

There was a surface amount taken off, as if you wouldskim the scum off of a boiling soup, you would skim, when youboil corned beef, you skim the top off, okay, there was somemanifestation of separation. There was the surface part of thelight that was left, it was formed into the Hebrew letters andthat covered the light that was left, I think that is what the Lordis telling me. Is everybody okay with that, cause he reallydoesn't make it clear here. The Sod of Sod Kabbalists, find theinformation provided by Rabbi Sarug to be most valuable. Theyapply his lessons in a special manner known to them, in orderto descend before the Merkava.

Now the Merkava is the Kabbalists name for the visionthat Ezekiel and which is written up or reproduced, well notreproduced but written about in Ezekiel chapter 1. Accordingto my readings, the Hebrew prophets that ascended into theworld of creation which is called Beriah, or the universe ofBeriah, when they ascend to that place, this is the vision thatthey see, the vision that Ezekiel describes in Ezekiel chapter 1,and this vision, my understanding is that it's the workings, it'sthe foundation of this creation that exists in the spiritual planes.He saw all of the angels. Now try to understand, this ismind-boggling, but this is what I'm believing, I'm reading andI'm believing it, everything in this world, everything, you, me,this table, this shoe, everything that exists here, has a root inthe spiritual plane, everything. We are just the image of what

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exists in the spiritual plane. The example that comes to me now is a seed. There's

a seed, you put it under the ground, and a plant comes forth,the seed continues to exist underneath the ground and it's theground that is the veil that separates the seed which is nowbecome a root system from the plant. Well that's what we are,we're the plant, we're that which is physical, but there is aspiritual seed behind this... the veil or the ground, the veil thatcan be likened to the ground that separates the seed whichbecomes a root system from the plant for us, we are the plant,and the ground or that solid part that separates us from theroot system, is the carnal mind and the physical body.

We're in that same condition, everything that you see,and everything that you don't see has a root in the invisibleplane. We are the image, that's fascinating to me, I reallyreceive that revelation. So the Hebrew prophets even today,those who meditate, seek to attain or gain entrance to theuniverse of Beriah, which is the world of creation where theycould see the spiritual reality of which we are an image. This iswhat it means to descend before the Merkava, and I don't knowwhy he says descend instead of ascend. There they areintroduced to this most sublime and concealed of worlds, forhere before the Merkava, the Sod of Sod Kabbalists, are giventhe keys to the structure of the universe. Does everybody knowwhat the word Sod means? Sod, that's the deepest level onwhich we can understand the Scriptures, and it means themysteries. So it's talking about the deep, the mysterious worldsthat are not, they're not know to us without a special dispensa-tion. So according to what I'm reading these Sod Kabbalist thatgo, that meditate, and I don't know that anybody is doing ittoday. Well he says there are people doing it today. They gointo these deep trances and they penetrate into the world ofcreation, from where they influence the world.

Now, well I'll comment on that when I get to it, wherethey are given the structure of the universe, and I find thatphrase so interesting, the structure of the universe because Iremember when the church that I was raised up in started to

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fall, I was very naive in those days, I just knew something waswrong and I didn't know what it was, I was very upset, and theLord gave me a dream about the pastor of that church, and hewas building this monstrosity. When I prayed about the dream,the Lord said to me, he's building a structure.

So, I now understand that means is, the pastor of thatvery anointed church was building a structure other than thestructure of the universe that the Lord had raised up in thatchurch. He was building his own structure, he was using hiscarnal mind in that church, it fell spiritually, it still exists physi-cally.

With these keys, these secret Kabbalists act as God'sagents, his messengers, his angels here on earth, and theymanipulate the forces of nature, mankind and history to bringabout God's plans. Now I have no problem believing that,because since I've started to study Kabbalah, I have had twomystical experiences whereby the Lord has influenced interna-tional events. I just, he did it through me and I was just awitness, but he did it through me, and that's only since I startedstudying Kabbalah. So I have no problem believing this, butfrom what I'm reading here, these Kabbalists influence historyon a much, maybe perhaps a much more participatory mea-sure, maybe there was more for them to do. Both times therewas nothing for me to do, I just witnessed it in the spirit, whatthe Lord was doing through me. And also, I realize now thatGod can influence the future by going in to the past.

