ciala ardaSelia

s i y v a r ul i s i e r o gl if e b i

( moTxrobebi, novelebi, miniaturebi)

2013

vuZRvni devnilobaSi tragikulad daRupuli Zmis avTandil (aliko) ardaSelias xsovnas

ISBN 978-9941-426-33-9

© gamomcemloba - `bakmi~ 2013

© ciala ardaSelia - `siyvarulis ieroglifebi~

saqarTvelo, Tbilisi 2013

redaqtori - rusudan mosiZe

garekani da wignis

kompiuteruli uzrunvelyofa - marika miqelaZis

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`daRaluli rto~

(afxazeTSi daRupul eTer samxaraZe-jRamaZis xsovnas!)

mtredi gafreniliyo. puris namcecebi isev ise eyara cx-

auriani fanjris gareTa rafaze. mTeli im xnis ganmavlobaSi,

rac frinveli iqaurobas SemoeCvia, dRes pirvelad datova

sakenki xeluxleblad.

mcirexans ijda Seurxevlad, gatrunuli. Zveleburad ar

ugogmania, ar uRuRunia, uceb frTebi SeafarTquna da... gauCi-

narda...

ucnauria. Tumca... ra unda iyos ucnauri da gaugonari

am cisqveSeTSi?..

CaeRima. cxaurs moSorda. da mainc...

ratom gafrinda mtredi ase male? netav, ra moelanda?

magidasTan mivida, simas Semotanil sadils gulgrilad

Seavlo Tvali. mere orive xeliT magidas daeyrdno... da

gairinda.

fiqrebi kvlav aiSalnen. aiwewnen. tanSi Cveuli mous-

venroba Seudga. naWrilobevmac Seaxsena Tavi. magram fizi-

kurze ufro gausaZlisi iyo sulieri iarebi.

daZabuli Sinagani mzera erTi da imave suraTisTvis

mieSterebina. kivilamde mZafri iyo tkivilis SegrZneba...

da uceb: gonebis dafaze xelmeored cxadad gamoikveTa is

TiTqos miviwyebuli, odindeli epizodi boSa qalTan Sexve-

drisa...

sanapiroze mimavals, mimozis toti eWira xelSi da, ga-

zafxuliT da yvavilis surneliT Tavbrudaxveuli, wynari

RimiliT laRad miirweoda _ tanaSoltili, lamazi, moxde-

nili. sakuTari sxeulis srulyofilebis da sulis sisav-

sis SegrZneba erTmaneTs Serwymoda da ocnebaTa da zmanebaTa

zRvardaudeb, uxilav da Soreul sivrceebSi miaqrolebda.

boSa qali?

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uneburad SekrTa. ar esiamovna da iucxova kidec bun-dovani, magram saocnebo xilvebidan ase moulodnelad rom gamoiyvanes...

Tavaziani RimiliT Seecada, CamoeSorebina marCieli da gza ganegrZo, magram boSa qali ar eSveboda: _ lamazo, unda gimkiTxavoo! _ farTo RimiliT daJinebiT, rogorc boSebs sCveviaT xolme saerTod, gverdiT mosdevda.

jandabaso, gaivlo gunebaSi, Tan cnobiswadilmac sZ l ia da...dahyva boSa qalis nebas.skverSi, merxze dasxdnen. mimozis tots xSir-xSirad yno-

savda da momlodine RimiliT Sescqeroda boSas. Savgvremani, lamazi qali iyo. isic axalgazrda, TiTqmis misi kbila. raRacnairi uCinari, uxilavi urTierTsimpaTiis Zafebi gaiba uceb am ori rasis, sxvadasxvanairad lamaz or mdedrs So-ris, garegnobiT Tavisi jiSis da jilagis saukeTeso warmo-madgenlebi rom Candnen.

_ lamazo! momeci xeli... o, o, Sen bednieri qali xar... bednieri ojaxi gaqvs...

Sen siyvaruliT gaTxovdi... qmarsac uyvarxar, magram... cota mZime xasiaTis kacia, xom marTalia? erTi Svili gyavs, biWi... kidev SegeZineba ori _ qal-vaJi... Sen bavSobidan yve-la jeirans geZaxoda, xom marTalia?.. saidan vici ase kargad qarTuli?.. xaSurSi vcxovrobdiT didxans... iq davibade... qa-rTvelebi miyvars. kargi xalxia... gulkeTili... Senc kiTili xar, Zalian keTili... Sen yvela giyvars... magram, oh, lamazo, ramdeni gulistkena gaqvs! Sen boRma ara gaqvs gulSi... Sen aravis cudi ar ginda... aravis wyena... ax, lamazo... es mi-moza giWiravs axla xelSi... zRvas uyureb... cas uyureb... gixaria... Sen Zalian bednieri xar,... Zalian! Zalian! magram...

eqstazSi Sesuli boSa qali SeCerda. kvlav daJinebiT daacqerda xelis guls, uceb Tavisi xelis mtevani gadausva, mere elviseburi mzera styorcna qals, TandaTanobiT niri rom ecvleboda: _ oi, ra didi usiamovneba gelodeba... ara, dRes ara, arc xval, didi xnis mere... wlebis Semdeg... o, o

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ra saSineli bolo aqvs Sens meuRles... ax, maia bedniaJka, moi angel, nuTu... nuTu Sen, Sen... ara! _ boSa qalma mkveTri moZraobiT qalis nebs xeli uSva, zeaiWra: _ yurs nu migdeb... daiviwye dRevandeli dRe!.. daiviwye cignis qali!.. ar minda Seni fuli, araferi ar minda! me wavedi! mSvidobiT, Cemo lam-azo!.. RmerTma sikeTe mogces... janmrTeloba mogces!

samudamod miviwyebuli rom egona, Turme cocxlobda is suraTi da boSa qali... misi sityvebi...

roca meuRle _ damalva rom ar isurva da uSiSrad Seegeba momxdurebs _ sakuTari saxlis WiSkarTan daxvrites, roca simas da daurs saxlSi damwyvdeuli hyavdaT, gareT rom ar gaWriliyo...

uceb gulis uSoresi kunWulidan uneblieT amotivtivda TiTqos miCumaTebul-minavlebuli sityvebi: _ oi, ra saSine-li bolo eqneba Sens meuRleso! _ da wamierad boSa qalis saxem kvlav gaielva mis Tvalwin, mxolod wamierad da...

_ saWmlisTvis isev ar dagikarebia piri, mzia! _ sima Se-mosuliyo uCumrad da sayveduriani mzeriT uyurebda.

Setokda. mere dabneulma scada SeumCnevlad cremlis SemSraleba:

_ rogor ara... vWame... meti ar minda... meti ar SemiZlia, sayvarelo!

_ Sen morwmune qali xar da... Tavs iklav... ase ar Sei-Zleba mzia!

_ nu gewyineba, sayvarelo... me isedac naxevrad mkvdari var... yvelafers ajobebda Cems mirianTan erTad mec moveka-liT... Tqven ki... tyuilubralod safrTxeSi igdebT Tavs... es mtanjavs... mosvenebas ar maZlevs...

_ nu laparakob mase!.. Cven araferi mogviva... Cvenze nu dardob!.. Sen ki... mzia Zvirfaso, Svilebi gyavs, SviliSvili... Sen maT sWirdebi. xom ginda naxo Seni pirveli SviliSvili, Seni patara mziako?.. sul ase xom ar iqneba?.. dawynardeba aqauroba da... Senc Caxval zugdidSi... TbilisSic... naxav yvelas... saflavsac xom patronoba unda?

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_ didi madloba, sayvarelo, yvelafrisTvis... didi

madloba... Cvenebi Tu vera, RmerTi gadagixdiT samagieros

Sen da daurs, Sens ojaxs... Sens Svilebs. magram... ar minda,

usiamovneba SegxvdeT... aqaurobis dawynarebas jer piri

ar uCans... jer ar gamZRaran sisxliT... saflavebi jer ar

amovsebula...

_ mzia!.. winaswar ar mindoda meTqva, magram... daurma ukve

moZebna sando xalxi... kidev cota xani... da samSvidobos

gagiyvanen... _ gulaCuyebuli sima uceb gadaexvia da kocna

dauwyo. mziasac guli amoujda da Tavadac Caexuta qals.

mere isxdnen gverdigverd, TiTqos gulmooxebulni, nawva-

lebi RimiliT Sescqerodnen erTmaneTs da xmas ar iRebdnen.

moulodnelad sardafis kari xmauriT SemoaRo saxea-

reulma mamakacma:

_ sima!.. mzia!.. movidnen!

da sanam Tavzardacemuli qalebi gons moegebodnen, sardaf-

Si bragun-braguniT, lanZRva-ginebiT avtomatmomarjvebuli

`boevikebi~ Semocvivdnen.

_ Ult uhepbycrfz gjtntccf? (sad aris qarTveli poet-

esa?) _ Tvalebis brialiT daiRriala erTma da simas miaS-

vira xeli: _ “ns? (Sen xar?)mzia `boevikebs~ win gadaudga:

_ Ytn^ yt jyf! э“nj _ Z! (is ara. me var!)

_ F[^ djn^ pyfxbn э“nj ns _ gjtntccf& _ djn jr f p s df­tn cz^ ult ghzxtncz э“nf cerf!&& dblbim kb^ ;b nm pf[j nt kf э“nf cnfhfz cnthdf& vfnm ndj.&&&

( _ ah, ese igi, Sena xar?.. uyure Sen, Turme sad imaleboda

es ZaR liSv i li. sicocxle mounda am beber Zuknas. Seni de-

da...), orive mxridan xeli Caavles da jikav-jikaviT win

gaigdes, Tumca mzia winaaRmdegobas arc uwevda maT.

kibeze Tavi ver Seimagra da safexurebze cali fexiT

Caikeca. erTma `boevikma~ avtomatis kondaxi Cascxo zurgSi:

_ Yt ghbrblsdfqcz^ cerf!&& vfnm ndj.&&&(Tavs nu imkvdaruneb,

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ZaRlisSvilo. Seni deda...) qalma yrud daigmina. mere kbili kbils daaWira da nela wamoimarTa.

_ Lf xnj­;t ds^ ht,znf! jyf dtlm nz;tkj ,jkmyf! (_ biWebo, ra ambavSi xarT? is xom mZime avadmyofia marTla?)

simam, romelic ukan dasdevneboda `boevikebs~, mziasken gaiwia misaSveleblad, Tan afsuur enaze raRacas uxsnida maT. qmarma Cumad saxeloze daqaCa, magram simas ukan ar mouxedavs.

_ Lf^ ns^ jncnfym^ ;tyibyf! c dfvb tot gjujdf hbv^^^

Ghtlfntkmybwf! (Sen gaCumdi, qalo. SenTan mere vila parakebT. moRalatev...)

`boevikebi~ Rrena-RreniT, TiTqmis xeliT miaTrevdnen ZalRone gamoleul qals.

...mikroavtobusSi rom agdebdnen, simam sasowarkveTili xmiT dauZaxa:

_ mzia, gvapatie!qalma `boevikebis~ mxrebs zemoT gamoxeda, gaRimeba scada,

TvalebiT ki uTxra, yvelaferi mesmiso.... avtobusi kai xnis wasuli iyo, magram sima mainc gaqvave-

buliviT idga erT adgilze da verc moSorebiT SeCerebul, mxrebCamoyril qmars amCnevda da arc misi sityvebi esmoda.

mezoblis WiSkarTan atuzul qals mxolod maSin mohkra Tvali, roca qmarma ezoSi Seyvana daupira.

qalebis mzera wamierad erTmaneTs Seawyda. gonebaSi raRac daiklakna elvasaviT. guli Seuqanda, Semdeg wynari, neli nabijebiT daiZra sima-mezoblisken.

dauaxlovda Tu ara, erTbaSad yelSi wvda:_ es Sen gaakeTe xom?.. Sen?.. ra dagiSava... ra dagiSava,

Se gvelo, Sxamiano gvelo? sikeTis meti ra uqnia SenTvis?.. qmari gaafTrebul cols mivarda da Seecada, xelidan

gamoeglija mezobeli._ sima!.. ras Svrebi?.. gons modi!_ gamiSvi, gamiSvi-meTqi... unda mivaxrCo es Zukna, es gvelis

wiwili!

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kacma Zlivs gamoaTria coli da kvlav ezoSi Seyvana moundoma._ Sen ra, SeiSale qalo?.. dagaviwyda, rom bavSvebi gvyavs?

gons modi-meTqi. geubnebi.amasobaSi gaognebuli, dazafruli mezoblis qali gamoerk-

va da awiwinda. magram simas ukve aRaraferi esmoda. qmarma igi saxlis pirveli sarTulis aivanze TiTqmis ZaliT ai-yvana.

_ Wkuidan gadaxvedi, qalo? SeiZleba Cvenc migvayolon... ar uqniaT Tu?.. ar giSvelis afxazoba!.. arc Seni biZaSvilis saxeli... xom gesmoda, rogor dagvemuqrnen?.. aravin icis, riT damTavrdeba es yvelaferi... vera xedav, mkvlelebTan rom gvaqvs saqme?..

_ me mrcxvenia gesmis? mrcxvenia, rom afxazi var!.. Tqven ki... mamakacebi... _ qali dausxlta qmris mklavebs, aivnis boZs Semoexvia da azluqunda. mere ucebve Sewyvita tirili. saxeze mtkice gadawyvetileba gamoexata:

_ me... unda wavide!.. _ Tqva damarcvliT, Seuvali saxiT da Tmaze xeli gadaisva, kaba gaiswora.

_ sad... sad unda waxvide?.. xom ar SeiSale marTla? sad midixar-meTqi?..

_ ici, Sen, sadac mivdivar! _ simam ukan mouxedavad Cair-bina kibe da WiSkrisken gaeSura.

...mikroavtobusSi msxdomi nasvami, aRgznebuli `boevikebi~ ar cxrebodnen. ufro da ufro Sediodnen bilwsityvaobis eSxSi.

_ Ye^ xnj^ cerf^ cnfhfz ,&&& jgznm ,eltim gbcf nm cn­

b[b ghj F,[fpb.& @vjz F,[fpbz@^ @Hjlyjq vj q rh fq&&&@ (Se ZaRlisSvilo, Se Zvelo kaxpav... kvlav da wer le qsebs afxazeTze?.. `Cemi afxazeTi~, `Cemi mSobliuri ku T xe~, ara?)

_ Pyftim xnj yt gjybvf.^ gjxtve F,[fpbz? Z dt lm

fgcef b vjz hjlbyf Fgcys! ghb xtv pltcm F, [ fpbz?& (ici, ras ver vigeb, me xom afsua var da Cems sam S o b los afsni hqvia. ratom afxazeTi da ara... afsni?) _ ga k vi rvebis

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SeZaxils Caboxebul-Caxrinwuli xma gamoepa su xa: _ Lf dtlm uhepbys^ cerbyb ltnb^ nfr yfpsdf.n yfc! (es ZaRliSvili qarTvelebi ase gveZaxian!)

_ Ye b gecnm&&& hfp dtc vbh c nfrbv yfpdfy b tv

ep yfk yfc _ э“nj lf;t r kexitve! (msofliom xom am saxelwodebiT gagvicno? es ukeTesicaa!)

`boevikebi~ yiamyralobdnen, gauTavebel, uazro xorxocSi erTmaneTs axsenebdnen xan erT, xan meore epizods _ axalda-basa Tu galSi momxdars. gansakuTrebuli mowonebisa da kmayofilebis grZnobas, rogorc Cans, iwvevda maTSi CeCeni musas, adiReli abdulas, kazaki slavikas, somexi sarqisas saxelebi: is, Tu CeCenma musam rogor gaaupatiura fex-mZime qali axaldabaSi, mere rogor gaufatra muceli, iqidan `gruzinski ubliudoki~ rogor amoiyvana da naWer-naWer aqna, mere xeze rogor Camokida abra _ iyideba qarTuli xorcio. _ am mogonebam aRtacebis iseTi xorxoci gamoi-wvia, rom mikro-avtobusis mZRolic ki Setokda, sarkidan malulad, SeSfoTebuli mzera moavlo `boevikebs~. aranak-lebi aRfrTovaneba mohgvara maT slavikis da sarqisas mier galSi ori gauTxovari, xnieri maswavlebeli debis Zmis Tan-daswrebiT namusis axdis da Semdeg samTaves erTad daxocvis ambavma. aseTive kmayofilebiTa da siamovnebiT igonebdnen im auracxel nadavls, galSi rom Caigdes xelSi.

_ F pyftim^ xnj ,skj jcj,tyyj cvtiyj?^ Jcnf k b cm^

xnj,s rfhfekbnm lj,hj^ f gjlj[kb^ rfr cf ,f rb! (ici ra iyo gansakuTrebiT sasacilo? darCnen, rom eyaraulebinaT Tavis avla-didebisTvis, xolo suli ga ZvraT, rogorc ZaR-lebs!)

_ F vyjub[ dtlm cdbymb cmtkb!&& gj[jhjybnm nj yt ­

rjve ,skj!&& [f&&& [f&&& [f&&& (bevri maTgani xom Rorebma Se-Wames! dammarxavi xom aRaravin darCa?.. ha, ha, ha...)

_ Nfr bv yflj!&& Tot yt dct eybxnj;tys! vyjubt

dc t;­nfrb ecgtkb elhfnm!&& yj ybxtuj!&& lj,thtvcz b lj

yb[^ [jnm d N,bkbcb& (axia magaTze. jer kidev yvela araa

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gaJletili. bevrma gaqceva mainc moaswro. ara uSavs. imaTac mivwvdebiT, Tund Tbilisamde!) _ gineba, xarxari, purWyva da fexis braguni erTmaneTSi airia.

_ Ye^ ns^ cnthdf^ xnj vjkxbim^ zpsr xnj­kb ghj u k­jnbkf? F vj;tn ns yt ghjnbd xnj,^ nt,z^ pltc­;t^ ghb

dct[&&& f& [f^ [f^ [f^ (Sen, ZaRliSvilo, rad gaCumebulxar? ena gadaylape, Tu ra?.. egeb Sen wi naaRmdegi arca xar, aqve, yvelas Tvalwin... a?.. ha, ha, ha!)

_ Z hfpujdfhbdf. njkmrj c k.lmvb^ f yt c ;bd­

jnysvb! (me mxolod adamianebTan vlaparakob da ara piru-tyvebTan!) _ TviTonac ar icis, rogor moswyda es sityvebi mis bage-pirs.

_ F[^ ns^ cerf^ ,&&& (ux, Seni, ZaRliSvilo...) _ bilwi, uSveri ginebiT jangara saxis `boevikma~ rac Zali da Rone hqonda cxvir-pirSi muSti Caartya. qals sisxli waskda, ma-gram ar ganZreula, arc daukvnesia.

_ Dblbim^ rfr gjntrkf e nt,z rhjdm^ vthpfd rf&&& dct ds^ uhepbys^ ,eltnt djn nfr [fhrfnm b bcntrfnm

rhjdm.! (xedav rogor, wamogivida sisxli, Se salaxanav? Tqven yvelani, yvela qarTveli ase amoarwyevT sisxls da daiclebiT sisxlisgan!) _ niSnismogebiT, Tvalebis breciT crida sityvebs `boeviki~... Semdeg muxlebze wixli uTavaza qals: _ djn nt,t tot^ cerf! (ai, kidev erTic, Zuknav!)

_ Ufhbr [dfnbn!&& vs ljkm;ys ljcnfdbnm э“ne ;t y­obye ;bdjq&

_ ns xnj^ ;fkttim ‘э“ne uhepbycre. lhzym?&_ Z ybrjuj yt ;fkt.^ f [jxe kbim ljcnfdbnm э“ne

;tyobye ytdhtlbvjq!_ Ytn^ tckb ns [jnm rfgtkmre ;fkttim э“ne ce re^

nj ns yt yfcnjzobq f,[fptw!_ Ye^ ljdjkmyj^ [dfnbn!&& rnj yfcnjzobq f,[fptw^ f rnj

ytn _ yt nt,t^ Ufhbre Vrhnsxzye^ dszcy znm!_ Pfvjkxbnt ds j,f!&& ds xnj^ cdb[yekbcm^ vf vf vjz&&&

( _ garik, geyofa!.. Cven es qali cocxali unda miviyvanoT!_ Sen ra? gecodeba es qarTveli salaxana?

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_ me aravin mecodeba, minda es qali uvnebeli mivgvaro ufrosebs!

_ ara, Sen Tu erTi wveTiT mainc gecodeba es qali, maSin Sen namdvili afxazi ara yofilxar.

_ geyofa, sakmarisia... vin namdvili afxazia da vin ara _ es Seni _ garik mkrtiCianis gasarkvevi ar gaxlavs.

_ gaCumdiT orive. Tqven ra, SeiSaleT?.. Cemi deda...)... mikroavtobusi samsarTuliani saxlis win gaCerda._ Ye^ dsktpfq^ gj’nэ“ccf! (_ aba, gadmodi poetesav!)...mosacdelSi mrgval, did magidas erTi qali da ramden-

ime kaci Semosxdomoda._ Pltcm gjlj;lb^ gj’tn’pccf^ gjrf nt,z yt dspjden! (

_ aq daicade, poetesav, sanam ar gamogiZaxeben!) _ damcinavi xmiTa da gesliani RimiliT uTxra erTma boevikTaganma~. da kabinetSi Sealaja.

qali cariel skamze mZimed daeSva, Tan TiTebs cxvirze iWerda, rom sisxlis dena SeeCerebina. Savi kabis gulispiri erTianad moTxvroda sisxliT.

uceb damxvduri xnieri, gamxdari, patara tanis, saxeafo-rajebuli mandilosani, vis gverdiTac aRmoCnda, misken gad-moixara da: _ Tqven... mzia ar brZandebiT? obolaZe?..

qalma uxmod dauqnia Tavi._ RmerTo Cemo, RmerTo Cemo!.. Tqven risTvis? ratom?

siyvarulis da sikeTis meti ra gikeTebiaT?.. Tumca, ras vam-bob?.. ra sisulelea! am siZulvilis apoTeozSi siyvaruli ra saxsenebelia! _ Zlivs gasagoni xmiT CurCulebda man-dilosani da Tan waramara ifarebda tuCebze cxvirsaxocs. mere moisazra da Tavisi cxvirsaxoci gauwoda qals.

_ aiReT... sisxli SeiwmindeT... vai, Cemo dReo, amas ras moveswariT!.. _ man TiTqmis ZaliT SeaCeCa cxvirsaxoci sax-egamtknarebul, mdumare qals. mziam CamoarTva da cxvirpiri moiwminda, Semdeg sisxliani naWeri xelSi momuWa: _ didi madloba, qalbatono... _ tuCebis uxmo moZraobiT, Zlivs

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waiduduna: _ rogor mecnobiT, qalbatono... magram... mapatieT, veRar vigoneb, saidan...

_ me luba var,beraia, pedagogi... _ swrafad SeeSvela man-dilosani: _ mexuTe skolaSi vaswavlidi qarTuls... erTxel Sexvedra mogiwyveT skolaSi... Tqven iseTi didebuli iyaviT...

_ o, diax... diax... momagonda... brwyinvale saRamo iyo!.. sul samiode wlis win iyo es ambavi da... TiTqos saukune gavida mas Semdeg! _ Seisvena... _ Tqven... risTvis? Tumca... ra sakiTxavia... _ mere isev iyuCa da:

_ sada varT, Tu iciT? am Senobas vera vcnob..._ es... es maTi `kagebea~... mgoni. iciT... aravis indoben,

aravis, Tuki qarTvelia, _ qalbatoni luba sxapasxupiT, ma-gram xmadabla laparakobda:

_ iciT, albaT, biZina mgalobliSvili mxecurad rom mokles, es ukeTilSobilesi pirovneba, brwyinvale eqimi... ze-limxan danelia... SoTa jRamaZe... vera yolbaia... sul eqime-bi... xuta axalaia gecodinebaT, `sabWoTa afxazeTis~ yofili redaqtori, pensioneri... pedagogebi xom ramdeni daxoces!.. luiza anCabaZe, gaxsovT, albaT, sajarod daxvrites... romeli erTi CamovTvalo? Tqveni meuRlis ambavi maSinve gavige... Tqven aq ar megulebodiT... TiTqmis mTeli qarTuli inteli-gencia, vinc qalaqSi darCa, amoJlites am mxecebma, nadirebma, faSistebma! axla viTom adgilze ar xvreten... aq mohyavT, viTom raRacas iZieben... ra unda gamoZion?.. ra damiSavebia? ratom unda davmaluliyavi, viTom? _ mcire xnis dumilis Semdeg isev wamoiwyo: _ iciT... galSic saSineli ambebi momx-dara... gagra da kamani monagoniao... xom iciT, kamanSi mox-ucebi, qalebi da bavSvebi erTianad gaJlites. axaldabaSic... galSi, soxumis dacemis Semdeg, gamsaxurdia Casula... mitingi Cautarebia... aqedan fexi ar moicvaloT, male davbrundebi da soxums gavaTavisuflebo...

mandilosani pirze xelafarebuli, cxared, SeuCerebliv laparakobda, Tan SiSCamdgar Tvalebs acecebda. zogjer, un-

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eblieT xmas auwevda, magram gons mosuli, maSinve isev Cur-Culze gadadioda.

_ me axlobelTan vimalebodi... afxazebi arian... viRacam damasmina!.. albaT, Tqvenc, ara?.. oh, ra ubedureba datrialda Cvens Tavze!.. rom Caukvirde, SeiZleba Wkuidan SeiSalo... vici, vinc gamca, mara, ra unda vqna? ras vizam?.. verafers... sruliad verafers! Cems saxlSi ukve kai xania Sesaxldnen gadamTielebi. madloba RmerTs, Cemma Svilebma gaaswres... _ aRelvebuli, arabunebrivad saxealewili da TvalanTebuli moxuci qali, Canda laparakiT cdilobda gulis mooxebas da moZalebuli SiSis daZlevas.

mosacdelSi myofi xalxi, upiratesad, asakovani mamakacebi, pirSi wyalCagubebuliviT, dumdnen _ Tavia nT safiqrals micemulni. yvelas cxvir-piri Camostir o da, TiTqos uJmurma Camoiara da yvelani saTiTaod daam u njao.

garkveuli intervalis Semdeg kabinetis kari iReboda, wvermoSvebuli, TmaaburZgnuli, rusul samxedro formaSi gamowyobili axalgazrda kaci siis mixedviT iZaxebda iq myofT. gamoZaxebuli welmowyvetiliviT dgeboda da las-lasiT Sedioda kabinetSi. iqidan gamosuls `boeviki~ gareT miuZRveboda.

roca misi saxeli da gvari gaisma, wamiT Tvalebi moxuWa, TiTqos axla-wyalSi Casaxtomad emzadeboda. mere Zlivs SesamCnevi RimiliT gadaxeda qalbaton lubas, piri rom Riad darCenoda da Tvalebi gadmocvenaze hqonda. Semcbari da saSinlad dabneuli qalbatoni luba uceb TiTqos gamofxi-zlda, xelze xeli mouWira qals da: _ gamagrdiT, qalba-tono mzia! gamagrdiT! _ uTxra CurCuliT. mziam TvalebiT, usityvod madloba gadauxada da mxrebgaSlilma, Tavaweulma kabinetSi Seabija.

sufTad pirgaparsuli, axalgazrda qera mamakaci grZel magidas ujda da saqmiani ieriT qaRaldebSi iqeqeboda.

karga xans idga karTan. bolos axalgazrda kacma Tavi aswia da damarcvliT, rusulad mimarTa qals:

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_ Tqven mzia xarT, obolaZe, ara? ai, am qaRaldze moawer-eT xeli! _ da raRac qaRaldi gadmougdo ise, rom zed ar Seuxedavs misTvis. arc sigareti gamouRia piridan. da saqmiani ieriT ganagrZo raRacis kiTxva.

qali jer wamierad Seyoymanda. Semdeg rusuladve upasuxa: (mTeli dialogi maT Soris rusul enaze wari marTa):

_ me Tan ara maqvs saTvale... amas garda, ar msurs raime dokuments xeli movawero!

_ aq mxolod weria is, rom Tqven gamocxaddiT... e.i. mogi-yvanes dakiTxvaze! _ gaRizianebuli kiloTi miugo axalgaz-rdam da qalis miRma, sadRac sivrces miapyro pirquSi mzera.

_ dakiTxvaze?.. ki magram, raSi mdebT brals?.. me _ poeti var da arasodes aravisTvis araferi damiSavebia.

_ Tqven damnaSave xarT imaSi, rom... qarTveli poeti br-ZandebiT, es ki _ savsebiT sakmarisia!

qali warbSeuxrelad uyurebda saxeSi axalgazrdas, ro-melic kvlav viTom raRacis Zebnas Seudga saqaRaldeSi.

mcire xnis Semdeg qalma wynari, mSvidi xmiT wamoiwyo:_ Tqveni saxe Zalian mecnoba, Tqven.. afxazi xarT?_ ra SekiTxvaa?.. maS, vin unda viyo? _ xmaSi foladi

gamouria kacma da Sublsqvemodan dadarajebuli mzeriT gamoxeda.

_ SeiZleba gavigo, ra gvaris brZandebiT?_ raSi gWirdebaT? an... ra mniSvneloba aqvs axla amas

TqvenTvis? _ moWra axalgazrdam civad da isev saqaRaldes daaCerda mogonili gulgrilobiT.

_ imitom gekiTxebiT... namdvili afxazi dedistola qals skams SesTavazebda-meTqi.

_ nu... CamojeqiT, Tu gnebavT... _ Caiburtyuna axalgazrdam, mzeradaxrilma.

_ gmadlobT. _ qali magidas miujda da orive xelis mtevani zed daawyo:

_ maS ase... raSi madanaSaulebT, Tu SeiZleba gamimeoreT, geTayva!

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_ me ukve vTqvi: Tqven Tqveni leqsebiT da saerTod, mTeli Tqveni moRvaweobiT yovelTvis Cvens winaaRmdeg iyaviT, iseve rogorc Tqveni meuRle. Tqven yovelTvis gZuldaT afxazoba!_ magram... magram es xom... tyuilia! da Tqvenc kargad

iciT es! _ qali kvlav Tvals ar acilebda SublSekrul axalgazrdas, daJinebiT rom aridebda mzeras.

_ me ukve giTxariT... saTqmeli._ magram momismine, Sviliko..._ me Tqveni Svili ar gaxlavarT..._ dae, ase iyos, me imereli qali var, magram mTeli cxovre-

ba aq, afxazeTSi gamitarebia da afxazeTi iseve miyvars, ro-gorc mTeli saqarTvelo saerTod. mTeli Cemi poezia ki _ siyvarulis sagalobelia.

_ Tqven ar gindaT gaigoT, rom afxazeTi _ saqarTvelo ar aris! _ uceb fexze wamoiWra axalgazrda da gaavebuli saxiT magidas orive muSti dahkra:

_ gaigeT, rom Cveni afsni ar saWiroebs Tqvens farisev-lur siyvaruls!.. sinamdvileSi Tqven yvelas, maT Soris Tqvens qmarsac, gZuldaT da gZulT afxazebi. morCa da gaT-avda!

_ Cemi qmari inJiner-mSenebeli iyo, _ ar Seepua qali da xmas aumaRla _ rogor SeiZleba mas sZuleboda Tavis aSenebuli saxlebi da is xalxi, vinc iq cxovrobda?.. miT umetes, rogor SeiZleba poets sZuldes mTeli xalxi?.. sx-vaTa Soris, Cems meuRlesac da mec uamravi afxazi megobari gvyavda... me mimaCnia...

_ etyoba, ar gyoliaT, vinaidan... arc erTi ar gamog-sarClebiaT! _ axalgazrdam iqednurad CaiRimila da kvlav savarZelSi gaitylarWa, Tan auCqareblad moukida sigarets da neba-neba gaabola.

_ diax. es ambavi savalaloa, rasakvirvelia! sulmokleoba ar amSvenebs adamians, magram, ras izamT: yvelas rodi ZaluZs Rirseulad icxovros da Rirseuladve mokvdes!. Tumca... me ramdenadac vici, bevrma pativsacemma afxazma datova soxumi...

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_ Tqven gindaT TqvaT, rom... isini gaiqcnen aqedan?

_ diax, rogoc Cans asea! _ kvlav ar Seepua qali da

Tvali TvalSi gauyara.

_ mdaa... gasagebia. yvelaferi gasagebia. maS ase...

qalma gaawyvetina:

_ ho, marTla... gamaxsenda... me gavixsene Tqveni gvari!..

Tqven faCulia brZandebiT. givi faCulia. Cven arSbas qor-

wilze SevxvdiT erTmaneTs! maSin, maxovs, Tqveni maRalfar-

dovani sadRegrZeloebiT miipyariT yuradReba. sxvaTa Soris,

maxsovs, mWevrmetyvelurad xotbas asxamdiT qarTveli da

afxazi xalxebis megobrobas.

_ me yovelTvis mejavrebodnen qarTvelebi da mimaCnia,

isini saTiTaod unda gaiJliton!

qali Tvaldauxamxameblad, Zlivs SesamCnevi ironiuli Ri-

miliT uyurebda kacs, romelic sibrazisagan saxeze wamoWarx-

lebuliyo, da xelebs uazrod, uangariSod afaTurebda qa-

RaldebSi. mere qalma odnav gaiqnia Tavi da: _ RmerTo Cemo,

saidan aseTi mZvinvare siZulvili, aseTi boRma da RvarZli?

Tqven xom faCulia brZandebiT bolosdabolos?

_ me _ afxazi var. morCa da gaTavda.

_ iyaviT, batono. magram... gvars ras uSvrebiT? Tqven xom,

Cemi qmariviT, afxazeTis mkvidri, anu WeSmariti afxazi br-

ZandebiT! maSasadame...

_ geyofaT. Tqven aq Cemi warmomavlobis gamosarkvevad ar

mogviyvanixarT. da saerTod, ar mcalia...

_ magram... amixseni, geTayva, am droul qals _ aseTi si-

Zulvilis mizezi?.. riTi daimsaxures qarTvelebma igi?!..

Cven xom marTla erTi Ziridan da fesvidan varT! Cven

xom sinamdvileSi moZmeni varT!.. aki Zveli afxazebi, igive

kolxebi, saqarTvelos gaerTianebisa da gaZlierebis moTave-

ni iyvnen Tavis droze... nuTu ar gifiqriaT, rom Tqveni es

siZulvili qarTvelebis mimarT, garkveulma Zalebma sagange-

bod, avi zraxviT Canerges?

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_ CvenTvis aravis araferi Caugonebia. qarTvelebi yov-elTvis iyvnen Cveni mtrebi, dampyroblebi... qarTvelebma Cven yvelaferi wagvarTves, yvelaferi da movrCeT axla. ar aris saWiro diskusia...

_ magram me... unda giTxraT... me movale var giTxraT, _ axla qalic wamodga saxealanZuli, aRSfoTebisgan xmaakank-alebuli _ ramdenadac vici Cveni istoria _ swored qa-rTvelebs arTmevdnen teritoriebs, enas, sarwmunoebas... ma-gram qarTvelebi ar gaborotebulan, rac mTavaria _ sikeTis gacemis unari ar daukargavT!.. maT Tqvenc, rogorc namd-vil afxazebs, ise gaafxazebul afsuebs anu adiReur tomebs _ aq Camosaxlebulebs, _ gaCuqes klasikosi, literaturis da damwerlobis damfuZnebeli _ dimitri gulia! Segiqmnes Teatri, gamogizardes samecniero kadrebi, gagixsnes univer-siteti, televizia, radio. Tumca Tqven Tqvens enaze saSualo skolac ara gaqvT _ da es Cveni brali ar aris! arc erT av-tonomiur respublikas mTels sabWoTa kavSirSi, ar gaaCnda is privilegiebi, rac Tqven gqondaT... Tqvenze bevrad mraval-ricxovan xalxebsac ki. maTi gadagvarebis da garusebis mag-aliTebi ager cxvirwin gaqvT, Crdilo-kavkasielebis saxiT! Tqvenma arZinbamac ki TbilisSi daicva disertacia, radgan moskovSi amis saSualeba ar misces... qarTvelebs arasodes, arasodes hqoniaT sxva xalxebis mimarT siZulvilis grZno-ba. piriqiT, yovelTvis TavSesafars aZlevdnen devnilebs, da-Cagrulebs, asaxlebdnen Tavis miwa-wyalze, xels uwyobdnen yovelnairad. somxebma, Tavis droze, ar miiRes TurqeTidan devnili Tvistomni. saqarTvelom ki, farTod gauRo maT karebi... da romeli erTi CamovTvalo!.. afxazebis rogorc TanamoZmeebis mimarT xom yovelTvis siyvaruliT, pativisce-miT iyvnen ganmsWvalulni da saerTod...

_ diax, diax. rasakvirvelia. afxazebis mimarT siyvarulis gamo iyo stalinma da beriam rom daxoces afxazeTis in-teligencia. viciT Cven, kargad viciT am `siyvarulis~ fasi!

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_ magram, batono givi, stalinma da beriam igive uyo qa-rTvel inteligencias, saerTod qarTvel xalxs. magram es yvelaferi xom bolSevikuri reJimis dros xdeboda!.. 37 weli iyo! Tqven ki... me-20 saukunis bolos, yovelgvari Ziebisa da sasamarTlos gareSe, gawyviteT aTiaTasobiT mSvidobiani macxovrebeli, mxolod imis gamo, rom isini _ qarTvelebi iyvnen! afxazeTis naxevarze meti mkvidri mosaxleoba gan-devneT mama-papaTa adgilebidan. faSistebiviT moawyveT namd-vili genocidi. romel samarTlianobaze melaparakebiT Tqven, pativcemulo faCuliav?

_ marto am sityvebis gamo unda daexvriteT Tqven adg-ilze!.. beslan, momaSoreT es qali! gaiyvaneT aqedan!

_ Tu RmerTi gwamT, nu maSinebT sikvdiliT! me didi xania mzada var masTan Sesaxvedrad. Tqven ki... `miuteve, ufalo, rameTu ara uwyian, rasa iqman!~ _ es bolo fraza qalma qa-rTul enaze warmorTqva.

_ me ar mesmis Tqveni ZaRluri ena da arc minda mesmodes!_ es sityvebi saxarebidan gaxlavT, romelic, sxvaTa So-

ris, Cemma winaprebma me-4, me-5 saukuneebSi Targmnes da yvela ena, romelzedac aris Targmnili es wminda wigni _ RvTi-uria! am enazea Seqmnili brwyinvale saero da sasuliero literatura, romelic saerTo iyo yvela kolx-iberiuli, tomebisaTvis! maT Soris _ afxazebisaTvis! es gaxlavT is-toriuli simarTle.

kacma wamiT Tavi CaRuna da xelebi uxmod momuSta. qalma acala boRmis moneleba da mere Semwynarebluri RimiliT ganagrZo: _ diax, qarTuli ena da kultura yvela kavkasieli xalxisTvis mSobliuri da axlobeli iyo-meTqi! xolo si-Zulvili da siave bumerangiviT ubrundeba imas, vinc mas Tess.

_ kmara-meTqi. geyofaT. beslan _ gaiyvaneT es qali aqe-dan!

`boevikma~ mklavSi xeli waavlo qals: _ ar iyo saWiro amdeni ceremoniebi... eseni yvelani adgilzeve unda mia-sikvdilo, viT cofiani ZaRlebi! _ `boevikma~ qals karisken

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ujikava. qalma mkveTri moZraobiT mklavi gainTavisufla da iseTi TvalebiT Sexeda, rom `boeviks~ wamiT ena Cauvarda. gaSeSda.

_ nu gixaria, Svilo, sxvisi, Tundac mosisxle mtris sikvdili! Cven yvelani mokvdavebi varT da... imitom! ra dRes, ra xval _ yvelani davixocebiT, oRond... zogi sufTa sindisiT wardgeba RmerTis winaSe, zogi kidev _ sisxlSi moTxvrili xelebiT!

wamiT dabneuli `boeviki~ Zveleburad SemarTuliyo _ mimifurTxebia Tqveni RmerTisTvis, Zukna!

qali karebSi Sedga, mobrunda da axalgazdas dananebis kiloTi mimarTa: _ Tqven... samwuxarod, iaraRi xarT sxvaTa xelSi. Tqven... aRmsrulebeli xarT ucxo Zalebis boroti nebisa da amitomac... mecodebiT! yvelani Zalian mecodebiT!

_ gaaTrie es qali, beslan, aqedan!moulodnelad telefonis zari awkrialda. saxeSeSli-

li, gacofebuli givi faCulia yurmils dawvda. uceb saxe daugrZelda. TiTqos pirkata ecao, xma Caexrinwa. Tvalebi daeyvlipa. mere... Zlivs-ZlivobiT waiburdRuna raRac ru-sulad da kabinetSi darCenil erT-erT TanaSemwes uRriala, obolaZe ukan daabruneo.

roca qali kvlav kabinetSi Semoiyvanes, givi faCuliam, Tavi rom ar auwevia, ise, kbilebSi gamoscra: _ Tqven... Tavi-sufali xarT!.. SegiZliaT Sin dabrundeT!

qali ar Serxeula, mxolod warbebi awkipa odnav._ Tqven ra?.. ver agigeT, rac giTxariT? _ TiTqmis iyvira

kacma._ ara, ar mesmis! _ mSvidi xmiT Tqva qalma da gamomcdeli

mzeriT miaCerda faCulias._ ra aris gaugebari?.. Tavisufali xarT da SegiZliaT

saxlSi dabrundeT-meTqi. _ gaimeora faCuliam daufaravi boRmiT da isev qaRaldebSi Cargo Tavi.

`RmerTo Cemo!.. nuTu?.. nuTu marTla Tavisufali var da... SemiZlia Sin davbrunde?.. SemiZlia Cemi pawia mziako vnaxo,

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bebo enacvalos!.. maS, Tavisufali var? da Tu sikvdilia... Cemebis xelSi movkvde _ mSvidad, wynarad... RmerTo!.. ki, magram... ra moxda?.. ase uecrad ra Seicvala?~ _ swrafad enacvlebodnen erTmaneTs azrebi. mere... TiTqos gaiyina, yvelaferi SeCerda. siCumes SiSini gahqonda yurebSi. mere... uceb raRac ganaTda gonebaSi. Tavidan fexebamde Jruantelma dauara. wamic da... saxeze mtkice, Seuvali gamometyveleba gamoexata.

_ TqvenTan aq, mosacdelSi imyofeba sruliad udanaSaulo, moxuci pedagogi qali, luba beraia! _ warmoTqva dinji xmiT da xazgasmuli simSvidiT: _ Tu masac gaaTavisuflebT, maSin miviReb Tqvens winadadebas.

_ mxolod Tqvenze iyo zari. _ kacs xma CaexliCa. Tva-lebi avad daakvesa.

`ax, telefonis zari!.. ai, Turme ra! magram vin?.. vin dareka?~

_ me ukve giTxariT Cemi saTqmeli!wamieri WoWmanis Semdeg givi faCuliam kbilebis Cumi

kraWuniT, nomeri akrifa. xanmokle saubris Semdeg, afsuur enaze rom mimdinareobda, man TiTqos SvebiT amoisunTqa. yur-mili frTxilad dado da qals daufaravi niSnisgebiT uTxra: _ mxolod Tqvenzea saubari!.. ase rom, mogiwevT airCioT...

qalma wamiT Tvalebi moxuWa. sxeulSi kvlav deniviT dauara raRacam. mere... yeli amayad moiRera, welSi gaimarTa:

_ me ukve gavakeTe arCevani... qalbaton lubasTan erTad vrCebi!

* * *

...avtobusSi msxdomni, gasusuli iyvnen. yvelani erT da imave azrs Seepyro, erTi da igive sagonebels miscemodnen: saiT mihyavdaT?.. ratom?.. ras upirebdnen?..raki erTbaSad, ayvanisTanave ar daxoces da sadRac

mihyavT. e.i. SesaZloa, sadme qalaq gareT cixeSi upireben

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gamomwyvdevas?.. aki aravis araferi dauSavebia, garda imisa, rom Tavi aarides `boevikebis~ ganukiTxaobas! Tumca... ra danaSaulzea laparaki?.. eseni rames dagideven?

moxuc pedagog mandilosans, mzias Tavgamodebaze warmod-genac rom ar hqonda, Tavi mis mxarze Camoedo da gaCumebu-

liyo. Tumca dro da dro ise mwared da Rrmad amoioxrebda,

TiTqos mTeli guli amoatana am gminvaso. gayinul saxeze

TvalebiRa SerCenoda _ farTod gaxelili, SiSiT da Zr-

woliT momzirali sveli Tvalebi. mzias misTvis welze

mklavi Semoexvia da Tavadac gayuCebuliyo. TeTrTmiani, pa-

tara tanis, moxuci qali-dedas agonebda, odesRac, uwin, bavS-

viviT gulSi Cakruli, saavadmyofoSi rom mihyavda _ usu-

suri, umweo, dauZlurebuli...

ijda mdumared, Seurxevlad da meramdened cdilobda gae-

analizebina is, rac iq, kabinetSi moxda da... erT da igive

daskvnamde midioda: sxvanairad ar SeeZlo! vera, ver moiq-

ceoda sxvanairad. faCulias gancvifrebul, Sublze acvenil

Tvalebs rom warmoidgenda _ uzomo siames grZnobda. batoni

givi faCulia, rogorc Cans, ar moeloda aseT gadawyvetile-

bas Tu miiRebda qali. misi esoden gawbilebuli da gamoy-

eyeCebuli saxis danaxva marto rad uRirda! hm! maS, ra eg-

ona baton faCulias?.. mowyalebas miiRebda mtarvalisgan?..

anda... am sacodav, moxuc qals marto datovebda?.. vera, pa-

tivcemulo givi! sadac sxvebi _ Tavadac iq unda iyos, morCa

da gaTavda! magram... sainteresoa, vin dareka?.. vin gamoido

Tavi?.. nuTu... simam Seawuxa Tavisi gavleniani naTesavi?..

mTel am ambavSi kmayofilebas hgvrida isic, rom guli

amoiferTxa faCuliasTan. ar daerida arafers... sxva dros

albaT ase ar moiqceoda Tavisi rbili xasiaTis gamo. magram

axla?

mgoni, avtobusi soxums gacda... marTlacda, ras niSnavs

amxela manZilis gavla? Tu cixeSi mihyavT, maSin... raSi

sWirdebaT gzis gagrZeleba?..

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soxums rom gascdnen, es cxadze ucxadesia!

soxumi... usayvarlesi qalaqi... misi ymawvilqalobis

momswre...

ramdeni bednieri wuTebi axsovs am qalaqSi gatarebuli!..

saaTobiT, gaunZrevlad SeeZlo ecqira zRvisTvis, o, rogor

izidavda misi usazRvro sivrce!.. usazRvroebisken miilt-voda yovelTvis misi suli, rac Tavi axsovs!..

cis usasrulo silaJvardeSi navardi inatra maSinac, soflis wyarosTan, kldeze rom acocda patara, anci gogona da Tvalwin gadaSlil sivrces gadmoxeda maRlidan. o, ro-gor mounda, frTebi gamosxmoda da im miminosaviT efrina, caSi iraos rom akeTebda, _ laRi, amayi, Tavisufali!

iqneb maSin daibada leqsis pirveli strofic. _ balRu-rad umwifari, ususuri da... mainc frenis, frTagaSlili frenis wyurviliT damuxtuli!

da marTlac, aki gaSala mklavebi _ mziuri, aqoCrili mTa _ gorakebis da zurmuxtovani vel-mindvrebis silamaziT retdasxmulma da... misda uneburad, leqsad gadmoskda bage-piridan is gancda _ yelTamde rom avsebda!..

maSindeli STagoneba da aRtkineba samudamod CarCa gul-Si iseve, rogorc zRvis pirvelad xilvis Tavbrudamxvevi STabeWdileba!

RmerTo!.. ra mSvenieri, ra lamazi da momxiblavi iyo cxovrebis gariJraJi!.. ramdeni sixarulis da bednierebis wami mogitana man: pirveli siyvaruli... pirveli kocniT mogvrili gancdis simZafre da... pirveli leqsi!.. qorwili da pirveli bavSvis gaCena!

rogoc leqsi ibadeba iq, Sens arsebaSi, Sens wiaRSi, ise iSva Seni pirmSo, Seni badri! _ pirveli siyvarulis nayofi!.. vera. ver daCrdila is wamebi veranairma gulis gatexvam, Tu sulierma tkivilebma, bedma rom garguna...

da ai, axla midixar sadRac, ucnobi mimarTulebiT, midix-ar iqeT, saidanac ar ici, dabrundebi Tu ara odesme da... mTeli Seni cxovreba kino-firiviT iSleba Sens Tvalwin

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_ Senda ukiTxavad, Senda uneburad geZalebian gardasuli,

TiTqos sizmareuli suraTebi warsulisa, ganvlili droisa

da... azvirTebul talRasaviT gaburTaveben TavianT morevSi,

giTreven im oromtrialSi, xsovnas rom SemorCenia!.. isini

elvis uswrafesad, fragmentulad enacvlebian erTi meores

da mTels Sens cxovrebas moicaven, TiTqos yovel mniSvnelo-

van epizods Tu detals iteven...

mogonebaTa am niaRvarSi xan bavSvobis suraTebi lag-

debian wina planze, xanac axalgazrdobis, xan ki-ukanaskneli

periodis, anda: piruku trialdeba yvelaferi da bolodro-

indeli movlenebi gadaefarebina winas...

uceb... kadri SeCerda! dro-Jami TiTqos gaqvavda. da ai,

nel-nela... bolodan, uxilavma xelma firis gadaxveva daiwyo...

im momentidan, ukanasknelad rom iyavi mweralTa kavSirSi.

... dangreul-dacarielebuli soxumis quCebSi midiodi

mxrebCamoyrili, uzarmazar simZimes, gulze rom gawva, lamis

gaeWylite. da uceb, moulodnelad yviTlad abrialebuli

nekerCxali SemogefeTa. oh, ise lamazi da mSvenieri iyo

seqtembris mziT SeJRaluli, kelaptariviT anTebuli neker-

Cxlis xe, rom sulma wagZlia da... ori toti moatexe.

mweralTa kavSirSi aravin dagixvda, mdivani gogonas gar-

da. kabinetSi Sexvedi da erTi toti larnakSi Cadevi.

kari rom gamoixure, guli mogewura _ mtkivani, daWril-

dafleTili guli, TiTqos igrZno, rom ukanasknelad Camo-

diodi am kibeze...…Tumca…_ mTavari win gedo, tragediis

kulminacia Turme jer kidev win iyo!

RmerTo! iqneb jobda am ramdenime wlis win, saoperacio

magidaze dagelia suli?

sjobda! namdvilad sjobda. risTvis gadarCi? rom am-

deni simware da tanjva-wvaleba gamogecada?.. golgoTis gza

gamogevlo?

rogor warmoidgendi, Tundac am oriode wlis win, im

ubedur ambebs, rac axla xdeba?

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risTvis, ratom xocaven erTmaneTs TanamoZmeni? `da aRiZ-vrian imav miwisTvis, rac dRes Tu xval TviTve arian~!… ra,… ra asazrdoebs, ra kvebavs am bakqanalias, am gaugonar sisas-tikes?

Tavisuflebis idea? visgan, risgan _ Tavisufali? _ ka-cobisgan? sindisisgan?.. mere da mere, ra unda mohyves yove-live amas?.. am sisxlis zRvas da cremlebs?

rogor daijeros uwindeburad, rogorc 9 aprils sje-roda, rom viTom araferi momxdara, rom `es ubralod cis cvaria, gana cremlia. es ubralo movlenaa, aRmafrenis,… araferi ar momxdara, araferi~. nuTu?!

`ase male rad gamogaqvs ganaCeni, es aprilis cTunebaa, gana Cveni, es ubralod cis cvaria, gana cremli, araferi ar momxdara, araferi~.

rogor, rogor unda icxovron Svilebma, SviliSvilebma _ orive mxaris STamomavlobam im jojoxeTur yofierebaSi, ufrosma Taobam rom ganumzada maT? rac daatriala sa-tanurma sulma?

dardiT da mwuxarebiT gulgasenils, moulodnelad didi xnis unaxavi poeti Semogxvda gzaze.

_ mzia?! Sena xar?.. Zlivs gicani... gamarjoba!_ me var rezo, me! gagimarjos, Cemo Zamia! _ gadaexvieT

da gadakocneT erTmaneTi, Tvalebze cremlmomdgarma, gu-laCuyebulebma.

_ aq ar megulebodi, mzia!.._ miriani ar midis da mec ar minda davtovo aqauroba!.._ Svilebi?_ wasulebi arian... SviliSvili SemeZina, ici!.. jer ar

minaxavs... patara mziako... zugdidSi arian, Sen, Sen ras Svre-bi?.. didi xania SenTvis Tvali ar momikravs... wasuli megone.

_ sofelSi var. deda myavs mZime avad, ori dRea, rac Camovedi.

_ xedav, ra xdeba, rezo?.. ra tragedia datrialda? vi-fiqrebdiT gana amas, warmovidgendiT odesme? meore msoflio oms gadaurCa soxumi, da ai, axla... ibombeba! ibombeba ase

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uwyalod, ase barbarosulad! sakuTar qalaqs bombaven, biWo, gesmis?.. sakuTar qalaqs bombaven, es codvisSvilebi!

_ rusebi bombaven..._ ho, magram amaTi xeliT!.. amaT iyeneben... ai, ra aris

gulsaklavi. ase rogor dabrmavdnen?.. ase rogor daexSoT goneba?

_ albaT, ar miaCniaT sakuTar qalaqad. ho, marTla, gaige gamsaxurdia rom Camosula zugdidSi?

_ gavige._ yvelas hgonia, rom soxumisken gamoswevs saSvelad! _ ar vici... ar vici... araferi ar vici!_ ratom?.. nuTu piradi wyena maRla dadgeba saqarT-

velos interesebze?_ ara erTxel damdgara! Cveni istoria amas metyvelebs... _ davijero, axlac sulmdabloba Zlevs sulgrZelobas?..

qveynis siyvaruls _ Zalauflebis siyvaruli?.. ara mgonia!dumili._ Sen arasodes minaxixar sxva dros aseTi... gulgatexi-

li! yovelTvis optimisti iyavi. axla..._ imdeni ram vnaxe, Cemo rezo, am bolo xanebSi... imdeni

ganvicade... erTni zvarakad ewirebian samSoblos, sxvebs ki _ da mgoni, umravlesobas, samwuxarod, samSoblos SegrZneba saerTod dakarguli aqvs. bevri saZarcvavad, dovlaTis Sesa-Zenad Camodis aq... am gagania omSi! Zneli aris amis atana... Zalian Zneli!..

_ marTali xar, Cemo mzia!.. saukeTeso, darCeuli biWebi, saqarTvelos TiTqmis yoveli kuTxidan, gansakuTrebiT ki _ Tbilisidan, Tavs swiraven, ixocebian, maSin rodesac zog-zogni restornebSi grialeben, anda dubaiSi Cadian drois satareblad, sxva danarCeni yvelaferi fexebze hkidiaT!

_ rogorc Cans, ver gavicnobiereT jer kidev, ra xdeba Cvens Tavze!.. afxazeTi _ mainc Soreul tkivilad aRiqmeba albaT da... imitom!..

_ asea, Seni Tqmis ar iyos, samSoblos SegrZnebis unari davkargeT etyoba, sakuTari jibis gasqelebis ki _ ara!..

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magram... Sengan, simarTle rom giTxra, mikvirs mainc aseTi pesimizmi... Sen yovelTvis, rac maxsovxar, imediani iyavi...yvelaferi kargad rogor eCveneba-meTqi, adre ramdenjerme gamifiqria Senze _ cota gaRizianebiT. ase yvelas rogor uRimis... ase yvelas mimarT rogor aris keTilganwyobili-meTqi, da... mapatie, magram... zogjer arabunebrivadac meCvene-boda kidec Seni saqcieli!.. axla giyureb da... TiTqos ra-Racas vxvdebi... TiTqos Tvali amexila...

_ eh, cxovreba wigniviTaa, Cemo Zamia! rac met furcels gadaSli da CauRrmavdebi, miT ufro gexsneba goni, da miT ufro uaxlovdebi Turme dasasruls, romelic... yovelTvis moulodnelia!.. mec bevr rameze amexila Tvali... am siberis Jams bevri rame TiTqos axleburad gaviazre da mainc... borotebis da sikeTis WidilSi-sikeTis Zleeas ver vxedav!.. piriqiT, satanuri suli zeimobs dResdReobiT, Cemo rezo! da ara mxolod CvenSi!.. saSvelic arsaidan Cans, aravisgan velodebi sikeTes, samwuxarod!

_ magram... Sen mainc lamazi toti giWiravs xelSi..._ xo, Semodgomis rto... _ `am grigalSi dro ar aris sxvisi, daRaluli yvavili

var susti!~_ `exla zRvaa, exla sisxlis droa, Tu gadarCi, xom ga-

darCi, kargi~._ galaktioni geniosia. yvela drois geniosi! mxolod

mas SeeZlo eTqva es. da kidev: `oh, es foTlebi fenili qa-riT, es mwuxare da nazi zmaneba, es yvavilebi, es ca, miTxariT, aravis Tqvengans ar enaneba?~

* * *

...avtobusi gaCerda. Sig msxdomT gadmosvla ubrZanes `bo-evikebma~.

zRvis qviSian-RorRiani sanapiro. lurji, siSavemde lur-ji talRebis Sriali. Toliebis gauTavebeli, guliswamRebi Wyivili.

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zRva! _ uceb gaqra yvelaferi. arc moxuci pedagogis krusuni esmis axla da arc `boevikebis~ Rriali. TiTqos transSi Cavardnili, Rrmad isunTqavs odnav momlaSo, gril haers. sicive igrZno, Tumca saRamos bindi jer ar damd-gariyo. iqneb... sxva sicive Seudga tanSi?

mze nel-nela iRvenTeba dasalierSi: `mze miicvala Ria TvalebiT, mas gaxelili darCa Tvalebi... oh, gaxelili darCa Tvalebi~...

RmerTo! vis SeuZlia Ze-xorciels gamoxatos eniT, Ca-mavali mzis mgloviareba, Ronemileuli mnaTobis daRalva? Tu... wamebis wynari warmavloba?..

albaT, poets Tu ZaluZs es saswauli. mxolod poets _ sxvas aravis!

Camavali mze da...zRva!daica... zRva xom ukve aRar aris uwindeburad sayvareli?

zRva xom SeilanZRa adamianTa sisxliT!.. TanamoZmeTa sisx-liT!.. jer gagraSi daiwyo...

zRvis sanapiroze, Tu mis axlo-maxlo, aki qarTvelTa moWrili TavebiT burTi iTamaSes kidec...

maSin ar daijera es ambavi. ar SeeZlo dajereba. es mis ZalRones aRemateboda da... imitom.

da mainc... Turme sad gaeqcevi mware sinamdviles?.. zRva, Seni sayvareli zRva iqca gvamebis kaiutad!..

sad, sad gaeqcevi-meTqi am usaSvelo, autanel tkivils? sad daemalebi gaugonar, warmoudgenel mxecobas kacTa modg-misa _ ,,are-midamos rom Sxamavs, Rrma mwuxarebis SxamiT?~

Sen xom bevri ramis dajereba ar gindoda... radgan, vera da ver warmogedgina esodeni mtarvaloba gonieri arsebisa, adamiani rom hqvia da... imitom!

Sah-abasis Tu Temur-lengis mier Cadenil barbarosoba koSmarad migaCnda, magram didi xnis win, warsulSi momxdar koSmarad. germanel faSistTa jalaTobas meore msoflio

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omSi da bolSevikur konclagerebSi _ saSineli, magram mainc kacobriobis ganvlil etapad gesaxeboda.

magram axla... Sens Tvalwin, dRevandelobaSi Cadenili sisastike _ im Savbneli warsulis anarekli rom gamodga?.. sad, sad gaeqcevi am mtanjvel, suliT xorcamde Semaryevel realobas? am mwuxarebis Sxams?..

ai, axlac...saTiTaod gahyavT adamianebi: axalgazrda da xnieri, si-

cil-xarxariT gahyavT patara, mwvane mdeloze da… mijriT cxrilaven!.. da rac mTavaria, erTmaneTs ayurebineben sikvdi-lis zeims!

RmerTo didebulo!.. Zveli drois barbarosebis wvril-man `formalobebs~ _ Tvalis axvevas, Tavze Tundac tomris Camocmevas _ vinRa dagidevT! piriqiT, meti sisastike Turme meti velurobaa saWiro! aki faCuliam ar iwyina, ar iTa-kila, faSisti rom uwodes! rogorc Cans, mavanT da mavanT eamayebaT kidec, rom nadiris msgavsni arian. eamayebaT _ daundobloba, sisastike, araadamianoba!

...magram rad aris TviTon ase mSvidad?.. guli ratom ar ukankalebs? (Tumc, xel-fexs ver imorCilebs mainc!) nuTu imitom, rom... didi xania Seegua sakuTar sikvdils? an egeb maSin mokvda, miriani rom daxvrites TiTqmis mis Tvalwin? da veRar mieSvela? verc xmamaRla, moTqmiT itira? verc maSin itire, naCumaTevad, hai, harad rom miabares mezoblebma miwas _ sakuTar karmidamoSi!

...damwyvdeuli hyavdiT sardafSi _ patimariviT, rom... ar genaxa saSineli suraTi kacTa modgmis gadagvarebis. aki mx-olod gulSi Rmuodi da godebdi mwared?

an egeb maSin SeeTvise sikvdils, saoperacio magidaze rom iweqi, saSineli seniT daRdasmuli?.. magram... nuTu? nuTu Seegue: sxvaTa sikvdils?.. o, ara! namdvilad ara...

an am sacodav, beber eqims raRas erCian? vis ra dauSava eqimma kacma _ orive mxares Tanabrad rom aqimobda?!. Tumca,

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aki SoTa jRamaZe saoperaciodan gamoiyvanes da saavadmyo-fos kibeze dacxriles Turme!..

am patara, moxucebul pedagog-qals ra brali miuZRvis vinmes winaSe, TiTqmis gonwasuls rom miaTreven `saCvenebel arenaze~ da... ratomo? _ imeorebs waramara erT da igive

sityvas da... aravin uxsnis, aravin eubneba _ risTvis klaven?

ra mizeziT? ra danaSaulisTvis?

erTbaSad... gaaTaveT, Tqve uRmerToebo! nuRar ayovnebT.

male morCiT. male dauSineT tyviebi am galeul, sabralo

moxucs qals, romelic Turme damnaSavea mxolod imitom,

rom... qarTvelia!.. magram... RmerTo Cemo, es xom iyo, ukve iyo,

batonebo?.. sisxlian saukuneTa grZel gza-savalze!

dacxrileT-meTqi Cqara da... mere dastkbiT, gaixareT Tqve-

ni namoqmedariT! midiT. gulianad ixarxareT, radgan... esoden

did siamovnebas ganiWebT Turme yureba adamianis sadisturi

tanjva-wvalebisa, misi aqna-naWer-naWer, dasaxiCreba da mere...

masxrad agdeba!

aferum, meoce saukunis civilizaciis naSierno, gamoqvabu-

lis mcxovrebTa qurqSi rom gamowyobilxarT!

...avtomatis gabmul kakans bilwsityvaobis korianteli

exmianeba!

RmerTo!

mtredi!.. saidan? saidan gaCnda aq `Cemi mtredi?~

ras damtrialebs Tavze? ra unda? ras meRuRuneba, ras

CurCulebs?

`Cemo mSveniero, Cemo Zvirfaso, sayvarelo, gTxov _

gamagrdi!.. am jalaTebs Tvali TvalSi gauyare medidurad,

gamomwvevad, maT ar ZaluZT mokvdineba Seni sulis... radgan

pawia SviliSvili, jer unaxavi SviliSvili _ Seni Tvale-

biT giRimis da... gealerseba! igi gamxnevebs, Zalas gmatebs,

sulis simebs sinaziT da siyvaruliT girxevs da gaTbobs.

igi xom Seni sisxlis da xorcis nawilia _ masSi icocxleb,

Sens SviliSvilebSic, Sens ubralo, magram gulisnaJur, wrfel

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leqsebSic _ marad icocxleb, icocxleb am qveyanaze, viT am

zRvisa da cis monaTali...~

...morCa, gaTavda. ar meSinia, aRarafris ar meSinia! me

gadavlaxe, ukeTurebo, gesmiT Tu ara? _ me gadavlaxe

sikvdil-sicocxlis kacobrivi SiSisa da Zrwolis samanebi!..me mzada var vzido Cemi wili jvari golgoTis! Tqven

ki _ RvTis risxvas ver gaeqceviT verasdidebiT, vera! ver gaeqceviT!

...rac mTavaria, Sen xom CemTan xar, Cemo TeTro megobaro!.. Sen ar damtove! Sen mierTgule bolo wuTamde _ gansxvave-biT zog-zogisgan... magram RmerTma miutevos yovel maTgans, RmerTma Seundos!..

xolo me... Camavali mzis silamaze meyofa saimqveynio sagzlad!

...srolis xmaze mtredma erTi SeifrTxiala, adamianTa gv-amebiT mofenil sasaklaos wamiswamSi gadaufrina da... Semdeg ukabadono cis silurjeSi daikarga.

an... egeb sulac ar gamoCenila?.. egeb... mxolod ganwiru-lis warmosaxvas eCvena igi?

bindi Camowva. TiTqos erTbaSad Savi mandili gadaefarao are-mares, raTa borotebis sisxliani nakvalevi daemala ucxo mzerisTvis.

surogati

(`sxva saukunis mgzavri gviani!~)

kargad moilxines, rac marTalia marTalia. Tumca... umamakacebod ki.saqme is gaxlavT, rom cocxali Tanamecxedreebi Segnebulad

datoves TamaSgareT, xolo mkvdrebi _ TavisTavad aRmoCndnen am mdgomareobaSi.

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sxva mxriv... es wveuleba winandelTagan TiTqos didad ar gansxvavdeboda am bebruxanebisTvis, rogorc uwodebdnen xolme TavianT Tavs asakovani qalbatonebi.ase iyo Tu ise, sakmaod Seryeuli janmrTelobis

miuxedavad, jerjerobiT cocxlebi iyvnen. ise ki, Zalian

Seecadnen _ Zveleburad emxiarulaT, emReraT, ecekvaT,

eoxunjaT, ufro sworad, ebuqnavaT _ rasakvirvelia, sakuTari

Zalebis Sesatyvisad, anu maTive TqmiT, etingicaT. didebuli

`xvanWkara~ da didebuli kerZebic miirTves, xolo namcxvrebs

rac Seexeba _ erTxmad aRiares isini saucxood da mainc

_ mTavari is iyo, am e.w. xuTeuls kvlav rom uyvardaT

erTmaneTi da kvlav rom uxarodaT erTad yofna. Tumca...

Tumca iyo mainc am SexvedraSi raRac faruli, gaumxeleli

sevdis Tu kaeSnis niSati, rac, SesaZloa zedapirze ar Canda,

magram sulis siRrmeSi imaleboda uTuod TiToeul maTganSi.

_ gogoebo, winadadeba Semomaqvs _ CavaqroT Suqi da

sanTlebis sinaTleze viTamaSoT... bavSvobana!.. anu...

_ moica, moica, Cemo sayvarelo ekuna! aqamde, aba, ras

vSvrebodiT es ZonZroxa bebrucanebi? Tu... Seni azriT,

lavuazies Teoremaze viWyletdiT tvins?

saerTo sicils ekas ganmarteba mohyva:

_ ara, ara... macaleT, Tqve oxrebo! sxva ramis Tqma mindoda...

modiT gulwrfelad, gulaxdilaT movigonoT-meTqi Cveni

bavSvuri ocnebebi da natvra-survili da... alal-marTlad

vaRiaroT _ ra agvixda da _ ra ara!

me mgoni, saintereso iqneba am eqsperimentis Catareba Cvens

asakSi...

_ ar aris urigo azri, xom ici Sen!... yoCaR ekaterine!

_ mec momwons eg idea.

_ mec.

_ mec Tanaxma var.

_ maS, SevTanxmdiT?

_ SevTanxmdiT. SevTanxmdiT ekas venacvale.

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_ raki winadadeba erTxmadaa miRebuli... anu moxda

saswauli da xuTi qarTveli SeTanxmda...

_ amasTan, sagulisxmo isicaa, rom... Tavi aravis Seukavebia...

_ miT umetes... miT umetes, Cemo natali. maS, SevudgeT

saqmes. pirveli vin daiwyebs?

_ Sen iseTi makvarancxi iyavi da xar dResac, Cemo ekuS,

esec winaswar geqneba mofiqrebuli.

_ ara, ara, RmerTmani. spontanurad momivida es azri.

magram, rakiRa Cemi wamowyebulia es ambavi, vfiqrob, ajobebs...

pirveli sityva mivceT Cvens usayvarles megobars, Cvens

saxelovan, mTeli Cveni erisTvis saamayo momRerals, Cvens

Zvirfas miqelaZes... Cvens ninucas!

_ bravo, bravo. SesaniSnavia. Tanaxma varT! _ aRtacebul

SeZaxilebsa da taSis cemaSi uceb gaisma q-on natalis

skeptikuri xma:

_ ratom... ninucas? ver gavige?..

uceb Camovardnil siCumeSi qalbatonma nataliam ganagrZo:

_ Cemo Zvirfasebo, Cemo sayvarlebo, ninucas isic eyofa, rom... saqveynod cnobili pirovnebaa. marTalia, axla nikuSa cocxali ara hyavs, magram... xom iyo bednieri meuRle?.. (ise, Cvens asakSi an nikuSa unda wasuliyo pirveli, an _ ninuSa _ RmerTma asi weli acocxlos Cveni niniko), mara... ras vizamT? aseTia gardauvaloba. anu... yvelani sikvdilis Svilebi varT: ra dRes, ra xval _ yvelani saTiTaod saiqioSi unda wavcuxcuxdeT _ diax, mogvwons es, Tu ara!Cveni ninuca agreTve bednieri dedacaa _ CvenTvis, yvelasTvis

sayvareli vasiko amerikidanac ar aklebs yuradRebas da mzrunvelobas. asevea _ SviliSvilebic! mokled, Cveni niniko bednieri qali iyo da aris dResac _ miuxedavad imisa, rom am bolo dros cota sibere Seepara, rac mogexsenebaT, gansakuTrebiT lamazi qalisTvis, yvela Wirze ufro didi Wiria, magram... esec bunebis kanon-zomiereba gaxlavT da rasac, sikvdilis ar iyos, samwuxarod, versad gaeqcevi!.. cota gulsac uCiva xandaxan, rogorc Cven yvelani, magram...

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egec araferia _ mTavaria, mas yvela survili ausrulda cxovrebaSi da bednieri qalbatoni brZandeba!ase da amgvarad, upriania, pirvelma ilaparakos iman, vinc,

vTqvaT, CemsaviT, didi veraferiSvili cxovrebiT icxovra, anu bevri natvra-survilis asruleba ki ara, saerTod, cariel-tarieli darCa amqveynad. xom var marTali, Cemo Zvirfasebo?_ Sen ukve imdeni ilaparake, Cemo natali, marTlac azri

ara aqvs raime dava-kamaTs. Sen naTqvamSi, aris logikis marcvali, magram..._ Tu logikuria Cemi msjeloba, maSin ratom ar me Ta nxmebi,

Cemo sayvarelo ekuna?_ ici ratom?.. niniko jer-erTi, dRes Cveni stu ma ria, ufro

swored, misi gulisTvis ufro SevikribeT aq dRes yvelani, anu es saRamo misi dReobaa, anu... nino o ba bolosdabolos. meorec!.. Zlivs xuTi qarTveli SeTa nxmda..._ oTxi!_ kai, jandabas, iyos oTxi da am dros..._ am dros _ Seawyvetina nataliam: _ Tu demokratiulobanas

vTamaSobT, xom sjobia Tavad pretendents vkiTxoT: Cveno sayvarelo niniko, ginda iyo pirveli... Tu mexuTe?.. ra gacinebT, Tqve SeCvenebulebo? ra vTqvi sasacilo? rogorc yvela qarTvels, ninikosac, rasakvirvelia, unda iyos pirveli!.. Tumca... vatyob, Cems protests azri ara aqvs! es cxadze ucxadesia!... niniko, Sen ras ityvi? Tanaxma xar daiwyo pirvelma, Tu... ginda mexuTe iyo-meTqi?.. _ gogoebo, sanam Tqven erTmaneTSi paeqrobdiT - gadavwyvite,

gTxovoT, iqneb marTla me malaparakoT pirveli? da ara imitom, rom Cveni Zvirfasi natalias TqmiT, rogorc yvela qarTvels - ueWvelad pirveloba msurs maincdamainc! _ SeCerda. mcire xnis Semdeg ki ganagrZo:_ iciT Tqven, rogori oratoric var da mainc... TviT

CemTvisac moulodnelad, saocrad mominda, rom... swored axla, am saRamos, Cems sayvarel megobrebs gadavuSalo guli... ar vici, ra SemiCnda ase uceb... SeiZleba Rvinomac gamaTamama...

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_ ase `vicis Rvinoma~!.. midi, sayvarelo! Sen... dauka! ha burTi da ha, moedani!_ ara, xumrobagaSvebiT, gogoebo, iciT imitom mominda

usaTuod CemiT daviwyoT: jer erTi, bednier adamianad rom migaCnivarT Turme da meorec...

_ moica, moica... axla marTla ar gadamrioT! qalo, ara

xar Tu? ras hqvia _ Turme? CemTan WidilSi emand RmerTs

ar Sescodo! modi, maSin seriozulad ganvsajoT: Cvens

TaobaSi, pirad Tu SemoqmedebiT cxovrebaSi Tu vinmem raime

warmatebas miaRwia _ es Sen xar, Cemo ninuc! riTac, sxvaTa

Soris, didad mogvaqvs Tavi Sens Zvel megobrebs, riTac

vamayobT kidec!..

marTalia, bednierebis aRqma zogjer pirobiTia da saerTod,

bednierebis sazomad sxvadasxva kriteriumi miiCneva, anu

metnaklebad, individualuria igi, da mainc... Tu saerTo

mosazrebidan gamovalT...

_ vici, vici, Cemo nata, es yvelaferi! am zogad WeSma-

ritebaSi ar gedavebi... isic vici, rogor giyvarv arT, magram...

iqneb jer me damiTmoT asparezi-Tqo... marTlac,… raRac ar

masvenebs amaRam, oRond... _ ra _ me TviTonac ar vici! ar

vici, ram amawriala ase!

_ midi, Sen Semogevle, niniko, ilaparake! О чем речь!.. rogor gekadreba! _ natalias sxvebic ahyvnen:

_ gmadlobT, Cemo Zvirfasebo... amasobaSi davibeni kidec

cota... mgoni, cota SevSindi kidec: vai Tu ver gamigon,

anda bodvad CamiTvalon monayoli, anda fantaziis nayofad

miiCnion-Tqo!.. erT rameSi ki var darwmunebuli _ vici, ar

damcinebT... masxrad ar amigdebT!

_ e, e... Sen xom ar aurie, qalo?.. ras hqvia damcinebTo?..

Cven aq raRacas vmaimunobT, Tavs viqcevT takimasxaraobaSi,

Sen kidev... _ kvlav azrialdnen qalebi.

_ gaCumdiT. ra dReSi xarT, diacebo? Cvens parlamentSi

xom ar ggoniaT Tqveni Tavi? aba, siCume iyos da gagoneba!

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midi, niniko, Cveni Tavi genacvalos. Seni xmali _ Cveni

kiseri. `davai~, Saubere, qabato-jan!.. CamoasxiT, erTic unda

davliooo... aba, he!

_ Cemo nata, Sen mkvdarsac gaaqnevineb fexs, magram... ise,

`mofiqrebisTvis~ Tu maZlevT cota dros?

_ ma ra! Sen ki ara, sikvdilmisjilebsac aZleven dros _

mosafiqreblad _ mokvdes, Tu... ara!_ gmadlobT, Cemo sayvarelo natali! vici Seni

gulkeTilobis ambavi, magram... es oxeri, marTla avReldi, azrebi damefanta... Tumca es atmosfero... Tqveni guliTadoba da siyvaruli jer kidev pirvel klasidan rom iRebs saTaves _ au, ise, ra didi droa gasuli, TiTqmis saukune _ mibiZgebs saimisod, rom... mokled, minda gagimxiloT Cemi gulis saidumlo, gagimJRavnoT dafaruli xvaSiadi... SeiZleba marTlac Rvinom Semaguliana cota kidec... SeiZleba imanac, samaris kars rom vukakuneb ukve... mokled, asea Tu isea, minda giamboT im ymawvilqaluri ocnebebze Tu natvra-survilebze, rac... ar amsrulebia! /pauza/_ ise, Cven TiTqos yvelaferi viciT erTmaneTze, yoveli

wvrilmani, yoveli niuansi da mainc... adamianis suli xSirad bolomde Seucnobeli labirinTia, Turme... Turme Zalian axlobeli adamianisTvisac ki... diax, igi zogjer inkognitod rCeba xolme, anda gauSifrav ieroglifad!

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...pirveli SegrZneba... uceb, erTbaSad movardnili lurji feris niaRvari iyo, wamsve rom waleka mTeli misi cnobiereba. erTbaSad daabursalava da daaretiana. mere... cisferi, lurji, mwvane, narinjisferi erTmaneTSi airia, aiTqvifa da Tavisdauneburad Sig, am ferebis RvarTqafSi curva iwyo _ TiTqos mCate nafotad qceulma, ususurma, patara arsebam. es iyo _ warmoudgenlad, saswaulebrivad saamo ronini Tbil, molivlive talRebSi, anu...

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es iyo zRva! anu... usazRvro sivrce!..pirveli sasaimovno elda. pirveli gaucnobierebeli aRqma

usasrulobisa, maradisobasTan ziarebis pirveli netareba-ferebis simfoniaSi ganzavebuli. diax. es gaxldaT eniT uTqmeli, auxsneli jado-Tilisma, cxadliv aRbeWdili go-gonas sulsa da gulSi, romelmac myisierad moicva mTeli misi arseba, sxeulis yoveli ujredi, daimona da daimorCila igi samaradJamod._ ar vici, gogoebo, es genebis yivili Tu iyo... Cemi uZve-

le si winaprebis sisxlis Zaxili Tu gaxldaT... Tqven iciT, rom dedis mxridan Zveli kolxebis _ lazebis STamomavali var. babua _ bakur jaSi _ dedaCemis mama _ trapizonidan gadmoxvewili lazebis modgma gaxldaT, bebia ki _ curu soselia _ dedis deda _ varCeleli megreli qali. mamis mxridan Cemi winaprebi didi xnis Tbiliselebi iyvnen, jer-kidev me-19 saukunis Sua wlebidan, quTaisidan wamosulebi, aqedan gamomdinare sofeli rom ar hqondaT arsad. amitomac iyo albaT yoveli zafxulis ardadegebs, dedaCemTan erTad, mis sofelSi, babuSaraSi vatarebdi, im babuSaraSi, dRes rom samwuxarod, dakargulia CvenTvis. adre ki _ trapizoni dakarges Cemi babuis winaprebma. ho, es _ ise!...axalgazrdobaSi Cemi babua bakuri _ meTevze yofila da

rogorc sisxliT yoveli lazi _ isic zRvas iyo mijaWvuli mTeli arsebiT... sibereSic gaixsenebda xolme Tavis xelobas, da... ikargeboda zRvis sivrceSi.Cems balRobaSi, maxsovs, kolmeurneobis wevri iyo TiTqos,

magram rogorRac axerxebda Tavi aeridebina koleqtiuri garjisTvis da Tavis kar-midamoSi etriala. arada, iseTi oda-saxli edga da iseTi ezo hqonda, ukeTess ver inatrebdi. es oTxTvaliani wablis oda-saxli CuqurTmiani boZebiT da rikulebiT damSvenebuli, Tvalwarmtac sasaxled mesaxeboda ara mxolod maSin _ Cems bavSvobaSi...axlac Tvalwin midgas igi... axlac, rogorc zRapruli

`doxore~, Tavisi koindriani, farTo ezo-yureTi. da saerTod,

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igi Cemi warmosaxvis erT-erTi umTavresi komponenti iyo yovelTvis... mere - gvian gavige, dasavleT saqarTveloSi oda-saxlebis umetesoba Turme lazi ostatebis naxelavi yofila...maxsovs, sofelSi rom CavdiodiT, dedaCemTan ki ara, Cems

biZaSvilebTan vwvebodi xolme Rame, patara oTaxSi, wiTeli xis sawolSi. bumbulis leibisa da baliSis sifafuke axlac sasiamovno gancdas iwvevs CemSi, iseve, rogorc wablis xis suni, mTel oTaxebSi rom trialebda.dedaCemis ufrosi Zma titiko omSi iyo daRupuli. 18

wlis biWi wauyvaniaT jarSi da... aRar dabrunebula. mere da mere sul mawuxebda da axlac drodadro guli mekumSeba udrood wasul im pirtitvela biWebze, jerac dedis rZe SeumSral ymawvilebze, cxovrebis gariJraJze rom daemsxvraT yovelgvari ocnebebi, qalis siyvarulic rom ar ugemiaT da ise gaSordnen am muxTal wuTisofels. arada, ramxela usamarTlobaa _ umanko, meocnebe ymawvils xeli daavlo, da sadRac, SoreTSi, yinulian mxares ukra Tavi da... aomo!bebia sul Talxkabiani maxsovs. vera da ver gamoiglova

pirmSo. omi didi xnis damTavrebuli iyo, magram bebia da babuasTvis, iseve rogorc dedaCemisTvis, romelic patara gogo iyo Zma rom SoreTSi gadaukarges _ omi ar damTavrebuliyo. ara da ar undodaT Seguebodnen am sicocxliT savse, ulamazesi, uniWieresi, gamorCeuli biWis daRupvas, kacis kvla ki ara _ qaTami rom ar dauklavs Tavis dReSi, sikeTis meti rom araferi unaxavs Tavis xanmokle cxovrebis manZilze da romelic erTbaSad jojoxeTur sisxlisRvraSi aRmoCnda, sadac ar iyo garCeva sikeTis Tu borotebis, sadac zeimobda mxolod sikvdili, sadac yoveli maTgani sazarbazne xorcad iyo qceuli am soflis mTavrebisTvis.im saSineli omis eqom ramednime aTeuli wlebis Semdeg

sabediswerod gaiJRera babuSaraSic da... mravali axalgazrdis sicocxlec Seiwira. iqneb ar iyo es SemTxveviTi?im e.w. didi omis nakvalevi uCumrad, farulad, magram

mudmivad igrZnoboda bebia da babuas ojaxSi, iseve, rogorc

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TiTqmis yoveli qarTvelis fuZe-keraSi, rasac, cxadia, patara bavSvi ise ver aRviqvamdi maSin. mxolod kai xnis Semdeg gasagebi Seiqmna CemTvis am didi tragediis mniSvneloba, kerZod, jaSebisTvis, ras niSnavda maTTvis titikos naqoni qamari, ase saTuTad rom inaxavda bebia, an titikos xeliT gakeTebuli xis kovzi da ase Semdeg... es Wriloba arada ar SuSdeboda, iseve, rogorc dedaCemisTvis sicocxlis bolomde saficrad darCa sayvareli, ufrosi Zmis saxeli...ar vici, rogor, ranairad, magram TiTqos titiko biZias

sulis SfoTva da wriali SevigrZeni im ubedurebis Jams, rac afxazeTSi da babuSaraSi datrialda... TiTqos titikos daRvrili umanko sisxli Svelas iTxovda!..umcrosi Zma Ruda, babuas ZmasaviT, atasaviT _ xuro

gaxldaT da me mgoni, maTi agebulia im mxareSi yvela gamorCeuli saxli rogorc xis, ise briketis, sxvaTa Soris xis saxlebs TandaTan cvlida rkina-betonisa, rogorc ufro iafi da xelmisawvdomi.Ruda biZia da cacuna bicola Tavis sam SvilSi ar

marCevdnen, eso, Cveni meoTxe baRanaao, iZaxodnen da... es marTlac ase iyo. mec ase vgrZnobdi Tavs jaSebTan.Rame, Zilis win ki _ aucileblad Cavuwvebodi xolme bebia

da babuas SuaSi da Cems sityvaZvir bakur babuas zRaprebis skivrs vaxsnevinebdi. isic iSviaTad mitexavda xaTrs da... iwyeboda saocari mogzauroba jadosnur samyaroSi. babua Tavisi mSvidi, dinji, uCveulo xaverdovani tembris mqone xmiT miyveboda ambebs upiratesad _ zRvaosnebze, laz mekobreebze da saerTod, zRvasTan dakavSirebul saocar Tavgadasavlebs _ odnavi aqcentiT: lazuri Zalian hgavs megruls, magram mainc aqvs Taviseburi, ganumeorebeli kilo _ megrulis sxarti Tqmisgan gansxvavebuli da megrulisTvis damaxasiaTebeli rbili l-s gareSe. mec, Tavfexianad viZirebodi im saocar samyaroSi, babua ase cocxlad rom mixatavda... saerTod, babuas bevri laparaki, anu rogorc TviTon ityoda, ybedoba ar uyvarda, magram kacis naTqvami sityva beWeddasmuli rom unda

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yofiliyo - es wyalgauvali WeSmariteba gaxldaT misTvis, axla, Cvens parlamentSi amdeni molaqlaqe mamakaci rom enaxa, eseni ra kacebiao gaikvirvebda usaTuod. babua bakuri pirovneba iyo _ Tavis garSemo, Tavis wreSi gamorCeuli da asec miaCndaT, igi mis Tanasoflelebs...axlac Tvalwin midgas babuaCemi samzadis `abarwaze~1

jorkoze, xanac odis aivanze merxze mjdomi, rogori mSvidi saxiT, uSfoTveli ieriT abolebda xolme yalions _ fexifexze gadadebuli, raRacnairi bavSvuri gumaniT vgrZnobdi, rom is am dros aq, CvenTan ar iyo Tavis am mdumarebaSi. misi mzerac raRacnairad, araamqveyniuri iyo TiTqos. axla vazrob, Tavis winaprebis samSoblos _ trapezundis zRva da ca Tu ezmaneboda-meTqi, vin icis! iqneb rogor natrobda mis monaxulebas, rac im dros, rasakvirvelia, SeuZlebeli iyo...bebia ki, bebia sruliad sxva tipis adamiani gaxldaT.

angeloziseburi saxis mqone, angelozebisgan gansxvavebiT, _ saocrad cocxali, moZravi da gamrje iyo. me is dasvenebuli arasodes minaxavs. gvian Ramemde sul mudam fusfusebda, sul raRacas saqmianobda, garboda, gamorboda. au, ra gemriel kerZebs amzadebda! axlac pirSi vgrZnob TiTqos maT gemos an... ra tkbili mofereba icoda xolme: saidan, ra leqsikonidan amohqonda amdeni saalerso sityvebi? cota bevri laparaki ki uyvarda cxonebuls, ufro sworad, rCeva-darigebis micema icoda _ didi iqneboda dasamoZRvravi Tu patara _ amas ar daeZebda. kargad maxsovs, yvelani gaurbodnen mis qadagebas, arada, axla rom vixseneb, gonivrul darigebebs iZleoda bebia, magram ratomRac aravis hqonda survili moesmina misTvis, albaT imitom, rom... yvelas, maT Soris Cvenc, bavSvebs aranakleb Wkvianad migvaCnda Cveni Tavi...cacuna bicola ki hyavda gamoWerili bebias _ aseTi

morCili, Tvinieri rZali arasodes Semxvedria mere Cems cxovrebaSi. usityvod, yovelgvari Sepasuxebis gareSe asrulebda mis yovelgvar survils Tu gankargulebas, albaT

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imitom, rom Tavad iyo saocrad gulTbili, mosiyvarule da mSvidi adamiani.biZaCemis Rudas _ soflis am didi arSiyis da dardimandis,

xangamoSvebiT awyvetili saqcielebi rom ara _ jaSebis faniaSi (e.i. ojaxSi) SesaSuri siamtkbiloba da Tanxmoba sufevda. biZaCemi ki... es calke Temaa... igi imdenad momxiblavi pirovneba iyo, imdenad efeqturi garegnobis da moswrebuli sityva-pasuxis, rom... rogorc ityvian, pirvel danaxvisTanave ipyrobda adamianis guls, gansakuTrebiT ki _ qalbatonebis. ufros Zmas, titikos amsgavsebdnen garegnobiT da me mgoni, amitom patiobdnen xolme saxleulni zog rames _ kerZod, mususobas, TviT babuac ki _ saocrad Semwynarebeli da lmobieri iyo mis mimarT......CemTvis umTavresi saswauli babuSaraSi mainc zRva

iyo. zRvas yovelTvis vgrZnobdi CemSi. igi ganuwyvetliv livlivebda Cems sulSi... SemeZlo dilidan saRamomde gaunZrevlad vmjdariyavi napirze da memzira misi nairferad mbzinavi talRebisTvis, Cumi alersiT rom elamunebodnen napirs, da maSinac mizidavda, roca gamZvinvarebul-ganrisxebuli, amTagorebul, CaSavebul talRebs brazianad fSvnida da lewavda napirze... vera da ver vZRebodi yurebiT, sul mudam ukmarisobis grZnobas ganvicdidi mis mimarT. es raRac fataluri, auxsneli survili Tu ltolva dRemde ar masvenebs...Cems biZaSvilebs, maxsovs, siqas vaclidi naviT seirnobis

dros, niCbebi, cxadia, maT unda sWerodaT da me ki - navis kideze nebivrad gadawolili, vtkbebodi zRvis da moliclice cis... usasrulobiT!saerTod ki, marto yofna merCia zRvasTan. dRemde ver

vitan xalxmraval plaJebs... mozimzime damsveneblebis ria-rias... siSiSvlis sagangebo demonstrirebas!..cismare diliT vdgebodi da fexSiSveli gavrbodi zRvisken,

xelis gawvdenaze rom iyo Cveni saxlidan. jer gril silaSi viwyebdi kotrials, ase TovlSi miyvarda xolme goraoba,

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mere rbil, moSariSure talRebs Cavexutebodi xolme, xanac... Sors mivcuravdi, Tumca... amas xSirad ver vbedavdi... sanam ar wamovizarde!..zRvaSi monebivre vegebebodi kavkasionis Txemidan mzis

amobarbalebas. au, ra eniT auwereli sanaxaoba iyo, ra silamaze!.. da ra siamovnebas mgvrida misi yureba! iseve, rogorc mzis Casvla iyo CemTvis saocreba _ Seferili raRacnairi sevdiT, melanqoliiT.maxsovs, gamarjvebulis kiskisiT vegebebodi xolme Cems

biZaSvilebs geras da akas da Cems kbila gvancas, romelTac Zalian xSirad vaswrebdi xolme diliT adgomas, rac yvelas ukvirda. ukvirdaT isic, rom qalaqeli bavSvi fexsacmlis tarebas gavurbodi. sxvaTa Soris, fexSiSveli mivsdevdi xolme babuas yanaSic da CemTvis sagangebod gamoTlili patara ToxiT vcdilobdi, mxari ameba misTvis ToxnaSi.babuas Cems gulmodginebaze Cum-Cumad eRimeboda Tavis

koxtad SekreWil, WaRara ulvaSSi. bebia ki Tavs iklavda _ am SeCvenebulma yazaxma baRana gadamiriao. dedaCemsac daucacxanebda xolme, ver xedav, bavSvi ra dReSiao. deda mxolod uwyinrad gaiRimebda da... amiT mTavrdeboda misi mxridan sapasuxo reaqcia. samagierod, bebia ar cxreboda, qoTqoTebda da aucileblad morig rCeva-darigebas mohyveboda imis Taobaze, rom fexSiSvela tantali ar SeiZleba ezoSi, miT umetes, dauSvebelia es yanaSi! xom SeiZleba raime SeerWos bavSvs fexSi da ase Semdeg. bebiis Segonebani rCeboda xmad mRaRadeblisa udabnosa Sina...yvelaferTan erTad msiamovnebda miwis CiCqna, miwis suni...

vard-yvavilze aranakleb surnelovani meCveneboda igi... sxvaTa Soris, mamaCemis dedas, maka bebias, mxeiZis qals Tavi mohqonda imiT, rom buneba ar uyvarda. am mxriv igi wmindawylis qalaqeli iyo. misTvis, iseve, rogorc mamaCemisTvis, _ mamis mamas ar movswrebivar) baRi, parki da saerTod, xeebi dekoracia ufro gaxldaT _ aseve zRvac. da saerTod zRva mxolod zafxulSi dasasvenebeli adgili, `zagaris~ miRebis

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saSualeba iyo _ xolo gagraSi, qobuleTsa Tu biWvinTaSi dasveneba _ prestiJuli saqme!mamaCemisTvisac-meTqi, TxemiT-terfamde inteligentisTvis,

sofeli _ egzotika gaxldaT _ droebiT TavSesaqcevi alagi. rogor da ratom moxda am imereli Tavadebis naSierebis egzom `gaurbanizeba~ _ ver getyviT, eg sxva Temaa. axla amaze ar SevCerdebi. TbilisSi _ mec qalaqeli viyavi, oRond _ garegnulad. sinamdvileSi ki _ Cemi `me~, anu Cemi suli umTavresad _ iq, babuSaraSi rCeboda. iq viyavi me is, rac CemSi ZiriTadad mkvidrobda. iq, zRvasTan, iqaur casTan anu bunebis wiaRSi, me, albaT Cemi warmomavlobis wyalobiT, Tavs vgrZnobdi maT ganuyofel nawilad _ qvecnobierad, cxadia. Tumca... Tbilisis saocari monatrebac meufleboda Zalze xSirad... da mainc... sawyisi da ZiriTadi dvrita Cemi sulisa _ zRva gaxldaT, romelic yovelTvis maklda aq, TbilisSi da romlis ndomac, masTan ganmartoebis survili, rogorc weRanac giTxariT, uboloo, dausrulebeli iyo. da saerTod, sazRvari ar uCanda swrafvas bunebis simSvenierisken, SesaZloa, amitomac, CemTvis vaJa iyo da aris gamorCeulad sayvareli poeti... is yovelTvis Cemi sulis Tanaziarad mimaCnda... da mimaCnia dResac!..bevri rom ar gavagrZelo, erTxel... kargad maxsovs,

agvistos papanaqeba iyo, Tumca zRvauri sasiamovnod gviqiqinebda Txmelis CeroSi mokalaTebul bavSvebs da mzis mxurvalebas gvinelebda. banqos TamaSiT garTulebma gvian SevniSneT, rogor moadga napirs meTevzeTa katarRa. wamoviSaleT da katarRisken gaveSureT, saidanac ukve clidnen babuSarelebi Tevzs. swrafad ivseboda kasrebi da saTlebi mosxmartale TevzebiT.mze ukve gadawveriliyo da ise aRar cxeloda. me

bavSvebisgan cota moSorebiT videqi da uneburad interesiT Sevcqerodi meTevzeebis saqmianobas.anazdeulad Cemi yuradReba miipyro erTma axalgazrda,

tanmaRalma meTevzem, romelic danarCenebze ufrosi Canda.

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Camoqandakebuli tani da lariviT swori, grZeli fexebi hqonda, tilos Sarvali muxlebamde aekapiwebina, fexze sandlebi ecva, xolo welzeviT SiSveli sxeuli brinjaosfrad ulaplapebda. mokled SekreWili xorblisferi Tma Sublze Camoyroda.monusxuliviT videqi da Tvali ver momeSorebina biWis

sxarti, moqnili sxeulis moZraobisaTvis. igi drodadro mokle gankargulebebs iZleoda gamokveTili megruli kiloTi. erTi-orjer xmamaRla, laRad gaicina kidec raRacaze da TeTrma, qaTqaTa kbilebma TvalismomWrelad gaielves mzisgan garujul, mogrZo saxeze.Semdeg... raRac wamiswamSi Sublisqvemodan gamoixeda

Sejgufebul gogo-biWebisken. rogorc giTxariT, me cota ganze videqi Cemi amxanagebisgan. uceb momeCvena, rom mzera Cemze SeaCera.wamieri Tvalis Sevleba iyo albaT, magram... megona,

usasrulod didxans ucqerodnen erTmaneTs Cveni Tvalebi.biWma uceb CaiCoqa cal muxlze da... sandals dauwyo

sworeba, Tan elvisuswrafesi mzeriT kvlav damcxrila TaviT fexebamde, mere... ucebve aizezeura da... TiTqos nabijis gadmodgma daapira Cemsken, magram... am dros gaisma: _ guja, guja... gelodebiT-o. kvlav gamsxltari mzera, Cumi RimiliT anaperwklebuli zRvisferi Tvalebidan nasroli isrebi da igi mswrafl gatrialda. mezRvaurisTvis damaxasiaTebeli tanis odnavi rxeviT katarRisken gaemarTa. wavida da... im dRidan Tavis Tvalebis tyved maqcia... aqamomde! ara, ar vaWarbeb megobrebo _ samudamod damimona da damimorCila-meTqi am zRvis talRasaviT mobibine lurjma Tvalebma. ase iyo es. me maSin 13 wlis wamoCituli gogona gaxldiT.xangrZlivi pauza...

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didxans idga adgilze garindebuli _ verafers amCnevda _ arc garSemo aJivlebuli gogo-biWebis xmauri Caesmoda _ sakuTar mdumarebaSi CaZiruliyo mxolod.

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idga ase gaunZrevlad da Tvali ver moeSorebina katarRisTvis, zRvis talRebs xmauriT rom miapobda da romelic... TiTqos iseve uceb gauCinarda horizonts iqiT, rogorc gamoCnda...uangariSod daiZra adgilidan da... mTvareuliviT gaemarTa

im mimarTulebiT, saiTac katarRa miefara Tvals. vinmes rom ekiTxa axla misTvis _ saiTken gagiweviao, albaT verafers upasuxebda.ra iyo es? ram dazafra ase erTbaSad, ase moulodnelad?

ratom dauara am mzerisgan tanSi Jruantelma? iseTi gancda hqonda, TiTqos... zRvis lurji talRa erTbaSad gadmoiRvara am ucnobi biWis Tvalebidan da erTbaSadve raRacnairad ucnaur, ucxo jadoSi gaaxvia, an... iqneb marTlac xamanwkasaviT moaqcia gogo Tavis Tilismian badeSi?es daaxloebiT iseTive SegrZneba iyo, zRvis pirvel

danaxvaze rom ganicada...mzeriT gaxednili, miabijebda qviSian sanapiroze da

TvalgaSterebiT misCereboda zRvis usazRvro sivrces da Camaval mzes _ narinjisfer kvals rom tovebda Tavis gza-savalze...roca gons moego da miixed-moixeda, karga gvarianad

daSoreboda im alagas, katarRa rom moadga.TeTrmaqmaniani talRebi Cumi, Zlivs gasagoni SrialiT nazad,

rbilad da vnebianad lokavdnen da esaTuTebodnen napirs. mze nel-nela, TandaTan, magram gardauvalad iZireboda dasalierSi ha da ha, wuTi wuTze xelSi unda Semokvdomoda... TiTqos!da uceb... mounda, gazafxulze atmis totiviT erTbaSad

afeTqebuli sxeuli am moSariSure, nebier talRebSi CaenTqa, ewiladebina maTTvis Tavisi gulis mRelvareba da aRtkineba, ewiladebina locvasaviT aRvlenili uxmo vedreba da usasrulobasTan Serwymis, ukidegano, dausabamo samyarosTan Tanaziarobis wadili Tu... Jini.zRvis moxasxase silurjeSi, mzis oqrosfer aTinaTSi,

viT Wiakokonas koconze _ TiTqos iwvoda da ixrukeboda

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aforiaqebuli patara gogos suli _ aqamde argancdili mRelvarebiT...mere... moTenTili, gasavaTebuli gawva zRvis zedapirze

da farTod gaxelili TvalebiT Seacqerda guliswamRebad lamaz, varskvlamsxmoiare cis ubes, zRvis unazesi, ufaqizesi alersiT da gaucnobierebeli mwuxris sevdiT guldanisluli _ ver Semcnobeli imisa, Tu ra xundebs ugebda samomavlod bediswera mis bavSvur, umanko gulisTqmas Tu... wadils!_ am dRidan... Cems cxovrebas SeiZleba ewodos _ usasrulo

lodini, am dRidan daiwyo is, rasac Sexvedris gamudmebuli natvra hqvia.erTaderTi, rac vicodi mis Sesaxeb iyo is, rom mezRvauri

Tu... meTevze gaxldaT, da vicodi agreTve misi saxeli. meti _ araferi.amieridan yovel zafxuls babuSaraSi Casvlis sixaruls

emateboda ucabedi Sexvedris molodinic da survilic.vin iyo? sadauri?..romc mekiTxa, vin gamcemda pasuxs, an... visTvis unda mekiTxa?ucabedi Sexvedris natvra ki _ ara da ar masvenebda,

magram... cam Caylapa Tu miwam... babuSaraSi misi gza-kvali daikarga. yovelSemTxvevaSi, Cemi iq yofnis dros, ase iyo. mas Semdeg, rogorc etyoba, igi babuSaraSi arc gamoCenila.nuTu molandeba iyo? nuTu marTla momeCvena da

moCvenebasaviT gaqra... samudamod?maS, is Tvalebi... is Tvalebi _ raRa iyo? ratom ar

masvenebdnen isini? ratom veZebdi maT ganuwyvetliv? ratom momdevda sul refrenad: `zRvisferi gaqvs Tvalebi da Tavad hgavxar zRvas~, anda: `Seni Tvalebis daRlili eSxi, Tan gamyva rogorc lurji RiRilo!~ RiRilosferi Tvalebi...nuTu esec poeturi warmosaxva iyo mxolod, anu aRmafrenis nayofi?didi xnis Semdeg, ukve qmarSvilianma gavbede mekiTxa

biZaCemisTvis _ aseTi saxelis mqone mezRvaurs Tu meTevzes icnobdi-meTqi. arao. ver gaixsena... Ruda biZiam.

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... qalbatoni nino gaCumda isev. igi gafarToebuli TvalebiT sadRac sivrceSi iyureboda. xma gaekmindaT megobrebsac. aravin cdila Sesityveboda.q-nma ninom uceb Tavi gaaqnia, TiTqos raRac zmanebas Tu

Cvenebas iSorebso da ganagrZo Sewyvetili Txroba odnav yru, dabeJili xmiT da wynari RimiliT:_ bebiaCemis da, aneta gexsomebaT albaT suyvelas

_ uaRresad ganaTlebuli da energiuli aneta bebo _ SesaniSnavi pedagogic iyo, konservatoriaSi aswavlida. hoda, erTxel aneta bebom kategoriuli toniT ganucxada Cems mSoblebs _ ninikom fortepianos ki ara, vokalis klasSi unda iaroso _ musikalurSi swored fortepianos klasSi davdiodi, mogexsenebaT _ radgano, ninikos saocari meco-soprano aqvs da misgan ueWvelad didi momRerali dadgebao. gaxsovT albaT fortepianodan vokalurSi rogor amovyavi Tavi. arada, momRerlis profesiaze arasodes miocnebia, Tumca simRera da saerTod, musika, rogorc klasikuri, ise xalxuri _ Zalian miyvarda. da vmRerodi kidec, roca... memRereboda, roca... amis survili mqonda! sxvaTa Soris sofelSi viswavle fandursa da gitarazec dakvrac, monawileobac ki miviRe erTxel soflis klubTan arsebuli simRerisa da cekvis gundis mier gamarTul koncertSi, babuSaraSi.biZaCemi Rudac kargi momRerali iyo da am ansamblis

wevri gaxldaT. dedac mReroda, bakur babua ki _ Cinebuli mobane iyo, magram am tradiciis miuxedavad, gulSi ratomRac eqimoba mqonda amoWrili uCumrad. ar vici, ratom. gvarSi arc dedis da arc mamis mxridan eqimi aravin gvyavda. etyoba, bavSvobaSi erTxel eqimebze nanaxma suraTma iqonia Zlieri gavlena, oRon eg iyo, aravisTan vamxeldi Cems ganzraxvas, Tqvenc baiburSi ar iyaviT amis Taobaze...hoda, uceb aRmoCnda, rom me... momRerlis karieraze unda

gadavrTuliyavi...mokled, ase iyo Tu ise, mindoda Tu ara, vokalisti gavxdi,

anu morCilad davyevi ufrosebis nebas.

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gexsomebaT albaT, isic, rogori moridebuli bavSvi viyavi. morcxvi da ueno, Tan iseTi uemocio vCandi, rom... flegmac ki SemarqviT, Tumca... Sinaganad sulac ar viyavi aseTi flegmaturi.iq, babuSaraSi zRvis siaxlovis da mraval sxva garemoebaTa

gamoc _ frTebs Slida Cemi suli, iq bevrad ufro laRad da Tavisuflad vgrZnobdi Tavs, vidre aq, TbilisSi. es erTi im gamocanaTagania Cems xasiaTSi, romelic verc maSin da verc dRes amovxseni. maxsovs, zogjer vkinklaobdiT kidec bavSvebi, vebutebodiT erTmaneTs, magram maleve vrigdebodiT...unda genaxaT Wiakokonas danTebis dros ra ambavSi

viyaviT!.. rogor vejibrebodiT erTmaneTs, aba, vin ufro maRla da Sors gadaaxteboda kocons. ra sicil-kiskisi gvqonda, rogori kiJiniT viklebdiT iqaurobas...maxsovs, Cems Tbilisel naTesavebs ukvirdaT da SeiZleba

gulis siRrmeSi swyindaT kidec, rom deduleTSi yofna yvelafers merCia, rom arafrad dagidevdiT e.w. prestiJul sanatoriumebs, iq dasvenebas...maTTvis gaugebari iyo es da... miuRebelic, iseve rogorc

dedaCemi _ Tavisi mSvenierebisa da saTnoebis miuxedavad, mainc yovelTvis rCeboda, komunistebis mier ganadgurebuli, damcirebuli da mainc e.w. elitaruli, aristokratuli wrisTvis _ viRac gadmoxvewili lazis qaliSvilad, iqneb... farulad musulmanic ki iyo _ TiTqos Tavad didad morwmune qristianebi yofiliyvnen komunistebis xelSi! Tumca... amaSi maincdamainc ar vadanaSaulebdi maT _ mogexsenebaT, dro iyo iseTi!.. da mainc-Tqo, dedaCemi, cicino jaSi _ specialobiT biologi, Tbilisis saxelmwifo universitetdamTavrebuli, pedagogi _ mamaCemis mravalricxovani, uaRresad ganaTlebuli, kulturuli naTesaobisTvis, ase vTqvaT, Tbilisuri snobisturi elitisTvis, Tu klanisTvis _ bolomde ucxod darCa.me amas qveSecneulad vgrZnobdi, cxadia, da SeiZleba amitomac

iyo, Cems farul protests xazgasmuli babuSarelobiT gamovxatavdi.

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ase iyo Tu ise, Signidan TiTqos gaxleCiliviT viyavi, gaorebuli, Tumca... es mdgomareoba mogvianebiT gavacnobiere, maSin ki... maSin ukmarisobis gancda, zRvis monatrebiT, bebia da babuasTan, Cems biZaSvilebTan da saerTod, babuSarelebTan yofnis surviliT cnaurdeboda da agreTve im simRerebis mosmenis wyurviliT, esoden didi sevdiT Tu melanqoliiT rom iyvnen Seferilni, da romelnic saTaves uSores warsulSi iRebdnen da... moedineboda da moedineba dro-JamTan erTad, rogorc mudmivi Sexseneba Cveni tomebis bedukuRmarTi istoriisa...kvlav pauza._ mokled, aneta bebos rCeviT, konservatoriaSi, vokalurze

ganvagrZe swavla. diax, momRerali unda gamovsuliyavi da Tanac... didi! saxeliani! ki, batono. raki mase gsurT _ iyos egre! morCilad, Tvinierad vasrulebdi ufrosebis neba-survils. skolaSic warCinebulad unda meswavla da... mogexsenebaT, vswavlobdi kidec. aki oqros medalze davamTavre skola. konservatoriaSi xom, miT umetes, gamorCeuli unda vyofiliyavi da... davdiodi kidec didi momavlis mqone studentis statusiT. ase da amgvarad, morCilad mivuyvebodi-meTqi saxelis mopovebis im gzas, rac Cemma naTesaobam damisaxa, didi enTuziazmiT-Tqo, rom giTxraT, marTali ar viqnebi, magram... arc Tu mTlad uwadinod, anu raki ase iyo saWiro Cemi momavlisTvis, mec keTilsindisierad vakeTebdi imas, rasac saWirod miiCnevdnen ufrosebi, rasac savaldebulod misaxavdnen Cemi axloblebi. erTi kia: mere da mere, rolebSi ukve Zaldautaneblad Sevdiodi, anu mravalsaxeoba adamianis bunebisa, raRacnairad mizidavda da interess iwvevda kidec CemSi. sadRac msimovnebda, rom CemSi Turme Semofarebulni sxvadasxvanairi personaJebi asparezs iTxovdnen Tavis gamosaCenad... oRond... Cemi meobis umTavresi roli _ Seusrulebeli damrCa, magram amaze, Semdeg...da kidev _ erTi, ram: nikuSac savaldebulo da aucilebeli,

ase vTqvaT, atributi iyo Cemi warmatebuli karierisaTvis...

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lamazi, warmosadegi axalgazrda, inteligenti, Wkviani, ganaTlebuli, niWieri, SesaniSnavi ojaxis Svili, rac mTavaria agreTve _ Cemi uzomo Tayvanismcemeli im dRidan, rac scenaze fexi Sevdgi _ meti ra unda mdomoda? rogor SeiZleboda aseT partiaze uaris Tqma? TbilisSi xom im dros, Cemebis, gansakuTrebiT ki maka da aneta bebiebis azriT, ukeTesi sasiZo ar moiZebneboda!.. hoda, mec, rasakvirvelia, aneta da maka bebiebis, mamidebis, babudebis TvaliT unda memzira nikuSasaTvis da... asec moxda! Cemi namdvili me _ ar CarTula am arCevanSi!vasiko rom SemeZina _ pawias movlis procedurebisgan,

cxadia, gamaTavisufles _ mTavari CemTvis scena unda yofiliyo, anu is saxeli, pativiscema, is ovaciebi, rac ase axalgazrda qals mergo...repeticiidan repeticiamde Tu mqonda mcireodeni dro,

rom damexeda CvilisaTvis da raki rZec gamiSra _ ufro sworad, yvelaferi iRones Cemebma, rom gamSroboda _ ZuZuc ver vawove Cems pataras. samagierod, icocxleT _ Cemebis gulis gasaxarad, operis Teatri zanzarebda taSiscemisgan, yovel Cems gamosvlaze... da saerTod, iyo didi qeba-dideba gazeTebsa Tu radioSi, Semdgom _ televiziaSic. iyo jildoebi, wodebebi da a.S. iyo mosiyvarule qmari, misi yuradReba da mzrunveloba, TayvanismcemelTa jgro garSemo. mokled, iyo pativi da dideba da mec, rogorc adidebul mdinareSi Cagdebuli na foti, Tvinierad mivyvebodi dinebas, saidanac didi survilis miuxedavad, ver amoxvidodi, Tavs veranairad daaRwevdi! es iyo TiTqos winaswar daprogramirebuli svla-gezi, romlis SeCereba SeuZlebeli Canda. yovelive amaSi iyo, rasakvirvelia, raRac sixarulic, kmayofilebac, siamovnebac, zogjer _ pativmoyvruli gancdebic _ mogexsenebaT, frTiani angelozi aravin varT, magram... ara-sodes, es SemiZlia xmamaRla da gulwrfelad ganvacxado _ arasodes mqonia sruli Tavdaviwyebis grZnoba, ar mqonia sruli eqstazi... arasdros, grZnobaTa qariSxals, Tu qarborbalas ar Seuryevia Cemi suli da guli...

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hoo... erTi ram kidev: yovelTvis vcdilobdi ar gav-reuliyavi aranair intrigebsa Tu qiSpobaSi, samwuxarod, Teatris cxovrebas rom mudam Tan axlavs xolme. RvTis winaSe, arc Suri mqonia vinmesi, arc miT umetes mtroba-siZulvili. Tumca... rogorc weRanac giTxariT, frTian angelozad sulac ar mimaCnia Cemi Tavi...mokled rom vTqva, is Sinagani, sulieri, idumali arsi

Cemi bunebisa _ xorcSeusxmuli darCa. da mainc... ra iyo is, faruli gulisnadebi Tu ocneba-survili, rac Cems arsebaSi ido da rac Tan mdevda uCumrad, ganuSoreblad mTeli Cemi cxovrebis manZilze, Cemi arsebobis yovel etapze? da rac mxolod warmosaxvaSi Tu iCenda Tavs?warmosaxvaSi ki _ scenaze iqneboda es Tu yoveldRiurobaSi...

