Upload
aj87goswami
View
214
Download
0
Embed Size (px)
Citation preview
8/6/2019 Confessions of Writer 1
1/4
Confessions of a writer (not fully yet!)
Writing is something which had great respect in his eyes
right since childhood. Being brought up on daily doses ofshort stories of Rabindranath Tagore, and to be born in a
family wherein the first gift which he was given was a
novel and comics of TINTIN even before he started
schooling. Reading is a regular activity in his family. By
the time he reached class 10 he had finished all written
stories of Sherlock Holmes, tintin, Rabindranath Tagore..
and trust me they are quite a lot..! Obviously his
imagination grew with him..!!
But being a single child there was no one with whom the
imagination could be shared. Throughout his childhood he
made up stories for himself. Always being the central hero.
Sometimes being PHANTOM, sometimes being sachin
tendulakrs partner and helping India to win a match,
sometimes being batman and crusading the nights to stop
crimes. Most often the pillows and the quilts had to be themysterious mountains and the nail cutter would be his
vehicle and the index and middle fingers of his right hand
would be the legs of his imaginary self.
With age, the content and context of novels started getting
more and more real and serious. Now the novels had the
occasional deaths which used to leave the child in tears.
Though the hero still won but his sacrifices were more realrather than just the pangs of dual life ( like batman). This
kid, now becoming a young man wanted different endings.
Soon newspapers entered his life. Now he started getting in
touch with real life issues. In the paper he used to see faces
8/6/2019 Confessions of Writer 1
2/4
of agony after a blast. He used to wonder what could make
a man be so much sad.
This kid used to travel in trains. There he used to see many
beggars. Pleading for money. Making sorry faces, speakingin sorry voices. This kid used to think if I had money I
wouldve given them all the money. Once during his
college years he saw a man sitting beneath a tree, tears
rolling down his eyes. He was looking up towards the sky
shaking his head and was mumbling something, like a child
who cries and complains to his parents. This guy wondered
what can make a grown up man so distraught so as to make
him cry publicly. That man had the resigned look on hisface. Like he has given up everything in his life. The guy
watched this from an auto. It was a fleeting sight. But it
was intense. All this was creating an impression in his
mind.
The kid now an young man in class 12th was interested not
only in the ugly side of life. He had an eye for the beauty
also. His favorite pastime was to go on the terrace at nightand gaze at the sky. Stars used to excite him. Any rainy and
cloudy day was like a treat for this child.
Gradually this child started making up scenarios in his
mind. Like lying down on a vast open grass field in a starry
summer night and feeling the cool breeze blow past his
face, or to walk on a lonely beach in a full moon night. Or
to sit near the window of a hill cottage and to see lightning
shining in the night sky outside. To have a cup of coffee
with someone in a cottage in a snowy winter night. Or to
sit with someone on the terrace of a 20 storey building in
a drizzling evening. To have a big dog of saint Bernard
breed like the one in BEETHOVEN movie and to hug the
8/6/2019 Confessions of Writer 1
3/4
dog whenever he feels like, how it would feel to have the
dog to sit on him in a lonely afternoon.
He had quite an active imagination. But had noone to share
them. one day while he was still in class 12
th
, he performedbadly in a class test in physics and was feeling bad. That
was the day he decided to keep a record of how hes feeling
by writing it down. It wasnt a diary entry but in form of a
story, even with some modifications. From that day this
kid, found it a good method to keep track of emotions. He
again wrote a story when he did not got selected to be the
house captain, he wrote it when his project got selected.
Once he started, his realizations and connectivity toemotions kept getting more and more stronger.
After his first story this kid had many intense experiences
like roaming around on a bicycle amidst drizzles in a
heavily clouded day with his friends, getting in college,
topping college, winning gold, having altercation with
senior, seeing some his friends moving ahead with life ( in
terms of finding that mythical someone!!), seeing ahalf moon amidst white clouds against a bright blue colored
background sky, singing rap song in front of his batch
mates at amphitheater despite being considered the serious
types, walking in lonely winter noon in the streets of his
colony, giving his first job interview, getting his first job,
speaking up to a retired Group captain whom probably no
one ever answered back, traveling with friends in a January
night to attend a friends sister wedding, writing his first
poem, writing his first sensible poem, hearing the word
dada from a junior girl (one sound for which this guy
craved throughout his life), getting friends, getting real
friends, losing some friends experiences are many.
8/6/2019 Confessions of Writer 1
4/4
Stories will be many. Some happy, some not so happy, but
each one of them will have one thing in common they all
will gave the guy the satisfaction that hes sharing his
feelings with someone someone of his age group, give ortake few years.. like a brother or better still, a sister. If he
had someone to share these maybe he wouldve been
talking to that person right now and not typing this
Writing to him, was equivalent to sharing. Because at times
the intensity of a particular emotion becomes so strong that
it becomes difficult to handle. Be it joy or sorrow.
Theres a writer in each and every individual. Some do not
need to write because they have that someone to share.
Some do not have the patience to write. Some lack the
chances to write, but everyone else they write. Not for
publishing ( most of them) but for the sheer peace of
understanding ones emotions and to understand how ones
mind works. And to write about WHY ONE WRITES
thats the confession of a writer!!!!