You know, this, I had another testimony off the tape thatI forgot to give to you so I'll put it on the tape now. I am tryingdesperately to rearrange my schedule so that I can have longblocks of time, long periods of time to study because as Ispend time in the studying, the spirit builds and I'm more likelyto have a spiritual experience. Well something happened thatthrough my plans off and I really was very hungry to spend along period of time with the Lord yesterday, and I had ascheduled a serviceman to come to the house at 1:00 in theafternoon which would have been right in the middle of my day,and I said Lord please, would you please, well the details aren't

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important, I asked the Lord to please have that man come at aparticular time, I had a time period of from 1:00 to 4:00pm hewould be there. I said please have him come at 4:00pm so thatI could run out, and I just was trying to congeal activities andput them together. Well this man knocked on my door at 9:00in the morning. I was asking for the Lord to have him come Idon't remember whether, the time period was between 1:00and 4:00. I was either asking, I think I was asking the Lord tohave him come at 4:00, so that I could have all that time before4:00, and then put him together with a couple of other things,well the man showed up at 9:00 in the morning and I goteverything done and was in my studies by 2:00.

And I realize now for the first time, I've had, I've experi-enced supernatural manifestations like this before, but I neverunderstood it like I understand it now. If I were to tell this to acarnal person, they would say Sheila how can say this is amiracle. The company schedules these visits probably at thevery best twenty four hours before. Well brethren God goesback in time. He is beyond time, so when he heard that prayer,he just went back in time and changed the schedule. Heinfluences time. Everything is within him, he's higher thaneverything. And when we get to this place, I don't know for surewhat's waiting for us. I do have an opinion though that we willbe used, I believe we will be used to influence a political andnational events because I've already seen that twice, but I alsobelieve that we will be used to literally penetrate into thespiritual being of people and help them to overcome theircarnal mind. There's going to be a warfare against the FierySerpent in people who cannot overcome their carnal mind.That's the word in my heart, I believe we will be doing that also.

And also, I've been telling you for years, a lot of thingsif not everything that's happening on the political scene, don'tthink it's just an accident.

Don't just sit down and say, well it's just happening,there's nothing you can do, there are people who are not inChrist, who are influencing our political destiny, I have knowthis for years, I don't know who they are, and I don't even know

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the details of what forces are operating through them otherthan it has to be Satan, or immortals on the other side of theveil.

But there are powerful forces moving to bring down thiscountry, and the whole western world right now. But at theexact right moment the Lord Jesus Christ will make his moveand I want to tell you when he makes his move, he's notcoming down in the visible sky, he's going to make his move ina high spiritual realm, through the sons of God who haveascended to that place, and in one swift moment, suddenly, heis going to undermine all of the wicked works of the representa-tives of Satan that have been seeking and working and actuallyaccomplishing the destruction of this nation for years. In onefell swoop he's going to bring it all down, why? Because he willbring his sons to a higher place in the spirit then the men thatSatan is working through.

We will ascend into the kingdom of God which is higher,which is beyond this world, it's like the Supreme Court, it'sbeyond this world. And in one fell swoop we will bring down thewhole wicked system and all the evil that's done, but don't benaive, there are people being hurt from this system everyday,and the people who are hurt are hurt, the individual people arehurt, there may be help for some of them and there may not behelp for others, but the whole nation, the whole western world,all of Christendom will be delivered, if you can hear what I'msaying.

Okay, so he says therefore all of you who think thecourse of nature mankind and history, I'm sorry, the course ofhuman events is haphazard and happens by chance, you arewrong. Human events are most definitely guided on a collectiveand individual basis by those so changed by God, or chargedby God to perform these tasks. And what he's saying is that ourindividual lives are influenced also. If we learn how to praycorrectly and if we're walking in right standing with God, andwe learn how to pray correctly and I believe it's essential tostudy Kabbalah to bring the power into your life, we change thecourse of Satan's plans for our lives. The existence of these

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worlds therefore need only be known by those who need toaccess them.

Do you hear that? Those who need to access them,nobody is going to get to know these worlds because theyweren't some kind of thrill, okay, now who will need to accessthem? Those who are commissioned by the Lord Jesus to dodeeds and execute feats that require this kind of spiritualascension. For the rest of Kabbalah students, they have noneed of this knowledge, they'll just get into trouble with it,therefore Rabbi Chayyim Vital writing to the masses ofKabbalists, forbade the study of matters in these areas, eventhe great Kabbalist, Rabbi Chayyim David Azulai H'Y'D'A(Hida), in the eighteenth century wrote disparagingly about aEuropean Kabbalistic text called the Emek HaMelekh.HaMelekh is king and I think Emek, Emet is truth, I don't knowwhat Emek is. Because he text was based upon the Kabbalahof Yisrael Sarug, Rabbi Azulai's disparaging words might havebeen nothing more than a smokescreen to keep the curiousaway from the sacred, Emek HaMelekh text.