Tvalwin warmomidgeboda xolme _ lazur-megruli oda-saxli, koindriani, farTo ezoTi da is _ Cemi kaci!.. zRvidan daRlil-daqanculi rom brundeboda da me momqonda... Tbili wyali fexebis dasabanad, vucvlidi tansacmels, moRuRune buxarTan tablaze gawyobil sadils Tu vaxSams mivarTmevdi. mere mec iqve, mis maxloblad vjdebodi samfexa skamze, anda moCuqurTmebul sakarcxlulSi. da ... misi mobibine, lurji Tvalebis sxivebSi viZirebodi, ufro sworad _ vikargebodi xolme Tavfexianad. garSemo ki mexvia rva bavSvi _ oTxi biWi da oTxi gogo,

rvave TeTrebi da oqrosqoCrianebi. ratom maincdamainc rva? da ara cxra, an Svidi _ es sakraluri cifrebi? (Tumca, Semdeg aRmovaCine, rom rvac sakraluri yofila Turme, _ ar vici, ver getyviT, dRemde amouxsnelia CemTvis es gamocanac. gogoebi, cxadia, mamas hgavdnen, biWebi _ me. saerTod ki _ yvelani Tvalxatulebi iyvnen, jiSianebi iseve, rogorc me gaxldiT tanlerwama, mxrebze gadmoRvrili Taflisferi TmiTa da didroni, JuJuna TvalebiT. saxemwyazari, nazi da rbili _ zRvis moalerse talRebiviT.mere... mere me da Cemi zRvisferTvala kaci vsxdebodiT

navSi da... mTvaris TiTbrisferi sxivebiT moTilismebul

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zRvaSi davseirnobdiT manam, sanam varskvlavebiT moWiqul cas mtredisferi ar dahkravda... anda... gaSlil, vrcel WalaSi mivaqrolebdiT wablisfer raSebs Tu TeTronebs da vejibrebodiT erTmaneTs rbolaSi. zogjer me vuswrebdi Cems kacs da igi ukan momdevda gamalebuli, bolos mainc meweoda, mklavebs mxvevda Zlierad da Tavis meranze gadamsvamda xolme da axla... oriveni mivfrinavdiT usazRvro sivrceSi, tramalebze _ bednierni, yelTamde savseni sixaruliT, siamiT, kmayofilebiT...am Tavawyvetil qrolvaSi iyo gacxadebuli Cveni sulebis

swrafva zenarisken, usasrulobisken, iseve, rogorc usasruloa da uboloo zRvis talRebis ltolva napirisken...mere daRlilebi, magram bednierebi, vwvebodiT sawolSi,

vkocnidiT erTmaneTs TavdaviwyebiT, vnebianad da... vici, raze geRimebaT axla. diax. vkocnidiT erTmaneTs mxurvaled, ndomiT da... es iyo da es.bavSvebi rogorRa Cndebodneno, mkiTxavT uTuod da Tanac...

amdeni?.. Cndebodnen da... he!.. asakTan erTad... koreqtivebic Semqonda am TiTqosda

stereotipul, gamogonil scenarSi: ukana planze xan dedaCemis saxe gamokrTeboda, xan mamis da rasakvirvelia, babuaCemis bebiasTan erTad. magram es ase vTqvaT, kulisebs miRma iyo, umTavresi mizanscena, Tavis dekoraciebiT da anturaJiTurT _ ucvleli rCeboda: me da is _ Cemi kaci! da... bavSvebi, romelTa asaki 5-dan 10 wels Sua meryeobda. sxvaTa Soris, patriotuli movaleobad mimaCnda, bevri Svili myoloda. ki, mase iyo, WeSmaritad! Cemo natali, Sen warmoidgine!diax. me _ metwilad buxarTan axlos, daTvis tyavze

vijeqi, (ratom maincdamainc daTvis _ ar vici!). garSemo rvave bavSviT gars Semoxveuli, Cemi kaci ki _ iqve, buxarTan, fexi-fexze gadadebuli ijda da yalions ewe-oda. me wigns vukiTxavdi gogo-biWebs, an vuyvebodi zRaprebs cxraTavian devebze, oqrosTmian mzeTunaxavebsa da mzeWabukebze. ratomRac sxva sferoebSi ar gadavdiodi _

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swored am kuTxiT iyo Semofargluli Cemi pedagogiuri

moRvaweoba. profesiiT ki _ cxadia, eqimi gaxldiT anu

uzenaesisagan boZebuli niWis da unaris wyalobiT, sikvdilis

brWyalebidan unda gamomexsna adamianebi! diax, es gaxldaT

keTilSobiluri zrunva adamianTa modgmaze saerTod da,

kerZod, Cems saxleulobaze, uwinaresad ki _ Cems kacze!

mTeli amxnis ganmavlobaSi gamudmebiT vgrZnobdi Cemi

kacis unapiro mzeras, Tavis Tilismian badeSi rom mxvevda...

diax, amnairad da ara sxvagvarad mqonda aRbeWdili

gonebis dafaze es idiliuri suraTi, romlis umTavresi

komponenti mainc zRva iyo _ zRva, navi, me da is! rasac

xandaxan emateboda, rogorc weRanac giTxariT, cxenebze

qrolva... aseT dros am cisqveSeTSi viyaviT mxolod me da

_ Cemi lurjTvaleba kaci!..

wamierad Camovardnil siCumeSi isev gaisma qalbaton ninos

minavlebuli xma:

_ erTxel, maxsovs, moskovSi, quCaSi Tvali vkide mamak-

acs, imasaviT rom miarxevda tans da profilSic mas hgav-

da TiTqos. guli Semiqanda. ver moviTmine, gavuswari da

movuxede. usicocxlo, Tevzis Tvalebma TiTqos civi wyali

gadamasxa... erTxel kidev erTi mRvdeli mivamsgavse mas, aR-

sarebas rom iRebda. axlos mivedi. Cumad SevaTvaliere.

lamazi Tvalebi hqonda, cisferi, oRond ara _ imisi! msgavsi

halucinaciebi araerTxel dammarTnia, magram... vera, mis ms-

gavs Tvalebs verasodes gadavawydi...

xSirad mifiqria; vin iyo is bolosdabolos, romelsac

ase gamudmebiT, gafacicebiT veZebdi? Tuki Cemi sulis mewy-

vile iyo, ratom verasdros Sevxvdi-meTqi? ratom damekarga

ase ugzo-ukvlod? sad gauCinarda?ratom avcdiT erTma-

neTs? an iqneb... maSin rom Semxvedroda, SesaZloa, am Sexve-

dras sulac ganvexible, sulac gaeqarwylebina is pirveli

STabeWdileba da sruliad Cveulebrivad aRmeqva yvelaferi,

magram vfiqrob, rakiRa ar Sedga Cveni paemani, albaT amitom

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is pirveli gancda, is romantikuli aRmafrena samudamod aRibeWda Cems gulSi!

ise, ras warmoidgenda is zRvisferTvaleba biWi, rom... sa-dRac arsebobda qali, dRemudam masTan rom iyo Tavis gamogo-nil samyaroSi? rom... misi metrfe iyo? misi nandauri? is `Colkiani~ biWi gana ifiqrebda odesme, rom ase, erTi Tvalis SevlebiT, samudamod daudaRa guli erT patara, cqnafa gogos? an... iqneb TviTonac meZebda... Tavis gulSi-Tqo? vin icis!..

da ai, erTxelac..._ niniko, ar gadamrio axla, nuTu Sexvdi? _ megobris

mouTmenlobaze qalbaton ninos naRvlianad CaeRima da: _ ho, Sevxvdi, nata, warmoidgine... aTeuli wlis Semdeg...

sruliad moulodnelad..._ sad? TbilisSi, Tu?_ baTumSi. 88 wlis seqtemberi iyo, raRac didi sazeimo

koncerti imarTeboda, sadac mec viyavi miwveuli. gaxsovT al-baT im droisTvis me TiTqmis ar gamovdiodi scenaze. magram baTumelebma gamixsenes _ es qalaqi yovelTvis gansakuTrebu-lad miyvarda zRvis da Tavisi Tbili adamianebis gamo...

koncertis Semdeg erTi-ori dRe davrCi baTumSi, rom zRvis yurebiT davmtkbariyavi. CemTan erTad iyo Cveni gri-miori qalbatoni aniko zambaxiZe, Tqvenc icnobdiT mas. SesaniSnavi adamiani iyo. areulobis wlebSi gardaicvala...

hoda, erT mSvenier saRamos sanapiros erT-erT feSenebe-lur kafeSi SevediT, vaxSmis Semdeg is iyo yavis smas Sevude-qiT, rom... kafeSi ramdenime maRalCinosani mezRvauri Semovida, Tan erTi mandilosani axldaT, mgoni, ucxoeli qalbatoni.

uceb... gulma reCxi miyo: erTi maTgani kapitnis formaSi gamowyobili, WaRara, saocrad simpaTiuri, tanmaRali mamakaci imas _ Cems kacs mivamsgavse! adrindeli Cemi molandebebi, ro-gorc giTxariT, yovelTvis fiaskoTi mTavrdeboda. axla ki...

yavis finjani xelSi gamiSeSda. gavqvavdi. isini Cvengan moSorebiT miusxdnen magidas xmamaRali laparakiTa da si-cil-xorxociT.

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is iyo, namdvilad _ is! Cemi naocnebari, esoden naninanat-ri kaci! misi Rimili, misi Tvalebi! ara, amjerad gumani ar matyuebda! RmerTo, Sen miSvele!

gaxevebuls, gulSi mudariT aRmomxda: `moixede! moixede!~TiTqos Caesmao Cemi mowodeba-vedreba, naxevrad zurgSe-

qceviT mjdarma kapitanma, anazdeulad Tavi moabruna Cven-sken, Cveni magidisken.

uceb... Rimili Seacivda bageze. saxeze gaoceba gamoexata. mere... mardad wamoiWra da Cvensken gamoemarTa. Tvalmou-Sorebliv Sevcqerodi saxeSi _ saxtad darCenili.

movida Cvens magidasTan, Tavazianad Tavi dagvikra:_ qalbatono nino?.. rogori siurprizia! _ mere daixara,

Cems marcxena xels dawvda, uRonod rom mesvena magidaze, tuCebTan miitana, Tan saxeSi micqeroda ucnaurad daJinebu-li, maxvili mzeriT: _ me... Tqveni didi xnis Tayvanismcemeli gaxlavarT!.. Tqveni... arc erTi koncerti Tu speqtakli ar gamomitovebia leningradSi, roca iq viyavi... erTxel... bedma gamiRima da... moskovSic daveswari Tqvens gamosvlas... _ Se-Cerda. TiTqos suls iTqvamso._ nuTu?.. didad sasiamovnoa... _ rogorc iqna, Zlivs

amovRerRe nawvalebi RimiliT.`RmerTo Cemo!.. RmerTo Cemo. isaa!.. is Tvalebi, isev iseTi

mzera!.. gacxadebuli, xiluli... moCveneba!~_ TqvenTan mosvla verasodes gavbede... da ai, gangebam sad

Semaxvedra Tqveni Tavi!_ Tqven... guja brZandebiT, ara? _ dacda uneburad Cems

bage-pirs da... Sevcbundi _ rogor gavTqvi Cemi Tavi ase-Tqo.axla misi jeri iyo gancvifrebis. Tvalebi lamis Sublze

aucvivda. ena Cauvarda.ar vici, ramden xans gagrZelda Cveni metyveli dumili._ Tqven... Tqven saidan iciT Cemi saxeli? _ bolos Zlivs

amoTqva Camwydari xmiT da... anazdad carieli skami gamoswia, axlos momijda, ise axlos, rom TiTqmis erTmaneTs exebodnen Cveni muxlebi.

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uzarmazari ZalisxmeviT Tavi xelSi aviyvane da Sevecade Cemi RimilisTvis idumaleba mimeniWebina._ vici... _ mravalmniSvnelovnad warmovTqvi da SeSfoTeba

da sulis wriali rom damemala, yavis finjans davwvdi isev.`RmerTo Cemo... azrze ar aris!~..._ nuTu... SevxvedrivarT erTmaneTs?!._ diax._ sad, rodis?!vcdilobdi SemenarCunebina bolomde orWofuli Rimili

da damemala librgadakruli Tvalebi. oRond... ar vici, vaxerxebdi ki amas?_ diax. SevxvedrivarT. oRond... didi xnis win._ sad? rodis?!zvaviviT viyavi walekili am moulodneli, ucabedi SexvedriT,

romelsac... ase vnatrobdi jer kidev ymawvilqalobidan da romelzec aTasgvar ocnebis koSkebs vagebdi!...da ai, amdeni xnis Semdeg bedis ironiiT ukve asakovani

qali vxvdebi am naocnebar Tvalebs! qvecnobierad mTrgunavda is azric, Tu ra daberebulad gamoviyurebodi axla am saocrad Senaxuli, moxdenili mamakacis TvalSi... Tumca... is aRtacebac da daufaravi sixaruliT akiafebuli misi Tvalebi, Cemi danaxviT gamowveuli _ sadRac malamosaviT medeboda gulze...yovelive amis miuxedavad, vcdilobdi gamewela dro da

ar damesaxelebina Cveni Sexvedris adgili, radgan uneburad, qveSecneulad mwyinda, rom man ver gamixsena, ufro sworad ver icno is patara gogona, zRvis napirze Tvalis wamieri SevlebiT rom samudamod daatyveva. Tumca... RmerTo Cemo! ratom unda ecno am asakovan dedakacSi is kafandara gogo, da is wamieri SefeTeba monusxuli Tvalebisa?_ Cemo ninuca, Sen yovelTvis Sen asakze ufro patarad

gamoiyurebodi, axlac wiwkviviT xar, merwmune...qalbatnma ninom am alalad naTqvam megobris komplimentze

ironiulad CaiRima da araferi upasuxia, etyoba, Tavis sulis

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idumal xmas ufro miugdebda axla yurs. mere Tvalminabulma ganagrZo:_ me Cumad viyavi da qveS-qveSad gavcqerodi awrialebul

mamakacs, romelic arc malavda Tavis mouTmenlobas. roca kvlav gamimeora SekiTxva, me xazgasmuli udardeli kiloTi davmarcvle:_ babuSara Tu... gagigiaT?

_ babuSara? _ ratomRac xma Cauwyda gujas da mTeli

am xnis ganmavlobaSi pirvelad daxara Tvalebi, mzera ganze

gausxlta.

_ babuSara? _ gaimeora isev fiqrianad, mere... gayuCda.

_ es didi xnis win iyo... _ gavicine viTom uzrunveli

siciliT da... uceb Cavumegrule: _ o, Zalian didi xnis win,

me maSin Zalian patara gogo viyavi...

myisve kiseri aaRera. kvlav momacqerda mRuara mzeriT:

_ megruli? Tqven? saidan, qalbatono nino?

isev gavicine moCvenebiTi udardeli siciliT, cota

ironiuladac ki.

_ me naxevrad babuSareli var. deda iqauri myavda.

anazdeulad wamovimarTe: _ aniko, Cveni wasvlis droa!

_ vTqvi da TvaliT Zebna davuwye mimtans. igi mswrafl

amesveta. gujam mas wamuyo da mimtanic iseve uceb gaqra..

rogorc gamoCnda, me madlobis TqmaRa damrCenoda: _ kargad

iyaviT, _ guja batono! sasiamovno iyo TqvenTan Sexvedra!

_ CemTvisac... qalbatono nino, CemTvisac didad sasiamovno

iyo! _ wamieri yoymani da mere moridebuli, Tavaziani kiloTi

mommarTa: _ qalbatono nino, iqneb gadmobrZandeT Tqven da

Tqveni megobari CvenTan... Cvens magidasTan. es didi pativi

iqneba CemTvis da Cemi stumrebisTvisac... qalbatono nino,

iqneb, dagvdoT pativi... da...

`dagvdoT pativi!~ hm... gavutrizave uneburad gunebaSi

Cumi RimiliT: `saidan... aseTi qarTuli?.. mTeli cxovreba

ruseTSi aqvs gatarebuli!~

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me Tavazianad ganvucxade uari da gasasvlelisken ga-

vemarTe. mivdiodi da Cemi meore me uangariSod aRnusx-

avda situacias, romelSic aRmovCndi: Tvalebdayvlepili an-

iko, erTi mxriv, meore mxriv: magidasTan msxdari adamianebis

cnobismoyvare, gakvirvebuli Tvalebi, romlebic azrze ver

mosuliyvnen, ra xdeboda. da... Cemi kapitnis dabneuli saxe

da awrialebuli mzera....gareT, kibesTan uceb mkiTxa: romel sastumroSi viyaviT

gaCerebuli. me davusaxele. mere ceremoniulad davemSvido-beT erTmaneTs... da... luqsSi rom Sevedi, savarZelSi egreve mowyvetiT CaveSvi. daZabul-daWimuli ZarRvebi TiTqos mo-midunda.vijeqi moSvebuli, dacarielebuli da azris nafleTic ki

ar trialebda TavSi.sruli sicariele. sruli mdumareba.anikos xmis amoReba ver gaebeda. mcire xnis siCumis Semdeg

moRlili xmiT vTxove, dawoliliyo da marto davetovebine...ar vici, ramden xans vijeqi ase gaunZrevlad. ufiqrod

da uazro TvalebiT mivCerebodi mkrTal Suqs, aivnidan rom Semodioda.telefonis zaris xmam gamomafxizla, gamomiyvana

garindebidan: maSinve mivxvdi _ is iqneboda._ xom ar gagaRviZeT, qalbatono nino?.. _ bodiSebi mixada,

_ Cemi stumrebis gadamkide, ufro adre ver SegexmianeTo. raRacnairi, sxvanairi meCvena misi xma. raRac iyo masSi iseTi, rac Cems dadarajebul smenas gulisxmaSi agdebda. da am iwilo-biwilos, TiTqos arafris mTqmel frazebs _ qveteqstebiT avsebda. da uceb: _ Tqven im dRes... babuSaraSi... TeTrkoplebiani lurji kaba gecvaT da... fexSiSveli iyaviT. ori grZeli nawnavi geyaraT mxrebze.tanSi damzrina. gavogndi. gavSterdi. im dRes marTlac

TeTrkoplebiani lurji kaba mecva. marTla fexSiSvela viyavi. maS xsomebia?!RmerTo Cemo, xsomebia!

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warmoudgenelia, SeuZlebelia. Tumca..._ mere... ar SevxvedrivarT erTmaneTs, radgan..._ radgan?_ romc SevxvedrodiT... Tqven sxva samyarodan iyaviT...

me erTi ubralo mezRvauri gaxldiT, axal jargamovlili, romelic... sezonur samuSaoze moewyo... raTa... leningradis sazRvaosno akademiaSi Caebarebina...siCume Camovarda xangrZlivi, damuxtuli siCume. es iseTi

siCumea, roca dumili ufro mets metyvelebs, vidre _ sityvebi..._ hoo... mec xom erTi metiCara, cota kudabzika, cota

didgula Tbiliseli gogo viyavi... xom marTalia?man usityvod Caicina._ aseTi warmodgena hqondaT iqaurebs Tbiliselebze,..

vici!_ Tqveni koncertebis Semdeg, didi survilis miuxedavad,

verasodes movedi TqvenTan... Cemi aRtacebis gamosaxatavad!. Tundac... avtografisTvis... _ isev siCume._ xval dilauTenia ki _ Cemi gemi gadis portidan da...

`xval mec mivdivar aqedan. da isev ise iyreba Cveni gzebi, rogorc maSin, axla ukve samudamod!~ _ gamielva TavSi._ TbilisSi Tu movxvdi SeiZleba... dagirekoT?_ rasakvirvelia. Cven xom... Zveli nacnobebi varT, guja!

_ sakmaod xelovnurad gavicine. mere... telefonis nomeri miveci da... gvari vkiTxe. daraselia aRmoCnda, foqveSidan._ TbilisSi Tu im dros aRmoCndiT, Cemi biWis qorwili

rom iqneba... aucileblad dagpatiJebT... (ise, viTom sas-xvaTaSorisod, vTqvi)._ didi madloba... qalbatono nino. mec ukve sakmaod

mozrdili ori SviliSvili myavs. Cemi gogo adre gaTxovda da... SesaZloa Cveni SviliSvilebi mainc Sexvdnen erTmaneTs~.mere... marTlac damireka TbilisSi, magram... ukve iseTi

areuli dro iyo, wesierad verc velaparake, Tavadac aRelvebuli Canda maqauri ambebiT... mere gavige, `boevikebi~

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SevardniaT saxlSi da... daucxrilavT yvelani!..nino isev ise dadumda._ diax... ase tragikulad daamTavra sicocxle guja

daraseliam!..isev xangrZlivi pauza:_ ase dasrulda, gogoebo, Cemi maradiuli trfobis

istoriac... SeiZleba bevrs sentimentaluri moeCvenos igi, _saSineli dasasrulis miuxedavad... zogs melodramatulic... ar gamikvirdeba. Cvens pragmatul, teqnokratul saukuneSi mogexsenebaT, romantizmi miuRebeli, dauSvebeli ramaa!..da iciT, megobrebo, kidev raa saintereso?.. dRemde, diax

dRemde ver gamirkvevia, romeli iyo namdvili: is, rasac gamogonili Tu warmosaxviTi samyaro hqvia, Tu... is, rac gamoviare realobaSi? axla, amJamad xom orive warsulSia? da orive mxolod Cemi xsovnis dafazea, ase vTqvaT, SemorCenili! WeSmariti romeli iyo-meTqi? _ vekiTxebi Cems Tavs drodadro an... ratom viqeci am maradiuli trfobis mZevlad?ar vici da saerTod _ raa namdviloba bolos da bolos?

da... ras malavs Cveni sulis enigma? _ isev dumili da Semdeg:_ axla xom realobaa CemTvis, siduxWireSi rom vcxovrobT

suyvelani da... Cemi `damsaxurebis~ miuxedavad, 14 lariani pensiiT unda viarsebo Turme da rom ara vasikos daxmareba, SimSiliT amomxdeboda albaT suli!.. zogjer pirSi lukma ar gadamdis, radgan vici _ Cems gverdiT cxovrobs ojaxi, romelsac Tavisi xuTi SvilisTvis puris fuli ar gaaCnia...xom realobaa isic, rom sikvdilis karibWes nel-nela,

magram gardauvlad vuaxlovdebi?.. ai, davyureb Cemi xelis mtevnebs da... cxadad vxedav, rogor Wkneba igi TandaTan, dRiTi-dRe...

dadgeba Jami da... miwa daeyreba, miwa SeWams am xelebs da... ganqardeba yvelaferi _ gamogonilic Tu realuric _ Tavis awmyoian-warsulianad, magram... saocari isaa, rom

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am xrwnad, beber sxeulSi da moRlil sulSi isev _ isev zis is cicqna gogocuna, erTob amaRlebul, zesTazenur si-yvarulze rom ocnebobda, ocnebobda araCveulebriv, mziur, xilul Tu araxilul samyaroze... sinamdvileSi ki mgoni surogati ergo. _ surogati cxovrebisa, WeSmariti grZno-bisa, gancdisa... da... darCa mouxelTebeli, warmtac ocnebaTa laJvardebi, ocneba da... usieri, sulieri martooba!..

da rac yvelaze mware da autanelia _ saTayvanebeli sam-Soblos sanacvlod _ ase vTqvaT _ xelSi SemrCa mtrebisgan Semofcqvnil-SemoZarculi, agreTve daZabunebul-dabeCavebuli, gayvlefil-gaRatakebuli, gayidul-gasxvisebuli sakuTari uZ-Rebi Svilebisgan _ gadedlebuli mamrebiT Tu gamamlebuli mdedrebiT savse _ erTmaneTis uzomo moZuleobiT dasaxle-buli, rCeul moymeTa sasaklaod qceuli _ samyofeli! diax. samyofeli da ara _ mamuli! _ isev grZeli pauza da:

_ Tqven iciT, am areulobis dawyebamde nikuSam Cemi rCe-viT, gulrifSSi patara agaraki rom SeiZina, sadac... ar dagv-calda cxovreba _ igi iseve daikarga, rogorc mTeli is mxare. rogorc Cemi babuSara da principSi _ bevri sxva ramec. babua bakuris winaprebic Tavis droze iZulebuli gaxdnen gamoqceuliyvnen TavianTi mSobliuri adgilebi-dan. maTi STamomavalnic devnili Seiqnen sakuTar qveyanaSi da aravin uwyis _ sadaa Cveni bolo poligoni? _ ninom swrafad gadaiwera pirjvari da dadumda. mcire xnis Semdeg isev wamoiwyo minavlebuli xmiT:

_ rad gvergo aseTi bedi? an iqneb is warsulic mxolod gamogonili samyaroa _ Cemi zmanebis ar iyos da... sinamd-vileSi arc arsebula odesme?

Zalian xSirad, am bolo dros vesaubrebi xolme niku-Sas aCrdils, saxlSi rom uCumrad daborialobs, vesaubrebi rogorc cocxals _ aTas rameze, aTas saWirboroto prob-lemaze... nikuSam xom sinamdvileSi ver gadaitana afxaze-Tis tragedia... Turme gulSi rogor ganicdida es uTqmeli

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kaci, rogor itanjeboda? xSirad velaparakebi-meTqi martod darCenili, gansakuTrebiT am bolo dros...

gana ar miyvarda? magram...is, is vin iyo _ is ucnobi lurjTvaleba biWi, Zveli freskebidan gadmosul rainds rom magonebda? zmaneba Tu sinamdvile? amoucnobi, amouxsneli, bedisweriseuli _ Cemi maradisad mwyurvali, maradisad metrfe sulis idumali Zaxili? is, visTanac gamudmebiT vRa-latobdi nikuSas, Tu... rasakvirvelia, Ralati eTqmis imas, rasac vgrZnobdi, rasac ganvicdidi `Cemi~ kacis mimarT?.. _ qalbatoni nino isev gaCumda. dumdnen misi megobrebic, Tav-Caqindrulni, fiqrebdanislulni, guldamZimebulni.

ninoc nagvemi saxiT da morRveuli TvalebiT galursu-liyo. mere etyoba isev aiZula sakuTari Tavi da ganagrZo: _ xSirad vesaubrebi agreTve udrood wasul Cems megobrebs, bebia-babuas, Cems mSoblebs, afxazeTSi daRupul Cems axlo-blebs da saerTod yvelas, miRmier samyaroSi gadasulebs _ yvelas, vinc miyvarda, visac vuyvardi!

sad wavidnen? sad gaqrnen? risTvis Seviyvare, Tuki davkargavdi samudamod? ratom damitoves monatrebis mZaf-ri survili?..

nuTu marto Cems guls Tu xsovnas SemorCa maTi xate-ba? arada, xom zides maTac cxovrebis Wapani?an... iyvnen ki sinamdvileSi, Tu... isinic Cemi fantaziis nayofia? anda... Cemi naTamaSevi rolebia? nuTu... moCvenebiTia da sizmaria irgvliveTi an yovelive is, rac vnaxe, rac maxsovs? da rac dRemde gaunelebeli grZnobiT miforiaqebs suls? `aux-denel fiqrs vin ar igonebs?.. Zvel ocnebebze romeli ar swuxs?.. vwuxvar, veZaxi Cems siymawviles, magram... aravin iZleva pasuxs!..~ `jvars ecvi Tu ginda, saSveli ar aris! ar aris! ar aris!~ _ isev grZeli pauza.

_ ar vici. araferi ar vici-meTqi...iqneb marTla pa-triarqaluri sulis, Tu arqauli cnobierebis matarebeli aRmoCnda Cemi buneba? iqneb... raRac miTosuri samyaros nasx-

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leti var... am CarC-mevaxSur msoflioSi? suli, romelic vera da ver egueba dRevandel yofierebas _ egreT wode-buli warmatebuli karieris miuxedavad!

magram xom realobaa isic, rom am siberis Jams ar meR-irsa cxovreba iq, Cems zRvispireTSi, Cems babuSaraSi... rom... ver davimarxebi Cemi winaprebis gverdiT, sanapiros borcvze,

zRvis siaxloves... rom ar dameyreba iqauri miwa... rom axla,

am wuTas miusafari var suliT, xorciT? umweo da ususuri

da sawyalobeli?

xangrZlivi pauzis Semdeg uceb gaisma qalbaton natalias

naRvliani, yru xmiT naTqvami sityvebi: _ eh, Cemo niniko say-

varelo, ra mniSvneloba aqvs, sad davimarxebiT? sad SegvWams

miwa?.. es ceremoniebi _ yvelaferi raRac pirobiToba mgo-

nia... radgan 30 wlis Semdeg Cemi saflavic ise gaqreba, ro-

gorc... Cemi Soreuli winaprebis. miwa Seiwovs yovelives.

ase rom, miwa varT da miwad miviqceviT... fuWi da amaoebaa

cxovreba! wiladobilas TamaSia igi! iwilo-biwilo, SroSano,

gvritino... Cven wavalT da sxva darCeba!

_ eh, asea es! sad gaeqcevi sinamdviles?

_ magram igive galaktionma ar Tqva gana, sasowarkveTas

ar misce Tavio... esec ar iyos, Cveni qristianuli rwmenis mixedviT...

_ iqneb... marTlac yvelaze naRdia, Tavadis qali maiasaviT, zRvis talRebSi gauCinarde, vidre... miwa dageyaros? _ ar aclidnen laparaks erTmaneTs qalebi.

_ an iqneb... kremaciac ar iyos urigo?_ ah, ara. oRond... dawva _ ara!.._ ise, ra mniSvneloba aqvs-dagwvaven Tu... miwaSi Cagflaven? _ kargi erTi, natali! Cven xom qristianebi varT _ bo-

los da bolos!mobiluri telfonis xmam dava Seawyvetina metismetad

aRgznebul qalebs._ ho, Svilo. me var, Semogevle!.. madlobeli var, Cemo

sayvarelo. ki. telefoni gamorTuli mqonda mTeli dRe.

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axlaxan CavrTe... ki. Cems gogoebTan var, deda genacvalos.

vqeifobT am ugazobaSi, uSuqobaSi... Zveleburad _ yovel-

SemTxvevaSi _ vcdilobT! (Cemi vasikoa, mokiTxvas giTvliT

suyvelas) _ Cemi gogoebic mogikiTxaven siyvaruliT. ge-

cineba xom, gogoebs rom vambob? ras Svrebi Svilo? rogora

xar, deda Semogevlos! rao, rao, Cveneburi kerZebi mogenatra,

Cemi gakeTebuli sacivi? Romic? Sebolili yveliT? xaWa-

puric? ha, ha, ha... Sen Semogevlos dedaSeni: xvanWkarac mo-

genatra, Svilo, qinZmaraulic _ qalbatoni nino wamdauwum

icinoda gabrwyinebuli saxiT: _ mereda, ver aswavli, Svilo,

lusis kerZebis Cveneburad momzadebas? ar gamosdis, ara Cem-

nairad? Sen Semogevlos dedaSeni. lusi? Tenkiu veri maC,mai

darling... iez,iez... aCi? niniko?... iez, iez...

gatrunuli isxdnen qalebi da TvalmouSoreblad Se-

hyurebdnen megobars, wamdauwum rom ecvleboda saxis

gamometyveleba _ da bolos, saubris damTavrebis Semdeg

gulCawyvetili xmiT naTqvami: _ Cemma SviliSvilebma qar-

Tuli ar ician... arc rZalma! vasikom ver aswavla (pauza).

ver moicala etyoba saamisod (pauza). fulis keTebas Tu...

Sovnas bevri dro sWirdeba, etyoba... /pauza/...

iciT, vasikoc ver migebs, ratom ar gadavdivar masTan

sacxovreblad!.. iseve, rogorc Cem amerikel mZaxlebs uk-

virT, ratom mepatiJeba ase daJinebiT Cemi Svili!.. ratom ar

vrCebi iq, aseve daJinebuli Txovnis miuxedavad!

xom sainteresoa, ara? iq miRebuli araa mSoblebTan er-

Tad cxovreba... ukvirT, rom Cveneburebs ded-mama, da-Zma da

saerTod, naTesaoba rom CahyavT amerikaSi... ver auxsniaT es

fenomeni!.. iseve, rogorc mSoblebis sadRegrZelo ucxoa

maTTvis... magram rogor uxariaT xolme, roca am sadRe-

grZelos ismenen.

_ ise, Sens adgilze, me wavidodi... da iq davrCebodi kidec

saerTod.!.. nu gaikvirveb... normalur adamians am daqceul qvey-

anaSi rom ar ecxovreba, xom cxadze ucxadesia... maSa sadame...

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_ mec gaviqceodi aqedan, am giJebis samyofelodan, cota saSualeba rom mqondes da cota axalgazrda rom viyo...

_ aki, axalgazrdebi masobriv garbian kidec, Cemo ekuS! CaTvale rom, didi umetesoba ar dabrundeba saqarTveloSi, anu isini dakargulebi arian Cveni qveynisaTvis!

`Cemi vasikoc, maT Soris~.marTlac, male albaT sul dacarieldeba saqarTvelo qa-

rTvelebisagan. amas odesme warmovidgendiT?

_ me ki _ arsadac ar vapireb aqedan wasvlas, romc Se-

mexvewon!_ Segexvewebian ara, kalTebs dagaglejen, xom ici!.. jer

erTi, vis rad unda SenisTana gadaRrjuebuli dedaberi da... isic maTxovari?.. Tavisic hyofniT!

_ icineT, icineT... magram... avia Tu kargia, es Cemi samSob-loa mainc... rogorc dedas ver gamoicvli, ise samSoblos!..

_ maS, `ar gavcvli me Cems samSoblos sxva qveynis samo-Txezedao~, ara, Cemo sayvarelo ekuna?

_ diaxac!.. sxvaTa Soris, aq unda ibrZolo imisTvis, rom qveyana ukeTesi gaxdes!

_ auh, amas uyureT... ra magari vinmea!.. ki mara... risi mebr-Zoli xar, Sen, Se kuana bebruxanav,? _ natalim saerTo sicil-xarxarSi, sxva ucenzuro seityvac moayola Tavis naTqvams._ asea Tu isea, me versad gavZleb sxvagan-meTqi _ Tbilisis

garda! da saerTod, _ usaqarTvelod! morCa da gaTavda! momkaliT axla Tu gindaT!_ mec. mec... Tbilisis da saerTod, saqarTvelos gareSe

ar SemiZlia sxvagan cxovreba!! mimifurTxebia maTi maZRari cxovrebisaTvis! sulierebisagan daclili yofierebisaTvis!am CarCul-mevaxSur garemocvaSi _ Zaladobis, mruSobis da

siZvis moZalebis Jams _ menatreba rainduli keTilSobileba! diax, am sanCo-pansebis da seqsualuri maniakebis epoqaSi menatreba, Cemi don-kixoti _ es ukeTilSobilesi arseba! diax, diax, menatreba don-kixoti da ara vTqvaT, fulis tomara anu e.w. axali qarTveli _ Tavis kapitalianad!

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_ anu: viva romantizms, Zirs _ pragmatizmi, ara?_ diaxac. Tqveni ironiis miuxedavad _ gaumarjos WeSmarit

siyvaruls da raindobas am qveynierebaze da mis medroSes _ idalgo _ don-kixot lamanCelis saxiT _ Cvens ninikos!.nino Cumad, gaunZrevlad ijda da TiTqos ganrineboda

Tavis megobrebs, romelTa xmebic axla Soreul zuzunad Tu Caesmoda._ qalebo, uol-stitze, am Tanamedrove babilonSi,

caTambjenebis xeivanSi rom aRmovCndi pirvelad, ase megona _ qinZisTaviviT Cavikarge Tivis zvinSi-Tqo._ marTali xar, eTo! es caTambjeni ki ar gamaRlebs

sulierad, rogorc vTqvaT, piramidebi, an Cveni kavkasionis mwvervalebi, aramed, piriqiT... gTrgunavs. pirovnebad ki ar grZnob Tavs, rogori regaliebic unda gamSvenebdes, TiTqos marTla Wia-Rua xar, raRac molaslase landi Tu aCrdili mozimzime jgroSi, yovlad gamousadegari sulieri arseba xar, umweo da ususuri..._ is caTambjenebi e.w. ubralo, mdabio xalxisTvisaa

gankuTvnili, maTi TavSesafaria! Tavad Zlierni ki ama qveynisani _ magnatebi anu fuliani tomrebi kotejebs, ranCoebs irCeven Turme sacxovreblad, rasakvirvelia, sra-sasaxleebTan erTad. Zveli romis msgavsad, Tanamedrove plebeebi da patriciebi Tanasworobis TamaSs TamaSoben. sinamdvileSi ki _ sazRvari ara aqvs momxveWelobas, ltolvas Sovnisaken, SeZenisaken, anu vinc met dovlaTs da fuls daisakuTrebs _ isaa qveynierebis gamgebeli!_ eh, ras izam. aseTi yofila adamianis buneba, ,,guli

krulia kacisa, xarbi da gauZRomelio...~ _ sxvaTa Soris, rusTavelis STamomavalmac Tavis wi-

naprebze aranaklebad icoda es WeSmariteba. `vin aris igi vis Tvis gul erTxel aRevsos da rac mieRos erTxel natvriT, isi ekmaros?..~_ magram igive baraTaSvilma esec xom Tqva: `magram

radganac kacni gvqviano...~

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_ kargiT erTi. adamians marTla mxolod miwa aZRobs, sxva

danarCeni _ zizil-pipiloa!

qalebi TandaTan ufro da ufro cxarobdnen. maTi

xmamaRali dava-kamaTi ukve dasaSveb zRvars scildeboda,

Tumca nino kvlav gatrunuliyo, TiTqos araferi esmoda,

verafers xedavda. aqaurobas daSorebuli misi fiqri da

goneba warmoudgeneli siswrafiT daqroda warmosaxviT

samyaroSi da aseTive siswrafiT icxrileboda da qreboda

misi Sinagani mzeris qveS.

`risTvis movel? ra rCeba Cemgan? ras vtoveb? principSi

Svilic davkarge... vtoveb efemerul saxels, romelic ukve

dRes aravis axsovs.. aravis Wirdeba! nuTu marTla fuWia

adamianis mTeli cxovreba?~

buranSi CaZiruli misi goneba uTavbolod, areul-dareulad,

fragmentulad aRiqvamda gardasul dro-Jams, Cavlil wlebs,

TvaliswamSi balaxiviT gaTibuls _ uxilavi mTibavis mier,

wlebs, ase miraJiviT rom gamqraliyo Tvalsa da xels Sua,

nislsa da qarSi rom CanTqmuliyo drois koriantelSi,

cxovrebis morevSi...

nuTu marTla iluzoruli molandeba aRmoCnda yovelive,

rac Tavs gadaxda? magram... maSin es usaSvelo tkivili

raRaa, guls rom ase kumSavs da wuravs?.. xom realobaa

dawylulebul sulSi CaRvrili uCinari cremlebis na-

kadulic?..

sainteresoa, ratom ar ZaluZs masac erTi trivialuri,

ucxouri serialis kinogmiriviT Tqvas: me mivaRwie

cxovrebaSi yvelafers, rasac vnatrobdi da amitom SemiZlia

sikvdils mSvidad Sevegeboo!..

nino uceb Setokda, gverdze gadaixara da natalias mi-

ubrunda:

_ maS, Cemo natali, Seni azriT, sulerTia, sad daimarxebi?

sad dagayrian gulze miwas? xom? _ wamiT isev gailursa

da mere: _ iqneb marTlac yvelafers sjobia, zRvis talRebma

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Cagixvios? iciT, me mifiqria amaze... am bolo xans mainc,

gansakuTrebiT... _ uceb swrafad gadaisaxa pirjvari: RmerTo,

Semindven!..~ mere karga xans ijda Seurxevlad, xmagakmendili.

mere Tavi maRla aswia, welSi gaimarTa da... moguduli

xmiT simRera wamoiwyo...

yvelani gainabnen. TiTqos sunTqvac ki Sewyvites.

`herio biWebo, herio, ar gavaxaroT mterio...~ _ nino

TandaTan xmas uwevda... saxe STagonebuli gauxda. Tvalebi Zveleburad aubzinvarda.cremlomreulni, aRtacebuli saxeebiT usmendnen qalebi

am gulSiCamwvdom, sevdian melodias, aseTi STagonebiTa da gznebiT rom mReroda axla maTi megobari, adrindeli silaRe, moxdeniloba rom dabruneboda TiTqos da amayad yelmoRerebuls _ mzera sadRac, usazRvroebisaTvis mieSterebina, iqiT, horizonts iqiTken, sadac cisfer blondSi gaxveuli livliva zRva ilandeboda.mReroda Tu... godebda?`rogorc ufali, samSoblo, erTia qveyanazeda!~ _ ga-

isma bolo akordad samarisebul siCumeSi, oTaxSi rom dasadgurebuliyo.Seurxevlad msxdari qalebi jerac gons ver mosuliyvnen

gancdisagan, Tumca simRera ukve kai xnis damTavrebuli iyo. gayuCebulni, TavianT fiqrebs miscemodnen _ TiTqos

marTla Camoiarao siCumis angelozma.nino anazdad magidaze daemxo da... yrud aqviTinda.

slukunis SualedebSi igi erTsa da imaves imeorebda: _ me... bednieri qali var, gogoebo, bednieri qali var! Cemo Zvirfasebo! Cemo sayvarlebo!mere... erTbaSad dadumda. Sewyda misi mxrebis TaxTaxic.enaCavardnili, Secbunebuli, gaognebuli qalebi mswrafl

gamofxizldnen.qalbaton ninos gverdiT mjdomma ekaterinem moridebiT

Seaxo beWze xeli. raRac undoda eTqva, raRac sanugeSo... magram... xma ar amosdioda yelidan...

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_ nino!nino dumda._ ninuca!.. niniko!_ axla yvelani wamocvivdnen adgilebidan,

SeSfoTebulni mivardnen megobars, mklavze rom Camoedo Tavi da... ar iZvroda.nino aRar sunTqavda.

`modi-naxes~ mecixovneni

namdvili ambavi

sqeli, ZvelisZveli folianti nela daxura. mere saTvale auCqareblad moixsna da wignze frTxilad dado. gairinda.„dideba Senda ufalo!.. Tu vcodav... Tu vdrtvinav...

momiteve, Semindven... magram amdeni? amdenjer? aseTi?ra usaSvelo, ra usasrulo da... unugeSo gza golgoTisa

gvergo wilad am mxolod damxvdurad mebrZol xalxs!dro-Jamis am sisxlian srbolaSi aqa-iq Tua xanmokle

gamonaTebebi – saswaulebrivi, TvalismomWreli sikaSkaSe – myisve rom qreba da... mere isev ise dgeba ukuni. bneli. ara da aRar uCans dasasruli tanjva-vaebas, urvas, sulTqmas, sisxlis wvimebs...„qarTlis cxovrebis“ yovel wakiTxvaze emarTeboda ase –

sasowarkveTils, gulgasenils wamierad TiTqos eTiSeboda goneba da wkvaramsa da RurRemelSi CaZiruls - mRvrie, uJmuri azrebi ipyrobda, tvins uburRavda, daurideblad, ulmoblad ufleTda gul-RviZls.am SaveTidan gamosvla ki uWirda, erTob uWirda. isev

locvebi da... cremlebi Sveloda. cremlebi, axlac daukiTxavad, TavisTavad rom moedineboda mis damWknar-daRarul loyebze da wkapa-wkupiT rom ecemoda bebrulad daforajebul da daZarRvul xelis mtevnebze.

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wamoikrifa. welis da muxlebis tkivilma uneburad saxe dauRmiWa. erTxans idga ase gaSeSebuli. mere welSi mokakvuli, sarkmlisken wafratunda. ezoSi gadaixeda daTalxuli TvalebiT.gviani Semodgomis uRimRamo, nacrisferi dRe iyo. nis-

liT daZenZili, Camoqufruli cidan nemsebiviT wvrili wvima iribad crida. TiTqosda ConCxebad qceuli, uSnod gafarCxuli xexilis xeebi, damWknari, Sempali foTlebi jerac rom SerCenodaT – wverwamaxul kviparosebTan erTad baRis garSemo Carigebuliyo da sevdian ganwyobilebas kidev ufro amZafrebda.marTlac mkvdruli mdumareba dasadgurebuliyo irgvliv,

TiTqos sicocxlis niSan-wyali marTla samudamod gam-qraliyo am cisqveSeTidan.„zamTari modis... daiwyeba awi gauTavebeli wvimebi, civi

qarebi, wunwkliani amindebi, notio da nesti... meramdenea es zamTari, neta?.. egeb... ukanasknelia?.. egeba...

dareka ukve mwuxris Jamma?..vin icis, vin icis...yvelaferi uflis nebaa!.. ise ki – droa, droa ukve!..“iRumeniam uecrad Tavis sarkmelTan axlos, SiSveli

vaSlis totze Camomjdar, abuzul beRuras hkida Tvali – Citi yvinTavda da... umowyalod ilumpeboda.hoi, Se sabralo Citunav, ratom iwuwebi agre? rad ar

gafrindebi sadme? TavSesafars risTvis ar eZeb?erTi bewo, frTebSi TavCarguli, umweo frinveli

Seurxevlad ijda da... saguldagulod sveldeboda!Cito, Cito Ciorao!..„gadia, rato ugdebda Ciora Tavis bartyebs im borot,

saZagel melakudas?“„eSinoda, Svilo, da... imitom!“„rato eSinoda, gadia?“„culs movitan cunculasa... xesac movWri, xis Zirsa ca,

Senc SegWam da Sen Svilsacao... ra unda eqna, apa, sawy al

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Cioras? iZulebuli Seiqna... sxva gza ar hqonda...“„rato ar hqonda sxva gza?.. im wuwkma da oxerma meliam

xom samive Svili gadausansla?.. rato ver uSvela?.. rato?“„rato... rato... ra Semiwvrile, boSo, guli?.. rato

da... imitom! sxva gamosavali ar hqonda-Tqva geubnebi da... geigone!“„rato ar hqonda sxva gamosavali-Tqva, gadia?“... culs movitan, cunculasa...Cito, Ciorav, gafrindi... pawawunav!.. Tavs uSvele, nu

axaneb! Tore... gaiToSebi, Se sacodavo!“beRura uwindeburad daskupebuliyo gaCxinkul, titlikana

rtoze da... adgils ar icvlida!iRumenias SeaJrJola. TiTqos mis sxeulSi idga es usi-

amovno amindi...ufro mWidrod moixvia TavSali beWebze da kvlav

miaSterda CaJamebul sivrces.... oh!.. ram gaanaTa netavi erTbaSad es nisliT Ca-

moburusebuli irgvliveTi?.. es gadaxunebul-gaburZgnuli sveli mindori?vin, vin moagelvebs, neta, TeTr raSs am myisierad am-

wvanebul-abibinebul mdeloze? mzis barCxala sxivebiT ana-zdeulad gabrdRvialebul ezo-yureSi?mxedari sarkmels moawyda.acimcimebuli, sxivosani, budeSura Tvalebi... kriala,

naTeli Rimili...`RmerTo Cemo, RmerTo Cemo!..~– risTvis moxvedi?.. vin gixmo?..– nuTu... es Sena xar, qeTevan Cemo?.. ras damsgavsebulxar,

beCa? nuTu... dro-Jamma dagamaxinja da... dagaCiava ase?– hoo... wlebis simravlem damiZabuna xorci!.. – ki mara, ra unda am daCaCanakebul, dauZlurebul

sxeulSi... suls?.. rad ar tovebs am ugvan WurWels?.. rad ar miaSurebs zecis laJvardebs? ra darCenia am binZur, codvilian saaqaoSi?

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mxedarma moulodnelad xmamaRla, gulianad gadaikiskisa. xorblisferi, xSiri Tma yabalaxidan uecrad mxrebze gad-moeRvara talRebiviT. mere unagirze aiwvarTa da: – Semomxede! kargad Semomxede!.. me... ar Sevcvlilvar! me

– ar vsdev JamTa cvlas!.. me – igive var, rac viyav!.. da... agre davrCebi maradJams! – Tqva Tu ara, Tavi ukan gadaigdo, kvlav gadaitkarcala xalisianad, cota ar iyos, niSnis mogebiTac, mere yalyze Semdgari cxeni Seatriala da... wamiswamSi gaqra Tvalsawieridan, TiTqos msubuq nislSi ganimqra erTbaSad.iRumeniam Tvalebi moifSvnita.nuTu?nuTu Tavisi ymawvilqaloba moelanda?mereda, ase cxadliv? ase aSkarad?RmerTo Cemo, RmerTo Cemo!..uferuli tuCebi mware Rimilma daugrixa...isev ise miaCerda daJinebiT monastris ezo-baRs, mere

beRuraze gadaitana kvlav mzera. Tavfexianad galumpuli, aZagZagebuli Citi kvlav ga-

unZrevlad ijda. TiTqos dakosebuliyo SiSvel totze da medgrad umklavdeboda avdars!rtoebze mZiviviT asxmuli wvimis momsxo wveTebi ki dro

da dro Zirs cvioda da haerSi ukvalod ifanteboda... wkap-wkup, wkap-wkup!saocaria! ratom miuSveria Tavi Cioras abezari wvimisTvis?

rad ar gaecleba am qaraSots da sicives, Zval-rbilSi rom atans?ras elodeba neta es beCavi? vis an ras ujiutdeba Tu

eurCeba ase TavgametebiT?... iRumeniam Tavis daleul mkerdqveS daRlil-daqanculi

Citis gulisfeTqva mkafiod SeigrZno anazdeulad. am qvey-niuri, ulmobeli, bedisweriseuli sisastikiT amao ar-sebobis wuTebs Tu iTvlida igi?uecrad...

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beRura Setokda. erTi SeifrTxiala, TiTqos wvimis wveTebs iSorebso, da... Zirs wamovida qvasaviT.„auh!.. RmerTo Cemo!“iq SigniT, sulis siRrmeSi TiTqos viRacam Tu raRacam

wamoikivla uneblieT.oh, Se sabralo Cito Ciorav! nuTu, nuTu guli gagiskda?

veRar gauZel, beCavo?..movida gana Seni aRsasrulis Jami?movida da damTavrda, damTavrda SenTvis yvelaferi?Cito, Cito, Ciorao...culs movitan, cunculasa...... karze frTxili kakuni moesma. axalgazrda monazonma

Semoixeda da mokrZalebiT moaxsena, TqvenTan stumaria mosulio.– stumari?!„vin unda iyos?“– vinaoba xom ar uTqvams, Svilo?– ara, dedao. moxuci vaJbatoni brZandeba...– Semovides, sTxove...magidasTan mibruneba daapira, magram gadaifiqra da sar-

kmelTan SeCerebulma, Semosasvlels miapyro danisluli mzera.vin unda yofiliyo? vin unda swveoda monasterSi aseT

dros iRumenias, TiTqmis gawyvetili rom hqonda kavSiri gare-samyarosTan?mcire xnis Semdeg kari gaiRo da mxcovani Tavadi

qudmoxdili senakSi Semovida. jer miixed-moixeda da sarkmelTan mdgari iRumenia rom dainaxa, TiTqos Seyovnda wamiT, mere... pirdapir misken gamoswia mZime nabijebiT, gulSi qudCaxutebulma.iRumenias wamiT TiTqos reti daesxa. quTuToebi daumZimda,

sunTqva Seekra.moulodnelad... berikacs axovani, TmaxuWuWa, pirmSvenieri

Wabuki aefara – igi farTo RimiliT, dinjad, nel-nela

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uaxlovdeboda Semcbar, sulTqmaSekrul iRumenias.RmerTo Cemo!.. RmerTo Cemo!..nuTu?!oh, es... TeTri, TeTri kbilebi... da...„Savi guli?!“uceb axalgazrda kaci muxlebze daeca da...iRumenias Tvalwin elvisuswrafesad gairbina warsulis

suraTebma, wamierad gacocxlda TiTqos minavlul-miCqmaluli aCrdilebi gardasuli droisa.

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inaTa Tu ara, uxmaurod, swrafad Caicva, mZinare moaxleebs fexakrefiT auara gverdi da galavnis qongurs miaSura.mTeli Rame ar uZinia. wina dRis gamarjvebis sixaruls

SerTvoda raRacnairi, gaucnobierebeli SfoTi da wuxili. wrialebda. ver isvenebda da ai, dgas axla Wogritmomarjvebuli da yuradRebiT aTvalierebs mowinaaRmdegis adgil-sam-yofels: patara, dangreuli cixe-simagridan moSorebiT velze gaSlili banaki arsad Canda.– etyoba, magrad arian Sefucxunebuli, qalbatono qeTevan!..

dila mSvidobis! – miesalma zurgsukan mdgari mamakaci odnav CaxleCili xmiT.„aha, amasac ar sZinebia!“ar mouxedavs, arc gakvirveba gamouxatavs misi aseTi

moulodneli gamocxadebiT, ise gaepasuxa: – mSvidoba mogces ufalma!.. saeWvod meCveneba me aseTi

gauCinareba. Sen ras ityvi, Cemo basilika?– jer kidev albaT gonsmosulebi ver arian guSindeli

damarcxebis gamo, qalbatono qeTevan! Wrilobebs Tu iSuSeben axlo-maxlo xev-xuvSi, – dacinva gaisma mamakacis xmaSi. mere ramdenjerme Caaxvela, xma Caiwminda.– rusebi ar vici, mara Cemi mazliswuli ara mgonia ase

advilad Seeguos am marcxs... raime xriks moisazrebdnen

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uTuod. – qali TiTqos fiqrSiao, xmadabla, TavisTvis

butbutebda da Tan Wogrits ar iSorebda Tvalebidan, isev

ise daJinebiT gaangrZobda garemos zvervas: – sakvirvelia,

sad unda gamqraliyvnen? cam uyo piri Tu... miwam Caylapa?

– grigol batoni, rasakvirvelia, iolad ver moinelebs

guSindel simwares. apa, Tqven TviTon gansajeT: maTma

nasrolma verc erTma yumbaram mizans ver miaRwia, yvela

haerSi gaskta. erTi-ori qe moxvda TiTqos galavans, mara ra

mere? douSavda amiT cixes raime? eg xom „modi naxea“, Cemo

batono!.. hoda, weviden axla baton tormasovTan da saca

Tavisi deikvexon, iq Cvenica Tqvan!

– egeni wamsvlelebs ara hgvanan, Cemo basilika! – qali

kvlav ganagrZobda gulisyuriT aremaris Tvalierebas.

– ar wavlen da... Tav-beds vawyevlinebT! arc iseTi yara-

man yanTelebi brZandebian, qe ro hgoniaT Tavisi Tavi. aqana,

am Cvens miwa-wyalze ar unda gaWaWandes rusis jari da...

verc veravisi, Cemo batono! magens isic eyofaT, rac qarTl-

kaxeTs damarTes. CvenSi, imereTSi egeni kinCxs da kisers

meitexaven, solomon mefe da qaixosro batoni gvicocxlos

oRond RmerTma!

– Sens pirs Saqari, Cemo basilika, Sens pirs Saqari! mara...

xom ici, muxam ra Tqva: culi me ras damaklebda, Cemi jiSis

rom ar erios Sigo...

„eh, uricxvi mteri marTlac veras gvizamda, isev Cveni

jilagisani rom ar mouZRvebodnen win!“

qalma wamiT iyuCa, mere sevdanarevi xmiT ganagrZo: – CvenSi

cixe yovelTvis Signidan tydeboda, Cemo basilika! magi Senc

ici, yoliferi Seni TvaliT gaqvs nanaxi da gadatanili...

– eh, Cemo, qeTevan batono, netai ar menaxa!.. ro gamaxsendeba,

guli mikvteba... rafer gmirulaT ibrZoda im sulkurTxe-

uli erekles jari!.. ra saswauli moaxTines daviT batoniS-

vilis mezarbazneebma!.. ra vefxvebiviT biWebi iyvnen da... ra

axlos iyo gamarjveba urjuloebze, mara... Savma Ralatma

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Savi dRe gagviTena... wyalSi Ceiyara yolisferi... pirvelaT maSin vnaxe cremli qaixosro batonis TvalebSi...

„maSin mefesTan da qaixosrosTan erTad, erT banakSi ibr-Zoda zurab wereTelic!“

– brmav, ras Civio da... orTav Tvalis Cinsao. mec amas vCivi, Cemo basilika! sxvas, ucxo tomels - viTom mokeTes - sinamdvileSi ki uborotes mters - ra unda mohkiTxo, roca xSirad sakuTari Svilebis gautanlobac da muxanaTobac aranakleb aqcevs xolme qveyanas.

– mara Wkua xom unda viswavloT odesme, qalbatono qeTevan?.. me ase mgonia, ar gouvaT awi Cvens mtrebs - rju-lianebs Tu urjuloebs - uwindeli xrikebi. ase miTqvams me guli, ase mjera... – RmerTma gisminos, Cemo basilika, RmerTma gisminos! –

amooxvriT Tqva qeTevanma, mere Wogriti moiSora Tvalebidan da gverdulad gamoxeda misgan sapatio manZilze mdgar mecixovnes, mowiwebiT, TavdaxriT rom esityveboda qals.„eh, vis sad uganebs wuTisofeli, RmerTma Tu uwyis!“basilikam isev wamoiwyo:– exla vnatrob, maSindeli jani da Rone momca-Tqva.

guli qe merCis isev ZveleburaT, kido SemiZlia gavumklavde mtrebs, kido SemiZlia Cveni mefis, batoni qaixosros da Tqveni samsaxuri-Tqva... mara...

– RmerTma SegaZlebinos, Cemo basilika!..„da, RmerTma umravlos Cvens bedkrul samSoblos Seni-

sTana erTguli Svilebi!“– ise, – yoymanis Semdeg ganagrZo qalbatonma qeTevanma:

– ise, sibere marTla cudi rame yofila, basilika Cemo!.. marTlac, yvela Wirze ufro didi Wiria Turme es oxer-tiali. mec ager 46 wlisa vxdebi, davberdi ukve, Tumca Seni ar iyos, guls mainc ar vitex, ar gavaxareb Cvens mtrebs siZabuniT-Tqva, mara...

– apa, apa, apa! ra dros Tqveni siberea, qalbatono qeTe-

van. magi ar TqvaT, Tqveni Wirime! rasac me guSin vuyure!..

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Tqveni nasroli yumbarebi... saswauli iyo pirdapir, sas-

wauli - Tqvens mzes vficavar!

mecixovnis xmaSi iseTi gulwrfeli aRtaceba ismoda,

rom qeTevans uneburad gaeRima: – me mgoni, arc Sen Se-

gircxvenia Tavi, Cemo basilika!.. simarTle Tu ginda, Senma

simarjvem gamabedina mec...

– apa, pa, pa! ras brZanebT, qalbatono qeTevan, Tqveni cx-

enze jiriTi, Tqveni Tof-iaraRis xmareba mTel saabaSiZeosa

da sawereTloSia ganTqmuli, Tqvens nadirobasac Sevswrebi-

var, mara... zarbazani?..– ho, basilika, cxenze gamaxsenda, – Seawyvetina qalma

Sinaymas xotba-dideba: – cxenebi Tua mixedili kargaT?– apa ara!.. javri nu gaqvT, qalbatono qeTevan! erTi Tvis

samyofi Tiva movimarageT. puri, Rvino, – blomad gvaqvs. Tqven arxeinad iyaviT. wyalic sakmarisze meti davagroveT! ase rom...

– kaia! biWebi ar unda daimSen. axalgazrdebi arian, xo ici! hoda, jani sWirdebaT. omi saxumaro saqme araa! „Cemi papuna, vin icis, rafer aris axla iq!.. moukvdes deda!“

– rasakvirvelia, qalbatono, rasakvirvelia. Tqven nu SiSobT. yoliferi ise iqneba, raferadac Tqven gagixarde-baT da baton qaixosros!.. mag durbinds Tu maTxovebT pa-tara xans? gedvixedav mec erTi... marTla mousavleTSi xom ar gadeikarqen Cveni „Zvirfasi stumrebi“? egebada, Cveni daxmareba sWirdebaT? vin icis... – Caiqirqila mecixovnem da xelebi moifSvnita. qalbatonma ise miawoda Wogriti basilikas, rom Tavad cixe-simagris galavnidan gadaSlili sivrcisTvis mzera ar moucilebia.

seqtembris mSvenieri dila Tendeboda. odnav qarvisfer-Separebuli gorakebi da vel-mindvrebi jerac mwvaned xas-xasebdnen. Sors, xelmarcxniv moCanda lilisfer nislSi amovlebuli lixis mTebi, xelmarjvniv ki kavkasionis go-liaTi, lurji mTagrexilebi zviadad gawoliliyvnen da TiTqos Tvlemdnen. haeri sufTa da gamWvirvale iyo.

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iseTi simSvide da myudroeba sufevda garSemo, TiTqos Zexorciels arasodes daerRvios aq es RvTiuri garindeba.

mze oqros jiRad morgeboda mTis Txems da mis sxivebSi curavda TiTqos mTeli are-mare. am warmtaci suraTis xil-va adamianis Tvals atkbobda da guls siamiT avsebda.

oriveni – qali da kaci – erTi, didi qalbatoni, imere-Tis ukanaskneli mefis solomon II-is sardlis qaixosro wereTlis meuRle qeTevan abaSiZe da „modi-naxes“ mecixovne basilika RonRaZe `monusxulni Sescqerodnen kavkasionis lilo-Wrelos da ise CanTqmuliyvnen TavianT gancdebSi, rom xmaurma, uceb rom gaisma, wamiT orive daabnia. mere ga-ocebiT da SeSfoTebiT gadaxedes erTmaneTs. yumbaris baTqa-buTqis xma isev ganmeorda.

gonsmosulebma saCqarod Cairbines kibis safexurebi.cixe-simagris ezoSi rig-rigobiT Cacvenili yumbarebi

xmauriT skdeboda.mecixovneni ezoSi gamocveniliyvnen yviriliT da

uTavbolod darbodnen aqeT-iqiT.qeTevanma da basilikam swrafad iazres, rac moxda. Canda,

simonoviCis da grigol wereTlis jars mTeli Rame evlo, „modi-naxes“ cixes aRmosavleTidan mosdgomoda da axla mopirdapire, TiTqmis Tanaswor simaRleze mdgar „TodaZis cixidan“ uSenda yumbarebs.

– basilika! swrafad Seabrune zarbaznebi „TodaZis cix-isken!“ – dauyvira qeTevanma mezarbazneTa meTaurs. – guji sad aris? guji momgvareT!.. buxutia?.. xom ar daSavebula vinme?

– aqa varT, Seni Wirime!.. aravin daSavebula. yvelani cocxlebi varT!

qeTevanma ubrZana Tavis ZiZiSvils, wyalsacavebidan sas-wrafod gamoeSvaT wyali da ezoSi daegubebinaT, naxevar arSinze mainc: – nabdebi, nabdebi daasveleT!

razmelebi uxmaurod, swrafad asrulebdnen TavianTi meTauris gankargulebebs, Tumca bevri maTgani azrze ver mo-

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dioda, Tu ras niSnavda es yovelive, an ra xdeboda saerTod.– sveli nabadi mec momitaneT saCqarod!uceb qeTevanma Tvali hkida patara saydris win locvad

xelapyrobil mRvdels. erTi razmelis piriT SeuTvala, Sig Sesuliyo, Tan qeTevanis ori moaxle gogoc Seeyvana da iqi-dan fexi ar moecvalaT, sanam yvelaferi ar dawynardeboda.

galavnis Soriaxlos mdgari qeTevani gafacicebiT Tvaly-urs adevnebda ramdenime auzidan ezoSi Camomdinare wyals, xanac galavnis qongurebze gadahqonda mzera, sadac basilika da misi mezarbazneebi adgils unacvlebdnen zarbaznebs.

is iyo gujis biWma sveli nabadi mourbenina qeTevans, rom

ucbad maT maxloblad yumbara daeca zuzuniT. SiSatanili,

dazafruli ymawvili sanam raimes moisazrebda, qeTevanma uy-

vira, daweqi, daweqio, Tavad nabdiT xelSi yumbarasTan mi-

iWra, jer rom ar afeTqebuliyo, da afuebul Clas nabadi

gadaafara saswrafod. cotac da... yumbaris gaskdomis xma

yrud gaisma.

SeSfoTebuli razmelebi qalbaton qeTevans mivardnen, ma-

gram qeTevanma saqmiani ieriT da mSvidi xmiT ubrZana, yvela

Tav-Tavis adgils dabruneboda da mzad yofiliyvnen yovel-

gvari moulodnelobisTvis.

amasobaSi wyali ezoSi TiTqmis naxevar arSinze idga. yum-

barebi drodadro Sig cvioda da SiSiniT skdeboda. xolo

basilikas da mis xelqveiTebs ukve moexerxebinaT zarba-

znebis gadaadgileba.

– basilika! aba Sen ici! Seneburad dascxe mag mama-

oxriSvilebs!

mere TviTonac qongurze avarda, ganze gaswia erTi me-

zarbazne, gulmodgined daumizna lula qvemoT, TiTqmis

„modi-naxes“ gaswvriv „TodaZis cixis“ ezoSi mdgar zarba-

zans da...

– vaSaa! moxvda, moxvda! – yiJina dasces aRtacebulma

mezarbazneebma.

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Semdeg basilikamac mSvidad, auCqareblad mizanSi amoiRo

mowinaaRmdegis zarbazani, da yumbara Sig tuCSi SeaZvrina.

zarbazani Suaze gaskda. meore gasroliT wamlis yuTebi

abrialda ,,TodaZis“ cixis ezoSi. mas mohyva meore, mesame...

– agre, agre mouxdebaT, mag ZaRliSvilebs! moilxinon

axla kargaT da irikaon, ramdenic undaT!

TandaTan, rigrigobiT, „modi-naxes“ mecixovneTa kargi

poziciis gamo da Tavad mezarbazneebis, gansakuTrebiT ki

basilikas da qeTevanis ostatobis da simarjvis wyalobiT,

rusis jaris zarbaznebi mTlianad ganadgurda.

... Sinaganad aRgznebuli, magram garegnulad mSvidi ieriT,

qalbatoni qeTevani galavanze gadmodga da iqidan gadaxeda

Zleul banaks. mters mTavari iaraRi – zarbaznebi xelidan

gamoecala, da maSasadame, aw naklebad saSiSi da saxifaTo

iyo!..

aqamde Cumad mdgarma qalbatonma qeTevanma uceb wyali

moiTxova. myisve miurbenines. TiTqmis naxevramde dacala

doqi, mere gaxurebul saxeze Seisxa civi wyali, yabalaxi

moiZro, sveli xelebi nela gadaisva Tavze, mere yabalaxi,

ase rom Svenoda, isev waikra da wamiT gayuCda. savse, lamaz

tuCebs wynari, kmayofilebis Rimili utokebda.

„esec ase!“

garSemomyofni, gaunZrevlad mdgarni, mdumared, daufara-

vi aRtacebiT Sescqerodnen Tvaltanad, momxiblav, didebul

mandilosans, ase vaJkacurad rom eWira Tavi, ase mamacurad,

ase TavganwirviT rom ibrZoda mefis, meuRlisa da TiToeu-

li maTganis Rirsebis dasacavad.

„mefev batono, Cemo Zvirfaso qaixosrov! SegiZliaT mSvi-

dad iyoT: sircxvils ar gaWmevT abaSiZis qali!“ – gaurbina

TavSi anazdad qeTevans da galavnidan daRlili, magram kmay-

ofili saxiT, Zirs, ezoSi daeSva. gezi eklesiisken aiRo,

raTa uflisTvis madloba Seewira im gamarjvebisTvis, rac

dRes moipoves „modi-naxes“ damcvelebma.

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cixe-koSkis ezoSi gaSlil grZel sefas ocdaaTamde ax-

algazrda meomari – qeTevanis razmelebi da mecixovneni

Semosxdomodnen – basilikas TamadobiT.

qalbatonma qeTevanma Tavadac isurva, rom mis razmelebs,

raki swaddaT, SeZlebisdagvarad, moelxinaT, aReniSnaT di-

landeli gamarjveba. TviTonac, mama zosimes TanxlebiT, pa-

tivi dasdo axalgazrdebs da lxinze ewvia.

mze Cawurvaze iyo, grili niavi saamod uberavda. haeri

dayursuliyo adreuli Semodgomis surneliT, rac ufro

sasiamovnos xdida isedac gaxarebul mecixovneebis guneba-

ganwyobilebas.Rvinos patar-patara Tixis jamebiT svamdnen. basilikas

mokle sadRegrZeloebis Tema, cxadia iyo dilandeli orT-

abrZola mezarbazneebisa da is gamarjveba, rac rusebze

moipoves „modinaxelebma“ – qalbaton qeTevanis winamZRo-

lobiT.

qeifis eSxSi Sesulebma TandaTan xmaurs da oxunjobasac

umates, Tumca mandilosnis da mama zosimes ridiT zRvars

aravin gadasula. mcire xnis Semdeg mama zosimem bodiSi

moixada, xelmeored akurTxa sufra da eklesiisken gaemarTa.

qalbatoni qeTevanic ar apirebda didxans darCenas, Tumca

miaCnda, rom Tavis razmelebTan erTad unda gaeziarebina

saerTo sixaruli. amasTan, qalbatonma qeTevanma mSvenivrad

uwyoda, ra gulwrfeli da ganuzomeli siyvaruliT sarge-

blobda igi Tavis qveSevrdomebSi, ra mowiwebiT, krZal-

viT iyo mis mimarT gamsWvaluli yoveli maTgani. vinaidan

yvelafris garda, qalbatoni qeTevanic, Tavis mxriv, dedobriv

mzrunvelobas ar aklebda razmelebs – amitomac, Tumca daR-

lil-daqanculi gaxldaT yovelive imiT, rac Tavs gadaxda

am dRes, qeTevani mainc ijda saxemomRimari da cdilobda

mxned moeCvenebina Tavi monadimeebisTvis, am erTimeoreze

ukeTesi, darCeuli ymawvilebisaTvis, ZiriTadad glexobis

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wridan rom iyvnen, magram siCauqiT, mamacobiT Tu garegnuli

silamaziT tols rom ar udebdnen warCinebulTa gvaris

Svilebs.

qeTevani Tavis gunebaSi esiyvaruleboda TiToeul maTgans,

rogorc sakuTar Svilebs. siyvaruli da Tanadgoma moyva-

sis mimarT – abaSiZis asulisaTvis Tandayolili, bunebrivi

Tviseba gaxldaT...

xSirad igonebda xolme Tavisi aRmzrdeli bicolas, val-

ida afaqiZis qalis sityvebs: adamians pativi unda miago

misi Rirsebis mixedviT da ara warmomavlobis gamoo, es

ki im droisTvis arc Tu Cveulebrivi ambavi gaxldaT. aki,

axloblebi mas, solomon I-is meuRles mariams – otia da-

dianis asuls – tyveTa syidvis sastik mowinaaRmdeges –

amsgavsebdnen, Tumca qeTevani ar Seswreboda mis dedoflo-

bas, Tavad ki mamis Zmis colis, odiSidan zemo imereTSi

gamoTxovili valida afaqiZis Svilobilad miiCnevda Tavs.

qeTevans mxarmarcxniv, usayvarlesi ZiZiSvili-guji ejda,

xolo misi biWi, 19 wlis buxutia, Tavis or TanatolTan

erTad, marjved emsaxureboda sufras.

buxutia gamorCeuli grZnobiT uyvarda qeTevans. Tavis

ufros vaJs, papunas amgvanebda. masaviT pirbadri iyo, masaviT

didroni, Taflisferi, mocinare Tvalebi da miamiti, kriala

Rimili hqonda, masaviT mardi, mkvircxli da uSiSari gaxldaT.

gujis igi Tavad buxutias Txovna-mudariT moeyvana qeTe-

vanis razmSi. am Znelbedobis Jams, roca samefo awewil-

dawewili iyo, mefe ki – gandevnili, roca Zma Zmas ar in-

dobda, roca didebulTa ojaxebi erTmaneTisadmi mtrulad

ganwyobil banakebad iyo gayofili – zogi solomon II-s

emxroboda, zogi – rusT xelmwifes – TiToeuli erTgu-

li mebrZoli Seufasebeli, Zvirfasi ganZi iyo qeTevanisTvis,

romelsac meuRlis, qaixosro sardlis TxovniT – axal-

cixeSi rom axlda mefes – maT dabrunebamde meTauris mZime

tvirTi unda ekisra.

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miuxedavad imisa, rom imereTis mosaxleoba – gaRatakebu-li, gaZvaltyavebuli gaxldaT gamudmebuli omianobis gamo – kvlavac mzad iyo mxari daeWira devnili mefisTvis da ebrZola rogorc rusis jaris, aseve, osmalebis winaaRmdeg, radgan miaCndaT, rom erTi babri iyo, meore ki – focx-veri. ra mgels SevuWamivarT da ra mglisfer ZaRlso, iZa-xda xalxi da orives, rogorc dampyrobels, ise uyurebda. miT ufro, rom cocxal magaliTad hyavdaT TavianTi moZme qarTl-kaxelebi, SeTanxmebis miuxedavad, veragulad rom waarTves damoukidebloba, mouspes bagrationTa mefoba da monobis uReli daadges mTel xalxs da qveyanas.

imerTa umetesoba ar apirebda Segueboda rusebis mmarTv-elobas, misTvis egzom ucxos da sastiks. amitomac solo-mon meoris momxreTa ricxvi dRiTidRe izrdeboda, xalxis didi, sayovelTao ajanyeba ukve Sors aRar iyo!..

... qeTevani dro da dro cotas ki svamda Rvinos, ma-gram TavisTavs atyobda, gaxalisebis nacvlad, naRveli Tan-daTan emateboda, guli uneburad ukvnesoda, Tumca cdi-lobda, uguneboba ar datyoboda, magram misdauneburad ver iSorebda fiqrs Tavis meuRleze, ufros biWze, papunaze, mamas rom axlda axalcixeSi, da Tavis mcirewlovan qal-vaJze, raWaSi, deduleTSi rom hyavda gaxiznuli. vera da ver moeSorebina dardi solomon mefesa da rusebis mier muxuris cixeSi gamomwyvdeul mariam dedofalzec.

qeTevanis azri erTi sagnidan meoreze xteboda, meoridan – mesameze, mere isev ireoda erTmaneTSi yvelaferi: az-rovneba da fiqri xom mouxelTebeli, uswrafesi ramaa. arc ici, ra wuTas sad gautevs, ras gaixsenebs, ras warmoaCens gonebaSi, ras warmosaxavs... da mainc... fiqriT kvlav Tavi-sianebs ubrundeboda.

vin icis, ra dReSi arian axla? iqneb isinic daboRmil-gamwarebulni masaviT Cumad ylapaven uilajobis, umweobis, uimedobis cremlebs? ki, dRes gaimarjva qeTevanma da misma razmma, magram... xval? ra iqneba xval? ras moitans uTanas-

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woro Widili gadamTielTa uricxv jarTan? ki, es guladi

biWebi mzad arian Tavi Seswiron mefes, qveyanas, Tavisufle-

bas, magram... mere? ra moxdeba mere?

nuTu samarTlianobam odesme mainc ar unda gaimarjvos?

uceb, moulodnelad mama zosimes dacarielebul adgilze

damjdar mandilosans mohkra Tvali. qeTevani Secba, mere

farulad miixed-moixeda.

sxvebi Tu xedaveno qals? egeba, me mezmaneba rameo?

ara. xilva ki ara, TiTqos cocxali arseba ejda gverdiT.

didi xnis gardacvlili valida bicola, tanT Talxi kaba

rom emosa, Talxi ferisve leCaqiT Tavdaxuruli - ucnauri

RimiliTa da daJinebuli mzeriT Sescqeroda saxeSi qeTe-

vans anu Tavis sulier Svils, rogorc eZaxda igi patarao-

bidanve mazliswuls.

– ratom xar ase daRonebuli, Semogevle?

– nuTu?! Sena xar bicola?

– ho. me var, qeTino Svilo: nu krTebi. aq axla me da

Sen varT mxolod. ras dardob, bicola genacvalos, ase?

ra mizezia?

– metyoba rame, bicola? – Zlivs amoiRo xma qeTevanma.

– me gatyob!

qeTevanma kvlav malulad gaapara Tvali Tavis garSemo

msxdomebisken. ukve SezarxoSebuli menadimeni xmatkbilad

mRerodnen da gujic Tavisi Cinebuli xmiT bans aZlevda

maT. TiTqos aravis arafris dardi ar hqonda (nadimoba da

molxena – Tundac mcire mizezis gamo, xom dedis mucli-

dan gamoyolili, sisxlismieri Tviseba gaxldaT yoveli

qarTvelisaTvis – lixTimeri iqneboda is Tu lixTameri).

da, rac mTavaria, veravin amCnevda, qeTevanis gverdiT micva-

lebuli qalis lands.

– gana... ara maqvs sadardebeli, bicola? gamosavals ver

vxedav. gaxsovs, Sen maswavlidi, Cveni saqarTvelo – ibe-

ria erTiani, mTliani da Zlieri iyoo erT dros. Sen bevr

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rameze amixile Tvali... bavSvobidanve. Sen mikiTxavdi da makiTxebdi Cvens uZveles wignebsa da xelnawerebs.

sadRaa erTiani saqarTvelo, bicola batono? erTmaneTis mtrobiT, qiSpobiT aqceven qveyanas. axla imereTiRa ibrZvis, ibrZvis Cveni uflebaayrili solomon mefe da misi momxreni, cdiloben gaumklavdnen moZalebul mters, far-xmals ar yrian, mara sxvebi?.. Cveni mTavrebi – samarcxvinod Seekrnen ukve rusis imperators...

ki, veomebiT momxvdurebs, Cven, vinc davrCiT mefis erT-gulebi-ar vTmobT Cvens miwa-wyals, mara... rodemde, bicola batono? rodemde gavZlebT? yvelas pirveloba surs... ager, Cemi mazliswuli, qaixosros biZaSvili, grigol wereTeli, saxlTuxucesis, zurabis vaJi - orive gauorgulda solomon mefes... mama-Svilma bevri gadaibira Tavis mxareze, oRond egaa – meore vaJs, simons veraferi mouxerxa zurabma – igi mefis erTguli darCa!.. osmalebi viTom gvimegobrdebian axla, sinamdvileSi ki Casafrebuli arian, da elian Jams, raTa erTxel kidev mogvasworon miwasTan.

amasobaSi gaivso urjuloebis bazrebi Cveni darCeuli gogo-biWebiT. bevri Cveni xarbi, wuwki, gaumaZRari Tavadi, akrZalvis miuxedavad, mainc arRvevs kanons, mainc axerxebs sakuTari ymebis gayidvas ara mxolod Turqebze, yvela ju-ris gadamTielze!

xonTqarsa da begebs vinRa Civa? rigiTebic gamacadineb-ulebi arian, TavianTi haramxanebi gaavson Cveni mzeTunaxave-biT!.. xo unda gaakeTilSobilon Tavisi ujiSo modgma da jilagi! irgvliv mxolod mzakvroba, mxolod mzakvroba da cbierebaa!

amdeni xania ager jojoxeTis almurSi viwviT da uanga-rod Semxidebeli aravin gamoCnda.

rusT xelmwife xom viTom erTmorwmunea, mara xo yvelam davinaxeT, rogor ar daindo qarTl-kaxeTis samefo!.. ra ve-ragulad moiqca!.. Cvenc xo imaves gvipirebs?

ra vqnaT?.. rafer moviqceT?

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sul vekiTxebi Cems Tavs, rato ar gvanebeben Tavs es didroni samefoebi? ras erCian am patara qveyanas? vis ra davuSaveT? vis ra wavarTviT-Tqva? ratom ar gvayeneben? Cven xom mxolod damxvdurad mebrZolebi varT? – al-baT TavisTvis ufro azrobda yovelive amas qeTevani, magram grZnobda, afaqiZis qals yvelaferi esmoda da amis niSnad, Tavs mwuxarebiT uqnevda.

– Cveni ukeTurobisTvis RvTis sasjels vimsaxurebT, Svi-lo. gafrTxildi! roca Tavs zeviT Zala araa, unda moiTmino, daelodo ukeTes dros. xom naTqvamia, droni mefobeno...

– mara, egeba amgvar yofas marTla sikvtili sjobia? sax-eliani sikvdili? egeba sjobia yvelani erT dRes gavwydeT, erTbaSad davixocoT brZolaSi? ra azri aqvs monur si-cocxles, bicola batono, saZrax arsebobas? sul viSviSsa da vaebas?..

Sen maswavlidi, gaxsovs, cxenze jdomas da jiriTs, Tof-iaraRis tarebas, sanadirodac dagyavdi, Cveni qalebi uZvele-si droidan uSiSari meomrebi iyvneno. maqezebdi, asi aTassa ajobebs Tu gamorCeviT mqneliao - magulianebdi! kargad ro vici Tof-iaraRis triali da zarbaznidanac viswavle ager srola, ra mere? minda gamovadge Cems samSoblos, Cems qveya-nas, Cvens mefes-Tqva. da aviRe Tavze xeli... da adamianebs vxocav ager! mara... risTvis – azri aqvs rames?

an kacma rom Tqvas, ra qalis saqmea Tof-iaraRi? sisxlis Rvra – Tundac nadir-frinvelis?

ratom, ratom unda gaisastiko guli adamianma, miT umetes qalma, dedam?.. mara, ro ar gayenebs mteri moZalade da gaiZvera?

an egeba...sisastike, sikeTesTan erTad, sulac Tandayolilia adamis

modgmisaTvis imTaviTve, dasabamidan?.. da saerTod, amdeni „ratom“ risTvis ibadeba am cisqveSeTSi?

miusafarni, uTvistomoni, unaTesaoni - galiaSi momwyv-

deuli arwiviviT vaskdebiT aqeT-iqiT yru kedlebs!.. xsna

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ki – ara da ar Cans arsaidan-Tqva! mxolod xanmokle gamar-

jvebebi da Semdgom, isev ise ganuwyveteli sisxlis Rvra,

cremli, godeba, tanjva-wvaleba, simware da... uZlurebisgan

neka TiTze kbenani!

amdeni dacema, Ralati! wamieri amaRleba, feniqsisebri wa-

mieri aRdgoma da merme isev... ukuneTi, sibnele!

rodemde, rodemde?!

– saca ara sjobs, gacla sjobso, naTqvamia, Jams unda dav-

elodoT, sayvarelo! amas gaswavlidi mec!

– rusT xelmwife oqroTi, Cin-medlebiT yidulobs Cvens

Tavad-aznaurobas, Cvens mTavrebs, ra unda gavawyoT?– qrTami jojoxeTsac anaTebso, naTqvamia. odiTgan yvela

moRalate oqroTi iyo mosyiduli, Semogevle! didi cTunebaa oqro da Zalaufleba! asea es, Cemo sayvarelo, ase iyo mi-wyiv – dasabamidan - dRemde! feSqaSebiT, sulTnis Tu Sahis xalaTebiT xdeboda mosyidva adre da... axlac igive grZel-deba... oRond sxva saxiT...

fxizlad iyavi, Svilo, eride uzneo adamianebs, oqroTi mosyidulebs!.. sixarbe, pativmoyvareoba, mediduroba, ampar-tavneba, Suri – oqros mokavSireebia, icode! siRaribe ki – maTi sarbielia.

– Cven Raribebi varT, bicola, maSasadame...– odesRac mdidari qveyana viyaviT, Semogevle! – Sea-

wyvetina afaqiZis qalma TiTis aweviT: – Cvengan gahqondaT oqroc da bevri sxva, Zvirfasi rameebi!.. mara... axla sxva simdidreebi gaaqvT! rameTu Cven TviTon viqeciT avazakebad, Cveni didi winaprebis aCrdilebiRa varT! fxizlad iyavi-Tqva, Cemo sayvarelo, Tavs gaufrTxildi, Svilo!

– risTvis? ra TavSi vixli aseT sicocxles, bicola? Tuki uzneoba imarjvebs zneobaze, usamarTloba – samar-Talze, boroteba – sikeTeze, urjuloeba – sjulianobaze!.. ... culs movitan cunculasao, hm! erTi bartyi aki mec ga-davugde melias – viTom sxvebis gadasarCenad!

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gadarCebian ki? Tuki gadarCebian... sad, sad unda icxov-ron?.. ra qveyanaSi?

Talxkabiani qali iseve uecrad gaqra, rogorc gamoCnda. qeTevanis ukanaskneli kiTxva ki – upasuxod darCa, igi haerSi ukvalod ganqarda!

... gaognebuli qalbatoni qeTevani karga xans misCereboda im adgils, saidanac sxvisTvis uxilavi mesityve gauCinarda.

mcire xans ijda mzeradaxrili, TiTqos gaTiSuli. mere uceb wamoiWra da guldamZimebuli, aforiaqebuli usityvod, uxmod, aCqarebuli nabijebiT Tavis senakisken gaeSura.

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sarkmlidan Semoparuli mzis sxivebi saxeze dascigligeb-da da saocrad mounda kidev cota xans gafofinebuliyo, kidev cota xans ebanava am Tbil CqeralSi. kidev cota xani Tvali moetyuebina, magram... Tavs Zala daatana, nabadi gadaiZro, swrafad wamodga taxtidan, romelzec qveSageblad nabadive hqonda dagebuli.

vidre Tavs moiwesrigebda, vidre isauzmebda – wuxandel

zmanebaze fiqri isev moeZala.

ratom gamoecxada misi sayvareli bicola aq, cixe-si-

magreSi, am gasaWiris Jams? ras niSnavda es? wlebis gan-

mavlobaSi sizmarSic arasodes unaxavs. Tumca ki xSirad

igonebda udidesi sinaziTa da gulistkiviliT. Tvalwin

warmoudgeboda xolme cxenze amxedrebuli, – marjvena

xelze mimino rom esva! sanadirod gamzadebuls, gorozi,

Seuvali ieri hqonda da garSemomyofTa uneblie rids da

aRtacebas iwvevda. arada, garegnuli simkacris miuxedavad,

gulCvili, usaTnoesi adamiani iyo valida bicola, romelsac

amave dros SeeZlo, Tu isurvebda, Tavis nebisTvis daemor-

Cilebina nebismieri sulieri.

dediT oboli qeTevani bavSvobidanve aRmerTebda Tavis

ulamazes bicolas, mSobliur mzrunvelobas rom ar akleb-

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da mazliswuls. valida afaqiZes ganswavlulobiT, znekeTi-lobiTa da garegnuladac mariam dedofals, solomon I-is meuRles - otia dadianis qals adarebdnen imerlebi...

Tumca ki didi xnis gardacvlili iyo valida bicola, qeTevani dRemde ver egueboda mis aryofnas. xSirad, Zalian xSirad Tavis gonebaSi eTaTbireboda kidec da TiTqos rCev-asac Txovda, magram... ase xelSesaxebi sicxadiT, ase Tval-naTliv arasodes Cvenebia sxva dros!..

... buxutiam moridebiT, nebarTvis miRebis Semdeg, Semoa-Ro kari da moaxsena – Sikriki geaxlaT da Tqvens naxvas Txoulobso.Sikriki? visgan? saidan?swrafad, zezeurad daasrula sauzme da buxutias Sikri-

kis Semoyvana ubrZana.axalgazrda kaci TavdaxriT, mowiwebiT miesalma qeTevans

da baton grigol wereTlis werili gadasca.wamiT guli Seuqanda qals. grigoli?! gigo wereTeli

baraTs ugzavnis mas? qeTevans?!roca Sikriki pasuxis molodinSi gareT gavida, Tavis

moaxle gogoebs wamuyo, rom isini mociquls ukan mihy-olodnen, Tavad ki gulaCqrolebulma, swrafad gaxsna bara-Ti, swrafadve CaikiTxa bolomde, mere xangrZlivi mzeriT daacqerda xelmoweras. mere weriliT xelSi bolTisce-mas mohyva oTaxSi. TavSi mravalma, erTimeoris gamomricx-avma azrma gaurbina, mere rogorc Cveoda, xelad miiRo gadawyvetileba, buxutias mouxmo TavisTan da daavala – mama zosime, guji da basilika moeyvana saCqarod.

... roca wveulebi Semovidnen oTaxSi, qeTevanma moubodiSa mRvdels, ar mindoda Sikriks gareT gasuli venaxe da amitom SegawuxeTo, mamao, – da baraTi gadasca gadarajebuli ieriT.

mama zosimem auCqareblad, dinjad waikiTxa werili, mere qeTevans axeda uzakveli, wyliani, cisferi TvalebiT: – maS, grigol batoni iTxovs TqvenTan Sexvedras Serigebis mizniT da erTgulebas geficebaT?

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– diax, mamao, ase gamodis. – mere basilikas da gujis gadaxeda qeTevanma: – meo, Seni erTguli da mosiyvarule ma-zliswuli varo. neba miboZe movide da gaRiaroo. ZuZuebze kbili damadgmevine, rom ufro damerwmunoo. didi mosala-parakebeli maqvs SenTano. Sen SegiZlia solomon mefe isev imereTSi daabruno Seni meuRliTurT. qveyana daamSvidoo, Cvenzec mefis wyaloba gadmoavlinoo, xelmwife imperato-ris nebac es ariso, rom mxolod mfarvelobdes solomon mefeso, meti ara unda rao.

– raferac mefe erekles da mis STamomavlebs umfarvela, – Caiduduna mama zosimem da grZel, WaRara wverze xelis-guli Camoisva ramdenjerme Tvalebmowkurulma.

basilikas da gujis, orives gverdulad CaeRimaT.– ranairad moviqce, mamao?.. ras mirCev?– raferac guli da goneba gikarnaxebs, Svilo! – yoyma-

niT wamoiwyo mRvdelma: – raki... Serigebas gTavazobs, albaT uari ar egebis. sisxlisRvras da oms yovelTvis mSvidobi-anoba sjobia. miT ufro, Cven qristianebi varT. oRondac...

– oRond ra? raze gaCumdiT, mamao?– oRond... me mgoni, mainc ajobebs, jer TviTon marto

mobrZandes grigoli.– rasakvirvelia, mamao. mec mase mimaCnia, – swrafad dae-

Tanxma qeTevani, mere ganagrZo - ise, ara mgonia, raime siave edos gulSi, miT umetes, xatze Tu daificavs da Seasrulebs Svilobilad mokidebis wes-Cveulebas...

– asjer gazome da erTxel gaWerio, esec uTqvams Cvens xalxs, Svilo! kargad moiazre yovelisferi, kargad awon-dawone da... ise gaeci pasuxi!.. – mere ise, TiTqos fiqrSiao, gaagrZela:

– ara mgonia mec, saxlTuxucesis vaJma, didi gvarisSvilma, raime muxTloba Caidinos, miT umetes, rom ase daimdabla Tavi, Serigebaze yabulsaa da Tqven gTxovT Suamavlobas mefesTan!

ise, mogexsenebaT albaT, qali, mandilosani, yovelTvis iyo CvenSi Tavmdebi, mosisxle mtrebis Semarigebeli... da Sua-

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mdgomeli! baton grigols, etyoba, Zalian gauWirda. amdenma marcxmac, SesaZloa, gons moiyvana da ufalma misca saSualeba, gamoasworos Tavisi Secodebani. vin icis, Seucnobia gzani uflisani!..

basilikam, roca masac mimarTa rCeviT qalbatonma qeTe-vanma, Cveulebisamebr, pirdapir, miukib-moukibavad ganacxada:

– ar mjera me rusis oficris da guSindeli mtris si-tyvebis, qeTevan batono! rusebi osmalebze aranakleb gaiZ-verebi, cbierebi da mzakvrebi arian! da es maT mravaljer daadastures...

ise, me Tu mkiTxavT, veravis vapatieb verc erekles Ra-

lats da verc Cveni mefis mimarT Cadenil veragobas, viTom

mosalaparakeblad rom miiwvies da... mere daatyveves! ara, ar

mjera-Tqva, grigol wereTlis – rusis oficris da solo-

mon mefis dauZinebeli mtris – uceb... pavled qceva! danar-

Ceni Tqveni nebaa!– ho, mara Tu xatze apirebs daficebas da xalxuri wmida,

uZvelesi wes-Cveulebis Sesrulebas?– me Cemi vTqvi, awi Tqven iciT, qalbatono!gujim ki mxrebi aiCeCa da dinjad, bubuna xmiT warmoTqva:– raki, Cemo batono, batoni grigoli xatze daficebas

da xalxuri wes-Cveulebis aRsrulebas apirebs, Tanac Tu mniSvnelovani rameebi aqvs saTqmeli - aseT SemTxvevaSi molaparakebaze uaris Tqma, mgoni, ar ivargebs. didi zurab wereTlis vaJia batoni grigoli, didi ojaxis Svili da ver davijereb, upiro aRmoCndes!..

Sen, Cemo qalbatono qeTevan, movalec xar, mousmino mas da Tu WkuaSi dagijda misi nalaparakebi, ise gadawyv i to, raferadac mouxdeba im saqmes, risTvisac vibrZviT da rasac vemsaxurebiT, RvTis wyalobiT da Tqveni xelmZRvanelobiT!

azrTa gacvla-gamocvlis Semdeg, erTgvari yoymanis miuxe-davad, qeTevanma Sexvedraze dasturi SeuTvala grigol were-Tels, Tavis mazliswuls da mtris jaris erT-erT meTaurs!

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qalbatoni qeTevani xis patara samfexze ijda da xisve savarcxliT nel-nela ivarcxnida axaldabanil sqel, oqros-fer Tmas, mxrebze rom gadmoSloda, Tan dro da dro sarke-Si ixedeboda, xeliT rom eWira gogos. meore moaxlec iqve trialebda da Tval-warbSi Sescqeroda qeTevans.

– oh, ra mSvenieri Tma gaqvT, qalbatono, rafer bzinavs, ra fafukia, ra fumfula!.. – aRtacebuli tiktikebdnen cqriala, moxdenili gogoebi da ise frTxilad, saTuTad ubwnavdnen Tmas sayvarel qalbatons, TiTqos Cvili sWerodaT xelSi.

– eh, TmaSi WaRara gamomeria, raRa dros Cemi simSve-nierea!.. davberdi ukve, Cemo Citunebo!

– uime, RmerTo ki momkali! – Seicxada orivem erTdrou-lad: – ra dros Tqveni siberea, qalbatono! erTi naoWic ara

gaqvT saxeze, da iseTi gadatkecili kani gaqvT... da iseTi

TeTri, ravarc umtvero Tovlia! – erTmaneTs ar aclidnen

laparaks. sagulisxmo is iyo, rom amas gulwrfelad, si-

yvaruliT ambobdnen, rasac qeba-didebaSi yurgaxednili qal-

batoni qeTevani utyuarad grZnobda da aRiqvamda.

– TovliviT umtvero da lamazi Tqven unda naxoT vincaa

sinamdvileSi – Cveni tanjuli da bedkruli mariam dedo-

fali! ai, visze iTqmis amomavali mzea da Camavali mTvareao!

– qeTevanma Rrmad amoioxra da saxe moeRrubla.

– diax, amboben qalbatono, mara... Tqvenze mSvenieri da

lamazi am cisqveSeTSi mainc aravinaa!

– oh, oh, ramdens tlikinebT, Tqve kudianebo! – RimiliT

daucacxana qeTevanma gogoebs: „eh, siturfe da mSveniereba

ar aklia Cvens jiSsa da jilags, mara ra sikeTe mere?“ –

gaivlo gunebaSi.

– aba, kudraWebo, datrialdiT axla, mialag-moalageT aqa-

uroba. xom iciT, dRes vin unda gvewvios? o, rusT xelm-

wifis did qalaqSi, peterburRsa Sina xuT wels namyofi,

iq didebul sra-sasaxleebSi cxovrebas SeCveuli... Wabuki!

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marTla... didi kaci! aqaurobas rom naxavs, am Cvens ubadruk gomurs, SeiZleba guli Seuwuxdes kidec!

– qalbatono, am „ubadrukma gomurma“, Tqven rom brZaneT, am „modi naxem“ xom kudiT qva asrolina rusis jars? xo dainaxes, raferi daxvedra ician Cveneburebma!

– sworedac! „modi naxes“ momrevi Ze-xorcieli aravinaa qveynierebaze – RvTis madliT da Tqveni wyalobiT!

– amaT uyure erTi? ra ambavSi arian? rafer gaulesiaT ena? – uneburad gaecina qeTevans.

– apa ara? Tqven Tu iaraRiT spobT gadamTielebs, Cven enac ar gavilesoT, qalbatono?

„oh, oh! rafer etyobaT, qeTevan abaSiZis ubeSi ro arian gamozrdilebio, ityoda axla albaT Cemi cxonebuli dedamTili!..

didi xania ar minaxavs Cemi mazliswuli. wereTluri mediduroba da ampartavnoba rom ara, aqamdisac unda mixve-driliyo, ro... TanamoZmeTa sisxlis daRvriT ver moipovebs im didebas da saxels, ase ro eZebs da swyuria! mara... ymaw-vilia da!..“

mere isev Tavis mofusfuse moaxleebze gadaitana fiqri: „ra gogoebi arian! ra lamazebi, mkvircxlebi! vin ityvis amaTze, ubralo glexis Svilebiao!..“

erTi maTgani, saxemwyazari TaTa Tavis saxlikacs gamo-staca aki xelidan, gayidvas rom upirebda! cxens moaxta gagulisebuli, gaedevna gamtaceblebs, kakas xidamde miuswro da gadaarCina gogona.

„eh, isev Cvenianebis xeliT xdeba es siave da boroteba! arc didi solomonis kanons dagideven, arc qristes sjuls...

RmerTo didebulo! ram dagvibnela ase goneba: siRatakem, sixarbem, wuwkobam Tu... uRmerTobam? arada, qristianebi varT TiTqos da urjuloebs _ TaTrebs vkicxavT da... vebrZviT! sinamdvileSi ki – zereled, mxolod garegnulad vyofilvarT morwmune qristianebi. ase gamodis! da he, ra unda qna?~

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– TaTula, gaiqeci axla da buxutia momiyvane aq!.. saqme maqvs masTan... ise, Tu ggonia, ver vamCnev, rafer uJuJuneb xolme Tvalebs buxutias, Zalian Semcdarxar! – iRimeboda qeTevani.

– ime! ras brZanebT, qalbatono? – yurebamde gawiTlda TaTa da darcxveniT daxara Tavi.

– kai, kai. Tqven me ras gamomaparebT, Tqve makvarancxebo? an Sen, an makunia, an is boCola-Tvaleba buxutia, ise ro axamxamebs wamwamebs, viTom mama abramis batkani iyos! kai qveS-qveSa vinme brZandeba magic! – qalbatoni qeTevani kv-lav keTilad iRimeboda da sadRac gunebaSi tkbeboda am saxealanZuli, darcxvenili da dabneuli gogoebis, gansa-kuTrebiT ki TaTulias-mzeriT, patara bavSviviT saiT waeRo xelebi rom ar icoda.

qeTevanma axla xmamaRla gaicina:– wadi axla, boSo da, aq momgvare is aylayuda! apa, he,

gaiqeci! – ubrZana moaxles da gulSi ki gaivlo, am bovSebis bednierebas omis Semdeg win araferi daudgebao.

roca ukve gamowyobil qeTevans moaxleebma ferumarili moutanes, qalbatonma xeli aukra orives – ar aris saWiroo. gaukvirda kidec gunebaSi, saidana aqvT am eSmakunebs feru-marilio. Tavad TiTqmis arasodes xmarobda mas. sxvebis zo-maze metad daTiTxnili pirsaxec ar moswonda. miT umetes, dRes undoda bunebrivad, ubralod gamoCeniliyo stumris TvalSi – meuRlis biZaSvilTan, ager ramdeni weli rom ar enaxa da mosisxle mtrad qceuli, axla mociqulis rolSi unda movlenoda Tavisianebs!

erTmaneTs dapirispirebuli, erTmaneTs samkvdro-sasi-cocxlod gadakidebuli uaxloesi naTesavebi – erTmorw-mune rusis jaris erT-erTi meTauri grigol wereTeli da solomon II-is sardlis, qaixosro wereTlis meuRle qeTe-van abaSiZe, Tavis mcire razmiT rom gamagrebuliyo „modi-naxes“ cixe-koSkSi da ager ukve oTxi dRe iyo, warmatebiT igeriebda mters – unda Sexvedrodnen erTmaneTs da mo-

laparakeba gaemarTaT.

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... warmosadegi, brge, Coxa-axaluxSi gamowyobili Wabuki

saxegabadruli rom gamoemarTa qeTevanisken, qali wamierad

daibna, – TiTqos guSin zarbaznebs ar vuSendiTo erTmaneTs,

– gauelva TavSi uneburad.

Tavdaxrili grigol wereTeli mowiwebiT mieaxla qeTe-

vans, dauCoqa da, Zveli wesisamebr mis kabis kalTas emTxvia.

qeTevanma TavSekavebiT daubruna salami da Tan gaocebiT

gaifiqra: rafer davaJkacebula mas Semdeg, rac ar minaxavso.

– Cemo Zvirfaso rZalo, qeTevan batono, Sen isev ise

mSvenieri da didebuli brZandebi, raferic maxsovxar Cems

bavSvobaSi! – yurebamde pirCaxeuli axalgazrda kaci, Tva-

lebgabrwyinebuli, aRtacebuli Sescqeroda saxeSi qa-

lbaton qeTevans, misdauneburad gaorebuli grZnoba rom

daufleboda, aseTi, cota ar iyos, moulodneli gulTbili

SexvedriT gamowveuli.

qeTevanma Tavazianad miipatiJa stumari tablasTan, Tavad

ki – mopirdapire mxares, samfexze Camojda.

Tavidan zogadi saubari gaiba – im mTisa, am barisa – amas-

Tan, grigol wereTeli gzadagza qaTinaurebs ar iSurebda

qalis mimarT, sxvaTa Soris, isic uTxra, rom mis „lagerSi“

Turme imyofeba erTi ganswavluli „nemeci“ eqimi, sakuTari

surviliT wamosuli rusis jarSi samsaxurad da rodesac

gaigo, rom „modi-naxes“ cixis garnizons qalbatoni qeTevani

sardlobda, aRtacebulma gaixsena Zveli kolxeTi, misi mebr-

Zoli qalebi anu Cveneburad – amorZalebio.

qeTevans myisve moagonda, valida afaqiZis qalic rom ax-

senebda xolme amorZalebs, kolxeTs, WaneTs da lazebs, ro-

gorc Tvistomelebs da imasac eubneboda, abaSiZeTa gvari

WaneTidan anu lazeTidan aris gadmosuli imereTSio.

magram axla istoriuli eqskursebis dro ar iyo, Tumca

batonma grigolma isic gaixsena, Tu ra STabeWdileba moax-

dina masze, patara biWze, qeTevanis pirvelma danaxvam, roca

is jvardawerili, qaixosrosTan erTad gamovida eklesiidan.

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– Sen maSin sul patara iyavi, gigo. ase rafer gaxsovs es yoliferi? – cota ar iyos, uxerxuli RimiliT da gaoce-buli saxiT CaurTo qeTevanma.

– ki, ki. sami wlis viyavi, mara guSindel dResaviT maxsovs yoliferi da is suraTi arc arasodes amoiSleba Cemi mex-sierebidan, vinaidan da radganac... – enamzeobda stumari, uzomod aRfrTovanebuli rom Canda qeTevanis gmiruli saqcieliT, misi vaJkacuri bunebiT da roca amowura xot-ba-Sesxmis maragi, grigol wereTeli, rogorc iqna, mTa-var saTqmels miadga, anu... iwyo saubari imereTis mefis, solomon II-is da misi samefos gadarCenis gegmaze, romelic Turme SeumuSavebia rusT xelmwifes. yovelive amaze ufro dawvrilebiT da dalagebulad moaxsenebs qalbaton qeTevans rusebis jarebis sardali polkovniki simonoviCi, Tuki ine-bebs qeTevani mis naxvaso.

Tavad simonoviCi mzadaa, Tundac xvalve eaxlos qeTevans da piradad moaxsenos saTqmeli. manamde ki qeTevanma, rom irwmunos rusTa jaris sardlis simonoviCis ganzraxvis siwrfele, gigo mzadaa axlave, dResve xatze daificos ekl-esiaSi da amave dros Seasrulos uZvelesi, xalxSi dam-kvidrebuli wes-Cveuleba – dedobil-Svilobilobisa, anu Svilad mokidebisa.

diax, qeTevanma unda daijeros, rom grigol wereTelic mamuliSvilia, rom zurab wereTlis vaJsac aravisze nak-lebad ar Sestkiva guli Tavis mravaltanjul qveyanaze, aseT umZimes dReSi rom Cavarda, rom yvelaferi is, rac xdeba, gaugebrobisa da undoblobis nayofia da ara rusTa xelmwifis winaswarganzraxuli boroteba.

– ki, mara qarTl-kaxeTis magaliTi xom win gviZevs, Tavado, – Seepasuxa qeTevani frTxili xmiT – da isic, Tu rafer moeqcnen Cvens mefes - solomons.

– Cemo Zvirfaso rZalo, modi yolifers sxvebs nu dav-abralebT... Cvenc Zaan gvexerxeba erTmaneTis waxdena!

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– rusTa xelmwifis veragoba rom ara, SeiZleba ase ar damTavrebuliyo Cveni saqme! – ar Seepua qeTevani grigols. da gaagrZela:

– gana Cvenma mefem ar miswera rusT xelmwifes, Tu dami-jerebT, me TviTon Semoval TqvenTan da ucxo jarebs – os-maloebs aRar daveZeb, rom RvTis da Tqveni Semawuxebeli saqme ara moxdes rao.

– solomon mefe osmalebTan brZandeba axla!– manamde? manamde ra moxda-Tqva? glexi ivanika saraliZe

rom ara, Cveni mefe axlac satusaRoSi iqneboda gamoketili, esec ar ikmares – mariam dedofals daesxnen Tavs mou-lodnelad da daatyveves! es ekadreba esoden did, erTmor-wmune, Zlier saxelmwifos da mis xelmwifes?.. gana swored solomon mefe ar iyo, daJinebiT rom moiTxovda 1804 wels dadebuli xelSekrulebis muxlebis Sesrulebas?

ese igi Sinaur saqmeSi Caurevlobas, bagratovanTa taxtis xelSeuvalobas rom gulisxmobda?

gana isev rusebma ar daarRvies imerTa samefosTan dade-buli xelSekruleba? solomon mefes xom rusTa mfarvelo-baze uari arasdros uTqvams?

grigol wereTeli mzeradaxrili ismenda qeTevanis sabu-Tian, azrian msjelobas im cnobil movlenebze, rac maSin yvelasaTvis aSkara da TvalsaCino iyo.

– gana mTavarmarTebelma tormasovma mosalaparakeblad misuli mefe ar daatusaRa? sxva ra gza hqonda gaqcevis da osmalebTan TavSesafris Zebnis meti solomon mefes?

grigoli, mcireodeni dumilis Semdeg, Semparavi xmiT Seepa-suxa Tvalakvesebul qeTevans, romelic cdilobda grZnobebi moeToka da aRelveba ar gamoemJRavnebina mociqulis winaSe, Tumca Tavs atyobda, rom mTlad kargad ver axerxebda gan-zraxulis Sesrulebas.

– rusT xelmwifes bevr ambavs arasworad awvdis zogi misi qveSevrdomi, mara... axla sxvanairadaa saqme, qeTevan batono! rusTa imperatori xedavs, rom miuxedavad imisa,

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imereTis orive samTavro – guria da odiSi mis mfarvelo-baSia ukve, Tuki solomon mefe ar moindomebs mfarvelobas, mdgomareoba Zaan aireva amierkavkasiaSi, isev iparpaSeben os-maloebi da iranelebi, sisxlisRvra gagrZeldeba da isedac gatanjuli Cveni xalxi, uaresad gaitanjeba. mTavarmarTeb-els rusT xelmwifisgan axali gankargulebani mouvida da simonoviCis piriT unda axla TqvenTan molaparakeba.

– jer... zarbaznebis meSveobiT, ara?grigol wereTelma isev ganagrZo sityva iseTi saxiT,

TiTqos ar gaugonia es gesliani SeniSvna: – ho, Cemo ba-tono, axla sxvanairadaa saqme-Tqva. orive mxarem uwyis Tqveni goniereba, sidarbaisle, erTguleba imerTa mefisadmi da imerTa mefis didi ndoba da pativiscema Tqvens mimarT. rusebis mxare imedovnebs, rom swored Tqven SegiZliaT zegavlena iqonioT mefeze, Tqvens meuRlezec da moxdes didi Serigeba, wyenis daviwyeba, ndobis aRdgena, rom orive mxares Soris Camovardes mSvidobianoba.

Cvenc – me da mamaCemi zurabi – kvlav, raferc winaT, dResac mzad varT erTad viyoT, erTad vizrunoT Cvens gapartaxebul-gaveranebul samSobloze. Tu imereTi gadarCe-ba, qarTl-kaxeTsac eSveleba uTuod! aki adrec, liximerTa TaosnobiT, gaerTianebula sruliad saqarTvelo bagratov-anTa skiptris qveS!

Cven _ me da mamaCemi da kidev bevri sxva, vinc axla, sol-omon mefis mowinaaRmdegeTa banakSi varT, kvlav davdgebiT mis gverdiT!

Cven yvelas gvjera da gvwams, rom Tqven SegiZliaT SearigoT orive mxare, raTa Cveni qveyana kvlav fexze wamodges, welSi gaimarTos rusTa mfarvelobis qveS da ro-gorc odesRac – daviTisa da Tamaris dros – gabrwyindes nikofsiiT darubandamdis!

maSin verc osmaloebi dagvakleben rames da verc iranele-bi – miwyiT-dasabamidan Cveni da qristianobis mosisxle mtrebi rom arian! danarCens Tavad batoni simonoviCi mogax-

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senebT, Tuki isurvebT masTan Sexvedraso, – daamTavra gigo wereTelma Tavisi sityva.

qeTevani simonoviCTan Sexvedras daTanxmda. oRond ma-namde ki gigo Seasrulebda yvela im pirobas, rac aRuTqva qalbaton qeTevans, anu xatze daficebas da Svilobilad mokidebis wes-Cveulebas, rac jerac wminda adaTad iTvle-boda mTel dasavleT saqarTveloSi.

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cixe-koSkis erT-erT mozrdil darbazSi stumris CaTv-liT, aTiode kaci usxda sufras, ufro sworad, Tav-Tavisi tabla edga yovel maTgans. vaxSmobamde grigol wereTelma eklesiaSi, samebis xatze daifica, rom sikvdilamde solo-mon II-s, qeTevanisa da qaixosros erTguli iqneboda da mefis Ralats gulSi ar gaivlebda.

Semdeg grigols unda Seesrulebina Tavisi meore piroba: roca SekrebilTa winaSe qeTevani mkerds moiSiSvlebda, gigo wereTels, Svilad mokidebis niSnad – ZuZuebze kbili unda daedga da samjer warmoeTqva: Sen – deda da me – Svilio.

es iyo Jruantelismomgvreli, amaRlebuli sanaxaoba. TiTqmis yvelas cremli moreoda TvalebSi. sagulisxmo iyo is ambavic, rom am Zvelebur, xalxur wess asrulebda Tumca warmoSobiT qarTveli, magram mainc rusT xelmwifis maRal-Cinosani – rusTa erT-erTi batalionis meTauri.

aRelvebulma qeTevanma Sublze akoca Tavis Svilobils da Tvalcremliani RimiliT gverdze moisva.

daiwyo puroba, rogoric Seefereboda mdgomareobas – zomieri Wama-smiT, zmebiT, xumroba-oxunjobiT da ra Tqma unda, simReriT.

grigolis yuradReba anazdeulad miipyro mwdem, igi TvalgaSterebuli misCereboda erT xans buxutias, mere qeTevanisken daixara da xmadabla hkiTxa – vin aris es bi-Wio!

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qeTevanma TvalebiT gauRima Svilobils – mogewona, ara?– aseTi silamaze didi xania ar minaxavs. vin aris, sada-

uria?– Cemi ZiZiSvilis-guji feraZis biWia. Cems SvilebSi ver

varCev, ise miyvars.– glexis Svili da... aseTi? – wamiT gaCumda da mere

daamata: – nebismier evropul sasaxles daamSvenebda es ymawvili.qeTevans eama Tavisi gazrdilis qeba da grigols RimiliT

mimarTa: – mamamisi, guji naklebia? Sexede erTi, ra vaJkacia, ra

warmosadegi, ra zrdili-namdvili raindia!grigolma dakvirvebuli mzeriT SeaTvaliera moSorebiT

mjdari lurjTvaleba goliaTi, metwilad mdumared rom ijda da mdumareTve svamda Rvinos.

– mis gverdiT rom zis... is viRaa?– o, es Cveni mecixovne basilikaa, RonRaZe, krwanisis

omis monawile... Cems qaixosros axlda maSin brZolaSi... SemTxveviT gadaurCa sikvtils... didi vaJkaci da Tavisi saqmis ubadlo ostati gaxlavT.

– anu...– mezarbaznea! mefe erekles gardacvalebis Semdeg erTx-

anad TbilisSi iyo. rusebis Semosvlis mere dabrunda CvenSi.lxini gamravalkecda. uceb, moulodnelad grigolma mra-

valJamieri wamoiwyo. stumari kmayofili Canda dRevandeli dRiT, qeTevanTan miRweuli SeTanxmebiT, igi xom xval diliT cixe-simagreSi unda SemosZRoloda polkovnik simonoviCs Semdgomi molaparakebis gasamarTavad.

rakiRa stumari adrianad unda amdgariyo, lxini didxans ar gagrZelebula, Tumca Rvino mainc bevri dailia.

grigols pirvel sarTulze, gujisTan unda moesvena RamiT, amitomac guji da buxutia stumars Tavisi senakisken wauZRvnen, danarCenebic, sakmaod SezarxoSebulni, TavianT samyofels daubrundnen.

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... qeTevani iwva Tavis viwro sawolze da Tvals ruli ar ekareboda: xvalindel dReze da simonoviCTan Sexvedraze fiqrobda, gonebaSi meramdened aRadgenda dRis movlenebs, yovel wvrilmans. gansakuTrebiT Cakirkitebda gigos yovel sityva-pasuxs, mis yovel moZraobas, gamoxedvas – TiTqos ve-rafers poulobda saeWvos. piriqiT. ra gulianad moilxina, rogor imRera yelmoRerebulma, gujic rom aiyolia?..

ra laRad icinoda!.. gulwrfeli da alali Canda igi

maSinac, roca gulistkiviliT warmoTqva – Cven, samwuxarod,

ufro erTmaneTis waxdena gvexerxeba, vidre erTad dgo-

mao. etyoboda, rom friad mosurne iyo mSvidobianad saqmis

mogvarebisa.

Zil-RviZilSi Tavisdauneburad gonebis dafaze elvi-

suswrafesad enacvlebodnen erTmaneTs warsulis suraTebi,

xsovnis fskeridan amotivtivebas iwyebdnen aw TiTqos gada-

viwyebuli epizodebi da nawyvet-nawyvetad cocxldebodnen

misi Sinagani mzeris winaSe.

...niaRvariviT momskdar mogonebebSi gansakuTrebiT da-

JinebiT qaixosrosTan pirveli Sexvedris suraTi warmoudge-

boda Tvalwin. qaixosros stumroba biZamisTan – rostom

abaSiZesTan. mere, rogorc Semdgom gairkva – es stumroba

momxdara Turme bicola validas TaosnobiT da garkveul

mizans isaxavda, anu Semdgom Sexvedras axalgazrdebisa – qa-

ixosrosi da qeTevanis...

is pirveli elda... qaixosros anTebuli Tvalebi da am

maRmerTebeli mzerisgan mogvrili TrTolva! mere erTad

nadiroba...

ra daaviwyebs im wamebs qeTevans!.. ra saamuri Canda

cxovreba 16 wlis gogonasaTvis, rogori imediT da rwme-

niT xvdeboda yovel gaTenebas – roca egona, rom momavali

mxolod warmatebas, siames da sixaruls uqadda. rogor ex-

aliseboda agreTve valida bicolasTan erTad Ramis texva

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Zveli wignebis kiTxvaSi, saqarTvelos momavalze bWobasa da

fiqrSi ramdenjer SeumCnevlad dasTenebiaT! rogori aR-

frTovanebuli iyvnen saxleuloba da gansakuTrebiT vali-

da bicola solomon I-is meuRlis mariam dedoflis, otia

dadianis asulis – SemarTebiT, gonierebiT: swored mariam

dedoflis TaosnobiT miiRo solomon I-ma tyveTa syidvis

akrZalvis kanoni... patara gogonasTvis mariam dedofali da

valida bicola swored rom samagaliTod iyvnen qceuli.

qaixosros gamoCenam erTgvarad saswori momavali saqm-

rosken gadaxara, Tumca solomon I-is meuRle - mariam

dedofali da valida afaqiZis qali, samudamod darCa mis

mexsierebaSi, rogorc bavSvobis yvelaze naTeli mogoneba...

dRemde rom mohyveboda, da agreTve is Rrma tkivili, gamz-

rdeli bicolas sikvdilma rom miayena...