But remember the Rabbi Sarug, his followers were inEastern Europe, and that is where Hitler rose, that is whereHitler arose, so I'm of the opinion right now that there were a lotof people going into studies that, a lot of Kabbalists going intostudies that should not have gone into. And that was, Hitlerwas a horrible reaping and sowing, horrendous. Thus we havelearned that God withdrew his light from the center point of theAyn Sof, however the light was not really withdrawn, it merelychanged from expansive to contractive. Can you hear that, thelight was not really withdrawn, you just, that which was pouringforward, pouring forward, pouring forward started beingwithheld into itself. That is what he says. It changed fromexpansive to contractive.

Okay. At this point the first aspect of God, to manifest inthe empty space was the Tehiru Lla'ah or the Reshimu of thelight of the Ayn Sof, that's the residue, the residue, the super-nal light that was left in the empty space was the residue of thelight of the Ayn Sof. What residue? There was a residue

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because that light which was pouring forward reversed, itstarted going backwards. So that which was left there is calledthe residue. Rabbi Sarug teaches that this light was theessential manifestations of the 22 letters of the Hebrew AlefBet. And what they first formed, well let stop there. Thisresidue, Rabbi Sarug teaches was the essential manifestationof the 22 letters of the Hebrew Alef Bet. Now understand thatthese letters are supernatural or supernal streams of energyout of which the whole creation came forth. They were notletters on a piece of paper, they were, they had, there were, Idon't know what word, they had consciousness, and they wereexisting spiritual powers, and what these letters formed firstwas the ten essential names of the ten Sefirot.

These living streams of power called the Hebrew letters,the 22 Hebrew letters formed the names of the ten Sefirot. Nowremember, they didn't just form the name, Keter, Chokhmah,Binah, when we talk about a name we talk about attributes andqualities and everything that these supernal Sefirot are. Theywere formed out of these 22 letters which were formed out ofthe residue of the light of the Ayn Sof that remained in theempty space.

Yet, between the Halal and the light of the Ayn Sofsurrounding it, there had to be some type of border. Now I'vealready shown you that on the board. In order to prevent thelight of the Ayn Sof from seeping back into the empty spaceand filling it up again. Therefore, surrounding the empty spacewas an aspect of the light of the Ayn Sof that also contractedfurther into itself.

So we have two different degrees of contraction. See,the Ayn Sof in its expansive state, there are no grades, thereare no grades of expansiveness, you can't say, he wasexpansive, more expansive under in this condition or lessexpansive over there, in its expansive condition, the Ayn Sof isa simple homogeneous light, no separation, no division, okay.

But in the contraction there are degrees of contraction,if you can hear that. This aspect, this little rim, this aspect iscalled the Olam HaMalbush, the cloak spoken of above. Okay

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we're getting some more information now. This boundary, thatis what the cloak is, this aspect, this boundary is called thecloak, spoken of above. Without this boundary, the Halal wouldnot have maintained its integrity, the Halal is the empty space,it would not have remained an empty space. The light that wasoutside of it would have flowed into the light that was inside ofit, and the empty space would have disappeared. While RabbiChayyim Vital discusses this concept of maintaining theboundary, he says that only a small empty space exists toseparate the two. Rabbi Sarug goes into more details toexplain this. The empty space had therefore had within it, thesupernal light of the echo of the Ayn Sof. Remember that? Thelight was contracted withdrawn or contracted and that whichwas left in the empty space which is not really empty is an echoor a residue of the light of the Ayn Sof.

The Hebrew for light is Ohr, spelled Alef Vav Resh. If theletter Yod representing the ten Sefirot is added to the wordOhr, which means light, we then have Alef, Vav, Yod, Resh,which spells Avir, the Hebrew word for Air. This is the primor-dial air spoken of in the passage quoted earlier from the Zohar,we did that last week. The Hebrew word for light is Ohr. If theletter Yod representing the ten Sefirot, can anyone tell us howthe letter Yod represents the ten Sefirot? How does the letterYod represent the ten Sefirot? Anybody? Who does the letterYod represent? And the tetragrammaton, YHVH, who does theletter Yod represent? You want to try that?

COMMENT: Ab72?SHEILA: Well that's not wrong but that is not pertinent

to this question, okay Ab72 is associated with the Yod, butmore specifically, how do I phrase this. Well I'll just tell you, it'sKeter, Keter, and the "H" is Binah, and the Vav is Zeir Anpinand the second "H" is Malkhut, okay. The first, the Yod of thetetragrammaton signifies Keter, and Keter has within him thewhole ten Sefirot. Keter has within him the seeds of the wholeten Sefirot, they unfold out from him. So what our notes aresaying, if you add the letter Yod, representing the ten Sefirotcause they're all in Yod, all ten Sefirot are in Yod in seed form.

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If you add that to the word Ohr which means light, we thenhave Alef Vav Yod Resh, which spells the Hebrew word for Air.

So light when you add the ten Sefirot to it, becomes Air.The supernal light that's left in the empty space, when you addthe ten Sefirot, when the ten Sefirot come into being becomesAir. So we see that Air arises out of light, but of course this isthe primordial Air spoken of in the passage quoted earlier fromthe Zohar, let me see if I could find that for you. From theconcealed of all concealed, the secret of the Ayn Sof cameforth, and did not come forth his Air, which was not at allcomprehended. Okay, so talking about coming forth, it meansmanifestation okay, okay, and we're being told that his Air wasnot comprehended. Something that arose out of the light, areformation of the essence called light was reformed into Air,but it did not come forth.

As with all aspects of Kabbalah study, unless thematerial can be understood correctly, and applied to the humanpsychological experience, okay, Kabbalah is to be applied tothe human psychological experience, because the study of theten Sefirot and the heavenly constellation, is the study of themind of man, see. And what happened, thousands of ormillions or trillions of years ago is still happening today. I reada lot about these ten Sefirot, and I can relate it to what I readabout, to what's happening to me today you see, and fromGod's point of view, we exist in the same place that whateverhappened trillions of years ago, or I don't know what thenumbers are, we exist in the same place, and that, it really tookme a long time to understand that, and I don't think I under-stand it completely.

All that I know, is I read these Kabbalistic principles andI have had and am experiencing them now, me, I am thevessel, and when I read these Kabbalistic principles about thelight that is entering in to the vessel, and the reaction of thelight, and whatever else I'm reading, I can relate it to me, it'shappening to me, and that means it's happening to humanbeings.

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material can be understood correctly and applied to the humanpsychological experience, its potency will be lost and all thatwill remain will be theory. So we don't want to just be theoristswe want this study to effect us psychologically, we want it toeffect our carnal mind, and we want it to bring forth, well thecarnal mind has to be constricted. You see, the carnal mindhas to be restricted, and constricted so that Christ can comeforth in us. Rabbi Sarug's revelation about the lofty source ofthe Hebrew letters enables the more advanced Kabbalists toaccess to higher forces of meditative experience and power.

And as I've told you many times, I will report to you asthe Lord leads me, and pretty much I share everything with youhere, what spiritual experiences I have, but I am not at all ledto meditate in the way the Hebrews meditate. I have myspiritual experiences by deep study, by just spending hours,locking everything else out and just concentrating on mystudies. So far that is all that he's required of me. And ofcourse when I read about the methods of Kabbalistic medita-tion, they talk about thinking about the goodness of God, justconcentrating and focusing on the goodness of God, or picksome subject, but the Lord has not given me this, to take one,to me that is a simple concept about the goodness of God andmeditate on him. I know that my mind would never focus in onsomething like that. For whatever reason my mind can onlyfocus in and concentrate on these deep Kabbalistic studies, orin the past the doctrine of Christ, that's how I get into a trance.

So I don't know what he'll be doing with you or withothers, I do know that in this ministry, he's called the discipleshere to transcribe, and that's when you get into your deepmeditative states. I think it has to do with the degree ofconcentration, I'm not sure but perhaps everybody cannotconcentrate to the degree that I can. I know that not everybodycan spend 12 hours in studying Kabbalah which is what I didthe other day. So depending on your ability to concentrate, theLord will put you in an activity that will enable you or give youan opportunity to concentrate as much as you are able. Rightnow the disciples are transcribing.