...dro gadioda. ymawviluri aRmafrenac TandaTan qreboda,

radgan realuri cxovreba bevrad ufro sastiki da daundo-

beli aRmoCnda, vidre amas odesme warmoidgenda.

gamudmebuli omianoba, sasaxlis karis areulobani, ga-

uTavebeli usiamovnebani, SiSi, wuxili, SfoTva, cremli da

mwuxareba – erTmaneTs enacvlebodnen, sixarulTan erTad

– movaleobasTan, dedobasTan, meuRleobasTan gadajaWvul-

gadaxlarTuli rom iyo.

mere mamakacurma saqmianobam ukana mxares gadawia qa-

lis pirvandeli mowodeba-daniSnuleba. aki gadaukra kidec

grigolma qeTevans, Sennair mandilosnebs mamakacebi xelis

gulze atareben ucxoeTSi, sra-sasaxleebSi acxovreben da

fufunebasa da gancxromaSi hyavTo: da ara iseT pirobebSi,

Sen rom xaro – Sen ki-aq giwevs yofna... – gigom ar daas-

rula azri, magram igulisxmeboda is pirobebi, romelSic

imyofeboda mandilosani, didi gvaris Svili, didi ojaxi-

dan... isic SeniSna gigos maxvilma Tvalma, Tavadis qali

aseT gulTbilobas da siyvaruls rom iCenda garSemomyofTa

mimarT – didgvarovani iqneboda igi Tu dabali wodebisa...

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qeTevanma friad Tavaziani, magram mtkice kiloTi uTxra: ieso qristes, Cveni RvTis winaSe - yvela adamiani Tanas-woria, Cemo gigo, xolo rac Seexeba Cveni mandilosnebis mZime mdgomareobas, sayvarelo, Cven, qarTvel qalebs sxva, gamorCeuli xvedri gvarguna ufalma – Cven xSirad xmliT gviwevs davicvaT Cveni miwa-wyali, Cveni ojaxi da sarwmu-noebao.

... mxolod gamTeniisken CaeZina qeTevans fiqrebi sgan, ganc debisgan, STabeWdilebaTa nakadisgan gasavaTebuls. ram-denjerme Rrmad ZilSi wasuli Tavisi moaxleebisa SeSurda kidec! Tumca, arc amaT yofas eTqmoda uzrunveli arseboba. diax, am patara gogoebsac, mis frTebs qveS rom iyvnen SeyuJuli da misi imediT rom suldgmulobdnen mxolod – erTob uWirdaT.

... uceb verc gaigo, ra xdeboda?TaTas da makunas SeSlilma saxeebma da xmamaRalma ti-

rilma myisve moiyvana gons Zilidan axlad gamofxizle-buli. zeaiWra:

– ra, ra iyo, bovSvebo?!– qalbatono... qalbatono... deviRupeT... rusis jari...

rusis saldaTebi...rusis jario?!Tofebis xaTqa-xuTqi, veluri yiJina garkveviT SemoiWra

cixe-koSkis meore sarTulis oTaxSi. wamic da... ramdenime rusis saldaTi xmauriT, braguniT Semocvivda qeTevanis samyofelSi.

dambladacemuliviT gaSeSebuliyo Tvalebadqceuli qeTe-vani. vera da ver garkveuliyo, ra xdeboda? ra mexi daecaT Tavze ase ucbad, ase moulodnelad?

erTi axalgazrda qarTveli oficeri qeTevans mieWra da ukmexi kiloTi uTxra, qvemoT wamobrZandiT, qalbatonoo.

qeTevani TiTqos buranidan gamoerkva.– SiSveli?.. – da Tvali TvalSi gauyara moZalades.– CaicviT, qalbatono, CaicviT! – Tvalebi daxara momx-

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durma da aniSna rusis saldaTebs – gareT daicadeTo. Ta-vadac Ria, viwro karSi Cadga zurgSeqceviT.

aqviTinebuli moaxleebi micvivdnen qalbatons da xelebis caxcaxiT, cremlebis frqveviT CacmaSi eSvelebodnen.

qeTevani icvamda da Tan gamalebuli gonebiT cdilobda gaeazrebina, rogor da ranairad datrialda maT Tavze es ubedureba.

nuTu?!magram...viT SeZlo?ranairad moaxerxa?an ki...egeb... es, rac xdeba axla, sizmaria, an eCveneba qeTevans ise,

rogorc ezmana valida bicola wina saRamos?srolis xma isev ise garkveviT moismoda ezodan.... guji, buxutia?.. sad arian?..sad iyvnen guSagebi? aki maT evalebodaT koSkis dacva?

ra daemarTaT?.. basilika? basilika sadRaa? – elvis sis-wrafiT enacvlebodnen erTmaneTs kiTxvebi da, pasuxgauce-melni, aseve swrafad qrebodnen.

saldaTebi isev SemoiWrnen oTaxSi.... - Fye7 cerf7 ,scnhj888 ,scnhj888

mere, roca ramdenime saldaTma azluqunebul moaxleebs Widaoba dauwyo da Tan ZaliT gareT miaTrevdnen – mexdace-mulma, gondakargulma qeTevanma, saxeze mitklisferi rom dasdeboda _ gogonebisaken gaiwia:

– xeli... xeli ar axloT amaT, Tqve oxriSvilebo!qarTvelma oficerma qeTevans gasasvlelisken ubiZga: –

dros nu vkargavT, qalbatono! mibrZandiT, mibrZandiTo!qeTevanma, risxvisgan TvalanTebulma, kvlav scada miSvele-

boda akivlebul gogonebs, saldaTebi xorxociT, WixviniT rom Semortymodnen garSemo, magram ramdenime jariskacma mklavebSi CasWida xelebi da jikav-jikaviT Caiyvanes igi pirvel sarTulze.

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... qeTevanma uangariSod, TvaliT Zebna dauwyo mama-Svils, qveda sarTulis oTaxSi rom eguleboda. magram iq, ru-sis saldaTebi daSliginobdnen axla uwmawuri ginebiTa da RrialiT.

„vaime Svilo!.. vaime, Zmao guji!“ – uxmod, gulis siRrmeSi ikivla erTbaSad qeTevanma.

mere, muxlmokveTilma, saSineli ZalisxmeviT SeZlo ar Cakeciliyo, rikulebian moajirs orive xeliT daeyrdno da usaSvelo tkivilisgan gaganierebuli Tvalebi irgvliv mi-moatara.

ezo savse iyo mogniase rusis saldaTebiT. aqa-iq qar-Tulad Cacmuli moxalisec Sereoda maT. ukve aRar ismoda srolis xma. Canda, rom saqme momTavrebuliyo. Tumca xmauri da Rrianceli ar wydeboda. ezoSi aqa-iq daxocilTa gvamebi eyara.

qeTevanisTvis daaxloebiT naTeli Seiqna, ra moxda am dilauTenia. rogorc Canda, grigol wereTelma viTomda mx-olod simonoviCis Semosayvanad, qalbatonTan molaparakebis mizniT – kari gaaRebina darajebs. am dros gareT, cixis garSemo Casafrebuli rusis rota SemoiWra da Rrma Zil-Si wasul mecixovneebs moulodnelad Tavs daesxa, nawili gawyvites, nawili ki – tyved aiyvanes.

„guSagebi?.. sad iyvnen guSagebi?“qali Tavzardacemuli, azrSeryeuli idga da uazrod

acecebda librgadakrul Tvalebs, tuCebze ki – mkvdris Ri-mili SerCenoda.

qeTevanma uceb... misken Cqari nabijiT momavali grigol wereTeli SeniSna.

„culs movitan, cunculasa...“qeTevanma angariSmiucemlad marjvena xeli ise magrad

moiWira mkerdze, rom sunTqva Seekra. muxlebi ki – isev ise uTaxTaxebda – am kankals vera da ver moreoda.

grigolma kibis ramdenime safexuri swrafad amoirbina da dedobils win aesveta. SeZrwunebuli, saxegamtknarebuli

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qeTevani Tvaldauxamxameblad miStereboda Svilobils.nuTu es gamxecebuli, TvalebCasisxlianebuli, tuC-pir-

mongreuli axalgazrda kaci iyo wuxandeli darbaiseli, Tavaziani, sandomiani vaJkaci, enadaTafluli, aRtacebuli mzeriT Tval-warbSi rom Sescicinebda Tavis RvTivmSvenier dedobils?

RmerTo didebulo!nuTu SesaZloa aseTi feriscvaleba Ze-xorcielisa? da...nuTu... SesaZloa dedis naSobma Caidinos aseTi sazareli

Ralati? fexiT gaTelos, Seaginos da Cawixlos yovelis-feri, rac ki wmindaTa wmindad miaCnia qarTvel adamians?

ratom? ris safasurad esodeni boroteba?– damTavrda ese ambavi Tqveni gmiruli Tavdadebisa, qa-

lbatono qeTevan! axla Tqven, „Cemo Zvirfaso dedobilo“, rusis jaris da piradad Cemi tyve brZandebiT! – tyviasaviT miaxala gigom qalbaton qeTevans es sityvebi da tuCebze geslianma Rimilma gadaurbina. Semdeg cota ganze gadga da xelis moZraobiT aniSna, ezoSi Camosuliyo.

„visi tyve var me? Se monav! monav! monav!“ – gaurbina TavSi qeTevans da zaratanilma, nebisyofis araadamianuri daZabviT, SeZlo welSi gamarTuliyo, sxeulis kankali dae-okebina. xolo mis morRveul TvalebSi uceb mrisxanebis koconi aenTo:

– maS, erTmaneTis waxdena kargad SegvZlebia Cven, grigol batono, ara? – sityvebis damarcvliT warmoTqva qeTevanma da Tvali TvalSi gauyara mazliswuls:

– fui, Segircxves ulvaSi, Se arakaco!SemafurTxeso?gamZvinvarebuli gigo anazdad nawnavebSi wvda Tavis de-

dobils, mas myisve ori jariskaci mieSvela da qalbatoni qeTevani Treva-TreviT Caiyvanes gvamebiT mofenil ezoSi. uceb, eklesiidan gamovardnili mama zosimes xma Caesma gon-ebadabindul qals:

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– iuda iskariotelo, iuda iskariotelo! iuda iskario-telo! krul iyos Seni saxeli ukuniTi ukunisamde!

qeTevanma nislCamdgari TvaliT dainaxa, rogor miscvivd-nen saldaTebi mRvdels, rogor Caavles wverSi xelebi da ra uSveri lanZRva-ginebiT dauwyes jajguri, mere Zirs daagdes da zed Sedgnen.

„erTmorwmune“ rusis saldaTebi, „erTmorwmune“ qarTvel moRalateebTan erTad – daundoblad angariSs usworebdnen „urjulo basurmans!“

...uecrad kokispirulma wvimam dauSva. wamiswamSi gailum-pnen suyvelani – momxdurnic da tyvedqmnilnic. erTbaSad Camowolil nislSi TiTqmis SeuZlebeli gaxda erTmaneTis garCeva.

qalbatoni qeTevanisTvis ki ukve sulerTi iyo: ca Camoiq-ceoda Tu... miwa gairRveoda... rameTu misTvis dro-Jams dineba Seewyvita!

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mogonebaTa buranSi wamierad CaZiruli iRumenia... gamoerk-va. mis win daCoqili moxuci Tavadi, gulSi orive xeliT qudi rom Caexutebina – yru, Caxrinwuli xmiT luRluRebda:

– veRar micani xo, dedao?.. gigo var, Seni Svilobili, Seni mazliswuli, RvTisgan da Sengan Serisxuli, Sendobis mvedrebeli da maxvewari... – Sekavebuli tirilisgan mxrebi uTaxTaxebda. da iRumenias kalTaSi malavda saxes.

gaognebuli, Semcbari iRumenia gamoerkva, daixara da Tavze xeli daado berikacs:

– RmerTma Segindos, Svilo!.. abrZandi, Seni Wirime... rafer ver gicani?.. didi xania ar minaxixar, mara... abrZandi, batono, ager aq, am skamze dabrZandi... RmerTma giSvelos!.. ufali iyos Seni mwyalobeli, Svilo!.. dawynardi, genacvale!

– ara, ar var RmerTis da Seni wyalobis Rirsi, dedao, mara... ar mindoda, WeSmaritad ar mindoda ise wavsuliyavi

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am qveynidan, rom... Sen... Sen ar menaxe!.. vici, ukve gvianaa yo-liferi, mara... Sendoba da patieba ro ar meTxova SenTvis... ar SemeZlo! – nawyvet-nawyvet amoTqvamda sityvebs gigo wereTeli da adgomas ar apirebda.

– RmerTma mogitevos da Segindos, Svilo gigo! axla abrZandi, Seni Wirime, Zalian gTxov!.. Cveni ufali ieso qriste sulgrZeli da mimtevebelia... igi xom monanulTa RmerTia, Svilo!.. ucodveli ki, samwuxarod, aravinaa am wuTisofelSi!

gigo nel-nela, gaWirvebiT wamoimarTa, iRumenia mieSvela da igi magidasTan, miTiTebul adgilze mZimed daeSva. iRu-meniam ki magidas Semouara, doqidan wyali dausxa WiqaSi da miawoda, Tavad mopirdapire mxares, sakarcxulSi Cajda.

gigom Wiqidan wyali mosva acaxcaxebuli xeliT, mere magidas daaSterda. mcire xnis Semdeg yrud warmoTqva: – codva codvas gaaCnia, dedao, codva codvas gaaCnia! – gaimeora da isev gaCumda, TiTqos codvaTa simZimes woniso. mere Cumi, Zlivs gasagoni xmiT gaagrZela:

– me... RvTisagan da kacisagan miutevebeli Ralati Ca-vidine maSvin, dedao... Senc... warmoudgeneli, gaugonari Seuracxyofa mogayene, mara... saubedurod Cemda, SemdgomSic mTeli Cemi cxovreba codvebSi gavatare, dedao!.. hoda, miwia kidec RvTis risxvam... – gigo isev dadumda, iRumeniac mdu-marebda erT xans, mere wynari xmiT da naRvliani, mkrTali RimiliT warmoTqva:

– ise... Senc daberebulxar, gigo Svilo... Tma mTlad gagTeTrebia!

– eh, dro ulmobelia, dedao!.. 66 wlisa gavxdi ukve, mara... mxolod wlebma rodi gamtexa asTe... – wamiT Sey-ovnda: – didi xania mindoda menaxe, Senma sicocxlem! mara... veRar vbedavdi-Tqva SenTan mosvlas, rafer unda Sevxedo-Tqva... ra piriT!.. axla ki, axla ukve sikvdilis pirze mis-ulma berikacma, gadavwyvite, rac iqneba iqneba, unda Sevxvde aucileblad-Tqva! hoda, gamovswie ager, aqeTken... am mxareSi!

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– hoo, sulkurTxeuli bicola validas samSobloSi, am wminda samyofelSi varCie gametarebina darCenili sicocx-lis dReebi. aqana mimebarebina uflisTvis Cemi codvili suli!

– codvilio?! dedao, Sen da... codva?! maSvin me raRa unda vTqva, me RvTis gareganma da SeCvenebulma? marTla iuda iskariotelma, raferadac miZaxoda maSvin mama zosime!

– yvelas Tav-Tavisi codva amZimebs, gigo Svilo! – iRu-meniam isev iyuCa wamiT, mere Cumi xmiT gaagrZela: – am xelebs imdeni codva aqvT Cadenili!.. ramdeni sisxli scx-ia ara marto frinvel-nadirisa, adamianebisac – Tundac

mtrebis iyos is!.. rac mTavaria – ramdeni axalgazrdis

sicocxle Seiwira maSin Cemma ugunurebam da windauxedao-

bam... ramdeni sayvareli adamiani daiRupa Cemi gamoisobiT,

Cems gamo. rac mTavaria, xo laxvari Caeca maSvin gadarCenis

Tundac mcireoden imeds!

– ara... ara... magi ar Tqva, dedao qeTevan! ugunurobiT

ar mogsvlia magi Sen! ugunureba ar eTqmis ndobas... piriani

adamiani ver warmoidgens sxvis pirSaobas. o, ara, magas nu

ityvi, dedao!..

– SeiZleba asec iyos, mara... me Cems Tavs ar vpatiobdi

im danaSauls... sikvdils vnatrobdi... mara... ver movikali

Tavi!.. uaresi codvis Cadenis SemeSinda uflis winaSe!.. Cemi

qaixosros da ojaxis winaSe movaleobamac Semabrkola... al-

baT! – kvlav siCume Camovarda, mZime, damuxtuli siCume.

pirveli gigo alaparakda:

– Sen arafer SuaSi iyavi, dedao... Sen ki ara – me madevs

is umZimesi codva... Cemda saubedurod, amas gvian mivxvdi

oRond, Zaan gvian! sanam Weri ar Camomengra Tavze, sanam ar

daviqeci da ar gavnadgurdi, manam gons ver movege!.. eSmakma

mZlia da warwymida Cemi suli da xorci da... imitom!..

awi raRa drosia TiTze kbenani? ramdenic ar unda viviS-

viSo da ramdenic ar unda waviSino TavSi xelebi, ramden-

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jerac ar unda amoviferTxo guli Cems moZRvarTan – nugeSs da saSvels vera da ver vpoulob! – wamiT dadumda – Seni ar iyos, dedao, mec sikvdils vnatrobdi dRemudam, mara... glaxaki aRmovCndi. ver moviswrafe sicocxle, Tumca... ra azri aqvs Cems arsebobas? anda, ra azri aqvs sinanuls uzneo, sulwawymedili kacisa?

– monanieba arasdros araa gvian, Svilo gigo...– axla rom vfiqrob da vigoneb, ram Cagvadenina-meTqi

maSin me da mamaCems – RmerTma uSvelos mis suls – is saSineli Ralati da gaugonari uzneoba? ram da - siZul-vilma, sixarbem da... Surma, Cemo batono! Tqveni gamarjveba xom Cemi da mamaCemis damarcxeba iqneboda, e.i. Cveni keTil-dReobis dasasruls niSnavda magi!

Tqveni gamarjveba me da mamaCems, Cvens ojaxs saerTod, gariyavda im sikeTisgan, im... saSovarisgan, rusT xelmwife rom gvpirdeboda: ise, rusT xelmwife iqneboda mwyalobeli, xonTqari Tu Sahi – amas etyoba, mniSvneloba ar hqon-da CvenTvis!.. mTavari iyo – wyaloba ar mogvkleboda, ar mogvkleboda... simonoviCis skivrSi Calagebuli oqros mon-etebi!..

mere... Tqveni saxelianobac xom gvSurda da gvSurda!.. ki, ki, masTe iyo! mamaCemi da me ver gpatiobdiT, rom znemaRali iyaviT da... xalxs ro uyvardiT – mdabios Tu warCinebuls – eg sulerTi iyo!..

cxonebulma mamaCemma verafriT ver moinela is, bolos lioniZe rom gaagzavna elCad solomonma rusT xelmwifesTan.

rafer?.. TviTon xom saxlTuxucesi iyo, rusT xelmwifis karze orjer namyofi elCad... lioniZe vinRa iyo? mere ra, rom erekle II-is mrCeveli gaxldaT? imer-ameris gaer-Tianebis erT-erT mTavar moTaved xom Tavis Tavs miiCnevda zurab wereTeli?

hoda, medidurobam, ampartavnobam – solomon mefis mtrad aqcia adre mis samsaxurSi Camdgari saxlTuxucesi! oqros wyalobiT, uSurvelad rom agzavnida rusT xelm-

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wife, zurabma bevri Tavadi da aznauri gadaibira Tavis

mxareze... es Senc kargad mogexseneba, dedao. bevri gauor-

gulda sakuTar mefes... Cveneburebi xom oqros gulisTvis

suls mihyidian eSmaks!.. oqroa is sacTuri, ris gamoc ar

eridebian-Tqva sulis wawymedas da ris gamoc mefesac da

qveyanasac uyoymanod gawiraven!..

rusT xelmwifisgan gamogzavnilma oqros simravlem da

Cveneburma zviadobam aki Cemi gamefebac afiqrebina mamaCems!..

ki, ki, egre iyo! riTi varT bagrationebze naklebio! miT

umetes, roca didi imperatori wyalobas da mfarvelobas ar

mogvaklebs... oqrosTan erTado!

ratom ar unda isargeblo qveynis gaWirvebuli mdgomare-

obiT? ratom ar unda gamoiyeno is areuloba, rac CvenSi

sufevs?.. aki naTqvamia, lukma gavardes, jamSi Cavardeso. ki,

ki, asTe iyo, dedao! amas pirvelad SenTan vambob...

„modi-naxes“ aRebis is mzakvruli gegmac xom mamaCemma

moisazra! apa, vin warmoidgenda, ro im siSoridan wamevidoda

rusis jari, Cveni megzurebisgan gezmimarTuli, mTeli Rame

ivlida muxlCauxrelad da uCumrad Semoertymoda cixe-

simagres... ro Tqvens rigebSi Segzavnili Cveni ramdenime

momxre moaxerxebda qongurebze RamenaTevi guSagebis Canacv-

lebas – sxvaTa Soris, Cemi gamoCena – TqvenTan viTom mo-

salaparakeblad – maTTvis xom niSani iyo moqmedebisa!.. da

mere: zurabi ratomRac darwmunebuli iyo, rom... Sen wamoege-

bodi mis ankesze... erTxel, maxsovs – Tqva, Cveni modgma mi-

amiti, malemrwmeniao, advilad ijerebs lamaz tyuilebso!..

Senma ZiZiSvilma da misma biWma mimaciles maSvin WiSk-

ramde da gaaRebines karebi darajebs, rom simonoviCs SemovZ-

Rolodi... viTom mosalaparakeblad!..

pirveli msxverplnic swored is ubedurebi Seiqnen –

ucabedad SemoWrili rusi saldaTebisa – mTeli Rame buC-

qebSi rom iyvnen Camalul-Casafrebuli – Sesaferisi Jamis

molodinSi!.. anu... elodebodnen karis gaRebas!

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gigom isev Seisvena da Semdeg mZafri, aRgznebuli xmiT kvlav ganagrZo:

– am muxTlobis sazRaurad, me ymawvilma kacma, maior-is Cini, oqros xmali, wminda anas ordeni meore da mesame xarisxis – miviRe maSvin. mamaCems ki ergo general-maioris wodeba, 1200 maneTi daeniSna pensia, jamagiri – Cinisamebr, amas garda zurabs miarTves wminda anas pirveli xarisxis ordeni, sxva jildoebze rom araferi vTqva!..

Cvenze mdidari, galaRebuli, mTavrobisgan pativdebuli sxva imxanad aravin iyo mTels imereTSi – es Senc xom kargad gexsomeba, dedao?.. uCvenod TiTqos Citi ver gadafrindeboda caze da miwaze WianWvela ver gaivlida! rac momeprianeboda – yoliferi unda mqonoda da... mqonda kidec!.. gadabmul qeifebSi rusis oficrebTan da maRalCinosnebTan drostare-baSi, gancxromasa da siamtkbilobaSi vaTen-vaRamebdi! qalebs xom, ukacrauli pasuxia da... cxvirsaxociviT vicvlidi...

SeZeniliT vera da veRar vZRebodi... sul ufro da ufro meti mindoda!.. marTlac kruli yofila kacis guli, dedao, xarbi da gauZRomeli. veRar movpire igi verasdidebiT! – grigoli SeCerda wamiT da ise amoixvneSa, TiTqos gul-Rvi-Zli Tan amoayolao: – Cemi cxovrebis miznad iqca mxolod moxveWa, moxveWa qonebis, simdidris da, rac aranakleb mniS-vnelovania, moxveWa saxelis – aleqsandre makedoneliviT, mTel duniaSi Tu ara, im ubadruk sabosleTSi, saca giwevs yofna, anu... pirveloba yovelgan, yoliferSi! arc erTi keTi-li saqme ar moagondeba Cemi aravis. arc erTi! me mxolod – rogorc weRanac vTqvi – CemTvis miviTlidi mxolod yovelifers, CemTvis, marto saCemod da Cemi... saxlobisTvis! me rom lxinsa da SeqcevaSi gaxldi, sxvebi – tirodnen! ramdeni adamiani gamimwarebia, ramdeni ojaxi amiklia da gamiubedurebia! me – aravin menaRvleboda! aravis vindobdi!

Cemi Zma simonic ar gavikare axlos, Tumca mTavrobisgan ukve Sewyalebuli iyo. arc ZmisSvilebis danaxva mindoda TvaliT!.. Tan... niSns vugebdi Cems garSemo suyvelas: ai, Se-

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momxedeT, vina varT! ra SegviZlia mama-Svils-Tqva!.. – grigols xma Cauwyda kvlav. mere isev ganagrZo mRelvarebiT.

– ... mama ro gardaicvala, TiTqos ufro gavdidguldi kidec. ufro gavmedidurdi, gavampartavndi! xo ar ggoniaT, raime damaklo zurabis sikvdilma-Tqva – vedavebodi vi-Raceebs gunebaSi! Tqven ikiTxeT, Tqve udReurno, sacodav-ebo, misdRemCi ro Ratakni da mSier-mwyurvaleni xarT!.. Tqven xo mxolod imisTvis gaCndiT, ro me da CemisTanebs emsaxuroT, eymoT, daemorCiloT, raTa... Cven – rCeulebma bednierad, kmayofilad vicxovroT, rom lxinSi, gancxro-masa da fufunebaSi davlioT dReni Cvenni, xolo Tqven ki ubadrukno, Tqveni wuTisofeli dRedaRam unda RvaroT ofli lukmapurisTvis! aseTia Tqveni xvedri-Tqva! aseTia Tqveni bedis ganCineba! – isev Cauwyda xma grigols:

– aTasSi erTxel Tu Semaxsenebda Tavs „modi-naxe“ da isic maSvin, roca kvlav niSni unda momego vinmesTvis... – TiTqmis CurCuliT marcvlavda sityvebs: – ramca sada gaumarjvdes kacsa ficTa gamtexelsao. hm, rafer SeiZle-boda rusTavels ar scodnoda-Tqva, Tundac giorgi mesamisa da misi karis muxTlobani! ki, mcire gamonaklisebic aris istoriaSi, vTqvaT, Tamaris da daviT aRmaSeneblis saxiT, mara ra mere, kacobriobis matianeebSi xom umeteswilad marula gaumarTavs da zeobs boroteba, Zalmomreoba, siave, Suri, siZulvili, Ralati da aTasi sxva ukeTuroba!.. es meleqseTa survilia, maTi ocnebaa-Tqva – sikeTem gaimar-jvos borotebaze! meti araferi!.. sinamdvileSi piriqiTaa yoliferi-Tqva! swored piriqiT!

gigo isev dadumda. mere misi bage-piridan kvlav gad-moskda sityvebis niaRvari:

– me sikvtilsac arafrad vagdebdi, oRond – sxvisas! qa-ixosros, manamde ki solomon mefes – trapezundSi rom gar-daicvala upatronod – vaqilikebdi gunebaSi: xo dageyaraT Savi miwa, xo dagibneldaT mze? ai, me ki – cocxali var,

jansaRi, mxne, mdidari, rusT xelmwifisgan da mTavrobisgan

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galaRebuli, aRzevebuli, imperatoris karze miRebuli... me

da Cemi STamomavloba – uzrunvelyofili varT da viqnebiT...

samidRemCiod!.. – gigom iyuCa da mere isev ganagrZo mRel-

varebiT:

... maxsovs, simonoviCma pirvelad rom maCvena oqros mon-

etebiT savse skivri – eso xelmwife-imperatorma gamogzavna,

raTa rusis mTavrobis erTgulebi davajildovoTo... amdeni

oqros danaxvaze sunTqva Semekra, gamovSterdi.

mamaCemi zurabi yovelTvis moiTxovda imperatorisagan

bevr fuls didebul TavadTa mosasyidad da aki eweoda

kidec sawadels!..

im oqroTi, simonoviCis skivridan rom mergo, im Cin-medle-

biT, im oqros xmliT – Ralatis safasurad rusT xelmwifem

rom miboZa – Tavi mogvqonda da vamayobdiT. gvesaxeleboda!..

ki, ki, gvesaxeleboda Cveni monuri samsaxuri! da... gana marto

me da mamaCemi viyaviT aseTi sulmokleni?

rusT xelmwife ro Camevida CvenSi, erTmaneTs vejibre-

bodiT imieris Tu amieris warCinebulebi, vin ukeT gaugorde-

boda fex-qveS gadamTiel imperators!.. Cven xo, oRond Cvens

mefes ar davemorCiloT da – vis ar davudgebiT ymebad!

zogma ra ar Caidina, ra ar ikadra! nemsis yunwSi Zvre-

boda, oRondac... Cini mieRo – polkovnikoba iqneboda es Tu

generloba. oRond ramefrad dawinaurebuliyo samsaxurSi

da mzad iyo sakuTari coli Caewvina xelmwifisTvis, an –

asuli gaebaxebina! ki, iqamdisin mivediT!.. iqamdisin daveciT!..

zog-zogi namusgaqnili Semorigebuli - tols ar udebda

erTmaneTs mTavrobis winaSe bezRobasa da qlesaobaSi! 20

wlis ajanyebaSic swored SemorigebulTagan bevrma „gamoiC-

ina Tavi“ da moZmeTa sisxlSi gaisvara xeli!..

romeli erTi vTqva – saqmeni Cveni „sagmironi“? Cveni

eSmakze sulmiyiduloba? Cveni mucelRmerToba? aki RmrTisa

mimarT vilocoTo – Seicvala Cinis Tu... fulis mimarT

vilocoTo!..

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mere, didi xnis mere, sibereSi, simware rom vnaxe mraval-gzis, mere mivxvdi, mere gaviazre, me regvenma, ras CavdiodiT da... CavdivarT dResac!.. Tumca, eg Cveni siglaxeebi xom Senc ukeT uwyi... dedao!

– Cemo gigo... zneobriobas yovelTvis uWirda, yovel dro-Si... miTumetes, CvenisTana damonebul, gapartaxebul qveyanaSi, sadac... didi xania mkvidrobs biwieri, monuri suli da saer-Tod, erovnulobis, saxelmwifoebriobis SegrZnebis dakargva iwvevs xolme xalxis, sazogadoebis didi nawilis - naxi-rad qcevas, mxolod sakuTari kuWis amoyorvisTvis zrunvas! satana aki amiT sargeblobda yovelTvis da... sargeblobs dRemdin!– ki. ki. asea, samwuxarod, dedao! gigo wamiT dadumda. mere kvlav wamoiwyo:– marTlacda, risi samSoblo?.. ra sazogado saqme da

azri?.. mxolod piradi gamorCena, piradi keTildReoba, pi-radi dideba – ai, Tavi da Tavi yovelisferis... sworedac rom mxolod kerZoobiTi sikeTe amoZravebs didze did um-ravlesobas, Cemo batono!.. Tumca... RvTis winaSe, es yvelaze naklebad Sen da SenisTanebze iTqmis, mara... saerTo wess ver cvlis calkeuli magaliTebi!.. vera!..

amitomac iyo albaT, rom aRar mwamda es sastiki, ulmobe-li, uZRomeli, binZuri cxoveli - adamiani ro hqvia – RvTis xatiao!.. RvTis xati raferaa es borotebis sadguri, kaco?..

mitomac iyo, Cumad, gulSi masxrad vigdebdi xolme qris-tianul zneobas... sulgrZelobas, mimteveblobas, moyvasi-sadmi siyvaruls – yoliferi es ususuri, uZluri adami-anebis mogonil zRaprad mimaCnda... – gigom wamiT iyuCa da mere isev ganagrZo dabali xmiT:

– Sen weRan monoba axsene, dedao... ki, xangrZlivi monoba aTa xsirebs, ryvnis adamianebs, da saerTod, eris suls, mara... sakiTxavia, Cven TviTon... adamianebi ratom viryvnebiT -Tq-va? ratom poulobs satana Cvens sulSi sayrdens-Tqva?..

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e.i. imTaviTve, dabadebidanve zis es biwiereba adamianebSi da imitom!..

...tyiurebSi, adamianTa sakrebulo ro hqvia, amaod mimaCnda-Tqva kacTmoyvareobis qadageba, moyvasis, miT umetes – mtris siyvarulisken mowodeba! yovelive es wylis nayvaa-Tqva! mg-lis Tavze saxarebis kiTxvaa-Tqva! ager qarTulad wirva-locvasac gviSlian ukve... da vin amoiRo xma? xo gavuCumdiT moZalades? xo SevegueT? xo movixareT kidev erTxel qedi?

Zala aRmarTsa xnavso? tyuilia magi. beCavi, uZluri da mSiSara kacis mogonilia es andaza... Cemo batono! Tavis siglaxis gamarTlebaa eg da... sxva araferi!..

– yovelive es Cveni samefoebad dayofas da Semdeg gaTi-Tokacebas mohyva, Cemo gigo! urwmunoebam, uRvToobam dagvria xeli. ki marTalia - uricxvi mteri gveseoda! ki marTalia, damxvdurad mebrZolni viyaviT metwilad, mara... vera da ver gaverTiandiT, ver SevikariT erT muStad... ver gamovnaxeT saerTo ena... daviqsaqseT. davqucmacdiT da... zneobac wagvixda amis gamo! gadavgvardiT, gadavjiSdiT... sxvaTa, ucxo TeslTa mimarT Semwynarebelni – uwyaloni, daundobelni gavxdiT erTi meorisadmi!.. hoda, mteric yovelTvis sargeblobda-Tqva amiT da... amJamadac amitom mogveria ase! anu... RmerTi Semogvwyra, rogorc Cans, Cveni uzneobis, avxorcobis gamo... Cemo gigo!

– hoda, mec maqa var, dedao. mec amas vambob! Cvens garSe-

mo raki TiTqmis yvela mtacebeli da avazaki aRmoCnda,

raki saSvelic aRar gamoCnda arsaidan, Cvenc, Cvenc wavx-

diT da... davWameT-Tqva erTmaneTi – oqros gulisTvis anu

„kai cxovrebisTvis“ gulmodgineT vasxiT mtris wisqvilze

wyali... da... dResac grZeldeba-Tqva es angareba, siglaxe.

uzneoba da ukeTureba da ara mxolod – CvenSi! – mTel

dedamiwaze masTea es! ki, ki!.. mTel cisqveSeTSi gaixrwna

adamis modgma... mTel qveynierebaSia aRzevebuli vercxlis-

moyvareoba, CarCul-mevaxSuri suli-Tqva anu mamona, oqro

gaxda salocavi xati-Tqva, oqro iqca kerpaT!.. „va, oqro

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misTa moyvasTa arodes micems lxenasa, dRed sikvdilamdis

sixarbe Seaqnevs kbilTa RrWenasao“ rusTvelis es sibrZne

saqilikod iqca aki!.. hoda, oqrosadmi gaumaZRari siyvaru-

lis wyalobiT, siZulvilis da Suris gamoisobiT – dedami-

wis zurgze momavalSi yvelgan daiCagreba-Tqva simarTle da

patiosneba. adamis modgma moimkis imas, rac daTesa – uwi-

naresad ki: es ganaCeni me, me mekuTvnis da Cemnairebs – ase

rom gvemarjveba xolme drois morgeba! mara... Tqvennairebma,

rCeulebma - udanaSaulo, wminda, marTalma adamianebma, msx-

verplad Sewirulebma - ra daaSaves-Tqva? ai, esaa gaugebari...

ai, esaa azrmiuwvdomeli CemTvis!..

– me, erTi ubralo, Cveulebrivi mokvdavi var, ra saxsene-

beli var rCeulebSi, Cemo gigo, magram... ufali Tavis rCeu-

lebs umzadebs swored gansacdels, igi xom - gulTamxilavia!

gigom myisve Seawyvetina:

– WeSmaritad, dedao, WeSmaritad! drois da Jamis mixed-

viT miuzRavs yvelas.... TiTqos vis an ras unda waeqcia

grigol wereTeli – cxovrebis mwvervalze ro iyo moq-

ceuli? mara... am siberis Jams damtirebelic aRaravin dam-

rCa... xuTive Svili rigrigobiT, udrood mivabare miwas, im

miwas, romlis Svilebi varT suyvelani, ...xolo mavanTa da

mavanTa sikvdilis gamo, farisevlurad, gareSTa dasanaxad

da mosaCveneblad aki – cremlebsac vRvridi... piradad me

msaxiobobis didi niWi aRmomaCnda, Cemda gasakvirad, dedao...

xo, imas vambobdi... raT unda gamxareboda-Tqva me ugunurs,

sawyalobels, moZmis sikvdili? roca... mec droebiT, mxolod

droebiTi mdgmuri var am wuTisoflis, am saaqaosi?.. viTom

Cven, sul yvelani, saTiTaod sasaflaosken mimaval gzaze

rigSi ar vidgeT!.. viTom saTiTaod, yvelas gulze ar dagvey-

reba Savi miwa da Wia-Rua ar SeWams Cvens ubadruk gvams,

mZorad qceuls! anda, raT, risTvis unda mZulebodiT Tqven

da TqvenisTanebi – ocnebis gmirebi, samarTlianobisa da WeS-

maritebis erTgulni ro iyaviT? an Tundac... Ze-SecTomili

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yofiliyaviT?.. mara... Suri, weRanac vTqvi - boRma, siZul-

vili - saTavea-Tqva yovelive borotebisa...

ityvian, mtris sikvtili unda gixarodeso, mara... romeli

mtris? gareSesi, momxduris, moZaladis, mtaceblis?.. ki, ba-

tono, gasagebia... mara, Tvisis, TanamoZmis, moyvasis?.. Tanac

rCeulis! – kvlav xangrZlivi pauza Camovarda da mere: – me

xo... sicocxle bevr adamians gavumware... da yvelaze ufro

ki – Sen Segcode, dedao, Sen... gimuxTle!.. ai, ra miklavs

guls yvelaze metad, ai, ra miSxamavs sicocxles! ai, ras ver

vpatiob Cem Tavs, ufalma Tundac rom Semindos!

ki icoda iRumeniam, rogor ara, mis smenamdec aRwevda –

Tumc kantikuntad – mSobliuri kuTxis da kerZod, yovlis-

SemZle wereTlis Tavs gadaxdenili ambebi...

ukve asakovanma, ormocdaerTi wlisam, Tavisaze ocdaxuTi

wliT umcrosi nestor niJaraZis ulamazesi asuli SeirTo

colad. bednieri ar aRmoCnda es qorwineba. zedized oTxjer,

daudgeneli mizeziT – daeRupaT Cvili bavSvebi. mexuTe

bavSvze mSobiarobas Tavad meuRle gadahyva, axaldabadebuli

biWi ki cocxali gadarCa, magram... Teqvsmeti wlisa ubedurma

SemTxvevam moulodnelad imsxverpla: gimnaziis Senobis meo-

re sarTulis kibeze fexi daucda, Zirs gadmovarda – qvis

safexuris Zgides Tavi daartya... da suli ganuteva.

– xo, imas vambobdi dedao, Cems ampartavnobas sazRvari

ro ar hqonda, iqidan Cans, sanam bolo nugeSi, Cemi zura

ar gamomecala xelidan, manamde yinCad meWira Tavi! TiTqos

damnaSave Cemi sacodavi meuRle iyo, bavSvebi ro gvexoce-

boden, TiTqos is, is iyo bednavsi! mas, naTos mohyva STamo-

mavlobiTi ubedoba!.. ar mindoda, jiutad ar mindoda Tvali

gamesworebina simarTlisTvis...

iRumenia ana, igive qeTevani, mzeradaxrili, gulSekumSuli

usmenda Tavisi Zveli moqiSpis da dauZinebeli mosisxle

mtris mxurvale aRsarebas, mis TviTgvemas Tu TviTgansjas.

TiTqos udrtvinveli simSvidiT unda aReqva gardasuli,

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Soreuli wlebisgan mogvrili tkivilis gancda, TiTqos

gulgriladac ki... TiTqos sulis siRrmeSi ver unda Semo-

eRwia uSoresi warsulis gaxsenebiT mogvril simwares -

gigos mZafri sityvebiT gacxadebuls, TiTqos wlebs mainc

Tavisi unda eqna, wlebs unda gaexunebina, gaeqarvebina uzomo

tanjvisa da uneblie danaSaulis SegrZneba, anu is iara, misi

daWrili guli rom atarebda didi xnis ganmavlobaSi, da ra-

sac axla gigo wereTeli aseTi mRelvarebiT, aseTi siwrfe-

liT, Sinagani wuxiliTa da SfoTiT igonebda da... inaniebda!

magram... iyo ki ase?

ho, wasuliyo... drois mdinarebas unda gahyoloda TiTqos

yvelaferi is, rac maSin egzom sasicocxlo, mniSvnelovani

Canda TanamedroveebisTvis. da marTlac: vis axsovda axla

solomon meore, imereTis anu daqucmacebuli saqarTvelos

erTi kuTxis ukanaskneli mefe? an qaixosro wereTeli?

– mTavarsardali? zurab Tu grigol wereTlebi, qeTevan

abaSiZe da sxvani da sxvani? dro-Jamma, misma ulmobelma

srbolam STanTqa, daviwyebis morevSi CaZira maTi saxelebi,

landebad da moCvenebebad aqcia erT dros TiTqos esoden

gamorCeuli pirovnebebi, romlebic sakmaod mniSvnelovan

rols TamaSobdnen Tavis droze cxovrebis anu wuTisoflis

oromtrialSi...

axla... axla sxva zriali ismoda, axla sxvebis jeri damd-

gariyo, axla sxvebs unda gaekvliaT gza – marTali Tu mrudi

xerxebiT! axla amaT marTebdaT brZola Tavis Tavis dasamkvi-

dreblad ama qveyanasa zeda – marTebuli Tu umarTebulo sa-

SualebebiT da wesebiT, amaT mere ki – movidodnen sxvebi da...

ase iqneba dausrulebliv, qveynierebis aRsasrulamde – Jamis

srbola! erTaderTi, mudmivi, waruvali realoba ki isaa, rom,

Sen pirovnulad unda waxvide am sawuTrodan – ufalTan

Sesaxvedrad! ai, esaa albaT yvelaze arsebiTi, yvelaze ufro

mniSvnelovani safiqrali da sagonebeli, yvelaze ufro didi

Tavsatexi da sadardebeli am samzeoSi.

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diax, wlebs TiTqos unda waeSalaT warsulis sisxliani nakvalevi, magram sinamdvileSi... moxucebuli iRumenias gulSi kvlav azavTebuliyo gardasulis mexTatexa...

gigo wereTeli ki kvlav ganagrZobda aRsarebas Tu TviT-gvemas dabeJili, bebruli xmiT, nawyvet-nawyvet, daumcxrali RelviTa da sinanuliT. da Tvalebidan momdinare sisveles wamiswam farTo cxvirsaxociT iwmendda.

iRumenia adga, bodiSi moixada da senakidan gavida. cota xnis Semdeg Semobrunda. gigo isev ise ijda TavCaRunuli, moRvenTili da magidaze dawyobil Tavis damWknar xelis mtevnebs dasCereboda gaunZrevlad.

iRumeniam sTxova, satrapezoSi wamobrZanebuliyo – namg-

zavri xarT, amxela manZili gamogivliaT, cota waixemseT,

gaTbiT da daisveneTo.gigom Tavi aswia, usicocxlo TvalebiT axeda iRumenias:– daRlili ara var, dedao... wuxel senakSi faRavebTan ga-

vaTie Rame... manamde quTaisSi Sevisvene niJaraZeebTan... sena-kidan aqamde ki – araa didi manZili... – SeCerda.

iRumeniam Tavisi gaitana. ... satrapezoSi rom usxdnen tablas, gigos arafrisTvis

piri ar daukarebia, mxolod cota Rvino mosva ramdenjerme. mere isev ise ijda daRvremili, Rrma fiqrebSi wasuli. orives Sua, maTdauneburad, Savi RrubeliviT gawoliliyo ormoci wlis winandeli seqtembris is saSineli, sabedis-wero dRis aCrdili.

– aseTia ulmobeli sinamdvile, dedao qeTevan... – wamoiwyo isev gigom xmadabla, TiTqmis CurCuliT: – SeZenis da mox-veWis JiniT aRtyinebuls, amasobaSi TvaldaxelsSua gamepara wlebi, viTarca sizmari Ramisa... Turme Tvalis erTi dax-amxameba da wamiswami yofila marTlac es muxTali, warma-vali wuTisofeli!.. amaoeba amaoebaTao... – amoigmina gigom, mere, Zlivs gasagonad, ufro TavisTvis ganagrZo: – dRes ara, xvale movkvdebiTo, sofeli asre mqneliao, aki sulmnaTma rusTavelma gvaswavla! hoda, sad wauxval am gardauvalo-

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bas? sad gaeqcevi am WeSmaritebas?! mara... Sevismine ki rame Tavis droze?

damtirebeli aravin myavs-Tqva, weRan giTxari, dedao! – WeSmaritad asea! erTi mduRare cremli ar daecema Cems gvams, aravis guls ar dawvavs sulwawymedili gigo wereT-lis sikvtili... ra gamevida? risTvin vicxovre? risTvin viwvale? raT mindoda amdeni qonebis moxveWa, oxraT ro mrCeba axla? vis vejibrebodi? ratom? risTvis? imisTvis, ro bolos gamwarebuli sibere mqonoda da davrdomili da sasowarkveTili-bedisgan anu Cemi uRvToobisgan ganwiruli, sikvtilsac movZulebodi?

– eh, Cemo sayvarelo, „ukeTumca ufalma ara aRaSenos sax-li, cudad Svrebian maSenebelni misni!“ – uneburad mowyda iRumenias bage-pirs.

gigo SekrTa. xma gaikminda da gafarToebuli TvalebiT SeaCerda iRumenias.

visgan, ukanasknelad visgan moismina es saxarebiseuli si-brZne gigom? vin uTxra igi cxovrebis mwvervalze moq-ceuls?... an Seismina ki es Segoneba Tu gafrTxileba? da saerTod:

Seismens ki odesme am sibrZnes adamis modgma? xom ar darCeba igi mudam xmad mRaRadeblisa udabnosa Sina?

erTma RmerTma uwyis!..mosaRamovda.gigo wereTeli iRumeniam monasterSi datova – SeRame-

bulze ar egeboda sadme wasvla, miTumetes quTaisSi, im siSoreze.

arc gigos gamoudvia maincdamainc Tavi – etyoba, amdenma gancdam, amdenma mRelvarebam isedac dauZlurebuli moxuci saSinlad moRala.

keliaSi moasvenes monazvnebma ise, rogorc ekadreboda sapatio stumars.

iRumeniam ki mTeli Rame locvebSi gaatara. igi Tavis da gigos codvil suls avedrebda ufals da RvTismSobels,

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motevebas da Sendobas sTxovda uneblie Tu nebsiTi Seco-debisTvis, aki adrec loculobda xolme gigosTvis, iseve, rogorc yvela imaTTvis „romelni mZlavroben da myvedrian me, nu dasji codvaTa da usjuloebaTa Sina maTTa CemT-vis, aramed moaqcien igini borotisagan, romel aqun Cemda momarT da Seiwyalen didiTa wyalobiTa SeniTa“-o, magram „modi-naxeSi“ daRupul sulTa gamo Sewyalebis Txovnas TavisTavisTvisac – dRemde veRar bedavda!

locvasTan erTad mTeli Rame iRumenias, misdauneburad, kvlav mTeli sicxadiT da mkafiod dautrialda Tvalwin im tragikuli warsulis suraTebi – yoveli wvrilmaniTurT, romelTac TiTqos mtveri unda wayroda wlebis simravlis gamo, magram Turme aqamomde cocxlobda yovelive – nirucv-lelad!

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... nagvemi qeTevani idga Tvalgadmokarkluli polkovnik simonoviCis mrisxane da mZulvare mzeris qveS, simonoviCis, dorblebs rom yrida piridan, idga Tavaweuli, amayi ieriT da... mdumarebda!

qeTevani dumda maSinac, roca bolos da bolos Sindab-runebuls da axloblebiT garSemoxveuls – SeeZlo odnavi SvebiT amoesunTqa.

qeTevani... damunjda!raWidan Svilebi – ori 13-14 wlis gogona – Teona da

daria, da 10 wlis daTuna rom Camouyvanes _ uxmod, us-ityvod Caikra isini gulSi da... xmagakmendils, wveTi crem-li ar gadmougdia TvalTagan.

gadioda wlebi... qeTevani qaixosros da ufrosi Svi-lis molodinSi yovel cismare diliT da RamiT, Ziliswin, RvTismSoblis xatTan daCoqili uxmod, sasoebiT gulSi loculobda saxegamtknarebuli - TvalgamSrali da... mere – Rrma fiqrebSi wasuli, TiTqos gare samyarodan mowyvetili – sasaxlis baRSi an aivanze scemda xolme bolTas...

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da roca xuTi wlis Semdeg, erT mSvenier dRes oda-saxlis kibeze amomavali meuRle da ufrosi vaJi dainaxa, jer wamiT gaxevda, mere: – xosia! papuna!-o, – ikivla da adgils mowyda, aqviTinebuli Caekra qmar-Svils mkerdSi. didma sixarulma xma amoadgmevina enaCavardnil, damunjebul qeTevans da... cremlebic mxolod maSin waskda Rvarad...

mere... waewyvnen erTmaneTs dReebi, Tveebi, wlebi, qeTevans Talxi kaba ar gauxdia, arc samkaulebi utarebia, arc sazei-mo wveulebebsa Tu lxins daswrebia, maSin rom ase moduri iyo qarTvel TavadaznaurobaSi. roca xalxi damonebulia da gaRatakebuli, roca amdeni sicocxle Seewira qveynis Tavi-suflebas, ra dros lxiniao – gulSi amoWril am Segonebas emateboda „modi-naxes“ cixesTan momxdarSi sakuTari, Tun-dac uneblie braleulobis SegrZnebac, misi mudmivi mglovi-arobis sababi rom gamxdariyo. Svilebis qorwilebmac, aseve naTloba-Zeobebmac _ yovelgvari zar-zeimis gareSe Caiara...

dro duned, uRimRamod miedineboda-yoveldRiuri ojaxuri sazrunaviT datvirTuli. magram erT mSvenier dRes col-qmris Caketili cxovreba moulodnelad aaforiaqa joxze dabjenili, daxeibrebuli basilika RonRaZis gamoCenam.

im sabediswero dilas, roca anazdeuli Tavdasxma moxda „modi-naxeze“, daWrilma basilikam mainc moaxerxa Turme galavanis Tavze gaWra, ori saldaTi gadaiyola Tan da qonguridan gadaeSva: tyveobas sikvdili amjobina. magram, amjeradac, rogorc krwanisis omSi – saswaulebrivad ga-darCa. glexebma SemTxveviT ipovnes Turme igi saSinlad dalewil-dasaxiCrebuli, gadamales, xalxuri saSualebebiT umkurnales da Tumca xeibrad darCa, sicocxle mainc Seu-narCunes. mxolod mas Semdeg, rac trapezundSi solomon II aResrula, xolo rusTa mTavrobisgan Semorigebuli qa-ixosro wereTeli ojaxs daubrunda, basilikam gadawyvita, moenaxulebina Tavisi yofili batonebi...

es Sexvedrac umZimesi tkivilebis momtani aRmoCnda qeTe-vanisaTvis, Tumca... basilika cocxali gadarCa, magram... vai

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aseT sicocxleso, mwared ganicdida „modi-naxes“ mecixovne da... qeTevanic... Tavis gunebaSi!

mas mere da manamdec... qeTevani da qaixosro, erTmaneT-Tanac ki gaurbodnen im avbediTi dReebis gaxsenebas...

... solomon meoris gardacvalebis Semdeg qaixosro vaJi-TurT – ukve mTavrobisgan Sewyalebuli – Tumca ki daubrun-da Tavis samSoblos, saxleulobas, magram gulCaTxrobili, dadardianebuli qaixosro, qeTevaniviT, Tavis saxl-karis gareT fexs arsad adgamda, sakuTar sasaxleSi gamoiketa da ramdenime weliwadSi uceb, gulis SeteviT gardaicvala kidec: Cumma dardma, gacruebuli imedebiT gamowveulma unug-eSobam da usasoobam – Tavisi qna: da es jer kidev Warmagi – mTakaci udrood gamoesalma wuTisofels... daqvrivebulma qeTevanma mcire xnis Semdeg ki monasters miaSura.

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... ganTiadisas, deda elpitem amcno Zilgatexil qeTe-vans, batoni grigoli cudad Seiqna wuxel da mobrZanebas gTxovTo.

... senakSi gigo wereTeli sikvdils ebrZoda.iRumeniam monazvnebs mama nikolozis saswrafod moyva-

na daavala, Tavad ki gigosken daixara da Wiris ofliT dacvarul Sublze xeli daado.

TvalamRvreulma gigom uceb xeli dauWira iRumenias da bagesTan miitana. raRacis Tqmas cdilobda, magram piridan daunawevrebeli, gaurkveveli bgerebi amosdioda mxolod, romelic TandaTan xrialSi gadavida...

iRumeniam saswrafod pirjvari gadasaxa ramdenjerme, Tan ganuwyvetliv locvebs CurCulebda, Tvalebidan Rvarad wamosuli cremlis nakadi ki momakvdavs gul-mkerds usvelebda.

– Seni... cremlebi... dedao... iq... iq... gamyveba... – uceb garkveviT amoTqva momakvdavma da... naTqvams sulic amoayola!

iRumeniam Tvalebi dauxuWa micvalebuls.

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gigos saxeze simSvidis ieri gadakvroda, tuCebs ki – ne-tari Rimili Seyinvoda.

„mec male mogyvebi, gigo, Svilo!..“... sasTumalTan mjdari iRumenia ana Seurxevlad das-

Cereboda cxedars da iseTi SegrZneba daufleboda, TiTqos im patara biWs dastiroda axla, oTxi wlisa rom Causves kalTaSi qorwilis dRes – Zveli wesisamebr, da... Tvaleb-gafarToebuli aqeT-iqiT rom atrialebda Tavs da verafriT gaerkvia, ra xdeboda mis irgvliv!

maSin vin warmoidgenda am angelozissaxian, TmaqoCora, umanko biWunas ra sastik xvedrs umzadebda Turme gangeba! rom aTeuli wlebis Semdeg daZabunebul-daleuli, yvelasa-gan gankicxuli da daviwyebuli, uWirisuflod darCenili – swored im adamianis xelSi dalevda suls, vinc ase ul-moblad, ase umowyalod gawira da gaimeta Tavis droze, rom swored misgan naRalatevi qalis cxeli cremli da locva gauadvilebda maradiul samyofelSi gadasvlas.

marTlac rom: „Seucnobelni arian gzani uflisani!“... gigos gardacvalebidan ramdenime TveSi qeTevanmac

ufals miabara Tavisi suli.

gangebis wre-brunva

Zveli odiSuri Tqmuleba

sazi sevdianad kvnesoda. Tvalminabuli momRerali gul-saklavi xmiT moTqvamda:

`Tu Seni saxe ar iqneba, nu mzeobs mzeca,rad minda, miwas anaTebdes uSenod zeca~...baliSze nebivrad miwolili jemal-begis tuCebs Rimili

Seepara:

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`...didebulad mReris, eg SaiTani!~ _ kmayofilebiT gaifiqra da... uceb kilo icvala momReralma. sazma gamar-jvebis sazeimo hangi daukra.

osmaleTis laJvard cisqveS cxovrobs mziswori sulTnis sayvareli sardali, umamacesi mamacTa Soris, gmiri lomguli, risxva urjuloTa, nugeSi da imedi morwmuneTa; guluxvi, brZeni, saxelovani...

dae, mudam dRegrZelhyos igi alahma da samaradJamod nu mouSalos xonTqris wyaloba.

`icocxle da ixare, svebedniero jemal-beg~, _ iTafleba momRerali. yels iRerebs, Tvalebs lulavs.

`svebednieri jemal-beg!~ mTeli stambuli _ didi da mcire _ ase eZaxis osmalTa rCeul sardals.

bazris moednebze, quCebsa da yavaxanebSi moxetiale aSu-Rebi da derviSebi qebaTa-qebas uZRvnian xonTqris sayvarel sardals.

`svebednieri jemal-beg!~bagidan bages gadaecema Cumi CurCuli: male, sul male

xonTqris-marad iyos saxeli misi _ siZe gaxdeba svebednieri jemal-begi!

...Cumad CaiRimila, mere erTbaSad wamojda da... myisve xma gakminda momReralma, miCumda sazic. wamic da darbazi nax-evradSiSveli, haerovani mocekvave qalebiT gaivso. mzerad iqca.

iwmawnebian TasmasaviT moqnili sxeulni qalTa, Tvalebs nabaven, alisfer tuCebze macTuri Rimi dasTamaSebT.

`alahsa vficav, momxiblavia giuli... amaRam...~TiTqos miuxvda naazrevs, Rimili moefina qalis saxes,

Tvalebi aucimcimda, TeTri, SiSveli mklavebi maRla aswia da wamiT gaxevda. mere... adgilze dabzrialda da jemal-begis win, xaliCaze pirqve daemxo. vaJkacma SiSveli zurgis tok-vas Seavlo Tvali. Tavze xeli daado frTxilad. giulim saxe aswia, tuCebi gaxsnoda da TeTri kbilebi Tvalismom-

Wrelad uelavda.

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marcxena xeliT patara tablaze dadgmul savse Tass daswvda, qalisaTvis TvalmouSorebliv bagesTan miitana da nel-nela, auCqareblad dascala. mere ndobamoreuli qalis tuCebs waetana.

roca Tavi aswia, SeniSna, mis TeTr, maRal yelze SerbeTis wveTi Camocurebuliyo. erTaderTi wveTi.

_ SerbeTze ufro tkbilia Seni tuCebi, giuli!.. _ CasCur-Cula da nikapze moavlo xeli, bednierebisa da sixarulisa-gan danislul TvalebSi Caxeda qals. mere isev Tass dawvda.

swrafad gaavso igi monam. _ dalie! Cemi sadRegrZelo dalie, giuli! _ uTxra Ri-

miliT da tuCebTan miutana Tasi.giulim orive xeliT maRla aswia Tasi, mere welSi

gaimarTa da..._ ixare da icocxle, svebedniero jemal-beg! _ sul-

mouTqmelad gamoscala. mere gaicina, Tasi moisrola. sas-misi rbilad gagorda xaliCaze. mere Sublze gadaisva xeli, isev gaicina, vaJkacis ferxTiT Caemxo da cremlebi RapaRu-piT gadmoucvivda loyebze.

sayvareli mgosnis sityvebma gauelves uneburad jemal begs: `Rvino masvi, viT es cremli, kamkama da dawurvili~.

isev akvnesda sazi, kvlav yeli moiRera momReralma: `dro mxiarulad gaatare SavTvala qalTan, cxovreba zRapris magvaria, msgavsia qarTa~.

_ Cemo mbrZanebelo! _ gaubedavad gaisma saWurisis xma._ a? _ ukmayofilod moiRrica misken kiseri jemal-begma._ mapatie, Cemo brZanebelo... aslan-begis monebi icdian...

da..._ aslan-begi? vin aslan-begia? ras rotav, bebero?! _

mere uceb gons moego, gasworda: _ a, a! aslan-begis ZRveni! _ xalisianad gaicina: _ maCvene axlave, ali. giuli, Sen aq damijeq, axlos. vnaxoT erTi, ra momiZRvna beberma begma. `misi vaJi ori dRis win didi gansacdelisgan vixseni. sul-Tanma, marad iyos saxeli misi, me mapatia mirzas Tavi...~

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saWurisTa ufrosi da jemal-begis uaxloesi mrCeveli

ali isev Semobrunda darbazSi. mas xelCakidebuli mohyavda

pirbadeafarebuli qali.

_ qali? sul gamoSterebula begi, Tuki fiqrobs Cems

baRs yvavili aklia! _ xmadabla gadaulaparaka gverdiT mj-

dom giulis. man xalisianad gadaikiskisa da ufro axlos

miucocda jemal begs, TvalmouSorebliv, SefrinviT Seac-

qerda saxeSi.

_ agre mogaxsenaT aslan-begma: Caibare es qalwuli, wy-

aroswyaliviT sufTa, Tovlis fifqiviT faqizi, Sirazis

vardiviT surnelovani da avazasaviT ficxelio._ am beber aslan-begs damixedeT erTi! _ gaicina isev

jemal-begma, Tasi aiRo, giulis gadaxeda, Tvali Caukra da

uCurCula:

_ uamvardodac bevri warmtaci yvavili yvavis jemal-

begis walkotSi-Tqo, xom marTalia, giuli?

isev gadaikiskisa qalma da vaJkacis mklavs CaeWida orive

xeliT, Tavi mxarze miado.

_ ali, waiyvane eg asuli... Tumca... moicade... naCuqar

cxens kbils ar usinjaveno-naTqvamia, magram mainc... axlos

momgvare, pirbade axade! _ saWurisma myisve Seasrula misi

brZaneba. qals pirbade auwia da TviTon ukudga, Tavis mbr-

Zanebels miaCerda mowiwebiT.

tuCebTan mitanili Tasi gauSeSda jemal-begs erTbaSad,

sustad wamoikivla giulim, mere cerze ikbina mwared da

gaqvavda. Sewyda sazis xma _ momRerals piri Riad dar-

Cenoda. TiTqos qandakebad iqcnen mocekvave qalebic.

pirveli giuli gamoerkva, frTxilad Camococda taxti-

dan da cocviTve gaSorda jemal-begs, kuTxeSi miiyuJa.

jemal-begi Seirxa. gaocebuli Tvalebi mimoatara dar-

bazSi. wamiT Tvali Seavlo kuTxeSi minabul giulis, mere

momRerlis farTod daRebul Tvalebs hkida mzera, adgilze

gaxevebul mocekvave qalebs da...

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_ ali! _ xma odnav uTrToda: _ ubrZane, Cemi `Sevardeni~ gamoiyvanon sajinibodan. aslan-begs miarTvan da gadascen... _ SeCerda.

Sublze moisva xeli. veraferi xeiriani ver moisazra da gaicina isev: _ ara, ar aris saWiro raimes Tqma... isec mixvdeba.

mere msubuqad wamoxta. Wabukuri sixalisiT Searxia mxrebi da qals nela miuaxlovda.

`xorcSesxmuli arsebaa Tu... moCveneba?~... _ Cveulebis-amebr, nikapSi moavlo xeli. qalma daxrili Tvalebi aswia. uneburad myisve xeli SeuSva jemal-begma da wamiT mzera daxara _ mxolod wamiT, mere isev waetana qalis nikaps, da TvalebSi Caxeda jiqur.

mcire xans Sehyurebdnen erTmaneTs: qali civi, amayi mzeriT, vaJkaci ndomiT, surviliT, sinaziT da kidev raRac-iT, eniT gamouTqmeli, TviT misTvisac Seucnobeli grZnobiT.

axla qalma daxara Tvali. loyebi Seufaklda odnav: `gonebiswamRebia eg tuCebi, alah! vardis kokors magonebs igi. _ jer gauSlels. xelSeuxebels!.. ra amayad Seukravs kopebi, rogorao, rogor SemoTvala aslan-begma? avazasaviT ficxeliao asuli? o, alah!~

qalma scada moecilebina vaJkacis xeli. jemal-begma daaswro. marcxenaTi nazad mouWira TiTebi. mere tuCebTan miitana:

_ nu wyrebi, nazo... _ tkbilad da rogorRac damamor-Cilebeli simtkiciT CasCurCula jemal-begma: _ ali! _ mi-ubrunda mere saWuriss mkvircxlad.

_ diax, mbrZanebelo!_ Sesrulda Cemi brZaneba?iatakamde daixara saWurisi._ yovelive Sesrulda, Cemo mbrZanebelo. aslan-begi sixa-

ruliT cas eweva, albaT, `Sevardeni~ xom rCeuli iyo Tavis jilagSi.

`viTarca es asulia qalTa Soris~, _ daumata gunebaSi!

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_ ali! waiyvane... da icode, TvalisCiniviT gaufrTxildi...taxtze moikeca isev. niSani misca da kvlav aJRerda sazi.

Seirxnen adgilze gaqvavebuli mocekvave qalebi;gveliviT iklaknebian, igrixebian, vnebis aRmZvrelad arx-

even TeZoebs, naxevrad SiSvel gulmkerds... ndomiT nabaven Tvalebs, macTuri Rimi dasTamaSebT alisfer tuCebze...

magram jemal-begi verafers xedavs ukve. verafers amCnevs. mTeli misi arseba Seupyria ucnaur zmanebas. da Jruante-lad uvlis tanSi jerargancdili siame...

mere uceb, TiTqos raRacam ukbinao gulze, wamoiWra. xeli daiqnia. iseve uCumrad gailalnen mocekvaveni, rogorc Semovidnen. gaikrifnen mesazenic, musikosni da momRerali. SeumCnevlad wafarfatda giulic.

martod darCenili, erTxans mdumare, Cafiqrebuli ijda. mere wamoxta da gverdiT oTaxs miaSura.

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usityvod, uxmod emorCileboda saWuriss yvelaferSi. aba-nos Semdeg saWurisma am zRaprulad morTul, pawia oTaxSi Semoiyvana. xeliT aniSna sawoli, SegiZlia gaixado da Cawveo. qalma Tavi dauqnia Tanxmobis niSnad da karisken miuTiTa. igi TiTqos Seyoymanda wamiT da mere auCqareblad gavida.

da ai, SuaRame gadavida. lodiniT gadaRlils CasTvlima wamiT da swored am dros uCumrad gaiRo fardebSi Cam-aluli saidumlo kari...

jemal-begi uxmaurod miuaxlovda sawols. gauxdeli qali orad moxriliyo, Tavi mklavebze daedo da... eZina Tu imZinarebda Tavs?

qalis raRac saocarma umweobam erTbaSad Searyia vaJka-cis guli. adgilze gaqvavda.

TiTqos ZilSi myofma igrZnoo es daJinebuli mzera, qa-lma uceb gaaxila Tvali, myisve wamojda da saxeze Zrwola, SeSfoTeba Tu sasowarkveTileba gamoexata, mere mzera Zirs daiRo...

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jemal-begi idga da Sehyurebda warbSekrul qals, mis mo-kumul, patara tuCebs.

mere frTxilad, alersiT Seexo bagiT qalis saluq loyas, Tan daJinebiT, mZafri surviliT anTebuli misCereboda. `sxva gza ar maqvs, Seni tyve var da vemorCilebi Sens survils!.. magram verasodes ver gaxdebi Cemi sulis mpyrobeli~... _ aSkarad metyvelebda qalwulis mdumare bage-piri, daxrili Tvalebi, gafiTrebuli saxe da morRveuli, gaTanguli sxeuli.

mamakaci uceb welSi gaimarTa, xeli SeuSva qals da Se-trialda. erT xans Seurxevlad idga da tuCebs ikvnetda. mere oTaxidan swrafad gavida.

gaocebuli mzera daadevna qalma vaJkacs. da roca jemal-begma kari uxmaurod gaixura, kidev karga xans idga gaog-nebuli, saxtadqceuli. TiTqos ar sjeroda, rom ase das-rulda yvelaferi. akankalebuli xeli Tvalebze moisva, mere loyebze. gaubedavi sixarulis Rimili gaukrTa tuCebze da... uecrad, tirili waskda _ Svebis tirili.

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mouTmenlobiT Sepyrobili jemal-begi oTaxSi bolTas scemda. is iyo unda efeTqna da... saWurisic gamoCnda.

wamsve taxtze Camojda, Seecada mSvidi ieri mieRo, mere sazs gadawvda, TiTebi frTxilad dausva simebs, Tan kiTxviT axeda saWuriss.

_ Cveulebrivi ambavia, Cemo mbrZanebelo... _ daiwyo man wynari, mSvidi xmiT: _ qarTvelia. odiSidan gautacniaT. foTSive SeuZenia Sarif-aRas. aslan-begisTvis miurTmevia odesRac gaweuli didi samsaxuris sanacvlod.

daZabuli usmenda mas jemal-begi. mRelvarebis dasafara-vad quTuToebi daexara da sazis simebs uangariSod usvamda TiTebs. saWurisi dadumda. mdumarebda jemal-begic. mxolod sazis simebis tokva arRvevda am siCumes.

jemal-begi fiqrs miscemoda. `aslan-begma saCuqari gamo-migzavna. aq uCveulo araferia, magram~... Tavi gaiqnia. TiTqos

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abezar fiqrs iSorebso. merme amRvreuli Tvalebi kvlav saWuriss miapyro. amjeradac mixvda ali, rom jemal begi mas ki ara, sadRac Soreul sivrceSi iqcireboda.

`ukve yvelam icis, xonTqris siZe rom gavxdebi male. Tavis qaliSvils maZlevs colad. guSin vazirTa divanze sulTanma kvlavac aRniSna Cemi damsaxureba qveynis winaSe. iskander faSas saxe ar meWaSnika, misi metismetad daTaflu-li Rimili da gamoxedva. arc sxva vazirebis. SurT? cxadia, magram marto eg ara, kidev aris sxva, raRac `sxva~. ar undaT TviTon daiviwyon da arc me damaviwyon, rom~...

_ ali!_ Cemo mbrZanebelo!_ Sen, albaT, anugeSebdi qalwuls Seneburad, tkbilad...

_ Semparavi xmiT daiwyo jemal-begma, Tvalebi ki mrisxaned burRavda saWurisis fermkrTal, daleul saxes: _ Sen, al-baT, etyodi...

_ me mxolod imas vambob, rac Cems mbrZanebels eameba. _ saswrafod SeaSvela sityva saWurisma da oTxad moixara.

_ keTili, jemal-begma mamamisze nakleb rodi icis erT-gulebis dafaseba.

_ Seni wyaloba nu momiSalos alahma, dido sardalo!_ wadi, is qalwuli kuTxis oTaxSi gadaiyvane da TvaliT...

gesmis, TvaliT ar damanaxo. laSqrobidan rom movbrundebi, mere... movifiqroT, vis gavugzavnoT...

_ mesmis, Cemo mbrZanebelo!_ icode, Seni TaviT ageb pasuxs, Tuki..._ gasagebia, mbrZanebelo. yovelive ise iqneba, rogorc Sen

gsurs...

_ keTili, axla wadi, gamecale.

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mziTa da sinaTliT uxvad ganaTebul oTaxSi Sevida da kari Caiketa. uwesrigod miyril-moyril funjebsa da saRe-bavebs dawvda, mialag-moalaga.

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omebisa da saxelmwifo saqmeebisgan Tavisufal dros aq atarebs, am oTaxSi. es misi, jemal-begis saidumloebaa. vera da ver eleva funjs da saRebavs. aq isvenebs, aq povebs imas, rac misi sulis usaTuTes, farul da sxvaTagan SeumCnevel simebs atokebs.

aq, am oTaxSi, am funjebsa da saRebavebTan jemal-begi aRar aris uSiSari, mamaci sardali, sisxliani xmlis qneviT rom daajiriTebs Tavis yornisfer merans.

aq jemal-begis Tvalebi ar mZvinvareben SurisgebiT, si-ZulviliT, gaborotebiT. ar rialebs maTSi xanZarTa ali Tu naperwklebi. aq aRar aris igi daundobeli, mrisxane, ganukiTxavi, aq aRar aRwevs cxenTa floqvebiT gadaTqeril-gadaqelilTa gminva-godeba. aq aRar Semodis sisxlmowy-urebuli, gaavebuli ianiCrebis zaTqi da zriali, xmalTa triali da cxenTa Wixvini.

aq veRar budobs siZulvili da mtroba, boroteba da Suri, veragoba da sisastike.

aq mze anaTebs uxvad da mziT gavsebulia mTeli dar-bazi. aq daRlil-damZimebuli sulis savanea, misi myudro TavSesafari.

aq, laSqrobidan dabrunebuli, Caiketeba xolme da mTeli dReebi TavauRebliv xatavs.

da maSin aRar arsebobs misTvis araferi, garda am nax-atebisa. yovelive miwieri, aqamde mniSvnelovani, sayuradRe-bo, pativdebuli, _ wvrilmandeba, xundeba, kargavs Tavis wonas, uferuldeba, icriceba da rCeba mxolod es mze da mzisferi saRebavi, es lurji ca da cisferi samyaro, sao-cari miraJebi da ucnauri zmanebebi.

jemal-begi divanze Camojda. dafa moiCoCa da naxats daacqerda, TiTqmis dasrulebul suraTs xelaxla dauwyo sinjva-kirkiti.

patara, mwvanemolian mindorze qali dgas. cali xeli yurebdacqvetili SvelisaTvis Semouxvevia, meoreSi wiTe-

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li vardi uWiravs. naxevraddaxrili wamwamebidan iribad

imzirebian Savi, odnav eSmakurad moWutuli Tvalebi, mo-

SorebiT kviparosis xes amofarebuli vaJis saxe moCans. ara.

ar varga. vaJis Tvalebs metismetad monuri gamometyveleba

aqvs. vaJkaci yovelTvis vaJkaci unda iyos, Tundac sayva-

reli qalis winaSe. Svels kiseri ar uvarga... eg qalwu-

lic... arc ise momxiblavia, rogorc uwin eCveneboda, erTob

wvrili Tval-warbi aqvs, sxeulic arc ise haerovania. ai,

is... is qalwuli...

jemal-begi wamoxta. funji ganze moisrola, aCqarebuli

nabijebiT gaiar-gamoiara oTaxSi. mere isev Tavis naxatTan

SeCerda. dakvirvebiT, daJinebiT dauwyo Tvaliereba, TiTqos

amiT surda gaeyuCebina mousvenroba, mTeli misi arseba rom

Seepyro.

simSvidis nacvlad mxolod imedgacrueba da mware sinan-

uli mohgvara suraTma. kbilebi erTmaneTs daaso, warbebi un-

eburad moeWmuxna. zurgi Seaqcia naxats. sarkmelTan mivida.

rbili saRamo muqad Rebavda xeTa kenweroebs, muqlurjad

wveboda Crdili. firuzisferi cac nel-nela icriceboda da

uferuldeboda.

baRidan aTasgvar yvavilTa surneli Semohqonda niavs,

garkveviT moismoda sicil-kiskisi iq, auzSi moWyumpalave

qalebisa.

swrafad Cairbina marmarilos kibe. xarbad SeisunTqa sur-

nelovani haeri. dRis xvatis Semdeg sasiamovnod griloda

baRSi.

fexs auCqara. ager Sadrevanic. Sekivleba da... mere adg-

ilze gaxevdnen, gainabnen yvelani...

anTebulma Tvalebma giuli moZebnes. igi warmoudgeneli

naRveliT, morCilad Sescicinebda saxeSi vaJkacs. jemal-

begma misken gadadga nabiji da rac ufro uaxlovdeboda, miT

ufro welSi imarTeboda, swordeboda qali, miT ufro maRla

swevda Tavs, Tvalebs elvareba emateboda, saxes-siwiTle.

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Tumca am fofina Tvalebis SigniT jer kidev bJutavda iWvis

natamali: `nuTu... gavimarjve?~

jemal-begma mxrebSi waavlo xeli, moizida da afeTqebul

saxeSi Caxeda. magram ara, ar iRimeba `svebednieri~ jemal-

begi. dabRverili, kuSti mzeriT dasCerebia qalis molodi-

niT aRtkinebul saxes.

...dilis sio elamuneba xeTa totebs. baRidan Citebis

JRurtuli Semodis, dacvaruli vardebi nazad uRimian qur-

dulad Semoparul mzis sxivebs.jemal-begma alersianad gadausva xeli Tavze, Semwynare-

blurad, rbilad gauRima, mere daixara, loyaze akoca da... gavida.

`gaTavda. yvelaferi gaTavda!~ _ glovis zariviT dareka qalis gulma. _ ratom?.. igi xom iRimeboda. Cinebul gune-baze iyo, ealerseboda!

maS, ra, ra unda giulis meti? ara, giuli TiTqos bevrs ar moiTxovs gangebisgan. sul cota, sul pawawina adgili rom daiWiros mxolod jemal-begis gulSi?.. sul erTi cida?.. erTi misxali?.. da rogorc bevri sxva, amas dasjerdes?

sizmariviT gaqra es erTi Rame _ netarebisa da bed-nierebis erTi Rame!

Tumca... qaluri alRoTi da gumaniT grZnobda: roca vaJi exveoda da saalerso sityvebs CasCurCulebda, igi mas ar ekuTvnoda _ mTlianad!.. kacis goneba sxvagan qroda. massa da jemal-begs Soris uxilavad, uCinrad Camdgariyo `is~, sxva~ da mainc... es Rame gamarjvebaa giulisTvis! da am monap-ovars igi arasdidebiT ar daTmobs. nemsis yunwSi gaZvroma rom mouwios, giuli ibrZolebs, diax, ibrZolebs bolomde, ukanasknel amosunTqvamde. aki ukve daeufla kidec mraval fandsa da xrikebs, rac aqamde mxolod Tvlemda Turme mis arsebaSi.

sulTnis cxvirpaWua asuli SeiZleba pirveli coli iyos, magram... pirveli adgili ver daiWiros vaJkacis gulSi. is ucxo, zRapruli feria ki _ ase moulodnelad, ase erTbaSad

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rom SemoiWra am Wrel saqaleTSi, am `daxurul bazrobaze~ da ase pirwmindad, ase ulmoblad rom daumsxvria didi xnis naloliavebi da naninanatri ocneba da imedebi, ase anazdeu-lad rom Camouqufra cis kamkama TaRedi _ vera, ver moereva giulis da mis zraxvebs _ aq, tvinis da sxeulis ganu-wyveteli, mudmivi varjiSisa da nebisyofis wrTobis alagad qceul _ haramxanaSi!

diaxac. giuli aravis dauTmobs pirvelobas am `samoTxis baRSi!~ _ Tundac sxvaTa gaqelvis, damcirebis, Seuracyofis da ganadgurebis xarjze moxdes es! ar iTakilebs aranair RonisZiebas da xerxebs am sastik, ulmobel da Seupovar omSi, Tundac alahic rom gadaeRobos gzaze. mis ZarRvebSic duRs begebis Zveli sisxli, masSic boboqrobs suli urCi winaprebis. amitomac, aravis daindobs. aravis SearCens Tavis wil da kuTvnil arCivs am qveyanaze, am samzeoSi! miT ufro _ mdabioris naSiers.

manamde ki... manamde marTebs kvlavac aRiWurvos moTminebiT, morCilebiT, TvinierebiT. Tavi ise moaCvenos yvelas _ mters da moyvares (moyvare ar SeiZleba mas aq hyavdes!), rom beds Seguebuli da Serigebuli mxevalia mxolod, rameTu... Tavis gadasarCenad sifrTxile da sifxizle umTavresi saSuale-baTagania am orpirobisa, siyalbisa da veragobis budeSi!

giuli SeimarTa. saxe daesxipa. Tvalebi dauviwrovda da avadkiseraReril, sasikvdilo geslisa da Sxamis dasaTx-evad gamzadebul giurzas daemsgavsa, romelsac win veraferi daudgeba!

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...ori Tve cxenidan ar Camosula jemal-begi, ori Tve iqnevda xmals. ori Tve daqrodnen ianiCarTa razmelebi xmalSemarTulni da sikvdils da ubedurebas Tesavdnen ir-gvliv. iwvodnen soflebi, iwvoda miwa. sisxliT iRebeboda mdinareebi, sisxliT irwyveboda yana-venaxi da gaCenis dRes iwyevlidnen adamianebi. aRar iyo xsna da saSveli ianiCarTa

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risxvisagan. aRar iyo dandoba da Sewyaleba. aRar iyo Rmer-Ti caze da samarTali-dedamiwaze!

axla ki...axla omgadaxdili, gamarjvebuli sardali Caketila Ta-

vis cisfer zmanebaTa oTaxSi da sami dRe-Ramea TavauReblad xatavs, sami dRe-Ramea cdilobs, daiviwyos sisxlis wvima da camde awvdili xanZris enebi.

zeg qorwili aqvs, zeg leili xanumi-sulTnis pirmSven-ieri asuli, didi zar-zeimiT gadmova jemal-begis samyofel-Si. sulTnis sasaxle da mTeli serali emzadeba am didi dResaswaulisTvis. emzadeba jemal-begic. man Tavisi nax-elavi unda miarTvas patarZals qorwinebis dRes. guliT grZnobs, raRac xafangs umzadeben vazirni... is naqarTvelari baaduric saeWvod gatrunula. xonTqris siZeoba metismeti pativia. beberma alimac TiTqos raRac iynosao...

uxmaurod, fexis wverebze Semosuli ali mokrZalebiT miesalma patrons.

_ ali! axlos modi. Sexede suraTs, rogoria?ali aRtacebulia. ali gaxarebulia. ara, es ar aris qve-

Sevrdomuli, monuri aRtaceba, arc qlesuri pirferoba. amas jemal-begi utyuari alRoTi grZnobs da amCnevs da amitom ormagad ufro kmayofilia.

_ ras ityvi, ali, xom nasiamovnebi iqneba leili xanumi Tavisi suraTiT?

_ Cemo mbrZanebelo... _ uceb ena daeba alis, feri ecvala._ ra iyo? ra mogivida? cudad xom ara xar?_ o, Cemo mbrZanebelo, iqneb... momesma? leili xanumis

suraTi?jemal-begma taxtidan wamoiwia._ mbrZanebelo..._ ganagrZe-meTqi! ratom gaCumdi?_ o, Cemo mbrZanebelo, _ saCqarod daiwyo alim: _ am-

boben, sulTnis asuli amomavali mzea da Camavali mTvareo, magram... es suraTi... vSiSob, ar naxos aslan-begma...

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_ aslan-begi? ra SuaSia igi? an ratom unda naxos?.. ity-vi Tu ara saTqmels? _ jemal-begma marjvena xeli momuWa.

_ jemal-beg!.. eg suraTi saocrad hgavs im tyve asuls, aslan-begma rom gamogigzavna...

jemal-begi anazdad saRebavebis kolofs dawvda da saWuriss esrola. alim aicdina kolofi da igi kedels SeexeTqa.

jemal-begi gamoerkva. welSi mokakul saWuriss Sexeda, mere Zirs dayril saRebavebis xoras da...

isev taxtze daeSva, Tavze xelebi Semoiwyo da gairinda. saWurisic gaunZrevlad idga xmagakmendili.

karga xnis Semdeg Tavi aswia jemal-begma, amRvreuli Tva-lebi jer suraTs miapyro, mere SeSinebul saWurisze SeaCera mzera da...

uceb fexze wamoiWra._ gamiZex! _ ubrZana da saWurisic miuxvda survils. or-

Tavem sasaxlis kuTxis oTaxisken aiRo gezi. win SiSnarevi gaocebiT micuxcuxebda saWurisi ali.

...jemal-begi karis fardags aekra erTbaSad zardacemuli. qalwuls muxli moeyara sarkmelTan da xelebapyrobili Cumad loculobda. cremli wkanwakriT Camosdioda fermi-mqral Rawvebze.

es aris! amis suraTia!amdeni xnis ganmavlobaSi Turme am qalis xatebas

daatarebda gulSi.sulTqmaSekruli miStereboda mlocvel qalwuls, Tavis

garSemo veravis da verafers rom amCnevda.TiTqos viRacam xeli hkrao, Setokda jemal-begi. mere

fexakrefiT miuaxlovda qals da anazdad, Tavisdauneburadve TviTonac moiyara muxli, mere qalis kabis kalTas dawvda, bagesTan miitana da frTxilad eambora.

SemkrTali TaTia Seurxevlad Sehyurebda vaJkacs, mxolod tuCebsRa acmacunebda umweod, TiTqos raRacis Tqma undoda da xma ara da ar amosdioda yelidan.

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ucnaurma sinazem Searyia jemal-begi, kvlav cxelma tal-

Ram gadauara gulze, mere TavdauWereli survili aenTo mis

TvalebSi, fexze wamoiWra:

_ ali, gadaeci qalwuls... TviTon RmerTi unda iyos

damxobili mis winaSe da... patiebas sTxovdes... _ mRelva-

rebisgan xma uwydeboda... guli ise gamalebiT ucemda, lamis

amovardnoda mkerdidan.

qali nel-nela wamoimarTa. welSi gasworda. gakvirvebis

nacvlad axla mrisxaneba aRbeWdvoda saxeze:

_ saWiro araa! nu miTargmni, ali! _ sufTa TurquliT

uTxra saWuriss TaTiam ise, rom mzera ar moucilebia va-

JkacisTvis: _ sazizRaria yvela, vinc samSoblos enas ivi-

wyebs, vinc Tavis xalxis RmerTs hgmobs da ucxo xalxis

RmerTze loculobs.

jemal-begs niri ecvala. wamiT upeebdaxrili idga, mere

mzera aswia, Tvali TvalSi gauyara qals da wynari xmiT,

sityvebis damarcvliT warmoTqva:

_ me... Tormeti wlidan aq vizrdebodi. aq davvaJkacdi.

esaa Cemi samSoblo. am qveyanam momca me yvelaferi: saxeli,

pativi, qoneba... amitom am xalxis ena Cemi enacaa, am xalxis

RmerTi _ Cemi RmerTicaa!

_ wveT-wveTad rom gaiRo sisxli, amaTTvis Sen mainc mu dam

ucxoelad darCebi, gadamTielad. verasodes daiviwyeben Sens

warmomavlobas, Sens gurjobas... _ verasodes! Seni namdvili

samSoblosaTvis ki _ mudam gandgomili da moRalate iqnebi.

jemal-begma tuCebi moikvnita. mere sZlia Tavs da yelSi

momdgari siSmage isev ukan Caibruna.

_ me aravisTvis miRalatnia, qalo... Seni qveynis Svilebma

daungries mamaCems, saxelovan da didebul kacs _ saxl-

kari; iZulebuli gaxades aqeT gadmoxvewiliyo. me maSin Za-

lze patara viyavi, araferi mesmoda. es Seni qveyanaa, sadac

Zma Zmas ar indobs da mama-Svils. sadac Suri, boroteba,

veragoba da cbiereba budobs TiToeulis gulSi. Senc xom

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Seni qebuli qveynis Svilebma gagwires, gagimetes...

_ eg Cemi qveynis ubedurebaa... _ waiCurCula qalma da

Tavi daxara, magram myisve isev aswia, amayad, gamomwvevad

Sexeda vaJkacs:

_ ubedur dedas xels rodi hkraven Svilebi, aramed cdi-

loben Seumsubuqon Wiri da varami. uSvelon, uWirisuflon,

miexmaron...

_ didi madlobeli var! me, piradad, ar msurs ubeduri

qveynis Sviloba.

_ ase mxolod sulmdabali, laCari fiqrobs!

jemal-begs miwisferma gadahkra. uceb eca qals gacofebuli:

_ rao... ra sTqvi? maS, me laCari vyofilvar?! _ amoixri-

ala da mZlavrad mowura qali Tavis mklavebSi: _ gaimeore,

rac Tqvi! gaimeore-meTqi... _ kbilebSi scrida sityvebs gamZ-

vinvarebuli, saxeSeSlili.

_ me ukve vTqvi Cemi saTqmeli! _ mSvidad miugo qalma da

TvalebSi Seacqerda isev, tuCebs ki odnavi, Zlivs SesamCnevi

Rimili urxevda.

ucebve gauara sibrazem. ucnaurad dadrka. o, es Tvalebi,

es Rimili _ ucnauri, Seucnobeli, miuwvdomeli...

_ TaTia... _ Zlivs amoTqva bolos _ TaTia...

Zleuli, moTvinierebuli, mzad iyo, dausruleblad gaemeo-

rebina es saxeli.

oRond erTxel mainc daakvdes am sayvarlad Setyupebul

tuCebs, oRond am unapiro TvalebSi Caikargos Tundac wamiT,

mxolod wamiT...

wamierad monusxuli TaTia myisve gamofxizlda, vaJs

orive xeli miabjina mkerdze, Tavi ukan gadaigdo.

_ TaTia!..

_ me aRTqma miveci RvTismSobels, am ucxo cisqveS aravin

Seviyvaro...

qali dausxlta vaJkacis mklavebs, ganze gadga, alewili,

TvalanTebuli.

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_ magram... _ wamiT iyuCa da: _ me xom tyve var Seni! _

waiCurCula... da Tavi morCilad daxara.yrud daikvnesa jemal-begma da saxeze xelisgulebi aifara.

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cremlebi gauSra, ukve aRar tiris TaTia. sawolze gu-laRma gaSotili misCerebia ucnauri yvavilebiT moqargul Wers.

ori weliwadi sruldeba, rac am ucxo mxares tyveobaSia. ori weliwadi sruldeba, rac itanjeba da saSveli arsaidan Cans. vera da ver Seurigda beds. vera da ver SeeCvia am yofas. aki amboben: adamiani yvelafers eCvevao. aTasobiT, aTiaTasobiT qali da kaci aki egueba. stambulis haramxanebi xom savsea misi qveynidan motacebuli Tu gayiduli qaliS-vilebiT. ianiCarTa razmebs ki yovel wels ematebian jan-RoniT savse, mamaci, magram gulamoclili, suldaSretili meomrebi. isini xom misi ubeduri qveynis Svilebia. amboben, yovel mesame osmalos qarTvelis sisxli ureviao.

hoda, xom eCveodnen, xom eCvevian isini axal cxovrebas, zogi-ukeTes pirobebs? ase rom ar iyos, verc icocxlebdnen, verc gaZlebdnen, daixocebodnen. Tumca, ramdenma veRar gasZ-lo, albaT! ramdenma moiswrafa sicocxle...

TaTias axsovs, TurqeTidan mis mSobliur sofelSi rom Camovida beberi asineTi _ asmaTi, _ Cxetias qali. miatova Svilebi, SviliSvilebi da sikvdili mainc Tavis mSobliur sofelSi arCia. magram aTasobiT, aTiaTasobiT qali da kaci, bolos da bolos, xom egueba mainc Tavis xvedrs _ mono-bas. nel-nela iSleba warsuli. iviwyeben im cisa da mTebis fers, sadac pirvelad aaxiles Tvali. iviwyeben, anda undaT daiviwyon. sadRac, gulis kunWulSi, albaT, kidev rCeba im warsulis nasaxi, magram qrTlisodenad qceuls, TandaTan eyreba nacarmtveri da... ukvalod qrebian, samudamod iZire-bian osmalTa zRvaSi. TaTias kidev `bedma gauRima~: jer iyo

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da, aslan-begis dedam Seifara sasowarkveTili Tvistomeli,

mere... osmalTa saxelovani sardlisa da umamacesi vaJkacis

guli daipyro... sxva raRa unda ndomoda mis bedSi Cavard-

nil ubralo, ugvaro tyve mona-qals, soflis sawyali,

Raribi diakvnis qaliSvils, romelsac xandaxan mWadi da

lobioc ki enatreboda?

ra undoda, ras mistiroda? daubrunebel, samudamod wa-

sul, daRupul dReebs? ratom jiutobda, ratom urCobda?

risi imedi hqonda sabralo tyves, pirutyviviT gayiduls da

damcirebuls? ras ejibreba _ beds Tu bedisweras? ratom

mimdgara sarkmlis cxaurTan mTeli dReebi da gamouTqme-

li naRveliT ratom gascqeris cas? laJvardebSi monavarde

mercxlebs? Rrublis moseirne TeTr fTilebs? nuTu es

igivea ca ar aris, mis kopwia, lamaz sofels rom axuravs,

igive cargvali, igive mercxlebi, igive varskvlavebi!..

baRidan sicil-tkarcalis xma moesmis xSirad. Sadrevan-

Tan qalebi mxiaruloben, beds Serigebul-Seguebuli qalebi

erTobian.

nuTu odesme gaicines ase TaTia? odesme gaexsneba dax-

urul-CaSavebuli guli. odesme moilxens? rodis icinoda

ukanasknelad TaTia? Zalian didi xnis winaT, saukunis winaT...

biZia Sios nadze, ho, iq moilxina TaTiam ukanasknelad, iq

icinoda gulianad Tavis tol-sworebSi. iq iTamaSa, icek-

va, imRera yvelaze meti. TiTqos guli ugrZnobda, rom es

ukanaskneli mxiaruleba iyo mis cxovrebaSi. erTi kviris

Semdeg... o, erTi kviris Semdeg avazakebma moitaces noRas

gzaze mimavali qaliSvili da im yaCaRebSi wulukias wuwki

vaJi eria _ Tavisi mamis naTluli ar daindo im garewarma.

icoda wulukiam TaTias gabeduli xasiaTi, icoda, ubelo

cxens Tamamad rom daajiriTebda da satevarsac vaJkaciviT

xmarobda. hoda, veragulad, cbierad daugo maxe...

monasterSi, iRumeniasTan mimavals Causafrda _ aTi dar-

Ceuli biWi axlda Tan. veRar uSvela TaTias Tavganwirulma

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winaaRmdegobam, verc orma biZaSvilma. isinic gaTokes da Seubraleblad, uwyalod dayides;

o, aRar unda TaTias im dRis gaxseneba... im ubeduri, daq-ceuli, Savi dRis gaxseneba.

patara gorakze Semomdgar monasters da iRumenia anas wvdeba misi fiqri. xSirad igonebs mas TaTia. an ra daaviw-yebs iq gatarebul dros!

roca tkvili autaneli xdeba, roca hgonia, rom mor-Ca, gaTavda, mets veRar gauZlebs guli, maSin mxsnelad da mfarvelad iRumenia anas saxe moevlineba TaTias.

wamoiCita Tu ara, iRumenia ana sakiTxavad aZlevda Ta-Tias udidesi sifaqiziTa da rudunebiT movlil-Senaxul foliantebs, Cveni upirvelesi kacis daweriliao. im drosaa Seqmnili, roca Cveni didi samSoblo, erTiani saqarTve-lo brwyinavda mTels aRmosavleT-dasavleTSi, roca mefeT mefed didi Tamari iyoo.

mefeT mefe Tamari? ubrZnesi da usaTnoesi qali. qali mefe, qali _ saxelmwifos gamgebeli!

ra faruli, Cumi siamayiT JRerda mxeiZis qalis xma, am saxels rom warmoTqvamda. mis jer kidev axalgazrdul, lamaz saxes siwiTle ekideboda, Tvalebi gaubrwyindeboda xolme. TaTiam gvian gaigo misi mouSuSebeli Wrilobis Sesaxeb.

raki sayvarel Wabuks ar gaatanes, mxeiZis amayma asulma monasters Seafara Tavi-misi amaRlebuli, keTilSobiluri suli ver Seurigda Zaladobas, usamarTlobas. aq, am patara monasterSi Tesavda iRumenia ana uCino marcvlebs, aq, bavS-vebTan xarjavda Tavis dauxarjvel siyvaruls da siTbos.

iRumenia ana!..netav, sada xar axla? Sens grZel, Tlil TiTebSi isev

ise Tu imarcvleba krialosani? isev ise Tu gizis pawia senakSi TaTiasnairi gogona da aswavli _ RvTis da `qarT-lis cxovrebis~ siyvaruls, agreTve didi wignis siyvaruls, did qals rom miuZRvna mgosanma?

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iRumenia ana!SenisTanebi rom ar iyvnen, Rirs gana am qveynad sicocxle?iRumenia ana!ukvalod ar dakargula Sens mier Cagdebuli marcvali

gogonas gulSi, magram... egebis sjobda, araferi scodnoda TaTias? maSin... maSin, albaT SesZlebda ekiskisa im qalebiviT, baRSi rom nebivroben axla. Seiguebda da Seiferebda pativs.

pativi? galiaSi gamomwyvdeul Cits amadlian, galia xom oqrosiao...

...TaTia mTeli dReebi dgas cxaurian sarkmelTan da mis laJvardovan TvalebSi irekleba is ca, iq, mis patara sofels rom gadmomxobia Tavze. cvariT daJvaruli moli... patara da-Zmebis Jriamuli... da dedis saamo xma Caesmis yurSi: nana, Svilo, Semogevlos dedaSeni...

mezoblebi eubnebodnen TaTias mamas _ sadedoflo qali gezrdebao, samson. ara, dedoflobas ar inatrebda TaTia, magram ra moelis aq, am brwyinvale didebul haramxanaSi Ta-Tias? Tundac sulTnis pirveli coli iyos, mainc sulerTia yvelaferi!

o, ratom ar daibada TaTia didi Tamaris dros? raRa am ubedur dros gaCnda? qalTa cxenosani razmis Seqmna mainc moeswro! ar aparpaSebdnen qveynis orgulebs, tyveTam-syidvelebs, aTasi juris mparavs, mZarcvels, gadamTiels ar gadaaqcevinebdnen qveyanas fundukad, sadac yovel gaiZvera gamvlels SeuZlia Tavis nebaze aTamaSos xalxi!

ara, amaRam ar daeZineba TaTias. arc amaRam da, albaT, arc xval. TaTia mieCvia uZilobas, martoobas. es keTili saWuris-Tuxucesi rom ara, albaT, aqamde verc moatanda. miriaT xanu-mis Semdeg ali moevlina keTil angelozad, SviliviT uvlis, Tavs evleba, esaTuTeba berikaci. rac mTavaria, saSualebas aZlevs iyos TavisTvis, ganmartoebiT. Sens ubedurebasTan marto yofna xandaxan didi nugeSic yofila Turme.

veneciur sarkesTan mivida. sanTlebis moliclice Suqzec xedavs, aRar aris is TaTia, Tundac am erTi wlis win rom

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iyo. gafermkrTaldnen saluqi loyebi, upeebi Caumuqda, Tva-

lebiRa SerCa saxeze _ didroni, nuSiseburi, Suqiani Tva-

lebi... es Tvalebi ekiTxebian TiTqos cas da qveynierebas:

ratom, risTvis arguna gangebam aseTi xvedri? vis ra dauSa-

va? ra dauSava Tundac im qalebs, mis danaxvaze saxeebi rom

esxipebaT! is erTi mainc, yvelaze lamazi maT Soris, o, is

sulac ar malavs Tavis siZulvils...

am ramdenime dRis win baRSi seirnobis dros gadaeyara

TaTia maT. ali aqamde yovelTvis axerxebda aecdina maTTan

Sexvedra.

TaTiam naRvliani, sibralulCamdgari Tvalebi Seavlo qa-

lebs. mere adgilze gaxevebul, dadumebul qalebSi yvelaze

moxdenil asulze SeaCera mzera. saxe gaunaTda. TanagrZno-

biTa da gamgebianad SehRima mSvenier asuls. magram myisve

Seeyina Rimili tuCebze. gogonas lamazi Tvalebi iseTi

gaavebiT icqirebodnen, rom Secba. daibna, nabiji aeria. ra-

Racas wamoedo da Zlivs Seikava Tavi, rom ar waqceuliyo.

anazdeulad qals gamometyveleba Seecvala-laquca Rimilma

gaupo tuCebi, saxeze monuri morCileba da mowiweba gamoex-

ata _ qali saWurisTuxucess efineboda fiandazad.

TaTias guli SeekumSa. uneburadve Seekra Subli. mere,

karga xnis mere hkiTxa alis:

_ ra hqvia im lamaz gogonas ali? _ tvins ki uxvretda

erTi da igive kiTxva: `ratom? ra davuSave?~

_ romels, Svilo? _ uxalisod Caiduduna saWurisma da

moiRuSa. etyoboda, ar esiamovna TaTias SekiTxva.

_ ai, imas... yvelaze lamazi roa?

_ giuli hqvia!.. magram rad ginda misi saxeli?

_ ara, ise vikiTxe. Zalian norCi da... umanko momeCvena...

_ hm, umanko... _ Cailaparaka alim. mere erTbaSad brazianad

daumata: _ saSiSi qalia es norCi arseba, erTob saSiSic!

_ vina? es patara gogo? (`Tumca... is Tvalebi, is

gamoxedva!~)

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_ hm, patara!.. am pataram sul mcire xanSi moaxerxa aq yvela qali erTmaneTisTvis gadaemterebina, male albaT xonTqris seralsac miwvdeba misi Sxamiani ena.

_ uh, rogor ar gyvarebia, berikaco, is sabralo gogona! _ am yovelmxriv dagmanul da daxSul satusaRoSi ra unda SeZlos erTma sustma, sacodavma tyve-qalma!

_ o, o, cxra galavanSemortymuli cixe-koSkidan SeuZlia siavis Cadena, Tu qalma moindoma. merwmune amaSi, Cemo mSve-niero!

pirvelad gaecina TaTias ase gulianad._ ese igi... cxra uReli xar-kameCi ver daakavebs Tu gai-

wiao, ara?_ WeSmaritad! asea eg!_ maS, mec SemZlebia... (`miznis miRweva?~) _ gaCumda. ena

moikvnita._ Sen... Sen sxva xar!.. Sexede TaTia... broweulebi yvavian._ broweulebi? aba, sad, sad? _aqeTken, baRis am kuTxeSi adre arasodes yofila TaTia.

Tvalebi gaubrwyinda, xesTan miirbina:_ broweulebi... _ waiCurCula da varskvlavyvavile-

biT abrialebul tots miwvda, xeli nazad gadausva: _ Cemi soflis orRobeebSi sul broweulebi izrdebian, _ Tvale-bze cremli moadga: _ axla iqac yvavian, albaT! _ CurCuliT Tqva da orive xelisguli saxeze aifara. gayuCda.

_ jemal-begsac uyvars broweulebi. es misi sayvareli adgilia. laSqrobidan rom mobrundeba, ueWvelad aq mova xolme. aq uyvars jdoma.

TaTiam xelebi CamoiRo saxidan.mere gamomcdelad, dakvirvebiTYSexeda saWuriss: _ ali

Zia, ratom ar siamovnebs jemal-begs Tavisi gurjoba?_ wamo, gavbrundeT, vardnari davaTvalieroT._ ar minda, aq mirCevnia, broweulebis yureba mirCevnia.

Tu SeiZleba miTxari, ratom ar siamovnebs-meTqi imis gag-

oneba jemal-begs, rom warmoSobiT... qarTvelia? ratom? a?

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saWurisi gaurboda TaTias Tvalebs, broweulis xes

garSemo uvlida. saTuTad usvamda xels totebs, cincxal

yvavilebs TiTqos guls usinjavso, daJinebiT Cascqeroda.

mere TaTiasTan mivida isev da qalwuli gaaoca anazdad

berikacis basrma, maxvilma gamoxedvam:

_ jemal-begi patara iyo, deda rom gardaecvala, TaTia.

cxonebuli qalbatoni marTa Rrmad morwmune qristiani da

saTno, gulkeTili qali gaxldaT. mwared ganicdida Ta-

visianebTan daSorebas. magram... verafers ubedavda qmars.

nestori gorozi, TviTrjuli kaci iyo. rasac erTxel

amoiCemebda, aRar gadaTqvamda. albaT, Senc kargad mogex-

seneba TaTia, rogori mniSvneloba aqvs dedas Svilebis aR-

zrdaSi. deda osmalo an sxva tomis Tu hyavs qarTvels _

igi Tavis qveynisaTvis, Tavisi xalxisaTvis dakargulia.

_ gadagvarebuli, gadarjulebuli qarTveli ki mterze

uaresiao, ali Zia, ara? _ CaurTo anazdad TaTiam, romelic

aqamde Seurxevlad mdgari, sulganabuli usmenda berikacs.

saWurisma TiTqos ar gaugoniao misi SeniSvna, ganagrZo Ta-

visi yru, TiTqos dabeJili xmiT: _ hoda, ar dacalda im

sulganaTlebuls Tavisi biWis aRzrda. jemal-begi rom

wamoiCita, mamamisma Tavis kvalSi Caayena. am droisaTvis

nestorma, ukve mustafa-begma _ moaswro seralSi gavlenis

mopoveba. jemal-begi mamis gzas gahyva da...

_ ai, Sen, Senc xom didi xania, aq cxovrob, ali Zia! Sen ra-

tom ar daiviwye Seni ena, Sen ratom gaxsovs Seni sadauroba?

saWurisma Calmaze moivlo xeli, mere Tvalebze aifara.

_ me? me erTi ubiri, upatrono da beddamwvari kaci var,

TaTia-Svilo! _ TiTqos TavisTvis Cailaparaka berikacma da

iqve, jorkoze daeSva. _ kaci ki ara, arakaci gamxades am...

urjuloebma. arakacisTvis ki sul erTia, vin iqneba: osmalo

Tu qarTveli, qristiani Tu mahmadiani. is ki... didi sardalia,

Svilo, didi kaci... _ ise ganagrZo saWurisma, TiTqos ver

gaigona qalwulis sityva, ver dainaxa misi Tvalebi; _ qvey-

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nis mTavarsardali da sulTnis uaxloesi kacia jemal-begi. amitom bevri moSurne hyavs, bevri mteri da avismzraxveli! faruli, uCinari da miT ufro saSiSi, saxifaTo. isini xom mxolod xelsayrel Jams elodebian miyuCebul-mimalulni, raTa kvanti daudon, waaqcion. o, mere ZaRlebis xrovasaviT zed Sedgebian, daglejen, dafleTen.

_ mere... nuTu eg jemal-begma ar icis?_ rom icis, imitom frTxilobs albaT. vin icis, ras

fiqrobs, ra ganzraxva aqvs, ra survilebi! igi didi kacia, Svilo, didi vaJkaci. es saxeli, pativi da warCineba Tavisi niWiT, WkuiT da guladobiT moixveWa. amxela qveynis pirve-li sardali gaxda axalgazrda kaci...

_ imis xarjze, rom hgmo Tavisi RmerTi, Tavisi xalxi... aRaraferi SerCa Tavisi mamapapeuli. amas sjobia ubir kacad darCe da Sens qveyanas, Sens xalxs ar uRalato!

saWurisma Tvali miaStera saxeanTebul qals, romelsac broweulis totisTvis ise magrad moeWira TiTebi, rom er-Tianad gaTeTreboda.

alim Tavi gaiqnia. ucnaurad, gverdulad CaiRima _ adamia-nis guli xSirad amoucnobia, Svilo, vin ra icis, ra imaleba mis uamrav kunWulSi... _ wamiT iyuCa, mere ise ganagrZo, TiTqos fiqrSiao: _ ai, Sen ambob, aRaraferi SerCa mama-papeulio, es broweulebi jemal-begma daargvevina. dedamiss uyvarda broweulis xe. Seni Tqmis ar iyos, cxonebuli qa-lbatoni ambobda, Cems sofels magonebs isinio. jemal-begs uyvars aq mosvla da fiqri. mec, gaubedurebuli da daRu-puli kaci, Semivrdoma. im sulkurTxeulma sikvdiliswin sTxova Tavis qmar-Svils, moexedaT CemTvis, epatronaT. je-mal-begma Seasrula momakvdavi dedis Txovna, Tumca maSin bavSvi iyo da bevri araferi esmoda. mere mamac moukvda da mis Semdeg ufro damiaxlova da erTi wamiTac ar miSorebs. da mec vcdilob gamovadge, riTac SemeZleba, xeli Sevuwyo... guli ki... adamianis gulSi Caxedva advili saqme ar aris, Svilo: vin icis, ra imaleba Sig!

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...TaTiam pirjvari gadaisaxa. RmerTo, Seunde yvelas Seco-debani misni. RmerTo, yovlad wmindao mariam, Seunde TaTia-sac, Tuki raime umarTebulo gaifiqra vinmeze!

RmerTo! RvTismSobelo mariam... Cu, vin aris?SemkrTalma TaTiam karisken moixeda. saomrad aRWurvil-

aRkazmuli jemal-begi misken modioda. mis ukan saWurisis Calmas hkida Tvali.

jemal-begi TaTiasgan Soriaxlos Sedga:_ moemzade, TaTia!_ ?!_ mivdivarT! _ jemal begi Tvals ar acilebda qalwulis

gaocebul-dabneul saxes._ sad... sad mivdivarT? _ TaTiam umweod daafaxula wam-

wamebi, mere Sexeda jer jemal-begis kuSt, mkacr saxes, mere saWurisze gadaitana damfrTxali mzera.

_ axla gaocebis dro ar aris, Svilo, arc kiTxvebis. rasac jemal-begi geubneba, gaakeTe. oRond iCqare. yoveli wuTi Zvirfasia.

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...uxmaurod, Cumad, SeaRo kaiutis kari. mere karTanve aituza: _ Sen mixme, TaTia?

Tbilma, Tbilma talRam gadauara TaTias gulze, ase bavSviviT morCili rom idga vaJkaci mis winaSe. karWapi Zlier irweoda da qali kedel-kedel, xeliscecviT mivida vaJTan, win daudga. mere wonasworoba rom SeenarCunebina, orive xeli CasWida mklavSi, dablidan maRla axeda. san-Tlebis mkrTal Suqze ucnaurad brwyinavdnen qalwulis Tvalebi, es Tvalebi aSuqebdnen TiTqos irgvliveTs.

_ `RmerTo, ra mSvenieria!~ _ guli mtkivneuli siamiT moewura jemal-begs, mzera ver gauswora da igrZno, xelebi rom ukankalebda.

_ marTalia, rom xval saRamos, saqarTveloSi viqnebiTo,

jemal?

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`jemal!~ pirvelad mimarTa ase TaTiam vaJkacs.

_ Tu RmerTma mogvxeda da mSvidobiT vimgzavreT...

`veRar moiTmina mainc alim!~

_ o, RmerTo! yovlad wmindao mariam, nuTu... nuTu es

SesaZlebelia? nuTu es cxadia da me sizmarSi ara var?

_ TaTias xma Cauwyda da uceb cremli daekida wamwamebze.

jemal-begi gaxevda. sul axlos iyo qalwulis afeTqebuli

saxe, acimcimebuli Tvalebi; mis sunTqvas, misi Tmis surnels

SeigrZnobda aSkarad, cxadad.

_ maS, sul male vnaxav Cems sabralo dedas, mamaCems! o,

jemal... _ TaTia anazdad daixara, rom muxlebSi Cavardnoda.

_ TaTia! _ ar daaneba jemal-begma: _ ras Svrebi, TaTia?

TaTia axla TavSeukaveblad, gulamomjdari tiroda, tiro-

da da vaJis farTo mkerdSi malavda saxes. SeZruli, afori-

aqebuli jemal-begi cdilobda daemSvidebina qali, gaubeda-

vad, frTxilad efereboda Tmaze, loyebze... guli ki lamis

amovardnoda saguledan, bagabugi gaudioda...

_ TaTia... Wirime Seni... gaCumdi, nuRar tiri... Semibrale,

TaTia...

TaTiam swrafad aswia Tavi, cremliT danisluli Tvale-

biT axeda vaJs: mas saocari tanjvis ieri aRbeWdvoda saxeze,

anTebul TvalebSi ki TiTqos elva iklakneboda.

cremli SeaSra TaTias. ukan daixia uneburad, magram je-

mal-begma erTbaSad orive xeli moxvia, Tavisken moizida isev,

saxe mis TmebSi Cargo.

_ ici... ici, TaTia, me Zalian bednieri var axla da... me-

Sinia... _ mere Tavi dauWira orive xeliT, TvalebSi Caxeda

Rrmad...

_ iq, rom CavalT... samSobloSi, jvars daviwerT da Sen

Cemi iqnebi, TaTia, Cemi... xom geyvarebi?

TaTia usityvod Caekra gulSi.

jemal-begma ucebve moiSora qali. Tavbrudaxveulma kari

Zlivs gamoaRo da gareT gamovarda. barbaciT gaiara kiComde,

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mere Camojda da Tavi boZs miayrdno. grilma niavma gamoafx-izla nel-nela. gaxurebuli Subli gaugrila.

aRmosavleTs gaxeda. mtredisferi Sehparvoda cas: `male inaTebs!~ _ gaifiqra da muxlebze Semoixvia mklavebi. niC-bebis tlaSunis xma da mezRvauri lazebis xmadabali la-paraki arRvevda siCumes. alic, albaT, mezRvaurebTan zis axla da guls ioxebs maTTan laybobiT. adre gamovidnen por tidan, sanam sasaxleSi gaigeben, rac moxda, naxevarze meti gza eqnebaT gamovlili. o, ra ambavi datrialdeba dRes seralSi. sulTnis gacofebuli saxe daudga Tvalwin, vazirebis gesliani Rimili... esec Tqveni erTguli sardali, niSns mougeben gunebaSi sulTans. aki vambobdiT, arc erTi gurji bolomde sando ar ariso. xmamaRla Tu ar vambobdiT, gulisgulSi xom vicodiTo...

iskander faSa!.. vazirTupirvelessac auxdeba `winaT-grZnoba~, rogor Tqva TaTiam? wveT-wveTad rom gaiRo sisx-li, maTTvis Sen mainc gadamTieli darCebio. gana ara?

iskander-faSas meliasaviT wvril, moWutul TvalebSi Jamidan Jamamde ielvebda xolme cbieri nakvesebi. didebuli jemal-begi mainc araTvistomad, ucxoelad rCeboda osmalo warCinebulTa TvalSi, albaT, sulTnis TvalSic, Tumca, Ta-vis sayvarel asuls aZlevda colad... egebis egec saboloo gadmobirebis mcdeloba gaxldaT? vin icis!..

leili xanumi! hm... ra moulodneli usiamovneba da imedga-crueba moelis sulTnis qedmaRal asuls!

jemal-begma icis, iqac saqarTveloSic miwvdeba mas sulTnis risxva. amitom droebiT, albaT, mouwevT damalva. amaze ali iz-runebs. alim icis iqauri gza-bilikebi, mTa Tu xevi. alic bed-nieria, mag sacodavsac siberis Jams eRirsa samSoblos xilva.

varskvlavebiT moWiqul cargvals axeda.RmerTo! am lamazi, ukidegano cisqveSeTSi ratom ar

ecxovreba adamians mSvidad? uomrad? usisxlisRvrod?saidanaa aseTi ulmobeloba da sisastike adamis naSierSi?

saidanaa survili, erTma sZlios meores, Zlierma _ susts?

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erTma daCagros, daimonis meore? Tavisi RmerTi awamos sxvas

_ nebsiT Tu ara _ ZaliT?

codvis rkalSi varT moqceulni suyvelani. dasabamieri

codva mogvdevs, albaT, miTaJamidan da imitom. SesaZloa ki

am rkalis garRveva? aris ki saSveli saidanme? uwyis vinmem,

bedisweris ganCineba?