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This helps the members of that group to expand theirconsciousness, well let me read the sentence before. RabbiSarug's revelation about the lofty source of the Hebrew letters,enables the more advanced Kabbalist access to higher forcesof meditative experience and power. This helps the membersof that group to expand their consciousness and thus to effectthe collective unconscious of the entire Jewish people, do youhear that? I'm going to say it again. This meditation helps themembers of that group to expand their own consciousness andthus to effect the collective unconscious of the entire Jewishpeople. And I have been preaching here for years, that simplyour gathering together for our weekly meeting tonight, we areeffecting the whole world, or at least, the Lord told, I thoughtthe Lord told me the whole world, he's saying the entire Jewishpeople. I believe the Lord told me the whole world.

When we gather together and we're of one mind andone accord, when you're in submission to me and you'refollowing after me as I follow after the Lord, we are effectingthe whole world. When the Lord first told me that, it amazedme. He told me that when I preached the message that hegave me, I was causing, that things were happening in theheavenlies, that's what he told me.

Well this helps a great deal, there are also importantlessons here for us. We too must understand that everythingin existence has a pre-existing form in the mind of the creator,that's similar to what I told you earlier. Everything that you seehere has a root in the spiritual world, and that root, the initialroot, everything exists initially in the mind of the creator, andthat's why we're told in the Old Testament, when the Lordforgets about you you're dead, what that means is, when theLord forgets about you, what that means is that you're out ofhis mind, and when you're out of his mind, you're dead.Because this whole creation exists, well the creator, it doesn'thave a mind but exists in him.

His mind as far as I know is Chokhmah, I believeChokhmah, mind begins with Chokhmah if I'm not mistaken.Instead of seeking to change things in life, to conform to our

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limited ways of thinking, we should instead seek out the divinewisdom that ordains things to be the way they are. This inessence is the purpose of Kabbalah, I have been telling youthis for years. As spiritual people we are just spinning ourwheels getting ourselves upset and wasting our time trying tochange things in this plane. If someone that has authority overyou is giving you a hard time is unfair to you, is arguing withyou, the thing to is submit, withdraw and pray, and you will beamazed once you pass over the line, when you start living yourlife with this mechanism, you will be amazed at how, at thevictory that will come your way, its just an education, it's just amatter of choice of how you will deal with the problem.

We must learn to accept that there really is a guidinghand over all things in creation. It is true, here on earth andeverywhere else. Regardless of the galaxy or dimension, God'shand ordains all things in accordance to the pattern of the 22Hebrew letters and the ten Sefirot. Now remember these arespiritual forces. Therefore a theoretical understanding of them,of the letters, the 22 letters of the ten Sefirot is essential. Doesanybody remember what the collective name of the 22 Hebrewletters and the ten Sefirot are? The 32 paths of wisdom.However all the discussion about their makeup, rules andparameters is futile speculation unless it is backed up bymeditative experience.

So what the writer of these notes is saying, once again,is don't get stuck on theory, he says you're suppose to beusing this information to meditate and according to him thepurpose of meditation is to get closer to God , and to receiverevelation from God. But as of now, I have no instructions fromthe Lord to meditate other than to contemplate. There's adifference between contemplation and meditation. Contempla-tion is focusing with deep concentration on the word. Well asfar as we're concerned it's on the word, but the word contem-plation means, you could contemplate on that point on the wall,that's how people in the occult go into a trance, see. They justfocus on something, it's called contemplation, just looking atsomething and staring at it until you go into a trance. I found

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out that I have been contemplating all of these years when I didmy translations in the doctrine of Christ.

It was contemplation not meditation. And of coursecontemplation is a form of meditation, but meditation isspecifically designed to catapult you into the other world. WhenI did the doctrine of Christ, well I guess I did go into otherworlds to get the revelation, but I didn't have any of theexperiences that they're describing here. So it was, contempla-tion is a more shallow level of meditation, that's my under-standing today. And I am not recommending that anybodymeditate in this old order way.

Unfortunately one state of emotional imbalance or lackof proper intellectual insights often taints meditative revela-tions.

Well all that's he's saying is, if you meditate by justconcentrating on some object, you can contact your carnalmind, that's what he's saying. Theoretical studies, you see,when you contemplate, when I contemplate the word of God,I don't contemplate one phrase, I don't focus on one phrase, Ifocus on understanding what I'm studying, and if you'refocusing on understanding a teaching, it's not likely that you'regoing to get your carnal mind, but if you focus on a spot on thewall or one thought about what you think the goodness of Godis, your carnal mind can rise up and catapult you into a trance.