...wamodga fiqraSlili, aforiaqebuli. katarRis meore

mxrisken daapira wasvla, iqiTken, sadac ali eguleboda. kai-

utidan gamomkrTal Suqs mouxeda uneburad.

TaTia!

sulSi SemoWrili naTlis Cqerali... ocneba da natvra

auxdenelze, miuwvdomelze! imedis sxivi momavlis... iq, gu-

lis siRrmeSi bavSvobidan CarCenili samSoblos xateba...

fiqri gauwyda erTbaSad. zurgs ukan SeSfoTebuli xma

Semoesma:

_ Cemo mbrZanebelo!..

_ ali? ra iyo, ali?

_ jemal-beg... ubedureba...

jemal-begi gadafiTrda anazdeulad.

_ ra... ra moxda, ali?

_ viRac wyeulma gagvca... daviRupeT!

_ ra ici?!

_ gaixede... xomaldi!..

jemal-begi katarRis moajirs eca. Sors dilis bind-

bundSi gemis silueti gamoikveTa. misma maxvilma mzeram

zarbaznebis lulebic ki gaarCia. kbilebi gaaRrWiala. merme

muStiT moisrisa Subli:

_ napiri?.. Sorsaa napiri?

_ ver gavaswrebT...

_ ax! _ kvlav gaaRrWiala kbilebi jemal-begma. da erT-

baSad gaqvavda.

vis, vis SeeZlo gaeca isini? aravin icoda Ze xorcielma

es ambavi. aravisTvis gaundvia saidumlo. vin Camoxeda gulSi?

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wamiT katarRis navkosalarze1 miitana eWvi. ara, SeuZle-

belia. man ar uwyoda-vis miaqirava katarRa, esec ar iyos,

verc moaswrebda dabezRebas. SuaRameze gavidnen portidan.

mere, alis ver gamoaparebda veragobas! maS, vin, vin?

_ ra vqnaT, ali?

ali TavCaqindruli idga usicocxlo, moRvenTili.

_ sulTnis wyalobis imedi unda viqonioT, _ Caiduduna

saWurisma da tuCebi moeRrica.

jemal-begi galiaSi momwyvdeuli vefxviviT aborgda.

_ egeba gavaRwioT? elaparake biWebs?

_ erTaderTi mcire imediRa dagvrCenia...

_ ra? ra imedi?

_ iqneb, ar iyos mdevari, magram Tu gacemuli varT...

_ vin, vin SeiZleba iyos? oxme...

uceb TavSi elvasaviT gahkra raRacam alis.

_ jemal-beg! qalis xeli urevia am saqmeSi.

_ qali?! aravisTvis miTqvams, aravisTvis gamindvia.

_ o, RmerTo! Seyvarebuli qali gumaniT xvdeba bevr rames.

miT ufro, uaryofilma qalma Zu mgeliviT icis gaafTreba.

`wminda giorgi! Sen dalaxvre ubado eSmaki, o, RvTismSo-

belo!..~

_ ali? nuTu?.. giuli?

_ o, wyeulimc iyos misi saxeli.

Tavze xeli itaca jemal-begma. xma Cauwyda. idga ase

erTxans gaqvavebuliviT. goneba ki _ gamalebiT ganagrZobda

gamosavlis Zebnas. gamosavali ar Canda. Tumc... erTimeoreze

ufro fantastikuri mosazrebani elvisuswrafesad enacv-

lebodnen urTierTs. bolos Seirxa. misgan moSorebiT aseve

adgilze gaxevebul, enaCavardnil da sasowarkveTil saWuriss

miubrunda da mRelvarebisgan odnav CaxleCili xmiT uTxra

_ ali! Sen... TaTiasTan dabrundi! ecade... araferi Seityos

manam, sanam... _ SeCerda.

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`egeb... qali daindon mag ZaRlTapirebma~.

_ TaTias Sen gabareb, icode!

`vin icis, egeb moxdes saswauli da...~ _ azri gauwyda,

muStiT kvlav moisrisa Subli da isev gaiyina adgilze:

_ Sen... Sen ras apireb, Svilo jemal? _ pirvelad mimarTa

Tavis patrons saWurisma SviloTi, magram es TiTqos asec

unda yofiliyo, arc SeumCnevia, rogor moxda aseTi cvli-

leba iseve, rogorc jemalsac, romlis bagesac aseve pirve-

lad mowyda..._ Zia ali!.. momismine, axla dro ar aris dava-kamaTis...

mdevars davalebuli eqneba Cemi cocxlad Sepyroba. amitom isini ecdebian navs araferi dauSavdes. me kidev-cocxali TaviT ar Cavbardebi am ZaRlis gagdebulebs. xom gasagebia SenTvis es Zia ali?.. hoda...

_ jemal Svilo, zogjer xonTqaric SeiZleba gulmowyale iyos...

_ mimifurTxebia misi gulmowyalebisTvis da saerTod... yvela amaTTvis! _ mcire pauzis Semdeg: _ me axla menaveebs davelaparakebi, Sen ki... Cadi TaTiasTan... Sen ici Zia ali, TaTias mimixede!.. `iqneb moaxerxo rame... da uSvelo iqneb!~ mere uceb daixara da berikacis mxars bagiT Seexo wamiT. mere welSi gasworda da TvalebgaSterebiT miaCerda muWis-tolad qceul saWuriss, ufro sworad, mis miRma Camowolil bindian sivrces, nel-nela alionis sinaTliT rom ivseboda. mere mkveTri moZraobiT gaiswora qamarSi gaCrili dambaCebi da swrafad gatrialda.

menaveebic SeCoCqolebuliyvnen, ver gaerkviaT, ra xdeboda, ratom SeCerdnen, an is moaxloebuli samxedro xomaldi ras uqadda maT!

jemal-begs danaxvisTanave gars Semoertynen da is iyo kiTxvebi unda daeyaraT, magram jemal-begma daaswro suyve-las da odnav aCqarebuli xmiT, mokled auxsna saqmis viTa-reba, Semdeg mtkice, mbrZanebluri kiloTi daumata, rom yve-las ZelurTan moeyara Tavi da, rac unda momxdariyo, iqidan

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fexi ar moecvalaT! mxolod me vageb pasuxs yvelaferze da yovelnair Carevas sastikad gikrZalavTo, iseTi ieriT da xmiT iyo es yovelive naTqvami, rom veravin gabeda Sepasuxe-boda. mxolod menaveTwinamZRolma mainc ver Seikava Tavi da: _ batono!.. balaxi arc Cven gviZovia, guldedlebi arc Cven varT. saWiro SemTxvevaSi... Cvenc SegviZlia xeli gamoviRoT!

_ Tumc pataraa, magram zarbazani Cvenc gvaqvs! _ SeeSvela Tavis zorba tanis TmaSeWaRaravebuli winamZRols erTi mezRvaurTagani.

_ didi madloba. Tqvens simamaceSi eWvi ar mepareba, Zmebo, magram uazro sisxlisRvra araa saWiro.

yvelam xma gakminda. keTilgoniereba da saRi azri Ta-

vadac amas udasturebda da karnaxobda TiToeul maTgans.

riJ-raJis siCume mkveTrad daarRvia samxedro xomaldis

sayviris xmam, rasac yvirili mohyva: _ gza moWrili gaqvT!

sulTnis saxeliT gibrZanebT, dagvnebdeT!

jemal-begma xeliT aniSna menaveebs, xma ar gaeRoT.

anZasTan daZabul molodinSi garindebuls, Tvalwin el-

vis uswrafesad gaurbina mTelma misma ganvlilma cxovrebam

_ bavSvobidan Wabukobamde da... am gadamwyvet, sabediswero

Jamamde.

is Tavbrudamxvevi warmateba, is saxeli, pativi, dideba

rasac miaRwia jerac axalgazrda kacma _ yvelaferi srul

araraobad warmoudga. azrSeryeuls, gaognebuls yovelive

amaoebad moeCvena. TiTqos arc araferi yofila, sizmareuli

molandebis garda.

gamZafrebuli Sinagani mzera ki kvlav wyvetebSi iyo, kv-

lav ganagrZobda warsulis suraTebis wamier Cxrekas... da

misdauneburad, im wamebze Cerdeboda, roca... mudam Talx

kabaSi Cacmuli, mwyazari saxis, sevdiani deda _ gorozi,

yvelaze da yvelaferze gaavebul-gaborotebuli meuRlis

uCumrad _ pirjvars gadasaxavda xolme Zilis win da...

yovladwminda RvTismSobels CurCuliT, sasoebiT avedrebda

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Tavis erTaderT Zes... roca... ar iZinebda, manam... sanam deda

ar mouyveboda Zvel, sagmiro ambebs da jadosnur zRaprebs

devgmirebsa da mzeTunaxavebze...

an... ar umRerebda Tavisi tkbili, saamo xmiT Zilispiruls.

dedis naRvlian, didron Tvalebs uceb waefara muxlmoy-

rili, mlocveli qalwulis RvTaebrivi saxe da... is mzera,

daumorCilebel, Seupovar da utex suls rom ireklavda...

`TaTia!~

da erTbaSad, moulodnelad xsovnis skivridan amofrinda

pawia Citi, `nu gaTaTrdebio~, rom ixveweboda JamiT-Jamamdis.

nu gaTaTrdebi!anazdeulad mkafiod, cxadad SeigrZno, rom daWimul-daZa-

gruli ZarRvebSi Zalumad, gametebiT auCqefda winaparTa cxeli sisxli, sisxli didi babuis rostom diasamiZisa. da mTeli misi arseba myisve moicva daumcxralma, uSretma energiam didi babuisa, aT momxvdurs rom akafavda Turme -Tvalis wamSi Tavisi uZleveli xmliT, visi saxeli SiSis zars scemda mters da moZules.

...lodinma didxans ar mouwia. kvlav gaisma mowodeba danebebis Sesaxeb. Semdeg abordaJiT ayvanil katarRaSi mez-Rvaurebis pirveli razmi gadmovida yiJiniT da iaraRis JRaruniT.

am wams elodeboda jemal-begi. _ me var, visac eZebT, Tqve ZaRlisSvilebo! _ man qamridan swrafad iZro orive dambaCa da erTdrouli zusti gasroliT ori moieriSe gaagora. mere xmali iSiSvla da... vefxiseburi naxtomiT pirdapir ekveTa moulodnelobisgan dabneul da damfrTxal mewinaveebs da Cexva dauwyo. es iyo zardamcemi, warmoud-geneli sanaxaoba. devkaci TiTqos qondriskacebs dareoda da elvisuswrafesad musrs avlebda maT.

xomaldidan am suraTis Semyure cofmoreuli navkosala-ri axla Tavad wamouZRva samarqafo razms.

jemal-begma is iyo alya gaarRvia da navkosalars unda scemoda... magram... uceb gaisma dambaCis srolis xma da...

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jemal-begma nel-nela, jer muxlebiT CaiCoqa da sanam Zirs daenarcxeboda, sanam Tvalebs samudamod daxuWavda, mis-ma ukve dabindulma mzeram wamierad aRiqva iaraRmomarjve-buli TaTia rogor wamoego daSnis wverze...

...Tavzardacemuli navkosalari erT adgilas gaSeSebuli-yo da uzomod gafarToebul Tvalebs garSemo atrialebda...

`jemal-beg!~ai, Turme visi gulisTvis daecnen SuaRemeze. sawolidan

wamoagdes da ubrZanes, saswrafod dasdevneboda gaqceul did saxelmwifo damnaSaveebs da cocxali an mkvdari moegvaraT isini sulTnisTvis.

jemal-beg! vis mamacobasa da vaJkacobaze amdeni smenia ismail-aRas. navkosalaris mzera sardlis marjvena xelze SeCerda uneburad. saxelovani sardlis marjvena, romelsac araerTxel usaxelebia osmalTa imperia, axla moWrili to-tiviT egdo Zirs, iatakze. Wrilobidan ki jer kidev moJona-vda Tbili sisxli, misgan moSorebiT Cakeciliyo da sisxlis gubeSi curavda saarako silamazis qali.

`o, dido sardalo, uSiSaro jemal-beg!.. me qeds vixri Seni da Seni mzeTunaxavis winaSe!

o, alah, ra uRvTod, ra uwyalod gauwiravs gangebas es ori rCeuli arseba!~

wamis win gaafTrebuli navkosalari saocar sanaxao-bas daetyvevebina, gadarCenili mezRvaurebic xmagakmendilni, Seurxevlad idgnen TavianTi meTauris garSemo.

...saWurisma Tavi aswia, Sejgufebul xalxs axeda. mrav-lismnaxvelma da mamacma navkosalarma veRar gauZlo am mzeras da Tvalebi daxara. uneburad gaaJrJola. siCume ki grZeldeboda. mZime, sulis SemxuTveli siCume.

bolos pirveli ismail-aRa gamoerkva. mis vaJkacur, mze-mokidebul da naiarev saxeze uryevi gadawyvetileba aRibe-Wda. man xelis mbrZanebluri moZraobiT aniSna TanmxlebT _ gaclodnen aqaurobas.

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_ berikaco! _ mimarTa Semdeg saWuriss wynari xmiT, _ Se-giZlia, ganagrZo gza. miabare eseni im miwas, romlis naxvasac ase eSurebodnen... _ wamiT iyuCa, _ egeb sikvdilis Semdeg mainc eRirson am bednierebas... _ xma SeuTrTolda. gaCumda. merme raRac uxilavma Zalam win ubiZga. areuli nabijebiT mieaxla cxedars, daixara, gverdze gadavardnili saltiani marjvena natyviar gulze daudo, iq, sadac marcxena esvena. merme welSi gaimarTa da moxucs gamWoli, basri mzera es-rola: _ danarCeni me vici!..

`o, alah, movides, rac mosasvlelia!~saWurisi usityvod Sescqeroda menaveTwinamZRols.

saWurisis daleul saxeze axla mxolod Tvalebi Candnen, ucnaurad gaganierebuli, moyviTalo Tvalebi. man mSvenivrad uwyoda, ras niSnavda is msxverpli, raic gaiRo axla Turqma navkosalarma. da mis Canavlebul, Caferflil gulSi anaz-deulad Seirxa is ZarRvi, romlis arsebobac didi xania daviwynoda...

* * *

...mze Subistarze iyo ukve, Tvalsawierze miwis mocis-

fro-momwvano blondi rom gamoCnda.

aforiaqebul-awrialebulma menaveebma, jer kidev sruli-

ad gons rom ver mosuliyvnen yovelive imisgan, rac Tavs

gadaxdaT _ TiTqos SvebiT amoisunTqes da ufro mZlavrad

daawvnen niCbebs. katarRa mTeli siswrafiT mieSureboda xs-

nis da gadarCenis am TiTqosda erTaderTi zolisaken.

moajirTan, ganmartoebiT mdgar TavSiSvela, Rrma fiqrebSi

CaZirul alis navis winamZRoli da misi TanaSemwe miuax-

lovdnen da moSorebiT SeCerdnen.

_ ali batono!.. foTs vuaxlovdebiT... _ moridebuli ki-

loTi uTxra winamZRolma.

alis, TiTqos araferi gaugoniao, ar ganZreula. _ ambo-

ben... _ wamoiwyo isev winamZRolma: _ amboben, foTSi rusis

jaria Sesulio...

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ali kvlav dumda.

_ amboben... nametani Tavi aqvT aSvebuli kazakebso. yvela

ucxour gemebze nadiroben Turme... Zarcvaven... xalxs xo-

caven... gansakuTrebiT ki Cven ar gvwyaloben, rasakvirvelia!..

`baTumSi _ Turqebia. foTSi _ ukve rusebic! vai, Cveni

codva!~ _ gauelva TavSi alis da saxe daeRrija, magram

kvlav ar gatokebula.

_ es beberi veraa mTlad Wkuaze _ xmadabla, lazurad

gadaulaparaka winamZRolma TanaSemwes: _ mwuxarebam, etyoba,

sul gamoaStera es sawyali.

_ ra gikvirs, Zia beqir? rac Cven Tavs gadagvxda am mokle

xanSi!.. srul Wkuaze rogor unda iyos es sacodavi!.. win

kidev, vin icis, ra gvelodeba... _ Cumadve Seepasuxa sxarti

aRnagobis, warmosadegi axalgazrda.

_ marTali xar, Svilo. SesaZloa, kvlav faTeraks gadav-

eyaroT...

_ nanaia, Tqven... lazuri iciT, ali batono?

_ megreli var me, biWebo! _ `akia-yofili~ _ daumata

gonebaSi alim da tuCebi daugrixa mware Rimilma. ase-

Tive RimiliT gaeRima maSinac, Calma rom moisrola zRvaSi

da motvlepili TaviT mcxunvare mzis qveS mdgari, Tvals

ayolebda talRebze moqanave ucxo Tavsarqmels, romelsac

talRebi aTamaSebdnen neba-neba. mxolod, roca navma moitova

igi ukan, alis moeCvena, mTeli misi bedukuRmarTi warsuli

TiTqos am Calmam Tan waritana.

_ ar vicodi me eg, ali batono!.. ar megona... _ ena daeba

winamZRols da gaCerda.

_ eh, samwuxarod, Cven bevri ram ar viciT, Cemo beqir.

wamis win darcxvenili ieriT mdgari beqiri uceb Sei-

marTa, welSi gasworda da mzera gauswora moxucs:

_ ar viciT... Tu... daviviwyeT, ali batono?

alim swrafad Seavlo Tvali axovan, brge vaJkacs, TmaSi

WaRara rom gareoda, saxe ki _ mzes da zRvas erTianad

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gaeruja. mxolod cisferi, didroni TvalebisTvis veraferi

daeklo verc asaks da verc avdars _ isini Tanabrad

ireklavdnen zecis da zRvis laJvardovan ferebs.

_ marTali xar, Cemo beqir. dastur, daviviwyeT!.. an egeb...

dagvaviwyes?

_ mec ase vazrob, ali batono!.. dagvaviwyes uTuod.

_ Zala aRmarTsa xnavso! _ uceb sityva CamoarTva winamZ-

Rols misma TanaSemwem, axalgazrda mezRvaurma.

_ es SavSeli ymawvili Cveni Zma da Svilobilia, Cveni be-

dis Tanaziari, ali batono! _ gaiRima navis winamZRolma da

xeli gadaxvia saxemoquruSebul axalgazrdas: _ ras vizamT, Cemo gio, droni mefobeno, naTqvamia...

_ ise... kazakebi ras miqvian?.. Tu mekobrobaze midga

saqme... Cveni mogonilia magi, lazebis... Cven rom zRvebze

davjiriTobdiT, sad iyvnen egeni maSin? _ gaicina beqirma da

saocrad TeTri, qaTqaTa kbilebi gamoaCina: _ ise gaWirvebi-

saa magi saqme... da Tavis gamoCenisac... _ agreTve!

_ kazaki an vinme sxva majobebs me rameSi?.. ar daijeros

magi aravin.

_ daica... gio... ra xdeba maq?.. durbindi momawode... Cqara!

avavai. ra ambavia, uyureT, uyureT! alyaSi mouqceviaT kaza-

kebs veneciuri xomaldi. euh, ramdeni arian, es ZaRliSvilebi!

alic ukve uWogritodac xedavda yvelafers: `dalaxvros

eSmakma... axla iq Cveni gamoCena... ar SeiZleba!.. CagvZiraven...

gvesvrian yumbaras ...aucileblad gvesvrian! es biWebi ar

unda daiRupon. biWebi unda gadarCnen... usaTuod!~

_ beqir! navi moabruneT, navi moabruneT saCqarod! _ gasca

gankarguleba alim da uceb igrZno rogor auyalyda TiTqos

CaSretili, xnieri sisxli. mere, wamierad mzera moavlo

jemal-begis da naTias cxedrebs _ `moTminebiT~ rom elo-

debodnen mSobliur miwas _ gulze dasayrelad!..

`...nuTu araferSi bedi ar hqoniaT am sacodavebs? arafer-

Si? vai, Cveni brali!~

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_ saiTken... saiTken gavwioT, ali batono?

alim xelis moZraobiT aniSna, zRvis Suaguliskeno. mere

wamiT axeda niavze mofriale osmalur droSas da: _ Camox-

seniT, axlave CamoxseniT droSa! _ ubrZana.

katarRa TandaTan Sordeboda napirs, romelzedac gadmos-

vla, RmerTma uwyis, rodis mouwevdaT menaveebs an... mouwev-

daT ki, saerTod?..

vin icis!..

aTidan - aTi

zis Seurxevlad moyanyalebul merxze da uazro gamome-tyvelebiT dasCerebia kalTaSi Cayril Tavis uRono xelebs.

danisluli goneba uZluria aRiqvas realoba. dro TiTqos gaiyina. SeCerda JamTa svla. arseboba Sewyvita yovelma su-lierma. irgvliv ukuni bneli Camowolila.

mere nel-nela, TandaTanobiT, gaTiSuli goni iwyebs gamos-vlas burusidan. da maSinve sulis mRvrie fskeridan amo-tivtivebas lamobs warsulis suraTebi _ daCexil-daquc-macebuli kino-kadrebiviT rom ireva erTimeoreSi.

magram anazdeulad cnobiereba isev ise iZireba Rrma, Sav ufskrulSi da kvlav wyvdiadi isadgurebs garSemo.

mere... Tavidan meordeba yvelaferi.mtkivneuli cnobiswadiliT, daJinebiT, jiutad Zabavs mex-

sierebas da aiZulebs, gonebis dafaze aRadginos is, rac ukve moxda da rac gardasulis kuTvnilebaa amieridan. magram... fiqri isev ganze gaurbis. vera da veRar axerxebs erTmaneT-Tan daakavSiros da gaaerTmlianos danawevrebuli suraTebi, Tanmimdevrulad daalagos calkeuli epizodebi, fragmente-bi Tu STabeWdilebaTa da gancdaTa mkrTali idiogramebi, TvalSeuvlebi siswrafiT rom enacvlebian erTmaneTs. siz-ifes Sromaa: miva Tu ara im adgilamde...

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`vaime, mokles!~warmosaxviTi kino-firi myisve wydeba da gonebasac erT-

baSad efareba Savi farda.gasavaTebuli Tavs ayrdnobs WuWyian, alag-alag baTqaSay-

ril kedels da... qvavdeba....irgvliv ki, viT munj kinoSi, garbi-gamorbian landebi

Tu... maTi anareklebi. isini pirs aReben da xelebsac wam-dauwum iqneven, imanWebian, igrixebian da mainc... gaugebaria, ra undaT, ras ezraxebian urTierTs es gonji marionetebi.

`RmerTo Cemo, ra takimasxaraobaa!~

is uCinari, uxilavi reJisori ki aRar isvenebs. xelaxla,

ukve meramdened, akowiwebs mravalgzis gawyvetil kadrebs.

mere erTi meoris miyolebiT alagebs, amwkrivebs maT da

imarTeba am `damontaJebuli suraTis~ retrospeqtuli

Cveneba, anu Cveneba imisa, rac ukve iyo, rac erTxel ukve

gaTamaSda bedisweris farul scenarSi.

`vaime mokles!~

magram aq, am alagas isev da isev wydeba ris vaivaglaxiT

aRdgenili kino-firi, irRveva azrTa dinebac, adidebul mdi-

naresaviT rom eZebs sadinars, raTa gaarRvios jebiri, gaiSa-

los, gaifantos da bolos... sulac gauCinardes cnobierebis

labirinTebSi.

...fanjris rafas orive mklaviT daeyrdno dabursale-

buli. naTurebi sustad anaTeben xeTa totebiT daCrdilul

quCas. Ria iisfer caze aqa-iq, kanti-kuntad bJutaven fermi-

leuli varskvlavebi. haerSi akaciis mZafri surneli dgas.

eh! ise wavida gazafxuli, ise uceb, Tvalsa da xels Sua ise

gaipara, rom verc ki moaswro misiT damtkbariyo.

Cumi da wynari saRamoa. daujerebelic kia, aqedan, sul

oriode nabijze, qalaqis mTavari gamziri rom iwyeba.

Tvalwin daudga gabrdRvrialebuli, xmauriani, xalxmrava-

li prospeqti da erTbaSad mZlavrad, dauokebeli surviliT

gulma gareT gauwia. daqanculobac TiTqos erTi xelis

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mosmiT gauqra. Sinaganad SeimarTa. jandabamdisac wasula

axla yvelanairi gramatika _ gulis gamawvrilebeli da

Tavsatexi zmnebis uRlebiTurT. eyofa, batono, dRes, rac

imecadina...

karTan misulic ar iyo, nacnobi melodia rom Caesma.

motrialda. yuri miugdo. mere radio-reproduqtorTan

miirbina, xmas auwia. listis meore ungruli rafsodiis

hangma myisve aavso mTeli oTaxi.

wamiT kiserze xelebi gadainaskva kmayofili RimiliT da

gairinda. mere Seirxa. nela aayola fexi ritms. cekva-cek-

viT magidasTan mivida, frTxilad, TiTis wverebiT gamoswia

skami da axla mis garSemo iwyo bzrial-triali.

saxeze xan minazebul-minabul iers iRebs da fexis

wverebze Semdgari, kabis kalTebaweuli-kekluci RimiliT

aqeT-iqiT Tavs ukravs uxilav mayurebels, xanac temps

umatebs cecxlovani musikis kvalobaze da mTeli arsebiT

eZleva Tavbrudamxvev ritms.

eqstazSi Sesulma uceb verc SeamCnia, rom musika Sewy-

da. maRla xelebaRmarTuls da Sesaxtomad gamzadebuls _

Teatraluri Rimili tuCebze Seacivda. mcire xans idga ase

dabneul-gawbilebuli saxiT da yelmoRerili, xSir-xSirad

afaxulebda wamwamebs. mere Tavi gaiqnia. gaecina Tavissave

SekrTomaze. calfexze datrialda da oTaxidan Surduli-

viT gavarda.

...samzareuloSi Tavi Sehyo Tu ara, gazis qurasTan mo-

fusfuse bebias sulmouTqmelad miayara:

_ bebiko, me mamidasTan mivdivar, SeiZleba cota Semagvian-

des. Sen ar SegeSindes, gasaRebi Tan mimaqvs.

_ daica, Svilo, sad garbixar? SeWame rame... mTeli dRe

mSieri xar...

magram bebias ukve ezodan Semoesma SviliSvilis wkriala

xma:

_ deida sonia. ukve morCiT dalagebas?

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_ saRamo mSvidobisa, Zia sardion, saseirnod mibrZandebiT, ara? mSvenieri saRamoa!

_ oh, dito! es ra didebuli velosipedia. mSvidobaSi!marto rom daigula Tavi, TavdaRmarTze sirbiliT daeSva.

ise garbis, TiTqos miswrebazea. yovelTvis ase araa? sul sadRac eCqareba, sadRac agviandeba: warmosaxul zmanebebsa Tu xilvebs asdevnebia kvaldakval-gamalebuli.

uamravi xalxi gamofenila gareT gazafxulis am kvi-rasaRamos. sxvaTa xalisiani ganwyobileba da sicil-tkar-cali gadamdebia. nabiji Seanela. mere welSi gaimarTa un-eburad. yeli moiRera. Tvalebi auJuJunda.

sanayinesTan wamiT SeCerda: _ `vai! ra cota xalxia!~

...kuTxeSi Tavisufal magidasTan rom jdeboda, elvisus-

wrafesi mzera Seavlo mezoblad msxdar biWebs. sul oTxni

arian. ise xmamaRla, rixianad da daudevar kiloze saubroben,

uTod maRalklaselebi an didi-didi, pirvelkurselebi Tu

iqnebian.

is iyo Wamas Seudga da erTi maTgani, maRali, gawripuli

biWi gadmoixara magidaze da xazgasmuli seriozulobiT

mimarTa:

_ gogoni, xom ar dagvewveviT?.. mainc marto xarT da...

danarCenebi viTom ar icqirebian misken, magram gogo

grZnobs, rom uCumrad yvela uTvalTvalebs da qveS-qveSad

iRimebian.

_ madlobeli var yuradRebisaTvis, magram... iciT, marto

yofna mirCevnia ratomRac! _ pasuxobs sityvebis damarcv-

liT da uwyinari ieriT pirdapir saxeSi uyurebs biWs, Seka-

vebuli sicilisagan Tvalebi rom daviwroebia.

_ iciT... Cven guliT gepatiJebiT... sxvanairad ar if-

iqroT... _ eSveleba amxanags Caboxebuli xmiT loyebRaJRaJa,

buTxuza ymawvili: _ ase ar aris, biWebo? _ yasidad ekiTxeba

mere Tanameinaxeebs.

_ rasakviorvelia! aba ra!.. cxadia, masea! marto raRac

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uxerxulia mainc... _ saCqarod kvers ukraven isinic gadame-

tebuli TavaziT.viTom aq araferiao, gogo mSvidad ganagrZobs nayinis Wamas.`hm, am lawirakebs damixedeT erTi! mireven viTom Tavi-

anT WkuaSi!~ _ wyromis gareSe gaivlo gunebaSi da erTxel kidev yuradRebiT moavlo mzera TiToeul maTgans. mere Zlivs SesamCnevma Rimilma Seutoka tuCebi. TvalebSi kvi-maturi naperwklebi aukiafda da ucodveli kravis gamom-etyvelebiT Tqva:

_ Tu ase Zalian gawuxebT Cemi marto yofna, gadmobrZan-diT Tqven TviTon-CemTan!

biWebma swrafad gadaxedes erTmaneTs. etyoba, ar moe-lodnen am mipatiJebas. wamieri dabneuloba da yoymani. mere erTbaSad wamoiSalnen da xmauriT, siciliT Semousxdnen magidas.

gogos warbic ar Serxevia. dinjad, auCqareblad moa-sufTava Tasi da... wamodga. uecrad gaCumebul biWebs Tavi daukra: _ gmadlobT yuradRebisaTvis! _ ganacxada televi-ziis diqtoris xmiT da gasasvlelisaken gaemarTa.

_ vaa, ukve midixarT? _ Seicxada maRalma ymawvilma._ gvtovebT? _ daadevna meorem.gogo wamiT Sedga Ria karSi, mere ukan moixeda, xeli

dauqnia saxtad darCenil biWebs, sasacilod daiWyana da... gareT gasxlta.

_ vaa... es vina yofila, kaco!_ modi, gavekidoT!_ SeeSviT. me vicnob am gogos. Cveni ubnelia, _ gamotyda

uceb erTi maTgani, aqamde Cumad rom iyo._ mere ver Tqvi, Se debilo?_ ise vicnob, ra! Soridan. kargi gogoa....gamzirze mimavals, gunebaSi kvlav ungruli rafsodiis

motivi aekviata.`ra hqvia amas fsiqologiaSi?.. mgoni, perseveracias eZax-

ian. neta, ra mimarbeninebs? vera da ver viswavle neli sia-

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ruli. ra moxdeba, axla im kibeze rom avxte da davuaro Cemeburad, ha? giJi vegonebi xalxs. asea, sxva verasodes gaigebs... sxvas rom hgonia... me rom mgonia... Sen rom ggonia... hgoniaT... egonoT, batono! erTs gemoze vibuqnavebdi da... heri biWo! rac ginaxavs, veRar naxav... ra suleluri azrebi momdis TavSi xandaxan, ara? etyoba, tvini gamomilayda amdeni mecadineobiT.

mereda, ratom iklav Tavs, Cemo Zvirfaso?.. sakmarisia, be-biam mxolod yurmili aiRos da... xom mogexsneba yovelgvari sazrunavi? arc amdeni tvinis Wyleta dagWirdeba!~

bebias saxe aesveta wamierad.`aaraviTar SemTxvevaSi, batono! proteqcia da SeRavaTebi

ar gamagonoT. keTil inebos da moamzados sagani. Tavis spe-cialoba yvelam kargad unda icodes. diax!~.

CaeRima.`oox! Cemi sayvareli, principuli bebo!.. Cemi uiSviaTesi

samuzeumo eqsponanti!~_ gamarjoba, sofiko, genacvale!`rogor daibna. ase mouxdeba. viTom ver SemamCnia. Tvali

amarida. aqaoda, biWTan movdivaro. ra miamitad Sevcine. ise, kai wunkali var mec!~.

moikvanweba. lamazad moarxevs tans, TvalebSi isev kvima-turi naperwklebi ukiafebs, tuCebze macTuri Rimili dasTa-maSebs.

`ramdeni xania prospeqtze ar gamomivlia! ra ambavia, am-deni gogo da biWi, gogo da biWi!..~

`Sen ki marto modixar!~ _ TiTqos viRacis xmam CasCur-Cula yurSi. SekrTa.

`axia Senze!~ _ niSns ugebs igive xma: _ aravis ikareb. yvelas cxvirs ubzueb. ase Tu gaagrZele... Tavis dReSi marto iqnebi~.

`ratom var marto! ramdeni amxanag-megobari myavs! xolo rac Seexeba... `imas~...

`bolos da bolos, aRar gamoCnda Seni ufliswuli?~

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`ara, batono, da ra Cemi bralia?~`maS, visi bralia? gulis siRrmeSi bevrs rodi sjera

Tavisive gamogonili kerpis, magram...~`hoda, me kidev ar SemiZlia TvalTmaqcoba~.`scade!~`vcade!~`mere?~`araferi gamovida!~`sdeq!~ axali kadri:`...manqanidan lamazi qali da Ripiani, meloti mamakaci

gadmodian.isini Senken moemarTebian. ara. Senken ki ara. restoranis

mimarTulebiT aiRes gezi. magram Sen unda Cagiaron...Sen kidev... xes efarebi, arafriT, aras didebiT ar Segi-

Zlia axla Sexedo am qals.kadrSi Semodian: biWis didroni Tvalebi _ arabavSvurad

sevdiani da... pawia gogona, Zmas rom Camohkidebia xelebze da bajbajiT mosdevs gverdiT. ai, bavSvebis mamac _ yovel dilauTenia _ rZis rigSi dgomis Semdeg sulmouTqmelad rom miiCqaris samuSaoze, saRamos ki _ daRlil-daqanculi, moRuSuli saxiT nela auyveba aRmarTs _ SekvrebiTa da parkebiT xeldamZimebuli. Sin xvdebian. avadmyofi, moxuci deda _ mezoblebSi tiriliTa, wuxiliTa da CiviliT gul-mooxebuli, Tavisi asakisTvis Seufereblad seriozuli biWi da sul mudam Tvalcremliani, Rabua gogona, Zmas rom ar Sordeba erTi wuTiTac.

...qali xmamaRla kiskisebs. moSiSvlebul, TeTr gulm-kerdze ubzinavs Zvirfasi yelsabami. brWyvialeben almasis sayureebi, samajurebi, beWdebi...

kbils kbilze aWers acaxcaxebuli.mxolod is Tu gaugebs axla, vinc Tavad gamoscada ud-

edobis simware, vinc TviTonac danatrebulia dedis siTbos da alerss, vinc uCumrad iklavs gulSi dards da naRvels patara daTosaviT, amayad rom Sekravs xolme warbebs dedis

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xsenebaze. verc veravin warmoidgens, ramdenad usaSvelo Sei-Zleba iyos es dardi da naRveli da ra Rrmad da mkvidrad aqvs mas gulSi fesvebi gadgmuli. Tumca...

Tavad am bavSvebze ufro bednierad grZnobs Tavs, radgan... deda cocxal-mkvdari ki ar hyavs, aramed... marTla moukvda!

cocxal-mkvdari! ra saSinelebaa! albaT amitom ewvis guli ase am bavSvebze da amitomaa, ar swyindeba maTi alersi da mofereba. qveSecneulad cdilobs Seumsubuqos... ra? ra unda Seumsubuqos? udedoba?

vera. veraferi aunazRaurebs am pawiebs dedis dakargul siTbos. sul tyuilia! gulSi samudamod darCebaT carieli

da mtkivani alagi, misdRemSi Seuvsebi da dauamebeli.

da uZluria axla, sZlios Tavis TavSi siZulvilisa da

gaborotebis grZnobas: ase erTbaSad rom mozRvavda da ase

mTlianad rom waleka misi guli, mTeli misi arseba; arc

mitevebis grZnoba arsebobs axla, arc Sendobis...

da Zlivs ikavebs Tavs, rom ar mivardes da ar miaxalos...

daica!

rogor gekadrebaT! cxovelic ar tovebs Tavis naSiers,

sanam fexze ar daayenebs maT.

`yelSi amovida Tvidan Tvemde xelfasis lodini. adamiani

erTxel cxovrobs am qveyanaze!~

simdidre-siRaribe-Ralati. _ odindeli da TiTqos Cveu-

lebrivi melodrama. da mainc! mTeli arsebiT, sisxlis yove-

li ujrediT ejavreba axla es qali _ fexadgmuli siyalbe,

gansxeulebuli _ boroteba.

`enacvalos deda Cems qeTinos da daTos!~

`Cemi guramiko! Cemi sicocxle!~

`rogor uyvars qmar-Svili!~

`aba, aba! (sxvebi).

...usaSvelod dabCenili piri da gadmoqaCuli Tvalebi:

`iiicine, jambazo!~

...qalma da kacma restornisken gauxvies.

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uneburad momuWuli xeli gaSala. Segubebuli suli

moiTqva. ar unda ahyves am saSinel grZnobas, siZulvili rom

hqvia, Torem... SeuZlia Sors, Zalian Sors, usier tevrSi Se-

gityuos, saidanac mere gaWirdeba gamosvla.

`sdeq!~ kadri icvleba:

xalxis nakadi ireva gamzirze.

gaRma, trotuarze gadadis, Wadris ZirSi Cerdeba. zeviT

iyureba. meoTxe sarTulze Suqi anTia.

`Sin arian!~

...sulmouTqmelad arbis kibeze da zars aWers TiTs. cota

xani da kari iReba.

_ a, a, rasakvirvelia, Sena xar! aba, sxva vin iqneboda aseTi

gadareuli!

_ aba, aba! cota wesierad ilaparake da saerTodac, droa,

iswavlo stumris miReba, giorgi batono!

_ oh, pardon-i, madmuazeli! _ biWi gangeb atrizavebs

frangul sityvebs.

_ xeli, xeli gaaCere, Torem...

_ Torem, rao, madmuazeli?

_ vaime, dediko! _ ikivla uceb gogom da cal fexze

xtunva daiwyo, Tan TiTebs suls uberavs gamwarebiT.

_ ra ambavia maq? a? maiko Sen xar, Semogevle? ra moxda,

Svilo?

_ vaime, momkla, mamida, am daTvma, TiTebi damamtvria. vai, vai...

_ sicil-tiriliT SesCivla misken momaval qals gogonam.

_ gia, ar grcxvenia, Svilo? uime, RmerTo ki momkali! mar-

Tla rafera aqvs bavSvs TiTebi dawiTlebuli!

_ araferi uWirs, deda. magi iseTi jiSisaa, male gauvlis.

maCvene erTi, gogo, marTla gtkiva?

_ ara, tyuila stkiva, Se marTla daTvo Sena! es ra giqnia,

biWo?

_ Sen dawynardi, deda, emand Sens saqmes mixede, raRacas

akeTebdi, mgonia, samzareuloSi. am qalbatons ki... araferi

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uWirs _ SemdegisTvis iswavlis _ rogor unda zaris darek-

va. ase ar aris gana, madmuazeli maia? aba, hop!

da moulodnelad biWma Tavisi veeba TaTi daavlo gogos,

iRliaSi katis knutiviT amoiCara da TiTqos aq araferiao,

mSvidad gaabota Sida oTaxisken.

maiko umweod afarTxalda. sicilmoreulma, jer xvewna

dauwyo, gamiSvio, magram roca mixvda, verafers gavawyobo,

gaisusa _ samagieros gadaxdis imediT gulmocemuli. mamida

gverdiT mosdevdaT da amaod cdilobda, gogo xelidan gaeS-

vebinebina biWisTvis.

giam `nadavlianad~ oTaxSi Sealaja, mere Sua adgilas

SeCerda, gamarjvebuli mtaceblis ieriT miixed-moixeda, mere

TojinasaviT Zirs Camosva, gogo TviTon ukudga da Rrma

reveransi gaukeTa.

_ keTili iyos Tqveni mobrZaneba Cvens apartamentSi,

princesa maia! ore vuar, mon Ser! batonebo! naxeT, vin gves-

tumra! ra Zvirfasi stumari!

_ vxedav, vxedav. zariT vicani Cveni Zvirfasi stumari.

_ naxazidan TavauReblad Caiburtyuna zazam da SublSeW-

muxnulma, Tavis xSir, gruza TmaSi wverwamaxuli fanqari

Seacura, Tavi moiqeqa.

maikos is-is iyo sila unda gaelawunebina moxiTxiTe

mamidaSvilisaTvis, magram anazdad stumari vaJis mocinare

Tvalebs SeefeTa da... Tavi Seimagra. savarZelSi mjdari,

fexi fexze gadadebuli vaJi saCqarod wamoudga gogos da

Tavis dakvriT miesalma.

_ ax, pardon-i! Tqven, mgonia, ar icnobT erTmaneTs? vaxo...

ese igi, vaxtang jiblaZe _ Cveni axlo megobari, didi momav-

lis mqone, perspeqtiuli inJineri. sxvaTa Soris, alpinistic

gaxlavT da...

_ nu irjebi zedmetad, Cven vicnobT erTmaneTs! _ Sea-

wyvetina maikom gias, Tan uCumrad Tvalebi gadaubriala

imis niSnad, rom Surisgebas ufro xelsayreli JamisTvis

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apirebda. saswrafod miiRo saxeze mediduri ieri da xeli gauwoda stumars.

mere, vaJis mier SemoTavazebul savarZelSi rom Cajda, mam-idaSvilisken miabruna Tavi da mediduri ieriTve, sityvebis damarcvliT warmoTqva:

_ giorgi batono! Tu SeiZlebodes, geTayva, mag zrdi-lobiT aRsavse ymawvils gadaeciT Cemgan, piTagoramde kai gvariani manZili gidevs-Tqo. ase rom, moiReT mowyaleba da gvaRirseT Tqveni Zvirfasi yuradReba-Tqo.

_ oh, RmerTo ki momkali, maiko brZandebiT? _ uceb Tavi aswia zazam naxazebidan, orive xeli gulze miiWdo da Tva-lebi ise gadmokarkla, maikom Zlivs Seikava Tavi, rom masac danarCenebiviT ar gascineboda.

zazam cqvitad Semourbina magidas, maikosTan miiWra, Tavi-dan warmosaxviTi Slapa `moiZro~ da viTom marjvena xelSi daikava, welSi odnav moixara, cali fexi gaWima da is-is iyo Rrma reveransi unda gaekeTebina `Slapis~ qneviT, magram ve-Rar mozoma da... ucabedad iatakze fexebgaCaCxuli daebertya. saxeze iseTi briyvuli gaoceba exata, ise sawyaloblad ax-amxamebda wamwamebs, rom axla maikosac waskda sicili. gia taxtze goravda. gulianad icinoda stumari biWic. wamic da... zazamac SeuerTa Tavisi xorxoca xma danarCenebs.

SeSfoTebulma diasaxlisma Tavi Semohyo oTaxSi. mox-arxare axalgazrdebis danaxvaze xeli Caiqnia da Tavadac Rimmoreulma-kari gaixura.

maikos daviwyeboda dedoflis roli da savarZlis sax-elurze Semoskupebuli, patara gogosaviT iqnevda fexebs.

siciliT gulmojerebuli zaza kvlav naxazs rom mi-ubrunda, maikom Subli Seikra. isev daibruna zviadi ieri:

_ ar morCebi, biWo, Sen bolo-bolo? ra gaxda amisTana es Seni naxazi?

_ jer erTi es naxazi Cemi ar gaxlavT-igi vaxosia, meo-rec... Seni fSuta-fSuta leqsebi xom ar ggonia, biZia? pa-

tara rom SegeSalos...

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_ aba, aba, Senma mzem. fSuta-fSuta leqsebi. viTom Zalian

gesmis leqsebis...

_ arc minda mesmodes, ar mWirdeba da imitom. gasagebia?

_ rao, rao, ra brZane, ymawvilo? ra ar mWirdebao? le-

qsebi?

_ diax. leqsebi. leqsebisaTvis ki ara, Cemi specialobisT-

vis ver momiclia.

_ eg Zveli ambavia. fizikosebi Tu... lirikosebi! _ ga-

moajavra maikom biWi.

_ araferi Zveli ar aris, wavida, biZia, leqsebis dro.

mogWama Wiri wyobilsityvaobam, da he?_ maS, Senis azriT, rusTaveli saWiro araa? arc galak-

tioni?.. Tqvenc... mase fiqrobT? _ uceb stumars miubrunda maiko da gamomcdelad miaCerda saxeSi.

TvalebanTebuli, saxealanZuli gogo am wuTs ise mSve-nieri, ise momxibvleli iyo, rom vaJs mzera ver moewyvita misTvis. maiko amCnevda amas, ufro sworad, qveSecneulad grZnobda Tavis Zalas, magram Tavi ise eWira, TiTqos bai-burSi ar gaxldaT.

am moulodnelma SekiTxvam vaJi wamiT daabnia, mzera Zirs daiRo, TiTqos azrebs ikrebso, Cafiqrda.

`ra simpaTiuria! da... rogor miyurebda?~ _ siamiT Seu-tokda guli gogos.

bolos vaJma Tavi aswia, mzera gauswora maikos da wynari xmiT uTxra: _ iciT... me, piradad, miyvars!.. _ wamiT gaCerda da: _ Zalian miyvars kargi leqsebi.

sufTa da kriala iyo biWis Rimili da maikos kvlav un-eburad Seuqanda guli. Tumca Seecada, garegnulad araferi Sestyoboda. gamarjvebulis ieriT gadaxeda mamidaSvilebs.

_ uyvars ara... flavi! _ erTbaSad fargali naxazze daan-arcxa zazam da taxtze fexmorTxmiT mjdar gias Tvali uyo uCumrad, magram gia gangebisi seriozulobiT Sescqeroda megobars da viTom ver SeamCnia Zmis mravalmniSvnelovani mzera.

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_ uyvars biWs leqsebi!.. _ kvlav gautrizava naTqvami

zazam da Taviseburad Caicin-Caixvixvina: _ erTi leqsi mainc

Tqvi, aba, zepirad, Tu biWi xar. oRond... me patara qarTveli

varo, ar damiwyo axla!..

_ savaldebulo araa leqsis zepirad codna, batono zaza!

_ gamoeqomaga maiko vaJs da Tvalebi daakvesa.

_ vin mogaxsena? swored rom savaldebuloa. Tuki uyvars,

Tqvas aba erTi leqsi mainc!

dumili Camovarda erTbaSad. zazas niSnis-momgebiani Rimi-

li aRbeWdoda saxeze, anu roca winaswar ici, gamarjvebuli

rom xar da zeimob kidec.

vaxtangi Seirxa, TiTqos garidebidan gamoerkvao, da mRel-

varebaSeparuli xmiT daiwyo:

`ahyve kibeebs _ sadac sfinqsi qvebs efareba da SiSSi

grZnobde, rom axloa bedniereba, _

oh, ramdenia sicocxleSi aseTi wami!

sulSi geniiT atexili rekavs lerwami,

da van-deikis landebiviT mwvandeba Rame...

oh, ramdenia, ramdenia aseTi rame!~

iseTi siCume idga, rom biWs uneblieT ena daeba da... dadumda.

`rogori naTeli Rimili aqvs... RmerTo!~ _ gauelva go-

gos TavSi da TviTve eoca Tavisi mRelvareba.

zazas farTod gaxelil Tvalebs rom hkida mzera, dau-

faravi ironiiT CaiRimila, mere wamodga, Tavi moCvenebiTi

morCilebiT daxara da odnav wamRerebiT warmoTqva:

_ didad pativcemulo zaza batono da Zmanno Cemno!

ganagrZeT Tqveni SromiTi saqmianoba, Cven ki _ sawyal

filologebs, dagvitoveT aseTi fSuta-fSuta leqsebi. kar-

gad brZandebodeT axla, Cemo batono! wavedi me! Cao!

_ daica, sad garbixar? ra iyo? ra bzikma gikbina? jer

erTi, Sen rom icode, me rusTaveli da galaktioni ar migu-

lisxmia da meorec...

_ aRar msurs mosmena Tqveni, zaza batono!

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_ bavSvebo, kino-suraTi iwyeba! _ Semoixeda anazdad

oTaxSi diasaxlisma.

mas ukve gaewyo vaxSami da yvelani sufrasTan miiwvia.

maikos kvlav gaqcevaze eWira Tvali. magram mamidaSvilebma

aqeT-iqidan staces xeli da TiTqmis ZaliT dasves magidasTan.

igi erTxans SublSekruli, amayad gamarTuli ijda da

dinjad, viTomda uSfoTveli saxiT ylup-ylupiT svamda

Cais. mxolod xandisxan Tu SeaTvalierebda Cumi RimiliT

xan teleekrans da xanac gafacicebul biWebs, mzera rom ver

moeSorebinaT suraTisTvis. erT-orjer maikom stumari bi-

Wiskenac gaapara Tvali da moeCvena, rom mas saxeze gulgri-

loba exata. an egeb... undoda ase yofiliyo?

_ gamagebina erTi, ra gayurebinebT am gauTavebel xocva-

Jletas da sisxlis Rvras? guli ar gerevaT xolme? an ar

gbezrdebaT, netav?

`yovel adamianSi zis potenciuri mkvlelio, sadRac

amovikiTxe...

nuTu?

SeuZlebelia!

da mainc~...

_ Sen gaCumdi! _ SeuRrina biZaSvils namcxvriT pirgamo-

tenilma zazam, skamidan savarZelSi rom gadamjdariyo, raTa

moxerxebulad mokalaTebuls, ufro `gemrielad~ emzira

kino-suraTisTvis.

_ Tu ase gsiamovnebT es sisastike da sisxlisRvra, mod-

iT barem da dascxeT ager erTmaneTs. es ufro bunebrivi da

realuri ar iqneba, vidre suraTis cqeraa!

_ gesmiT, ras laparakobs es pingvini? _ ekranisTvis

Tvalmouwyvetlad wamoiZaxa zazam: _ Tumca... ra gasakviria?

ra icis aman Cxubis eSxi, am goimma, da saerTod...

_ ra ambavSi xar Sen, vaJbatono, rogor elaparakebi go-

gos? _ Semouswro dialogs samzareulodan mobrunebulma

diasaxlisma.

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_ aba, ras atlikinebs enas? esec leqsi xom ar aris?

rac ar esmis... gaCumdes mainc, _ ixtibari ar gaitexa zazam,

Tumca saxeze ki odnav wamowiTlda.

_ xma ar gavigono Seni! erTi amas damixedeT! an qali ar

ici, biWo, Sen, an stumari? ras hgavs es? ra sityvebs eubnebi

gogos?

_ Cven xom vexumrebiT, deda? _ gamoesarCla Zmas gia.

_ lanZRva-ginebas xumroba ar hqvia. kamaTi da dava unda

SegeZloT ise, rom erTmaneTs Seuracxyofa ar miayenoT da

meorec, Sen rom icode, vaJbatono, maiko marTals lapara-

kobs. miskupebuli xarT dRe da Rame am televizors da

uyurebT, rogor asaxiCreben adamianebi erTmaneTs. axlac

yurebSi midgas wuxandeli kinosuraTidan tyviebis zuzun-

wivilis, qvemexebis grialis, avtomatebis kakanis, veluri

Rrialisa da yiJinis xma.

_ omi-omia! _ ar Seepua dedas zaza: _ ar uCvenon, aba,

mtris daxocva?

_ mteric adamiania, jer-erTi. esec ar iyos, Sen, adamianma,

reJisori rom gqvia, ar unda miCveno, me, adamians, isic ga-

didebulad, msxvil planSi da detalurad _ rogor klaven

erTmaneTs adamis naSierni _ sul erTia _ risi gulisTvis

da ratom!

_ cxovrebaSi asea, batono.

_ hoda, cxovrebaSi kmara, rac sisastike xdeba. es... es

raRac bneli, qvena instinqtebis waxaliseba ufroa, vidre

xelovneba!

_ genacvale, mamida! _ uceb fexis wverebze Semdgarma

maikom orTave loyaze akoca saxeSefaklul da Tvalael-

varebul qals. axla, am wuTas erTob sacnauri iyo mamida

Zmiswulis msgavseba.

_ mec ase vfiqrobdi, zustad ase, oRond... ase ver gamomeTqva!

_ oh-oh, ar monaxes qalebma saerTo ena! sentimentos! _

Caiqirqila zazam da biWebs uCumrad Tvali Caukra.

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maikom erTi moxeda gamanadgurebeli mzeriT da mere isev mamidas mimarTa:

_ erTi ram mainteresebs, mamida, ai, Sen biologi xar da... Tu arseboben vefxiWamia vefxvebi, anda... lomiWamia lomebi?

_ ara, ar arseboben, maiko._ anda... erTi saxeobis cxovelebi Tu klaven xolme

erTmaneTs?_ araTu klaven, Svilo, erTmaneTs arc asaxiCreben, maS-

inve moqmedebs egreTwodebuli damuxruWebis instinqti: ase iqcevian, magaliTad Cvengan aTvalwunebuli mglebi da sxva cxovelebi, teritoriuli, an mdedris gamo konfliqti ara-sodes gadaizrdeba ulmobel sisastikeSi. asea es da am mxriv saocrad mowesrigebuli kanonebi aqvs sajungleTs, Cemo maiko.

_ Tuki mxecebi ar erCian TavianT jiSs da jilags, maS, adamiani, es uugonieresi arseba, rogorRa imetebs sa-sikvdilod Tavissave msgavs qmnilebas? xom arian kaciWamia tomebi dResac? maS, gamodis, rom mxecebze ufro dabla dgas adamiani? yoCaR, homo sapiens!

_ mTlad masec ar aris, Cemo kargo: adamiani adamianisTvis wmindaTawmindaao-naTqvamia!

_ rogorao, rogorao, mamida? adamiani adamianisTvis wmin-daTawmindaao? eg vina sTqva, senekam? RmerTo Cemo, ra sityve-bia! Tan... rodisaa naTqvami!

_ `xolo me getyvi Tquen: giyuardeT mterni Tqvenni, da akurTxevdiT mwyevarTa TquenTa, da keTilsa uyofdiT moZu-leTa TquenTa, da ulocevdiT maT~.

_ ras ityviT amaze, Wkuis kolofi fizikos-inJinrebo? Tumca, ra unda miTxraT? uyureT da dastkbiT am masobriv mkvlelobaTa cqeriT, rakiRa ase gsiamovnebT es sastiki sanaxaoba, me ki _ mivdivar! kargad brZandebodeT, batonebo!

_ kai, axla, ras ifxorebi? darCi patara xans. damTavrdeba ager es suraTi da mere Cven gagacilebT.

_ didad gmadlobT, Cemo batono. magram... aravis gacileba ar mWirdeba me. patara ki ara var. gzas rogorme gavigneb

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Sinamde... uTqvenod. mere, arc ise gviania._ Tu SeiZleba... me..._ rao, Senc ar rCebi, vaxo? _ ratomRac ena daeba gias. _ Senc... brutus? _ Teatralurad gaikvirva zazam da

gulze xeli itaca._ Tu maiko nebas damrTavs... mgoni, erTi gzac gvaqvs. __ aha, ga-sage-bia yvelaferi! wabrZandiT, batono, wabrZan-

diT, raki asea, ra gaewyoba. gzaSi Tu mogwyindaT, leqsebi waukiTxeT erTmaneTs.

_ maiko Svilo, raki am tutucebs, ukacrauli pasuxia da, meti zrdiloba ar gaaCniaT... vaxo gagacilebs, mamida. mec ufro gulmSvidad viqnebi.

_ ai, Zmao, waiRe Seni naxazebic, kargi namuSevaria. ve-rafers ityvis kaci, SegiZlia Tundac xvalve axvide uSbaze, Cemi azriT, xuTiani ganaRdebuli gaqvs.

* * *

...nela, Cumad miabijeben gverdigverd. da maikos sulac ar eCoTireba, xmas rom ar iReben. arc imas `imCnevs~, SeTanxme-bulebiviT, gza rom gaigrZeles da sanapiroTi wamovidnen.

roca iq, mamidaSvilebTan, gacxarebuli daobda, roca bi-Wis dakvirvebul, yuradRebian mzeras grZnobda da uneblieT damuxtul-daZabuli _ angariSmiucemlad cdilobda _ kidev ufro moswoneboda vaJs... guli uCveulo siamiTa da sixaru-liT ucemda: igi qvecnobierad zeimobda Tavis gamarjvebas.

biWi adrec, erTi-orjer hyavda nanaxi mamidaSvilebTan, magram wamieri Tvalis Sevleba Tu mouswria maSin, Tumca im wamieri mzeriTac sasiamovno gancda darCenia, magram am saRamos sul sxva iyo: am saRamos STabeWdileba ar hgavda winandels. marTalia, ar undoda sakuTar Tavsac gamoty-domoda, magram aSkara da cxadze ucxadesi gaxldaT: biWis saxis gamometyvelebam, misi Taflisferi Tvalebis Tbilma gamoxedvam, zedmiwevniTma zrdilobam, da saerTod, mTelma

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misma garegnobam, mixra-moxram, mozomilma, Zunwma sityva-pa-

suxma _ araCveulebrivi ZaliT imoqmeda masze.

da es STabeWdileba sul ufro da ufro uZlierdeba.

yoveli wvrilmani, TiTqosda umniSvnelo niuansi _ gan-

sakuTrebul mniSvnelobas iZens, aTasgvarad feradovani da

cxoveli xdeba da erTianad imorCilebs mis fantazias, mTel

mis arsebas.

da ai, axla modis biWis gverdiT uxmod, usityvod da

srulebiT ar eucxoeba es mdumareba. piriqiT, mTeli guliT

swadia ase mxardamxar, uCumrad da wynarad iaros didx-

ans, Zalian didxans, da uCumradve yuri miugdos iq, gulis

uSoresi kunWulidan daZrul saamo melodias, TandaTano-

biT rom ipyrobs mTel mis arsebas. am RvTaebrivi hangiT

iJRinTeba TiTqos mTeli garemo, sisxlis yoveli ujredi...

mxris TavTan zogjer vaJis mklavis ucabed, msubuq Sexe-

bas grZnobs da eRimeba-TavisTvis. _ jer argancdili, ucxo

netarebiT. yelTamde savsea siTboTi da araferze ar unda

axla fiqri, srulebiT araferze.

_ xom ar daiRaleT, maiko?

`oh, ra sasiamovno xmis tembri aqvs da... rogor warmoTq-

vams Cems saxels?~

_ ara, ra damRlida?.. _ gaiRima gogom da wamiT iyuCa,

mere fiqriani xmiT ganagrZo, _ ra lamazi yofila sanapiro

RamiT, wynari, myudro. mTvarec sul ar meCveneba axla buta-

foriad...

biWma wynarad Caicina.

_ Tqven marTla alpinisti xarT, vaxtang? _ uceb ikiTxa

gogom da gverdulad, frTxilad SeaTvaliera odnav rweviT

momavali tanmaRali, beWebSi gaziduli biWi.

mTeli im xnis manZilze, rac mamidaSvilebTan iyo, mxolod

erTxel gaumarTa mzera vaJs, roca kiTxviT mimarTa. axlac,

ratomRac gaurbis mis Sexedvas. TiTqos eSinia im momnusx-

veli Zalis, biWis Tvalebidan rom iRvreba.

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_ iciT... zustad rom vTqva, alpinistebs davyvebi xolme,

roca dros movixelTeb. ase rom...

_ maS, mwvervalze ar asulxarT? _ Seawyvetina gogom.

_ rogor ara... _ gaeRima biWs gogos mouTmenel kiloze.

_ hoda, esaa mTavari... _ maiko isev dadumda, mere TiTqos

fiqrSiao, ganagrZo: _ saocari SegrZnebaa albaT, mwverval-

ze rom Sedgam fexs, ara? manamde ki... yovel wuTs, yovel

wams sikvdil-sicocxlesTan Widili... da yovelive es im

siamovnebis safasurad, rasac mwvervalis dapyroba iwvevs?

ucnauria...

_ amaze maSin ar fiqrob, erTi surviliRa gamoZravebs _

daeuflo mwvervals. sxva danarCeni aRar arsebobs. sxvaze

aRaraferze SeiZleba fiqri maSin. ai, weRan Tqven mTvare

axseneT da butaforias miamsgavseT... radgan did qalaqSi

TiTqos ase aRiqmeba igi! iciT... iq ki _ iq sul sxvanai-

rad xedav mTvaresac, mzesac, cas, mTas, miwas, sakuTar Tavs

da... mTel samyaros... usazRvroebasTan miaxloebisa da ab-

soluturi Tavisuflebis SegrZneba badebs albaT am Ta-

visebur SegrZnebas, Tumca... amis gadmocema SeuZlebelia, es...

sakuTrad unda ganicado.

biWi gaCumda. daokebuli mRelvareba moismoda mis xmaSi:

gogosac myisve gadaedo es ganwyobileba, magram amjerad du-

mili arCia. ar undoda axla SekamaTeboda biWs, Tumca zogi

ram mainc gaugebari da auxsneli rCeboda misTvis.

_ Tqven da zaza erTad swavlobT, ara? _ xangrZlivi

siCumis Semdeg hkiTxa biWs ise, TiTqos sakuTar fiqrs

gaexmianao.

_ diax, oRond sxvadasxva jgufSi.

_ ise, saca samarTalia, zaza Teatralurze unda Sesu-

liyo. Cemi azriT, msaxioboba ufro upriania misTvis, vidre

inJinroba...

_ zazam maTematika da fizikac brwyinvaled icis... sxva-

TaSoris, giamac.

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_ iciT albaT, gia saRamos daswrebulze rom apirebs gadasvlas.

_ vici... SeiZleba CvenTan daiwyos muSaoba._ TqvenTan?.. Tqven sad muSaobT?_ eleqtroxelsawyoebis qarxanaSi.isev dadumdnen.`amasac, mgoni mama ara hyavs... guliT avadmyof dedas uv-

lis Turme da patara daikos... imitomac... ra qnas, aba? zaza da giac xom iZulebuli arian... magaTi mama ki...

uh, rogor momenatra Cemi mamiko! rodis dabrundeba eqs-pediciidan?..

iyo da ara iyo ra... RvTis ukeTesi ra iqneboda? iyo SaSvi mgalobeli... iyo erTi patara gogo, romelsac deda adre gardaecvala, mamam... meore coli ar SeirTo (gadaxveva stereotipidan), bavSvi dedinacvals ar Caugdo xelSi, ise, rogorc es zRaprebSia Cveulebriv... dedinacvalio, TvalSi nacario...

dediT obol gogos zrdida bebia _ mkacri da... samar-Tliani qali. kidev mamida... da... mama!

mama? aTi weli uerTgula colis xsovnas... axlandel droSi, Cemo batono!.. yvarebia Turme coli (warmoidgineT!). ise, mogexsenebaT... kacia bolos da bolos... is dro wavida... berobis, moloznobis. hoda, axla colic hyavs da bavSvebic, magram... maiko mainc sul sxvaa misTvis da saerTod, mTavaria (ra? ra aris mTavari?)... unda Seeguo garemoebas! aki maikoc Seegua imas, rom...

vinc ver egueba...ai, mamida ver Seegua da... wavida kidec kaci ojaxidan. de-

das hgavs Turme mamida _ masaviT marTali da... ukompromisoa.o, faRavas zviadi qali! erTgulebis, ojaxuri siw-

mindisa da siyvarulis simbolo! simbolo mSvenierebisa da silamazisa!

paTetika. nametani paTetikaa, dimitri batono!iyos paTetika, Cemo, iyos!

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faRavas qals rom vuyureb, ginda daijero, rom adami-ani mxolod siyvarulisTvis, sikeTisTvis gaCnda amqveynad. diax, diax, da ara aqvs ufleba adamians am ulamazesi cis qveS iyos boroti, kacTmoZule, mkvleli, mZarcveli, jalaTi, mCagvreli, rameTu igi am qveyanas moevlina silamazis, mSve-nierebis msaxurad da ara _ msaxvrelad misda.

miboZeT Tqveni xeli, qalbatono Tamar! unda veamboro mowiwebiT da ridiT.

o, qalis xelebi! mosafereblad da saTayvanod gauCenia igi arsTa gamriges. warmoidgineT, jokondas xelis mtevnebi? da daaWerineT axla am RvTaebriv xelebs qvabi da... axexi-neT! anda... yinwvisis angelozs mieciT xelSi... ara, grZeli pergamenti, ara... Cemo batono, aramed _ grZeltariani Toxi mieciT xelSi da gauSviT yanaSi... saToxnelad! anda... Cais sakrefad! o, didebuli sanaxavi iqneba me da Cemma RmerTma! didebuli!.. SexedeT am mSvenier xelebs? ra dReSi arian isini! RmerTo didebulo!

eh, ras izam? icvalnen droni, dimitri batono, icvalnen droni. da amaoa yovelgvari mWevrmetyveleba!

iyo da ara iyo ra...... `ra lamazi, grZeli TiTebi aqvs vaxtangs... iq, kibeze

Camosvlisas rom SemeSvela...TiTqos Cveulebrivi yuradRebis ambavia da mainc...is mzera! oh!~mklavebze xeli moisva frTxilad._ xom ar SegcivdaT, maiko?`SeamCnia!!~.._ ara. ara, gmadlobT... _ `me SemiZlia... ici, me SemiZlia

viaro Sens gverdiT ase mTeli Rame, gaTenebamde da... ar Semcivdes!~

_ ar gainZreT! xma, krinti!`vaime, vaxo!~ _ pirveli azri, ramac TavSi elvis us-

wrafesad gaurbina. Semdeg: `sanapiroTi rom ar wamovsuli-yaviT... Cemi bralia!~.

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_ aba, samkaulebi! moiZre Cqara! _ gverdSi danis wveris Sexeba igrZno da myisve yurebsa da yelze afaTurdnen slipina xelebi. TiTqos uxsenebelma sxeulze gadauarao.

magram... Tavisi Tavi aRar axsovs axla. mTeli gulisy-uri vaxtangisTvis miupyria. Tvalebic Zalauneburad misken gaurbis.

biWs Cumi ginebiT ejajgurebian.`kurtkas xdian! RmerTo, Sen miSvele!~_ jinsic... jinsic gaixados, magis!.._ `vaime, vaxo!~ _ biWisken gaiwia uneblieT:_ araferi maqvs. ai, xom xedavT? araferi! _ uangariSod

iSvers win xelebs da vaxosken dgams bijs._ ratom ara gaqvs mere, Seni... _ erTma mZarcvelTaganma,

muSti Cascxo saxeSi gametebiT. wamiT TvalT daubnelda.

da uceb, moulodnelad erTs moZalades ise amoartya vax-

tangma sajdomze, rom igi kvnesiT Caikeca asfaltze. wamic

da mas meore mihyva, mere _ mesame...

`moklaven. vaime!~

_ vaxo, gexvewebi... gemudarebi... _ Tavadac ar icis kargad,

rasa sTxovs, ras exveweba. da am dros meoTxis xelSi danam

gaielva.

`gaTavda. vaime!~

_ gviSveleT xalxnoo! _ TiTqos sxvisi xmiT akivlda.

_ gaCumdi Seni!.. _ danianma wixli Caazila gverdSi. tki-

vilisgan goni dakarga.

roca gamoerkva, Cami-Cumi ar ismoda irgvliv. yru kvnesa

Semoesma anazdad:

`vaxo! vaime!~

...TiTqos sxvisi mzeriT uyurebs da aRiqvams TvaliswamSi

datrialebul am ambavs. is ki arada, Tavis xmasac veRar

cnobs. sxva dros albaT verasodes warmoidgenda, aseTi

kivili Tu SeeZlo. es raRac veluri, pirvelyofili adamia-

nis gulidan amoxeTqili yvirili Tu ymuil-mowodeba iyo!

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...TiTqos viRac sxva garbis Sua quCaSic, Tmagawewili,

saxeSeSlili... da xelebs iqnevs giJiviT. erTma manqanam Cau-

qrola. meorem...

aRar aCereben!

...egeb ukeTesia... mTavar trasaze gavardes? miliciels

gadaeyaros egeb! an egeb saswrafoSi darekos rogorme? ma-

gram... ipovis ki quCaSi dauzianebel telefons? sanam dare-

kavs... sanam saswrafo mova...

wamiswamSi enacvleba erTmaneTs azrebi, magram arc erTi

maTgani ar uCerdeba TavSi... sanam gmirTa moedanze anda

rusTavelze aRmoCndeba, daicleba biWi sisxlisgan!

`vaxo!.. vaime! misi aq datoveba ar SeiZleba!~

wamiT kvlav brundeba gondakargul biWTan. Tavs orive

xeliT uwevs:_ nu geSinia... nu geSinia, Seni Wirime... _ CurCulebs uaz-

rod, xmawarTmeuli. `vaime! ase xom daicleba sisxlisgan!~`ra vqna? RmerTo Cemo!~isev Sua quCaSi garbis.`Cauvardebi... Cauvardebi! merec ar gaaCereben?~mis fexebTan daamuxruWes manqana. Ria sarkmlidan Tavi

gamohyo mZRolma da SeukurTxa:_ giJi xom ara xar, Seni..._ Tqveni Wirime... biWi daWres. kvdeba. miSveleT... saavad-

myofoSi..._ milicia-policia minda axla me? _ xeli auqnia uceb

kacma da manqana adgils mowyvita:_ saavadmyofoSi... saswrafoSi... darekeT...`RmerTo! ra vqna? rogor moviqce?~ _ xelebs imtvrevs

sasowarkveTili. mere wamiT SeSdeba. goneba eTiSeba.manqanam Seunela. SeCerda. `Zlivs!~saxeSi Seafrinda momRimare mZRols:_ biWi daWres! miSveleT!..mZRols tuCebze Rimili Seeyina. mere gazs fexi daaWira

da... `RmerTo! amasobaSi... amasobaSi...~

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ukve dambladacemuliviTaa da uimedod TvalebsRa ayo-lebs kantikuntad Caqrolil manqanebs.

_ ra moxda, gogona?uceb naTdeba TavSi.`mSveleli!~imedis sxivi. Camqrali Tvalebis akiafeba._ iq... biWi kvdeba... RvTis gulisTvis... _ yelSi burTiviT

awveba raRac._ aba, sad? maCvene, Cqara!`Cqara, Cqara!.. egeb... gvian ar iyos...~...vaxom yrud daikvnesa, roca `iman~ xelSi ayvana scada.`cocxalia! RmerTo!~_ momexmareT!.. fexebze mohkideT xeli! frTxilad!gaWirvebiT, wvalebiT awvenen manqanis ukana savarZelSi:`RmerTo Cemo! ra mZimea!~Tavadac ukan jdeba `imis~ brZanebiT, biWis Tavs kalTaSi

idebs, rom ar gadmovardes!..`egeba... egeba... RmerTo!~es sityvebi SuqniSaniviT enTebian TavSi da maleve qrebian:`egeb... gadarCes?~`is~ raRacas ekiTxeba. ho, ramdeni dro gavida mas Sem-

dego... rac...aRar axsovs. `iqneb mTeli saukune~?.. veRar igonebs.morCa da gaTavda. erTi SegrZnebaRa SerCenia: `gadarCeba?~

Tuki saavadmyofoSi droze miiyvandnen, Tuki...RmerTo Cemo! ramdeni `Tuki~ arsebobs Turme amqveynad!

da mainc am `Tukis~ CaWidebia gamwarebiT. sxva yvelaferi bnelSia, ukuneTSia CaZiruli.. verc verafers amCnevs garSe-mo. verc imas, cremlebi RvarRvarad rom Camosdis TvalTagan da kalTaSi Casvenebuli biWis saxes rom uRvTod asvelebs.

...uangariSod moZraobs. uangariSodve emorCileba ucnobis yovel gankargulebas, mis mokle brZanebebs.

TiTqos sizmarSia, anda... kinos Seyovnebul kadrebs uyure-bdes. `is~, ucnobi akeTebs yvelafers-mis magivradac...

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igi darbis. igi rekavs sadRac. erTxel masac CahkiTxa, vaxtangis telefonis nomeri xom ar icio. Tavi uxmod gaaq-nia, arao. `is~, ucnobi uxsnis viRacas raRacas. TeTrxala-Tianebi mimodian garSemo.

yovel maTgans imediT Sehyurebs.mere sadRac SehyavT. sisxls uReben masac da `imasac~.

im ucnobsac: saavadmyofoSi Turme sisxli aRar hyofniT. `imisi~ sisxli Sesaferisi aRmoCnda. magram... uSvelis ki?

gvian ar aris awi?mere... isev misaRebSi zis merxze, moSvebuli. umweo gamom-

etyvelebiT. iseTi SegrZneba uCndeba wamiT, TiTqos frTeb-dalewili frinvelia, verasodes rom veRar afrindeba caSi, rom aq, Zirs, miwaze mouwevs forTxiali, aq, miwaze unda aRmoxdes suli...

_ `xma! krinti! ar gainZreT!~kadrebi swrafad cvlian erTmaneTs. da isev gulSi Ca-

brunebuli kivili:`vaime, mokles!~...gverdigverd modian sanapiroze. Tbili saRamoa. mSvidi

da wynari.am idumal siCumesa da garindebas mxolod vaJis xmis gas-

aocrad lamazi tembri arRvevs drodadro, saamo, gulisamaC-qrolebeli tembri. xmis es kilo da ara Tavad sityvebi warmoudgeneli, gaugebari ZaliT izidavs, mTel mis arsebas imorCilebs... xmis es tembri, misi idumali, uCinari rxeva su-lis sisavsis gancdas iwvevs: esoden ucnaursa da moulod-nels. da yvelaferi, irgvliv yvelaferi, yoveli suldgmuli, mTeli samyaro molodins moucavs, saswaulis molodins:

`sezam, gaiRe!~da odesRac, warmosaxvaSi, bavSvuri cxeli fantaziiT

nagebi zRapruli sasaxle da idumali silamazis baRi xe-laxla cocxldeba. suls idgams CanCqerebi. nakadulebi.

marmarilos TeTri kibis safexurebi maRla-maRla miiw-evs. cis samreklodan rekavs uxilavi zari da... caTa sau-

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flodan moeSureba TeTr raSze amxedrebuli mzeWabuki _

lodiniT gulgaleuli mefis asulisken. da anazdad:

`xma! krinti! ar gainZreT!~

`vaime, mokles!~

...`is~ gverdiT moujda. gonebas Zabavs:

_ gadarCeba?!

_ jer aravin, icis... bevri sisxli aqvs dakarguli...

`droze rom~...

aRar amTavrebs mtkivneul azrs. `is~ raRacas eubneba.

`a, aa... Cemi telefoni!.. bebia gagiJdeba. araferi icis...

arc mamidam icis... biWebma...~.

_ axlave... 93, nol-ori, ara, vaime! damaviwyda!

_ ara uSavs ra. mere miTxariT, roca mogagondebaT...

mklavze xels adebs frTxilad da... uRimis.

axlaRa Sexeda saxeSi. RmerTo Cemo, Turme ra axalgaz-

rdaa. TiTqos sul bavSvi. mas ki egona... magram es xma-xma

TiTqos didi kacis aqvs. mSvidi, dinji, wynari, am xmam... ro-

gorc ki dailaparaka, am xmiT icno... ufro sworad, mixvda,

rom: `isaa~! mxolod `mas~ _ mSvelels-SeiZleba hqondes

`aseTi xma!~

... `rogori fermkrTalia!.. albaT sisxli rom amouRes,

imitom~.

nel-nela ubrundeba cnobiereba. axla agondeba, rom yve-

las, saavadmyofoSi fexis SedgmisTanave, suyvelas, vinc Sex-

vda, erTsa da imaves ekiTxeboda: `ratom... risTvis?~

aravin pasuxobda. aravin. zogi mxrebs iCeCavda usityvod.

zogic Tvals aridebda. xolo erTma TeTrxalaTianma esRa

uTxra: `dawynardiT, gogonav, dawynardiTo~, _ mSvidi,

gulgrili xmiT uTxra.

dawynardiTo. RmerTo Cemo, rogor dawynardes, Tuki aravin

pasuxobs mis kiTxvas. arada, unda upasuxon. movaleni arian

upasuxon. am TmaWaRara kacma mainc unda gasces pasuxi: `ra-

tom... risTvis moxda es? CvrebisTvis? nuTu... CvrebisTvis?~.

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unda auxsnas, valdebulia, movalea... diax, movalea, imitom rom... TviTon Tvrameti wlisac ar aris jer. am TmaWaRara, xnierma eqimma ki unda icodes... man unda auxsnas, gaagebinos; ratom moxda ase? aki adamianebi yvelani kargebi ibadebian. kargebi da keTilebi!.. Tuki asea es, Tuki marTla asea...

axla isic agondeba, TeTrxalaTianma qalma saabazanoSi rom Seiyvana da sisxliT moTxvrili xelebi daabanina, Tan raRacas eubneboda alersiani xmiT. albaT uyvavebda. magram mis gonebamde veRar aRwevda qalis sityvebi.

`vaxos sisxli!~ _ amis gafiqrebam Sezara. es iyo erTader-Ti, rac tvins uburRavda axla da sisxls uyinavda ZarRvebSi.

mere, mTeli sxeuliT morRveuli, mibarbacda merxTan, ui-lajod daeSva zed da... gaqvavda.

...gverdiT mjdom biWs frTxilad Seaxo TiTebi saxeloze:_ ukacravad... Tqveni saxeli..._ levani mqvia. _ myisve SeeSvela biWi da farTod, gul-

Riad gauRima.`RmerTo Cemo! es Rimili... da rogor gascrecia feri...

ramdeni amouRes neta? albaT bevri... Cemma sisxlma ki _ ar ivarga. hm!~

_ levan! egeba sjobia... radgan... romc gadarCes...`Serekili vegonebi naRdad!~_ iciT... me minda gkiTxoT: _ eqvsidan erTi?.. egeb Zalze

cotaa? Tqven... rogor fiqrobT?_ dawynardiT, maiko, genacvale. damSviddiT. yvelaferi

kargad iqneba!`Cemi saxeli? saidan? Tumca... ra mniSvneloba aqvs axla

amas?~.._ iciT... me mindoda meTqva, rom..._ mere, maiko, genacvale, mere, sxva dros miTxariT, axla

damSviddiT...`esec mawynarebs patara bavSviviT! amanac ver gamigo~..._ me mSvidad var, levan, Zalian mSvidad. sul ar vRelav,

oRond... _ wamiT iyuCa da kopebSekrulma, tuCebi uCumrad

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Caikvnita: _ saqme isaa, rom... me mimaCnia... Cemi azriT... _ Tavi gaiqnia uceb jiuti gamometyvelebiT: _ TiTqmis xuTma Tu eqvsma manqanam Camiqrola maSin... iq, da arc erTma, gesmiT... levan, arc erTma... mxolod Tqven... _ Zalian cota xom araa-meTqi eqvsidan _ erTi?

ase moeCvena, rom didxans, Zalian didxans iyo biWi mdumare._ kidev xom unda vicocxloT?.. vin icis... egeb oci,

ocdaaTi an... sulac ormocdaaTi weli? Rirs-meTqi? risT-vis? ratom? Tuki...

`Tuki aseTi sastikia cxovreba?.. ai, ukve meramdene daW-rili mohyavT!..~

_ me... mesmis Tqveni, maiko! _ wamoiwyo bolos biWma xangrZlivi siCumis Semdeg da Subli moisrisa fiqrianad. mZimed warmoTqvamda sityvebs, TiTqos uWirso laparaki: _ kargad mesmis yvelaferi da mainc...

_ mainc?.. ratom gaCumdiT?_ ici... egeb sjobia _ amaze sxva dros visaubroT... axla

mTavaria-biWi gadarCes..._ ki magram... xom SeiZleba... ar gadarCes? _ gogo anTe-

bul mzeras ar acilebda levanis gadatetkil saxes._ ki, SeiZleba!_ mere?kvlav moisrisa Subli biWma, Tvalebi wamiT moxuWa. mere Tavi

aswia, mzera gaumarTa gogos. saxeze mtkice ieri gamoxatvoda:_ ici, maiko... me biWi myavs, sami wlis. da roca wamoiz-

rdeba, vetyvi Rirs-meTqi! dalaxvros RmerTma, mainc Rirs-meTqi sicocxle!

_ eqvsidan... erTis drosac?_ Tundac aTidan erTi iyos! mTavaria... is erTi iyos!

gesmis? is erTi. mere, iqneb aTidan... aTive gaxdes...erT xans Seurxevlad, TvalebdaWyetili Sehyurebda gogo

welSi gamarTul, saxedasxepil biWs. Semdeg merxis sazurges miawva beWebiT da... xmamaRla akiskisda.

`aTidan-aTiveo?.. xa, xa, xa...~

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mere ucebve Sewyvita sicili, romelic uadgilo da me-

tismetad gamomwvevi moeCvena Tavadve! moiRuSa.

iq, SigniT ki, kvlav ganagrZobda qirqils niSnismogebiTa

da iqednurad is viRac, sxva, ucxo arseba, gul-gvamSi rom

Casaxleboda anazdeulad.

`hi... hi... hi... maS, aTidan-aTi, ara? kargia. Cemma mzem, kargi.

aba, he! Tqven iciT! imedianad iyaviT aaamaRlebuli sulis

dooon-ki-xo-te-boo! yvela drosa da yvela epoqaSi Zleul-

no mdabali sanCo-pansebis mier da... mainc, qedmoudrekelno

da ampartavanno! aba, he, ar gaitexoT guli!

iicine, jambazo!~

Tavi gaiqnia kvlav, TiTqos abezar fiqrebs Tu Cvenebebs

iSorebso.

_ mapatieT!.. _ Cailaparaka yrud, Zlivs gasagonad da

axlaRa SeamCnia, rom mTeli am xnis ganmavlobaSi angariSmi-

ucemlad sisxliT mosvril cxvirsaxocs awvalebda xelSi.

`vaxos sisxli!~ _ gahkra gulSi mtkivneulad. saswrafod

CanTa gaxsna da cxvirsaxoci Sig CakuWa.

_ mapatieT... _ gaimeora mere isev Cawyvetili xmiT da

qveda tuCze ikbina: _ Tqven SeiZleba... marTalic iyoT, Sei-

Zleba! magram... _ Seyovnda, mere enis borZikiT, ise, TiTqos

fiqrSiao, ganagrZo: _ magram CemTvis ukve mniSvneloba ara

aqvs... iciT, me srulebiTac ar mainteresebs awi... _ isev

Seubrkolda ena. SublSeWmuxnuli, TiTqos eZebda da ver

poulobda saWiro sityvebs, romliTac SesZlebda gadmoeca

Tavisi gulisnadebi.

_ jer yvelaferi win aris, maiko! damSviddi. dawynardi.

genacvale!

biWi uRimoda TanagrZnobiT, gamgebianad.

gogo erT xans uxmod Sescqeroda gaocebaCamdgari

TvalebiT:

`RmerToo, es... es naTeli Rimili!~

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mere yinuliT Sesaltuli guli TiTqos nel-nela gaulx-

va. sulSi mzis sxivi aWiatda.

da anazdad moswyda bages:_ xo, marTla... iciT... gamaxsenda! Cemi telefonis nomeri

gamaxsenda...

sayrdeni

male mixvda, guls rom ver udebda kiTxvas. meqanikurad, TvalebiTRa kenkavda marcvlebs, sityvebis azri ki gonebamde ver aRwevda.

Jurnali ganze moisrola, ze aiWra. ise, kacma rom Tqvas, ra dros sxvaTa Wirvaramis gancdaa, sakuTaric mosWarbebia da lamisaa _ moaxrCos kidec.

magnitofonis Cxavilmac tvini waiRo pirdapir! dilauT-enia rom CarTaven, SuaRamemde aRar aris saSveli. arc ridi ician da arc xaTri.

Tavadac ase ar iyo, gana arc ise didi xnis win? magram axla? axla yvelaferi aRizianebs da Tavs abezrebs, umniS-vnelo wvrilmanic ki.

aivanze gavida da moajirze gadaeyuda, erTxans iyo ase Seurxevlad da uazrod dascqeroda ezoSi moJriamule bavSvebs.

`roca getyvis is-s ga-mo-di! roca getyvi e-s, ar gamox-vi-de!..

gamodiii erTad viaroT!..`euh! mgoni, avurie!~isev SigniT Sebrunda da oTaxidan oTaxSi iwyo alabalad

siaruli.`iqiTken~ gaxedvac ar SeuZlia da he, momkali Tu gin-

da! TiTqos Jamianiao, ise gaurbis iqaurobas. aki gamoitana

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kidec `iqidan~ Tavis qveSagebi da lojiaSi daidga sawoli.

oRondac `im~ oTaxSi ar darCes da... Tundac xis qveS

gaaTen-daaRamebs.

televizori raRa jandabam moSala am saRamos? kinos

mainc uyurebda. egeb cotaTi mainc gadaeyolebina guli.

darekvis da vinmesTan lai-lais ganwyobazec aRar aris.

wasvliTac veRarsad wava, _ ukve gviania, xolo axla de-

dasTan davidarabis Tavi namdvilad ara aqvs. da saerTod,

simarTle rom Tqvas, Zveleburad aRar miuwevs guli gareT

_ lalis Tu gayveba xandisxan sadme, esaa da es.

RmerTo Cemo, ise, ramdeni gaWirvebuli da sasowarkveTili

adamiani gaicno am bolo dros mkiTxavebTan siarulSi. mar-

Talia, zogi cnobismoyvareobas dahyavs maTTan, zogs kidev

`moduri~ saxeli izidavs, magram umetesobas, masaviT dardi

da satkivari daarbeninebs am `droebiT mkurnalebTan~.

adre TavSesaqcevad uyvarda xolme yavaSi Caxedva da

banqos gaSla megobrebis wreSi. erTobodnen da, maSin aba,

rogor warmoidgenda, Tu ase sasicocxlod aucilebeli gax-

deboda misTvis marCieloba.

raRacnairi auxsneli guliskankaliTa da molodiniT

Sepyrobili midis xolme TiToeul maTganTan, TiTqos raRac

saswauls elodeba da... yovelTvis imedgacruebuli da

guldawyvetili brundeba ukan, sanam isev axali, gadasarevi~

mkiTxavi ar gamoCndeba Tvalsawierze.

ai, xvalisTvisac Sehpirda lali, magar vinmesTan migiyva-

no. eh, lalisac Tavisi gasaWiri adgas, verc imas gaumarTla

`siyvarulobanas TamaSma~, rogorc icis xolme Tqma enakvi-

matma nunukam, sasacilod rom ar hyofnis Tavisi megobrebis

esodeni gawamawia, magram solidarobis gamo, aiZulebs Tavs

angariSi gauwios da mxari aubas am `komedias~, Tumca, Siga-

daSig uwyinrad aqilikebs mainc Tavis daqalebs: netavi Tqven,

moclilebi ar iyoT! risTvis an visTvis iklavT Tavs ase?

Rirdes mainc romelime kaci amden fiqrad da davidarabad?

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TviTon xom araferze Tavs ar itkivebs da sxvebis wux-ili da tanjvac mxolod Rimils hgvris, Semwynareblur da ironiul Rimils. sul ori welic ar ucxovria TviTon qmarTan. gascilda Tu ara, Cvili bavSvi dedas Seatova, Tavad ki gularxeinad mieca e.w. drostarebas. aba, axla Tqvensa-viT Tvalebs daviTxri da guls gavisieb, manamde gverdi ar audges vinmesao-drodadro Cauniskartebs daudevari ki-loTi Tavis siyrmis megobrebs da Taviseburad, gemrielad gadaikiskisebs xolme.

erTxel gaTxoveba Tu moaswari da erTi Svilis gaCena, savsebiT sakmarisia, Cemo batono, _ Tan drogamoSvebiT moZ-Rvravs kidec Tavis SeWirvebul da gulSeRonebul daqalebs, _ amqveynad erTxel moxvedi da Seni siamovnebisTvis unda icxovro! Tu gagimarTla da Seni gunebisa da ganwyobilebis qmari Segxvda, Sens gemoze rom ar dagiSlis cxovrebas _ xo ra kargi, Tu ara da, _ kargad meyole! mamakacebis meti raa am qveyanaze! RmerTo ki momkali, erTi TiTis daqnevaa saWiro mxolod _ SenTan rom gaCndes, visac ki isurveb. da saer-Tod, Wkvian qals TadarigSi mudam unda hyavdes ramdenime Tayvanismcemeli. Tu vinicobaa, erTma umtyuna, myisve meoreTi Secvalos igi, _ meore _ mesameTi da ase Semdeg _ aba, ra ubedurebaa erTis amoCemeba? es `prosto~ provincializmi gaxlavs, Cemo Zvirfaso, meti araferi!

magram nunukas `qadagebani~ jerjerobiT axlosac ar ek-areba naTias dawylulebul guls. isini tyuili qaqani da wylis nayvaa. yovel SemTxvevaSi, asea es jerxnobiT, xolo mere?.. mere ra iqneba, erTma RmerTma Tu uwyis... netavi, mar-Tla iseTi gulTmisania is qali, lali rom uqebs? xvalamde gaZleba ar ginda?

eh, erTi da mainc hyoloda... ZmasTanac ar moerideboda albaT gulis gadaSla. Seni sisxli da xorci mainc sul sxvaa. sxvisi Wiris dReniadag mosmena, gauTavebeli Civili da wuwuni, rac ar unda iyos, Zneli asatania. Tumca... naTia cdilobs, Tavi ar Seabezros megobrebs, iSviaTad rom daiCiv-

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los vinmesTan, Tavis gulSi iklavs xolme dards Tu varams.

da mainc...

mama rom mosuliyo droze, iqneb rogorme aecincla si-

gareti, Tumca moparvac rom moaxerxo, sad mowios? axla

dedis kivili unda kidev! isedac am bolo Jams sul gacx-

viruli dadis. gauTaveblad ikbineba da igesleba. wamiTac

rom Seagviandes sadme, kopebs mwyralad Seikravs, iare, iare,

mitovebuli qalis saxeli aRar ikmaro, axla quCebSi iwan-

wale da aalaparake xalxio. TiTqosda, sagangebod Cqmets

mtkivan adgilze. saocaria pirdapir! aki dRedaRam CasCi-

Cinebda, gaeyare da gaeyareo, ra Seni Rirsia es tutuci da

bogano biWio; hoda, roca marTla gaSorda, imis magivrad, rom

daSoSminebuliyo, axla Tavis kanSi aRar eteva. xom aisrula

gulis wadili, aba, maS axla raRas iboRmeba, rom iboRmeba?

magram `mitovebuli~ qaliSvili rom uzis Sin, ai, es ver

mounelebia, ai, esaa rom agiJebs da cofebs ayrevinebs.

mitovebuli! hm! ki magram, TviTon xom yvelaferi iRona

da moimoqmeda imisaTvis, rom Tavisi erTaderTi qaliSvili

daexsna quCidan Semosuli im jamilokiasagan? `ra gasaWi-

ri adga, batono, Cvens qaliSvils jibegaxvretil students

rom ar gahyoloda? cols rCena unda, Cemo batono, movla-

patronoba. es kidev... colisTvis ki ara, Tavis TavisTvis

ver mouvlia. magram imdenad namusgarecxili da urcxvia,

rom kidev aqeTaa didgulze: movaled gvTvlis, varCinoT,

SevinaxoT da Tanac sul wiTeli koWi vugoroT, rom ar

gagvinawyendes. beCa! aba, ara? es vin gveRirsa, xom rogor

gavbednierdiT aseTi biWis siZeobiT!

es Cveni tutrucana gogo kidev, _ araferi awyeninoTo,

araferi SeamCnevinoTo-Tvalebs gvibrialebs aqeT, xolo imas,

im boganos _ kuds uqicinebs, saxeSi Sescicinebs. aqaoda,

marTla ra beds vewieo, sixaruliT aRar aris pirdapir.

RmerTo didebulo! Cveni naTia, mTeli Tbilisis biWebi rom

Wkuas hkargavdnen masze da mis mzes ficulobdnen _ lamis-

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aa mona-mxevlad gauxdes am Ratak, gaRletil mamlayinwas! RmerTi ratom ar gaicinebs?

gunebaSi gamoajavra dedis kilos. Tavis Tavi imazec daiWira, rom saxis gamometyvelebac Seecvala, iseTi gauxda, rogoric dedas aqvs xolme aseT dros.

ase egona, Tavidan moiSorebda Tu ara im `glaxa ampar-tavans~ _ misi qaliSvilis xelis mTxovnelTa rigi dadge-boda maSinve. raki imedma ar gaumarTla, da ase vTqvaT, kovzi nacarSi Cauvarda _ gamwarda qalbatoni liziko da mere rogor? hoda, mTel Tavis javrs axla qaliSvilze iyris.

Tavi gaiqnia, TiTqos ukeTur Cvenebebs iSorebso, magram... axla mamas gadawvda fiqriT. o, o, mama? erTi SexedviT, Rir-seuli da saqmiani vaJkaci gegoneba, sinamdvileSi ki, cols yuriT dahyavs: diax, es viTomda Tavdajerebuli, qalebis mususi mamakaci yvelaferze kvers ukravs Tavis Zvirfas meuRles. amiT Tavis codvebis miCumaTebas cdilobs albaT, Tumca... kudi mainc mouCans, andazis ar iyos...

raki lizikom Tqva, raki lizikom ineba...sul liziko akeria pirze. viTom uimisod wyals ar

gadaaqcevs! liziko ki amasobaSi lamis Sinaur tiranad iqces. brZanebebsa da usityvo, uxmo morCilebas daCveuli qmar-Svilisgan, ojaxisTvis Tavgadakluli qalis rols if-erebs da xelsayrel moments ar gauSvebs, es TavSewiruloba ar daayvedros Tavisianebs.

Tavi kvlav daiWira imaSi, rom RvarZlianad qirdavda dedas gunebaSi _ gunebaSi Torem, aba, ise ra Svilia, Sepa-suxebas gaubedavs? qalbatoni liziko yovelTvis marTalia. iseT dasxepil iers miiRebs saxeze drodadro, iseTi dar-wmunebuli Cans Tavis TavSi, Tavis Wkua-gonebis umcdaro-baSi, rom vaglaxad, aba, vin ras Sehkadrebs? Sehkadrebs da Tavbeds ar daiwyevlis? saxlSi gaCereba ar ginda mere? reziko rom ar Seepua, aki amitomac... miapintriSes!

ise, sainteresoa mainc... saidana aqvs adamians sxvisi, kacia

Tu qali _ damoneba-damorCilebis esoden Zalumi survili?

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sxvaze mbrZaneblobis egzom didi moTxovnileba? qalbatoni

lizikosTana pirovnebas farTo sarbieli rom misce? ooh,

rogor izeimebda ganukiTxaoba da Zaladoba!..

iqneb... aWarbebs da gaRizianebuls-es yvelaferi eCveneba?

kacma rom Tqvas, es axlaa, simwrisa da tkivilebis gadatanis

Semdeg _ aexila gonebis Tvali da dainaxa is, rasac aqamde

ver amCnevda, anda mxolod alRoTi Tu grZnobda, Torem adre

gonebaSic ar uSvebda dedis saqcielis kritikas, miT ufro

mis gansjas Tu gakicxvas.

fiqrebidan qalis Sekivlebis xmam gamoarkvia. samza-

reuloSi Sevarda. dedas marcxena xelis idayvi marjvenaTi

daeWira da saxedamanWuli, suls uberavda:

_ ra iyo, adamiano? guli gadamitrialda...

_ Wiri da oxroba. ver xedav, daviwvi mklavi? moita

zeTi. zemoT aris SkafSi. Cqara gainZeri. ra stumariviT xar

sakuTar saxlSi? bamba, bamba moitane!

_ ras iklav Tavs, neta vicode? rad gindoda amodena

namcxvari? vin aris amis mWameli? _ veRar moiTmina da

sayveduri uTxra dedas, roca zeTSi dasvelebuli bambiT

uSuSebda arc Tu ise damwvar-daTuTqul mklavs.

_ TqvenTvis vacxob, batono, Tqven rom isiamovnoT...

_ isiamovnoT ara, is...

_ ai, asea yovelTvis. mTeli Cemi cxovreba gadayolili

var agenze da ra mere? umadurobis mets ras vxedav amaTi

mxridan?

_ Senc erTi!.. ise iZaxi gadayolili varo, TiTqos aTi

Svili gagezardos. ra gaxda erTi kinkila gogos da erTi

kacis movla? Seni dRe da moswreba Sin ijeqi. sxva ra saqme

gqonda?

Tavisi siTamamiT TviTve Secbunebulma, swrafad aqcia

zurgi TvalebdaWyetil qals da gasasvlelisken gaeSura:

_ deida TinasTan viqnebi, televizors vuyurebo _ ukan-

mouxedavad daagdo sityva da kari saCqarod gamoixura.

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guli jerac gamalebiT ucemda, roca mezoblis karis

zaris Rilaks TiTi daaWira: _ dito, privet! Tqveni tele-

vizori xom muSaobs? mgoni, iluzioni iwyeba axla!

mipatiJebisaTvis arc daucdia, Sesasvleli gaiara, sast-

umro oTaxSi Seabija Tu ara-Sedga, miixed-moixeda: _ Sin

aravinaa?

_ me Tu ar CamTvli, maSin... _ Tavi daxara biWma moCvenebi-

Ti mokrZalebiT: _ maSin _ aravinaa!

_ o, dito, mapatie! _ gaecina: _ sad arian Senebi marTla?_ ra vici, wavidnen sadRac, mgoni... dabadebis dReze Tu...

naTlobaze, kargad ar vici, simarTle rom giTxra._ Tqveni televizori xom muSaobs?_ muSaobs, rogor ara, axlave CavrTav! _ biWi tkepna-

tkepniT warmoTqvamda sityvebs, TiTqos laparaki ezarebao. igi zlazvniT mivida televizorTan da CarTo. mere savar-Zeli axlos miuCoCa: _ dabrZandi, naTia!

_ gmadlob dito! marTla, xo ar gagaRviZe?_ ra dros Zilia?.._ an iqneb wasvlas apirebdi sadme? Tu masea, ar mogeridos!_ arsadac ar vapirebdi wasvlas. aqeTken gamoiwie. aqedan

ukeT Cans. ra kino gadis?_ sul erTia, rac iqneba, ramdeni xania kinoSi ar vyofil-

var, televizorSi mainc vuyureb-meTqi, vifiqre: da maincda-mainc dRes gafuWda Cveni. xo, marTla, dito, raki Tqvenebi Sin ar arian, movwev ra! sigareti xo gaqvs?

_ axlave! _ biWi auCqareblad, dinjad, gavida meore oTax-Si da cota xanSi sigaretiT xelSi mobrunda.

_ inebe!_ rao? a, xo, sigareti... gmadlob. kai dros movedi. iw-

yeba. hoo, Zveli suraTia. mgoni, nanaxi maqvs, magram... vuyureb mainc. dito, Sen Cemi gulisTvis ar mocde, icode, Tu saqme gaqvs raime...

_ saqme ara! ra saqme unda mqondes? mec vuyureb... Seni xaTriT.

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...TiTqos yuradRebiT misCerebia ekrans, magram sinamd-

vileSi misi goneba sul sxvagan hqris. fiqrebi erTmaneTSi

irevian, ixlarTebian.

mere gonebis mzera SigniT, sulis fskerisken Caabruna

da... iqidan xan erTma mogonebam wamohyo Tavi, xan meorem _

erTmaneTTan daukavSirebeli, danawevrebul-daqucmacebuli _

isini kaleidoskopuri siswrafiT enacvlebian erTimeores.

im dRes...

ramdeni xania Tvali ar moukravs da...

dabarebuliviT ar gamoecxada!

`nu wuxdebi, Tengiz! ara, Sors ar mivdivar, gmadlob, ara

miSavs, Sen xom kargad~...

`kargad yofnis ra mogaxseno, var ra! (qaragmuli miniSneba

sakuTar ojaxur usiamovnebaze). ise, Sen yoCaR, naTia, uceb

unda gawyvito. jaxirs da wvalebas ase sjobia. xo, marTla,

mcxeTaSi xom ar gagveseirna? kafeSi davsxdebodiT, visau-

brebdiT!~

`ici, Zalian meCqareba, ai, movediT kidec. aq gamiCere, Tu

SeiZleba!~

`ase male?!

`aq unda Camovide. gmadlobT Tengiz! kargad iyavi!~

`risi madloba, rogor gekadreba?.. Tuki... rame dagWirda...

yovelTvis mzada var... xom ici, damireke xolme!..~

kuku!

vimalebi!

Tvalebze xelis gulebi agefarebina da... verafers vxedav,

verafers vamCnevo _ TamaSobdi!

...oh, ra yalbia es biWi da ra gacveTil, yuriT moTreul

sityvebs eubneba gogos _ TengiziviT. hm, Temgizi! arada,

rezikos Zmakacad ki iTvleba.

xom ar mogeCvena? egeb?..

magram ara, is bilwi Rimili, is Tvalebi?RmerTo!

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am gogos ki sjera. da ra ginda qna? saswaulia pirdapir, rogor ver xvdeba? an egeb... xvdeba da Cemi ar iyos, egec, kukudamalobanas TamaSobs? an iqneb, marTlac tyuvdeba! ras gaigeb? Tumca ra, gana Sen ar gjeroda `Seni~ rezikos gulwrfeloba? aki swored es viTomcda gulwrfeloba da alalmarTloba gizidavda masSi. sufTa da naRdi biWi geg-ona! ai, iseTi, rom dagicavs, giqomagebs, gimfarvelebs, ise, viT Seefereba kacs, mamakacs, vaJkacs.

...axla akocebs biWi. akoca. gogo viTom ibuteba, sinamd-vileSi uxaria. gaimarjva Tavis WkuaSi. oh, oh, ra TvalT-

maqcobaa yvelaferi. yvelgan mxolod sicruea. yovel fexis

nabijze. adamianebi Tvalis dauxamxameblad atyueben er-

Timeores, haeric ki tyuilebis bacilebiTaa gaJRenTili.

mama atyuebs dedas. morCili da Tvinieri meuRlis rols

TamaSobs Sin, gareT ki _ cxvirsaxocebiviT icvlis sayvar-

lebs. ar eTakileba, Tavis student-gogonebsac rom dauniS-

nos paemani. isinic, oRondac kargi niSani miiRon da... fui!

ra saZaglobaa! dedam mSvenivrad icis es yvelaferi, magram...

Tavi ise uWiravs, viTom baiburSi araa. isic Taviseburad

TvalxuWobanas TamaSobs da... Tavis mxriv, Tvals uxvevs

Tavis Zvirfas Tanamecxedres _ aTasgvar wvrilman Tu msx-

vilman `finansur saqmeebs~ akvaraxWinebs, rom rogorme erTi

zedmeti briliantis samkauli SeiZinos _ oRond uTuod

`karatis~ brilianti. oqro ganZia. ganZi ki-sWirdeba ojaxs

_ sul erTia, ranairi gziTa da saSualebebiTaa igi mopove-

buli. mTavaria _ moipovo. aba, sxva risi maqnisia mamakaci,

Tu materialurad ar uzrunvelyofs ojaxs, ar Seuqmnis

keTildReobas!.. romc Cavardes amis gamoisobiT, mere ra?

mtersa da avs, magram... Tu saWiroebam moitana, qe unda gas-

wiros Tavi ojaxisTvis.

cixeSi iqneba Tu gareT _ oqro da brilianti Tavis Za-

lasa da Rirebulebas ar kargavs arc erT droSi. asea es

da sxva danarCeni zRaprebia da boganoebis mogonili! (oh, ra

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zizRiT da tuCebis breciT warmoTqvams xolme `boganos~ _

am amoCemebul sityvas?).

Sen ise laparakob, TiTqos muxran-batonis STamomavali

iyo. erTi gudamSieri aznaurebi iyvnen Seni winaprebi, meti

xom arao, viTom gaexumra erTxel _ yelSi sulamosulma.

gudamSierio? _ itkica da mere rogor?

gudamSierio? RmerTo ki momkali axla! babua rom su-

fras gaSlida da Cvens ojaxSi rom stumrebi iyridnen Tavs,

maseTi xalxi sizmradac ar moelandeba mamaSenis gvarsa da

jilagso, dagesla qaliSvili....oh, rogor ver itans am ukudo ampartavnobas, sulierad

mwiri da gonebrivad duxWiri adamianebis kudabzikobasa da medidurobas...

bebia... sul sxvanairi adamiani iyo: keTili, Tbili, sulgrZe-li. gasaocaria, rom qaliSvili ase ar hgavs dedamiss. amboben, da-Zmas Soris yvelaze ufrosi, biZia SoTa iyoo dedamisis ali-kvali.

rogori tkbili mofereba da rogori zRaprebis moyola icoda bebom?

Caisvamda patara naTias kalTaSi da... iReboda zRaprebis saocari skivri. dausruleblad moedineboda da moedineboda bebias bage-piridan erTi-meoreze gasaocari da jadosnuri ambebi oqrosTmian mzeTunaxavebsa da gulad mzeWabukebze, cxraTavian devebsa da moxerxebul nacarqeqiaze...

da rogor uxaroda, rom bebias amsgavsebdnen garegnobiT. samwuxarod, kai xani aRar aris igi cocxali, Torem...

euh, amqveynad bevri ramaa gaugebari. ras an vis miendo, ar ici... ar ici, rodis dacurdebi, ranairad, ratom!

rezikosTvis mTavari aRmoCnda sakuTari pativmoyvareoba da egoizmi, siamaye da ara siyvaruli. TumcaRa... ra siyvar-ulzea laparaki? rodis uyvardi? es Sen gadairie pirveli danaxvisTanave, axlac Tavidan ver iSoreb im pirvel Sexve-dras... sruliad moulodnelad da ualago alagas _ svane-Tis mTebSi gangebis mier dagebul maxes.

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ara, aRar ZalgiZs amis gaxseneba... arc im ucabedi, `gauT-valiswinebeli~ avadmyofobis...

oh, im daRlili, dabinduli lurji Tvalebis wamieri SemonaTeba, siyvarulis wamieri elda.

kmara. ar ginda. ar aris saWiro. ra siyvaruli agityda qalo? rodis uyvardi-meTqi? dedaSenis TqmiT, Turme Sens keTildReobas da... manqanas daxarbda. da roca mixvda, rom lizikos verafers dascinclavda, veranairad gaacurebda _ guli aiyara Senze. morCa da gaTavda. esaa sinamdvile. mware sinamdvile. Sen ki aqamomde raRac gamogonil siyvaruls

ebRauWebi, ararsebul siyvaruls, ufro sworad, siyvarulis

iluzias: iluzia rom iyo, imitomac daismxvra yvelaferi ase

advilad, ase iolad:

sasamarTlo?

ara, amis gaxsenebac ki gzaravs axla. bolo wuTebamde

fiqrobdi, rezo ar daTanxmdebao, bolo wuTebamde gegona,

mova, fexebSi Camivardebao, patiebas mTxovso.

gegona. hm!..

Sen marTla gegona, reziko wamiTac ver gaZlebda uSenod

_ Turme iseTi momxiblavi da qaluri iyavi, uwinaresad...

dedis TvalSi, rasakvirvelia da... Senc _ daijere es.

naTia gadasarevi gogoa. naTia lamazi gogoa. naTia Wkviani,

gonieri gogoa da Senc iwame Seni yovlisSemZleoba, Seni xi-

bli da Tilisma. sadRac dedis hangze ukravdi da cekvavdi

da... imitom. is ki arada, dedaSenis mier danTebul koconTan

Senc migqonda, iqneb Sendauneburad, iqneb gaucnobiereblad _

TiTo muguzali, Senc Seneulad edidgulebodi... qmars.

da ai, ocdaeqvsi wlis asakSi qmarganaSvebi qalis damRas

atareb! da am akvariumis TevzebiviT, aqeT-iqiT awydebi, rom

gamosavali ipovo, daibruno sulis simSvide da wonasworo-

ba. magram... jerjerobiT bolo ar uCans Sens wrials.

am sacodav Tevzebs hgoniaT albaT, okeanis an zRvis us-

azRvro sivrceebSi danavardoben da TavianT WkuaSi-tkbebi-

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an kidec am moCvenebiTi keTildReobiTa da TavisuflebiT. sacodavebi! is ki ar ician, rom Tavis dReSi ver daaRweven Tavs am akvariums, radgan... daxSulia maTTvis yvela kari, yvela gasasvleli, Tumca...

es Tevzebi bevrad ufro bednierebi arian Senze: maT ar ician, rom akvariumis samudamo tyveebi arian, rom isini Ta-visuflebis iluziiT ikvebebian mxolod. Sen ki?

gana bevrma gauZlo eSmakiseul cTunebebs?Tu erTi ar gagimarTlebs, meoresTan scade bedi, Tu meo-

remac gimtyuna, mesame monaxe, meoTxe... _ nunukas msgavsad.yoveli maTgani winamorbedebis daviwyebis saSualebaa.

sxva SemTxvevaSi, usaSvelo tkivils da simZimils ver gauZ-leb, ver gadaitano, _ amboben aki, ufro sworad _ amiT un-daT gaamarTlon albaT TavianTi dacema.

da ai, TiTqos, SeumCnevlad, magram usaTuod daeqanebi daRmarTze. viT dagorebuli qva da roca ufskruls ixilav, ukve gvian iqneba, ukve xeli geqneba Caqneuli yvelaferze-uwinaresad, Rirsebaze _ uRirsebo adamiani ki _ saSinelebaa!

jandabas yvelaferi, es cxovreba xom wamieria, cvalebadi, warmavali. warsuli TiTqos arc yofila, igi sizmariviTaa. iyo da... ara iyo ra. arc xvalindeli dRis Sesaxeb ici rame. hoda, icxovre dRes, axla. icxovre dRevandeli dRiT, am wamieri, magram sasiamovno wuTisaTvis!

sasiamovno...es `sasiamovno~ wuTebic yelSi amogiva mere, yvelaferi

mogbezrdeba, mogyirWdeba. magram... Tavs ar gautydebi da inerciiT miyvebi TviTdinebas... nunukasaviT! Tumca, nunuka jerac Tavdaviwyebis, anu Tavis motyuebis zonaSia da sin-anulisTvis jer ver iclis.

bavSvi mainc dagrCenoda...`ra dros amis bavSvia. jer umaRlesi unda daamTavros,

aspirantura!~esec daujere dedas. da sicocxle mouspe... oh, marto

es dagtanjavs mTeli cxovreba. danaSaulis da codvis es

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SegrZneba ar mogasvenebs. magram... ra advili Cans yoveli

danaSauli da yoveli Secodeba, Tuki... dRevandeli dRiT

cxovrob mxolod!

bavSvi rom gyoloda...

Tumca, ras uSvelida bavSvis arseboba am uzomo tkivilsa

da simwares? bavSvi gaginelebda gana dardsa da varams?

mogiSuSebda gana sulis iarebs? Tumca... vin icis... egeb

daeamebina?..

adre xom isic ver warmogedgina, rom SegeZlo ase gangeca-

da rezikosTan daSoreba.

sakvirvelia, ratom geioleboda adre? ratom daiarxeine

Tavi? ratom gegona-tkivilisa da tanjvis SesagrZnobad

Seuvali iyavi, metadre aseTi tkivilisaTvis? Cans, dedaSenis

Tavdajereba SenSiac gadmovida!..

...tiris es sacodavi? cremlebi ver giSvelis, Cemo sayva-

relo, vera. Tavidan unda gefiqra...

ra? ra unda efiqra Tavidanve? rom biWi-miatovebda?

gadaiyvarebda? Tuki Tavidanve amaze ifiqreb, rogor unda

Seiyvaro?..

isev siyvaruli?!

CurCuto! erTxel da samudamod daixsome: siyvaruli

moCvenebiTobaa! giyvars Seni lamazi ocneba, Seni fantaziis

nayofi _ esaa da es. arc meti, arc naklebi. Sen TviTonve

qmni da Txzav siyvarulis sagans da roca realurad See-

jaxebi sxva yofierebas _ gikvirs, gtkiva da itanjebi...

yvelaze naRdia, saTofeze ar gaikaro, ara Tu gulis kari

gauRo _ am e.w. siyvaruls. zustad ise, rogorc nunuka

akeTebs amas. Tu maincdamainc ar dagiSlia, gulisgareT ram-

denic ginda atare Seni `siyvarulis xateba~, eloliave da

efere, ramdenic ginda, sanamdec survili geqneba. oRond...

SigniT, gulis siRrmeSia aramc da aramc ar SemouSva! erTi

sityviT, iTamaSe _ vidremdis Sens guls gauxardeba! magram

icode, amqveynad siyvarulis, WeSmariti siyvarulis Rirsi

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TiTqmis aravinaa... sxvaTa Soris Senc _ rogori mwarec ar unda iyos es!

maS... nuTu?raRa azri aqvs maSin cxovrebas, Tuki... wrfeli da WeSma-

riti grZnoba ar iarsebebs?a, a... cxovrebisTvis azris misacemadaa saWiro siyvaruli,

col-qmroba, deda-Sviloba da misTanani-ara?ra gamodis?RmerTo! sad, sad aris is sayrdeni, rac sulis gadasar-

Cenadaa saWiro? rasac SeWirvebis Jams daeyrdnobi uyoymanod?`momeciT sayrdeni da!~...hm! saqmec swored sayrdeni gaxlavT, Torem...`mgoni sul mTlad avurie~, _ gauelva uecrad TavSi da

ratomRac moikunta savarZelSi: `Tumca ara, arafersac ar vurev. mec im mecnieriviT, veRar vigoneb axla mis saxels, Tumca ra mniSvneloba aqvs gvars da saxels _ mec im mec-nieriviT veZeb sayrdens. marTalia, sxvadasxva mizani gvamoZ-ravebs me da imas _ mgoni, igi dedamiwis gadasayiraveblad eZebda, _ me ki bevrad ufro mokrZalebuli survili mamoZ-ravebs: me ase vTqvaT, am mikro samyaroSi Cemi pawawkintela sulis gadasarCenad minda igi! asea Tu isea, orTaveni mainc sayrdens veZebT...

mereda... sad, sad aris is balavari, is burji sulieri simtkicisa, romelsac daeyrdnobi? ki. kai Wama-sma ase vTq-vaT, kai kveba da Cacma-daxurva ar daukliaT SenTvis mSob-lebs, koxtapruwoba da keklucobac iswavle inglisurTan, frangulTan da musikasTan erTad. sxvaTa Soris, am mxriv sasayveduro araferi gaqvs ded-mamasTan, magram... is, ramac unda gagaZlebinos sulieri satkivrisa da satanjvelisTvis, is rom ver mogawames?

Sens irgvliv TiTqmis yvelani ufiqrelad, udardelad miuyvebian cxovrebis mdinarebas. dRes rasac gTavazobs igi, _ miiRe, Seitkbe, Seirge. Tu saWiroa, daxuWe Tvalebi, daicev yurebi da... Caiyuryumalave zRvaSi-cxovrebis orom-

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triali rom hqvia. mere... an amoxval, an _ ara! ai, bebo rom cocxali iyos! im locvebsac ver igoneb axla, uCumrad rom gaswavlida!.

...oh, es sacodavi, rogor ganicdis. sul tyuilad, Cemo kargo, sul tyuilad. erTi adamianis siyvaruliT... (hm, isev siyvaruli), diax, erTi adamianis siyvaruliT ar amoiwureba yvelaferi am qveyanaze. ara. guli bevrad ufro farToa da tevadi. usaSvelo araferi gWirs. unda gamagrde! rogor da ranairad? ar vici, magram... unda gamagrde! morCa da gaTavda! gamoCndeba kidev vinme, vinc namdvilad gimegobrebs, gierTgu-lebs... da dagaviwyebs dRevandel satkivars. Senc miendobi imas, im axals da... geqneba tkbili ojaxi, geyoleba bevri bavSvi da... yvelaferi kargad iqneba.

magram... yvelas rom ar SeuZlia es? yvelas erTnairi

gaZlebis unari rom ar gaaCnia? am gogosac... etyoba, metis-

metad uWirs pirveli didi tkivilis gadatana. aki, makamac

ver gauZlo da... Tavi moikla! nanim ki _ gauZlo. Tumca ma-

sac daaxloebiT ise moeqcenen, rogorc makas. piriqiT, ufro

keTilic gaxda TiTqos. ufro gamgebiani da adamianebis mosi-

yvarule. etyoba, ipova is sayrdeni, rasac Sen amaod eZeb...

yvelas ar SeuZlia-meTqi es _ zogi Tavis naWuWSi ik-

eteba da... cxovroben mere aseT `akvariumebSi~ da xan erT-

maneTs ZiZgnian da kortnian, xanac _ sakuTar Tavs.

saqmec rom ar gaqvs iseTi... saintereso! samsaxurSic xom

tyuilubralod midi-modixar, rogorc bevri sxva, xelfas-

sac iReb TiTqos, _ deda ra vnaxeo, imisTanas ara, cxadia,

magram mainc...

RmerTo Cemo, RmerTo Cemo!

visTvis aris Seni arseboba saWiro? sWirdebi gana vinmes?

sWirdebi ara! zerele, sasxvaTaSoriso urTierTobebia da

moCvenebiTi siaxlove adamianebs Soris Sens garSemo.

codvas ver ityvi: Sens ded-mamas sWirdebi uTuod. ma-

gram... mere ra? mSobliuri grZnoba nadir-frinvelTac gaaC-

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nia. sakuTari naSieri cxovelebsac uyvarT, saqme isaa... da saerTod...

ras Svreba es suleli gogo? marTla Tavs iklavs? euh!.. Tumca ara... bolo wuTebSi, rasakvirvelia, vaJi mouswrebs da... gadaarCens. mere patiebas sTxovs da... Serigdebian. jer mware naxe, kvlav tkbili... vaSaa!~

_ gmadlob, dito, yvelaferi nametani kargadaa mowyobili am qveyanaze. kai xans meyofa es `sulieri sazrdo~. aba, kar-gad iyavi, Cao!

_ ukve midixar? geCqareba? darCi kidev cota xans... ko-niaki davlioT!

wamiT Seyoymanda:_ koniaki? _ mere uceb gadawyvita, _ egre iyos, TiTo

Wiqa davlioT.biWma WiqebSi koniaki Caasxa._ es Sen gagimarjos, dito! _ uceb gadahkra: _ axla,

wavedi!_ moica naTia! kidev davlioT..._ ara, gmadlobT. meti ar minda. didi madloba yvelafrisT-

vis _ `paka~!gasasvlelisken gaemarTa. anazdad biWma gza gadauRoba:_ sad migeCqareba-meTqi? darCi patara xans!jer ver mixvda. gaocebiT Seacqerda karTan asvetil vaJs._ arsad ar gagiSveb axla... CemTan unda darCe!TiTqos xelSesaxebi sicxadiT dainaxa, rogor gadmoucviv-

da budidan Tvalebi.rao, rao?! xom ar moeyura naTias? magram... es Tvalebi?

nuTu? nuTu ditoa es biWi? ara. SeuZlebelia. raRac gauge-brobaa. raRac eCveneba naTias. cxadia, eCveneba... Sublze acve-nili Tvalebi kvlav sakuTar budes daubrunda.

_ gamatare! _ Zalze mSvidi, Zalze wynari xmiT amoTqva bolos mzeradaxrilma da karisken gaiwia kvlav.

_ ar gagiSveb-meTqi, xom giTxari! _ biWi kars akvroda da kbilebi ucnaurad daekriWa.

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saxeSi SeaCerda isev.maS, ar moCvenebia naTias? es biWi ditoa namdvilad. Zmasa-

viT TanSezrdili, dRe da Ram rom erTad iyvnen bavSvobisas. erTi TefSidan uWamiaT, erTi Wiqidan usvamT. xSirad xeli-Tac utarebia, masze oTxi wliT umcrosi.

RmerTo Cemo! cxadia es, Tu sizmarSi xdeba yvelaferi? an... xom ar SeiSala naTia? magram... es saxe, es bilwi

Rimili!..ditos saxiT Tengizi xom ar moevlina ucabedad?TvaliswamSi enacvlebian azrebi erTmaneTs. sakuTari sax-

is yinuliviT sicive SeigrZno erTbaSad..._ gaaRe kari! _ mSvidi, Zalze, mSvidia qalis xma._ ar gavaReb!_ gaaRe-meTqi, axlave... pirutyvo!kars ayudebuli biWi rogorRac gverdulad iRimeba,

ufro sworad, tuCebi Rimilismagvar raRacas daugrexia. saxealewils, wvrili, Savi Tvalebi amRvrevia.

TiTqos axlaRa SeamCnia pirvelad, rogor auyria tani biWs.

_ axlave moSordi kars! _ mrisxaned aenTo qals Tva-lebi.

dito adgilidan ar iZroda da isev ise gverdulad iR-imeboda... Tu iWyaneboda, _ ver gaarkvevdi.

naTiam xelis kvriT scada moecilebina biWi karisTvis, ma-gram uceb man mklavi dauWira da Zalumad miizida Tavisken.

wamiT TiTqos bindi gadaekra gonebas, mere Signidan, gul-RviZlidan wamsve daiZra cxeli sisxlis nakadi da sax-eze moawva. sunTqva Seekra. aqamde ver warmoedgina, Tu ase xelSesaxebad mkafio SeiZleboda yofiliyo zizRi, zizRi _ unapiro, ukidegano...

sxva yvelaferi erTianad waiSala da... darCa mZulvarebis es Smagi, yovliswamlekavi grZnoba.

mwyobridan gamosuli, ganrisxebuli qali biWis saxes waetana. biWma myisve aarida Tavi, magram naTiam mainc moas-

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wro, da... qalis naklanWi wiTel zolad daaCda mis loyas._ axlave... gesmis Sen, axlave gamiRe kari! _ xmis nacvlad

xavili amosdioda gamSrali yelidan. sibrazisgan gondakar-guli, kvlav biWis Tvalebisken miiwevda frCxilebiT.

ara, es naTia aRar iyo ukve: TiTqos mZvinvare afTari Casa-xleboda sxeulSi: ulmobeli, sastiki, daundobeli. krunCx-vamoreuls erTi mizaniRa amoZravebda: Tvalebi amoekortna am nadirisTvis, ase utifrad, ase urcxvad rom usworebda mzeras.

wamiT mimoixeda irgvliv, mere ucbad mklavebidan dausx-lta biWs da oTaxis SuagulSi mdgar magidasTan miiWra. magidaze faifuris veeba larnaki yelyelaobda. naTiam wamsve aitaca igi orive xeliT:

_ gaaRe kari, Torem axlave davamsxvrev am larnaks.biWi kvlav kars miyrdnoboda beWebiT da fexs ar icvl-

ida, Tumca wamierad mis amRvreul TvalebSi SiSi gamokrTa.naTiam ufro maRla SemarTa larnaki da... mere mTeli

ZaliT daaxeTqa iataks. larnaki saSineli xmauriT nam-sxvrevebad iqca. saxegamexebuli qali jiqur gaemarTa gasasvlelisken.

biWma uneblieT utia gza....abazanaSi Sesulma naTiam yvela onkani mouSva, rom wyl-

is Tqrial-Cxrials daefara misi xmamaRali qviTini.didxans tiroda cxared, gulamoskvniT, Tan xSir-xSirad

peSviT isxamda wyals pirisaxeze: iqneb cremlis niaRvari SevaCeroo. araferi Sveloda. dawynarebis nacvlad ufro da ufro ujdeboda guli da ufro da ufro ucxoveldeboda survili, iatakze egorava, ebRavla, ekivla, Tmebi daewewa-pirvelyofili qalis simwariT.

erTxanobas TavSi gauelva, uTuod guli gamiskdeba, naRve-li Cameqceva, veRar gavuZleb am satkivars, movkvdebio.

`gauZlebo!~ _ CasZaxa viRacis uxilavma xmam anazdad: `ufro metsac gauZlebo!~ _ gaimeora TiTqos imave xmam da... erTbaSad gayuCda. dawynarda. TiTqos am cremlebs gaayola.

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Tu TviT cremlebma gaiyolies Tan is usaSvelo simZimili, guls rom lodiviT awva da lamis aris gaesrisa.

...iwva da Wers miStereboda. dilabindze rom gaaxila Tvali, mas mere vera da ver Seibruna Zili. Ramec borgvaSi gaatara.

ruli waarTmevda Tavs Tu ara, sakuTari zmuili aRviZe-bda. wamdauwum gverds icvlida. xan pirqve Caemxoboda bal-iSze, xanac piraRma gaSotili misCereboda sibneles. Tavisi mTavari sadardebeli gadaviwynoda _ am xnis ganmavlobaSi erTxelac ar mogonebia yofili qmari. samagierod, ditos saxe utrialebda Tvalwin gamudmebiT, daJinebiT, gamomwvevad.

rwmenis da ndobis kidev erTi ZarRvi Cagiwyda gulSi naTia nemsaZev! da kidev ramdeni unda Cagiwydes momavalSi, vin icis?

gauZleb ki amden dartymas, bediswera rom gimzadebs Turme yoveli mxridan, yovel fexis nabijze?

rom aRarc Tendeba? Ramec TiTqos jibrSi Cagidga...Cqar-Cqara apyrobs Tvalebs sarkmels, magram wkvarams

CaunTqavs irgvliv yovelive da isev ise wrialebs, SfoTavs, kvnesis da gminavs.

...Citebis Jivil-xivils TvalebdaWyetili Seegeba. gasa-vaTebuls, ukve ganZrevis Tavi aRar hqonda. mTeli sxeuli dabegvil-dabeJiliviT morRveoda.

...ezodan dilis Cveulebrivi xmauri amodioda. karga xa-nia Caiara memawvnemac.

naTia ki kvlav Seurxevlad iwva da amoRamebuli, gamo-carielebuli Tvalebi CaciebiT mieSterebina kriala cis naglejisTvis, fanjridan rom moCanda. mere dedis nabijebis Cqami Semoesma samzareulodan. moagonda, rom dRes kvira iyo. mama gvianobamde sawolSi nebivrobda uqme dReebSi da colic loginSi miarTmevda xolme meuRles rZian yavas, esoden rom uyvarda dil-dilaobiT.

anazdad qalis nacnobma xmam gamoarkvia garindebidan.Tina deida!

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yurebi cqvita, smena daZaba uneblieT, Tumca ganZreviT arc axla ganZreula.

naTiam xmaze Seatyo Tina deidas, rom igi Cveulebis-amebr, mxolod enis mosaqaveblad ar iyo mosuli. igi gab-miT, upauzod da xmamaRla godebda TiTqos: _ rava viqnebi, Cemo liziko? javriT aRar var qali! mTeli Cemi cxovreba, Seni ar iyos, qmar-Svils Sevalie. welebze fexs vidgam. dRe ar aris CemTvis mosveneba da Rame. xandaxan sxvis mag-ivradac vmorigeob, rom racxa kapikebi Semovitano ojaxSi. ginekologi rom var, zogs hgonia CeCqiviT maqvs fuli. ra maqvs Sen genacvale? groSebs Tu mogcemen da esaa. mara magic ar geqneba, Tu ar iwvale, ar ijaxire. Senc kargad ici, Semogevle, qalic me var ojaxSi da kacic. Cems bedov-laT meuRles amqveynad arafris dardi ara aqvs _ oRond Tavis ZmakacebSi aqeife da dro atarebine. Tavisi axalgaz-rdoba sul ase hari-haraleSi gaatara da axlac araferi enaRvleba. aba, Seni valikosTana rom iyves, Cemo liziko, ra miWirs? imisTvis viklav Tavs ase, imisTvis vwvalob, rom biWs araferi daakldes, guli ar dawydes da ar daiCagros-Tqva Tavis tol-sworebSi. vcdilob, guliswadili Sevusrulo. amwineebze manqana mindao, Cems amxanagebs TiTqmis yvelas aqvso da me vize naklebi varo. Cavjeqi valebSi da manqana vuyide; ai, dito es. ai, dito _ is... am erTaderT biWs Sevyureb da ra vqna? Senc kargad ici, ras niSnavs, erTi rom gyavs, Cemo liziko! mara sul wyalSi meyreba amdeni Sroma da jafa, sul tyuila vxlaforTob amdens, tyuila vimokleb dReebs...

_ ra moxda amisTana, Se qalo, ar ityvi? amisTana ra daaSava bovSvma? vin geigona ditos cudi? ditosnairi bare ori ar dadis mTel TbilisSi, _ rogorc iqna, moaxerxa sityvis Cagdeba qalbatonma lizikom.

_ ise daumSvendes magas cxvir-piri, kargi eg ar iyos. yovlad daudevari da udardelia mamamisiviT, maincdamainc Tavis Wkuamxiarul mamas gamoemsgavsa yvelaferSi. esec be-dia albaT!.. wuxelis gvian movediT Sin, Tavisnair Tavqar-

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ian da Citirekia ZmakacTan wamaTria ZaliT griSam, naTloba aqvs da rom ar mivideT, sircxviliao. oRond sadme dana-Cangalma daiCxarunos da Cems vaJbatons Sen gaaCereb mere Sin? hoda, davrCiT gvianobamde im dasaqcev naTlobaze. guli avs ki miTqvamda, qalo. nemsebze vijeqi TiTqos. ravarc iqna, wamovediT maqedan, Semovdivar saxlSi da ras xedavs Cemi dasavsebi Tvalebi? _ qalma suli moiTqva da qalbatonma lizikomac dro ixelTa:

_ ra, ra naxe, Se qalo, amisTana?_ ra da Cemo liziko, zalaSi rom `stolze~ didi iapon-

uri, Zvirfasi vaza ido _ Tavis droze sami aTasi maneTi maqvs magiza micemuli-Zirs ar yria nafSxvenebad?

_ ras laparakob, qalo? uh, rava mewyina, beCa! ra Zvirfasi vaza iyo. sad iSovi axla imisTanas, sanTliTac rom eZebo! ki mara, ra mouvida? rafer gadmovarda magididan? RmerTo ki momkali!

_ Sen yvelaferi sikeTe, Cemo liziko, mec agi ar vkiTxe Cems bedovlaT Svils da ici, ra mipasuxa? anaSa axladmoweu-li mqonda da araferi maxsovso. warmogidgenia? amxela vaza daimsxvra da araferi gamigiao. es loya vin Camogpotna, Se sasikvdile-meTqi _ vekiTxebi da isev ar maxsovso, iZaxis, am sifarTis nafrCxilebi aCnia loyaze zolad! warmogidgenia!

_ gafuWda qveyana, Cemo Tiniko, sul dakarges sircxvil-namusi am gogoebma! _ kvlav moaswro sityvis CarTva qalba-tonma lizikom, magram qalbatonma Tinam ar misca saSualeba gaegrZelebina da ufro myarad daesabuTebina Tavisi mosazre-ba sircxvil-namusis irgvliv. qalbatoni TinasTvis amjerad mTavari iyo ara sxvisi azris mosmena, aramed Tavisi gulist-kivilisa da wyena-boRmis gadmonTxeva da gadmopirqvaveba.

calybad daumowma naTqvami Tavis qneviT qalbaton lizikos da sulmouTqmelad ganagrZo: _ araferi maxsovso, dauCemebia es sityvebi da `vsio~. sul fexebze hkidia, rom aseTi Zvir-fasi nivTi daimtvra, amxela zarali naxa ojaxma. apa, pa, pa, Sen ar momikvde, liziko, arafris dardi ar aqvs. gaSxlar-

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Tula loginze, miCerebia Wers uazro TvalebiT da aris ase. yurebSi ar uSvebs arc Cemi da arc mamamisis sityvebs. kidev aqeT Semogvitia, ra gaRrialebs, qalo, mezoblebi gaigeben, sircxviliao. warmogidgenia? saxlSi rom kaxpebs daaTrevs, es sircxvili ar yofila Turme, xolo me Tu xmas avuwie... mara elaparake ramdenic ginda! Seayare ager kedels cercvi. ginda Sen giTqvams rame da ginda qurTis qals nades, anda ZaRls uyefia ezoSi.

naTia TviTonac ver ityoda, ram hkra xeli, ra Zalam ubiZga: ucbad wamofrinda sawolidan da saRamuris amara, TmagaCeCili, tirilisgan saxedasiebuli da quTuToebSeSu-pebuli-fexSiSvela Sevarda samzareuloSi erTbaSad saxtad darCenil qalebTan. qalbaton Tinas win daudga, marjvena xelisugli lamis cxvirTan miutana da:

_ me, me gavtexe is Tqveni Zvirfasi vaza, Tina deida-me! me Camovpotne saxe Tqvens `axlad anaSamoweul~ biWs, diax me! Tvalebis amoTxrac mindoda, magram samwuxarod, veRar movaxerxe, _ gamoscra kbilebSi da swrafadve Setrialda, kvlav Tavis sawols miaSura, loginSi Cawva da Tavze sabani waixura.

...ar icis, ramdeni xani gavida. yurebSi SiSini gahqonda siCumes da garkveviT esmoda Tavis gulis baga-bugi.

`mTavaria, Zvirfasi vaza rom daimsxvra. RmerTo! RmerTo!~_ ra ambavSi xar Sen, qalbatono? ra gemarTeba am bolo

dros neta vicode? _ deda Tavs wamodgomoda da civad scrida sityvebs-gaavebuli. sabani gadaiZro uceb:

_ Tavi damanebeT, Tavi damanebeT suyvelam! gesmis? Tavi damanebeT! aravis naxva ar minda, SemeSviT yvelani, mamyofeT CemTvis marto, Tu SeiZleba! _ ganwiruli xmiT daiyvira da isev daifara sabani Tavze.

_ gagagiJa xom Senma gamCenma? SeiSale, xom? Sen moukvdi, Svilo, Sens dedas! Sen damiwdi da daqveskneldi maincda-mainc... erTxel kidev mosWeri xom ded-mamas Tavi? daasxi xom Tavslafi ojaxs?

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kidev didxans iwyevleboda da ilanZReboda qali. erTi-orjer scada sabnis gadaZroba da rakiRa es ver moaxerxa, sabans zemoT rac Zala da Rone hqonda, uTaqa da uTaqa qa-liSvils, xma rom gaekminda da gasusuliyo loginSi.

naTias magrad eWira sabani da Cumad ylapavda cremlebs. guli ki kvlav ise ucemda, lamis amovardnoda sabudaridan.

roca sabani gadaixada, lojiaSi da mTels binaSi Cami-Cumi ar ismoda.

...wevs axla gaunZrevlad, ugrZnobeli, erTianad moSvebuli, ganadgurebuli. saSineli sicariele dauflebia suls. TavSi azris natamalic ar WaWanebs.

daekarga drois SegrZnebac. xsovnac, gaiyina Jamis msvl-

eloba. gaqvavda da Tvalaxmuls, garesamyarosgan gaTiSuls

_ anazdad ezmaneba:

dgas saucxoo, TeTri taZris win da gancvifrebuli Tvals

ver aSorebs am zRaprulad warmtac nagebobas, ucnauri naT-

lis CqeralSi rom curavs... dgas Seurxevlad da xarbad,

cnobiswadiliT anTebuli mzeriT ucqeris eniTuTqmel, saa-

rako mSvenebas da vera da veRar ZReba misi yurebiT. taZ-

ridan moismis zesTazenuri galobis xma, netarebis Jruan-

telad rom uvlis mTel sxeulSi, mere... ucnaurad afori-

aqebul-awrialebuli lamobs Sevides Sig da ufro srulad

dastkbes RvTaebrivi hangebiT, magram... kars veRar poulobs.

dadis, uvlis taZars garSemo gaognebuli, eZebs Sesasvlels

sulimwared. amaod. aRarsad Cans sarkmelic ki. amasobaSi

galoba TandaTan Zlierdeba, zeaRmtaci xdeba da irgvliv

mTel sivrces avsebs, taZarsac TiTqos sxivosnoba emateba,

maRldeba ufro da ufro, lamisaa _ mowydes miwas da TeTri

gediviT gafrindes caSi, zecis usasrulobas Seerwyas.

ukve ki ar dadis-darbis taZris garSemo aqloSinebuli

da warmoudgeneli ZaliT swyuria SeaRwios SigniT rogorme.

`RmerTo Cemo, nuTu marTla ara aqvs taZars Sesasvleli? _

fiqrobs SeSfoTebuli: _ nuTu aRar miweria SigniT Sesvla?~

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`kari ageraa, Sen win!~ _ Caesmis anazdad TiTqos usaz-Rvro SoreTidan wamosuli Cumi, wynari xma.

Cerdeba wamiT sulTqmaSekruli, azrSeryeuli. da ras xedavs?

marTlac, ager araa kari, mis cxvirwin!RmerTo Cemo!.. ramdenjer Semourbina taZars da es kari

aqamde rom ar SeumCnevia? es saswauli araa?...ridiT aRebs xis mZime, veeba kars da frTxili, mokrZa-

lebuli nabijebiT Sedis TiTqos araamqveyniuri, zemiwieri cialiT ganaTebul darbazSi. grili sio arxevs uricxvi sanTlebis als kandelebSi da TvalismomWrelad parpale-ben cecxlis enebi. saidanRac monaberi grili sio masac saamurad elamuneba loyebze, mTel saxeze. Rrmad isunTqavs sakmevlis da kidev raRac saocnebo surnels.

RmerTo! aq TiTqos odesRac yofila, unaxavs odesRac es didebuli silamaze, magram... rodis iyo es?

vera, veRar ixsenebs.sulisSemtaci galoba ki isev ise grZeldeba da gulSi

utkbiles nakadulebad eRvreba, mTel mis arseba ipyrobs.`...qveyanasa zeda mSvidoba da kacTa Soris saTnoeba~, _

uecrad mkafiod arCevs sityvebs.oh! kacTa Soris saTnoebas SehRaRadeben ufals mga-

loblebi.saTnoeba!sadRaa igi kacTa Soris?da grZnobs, cxeli cremli usvelebs Rawvebs, magram

Svebis, sixarulis cremlebia isini da ratomRac gulic jer argancdili siamiT da netarebiT uZgers. oh, ra Tavisuflad da laRad sunTqavs igi mkerdqveS, TiTqos arc arasdros yofila SeWirvebuli, arc arasdros ukvnesia da uvalalnia. arasdros! ho, magram Tavad mgaloblebi sadRa arian? ratom ar Canan isini? saidan moismis es zeciuri xmebi?

Tvalebs acecebs cariel darbazSi.`RmerTo Cemo!~ _ aRmoxda uceb Tavis gunebaSi.

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misgan xelmarjvniv, uzarmazari darbazis kuTxeSi, RvTismSoblis xatis win patara gogo dgas anTebuli sanTliT xelSi, mis gverdiT asakovani mandilosani daCo-qila da xelebapyrobili, sasoebiT Sescicinebs RvTaebrivi mSvenebiT gaciskrovnebul saxes RvTis dedisas.

unda fexi win wadgas gaxarebulma da dauZaxos orTaves:mec ager varo, magram... xma ar emorCileba, yelSi TiTqos

burTi gasCxeria da sunTqvas uxSobs.da dgas ase fexmoucvlelad, gaCxibuliviT, jadoqmnili

da monusxuli Sescqeris Tavis patara oreuls, romelsac bebo axla yurSi raRacas eCurCuleba. patara naTias mar-jvena xelidan marcxenaSi gadaaqvs sanTeli da gulmodgined, bavSvuri mondomebiT ramdenjerme iwers pirjvars.

mere bebo dgeba, xelSi xels hkidebs pataras da jvarcmu-lis xatTan mihyavs, iq, sadac micvalebulT sanTlebs unTeben xolme.

licliceben sanTlebi saamod da uxilav mgalobelTa zeaRmtaci galoba avsebs mTel darbazs. aramiwieri ieri dahkravs TiTqos irgvliv yovelives.

da anazdad gulze mwvaved gahkenwla raRacam: Tavad rom arasdros daunTia sanTeli micvalebulTaTvis? arc bebosTvis!

guliT swadia, miawvdinos xma bebos da patara naTias-gaagebinos, rom xedavs da esmis yvelaferi, magram... kvla-vindeburad gadaketvia yeli, veRarc ganZreva mouxerxebia TiTqos xelfexSekruls, dambladacemuls.

da Tavis uwmeobiT daRonebuli, Tvalcremliani, naRvel-narevi RimiliT Sehyurebs bebia-SviliSvils, xelixelCakide-bulni rom mimodian am uCveulo naTliT gakaSkaSebul dar-bazSi, sanTlebiT xelSi, da xan erT xatTan Cerdebian, muxls iyrian da Cumad loculoben, xanac meoresTan.

mere bebo yelze hkidebs naTias oqros jvars da yurSi ufuCunebs: `mudam atare, Svilo! ar dakargo!~

uneburad yelze isvams xels da... myisve agondeba: bebias naCuqari jvari xom sadRac, romeliRac ujraSi gdia? dedam

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Camoxsna igi jerac patara naTias yelidan da... gadamala.

...telefoni?

nuTu... buranSi iyo da es yvelaferi ezmana?

`rekos viRacaa... mobezrdeba da gaCumdeba...~ _ gaivlo

gunebaSi usiamod, jerac Zil-RviZilis STabeWdilebis qveS

myofma.

magram telefoni ara da ar cxreba.

dazarebiT gadawvda yurmils erTbaSad gunebagafuWebulma:

_ aloo!

_ naTia, Sena xar?

_ hoo... me var!

_ privet! rava xar! ici, uceb ver gicani xmaze, surdo

xom ar dagemarTa?

_ namZinarevi var...

_ aqamde geZina, gogo? ar gadamrio. ici, romeli saaTia?

_ ara, ar vici...

_ pirveli xdeba! ho, marTla rogora xar? ras Svrebi?

_ ise ra...

_ rame xom ar moxda kidev, raRac vera xar xmaze...

_ araferi iseTi. Cveulebrivi ambebia! _ erTbaSad moagon-

da buranSi wamierad gadaviwyebuli wuxandeli SemTxveva da

mware Rimilma daumanWa bage-piri.

mere TviT misTvisac moulodnelad mowyda tuCebs:

_ ici, sayrdens veZeb, Cemo laliko da... jerjerobiT ver

mipovia!

_ rao, rao ras veZebo? ver gavige...

_ ara. araferi. vixumre ise.

_ kaia, Tu xumrobis xasiaTze xar. ici ra xania girekav?

Sin aravinaa Sens meti?

_ mgoni, ar arian.

_ ici, risTvis girekav? dRes me, Sen da nunukas gvepati-

Jebian restoranSi.

_ hoo?.. vinaa?

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_ aris erTi, mere getyvi. Zalian minda wamoxvide. wamoxval?

_ Sen xom ici, arsad rom ar davdivar am bolo dros?_ vici, vici. magram Zalian gTxov Cemi xaTriT wamodi

axla. Tu Sen ar wamoxval, mec davrCebi... icode!_ ra qaragmebiT melaparakebi? vinaa?_ mere... mere getyvi. dedaSeni ar gamogiSvebs, rasakvirve-

lia. magram moifiqre rame, SesZleb?_ mofiqrebas da tyuilis Tqmas ra unda... _ isev Caecina

uxalisod, uamurad._ susanasTan xval wavideT. ici, erTi miqes kidev. Turme

susana magasTan ver mova..._ sisulelea es yvelaferi._ ra Tqvi? ver gavigone._ sisulelea-meTqi sirbili mkiTxavebTan da saerTodac...gaCumda. telefonis meore boloSic dadumdnen._ mokled, dagirekav! _ alaparakda isev lali mcireode-

ni pauzis Semdeg saqmiani da mxne kiloTi: _ wamoxval, xom?_ ar vici, vnaxoT, iqneb... wamovide kidec! ise... nunuka gas-

agebia, magram Sen... Sen ram agacundruka ase, sainteresoa..._ kai erTi, nu ici xolme... aba, sul saxlSi unda ijde?

sul erTi da igives fiqriT unda gaixvrito tvini ada-mianma? mereda risTvis? ratom, vin dagifasebs?!

_ Sen raRac sxvanairad WikWikeb am diliT, Cemo laliko, moxda rame? _ pauza. xangrZlivi, gulis gamawvrilebeli, mere megobris dabeJili, yru xma gaisma sul axlos, yuris ZirSi:

_ araferic ar moxda, ubralod... gadavwyvite mteri ar gavaxaro... _ isev pauza: _ gogis coli SeurTavs... ici!

`a, a... ai, Turme ra!~_ vin giTxra? tyuili iqneba!_ ara. namdvilia, _ isev pauza.`maS, Surisgeba?.. nuTu lalic... am gziT... cdilobs?..

nunukas stiliT? mis yaidaze apirebs samagieros gadaxdas?~

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_ raRac ara mjera... laliko!`Tumca... ra aris daujerebeli?.. yvelaferi mosalodne-

lia... amqveynad!~_ ra aris daujerebeli Cveni kacebisgan? _ TiTqos mis

fiqrs xmamaRla gaexmiana lali: _ ici ki vin mouyvania? _ isev pauza, _ vika.

_ aba vika? _ `nuTu is?.. ara. SeuZlebelia. ar davi-jereb~... _ vika... SublaZe?

_ diax, swored vika `gaabedniera~ mag salaxanam.`RmerTo Cemo! RmerTo Cemo! raRa maincdamainc is?.. Tum-

ca axla xom modaSia... Tengizic xom rezikos `Zmakacad~ iTvleba da mainc...

ai, Senc geZleva naTia saSualeba `SurisZiebis~ _ Seni, Tundac yofili qmris _ ZmakacTan Tu... axlobelTan!..

`RmerTo Cemo! RmerTo Cemo!~_ laliko, Cemo sayvarelo, unda gamagrde, gesmis? unda

gamagrde, ar ahyve... axlave Cavicvam da movdivar SenTan! restorani ara!.. fexi ar moicvalo. gesmis?

`iqneb rezikomac... ratomac ara. ra dauSlis? miT umetes, rom oficialuradac gaviyareT...~

gulis areSi yru Cxvleta igrZno. Tvalebi moxuWa, bage moikvnita.

yurmili dado Tu ara, wamsve isev awkrialda telefoni.`Tengizi?! es naZirala mindoda axla me?~da myisve, angariSmiucemlad, SeimarTa. TvalebSi yinu-

liviT sicive Caudga, xolo cnobierebis siRrmidan uceb amotivtivda didi xnis winandeli suraTi, sulis fskerSi Caleqili da miviwyebuli:

`bavSvebis saTamaSo moedani. qviSis patara borcvze Sem-TxveviT an iqneb sulac boroti xelis mier Cagdebul boT-lis natexze gadafatruli terfi. midis, mikelanobs gogona da sisxlian kvals stovebs miwaze. cal xelSi fexsacmeli uWiravs, meore xelis mjiRiT Tvalebs isres zluquniT. calkerZ dedis risxva aSinebs, rom ar daujera, fexsac-

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meli gaiZro da ise iTamaSa, _ calkerZ tkivili. da _

rac ufro uaxlovdeba saxls, miT ufro umatebs tirils,

radgan qveSecneulad grZnobs, cremlebi Tavdasacavi, dedis

guliswyromis Sesaokebeli Tu ara, Sesarbilebeli saSu-

aleba mainc aris.

moSorebiT, gazonis kuTxeSi ezos mozrdili biWebi dgan-

an da raRacaze bWoben. wamsve mohkra Tvali. `imas~-`isic~

Camdgara maT Soris.

gogonas TvalSi es zorba biWi borotebis simbolod qceu-

la. mis danaxvaze izRarbeba, maSinve guli ekumSeba Zalaune-

burad, radgan `is~ arasodes ar gauSvebs xelsayrel moments,

rom ar wauTaqos patarebs, Tmaze ar daqaCos, anda ar gaamasx-

araos isini. gansakuTrebiT hyavs `gadamterebuli~ naTias.

yovel SemTxvevaSi, ase eCveneba TviT naTias. amitom yovel mis

danaxvaze eleT-meleTi mosdis. mereda, ra siamovnebiT xiTx-

iTebs xolme, roca patarebs awvalebs. xiTxiTebs, xiTxiTebs

gauTaveblad, Tan pawia, WroRa Tvalebs wkuravs da iwmawneba.

`mavne tura~ Searqva Tavis gulSi naTiam, radgan garegnulad

naxati filmebis cxovels amsgavsebs.

hoda, is `mavne tura~ ager ar dgas axla, danarCenebTan

erTad!

oh, ras gaixarebs, naTias cremlebsa da Wrilobas rom

dainaxavs, rogor axiTxiTdeba!

da gogonam, TviT misTvisac moulodnelad-tirili Sewyvi-

ta. Tvalebi xelis zurgiT SeimSrala saswrafod, terfi

asfalts daadga da viTom aq araferiao, gamarTulad gaiara.

ara, ar unda dainaxos im `mavne turam~, Wrilobidan sisx-

li rom sdis, terfi rom saSinlad stkiva da Zlivs rom

ikavebs Tavs, xelaxla ar morTos bRavili.

...Sinaganad erTianad daZabulma, dasxepili ieriT Cauara

erTad Sejgufebul ymawvilebs, romelTac gaxurebul dava-

kamaTSi arc SeumCneviaT cerodena gogona, saxegakerpebuli

rom miabijebda sadarbazosken.

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rogorc ki sadarbazoSi Sehyo Tavi, maSinve fexis wverze Sedga kvlav. Sublze moxeTqili Wiris ofli moiwminda da

wamierad mouxeda Tavis sisxlian nakvalevs, magram axla ra-

tomRac tkivilisa da dedis risxvis mimarT SiSis grZnoba

gaqroboda, Tumca guli isev ise gamalebiT ucemda.

mTavaria, rom imas, im `mavne turas~ ar daunaxavs naTias

gasaWiri. ar daunaxavs, rogor aRvarvarebda cremlebs da

rogor icleboda sisxlisgan~.

_ ki, naTia var, Tengiz! _ xma Caexrinwa, da erTbaSad sax-

eze iseTi gamometyveleba gamoexata, rogoric hqonda maSin,

didi xnis winaT, `mavne turas~ rom hkida Tvali.

...dRes kviraa. naTias Tavisufali dro eqneba albaT, hoda,

iqneb Sexvedrodnen erTmaneTs... ramdeni rame aqvs saTqmeli...

Cveulebrivi iwilo-biwilo...

`kuku! vimalebi!~

_ aRar dareko, gesmis? meored aRar dareko!

yurmili rom daaxeTqa, raRacnairi mZime, usaSvelod mZime

lodi aexsna TiTqos gulidan. SvebiT amoisunTqa.

`esec ase!~

albaT aseTi SegrZneba uCndeba sardals mogebuli brZo-

lis Semdeg. rameTu naTiasTvisac Tavis Tavze es Tundac

patara gamarjveba tolfardi gaxldaT axla didi omis

mogebisa, vinaidan: igi imedis nasaxs utovebda mermisisTvis,

rwmenisa da Rirsebis grZnobas ubrunebda.

Semdeg kvlav yurmils dawvda da swrafad akrifa nomeri:

_ laliko! SenTan movdivar axlave! fexi ar gaadga-meTqi

uCemod. unda gelaparako!..

sxartad wamoxta da gamoketil bebos patara oTaxs mia-

Sura. Zveleburi karadis ujrebs eca da sulmouTqmelad

daiwyo qeqva.

ai, isic! ipova! bebos naCuqari jvari ipova, ase gulda-

gul rom hqonda gadamaluli dedas. myisve Camoikida Zewkvi

yelze da...

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...pirvelad, mTeli am erTi wlis ganmavlobaSi axla SeamC-

nia, rogor gaelamazebinaT maTi saxlis win mdebare patara

skveri. skveri savse iyo cugrumela bavSvebiTa da pensio-neri bebia-babuebiT.

wamierad kvlav Tvalwin daudga weRandeli sizmar-Cveneba Tu zmaneba da... tkivilnarevma siamem xelaxla Zalumad Seu-toka guli.

1988 w.

`usaTauro interviuebi~*

pirveli interviueri

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_ vicnob Tu ara, jaba xvilarias? _sanam Tqvens kiTxvas pirdapir pasuxs gavcemde, jer minda

cota ukan davixio da erTi ambavi gavixseno, romelsac Sei-Zleba uSualo kavSiri ar hqondes imasTan, rac Tqven gain-teresebT, magram amisda miuxedavad, me mainc unda mogiyveT.

Cemi Zma, mogexsenebaT albaT, mxatvari gaxlavT. rogorc TiTqmis yvela mxatvars, masac uyvars martodmarto xetia-li da fexiT aqvs movlili mTeli saqarTvelo, misi yoveli kunWul-alagi zedmiwevniT icis.

hoda, erTxel dgas Turme foTidan zugdidisaken mimaval gzaze da elodeba gamvlel manqanas. imdenma manqanam Cau-qrola, magram arc erTi ar gaCerebula. Sublze Camofxat-uli fetriT, riukzakiani, daudevrad Cacmuli kaci, etyoba, TvalSi ar mosdiodaT mZRolebs. bolos, kai xnis lodinis Semdeg, erTi sabargo manqana, brezentiT gadaxuruli, gau-

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Cerda, kabinetidan brge, axovani, gruzaTmiani, xorblisferi saxis, Suaxnis mZRoli gadmovida, dinjad mivida gzis kides-Tan mdgar kakosTan da moridebuli xmiTa da gamokveTili megruli aqcentiT, uTxra:

_ ukacravad var, Cemo batono, magram ra vqna, ver wagi-yvanT. kabinaSi isedac ori kaci mizis, xolo ZaraSi saqone-li gadamyavs da iqauroba mobinZurebulia da iq adgils ver SemogTavazebTo.

kako gaocebuli uyurebs Turme am kacs:_ amis saTqmelad moxvediTo? _ hkiTxa bolos: _ mec xom

davinaxe, adgili rom ar gqondaT!_ ra vici... iqneba gefiqra,T adgili aqvs da ar gamiCerao!

_ Tqva Turme raRacnairi mokrZalebuli RimiliT, Setri-alda da wavida.

manqana kai xania Tvals miefara, magram kako vera da ver gamorkveuliyo Turme. im goliaTi mZRolis saxe edga Tvalwin da misi sityvebi jer kidev yurSi utrialebda!

mere `volga~ gaCerda mis win. manqanaSi axalgazrda kacs sami Saosani qali ejda. oCamCireSi, samZimarze mihyavda Turme bebia, deda da da. rom gaigo, kako zugdidSi midioda, bebia ukan gadmosva da Tavis gverdiT SesTavaza adgili. kakos Tavi mouklavs, magram, rakiRa naTqvami hqonda ukve, sadac midioda _ uari ar gauvida. magram es ambavi mainc ar CauTvlia kakos raRac gansakuTrebulad, uCveulod! gru-zaTmiani mZRolis saqciels ki, yvelas uyveboda TbilisSi. vera da ver daeviwyebina im kacis sityvebi. Tqven gesmiT, ramxela Sinagani kultura da maRali suli idga im ubralo, TiTqosda, Cveulebriv adamianSio.

`iqneb gefiqra, rom adgili mqonda da ar gagiCereo~!me ki maxsovs bavSvobaSi babuam stumrad wamiyvana Ta-

vis axlobel megobarTan Zvel senakSi. bavSvi viyavi, marTa-lia, sul erTi cida, magram mTeli cxovreba damamaxsovrda maspinZlebis Tavazianoba, is Tu, ra gansakuTrebuli, raRac mistikuri pativiTa da ridiT eqceodnen qalebs da patarebs,

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TiTqos dedofali viyavi cerodena gogona: mowiwebiTa da kdemiT mesiyvarulebodnen da meferebodnen. mec Sevifere Cemi `dedofloba~ da marTla dedofaliviT meWira Tavi! es cxoveli bavSvuri STabeWdileba mTeli cxovreba gamyva-meTqi, giTxariT weRanac iseve, rogorc maTi axloblebi da mokeTeebi damamaxsovrda samudamod.

diax, Cemo batono. es cota Soreuli eqskursi ki imisT-vis damWirda... Tumca Tqven TviTonac mSvenivrad mixvdebiT, risTvisac da ratom gavixsene is Zveli ambebi.

...am xuTiode wlis win Cveni Teatris erTi jgufi ewvia saCinos. saRamos Semdeg, romelmac sxvaTaSoris, didi warmatebiT Caiara, Cveulebriv, rogorc wesia, dagvpatiJes banketze. simarTle rom vTqva, Zalian ar miyvars xolme es Cveneburi banketebi, ceremoniebi, gauTavebeli, mosawyeni sa-dRegrZeloebi, Tavi amtkivdeba xolme. sul nemsebze vzivar, magram arc uari ar SeiZleboda, radgan ase iyo Tu ise, Cemi iq aryofna sawyenad daurCebodaT maspinZlebs.

sufras Tamadobda adgilobrivi xelisuflebis warmomad-geneli, esec iqauri wesia. Tamada intiligenturi garegnobis, dinji, darbaiseli sityva-pasuxis mqone kaci Canda. magram Tamadas da saerTod suyvelas, laparaks ar aclida mo-dRlezili, Savgvremani, msxvilTvaleba axalgazrda kaci, Wi-pamde Caxsnili perangidan banjgvliani mkerdi rom mouCanda da romelic Rvinisagan aprialebul Tvalebs daurideblad da udierad atrialebda garSemo.

axalgazrda kaci erTob Tavdajerebulad Canda. jer iyo da swrafad gauSinaurda stumrebs, Tumca, rogorc gamoirkva, zog maTgans adrec icnobda Turme. mere sakmaod binZuri, uxamsi anegdotebis moyola daiwyo. yvelaze mets TviTon xorxocebda Tavis naTqvamze. erTi sityviT, wagvWama yvelas Tavi. es ubodiSo lazRandaroba da yiamyraloba nervebs miSlida. sibraze yelSi mawveboda da Zlivs vikavebdi Tavs mware SeniSvnebisgan. gansakuTrebiT maRizianebda zogi Cve-ni qalis sicil-tkarcali da maTi gauTavebeli: jaba Sen

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genacvale, kidev moyevi ra, jaba Seni Wirime, kidev ra, _ ex-vewebodnen yelgamoweviT. jabasac meti ra undoda: rogorc Tevzi wyalSi, ise grZnobda Tavs, sayovelTao yuradRebiT galaRebuli. sruliad daiCrdila da daijabna Cveni Tava-ziani, inteligenturi garegnobis Tamada. jaba ki gamarjve-buli yoCiviT abrialebda Tvalebs da sul ufro ufro ilesavda enas.

jeri Cemze rom dadga, jabam saerTo yuradReba moiTxova da daaxloebiT aseTi ram Tqva; qalbatono maiko! Tqveni sworupovari silamaze da niWiereba imdenadaa sayovelTaod aRiarebuli, rom me ra unda Sevmato am xotba-didebas. sx-vaTaSoris, ymawvili biWebis saubars movkari yuri, sanam aq SemovidodiT, erTmaneTSi laparakobdnen, netai ramdeni wlis iqneba, ase gogoSkasaviT rom gamoiyurebao. mag `gogoSkaze~ Tqven ki ara, Tqve lawirakebo, didebic aranaklebad awkapune-ben enas da nerwyvi mosdiT-meTqi, _ davutatane biWebs, Tqveni es uberebeli silamaze didxans iyos sayovelTao aRtacebis saganio... da amgvari rameebis gagrZelebas kidev didxans apirebda albaT, magram fexze wamovuxti. sisxli TavSi ami-varda. Tumca Sevecade, garegnulad mSvidad dameWira Tavi:

_ ymawvilo! jer-erTi me TqvenTvis maiko ki ara-mariam jayeli gaxlavarT, meorec _ swored Tqveni simaRlis da xnis vaJi myavs. vinmeebSi xom ar geSlebiT, Cemo batono? da Semdeg: ajobebs jer sufraze jdoma da wesieri saubari iswavloT, sanam sadRegrZelos ityodeT!

icocxleT, niri ecvala! albaT silis gawna ise ar Seacbunebda, rogorc am sityvebma imoqmedes masze.

iseTi siCume Camovarda, rom ityvian, buzis gafrenas gaigonebda kaci. me kidev amayad kiseraRerili videqi da risxviT pirgamexebuls, Tvals veravin misworebda. ra vqna, nametani yelSi amomivida am biWis utifroba.

Tamada TavCaqindruli, darcxvenili ieriT ijda da Can-gals awvalebda xelSi. verc mas gaebeda CemTvis pirdapir Semoxedva.

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wamierad dabneuli da saqcielwamxdari jaba gons moego. Seecada ukbilo xumrobaSi miefuCeCebina uxerxuli mdgo-mareoba. xelebi farTod gaSala naZaladevi siciliT:

_ qali brZandebiT, qalbatono... mariam da Tanac aseTi mSvenieri qali! ra unda gkadroT...

_ qali rom var da Tanac stumari, swored imitom vika-veb mec Tavs, Torem me vici, Tqven risi Rirsic brZandebiT amaRam! _ mivaxale daundoblad: _ bolosdabolos, vin br-ZandebiT, ras warmoadgenT aseTs, amden uflebas rom aZlevT Tqvens Tavs?

Zalian aRmaSfoTa misma saqcielma, Cemo batono, da mec aRar davinde. Tumca mere ki cota Semecoda kidec, iseTi dabneuli saxiT iyureboda. patara xanSi adga da sufridan gaiZurwa. kargi gakveTili ki miiRo, me mgoni. iqneb Sem-degisTvis Wkua iswavlos!

_ qalbatono maiko! es xom Cveni jabaa, jaba xvilaria. imisgan rogor gewyinaT! man xom aseTi laparaki icis saer-Tod! _ CamCurCula Rvinisagan saxealewilma likam Sewuxe-buli saxiT.

_ ar vicnob da arc minda vicnobde aseT uzrdel da tutuc kacs! _ movuWeri civad likas, sakmaod xmamaRla. am gamosarClebam ufro damisxa cecxlze navTi. `rom ar mewy-inos sawyeni, xom ar ggonivarT balRia~-o, enis wverze mi-trialebda vaJas es striqoni, magram aRar vTqvi. sakmarisad CavTvale, rac vuTxari.

iciT, ra unda giTxraT, amiT Cemo batono? gaaznaure-buli mdabio, mainc mdabio rCeba yovelTvis. me warmoSobas ar vgulisxmob, rasakvirvelia, aramed sulis mdabiobasa da siRatakeze mogaxsenebT. CemTvis yovelTvis gaugebaria iseTi ukacraueli pasuxia da `pirovnebebis~ egzom didi siTa-mame da ambiciebi. mesmis _ zogi armad naSovni, ase vTqvaT, naqurdali fuliT aris gadidgulebuli da galaRebuli. zogs daumsaxurebeli saxelisagan TavSi aqvs avardnili da veRar guobs, ver Seuferebia bedis aseTi ucabedi wyaloba

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da ra qnas, ar icis! qerqSi vera da ver dateula. zogs Tanamdeboba asulelebs da yovelgvar sazRvars gadadis... magram... sulis siRatakis Sevseba, misi dafarva oinbazobiT-SeuZlebelia! maSin, CvenTan sufraze ijda sandro Sengelia, marTlac rom didebuli mecnieri da pirovneba, magram misi axloblebis mets aravis gaugia amxela kacis iq yofna! asea: _ niWiT da Tavisi saqmeebiT gamorCeuli adamianebi yovelT-vis Tavmdablebi arian! Cemze ukeT mogexsenebaT es ambavi!

me mesmis, Cemo batono, qarTul sufras uxdeba mxiarule-ba, maxvilsityvaoba, zomieri oxunjoba, silaRe, simRera da cekva-TamaSi, amis meti ra minaxavs Cems cxovrebaSi! magram... uzrdeloba da tutucoba ki _ nuras ukacravad! es ar gax-lavT Cveni tradicia, Cemo batono! miT umetes, roca sufras mandilosnebi usxedan. isev vimeoreb, baton jaba xvilari-anebis nairTa Tavgasulobasa da udierobas ver vitan!

mereda, arc ise uwyinarebi arian es tipebi, rogorc Sei-Zleba erTi SexedviT moeCvenos adamians. o, o, Tuki odnavadac aris Seexe maT pirad interesebs, odnavadac aris Selaxe maTi ambiciuri grZnoba _ sasikvdilod gadagemterebian. ar dagzogaven, ase rom vTqvaT, tankiviT gadagivlian zed! diax, diax, amaT, am suliT plebeebs, mZime da saSineli saqmeebis Cadena SeuZliaT piraduli angariSsworebis niadagze. sam-wuxarod, amis uamravi magaliTi viciT Cvens sinamdvileSi _ rogorc warsulSi, ise axlac!

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meore interviueri

`kabinetSi iseTi ria-ria iyo, imdeni Sedioda da gamo-

dioda, rom Tvals verc ki gaadevnebdi, vin-vin iyo.

jugueviCi savarZelSi gaSxlarTuliyo, grZeli fexebi gae-

CaCxa, cal xelSi erTi yurmili eWira, meoreSi _ meore da xan

erTs CasZaxoda Tavis baritoniT, xan _ meores. mere, rogorc

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iqna, morCa telefonze laparaks. viRacas gasZaxa Ria karebSi: _ Sen... isa... Semodi. Sen... isa... waiRe es! Sen... ra gqvia, dama-viwyda? ho, reno, isa... erTi fexi aq iyos, meore _ iq!

bolos, rogorc iqna, mec movxvdi misi mxedvelobis areSi._ Sen... isa... ra ginda?SigniT yvelaferi amiduRda. ukve vnanobdi, rom aq Semove-

di. am uzrdeli virglasTvis, hoi, ra miswreba iqneba axla erTi lazaTiani aliyuri-meTqi, gavifiqre, _ magram, vaglax!.. aba vin uTavazebs silas? visa aqvs cxra Tavi?

ena ise dameba, Zlivs movuyare Tavi saTqmels. ukve vicodi, rom araferi azri ar hqonda Cems Txovnas da mainc avuxseni, rom axalgazrdebma gadavwyviteT gagvemarTa poeziis saRamo da Tbilisidan mogvewvia axalgazrda poetebi-meTqi.

_ axalgazrda poetebio? _ gaasavsava xelebi jugueviC-ma saxemojRunulma: _ axla futuristebisTvis mcalia me? maTi Tvalebis gadatrialeba, oTaxis Cabneleba da sanTlebis Suqi minda me? _ ironiulad Caicin-Caixvixvina: _ ara, biZia, ar gvcalia saimisod. aba, Semdegi. Sen... isa ra gindoda? xo, Sen... isa... futuristo! moicade! _ karebSi SemaCera uSno RreWiT: _ ra ambavia es? jinsi rom Cagicvams, rusTavelis prospeqtze xom ar ggonia Seni Tavi, a?

_ me meubnebiT? _ wamiT ena wamerTva dambladacemuliviT. vigrZeni, cxeli sisxli loyaze momawva, TvalT damibnelda.

_ diax, Sen! sad ggonia Seni Tavi?_ jinsi samuSao tansacmeli gaxlavT, batono jaba! _ amov-

marcvle erTbaSad sulTqmaSekrulma: _ xolo... rodis Cavic-vam mas da rodis ara _ es ukve Cemi piradi saqme gaxlavT!

aSkarad davinaxe Cemma sityvebma Tu kilom wamierad ro-gor daabnia. damcinavi Rimili bageze Seeyina. ar moelo-da etyoba, am axlad gamoCekili `wvrilfexa~ Jurnalisti gogonasagan (Jurnalistio, weRan ise axsena, TiTqos kbilis tkivilma Seawuxao!) aseT mkvaxe pasuxs. uyure Sen amaso, Cailaparaka bolos TavisTvis da gverdulad CaiRima, magram

me ukve demonstraciuli ieriT gamovixure kabinetis kari.

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Cems magidas rom mivujeqi, xelebi da fexebi jerac mikank-

alebda aRSfoTebisagan. Cems sicocxleSi pirvelad Seurac-

myves da damamcires ase rigad!

`eg tutuci ega!.. eg tutuci... magdenic ar esmis, jinsi

gamosasvleli tansacmeli rom araa!.. jer erTi... vin hkiTx-

avs mas!.. vin hkiTxavs am virglas!.. oh, ra siamovnebiT ga-

vulawunebdi silas mag TviTkmayofil sifaTSi!.. Tumca ra!..

ra Seicvleboda amiT? me momiwevda samsaxuridan wasvla!

es iqneboda da es!.. mag briyvs xom mainc verafers Seasmen!

ZarRvic ar autokdeba!..

Cemive umweobis SegrZneba cotaTi gaminela am zogadma

da ironiulma msjelobam, magram pirad wyenasa da Seura-

cxyofaze ufro gulsatkeni gaxldaT is, saRamo rom unda

CaSliliyo! ra unda vuTxra yvela imaT, vinc esoden mxur-

vale monawileoba miiRo Cems wamowyebaSi...

`esec Seni xelovnebis mecenati!~ _ mwared meRimeboda.

gagonili mqonda, rom rac jugueviCi (ase eZaxian b-on

jaba xvilarias aqaurebi), mSeneblobis ufrosis moadgiled

gadmoiyvanes, moxSirda Turme saxelganTqmuli msaxiobebis

vizitebi mSeneblobaze, manamde ki isini mal-male stum-

robdnen Turme saCinos, sadac adre muSaobda b-oni jaba.

rakiRa adgilobriv mkvidrTa TvalSi b-oni jaba xe-

lovnebis moyvaruli brZandeboda, rogorc axal muSaks, mir-

Cies misTvis mimemarTa, miT umetes, rom am mravalaTasian

koleqtivSi jer ar Catarebuliyo amgvari RonisZieba. egeb

uSualod direqtorTan Sevsuliyavi-meTqi, gamielva wami-

erad da es fiqri gavuziare kidec Cveni gazeTis litmuSaks

nanuli barTaias, SeTavsebiT memanqanec rom iyo.

magram nanulim civi wyali gadamasxa. direqtori juguevi-

Cis gareSe da misi daukiTxavad nabijsac ar gadadgamso.

jugueviCis esoden didi avtoriteti ki sxva mravalTa So-

ris, gegias ministrobiTac aris ganpirobebuli, vinaidan ge-

gia jugueviCis RviZli mamidaSviliao da a.S.

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gamosavali TiTqos ar Canda, Tumca farxmalis dayras

mainc ar vapirebdi, Tvalwin medga Cveni gogoebisa da biWebis

saxeebi _ ZalRones rom ar iSurebdnen saRamos mosawyobad.

amasobaSi mSeneblobaze moxda iseTi ambavi, ramac mTeli Cemi

gegmebi da miznebi yiraze daayena.

erT mSvenier dRes direqtorTan saswrafod dagvibares

gazeTis redaqtori b. sardioni da _ me.

grZel magidas misxdomoda mSeneblobis TiTqmis yvela

xelmZRvaneli muSaki. rasakvirvelia, aqve iyo jugueviCi. igi

magidis TavSi ijda, direqtorTan axlos.redaqtori da me Semosasvlelis Soriaxlos dagvsves,

direqtori zorba tanis, Casuqebuli, Suaxnis mamakaci _ SublSekruli dasCereboda raRac qaRaldebs, mere rogorc gairkva, Cemi narkvevi iyo, stambidan rom amoeRoT saCqarod da wiTeli fanqriT rom iyo Tavidan bolomde gaxazuli.

haerSi TiTqos denTis suni trialebda. yurSi raRacas wuili gahqonda. guli gaSmagebiT micemda, lamis budidan amomvardnoda. nebisyofis daZabviT vcdilobdi saxeze mSvidi ieri amexata.

diax. gumaniT vgrZnobdi, saqme Cems narkvevs exeboda. ma-gram ra moxda, ra davaSave? vera da ver mivmxdariyavi.

_ Tqvena xarT dali Selegia, ara? _ mxolod erTxel gamomxeda direqtorma kuSti mzeriT da fanqris kakuni wamiT Sewyvita. dasturi rom miiRo, isev daxara mzera da didi, wiTeli fanqris kakuni ganagrZo magidaze.

_ mdaa! _ amoTqva bolos xangrZlivi siCumis Semdeg mra-valmniSvnelovnad da fanqari nawerze daagdo.

Tofis gasrolasaviT gaisma es xma, ufro sworad, ase aRviqvi me da uneburad Sevtokdi. ufro daviZabe. _ xelCar-Tuli brZolisaTvis Sevemzade TiTqos.

direqtorma laparaki daiwyo. Sekavebuli mrisxaneba is-moda mis odnav CaxleCil, xrinwgareul xmaSi.

rogor? redaqtorma da redaqciis muSakebma gana ar unda icodnen, rom mSeneblobaze araviTari tifi ar yofila, rom

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moxda gaugebroba, eqimebi Secdnen da Cveulebrivi kuWnaw-lavis aSliloba tifad miiCnies, rom komisiam yvelaferi es daadgina da gamoirkvia?

rogor SeiZleba aseTi Seumowmebeli werilis gamoqvey-neba? sad gagonila aseTi upasuxismgebloba? an vin mogcaT ufleba, amxanago gegenava, direqciasTan SeuTanxmeblad beW-doT amgvari werilebi?

ase rogor SeiZleba, amxanagebo? ras hgavs es? ase rogor SeiZleba? `ase rogor SeiZleba! ase rogor SeiZleba! ase rogor SeiZleba!~ _ kakunobs TavSi sityvebi _ nanulis sa-beWdi manqanasaviT. ramdenjerme SeviSmuSne. mere rogorRac, sruliad davmSviddi. raki dagviZaxes, albaT sityvis Tqmis saSualebasac momcemen-meTqi, _ gavifiqre da cotaTi daarx-einebuls, cnobismoyvare mzera gadamqonda erTi saxidan meo-reze, meoredan mesameze... mere isev pirvels vubrundebodi da Tavidan viwyebdi Tvalierebas. yvelani erTob gulmodgined da seriozuli saxeebiT dasCerebodnen win gadaSlil saqa-Raldeebs. mindoda, romelime maTganis mzera dameWira, ma-gram amaod. erTaderTi jugueviCi iyo, xandaxan Tvalebs rom gamisworebda, ufro sworad, sadRac raRacas Cems Subls zeviT _ miacqerdeboda moRuSuli saxiT.

uceb SevniSne _ filias motvlepil, priala Tavs zamTris msxvili buzi dasjdomoda, magram batoni filia, etyoba, ver grZnobs an... axla ar cxela misTvis _ srulebiT ar aqcevs yuradRebas, dro ki midis. buzi ar inZreva. Cans, gafrenas sul ar apirebs filisa Tavidan. survilma wamomiara _ fex-iswverebze Semdgari-mivparvodi da buzisTvis ameqSia.

ise, riTi sjobia buzis gadena? xeliT Tu... ara! peplebis dasaWeri bade ufro ivargebs, vfiqrob. da ai, nel-nela ve-parebi filias Tavs sulTqmaSekruli. wamic da!.. hopla! buzic da Tavic orTave badeSia!

sicili amityda iq, SigniT. pirs magrad vkumav, rom Ri-mili Sevikavo, _ sxvaTa Soris, friad uadgilo Rimili! da saerTod, ras hgavs es! ra dros buzia da bade!.. magram

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iq, SigniT Winka rom gauTaveblad xiTxiTebs da verafriT damiokebia? gagonila? warmoidgens gana vinme axla, aseT seriozul viTarebaSi _ aseTi araseriozuli fiqrebi da azrebi rom momdis TavSi? eg kidev araferi, egreve xeli meqaveba, rom saTiTaod yvelas Camovurigo warmosaxvaSi wa-mierad daxatuli karikaturebi.

ase vici xolme xandaxan. wamomivlis raRaca da war-mosaxvaSi viwyeb xatvas. jer sakuTari Tavidan Sevudgebi saqmes: yurcqvitas jinssa da sabos Cavacmev, xelSi qolgas davaWerineb, or xes Sua gaWimul Tokze Sevaskupeb da... ha da ha! Zlivs ikavebs Tavs, rom ar Camovardes. qvemoT ki, uSve-lebel ufskruls dauRia xaxa.

yurcqvita cali fexiT cdilobs wonasworobis dacvas da ikriWeba... uazrod. neta, ra acinebs am sulels?

`dalaxvros eSmakma! saidan gaqvT, qalbatono dali upa-suxismgeblobisa da agdebuli damokidebulebis grZnoba eg-zom mniSvnelovan, egzom daZabul situaciaSi!~

iq, SigniT isev ise qilikobs viRaca Tu... raRaca!.._ araviTari muclis tifi ar yofila, es Tqvenc mSvenivrad

mogexsenebaT, amxanago sardion! komisia imis komisiaa, rom simarTle daadginos. komisiam ki yvelaferi detalurad, dawvrilebiT Seamowma, gamoiZia, gamoirkvia _ araviTari mu-clis tifi! amis Semdeg arakvalificiuri narkvevis gamo-qveyneba...

_ jer ar gamoqveynebula, panteleimonoviC! _ sityva Sea-wyvetina direqtors jugueviCma da gaiRriWa: _ ase vTqvaT, mcdelobaa mxolod!.. da sxvaTa Soris, Cemis azriT, kargad dawerili narkvevia, niWierad!

_ ho... diax. miT umetes. miT umetes: _ (`ra SuaSia... miT umetes?~) _ aseTi narkvevis gamoqveynebis Tu gnebavT mcdeloba, danaSaulia, radgan sazogadoebis SecdomaSi Seyva-nas isaxavs miznad. amas iqiT aseTi saxis werilebis da narkvevebis dabeWdvis sakiTxi unda SeuTanxmoT administra-cias. gasagebia, amxanago gegenava?

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_ diax, rasakvirvelia... gasagebia yvelaferi. gaviTval-iswinebT momavalSi... mogexsenebaT axalgazrdebi...

_ Tqven Tqvens simaRleze unda idgeT da maSin aseTi saxis Secdomebi ar mogivaT!

_ rasakvirveklia... rasakvirvelia... gamovasworebT Sec-domebs... _ ena ebmis aWarxlebul redaqtors da saTvalesa da Wiris ofls, Sublze moxeTqils _ cxvirsaxociT imSralebs.

saocaria, TiTqos ucxos mzeriT aRviqvam yovelives, TiTqos is, rac aq xdeba axla, me sulac ar mexeba. an arada, TiTqos kino-suraTs vuyureb gulmSvidi da arxeini mzeriT.

`es ormoci wlis awowili mamakaci ra umweo bavSviviT luRluRebs!~ _ erTbaSad Semecoda redaqtori da Tan... SemezizRa kidec.

`TviTon damavala damewera es werili da axla... uyure Sen!.. qveSidan gamoZvra! laCari!~ _ ar davinde igi gunebaSi da wamoviwie.

_ Tu SeiZleba..._ mibrZandiT axla. ar aris saWiro. mibrZandiT. da moma-

valSi ar unda dauSvaT aseTi Secdomebi!_ me minda giTxraT, Tu SeiZleba, batono..._ yvelaferi gasagebia, mibrZandiT! saqmes mixedeT! ra

gvaqvs Semdegi sakiTxi? ho. dauZaxeT papaskirs...`mowmesaviT Semiyvanes da aseve uxmod, usityvod gamom-

abunZules gareT!~ _ aRSfoTebis da gaognebisagan TiTqos ena wamerTva. nerwyvs ver vylapav xaxagamSrali.

derefani damduRrebulebiviT gaviareT. mere win mimavali redaqtori erTbaSad SevaCere:

_ batono sardion, ras niSnavs es speqtakli? qveyanam xom icis, rom...

_ raki komisiam ar daadastura muclis tifi, _ Semawyveti-na redaqtorma gagulisebuli saxiTa da xmiT. _ maSasadame, arc yofila. morCa da gaTavda!

_ ki batono! me ki dagijereb amas! vTqvaT, werili am-ovardeba. magram im 50 muSas, romelic saavadmyofoebSi iwva

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muclis tifiTYdaavadebuli, da Zlivs rom gadaarCines _ imaT ras eubnebiT?

_ mTavaria ara is, Tu me da Sen, an is ormocdaaTi muSa ras fiqrobs, aramed is, Tu zemoT, _ mzera Werisaken aswia redaqtorma: _ ras ifiqreben! amas direqciisTvis aqvs mniS-vneloba, es misi prestiJis saqmea. gaige es, dali! Tumca Sen-Tan ra minda? Sen ra SuaSi xar? me unda gameTvaliswinebina es, me! Cemi bralia!

`Tqveni bralia, rom viRacas raRaca sWirdeba simarTlis dawixvlis gziT, ara?~

_ ki, magram, batono sardion, is komisiebi..._ davamTavroT amaze laparaki! _ Semawyvetina isev re-

daqtorma misTvis uCveulo gacxarebiT da nabijs auCqara.gavCumdi, ena movikvnite.`eh, ras izam! Tavs zeviT Zala ar aris! magram... es fari-

sevloba! es siyalbe!.. ra gulis amrevia yovelive es!~redaqciaSi rom SevdiodiT, karebSi davewie da isev Seva-

Cere redaqtori:_ batono sardion! erTi wuTiT... ukacravad, magram... Tqven

xom iciT, Tqven mainc xom iciT... rom me araferi tyuili ar damiweria! saTiTaod velaparake im muSebs, eqimebs, mom-vlelebs. bolosdabolos, kanalizaciis milebi aqamde rom SeukeTebelia _ es xom sinamdvilea!

_ vici, rogor ar vici, dali! _ uceb dadrka, rogorRac moimCvarTa da dapataravda es aylayuda kaci, mere TiTqmis CurCuliT ganagrZo laparaki, saxeSi rom ar miyurebda ise: _ gana ar vici, rom simarTle dawere, magram... raki komisiam ar daadastura, maSasadame, arc momxdara rame! gaige, axla asea saWiro es... CvenTvis, Cveni redaqciisaTvis! _ bolos xmas SeumaRla _ Cems uneblie Rimilze albaT!

waramara saTvales isworebda TiTiT, uxerxulobisa da mRelvarebisagan Tvalebi uparpalebda. mere SeSupebul-dawi-Tlebuli quTuToebi aswia da TiTqmis uwamwamo, WroRa Tva-lebiT kuStad momaCerda: _ gaige, dali, asea saWiro-meTqi...

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direqciisaTvis! mets nurafers mkiTxav! _ gatrialda da wavida mxrebwaxrili. sadRac Semecoda kidec, magram mainc ar davinde gunebaSi _ `laCaro~-meTqi _ SevukurTxe.

magidas rom mivujeqi, vigrZeni, muxlebi mikankalebda nerv-iulobisgan. Tavze xelebi Semoviwye da uazro TvalebiT davaCerdi magidis mikawrul-mokawrul zedapirs.

batoni jabas Tvalebi damidga anazdad Tvalwin, iq, direq-toris kabinetSi rom miyurebda: ras niSnavda misi sityvebi? viTom... gamomesarCla da Tan... raRacnairad ikriWeboda!..

vera da ver gavSifre is Rimili!..

da... tanSi usiamod gamcra!

...am SemTxvevidan mesame Tu meoTxe dRes, redaqciis mori-

gi davalebidan rom vbrundebodi, soflis centrSi, manqanis

molodinSi mdgars, uceb win `volga~ gamiCerda. moulodn-

elobisgan davibeni _ mZRoli batoni jaba aRmoCnda.

man wina kari gamiRo da manqanaSi SemipatiJa. Tavdapirve-

lad uaris Tqma davapire, magram meore wams TavSi gamirbina

elvasaviT, ratom vafiqrebino, qajiao.

igi raRacas melaparakeboda gzaSi. me alalbedze vpa-

suxobdi.

`ratom Cavujeqi... an TviT raSi dasWirda am yuradRebis

gamoCena?.. xom SeiZleboda, ar `SevemCnie~ da ise Caevlo?

davemdurebodi Tu ra?.. magram... esec xom ar aris didka-

curi Jesti, ai, me `amxela~ kaci rogori Tavmdabali var!~

`ra kargi xar, ra kargi, SuSpara da mCqefare!~ _ kinaRam

xmamaRla gamecina gunebaSi warmoTqmul am sityvebze. magram

rom ityvian, droze `davatormuze~.

ugulisyurod vusmendi baton jabas, Tavis `soflur~

voiaJebs rom miyveboda.

axla Cems gulSi rom Camoexeda, darwmunebuli var, aRS-

foTdeboda: rogor Tu me... aseTi Tanamdebobis piri Tavs

vuyadreb am bRarts, es ki... me ase da ise, is ki ise!.. da

misTanebi da misTanebi.

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don-Juanis anu Cveneburi meqalTanis yuradReba rom ar

aris es _ naRdia.

an ra qali unda viyo me misTvis! iseve, rogorc me ver

warmomidgenia masSi davinaxo qalTa gulismpyrobeli, rogo-

radac monaTlulia igi Turme aqaurebis mier!..

batoni jaba erTbaSad universitetis bolodroindel am-

bebs gadawvda (albaT imis niSnad, ai, me yvelafris kursSi

varo). mere Jurnalistis profesias da saerTod, Jurnali-

stebs misdga. aba, ra Jurnalistebi SeiZleba iyvnen sabWo-

Ta Jurnalistebi. CvenSi Jurnalistika saerTod gayiduli

dargiao da a.S. (`SemomxedeT, ra gabeduli biWi var! ra

disidentur azrebs gamovTqvamo!)-...yoCaR! midi, midi-meTqi~, _

vaqezebdi gunebaSi da ratomRac sicils Zlivs vikavebdi. ba-

toni jaba ki enamzeobda: _ Tumca... zogjer magari rameebic

ibeWdeba, gansakuTrebiT rusul presaSio, _ daaskvna bolos.

anazdad... Cemi werilebi axsena: niWierad, emociurad aris

dawerilio, kargi eniTo. mxatvrulado.

uceb momagonda: erTma Cveni ojaxis axlobelma miTxra,

rom icode, erTxel sufraze rogor aqo jugueviCma Seni

nawerebi, roca redaqcia axseneso. jabam maqo-meTqi, gavik-

virve maSin friad. gaugebaria gzani uflisani, Tan TiTqos

mecenatobs xelovnebas, Tan kidev... poeziis saRamo ar Ca-

matarebina! rac mTavaria _ Seuracyofa momayena. amigdo.

damcina, mere viTom... damicva kidec iq _ kabinetSi!

mis xmaSi axla iseT intonacias viWer, patara bavSvs rom

dauyvaveben xolme ufrosebi! `yoCaR patarav! aba, kidev Tqvi:

kurdRelo, yurqvitav!~

diax, baton jabas ise uWiravs Tavi, TiTqos araferi, ara-

nairi konfliqti ar momxdariyos Cvens Soris. sxvaTa Soris,

batonma jabam Cemi bolo narkvevic axsena:

_ ise, mag werilis gamoqveyneba mainc ar ivargebda, Tumca

kargad aris dawerili... mis publikacias SeiZleboda mrava-

li usiamovneba mohyoloda mTeli respublikis masStabiT...

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Tumca vici, axalgazrdebi maqsimalistebi da radikalistebi

xarT, _ Seajama bolos Tavisi `reCi-monologi~ b-ma jabam

da mcire xnis Semdeg dasZina: _ mec maqsimalisti viyavi, in-

stituti rom davamTavre, magram... cxovreba, realoba _ sul

sxva ramea. donkixotoba aRar gamodgeba!mdumared vijeqi da simarTle rom vTqva, cali yuriT vus-

mendi mis laybobas. au, ramdeni laparaki scodnia mainc am dalocvils! Siga da Sig Tavis nakiTxobis, ganaTlebulobis da Tanamedrove moazrovne kacis STabeWdilebis moxdena rom undoda _ es cxadad Canda. oRond _ risTvis?ratom? raSi

sWirdeboda es Tavis gamoCena, es mariaJoba CemTan, viRac cx-

virmouxocav bRartTan, rogoradac vesaxebodi uTuod!

_ xom meTanxmebi, rom werilis dabeWdva ar iyo sa-

surveli? _ uceb kvlav daubrunda igi am Temas, xanmokle

pauzis Semdeg: _ marTalia, panteleimonoviCi cota zedmetad

gacxarda, magram... principSi marTali iyo! im werilis da-

beWdva ar SeiZleboda. es SenTvisac, Seni karierisTvisac ar

ivargebda! ar meTanxmebi?

_ ara. ver dageTanxmebiT! _ movuWeri erTbaSad.

_ ai, xom vTqvi! axalgazrdebi zedmetad maqsimalistebi

xarT-meTqi! miT umetes, Sen xom _ bavSvi xar!

_ ratom var bavSvi?

_ aba ara? ramdenis xar, Tu saidumloeba araa?

_ 23-is gaxlavarT!

_ o, o, daberebulxar da egaa! _ Taviseburad Caixvixvin-

Caifrutuna jugueviCma. _ ise, bevrad ufro patarad gamoiy-

urebi!

ukve yelSi amomdioda yvelaferi. es familaruli `Sen~

ki _ saSinlad maRizianebda.

ratom `Sen~? ra uflebis ZaliT melaparakeba ase Sinau-

rulad?

_ maS, simarTle... simarTle... _ wamoiwyo isev xvilariam.

mere erTbaSad mkveTrad Semobrunda Cemsken da: _ ki magram,

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simarTlis mTqmels cxeni Sekazmuli unda hyavdeso, ar ga-

gigonia, pativcemulo Jurnalisto?

_ gamigonia!

_ simarTle gamogilevs sinaTleso, esec gsmenia albaT! _

iRriWeboda isev-ise b-ni jaba.

_ msmenia esec!

_ Tu gsmenia, maS...

_ simarTle iseTi ramaa, _ Sevawyvetine erTbaSad, _

dedamiwac rom gadaefaros, mainc ar daimalebao.

_ es vin Tqva? ver vigoneb..._ Seqspirma, rusTavelma ki brZana: `nu amrudeb simarTle-

sa, nu waiwymed amiT sulsao~. xolo saxarebaSi weria..._ ah, saxareba da misTanebi ar mixseno axla, Tu qali xar!

saxareba minda me _ gaqanebul aTeist-komunists? xa, xa, xa..._ me aq unda Camovide, Tu SeiZleba gamiCereT!.. didi mad-

lobeli var..._ unda Camoxvide? ratom? jer qalaqamde xom..._ aq raRac patara saqme maqvs..._ ki batono. rogorc gnebavs, Tumca... SegveZlo gagveg-

rZelebina Cveni saubari. qalaqSi axali bari gaixsna. gpatiJeb...

_ gmadlobT, gamiCereT!xazgasmuli TavazianobiT davemSvidobeT erTmaneTs. ram-

denime xanSi redaqciidan wamovedi. Semdeg _ raionidanac, magram... es cota grZeli ambavia da... axla amaze ar Rirs saubari!

fiqrTa gala

`mirbis, mimafrens... rac marTalia, marTalia, didebuli ra-maa qrola! frTebgamosxmuliviT rom mifrinav, miapob sivrc-es! euh! germaniis gzebiviT rom iyos _ icocxle, qrola,

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maSin unda genaxaT! axla ra? ra Sedarebaa? ginda ar ginda,

iZulebuli xar moToko Jini. ra ici, uceb ra gamogityvreba.

miT umetes... ara, mersedes-benci arc egaa, magram im taraknebs

mainc jobia. tyuilad rom momcen, ar minda, Zmao, ara. erTi

wkipurtic kmara, rom nawil-nawil daiSalos-JeStebiviT.

Tavmomwone kaci arc unda Cajdes magaSi. naRdad ara. Tumca...

eg xom Cveni gzebisTvis araa gaTvaliswinebuli. uuh. ra man-

qanebia sazRvargareT! yidva rom SeiZlebodes! afsus!

ras izam. unda dasjerde imas, raca gaqvs. ise, kacma rom

Tqvas, urigo manqana arc egaa. Tvinieria, advilad gemor-

Cileba da mogyveba xelSi. qaliviTaa ra! hm. _ ironiulad

CaiRimila _ erTi Seni colia Tvinieri da morCili!.. mainc

ra wiokobas atexavs xolme, kaco, yoveli wamosvlis win!

arc saCuqrebi Wris am dros da arc mofereba da tkbili

sityva. apa, apa. arafers ikarebs. rom CaerTveba, gaTavda. aRar

gamoerTveba. tvins giburRavs ra. sul erTi da igive, sul

erTi da igive... rom aRarc bezrdeba, kaco? saidan moaqvs

anda amdeni salanZRavi sityvebi am SobelZaRls, romel le-

qsikonebSi poulobs?

Senc iTmen. sxva ra gza gaqvs. arada, ukve yelSia amo-

suli. ha da ha. Zlivs ikaveb Tavs, rom... euh, ramden energias

xarjavs, kaco! mereda, risTvis, ratom? xom sul tyuila-

ubralod iWaWeba amdens. xom icis, rom Sen mainc Sensas

gaitan. icis, rogor ara! icis, icis, rom Sen xvdebi, rom man

icis, magram... viTom ar ici da Tavs ikatuneb. axla; biWi xar

da ar moikatuno _ qveyanas Segiyris! hoda, Senc iZulebuli

xar, iTmino. `voobSemc~ cirkia ra! axla ro igoneb... magram

maSin, im dros... suli kbiliT giWiravs, sibraze gaxrCobs.

samagierod, _ cotac da... heri, biWo! CitiviT Tavisufali

xar. da miqrixar ager axla _ frTebSesxmuliviT. male

TbilisSi iqnebi!

eh, ra sjobia Tavisuflebas. kacma rom Tqvas, ise xSirad

xar TbilisSi, bevrs verc daarwmuneb, iq rom ar muSaob.

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erTi-ori welic da... saerTodac gadaval, magis rju-lic ar iyos! provincia mainc provinciaa. amasobaSi bavS-vebic wamoizrdebian. codvaa maTi saCinoSi gaCereba. mere qeTisTvis miT umetes _ aucilebelia Tbilisi... (eRimeba siamovnebis RimiliT. saxe ebadreba). xelidan xelSi ga-dadioda bavSvi. yvela aRtacebuli iyo da gakvirvebuli. xumroba saqmea, im sigrZe rusuli leqsi TiTistola bavSvma zepirad rom Tqva. mere rogori gamoTqmiT, ra uaqcentod! sul pawawkintela iyo maSin _ oTxi wlis xdeboda. ram-dens SeSurda. ramdeni daiboRma. `rogor SeiZleba aseT pa-tara bavSvs amodena poema aswavloTo... mere, SuaRamisas ra unda scenaze cerodena baRanaso~! _ gamoajavra gunebaSi es viTomcda `keTilismdomni~ _ bavSvis tvinis gadaRla Turme ar SeiZleba!

hm. icis, gana ar icis, ra kuWis wvac hqondaT am viTomda `mzrunvelebs~! sinamdvileSi, SeSurdaT bavSvis niWiereba, aseTi sayovelTao yuradReba. es iyo da es. isedac xom yvelaferi SurT Seni, SurT kargi biWi rom xar, purmaril-iani, amdeni cnobili poetebi, mwerlebi da msaxiobebi Seni Zmakacebi rom arian, kargi coli rom gyavs _ erTguli, meojaxe, kai Svilebi rom gezrdeba _ niWierebi, lamazebi! wuwuraqi rom ara xar da kapikebs rom ar dakankaleb _ zog-zogiviT! ratom ara, rato ar iqneba xalgaSlilio _ Cum-Cumad igeslebian. TiTqos imaT waarTvi rame. maTxovre-bi! suliT arian maTxovrebi da Surianebi! am Surianobam, erTmaneTis mimarT gautanlobam ar daaqcia odiTgan saqa-rTvelo?.. mwuxareba sxvaTa sikeTis gamoo... vina Tqva ega? isev qarTvelma! jandabamdis hqonia gza yvela moSurnesa da flids...

kargi amindia. mziani. Tbili. gazafxuli gegoneba. noem-bris miwuruli kia. kai Semodgoma icis Cvensken...

oTxi saaTisTvis TbilisSi viqnebi.kidev cota da _ gainavardeb TbilisSi. Tavs aiwyvitav

Seneburad, Zveleburad...

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ex. marTla ra sjobia Tavisuflebas?es musikac pirdapir cecxls gikidebs, ZarRvebSi sisxls

giduRebs. magari musikaa, Zmao, rac marTalia, marTalia! iaponur magnitofonsac, tyuilia, sxva ver Seedreba... ro-gor esiamovna aleqsandroviCs videomagnitofoni rom mi-arTvi dabadebis dReze... saCuqari yvelas siamovnebs, baba! marTalia, Sen ki darCi uvideomagnitofonod. mara... ara uS-avs. patara xanSi isev geqneba. male ainazRaureb danakliss~. aleqsandroviCi ki saWiro kacia... rasaca gascem Seniao...

marTlac, xuravs eg musika. uh, kargia ase: miqrixar musi-kis qveS da gulSi taqts ayoleb... axla gverdiT rom hmx.

hmx... sasurveli mandilosanic gejdes... Tundac marina, anda

lalikuna. ara. xaTuna. xaTu sul sxva vinmea. ox, ra mofe-

reba icis mainc... rom warmoidgen, Jruanteli givlis tanSi...

magari qalia, rac marTalia, marTalia! da rogor gelodeba

axla _ vin icis... xaTusac Camoutane holandiidan kai ra-

meebi. sxvebsac. principSi, aravisTvis dagiwyvetia guli. ise

kacma rom Tqvas, yoveli Seni stumroba TbilisSi zeimia

Seni ZmakacebisTvis, Tumca... ra stumari, risi stumari? ras

miqarav? Sen yvelgan maspinZeli xar _ iqac da aqac! isRa

gaklia axla, Sen sufrasTan ijde da sxva vinme gaiqaCos...

rogor gekadrebaT, Cemo batono! marTalia, dro TiTqos wax-

da, magram... zrdiloba jer ar dagvikargavs, gvesmis magdeni!

hoda, rom ician Seni ambavi, imitom ufro uxariaT Seni

Camosvla. aba, zog-zogiviT ki ara xar _ mxolod angariSiT

rom icis pur-marili: raRacas rom gamoelis Sengan, imitom

moiqaClavs xolme Tavs! RvTis winaSe, Sen am mxriv pirnaTe-

li kaci xar. Tumca... mTlad uangaroao, arc Senze iTqmis

maincdamainc! amisTana saxelganTqmul, cnobil xalxSi qeifi

da drostareba _ saxumaro saqme ar gaxlavT: aq prestiJis

ambavicaa, sxvas rom Tavi davaneboT. nu... rogorc aris, ra!

amis win rom iyavi TbilisSi _ ra SaubereT! sufra iyo,

nu, marTla zRapari. rom ityvian, Citis rZec ar aklda. Senc

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zenitSi iyavi, aris xolme zogjer... yvelaferi rom aewyoba! yvelaferi rom kargad gamogdis.

ox, ra ambavSi viyaviT, ra sicil-xarxari, ra masxroba-oxunjoba!.. ara, msaxiobTa amqari mainc sul sxva xalxia, Zmao, sul sxva eSxi da lazaTi aqvs maTTan qeifs da drostarebas, rac marTalia, marTalia.

xa, xa, xa... ra ambebi datrialda im saRamos, xa, xa, xa... cirkebi iyo swored. codva gatexili sjobs _ giyvars Sen egeTi `pikantni~ rameebi da... Tavis daZvrena TiTqos gamou-vali situaciebidan. egec TamaSia, Zmao, da Senc urigod ar TamaSob _ mgoni. aki geubnebian kidec Seni Zmakacebi, codvis kiTxva ar aris, aseTi aqtioruli talanti ikargebodeso... xa, xa, xa!

ho, TamaSze moagonda:`pokeris TamaSs unda SeeSva, biZia... jerjerobiT! rogorc

iqna, gaistumre is valebi, xolo Tu im `operaciam~ kargad Caiara, mere... SeiZleba! axla ki _ stop! unda moiTmino, baba! sxva gza ar aris! ise, valiko didi axvari vinmea. yvelaferi ki ar unda ikisro kacma _ aqaoda, CeCqiviT maqvs fulio. xvadagia, sufTa xvadagi ra! is wiwkvebi... nametania, me da Cemma RmerTma. sazRvari xom unda icode kacma!

Tumca... principSi Senc mase ara xar, kacma rom Tqvas? Senc Tavgzas ar gibnevs lamazi qali? seqsi, baba, seqsi. ase yofila aTadan-babadan. axla, me-20 saukuneSi ki ara, leri miyveboda, Turme me-17 saukuneSi, roca Weri gveqceoda Tavze, Cveni episkoposebic ki drostarebas da arSiyobas yofilan gadayolili, muxlmodrekiT svamdnen Turme mandilosnis sa-dRegrZelos _ mandilosnisve fexsacmliT! abaa, asea saqme, Cemo keTilo!

ise, wignis Wia kia marTla is ojaxqori leri! ra akiTxebs amden wigns, kaco! gulaxdilad rom Tqva, erTi wigni ar geqneba bolomde Cafurcluli, Tumca wignebiT ki gaqvs gamotenili karada da did mwignobradac mogaqvs

kidec Tavi sxvebTan!

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ase, yurmokvriT, aqa-iq ici xolme raRac-raRaceebi da

ostaturad ayri TvalSi nacars xalxs. ostatobaa, aba, ra?

mcodnis poziT gaCumde iq, sadac ici, rom fons ver gaxval

Seni nakiTxobiT. is ki ara, mTlad gulaxdili rom iyo sa-

kuTar TavTan, mxolod im poetis iseT leqsebs imaxsovreb,

xalxSi popularuli romaa, Torem... arc erTi maTgani bo-

lomde ara gaqvs wakiTxuli. nu, es exla marto Sen ici da...

sxvebi amas ver mixvdebian verasodes. miT umetes, qalebTan...

iolas gadixar! Tumca, im cxvirabzekilma saxalxo artist-

ma~ ki gifrina erTxel magrad!.. magis deda... axlac _ rom

gaxsendeba _ sisxli gawveba gulze.

`ymawvilo! jer _ erTi, me maiko ki ara _ mariami mqvia!~...

uux, magis!..

ise, axi kia. gadavyeviT, lamis Tavze davisviT, iseTi pativi

veciT da erTi ubralo gaxumreba raa _ isic ver aitana

qalbatonma.

mag SobelZaRlma patara bavSviviT ar agiwia yuri? mereda,

amodena xalxis TandaswrebiT! oh, ras gamwardi maSin! sibra-

zem yelSi wagiWira. ase qals arasodes daumcirebixar, mere-

da _ sajarod, yvelas Tvalwin! mzad iyavi _ iqve migesikv-

dilebina. ki, ki. SesaZlebloba rom gqonoda, sasikvdilod

gaimetebdi, miaxrCobdi iqve, an tankiviT gadauvlidi! o, o,

damcirebas da Seuracxyofas aravis apatieb, Tuki mogeca

samagieros gadaxdis saSualeba! maSin ki... maSin iZulebuli

iyavi gadageylapa yvelaferi, is ki arada, Tavi ise mogeCvene-

bina, viTom araferi momxdarao. ras ifiqrebdi, Tu aseTi

ampartavani brZandeboda is qalbatoni, Torem ra RmerTi

gagiwyreboda da...

dalaxvros eSmakma! cota xanSi damnaSavesaviT gaipare

sufridan. icocxle, mere ki inane: ar unda wamosuliyavi

jinaze. magram... viqtoroviCis mogerida ufro. mere kidev

maSin ufro axalgazrda iyavi da imodena siTamame da ga-

mocdilebac aRar gagaCnda, axla rom gaqvs, Torem... aba, axla

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sufras rogor miatoveb _ mariam jayeli ki ara, TviT Rmer-Tic rom Camovides cidan!

mere rogor ar ecade, magram veranairad ver miudeqi am pa-tiosnebiTa da saTnoebiT saxelganTqmul, ulamazes `saxalxo artists~. afsus! maSin rom ar aCqarebuliyavi, vin icis!.. qali mainc qalia, rac ar unda iyos!.. aki gegona xaTunac ar gagikarebda axlos mag ambebis Semdeg, mara... iseTi saCuqrebi miarTvi da Tanac iseTi leqsi uZRveni _ rom gaxeTqs qva-saca magarsao, miT umetes... am mxurvalebas ver gauZlebda gulCvili, mgrZnobieri da alersmowyurebuli qalis guli.

leqsebic, etyoba, urigo ar gamogdis! yovelSemTxvevaSi, ase garwmuneben Seni Zmakacebi. aki TviT xaTunac... waeba! maTi gamoqveyneba ki arasodes gicdia. RmerTma dagifaros. Sen TviTon ar migaCnia es saWirod, Torem... win ra dagidgeba? miT umetes _ axla! zogi Seni axlobeli poetis leqsebs arc arafriT Camouvardeba isini, kacma rom Tqvas, mara... ara xar maTsaviT gulnamceca da xarbi, oRond daibeWdos da yovelgvar nagavs rom aqveyneben! axalgazrda rom iyo, iqneb Senc gekisra dabeWdva! magram... awi ar Rirs. sakmarisia isic, rom sakuTar Wias axareb da zog sxvasac siamovnebas ani-Web! ise, kacma rom Tqvas, axalgazrda rom iyavi, sad gecala leqsebisaTvis, anda redaqciebSi sirbilis Tavi sad gqonda! dRe da Rame laRiZis wylebTan iyavi ayudebuli... Tu vinmes Seni naxva undoda, rusTavelze gipovnida, anda `zemelze~...

euh, ra gogoebi gamodiodnen maSin rusTavelze! erTi meoreze ukeTesebi. ar icodi, romelisTvis dagedga Tva-li. axla ra? sadRa naxav axla quCebSi imisTana gogoebs? sul manqanebSi arian axla SeyuJuli. fexiT gavlas rafer ikadreben axla rusTavelze!

...am dedabers Sevsvam axla swored manqanaSi _ Tavis fuTebianad! ras wevs xels, rom wevs? ar icis, ro aravin gauCerebs manqanas?

hm... im gogom... amis win manqana rom gagaCerebina Tbilis-Si... rogor gadagria, kaco! sul wiwkvi ki iyo is, mamaZaRli,

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magram euh, ra `nagli~ vinme gamodga, kaco! biZias ki geZa-xda, hm! xi... xi... xi... ras ar kisruloben `Smotkebis~ da restoranSi qeifis gulisaTvis!

kaco, mainc ram gadariaT ase? eh, waxda droeba. am manqa-nebma mTlad... gaaoxra xalxi. Sens axalgazrdobaSi sad iyo amdeni manqanebi, axla roa! arc televizorebi gaxldaT ise xSiri, magnitofonebsa da videoebs rom Tavi gavaneboT. ise, codva gamxelili sjobia _ Senc kai xania fexiT ar givlia Tbilisis quCebSi. Tumca, raRa TbilisSi _ saCinoSic aRar dadixar fexiT. gezareba da... imitom! manqanam miCveva icis da mere rogor! saCinoSi ukve iseTi moZraobaa, imedni manqa-nebia, rom fexiT verc gaivli, mgoni. yvela nabiWvars hyavs mainc manqana. avariebic amitom moxSirda, baba! asea es! vin dagidevs moZraobis wesebs?

Senc xom mase xar? ramdenjer mTvrali misjdomixar saWes!..

eh, maSin manqana ar gyavda, marTalia, magram mainc kai dro iyo... sesiebze ki gqonda cieb-cxeleba da enagadmogdebuli ki darbodi proteqtoris ZebnaSi, magram im simwareebsac axla siamovnebiT igoneb. mainc sul sxvaa axalgazrdoba, sul sxvanairi xar maSin! xalasi. marTali. es merea, cxovre-ba... Tumca gulwrfelad rom Tqva, sul ara xar cxovrebis ukmayofilo! marTalia, Zlivs moaxrCve instituti, magram mere xom gamimarTla? iRbali rogor ar aris, kaco!.. xelis wamkvrelic droze gamogiCnda... ratom unda viyo ukmayo-filo? Tanamdeboba, fulebi, manqana, kai Wama-sma, sazRvarga-reTis sagzurebi, kai dros tareba... `karoCe~, yvelaferi saaTiviT aewyo.

amis winaT is yiamyrali benia viTom gexumra, codvis kiTxva araao, Sen italiaSi iyo namyofi, xolo rezo bJala-vas saCinodan fexi ver gaudgamso. gasakviria pirdapir am xalxis ambavi! ki, batono, niWieri mxatvaria, rogorc amboben, rezo bJalava! araferi maqvs misi sawinaaRmdego, magram rezo bJalavam SeiZleba Tavis dReSi italia ver naxos. Tanxis

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saqmec rom moagvaros, vin miscems, kaco, bJalavas italiis sagzurs? hoda, aqaoda, bJalava ver naxavso da Senc ar unda gexilao, _ roca aris amis SesaZlebloba, _ naxo leonardo da vinCi, rafaeli Tu... mikuko da makuko? xa... xa... xa... ki marTalia, inCi-binCi ar gesmis mxatvrobis, magram, kacma rom Tqvas, mainc unda naxos isini adamianma! miT umetes _ prest-iJulma! mase arc fexburTis didi gulSematkivari brZandebi, Cven Soris rom darCes, mara _ mara ra? Cvens fexburTelebs xom axldi swored sazRvargareT! sxva Tu araferi, simaRle da wona mainc gaqvs imodena, rom saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi, uqomago gunds; sxva Tu araferi, zogierT `viTom~ gulSe-matkivar qondriskacs xom sjobixar am mxriv? xa, xa, xa...

ho, erisSvilobasa da mamuliSvilobaze icis zogma brty-el-brtyeli laparaki, viTom esao da isao... sainteresoa, riTi var me vinmeze naklebi patrioti? rao, viTom vinmeze naklebad Semtkiva guli Cems xalxsa da qveyanaze?.. damimt-kicos mavanma da mavanma, rom me marto Cemi karierisaTvis viRwvi _ zogierTiviT! marto Cemi piraduli mainteresebs, rom mxolod Cemi siamovnebisTvis var gadagebuli, rom mx-olod muclis amoyorvisTvis da sakuTari naSierebisTvis vzrunav dRe da Rame (Tumca, arc is unda iyos saZraxi-si, Svilebis momavlisTvis ifiqros wesierma kacma!). kai cxovreba, kai Wama-sma da Cacma-daxurva _ aravis awyens, Cemo keTilo! viRacam Tqva, axla ar maxsendeba, kai cxovrebisaT-vis xdeba revoluciebio! aba, Tu isev ise mSivrebi, titv-lebi da proletarebi davrCebodiT, ra azri hqonda amden sisxlisRvras, amden msxverpls, amodena xalxis daxocvaso! marTalia es! apa ara!

visac ar umarTlebs xolme cxovrebaSi, visac xeli ecare-ba, ai isaa yovelTvis daboRmili da sxvasac kbens. elementa-rulad Surs Seni da _ imitom! Sen Tu laye xar, doylapia, ugergilo, ar ici cxovrebis alRos aReba, bunebrivia, sxvisi fxianoba, sazrianoba, gonebis simkvircxle, moxerxebuloba da alRoianoba _ SegSurdeba. asea es. magrad ki iyo soliko

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im dRes galeSili, magram simarTles ambobda; (simTvraleSi zogjer metismetad gulaxdili xdeba adamiani!), me rom movkvdebi, vici, araferi darCeba Cemi, erTi striqonic kio. es bevr sxvasac mSvenivrad moexseneba Tavis gulSi, oRond xmamaRla Tavs ar gautydebao. hoda, raRa damrCenia me? sa-nam cocxali var _ unda vicxovro kidec, Cemo Zmao, `sanam cocxal var, ase viq: vaxareb Cemsa iasa, movkvdebi, gauxardeba samaris karze Wiasa~-o, asea es. sanam var, aq, am dedamiwaze _ xolo iq ra aris, aravin uwyis _ unda vicxovro kidec gemoze! diax, unda movaswro da am bindisfer wuTisofels gamovtaco siamis yoveli wami, yoveli wuTi. swored aq, am miwaze _ axlave, dResve! guSindeli dRe TiTqos arc yo-fila! _ sizmariviTaa wasuli! dResve, axlave unda moaswro! xvale iqneb gvian iyos! an: gagiTendeba kia xvalindeli dRe?

marTalia soliko _ raki erTxel modixar am qveyanaze _ unda moaswro, rasac moaswreb: saxeli iqneba, pativi, dideba Tu... qoneba. Tavs xom ar moityueb marTla da marTla! mokvdebi Tu ara _ gaTavda! samudamod gaqreba Seni saxeli. miwa SegWams da morCeba yvelaferi. meore dResve daavi-wydebi suyvelas!..

hoda, dRes, axlave unda miiRo, unda Seirgo da Seitkbo yoveli amqveyniuri siame, razec ki xeli migiwvdeba. vinc ra unda Tqvaso... da Tu vinme gadagidgeba am gzaze... araviTari dandoba, araviTari Sewyaleba! Tumca... me ra? me ra saxsene-beli var viqtoroviCTan! o, o, ai vin aris xviTo: mtrisas! ra daundobeli da sastiki SeuZlia iyos, Tuki gzaze ga-daeRoba vinme! tankiviT gadauvlis. anda, iseT muxanaTur, veragul maxes daugebs, rom misi msxverpli azrzec ver mova _ ra gaukeTes. ranairad! oxoxoxo! ra saSiSi kacia da rogori gulRrZo! sakuTar dedas ar daindobs _ aramcTu sxvas! daufiqreblad gamoWris yels sulyvelas _ piradi gandidebisaTvis! Sen verafers gibedavs jerjerobiT, radgan icis, zurgi rom gaqvs magari, Torem... gulze rom ar ax-atixar _ eg cxadze ucxadesia! potenciur metoqes xedavs

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SenSi da... imitom! jerjerobiT, piriqiT, gepirfereba kidec. da saerTod, ra murtali qlesaa imaTTan, vinc sWirdeba!.. nemsis yunwSi gaZvreba xolme ufrosis gulisTvis, samagi-erod, Tavis xelqveiTebTan unda naxos kacma- _ ra uxeSi da dauridebelia... oxoxo, mtrisas! aseTi kaci unda aqo da... erido! saxeze ki sul Rimili dasTamaSebs, Tavaziani da zrdili jeelia viTom! ase gegoneba: WianWvelas fexs ar daadgamso. gulborot adamianebs niRbis Rimili da dax-vewili jalaTis manerebi aqvTo, amboben... patara fexi Tu gadaubrunda `imas~... ox, ras Sedgeba!

stop! gamosulan saSovarze! sada gaqvs axla amaTTan jijRinisa da lailais Tavi! Seunele, ra genaRvleba... ise, magrad ki arian gawuwkebuli. asec ar SeiZleba, kaco! raRac zomiereba xoa saWiro? magram kaci rom gaRordeba, `Cveni~ vilis ar iyos... ubedurebaa! xarbi da uZRomeli xdeba.

`ramdenadaa mizanSewonili... da gamarTlebuli bunebaSi aseTi uceremonio Carevebi~, _ `Tqven rogor fiqrobT, ba-tono jaba?~ `ra azris brZandebiT, batono jaba!~

hoo... ekologiis problemebi axla modaSia Turme! tele-viziis is matrakveca korespondentic, enas rom ar asveneb-da... sajdomi unda auWrelo wkepliT amisTanebs...

viTom ar icis, rom me ar vadgen am proeqtebs.`Tqven rogor fiqrobT, batono jaba!~ _ gamoajavra gune-

baSi korespondents da Caiqirqila: `viTom ar icis... me, magaliTad, damavales da muxuris mcxovreblebs ganvumarte gasaxlebis saWiroeba da is sikeTe, rac eleqtrosadgurs moaqvs mosaxleobisaTvis... es sul sxva saqmea, baba! ki. Sei-Zleba zogi ram mec ar mimaCndes marTebulad, magram sa-jarod amis Tqma? isic televiziiT? euh! eseni vin arian, kaco! ara, didi Serekili xalxia, RmerTmani es Jurnali-stebi da filologebi! raRa Sors midixar, Senma naTesavma Jurnalistma qalma ar wamogaZaxa amis wineebze sufraze, sadac poetebi da mwerlebi isxdnen: Sen qarTuli poeziis sadRegrZelos Tqmis ufleba ara gaqvso, Svilebi araqar-

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Tul skolaSi dagidiso! elaparake axla amisTana WkuanaR-rZobs. ki scade, gageqarwylebina is usiamo STabeWdileba, misma sityvebma rom moaxdines, magram raRacnairad ugergilo gamovida xumroba!.. gulze iyavi gamskdari da... imitom! ena unda waaWra amisTana enagrZelebs. nametani didi warmodge-nis brZandebian TavianT Tavze, TavianT viTomda `simarTlis moyvarulobaze~! daica, rogora Tqva im korespondentma: ho, simarTlis moyvarulebad ibadebiano, batono jaba! gamoudeq simarTleso, gamogilevs sinaTleso... Tu... rogorc ari, ra!

vin kiTxavs, kaco, amaT qveynis avkargs? visi tiki-tomara arian? im dali Selegiasi ar iyos! ras warmoadgenen bo-losdabolos? vin daniSna egeni momrigebel mosamarTled? igive dali Selegias raSi esaqmeboda im soflis gasaxlebis ambavi? saxelganTqmuli mwerali, poeti Tu saxelmwifo moR-vawe brZandeboda? tyuilubralod, rad unda gaifuWo Tavi kacma? ar sjobda, Tavis tyavSi dateuliyo? lamazi gogo iyo. niWieri. hoda, Tavis saqmisTvis miexeda. gaTxoviliyo. ojaxi Seeqmna, Svilebi gaeCina. Svilebi rom gaaCino, isini xom simarTlis moyvarulebad unda gazardoo, xolo Tu Ta-vad cru da yalbi pirovneba xar, Svilebic xom aseTebi gaiz-rdebiano, _ atlikinebda enas is aSaRlari korespondenti.

`kargi moqalaqe rom iyo, aucilebeli rodia ueWvelad saqveynod cnobili pirovneba brZandebode. marto rangi da wodeba pirovnebas ver qmniso. samasi aragvelis vinaoba ara-vin uwyis, magram TiToeuli maTgani, saWiroebam rom moiTxo-va, gmiri gaxda, usaxelo, usaflao gmirio~.

oxoxoxo. elaparake amisTana daqoqils! tyuilad wylis nayva gamova. elementarulad ar esmis, rom... xarTan morqe-nal kameCs, rqebi ar SerCeba! diax, yvelam Tavisi adgili unda icodes cxovrebaSi, baba. da im bayayiviT ar mouvides _ fexi rom aaSvira, mec xariviT damWedeTo... asea, es. mTavaria, Seni adgili icode! da... dros moergo! dros alRo auRo! sulac ar aris cudi sityva-medroveoba! diax. dros unda gaugo _ esaa mTavari.

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`Cven uCinoni, Cven uCinoni, Tqven CinianTa buzad ggonivar-To~, viTom xumrobiT Caginiskarta im enagalesilma, metiCara korespondentma. ra SuaSi iyo ilia? viTom rao? vai magis patrons ubedurs!

mag dalis ambavSi ki _ me marTla arafer SuaSi ara var. RmerTi. xati, rjuli! Tumca bevrs ki hgonia, rom... me gavag-debine samsaxuridan.

me maSin TbilisSi viyavi... da mere: azri ar hqonda arafers... ukve yvelaferi winaswar iyo gadawyvetili. yvelani, asea Tu isea, gulmowyale da keTilebi varT, roca... uSualod Cven ar Segvexeba rame, Torem... Tuki Sens pirad interesebs daemuqra rame, Tuki vinme Sens pirovnebas daupirispirda, o, o, maSin frTxilad! dandoba ar iqneba! yvelanairi saSuale-biT unda sZlio da moerio mowinaaRmdeges! diax. asea es _ da ras izam, cxovreba asea mowyobili da! miT umetes. Tu Sen am dros arc xari xar da arc kameCi da erTi patara skintliRa xar, daetie baba Sens tyavSi, ras Zvrebi kanidan? rac mogiva daviTao, naTqvamia. hoda, amitom dali xar Tu... Cemi fexebi, roca ici, rom erTi patara WiaRua brZandebi-meTqi mxolod, ar unda Cahyo cxviri iseT saqmeSi... Sen rom ar gekiTxeba!

...cxvirze moagonda. moagonda ki ara, qvecnobierad mgo-ni sul amaze fiqrobda, oRond ar undoda Tavis Tavsac ki gamotydomoda amaSi. da mainc... Zalauneburad, xsovnis fskeridan amoutivtivda...

`saidana aqvT mainc bavSvebs amgvari warmosaxva?.. mas-wavlebels dauvalebia _ mSoblebis suraTi damixateTo, hm! rom daxeda Tavis biWis naxats... pirkata eca.

saidan sadao... ucnauri ambavia swored!veeba, fexebgaCaCxul, usaSvelod grZelcxvira da doin-

jSemodgmul mamakacs ori piri gamobmia: erTi farTod daub-Cenia, meore ki _ moumuwavs.

`ras niSnavs es? sad naxe, biWo, ori piris mqone kacio?~ _

etaka eldanacemi deda. `Sen ar ambob mamaze, orpiriao? sam-

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saxurSi erTs ambobs, Sin ki _ sul sxvas iZaxiso! mec amitom

ori piriT davxateo, Tavi imarTla Turme im mamaZaRlma~.

kacoo! maSin viqtoroviCis, anda vilikos Svilebma ra

unda qnan! ramden pirianebad daxaton TavianTi mamebi?.. xa, xa,

xa... saocari arian, kaco, bavSvebi! rogora aqvT mainc tvini

momarTuli? ise, saintereso ambavia: qarTuli zmna SeiZleba

iyos Turme ara marto erTpiriani, anda orpiriani, aramed

sampiriani da oTxpirianic ki. oTxpiriani da sampiriani zm-

nebi ki unikaluri movlena yofila msoflioSi! gazeTSic

ewera amis win: viRac amerikeli enaTmecnieri ikvlevs Turme

am sakiTxs! oTxpirianio! marTla da marTla, ra ambavia, kaco?daica, rogor iyo... nato rom gixsnida, ho, vTqvaT, sityva _

makeTebinebs _ aviRoTo: makeTebinebs is me mas misTvis. oTxi piri igulisxmeba am erT sityvaSio. marTlac, gasaocaria. Tumca... ratomaa gasakviri? Tu adamians SeuZlia iyos or-piriani, sampiriani, anda oTxpirianic ki _ zmnam ra daaSava? zmnam xom unda gamoxatos Tavisi Seqmneli adamianis niSan-Tviseba? a? xa, xa, xa...~

hoo... natoze gamaxsenda... im Cemma matrakveca biZaSvilma im saRamos ver moisvena da gamkilavi RimiliT da moWu-tuli TvalebiT geubneba:

_ roca qarTvels Tavisi Svili araqarTul, kerZod, ru-sul skolaSi Sehyavs, amiT is ara mxolod ugulebelyofs didebul mSobliur enas, aramed sulieradac aRatakebs Tavis naSiers, gadagvarebis gzaze ayenebs maso.

Sen da SenisTanebma ar gindaT dainaxoT, _ ar Sevepue me, _ rom msofliosTvis Cven varT sabWoTa xalxi. diax. xalxi da ara... Tundac _ xalxebi! anu: Великий советский народ! am erT xalxs _ enac erTi unda hqondes _ anu am SemTxvevaSi _ ru-suli! ise, sxvaTa Soris, yovelTvis ase iyo: mravalricxovanni yovelTvis jabnidnen mcirericxovanT... xval, SeiZleba ingli-suri, CinurTan erTad _ mogvevlinos gabatonebul enad. diax. asea es. mZlavri, anu mravalricxovani yovelTvis imorCilebs uZlurs, pataras _ sxvadasxva saSualebiT: xan iaraRiT, xan

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_ xerxiT! Sen kidev... erTi pawawkintela wertiliRa xar uzarmazar rukaze da arc aravin uwyis _ vina xar? qarTve-li... Tu CuqCa! amitom ramdenic ar unda ixtuno _ verafers gaxdebi! radgan... aseTia realoba! verc verafers Secvli!.. asea es, baba da... moikali Tu ginda Tavi!

ise ki, gulaxdilad rom vTqva _ didi biTuri vinmea es... homo _ sapiensi, anu _ es boroti, binZuri, uZRebi, moZalade, sastiki, pir-metyveli pirutyvi, adamians rom eZaxian! ro-gorc Cans, verc warRvnam uSvela raime am binZur qmnilebas _ anu RvTis risxvamac ver moiyvana gons igi, verc bunebis kataklizmebma!..

ki scada qristianobam misi gakeTilSobileba, mara... ro-gorc vxedavT _ araferi gamouvida. piriqiT, qristiano-bis saxeliT, mravali sisaZagle Caidines misma mimdevrebma, radgan: TviT am religiaSia Sinagani winaaRmdegobani da... imitom! macale, macale nu mawyvetineb, Tu SeiZleba, dama-mTavrebine-meTqi. qristianobis umTavresi postulati xom egaa: giyvardes moyvasi Seni, viTarca sakuTari Tavio. saku-Tari Tavis siyvaruli ki niSnavs, rom... uwinaresad gsurs sakuTari Tavis keTildReoba anu ginda kai cxovreba, kai Wama-sma, lxini, Seqceva e.i. drois tareba, giyvars fulebi, Tanamdebobebi, saxelis quxva da ase Semdeg da ase Semdeg. `karoCe~: jer Tavo da Tavo, mere _ sxvao da sxvao. hoda, qe varT is, rac varT!

Sen filologi brZandebi, Cemo nato da xazs vusvam: pirmetyveli pirutyvebi varT-meTqi da... raki asea, Cemo mSveniero, girCev, SeeSvi am abda-ubdas, gaanebe Tavi tvi-nis Wyletas, fuW filosofosobas da am e.w. patriotizms da msgavs uazrobebs da sisuleleebs _ romelic aravis sWirdeba... TiTo-orola Serekilis garda!..

ai, ager... gaSlilia didebuli sufra! ra ginda, sulo da gulo, aq ar iyos... miirTvi, isiamovne, dastkbi, moilxine. aki rusTavelmac brZana: Wama-sma didad Sesargio. hoda, Seirge Se dalocvilo, es madli! ras iSli nervebs, raze itkieb Tavs?

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SenTan marTla ar Rirs laparakio, _ xeli amiqnia natom, gacecxlebulma. miyvars, roca gawiwmatdeba xolme! kai gogoa, gulwrfeli, ganaTlebuli, niWieri, mara... nametans ufStvens am `erovnul niadagze~. ara da ar undaT gaigon, Seisminon man da misTanebma, rom... sayovelTao internacionalizmis anu globalizmis epoqa dgeba! dRes iqneba Tu xval, yvela mcire eri gaqreba da maSasadame, gaqreba maTi enebic! ginda ar ginda _ kosmopolitizmisken, integraciisken midis kacobrioba! da sworicaa: ra saWiroa amdeni xiWu-maWu enebi! aki, babilonis godolis aSenebis mcdelobamde yvela adamiani erT enaze ubnobda Turme! erTferovani msoflio autaneli da... mo-sawyeni iqnebao. mravalferovnebaSia mSvenierebao. ki batono, mosabezrebelia erTferovani... Tundac stepebi! mara... vin gvkiTxavs-meTqi Cven, ubralo mokvdavebs _ ra, rogor da ranairad unda iyves?

visi tiki-tomara xar Sen kaco: jaba xar, dali Tu nato... da... ase Semdeg!

vis dakargvixar-meTqi? rogorc mosvlas da wasvlas ar gkiTxavs aravin, ise kacobriobis ganviTarebis kanonzomiere-baSi aravin migasuninebs! daetie baba SenTvis! ras fxaku-rob? ras iWimebi?

morCa da gaTavda! adamianis bunebas veraferi Secvlis, Tundac aTjer moxdes warRvna, anda... revoluciebi! vin icis, noemde ramdeni warRvna moxda msoflioSi, mara... Seicvala rame am uwmindur cxovelSi? rogoric iyo, iseTi darCa aq... am dedamiwaze! xolo iq, ar vici ra iqneba! arc mainteresebs! dRevandeli yofierebaa CemTvis umTavresi, anu is, rasac re-alobaSi vxedav, aRviqvam, ganvicdi! asea es, Cemo batono!

...aqeTac didebuli daria! ra jobia mzian, Tbil aminds. wvima da TovlWyapi mezareba! cud gunebaze mayenebs!~...

...magnitofoni kai xnis gamorTuli hqonda. axla odnav ga-daixara da mimRebis saxeluri gadaatriala. radioSi raRac axrialda, mere diqtori qalis xma gaisma: `_Tqven moismineT gadacema (Cxk. Cxk. Cxk.). gTxovT mogvweroT Tqveni STabeW-

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dilebebi da SeniSvnebi am gadacemaze (Cxk. Cxk. Cxk.)... ro-gor gesaxebaT Cveni gmirebis Semdgomi bedi uaxloes xuT-wledSi. Cveni misamarTia: Tbilisi... `(Cxk. Cxk. Cxk.)...

diqtoris xma erTbaSad daikarga. erTxans kidev atriala saxeluri, mere gamorTo, `gasakeTebeliao~, _ gaifiqra da welSi gaimarTa.

`esec Tbilisi. Cemi Tbilisi!~ _ saxeze siame moefina, bagesac kmayofilebis Rimi urxevda.

`volga~ ki SurduliviT miqroda diRmis farTo, swor gzaze.