But it's not likely it will be your carnal mind, if you'reactually trying to understand a Scripture with your contempla-tion. One's personality must be refined. Now brethren that'swhat we're doing here. If you're going to go on with this kind ofa study, your personality must be refined. If you're to go on withsafety. Rabbi Chayyim Vital's guide to prophetic meditativeascent, his Sha'arei Kedusha, that's a book, states emphati-cally that unless one banishes from oneself all negativepersonality traits, one will never ascend beyond speculation toexperience real spirituality. You have to get pass your carnalmind brethren or you'll never experience the real thing.

Sha'arei Kedusha is an excellent work to study. I haverecorded lecture series of 34 hours that cover the text for any,

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now this is not me, this is the writer of these notes. Once onehas studied well and worked hard to refine their personalitytraits. You know I've read so many books, I don't have time totell you about everything, but I will tell you this, that everythingthat I have been teaching you here is in the Kabbalistic text.And I just got it from God, and the Kabbalist know all about it,you have to refine your personality traits, and if you can't seeyour personality flaws yourself, then someone has to show youand I'm it.

Only then can one begin the ladder of ascent throughthe holy Hebrew letters. There are many techniques to doingthis, most are discussed in the first chapter of the SeferYetzirah. I've read some of these books and I'm telling you Idon't recommend them to anybody in Christ. The Lord has notreleased me in any way to recommend that to anybody. Juststudy the word, study the word, and transcribe if that's whatyou're doing. One cannot change the way of the world, one canonly surrender to the higher hand that guides the world,surrender, that's the answer. The ones who wish to change theface of the earth, and in the inner workings of mankind willeventually bring the mighty power of the Botzina D' Karnuta,the source of severity, down upon their heads. And It was lastweek that the Lord gave me that word for the people studyingKabbalah with us. Get your carnal mind in order, start dealingwith your sin nature, ask the Lord to expose all the errors ofyour ways, because if you don't do that, you're going to bringdown severe judgment upon yourself, and this judgement canbe so severe that it, this judgment is so powerful enough towipe out one's existence from even the memories of those whowill survive.

Well that's sounds like the holocaust to me, man. To methis is another witness of what I believe, I can't tell you God toldit to me, it's just something that came to me, with all of thesestudies that that horror of the holocaust is what I just read toyou here. The Botzina D' Karnuta, the source of severejudgment that comes into one's life when one studies theKabbalah without purifying their personality. I'll add something

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to it. When one studies the Kabbalah with impure motives.When one goes on without the guiding hand of God, and as aJew that is a horrible, horrible thing for me to face, that theholocaust could have been a reaping and sowing for misuse ofspiritual power by the ancestors of the Jews who experiencedit. And that's something some day, I still have a problemdealing with it, that's it's our children who pay the price.

All of those Jewish Rabbis that were into witchcraftmaking golems and whatever they were doing, it was genera-tions later that went under Hitler's hand, it wasn't the men whodid it. And the Rabbi who wrote these notes says, I haveelongated this essay and included within it many importantlessons, get the message, don't go on without purifying yourpersonality, that's what he says, get the message. And ofcourse purifying your personality includes doing the right thingin accordance with God's provision. If you're not tithing youreally are taking a big chance by going on with these studies.That's a simple thing, money is a simple problem, seeing thehidden sins of your heart, that's not so simple, but at least getthe carnal things right. At least get right with your money, andget right with your relationships with people. It's very importanthow you treat other people that you are fair and descent andhonest in everything.

If you have employees that you go the extra mile to begood to them, if it's you keep the dollar or they get the dollar,give them the dollar, it's not worth it because you will bringdown harsh judgment on yourself. With these understanding ofthe primordial essence of the universe in our next essay, weshall discuss the original formless form through which allbecame manifest, the formless form. This is the level of AdamKadmon, the blueprint of all that is to come. Are there anyquestions or comments, this is the end of the lesson 2. Theselessons are going very slow, I had thought we would startlesson 3 tonight, but it's 11:35pm, so we will not be startinglesson 3 tonight. Any questions or comments about anything.Okay, Lord bless you.

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was Satan, and I see that the name of it was Reshimu ari.SHEILA: That means residue, yes. Well if I said it was

Satan, that's incorrect. That residue ultimately became Satan,but it was not Satan at the time of the formation of it, you know.After the fall in our present world, that residue is now in theform of Satan, but not at that time, okay.

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