1983 w.

sikvdilis zvavi

tanjvis Rimili gayinula tuCebze.tanjvisa da wuxilis nakvalevia SeWmuxnul Sublzec,

mTel saxeze.saxeze?.. sadRaa saxe?.. dalewil-dasaxiCrebuli saxe ar

Cans! _ igi sudaris qveSaa moqceuli.da mainc... hgonia _ is ki arada darwmunebulia, rom

micvalebulis yovel nakvTze ueWvelad, usaTuod tanjva-wvaleba iqneba aRbeWdili!

xalxi ki... modis da midis. uxmaurod. fexakrebiT. mz-

eradaxrilni. erTob cotani arian. arcTu mravalricxovani

Wirisufalnic mdumared Camorigebulan skamebze da... TiTqos

tirian da... arc tirian...

mxolod saxegamtknarebuli deda Cumad zuzunebs TavisT-

vis: deda, Svilo, deda Sviloo. mxolod es orad ori sityva

amosdis gamSrali yelidan. danarCenebi ki iq, SigniT, xorx-

Si ikargebian. gareT veRar gamouRweviaT. kalTaSi Cayrili,

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erTmaneTSi Cawnul-Cagrexili TiTebi ufro mets metyvele-

ben, vidre bage-piri.

ara yvavilebis zRva, ara xalxis uwyveti nakadi _ ar-

amed gaSiSvlebuli, SeuniRbavi da amdenad ufro Semzaravi

siRatake da siduxWire, qvecnobier SiSTan erTad Sav Car-

CosaviT Semovlebia aqaurobas da haers amZimebs, sunTqvas

uxSobs adamians.

swrafad adga. karSi gavida.

kuTxeSi autuzuli, nacrisfersaxiani wowola, mxrebSi

moxrili mamakaci gafacicebul mzeras TiTqos aridebs

mosamZimreebs, romelTac aseve gaurbiT Tvali ganze.

gverdiT, pawia samzareuloSi Saosani qalebi da bavSvebi

SekunWulan da xmadabla, damfrTxali ieriT raRacas tu-

tuneben erTmaneTSi.

... xmaurian quCas aCqarebuli nabijiT dauyva. vera. veRar

gauZlo bolomde. TiTqos viRacas Tu raRacas gamoeqca,

uCinrad da daJinebiT rom eZaleboda mTeli am xnis ganmav-

lobaSi da saSvels ar aZlevda...

taqsma svla Seanela.

`hm!.. ipova raRa klienti!~

safuleSi mxolod aTkapikiani udevs.

daZrul troleibuss Seaxta. `demosis transporti~, ro-

gorc Tavad uwodebs ironiulad, Cveulebrisamebr nela mi-

CaqCaqebs, xalxiT sakmaod datenili.

baqanze miyuJuli, saxelurze orive xeliT Cafrenili,

amre zili saxiT ratomRac troleibusis marSruts zomavs

gunebaSi.

vaJa-fSavelas bolos igi Semotrialdeba da kvlav cen-

trisken gaswevs neba-neba, mere moedanze wres daartams da

isev saburTalosken ibrunebs pirs da ase grZeldeba yovel

dRe. aseTia misi grafiki. aseTia cxovrebis yovldRiuri

ganrigic _ erTi da igive, erTi da igive, araferi arRvevs

erTferovnebis, am TiTqosda erTxel da samudamod dadgenil

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wess, xandaxan amovardeba xolme kalapotidan `raRaca~, erT-

baSad, moulodnelad rom amRvrevs mdore, zant mdinarebas.

mere... kvlav Zveleburadaa yvelaferi...

mgzavrebi ki Cadian da amodian facifuciT, xmauriT.

`arc ise mcirea qalaqSi xuTkapikianTa ricxvi!~ _ eR-

imeba sarkastulad, Tumca...

stop!

ubileTo mgzavro! rogor ara grcxveniaT?.. ekadreba ga-

na es Tqvens WaRaras, pativcemulo? an Sen.. `naSim Silaro~

studento, buRasaviT rom atrialeb Tvalebs?.. da saSvebia

gana aseTi umsgavsoeba sabWoTa moqalaqi saTvis?

troleibusi ratomRac siCqares umatebs, gzis sifarTo-

vis Tu sxva ram piraduli mosazrebis gamo, mZRoli gamale-

biT miaqrolebs manqanas.`biWos! ra gautia!.. neta ra moelanda?.. magram... eyofa ki

bolomde hofsila?aaaraa! bolomde veRar SeZlo!.. asea! bolomde yovelTvis

Wirs lelos gatana!..RmerTo Cemo! ra absurduli azrebi momdis TavSi!.. ra

dros egeTebia!..Tumca... ratom absurduli?.. absurduli iqneba gana, ai,

axla rom Sevvarde Sig, troleibusis SuagulSi da xmamaRla daviZaxo:_ xalxno! vinc aq brZandebiT da vinc aq ar aris, xom

varT yvelani sikvdilis Svilebi? _ jer gaoceba. saxtad darCenili saxeebi, mere CoCqoli._ vinaa, kaco, es suleli gogo?_ sawyali... etyoba, auria..._ sacodavi! vai, ubedur dedamiss!.._ sityvas banze nu migdebT! xom yvelani movkvdebiT-

meTqi, dRes iqneba Tu xval Tu mazeg, an oci, ocdaaTi, anda ormocdaaTi wlis Semdeg? eg sulerTia bolosdabolos! mTavaria, rom yvelani davixocebiT, marTalia, Tu ara?isev gniasi. ria-ria. lanZRva-gineba.

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_ kai, batono! viyo me SeSlili! magram kiTxvaze gameciT

pasuxi! varT Tu ara suyvelani, saTiTaod, ugamonaklisod

_ sikvdilis Svilebi-meTqi? ho, Tu ara?

ai, Sen! Tvalebbriala gogov, weRan rom ase gulianad

kiskisebdi. roca iqneba, xom matlebi SegiWams mag lamaz

Tvalebs, saxes, mTel sxeuls da gamoxruli ZvlebiRa

darCebi miwaSi!..

Senc, `Cveni qveynis raindo~, ase medidurad da amayad rom

iWimebi, Senganac xom bundRa ar darCeba am dedamiwaze?..

Senc, `filosofiurad~ momziralo, mxcovano berikaco,

arc Sengan darCeba araferi, matlisa da Wiisgan SeWmuli

ConCxis garda!.. da Senc, gakapasebulo da gafuebulo

qalbatono, ratomRac troleibusiT rom mgzavrob _ rogorc

Cans, maneTiani dagenana taqsisaTvis _ ase kapuetiviT rom

qaCav Tvalebs _ Tu ggonia, giSvelis dagrovebuli ganZi da

sikvdils gadaurCebi?

_ gaaCereT! vin uSvebs, kaco amisTanebs gareT!

_ asaTianze adgili ar ariso. ase amboben!

_ milicias dauZaxeT! daiWiros es gadareuli gogo!

_ ha, ha, ha, batonebo, ver daiWiravs sikvdilsao, ase br-

Zana rusTavelma!.. verc Tqveni milicia-policia, verc mTel

`politbiuros sastavs~ rom gamouZaxoT axla, verafers

gaxdeba. tyuilia!.. yvelani gavfSekT fexebs, ra dRes, ra

xval! morCa da gaTavda! gardauvalia eg ambavi!

_ kiseri gitexia da kinCxic! Tu ginda, axlave gagicxia

suli!.. ras gverCi, Se SeCvenebulo?

_ boRmaa, gvelis wiwilia, vera xedavT!

_ ha, ha, ha, gulze mogxvdaT gana? kuWi mogewvaT? sul

tyuila gegonaT, aba, dedamiwis RerZi Tu ara, misi Wipi

mainc brZandebodeT! ver mogarTves! aarao, mela matyuaarao!..

sinamdvileSi mxolod moRoRiale landebi da aCrdilebi

varT, saimqveyniod gaxazirebulni! meti araferi! sruliad

araferi!..

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...hoda, raki masea, ras vedidgulebiT erTmaneTs, Tqve codvisSvilebo, Tqvena! Tqve uRmerToebo! maS, raTa vWamT erTmaneTis xorcs, romelsac miwa SegviWams?.. ras ver vi-yofT erTmaneTSi, salafavs Tu... samares? im samares xom ara, saca rigirigobiT Cagvtenian suyvelas, erT mSvenier Tu ubedur dRes, WiaRuis gasaxarad?.. maS, rad vistumrebT-meTqi erTmaneTs udrood iqiTken, saiTac uklebliv yvelani wavkuskusdebiT? ha, mipasuxe, Se jiSiano, Sena!

_ am gaqanebuli troleibusidan unda moisrolo eg gare-wari, eg nabiWvari ega! amis... ra gacinebs, kaco, ra aris sa-sacilo?

_ giJia, vera xedavT!_ aba, he, daqiCmaCdiT da moisroleT aqedan es giJi!.. ras

ucdiT? ras elodebiT?.. magram aara! saqme saqmeze rom midgeba, mSiSrebi xarT, mxdlebi, laCrebi! pirdapir ver gabe-davT!.. zurgSi Casafreba ufro gexerxebaT!

milicia-policiao, vai, Tqvens patrons!_ hei, mZRolo! gaaCere manqana!.. Cavdivar! ar msurs am

naxirSi yofna _ Tundac droebiT! gaaCere-meTqi, geubnebian!Tqven ki, Tqve bRenZia, ampartavano, kudabzika aCrdilebo,

ubadruko sulebo, ifiqreT imaze, rac weRan giTxariT!.. gey-urebaT Tu ara? diax, Tqven gasagonad vambob, ukvdavobanas rom TamaSobT am takimasxrul scenaze, cxovrebas rom eZa-xiT...

momento mori!gaxsovdeT sikvdili, batonebo! Tumca... meti araa Cemi

mteri, Tqven raime SeignoT, raime SeisminoT!aba, maS naxvamdis _ saiqioSi Sexvedramde!.. `paka~, `Cao~!... didxans eZeba gasaRebi, mere moTminebadakargulma, zaris

Rilaks daaWira TiTi gametebiT, mere isev CanTa amoqeqa. ipova, rogorc iqna. swrafad SeaRo kari. did oTaxSi Suqi ar enTo, magram, iqedan televizoris xma gamodioda.

`nata, albaT Tavis daqalebTan zis da~... _ azri gauwyda.

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abazanis sarkesTan axlos miitana saxe: `marTla SeS-lils vgavar~, gaifiqra da moulodnelad tuCebi daebrica, cremlebi waskda. am xnis ganmavlobaSi ar utiria. cremli TiTqos gauSra da ai, axla... gulamoskvnili aqviTinda.

tiriliT guli rom moijera, saxeze peSviT Seisxa wyali. dawiTlebuli Tvalebi saguldagulod amoibana.

moSlili onkanidan isev ise Seuwyvetlad moedineba wy-ali, metlaxacvenil iatakze dafenili Cvari svelia. ir-gvliv mimoavlo mzera mingreul-mongreul saabazanos, arafrismxedveli Tvali Seavlo samzareuloSi karCamofri-alebul karadasac.

uangariSod, ufro instiqturad gazqurasTan mivida da qvabs saxuravi axada. ufros das ajafsandali gaekeTebina. ugulod, meqanikurad gadmoiRo sainze kerZi da ugulodve gadaylapa oriode lukma.

vera. veRar SeZlebs axla Wamas.kvlav civi wyali Seisxa saxeze, savse Wiqa bolomde, sul-

mouTqmelad gamocala da saZinebeli oTaxisken gaemarTa.wamiT SesasvlelTan SeCerda. mere mkveTrad motrialda

da... did oTaxSi Seabija.televizors marTlac misxdomian nata da misi megobari

qalebi da xmamaRali komentarebiT, sicil-kiskisiT uyureben gadacemas. patara magidaze yavisa da koniakis Wiqebia dax-vavebuli. oTaxi gabolili.

_ va, lika?.. rodis moxvedi?.. privet!.. verc SegamCnieT!.._ yava xom ar ginda!.. ici, Zalian saintereso gadacemaa..._ Suqi aanTe,_ ara. ar minda, ase iyos!_ raTa xan uxasiaTod, genacvale? rame xom ar moxda?_ xo, marTla, gogoebo!.. likas TanamSromelma qalma Tavi

moikla am ori dRis win... merve sarTulidan gadmoxta!.._ ras ambob?!_ ra saSinelebaa, RmerTo Cemo!.._ sacodavi!.. ratom?.. ra moxda?

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_ a... aaa! vici... vici! mec gavige! raRac sasiyvarulo am-bavia, `sluJebni~ romaniviTaa. ra! qals romani hqonia Tavis ufrosTan, cols Seuswria stambaSi Tu... raRac amdagvari...

_ ra romani?.. ris romani?... ras ambob, nini?.. morigeobis dros ganyofilebis gamge cudad gamxdara. hoda, is saco-davi rusiko, abebs rom asmevda savarZelSi gulSeRonebul kacs, maSin SemoiWra Turme misi coli. etyoba, manamdec eWvianobda maTze. hoda, daudarajda, da... Caxveulebs mivus-wario, qveyana Seuyria! uSveri sityvebiT gaulanZRavs is ubeduri. erTi sityviT...

_ gaCumdi, nata!.. raebs laparakob? _ wamiT iyuCa: _ us-amarTlod Seuracxyves, gesmiT?.. daamcires, miwasTan gaas-wores. sulSi CaafurTxes. ver aitana, gesmiT? yvela ver urigdeba Rirsebis Selaxvas. ase iyo, morCa da gaTavda.

xangrZlivad Camovardnil siCumes mxolod televizoris xma arRvevs. enaCavardnili qalebi erTxans usityvod, uaz-rod Sescqerian ekrans.

nata gavida da cota xanSi das yava moutana. likam us-ityvod CamoarTva Wiqa da nela Seudga smas.

_ ara, erTi SexedeT, gogoebo, amaT _ ra kabebi acviaT, ra samkaulebi ukeTiaT! _ daarRvia uxerxuli dumili ninim, albaT imisTvis, rom raRac eTqva. ayvnen.

_ ho... aba, romel amaTgans mouva TavSi azrad TviTmkvl-eloba?

_ Sen ega Tqvi da!_ ratom? TavTaviseburi problemebi yvelasa aqvs. albaT

amaTac eqnebaT!_ problemebs gaaCnia!_ gaxsovT, kenedis nacolaris, Jaklinas kabebis Rireb-

uleba rom ewera gazeTSi? mefis STamomavali ar brZande-boda, magram ramodena simdidris mflobeli yofila Turme is qalbatoni!

_ onasisis wyalobiT!_ visi wyalobiTac iyo, xom hqonda?

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_ me mgoni, arc manamde uWirda maincdamainc...

_ ise, me rom mkiTxos kacma, milionobiT Cveulebrivi

adamianisTvis, Zlivs rom gaaqvs Tavi, sadRac Seuracxmyofe-

lia qonebis aseTi afiSireba! vinc unda iyos is!

_ SeiZleba marTali xar, marika. marTlac aris amaSi

raRac... plebeuri, mdabiuri Tavmowoneba, ai, SemxedeT, ra mdi-

dari vinme varo.

_ Seni da CemisTanebis azri sul fexebze ar hkidiaT am

gaqsuebul miliarderebs, mTeli msoflio xelSi rom uWi-

ravT fulis wyalobiT. Sen vis dakargvixar!

_ ise, ra male daiviwya mag qalbatonma Tavisi saxelovani

qmari!

_ aba, axla qarTveli qaliviT dajdeboda da wlobiT

iglovebda. netai Sen! egeni mxolod dRevandeli dRiT

cxovroben...

_ hoda, sworadac iqcevian. am qveynad erTxel modixar da

Tuki SegiZlia, sworedac ise unda icxovro, rogorc ginda,

rogorc gsiamovnebs...

_ nu geSinia Sen, arc Cveni, komunisturi nomenklatura Tu

partokratia amaTze naklebad ar grialebs Sin Tu gareT!

maT Zvirfas Tanamecxedreebsac aranaklebi Rirebulebis ka-

bebi acviaT da maT samkaulebsac Jaklinac wuns ver dasdebs!

_ gaCumdi, Tu qali xar!.. onasisis saganZurTan Tagvis

curclis xela Tu gamoCndeba Cveneburebis avla-dideba _

erTad aRebuli! Tqva amanac ra!..

_ icineT, icineT Tqven! Cveni xelfasis patronebs sa-

sacilod gvaqvs swored saqme!

_ SexedeT erTi marTla, ra brwyinvalebaa!.. ra fufunebaa!..

`uyvarda Cumad, TavisTvis. manamde aravin hyvarebia! arc

igi hyvarebia vinmes! iyo TavisTvis. Tavis ocnebebsa da

zmanebebSi!~

_ nefe-dedoflis korteJi naxeT!.. amas xom axla TiTqmis

mTeli msoflio uyurebs albaT!

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_ ise, princi ufro warmosadegi da ufro simpaTiuria,

vidre princesa!

_ ratom, ratom? patarZalic kai gogo Cans! ras erCi?

jiSi mainc etyoba...

_ jiSi ara!.. amisTana gogoebs yovel fexis nabijze Sex-

vdebi CvenSi!.. erTi amaTi dedofalia kidev jiSiani!.. kol-

meurneobis mwvelavsa hgavs!

_ oh, ra mware ena gaqvs Sen, nini!.. yvelaferi unda gaa-

biabruo!.. amaT rom aristokratia hyavT da amaT dedofals

rom simdidre aqvs...

_ koloniebidan naZarcvi!.. erTi Cvens dReSi yofiliyvnen,

saukuneebis ganmavlobaSi sisxlSi rom vcuravdiT, maSin

vnaxavdi, ra Tval-margalitebs daagrovebdnen!

_ marikam cxadia, momenti ar gauSva da patriotuli reCi~

daurtya!.. axla Tamaris xana ar moinatro, Tu da xar!

_ da Tamaris Tavmdabloba! marTlac zRapruli simdidre

rom hqonda da Tavi ki ise eWira, TiTqos arafris mqonebeli

iyo! SiSveli gamoved dedis muclidan da SiSvels meguv-

lebis warsvlado!

_ dawynardiT, gogoebo, daSoSmindiT! am qveynad yvelaferi

amaoa mainc! yvelaferi danacrdeba da mtvrad iqceva, pai-

kian-dedoflianad!.. yvelani mxolod Tavs vityuebT Cvenive

mogonili TamaSiT. esaa da es!.. amaoeba amaoebaTa da yove-

live amao ars!

`platonuri siyvaruli! hm! vin warmoidgens amas am Cvens

gaTaxsirebul droSi! roca aq farulad, xolo iq aSkarad

mxolod seqsi batonobs _ SiSveli, urcxvi seqsi!

RmerTo Cemo! misi saxelis xsenebaze rogor gaebadreboda

xolme saxe, Tvalebi rogor aucimcimdeboda!.. ra mSvenieri

iyo maSinac, gitaraze rom ukravda!.. RmerTo Cemo! sul sxva

qali xdeboda _ momxibvleli, sandomiani...~

_ Cemma mzem, princi marTlac ufro mimzidveli jeelia!

_ RmerTo! ra bednierebi arian marTlac!

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uceb WiqaSi CarCenili yavis naleqi televizoris ekrans Seasxa._ wavidnen amaTi... _ kbilebSi gamoscra gineba da zeze

aiWra, wamic da... karis jaxunma TiTqos mTeli oTaxi Seazanzara.nirwamxdar, saxtad darCenil qalebs ganZreva ver

moexerxebinaT. pirveli nata gamoerkva:_ Cemi sikvdili! nervebma umtyuna... Zalian ganicdis... oTxi

weli erT oTaxSi isxdnen, megobrobdnen... Zalian ganicada... bebiis sikvdilsac vera da ver Seguebia jerac... Tumca... garegnulad ar imCnevs..._ rasakvirvelia... cxadia..._ Znelia Seeguo aseT Tavzardamcem ambavs..._ saSinelebaa pirdapir!.._ sacodavi qali! rogor unda gamwarebuliyo, rom aseTi

nabiji gadaedga, aseT codvaSi Caedga fexi..._ aris am saqcielSi raRacnairi gabedulebac... vaJkacobac,

Tu gnebavT!_ ara, ar SeiZleba! dauSvebelia! TviTmkvleloba _ didi

codvaa!.. upatiebeli ramaa!mere... stumrebi erTimeoris miyolebiT gaikrifnen....saZinebel oTaxSi, sawolze pirqve damxobili, orive

xeliT Cafrenoda baliSs. `Semova axla. damadgeba Tavze da... daiwyeba! ase rogor SeiZleba! es ra hqeni stumrebTan?~_ lika, es ra hqeni?.. ra mogivida... ase rogor SeiZleba? erTbaSad wamovarda sawolidan da das saxeSi Seafrinda

xelis parWyviT:_ Sen mekiTxebi, ra mogividao? Sen? Sen?.. ki magram, Sen

TviTon ra mogdis?.. ho, Sen! ras miyureb gaSterebiT?.. amxela qali, ormoc wels mitanebuli, mijdomixar televizors Sen umaqnis, Sinabera daqalebTan erTad da... yavis smaSi, marCielobasa da WoraobaSi atarebT dros!..

Sen, Sen ra gemarTeba-meTqi, Cemo Zvirfaso dao?.. imis nacvlad, erTi xuTi Svili mainc gexvios garSemo, ojaxs

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dagurgurebde, meuRles Tavs evlebode, raRac sisuleleebSi

kargav dros!..

ki, batono, kviraSi ramdenime saaTs utareb gakveTilebs

`gepeis~ gamoyeyeCebul studentebs da... kidev raRac-raRacee-

bs Targmni TiTqos... esaa da es! sxvas ras akeTeb-meTqi? raSi

xarjav energias?

uwyvetad moedineboda, sityvebis nakadi, TiTqos Tvi-

Tonve iwvevda Signidan mrisxanebas da TviTonve ixrCoboda

Tavis sibrazeSi _ acaxcaxebuli, Tvalebgadmokarkluli,

saxegafiTrebuli, da rakiRa Secbunebuli ufrosi da ar ep-

asuxeboda, ufro da ufro mZvinvardeboda da mware, geslian

sityvebs tyviasaviT ayrida. Tanac, qvecnobierad swadda,

wyobidan gamoeyvana, rom mere ufro moekla misTvis guli,

ufro gaewbilebina.

_ ras gaCumdi? gemwvava xom?.. ar moelodi Seni `patara~

daikosgan amgvar reaqcias? aki, Seni gazrdili var! xolo,

ai, me Turme rogori umaduri da gulboroti aRmovCndi, xom

marTalia? xom amas fiqrob axla?

_ dawynardi, genacvale... damSviddi. axlave mogitan vale-

rianis wveTebs...

_ ar mWirdeba Seni valerianis wveTebi!.. rac Tavi maxsovs,

gadayolili xar sxvebs... jer loginad Cavardnil bebias

uvlidi, mere mamas, me _ udedurs _ dedobas miwevdi. pa-

taraobidanve ucxo enaze, musikaze dagyavdi. ra mere? ra

miiRe sanacvlod?.. kargad maxsovs, ra tanaSoltili, lur-

jTvaleba, lamazi gogo iyavi! ra mere? darCi ase gauTx-

ovari. gauTxovari xar, aba ra? cvedani da narkomani qmari

Segxvda da eqvs TveSi gaeyare. ufro didxans upirebdi namu-

sis Senaxvas im naZiralas, aRar gamogivida oRond!.. axlac

TvalSi mosaxvedri dedakaci brZandebi. ra mere? ra-meTqi?

zed vin giyurebs? Tuki Tavad loginSi ar Caugordi vinmes,

romelic SeiZleba Seni fexis frCxiladac ar Rirdes!

_ kargi, gaCumdi, geyofa!

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_ ara, ar meyofa, ar gavCumdebi!.. viRac princisa da princesas qorwils SescicinebT Sen da Seni Wkuiskolofa daqalebi... rao, ram gagakvirvaT? riTi gjobia Sen is princesa? riTi?.. erTi Cveulebrivi gombioa... an ra damsaxureba miuZRviT kacobriobis winaSe, aseTi pativiTa da zarzeimiT rom ixdian maT qorwils da lamis mTel msoflios ayurebineb am ceremonials? ra?.. mari kiuria erTi da mocartia meore, Tu ra? vin arian bolos-dabolos, gekiTxebi? mxolod is, rom samefo saxlSi daibadnen _ ager, guSin gamoCekili dinastiis naSierebad! esaa da es!..

ar miTxra axla, usamarTlo xaro, Suri galaparakebso, qorwilebs yvela qveyanaSi, yvelgan da yvela wreSi, miT umetes sasaxleebSi, pompezurad aRniSnaveno. ki. asea. asea! ma-gram me ra SuaSi var? me ratom unda mixarodes gansakuTreb-ulad? ratom unda davtkbe maTi bednierebis xilviT? ratom unda vzeimobde, roca vici, rom xval an zeg an erTi gaiCens sayvarels, an meore, an erTdroulad imruSeben da mere skan-dalurad ganqorwindebian, holivudis e.w. varskvlavebiviT. _ maTi garyvnili da uzneo cxovrebis, ufro swored, jamba-zobis da matrabazobis wvrilman da pikantur detalebs rom lamis buk-naRariT amcnoben mTel qveynierebas!..

kerpTayvanismcemlebi gana marto politikur moRvaweebs hyavT?.. hoda, fanatikuri masa siamovnebiT da xarbad kenkavs sibinZureSi azelil Worsa da marTals!.. am dros ki _ bevrs lukma-puri enatreba, gesmis? lukma-puri... dedamiwis nebismier kontinentze!..

filantropobaze ar vdeb Tavs, batono, ara! magram Sen, Sen ra gixaria, mxeiZis qalo?.. brbos fanatizmiT iwoneb Tavs, ara? arada, Cveni gvari xom jer kidev merve sauku-neSi brwyinavda!.. saxelovani mamuliSvilebisa da raindebis STamomavali xar!.. yovel SemTxvevaSi, ase gvauwyeben Cveni istoriuli qronikebi...

_ Cveni gvari ra SuaSia, lika genacvale?.. eseni evropis uwarCinebulesi samefo dinastiis warmomadgenlebi arian, esec ar iyos...

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_ mimifurTxebia magaTi uwarCinebulesi dinastiisTvis _

ager jer kidev guSin maTi winaprebi, farTals rom hyid-

dnen... sarfianad!

ar miTxra axla vaWroba gana saZraxisiao. ara, batono, ara!

oRond _ roca yvelam Tav-Tavisi adgili icis! dRevandeli

magnatebis winaprebi xom yvelani Tavis droze mejRanuaS-

vilebi da gobsekebi iyvnen. hoda, yvela amaTTvis erTaderTi

salocavi da saTayvanebeli kerpi _ fulia, anu yviTeli

eSmaki, romelzec gvarsac iyidian, dinasitiasac, monarqia-

sac, qveynebsac da xalxebsac, da saerTod, suyvelafers am

cisqveSeTSi da... yiduloben da yidian kidec!.. mezizRebian,

mezizRebian, Tavis fulis tomrebianad, suyvelani!

areuli saxiT darboda aqeT-iqiT, wamiT sawolze wamo-

jdeboda TvalanTebuli, saxe gakerpebuli, mere isev zeaiWre-

boda da iwyebda uTavbolo monologs da sirbils, TiTqos

Tavis Tavs ufro epaeqreboda da edaveboda:

_ mamaCemis moZRvrebis Tanaxmad, gexsomeba albaT, mxolod

patiosani SromiT da codniT miiRweva Turme warmateba da

yoveli sikeTe am qveynad! ha, ha, ha... _ sicili auvarda erT-

baSad, mere ucebve Sewyvita da doinjSemoyrili win daudga

adgilze gaSeSebul das:

_ ki, batono! patiosnad vicxovre aqamde: ocdarva wlamde!..

ar momiparavs. ar misiZvia. RmerTi. xati. rjuli!.. aravin

momityuebia... cili aravisTvis damiwamebia _ ufro CemTvis

dauSavebiaT, CemTvis utkeninebiaT guli...

ra mere?.. ras mivaRwie? 80 maneTi TveSi da koreqtoroba

`prestiJul~ gazeTSi _ isic nacnobobiT! ai, ras mivaRwie

am eqvsi wlis ganmavlobaSi!.. Tu zurgs ar gimagrebs gav-

leniani biZa an fuli-nuli xar! maTxovari! asea es Cvens

`diad, socialistur samSobloSic~ _ Tanasworobisa da

samarTlianobis etalonad rom miiCnevs Tavis Tavs mTels

msoflioSi da _ asea yvelgan! yvelgan! arada, aravisze

naklebi ar gaxlavar arc niWiT, arc ganaTlebiT, arc Tu

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gnebavs _ garegnobiT. weriTac sxvebze naklebad ar vwer.

kargi eqimis Svilebic viyaviT, Zveli, tradiciuli ojaxidan,

Tumca eqimis, romelic principulad ar iRebda pacientebi-

sgan fuls, principuladve ar Sevida satanebis partiaSi da

rigiTi eqimis saxels da jamagirs dasjerda!..

hoda, roca mokvda, sul ociode maneTi aRmoaCnda `dana-

grovebi~ Tanxa.

es iyo da es!.. da megobrebma da naTesaobam lamis samo-

wyalod damarxes!..

RmerTo Cemo, ro gamaxsendeba!..

vici, vici axla rasac ityvi, samagierod patiosani kacis

saxeli datovao... romelic aravis sWirdeba dRes, gesmis?

aravis! da arc arasodes sWirdeboda vinmes... mxolod mo-

saCveneblad da farisevlurad Tu aqeb-adideben `Rirsebebs~,

romelic... arc Sen da arc me purs ar gvaWmevs, Cemo Zvir-

faso daiko!..mozrdilebi varT da Cvens Tavs Cven TviTon mivxedoTo,

metyvi albaT.ki, batono, magram rom ar gamodis araferi? xelfasidan

xelfasamde rom Zlivs gagvaqvs Tavi?.. arada, mombezrda, ges-mis? ukve mombezrda aseTi yofa!..

ermitaJs vinRa Civis, sazRvargareTze xom laparakic zed-metia _ moskovSi ver Cavsulvar, ise, saeqskursiod! roca ZaRli da kata, vin ar darbis aqeT-iqiT, aRma-daRma!

isev gaCumda erT xans, mere Tavi gaiqnia da xmamaRla, TiTqmis CurCuliT ganagrZo: _ axla uceb sikvdili rom mewvios, ra unda movigono sulis amosvlisas, romeli sa-siamovno, tkbili wamebi, romeli axdenili ocneba gavixseno?

isev wamovarda sawolidan:_ ara. morCa. gaTavda. aRar minda ase gagrZeldes! ukve

yelSi amovida suyvelaferi!.. sxvaTa Soris, aqamde vakeTebdi imas, rac mamaCems undoda, rac

Sen gindoda, bebias, babuas... dReis amas iqiT moviqcevi rogorc... me minda! rogorc me mimaCnia saWirod. morCa da gaTavda!

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alewil-gavarvarebul saxeze wamiT Tvalebi gaeyi n a, mere Zlivs gasagoni xmiT abutbudta: _ imasac... et yo ba imasac mobezrda, gesmis? mobezrda uazro, umiz no, ufunqcio arse-boba... uRimRamo, uferuli, usixaru lo cxovreba!..

mere isev xmas auwia, SeimarTa, Tvalebidan kvlav naper-wklebi dayara:

_ karieraze arasodes ufiqria _ romc ndomoda, vin miaSavebda karg adgils! vin daawinaurebda! ubralo, Cveu-lebriv qalad yofna moenatra, gesmis? romelic uyvarT da romelsac... uyvars! alersi da siTbo moenatra... erTxel gamomityda, arasodes Tavyvanismcemeli ar myolia, arasodes aravis CemTvis yvavili ar mourTmeviao. gesmis? Raribi Zmis ojaxSi Tavisi kunWulic ar gaaCnda... TiTqmis erTi kabiT dadioda wlebis ganmavlobaSi, gesmis?.. erTi kabiT! mxolod ocnebebi da iluziebi hqonda Tavze sayrelad! da... ase gavida wlebi... ocdaTeqvsmetisa gaxda amasobaSi, ocdaTeqvs-metisa! gesmis? ukan darCa axalgazrdoba _ usiyvarulod, uxalisod, usaxurad gavlili wlebi!

hoda, iq, sulis siRrmeSi grovdeboda albaT protestis grZnoba. ratom, risTvis aseTi sasjeli? da ramdenia aseTi Cvens garSemo? ramdeni?..

...marTalia, garegnulad arafers imCnevda, arafers. TiTqos asec unda yofiliyo. iyo TavisTvis kvlavindeburad mSvidi, wynari, momTmeni da yvelas mimarT saocrad keTilganwyo-bili!.. magram mis gulSi, vin icis, ra cecxli trialebda!..

hoda, TavisTvis Seqmna... araraobisgan Seqmna ideali! ara-kacisgan, biTurisgan gamoigona didi vaJkaci! gesmis? ges-mis, ra saSinelebaa es? ramxela tragediaa!.. RmerTo Cemo, RmerTo Cemo!

isev gaCumda. cota xnis Semdeg kvlav aCurCulda:_ magram... ocnebac ar apaties... CvenSi xom xSirad is gvi-

kiTxavs morals, vinc Tavad amoraluria!.. znedacemulia!iman ki, iman, misma gulis rCeulma erTi sityviTac ar daicva, gesmis? saerTod, xma ar amouRia Turme! arada, am xvadagis

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win TaTxavdnen marTal, sufTa, wrfel adamians!.. gesmis? ver gabeda enis daZvra imitom, rom... laCaria, mxdalia, axvaria!..

darwmunebuli var, aman, am sulmdablobam yvelaze metad atkina guli albaT, aman, am arakacobam mospo da ara aSaraS-ka, na-ri dedakacis quCurma lanZRva-ginebam da ukeTurma saqcielma!.. asea Cemo daia, es! asea!.

_ gasagebia, yvelaferi gasagebia, magram... Sen... ras uSveli Sen... Seni gancdebiT?

_ maS, rogor mibrZaneb ganvicado?.. sxvaTa Soris, mec ase-Ti perspeqtiva melodeba!.. diax! zustad aseTi! ar miTxra axla... gigas ratom ar miyvebio, skolidan rom uyvarxaro! me ar miyvars da imitom! gasagebia? ar miyvars! morCa da gaTavda! danarCeni... nagavi aRmoCnda yvela, vinc Semxvda. Cems irgvliv Rirseuli, sacolo biWs rom eZaxian, ar gaWaWanebu-la... gasagebia? da es Sen Cemze ukeTesad ici... ar viZaxi, me-frTiani angelozi var-meTqi, magram... ar minda kompromisuli

garigeba, anu usiyvarulo colqmroba da saerTod... kacis da

qalis seqsualuri urTierToba rom hqvia, didi siyvarulis

gareSe _ Cveulebriv makintlobad mimaCnia _ meti araferi!

gesmis? meti araferi. hoda, ar msurs pirutyvi viyo, ges-

mis? minda pirovnebad davrCe. Rirseba SevinarCuno, yovel

SemTxvevaSi... ase vfiqrobdi aqamde!.. daarqvi Tu ginda amas

ampartavnoba, rac ginda is daarqvi! sul fexebze mkidia, ukve!

da kdev: gaboroteba ar malaparakebs amas _ ara! Sen kargad

ici: bavSobidan ver vitandi usamarTlobas! arc Cems Tavs

vpatiob xolme simrudes!..

baliSSi Caemxo kvlav da mxrebi konvulsiurad auTax-

Taxda.

_ iqneb... iloco?.. mogeSveba...

_ viloco?! _ isev wamoiWra sawolidan da Tvalebi

avad daakvesa: _ viloco raze? xom RvTis gaCenili var?

maS, RmerTma ukeT ar uwyis Cemi gasaWiri?.. Cemi survili,

natvra, Tu ocneba?.. ra minda da ra ara?.. ra vTxovo muxl-

modrekiT?.. ras vevedro? anda, ver xedavs _ sxvisi yurmoW-

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rili monebi rom varT? aTeistur naxirad rom gadagvaqcies

wiTelma satanebma?

_ maS ra vqnaT?.. ar vicocxloT marTla?

_ me ar minda aseTi sicocxle, gasagebia? ar msurs!..

daica... rogor... rogor ambobs antigone? RmerTo, gamax-

sene!.. hoo... `me minda yvelaferi... da axlave, am wuTas. dae,

Cemi bedniereba iyos sruli. arada, sul ar minda igi. ara.

me sulac ar msurs viyo mokrZalebuli da davkmayofilde

raRac mowyalebiT, romelic momigdes me morCilebis aRsan-

iSnavad... me minda Cemi bedniereba iyos iseTive mSvenieri,

rogoradac me igi mesaxeboda Cems bavSvur ocnebaSi Tu

arada, dae, movkvde, nuRar vicocxleb!~ _ Jan anui. antigone!

_ uceb Teatraluri JestiTa da xmiT daasrula citata,

Tavi daukra pirRiad darCenil, TvalebgafarToebul das, Se-

trialda da cibrutiviT gavarda oTaxidan....ramdenjerme auqrol-Camouqrola wignebis uzarmazar

karadas mtruli, almaceri mzeriT.mere SeCerda. xelebi gaSala:_ oh, Cemo Zvelo megobrebo!.. Tqven ras metyviT netai?..

riT manugeSebT?.. egebis ar meTanxmebiT `raRac-raRaceebSi~ ha?.. sisuleleebs vroSav gana?.. ha, ha, ha...

darbazSi Tavi Semohyo natam._ gamomdie, xom?.. nu SiSob. jer ar SevSlilvar!.. ise,

CemTvis vicini... _ pauza da mere: _ amaT Sexede erTi, ram-denia?.. maxsovs, patara rom viyavi, lamis ZaliT makiTxebdi, Tan ganrigs midgendi, ra _ rodis wamekiTxa!.. a, batono! es `saunje~ _ mamapapeuli _ sul gadabulbulebuli maqvs. ra mere?.. ra momca? raSi gamomadga?

isev isev grZeldeba sikeTis dausrulebeli Widili borotebasTan, viT wminda giorgis moqneuli boZali, ro-melic vera d aver klavs gveleSaps!.. ar kvdeba is gveleSapi da he, iZaxe: borotsa sZlia keTilmano...

poetis natvrad da ocnebad rCeba albaT es Segoneba, anu viTarca udabnosa Sina RaRadi, gesmis?.. am qveynad boroteba

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mZlavrobs yvelgan. borotebi galaRebulan... CemSic, Cems gulSic xandaxan boroti sZlevs xolme keTils: ki. ki. asea es! bebo loginad rom iyo Cavardnili, erTi-orjer gavi-fiqre kidec, netai, male mokvdes-meTqi, radgan... Cemi azriT, tyuilubralod wvalobda da sxvebsac, ufro sworad, Sen gawvalebda! TiTqos bebos sikvdiliT yvelani movisveneb-diT!.. diax, diax, ase gavwire Cveni gamzrdeli bebia!..

mamaCemzec augi azrebi ar masvenebda dro da dro!.. mar-Talia, dedinacvali ar mouyvania CvenTvis, saxlSi, magram sayvareli ro hyavda _ gunebaSi ar vpatiobdi! ar vpatiobdi dedaCemis xsovnis Ralats _ ase vnaTlavdi mis saqciels!.. ar vpatiobdi imasac, rom marto es bina da wignebi da be-biis namziTevi, adamisdroindeli roiali rom dagvitova mx-olod! rom SeeZlo da ar indoma uzrunvelyofili cxovreba `avazaki~ komunistebis xelSi! da erT Cveulebriv, ubralo eqimad mokvda. _ isev gaCumda wamiT, mere kvlav aCurCulda:

_ Cems gulSi rusikosac ar vpatiobdi da CemTvis... uCum-rad vkilavdi kidec, ram Seayvara es araraoba-meTqi. mxolod... SexedulebiT rom brWyvialebs da... meti araferi! meti araferi!

anazdeulad sityva bageze mieyina. Tvalebi Sublze aucvivda _ oTaxSi aravin iyo! sanam raimes moisazrebda, nata isev gamoCnda... wyliT savse WiqiT xelSi.

isteriuli sicili autyda kvlav._ vaime, deda!.. ra SeSinebuli saxe gaqvs, gogo!.. RmerTo

Cemo.. RmerTo Cemo! _ nata kvlav sargadaylapuliviT idga da xmis amoRebas ver bedavda. mere sustma, mokrZalebulma Rimilma Seurxia tuC-piri. mere... Tavadac gaecina rogor-rac xmadabla, xaTrianad.

_ ho, kai, kai, momeci Wiqa!.. nu geSinia, Sen ar Segasxam!

_ isev gaecina, oRond rogorRac ugemurad, naZaladevad da

erTbaSad gamocala Wiqa. mere Rrmad moiTqva suli da sa-

varZelSi CaeSva. orive mklavi mowyvetiT daucvivda sax-

elurebze. Tavi Cahkida.

cota xnis Semdeg isev alaparakda:

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_ princs da princesas yava ro Sevasxi ekranze, wamiT Seni

mzera daviWire... oh! ra sifaTi gqondaT Sen da Sens daqa-

lebs! ha, ha, ha... _ kvlav Teatralurad gaicina. mere uceb

saxeze xelis gulebi aifara da... gailursa.

dumili didxans gagrZelda.

moulodnelad mxrebze dis mklavebi igrZno. nata exveoda

da Cumad, saTuTad hkocnida Tmaze, loyebze, kiserze, Tan

cremli RapaRupiT Camosdioda Tvalebidan.

_ nuTu... nuTu marTla araferi gaxsovs kargi, genacvale?..

nuTu mxolod cudi ginda moigono?.. bednieri, sasiamovno

wuTebic xom gvqonda?.. guli mikvdeba aseT dReSi rom

gxedav... nuTu Tundac Cveni siyvaruli _ Cemi da Seni si-

yvaruli _ arafers niSnavs, sul arafers? Sen Semogevlos

Seni nata, Cemo patara daiko...

SeiSmuSna. saxe daeRrija da xmadabla Cailaparaka:

_ ho, kargi. kargi. es sentimentaluroba maklda axla...

wadi, Sens oTaxSi, daisvene!.. nu geSinia, mets aRar `vibuin-

eb~... _ wamierad iyuCa da: _ cota xans davrCebi aq. marto

minda yofna!..

nata, mcire yoymanis Semdeg, usityvod, fexis TreviT gav-

ida oTaxidan _ TiTqos ukan raRac uxilavi Zala eqaCebao.

...erTxans ijda garinduli. TvalebdaxuWuli, vnebaCamcra-

li. guli moRlilad ucemda.

Ramis myudroebas da siCumes Cqamic ar arRvevda. Zalaga-

moleuli guli ukve yelSi ar awveboda. gamocarielebul

TavSi ki moulodnelad isev ise axmianda antigones sityvebi:

`dae, movkvde, nuRar vicocxleb!~swrafad wamodga. Tavi gaiqnia. TiTqos moSoreba surda

am akviatebuli azris Tu frazis.roialTan mivida. ramdenime akordi aiRo....,,mamas uyvarda es melodia. da saerTod Sopens aRmer-

Tebda. iSviaTad Tu miujdeboda instruments, magram roca moegunebeboda, TavdaviwebiT icoda xolme dakvra. musikis

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hangSi iZireboda suliT-xorcamde. albaT aseT dros guls ioxebda, uamur fiqrebsa da uJmur azrebs gaurboda~...

cremli moawva Tvalze uneburad. TiTqos guSin iyo es yvelaferi, TiTqos guSin ukravda mama am sonatas... arada, sami weli gavida ukve, rac aRaraa...

RmerTo didebulo! gazeTs kiTxulobda kaci _ savar-ZelSi mjdari da uceb... gaTavda. cxedrad iqca. usulo, gaqvavebul lodad. gayinuli, civi qvis natexad! naiarevma gulma umtyuna, Tavis Tavis mimarT uyuradRebobam da daude-vrobamac!

...dakvra erTbaSad Sewyvita. fanjarasTan mivida. kvlav moeZala wamiT miyuCebuli dardi. kvlav dadga fiqrebis ko-rianteli. kvlav tan-iogSi SeuZvra mousvenroba da wriali.

kvlav SfoTva, Widili da paeqroba viRacasTan Tu... sa-kuTar TavTan!

`neta, ras metiCrob?.. ras mistiri?.. marTalia, balerino-ba ocnebad darCa _ mamas balerinobas ver uxsenebdi... Tumca, eg ambavi saocari ki iyo: musikismoyvaruli kacisTvis!..

magram Tundac, didi mocekvave gamosuliyavi, ra mere?.. ra Seicvleboda amiT?..

ki. geqneboda saxeli,. pativi. iqneb didebac. ar mogaklde-boda, vTqvaT, xalxis aRtaceba da ovaciebi (Tavis gamoCenis survili vis ara aqvs! TviTdamkvidrebas vin ar eswrafvis!) geqneboda SemoqmedebiTi sixaruli da Tundac piraduli bedniereba _ geyoleboda Rirseuli, mosiyvarule meuRle!..

ra mere?.. aqvs ki raimes mniSvneloba, an azri, am uazro wuTisofelSi, saca vibadebiT Tu ara... iqve saflavic mza aris!

`ai, xom xedav?.. ra marTuli xarT miwisSvilebi dedami-waze? _ arc mosvlas gekiTxebian da arc wasvlas!.. aseTia Tqveni xvedri saaqaoSi!~

`a, a, Sen moxvedi!.. gamomecxade!.. sxva drosac meCiTebodi xolme xandaxan!.. mesmis, gana ar mesmis, risi Tqmac gsurs!.. diax, unda gamovtyde: ver veguebi Cems xvedrs verasdidebiT!..

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minda Cavwvde Cemi arsebobis, yofierebis saidumlos.risTvis movedi, ratom mivdivar, sad mivdivar? da... minda

viyo Tavisufali da... vimoqmedo mxolod Cemi gonis kar-naxiT, magram...~

`vera. ver SeZleb amas!.. tyuilia!.. viT egebis Seqmnili iyos Tavisufali _ Semqmnelisgan?.. gana Tavis mier gakeTe-bul Tojinas, xelosani kisers ar mougrexs maSinve, roca ki amas moiwadinebs? miT ufro xelewifeba es yovelive arsTa gamriges!..

...hoda, ramdenic unda ixvancalo, ver gaeqcevi Seni Semqmne-lis neba-survils... Sen amas xvdebi gumaniT, grZnob da ginda gaTavisuflde kirTebisagan, magram... veRar bedav!.. geSinia!.. akeTeb imas, rac Semqmnels unda da ara imas, rac Sen gwadia... anu unda dReniadag ewamo da ijaxiro. esec ara kmara: Tan unda zido gamudmebiT martooden Seni ki ara _ winaparTa codo-bralic! moinanio da mainc maradis codvili iyo.

rodemde?.. rodemde ginda aseTi utyvi morCileba?.. droa. aumxedrde imas, vinc ase gCagravs!.. aumxedrde Sens bedis-weras! droa Seni gaitano da _ ara misi!~

`ho, diax, diax Sen marTali xar. sxva Tu ara, wasvlas mainc aravis vkiTxav, rakiRa mosvlas marTlac aravin mekiTxeba!~

`hoda, midi! eurCe-meTqi imas, vinc winaswar dagisazRvra Seni sve-bedi!~

`diaxac rom ase vizam!.. rac gadavwyvite, imas arafriT aRar Sevcvli! _ dae movkvde. nuRar vicocxleb!~

`mec swored amas mogiwodeb! nuRar ayovneb!~...saabazanoSi cxeli wyali mouSva onkanidan. mere mofam-

falebuli kari saguldagulod gadaraza. sanam saabazanoSi Sevidoda, karga xans ayuradebda saZinebel oTaxs, kars akru-li. CamiCumi ar ismoda iqidan. emociebisgan daRlil natas, albaT ukve CaeZinao, daaskvna gunebaSi da...

abazana wyliT gaivso Tu ara, mSvidad, auCqareblad gaixa-da, Tumca guls mainc baga-bugi gaudioda. cotaTi Seamcivna kidec.

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eama amitomac TiTqmis cxeli wyali _ odnav ganelebuli.

fexebi gaWima. mcire xans iwva ase Tvalmilululi. galur-

suli. mere samarTebels gadawvda, piri mousinja. sakmaod

mWreli Canda.

`maS, arseboba-arsebobisTvis?..

o, nuras ukacravad!.. an yvelaferi, an _ araferi!

diax, rakiRa yvelaferi _ iluziaa, arafris amarad swored

rom aRar msurs aq darCena! dae, movkvde, nuRar vicocxleb!~

Tvalebi magrad, magrad daxuWa. piri mokuma da uceb...

moulodnelad iq aRmoCnda... Tvalwarmtac kunZulze, sadac...

sxva drosac araerTxel yofila ocnebiT Tu... warmosaxviT,

iqneb realuradac? vin icis?

`es Sena xar, Cemo asulo?.. didi xania ar mwvevixar!~

`o, diax, dedofalo!.. isev movedi, radgan... uzomod momenatra

Seni walkoti da is simSvide, am sanaxebSi mudam rom sufevs!~

`rao, Cemo, veRar gauZel iqaurobas?~

`vera. verc erTi sawadeli ver Sevisrule, dedofalo!..

momavalSiac saSvels ver vxedav!..

yvelgan siyalbe da sicrue gamefebula, yvelgan, fexis

yovel nabijze masxrad igdeben da iCagreba patiosneba!..

didi usaTuod Cagravs pataras, Zlieri _ uZlurs, ricxvmra-

vali, vrceli qveyana _ mcirericxovans. adamianebs, xalxebs,

rasebs sZulT erTmaneTi. boRmis WaobSi Caflulni da Ca-

myayebulni _ dro da dro RvarZlsa da balRams anTxeven

gareSemo _ omebis saxiT!

mowamlulia haeri SxamiT da samsalaTi. saTayvanebel ker-

pad qceula mxolod oqro. mas ewireba msxverplad mTeli

kacobrioba _ CarC-mevaxSeebad gadaqceuli!..~

`samwuxarod, Sen marTali xar. samyaros, kosmoss abi-

nZurebs kacTa modgmis sibilwe da uxamsoba. magram valia

Seni _ pirovnulad unda sZlio am siborotes, uzneobas.

Sens irgvliv Sen unda Seqmna siyvarulis didi veli _ si-

Zulvilis sapirispirod! Sen amisTvis gmarTebs brZola...~

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`o, o, mapatie, dedofalo! Segawyvetineb... oRond brZolas

nu mixseneb!.. ar gamagonoT Zalian gTxovT, aranairi brZola-

rkineba! radgan... mombezrda yovelgvari brZolobana!

ras veWidao? amaoebas?

risTvis? ratom? bolos mainc xom unda movkvde?

aRar vficav, mec mindoda miwieri bedniereba, mec mivelt-

vodi amqveyniur siamovnebas, magram rakiRa amaoa es wadili...

rakiRa uiRbloba marguna Cemma gamCenma... esec ar iyos, raki-

Ra verasdidebiT ver veguebi, rom ase saTiTaod, rigrigobiT

vkargav CemTvis Zvirfas adamianebs, rakiRa am siyvarulis

da monatrebis grZnobas ukve veRar verevi, raki ar vici, iq,

miRmieTSi vnaxav Tu ara maT odesme _ da raki Turme gar-

duvalia ganSoreba _ aq raRa damrCenia?..

amitomac, saboloo gasastikebas da sulier gaborotebas

_ sjobs gavecalo am wuTisofels.

kmara! morCa! amas iqiT ver movityueb Cems Tavs fuWi

ocnebiT da imedebiT. metis moTmena aRara msurs!~

`magram... arsebobs gza RvTaebis Sesacnobad _ uazrobas

cxovrebisas rom gagiqarwylebs da dagibrunebs aRtkinebas,

aRmafrenas, wvas, STagonebas, did sixaruls da netarebas rom

gaziarebs!~

`is gza-davkarge! ver vpoulob! veRar vagneb!.. simarTle

rom vTqva, didad aRarc miZebnia!.. albaT Zala aRar Semw-

evs da arc survili maqvs mis misaRwevad!.. Cans, damtova

Cemma mfarvelma angelozma!.. Sors gafrinda, da damekarga

dedaCemiviT!..

hoda, masaviT mec mwadia am muxTal sawuTros davemSvi-

dobo samudamod! samaradisod!~

`magram Sen ZalgiZs gaiaro gankacebis safexurebi, su-

lierebis is grZeli gza, rCeulebma rom gaiares tanjvis

quraSi, gardasaxvis wrToba rom hqvia da... gamoiwvrTnen.

mec xom bevri imaTTagani gavaronine am gzawvrilze!.. anda

Tu gnebavs, gandegilad SegiZlia daeyudo wminda taZarSi!~

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`o, ara-meTqi! aRara msurs aranairi Wapan-wyveta, brZola-

Widili da arc gandgoma am qveynidan locva-marxviT!..

...oh, es Rorebis kolti uricxvi _ egzom nacnobi war-

sulidan!.. au, Turme, ramdeni gyavs amJamadac!~

`diax. es veli kacTa modgmis mankierebis TavSesayreli

adgilia, Cemo keTilo!.. gankacebis safexurebis gavla vinc

ver SeZlo dedamiwaze _ aq pirutyvebad vaqcie yvela. Tu

gsurs, Sens Tvalwin erT-erT amaTgans, yvelaze ufro TavaS-

vebuls da gaumaZRars _ uwindel sxeuls davubruneb, rom

Sexedo da gulianad ixarxaro!~

`oh, ara, dedofalo!.. meyofa, raic me vixile Cems garSemo

lafSi mgoravi da moWyvitine!~

`nuTu aseTi axalgazrda, amden siglaxes gadaeyare?~

`o, diax! sakmaod... sul damemsxvra ymawviluri warmod-

genebi da ocnebebi. aki giTxari _ ukve sikeTes da silamazes

aRar verZeb dedamiwaze, karga xania!..

oh, es gedebis tba sakvirveli! ra mSvenieri sanaxavia!

dedamiwaze mcxovrebTaTvis eseni neta vinRa arian?~

`siyvarulisTvis TavSewirulni!.. maT mxolod siyvaruli

miaCndaT saTayvanod!.. hoda, aqac, am savaneSi uyvarT mxolod

erTi meore!~

`ai, ai, es tba mizidavs sulimwared!.. odesRac igi Cems

bavSvur wminda STagonebas kvebavda friad!

oh, egebis gedad maqcioT, dedofalo! gardavisaxo Cems

sayvarel frTosan arsebad, erTxel rom uyvars Turme sicox-

leSi da msolod erTxel rom amRerdeba sikvdilis win!~

`nuTu ar ici, Cemo keTilo, rom sikvdili sulac ar niS-

navs aryofnas qveynad?.. igi xom gadasvlaa sxva samyaroSi,

sxva sivrceSi, mzis saufloSi, mzis naTel gulSi, maradiso-

bas rom eZaxian!!!

magram... rakiRa ase Zalumad miiswrafi iqaurobis

ganSorebisken _ ki, batono! TeTr frinvelad gadagaqcev

axlav, am wuTas!~

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`oh, ra kargia, dedofalo!.. Tilismiani Seni joxis wya-lobiT vigrZen, rom gavdivar Cemi garsidan!.. vtoveb Cems sxeuls, viT naxmar samoss!.. frTebi mesxmeba!..

RmerTo Cemo! ra saamoa es gafrena!ra Svebasa da netarebas vgrZnob... mziT da sinaTliT mev-

seba suli!Cemi bavSvobis feradovani sizmrebi isev mibrundebian!..Cu!.. laJvard caze raRac uceb gaiklakna elvasaviT!vaime!jadosnuri joxi gadatyda!da kunapeti Rame Camowva. Savi sibnele gars Semomertya.

sunTqva mexSoba!..ara, ar minda es wyvdiadi, sulis mxuTavi Savi jurRmuli!...oh, sinaTlis TeTrma sxivma isev ise gaikvesa, gamoanaTa.TeTri aCrdili miaxlovdeba!..nuTu?.. nuTu es Sen xar, Cemo dediko?! aq rogor gaCndi?..~...viRac kars amtvrevs, viRac kivis ganwiruli xmiT..._ lika! lika! lika!_ nata?_ ho, me var... me var! nata var! rad Caikete?.. es, es... ras

niSnavs?_ nata, aq axla CemTan deda iyo!.. gesmis?! deda gamo-

mecxada!.._ nuTu... SenTanac?!_ RmerTo, gviSvele! RmerTo... SeniT!

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`ieroglifi~

sarkmeli farTod gamoaRo da fardebi miswi-moswia. mc-ire xans idga da fiqriani TvalebiT gadascqeroda zRvis ukidegano silurjes.

...roca Tanameinaxeebma mezobeli magididan damsvenebeli qalebi gadmoipatiJes, wasasvlelad wamoimarTa. SeniSna, rezomac aizezeura.

sanapiroze teva aRar iyo xalxis. adamianis mozimzime talRebi dausrulebliv miedinebodnen da moedinebodnen da TiTqos bolo aRar uCanda am dinebas.

siCume rezom daarRvia. xmadabla, javrianad Cailaparaka:_ am Zuknebis xrovam gaaufasura qali. yvelaferi gaiafda,

gaiolda. gatialda.gaocebiT SeaTvaliera. ratomRac ar moeloda rezosgan

am sityvebs, arc imas, rom darCenas ar moisurvebda kafeSi, Tavis moxorxoce, SezarxoSebul tol-amxanagebTan:

_ Zneli asatania, roca mxolod es pirutyvuli, mxolod biologiuri sawyisi geCxireba TvalSi... mxolod gaSiSvle-buli ndoma, meti araferi, _ ganagrZobda igi moguduli xmiT, ise, TiTqos Tavis fexsacmelebis Wvints ezraxebao. mere gezad gaxeda gverdiT momavals: _ Tumca, Sen aRar gagikvirdeba... es, Senc xom _ zRvispireli xar!

...gonebaSi uneburad amoutivtivda axla es dialogi da rogorRac gverdulad CaiRimila. sarkmels moSorda da neli nabijiT mivida magidasTan. telefonebis wigns das-wvda. erTxans gaunZrevlad dascqeroda, mere isev magidaze dado cnobari da kvlav sarkmelTan mivida. sigarets nela, auCqareblad moukida da Rrma nafazi daartya.

swadda aRedgina simSvide, ucabedad darRveuli wonas-woroba sulisa, magram ratomRac awrialebuli guli ar wynardeboda. vera da veRar ereoda am Sinagan, farul mous-venrobas, mTel sxeulSi rom gasjdomoda.

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isev magidasTan dabrunda. uneblieT Seavlo Tvali kara-

dis sarkes. mere SeCerda, dakvirvebuli mzeriT TxemiT ter-

famde gazoma Tavisi zorba, simsuqneSeparuli tani. mokled

SeWril, odnav SeWaRaravebul gruza TmaSi marjvena xelis

TiTebi Seacura, da...

zurgi aqcia Tavis gamosaxulebas. magidasTan miiCoCa sa-

varZeli da mZimed CaeSva. kvlav aiRo wigni xelSi da ga-

daSala.

`egeba arca aqvs telefoni?~

swrafad Caavlo Tvali sias. orad-ori gvari aRmoCnda

kobaxiZe da erTi maTganis iniciali iyo: m. d.

wamiT isev Seyoymanda. mere uceb akrifa nomeri, Tan saa-

Tze daixeda, aTi sruldeboda.

`rac iqneba, iqneba!..~

yurmils aravin iRebda da is iyo guldawyvetils da Tan

TiTqos Svebamicemuls, yurmili unda daedo, rom anazdad

gaisma qalis mkerdismieri xma:

_ aloo!

tyvianakraviviT, saswrafod dakida yurmili. igrZno, cx-

elma talRam erTbaSad rogor dauara ZarRvebSi da gulze

gadaevlo nakadebad.

wamodga. oTaxSi gaiar-gamoiara. mere, TiTqos wyalSi Ca-

sayvinTad moemzadao, xelaxla akriba nomeri.

_ alo, gismenT! _ gaisma yurmilSi qalis igive xma.

_ ukacravad... maka mindoda, kobaxiZe! _ Tavisive xma euc-

naura, dabeJiliviT moeCvena igi.

_ me var, batono!

_ gamarjobaT, maka...

_ gagimarjoT! _ qals gakvirveba edga xmaSi.

_ rogor gikiTxoT... maka?.. xom kargad brZandebi?

_ gmadlobT. ukacravad... ver gicaniT...

_ hm... hm... ar vici, mogagondebaT Tu ara... odesRac, didi

xnis win, erTi Tianeli nacnobi gyavdaT... ramaz diasamiZe.

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dumili. `albaT yurmils damigdebs axla!~ _ Cxvletis-

magvari yru tkivili igrZno gulis areSi.

_ ramaz... nuTu... Sena xar?.. _ qalma wamiT iyuCa: _ veRar

gicani. ici, srulebiT veRar gicani xmaze!.. ufro sworad...

_ isev gaCumda.

`ar damikida!~

_ rogora xarT, maka?

_ ra vqna, var. Sen... ras Svrebi?.. xom.. mSvidobaa Senken?

_ gmadlobT, maka... mec var ra, ise. – pauza.

_ col-Svili rogora gyavs?

_ gmadlobT. kargad arian, maka! _ isev pauza.

_ ramdeni gyavs, ramaz, bavSvi?

_ ori.

_ biWebi? gogonebi?

_ gogonebia orive.

_ oho.

Sublze momskdari ofli cxvirsaxociT Seiwminda, suli

mZimed moiTqva. grZnobda, rom saubris Zafi daekarga, ar

icoda, ra eTqva. isev qals gamohyavda mdgomareobidan.

_ saidan rekav, ramaz? ram gagaxsena Cemi Tavi?

_ aqa var, Tqvens qalaqSi.

_ CvenTan? aq isveneb?

_ ara. TaTbiri gvqonda raRac da...

_ aaa... respublikuri TaTbiri rom iyo? mgoni, damTavr-

da, aa?

_ ki. dRes damTavrda.

_ Sen... isev iqa xar?

_ ara. axla Cais meurneobaSi gadavedi.

_ dagawinaures?

_ damawinaures. direqtorad.

_ oho. kaia. momilocavs!

_ gmadlob, maka!

_ gagitkba direqtoroba Tu jer... vera?

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_ jer vera, veCvevi TandaTan! _ Tavadac xumroba scada da Caicina, oRond rogorRac naZaladevad, uxalisod.

_ rogor miatove Tbilisi, maka? ratom gadmoxvedi aqeT-ken?

_ ho, marTla, Sen vin giTxra, rom aq vcxovrob?_ vici._ saidan? vin giTxra?_ davreke erTxel SenTan samsaxurSi da iq miTxres._ CemTan dareke?.. rodis?_ ase... _ Seyoymanda, _ samiode wlis win._ aa... _ qalma kvlav Caicina._ ram gagaxsena Cemi Tavi, ramaz?_ maka, Sen, rasakvirvelia, ar daijereb... Tumca axla amis

Tqmas aRarca aqvs mniSvneloba, albaT, magram mainc... minda giTxra, rom... me arasodes damviwyebixar...

_ nuTu?! _ qalma isev gaicina.o, ra sicili iyo. TiTqos samarTebeli dausveso gulze.

TviTve eoca es simware:_ ar Tqva axla, yovel wuTs, yovel wams maxsovdi, magram

mTeli am xnis ganmavlobaSi erTxelac ver movaxerxe da-mereka SenTviso, Tumca... sami wlis win xom dagirekavs, ras gerCi? _ qali gaCumda. kacic dumda. rogorc iqna, xelSi SerCenil moukidebel sigarets sanTebela miumarjva.

_ ratom gaCumdi, ramaz?_ Cemi fanjridan zRva moCans, maka. ici, zRva Sen Semayvare,

Tumca zRvispirze ki gavizarde._ nuTu?_ ki, asea, maka! Sen... damanaxe zRva sxvanairad... da roca

zRvas vuyureb, yovelTvis... Sen maxsendebi._ sainteresoa..._ zRva makavSirebs xolme Cems fiqrebSi SenTan... _ da

uceb daumata: _ maka, unda gnaxo. vici, ar maqvs araviTari ufleba... adre, ramdenjerac davrekavdi, xmis amoRebas ver vbedavdi; megona, yurmils damikidebdi, ar momismendi. dRe-

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sac ase megona, magram raki Sen... erTi sityviT, unda gnaxo aucileblad. bevri saTqmeli maqvs, maka.

_ ra azri aqvs, ramaz? an... ra unda miTxra iseTi, rac... telefoniT ar iTqmis?

_ gasagebia. albaT, qmari ieWvianebs, ara?_ me qmari ara myavs, ramaz. ase rom, eWvianoba gamoricxulia.`vicodi. vicodi, rom ar gaTxovila. da mainc... yalbad

gamomivida raRac!~_ mesmis... _ kacma xma Caiwminda mRelvarebis dasafaravad,

_ vici, rom Sen ufleba gaqvs aseTi toniT melaparako. Sen gaqvs ufleba CamTvalo... usindiso kacad, magram... geficebi, yovelive imas, rac ki Zvirfasi da wminda gamaCnia am qvey-anaze, rom... _ sulTqma ekvroda, TiTqos aRmarTze adioda da zurgze uSvelebeli tvirTi hqonda mokidebuli: _ Tuki vinme odesme myvarebia, Tuki odesme raime grZnoba mqonia qa-lis mimarT, es Sena xar. Tumca... mesmis, rom amas... araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs axla... _ gaCumda. mTavari saTqmeli iTqva, is, rac esoden mZime lodad awva. Rrmad amoisunTqa. qalic Cumad iyo, magram uceb raRac gumaniT iazra, rom igi tiroda. Tavadac gorgali moawva yelSi, sunTqva gauWirda.

`ra gulCvilobaa? ra memarTeba?~ _ gaifiqra ironiiT. Camqral sigarets wvalebiT moukida. Rrma nafazi daartya isev. aRarc axsovs, rodis auCuyda guli ukanasknelad!

_ mapatie, ramaz... _ qals xma Secvloda da ise axlos ga-ismoda, iseTi sicxadiT da garkveviT SeigrZnobda mis yovel mixra-moxras, TiTqos Tavadac aqve idga, gverdiT: _ mogex-seneba, qalebi mainc sentimentalurni varT sadRac, xandaxan patara ramec kmara, rom... Senma sityvebma da xmam gamaxsena... _ dumili axla karga xans gagrZelda. kacsac uWirda xmis amoReba.

_ nuTu... marTla gaxsovdi, ramaz! nuTu marTla?_ yvelaferi maxsovs, maka. yoveli wvrilmani. yoveli de-

tali: pirveli gacnobidan im... ukanasknel Sexvedramde. da verc verasdros daviviwyeb!

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_ mere... nuTu... erTxelac ver mnaxe am eqvsi wlis gan-mavlobaSi an... ar damireke? an im werilze... is werilic upasuxod datove...

_ vicodi, rom amas mkiTxavdi... mec xSirad vusvam Cem Tavs am SekiTxvas: ratom? rogor moxda?.. ratomRac megona, Sen advilad aitandi am dacilebas. albaT imitom megona ase, rom... _ gaCumda. azri ar daamTavra.

_ gegona, morigi gataceba iyavi CemTvis, ara?.. gasagebia. Tqven, mamakacebi, xSirad ver arCevT namdvils yalbisgan. Tanac, qalebi ise ostaturad TvalTmaqcoben Turme, rom...

_ SeiZleba asec iyos, magram... CemSi albaT meti aRmoCnda e. w. azielobis kompleqsi... megona, raRac-raRaceebs ver movinelebdi da... gacla vamjobine. vfiqrobi, ase ukeTesi iqneboda SenTvisac da CemTvisa.c rac mTavaria... ho, diax, mSiSara aRmovCndi. Cems Tavs ufro gaveqeci... magram, Turme, sad gaeqcevi sakuTar Tavs!.. Sen ar ifiqro... garegnulad yvelaferi rigzea, Senze da Cemze bevrad axalgazrdaa Cemi coli. kargi qali gamodga, meojaxe, Svilebze gadamkvdari dedaa. yvelaferi Cinebuladaa garegnulad. mec ise var Ca-fluli yoveldRiur, wvrilman saqmianobaSi... ojaxze da Svilebze mzrunveloba da samsaxuris saqmeebi ise miTrevs, rom xSirad Tavi maviwydeba. mokled, garegnulad yvelaferi rigzea. yovel SemTxvevaSi... ase miaCniaT sxvebs. sinamdvile-Si ki... es is ar aris, maka... is ar aris, rac Sens mimarT mqonda, rac... SenTan meqneboda, rac me da Sen SeiZleboda gvqonoda... _ gaCumda isev. xangrZlivi, daZabuli dumili Camovarda. mere qalma wamoiwyo:

_ Sen erT rameSi marTali xar, ramaz, imdagvari komple-qsebi yvelas gagvaCnia, metnaklebad, rasakvirvelia. ufro axalgazrda Taoba albaT imiT gvjobnis Cven, Zvelebs, rom maT TiTqmis warmodgena ara aqvT am kompleqsebze. ai mec, ramaz, Rame tkivilisagan guli mefliTeboda, dRe ki, samsax-urSi, Tavi ise meWira, viTom araferi mWirs. sxvas aravis unda SeemCnia Cemi sawuxari. da marTlac, Cems irgvliv, uax-

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loesi megobrebis garda, veravin warmoidgenda, rom xSirad Tavis mokvlas vapirebdi _ dardisa da tkivilisagan saso-warkveTilebamde misuli. magram... ramdenjerac davapirebdi, imdenjer movaleobis grZnoba maxevinebda ukan. Cemi avadmyo-fi deda? is xom ver gadaitans am ubedurebas? sircxvilis grZnoba mouRebs bolos, sxvas rom Tavi davaneboT-meTqi. da ai, gamodis, rom me ar viyavi Cemi sicocxlis gamgebeli, sicocxlis, romelic arafrad miRirda.

_ me moval, maka. ise, dagxedav da... wamoval maSinve.

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undoda, fexiT gaevlo. jer eerTi, dro sWirdeboda, rom ramdenadme gonebaSi moekriba, Cahkvirveboda Tavis Sinagan fiqrebs Tu gancdebs. meorec, fexiT gavla cotaTi mainc gamounelebda Rvinis narCens, sxeulSi rom CaRvriliyo maTrobela nakadad.

quCebSi ki yelgan, yovel fexis nabijze wyvilebi, gadax-veuli wyvilebi xvdeboda da ismoda gauTavebeli, Jiniani sicil-kiskisi.

haerSic TiTqos mdedris momwodebeli, daufaravi wadili trialebda da aRagznebda guls, ZarRvebs aTrTolebda, cx-viris nestoebs beravda da sisxlSi survilad da natvris Jruantelad uvlida.

amaod cdilobda ganmartoeboda Tavis Sinagan gulisx-

mas, Caebrunebina mzera gulis uSores kunWulebSi. piriqiT,

gaRizianeba da raRacnairi mousvenari foriaqi eufleboda.

uceb carieli taqsi dainaxa. xeli auwia uangariSod.

roca manqanaSi jdeboda, igrZno, rom daRliliyo, ufro

sworad, sxeuli raRacnairad momCvaroda, moSvebuliyo. Tva-

lebi daxuWa. TavSi akviatebul fiqrs kvaldakval asdevne-

boda: `aqvs azri?~

qalis xma gamoikveTa anazdeulad, gasaocari, TiTqmis

xelSesaxebi intonaciiT.

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xmis am kilom, odnav wamRerebulma, nazma, _ erTbaSad

JrialiT dauara ZarRvebSi. ise Zalumi iyo xmis es aRqma,

rom sunTqvac ki gauwyda wamiT. loyaze qalis saTuTi, saa-

mo sunTqvis molamunebac SeigrZno TiTqos. Tvalminabuls

netarma, Cumma Rimilma Seutoka bage... iseTi natifi iyo

qalis nakvTebi, eSinoda uneblieT xelSi ar Semomsxvreoda.

da saocrad mouqneli, uxeSi da tlanqi eCveneboda sakuTari

xelebi, am nazi, saTuTi sxeulis mosafereblad.

...mere, cremlCamdgarma, farTo, mosiyvarule da SekrTalma

Tvalebma SemoanaTa wamierad.

molodiniT Sepyrobili saxe, odnav, sul odnav gapobili,

savse, alublisferi tuCebi... TiTqos saboloo ganaCens elo-

debodnen isini da... Sewyalebas iTxovdnen.

...ramdenjerac moelandeboda es saxe, imdenjer farTo,

uxeSi xelis mtevani aefareboda mas da ukan, Sors gaswevda.

am didi xelis zurgiT cdilobda TiTqos mis saboloo

mocilebas da im yru tkivilis CaxSobas, guls rom bwkenda

JamiT Jamamde.

`ra uRmerTod moeqeci, ara, maSin?~ Tavisive sisatikisa da

ulmobelobis gaxseneba akrTobda.

magram axla tlanqi, veeba xelisguli aRar efareboda am

saxes, ar swevda SoreTSi, sadRac iqeT, sivrcis miRma;

piriqiT, axlos, sul axlos moiwevda igi...

iqneb sjobs gabrunde? kidev aris dro ukan daxevisaTvis.

magram...

is `viRaca~... igi iRebda gadawyvetilebebs `mis magivrad~,

igi moqmedebda.

...zaris Rilaks frTxilad daaWira TiTi. cota xanSi

kari gaiRo.

kibis qveda safexurze Semdgari, Tavaweuli Sehyurebda

direze asvetil siluets.

_ mobrZandi, ramaz! _ qalma RimiliT ukan daixia, gza

misca kacs.

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_ gamarjoba, maka! _ dabneviT Caiduduna da xeli instin-qturad gaiSvira. qalma CamoarTva. grili da patara xelis mtevani Caikarga mamakacis uzarmazar torSi. mxolod wamiT moaswro Tvalis Sevleba qalisTvis, mere mzeradaxrili mihyva ukan. erTaderTi survili amoZravebda axla, rogorme daeokebina mRelvareba, saxeze mowolili mxurvale sisxlis talRa rogorme ukueqcia.

qalis mSvidma xmam da saxem TiTqos uSvela kidec, ramde-nadme moreoda Tavs.

patara derefani gaiares, mere qali sakmaod mozrdil oTaxSi SeuZRva kacs.

_ dabrZandi, ramaz! _ qalis wynarma xmam gamoiyvana garindebidan, ase uceb da moulodnelad rom daufleboda.

SeTavazebul savarZelSi nela CaeSva. qali mopirdapired mdgar xis moCuqurTmebulfexebian, dabalzurgian skamlog-inze Camojda. aseve moCuqurTmebulfexebian grZel tablaze xili, namcxvrebi da sasmisebi elaga. qalisTvis rom mzera aeridebina, irgvliv mimoavlo Tvali. kuTxeSi roiali idga mxolod, xolo oTaxis oTxive kedlidan iRvreboda cis-feri, narinjisferi, lurji, xasxasa mwvane, wiTeli ferebis Cqerali...

daufaravi gaocebiT Sescqeroda am uCveulo, gamaognebel naxatebs.

...aqafebul zvirTebze pepelasaviT Seskupebula TeT-rafriani orCxomela.

...ucnauri formis mqone Rrublebi wverwamaxul qongure-bian cixe-koSkebs hgvanan, xanac sazarel, xaxadabCenil ur-Cxulebs.

...gvirilebiT mofenil mindorze peplebs dadevnebul bafTebian gogonebsa da biWunebs cis magivrad _ baybay de-vis uzarmazari figura gadmomxobia...

...mglissaxeba, xanac afTrisTvaleba arsebani TaTebaRe-rilni moiweven erTad Sejgufebul, damfrTxali Svlebisa da niamorebisken...

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...didi, narinjisferi mze wiTeli laqebiT daferil caze

iRvenTeba.

...TmebgaSlili, satevarmomarjvebuli amorZalebi yiJiniT

miaWeneben cxenebs tramalze.

adga. axlos mivida kedelTan. erTxans Cumad aTvaliereb-

da.

_ visi naxatebia? _ ikiTxa bolos da mzera gauswora

qals, romelsac wynari Rimili urxevda bages.

oqrosferi, odnav talRovani, sqeli Tma kefaze daegragna.

Ria mwvane, nuSisebri Tvalebi kacisTvis miepyro da... dumda.

TiTqos araferi Secvliliyo qalis saxeze mas aqeT, rac

ukanasknelad naxa. mxolod es Cumi, bagis kuTxeebSi CanaoWe-

buli Rimili iyo axali, saidumloebiT aRsavse. es Rimili

suls uforiaqebda, aSfoTebda.

igrZno, wamic da veRar gauZlebda qalis mzeras.

_ Cemia, ramaz! _ Tqva uceb qalma mSvidi xmiT da Tavadac

naxatebs Seavlo Tvali wamierad.

_ Seni?!.. Sen... xatav, maka?

_ ise. CemTvis. xandaxan.

amoRebuli sigaretis kolofi isev jibeSi Caibruna.

_ moswie, ramaz, Tu ginda. nu gerideba.

_ SeiZleba? aq?.. naxatebTan?

_ ara uSavs ra. momeci. mec movwev SenTan erTad.

Tavis adgilze dabrunebulma, saCqarod gauwoda sigareti,

mere sanTebelac miumarjva. roca ukidebda, gonebaSi TiTqos

wiTlad aenTo SuqniSaniviT: `eweva!.. adre... ar eweoda~.

sigaretma daubruna garegnuli simSvide, Tavdajerebu-

lobac ki:

_ didi xania xatav, maka? me ar vicodi, Tu Sen mxatvaric

iyavi.

_ mxatvari ara... _ qalma CaiRimila: _ sul ori-sami we-

lia... mokled, rac aqeT gadmovedi, mas mere daviwye.

_ adre arasodes gicdia?

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_ ara, _ qalma Tavi gaiqnia da nafazi daartya. _ ise, pa-taraobisas, rogorc yvela bavSvi, mec vjRabnidi raRaceebs. musika bevr dros marTmevda. aq rom gadmovedi, uceb, erTba-Sad gamiCnda xatvis survili. zRvam, etyoba, Semaxsena, Cemi Zveli gataceba... hoda, mec verTobi CemTvis.

qals yviTelfoTlebiani, TeTri perangi ecva, saxeloe-bakapiwebuli. Seubneveli zeda Rilidan mouCanda mzemoukide-beli, TeTri, nazi kani. rogorc adre, axlac erTaderTi samkauli _ firuzisTvliani oqros beWedi ekeTa grZel, natif TiTze. es iyo da es. molurjo-moSavo, naoWebiani qvedakaba muxlisTavebs ufaravda. sadad da ubralod ecva, rogorc adre.

da rogorc adre, axlac sulac ar iyo gamomwvevi da TvalSi sacemi qaluri sinaziTa da sinatifiT aRbeWdili misi garegnoba.

yvelaferi es TiTqos nacnobi da axlobeli iyo, magram ucxo da Soreuli rCeboda mamakacisaTvis es idumali Ri-mili da usurvilo, uwadino Tvalebi.

`nuTu.. sul, sul ar Relavs? ise, ubralod, mogonebaTa gamo mainc? nuTu aseTi gulgrili da civia marTla? aki weRan... telefonze laparakis dros momeCvena, rom... tiro-da? mereda, es sigaretic!~

gansakuTrebiT qalis Rimili agdebda sagonebelSi. ver amoexsna misi idumali Sinaarsi. verc am yovelgvari sur-vilisgan daclil Tvalebs Segueboda, uwindeli, varskvlave-biviT acimcimebuli Tvalebis nacvlad. es detalebi~ qveSec-neulad aRizianebda, TiTqos mis mamakacur Tavmoyvareobas Tu Rirsebas laxavda. marTalia, am mzeram Tavad masac mou-tana erTgvari simSvide, SeaZlebina sakuTar Tavs daufleboda, moeToka da moezRuda ayalyebuli sisxli da mainc...

_ rogorc Cans, Seegue aqaurobas, ara, maka? _ mamakacis jiquri mzera axla cdilobda SeeniSna qalis saxeze wam-ieri foriaqis nasaxi, mRelvarebis nakvalevi, misi natamali mainc.

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qalma mxrebi aiwura odnavi RimiliT. mere Wiqebi uxmod Seavso koniakiT.

_ cudi maspinZeli var, xom xedav, ramaz? miirTvi rame. es Sinauri namcxvaria.

_ ara, gmadlob, maka, araferi minda. sufridan movdivar._ rogor giTxra, ramaz? _ weRandel kiTxvas gaepasuxa

qali: _ var CemTvis. ufro sworad, vcdilob viyo CemTvis, ramdenadac SesaZlebelia es am patara qalaqSi. dRe – musi-kalur teqnikumSi vaswavli, saRamoobiT _ vxatav. Tumca... ukve veRar vxatav... eseni Zveli naxatebia... dedaCemis Semdeg ar SemeZlo TbilisSi darCena... da wamovedi aqeT.

_ deda... didi xania gardaicvala?_ meoTxe welia ukve! _ qalma iyuCa.kacic dumda TavCaxrili da xelSi SerCenil Camqral sig-

arets dasCereboda. mere mzera aswia. qals pirdapir Sexeda:_ ise... maxsovs... Sen sul aqeTken geweoda guli, maka, zR-

visken!_ marTalia, ramaz. albaT imitom, rom aqauroba Cemi

deduleTia. da meorec, etyoba, zRvaze uzomod Seyvare-buli, zRvaze gadareuli winaprebis sisxlis yivilia albaT CemSi... _ qals Tvalebi gaganiereboda, araamqveyniuri sevda da kidev raRac amoucnobi, miuwvdomeli ilandeboda maTSi,

is, rasac kaci gumaniT grZnobda da saxeli ver daerqmia,

rac ase uSfoTebda suls da aforiaqebda...

_ mixaria, rom... gagimarTla da... kmayofili xar, maka!

_ gamimarTla?.. Tumca, ho, bina iRblianad gadavcvale, da

rac mTavaria... vcdilob, bavSvebisTvis marto musikis maswav-

lebeli ar viyo... sasiamovno SegrZnebaa, roca bavSvebs eRvi-

ZebaT ltolva silamazisken, mSvenierebisken... Tumca... bevri

siZnelec aris... simarTle giTxra, xandaxan Zalian miWirs

kidec, magram... ras izam. unda Seeguo. aitano. sxva gza ar

aris... _ wamieri dumilis Semdeg:

_ es Sen gagimarjos, ramaz! _ warmoTqva da koniakis savse

Wiqa pirTan miitana.

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_ ara, ara, _ gamoerkva erTbaSad kaci: _ jer me minda davlio...

_ mgoni, rogorc maspinZels, me mekuTvnis..._ ara, _ kvlav Seawyvetina kacma mtkice xmiT: _ neba

miboZe, jer me Sevsva Seni sadRegrZelo... _ wamiT dadumda, mere sityvebis SerCeviT, nela, dinjad wamoiwyo: _ es Sen da Sens naxatebs gaumarjos, maka... moica, nu Semawyvetineb, gTxov. am naxatebSi Seni suli cocxlobs, silamaziT, sikeTiT da siyvaruliT savse. eseni Seni monatrebaa... Seni wuxili da sixarulia... Cven, adamianebis umravlesobas, samwuxarod, xor-cieli, materialuri ufro gvizidavs da es suls gvimaxin-jebs xSirad. me es aqac... am qalaqSic SevniSne... ymawvili biWebis mzeraSic, maT qcevaSic... aq TiTqmis mxolod da mx-olod xorcis dResaswaulia, afuebuli, gazuluqebuli xor-cis... aq, am oTaxSi ki _ sulis oazisia. martvili sulis savanea. aq es mSvidi, nazi qali axerxebs iyos TavisTavadi, ganumeoreeli, iyos pirovneba. es... es misi samyaroa; misi sulis zeimia aq!.. ratom miyureb ase, maka? Cemgan gikvirs ara es sityvebi?

qalma Tavisi savse Wiqa gulisyuriT SeaTvaliera, Tan odnav, odnav iRimeboda isev ise. oh, es idumali Rimili rogor afrTxobda mamakacs, rogor ukawravda guls raRac-nairi auxsneli, mwvave tkiviliT.

_ Sen migaCnia, rom Cemgan... Tumca... Sen marTali xar, Sen ufleba gaqvs ifiqro, rom... _ gaCumda isev. yelSi momdgari uecari burTi laparaks uSlida.

`iqneb Sen, ramaz diasamiZev, arc gqonda ufleba SemoW-riliyavi aq, dagerRvia es myudroeba, sulis es faqizi la-birinTi, Semogelajebina aq Seni didi fexebiT da gamogewvia raRac mSvenieris da lamazis msxvreva...

aki erTxel mogeca SemTxveva da Caidine es jalaToba...Tumca, iqneb mTlad asec ar iyos?~qali magidaze raRaceebs adgils ucvlida mzeradaxrili.

qalis xelis mtevani _ TeTri da saluqi, ise axlos aR-

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moCnda uceb mis xelTan, rom ZlivZlivobiT moeria survils,

swvdomoda da saTiTaod daekocna misi nebebi...

sigarets moukida kvlav. moqaCa.

_ Sen daleva dagaviwyda, ramaz!

swrafad axeda qals. igi axla farTod iRimeboda da

es Rimili iseTi uzakveli, ueSmako moeCvena, rom erTbaSad

gulze moeSva da Tavadac gauRima gulRiad. uceb, sul-

mouTqmelad gamoscala Wiqa.

_ madlobeli var, ramaz!.. Sen erTi rame sworad SeniSne:

am qalaqSi marTlac ufro Zalumad igrZnoba xorcis zeimi...

am dros RaRadeba WeSmarit siyvarulze, mSvenierebasa da

silamazeze sasacilo ufroa... am naxatebSi albaT es tkivi-

lebic aisaxa...

_ gamofenaze Tu gicdia amaTi gamotana, maka... me mxatvro-

bis bevri araferi gamefeba, magram eseni, Cemis azriT, saocari

naxatebia!

_ modi, amaze nuRar vilaparakebT, ramaz.

_ nuTu marTla ar gamogitania arasdros?

_ RmerTma damifaros. gana gamofenisTvis vxatavdi, ramaz?..

ubralod, CemTvis...

...anazdad, telefonis gabmuli zari gaisma. ratomRac

am myudro, TiTqos garesamyarodan mowyvetil samyofelSi,

romelic ferebis, uCumari musikisa da gulis miCqmaluli

Relvis sabudari Canda, rogorRac ucnaurad mkveTrad, da-

Jinebuli ZalisxmeviT Tu mowodebasaviT SemoiWra meoce

saukunis xma.

gamWoli mzera SeaCera uneblieT Setokebuli qalis saxeze.

igi yurmils gadawvda.

_ gismenT! _ mSvidi, usicocxlomde mSvidi iyo qalis xma,

magram saxeze erTianad gadafiTrebuli, TiTqos moWrilad,

mkveTrad gamoTqvamda sityvebs.

_ ra miWirs... Cveulebrivad. hoo? Sen ici. ara. norm-

alurad. ara, marto ara var. erTi Zveli megobari mestumra.

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ara. kaci. ki. Zalian. albaT. ar vici. ar aris saWiro. namd-

vilad ara. asea. kargad iyavi.

ferdakargul saxeze mxolod Tvalebi anTeboda. tuCebi

nerviulad uTrToda da Tumca, cdilobda aRelveba ar Ses-

tyoboda, aRar gamosdioda.

yurmili dado Tu ara, orive xeli momuWa da kalTaSi

Caiwyo, gairinda saxedasxepili.

kacs undoda mzera moecilebina misTvis, sxva rameze ga-

daetana; alRoTi grZnobda, rom ase ajobebda axla qalisT-

vis, magram veRar axerxebda, daJinebuli mzera vera da ver

moewyvita am erTbaSad Secvlili saxisTvis.

rogorc iqna, sZlia Tavs, wamodga. erT-erT naxatTan Se-

Cerda. uzarmazari, wiTeli mze Cadioda cis dasalierSi, zR-

vis kidesTan. narinjisferi, mewamuli, lurji, iisferi erTma-

neTSi areuliyo. yomrali Rrublebi awewil-dawewiliyvnen

da rialiT misdevdnen mnaTobs;

mzis gardacvaleba, ewera suraTis qveS. idga da Seurx-

evlad Sescqeroda naxats arafrismxedveli TvalebiT. misi

goneba mTlianad daepyro telefonze saubars.

mkveTrad Semobrunda. qali kvlav gaunZrevlad ijda imave

pozaSi, rogorSiac datova _ TiTqos daTrgunuli, Tu ga-

texili. nazi profili yinwmowyvetili yvaviliviT daxroda.

_ vin iyo? _ uneburad mowyda enis wvers es sityvebi.

icoda, ar unda ekiTxa araferi da mainc veRar SeZlo Tavis

Sekaveba. Camojda. sigareti isev amoiRo angariSmiucemlad.

_ Tumca... me vxvdebi... _ Cailaparaka xmadabla da nela

amoiRo kolofidan sigaretis Reri, Tan warbebs qvemodan

gamomcdel mzeras ar aSorebda qals.

igi welSi gaimarTa, kiseri aaRera. mere TiTqos gamom-

wvevad Seacqerda kacs, saxeze gadamwyveti ieri aRbeWdoda.

_ es is kacia... vinc Sen Segcvala, _ amomarcvla mkveTri,

civi xmiT. TiTqos yinulis loluebi scvioda bagidan. Tva-

lebic civad ubzinavda.

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uceb, TviT misTvisac moulodnelad muxlebi moiyara qa-lis win da xelebSi swvda, tuCebTan miitana: _ maka, maka... mapatie... Tu SegiZlia...

ise axlos iyo qali, mis siTbos da sunTqvas mTeli ar-sebiT SeigrZnobda. Tavbru exveoda.

nuTu... odesRac es nazi xelebi eferebodnen mis Tmebs, mis saxes? es sxeuli _ umweo da morCili _ eWira mklavebSi?

nuTu iyo es? nuTu?da rogor dakarga, ranairad?_ ra unda gapatio?.. adeqi, ramaz. Zalian gTxov. ra unda

gapatio? is, Tu ratom ar giyvardi? sisulelea yvelaferi. sisulele. adeqi, Tu RmerTi gwams.

_ Sen yovelTvis araCveulebrivi gogo iyavi, maka, yov-elTvis da me... SemeSinda, radgan... vicodi, yovelTvis vicodi, rom... Seni Rirsi ara var. me xom erTi Cveulebrivi, provin-cieli biWi viyavi _ undo da eWviani, suleli da briyvi... sanam ar dakargav, Turme manamde ver gaigeb mis fass...

qali dausxlta kacis xelebs. Tvalebi avad, mrisxaned uelavda.

_ me sulac ara var araCveulebrivi qali. gesmis Sen? sulac!.. piriqiT!.. erTi Cveulebrivi, ubralo kaxpa deda-kaci gaxlavar, romelsac TveSi erTxel CamoakiTxavs xolme sayvareli _ colSviliani kaci da, romelsac usiyvarulod, usurvilod uwveba loginSi:

_ maka... gaCumdi, gTxov!_ ratom? ratom gavCumde?! simarTle ar unda vTqva,

ara?! sicrue ufro tkbili da saamoa, ara?! maS, gimeoreb: maka kobaxiZe erTi Cveulebrivi kaxpa dedakacia, romelsac ar SeuZlia mamakacis alersis gareSe gaZleba, visa sTxov patiebas?!

Tavadac ar icis, rogor moxda, ranairad. gons maSin moego, roca qalis loyaze alisfrad gamoikveTa misi naTiTurebi.

qalma orive xeli Tavze itaca, mere yru kvnesiT CaeSva savarZelSi.

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wamsve mivarda, orive mklavi moxvia, CaiCoqa: _ maka... RvTis gulisaTvis... mapatie... me TviTon ar vici... ra momivida.. maka!

qals kvlav orive xeli waevlo TavSi da fermitetkili, uRonod misveneboda savarZlis zurgs.

_ oh, ra mZime xeli gqonia, biWo... _ Cumad, Zlivs gasago-nad CaiCurCula bolos da axla saxeze aifara xelisgulebi

kaci uxmod, tuCebis odnavi SexebiT ukocnida xelebs da Tan SeSfoTebul mzeras ar acilebda qalis saxes.

qalma kidev erTi Rili Caixsna, akankalebuli xeli ubeSi Seiyo.

_ cudad var... _ gaTeTrebuli tuCebiT Zlivs amoTqva Tu amoikvnesa da Tvali moxuWa.

_ maka!_ iqeT... sawol oTaxSi, loginis TavTan... ujra gamoswie...

wamlebia... momitane, Tu SeiZleba...kacma borZik-borZikiT miaRwia sawol oTaxamde, loginis

TavTiT mdgari patara tumbodan ujra gamoaRo... ujra wam-lebiT iyo savse.

ramdenimes erTad daavlo xeli da saCqarod dabrunda qalTan. igi isev ise misveneboda savarZels da napirze amog-debuli TevziviT aRebda pirs.

_ maka... _ daixara kaci, _ romeli dagalevino?_ sul erTia...

wamali dalia Tu ara, kvlav Ronemixdili miesvena savar-Zels, Tvalmiluli. tuCebze simwris Rimili ukankalebda.

_ axla gamivlis, nu geSinia... fizikuri tkivili ufro advili asatania, _ gaRimeba scada, magram Zala ar eyo da qveda tuCze ikbina. mere nawyvet-nawyvetad amoTqva:

_ magan... gadamatanina maSin Seni ambavi... sicocxle aRar mindoda da CemTvis ukve... yvelaferi sul erTi iyo... yvelaferi. ufro jibriT gavakeTe, Cemive Tavis jibriT... mere... aRar meyo Zala, nebisyofa _ Camomecilebina. aqeT gadmovedi, aqac momdia. saSveli aRar momca. vifiqre, bavSvi, iqneb bavSvi mainc... susti aRmovCndi. glaxaki.

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_ ar ginda, Wirime Seni, nu laparakob._ daviRale. o, rogor daviRale, ramaz. daviRale

yvelafrisgan. amdeni sulmdablobisgan... amdeni siglaxis-gan... sicocxle... ar minda xandaxan...

_ maka!_ axla wadi, damtove, ramaz!_ Seni ase jdoma ar SeiZleba, maka. loginSi dagawven.

egeba... saswrafosTvis gamogveZaxa?_ ara. ara. araferi ar aris saWiro. gamivlis male, me vici..._ didi xania... guli gawuxebs, maka?_ kai xania, magram... xom geubnebi, fizikur tkivils

ufro uZlebs-meTqi adamiani, vidre suliers... _ wamodgoma daapira, magram erTbaSad saxe daemanWa da Cumi kvnesiT kv-lav savarZelSi daeSva.

kacma frTxilad aiyvana xelSi da sawoli oTaxisken gaalaja.

_ axla wadi, ramaz. ukeTa var, _ uTxra qalma mas Semdeg, rac kacma igi loginze daawvina da qalis TxovniT TavTiT telefonis aparati daudga.

_ nu geSinia, maka, ar davrCebi, ager Camovjdebi cota xans da giyureb. iqneb raime dagWirdes. ase rogor dag-tovo? egeba jobda mainc gamogveZaxa saswrafo? mere ufro gulmSvidad wavidodi.

_ ara, araferi ar minda... gamivlis... _ maRal baliSze TaviT miwolili, uRono, susti xmiT CurCulebda qali da etyoboda, Tavs Zalas atana, rom yoCaRi ieri hqonoda.

* * *

mis cnobierebaSi wamierad frazebis nawyvetebiRa Semoi-Wreboda da mere, isev ise iTiSeboda goneba, aRar ikarebda sityvebs, raxuniT rom cviodnen sadRac misgan moSorebiT.

gamocarielebuli, usicocxlo Tvalebi mieSterebina sarkmlisTvis da moCvenebiTi gulisyuriT aTvalierebda

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garemos. sinamdvileSi ki, Tavis warmosaxvaSi xan swrafi,

xanac Seyovnebuli kino-kadrebiviT gacocxlebul su-

raTebs Cascieboda Sinagani mzeriT. manqanaSi msxdomni ki

ganagrZobdnen davas. erTmaneTs awyvetinebdnen, erTmaneTs ar

usmendnen bolomde, yovel maTgans sakuTari azri miaCnda

mniSvnelobis mqoned. aRar aclidnen laparaks erTimeores.

sinamdvileSi sul ar ainteresebdaT, Tu ras ityoda meore.

mTavari iyo: TviTon ras fiqrobda da ra azris iyo im weri-

lis Sesaxeb, dilis gazeTSi rom daebeWdaT.

`...Tavadac ar uwyoda danamdvilebiT, ra erqva imas, rac

wuxel moxda, mxolodRa qalis SeZrwunebuli Tvalebi, uzo-

mo tkivilisgan damanWuli da cremliT morwyuli saxe

waramara aesveteboda mis mzeras da rogorc ar unda ae-

farebina xelisgulebi, verasdidebiT ver moeSorebina igi,

radgan, rac ufro icilebda da ukan, TiTqos siRrmeSi swevda

mas, rom bolos da bolos, sulac gaeuCinarebina, miT ufro

metis daJinebiT da TavgametebiT moiwevda misken. vera, veras

gziT, veranairi saSualebiT ver miexura sarkmeli am usiamo

CvenebisTvis, ase gametebiT rom eZaleboda da saSvels ar

aZlevda~.

...manqanaSi msxdomni ki kvlav gacxarebiT daobdnen wer-

ilSi moTxrobil sazarel mkvlelobaze, daobdnen imaze, Tu

saidan aris adamianSi amdeni sisastike, boroteba, siZul-

vili, boRma da Suri.

`...wuxandelma Sexvedram daundobeli sicxadiT gaaSiSvla

is, rac TviT misi gonebisTvis, SesaZloa, amoucnobi an bundo-

vani ieroglifiviT darCeniliyo, Tumca arcTu mTlad gauc-

nobierebeli gaxldaT, radgan erTxel ukve mieca saSualeba

am mTvlemare, TiTqos miyuCebul `ieroglifs~ Tavi eCina,

gamoaSkaravebuliyo, magram maSin im saqciels misateveblad

Tvlida. yovel SemTxvevaSi uwyinari Tu ara, saZraxisad

ar miaCnda Tavad, gamarTlebas Tu axsnas uZebnida sakuTar

TvalSi.

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wuxelis mere ki... da saerTod, Tavs veRar moityuebda,

radgan amieridan TvalnaTliv darwmunda, rom am mTvlemare

`raRacas~ ZaluZda drodadro, xangamoSvebiT, Tavis awyveta

da maSin... xSirad savsebiT ususuri da uZluri xdeboda

Ture nebisyofa mis winaSe. gamarjveba an damarcxeba mar-

to brZolis velze rodi moipoveba: Widilis sarbielad

roca guli da goneba iqceva, xSirad mouTokavi, SeuzRu-

davi rCeba Turme is Sefaruli, qvecnobieri instinqti Tu

kodirebuli refleqsi. arada, damarcxeba sakuTar TavTan ki

_ SeiZleba aranakleb saSineli iyos, vidre saomar velze

brZolis wageba!

`...qals wamiT CaTvlima da mis fergacrecil, gamxdar

loyebsac TiTqos sicocxle daubrunda, vardisferma gadah-

kra, sunTqvac zomieri gauxda.

ijda sawolisgan moSorebiT da raRacnairi sinanuliT,

sibraluliT Tu auxsneli, TiTqos gaugebari sinaziT Ses-

cqeroda am saxes, romelsac axla, roca qals mierula, ga-

datanili tanjvisa da Sefaruli wuxilis nakvalevi das-

tyoboda.

is iyo Cumad adgomas da fexakrefiT gamosvlas apirebda,

rom anazdad qalma Tvalebi gaaxila. da am erTma wamma, am

TvalebSi areklilma uneblie SiSma SesaZloa gadawyvita

Semdgom yvelaferi.

_ Sen... kidev... aqa xar? _ aRmoxda qals gaocebiT Tu

SiSiT da sawolze wamojda damfrTxali, dafeTebuli ieriT.

_ axla... vapirebdi wasvlas... _ daabnia ratomRac qalis

saxis gamometyvelebam, xmis kilom da gulis areSi uneblieT

mwvave Cxvleta igrZno isev.

_ gagacileb... _ dafacurda qali asadgomad.

_ ar aris saWiro, iweqi.

_ ara, gagacileb... ukve kargad vgrZnob Tavs. Tan... karsac

Cavketav.

_ mere... me rom waval, mere Cakete.

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ukve fexze amdgari qalisken daixara, rom loyaze ekocna

gamomSvidobebis niSnad. da myisve igrZno, rom qali TiTqos

Sinaganad aizRarba, da rogorRac saCqarod miuSvira loya

sakocnelad, TiTqosda ewada, rac SeiZleba male moeSorebi-

na Tavidan. kvlav Cxvletismagvari igrZno gulSi da uceb...

is `raRac~ _ sulis uSores, bnel xveulebsa Tu mRvimeebSi

rom iyo Caleqili da aqamde TviT misTvisac gaucnobiere-

beli Canda, _ azavTda, daigragna da daiZra...

loyaze rom Seaxo bage, kvlav SeniSna, rogor Setokda

qali usiamo grZnobisgan, TumcaRa uangariSod ecada mis

dafarvas naZaladevi, nawvalebi RimiliT.

erTbaSad welze Semoxvia mklavebi, Tavisken moizida:

_ makoce! gamosamSvidobeblad makoce. ise ar waval aqe-

dan, icode! _ xma Caexrinwa, saxe aelewa kacs. is `raRac~

bneli, avi, boroti Sinagan jebirebs moskdomoda da gadmo-

laxvas lamobda.

axla daufaravi SeSfoTeba CaeRvara qals gafarToe-

bul TvalebSi. magram Seecada saxisTvis arafrismTqmeli,

udardeli gamometyveleba mieca.

_ rasakvirvelia... oRond xeli gamiSvi, ramaz.

ufro Zalumad moizida kacma.

_ ise gezizRebi... rom erT kocnasac ar imeteb CemTvis?

kaci ukve veRar flobda Tavs, veRar daemorcilebina

gulisTqma, romelSic vnebasTan da mZafr survilTan erTad

cnobierad SenivTebul-Sezavebuliyo grZnoba-Surisgebisa.

ratom? risTvis? ris gamo? amis gasarkvevad aRar ecala mis gons da axla arc iyo es mTavari misTvis.

_ ratom miZaliandebi, maka?.. rom aRar giyvarvar, eg vici ukve, magram... Seni TqmiTve, aki... usiyvarulod SegiZlia dauwve imas... im tips, weRan rom girekavda...

_ ramaz! _ xvewna gaisma qalis Camwydar xmaSi._ nuTu... yvelaferi daiviwye? aRaraferi gaxsovs kargi?ukve gaSmagebiT ukocnida saxes, Tvalebs, tuCebs, yels,

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mere perangis sakinZe bolomde Cauwyvita: _ me ro maxsovs?..

me rom ver viviwyeb?..

_ ramaz... oRond Sen... oRond Sen ara... _ SiSi axla SeZ-

rwunebiT Secvloda qals saxeze. aman, am uneblie Zrwolam

ufro metad gaaxela.

_ swored me... swored me... _ ugonod, uazrod butbuteb-

da da metis gamwarebiT exveoda da kocnida qals, romelsac

winaaRmdegobis Zala ukve warTmeoda.

_ eg xom... Zaladobaa, ramaz! _ ukanasknelad scada qalma

kacis gonze moyvana da cremlebi TqrialiT gadmocvivda

Tvalebidan: _ veRar gadavitan... veRar gadavitan amas... Sen-

gan ramaz! _ waiCurCula mileuli, ganwiruli xmiT da

uRonod Caikeca kacis mklavebSi~.

...manqanaSi msxdomni aRar cxrebodnen. dava-kamaTi lamis

Cxubsa da lanZRva-ginebaSi gadazrdiliyo.

_ ra ambavSi xarT? rad iwyvitavT ase yelis ZarRvebs? _

wamierad Camovardnil siCumeSi gaisma uceb saWesTan mjdomi

TamSeTxelebuli, saTvaliani kacis mSvidi, wynari xma: _

gana axali ambavia TqvenTvis, yovel adamianSi potenciuri

mkvleli rom zis!

TiTqos mdumarebis angelozma Camoiarao, yvelas ena

Cauvarda, gancvifrebuli TvalebiT Seacqerdnen saWesTan

mjdoms.

am uecarma da xangrZlivma siCumem gamoiyvana ramazi

garindebidan. Tanamgzavrebs gaocebiT moxeda Zilburanidan

axladgamoRviZebuli adamianis mzeriT.

ra moxda? ratom Sewyda xmauri, yurSi momabezrebeli,

monotonuri zuzuni rom gahqonda?

_ ras gaCumdiT? gimeorebT: TiTqmis yvela adamianSi zis

potenciuri mkvleli-meTqi. oRond zogs xelsayreli piro-

bebi eqmneba am potenciis gamosavlenad da avlens kidec mas,

rogorc am SemTxvevaSi moxda: zogi kidev _ Sefarulad,

iqneb TviT misTvisac Seucnoblad atarebs mas.

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_ maS... goni? goni raRaa? _ ikiTxa romeliRacam ironi-ulad.

_ goni saiTkenac unda iqeTken warmarTavs adamians: unda borotebisken, unda sikeTisken...

axla yvelani TiTqmis erTdroulad ayayandnen. saWesTan mjdomma acala maT dacliliyvnen emociebisgan da Semdeg Zalian mSvidi, dinji, magram dabejiTebuli xmiT ganagrZo: _ ai, yvelani xom siamovnebiT vuyurebT kinosuraTebs, sa-dac omia gadaRebuli, gansakuTrebiT e.w. bataluri scenebi mogvwons, masiurad rom xocaven adamianebs. xom asea?

_ es xom omia... isini xom... mtrebia? _ romeliRacam enis borZikiT wamoiZaxa.

_ xa-xa-xa... _ mokled gaicina rezom: _ mere ra, rom mtrebi hqviaT? adamianebi xom arian? Cvennairi agebulebis, Cveni jilagis, kacTa modgmis?.. e.w. nadirobac xom sisxlis wyurvilis dakmayofilebaa qveSecneulad?

monadire klavs, vTqvaT... irems Tu kurdRels, eg sul-erTia, da uxaria uzomod, rom mokla, sisxli daRvara... eg simbolurad igivea, rasac veluri tomebi sCadiodnen, roca TvistomTa sisxlSi ibandnen xelebs... magram es kidev araferi. erTni fizikurad klaven adamianebs, xolo sxvebi _ sityvierad, sulierad, yvela SemTxvevaSi _ mainc mkv-lelobasTan gvaqvs saqme... da saerTod, adamians adamianad aqcevs da akeTilSobilebs, rogor trafaretuladac ar unda JRerdes, mxolod religia da kultura. sxva SemTx-vevaSi igi Cveulebrivi mxecia _ Tavis qvena instinqtebs daqvemdebarebuli egoisti...

...wamiT moeCvena, rom guli gauCerda. rezos kefas miuS-tera Tvalebi. gulSi xom ar Camoxeda am kacma? uSoresi, TviT misTvisac Seucnobeli kunWulebi Tu xveulebi xom ar moixila uCinari mzeriT? mis uSinaganes, Sefarul zraxvebs xom ar miuxvda?

Tumca... nuRar SfoTav. dawynardi, ramaz diasamiZev! ai, Caxval Sin da Sens ojaxSi, Sens col-SvilTan daiguleb

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Tavs Tu ara, yvelaferi kalapotSi Cadgeba. da Senc Tan-daTanobiT daiviwyeb am ambavs, yovel SemTxvevaSi, gaginel-deba simwvave gancdisa, sindisis qenjnac nel-nela gagivlis; is ki ara, droTa viTarebaSi, SesaZloa, gaamarTlo kidec Zveleburad Seni saqcieli, guldinjad gamoiZio mizez-sa-Tave da Sedegic kanonzomierad CaTvalo. aki _ umizezod arc araferi xdeba am qveynad. yvela movlenas eZebneba gama-marTlebeli sabuTebi. yovel SemTxvevaSi, dagicxreba da Segimsubuqdeba sinanulis gancda. mere ra, rom aqeTken, gamoRma mxares marto toveb Tavis usaSvelo dardTan da satkivarTan imas, visac ase ulmoblad da sastikad moeqeci, vinc ase gawire da gaimete. ufro metic, dawixle, sulSi CaafurTxe da miatove bedis anabrad.

rogorc unda, ise moiSuSos sulieri iarebi, ara?ver moereva, ver gadaitans? miT uaresi misTvis. daabra-

los Tavis Tavs _ ufro sworad _ Tavis ususurobas, uZlurebas da Tu gnebavT, ugunurobas, bolos da bolos. Sen ara xar pirveli cTomis am gzaze da arc ukanaskneli iqnebi albaT.

maS, raRad swuxar, ratom ver isveneb?_ yvelaze saintereso mainc isaa, rom umetes SemTxvevaSi,

_ ganagrZobda rezo, _ orive saxis _ sulieri, sityvieri Tu fizikuri mkvleli _ Tavs damnaSaved ar cnobs. anda, ufro sworad rom vTqvaT, amarTlebs Tavis saqciels.

kvlav atyda zriali. erTmaneTs aRar acdidnen laparaks. rogor? ranairad? xom aris winaswarganzraxuli, mofiqre-buli da SemTxveviTi, uneblie mkvleloba? anda, ras niS-navs, `sulieri mkvleloba?~ vin Tqva es? ra saxisaa igi? an saerTod _ arsebobs amgvari ram?

_ arsebobs, diax, arsebobs!.. da igi SeiZleba fizikur mkv-lelobaze aranakleb saSineli iyos!

Tavadac ar icis, rogor, ranairad, ra gvarad moswyda mis bages es fraza. yvelani jer rezos miacqerdnen. ra-tomRac suyvelas moeCvena, am sityvebis mTqmeli isev rezo

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iqneboda, magram roca rezomac ukan moixeda da TvaliT moiZia is, vinc es sityvebi warmoTqva, maSinRa SeniSnes aqa-mde Cumad, manqanis napiras miyuJuli ramaz diasamiZe, sax-eze gulgrili gamometyveleba rom gamoxatvoda; mxolod Zalian dakvirvebuli mzera Tu SeamCnevda mis TvalebSi mimalul sasowarkveTis, Tu SeZrwunebis nakvalevs.

an...SeamCnevda ki?

ndobis telefoni

* * *

uceb dawvda yurmils. `RmerTo, gamaxsene!~ _ nela, day-ovnebiT akrifa nomeri.

_ alo, ndobis telefonia?_ diax. ndobis telefoni gismenT, qalbatono!_ gamarjobaT... iciT, risTvis girekavT?.. sikvdili mWirs.

diax, sikvdilis SiSi dameufla... am bolo dros _ gansa-kuTrebiT. (wamieri dumili): _ ara, SeSlili ar gegonoT... normaluri fsiqikis gaxlavarT... oRond... SegrZneba imisa, rom... ra dRes, ra xval _ aucileblad, yovel mizez gareSe unda movkvde _ garwmunebT, tvins da gonebas mimRvrevs... vera da, ver veguebi am... perspeqtivas!.. arada, sicocxlec, momZulebia. paradoqsia, ara?

_ sikvdilis SiSi... bunebrivi, Tandayolili grZnobaa ada-mianisaTvis, qalbatono...

_ elene mqvia. SegiZliaT, elikoTi mommarToT! Tqveni saxeli...

_ me _ nana gaxlavarT!

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_ ho, nana, sayvarelo! vici, gana ar vici, rom es grZnoba Tandayolili, anu sikvdilis _ am bunebrivi movlenis _ eSinia yvelas _ frinvelebis da cxovelebis CaTvliT! da mainc... iqneb swored amitomac ase ganvicdi am gardauvalo-bas... (pauza).

_ iciT... xSirad ise mkafiod, ise cxadad warmomidgeba xolme Cemi Tavi... sasaxleSi ara _ kuboSi _ ise, xom sain-teresoa, imdenad eSinia adamians sikvdilis, rom... WurWels, romelSic asvenia micvalebuli _ Tavis namdvil saxels ar arqmevs, tabuirebulia igi... hm. sasaxle! (pauza)... ho, imas vambobdi, kuboSi ise TvalnaTliv vxedav Cems Tavs, vxedav, damarxvis yovel wvrilmans, yovel niuanss, ase vTqvaT, mTel ceremonials... ise cxovlad aRviqvam matlebs, rogor RrRnian Cems tans, `nasaTuTeb~ xelebs, gulmkerds, fexebs, tuC-pirs... mokled, mTel Cems sxeuls, rom... Wiris ofli masxams Sublze... tao meSleba... xandaxan lpobis, xrwnis sunsac ise mkveTrad SevigrZnob xolme, rom umweobis, gan-wirulobis grZnobiT Sepyrobili _ mzada var, ZaRliviT viymuvlo... mokled, vera var kargad, sayvarelo! lamis mar-Tlac gavgiJde...

_ ukacravad, qalbatono elene!.. raime... mZime seniT xom ar brZandebiT... daavadebuli? e.i. imis Tqma minda _ raime ukurnebeli daavadeba xom ar gWirT-meTqi?

_ sikvdilze ufro ukurnebeli gana ra unda iyos am

qveynad? (uamurad Caicina): _ ara, sayvarelo! janmrTeli var,

sruliad janmrTeli _ fizikur janmrTelobas vgulisxmob,

rasakvirvelia (pauza).

_ ramdeni wlis brZandebiT, qalbatono elene, Tu... said-

umloeba araa, cxadia!..

_ ormocdaToTxmetis gaxlavarT!.. sxvaTa Soris, veras-

dros vitandi wlovanebis dafarvas...

_ gasagebia... didi xania... aseT usasoobaSi xarT?

_ sikvdilis SiSs gulisxmobT, ara? o, o, es SiSi jer kidev

bavSvobidan mqonda, Tumca... vcdilobdi amaze ar mefiqra...

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maxsovs, patara rom viyavi, Cems Tavs kiTxvas vusvamdi: ra-

tom unda gavizardo, ra saWiroa didoba, Tuki bolos mainc

unda movkvde-meTqi? am ukanasknel xans... ufro zustad, es

oriode welia, gansakuTrebiT momeZala es... ganwyobileba...

_ Svilebi gyavT, qalbatono elene?

_ erTi qaliSvili myavs, gaTxovili. holandiaSi cxov-

robs. meuRles ki _ didi xania gavcildi... jer kidev ax-

algazrdobaSi.

_ maS, saxlSi marto brZandebiT?

_ diax. marto. gamzrdeli deida ramdenime wlis win gar-

damecvala. deda ki _ SarSan momikvda. mamis gardacvaleba

ar maxsovs. ori wlisa vyofilvar.

_ deda... TqvenTan iyo?

_ deda, deida da me _ erTad vcxovrobdiT.

_ SviliSvilebi Tu gyavT, qalbatono elene?

_ ki, erTi. Cems qaliSvils holandieli qmari hyavs-meTqi.

ase rom, SviliSvilic holandielia, cxadia. kotes veZaxi _

mamaCemis saxels. ise, iohanesi hqvia.

_ albaT... xSirad ver naxulobT erTmaneTs?

_ aba, saidan? weliwadSi erTxel Tu axerxeben Camosvlas.

es aris da es!

_ amitomac gawuxebT albaT, martoobis grZnoba...

_ iciT, bevri axlobeli myavs, megobari, naTesavi... ase rom,

ver vityvi, martosuli var-meTqi._ iciT... me vigulisxme... axlo megobari... mamakaci..._ a, a... gasagebia, gasagebia (gaicina)... Tqven gindodaT

gekiTxaT _ sayvareli myavs Tu ara... ara? (kvlav Caicina) _ Cems asakSi?

_ ratomac ara, qalbatono elene, ratomac ara! Tqvenze xnierebic Txovdebian, zogi-meored, mesamed, meoTxedac ki! an arada...

_ boi-frendi hyavT, ara? axla modaSia es sityva._ Tu gnebavT, ase daarqviT!

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_ ara, qalbatono nana _ sayvareli axla namdvilad ara myavs, madloba ufals!.. roca myavdnen, netav, maSinac ar my-olodnen!

_ ese igi... gyavdnen... mainc!_ ar minda axla amaze saubari..._ ki, batono, Tqveni nebaa da mainc... Tu kadnierebaSi ar

CamomarTmevT... meuRles ratom gaeyareT? ra mizeziT?_ Cveulebrivi ambavia. ordinaluri. imdeni dro gavida

mas Semdeg, gaxsenebac ar Rirs..._ ratom?.. Tqven xom gindaT albaT gulaxdili iyoT.

CvenTanac xom amisTvis darekeT?_ iciT, simarTle giTxraT, arc vici, ra movaleoba gakis-

riaT... SemTxveviT movkari Tvali Tqvens nomers erT Cems axlobelTan. ratomRac... damamaxsovrda, da, ai, uZilobam, fiqrebma rom Zalian damtanjes... uceb gadavwyvite damer-eka... am SuaRamisas!.. da rakiRa giJad ar CamTvaleT da yur-mili ar damikideT... (SeCerda).

_ rogor gekadrebaT, qalbatono elene. Cveni movaleo-baa, movusminoT yvelas, vinc Cvengan TanagrZnobas an rCevas iTxovs... anda, visac, ubralod, gulis mooxeba swadia xolme.

_ gmadlobT, Cemo kargo. didad gmadlobT! sxvaTa So-ris, Tqveni xma rom ara, SesaZloa, gadamefiqrebina musaifis gagrZeleba, magram... saocari xmis tembri gaqvT... Tanac Za-lian axalgazrduli... asaks ar gekiTxebiT... sagangebod.

_ didi madloba, qalbatono elene, komplimentisaTvis._ simarTles geubnebiT. ise, mirCevnia, eliko damiZaxoT.

ase ufro Sinaurulad, ufro intimurad JRers. ise, albaT, bevri gawuxebT... CemisTana SeWirvebuli...

_ sakmaod. droa aseTi!_ WeSmaritad. droa aseTi. es kargad TqviT da mainc...

Rirs ki Sewuxeba, arc Tu ise dalagebuli azrebis mqone pirovnebisaTvis, rogoric me var? aqvs ki azri...

_ rogor ara. rogor ara qalbatono... eliko! namd-vilad aqvs azri gauziaroT sxvas, Tundac ucnobs Tqveni

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guliswuxili da SeSfoTeba. kaci kacis wamaliao, naTqvamia. aki rusTavelic brZanebs _ `didi lxinia WirTa Tqma, Tu kacsa mouxdebodeso~. ise, rasakvirvelia, Tqveni nebaa, ma-gram... ratomRac mgonia, gamogviva saubari. Tqven, iseTi in-teleqtualuri pirovneba brZandebiT...

_ saidan iciT, geTayva, rom... inteleqtualuri pirovne-ba var?

_ getyobaT!_ ar miTxraT axla, nakiTxic, ganaTlebulic CanxarTo._ asec rom ar iyos, es Cvens Tanalmobas xels ar SeuSlis..._ ra brZaneT, geTayva? Tanalmobaso?_ diax, Tanalmobas. ratom gaikvirveT?_ am sityvas axla TiTqmis aravin xmarobs. (pauza) _ ro-

gorc Cans, Tqven filologiuri ganaTleba gaqvT miRebuli. sxvaTa Soris, me es Tqven SegatyveT... ise, arc mowyalebis, ufro sworad, arc gulmowyalebis xmarebaa axla modaSi... umowyaloni rom gavxdiT, albaT imitom.

_ SesaZloa, asec iyos, qalbatono... eliko!_ da raki umowyaloni anu RvTis gareganad viqeciT,

etyoba, RmerTmac amitom agvaRo xeli, anu davrCiT RvTis madlis gareSe, xom marTalia?

_ albaT, magram... xom unda davibrunoT RvTis wyaloba da madli? meTanxmebiT Tu ara, qalbatono eliko?

_ geTanxmebiT. magram... (pauza)._ ra profesiis brZandebiT?_ pedagogi, ufro sworad... viyavi pedagogi, istorias

vaswavlidi skolaSi. sxvaTa Soris, 25 wlis staJi maqvs pedagogobis. axla aRar vmuSaob. wamovedi skolidan.

_ ratom? ratom daanebeT Tavi maswavleblobas?Tqven xom jer sapensio asaki ara gaqvT?_ iyo mizezi... ufro sworad _ mizezebi._ gasagebia. albaT uwinaresad... ekonomiurad gagiWirdaT..._ axla vis ar uWirs, sayvarelo? Tumca, ara _ yvelas

ar uWirs. mcire nawils namdvilad ar uWirs. piriqiT,metad

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gazuluqebulnic ki arian _ saerTo siduxWiris fonze!

magram... mxolod ekonomiuri mdgomareobis gamo ar Cavvard-

nilvar am... depresiaSi (pauza).

_ depresiaSi rom xarT... Tqvens garda sxvam Tu icis,

qalbatono eliko?

_ mapatieT... ver gavige SekiTxva?

_ eqimTan Tu brZandebodiT?.. Tu gimkurnaliaT-meTqi?

_ garSemo naTesavebi Tu axloblebi-sul eqimebi myvanan.

sxvadasxva wamlebs gamomiweren xolme, magram... me maT ar

viReb!

_ ra mizeziT, qalbatono eliko? wamali xom...

_ Rrmad var darwmunebuli, Cemo sayvarelo, rom qimi-

uri preparatebi Cems suls ver gankurnavs, verc biodenebi

miSvelis rames, verc egreTwodebuli, winaswarmetyvelebi

Tu naTelmxilvelebi... weRanac giTxariT, uceb, moulodne-

lad mominda-meTqi sruliad ucnobi, ucxo adamianisaTvis

gadameSala guli... bolomde amomeferTxa yvelaferi... da ai,

dagirekeT kidec... Tumca... iqneb sjobda kidec... Tavi Seme-

kavebina. ar vici...

_ piriqiT, qalbatono eliko, me mgoni, kargi hqeniT rom...

darekeT... ukacravad... aqamde ver gkiTxeT, morwmune Tu br-

ZandebiT?

_ marTlmadidebel qristianad mimaCnia Cemi Tavi, Tum-

ca... sinamdvileSi zerele morwmune ufro gaxlavarT, vi-

dre WeSmariti, Rrmad morwmune qristiani. arada... erTxel, mravali wlis winaT, CemSi, urwmuno pirovnebaSi-rwmenis gaRviZebam uzarmazar, sulier katastrofas gadamarCina... magram mogexsenebaT albaT adamianebis daudevrobisa da fuqsavatobis ambavi... iSviaTad davdivar eklesiaSi... ufro sworad, veswrebi wirva-locvebs. zogjer mezareba, zogjer ver vaxerxeb da ase Semdeg. adre, sxvaTa Soris, ufro aqti-uri viyavi am mxriv, anu... roca akrZaluli iyo, maSin ufro davdiodi xolme sionSi.

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_ moZRvari Tu gyavT?_ myavs. oRond... iSviaTad miwevs masTan aRsarebaze misvla.

bevri mrevli hyavs. me kidev... unda vaRiaro _ ar SemiZlia didxans rigSi dgoma! lodins veRar vuZleb... vRiziandebi, viRlebi. mere... survilic mekargeba aRsarebis da... maSasa-dame, iSviaTad veziarebi xolme... anu maSin, roca vaxerxeb am barierebis gadalaxvas. mokled, codvebs _ codvas vumateb...

_ bevri codva gawuxebT, qalbatono eliko?_ o, bevri. Zalian bevri. ai, Tqven geRimebaT, aqedan gatyobT.

arada, umZimesi codvebi maqvs Cadenili... unda giTxraT, Cems xatebTan ufro gulaxdili var da daundobeli sakuTari Tavis mimarT, vidre... Cems moZRvarTan. da mainc... (SeCerda)

_ religiur literaturas Tu kiTxulobT... mamebis cxovrebas...

_ xandaxan. iSviaTad._ locvebs?_ mTavari locvebi zepirad vici..._ ar gamxnevebT? ar gawynarebT?_ mcire xniT. mere... isev mewyeba... Tavidan mewyeba

yvelaferi. Cemi micvalebulebis sulebs vesaubrebi xSirad, ufro sworad, sul maTTan var. sul maTTan vtrialeb...

_ da albaT... TviTgvemas da TviTgankiTxvas eZleviT, ara, xSirad?

_ diax. diax. mimixvdiT! ar vici, riT da ranairad vu-

wamlo Cems Tavs... xSirad vuxmob sikvdils da Tan... meSinia

-meTqi misi! rogor moverio am sulier foriaqs, ufro swo-

rad, fsiqozs _ ar vici. filosofiurad TiTqos yvelaferi

gasagebia.

sxvaTa Soris, Zalian miyvars markus avreliusi da plato-

ni... TiTqos religiuradac cota raRaceebi mesmis, vici, rom

_ yvelani sikvdilis Svilebi varT,rom mcire xniT movediT amqveynad, rom... unda movemzadoT samaradiso cxovrebisaTvis...

Cemi usayvarlesi adamianebis sikvdilma, ufro ki maTma uZlurma siberem TvalnaTliv damanaxa, ra ubadrukia da...

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wamieri-yofiereba, rom... marTlac wamis wamia es wuTisofe-li! xom genialuri sityvaa _ wuTi-sofeli? diax, vici, rom... davibadebiT Tu ara, iqve _ saflavic mzad aris. yovelive es vici! da mainc platonis, ufro sworad, sokrates TqmiT is vici, rom araferi vici. ar vici saidan movedi, sad mivdi-var saerTod, risTvis iklavs Tavs adamiani am wuTisoflis iwilo-biwiloTi? aki _ yvelaferi xom amaoa am cisqveSeT-Si! yvelaferi warmavalia, uxanoa, msxvrevadia. ganjavrebadia... anu... droebiTia. Cveni Zveli himnografis sityvebiT rom vTq-vaT: `moxvediT, Zmano, STavixedneT saflavTa, sada ars Suri, saocreba da xdoma, sada ars Zviris xseneba da zvaoba, da gulisTqmani? aha, esera miwa, nacar da Tixa qmnil ars yoveli! anda: `rasa cudad vmaRloiT, odes yoveli mokvdavni varT da miwad miqcevadni?!~ WeSmaritad, miwa, Tixa da nacari varT!..

_ Cvenma geniosma baraTaSvilma, Cemi azriT, sul ramdenime striqonSi moaTavsa uamrav filosofiur traqtatebSi das-muli kiTxvis pasuxi da adamianis raobis mizani: `magram... radganac kacni gqvian, Svilni soflisa...~-o

_ diax. diax. da mainc... yovelives miuxedavad, mainc gaugebaria CemTvis adamianebis egodeni aqtiuroba! ra azri aqvs? risTvis? yovelives xom sikvdili usvams saboloo wertils! da yoveli xom daviwyebas eZleva!

_ da mainc, raki vazrovneb, maSasadame _ varsebob._ ki, batono. varsebob axla. am wuTs, magram _ rodemde-

meTqi? an... risTvis? xval, zeg, mazeg-viqnebi? anda, viyavi ki guSin Tu... marTlac, bindisferia sofeli?.. yvelaferi rac iyo, xom sizmariviTaa am sawuTroSi? yvelaferi moCvenebaa, molandebaa wamieri, Tumca... kmara! msgavsi filosofiur-didaqtikuri msjelobani sxva drosac araerTgzis mqonia mavanTan da mavanTan-ufro sworad _ primitiuli gonis, primitiuli tvinis Wyleta... _ yovelTvis uSedegod das-rulebula CemTvis.

_ amitomac, iqneb sjobdes, Cveni Zvelebis TqmiT, kvlav pirvelsave sityvasTan mivideT, anu konkretul problemebze

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visaubroT, anu... mainc ratom gaSordiT meuRles? ra iyo mizezi? Tqven ki brZaneT, uinteresoa es ambavio, magram... me mainc interesiT movismendi Tqvens monayols...

_ merwmuneT, qalbatono nana, es ambavi marTlac ar gax-lavT yuradRebis Rirsi, Cveulebrivi adiulteri iyo, Tanac _ rodindeli! me igi daviwyebuli maqvs kidec, rogorc... daviwyebuli myvanan, sxvaTa Soris, Cemi sayvarlebic.

_ bevri gyavdaT... isini, qalbatono eliko? Tu ar miwy-enT...

_ aqvs ki mniSvneloba raodenobas, Cemo Zvirfaso?_ aar vici... aalbaT _ ara!_ Zalian kargi. magram raki gainteresebT, getyviT: ori

myavda._ qmris Semdeg Tu... mapatieT-ki ar geZiebiT, ise, ubralod...

gekiTxebiT..._ gasagebia. mesmis. mec ubralod gipasuxebT _ qmris

Semdeg, rasakvirvelia!_ ratom... rasakvirvelia?_ hoo... (Caecina) merwmuneT, erTguli coli viyavi _ nam-

dvilad. pirvelma man miRalata! arada... rogorc bevrs, ise mec megona _ mxolod me vuyvardi Cems Zvirfas meuRles. Tanac _ gansakuTrebuli siyvaruliT!

_ ramden xans... cxovrobdiT erTad?_ eqvsi weli._ da... ase mokle xanSi..._ diax. ase mokle xanSi miRalata. etyoba, swored aman

gamamwara mec Tavis droze! mokled, ar gamovida siyvaruli... kubos karamde! ras izam, aseTia cxovreba! sel-av-vi!

_ siyvaruliT gaTxovdiT?_ momitaca (pauza)._ Tbiliseli brZandebiT?_ Tbiliseli gaxlavarT mamiT-papiT. magram... me mes-

mis Tqveni kiTxvis Sefaruli azri. diax, swored TbilisSi, dRisiT, mzisiT, momitaces... (pauza). saqme isaa, rom jer

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kidev skolidan movwondi gogas (ase hqvia Cems naqmarevs). kudSi damdevda. saSvels ar maZlevda. erT ubanSi vcxov-robdiT, erT skolaSi vswavlobdiT. Cemze sami wliT iyo ufrosi. simarTle rom vTqva, mec momwonda oRond-ise ra, rom ityvian, magram... axlos ar vekarebodi, gaTxovebas ar vapirebdi. jer umaRlesSi unda meswavla... erTi sityviT... warCinebuli moswavle viyavi, saukeTeso da... swavlaze ufro vfiqrobdi _ vidre gaTxovebaze.

_ ese igi erTmaneTs skolaSi ar xvdebodiT?_ iciT... Zalian mkacri deda da deida myavda. orive peda-

gogi iyo. sul ganrigiT davdiodi. ramdenjerme Cems megobar gogosTan erTad Sevxvdi. erTi orjer _ martoc! es iyo da es. universitetSi, istoriis fakultetze Sevitane sab-uTebi. raki oqrosmedalosani viyavi _ maSin, Cems dros _ medalosnoba iyo _ ugamocdod Caviricxe. istoria miyvarda, qarTuli literaturac, saerTod humanitaruli sagnebi. Cu-mad, CemTvis leqsebsac vwerdi.

_ maS, poetic yofilxarT..._ poeti albaT ara. CemTvis vwerdi. arasodes mqonia maTi

gamoqveynebis survili._ ratom? Tanamedrove eniT rom vTqvaT, ambiciebi ar

gawuxebdaT da imitom?_ ara, namdvilad ara. ar mimaCnda Cemi leqsebi dabeWvdis

Rirsad... Zalian gulubryvilo da alali bavSvi viyavi!.. albaT amitomac viwvnie amdeni simware, amdeni gulistkena... da saerTod, axla rom vixseneb _ siyvaruli ra iyo, arc mesmoda maSin. wignebidan da kino-suraTebidan Tu vicodi da saerTod, siyvarulis ufro survili mqonda... anu... survili viRacas vyvarebodi, viRaca _ myvareboda...

_ viRaca, Tu...

_ ho, Cems ufliswuls vgulisxmob, cxadia.

_ rogori biWi iyo Tqveni meuRle?

_ kargi biWi Canda. arc narkomani iyo da arc msmeli. es

maSinac, Cems droSic _ problema gaxldaT _ oRond cxadia,

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ara iseTi, dRes romaa! garegnuladac warmosadegi ymawvili

brZandeboda, magram... bunebiT aRmoCnda _ flidi! ara imitom

mxolod, rom me _ miRalata! ise meqceoda mTeli im xnis

ganmavlobaSi, roca sayvareli hyavda, viTom me viyavi misT-

vis... upirvelesi! erTaderTi! da... ase Semdeg. ise, codvas

ver vityvi, xels ki miwyobda swavlaSi. ukve meore kursze

bavSvi myavda... calke vcxovrobdiT. dedaCemi da deida ki

mexmarebodnen, magram mainc Zneli iyo SeTavseba...

_ rodis gaigeT, rom...

_ mRalatobda? SemTxveviT, sruliad SemTxveviT (pauza)

_ iciT... Cvens saZinebelSi, Cvens sawolSi Sevuswari sayva-

relTan...

_ Tqvens saZinebelSi?!

_ diax. Cemo sayvarelo. ase iyo. Tavze davadeqi orives

Cvens sawolSi... me, borjomSi vegulebodi Cems vaJbatons,

bavSvTan da deida-dedasTan erTad... uceb momiwia Tbilis-

Si wamosvla. daqalma CamomakiTxa borjomSi da proteqcia

mTxova Cems naTesavTan. binaSi mivedi, rom tansacmeli gamo-

mecvala. movwesrigebuliyavi. mokled, ase iyo!

_ warmodgenili maqvs Tqveni mdgomareoba, Tu... miT

umetes... araferi icodiT!..

_ saqmec egaa. sruliad moulodneli iyo yvelaferi da...

warmoudgeneli... maxsovs, TvalT damibnelda. sxvaTa Soris,

pirvelad maSin Sevicani am sityvis sruli mniSvneloba:

Tvalebze TiTqos Savi bindi gadamefara, erTbaSad damiRam-

da. fexebidan ki TiTqos iataki gamomecala. roca TvalSi

sinaTle damibrunda, pirveli, rac aRviqvi iyo im... qalba-

tonis raRacnairi... niSnismomgebi, gveluri Rimili da... Cemi

qmris gamolenCebul-gamoTayvanebuli sifaTi... (pauza)

_ mapatieT... albaT mZimea TqvenTvis es mogoneba, magram...

mere... ra moxda?

_ SeiZleba ar damijeroT, magram... uxmod, usityvod gamov-

brundi. erTaderTi sityva damcda uneburad: pardon-meTqi.

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axlac ar vici, es franguli sityva ratom momadga enaze...

mere ki vnanobdi, rogor ar davgesle maSin orive-meTqi,

magram... ar vici, ra jobda: Tqma Tu uTqmeloba?.. Tumca...

hqonda ki maSin azri raimes Tqmas?..

_ albaT ara. mec ase vfiqrob. qalbatono elene! Tumca...

`pardon~ mainc... momwons...

_ hoo... maxsovs, kibeze rom Cavrbodi damduRruliviT...

uceb, moulodnelad kibis moajirze davemxe mklavebiT da...

sicili amivarda... vicinodi xmamaRla, isteriulad... Cem daqa-

lTan rom mivedi, masac siciliT movuyevi, ase da ase iyo-

meTqi. sicili maxrCobda... Cemma daqalma erTbaSad xelebi

momxvia da gulSi Camikra. mec... mTeli ZaliT Cavexute da...

uceb avqviTindi. vtirodi xmamaRla, gulamoskvniT da erTsa

da igives vimeorebdi: ratom... ratom, ratom-meTqi, cico?

Cemi daqali mxolod Tavze misvamda xels, patara bavS-

viviT mefereboda da CurCulebda: _ itire, itire, itire...

gulze mogeSvebao...

roca marTlac movijere guli tiriliT, vigrZeni _

gavTavisufldi. raRac didi lodi ameSva TiTqos gulidan,

Tumca... mTel sxeulSi saSinel moTenTilobas vgrZnobdi...

maxsovs, CemTvis maSin mTavari is ki ar iyo, rom... viRac

sxva qalTan miRalata gogam. SeiZleba Senze ukeTes, Senze

mSveniers gadaeyaros kaci, Seuyvardes da.. wavides Sengan. es

Tumca Zalze mtkivneulia, magram raRacnairad gasagebia, ma-

gram... saxlSi moiyvano qali... ratom Semilaxa-meTqi ase Tav-

moyvareoba, Rirseba, qaloba da bolosdabolos, _ misi Svilis

deda viyavi! Tumca... Rirseba Tu ar gaaCnia, qali iqneba is Tu

mamakaci, maSasadame, adamianic aRar aris. ai, amas, am Rirsebis

Selaxvas ver vapatiebdi verasodes! es iyo da es.

_ TviTon... rogor xsnida Tavis saqciels?.. Tu ucdia

Tavis marTleba?

_ saqme isaa, rom... CemTvis ukve aranairi mniSvneloba ar

hqonda raime axsna-ganmartebas misi mxridan. CemTvis igi

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ukve mkvdari iyo, ar arsebobda. samudamod amoviRe guli-

dan ise, rogorc mtkivana kbils amoiglej da gadaagdeb.

ise, cdilobda, rogor ara, Tavi gaemarTlebina!.. moskovidan

aRviraxsnilobis gamo gamoZevebuli `putanka~ rom iyo is

qalbatoni, es Turme lamis mTelma Tbilisma icoda. intere-

sisTvis, ase vTqvaT, sportuli JinisTvis, amasTan _ Tavisi

`Zlieri~ mamakacobis dasamtkiceblad daiWira Turme mas-

Tan kavSiri!.. xolo Cvens binaSi stumroba qalis iniciativ-

iT momxdara, anu rogorc ician xolme metwilad mamakacebma,

yvelafers qals abralebda. ise ki... darwmunebuli var imaSi,

rom swored qalma daugo maxe da ara-piriqiT.

_ ratom ggoniaT ase?

_ asea da imitom. garkveuli yaidis qalbatonebisTvis,

araferi araa miuRebeli. naTqvamia, adamians Tu Sublis

ZarRvi gauwydao... magram es ar aris mTavari! unda genaxaT,

rogor lanZRavda da TaTxavda Tavis sayvarels, `sportuli

JinisTvis~ ori weli rom hqonda Turme romani da romel-

mac bolo dros bavSvic gaaCina da romelsac, rasakvirvelia,

Cemi qmari Tavisad ar miiCnevda _ RmerTma uwyis, visgan

hyavso, ambobda Turme yvelasTan. amisda miuxedavad, bolos

mainc, roca darwmunda, ar Sevurigdebodi, _ misgan esoden

gaTaTxuli qali colad moiyvana. ai, raa saintereso, Cemo

Zvirfaso, mTels am ambavSi.

_ TqvenTan Serigebas mainc cdila... maSasadame..._ cdilobda romelia?.. nemsis yunwSi ar Zvreboda? ra

moxda aseTi? romel kacs ara hyavs sayvarelio. qmrebi ki ara, colebic aranaklebad adgamen qmrebs rqebs da gana erTs an ors? borjRala rqebi amSvenebT~ zog-zogebs, cxvi-raweulebi rom daiarebiano. am argumentebiT~ ara marto is, Cemi Sinaurebic ki cdilobdnen Cems dayoliebas... ratomRac Tavadac darwmunebuli iyo, rom me... Sevundobdi. vapatiebdi. albaT imitom egona ase, rom... me marTla Zalian miyvarda. Zalian meamayeboda, rom aseTi Wkviani, ganaTlebuli biWi iyo

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Cemi meuRle, rom ase uyvarda ojaxi, bavSvi, da... cxadia-me!.. ise, saocari arian kacebi: `ratomRac~ ver warmoudgeniaT, rom... SeiZleba Seijavron isini.

_ mainc ise gamodis, rom... patieba gTxovaT meuRlem da... Tqven ar miuteveT... Serigebas mainc ojaxis dangreva arCieT.

_ romeli ojaxis dangrevazea laparaki? sicruesa da si-yalbeze agebul ojaxze?.. me mesmis, rom ar SeiZleba pirve-li gznebiT giyvardes coli, Tu gnebavT _ qmari _ wlebis ganmavlobaSi. Tumca vici ojaxebi, col-qmars siberemde rom uyvardaT erTmaneTi. magram siyalbe, orpiroba, TvalTmaq-

coba, Ralati yovel SemTxvevaSi col-qmrobaSi yovelTvis

dauSveblad, amoralobad mimaCnda. ar giyvars, ar ginda _

gaSordi batono, da _ wadi! magram _ nu farisevlob! es

sazizRrobad mimaCnda! miT umetes, is uzneoba, rac Cemma

qmarma Caidina... is warmoudgeneli uzneoba!iciT, cota sxvanair ojaxSi viyavi aRzrdili, sxva

moralur principebze... SeiZleba metismetad Tavmoyvarec viyavi maSin... mere cxovrebam bevri ram damanaxa iseTi, ra-sac sizmarSic ver warmovidgendi, magram... mTavari mainc is iyo, rom... goga SemZagda, misi danaxvac ki guls mirevda, misi xmis gagonebaze vZagZagebdi, fizikur siaxloveze xom laparakic zedmetia... Zalian axalgazrda viyavi da, vimeoreb, Zalian Tavmoyvare... ise, Cems Tavs, maxsovs, niSans vugebdi, axia Senze, Rirsi xar-Tqo. unda... unda dasjiliyavi si-yvarulisTvis, ndobisTvis, siwrfelisTvis, erTgulebisTvis-Tqo. ise, im mware gakveTilma wlebis ganmavlobaSi mamakacis saxelis xsenebac ki SemaZula. TiTqos Sinaganad gavqvavdi. mTeli Cemi yuradReba bavSvis aRzrdasa da movlaze gadavi-tane _ ojaxuri tragediebi yvelaze metad mainc bavSvebze moqmedebs, isini arian upirvelesi msxverplni dedebis Tu mamebis Tavqarianobisa da umsgavsobisa, qarafSutobisa da egoizmisa... amitom, rogorc SemeZlo, vcdilobdi Cems ninikos umamoba ar egrZno... es ukve sxva Temaa da amaze aRar minda saubari gavagrZelo... ise, skolam da bavSvebis siyvarulma

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miSvela, momaSuSebina sulis Wriloba, Tumca samudamo dam-Rad mainc damrCa... mere, wlebis mere, ukve mowiful asakSi, roca Cemze bevrad ufro axalgazrda biWi Semiyvarda, gu-lis siRrmeSi gadavwyvite, rogoradac ar unda warmarTu-liyo Cveni urTierToba _ colad arasdros gavyolodi.

_ ratom? ratom miiReT aseTi gadawyvetileba qalba-tono eliko? Zalian sainteresoa...

_ jer-erTi, ar mindoda kvlav mimeRo sulieri tramva. aki, naTqvamia, rZiT pirdamwvario, dosac suls uberavdao... Tumca SeiZleba, ver gamigoT, amiT risi Tqma minda, Tu... mgoni isedac ukve Tavi mogabezreT albaT.

_ ara, ara. piriqiT. didi gulisyuriT gismenT qalbatono eliko! Tqven ise sainteresod yvebiT...

_ viTom?_ gulwrfelad geubnebiT. dedas geficebiT..._ hm! yovel SemTxvevaSi vcdilob simarTle vilaparako.

RmerTia mowme _ ar vkeklucob. TiTqos aRsarebaze var._ Tqvenc xom es gindodaT, qalbatono eliko? da... mere

siyvarulze ratom TqviT mainc uari? cota ver gavige..._ ara, uari ki ara, Tumca... jobia, Tanmimdevrulad movyve,

raki daviwye..._ diax. diax. gismenT yuradRebiT._ pirvelad plaJze gavicani, Cemi mamidaSvili baTumSia

gaTxovili. hoda, masTan erTad, maxsovs, saCrdilobelis qveS viweqi, piraRma gaSotili. mamidaSvilis bavSvebi da Cemi niniko _ igi ukve 14 wlis gogona iyo, _ moSorebiT karts TamaSobdnen. uceb Cemma mamidaSvilma Zaxili morTo: reziko, reziko, aqeT, aqeTo! cali TvaliT gavixede: vis eZaxis ase gamwarebiT-Tqo. Cvensken moemarTeboda maRali, mxarbeWiani, axalgazrda biWi. TeTri, qaTqaTa TeTri perangi ecva da jin-sis Sortebi. upirvelesad, TvalSi meca misi farTo Rimili da TeTri, kriala kbilebi mzisgan garujul saxeze. Tva-lebidan ki TiTqos naperwklebi cvioda. Cemi mamidaSvilis meuRlis axlo naTesavi gamodga reziko. plaJze megobar

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biWs eZebda Turme, sasoflo-sameurneo instituti hqonda damTavrebuli da romeliRac meurneobaSi agronomad muS-aobda. im saRamos Cemma mamidaSvilma miipatiJa Sin. gvest-umra. Cemma siZem, qurds ra undoda da bneli Rameo, cxadia... sufra gaSala da... Cemi imedgacruebuli, naWrilobevi guli, jerac wlebis Semdeg, mouSuSebeli _ aravis danaxva, aravis SemCneva rom ar undoda _ TiTqos Setokda! am biWma Tavisi uSualobiT, sisufTaviT, siwrfeliT Zalauneburad miipyro Cemi yuradReba...

sufra kargi saSualebaa dasaaxloeblad: cota Rvino, cota eSxi, simRera da... biWi leqsebad daiRvara. TiTqmis yvela cnobili poetis leqsebi icoda zepirad da Tan... raRacnairi ganumeorebeli maneriT da kiloTi kiTxulobda: laRad, Tamamad... sulac ar ugrvZnia Tavi SeboWilad stum-rebTan, kerZod, CemTan, Tundac rogorc TbiliselTan...

Canda, rom gulwrfelad uyvarda poezia da gulwrfeli eqstaziTve gadmoscemda Tavis gancdebs _ yovelgvari pro-vinciuli morcxvobisa da kompleqsebis gareSe.

sanam iq viyavi, sababi ar eleoda mosvlisa: xan plaJze, xan Sin, imdenad, rom Cemma mamidaSvilma erTxel daucacxana kidec xumrobiT: biWo, Sen samsaxuri ara gaqvso. Tan me Tvali CamipaWuna malulad, xom xedav, Sens gamoa es xSir-xSiri vizitebio... iyo sxvadasxva restornebSi dapatiJeba, qeifi, simRera, cekva, leqsebi, garToba, xumroba, sicil-TamaSi... da roca safrTxe vigrZeni, ukve gvian aRmoCnda yvelaferi. gaToSil-gayinuli guli... Turme gamlRoboda. mere Tavs TiTqos gaqceviT vuSvele _ vadaze adre davbrundi TbilisSi, Cemi WkuiT gaveride safrTxes. mdia. es `devnac~ raRacnairad romantikuli meCveneboda am Cvens saSinlad araromantikul saukuneSi _ sasiamovno devnad! reziko Ta-visi axalgazrduli, mCqefare energiiT, warmosadegobiT, eSx-iani, didi TvalebiT swored, es mSvenieri Tvalebi da Rimili aRviqvi Tavdapirvelad _ SemCneuli maqvs, uwinaresad Cemi mowoneba iwyeba Tvalebidan, miT umetes cisferi Tvalebis

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mimarT gulgrili ver vrCebi. reziko, amasTan, TavSekavebu-li, dinji gaxldaT TiTqos axalgazrdisTvis Seuferebeli darbaisluri manerebiT _ swored es mxiblavda da Tavbrus maxvevda. mokled, TiTqos xelaxla davibade. TiTqos dami-brunda ymawvilqaloba... sadRac amovikiTxe, axla ar maxsovs, sad: rom Cveni, qalbatonebis bednierebaa Turme is, rom Cven TviTganaxlebis, TviTaRorZinebis saocari unari gvaqvs Turme! CvenSi, SigniT, Cvens arsebaSi devs iseTi `dvrita~, rac xelaxla iylorteba, ifoTleba, xarobs. Zlierebi varT suliT _ swored amiT. Cven SeiZleba mogvgrixon, magram ver dagvamtvreven. SeiZleba daveceT tlapoSi, WaobSi Cave-flaT xandaxan, magram iqidan mainc ganaxlebuli, sufTani amovdivarT xolme xSirad!

diax, saocari unari gvaqvs CamovirecxoT WuWyi, sibinZure, radgan Cveni suli _ feniqsiviTaa! _ (xangrZlivi pauza).

_ mere, ra moxda mere, qalbatono eliko?_ mokled, xelaxla viqeci-meTqi ymawvilqalad, patara

gogod _ molodiniT, didi siyvarulis molodiniT rom ga-nabula ia-iasaviT... saocari gancdebi mqonda _ zRapruli, aqamde argancdili aRtaceba, aRmafrena, aRtkineba, gzneba... ar vici, verc gadmovcem Cemi sulis maSindel sisavses... kvlav poeturma sulma gaiRviZa CemSi... leqsebi TavisTavad ibadeboda Cems gulSi. sxvaTa poeziac megzurobas miwev-da... ase gagrZelda karga xans... TiTqmis ori weliwadi...

iqneb sjobda ase, am notze damTavrebuliyo yvelaferi. ase

vfiqrob axla... magram raRac momentSi... moxda is, rac...

albaT unda momxdariyo da rac, rogorc giTxariT, rogor

agixsnaT, ar vici... es romantikuli devna ufro msiamovneb-

da, momwonda, mxiblavda: SveliviT rom Tavs arideb meZebars,

is ki _ mainc mogdevs, geZebs, geZebs, rom xelT mogigdos,

bolos mainc mogimwyvdios xafangSi: samwuxaro finalia.

samwuxaro bolo akordia!

_ Tqven... marTla poetiviT laparakobT, magram... ratom

samwuxarod, qalbatono eliko?

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_ jer erTi, ratom unda iyos sakvirveli is, rom yve-la CvenganSi metnaklebad poeti zis, romantikosi, meocnebe... oRond egaa _ es grZnoba zogjer Zaan Rrmadaa Semaluli adamianis sulis siRrmeSi. magram dgeba zogjer Jami, momenti, roca igi amotivtivdeba, amoRaRandeba xolme RiRilosaviT, magram... Cven, ratomRac ufro xSirad qvenagrZnobebs, qvenain-stiqtebs vaniWebT upiratesobas da vaZlevT gasaqans da ara _ zesTazenurs. Cvens yoveldRiurobaSi, TanadroulobaSi TiTqos ufro gvesaxeleba Tu gveamayeba, rom... cxovelebi varT. pirutyvebi... vufrTxiT da gavurbivarT yovelive mSve-niers, naTels, zeciurs Cvens gulSi rom binadrobs, TiTqos gvercxvineba, gveCoTireba sulis amaRlebuloba, keTilSo-bileba!.. maincdamainc viCxrikebiT, viqeqebiT gulis bnel kun-WulebSi da samzeoze gamogvaqvs amoraluri, miCqmaluli sib-inZure, WuWyi... miT umetes axla, am mozRvavebuli ucxouri serialebis Tu kino-filmebis niaRvarSi _ SiSveli, utifari, urcxvi da Semtevi seqsis fonze xom sasacilod da saTaki-lodac Cans yovelive wminda, amaRlebuli, faqizi, wrfeli, uangaro, naRdi grZnoba. mxolod logini, mxolod sawoli _ Tanac TiTqmis yovelgvari `Sesavlis~ gareSe, xuT wuTSi _ pirdapir `saqme~!

_ magram... magram sawolic xom bunebrivia, qalbatono eliko, mis gareSec xom...

_ vici. vici, rasac ityviT axla. mis gareSe xom SeuZle-belia dagvirgvindes siyvaruli. diax, asea. gamomicdia eg da vici. magram RmerTma kacisa da qalis urTierToba _ anu dRevandeli terminologiiT _ seqsi _ gaakeTilSobila siyvaruliT! gesmiT? yovlismomcveli siyvarulis ZaliT. sxva danarCeni, maT Soris _ sqesobrivi aqtic principSi mxolod fiziologiuri Jinis mokvlaa, anda, didi, didi _ gamravlebis funqcia Tu akisria, anu, rusTavelis TqmiT, mxolod ugulo xvevna-kocna da mtlaSa-mtluSia igi, anu siyvaruli sxvaa _ siZva sxvaa, Sua uzis didi mzRvari. ar meTanxmebiT, xom?

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_ iciT... zogadad geTanxmebiT, magram... amis Sesaxeb nair-gvari azri arsebobs mainc da...

_ pluralizmi xom ar gindoda, geTayva, geTqvaT? ha, ha, ha... mapatieT. Tavi ver Sevikave sicilisagan... grZnobaTa `pluralizms~ emsaxureba aki seqsis Tavisuflebac, homo-seqsualistebis qorwinebac da a.S. radgan rogorc `iq~, CvenSic ase unda iyos. morCa da gaTavda. xom marTalia?

_ magram... Tqven xom... Tqven xom namdvilad giyvardaT. uyvardiT. maSasadame...

_ diax. gviyvarda... erTmaneTi wrfelad, namdvilad gvi-yvarda... amitomac mimaCnia WeSmariti siyvaruli _ amaR-lebul, RvTiur grZnobad. diax. marad Seuryvnel, Seubil-wvel grZnobad darCeba romeo da julietas siyvarulis ambavi. es asea da mainc... CemSi sxva rameebi datrialda. sxva kompleqsebi CaerTo. yvelafris miuxedavad, miuxedavad imisa, rom zeaRmatebulma romantikulma grZnobam Semipyro da mTeli Cemi arseba moicva, me qveSecneulad vcdilobdi, rom... davSorebodi mas. ucnauria ara? daujerebelic? Tuki ase Zalumad giyvars, rogorRa gwadia es? arada, zustad ase iyo. ramdenadac Zlieri iyo Cemi grZnoba, ltolva, imdenad _ mtanjvelic, radgan tvins mixvretda erTi da igive azri: me ara var misi Rirsi _ me, qmargayril, Svil-ian, `bebruxana~ qals, ara maqvs ufleba _ vuyvarde mas da ase Semdeg da ase Semdeg... amitomac iyo, TiTqos gavurbodi masTan Sexvedrebs, miT umetes igi TbilisSi ar cxovrobda. da es TiTqos miadvilebda kidec ganzraxulis Sesrulebas, magram... rogorc ki `mtkiced~ gadavwyvetdi dacilebas _ maSinve, Cemda uneburad, myisve viwyebdi gzebis da saSuale-bebis Zebnas masTan Sesaxvedrad. xolo molodini Sexvedrisa _ eniT uTqmeli sixarulis da netarebis momniWebeli gax-ldaT. Sevxvdebodi da... isev Tavidan iwyeboda ganSorebaze fiqri, isev da isev grZeldeboda brZola sakuTar TavTan, sakuTar survilebTan... rogor paradoqsuladac ar unda JRerdes es _ ase iyo sinamdvileSi.

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_ mere?.. mere ra moxda qalbatono eliko? bolos riTi damTavrda Tqveni Widili da orTabrZola sakuTar TavTan?

_ iciT... riT?.. erT mSvenier dRes sruliad SemTxveviT, saerTo nacnobisagan vigeb, rom... man coli SeirTo! (pauza, xangrZlivi).

_ diax, coli moiyvana! _ gaimeora qalma dabeJili, yru xmiT da ganagrZo: _ ise wesiT, unda gamxareboda!.. aki TiTqos mec imas vnatrobdi, rom bolo moReboda Cvens kavSirs, anu ymawvili kacis urTierTobas `dedaberTan~, rom momxsnoda sindisis qenjnac, foriaqic, SfoTic. rom yovelive es mec mindoda guliT! mindoda, Seeqmna ojaxi (rakiRa me princi-pulad ar vapirebdi gavyolodi, colad Tumca erT-orjer SemomTavaza xeli), eTxova norCi, lamazi, keTili, kargi, ubiwo gogona, gaeCina Svilebi da amgvarad, mec gavTavisu-flebuliyavi raRacnairi danaSaulis Tu codvis SegrZnebi-sagan, Cemdauneburad guls rom miRrRnida dReniadag da bednierebis wuTebs rom miwamlavda. mindoda es, RmerTia mowame _ mindoda da mainc... ise Tavzardamcemi, ise mou-lodneli dartyma aRmoCnda es cnoba CemTvis, rom... TiTqos dambla dameca. ase meored damemarTa, Tumca... garegnulad, saocaria es, magram garegnulad araferi SevimCnie, raRac Zalam, raRac Sinaganma Zalam SemaZlebina SemenarCunebina simSvide, wonasworoba. maxsovs, viRimebodi kidec, oRond, _ instiqturad. odnav gverdze mivabrune Tavi, rom... Cemi Tvalebi ar daenaxa `macnes~... diax, ase iyo! ase `mamacurad~ Sevxvdi am meore dartymas, Tumca... _ isev siCume.

_ mere... mere ar ginaxavT is... ymawvili? ar SegxvedriaT mere?

_ ki, movida. ramdenime xnis Semdeg movida CemTan da... patieba mTxova. ha, ha, ha, xom sasaciloa, ara? isev ise miyvarxaro. Turme garemoebam aiZula, gadaedga es nabiji _ mSoblebma, tradiciuli mSoblebi hyavda, cxadia, ise moawyves yvelaferi, rom... qali Sin dausves. vicodi, mar-

Tals ambobda da mainc... ukve aranairi mniSvneloba ar hqonda

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CemTvis arafers. coli-colad, sayvareli-sayvarlad?.. Cems

did grZnobas amas ver vakadrebdi, cxadia. ho, vgrZnobdi,

rom... Sinaganad TiTqos me mabralebda `raRaceebs~...

sayveduric ar miTqvams, maxsovs. ase jobda-meTqi _ es ki

vuTxari Zalian mSvidad, Zalian wynari xmiT. es iyo da es

amiT.... ase damTavrda Cemi meore siyvarulis epopea.

_ mapatieT, qalbatono eliko... magram ar SemiZlia ar

gkiTxoT... ratom gaxda TqvenTvis ase gadaulaxavi barieri

wlovaneba? asaki? ramdeni SemTxveva vici, asakovani qalebi

rom mouyvaniaT colad bevrad maTze umcros axalgazrdebs?

raRa Sors wavide? Cemma biZaSvilma lamis TxuTmeti wliT

ufrosi, naqmarebi qali SeirTo. Tuki... namdvili siyvaru-

lia, maSin..._ mgoni weRan giTxari, me _ qmargayrili, mozrdili Svi-

lis patroni Cemze cxra Tu aTi wliT umcross biWs co-lad ver gavyvebodi! es Cems moralur kodeqsSi ar jdeboda, iciT! SeiZleba sasacilod Candes, magram... ase iyo! aravis vaTqmevinebdi, rom me... `beberma~, dedakacma `gamoviWire~ bavSvi, Tavi SevasaRe da a.S. es Cemi Rirsebis da Tavmoyva-reobis Selaxavda, Cemi meobis damcirebad mimaCnda. diax. ar damijeroT iqneba es, magram... maSin ase vfiqrobdi da... warmoidgineT, dResac amave azrze var _ mis meuRled ubiwo,

umanko gogonas Tu warmovidgendi _ saocrad lamazs, saT-

nos, ojaxis erTguls, romelic bevr Svilebs gauCenda da...

a.S. hm! maSin ras vifiqrebdi, rom... cxovreba kidev uares

siurprizebs mimzadebda... ise ki, simarTle rom vTqva... mis-

gan ar movelodi mainc aseT... aravaJkacur saqciels, anu...

rom mosuliyo da pirdapir eTqva _ ase da asea Cemi saqmeo,

rasakvirvelia, gavugebdi, mivutevebdi, Tumca... cxadia, guli

metkineboda, magram... ase, amnairad, ase moulodnelad... Tanac,

viRac SemTxveviTi pirisagan gageba imisa, rom... daqorwinda...

ise, rom giTxraT... Zalian maRali Sexedulebis mis intele-

qtze arasodes vyofilvar, arc ganaTlebis maRali doniT

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gamoirCeoda maincdamainc _ am mxriv Cems qmaryofilTan

namdvilad ver movidoda, magram... garSemo amdeni siyal-

bis, farisevlobis, mocveTili grZnobebis fonze _ suli-

erad, Sinaganad iseTi Seuryvneli, alali, sufTa Canda, rom...

sxva rameebs anu... naklovanebebs Segnebulad Tu Seugneblad

Tvals vuxuWavdi, ar mindoda damenaxa, SememCnia... mokled,

rogorc ityvian _ siyvaruli brmaa, rac sxvaTa Soris, su-

lac ar mgonia normaluri ambavi... magram... es sxva, rTuli,

fsiqologiuri Temaa. erTi sityviT, ase iyo Tu ise, iq SigniT,

gulSi _ erTi mTavari ZarRvi kvlav Camiwyda, kvlav daimsx-

vra da gacamtverda raRac Zalian didi, Rirebuli, Zvirfasi

ram. suli _ kvlav carieli darCa. da Tavs ise damcirebu-

lad, Seuracxyofilad vgrZnobdi, rogorc maSin... pirvelad!

maSindeliviT TiTqos axlac saguldagulod, gamiznulad,

mofiqrebulad sulSi CamafurTxes... amis Semdeg aranairi

azri ar hqonda CemTvis mis sinanuls Tu... xvewna-mudaras _

aranairi! piriqiT, ufro gamikerpda guli, radgan... yovlad

SeuZleblad mimaCnda mis mimarT mqonoda is gulwrfeli

grZnoba, rac manamde gamaCnda... anu, am romanis gagrZeleba

niSnavda, rom... unda meTvalTmaqca, mefarisevla, rasac ar

vakadrebdi arc mas da arc Cems Tavs, ufro sworad _ Cems

grZnobas, rac mis mimarT mqonda adre! ase da amgvarad, ZiriTadSi albaT Cemi fantaziiT Seqmni-

li, albaT siyvarulis moTxovnilebiT nakarnaxevi da nasaz-rdoebi, romantikuli fantaziiT da gancdebiT SeTxzuli am-bavi siyvarulisa _ dasrulda `viTa sizmari Ramisa~ (gaic-ina nerviuli, xmamaRali siciliT, da mcire xnis Semdeg isev ganagrZo mkafio, mkveTri kiloTi): _ aintereso is gaxlavT, rom rogorc pirvelad, ise axlac Cems Tavze ufro viyavi gamwarebul-gabrazebuli... miuxedavad imisa, rom... garkveuli sindisis qenjna momexsna da am mxriv TiTqos Sveba vigrZeni. Cems sakuTar Tavs ver vpatiobdi Cemi siyvarulis morig marcxs, am morig uiRblobas. da albaT Cemi bedukuRmarTo-

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biT daboRmils Surisgebis grZnoba gamiCnda sakuTari Tavis mimarT. diax, diax. Surisgeba _ Cemi personisadmi! CavTvale, rom ufro magrad unda momzRoda, ufro mtkivneulad _ Cemi ybadaRebuli ndobis, erTgulebis Tu Cemi siyvarulis sanacvlod, anu: ufro uaresi sasjelis Rirsi viyavi! magram es grZnoba ufro qveSecneuli, gaucnobierebeli gaxldaT, realuri da TvalSi sacemi CemTvis is iyo, rom... vkar-gavdi rwmenas sakuTari Tavis mimarT! Cemi Zalebis mimarT... bolobolo Cemi qalobis mimarT. vatyobdi rom vkompleqs-debodi, Tumca... orives _ qmaryofils da sayvarels TiTqos vuyvardi! diax, goga drodadro Tavs Semaxsenebda xolme im imediT, rom SesaZloa Sevrigebodi. xom paradoqsia _ ofi-cialurad ukve coli hyavda, qali, romelsac adre uSveri, bilwi sityvebiT moixseniebda, da visTanac erTad sxvis biWs zrdida, amisda miuxedevad, ratomRac karga xans egona, rom me mis mimarT gulgrili ar viyavi, rakiRa... amden xans ar gavTxovdi! ar vici, ras fiqrobda _ sayvarlad Tu vundodi davesvi!.. saocari Camosxmaa saerTod mamakacebi...

Tumca, aseT iluziebs maTSi badebs, etyoba, is garemoeba, rom xSirad mitovebuli Tu motyuebuli qalebi, oRondac `mters Tvalebi daubrmavon~, anda ubralod, `gulis buxari amoiyaron,~ marTlac midian yovelgvar kompromisebze, xan _ ojaxis SenarCunebis momizezebiT, xanac `viRaceebis~ jinaze `Tvalis dasaTxrelad~ da a.S. da ganagrZoben msaxiobobas, _ metnaklebi ostatobiT, rasakvirvelia. xolo Cvens aziat mamakacebs xels aZlevs amgvari daTmobani: colic da say-varelic (xSirad _ sayvarlebic!) erTdroulad _ riTia urigo? magram ... amaze aRar SevCerdebi, igi ufro Rrma gansjis sagania... vatyob, isedac gamigrZelda sityva. ise ki, cxadia, yvelas Taviseburad esmis Tavmoyvareoba... gonis da inteleqtis primatoba vnebebze, avxorcobaze, qvena instin-qtebze... (es ise _ sasxvaTaSorisod!..)

diax, TiTqmis samudamod amovirecxe gulidan Cemi sayva-reli, anu... TiTqos rogorc movida, ise wavidao, da mainc _

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erTob mZime da rTul mdgomareobaSi aRmovCndi sulierad: Cemi arasrulfasovnebis, Cemi araraobis SegrZneba mtanjavda, Cemi Selaxuli Tavmoyvareoba drodadro ar masvenebda... an samudamo melanqolias da wuxils unda mivcemodi _ rac bunebrivi iqneboda, radgan maSin urwmuno, ufro sworad _ aTeisti gaxldiT da sxva gamosavals ver vxedavdi, anda...

am sulieri kataklizmis dros, gzajvaredinze myofs saSinel gulis tkenis, wyenis, SfoTis procesSi ase vTqvaT, Cemsave wvenSi rom vixarSebodi _ anazdeulad horizontze, sruliad moulodnelad gamoCnda erTi friad simpaTiuri, axalgazrda kaci, sajarod cnobili da niWieri eqimi, esec Cemze gvarianad umcrosi, colSviliani (es sityva xazgas-mulad, mravalmniSvnelovani intonaciiT warmoTqva qalma);

am axalgazrda kacs Soridan vicnobdi _ bevri saerTo nacnobic gvyavda _ magram adre, arasdros mimiqcevia misT-vis yuradReba, an sad mecala misi personisaTvis... Tumca, rogorc giTxariT, sakmaod popularuli pirovneba gaxldaT eqimTa wreSi, SesaniSnavad ukravda gitaraze da mReroda. mogexsenebaT, es erTob mZlavri faqtoria mamakacisaTvis, rom... qalebi farvanasaviT Tavs evlebodnen. is am Sanss, ro-gorc Cans, xelidan ar uSvebda... moxda ise, rom erTi Cemi axloblis, eqimis dabadebis dReze erTad aRmovCndiT su-fraze, ise, maincdmainc didi survili ar mqonda am dReobaze wavsuliyavi, Cemi gulnaRvlianobis gamo sulac ar meqeif-eboda, magram... mokled, ase iyo Tu ise, movxvdi am saiubileo lxinSi da Cemda gasaocrad da moulodnelad, SevimarTe raRacnairad... davimuxte. TiTqos meZebariviT geSi aviRe da... naxtomisaTvis movemzade... mokled, mivaRwie imas rom... yuradRebis centrSi moveqeci imdenad, rom zogierT Tana-meinaxe mandilosanSi daufaravi Suris grZnobac ki gamovi-wvie, es maSin, roca suli carieli, xolo guli _ gamofit-uli mqonda. diax, Tumca Cemi daRlili guli TiTqosda ZlivsRa feTqavda mkerdqveS, Tumca mamrebis mimarT saocar antipatias, ufro uaresi _ agresias vgrZnobdi _ erTba-

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Sad, moulodnelad Jinma Semipyro _ es qalebis kerpi Cems fexqveS damxobili mexila. da ucebve gamielva erTma ru-sulma cinikurma andazam: `Клин клином выбывают!~ da marT-lac, ise ostaturad CaverTe TamaSSi, ise xerxianad da mar-jved, rom am metismetad TviTdajerebul axalgazrda kacs Zalian mokle xanSi morigi gamarjvebis iluzia Sevuqmeni. diax _ Sevuqmeni, gavuCine es iluzia _ nacadi qaluri e.w. `atributikis~ meSveobiT _ es Rimili iyo, Tvalebis JuJuni, sicili, mixra-moxra da a.S. da a.S. mogexsenebaT, qalebi am mxriv, did SesaZleblobebs vflobT, rac saWiroebis SemTx-vevaSi saukeTeso iaraRia mamris dasabredad _ ukacravad am Jargonze, da rasac Tu moindoma, nebismieri qali _ lama-zia igi Tu usaxuri _ SesaniSnavad iyenebs, anu qalurobis arsenali _ amouwuravia! gabadruli saxiT, acimcimebuli TvalebiT vuyurebdi saxeSi `Cems~ don-Juans da gunebaSi veqilikebodi kidec Cemda uneburad: vin-vis waabams _ eg jer kidev sakiTxavia, Cemo Zvirfaso-Tqo! ise, yovelgvari yalbi Tavmdablobis gareSe getyviT: e.w. Tayvanismcemlebi _ faruli Tu aSkara _ arasdros makldnen jer kidev skolis merxidan moyolebuli. momxibvlel, eSxian anu Tanamedrove terminologiiT – Sarmian qalad viTvlebodi Cems wreSi, Tumca, gulwrfelad rom vTqva, Sinaganad maincdamainc didad darwmunebuli ar viyavi am garemoebiT. ise, mogexsenebaT albaT, Cemo sayvarelo, sazogadod yvelgan, miT ufro CvenSi, qmargayrili anda qvrivi qali _ advilad wamosagebi hgoni-aT ankesze. amis mcdeloba araerTxel yofila Cems mimarTac, rogorc ki qmars gavSordi. magram maSin Zalian advilad da marjved vigeriebdi xolme amgvar Semotevebs _ mogexsenebaT: Tu qals ar unda _ misi momrevi Zala ar arsebobs dedami-wis zurgze, xolo Tu unda _ cxra uReli xar-kameCic ver daamagrebso, naTqvamia agreTve _ Wkviani qali arasodes ar Seiqmnis iseT situacias _ saidanac gamosavali ar aris, xolo me SemiZlia vTqva _ Seuvali, wesieri, patiosani qalis reputaciiT vsargeblobdi, rac sxvaTa Soris, axla vxvdebi

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amas _ bevr Cems irgvliv myofSi, gaRizianebis grZnobas iwvevda, zogi Cemi axloblisaTvis Znelad warmosadgeni da gaugebari rCeboda es miukarebloba. rogor? Tanamedrove qals, dRes, dRevandel viTarebaSi, Tuki is normaluria, miT umetes, naRalatevs, erTi sayvareli mainc ar unda hyavdes? ise, sxvaTa Soris, naTqvamia, SeZaxiliT xec gaxmao. bevri vici, fexis xmas rom ahyva, anu modas ar CamorCa da... auSva afrebi da... mere rogori?.. sazRvari da sazomi rom ar icis!.. vi-naidan, lamis goimebad CaiTvalos axla, Tu erTi e.w. boi-frendi mainc ara gyavs, oRond, cxadia _ jibesqeli! xolo Tu vinmes daungrev ojaxs _ es mTlad `prestiJuli~ saqme gaxlavT. maSasadame, magari vinme xar, angariSgasawevi! da... uweven kidec angariSs! imdenad, TiTqos buzic ar afrenodeT Tavze. miT umetes, Semakavebeli faqtori, iseTi, rogoricaa _ religiuroba _ ar arsebobs!

ho, imas vambobdi: amjerad TviT CemSi iyo ukve niadagi Semzadebuli, rom... guramiSvilis TqmiT, urcxvi gavmxdariyavi, SeiZleba, qvecnobierad protestis grZnobac mqonda albaT _ Cemi dedis Tu deidis cxovrebis wesis mimarT _ roca deda sicocxlis bolomde erTguli darCa qmris xsovnis mimarT, xolo deida _ omSi daRupuli Seyvarebulisadmi. anu... pro-testi, erTgulebisadmi, miT ufro im periodSi RvTis SiSi ar makavebda, miT ufro `gasamarTlebeli~ sabuTi aseT dros yovelTvis meqneboda, miT ufro, Tu gadawyvetili gaqvs Su-risgeba sakuTari Tavis mimarT!.. diax arsebobs Turme aseTi grZnobac: sakuTari Tavisadmi SurisZieba! mokled, ase iyo Tu ise _ xelTaTmani gadavagde... gamowveva _ miRebul iqna! _ (pauza. amjerad sakmaod xangrZlivi).

_ iciT Cemo Zvirfaso, qalbatono nana, maxsovs, me maSin Cems Tavs aseTi `nakazi~ miveci _ qalbatono elene, sayva-relo eliCka! raki gawbilebuli darCi, raki cxovrebaSi siyvarulobanas wyalobiT, gulmokluli da damcirebuli daiarebi, viTarca erTi tutrucana, suleli da ubiri de-dakaci, dReis amas iqiT Tvalebi farTod gaaxile da sanam

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droa, sanam jer kidev SedarebiT axalgazrda xar, da mTlad ar damwnilebulxar, amasTan, vinaidan da radganac gmarTebs agreTve rogorme gaiyuCo tkivili, moiSuSo rogorme miy-enebuli Wrilobebi (bolosdabolos, 39 wlisa xar ukve!) da moerio autanel dards da naRvels _ Sen, am friad mimzidvel axalgazrda kacs gaixdi sayvarlad! diax, sa-yva-rlad! (Tundac, dedaSenis da deidis cxovrebis wesis jin-aze, sxva rom araferi vTqvaT!), amasTanave, es saqcieli Seni mxridan _ es _ iqneba nacvalgeba Sens sibriyveze, e.w. Sens ampartavnobaze, Sens gulwrfelobaze, erTgulebaze da a.S. mokled rom vTqvaT, javrs iyri Seni da Senianebis moZvele-bul, yavlgasul moralur-zneobriv kodeqsze Tu eTikur normebze, ase ulmoblad, ase sastikad rom iqna gaTelili da Cawixluli mavanTa mier, oRondac... es ar moxdeba Zalian Cqara, rogoradac SeiZleba eCvenebodes es am diacTa gul-Tampyrobels. aara! nuras ukacravad! ase iolad, ase erTba-Sad da meyseulad, rogorc miCveulia sxvebTan _ ver Cagi-gorebs sawolSi. arao, mela matyuarao. nwu! jer vnebisgan, survilisgan, Jinisgan, ndomisgan unda SeSalo, Wkua daakarg-vino. muxlmoyrili unda gevedrebodes, rom gaiRo mowyaleba, diax, mowyaleba da ara _ siyvaruli. siyvarulis TamaSoba morCa, samudamod Cabarda istorias, siyvarulma Cailuris wyali unda dalios erTxel da sabolood! diax. kai xans unda awruwuno es vaJbatoni, kai xans unda gaawvalo, sa-nam sanukvar mizans miaRwevdes. Sen ki am dros _ mxolod civi gonebiT imoqmedeb, mxolod angariSiT gansji yovelives da gaTvli yovel nabijs. rac mTavaria, ifiqreb mxolod da mxolod Sens Tavze, Sens siamovnebaze... yovelTvis da yvelaferSi gadamwyveti iqneba Seni-me, wina planze dadgeba mxolod Seni ego da ara mag mususis, oRond... yovelive amas ganaxorcieleb, rasakvirvelia, SeniRbulad, Sefarulad, gegm-azomierad. amgvarad, Seni me iqneba gadamwyveti faqtori da ara _ misi! mxolod pragmatuli mosazrebidan gamomdinare gaTvli yovel nabijs, yovel saqciels, yovel detals-Tqo

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da... ar dauSveb aranair fantazias, romantikul aRtkinebebs, anu TviTSemoqmedebas, wvas Tu gznebas _ mxolod da mx-olod praqticizmi! morCa da gaTavda!

es eqsperimenti daeqvemdebareba mxolod gons,anu im mizans, rac winaswar daisaxe. anu sanCo-pansasaviT, mxolod mdabali instinqtebiTa da mosazrebebiT ixelmZRvaneleb da amitom daundoblad, sastikad mospob da gaanadgureb Sens sulSi don-kixotizmis yovelgvar narCenebs. morCa da gaT-avda. es iqneba Seni kredo. Seni mrwamsi da ara sxva ram, anu swored Sengan iqneba marTuli vnebaTaRelvis peripetiebi da ara _ misgan!

aseTi strategiuli gegma davusaxe maSin sakuTar Tavs da... aseTi ganaCeni gamovutane imasac, vinc Tavis maxeSi gabmas mipirebda, rogorc morig rigiT nadavls _ dros satareblad, anu wamierad Jinis mosaklavad gamiznul msx-verpls...

bevri rom ar gavagrZelo, mizans mivaRwie. diax. zustad ise Sevasxi xorci Canafiqrs, rogorc mqonda moazrebuli, Tan ise ostaturad, ise xerxianad, rom Cemze monadires az-radac ar mosdioda TavSi, Cemi ase vTqvaT, teqnikuri monaxa-ziT rom mimdinareobda es nadiroba da ara-misiT! rom Cems mier winaswar SemuSavebuli programiT xdeboda es, rac xdeboda _ `SemTxveviTi~ Sexvedrebis CaTvliT! rom is ki ar mabamda. rogorc mas egona es, aramed swored me vugebdi maxes. yovelive amas, rasakvirvelia, tvinis daZambva, gonis mobilizacia, nervebi da simtkice sWirdeboda, risi ukmari-sobas ar vuCiodi. mokled rom vTqva, am Sefarul orTabr-Zolas TiTqmis weliwadi dasWirda.

iol da martiv gamarjvebebs miCveul Cems don-Juans, romelsac aqamde sad ecala vinmes sadevnelad da `dros dasakargad~ _ isedac xom gaurjelad, zedmeti Zalisxmevis Tu aqtiurobis gareSec eweoda xolme sawadels, rakiRa lamis iyo, zedaxora hqondaT gamarTuli mis mimarT qalebs Tu gogonebs...

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hoda, aseTi gamarjvebebiTa da warmatebebiT galaRebuli ax-algazrda kaci _ romelsac metismetad gauWianurda loginSi Cemi SeTreva _ zomaze metad Jinatanili _ Canda, ukan daxevas ar apirebda! zogjer qals amdeni dro da `maqinaciebi~ arc sWirdeba _ aris SemTxvevebi, roca pirvelsave SemTxvevaze, pirvelive danebebiT SeuZlia samudamod `daabas~ mamakaci, ma-gram Cemi pakloniki~ mamakacebis aseT kategorias ar ganekuT-vneboda da gulis siRrmeSi arc me mindoda aseTi dapyroba~..

ase iyo Tu ise, Cemo sayvarelo, davrwmundi, ramden xrikebs flobs qali Turme, roca vinmes `gamoWeras~ moin-domebs! xandaxan meve maocebda Cemi sazrianoba, eSmakoba, windaxeduloba, gamWriaxoba. saidan-Tqo, ranairad CemSi _ aseTi amouwuravi unari, aqamde TviT CemTvisac dafaruli da Seucnobi SesaZleblobani TvalTmaqcobisa, mzakvrobisa, xrikebisa, tyuilisa, aferistobisa da vin icis kidev, risi ara?.. au, ramdeni ram SesZlebia Turme qals _ mxolod da mxolod _ WkuiT moqmeds, angarebians anu: saerTod, ra biwi-eri SeiZleba iyos Turme goni adamianisa!

me, rasakvirvelia adamianis am Tvisebebze bevri ram mqonda wakiTxuli, gagonili, magram... piradi magaliTi mainc sxva ram yofila! (kvlav pauza).

_ diax. unda gamovtyde da vaRiaro, Tavad me ver war-movidgendi, Tu amgvari `unarebis~ matarebeli viyavi. arada, rogor Wrida es fandebi! sul tyuilad hgonia zog-zog mamakacs, TiTqos strategosi iyos. Tundac _ sasiyvarulo ambebSi! (sxva rameebSic rom didi veraferiSvilebi brZan-debian, es Cvenma dRevandelobamac daadastura, samwuxarod!), anu: urTierTobebs qalebTan _ rasakvirvelia, vgulisxmob, garkveuli kategoriis diacebs da ara _ quCis meZavebs. qalis nebasurvilis winaSe es viTomda gayinCuli mamrebi, anu gafxorili mamlebi ise umweoni, ise ususurni xdebian xolme metwilad, ise sacodavad, ise Sesabralisad gamoiy-urebian xolme momentebSi, rom... mtrisas!.. guli agereva.

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Cems SemTxvevaSi, rogorc giTxariT, me gaxldiT sinamd-vileSi, ase rom vTqvaT, mbrZanebeli, is _ morCili aRms-rulebeli. magram... droTa viTarebaSi, miuxedavad imisa, rom me viyavi warmmarTveli _ TandaTan raRacnairi yru, auxs-neli mousvenroba mipyrobda xolme, sul ufro da ufro meufleboda raRacnairi ukmayofilebis grZnoba sakuTari Tavis mimarT. drodadro TiTqos sircxvili Tu... amdagvari raRac grZnoba mawuxebda, TiTqos sindisis qenjnac mipyrob-da xandaxan, TiTqos raRac danaSauls Cavdiodi... bundovnad magram mainc vgrZnobdi, rom... CemTvis bunebrivi, rogorc ityvian, Cveulebrivi ambavi ar iyo is, rasac vaiZulebdi Cems Tavs ekeTebina, rom... es mdgomareoba _ faruli paemnebi, tyuilebi _ Tundac Svilis winaSe, farisevlobani _ sadRac guls mirevda ukve! uneburad, Cemda daukiTxavad, ganvicdidi am Zaldatanebas sakuTari mesadmi, Tundac... wamieri sia-movnebis gulisTvis! magram... amasTan, Cemi qmaryofilis ar iyos, TiTqos sportul Jins vyavdi atanili _ aba, sanamde gagrZeldeba es ambavi, sanam SevZleb srul morCilebaSi my-avdes es axalgazrda, bedovlaTi kaci. TiTqos sulSi Casa-xlebuli eSma mibiZgebda da mkarnaxobda _ rac SeiZleba metad gamomexmo gulis uSoresi kunWulebidan bneli, qvena grZnobebi Tu zraxvebi, arada... Cemi sayvareli, principSi, kargi pirovneba aRmoCnda _ TxemiT-terfamde inteligenti! kulturuli. ganaTlebuli, gamgebiani, gulkeTili da... sao-crad taqtiani urTierTobaSi, rac salbunad edeboda Cems gatanjul, naiarev guls da rac mTavaria: am axalgazrda kacs... Sevuyvardi! diax, diax. gulwrfelad Sevuyvardi _ aseTi ram qals ar gamoepareba xolme. es cxadia, Cemi sruli gamarjveba iyo! maSasadame, Cems mondomebas anu SemoqmedebiT unarebs _ amaod ar Cauvlia. magram... saqme isaa, rom... ra-tomRac ise ar maxarebda es gamarjveba, anu Cemi Canafiqris warmateba, rogorc gaaxarebda es saerTod qals _ miT umetes, Cems mdgomareobaSi myofs! xolo, roca davrwmundi, rom Se-meZlo colad gavyolodi anu damengria ojaxi _ gavogndi,

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Sevcbi. aseT finals ar movelodi. aqamde, am zomamde TiTqos ar mindoda misuliyo saqme! rom ityvian, davTari damebna. ar vici... albaT ver agixsniT, ver... gagagebinebT maSindel Cems sulier mdgomareobas, guneba-ganwyobilebas, azrTa Widils, fiqrTa dinebas... magram erT mSvenier dRes cxadad, mkafiod davrwmundi, rom... ojaxis dangrevis mkisrebeli _ ar viyavi! rogor trafaretuladac ar unda JRerdes _ sxvis ube-durebaze ver avagebdi Cems bednierebas!

Cemi sayvarlis cols piradad ar vicnobdi da arc aras-dros mqonia survili, Soridan mainc Tvali Semevlo misT-vis, TiTqos arc arsebobda igi Cemi gonebis arealSi. ise ki, yurmokvriT vicodi, rom kargi gogo iyo, ori bavSvis deda... Tavidan, rogorc giTxariT, ainunSic ar Camigdia misi arse-boba, magram axla, roca SesaZlo iyo, qmari wamerTmia misT-vis... mokled Sevdrki! SeiZleba imitomac, rom... tolfardi grZnoba ar gamaCnda Cemi sayvarlis mimarT... vera da ver aRegzno Cemi guli Zveleburi cecxliTa da gznebiT, Tu... aRmafreniT. diax. suli Cemi ar zeimobda am gamarjvebas anu, martivad rom vTqvaT, vmruSobdi _ mruSobisaTvis! vmru-Sobdi Segnebulad, ganzraxviT, ugulod.

axla rom vigoneb maSindel Cems yofas _ arada mis mere ramdeni weli gavida! _ mrcxvenia, saSinlad mrcxvenia Cemi Tavis, Cemi zraxvis da wadilis. rogor gavTele-meTqi ase Segnebulad, ase gaazrebulad sakuTari pirovneba, gavanadgure Cemi meoba, Tavmoyvareoba. movspe da miwasTan gavaswore Cemi qaluri Rirseba da siamaye...

axla vici, rom... Cemma urwmunoebam, uRmerTobam Camadenina es codva. maSin ki... maSin gonebadabnelebuls, survilis da mowonebis kvalobaze _ iqneb sxvac ki Camenacvlebina Cemi sayvarlisaTvis _ Tuki saamiso ganwyoba da pirobebi Semeqmneboda. gamarTlebas ki _ rogorc weRanac vTqvi _ yovelTvis mouZebni xolme sakuTar Tavs: aki mZime damnaS-eveebic, borotmoqmednic, mkvlelebic Tavis gasamarTlebel `sabuTebs~ yovelTvis pouloben!.. ar SemiZlia amasTan daka-

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vSirebiT erTi SemTxveva ar mogiyveT... ramac TiTqos ufro gasagebi da naTeli gaxada CemTvis, Tu ra ufskrulis piras videqi Turme, Tu rogor SeiZleba daece da wumpeSi amohyo Tavi, saidanac SesaZloa verc amoxvide verasodes! da darCe bolomde _ WuWyian, binZur WaobSi!..

... Cemi biZaSvilis dReobaze gaxldiT (isev dReoba, lxini da sufra, Rvino da musika: `Rvino, duduki, qalebis~ ar iyos _ xom sacTurTa sacTuri iyo Tavis dReSi!)

es gaxldaT is dro, roca, rogorc ityvian, gaxurebuli romani mqonda nikasTan. sufraze sakmaod bevri xalxi iyo, ase vTqvaT, rCeuli sazogadoeba, xolo Tavad sufras rac Seexeba _ ukeTes ver inatrebdi. ra gindoda sulo da gulo, iq ar yofiliyo. ra saWmelebi, ra nugbari, ra Rvino. ra Sampanuri. ra simRerebi, cekvebi, xumroba _ lazRanda-roba. mokled _ dros tareba Cveneburi! didebul xasia-Tze davdeqi. raRacnairi Sinagani borkilebi davyare TiTqos _ xandaxan, iSviaTad, magram momdioda xolme aseTi ram... roca ar mzRudavda pedagogis pedanturi samoseli... im saRamosac ise laRad, Tavisuflad vgrZnobdi Tavs, rogorc studentobis Tu axalgazrdobis dros... vicekve, vimRere, vimariaJe... im saRamos me TiTqos amorZalTa dedofali vi-yavi tyvedayvanili mamakacebs Soris _ amayad yelmoRere-buli, roca icis, rom mis survilzea damokidebuli _ vis airCevs? vis gaabednierebs amaRam Tavisi mwveli alersiT!.. da es yvelaferi, anu es ganwyobileba Semiqmna erTma Suax-nis mamakacma, romelic Tavad ukve ar malavda, rom Cemgan tyvedqmnili iyo da Cemi neba-survilis usityvod mona-mor-Cili iqneboda. karga gvarianad viyavi SezarxoSebuli: saer-Tod Rvinos kargad vitan, advilad ar mekideba, Tumca ki ar miyvars, roca qalebi sufraze Tvrebian kacebiviT da mere aTasgvar sisuleles sCadian gonwarTmeulni, rac fxizel-Ta TvalSi metwilad gamkilav Rimils da dacinvas iwvevs xolme. da sazogadod, zedmeti siTamame da TavSeukavebu-loba, sigaretis gamomwvev qaCvasTan da bilwsityvaobasTan

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erTad _ viTom iumorSi romaa ganzavebuli _ mejavreba da ver vitan, radgan... aris amaSi raRac plebeuri, vulgaruli, naZaladevi, wamxedurobasTan nazavi da rac Cemis azriT, qalisTvis damakninebel-damamcirebelia da Tumca, rogorc giTxariT, sakmaod Seqeifianebuli viyavi-meTqi, zRvars ar gadavsulvar anu yovel Cems saqciels Tu sityvas mainc goni akontrolebda, goni aregulirebda, Tumca, unda vaRiaro, Rvino xSirad cud samsaxurs uwevs xolme am muxruWs, erTi simReris ar iyos _ Rvinom gamaTamamao... magram mTavari is iyo, rom... Cems warmosaxvaSi SesaZleblad CavTvale am Cems mowonebul, sufraze gacnobil kacTan... marto darCena, aqedan gamomdinare SedegebiTurT! da... egeTive survili, rogorc vatyobdi, gavuCine am arc Tu axalgazrda, Warmag mamakacsac da es imitomac, rom damatyveva misma araCveu-lebrivma mwvane Tvalebma da... zarxoSma!

sufra rom aiSala da daiwyo gacileba-gamocilebis rit-uali, Cemma mowonebulma batonma goCam, daapira gavecile-bine Sinamde, Tavisi `volgiT~, Rrmad darwmunebulma imaSi, rom kalmaxi badeSi gaexva da amdenad... mxars avubamdi am iniciativas, anu mec igive mizani mamoZravebda, rac mas, anu... aseTi piri uCanda Cem Sefarul Tu daufarav arSiyobas, Tu Tumars, magram... swored wamSi moxda moulodneli ram: uceb raRac Zalam Signidan, rom ityvian, SemaCera _ aba, Wkvianad iyavi, dedakacoo! da... Cems biZaSvilTan darCena gadavwyvite anu... Tavidan avicile gacilebis da flirtis Semdgomi gagrZelebis Tu... ganviTarebis perspeqtiva! rom ityvian, siamovnebis molodiniT aRgznebul buRas civi wyali gadavasxi, kovzi nacarSi Cavugde, magram... vimeoreb, mTavari es ar iyo-meTqi, Cemo sayvarelo, mTavari is gaxldaT, rom me... Cems warmosaxvaSi, Cems gonebaSi davuSvi masTan siaxlove!.. ai, aman damca Tavzari... miwasTan gamaswora: arada... xom me Sevq-meni es situacia? me viyavi ZiriTadad iniciatori, Tumca... bolomde mainc ver gavriske... raRac uxilavma Zalam, albaT Cemma mfarvelma angelozma, gamafrTxila... SemajanjRara!..

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arada, rac dro gadioda, miT ufro da ufro Zneli asatani xdeboda Cemi mdgomareoba, romelSic Cemive nebiT Cavigde Tavi... bolo dros ukve aSkarad gavurbodi nikasTan Sexve-drebs, romelic... sxvaTa Soris, isedac iSviaTad xerxdeboda _ da es arideba ukve ar iyo winaswar gamiznuli, ase vTqvaT, taqtikuri svla! kavSiris uecar gawyvetasac veridebodi, vinaidan... xaTris da pativiscemis grZnoba, mis mimarT rom mqonda _ xel-fexs mikravda gadamwyveti nabijis gadasadg-melad... iyo sxva mizezebic, arada... ise gamodioda, Cemdaune-burad tyve vxdebodi Cemive, ase vTqvaT _ SeTqmulebis!.. amasTan, sul ufro da ufro izrdeboda nikas aqtiurobac, romelic mzad iyo, nebismier dros gayroda cols..

am TiTqosda gamouval situaciaSi uceb, moulodnelad moxda saswauli. diax, diax. saswauli, sxva saxels amas ver daarqmev... es saswauli albaT RvTis neba iyo. rogorc Cans, RmerTma sabolood ar gamwira maSin: (pauza).

... erTxel, erTob SeWirvebul gunebaze myofi, Cems daqa-lTan mivedi, rom, rogorc ityvian, guli momeoxebina... sxva drosac araerTxel gadmomifrqvevia masTan Cemi mozRvave-buli emociebi... garegnulad mSvidi, dinji vCandi, magram sinamdvileSi SigniT yvelaferi amiTuxTuxdeboda xolme zogjer, Tumca SemeZlo Tavis xelSi ayvanac...

saocari unari aqvs Cems daqals mosmenis da gagebis. iS-viaTia axla mosmenis aseTi niWi! diax, niWi gaxlavT, Cemi azriT, es Tviseba da friad didi niWic! metwilad xom ada-mianebi Tavis problemebiT imdenad arian dakavebuli, imdenad arian CaZiruli sakuTar gulisTqmaSi, rom ara aqvT aranairi survili, arc unari _ mousminon sxvas, miT ufro _ gaigon da gaiTavison sxvisi gasaWiri... Tundac axloblis... Tu ara _ zerele, moCvenebiTi yuradRebiT... Cems cicos ki SeuZlia bolomde mogisminos anu gacalos emociebis gadmoRvra, Sem-deg ki taqtianad, delikaturad, analizis meSveobiT _ da-ganaxos realoba da... gonivruli rCeviT, SeZlebisdagvarad, gamogiyvanos rTuli mdgomareobidan... amasTan, Tavis pozi-

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cias ar gadauxvios!.. hoda, rogorc araerTxel sxva drosac _ im saRamos aforiaqebul-awrialebuli mivadeqi binaSi. magram... cico marto ar iyo: masTan stumrobda misi axlo naTesavi biWi, sakmaod cnobili profesoris Svili da ro-melic... mRvdlobisaTvis emzadeboda Turme! mSoblebi, mTeli saxleuloba, cxadia, winaaRmdegni iyvnen erTaderTi vaJis am ganzraxvisa. sami wlis bavSvi hyavda da rogorc Cans, colic ar TanaugrZnobda mis am survils da mainc, amdeni dabrkolebis miuxedavad, soso ar apirebda ukan daxevas, Ta-vis gadawyvetilebis Secvlas. yvelaferi es TandaTan, sau-barSi gairkva CemTvis. magram... maxsovs STabeWdileba, misi mRvdlad kurTxevis ganzraxvam rom moaxdina Cemze! saxtad davrCi! ena Camivarda-Secbunebuls. maSin iSviaTi gaxldaT aseTi saqcieli, miT umetes, esoden axalgazrda biWisagan, cnobili inteligenturi ojaxis Svilisagan!..

Tumca Zalian viyavi Cemi piraduli gancdebiT aRgzneb-uli _ saSinlad damainteresa am garemoebam. upirvelesad ymawvilis (maSin is 24 wlis gaxldaT) uCveulod lamazma, Taflisferma Tvalebma miiqcia Cemi yuradReba. raRac eniT uTqmeli silbo, sikeTe, lmobiereba iRvreboda am mSvenieri Tvalebidan. amasTan, uCveulo simtkice da uryevi neba iyo maTSi. TiTqos misi asakisTvis uCveulo Canda es yvelaferi erTi SexedviT. rogor, ranairad, saidan es gadawyvetileba da es simtkice?

dabneulobisagan, maxsoves, enac ki mebmeboda... mere da mere movToke Cemi Tavi da... Sevyevi. biWi Sav krialosans dinjad, mSvidad marcvlavda xelSi da sityvebsac krialosaniviT mS-vidad, dinjad warmoTqvamda. principSi me vutevdi, kiTxvas kiTxvaze vayridi TiTqmis sulmouTqmelad. is ki _ mpasuxob-da mSvidad, nirSeucvlelad! me ufro moralur-zneobrivi

da eTikuri aspeqtebi mainteresebda da amaT vutrialebdi

garSemo, Cemdauneburad. is ki, TiTqos Cems gulSi ixedebao,

dausmel kiTxvebsac scemda pasuxs da... pirdapir mizanSi,

ufro sworad, kakal gulSi mirtyamda! oRond... saocrad

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taqtiani sityvebiT da Semwynarebluri kiloTi, aman mTlad

gadamria... mgoni, giTxariT, karg pedagogad viTvlebodi,

enac miWrida da rom ityvian, sityva-pasuxebi ar meSleboda

xolme. amasTanave, rogorc ucnauri ar iyos wesier, patio-

san qalad mivaCndi Cems koleqtivs da saerTod _ Cems nac-

nobebs, garSemo TiTqmis suyvelas... qalad, romelsac qvriv

dedasaviT, Tavis sicocxleSi sxva mamakacebisaken ar gauxe-

davs. mokled, qmargayril qalebs Soris _ TiTiT saCvenebeli!

es saxeli, anu Tanamedrove terminiT rom vTqvaT imiji _

bolo wlebSi ukve Sinaganad maRizianebda _ iyo momentebi,

roca mzad viyavi mTeli koleqtivisaTvis, axloblebisaT-

vis, uwinaresad ki _ Cemi qaliSvilisaTvis, romelic ukve

studenti iyo da romelsac zogjer TvalebSi ver vuyure-

bdi mizezTa gamo _ meTqva _ me sulac ara var iseTi, Tqven

rom ggoniaT. meyo wlebis ganmavlobaSi tanjva-wameba, TviT-

gvema da, ase vTqvaT, TavSewiruloba. meyo! gaigeT es bolos

da bolos. minda Cemi cxovrebiT vicxovro, anu ise, ro-

gorc me mimaCnia axla saWirod, rogorc me minda! rogorc

msurs! radgan... mec maqvs ufleba, rogorc yvela adamians

_ gavixaro. diax, gavixaro! Tundac wamieri, moCvenebiTi

iyos es sixaruli! Tundac iluzoruli, morigi Tavis mo-

tyueba iyos igi! me qali var _ bolosdabolos! minda _

Tayvanismcemeli myavdes. viRacas mivaCnde sasurvel, sanat-

rel arsebad da a.S. da a.S. ar minda _ qvrivi dedaCemiviT,

an deidasaviT _ dRemde rom elodeba omSi ugzoukvlod

dakargul satrfos _ vicxovro asketuri, puritanuli

cxovrebiT. meyo es yvelaferi, batono, meyo. axla _ sxva

droa, sul sxva suliskveTebaa, sxva faseulobania _ ise,

Cems axlo megobrebTan arc vfaravdi xolme Cems intimur

ambebs, radgan mimaCnda, rom uaxloes adamians, megobars ar

SeiZleba raime daumalo! es Cemi mxridan iqneboda undob-

lobis niSani, aseTi ram ki _ upatiosnobid mimaCnda, Tumca

mogvianebiT davrwmundi: Turme zedmet gulaxdilobas _

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siCume sjobia! ho, es sxva Temaa.. imas vfiqrobdi... im patara

biWma, misma sityvebma Zalian rbilad, taqtianad rom iyo

naTqvami, TiTqos dammewyra. masTan saubar-paeqrobaSi, sadac

Cemi Sinagani protestis grZnobac ar damimalavs _ anaz-

dad, erTbaSad TiTqos savsebiT gavSiSvldi sakuTari Tavis

winaSe! TiTqos uxilavi mzeriT Camomxeda arsTa gamrigem

sulSi da... uniRbod darCenili _ SevZrwundi!

rac mTavaria _ SevSindi Cemi Cadenili codvebis gamo.

diax, uflis risxis SemeSinda. aqamdec, xamuS-xamuS Semipy-

robda xolme sinanulis Tu sircxvilis grZnoba _ sayvarl-

is damamcirebel rolSi yofnis gamo... me xom adre verc

warmovidgendi, Tu... aseT Seuracxmyofel mdgomareobaSi

aRmovCndebodi odesme: me xom _ `aseTi~ ar viyavi Tavidan!

Tavidan xom romantikuli ocnebebiT savse, maRal idealebs

miveltvodi. qmarTan ganSorebis Semdegac TiTqmis aTi weli

wesieri qalis cxovrebiT vicxovre. maS, ra moxda mere? ra

eSmaki SemiCnda? ratom davadeqi molipul gzas?.. mokled,

am Sexvedram damzafra Cemdauneburad da aTasgvari fiqrebi-

sa da gancdebis koriantelSi Camagdo. TiTqos librgada-

kruli Tvalebi gadamewminda... Sesdeqi-meTqi, Se ugunuro,

diaco _ SevuZaxe sakuTar Tavs martod darCenilma: viRacis

Tu raRacis jibriT xom SeiZleba erT Cveulebriv, rigiT

kaxpad iqce _ Tu ara xar ukve! xom SeiZleba, kvlavac

`sulieri tkivilebis~ gasayuCeblad erTi Secvalo meoriT,

mesamiT, meoTxiT da ase Semdeg da ase Semdeg, anu daus-

ruleblad icvalo partniorebi, anda _ sulac erTdrou-

lad imruSo ramdenimesTan, ase xom yovelgvari uzneobis

gamarTleba SeiZleba da aki... amarTleben kidec: amitom da

imitom. amis gamo da imis gamo!.. arc ojaxebis dangrevas

eridebian, oRond Tavisi gainaRdon, Tavis gulis sawadels

ewion, Tundac sxvis xarjze `gabednierdnen~. aki amarTle-

ben-meTqi kidec Tavis avxorcobas, garyvnilebas, aRviraxsni-

lobas _ SeCerdi-meTqi, Se regveno dedakaco!

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CemTvis maSin erTbaSad, meyseulad cxadi Seiqna da cxadad gamoikveTa, rogorc weRanac vTqvi, qalTa sqesis garkveuli kategoriis dacemis Semzaravi suraTi da am dacemis ganmapi-robebeli mizez-sababi, wyaro anu saTave sibilwisa da sib-inZurisa. diax, im saocar biWTan saubarma gadamwyveti roli iTamaSa Cemi cxovrebis im etapze, roca... azrSeryeuli, dabneuli, awrialebul-aforiaqebuli vawydebodi aqeT-iqiT, veWidavebodi sakuTar me-s da vcdilobdi dameyoliebina igi im kompromisebze, rac me maSin marTebulad mimaCnda! uceb TiTqos goneba gaminaTda da TvalnaTliv davinaxe is sa-SiSroeba, rac Semdgomi daRmasvlis sawindari iyo. aman, am saSiSroebam mkveTrad Semomabruna eklesiisken, rwmenisken, RmerTisaken!.. swored amis Semdeg daviwye regularuli sia-ruli sionSi, wirva-locvebze. pirvelad Zalian gamiWirda, magram aRsareba mainc Cavabare, sxvaTa Soris, sruliad ax-algazrda mRvdels. monanieba, ziareba ukve aucileblobad meqca.

maSin sruliad saqarTvelos kaTalikos-patriarqad ilia me-2 axlad iyo aRsaydrebuli. misi saocari pirovnebac izidavda magnitiviT mrevls... Tumca... sabWoTa pedagogisaT-vis da saerTod, sabWoTa adamianebisaTvis _ es dauSvebeli gaxldaT _ rogorc mogexsenebaT, albaT! arc ise Soreuli ambavia: religiuroba administraciuli wesiT rom isjeboda, magram... me ukve ar vepuebodi amgvar akrZalvebs, rac mTa-varia... (pauza) mtkiced gadavwyvite, gamewyvita yovelgvari WoWman-meryeoba. morCa. damTvrda yvelaferi! sabolood wertili daesva warsuls!.. aseTi verdiqti gamovutane sa-kuTar Tavs!.

_ qalbatono elene, albaT dameTanxmebiT, erTia gadawyvetilebis miReba da meore... misi Sesruleba! albaT... gagiWirdebodaT mainc sakuTari Tavis daZleva...

_ marTali xarT... gamiWirda, magram... SemCneuli maqvs:

Tuki raime mtkice gadawyvetilebas vRebulob... usikvdilod

unda Sevasrulo igi. varianti araa _ gadavifiqro, ukan

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davixio. maSin, raRac kursebis momizezebiT _ moskovSic ki

gadavedi Cems ZmasTan sacxovreblad, oRondac... amecilebina

Tavidan Tundac SemTxveviTi Sexvedrebi nikasTan... ise, Tuki

adamianma moiwadina rame, Tuki nebisyofas mouxmo, miaRwevs

kidec mizans. aseve SesaZlebelia sakuTari Tavis moTokva,

Tu... RvTis nebac iqneba, cxadia.

_ qalbatono, eliko... mapatieT magram... mainc unda

gkiTxoT: is pirovneba... is... Tqveni megobari, rogorc Sex-

vda am gadawyvetilebas?.. rogor Seegua am ambavs?

_ iciT... simarTle giTxraT... Zalian gamiWirda misTvis

amexsna Cemi mdgomareoba... Cemi sulieri krizisi... moskovSi

Cemi wasvlis Semdeg igi saxlidanac wamovida erTxanobas...

vicodi, rom gauWirdeboda amis gadatana, vicodi, rom...

mokled, rusTavelis TqmiT, ucebni mosrnis mcodneTa cod-

naman xelovnebaman~. ise mTald gulaxdilad rom vTqva,

sadRac, garkveul periodSi, Cems Tavmoyvareobas esalbune-

boda kidec, rom... egzom ganicdida... CemTan daSorebas! mec,

drodadro, mipyrobda melanqolia, magram... weRan giTxariT

kidec, es romani TiTqos sakuTari Tavisadmi jibriT ga-

vabi. Semdeg da Semdeg, qvecnobierad mTrgunavda igi... es

faruli, qurduli Sexvedrebi misi Zmakacis daketil bi-

naSi... marTalia, iSviaTad xdeboda es, magram... principSi

ra mniSvneloba hqonda paemnis sixSires? sxvaTa Soris,

rezikosTan faruli romani ase ar mtanjavda, radgan... jer

erTi, miyvarda igi Zalian gulwrfeli, didi siyvaruliT da

amasTan igi _ Tavisufali, ucolo biWi iyo, xolo nikasTan,

am colSvilian kacTan urTierToba _ Cems pirovnul Rirse-

bas da Tavmoyvareobas laxavda mainc... Tavidan ki, rogorc

giTxariT. aseT rameze ar mifiqria... ufro sworad, fexebze

davikide yovelgvari morali, zneoba, siamaye..._ ki magram... Tqvenive TqmiT, Tqven xom SegeZloT, Tuki ase

ganicdidiT `ukanono kavSirs~ _ kanonieri forma migecaT misTvis?

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_ ho, magram... aki giTxari, saqme saqmeze rom midga, anu roca davrwmundi, rom SemeZlo colad gavyolodi _ ukan davixie, Sevdrki-meTqi! etyoba, _ ar daijereT, rom es _ ase iyo! diax, SemeZlo, magram... Zalian didi roli iTamaSa-meTqi im axlgazrda morCilTan Sexvedram, me mimaCnia, rom es providencialuri Sexvedra... iyo!

_ gasagebia, magram... Tqven xom usiyvarulo ojaxis momxre ara xarT... Tqvens megobars ki _ coli ar uyvarda, amdenad...

_ ar vici, ase iyo, Tu ise, CemTvis miuRebeli aRmoCnda es alternativa, Tumca Tavidan, vimeoreb, aseT saCoTiro rameebze fiqriT vcdilobdi Tavi maincdamainc ar Semewuxe-bina, albaT imitom, rom... gulgrili viyavi religiis mimarT. ufro sworad _ aTeistad vTvlidi Cems Tavs. asea Tu isea, madloba RmerTs, rom... yvelaferi ise dasrulda, rogorc unda dasrulebuliyo. yovel SemTxvevaSi, ojaxi Cemi wyalobiT, ar daingra... erTi wuTiTac ar vnanob, rom ase moxda. piriqiT. kmayofili var rom... moverie Cems egoizms, pativmoyvareobis grZnobas, vnebebs, instinqtebs da a.S. da mere iciT, ra? vneba anu ndoma da siyvaruli _ erTi da igive araa. siyvaruli iSviaTi ramaa. igi niko lorTqifaniZis TqmiT _ brilian-tiviTaa. me, romelmac gamovcade bedis wyalobiT albaT es uiSviaTesi, WeSmariti grZnoba _ Tanac orjer _ romelmac vicodi misi fasi da Zala _ siyvarulad ver movnaTlavdi, im grZnobas, nikas mimarT rom mqonda! sakuTar TavTan ver viTvalTmaqcebdi imis gamo, raTa sxvaTa TvalSi gamarjve-buli gamovsuliyavi! `davmtkbariyavi~ gamarjvebulis poziT _ mavanis da mavanis winaSe! Tan... `viRaceebze~ amiT _ Suri meZia! Tumca... Cemi es pozicia meore mxares SesaZlebelia Zvirad dajdomoda, Tundac imitom, rom, mas _ ukve Semdeg da Semdeg _ vneba _ siyvarulSi gadaezarda. xdeba Turme asec da ... pirukuc! ise, kacma ar icis, rogor, ranairad xdeba es yvelaferi... `siyvaruls ras gaugeb, Cemo olRa...~ ai, Tqvenc gagecinaT... mokled, im axalgazrda morCilTan Sexvedra rom ara, zustad ver vityvi, rogor damTavrdeboda yvelaferi.

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sulieri SfoTisa da wyvetebis Jams is ymawvili momevlina-meTqi mxsnelad! me ase vTvli, ase mimCnia dRemde! swored misi damsaxurebaa, SesaZloa gaucnobiereblad, misdaunebura-dac _ Cem TavTan WidilSi moraluri gamarjveba rom movi-pove, rom CemSi gadawona saRma azrma da ara eSmakiseulma cTunebebma. anu, rom ityvian, gamosworebis gzaze rom Sevdeqi, Tuki... SeiZleba saerTod adamianis gamosworeba...

_ ratom? ar gjeraTYcodvis mitevebisa?_ iciT... rogor giTxraT, RmerTi gulmowyalea, magram...

aris iseTi rameebi, rasac Sen TviTon ar patiob sakuTar Tavs... amazec momiwevs, albaT TqvenTan saubari, ufro zus-tad rom vTqva: am upatiebelis gamo ufro mindoda TqvenTan gulis gadaSla... oRond erTi ram ki SemiZlia Tamamad da gulaxdilad ganvacxado: im dRidan e.i. nikasTan daSorebis Semdeg, samudamod amoviSanTe Cemi arsebidan, ase vTqvaT, seqsi da saerTod, mamakacis saxsenebeli. amas samudamod daesva wertili da Tqven warmoidgineT, uzarmazari Sveba momgvara amis SegrZnebam. anu sabolood gaTavisuflebam vnebisagan, ase rom ipyrobs da Trgunavs xolme adamianis arsebas _ dedakaci iqneba is, Tu mamakaci. mokled, mamakacebi, rogorc aseTi, ukve didi xania aRar arseboben CemTvis, samegobrod _ ki batono, myavdnen da axlac bevrni myvanan Zmakacebi. sx-vafriv _ gadaSendnen. araferSi mWirdebian. rogorc ityvian, Cemi Tavi Cemadve mekuTvnis da avad Tu kargad vezidebi kidec cxovrebis Wapans, anu imas, rac bedma marguna.

_ da mainc, Tuki kvlav gewviaT WeSmariti siyvaruli? aki, aravin icis, rodis mova igi _ wasvlis ar iyos? nuTu Tqven kategoriulad gamoricxavT Tundac... Semodgomis si-yvaruls? aki: `Любви все возрасты покорный~-o.

_ Cemo sayvarelo, cxovrebaSi yvelaferia mosalodneli da saerTod, rac xdeba, RvTis nebiT xdeba albaT. maT Soris _ saswaulic! oRond egaa _ CemTvis ar vuSveb am saswauls _ ufro sworad _ gamovricxav mas!

_ ratom, ratom, qalbatono eliko? ratom fiqrobT ase?

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_ me imdeni simware ganvicade siyvarulis gamisobiT, rom araviTari survili ara maqvs am asakSi xelaxla gamoviaro is satanjveli, diax, satanjveli, radgan did sixarulTan erTad, is cieb-cxeleba, rac maSin gemarTeba _ sneulebas-Tan aris wilnayari da rasac SeiZleba gauZlos axalgaz-rda, jansaRma organizma, asakovanisaTvis amis atana yovlad SeuZlebeli meCveneba. is ki arada, vcdilob, ar gavixseno warsuli siyvaruli, Tumca... mainc ver avcdi mis mogonebas, cxovrebis ganvlili gzis gaxsenebas, arada... TiTqos sul sxva ramisTvis davreke TqvenTan...

_ maS, warsuli aRar arsebobs TqvenTvis? samudamod daiviwyeT igi?

_ rogor SeiZleba, sayvarelo, warsulis samudamo daviw-yeba? rogorc Tanamedrove serialebSia xolme xSirad: modi, daviviwyoT warsuli da dReidan daviwyoT axali cxovreba da amdagvari... sisuleleebi! sanam suli gidgas adamians, ginda ar ginda, gsurs Tu ar gsurs, Seni warsuli SenTanaa. SenTan erTad cocxlobs. oRond... rasakvirvelia, droTa gan-mavlobaSi igi xundeba, fermkrTaldeba, uwindeli simwvaviT ar gawuxebs Wriloba! magram xdeba xolme, rom gardasulis romeliRaca momenti ucabedad SegaJrialebs, loyebs agiw-vavs xolme uneblieT. me piradad, axlac mrcxvenia zogierTi Cemi saqcielisa Tu sityvisa! monaniebis miuxedavad, kvlavac vnanob im nebisi Tu uneblie Secdomebs Tu Secodebebs, rac warsulSi Camidenia. iciT, axla erTi SemTxveva wamo-mitivtivda gonebaSi... erTxel... nikam Cems dabadebis dReze, ar vici, rogor gaigo, me ar miTqvams misTvis... saCuqrad araCveulebrivad lamazi kolie momarTva sakmaod moride-buli ieriT da... rogorRac gadarajebuli RimiliT. amdeni xnis Semdeg axlac sircxvilis ali mwvavs amis gaxsenebaze. TiTqos ra moxda? Cveulebrivi ambavia. sayvarelma sayva-rels raRac Zvirfaseuloba aCuqa. ra mere? magram... maxsovs Cemi reaqcia sruliad araadekvaturi rom iyo. gvelnakbeni-viT SevkrTi. avizRarbe Sinaganad. esec ase! Turme, rusebis

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Tqmis ar iyos _ по всем правилам _ sayvareli xar, Cemo eliCka-meTqi, es atributikaRa gaklia da ai, esec _ miiRe! kmayofili unda iyo-Tqo, niSani movuge sakuTar Tavs! mere... viTom zrdilobiani RimiliT, magram erTbaSad gunebagafu-Webulma, ukan davubrune Zvirfasi nivTi. jer ver gaigo _ albaT gaifiqra, ar moewonao. miTxra kidec _ wunobo? ar vici, ar maxsovs, ra vupasuxe _ Zvirfasi samkaulebi saerTod ar miyvars-meTqi, ase vuTxari da marTlac didi motrfiale ara var samkaulebis. etyoba, iseTi saxe mqonda, usityvod, uxmod, morCilad Seaxvia kolie da... mas mere ar ucdia raime saCuqris morTmeva. albaT axirebulad moeCveneba mavanT Cemi saqcieli, iseve, rogorc masac albaT ase moeCvena! Se dalocvilo, mamakacTan sawols ar Takilob da ase vTqvaT, misgan saCuqris miReba ra yofila? ra saprotestoa es, ara? albaT asea! da mainc... roca erT Cem daqals movuyevi es epi-zodi, gaicina _ Sengan sxva rames arc velodio. ara Sejda mwyeri xesa, ara iyo gvari misio, momimRera Tanac. erTxel maxsovs, nikam TiTqos sasxvaTaSorisod miTxra: Sen SegiZlia iseTi rameebi gaakeTebino kacs, rom... magram ar akeTebo!

weRan vTqvi mgonia, bevr rames vnanob-meTqi, rac war-sulSi Camidenia, magram mTeli ubedureba isaa, rom... adami-ani mainc uSvebs Secdomebs yvela asakSi. marTalia, seqsis problema ki gadavWeri Tavis droze, magram... mere da mere, aranakleb mwvave problemebma iCina Tavi. miT umetes _ am areulobis Jams. YTumca... mgoni Zalian SeviWeri mogone-bebSi, ufro sworad _ mogonebebma gadamfara... Tqven albaT, ukve mogwyindaT kidec, anda daiRaleT am uintereso ambebis mosmeniT, rac erT Cveulebriv, mokvdav qals gadaxda...

_ ara. ara piriqiT, qalbatono eliko! me Zalian gul-dasmiT gismenT. Tqven TiTqos Cveulebriv ambebs yvebiT da mainc... Tqveni Tavgadasavali, Tqveni Tqmis ar iyos _ indi-vidualuria. mxolod Tqveneulia da amdenad _ saintereso!

_ gmadlobT, Cemo sayvarelo. Tumca... warsulis mogoneba arc Tu ioli saqmea. magram... me minda... bolomde vTqva-

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saTqmeli. (pauza) _ mgoni, giTxariT, bavSvebi Zalian miyvars-meTqi. bavSvebTan urTierToba iseTi ramaa... amdeni bavSvis suli xelT rom gipyria... ara, dapyroba cudi sityvaa... bavSvi unda moxiblo, monusxo, Tavi unda Seayvaro _ amaze didi siamovneba ar arsebobs... me mgoni, vaxerxebdi amas. bavSvebs vuyvardi da... mijerebdnen, mendobodnen da iciT, ratom? garda imisa, rom bavSvebi _ isini xom utyuari alRoTi grZnoben maswavleblis WeSmarit damokidebulebas maT mimarT _ garda amisa, cota msaxiobic unda iyo, cota poetic, cota mecnieric, enamWevric, mkacric, momTxovnic da rac mTavaria _ samarTliani!

yvelafer amis garda, arasodes vcdilvar gansakuTrebul CarCoSi SemezRuda maTi azrovneba, dameTrguna maTSi TviT-gamoxatvis unari _ arada, istoria TiTqos erTxel da samu-damod dadgenili faqtebis konstantaciaa da maTi Txroba! me yovelTvis Tavisufali interpretaciis momxre viyavi, mo-swavles yovelTvis vaZlevdi saSualebas Tavisi Sexeduleba, Tundac umarTebulo, primitiulic ki _ gamoeTqva uSiSrad, Tamamad, oRond, rasakvirvelia, me SeumCnevlad mainc vaZlevdi maT swor mimarTulebas _ gansakuTrebiT saqarTvelos is-toria iyo CemTvis umTavresi sazrunavi. arada, swored saqa-rTvelos istorias ar aswavlidnen skolebSi jerovnad. da es iyo aSkarad gamiznuli qmedeba _ bavSvebisaTvis ssrk-s abriT _ ruseTis istoria eswavlebinaT. es Tqvenc gexsome-baT, arc Tu ise didi xnis win iyo es yvelaferi. me rogor-Rac vaxerxebdi, saaTebi momepara, ase vTqvaT, ruseTisaTvis da saqarTvelosaTvis mimematebina. saqarTvelos istoriis Semswavleli wrec am mizniT Sevqmeni. eqskursiebiT xom mTeli saqarTvelo gvqonda Semovlili. es arc ise advili iyo maSin, radgan dasmenis sistema _ sadac jer ars _ umaR-les doneze iyo dayenebuli. magram Cemi direqtoris, qal-baton rusudanis wyalobiT, romelic gadasarevi pirovnebaa da romelic Cemi xaTriT Tvals uxuWavda bevr rames _ me Cemi gamqonda.

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xSirad msayvedurobdnen Sin Tu gareT _ aspiranturaSi ratom ar abarebo, mecnierul moRvaweobaze ratom ambob uarso da ase Semdeg. magram... iciT, skolis bavSvebis gar-eSe Cemi arseboba ver warmomedgina. xolo pativmoyvareobis Wiis gasaxarad, Cems namdvil mowodebas ver vuRalatebdi. SeiZleba es cota paTetikuradac JRerdes magram... ase iyo

sinamdvileSi! arada, arastandartuli azrovnebis gamo ga-

naTlebis raionul ganyofilebaSi Tu saministroSi, ufro

`zemoTac~-ukve niSanSi viyavi amoRebuli, gansakuTrebiT bolo xans!

sxvaTa Soris dedaCemis daJinebuli TxovniT, romelic wlebis ganmavlobaSi direqtorobda qalaqis erT-erT cno-bil skolaSi, iZulebuli gavxdi partiaSi Sevsuliyavi, ma-gram es kompromisi davuSvi agreTve imisTvis, rom xeli ar SemSloda Cems saqmianobaSi da nakleb vqceuliyavi samizned. anu, es iyo pragmatuli mosazrebiT gadadgmuli nabiji Cemi mxridan, radganac partiis ideologiasTan araferi mqonda saerTo, es amasTan angariSis gawevac iyo dedaCemisTvis. ase iqceoda maSin sxvaTa Soris, inteligenciis didi nawili... amitomac, 9 aprilis Semdeg bevrma rom mandati daagdo, Cem-Tvis es sulac ar iyos raRac moulodneli an sakvirveli! gulis siRrmeSi me yovelTvis disidentad vTvlidi Cems Tavs, Tumca cicosac miaCnda, rom partiuloba xels uwyobda, ufro sworad xels uxsnida adamianebs ufro gabedulad da marjved emoqmeda _ swored partiis sawinaaRmdegod!

mokled rom vTqva, erovnuli suliskveTebiT vzrdidi, rasakvirvelia SeZlebisamebr _ Cems moswavleebs da maT Soris, Cems gogonasac, Cems TaTias. da ai, erT mSvenier Tu ubedur dRes, ufro ubedurs Cemi 24 wlis gogo, romelsac ratomRac aq, CvenSi Tayvanismcemeli ar gamouCnda, arada mSvenieri garegnobis, gonieri gogonaa, asec xdeba xolme _ Cveni gogonebi Cveni biWebis interesis miRma rCebian anu TiTqosda ugulebelyofilni arian maTgan _ turistuli mogzaurobis dros gacnobil erT holandiels gahyva co-

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lad. (pauza) _ diax, rogor trafaretuladac JRerdes, aR-moCnda, rom... siyvaruls marTlac ara aqvs sazRvari Turme! Tumca... iqneb sulac pragmatuli mosazrebidan gamomdinare, anu vergaTxovebis SiSis gamo moiqca Cemi gogo ase? ar vici. zustad axlac ver getyviT, ra moxda!.. ra iyo mTavari faqtori. ase iyo Tu ise, Cemi TaTia ucxoelze gaTxovda!

_ Tqven... etyoba, ganicdiT am ambavs..._ ar dagimalavT _ Zalian! CemTvis es iyo didi ube-

dureba, romelsac dRemde ver vineleb._ ratom, ratom, qalbatono eliko? aseTi ram xom Zalian

xSiria axla da..._ saqmec egaa, rom xSiria!.. iciT, xandaxan Cemi qaliSvili

da siZe damirekaven xolme da Cemi SviliSvili inglisu-rad meJRurtuleba. TiTo-orola qarTul sityvasac gaurevs, dedamisisagan naswavlas _ wamiT TiTqos gavixareb, mere isev depresiaSi vvardebi, ratom ar unda melaparakebodes Cemi SviliSvili qarTulad? Cemi nagrami mentalitetiTac mindoda qarTveli yofiliyo. ar daveZeb, Tu CamTvlian ara-civilizebul, CamorCenil pirovnebad _ gansxvavebiT Cemi naqmarevisgan, romelmac erTob mSvidad da arxeinad miiRo es ambavi, rogorc bevri sxva ram cxovrebaSi. amis wineebze Cemi axloblis gogo amerikels gahyva. misma mSoblebma didi zarzeimiT aRniSnes Svilis gadakargva ucxo, Soreul mxare-Si. erTma naTesavma biWma _ germaniaSi yofnisas, iqauri gogo SeirTo da mgoni, saerTod arc apirebs dabrunebas, kidev erTma _ rusis qali moiyvana, erTi qarTveli gogona ki vi-Rac zambiels gahyva. diax. zangs da ramdenia kidev iseTi _ me rom ar vici. Sors ratom wavide? Cems erTaderT Zmas _ moskovSi rom cxovrobs, ager ramdenime aTeuli welia ukve da romelsac rusis qali hyavs colad _ sxvaTa Soris kargi qalia _ Svilebi garusebulebi hyavs: erTi sityvac ar ician qarTuli da arc undaT misi codna da saerTod, aqeTken gamoxedvas arc apireben. ase Tu gagrZelda da iseTi piri uCans, rom gagrZeldeba _ sul mcire xanSi

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isedac mcirericxovan Cven ers, romelsac axla ki ara,

am ukiduresi gaWirvebis dros, aramed e.w. kai cxovrebis

Jamsac, gamravleba problemad hqonda gadaqceuli da Ta-

vissave teritoriaze lamis umciresobas warmoadgens _

xom gadaSeneba uweria? hoda, ra mgels SevuWamivar da

ra mglisfer ZaRls. ra mniSvneloba aqvs CemTvis, vin, ro-

gor, ra saSualebiT aRgvis pirisagan miwisa aqamde didi

vai-vaglaxiT, saSineli Wapan-wyvetiT moRweul qarTvelo-

bas?.. iciT, Cemma gogom am bolo Camosvlaze ra miTxra:

ra gaaWire saqme am Seni qarTvelebiT, msoflioSi aravin

icnobs maT, rukazec Zlivs Cans, ise pawawkintelaao. arc

Seni aTasxuTaswlovani mwerloba ician, arc Seni xanZTeli,

arc mTawmindelebi, arc daviTi da Tamari, arc rusTaveli,

ilia, akaki, vaJao. rogorebic varT _ gamoCnda ager: ZmaTam-

kvlelebis, banditebis, teroristebis, mafiozebis saxiTo!

da a.S. diax, Cemma qaliSvilma, Cvens kulturasa da mwer-

lobaze rom vzrdidi-brZana ase!.. ki, batono, SeiZleba es

sityvebi cxel gulze iyo naTqvami, ufro Cem gamosajavre-

blad, magram... me xom tyviasaviT momxvda isini, gulSi xom

laxvariviT gamiara iseve, rogorc guls miklavs xolme

esoden saocnebo, nanatri damoukidebloba da Tavisufleba

qveynisa _ Zarcva-glejis, xalxis yvlefis Tavisuflebad

rom iqca! es codvis Svilebi virTxebiviT Sesevian sakuTar

samSoblos da xraven gauZRomlad. saqarTveloSi sikvdili

SimSilisgan vis gaugonia? amasac moveswariT! anda... am-

deni TviTmkvleloba gagigoniaT odesme? an da _ amdeni

maTxovari?

ho, Cemma TaTiam am bolo dros ramdenjerme SemomTavaza,

bina gameyida da masTan, holandiaSi, gadavsuliyavi sacxovre-

blad. erTxel viyavi iq... Cinebuli qveyanaa. mSvidi, wynari, mdi-

dari, mSvenieri, xalxi-maZRari, kmayofili, magram... mezobeli

mezobels ar icnobs! naTesaobaze xom laparakic zedmetia!..

im serialebis Semyures, rac CvenSi gadis, aba, ra unda gamik-

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virdes? _ deidaSvili, mamidaSvili, biZaSvilebis erTmaneTze

daqorwineba, Tu is, rom Zmebs qali ver gauyviaT erTmaneTSi,

Tu homoseqsualistis _ homoseqsualistze daqorwinebaa,

anu is, rac CvenTvis wmindaTa-wmindaa, rac CvenTvis yovlad

warmoudgenelia, iq _ normadaa qceuli, civilurobis man-

iSnebelia! ara. Cems gaRatakebul, mSier-mwyurval qveyanaSi

sikvdili mirCevnia iq, ucxo mxareSi aseT cxovrebas. es

paTetika ar gaxlavT. gulwrfelad vambob amas.

_ mec ase vfiqrob, qalbatono eliko!

_ Sen gaixare!.. iciT, TiTqos kargi siZe myavs, kulturuli,

keTili, saqmiani, seriozauli, miyvars kidec Taviseburad, ro-

gorc pirovneba, magram... ra vqna, ise ar Semovida Cems sulSi,

rogorc... Cemiani! mainc... ucxoelad rCeba. CemTvis ucxoa igi

Tavis bunebiT, mentalitetiT. asea es da... momkaliT axla!

(pauza) _ CemTvis cxadze ucxadesia _ wyalSi Cameyara mTeli

Cemi mondomeba, e.w. patriotuli aRtkineba. adre, roca bavS-

vebis umanko, angelozisebur Tvalebs vuyurebdi, isini Zalas

da energias mmatebdnen, TiTqos masazrdoebdnen da mkvebavdnen

imediT, rwmeniT, nugeSiT, xaliss maniWebdnen, arsebobis mizans

maZlevdnen. es Tvalebi Cemi raobis, Cemi sulis sayrdeni iyvnen

TiTqos. am TvalebSi irekleboda mxolod sikeTe, uSualoba

siwrfele, ubiwoeba. maTSi Cemi bavSvobis xatebas vxedavdi!

axla es Tvalebi aRar mzianoben CemTvis. Caqra CemTvis maTi

sxivosnoba. TiTqos sibnelem da ukunma daisadgura Cems sul-

Si. amitomac... wamovedi skolidan, veRar SevZeli...

_ nuTu... miatoveT skola qalbatono eliko?.. sabolood?

_ diax. sabolood!

_ Zalian guldasawyvetia. TqvenisTana pedagogebi...

_ hm. CemisTanebi!.. mimaCnia, rom swored me ara maqvs ara-

nairi ufleba viyo pedagogi. vesaubro bavSvebs maRal ide-

alebze, patriotizmze, zneobaze... es _ farisevloba iqneba.

me vici, rasakvirvelia, Cemi sayvareli paskalis ar iyos,

yvela adamianSi zis angelozic da... eSmakic. Tuki SenSi, Sens

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arsebaSi imZlavra eSmakeulma _ aranairi zneobrivi ufleba

ara gaqvs angelozebs anu bavSvebs uqadago znekeTiloba.

arigebde da aswavlide Wkuas...

_ qalbatono eliko! mapatieT, magram ase rom vimsjeloT,

maSin bevrs, Zalian bevrs mouwevs Tavisi Tanamdebobidan

wamosvla, ase xom...

_ ukacravad. SegawyvetinebT. sxva _ ar vici. magram me

minda Cemi sindisis winaSe marTali viyo. ise, gansakuTrebiT

bolo orma welma mimiyvana am daskvnamde!_ qalbatono eliko. mapatieT, magram... raki morwmune

adamiani brZandebiT..._ mimaCnia Cemi Tavi morwmuned, ufro sworad _ minda viyo

morwmune, magram es ar niSnavs, rom WeSmaritad morwmune var._ Tundac mcire morwmune brZandebodeT. xom ar geCvene-

baT, rom... Tqveni saqcieli, cota ar iyos..._ ratom SeCerdiT? ampartavnebaao _ gindodaT geTqvaT,

xom marTalia? albaT _ asecaa! es ki, didi, didi codvaa, ara? magram... me ufro didi codva maqvs Cadenili, vidre ampartavnebaa _ vidre is codvebia, rac mogiyeviT... Tu Sev-Zeli da... bolomde Cavedi... am konkretul saqciels anu pedagogobaze uaris Tqmas _ Cemi daqalic ar miwonebs... TviTon far-xmals ar hyris arc erT situaciaSi _ yofili disidentia da rom ityvian, Zali Seswevs qadilisa, Tanac zneobrivad sufTa da gauryvnelia.

sxvaTa Soris, gauTxovaria da xandaxan axloblebisaganac saqiliko obieqti xdeba xolme, TiTqos yoveli meoTxe Tu mesame martoxela ar iyos saqarTveloSi! arada, am Sina-berobas ise ukiJineben, TiTqos misi brali iyos _ mTxovne-li rom ar gamouCnda iseTi, visac siyvaruliT gahyveboda colad! yovel normalur qals unda ojaxis, Svilebis yola. magram bevri `ratomRac~ iviwyebs, rom erTi ucxotome-li rZali _ erTi gauTxovari qarTveli qalia. esec Seni ucxouri bumi! rom araferi vTqvaT Cveni biWebis sagrZnob nawilze, ase rom vTqvaT, nemsebze rom zian! an... loTebi

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gaxlavan, an... mparavni, avazakni da rac arc ise iSviaTia _

cvednebi da homoseqsualistebi brZandebian. Cemi TaTiac am

garemoebaTa msxverpli mgonia me, Torem erTi normaluri

qarTveli biWi dailia misTvis? hoda, ukvirT mere, amdeni

dauojaxebeli biWi da gogo, amdeni qmargayrili qali ro-

maa saqarTveloSi! xom sainteresoa ara? Cemi cicosTvis,

didi Sinagani optimizmiT damuxtuli da sulierebis mqone

adamianisTvis _ gauTxovroba tragedia araa, magram... yvela

xom ver iqneba aseTi kerketi kakali? ufunqciod yofnas

yvela ver itans!.. aqedanaa amdeni gadaxrebi, amdeni ubedure-

bani... ho, sityva gameqca... xo, cicos azriT, yvelaferi, rac

xdeba, is WuWyi da sibinZure _ gardamavali periodisTvisaa

damaxasiaTebeli da amdenad, droebiTi, warmavali, xanmokle

Jamianobaa _ wyalni wavlen da wamovlen, qviSani darCebiano.

mec, rogorc istorikoss, mesmis, rom saqarTveloSi Jamianoba

sakvirveli ar unda iyos! da mainc... saSinlad ganvicdidi da

ganvicdi yovelgvar usamarTlobas, yovel siglaxes _ Cemsas

Tu sxvisas!..

maxsovs, erovnul moZraobaSi gaTiSulobis Sesaxeb cico

rom miyveboda _ Tavad aqtiuri monawile am moZraobisa

_ xSirad sasowarkveTilebaSi Cavardnili, Tvalcremliani

metyoda: ra ubedurebaa Cvens Tavze... ori qarTveli erTad

ver damdgarao, usaTuod unda gaixliCono. anda, erTmaneTs

samkvdro-sasicocxlod unda gadaekidneno, rom yvela pirv-

elobas Cemulobso, anu... `uCemod viT imRereTas~ kakafonia

gaumarTavTo da a.S. es seni xom istoriuladac mogvdgams,

RalatTan da gautanlobasTan erTad. hoda, dRevandel viTa-

rebas rom vuyureb, vrwmundebi, Cveni eri albaT verc veras-

dros Seikvreba erT muStad!.. Sagrenis tyaviviT daleuli,

erTmaneTis moqiSpe partiebad Tu banakebad dayofili, mx-

olod sakuTar pirad interesebs gadayolilni, ilias TqmiT,

gaTiTokacebulni _ verasdros SevqmniT Zlier, samarTlian

saxelmwifos, samwuxarod Cvenda!.. (pauza)

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_ hoo... erovnuli moZraobis aRmavlobis dros dedaCemi gamixda mZime avad da amitomac mitingebsa da sxvadasxva aqciebze ver vaxerxebdi wamdauwum sirbils, magram... erT-ma-orma mitingma, romelsac daveswari, mZime STabeWdileba moaxdina Cemze... cudi winaTgrZnoba dameufla da... amixda kidec!...

rusTavelze gaxurebuli omis dros momikvda Cemi da Cemi qaliSvilis gamzrdeli, Cemi usayvarlesi deida: misma daavadebulma gulma ver gauZlo amden stresebs da... Citi-viT dalia suli... ori wlis Semdeg ki dedaCems insulti daemarTa da... marcxena xel-fexi waerTva.

im xanebSi jer kidev davdiodi skolaSi, magram... gaxsovT albaT, ra dReSic viyaviT. arc axla varT dalxinebuli, ma-gram maSin xom mTlad gausaZlisi iyo cxovreba. uSuqoba, ugazoba, utransportoba, uxelfasoba da rac mTavaria, af-xazeTis dakargva da devnilebi... Cemi qveynis tragikuli istoria kargad vici, magram... Seni sakuTari TvaliT rom naxav am tragedias _ es mainc sxvaa... sikvdili... sikvdili axloblis, naTesavis, nacnobis da rac mTavaria, amdeni axal-gazrdebis... panaSvidebs da gasvenebebs veRar avudiodiT da axlac TiTqmis iseTive mdgomareobaa am mxriv... amdeni gu-lisxeTqva, nerviuloba, cremlebi, qveynis masStabiT gauTave-beli seriebi konfliqtebisa, sisxlis Rvrisa, mkvlelobebisa, terorisa, banditobisa _ autaneli xdeboda da axlac am mxriv TiTqmis araferi Secvlila... televizors ver CarTav-di, rom rame sazareli ambavi ar mogesmina... am sayovelTao, masiuri sikvdilianobis, SimSilobis, siduxWiris anu Jami-anobis fonze _ zog-zogis mier gamarTuli taS-fanduras, dubaiSi grials, sra-sasaxleebis Senebas anu fulis anu fulis momxveWelobas sxvaTa ubedurebis xarjze _ wonas-worobidan gamovyavdi, xSirad ukiduresad daWimuli nerve-biT davdiodi, saSvelic arsaidan Canda...

erTxelac, ase daZabuli, nervebmoSlili vuzivar tele-vizors da vuyureb tamiSSi daRupul biWebze gadacemas...

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swored tamiSSi mokles erTi Cemi Zalian axloblis vaJi... dedaCemi, Cveulebisamebr, adre dawva, isedac vcdilobdi misTvis ameridebina aseTi gadacemebis cqera. misi saZinebeli oTaxis kari ki Ria davtove... yovelSemTxvevisaTvis.

Suagul gadacemis dros, roca mTlianad CarTuli viyavi am saSineli kadrebis yurebaSi, dedaCemis Zaxili Semomesma, magram imdenad viyavi mijaWvuli televizoris ekrans _ wavuyrue. xSirad icoda dedam umizezo Zaxili da amjera-dac, etyoba ase CavTvale... dedaCemi ki ganagrZobda Zaxils.

ar vici, ramden xans gagrZelda es mdgomareoba. sibraze

ki TandaTan mipyrobda, radgan es Zaxili Zalauneburad ar

maZlevda saSualebas mTeli gulisyuriT memzira imisTvis,

rac ekranze xdeboda.

uceb... TiTqos raRacam damartya, wamoviWeri, dedaCemTan

Sevvardi da davuyvire: ratom meZaxi, ratom meZaxi-meTqi. da...

Cqmeta davuwye mklavze gaafTrebulma, Wkuidan gadasulma,

TavSi ki wamierad gamirbina: amdeni axalgazrdebi iRupebian, es

ki... es Wirveulobs aqa~. mere, xelis mtevanze davartyi xeli

ramdenjerme: ra gindoda, ra gindoda, risTvis meZaxdi-meTqi!

ucebve movege gons. mivxvdi, rom... raRac saSineleba, war-

moudgeneli ram Cavidine!

SeSlili lojiaSi Sevqandi. fanjris rafas gadaveyude.

Tvalebze libri mqonda gadakruli. verafers vxedavdi. arc

araferi mesmoda. mxolod yurSi raRacas SiSini gahqonda...

`es ra vqeni?.. es ra vqeni?.. moxucebuli, sneuli, invalidi

deda _ vceme!.. cemaa aba, ra? cemaa, aba, ra!~

sul mikvirs, rogor ar gadavxti maSin fanjridan... ra

Zalam SemaCera?.. an... rogor ar gamiskda guli _ deidaCemi-

viT _ televizorSi sxvisi Svilebis daRupvis ambis yurebas

rom ver gauZlo da... suli ganuteva!

is Rame, koSmaruli Rame, didxans ar gaTenda...

alionze, RamenaTevi, gatanjuli, tirilisgan saxedasiebu-

li dedas sawolze Camovujeqi da Tvalebdaxrilma (pirisp-

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ir Sexedva ver gavbede) mileuli xmiT patieba vTxove.

gamomxeda quTuToebs qvemodan rogorRac saocrad maxvili,

gamWoli mzeriT da miTxra: _ Seni xelebis simware safla-

vSi Camyvebao.

ar mapatia!

gvelnakbeniviT wamovxti da... gavecale. xuT dReSi deda

gardaicvala. ZilSi gaipara, rom meZina ise... Cems mier daC-

qmetili mklavi gulze edo, kuboSi rom esvena...mas mere... vkvdebi yoveldRe da... arc vkvdebi. TiTqos

TvalebSi vuyureb sikvdils da Tavadac mburRavs igi gamy-inavi mzeriT... diax, damoklesis maxviliviT aRmarTulia Cems Tavze da... gasaqans ar maZlevs... SeboWil-Sepyrobili, ver gavtokebulvar...

mTvareuliviT davdiodi xan naTesavebSi, xan megobrebSi, sasaflaoze xom lamis vaTen-vaRamebdi, axla cota movuke-li siaruls, eklesiaSi vanTeb sanTlebs, vixdi panaSvidebs, TiTqos vfusfuseb, vcdilob, yvelanairi qristianuli wesi Sevasrulo, ar davaklo, rac ki miRebulia... Cemi cicos Tana-

grZnobac TiTqos wamierad mesalbuneba, oRond... wamierad,

droebiTad. yvelaferi amaoa, roca Cem TavTan marto vrCebi...

cxadia, viyavi moZRvarTan, mindoda epitimia daedo... magram...

moxda ise, rom... Semindo. sasjeli ar damado. Tumca... me

ar Sevunde Cems Tavs. ar mSvelis aranairi filosofiur-

religiuri traqtatebi, arc sulis ukvdaveba, arc marad-

isobis kanoni, usasruloba, transcedenturoba, kosmiuroba

da a.S. yvelaferi sityvebis raxa-ruxad, yvelaferi amaoebad

meCveneba. mTeli cxovreba amaoebis bazaria CemTvis. mokled...

vkvdebi zezeurad, TviTmkvlelobas ki ver vbedav _ jer-

jerobiT!.. vici, rom... umZimesi codvaa da mainc... xSirad

gamielvebs xolme es azri TavSi... arada, mzaravs sikvdilis

gardauvaloba da misi... yoveldRiuri molodini... daiSrita

Cemi sulieri wyaro, Cemi mkvebavi da masazrdoebeli... gamud-

mebiT iqa var, Cems micvalebulebTan, Cemi sayvareli bebiis,

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babuis, dedis da deidaCemis landebs velacicebi... mwer-

lis Tqmis ar iyos... maTi landebi mdeven yvelgan, rogorc

Cemi sakuTari aCrdili. warmoudgeneli ZaliT minda xolme

Sevexo maT fizikurad, movismino maTi sityvebi, xma... Zil-

Siac xSirad mesizmrebian da kidev iciT ra unda giTxraT?

Cems bavSvobaSi minda dabruneba _ raRac eniT uTqmeli

surviliT menatreba, saocrad menatreba Cemi bavSvobisdro-

indeli patara oTaxi, Cemi sawoli, Cemi kopwia Tojinebi,

sxvadasxva qveynis dedoflebad rom esaxeboda Cems bavSvur

fantazias, is qoTnis yvavilebic menatreba, sarkmlis ra-

faze rom gvqonda Camorigebuli...

usaSvelod menatreba Cveni ezos is namceca kunWuli,

sadac silis saxlebs, _ `Tvaluwvdenelad~ maRlebsa da

didebs rom vaSenebdiT... menatreba iasamnis is bardnalac,

is zRapruli buCqi _ okeaneTa da zRvaTa sivrceebSi samo-

gzauro xomaldis magivrobas rom miwevda, menatreba Cemi

`oqros kunZuli~, romlis gamgebeli me viyavi mxolod! me _

Cemi mfrinavi xaliCiT _ SemeZlo Cameyvana am kunZulze bebo,

babua, deida da deda da mama, romelic bundovnad maxsovda.

am kunZulze mxolod keTili feriebi, mzeTunaxavebi, mzeWa-

bukebi, ufliswulebi stumrobdnen. iq ver gaWaWandebodnen

avsulebi, alqajebi, kudiani dedabrebi, mzakvrebi, jadoqrebi,

bay-bay devebi, gveleSapebi...

o, rogor minda damibrundes Cemi umwikvlo, uzrunveli

bavSvoba, is xana, roca cicqna gogo zRvardaudebi, saocari

ocnebebiT suldgmulobda... maxsovs, erTxel bebom, zRapris

moyola rom daamTavra, miTxra, ai, roca Sen didi gogo

gaizrdebi... me Sevawyvetine, mivvardi, muxlebze movexvie da

tiriliT Sevexvewe, ar minda gavizrdo, ar minda gavizardo-

meTqi! gazrda siberes davukavSire. sibere ki _ sikvdils!

sikvdili ki... raRac warmoudgenel saSinelebas _ vinaidan

vicodi _ qveSecneulad vgrZnobdi mas! aki zRaprebSic xom

xSirad kvdebodnen Cemi sayvareli gmirebi...

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netamc, marTla ar gavzrdiliyavi! netamc, maSin, bavSvobaSi

movmkdariyavi, Turme... ramden codvas aviridebdi, maT Soris

sikvdilis molodinis SiSs... diax. sikvdilis molodiniT

vegebebi yovel gaTenebas, TiTqos mwadia igi da... Tan mzara-

vs... yoveli pamaSvidi Tu qelexi Cems datirebad mimaCnia...

mTavari mainc isaa, rom... ganaCeni meve gamovutane Cems Tavs:

Sen ar ivarge rogorc dedam, rogorc qaliSvilma, rogorc

meuRlem, rogorc sayvarelma da rogorc _ moqalaqem!

yvelaferSi uvargisi aRmoCndi, umaqnisi, araraoba. hoda,

axia Senze yvelaferi. Sen daimsaxure Seni xvedri. arada...

mindoda, rogor ara, mindoda kargi, Rirseuli pirovneba

vyofiliyavi. magram... sruli kraxi ganvicade. yvela Cemi

ideali, yvela Cemi ocneba daimsxvra, ganqarda. yvelafers

nacar-mtveri daedo! ho, asea: gulaxdilad rom vTqva _

cocxlad vixrwnebi da vlpebi, rameTu: `zesTa Tavisa Cemisa

aRemates usjuloebani Cemni, rameTu ganmravdes ufrois

ricxvisa qviSisa, Seyroldes da dalpes nagvemni sulisa Ce-

misani simravlisagan borota CemTasa...~ asea: jvars ecvi Tu

ginda, saSveli ar aris, ar aris!... ar aris! (pauza)

_ qalbatono eliko, Tu SeiZleba, mec momismineT axla,

gTxovT, oriode wuTiT mec damigdeT yuri... yurmili ar

dakidoT, gTxovT...

_ ho, diax... gismenT, geTayva!

_ iciT... me... Tbiliseli gogo var _ arc deda myavs da

arc mama... biZam _ mamaCemis Zmam da bicolam gamzardes... Ta-

vis SvilebSi ar gamovurCevivarT. bicolam mTxova swored

am diliT, TviTon sicxiani wevs, Sevnacvlebodi amaRam... ase

rom, pirvelad movismine _ aseTi aRsareba!.. da minda gTxo-

voT, guliT gTxovoT... kviras jvars viwer sionSi... Zalian

minda Tqven iyoT erT-erTi Cemi mejvare da... dedobilic!

Tu RvTis wyalobiT Svili meyola, Tqven unda mominaT-

loT. Zalian gTxovT... uars nu metyviT, ar gamawbiloT,

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gemudarebiT: kviras, 3 saaTze, sionSi mobrZandiT, lika var

samxaraZe... gTxovT..._ me?! me... mTxov? aseT codvil dedakacs? aseT...qalma yurmili gadasdo, magidaze daemxo da... aqviTinda

_ yrud, mwared, gulamoskvniT._ deida eliko!.. deida eliko? xom moxvalT?.. uars xom

ara metyviT? deida eliko... deida eliko!..2003 w.

n o v e l e b i

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qvakaci

astamurma gverdze Camocurebuli yabalaxi gaiswora da sadave miuSva cxens.

`si soul bata, ma domtalenqo~... _ kesarias mibnedili saxe da JuJuna Tvalebi daudga win.

aRar uSvebda kesaria. kidev ori dRe Seagviandeba Cems qmarso, arwmunebda, magram astamurma qva aagdo da Tavi SeuSvi ra.

dacdili hqonda, yovelTvis imis sawinaaRmdego unda gaekeTebina, rasac diaci urCevda.

hoda, daemSvidoba danaRvlianebul mijnurs, moaxta Tavis Ramisfer `yoranas~ da...

modis axla mTvariT ganaTebul Saragzaze. calke RviniT da calke qalis eSxiT SemTvrali da gulsevdianad RiRinebs sayvarel simReras: `gurs genia montebulsu, vaSembralenqo, vaSembralenqo~.1

da ase eCvena:CaxCaxa varskvlavebi RimiliT upaWunebdnen Tvalebs da

mTvare eSmakurad qirqilebda muWSi.ai, gascdeba mosaxvevs da gamoCndeba loluebis doxore~.2

Cu... ra xmauria?uceb `yoranam~ yurebi cqvita, kiseri aaRera. astamurma

saswrafod cxeni ganze gaaxtuna da muxis Crdils Seefara.qariviT Cauqroles nabdianma mxedrebma. qariviT Cau-

qroles da mainc Tvali Seaswro astamurma TeTri yabal-axiT Tavwakruli cxenosnis saxes.

Tvali Seaswro da wamiT gaqvavda, ena Cauvarda, mere... Tavze itaca xeli.

1 ,,sad midixar bata, me mtoveb, guls cecxl(genia) mokidebuls, ar Semi-

braleb, ar Semibraleb?~

2 sasaxle

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_ axavaia, Cemi codvao, _ dazafruli xmiT ibRavla da cxens maTraxi wyvita. maTraxi makadreso, gadairia `yorana~.

cxenis Wixvinma da vaJkacis kiJinam SeZra mZinare sofeli...

* * *

_ xalxo, ra ambavia, ra moxda?_ ra ubedureba trialebs Cvens Tavze?_ Turqebi xom ar dagvesxnen?_ xalxno, omar loluas qali gautacniaT!_ omaris qali gautacniaTo_ vin gabeda?_ vai, imis ubedur dedas!_ loluebs viT gadaurCeba!_ cocxali TaviT rogor gaaswrebs?_ bondo malias gautacnia._ bondo malia?!. bondo malia?! bondo malia?!_ o, o, didi vaJkacia bondo!_ pirveli monadirea._ pirveli momRerali!_ pirveli mocekvave!_ da mainc... glexia._ mamamisi omaris mamis naymevia._ wavida is dro!_ magram omari dros ar dagidevT._ sisxli daiRvreba._ eh, faTulias gulisaTvis Rirs, Zmao, Tavis gawirva._ mag afTrebs ara hgavs._ didi xania, erTmaneTi hyvarebiaT._ RmerTo, Sen uSvele! mamazeciero, Sen daifare! wminda

giorgi, Seni saxelis Wirime, Sen Seewie orTaves!_ tyuilia, araferi uSveliT. loluebis mTeli xrova

dasdevnebiaT.

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_ daewevian. moimwyvdeven._ loluebis raSebs sad gaeqcevian!_ omarma Tavisi RviZli Svilebi gawira da bondos dain-

dobs axla?_ sisxli daiRvreba uTuod!_ RmerTo! rogor gaTendeba es ubaRo Rame?

* * *

cxenebis Tqara-Tquri, Tofebis xaTqa-xuTqi, yuriswamRebi

yiJini ireva erTmaneTSi.

mihqrian loluebis ganTqmuli raSebi. cecxls akveseben

Tvalebidan, gaavebulni frutuneben.

omari win miuZRvis mdevrebs. xandaxan mexiviT daiquxebs

misi xma:

_ hait, gafrindi, Cemo Sevardeno. mivewioT abragebs!

bagrat, beglar, otia, koCia!

_ aqa varT, mama batono, mogyvebiT.

_ sakuTar sisxlSi vabanavebT yaCaRebs!

_ Savad gauTendebaT dila!

_ hait, momyeviT!

swrafad mokldeba manZili. ikvreba wre, gamtaceblebi

Sedgnen. gza aRar aris. alyaSi moeqcnen.

wamieri CoCqoli, yayani, gawev-gamoweva, mere TeTryabalax-

ianma iZala, cxenidan Camosrialda da mdevrebis Sesaxvedrad

gamoqanda.

_ faTulia?!

magram TeTryabalaxians ukan ar mouxedavs, mdevarTa mewi-

navesTan miiWra da erTbaSad cxens fexebSi Cauvarda. ya-

balaxi gadaZvra da oqrosferi, grZeli Tma talRasaviT

dacurda nabadze.

cxeni dafrTxa, yalyze Sedga, magram rkinis xelebma haer-

Sive gaaqvaves, mere nela, frTxilad daeSvnen Zirs wina fexebi.

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_ mamav batono, damnaSave me var! _ SesZaxa qaliSvilma

omars da miwaze daemxo._ hait, Se kaxpav! _ gaiwia misken samma Zmam da satevarze

gaikres xeli. meoTxem, yvelaze umcrosma, Tavi Caxara da tuCi moikvnita.

_ faTulia!vaJkacis Zlierma xelma wamoayena qaliSvili:_ Tavs nu imcireb!bondosac satevarze udevs marjvena. meore xeli ki aTax-

Taxebuli faTuliasaTvis Semouxvevia da uSiSrad Sehyurebs omars, uSiSrad da gamomwvevad. gars ki daqveiTebuli Zmak-acebi Semortymian.

_ mamav batono, ras velodebiT?_ gvibrZane!_ omar batono?omari ki dums, Tavi CauRunavs da xmas ar iRebs gax-

evebuli.Zmebi da biZaSvilebi, mamidaSvilebi da ZiZiSvilebi, lol-

uebis TiTqmis mTel sagvareulos aq mouyria Tavi.elodebian. elodebian omaris sityvas. mis ganaCens.ratom ayovnebs omari? ratom ar ubrZanebs _ amoxocon

gvelis wiwilebi? rom sisxliT Camoirecxon Seuracxyofa? magram... vin iqneba is mamaci, vinc gabedavs da sayvedurs Se-hkadrebs omars?

boRmamoreulni duman da elodebian loluebi.elodebian omaris ganaCens.bolos Seirxa moxuci. Tavi aswia, maTraxis tariT ya-

balaxi gaiswora, mere maTraxiani marjvena gaiSvira bondo maliasken da xmadabla, magram mkafiod uTxra:

_ vaJo, momwons Seni gambedaoba. _ wamiT iyuCa: _ pativs vcem gulad adamianebs!

loluebi daiZabnen, daisxipnen. xom ar moesmaT? yurebma xom ar moatyues?

omari ki ganagrZobs:

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_ hoda, gaZlev qals. kviras, saRamo Jams modi da waiyvane Cemi qaliSvili.

wamiT yvelani gaSeSdnen _ mdevrebic da gamtaceblebic. TiTqos erTbaSad siCumis angelozma Camoiarao.

Tavzardacemulni dganan loluebi da TvalebgafarToeb-ulni Sescqerian omars.

_ mamav batono! _ gabeda bolos ufrosma vaJma._ ha? ra gindoda, bagrat? _ avad daikveses omaris Tvalebma._ araferi, batono! _ saswrafod Caiduduna Semcbarma

bagratma da xma gakminda, morCilad daxara Tavi._ wamoiyvaneT! _ TvaliT aniSna omarma faTuliasken.sami Zma usityvod, enis Seubruneblad Camoxta cxenidan,

dasTan miiWrnen da xeli daavles.omarma cxeni miagdo adgilze gaxevebul, amxanagebis rkal-

Si moqceul maliasTan._ maSD ase, vaJo, daixsome: kvira saRamos, mzis Casvlis Jams

moxval da waiyvan qals! _ damarcvliT warmoTqva da cxens sadave moswia.

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nabijiT mihyavs cxeni Tavdaxril omars da dums. mdu-maredve mihyvebian ukan loluebi, romelTac SuaSi Cauy-enebiaT saxegamSrali faTulia.

veravin bedavs xmis amoRebas.veravin bedavs daarRvios damuxtuli siCume.`...didxans ar daeZina omars am Rames. loginSi mousven-

rad wrialebda. dResaviT naTeli Rame Tu ufrTxobda Zils. siCume TiTqos yurebSi SiSinebda.

da uceb elvasaviT gahkra TavSi: ratom ar ismis TunTias da gerias xma? Cveulebisamebr, ratom ar darbian ezoSi, da ar uyefen raRac arCdilebs, gaavebulT waramara rom elandebaT?

ZaRlebi ar hyefen _ ai, ratomaa Turme aseTi uCveulo siCume;

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wamodga. flostebSi fexebi gahyo. sacvlebisamara gamov-ida aivanze.

_ TunTia, geria! _ gasZaxa ZaRlebs mWaxe xmiT da mere daayurada. Cami-Cumi ar ismis arsaidan. dumils mxolod Wr-iWinoblebis monotonuri gauTavebeli WriWini Tu arRvevs.

avma winagrZnobam gulze gahkra omars, oTaxSi Sebrunda, Coxa Semoicva, mere ezoSi Cavida. savse mTvare gabadrula caze da qarvis ferebSi curavs irgvliv yvelaferi.

odis da xeTa Crdilebi mkafiod, garkveviT gawolilan am TiTbrisfer sxivebze.

_ TunTia, geria! _ axla ufro xmamaRla uyivla omarma ZaRlebs.

da uecrad odis gverdiTi kedlis Ria sarkmels hkida Tvali. wamiT adgilze gaxevda.

`Ria darCenia fanjara faTulias!~ _ uTxra dasamSvide-blad guls, uceb baga-bugi rom atexa mkerdqveS.

swrafad aaTava kibis safexurebi da faTulias oTaxis karebi SeaRo. mere fexakrefiT, Cumad miuaxlovda sawols.

_ gZinavs, faTulia? _ Cumadve ikiTxa da xeli moafaTura sawolze. jer kidev Tbili iyo logini...

_ momikvdi, Svilo? _ Caiduduna xmaCamwydarma da sa-wolze muxlmokveTili daeSva. Tavi Cahkida.

mere...mere erTbaSad ixuvla sisxlma, azvavda, ayalyda da Ramis

myudroeba Searyia daWrili nadiris bRavilma:_ bagrat, beglar, otia, koCia! cxenebi!mere is iyo, is Citirekia astamurac SemoiWra ezoSi

RrialiT.

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eqvsi dRe-Ramea sofeli duRs da qoTqoTebs. eqvsi dRe-Ramea xalxma Zili dakarga da mosveneba. eqvsi dRe-Ramea uTvalTvaleben omaris `doxores~, magram iqedan Cqamic ar ismis. saxedaZmarebulni midi-modian loluebi.

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omar loluas saxli emzadeba. omari emzadeba...magram risTvis?nuTu marTalia, apatia bondo maliaso?warmoudgenelia, SeuZlebelia.maS, ratom CamostiriT cxvir-piri loluebs? dana pirs

ar uxsnis arc erT maTgans, TiTqos ena CauylapavTo, xmas ar iReben da mdumared, Cumad midi-modian. emzadebian. magram risTvis? risTvis emzadebian ase saidumlod?

da axla TiToeuli maTgani xelaxla igonebs im dRes, roca omar loluam ori ufrosi vaJi sasikvdilod gaimeta. xelaxla cocxldeba miviwyebuli ambavi:

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`...omaris abragad gavardnili ori ufrosi vaJi marRa-nias nasaxlarTan moimwyvdies kazakebma. magram loluebi ar nebdebian. wisqvilSi Casafrebulni, tyvias tyviaze ug-zavnian kazakebs. razmis ufrosi, oficeri Tengiz danelia eaxla omars. tyuil-ubralod rad unda daiRvaros sisx-li? Tqvens vaJebs gasaqcevi gza moWrili aqvT, erTaderTi gamosavali darCeniaT _ danebdnen rusebs. rusis xelmwife mowyalea, iqneba apation, an mcire sasjeli akmarono.

_ ras moiTxovT Cemgan, poruCiko? _ gaawyvetina omarma danelias enamzeoba da Tavisi basri, gamWolavi mzeriT TaviT fexebamde gazoma stumari. danelia wamiT Secba. airia. mere mswrafl moego gons da pirdapir dasmul kiTxvas pirdapir-ive pasuxi arCia:

_ omar batono, Tqveni Svilebi Tqven dagijereben. Tqven Tu etyviT, rom iaraRi dayaron... _ TvalebSi ver uyurebda danelia omars. ramdenjerme scada, magram vera da ver SesZ-lo mzera gaesworebina loluasTvis: _ tyuilad sisxlis Rvras avcdebiT, batono omar.

brazi mosdioda sakuTar Tavze, rom umweo da ususuri Canda am zviadi, ampartavani Tavadis winaSe. da gaguliseb-

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ulma, bolo sityvebi mkveTrad, mkafiod damarcvla.omarma Zlivs SesamCnevad, Cumad CaiRima.mere uxmod, usityvod gamoyva danelias.wisqvils rom miuaxlovdnen, omarma cxeni yalyze Seayena,

TviTonac uzangebze wamoimarTa da daiWeqa:_ hei, turu, gela!_ aqa varT, mama batono, aqa!_ Cemi xma xom kargad gesmiT?_ gvesmis, mamav batono, kargad gvesmis!_ maS, gaigoneT: mokvdiT, magram am ZaRliSvilebs ar Cabar-

deT. xom gaigoneT, biWebo?_ gavigoneT, mamav batono, gavigoneT! _ erTxmad ibRav-

la orive vaJma: _ mag ZaRliSvilebs cocxali TaviT ar davnebdebiT.

_ es ra hqeniT? _ mivarda omars gacofebuli danelia.omarma kvlav TaviT fexamde gazoma wonasworobidan gamo-

suli, gaanCxlebuli danelia. omaris mzeras veravin uZleb-da. qvis gamxvreti Tvalebi aqvso, amobdnen masze da aki qvakacas eZaxdnen kidec zurgs ukan.

daneliam amjeradac veRar gauZlo am mzeras, uneburad Tvalebi daxara.

_ eg xma Seni kazakebisaTvis Semoinaxe, daneliav!_ me... ar miyviria TqvenTvis, omar batono... me mindoda

meTqva..._ sxvas ras moelodiT Cemgan, batono danelia? _ gesli-

anad hkiTxa omarma da Tvalebi mowkura; mere zurgi Seaqcia Semcbar oficers da gaecala.

saxtad darCenili danelia gamoerkva. Tavis xelqveiTebs mivarda:

_ ras dagiRiaT piri, Tqveni... esroleT, amoxoceT, ar daindoT magaTi... omar lolua, gananeb, Tu kaci vyofilvar!

im dRes marRanias nasaxlarTan Cawva omaris ori vaJi.omars ar uglovia Svilebi, arc Savebi Caucvams. erTi

Tvis Semdeg danelia Tavis oTaxSi ipoves Sublgaxvretili.

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xalxSi ambobdnen, Zveli naabragalis, omaris xeli urevia am

saqmeSio. ar SearCina danelias Svilebis sisxli, Suri iZiao.

magram vin gabedavda da xmamaRla ityoda amas?

omari mainc daibares policiaSi. magram ra? verafe ri

daumtkices da SewuxebisaTvis bodiSebiT gamoistum r es Sin.

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kviras, gamTeniisas sazarelma wivil-kivilma Jruantelad

dauara sofels da mere cas Seaskda. dafeTebuli xalxi

loluas `doxores~ miawyda. saSineli suraTi gadaiSala

maT winaSe:

vrceli ezos SuagulSi, fanCaturSi, dabal taxtze oqros-

feri, SuSis saxuraviani kubo idga, romelSic iwva TeTr

kabaSi gamowyobili, gulxeldakrefili omaris erTaderTi

qaliSvili marTa, saalersod da sasiyvarulod faTulias

rom eZaxdnen Sinaurebi da gareSeni. kubos naxevarrkalad

ZaZebSi Semosili TmagaSlili, pirdaxokili qalebi Semor-

tymodnen da civi, gamyinavi xmiT gahkiodnen _ mamakacebi

ufros-umcrosobis mixedviT kuTxeSi idgnen, mklavze Savi

arSia hqondaT Semovlebuli, Tavic Savi TavsafriT waekraT

da saxegamSralni, mdumared Cascqerodnen miwas.

...gamrigeebi marjved trialebdnen da zRvasaviT momsk-

dar xalxSi Tadarigs iWerdnen. xalxi ki marTlac zRvasa-

viT dausrulebliv miiswrafoda kubosken, mere ukuqceulni,

ezosa Tu mis SemogarenSi, axlo-maxlo gzebsa Tu SukebSi

jguf-jgufad iyridnen Tavs, mere iSlebodnen, isev ikribe-

bodnen da iyo erTi vai uSvelebeli, zuzuni da tirili,

cremlebis frqveva da gulisSemZvreli moTqma-godeba.

magram ai, pirvelma eldam gaiara da... xalxSi CurCuli

gaisma, atyda miTqma-moTqma:

_ vai, ubeduro faTulia, vai, Seni codva, es ra Savi dRe

gagiTenda!

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_ SexedeT, ra cocxaliviT wevs kuboSi, TiTqos es-esaa miiZinao.

_ kuboSi? ginaxavT odesme aseTi kubo? SuSis saxuravi-ani kubo sad naxula CvenSi, sad Tqmula?

_ ras ar moigoneben es RvTis piridan gadavardnilebi..._ marTla guli gauskda mag ubedurs Tu..._ guli gauskda ki ara. Senc daijere zRapari!_ aba..._ mag sulwawymedili qvakaci mouswrafebda sicocxles._ faTulias sasikvdilod gaimetebs adamis naSieri, dedis

naSobi kaci?_ kaci ara, magram omari _ ki. vaJebi ar daindo da faTu-

lias apatiebda Sercxvenas?_ Tu magrea, jer bondo malias gausworebda angariSs

jer mas mouRebda bolos._ acaleT. bondosac miswvdeba, ra iciT ra aqvs gunebaSi?

omaris azrebs TviT eSmakic ver miuxvdeba._ naxeT, ra saxe aqvs omars? TiTqos Svili ki ara, knuti

mohkvdomodes!_ vin aris es marTla sulkatiani? kacia Tu marTla

qvakaci? lodia Tu yinulis natexi?_ nadirsac ki uyvars Svili._ Citi raa, Citic ki Tavs evleba Tavis bartyebs._ mereda, ra Svili usvenia kuboSi._ es eqvsi dRis samzadisi raRa iyo, xalxno?_ faTulias Tu imave Rames guli gauskda, eqvsi dRe-Rame

Cumad iyvnen? ratom maSinve ar Seicxades? ras elodebod-nen?

_ SexedeT, ra saxe aqvs omaris ufros das? erTi wveTi cremli ar Camougdia. gamSralia qali, gayinuli.

_ yvelani raRac ucnaurad iqcevian._ TiTqos tirian da verc tirian mag sacodavs._ Zmebs uyureT, Zmebs, yinCad rom dganan, afTrebiviT rom

abrialeben Tvalebs.

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_ afTris Svilebi afTrebi iqnebian, aba ra!_ axavaia, am mxecebis bunagSi angelosi gamoeria da masac

mouswrafes sicocxle._ koCia rom ara Cans, qvakacis umcrosi vaJi? sad aris

netavi? magic TeTri yoraniviTaa am wyeulTa jilagSi..._ axavaia, Seni codva faTulia. ra mzeTunaxavi unda SeWa-

mos miwam._ eh, ra aris adamianis cxovreba? risTvis viklavT xolme

Tavs, risTvis vWamT erTmaneTs? rom miwam SegvWamos bo-los?..

_ ubeduri. ubeduri, gegoneba, ai _ esaa wamodgeba da dagelaparakebao.

_ RmerTo, Sen miSvele, fui eSmaks, momeCvena TiTqos..._ mec, mec momeCvena, rom..._ dalaxvros wminda giorgim mzakvari da avi suli. fui,

daswyevlos RmerTma!_ yovlad wmidao RvTismSobelo mariam, Sen damifare!_ xalxno, es ra ambavia? ra xdeba?CoCqoli matulobs. xalxi kubos awydeba. magram gamri-

geebi fxizloben. kubosTan aRar uSveben zedmetad cnobis-moyvareebs.

omari sad aris? omari ras Svreba?omari xandaxan gamoCndeba xolme ezoSi da ise gaivl-

gamoivlis, TiTqos TiTiswverze Semdgari epareba viRacas Tu raRacaso. Sav Coxa-axaluxSia gamowyobili, fexebzec Savi azi-urebi acvia, Savtariani satevari hkidia qamarze. TavSiSvelaa _ danarCenebiviT Savi TavsafariT ara aqvs wakruli Subli. orive xeli satevris tarze dauwyvia da odnav Tavdaxrili, gayinuli saxiT mcire xans dadgeba fanCaturis axlos. wa-mierad Sav, basr Tvalebs gamoanaTebs warbqveSidan da mere isev ezoSi iwyebs uTavbolo borials, TiTqos TiTiswverebze Semdgari epareba viRacas Tu raRacaso.

saxeSi ar uyurebs samZimarze misuls, odnav Tav ga da-xrils, Tvalebi sadRac, sivrcisTvis miuSterebia, da Cumad,

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uxmod usmens mosamZimres. mere marjvena xels damu Stavs, mkerdSi Cairtyams da `axavaio~, Caidudunebs...

da isev ise iwyebs bolTis cemas.

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`...SuaRame gadasuli iyo, roca omarma erTxel kidev Tva-

li gadaavlo xvalisTvis samzadiss.

uxmaurod saqmianobdnen qalebi, siCume idga, moJamuli,

civi siCume. omaris danaxvaze ufro Caxares Tavebi, ufro

swrafad amoZravdnen xelebi.

omarma saWiro gankarguleba gasca mSvidi, wynari xmiT

da gareT gavida. mere dinji, msubuqi nabijiT Seuyva odis

ukana kibes. uceb guli Seuqanda; wamiT TvalT daubnelda

da moajirs daeyrdno marjvena xeliT, mcire xans ase idga

Tavdaxrili da TiTqmis usunTqveli. mere Rrmad amoioxra,

`tiali sibere!~ _ gaifiqra dananebiT da ufro nela, frTx-

ili nabijiT aaTava safexurebi.

darbazSi Tavi mouyria loluebs: omaris vaJebs, aq aris

omaris ufrosi dac _ qvrivi da uSvilo maka _ mamiseul

saxls dabrunebuli da ZmisSvilebis gamzrdeli. omaris

Zmiswulebi, biZaSvilebi, axloblebi, sisxliT naTesavebi. sxe-

dan da raRac uCveulo, saSinelis molodinSi xma gaukmen-

diaT, garindulan.

am miCumebul-miyuCebuli xalxis danaxvaze omars kvlav

iribma Rimilma Seurxia tuCebi, mere saxedasxepili, moqu-

fruli, taxtisken gaemarTa. SiSiT da ridiT gaayoles Tva-

li am morCili tanis, welwvril, Txel moxucs, romelsac

WabukiviT msubuqad, mkvircxlad mihqonda CoxaSi koxtad

gamokvalTuli sxeuli.

omari taxtze Camojda da Tavisi ganuyreli qarvis kri-

alosnis marcvlas Seudga nel-nela. igi aravis ar uyure-

bda pirdapir da mainc yvelas egona, rom swo red misTvis

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mieCerebina moxucs Tavisi gamxvreti mzera da uneburad iSmuSnebodnen, Tvalebs Zirs, iatakisken xri dnen.

_ maS ase, Cemo keTilno, _ daiwyo omarma mSvidi, wyn-ari xmiT: _ rogorc xedavT, jer gaugonari, arnaxuli Seuracxyofa mogvayenes Cven: loluebs, guSindeli Cveni ymebis Svilebma, _ omari Tavis krialosaniviT marcvlavda sityvebs da ase egonaT darbazSi myofT, sityvebi ki ara _ yinulis natexebi cvioda mis wvril, Txel tuCebs: _ rogorc mogexsenebaT, es marto Cemi, piradi Seuracxyofa araa, _ omarma damcinavad moWuta Tvali, _ Cveni Zveli, dauwereli kanonebiT Sina gamcemi, moRalate ormagad ufro Rirsia sasjelis, vinme gareSe mteri. me sxvas ras verCi, vaJo? mteri imis mteria, rom mtroba giyos, magram, va-glax, rom Cems ubeSi gamizrdia gvelis wiwila, gvarisa da ojaxis Semarcxveneli da Tavlafisdamsxmeli. hoda, omar lolua, cxadia, ar apirebs Seundos danaSauli vinc ar unda iyos igi, miT ufro Sinaurs ar apatiebs Ralats da Surs iZiebs, ise iZiebs Surs, rom aq, Cvens kuTxeSi didxans ar daaviwydeT, didxans daamaxsovrdeT es ambavi.

omari gaCumda. axla mxolod krialosnis marcvlis xma Tu arRvevda samarisebur siCumes, darbazSi rom dasadgurebuliyo.

omari warbebsqvemodan uyurebda enaCavardnil da saxedaZ-abul sakrebulos.

bolos dumili daarRvia omaris ufrosma dam _ maRalma, xmelma diacma. Sekavebuli mRelvarebisagan odnav aweuli xmiT Zmas mimarTa:

_ ras apireb, omar? ra gadagiwyvetia?omarma auCqareblad, dinjad gadamarcvla krialosani. mere

tuCebze daTafluli Rimili aisaxa, das qveS-qveS gaxeda da alersianad hkiTxa:

_ veRar gavigone, ra miTxari, Cemo daia?qali ar Seepua, Tvali TvalSi gauyara Zmas:_ xom unda gavigoT bolos da bolos, omar, ra xdeba am

saxlSi?

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omari zeze wamoiWra, krialosani muWSi moimwyvdia. myis Camoirecxa piridan xelovnuri, yalbi Rimili. Tvalebi avad daabriala:

_ imedi maqvs, ise moiqceviT yvelani, rogorc saWiroa, rogorc saqmes mouxdeba, rogorc saqme moiTxovs. danarCeni ki, danarCeni Cemze iyos. me damanebeT, me momandeT!

aravis gaucia xma, yvelam _ omaris ufrosma damac, Tavi daxara morCilebis niSnad.

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...,,kaSkaSa mTvare daurideblad iWyiteba Ria sarkmelSi da Zils ufrTxobs omars, Samfurze wamogebuliviT rom trialebs loginSi.`mTvare ar maZinebs tiali!~mxari icvala. axla mTvaris Suqi saxeze ar scems da

SvebiT moiTqva suli. awi dameZinebao, gaifiqra da Tvalebi magrad daxuWa. axla mafSalias1 stvenam mostaca smena. un-eburad yuri miugdo.

sulis siRrmidan amohqonda mafSalias unazesi da ufaq-izesi bgerebi, TiTqos wveT-wveTad icleboda guli sisxlisa-gan. raze mosTqvamda ase gulmwared omaris ezos mafSalia? vis mistiroda ase mduRared _ gulis mijnurs... Tu?

iwva omari, usmenda bulbuls da ucbad kurcxali mowyda Tvals _ loyaze Camougorda. SekrTa, eucnaura. cera TiTiT moiSora cremlis wveTi da almacerad gaixeda sarkmlisken: mTvareRa iyo am wamieri sisustis mowme.~

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...mzis sxivebs fexze amdgari Seegeba omari. darbazSi marto mamakacebs moeyaraT Tavi _ Tvrameti wlis koCiasac aukrZales aq Semosvla.

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omari taxtze Camojda da, Cveulebisamebr, krialosani gadamarcvla. erTxans saxedabRverili, mowkuruli TvalebiT uWvretda ferwasul loluebs, misTvis mzeris gasworeba rom ver moexerxebinaT.

darbazis SuagulSi dabal, noxgadafarebul taxtze oqrosferi, SuSissaxuraviani kubo idga.

omari dumda. dumdnen loluebic. bolos omarma Sewyvita krialosnis marcvla da ufros vaJs bagrats TvaliT aniSna raRac, igi myisve gavida oTaxidan. mas dauyovnebliv miyva momdevno ori Zma.fanjrebi Ria iyo, dilis grili niavi arxevda farde bs da

mainc eCvenebodaT, rom oTaxSi SexuTuli, mZime haeri idga. sunTqva uWirda suyvelas da... iparavdnen sun Tqvas.

karis Wrialis xma ise gaisma, TiTqos anazdad yuris Zir-Tan Tofi dacaleso. yvelani Setortmandnen, mere Tvalebi kars miawyvites.

Zmebs darbazSi SemohyavdaT TeTrsamosiani TmebgaSli-li faTulia. Tvaldaxrili, gafiTrebuli qaliSvili nela moabijebda, mis siarulSi, saxeze aSkarad ixateboda Sina-gani siamaye da qedmouxreloba; suli, romelic SeiZleba modriko, magram gaTelvas Ze-xorcieli ver SeZlebs. esaa is Zala, riTac adamiani adamiania da riTac gansxvavdeba igi danarCeni sulierisagan.

es cxadad amoikiTxa yvelam qaliSvilis saxeze da TiTqos macocxlebelma siom daiqrolao, wamiT gaunaTdaT saxe, wel-Si gaimarTnen.

omari zeaiWra, Tvalebi gadaavlo SekrebilT... am mzeram, mtaceblis basrma mzeram kvlav monurad waaxrevina qedi wamiT aRzevebul da frTagaSlil suls.

_ CaawvineT! _ mosWra omarma mokled da naxtomisTvis gamzadebuli focxveriviT SeimarTa.

anazdad kari yurTamde moiRo. zRurblze saxeareuli, Tmaawewili, TvalanTebuli omaris umcrosi vaJi _ koCia gamoCnda.

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moulodnelobisgan wamiT omaric daibna. koCia wylidan amoyvanili TevziviT aRebda pirs. etyoboda, raRacis Tqma undoda da xma aRar amosdioda xorxidan. bolos axaluxis sakinZi Caiwyvita, TiTqos igi uSlida xels laparaks: mere biji win wadga.

_ mamav... batono, apatie faTulias... nuRar izam amas... _ SeRaRada mudariT savse, Caxrinwuli xmiT da mamis win, muxlebze daeca. gaisma gulamomjdari, yru qviTini. tiroda iatakze damxobili koCia da mxrebi ucax ca x ebda.

aqamde qandakadqceuli omari Seirxa, danarCenebic TiTqos omaris moZraobas elodneno, Setokdnen.

omars wvrili Tvalebi ufro dauviwrovda, pirgamexebuls yba moeRrica...

_ momaSoreT, Tavidan momaSoreT es qalaCuna diaci! _ daisisina usaSvelo zizRiT da Ceqmis Wvinti gahkra Zirs damxobil Svils.

ramdenime lolua, erTdroulad mivarda ymawvils, magram uecrad Tavad wamoimarTa koCia. cremliT morwyul saxeze saSiSrad daikveses mamiseulma Tvalebma, satevarze gaivlo xeli ymawvilma:

_ omar lolua... Sen mama ki ara... marTla qvakaci yo-filxar. Semircxvenia Seni kacoba!

moqufrul caze TiTqos mexi gavardao. uceb iseTi siC-ume Camowva, TiToeuls sakuTari gulis cema esmoda, yvelas mzera omar loluas miejaWva. saSinelebis molodinSi suli ganabes, sunTqva Sewyvites.

wamiT borotad gaielves omaris Tvalebma, wamiT satevarze afaTurda misi TiTebi. mere... sazareli, guliswamRebi, sulis-SemZvreli sicili gaisma, da am sicilma sawamlaviviT dauara yvelas ZarRvebSi da sisxli gaeyinaT, guli gauCerdaT...

_ Rlapi, sacodavi Rlapi... _ gamoscra mere kbilebSi da ucebve Sewyvita sicili: _ momaSoreT!

Zmebi koCias miscvivdnen da cimcim gaiyvanes darbazidan. mere oTaxSi Semobrunebul ufros vaJs omarma faTuliaze TvaliT aniSna.

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aqeT-iqidan amoudgnen loluebi gaSeSebul faTulias, sax-eze mitklisferi rom dasdeboda.

uceb faTuliam xeliT CamoiSora Zmebi, welSi gasworda:_ me TviTon! _ Tqva da Tavaweulma gaswia kubosken.

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...xalxi sul ufro da ufro matulobs. modian sxvadasxva soflebidan winaswar gafrTxilebuli axloblebi, naTesavebi, moyvrebi. modian ubralod cnobismoyvareni.odis ukan, vaSlebisa da msxlebis ZirSi gaWimula

veeberTela sefa. xalxi uwyvet nakadad miedineba iqeT, da isev ukan brundeba.yvelaferi sruli wesrigiT xdeba. aTasi wlobiT dadgenili

es wes-Cveuleba speqtakliviT yovel detalSia gaazrebuli. yvelaferi winaswar mofiqrebuli da gaTvaliswinebulia.

...motiralebis procesia Sukis dasawyisSive iwyebs kivils da piris xokvas. qalebi win miuZRvebian mdumare mamakacebs. kubos garSemo Semokrebili Wirisufalni aseve kivil-wi-viliT, Tmebis glejiTa da piris xokviT egebebian mosulebs. kubosTan meored mosvlaa TiTqos: gareSe, ucxo Tvals Sei-Zleba moeCvenos, rom aq sruli qaosia, rom ZaRli patrons ver cnobs, magram es erTi SexedviT aris ase, sinamdvileSi ki aravin scdeba wesiT da rigiT dadgenil zRvars.

mere axladmosulni uerTdebian danarCenebs da iwyeba `Tvalua~, anu moTqma, damxvdurni da mosulni rigrigobiT, TiTqos erTmaneTs ejibrebian mWevrmetyvelebaSi.

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...mze maRla iwevs. haeri ixuTeba, izrdeba xalxis mous-venrobac.

da uceb es zRva Tavyriloba erTbaSad gaitvrina: Su-kaSi mxedarma Semoagelva cxeni. WiSkris siaxloves Seayena, Camoxta, lagami meserze miagdo da fanCaturisken gaeSura.

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xalxma myisve gaiw-gamoiwia, TiTqos viRacis brZanebiT, gza dauTmo TeTr Wabuks.

da xalxs moeCvena, kaci ki ara _ ori Tvali, ori didi, elvare varskvlavi modioda cocxali adamianebis derefanSi. is iyo fanCaturs dauaxlovda da Wabukis win miwis mgeli-viT aRimarTa omar lolua.

orma wyvilma Tvalma dasxipa erTmaneTi._ me Sen saRamosTvis dagibare, vaJo! _ gamoscra kbilebSi

omarma da TvalebiT gaburRa Wabuki._ magram me axla movedi, omar batono, da ukan mxolod

sikvdili gamabrunebs! _ mosWra vaJma erTbaSad. tanSemar-Tuls, masac satevris tarisTvis Cauvlia xeli da marjvena fexi odnav win waudgams mzadyofnis niSnad.

jer ar gaCenila Ze-xorcieli omaris mzerisaTvis rom gaeZlos. es biWi ki, rZe rom ar SeSrobia tuCebze, ase uSiS-rad, gamomwvevad dgas da TvalebSi uyurebs Tamamad!

TiTqos niri ecvala omars da Tumca wamiT, magram mainc daxara mzera.

_ Sen marTla bedisweras autanixar, vaJo! _ daisisina bolos omarma da cali Tvali waWuta.

_ ras vaqnev bedisweras! erTxel vibadebiT da erTxel vkvdebiT.

_ hm! Sen Turme vaJkacobaze deb marTla Tavs, malias biWo. vaJkacebi ki _ ar iparaven sxvis saunjes!

_ monadire miparviT itacebs lomis bokvers. me ase gami-gonia Zvelebisgan.

_ gvelis wiwilo! rogor bedav? _ es omaris ufrosi vaJia. vaJebi SeumCnevlad amosdgomian mamas gverdSi. ise abrialeben Tvalebs, lamisaa nakuw-nakuw daWran, daglijon, dafliTon es Tavxedi biWi, ase utifrad, ase utexad rom usworebs Tvals omar loluas!

_ mamav batono!...omarma swrafad gadaxeda Svils... da enaze ikbina bagrat-

ma. gaCumda. Tavi daxara.

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omari bondos miubrunda isev:_ me qaliSvili momikvda, vaJo. da igi ise davitire, ro-

gorc Cveni wesi da rigi moiTxovs. ra gaewyoba, Tu ginda... waiRe Seni micvalebuli. me nebas gaZlev. oRond mifrTx-ildi: dReidan arsad SemomeyaroT! _ da omari ganze gadga, gza misca Wabuks. erTbaSad saerTo oxvra aRmoxda xalxs da mere isev samariseburi siCume Camowva.

kubos garSemo Semokrebil qalebs TiTqos alalma daqro-lao, kuTxeSi zrialiT miiyuJnen. bondo kubos mivarda, wamiT, mxo lod wamiT gaiyina adgilze da Tumca ukve yvelaferi icoda koCiasgan, mainc Tavzardacemuli idga da ar iZroda. me re gons moego, kubos swrafad axada SuSis saxuravi, frTx-ilad, saTuTad dawvda qaliSvils da mklavebze gadaiwvina.

mere kvlav gaiara orad gayofili xalxis mwkrivi da SukaSi gavida.

ramdenime xelma cxenis aRviri miawoda, viRaca unagirs moeWida...

mere... xuTi Tu eqvsi mxedari miyva ukan da maT Soris iyo faTulias umcrosi Zma _ koCia lolua.

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broweulis totebi gadmozneqilan meserze. pirdaxle-Cili broweulebi TiTqos mziT gavsilan.

astamurma xarbad CakbiCa nayofi. eama momJavo-motkbo gemo, xelaxla Caaso almasa kbilebi.

sadavemiSvebuli cxeni WiSkarTan Sedga da daifrutu-na. astamurma gulamoWmuli broweulis kani zurgs ukan moisrola, mere piri moiwminda xelis guliT da maTraxis tariT SeaRo WiSkari.

gviani Semodgomis gadawverili mze kriala, lurj caze TiTqos dazarebiT, zarmacad izmoreba.

myudro da Cumi dRea, foTlebic uxmaurod cvivian xeTa totebs. samzadidan amomavali gamWirvale, mqrqali kvamli

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klakvniT miiwevs lurji cisaken. simindis yanidan, sadac

axla gadasxepili Reroebi Carigebulan, Zroxis bRavili

moismis. mas sawyalobeli zmuiliT esityveba uzarmazar

mwvane ezoSi bawriT dabmuli boCola. sadRac axlos kruxi

qoTqoTebs, mamlebi xangamoSvebiT esityvebian erTmimeores

maRal xmaze.

astamuri galursuli iyo mcire xans. saocari, uCveulo

siame JrJolviT uvlida tanSi. Semodgomis es daRlili

mze, Zirs farfatiT dacvenili qarvisiferi foTlebi da

fermimqrali, gadayviTlebuli moli raRac uxilav, ucnaur

zmanebas agonebda.

da erTbaSad guli SeekumSa im gamouTqmeli sinanuliT,

rasac welTa svla SeumCnevlad tovebs adamianis sulSi. da

es garindeba hgavda im ucxo zmanebas, ucabedad rom moev-

lineboda xolme astamurs dro da dro: TiTqos saocrad

TeTr, TeTr qals _ tyis mafas gauSlia Tavisi xSiri,

oqrosferi Tma da idumali, cbieri RimiliT Cqar-Cqara

butbutebs raRac Selocvebs da... aRar aris xsna da saSve-

li am Semodgomis balaxiviT yviTeli da surnelovani, abre-

SumiviT rbili da fafuki Tmis tevrisagan. es raRac jado-

Tilismaa, gaugebari, auxsneli. es Cveneba Tu zmaneba ue-

crad, moulodnelad gaaxevebs, daatyvevebs xolme astamurs.

da es tyveoba ise saamo da tkbilia, mTeli sxeuli iseTi

msubuqia, viT im samzadidan amomavali cisferi kvamli, ro-

melic male SeuerTdeba usasrulo cis laJvards.

astamuri gamoerkva _ omaris mejinibe baja gvasalia

morboda misken.

astamuri cxenidan Camoxta, sadave bajas miugdo daude-

vrad: _ coli rom gagqcevia, Se Tavmkvdaro, ras Svrebi axla?

_ uTxra misalmebis nacvlad astamurma, Tan qamar-xanjali

gaiswora, beWebi Seaqana.

Cafskvnilma, tandabalma da banjgvlianma bajam muWi ai-

fara pirze da CaixiTxiTa, aqaoda, ra xumara brZandebi ba-

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tonoo, ufro ki Tavisi daWianebuli, gafuWebuli kbilebis dafarvas Seecada.

`oCokoCia es ojaxqori, namdvili oCokoCi~, _ gaurbina astamurs TavSi da wamiT warmoidgina, rogor exveoda da hkocnida baja Tavis SoltiviT moqnil, lamaz cols.

_ ra gacinebs, Se upatrono? am diliT ingurs gaRma vnaxe _ Seni coli meborne gvajis miyveboda xelgayrili. Cemi TvaliT vnaxe-meTqi, ar gjera?

kvlav muWi aifara bajam pirze._ xi, xi, xi, iman ikiTxos patonsqua, visac arc gasaqcevi

hyavs da arc gaqceuli..._ ah, rao? ra Tqvi? _ astamuri wamiT SeCerda, mere Tavi

ukan gadaigdo da axarxarda. _ ra Tqvi, biWo? axavai Sen Cemo Tavo. kakal gulSi ar momartya kaco? xa, xa, xa...

bajac icinoda moridebiT, xmadabla, pirze muWafarebuli._ Sen gaixare, baja. ra gulianad macine! _ astamurma

mxarze dahkra xeli: _ ise, Cemo baja, damijere, gasaqcevad gamzadebulis yolas uyoloba sjobia. Tumca...

wamiT iyuCa, Tvali gauSterda: _ Tumca sul erTia. erTi fasi aqvs yvelas, _ mosWra anazdad da TvaliT aniSna odis-ken: _ aqaa?

_ ki, aq brZandeba, patonsqua._ ra gunebazea Tu ici?_ verafers getyvi, patonsqua. buxarSi cecxlis danTeba

brZana. iqaa, Tavis oTaxSi._ ho, kargi, Cemo baja, Sens lamaz cols gaficeb, cxens

kargad mimixede. aba, he, Sen ici.astamurma Taviseburi, moxdenili rxeviT gaiara ezo da

odis ukana kibes Seuyva. uceb gaaxsenda is mTvariani Rame, dazafrulma cxeni rom Semoagdo am ezoSi...

`fui, daswyevla RmerTma. ra maRrialebda, kaco? bond-osTana biWi bare ori TavadiSvili ar meguleba Cvens mxare-Si. erTi gvanji romaa anCabaZe, imito sjobia bondo malias! dalaxvros eSmakma~...

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omari moguzguze buxars misjdomoda da Tavis ganuyrel,

qarvis krialosans marcvlavda. urTierTi kiTxva-mokiTx-

vis Semdeg astamurma meore `kvela~1 moiCoCa buxarTan da

omaris nebarTviT, mis gverdiT Camojda.

_ sada xar, vaJo, dakarguli? axal mTvaresaviT rom ga-

moCndebi xolme xandaxan... _ omari mxolod tuCebs amoZ-

ravebda laparakis dros. mTeli misi saxe, Tvalebi _ ki uZ-

ravad gayinuliyvnen. `veraa gunebaze. unda vimarjvo axla~,

_ gaifiqra astamurma.

_ eh, ra vici, biZia batono. xan ra saqme gamotyvreba

ucabedad da xan ra. ver movicale, andazis ar iyos, deda-

bers Svidi soflis dardi awuxebda, misi dardi ki aravis

hqondao, isea Cemi saqmec.

_ ar hgavxar bedisgan daCagruls, _ CaeRima omars ise,

rom cecxlisTvis Tvali ar moucilebia.

_ eh, sxvisi Wiri, Robes Cxirio, naTqvamia, biZia batono.

_ ra gagWirvebia aseTi, Se kaco? axlo-maxlo Tu lamazi

qali iyo, mgonia ar dagitovebia... iqneb mogrCa vinme, a? imis

dardi Tu gawuxebs? _ isev Cumad CaiRima omarma.

_ arc isea saqme, biZia batono. naTqvamia, rogorc quxs,

ise rodi wvimso. nikoias cols vincxa benia rom miuwevs,

nikoia xatze daificavs: RmerTi, xati, rjuli Cemi TvaliT

vnaxe, astamura iyoo. eh, saxelis gatexas Tavis gatexa sjob-

nebia Turme da egaa.

omarma uxmod Caicina, cerad gamoxeda ZmisSvils:

_ Sen rom yuri gigdos kacma, mama abramis batkani egonebi.

ras elodebi, ar mogbezrda ase yiali? rodis unda moekido

ojaxs, vaJo?

_ colis SerTvas kai safaneli unda, biZia batono. me

Cemi gaxrekili, cariel-tarieli Tavis da erTi cxenis meti

ara mabadia ra. esec ar iyos, jerxnobiT mirCevnia _ qali

saxelad sxvisi iyos da saxravad Cemi, vidre piriqiT.

1 kvela _ samfexa skami

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_ Sen enaze Wali ar mogedeba, astamur Cemo.`mgonia, cota gamoukeTda guneba... aba, he, astamur, gautie~..._ mamaCemma egRa damitova memkvidreobad da amasac Seve-

lio? raRa damrCeba?_ ratom? visac ena aqvs, yofac imas avqso, naTqvamia._ enisgan aSenebuli kaci jer ar minaxavs me, biZia batono,

daqceuli ki _ ramdenic gnebavs. eh, jandabas Cemi Tavi _ aqlemi ise ar davardebao, viris sapalne kidev ver aiki-doso... Cveni bagratis ambavi gavige, gamixarda. anCabaZis qals Zaan aqeben, lamazi da saTno qaliSviliao.

_ vnaxoT. amboben mase. yvela qaliSvili, sanam gaTxovdeba, angeloziao, egec gagegoneba albaT aseT meandaze kacs.

_ egec marTali naTqvamia, biZia batono. mara, ara mgonia an-CabaZis qals exebodes es andaza. ise, rac marTalia marTalia, faTuliam yvelas gvajoba, loluebs. iseTi biWi hyavs Turme...astamurs sityva Suaze gauwyda. feri ecvala. ganrisxebuli

omari saxeSi miStereboda nirwamxdar astamurs. _ biZia batono, RmerTmani... me... me megona... _ ablukunda

astamuri da Wiris ofliT daecvara Subli. Tvalebi auxamxamda._ kari gaixure!Zlivs aiTria weli astamurma. karisken walaslasda

saqciel-wamxdari._ meorejer aRar gnaxo aq, fexSemodgmuli! _ daadevna

omarma ZmisSvils da gametebiT momuWa krialosani xelSi.

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_ ras Cagiqindria Tavi, astamur? ra mogivida, biWo? _ Sena xar? _ astamurma Tavi aswia da usicocxlo, Cafer-

flili Tvalebi miapyro axal Coxa-axaluxSi gamowkepil da cxenze amxedrebul biZaSvils, romelic fiqrSi wasul astamurs uceb SeeCexa Sukis mosaxvevSi.

_ ho, ra mogsvlia-meTqi? ra cxvir-piri Camogtiris?_ eh, xom gagigonia, enam ra miyo da TavSi kakunio.

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_ daiwyo axla andazebi..._ marTla geubnebi. kbilebi imisTvis aqvs kacs, rom roca

ena sisulelis Tqmas daapirebs, kbilebma droze miZeZgon._ ver metyvi, ra moxda?_ ra unda momsvloda uaresi... _ uceb gacecxlda astam-

uri, _ mamaSenma, Cemma biZam, batonma omarma gamomagdo sax-lidan. samudamod amomakveTina fexi Tqveni ojaxidan. gaige axla, rac momsvlia?

_ ras laparakob, biWo? _ Sewuxda bagrati, axlos miiwia biZaSvilTan: _ risTvis, ratom, ra daaSave?

_ davaSave? ar ici mamaSenis xuSturebis ambavi? gamiwyra RmerTi da faTulia vaxsene. gagiJda, gadairia. sul cecxli hyara piridan. aq meored fexSemodgmuli ar gnaxoo. ra mrjida, ra meweoda enaze, gekiTxebi me Sen? mara wera rom agitans kacs da samgle goWiviT atydebi...

_ eg rogor hqeni, biWo? rogor axsene im unamusos sax-eli mamaCemTan?

_ unamusoo? vinaa unamuso?_ uceb ifeTqa astamurma da gaanCxlebulma axlos miiwia bagratTan: _ faTuliaa una-muso? isemc Tqven SegarcxvinaT RmerTma da Tqveni namusic! unamusoo, hm!

_ astamur!_ astamuri mqvia me da lolua var gvarad, ar dagavi-

wydeT orTaves _ mama-Svils!_ astamur, ra mogivida, biWo...gayinCebuli astamuri uceb moeSva, mxrebi Camoucvivda,

Tavi Cahkida._ wavedi axla me. gulze var gaxeTqili da... Tavi gamanebeT.

* * *

WerisaTvis miebjina Tvalebi da araferze ar fiqrobda, sisxlis zant mimoqcevasRa SeigrZnobda mTel sxeulSi da sisxlis am Cqams miugdebda mxolod yurs.

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iwva Seurxevlad aivnis skamloginze, sigrileSi. Ria karidan axalgazrda qalis _ omaris rZlis xma moismoda, qali akvans arwevda da raRacas eRuRuneboda pataras.

omars nel-nela moexuWa Tvali....darbazidan faTulia gamovida uceb, TeTri kaba acvia,

grZeli, oTxad dawnuli nawnavebi TiTqmis koWebamde scems. skamloginze Camoujda mamas. Tvalebi ucimcimebs, Tavi odnav gverdze gadauxria _ ase icis omarmac Tavis gadaxra, da Sekavebuli RimiliT Sehyurebs mamas.

_ risTvis mixme, mamiko? (omaris SvilebSi erTaderTi faTuliaa, visac SeuZlia ase mimarTos omars).

omarma Tvalebi moifSvnita, kinaRam CameZinao, gaifiqra da uceb veRar moisazra, ras ekiTxeboda qaliSvili. `risTvis davuZaxe? hoo...~ moagonda, gverdi moinacvla.

_ Conguri gamoitane da daukari rame._ davukra?_ ho. mimRere rame. didi xania ar momismenia SenTvis, mo-

menatra Seni simRera._ ici ra, mamiko! gimRereb, Tuki... _ faTulias isev ise

ucinis Tvalebi, Tavs aqeT-iqiT atrialebs waramara da nawn-avebic ritmulad erxeva yovel moZraobaze. qaliSvilis maRa-li, TeTri yeli romeliRac yvavilis ylorts agonebs omars.

_ Tu ki... rao? Tqvi barem, albaT sanacvlod rames mTxov. faTulia, amden xans Tavs rom ikavebda, uceb gulianad

akiskisda:_ rogor mimixvdi, mamiko?omarma odnav gaiRima._ didi misaxvedria swored. saxeze gaxatia yvelaferi.

ras mTxov sanacvlod, Tqvi barem! (`nametani gaCeCetebuli myavs es bavSvi. ar varga, magram rom ar gamomdis sxvanai-

rad? yvelaze patara romaa, nabolara, da dediT oboli,

imitom Tu damjabna ase~...).

_ `miminoze~ erTxel seirnobis neba momeci ra, mamiko!

_ sul egaa?.. momicia nebarTva. erTxel ki ara, ramden-

jerac ginda.

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_ vaime, ra kargia! _ faTuliam xeli xels Semohkra, uceb

mivarda da loyaze akoca.

_ ho, kai, kai geyofa. wadi da gamoitane Conguri! _ gangeb

Seikra warbi omarma.

_ axlave, mamiko! _ faTulia gatrialda. wami da isev win

daujda mamas, xelSi Congurmomarjvebuli.

_ ra vimRero, mamiko?

_ rac Sen ginda. CemTvis sul erTia. _ omarma muTaqa

gaiswora, gulze xelebi daikrifa, Tvalebi milula da mo-

sasmenad moemzada.

faTuliam nela aawyo simebi, Tavisi Camoqnili, grZeli

TiTebi dausva larebs da wamiT gainaba. mere... yeli moiRera

Taviseburad, da...

`ase Conguri qofTquaT, sqan do Cqimi gaWireba... hou nana,

dida voi nana, dida voi, nana~...1

sevdianad RuRunebs Conguri, sevda Camdgara qaliSvilis

TvalebSic, sulis siRrmidan wamosula es usaSvelo, una-

piro sevda, guls tkbil-mwared rom wuravs.

`voi nana, dida voi nana~...

TiTqos martvilis freska Camosula kedlidan... misi ar-

amiwieri silamazis saxeze, budeSura TvalebSi Catborebula,

Cagubebula is usaSvelo naRveli _ gaCenis dRidan rom

Tan dayveba adamians; ai, sacaa gaarRvevs igi wamwamebs da

wkvarwkvariT daedineba loyebze.

`voi nana~...

dafleTil-daRvelfili gulis moTqmaa es simRera. us-

aSvelo wuxilia im warsul, daubrunebel dRee b ze, enguris

talRebiviT rom Caiares da Tan gaiyoles ramdeni gancda,

ramdeni fiqri da ocneba, is zRapru li, saocari bednierebis

molodini, guls rom giTrTol ebda odesRac, suls rom

agivsebda tkbili zmanebiT;

_ ubeduri Cqimi dudsu, ir siave Cqimda mursu, hou nana,

1 ,,axla Conguro vTqvaT, Seni da Cemi gaWirveba...“

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dida voi nana, dida voi nana...1

faTulias saxeze kaeSani erTbaSad TiTqos xelSesaxebi gax-

da. da anazdeulad im saTuT, yvavilis naz Reros raRac Savi

Crdili Tu landi waepara... sacaa, xels waatans... gadaamtvrevs.

_ kmara. geyofa!

wamovarda omari. guls baga-bugi gaaqvs. dauokebeli

zafra acaxcaxebs sxeuls.

Tvalebze moisva xeli.

`dalaxvros eSmakma! CamZinebia~. mere ucnaurad dabeJili,

moTenTili tani Searxia, welSi gaimarTa. aivanze gaiar-

gamoiara. Ria karebSi Tvali hkida: qals artaxebi gauxsnia

da Cumi rudunebiT amohyavs bavSvi akvnidan. gaxarebuli

balRi Wylopinebs, pawawa xelebs asavsavebs, xiTxiTebs.

omari isev skamloginze daeSva, mcire xans ijda ase gaunZ-

revlad, mere miwva isev, muTaqaze mido Tavi da Wers mi-

aSterda. aivnis kuTxeSi, maRla mercxals bude miuSenebia.

budidan pawia bartyebs amouyviaT Tavebi da sawyaloblad

Wylopineben. deda da mama mercxali waramara garbi-gamor-

bian, sazrdos uzidaven patarebs.

omari dakvirvebiT miaCerda budes. TiTqos pirvelad axla

SeamCnia igi.

`dailocos bunebis Zala! ram misca am ugunur frinvelebs

amdeni moxerxeba da gamWriaxoba, amdeni Tavdadeba! saocaria!~.

uceb erTi gulTeTra bartyi, albaT yvelaze msunagi da

celqi, zomaze metad gadmoixara budidan da tyviasaviT

wamovida Zirs.

_ hait! _ uneburad wamoiZaxa omarma da ficxlad wamoxta.

_ ra iyo, batono mama? _ aivanze axalgazrda qali gamo-

suliyo bavSviT xelSi. omars TiTqos danaSaulze waas-

wreso, airia wamiT, mere umal xeliT aniSna rZals:

_ ai, bartyi gadmovarda...

_ ui, sacodavi...

1 ubeduro Cemo Tavo, yvela siave Senze modis...

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ususuri, uginglo bartyi umweod aRebda pirs da uRono

xmiT wripinebda.

bavSvma orive xeli gaiSvira bartyisken.

_ ara, deda genacvalos, codoa, Svilo! Sexede, rogor

iklavs Tavs dedamisi, sawyali...

da marTlac deda mercxali saSineli WyiviliT askdebo-

da kedlebs, gareT gaiWreboda, mere isev budes mivardeboda.

mofrinda bartyebis mamac.

omari Seurxevlad idga erT xans da Tvals ar acilebda

am suraTs. mere erTbaSad gatrialda da Cqari, msubuqi nabi-

jiT gaiara aivani. kibis TavTan Sedga.

_ baja!.. _ daiZaxa mouTmeneli xmiT, _ baja!

_ axlave, batono! _ baja Tavqudmoglejili gamoiqca

aivnisken.

_ sad xar amden xans, Se mamaZaRlo! kibe moarbenine Cqara.

ras dagiRia piri, Se briyvo, kibe moitane-meTqi. Cqara, Se lenCo!

roca bajam kibe moarbenina, omarma ubrZana aivanze

amoetana igi.

_ amoitane aq! nela, Se utvino. miadgi kibe aim kedels.

mase. aiyvane axla bartyi, adi kibeze da budeSi Casvi. nela, Se

daTvo! frTxilad, Se layev! CamoeTrie, axla da waiRe kibe.

omaris rZali gaSterebuli Sescqeroda mamamTils. da

roca bavSvi gaWirveulda, Citi mindao, saCqarod oTaxSi Se-

brunda isev, gaognebul-gancvifrebuli.

omars ki zurgze xelebi Semoewyo da aivanze bolTas

scemda. dadioda da elvasaviT daklaknil raRac azrs da-

JinebiT Cascieboda, mere TiTqos marTla ielvao, raRac ga-

naTda wamiT gonebaSi da...wamsve Setrialda, oTaxSi Sevida. mcire xnis Semdeg isev

gamobrunda aivanze. mxarze yabalaxi gadaegdo, xelSi ma-Traxi eWira. rZals oTaxSi SesZaxa, ambako CqotuasTan mi-vdivar, amaRam aRar damelodoTo da... kibe msubuqad Cairbina.

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kowiam erTxel kidev gadausva daxls tilo, mere gareT

gamovida: `dalaxvros eSmaki wmida giorgis boZalma... ra

navsi dRea dRes? erTi muStari raa, erTic ar gamoCenila!

ager mze lamis Cavides... is eSmakis fexi utuiac sad dai-

karga amden xans~...

isev Sebrunebas apirebda duqanSi da am dros cxenis

fexis xma moesma. SeCqvifda. Sublze xeli moiCrdila.

`euh. omar lolua?.. ra xania am qvakacs aqeTken ar

gamouvlia. dRes ra moeguneba netai... dalaxvros wminda

giorgim. es mindoda axla me?~.

kowiam instinqturad, uangariSod gaiswora qamar-xanja-

li, Tmaze xeli gadaisva da... mxedars aRtacebuli saxiT

Seegeba. unagirs moeWida, magram omars TiTqos arc SeumCnev-

ia misi xelebi, cqvitad Camoxta cxenidan, maTraxis tariT

yabalaxi gaiswora Tavze, mere kowias Tavs zemoT romeli-

Rac wertils miaso Tavisi basri mzera:

_ civ wyals xom ar damalevineb, biWo? _

kowia oTxad moikakva, saxeze tkbili Rimili aisaxa:

_ Rvinos mogarTmevT, omar batono. saukeTeso adesa~maqvs,

oqumuri. _ SefrfinviT Seacqerda saxeSi omars.

`uh. gawyda Tqveni jiSi da jilagi! TiTqos buzi viyo,

zedac ar miyurebs, daica. amovlen Tqvens oxtSic, roca

iqneba!~ _ boRmianad gaifiqra kowiam, TvalebSi ki ufro

meti morCileba da Tviniereba Caiyena.

`hm! es gvelaZua cdilobs maamos, nemsis yunwSi gaZvres

lamis. gawyda Tqveni jilagi, Tqve tilismtyavelebo~.

_ me civi wyali minda, biWo! _ uTxra da es daaxloebiT

ise JRerda, TiTqos eTqvas: `Se regveno, zurgi xom ar agqa-

vebia, rasac geubnebi, is hqenio~.

_ ki batono, axlave, am wuTas, wyaros wyals mogarTmev.

manamde, SigniT xom ar inebeb SemobrZanebas, sanam wyals mo-

vitande, iqneb daimuxloT, daisvenoT...

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_ aq mirCevnia, gareT. Tu RmerTi gwams, male qeni. meCqareba.

_ axlave, am wuTas, batono...

kowia duqanSi Sevarda, skami gamourbenina zviad moxucs

da bJolis Ziras, CrdilSi daudga. mere isev duqanSi Se-

brunda, doqs daavlo xeli da ukana kariT gareT gamovida.

gaixed-gamoixeda:

`bedi ar ginda? raRa am sulwawymedilma qvakacma dam-

iferxa? utuia, damacade, agaxleC orive yurs: sad qvesknelSi

gdixar amden xans?~

CeroSi moTamaSe bavSvebs miwvda misi mzera anazdeulad

da erTbaSad... raRac azrma gauelva TavSi. tuCebi daebrica,

TvalebSi cbieri naperwklebi aucimcimda. swrafad, TiTqmis

sirbiliT gaswia bavSvebisken.

danasobias TamaSiT garTul balRebs Tavze waadga.

_ koCi biZi. modi aq CemTan erT wuTs! _ Semparavi, tk-

bili xmiT dauZaxa TmaqoCora, fexSiSvela bavSvs da tuCebze

kvlav daTafluli, tkbili Rimili aixata.

eqvsi-Svidiode wlis biWunam Tavi aneba TamaSs, uxalisod,

zlazvniT gamoswia kowiasaken da win daudga:

_ Sens gazrdas, koCi biZia, wyarodan wyali amomirbenine

da kamfetebs mogcem.

_ kamfetebs momcem? _ undoblad axeda bavSvma Tvalminabul,

Rimiladqceul meduqnes.

`uyure am eSmakis fexs! rogor ayvaryvarebs Tvalebs?

mamamisis Svili araa?~

_ ki biZi. ki Svilo. erT muWa kamfets mogcem. oRond

Cqara gaiqeci da amomicuncule wyali.

bavSvma doqs wamoavlo xeli da wyarosken mokurcxla.

kowiam TiTebi miitana tuCebTan da wamiT TvalgaSterebiT

gascqeroda biWs.

mere omarTan dabrunda, welSi moixara da enad gaikrifa:

_ axlave mogarTmevs wyaros wyals baRana!

_ o, ise ra cxeni gyavT, batono omar. suls ar daiSurebs

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kaci aseTi cxenisaTvis, cxeni ki ara wminda giorgis raSia _ mamis suli nu wamiwydeba..

icis cbierma meduqnem, yvelaze ufro cxenis qebiT rom aamebs am Zvel naabragal, gulzviad Tavads da amitomac iTafleba, enamzeobs dauzareblad.

`vin icis, ramdeni codva Cagidenia am cxeniT, Se sul-wawymedilo~.

_ aseTi cxenisaTvis eSmaks miyidi suls, namdvilad.`gayiduli gaq da egaa~.omars esiamovna cxenis qeba, magram ar daimCnia.`am ujiSom ra icis cxenis fasi, hm!~_ rad ginda, biWo, Sen aseTi cxeni, romc gyavdes?_ eh, omar batono, Tu inatreb, unda inatro iseTi ram, rom

Rirdes natvrad._ kowia biZia. wyali mogitane._ o, gaixare, gaizarde didi biWi. wyaliviT gimatos gam-

Cenma. barem Sen TviTon miarTvi am ucxo... babuas wyali, ai Wiqac.

bavSvma yoymaniT CamoarTva Wiqa da wyliT gaavso. wamsve daiorTqla Wiqa civi wylisgan. mere biWma doqi miwaze dadga da uxerxulad gauwoda omars. loyebi aswiTleboda calkerZ sirbilisa da calkerZ morcxvobisgan.

_ midi biZia. axlos midi... babuasTan.kowia Sefarulad, Cumad niSns ugebda omars, saxeze ki

morCileba, mowiweba da qedmdabloba aRbeWdvoda.omari sargadaylapuliviT ijda Seurxevlad da Tvali

ver moewyvita biWisTvis. bavSvs eoca amdeni xnis dayovneba da Tavi aswia, am ucnaur babuas saxeSi Sexeda.

omari Setokda. moWrili totiviT Seqanda. mere anazdad gadmoixara, ymawvils nikapze moavlo xeli.

_ visi xar, babu, Sen? _ Cumad, Zalian Cumad hkiTxa da xma Caexrinwa uceb, Caaxvela, yeli Caiwminda.

_ bondo malias biWi gaxlavarT, batono! _ Cumadve Caid-

uduna biWma da ufro Caxara Tavi.

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_ faTulias Svili xar, babu, Sen? _ CurCulebda xmawarT-

meuli omari da xarbad Cascqeroda bavSvs, TiTqos am saxeze

eZebda odesRac Zvirfasi saxis nakvTebs.

_ ra gqvia, Svilo? _ kvlav CurCuliT hkiTxa omarma

bavSvs da axla orive xeli mohkida mklavebze, muxlebSua

Caiyena. daviwynoda wyurvilic, kowiac da yvelaferi am

qveyanaze.

_ koCia, batono!

_ koCia? hm... _ Caaxvela Tu... yrud Caigmina omarma

anazdad.

mere wamiT Tavi Cahkida, erTxans iyo ase mdumare da

gayuCebuli, mere raRac gadawyvetileba gamoexata saxeze,

pirdapir Sexeda bavSvs, bavSvic monusxuliviT Sescqeroda.

_ ginda cxeniT gagaseirono, babu? _ isev ise CurCuliT

hkiTxa. biWma gverdze gaixeda, cxens Seavlo qurduli mzera

da... uceb Tvalebi aenTo, saxe gaubrwyinda:

_ minda! _ garkveviT, mkafiod gamoTqva da xarbi mzera

ver mowyvita Sav raSs, mouTmenlad rom abakunebda miwaze

SxvarT fexebs.

omarma erTbaSad aizezeura, jibes gaikra xeli, Caxviadan1

oqros fuli amoiRo da TvaldaWyetil meduqnes xelSi

SeaCeCa:

_ bavSvi Tu moisaklison, uTxari... rom CemTanaa! aba, modi,

babu! _ omarma bumbuliviT aitaca biWi, wami da...

gaognebuli meduqne cxenis TqaraTquris xmam gamoafxizla:

`RmerTo didebulo! dailocos Seni saxeli! am qvakacsac Turme guli ar hqonia?~ _ Caibutbuta mere TavisTvis da uangariSod oqros moneta xelSi momuWa:

,,ehe heia! ajobe am RmerTgamwyral qvakacs, bondo maliav?“da meduqnem Tavisi gamWoli, basri mzera gaayola gzaze

oTxaxmiT mimqrolav Sav raSs, mosaxvevSi rom male gauCi-narda!

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Semodgomis dRe

mzea da Tbila. caze uwesrigod gafantulan TeTri, fa-fuki Rrublebi.

Sors nislis Txeli pirbadiT Seburvili, lurji mTebi aRmarTulan gulzviadad.

Seqarvisferebulan foTlebi. damskdaran broweulebi. CaSavebulan yurZnis mtevnebi.

msuye Semodgomis suniT gaJRenTila haeri.kargi dRea... da babua beglaric didebul gunebazea. guli

isev ise axalgazrduli xalisiT uZgers. TvalebSic Wabu-kuri naperwklebi ukiafobs.

welgamarTuli, msubuqad miabijebs patara qalaqis wynar quCebSi.

mokle, TeTri wveri. gawkepili ulvaSebi da mogrZo, un-aoWo saxe, xSiri, TeTri Tma, alag-alag kvercxis gulisferi rom gadahkravs, Sindisfer Coxa-axaluxSi gamowyobili da mxrebze dardimandulad mogdebuli yabalaxiT _ igi un-eburad izidavs gamvlelTa yuradRebas. Cerdebian, Tbili RimiliT acileben moxdenil berikacs.

babua beglaric grZnobs ucnobTa Tu nacnobTa am mzeras da... balRuri sixarulis Rimils ulvaSebSi malavs.

hm! vina Tqva, daberdao beglar laSxia? rogor SeiZleba odesme daberdes es firuzisferi ca, es igavmiuwvdeneli silamazis mTebi!..

_ babua, babua!patara biWi dausxlta dedas da moxucisken gamoeqana.babua beglari Sedga. gaiRima da TeTri, gasaocrad TeTri

da saRi kbilebi gamoaCina. mere xelSi aitaca bavSvi.cnobismoyvare TvalebiT Sehfofinebda biWuna moxucs.mere wversa da ulvaSebze mouTaTuna Tavisi funCula

xeli, mkerdze miexuta da gainaba._ Tazo!

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axalgazrda qali moiWra bavSvTan. mere darcxvenili, moridebuli RimiliT axeda babua beglars, TiTqos patiebas Txovda usityvod _ Svilis saqcielis gamo.

_ albaT Tavis babuas migamsgavsaT, batono! _ Tqva qalma. _ aba, geyofa axla. Camodi, nu Seawuxe ucxo babua.

_ amxela badiSi myavs mec! _ SehRima beglarma dedas. mere Tavis farTo mkerdze gatrunul bavSvs Tavze aler-sianad gadausva xeli.

_ modi, Svilo, geyofa!_ ala, ala, al minda, _ SeifrTqiala bavSvma da ufro

Caexuta moxucs.mere... kidev didxans esmoda babua beglars biWunas

tirili._ babuasTan minda... babuasTan minda...midioda da guli wydeboda. ra SesaniSnavi bavSvi iyo! ra

farTo, Wkviani Tvalebi hqonda!Tornike moagonda, Tavisi SvilisSvilis Svili. _ igic

gamoetira did papas, aRar uSvebda. Zlivs gamoepara.Tornike! yvelaze metad uyvars igi babua beglars am qvey-

anaze. Tornikem sicocxlis azri misca TiTqos mis siberes, yelTamde aRavso siyvaruliT, sixaruliT.

xval diliT adgeba Tu ara, jer bazars moivlis, mere maRaziebsac miakiTxavs. ra uyidos Tornikes?

badas badiSs svanuri qudi axuravs, koxta, patara, molis-feri. Zalian uxdeba biWs. Tornikesac imdagvar quds uyidis, Tuki Sexvda. kidev... burTi uyvars pataras, burTsac uyidis usaTuod. kidev... kamfetebsac.

fiqrebSi garTuli misdgomia kidec nacnob WiSkars. qa-laqSi Camosuli am oda-saxls gverds ver auvlis. miT ufro, ra xania ar yofila aq.

WiSkari SeaRo da ezoSi Sevida. wamiT Sedga. mimoixeda.gamxmari foTlebiT mofenila ezo-kari. SesasvlelTan

nagavi yria. WasTan pirqve damxobil saTls da kokis namsx-vrevebs hkida Tvali.

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fiqrianad gadaisva ulvaSze xeli. mere maspinZeloo, da-iZaxa mWaxe xmiT.

cotac da... morbian stumris Sesaxvedrad axalgazrda kaci _ qamrisa da perangis sworebiT da dabali, gamxdari qali odnav Semcbari saxiT.

_ mobrZandiT... mobrZandiT, babua beglar!mSoblebs gauswro Svidiode wlis biWma, babua beglarTan

miirbina. mere Soriaxlos SeCerda damorcxvebuli.moxucma bavSvs loyaze moucacuna xeli. mere gaRimeb-

ulma, qoCori mouCeCa: _ oho, ramxela vaJkaci gazrdila!.. amboben, devi yuriT daiWirao, marTalia, babu?

biWma Tavi CaRuna. gawiTlda. babua beglari axla col-qmars miubrunda. miesalma. moikiTxa.

_ Cems efros rom ver vxedav, sadaa?_ deda... ver aris kargad, babua beglar... ager ukve sami

Tvea wevs, _ Tqva kacma da Tvalebi Zirs daiRo._ ras meubnebi? me araferi gamigia._ ki, batono, sam Tveze meticaa, rac loginad Cavarda. _

kveri daukra qalma qmars._ rao, ra sWirs? ras amboben eqimebi?_ moxucebuloba, batono, meti ra unda sWirdes? im xnis

qalia..._ ratom? arc ise didi xnisaa, _ dakvirvebiT Sexeda ba-

bua beglarma diasaxliss, _ me ager oTxmocda xuTi wlisa var, efro ki, bevrad Cemze umcrosia.

_ Tqven, batono... _ Sescina qalma da sityva ar daasrula._ didi najafari qalia sacodavi. manaxeT erTi! _ darba-

zSi SesvlisTanave moiTxova stumarma.col-qmarma swrafad gadaxeda erTmaneTs._ jer daisveneT cota xani, batono... am bolo dros bavS-

viviT Wirveuli gaxda sacodavi deda... mTlad srul Wkuaze ver aris sawyali...

...babua beglari xmaamouRebliv miyveboda ukan diasaxliss da ratomRac ar siamovnebda misi metismetad daSaqruli Ri-

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mili, xma, kilo. gulSi gaCenili bewvisodena xinji TandaTan

izrdeboda, farTovdeboda.

grZeli aivani. aivnis bolos-sakuWnao. diasaxlisi uceb

Sedga.

_ `spalniaSi~ ar isurva dedam dawola. madloba RmerTs,

oTaxebi ki gvaqvs sakmarisi... magram aq mirCevniao, aiCema. ax-

irebuli gaxda sacodavi am bolo xans, aki giTxariT kidec...

_ sxapasxupiT laparakobda qali da isev ise daTafluli

RimiliT iRimeboda.

babua beglarma kvlav SeaTvaliera igi swrafi mzeriT,

TiTqos pirvelad xedavso: lamazi saxe aqvs da mainc...

axla kacs miwvda moxucis mzera: es axovani, brge vaJkaci,

xorblisferi, xuWuWTmiani, saxis msxvili nakvTebiT da msx-

vili, Savi TvalebiT-axla ratomRac mobuzuli Cans, dapata-

ravebuli da colis zurgs efareba TiTqos.

babua beglarma ulvaSze gadaisva xeli isev ise, raRac

mosazrebam Tvalebi aunaperwkliana.

mere sakuWnaos kari SeaRo da... zRurblze Sedga.

sibneleSi jer veraferi gaarCia. mere sawols mohkra

Tvali-kuTxeSi midgmuls. wamiT mouxeda col-qmars. qalma

Tavsafari gaiswora da ganze gaixeda, qmarma fexi moinacvla

da Tavi daxara.

Zlivs SesamCnevma damcinavma Rimilma daugrixa piri babua

beglars. zurgi Seaqcia SemosasvlelTan gaxirul col-

qmars, avadmyofTan mivida.

daleuli saxis moxuci qali mokuntuli iwva saeWvo

sisufTavis qveSagebelSi. mZafri da usiamovno suni, ro-

melic SemosvlisTanave eca babua beglars, axla, loginTan

miaxloebisas, ufro sagrZnobi gaxda.

_ gamarjoba efro! ra mogivida, Se gaWirvebulo? _ daix-

ara babua beglari da saxeSi Caacqerda qals TanagrZnobiTa

da sibraluliT savse TvalebiT.

moxucebulma qalma Sexeda beglars da...

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anazdad nikapi aukankalda, Cavardnili piri aacmacuna. amo-Ramebul, CaSretil TvalebSi erTbaSad raRac sxivi gaukrTa.

_ eh, ra unda giTxra, aba, Cemo beglar. var ase, rogorc mxedav... _ amoTqva bolos sveneb-svenebiT da uecrad mis Canavlebul Tvalebs ori kurcxali mowyda da saxis Rrma naoWebSi Caimala.

babua beglari Setokda. gulmoklulma xelSi xeli moki-da qals, gaCxinkuli ZvlebiRa iyo.

`am erT weliwadSi ase ram Secvala es sacodavi!~ _ gaifiqra wuxiliT.

_ unda gamagrde, efro, unda, gamagrde. sanam suli gvid-gia, unda vicocxloT. gavumagrdeT cxovrebas. anda saimiso ra gWirs, Se qalo? vefxviviT Svili gadgas Tavze, rZali, SviliSvilebi. ram dagaZabuna? ram SegaSina ase?

efrom Tavi daaqnia. gamouTqmeli tanjvisa da mwuxarebis naoWi Seikra misi bagis garSemo. Tvalebi daxuWa. gairinda.

babua beglari welSi gaimarTa. TvalebiT Zebna dauwyo raRacas da raki ver ipova, karebSi Semdgar col-qmars mkvaxe xmiT miubrunda:

_ skami!.. Tu SeiZlebodes..._ babua beglar... egeba jobia `zalaSi~ wamobrZandeT awi,

_ gaubedavad Seesityva mas kaci da cols gadaxeda._ marTla, wamobrZandiT, batono, zalaSi, iq moisveneT... _

SeeSvela qmars coli Tavaziani RimiliTa da Semparavi xmiT._ Tu SeiZlebodes... mamyofeT am adamianTan cota xans. _

mkveTrad amomarcvla babua beglarma da Tavis koxta, TeTr wverze xeli Camoisva (rac yovelTvis babua beglaris gagu-lisebis niSani iyo!).

_ rogorc geneboT, batono...babua beglarma sasTumalTan axlos miswia diasaxlisis

mier Semotanili skami da Camojda._ wadi beglar, wadi... didi madlobeli var naxvisTvis, _

CaiCurCula TvaldaxuWulma avadmyofma. beglarma araferi

upasuxa.

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col-qmari uxmod, usityvod gailala sakuWnaodan.

da... martoni rCebian moxucebi erTmaneTis pirispir. qali

TiTqos Tvlems Tu... buranSia?

babua beglari naRvlianad Sescqeris mis damdnar saxes

da... mware fiqrebi ukenwlaven guls.

ra aris adamiani! ra qali iyo odesRac, Tavis droze, es

Zvaltyavad qceuli, daCiavebuli dedaberi!..

da dagragnili TokiviT nel-nela iSleba erTi adamianis

cxovrebis ambavi beglar laSxias Tvalwin.

adre daqvrivda... xelis mTxovneli bevri hyavda, magram qm-

ris saxels ar uRalata. kera ar gaaciva... dedaboZad Seudga

ojaxs. oblebi vai-vaglaxiT dazarda. namusianad da wmindad

atara dedis da qalis saxeli. sami vaJi omSi daeRupa. er-

TiRa SerCa. imaT dabrunebas eloda. didxans eloda. axlac

elodeba. dardma da naRvelma gastexa da adre daabera.

es mravaltanjuli qali sicocxlis ukanasknel mijnaze

ukeTesi xvedris Rirsi iyo.

hm... Rirsi!

gana Rirsebis mixedviT miezRveba xolme yovelTvis ada-

mians?

mereda, ratom? ratom unda iyos ase?

...babua beglars Tavze SemouWdvia xelebi. Tvalnisliani

Sehyurebs qals, Soreul naTesavad rom ergeba. igi isev ise

TvaldaxuWuli wevs da xmas ar iRebs. Tvlems Tu...

uCumrad wamodga babua beglari. kari frTxilad gamoix-

ura. wamiT Sedga da mere...

darbazSi diasaxliss saxeldaxelo sufra gauwyvia. mox-

uci gasasvlelisken gaemarTa. col-qmari win gadaudga:

_ batono, sul cota xniT... marTalia, Tqveni sakadrisi

araferi gvaqvs, mara... Cveniani brZandebiT da ar dagvZrax-

avT... erTi Wiqa Rvino... miirTviT... _ iTafleba diasaxlisi

da TvalebSi Sescicinebs moxucs. babua beglari dums mz-

eradaxrili.

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_ dediko, bebiasac Sevutan saWmels, kargi? dRes araferi

uWamia... _ dairxa anazdad aqamde kuTxeSi uCumrad miyu-Juli bavSvis xma.

qali SekrTa. aimriza, mere Tvalebi daubriala Svils:_ xma Caiwyvite! Sen ra ici, rodis da ras Wams bebia?

gaeTrie axlave gareT!...uxmod gatrialda babua beglari karisken._ babua beglar... erTi Wiqa mainc miirTviT, dailoceT...Sedga moxuci. zizRiT savse mzera miapyro col-qmars; _ RmerTma Tqvenc SegarcxvinaT da Tqveni Rvinoc! _ fo-

ladnarevi xmiT gamokveTa, wverze Camoisva xelis guli da...SeyviTlebuli foTlebi SrialiT cvivian Zirs.Semodgomaa. mere mova zamTaric. savsebiT gaSiSvldebian

xeebi, tan-gaZarculi Sexvdebian darsa Tu avdars, mere...dadgeba gazafxuli.adamianis cxovrebac asevea. oRond... am xesaviT xelmeored

ar ayvavdeba misi sicocxlis toti.efros saxe moelanda babua beglars erTbaSad. man Tavisi

sicocxlis toti Svils gadasca, sanacvlod... ra miiRo?rad, rad moimko sikeTem-boroteba? da mere... visgan?daujerebelia. warmoudgenelia TiTqos da mainc...`ratom moxda ase?~ _ fiqrobs babua beglari.`ratom moxda ase?~ _ kiTxuloben Zirs SrialiT Ca-

mocvenili yviTeli foTlebi.`ratom moxda ase?~ _ Civis Rabua Citi, SiSvel totze

Semomjdari....da aRSfoTebis grZnoba yurZnis mtevaniviT nel-nela

wuravs berikacis guls.

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qviSis qalaqi

...am ramdenime xnis win Cexoslovakiidan stumari myavda. Cemis azriT, yvelaferi rom vaCvene, risi Cvenebac ki saWirod CavTvale, bolos mTxova, Tqvens eklesiaSi minda wirvas dav-eswro da Tqveni saxelganTqmuli sagaloblebi movisminoo.

waviyvane, rasakvirvelia. udroobis gamo wirvas iSviaTad veswrebi xolme. magram roca eklesiaSi sanTlebs vanTeb, ase mgonia, TiTqos Cemi sakuTari suli miWiravs xelSi am anTe-buli sanTlis saxiT-meTqi! gasaocari SegrZnebaa.

hoda, axla am stumarTan erTad rom vusmendi sagalob-lebs, uceb sulis fskeridan wamoiSala Zveli, miviwyebuli gancdebi... da axmiandnen ufaqizes, unazes bgerebad. vigrZeni, yelSi burTiviT momawva raRaca. nuTu esoden RvTaebrivi hangebi am codvil dedamiwaze Seiqmna? mokvdavma adamianebma aaJReres es zesTazenuri bgerebi?

...is grZnoba, ramac maSin Semipyro, eniT uTqmelia. sulSi TiTqos Cqeralebad meRvreboda sinaTle. Sen, adamiani xar _ uzenaesis saxe da xateba, amaRlebuli, wminda, spetaki. cis usazRvroebasTan wilnayari, mis sikeTesTan naziarebi, ganwmendil-ganspetakebuli yovelgvari WuWyisgan, biwisgan, bneli da ukeTurisgan...

...taZridan rom gamovdiodiT, Cems stumars cremli edga TvalebSi, saxe STagonebuli gaxdomoda. amaRlebul xasiaTze viyavi mec da irgvlivac yvelaferi lamazi da mSvenieri meCveneboda. sakuTari gulic _ siyvaruliTa da sikeTiT savse _ TiTqos TasiviT meWira xelSi da meSinoda, erTi wveTic ar gadmoRvriliyo iqedan da ase saTuTad metarebina bolomde.

stumari sastumromde rom mivacile, Sin ar mivbrunebulvar.Cemi meuRlis sayvedurebis mosmenis Tavi axla aRar mqon-

da. namdvilad: _ ara da, sami dRea onkanebi moSlilia da xelosani vera da ver moviyvane _ rom ityvian, stumars

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gadavyevi, Cemi Teas _ enacvalos mamamisis sicocxle _ mag-nitofonis Cxavilis atanac aRar SemeZlo axla...

gadavwyvite vakis parkSi gamevlo _ ufro sworad, parkis im kuTxisken, sadac patarebi da maTi bebia-babuebi iyrian xolme Tavs.

euliviT, martoka Camovjeqi merxze da vuyurebdi bavS-vebis garToba-TamaSobas. adrec, araerTxel mipovia aq su-lieri simSvide da wonasworoba. bavSvebis umanko Tvalebi, maTi Jriamuli, wkriala xmebi musikaze aranakleb miamebs xolme guls.

axlac vijeqi da Tvalyurs vadevnebdi bavSvebis TamaSs da nel-nela guli mevseboda sinaziT, simSvidiT. mere avdeqi da mivedi erT TmagaTeTrebul bebiasTan, romelsac patara biWi ar asvenebda da kalTebs aglejda _ `makatave~ bebo da `makataveo~ _ bebia ki, uarze iyo: etyoba, an ezare-boda, anda veRar dgeboda fexze daRlilobis gamo vTxove, bavSvs Tu SeiZleba, me Cavsvam karuselSi-meTqi. moxucma madlierebiT savse mzera momapyro da mcireodeni yoymanis Semdeg neba damrTo. Tavdapirvelad cotaTi SemeSinda, vai Tu uari miTxras-meTqi. ra ici: kacia da gunebao. esec ar iyos, yvela xom ar aris sando, vinc giRimis da geTavazeba. mokled, Cavkide xeli patara, buTxuzuna laSikos da gavwieT karuselebisken. sanam CavsxdebodiT, erTi almacerad SevaT-valiere Cemi Tanamgzavrebi da... CemisTana modRlezil da SedarebiT axalgazrda babuas ver vkide Tvali, magram es garemoeba arafrad Cavagde, mainc babuis poziciidan daviWire Tavi da...

mgoni, bavSvobis mere arc vmjdarvar karuselSi. rac ufro met xans vtrialebdiT me da Cemi patara laSiko, miT ufro iqeT, Sors iWreboda mogonebis sxivi. imdenad garemo da detalebi ki ara _ bednierebis SegrZnebis TviTgancda ufro maxsenebda Tavs.

am xuTiode wuTis ganmavlobaSi Cems sulSi datrialda bavSvobisdroindeli suraTebis mTeli kaleidoskopi. qrol-

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vis sixaruli, sulisSemtaci, Tavbrudamxvevi. mocinare Tva-lebi. siTbo. siyvaruli. sicil-kiskisi. RmerTo Cemo! ramx-ela siamea sulSi CaRvrili. ra sufTa da krialaa ca, ra Tvalwarmtacia irgvliv yvelaferi, rogorc axali wlis wina Rames gaCaxCaxebuli naZvis xe! ratom maincdamainc naZ-vis xe?

ar vici. mozRvavebul mogonebaTa mTel am oromtrialSi yvelaze mkveTrad, yvelaze cxadad ikveTeba axali wlis sixaruli da... qrolvis, dausrulebeli qrolvis SegrZneba...

da roca Zirs miwaze davdgi fexi, simarTle giTxraT, aRar mesiamovna warsulidan dRevandelobaSi dabruneba. aRar mesiamovna ki ara, Sinaganad aviwure, guli SemekumSa. da...

vijeqi mere da naRvelnarevi RimiliT vuTvalTvalebdi niCbebiTa da barebiT SeiaraRebul or boxvera biWs /erTi maTgani `Cemi~ laSiko gaxldaT!/, didis gulmodginebiT rom agebdnen qviSis saxlebs, xidebs, gvirabebs. oh, ra mondomeba exataT sayvarlad SublSeWmuxnul saxeebze, ra qSena-qSu-tuniT saqmianobdnen _ Cacucqulebi! mere is iyo damaS-vralebma, magram saocrad kmayofilebma, ganizraxes daeT-valierebinaT TavianTi naxelavi, rom uecrad: sad iyo da sad ara: gamovarda saxeWorfliani, wiTuri, cxvirpaWua, ona-varTvaleba, ase TerTmet-Tormeti wlis biWi _ gamoqanda, dahkra fexi da sul miangr-moangria aseTi WapanwyvetiT nagebi `qalaqi~. mere kmayofili xiTxiTiT wamiT mouxeda gaognebul, saxtadqceul bavSvebs, niSnisgebiT gamouyo ena, romelic ratomRac Zalian grZeli da Zalian wiTeli, sisx-lisfrad xasxasa wiTeli momeCvena da... iseve uecrad gaqra, rogorc gamoCnda.

_ daanglia! _ iseTi gaocebuli saxiT amoikvnesa laSikom da Tan ise sawyaloblad gabuSta tuCebi, rom guli momewva. axla am patarebisTvis maTi qviSis qalaqis dangreva lamis tolfardi iyo didebis amgvarive tragediasTan. es usamarT-loba da sisastike gaugebari, warmoudgeneli da amdenad, Tavzardamcemi gaxldaT bavSvebis gonebisTvis.

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xelSi avitace satirlad gamzadebuli, nikapakankalebuli

`Cemi laSiko~ _ Tan Cems Tavzec brazi momdioda, rom ver

movaswari dameSala onavari biWisTvis misi umgvani saqcieli,

verc datuqsva _ gafrTxileba SeviZel. laSikos rom davu-

kocne butkucuna loyebi da xelebi, mere meores davuyvave,

gabusxunebuli, SublSekruli rom idga da verafriT ver

aexsna, raSi da ratom dasWirda im viRacas maTi naSrom-

naRvawis, maTi ocnebis qalaqis daqceva.

_ nu dardobT, aageT xelaxla axali qalaqi da awi veR-

aravin gabedavs dagingrioT igi. nu geSiniaT nurafris! Seud-

eqiT saqmes. me ager, Tqven axlos viqnebi da giyaraulebT-

meTqi, _ vuTxari patarebs.

cremliani TvalebiT amomxedes da orTavem TiTqmis erT-

droulad SemomRima. o, es Rimili! Seedreba gana raime am

cisqveSeTSi bavSvis umanko, naTel Rimils?

patarebi isev Caikuncxnen da xalisianad Seudgnen sa-

saxleebis, xidebis, koSkebis, taZrebis Tu gvirabebis `agebas~.

vijeqi iqve, axlos, da Zalauneburad gafacicebiT vumz-

erdi maT saqmian fusfuss.

nel-nela, magram bejiTad Sendeboda daqceulis adgil-

ze axali `qalaqi~, sadac amieridan veRar unda SeeRwia

sisastikis, sixarbis, Suris, sicruis borot Tesls, sadac

siZulvilis wil ixarebda mxolod sikeTis da siyvaru-

lis yvavilebi da mTeli qalaqi iqceoda Tvalwarmtac baR-

narad, zRva sixarulisa da siamis alagad, axdenil ocnebaTa

TavSesafrad. da romelic iarsebebs manam, sanam arseboben am

mSvenieri qviSis `qalaqis~ mSeneblebi _ patara gogonebi

da biWunebi, angariSmiucemlad, dauZleveli surviliTa da

ZaliT rom mieltvian silamazes da sinaTles.

uceb `Cemi~ laSiko wamodga da Cemsken wamobaCunda.

mwrafl Sevegebe, ra iyo, genacvale? rame xom ar ginda-meTqi,

davekiTxe.

_ babua, kide daanglevs qalaqs is... is biWi?

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RmerTo! es kriala, moyavisfro-moTaflisfero Tvalebi... es angeloziseburi mzera... es sunTqva da silbo...

bavSvi xelSi avitace._ nu geSinia, genacvale. xom giTxari, ager Tqvens gverdiT

viqnebi-meTqi. veravin verafers dagiSavebT... _ ratomRac Cumad, Zalian Cumad, TiTqos CurCuliT vuTxari. laSikom kvlav gamiRima umanko RimiliT, mere moulodnelad orive xeli kiserze Semomxvia da... Camexuta.

daarqviT amas sentimentaluri gulCviloba _ rac gne-bavT is daarqviT, magram yelSi momiWira raRacam, Tvalebze cremli momadga da... wamieri, magram mtkice gadawyvetileba miviRe: `es bavSvi me unda movnaTlo!.. Tu monaTluli araa... me unda movnaTlo, usikvdilod, yovel mizezgareSe!~

da elvisuswrafesi mzera-natyorcni bebiamisisken, gaoce-banarevi RimiliT rom gviyurebs Soridan orTaves _ me da laSikos. netai, ra xdebao, kiTxuloben moxucebuli qalis odnavmoWutuli, libriani Tvalebi.

marTla _ ra xdeba?..mec rom ar vici, Cemo Zvirfaso qalbatono?

`uzundara~

kupeSi orni arian.es sixalvaTe TiTqos ufro intimur, myudro garemos

qmnis. Tumca... matarebliT mgzavroba isedac, TavisTavad gan-gawyobs xolme adamians ganmartoebisa da fiqrisken.

tanSi raRacnairi ucnauri mousvenroba Segidgeba. suli foriaqs da wrials iwyebs...

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iseT saxes iReb, TiTqos guldasmiT usmen Tanamgzavrs _ sinamdvileSi ki _ dafantuli goneba xan ras warmoisaxavs fiqriT da xan _ ras!..

`rogor daberda koki~! _ uceb, moulodnelad-sinanulma gaukenwla guli.

`rao, viTom-Sen ara?.. Sen kokize uaresad gamoiyurebi!~ _ wamsve gautrizava sakuTar Tavs _ niSnisgebiTac ki.

koki ki ganagrZobs... ho, marTla? ras enamwarobs aseTi damJavebuli saxiT da CamoSvebuli cxviriT?

Turme...ramdeni `orRobis universitetebi~ da `akademiebia~ gaxs-

nili, anu ramdeni TviTmarqvia akademikosi~ da profesori~ hyavs am cicqna qveyanas! Tundac partiebisa da arasamtav-robo organizaciebis saxiT! anu: ramdeni didebis maniiT Sepyrobili da dacentrili maniaki daiareba am duniaze!

`ai me da Sen _ namdvilebi varT~! (qveteqstSi ase igu-lisxmeba, cxadia!) iseve, rogorc, namdvilebi iyvnen isini, vinc Cven gvaswavlidnen (aba, Seedaron axlandelebi _ imaT!.. nuras ukacravad!)...

`eseni-CvenTan ver movlen. vera batono! mTlad Wipze rom gaskdnen!. Cveni Taoba _ sworedac rom gamorCeuli iyo yvelaferSi: ar hgavda amaT, am Saraxvetia, umaqnis `swavlu-lebs~ _ Cveni, viTomda Wkuiskolofa politikosebiviT _ yavarze rom aqvT kudi gadebuli!~

`ra mere~? _ iq, Signidan Tumc zantad, duned, mainc epae-qreba Tanamosaubres misi yurebacqvetili meore `me~.

`ra mere-meTqi? am Citirekia politikosebs rom Tavi davaneboT... Cven, `namdvilebma~ ra gavakeTeT, ra SevqmeniT iseTi, STamomavlobas rom darCeba? ha? movkvdebiT da... CvenTan erTad daimarxeba Cveni _ Seni da Cemi _ mecniereba, Cemo koki!.. Cemo Zvirfaso konstantine!

diax. asea es, baba! da-moikali Tu ginda Tavi!`Cven patiosnad vicxovreT!.. viRvaweT SeZlebisamebr!..

Cveni niWiT da SromiT mivaRwieT yvelafers~.

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`euh!.. vis raSi Wirdeba, kaco, axla Seni patiosneba da

Sromismoyvareoba?..

ai, mivdivarT me da Sen Tanaklaselis da megobris da-

krZalvaze: avTo arc akademikosi iyo, sxvaTa Soris, da arc

profesori! aranairi tituli ar gaaCnda am qveynad! TiTqos

erTi Cveulebrivi, ubralo biWi iyo da mainc _ ar iyo Cveu-

lebrivi. pirovneba gaxldaT igi! diax. pirovneba! axla, Tun-

dac sikvdilis Semdeg, vTqvaT gulaxdilad da gulwrfelad:

Cvens Soris yvelaze niWieri, yvelaze nakiTxi, gulRia da

vaJkacuri bunebisa-swored avTo iyo-garegnuladac yvelas-

gan gamorCeuli!

jer marto... rogor xatavda!.. an _ ra leqsebs werda _

oRond TavisTvis! diax. TavisTvis! maT gamoqveynebaze aras-

dros ufiqria: Sengan da Cemgan gansxvavebiT _ pativmoyva-

reobis grZnoba ar awuxebda da _ imitom! Tavis gulis Wias

axarebda mxolod! ase iyo es, Cemo koki!

...Rvino, duduki, qalebi!

mSobliuri raionis `mSobliurma sibnelem~ STanTqa igi.

anu...

ar gaumarTla cxovrebaSi! xelmokleobam daCagra Zalian.

mokled... ar mieca `niWsa gza farTo!~

asea es, Cemo Zamia!..

ramdeni talanti iRupeboda Zvelad da iRupeba axlac ase

_ upatronod!

da ai, mokvda. gardaicvala. samudamod gamoeTxova am wuTi-

sofels. magram... yvelaze tragikuli mainc isaa, rom... devni-

lobaSi dalia suli, diax _ Tavis miwa-wylidan gamoZevebulma!

veRar gauZlo misma gulma amden ubedurebas, batono! ve-

Rar aitana amdeni satkivari da... gaSorda am muxTal wuTi-

sofels _ gulgatexili, ganadgurebuli, Seuracxyofil-dam-

cirebuli, adamianurRirsebaayrili, sulSi CafurTxebuli...

asea, Cemo Zamia... yvela ki ver uZlebs Rirsebis Cawixvlas,

mexTatexas da qarborbalas.

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ai, me da Sen ki _ TiTqos vuZlebT _ jerjerobiT! vu-ZlebT... oRond, kacma ar icis _ rodemde? an risTvisaa saWiro es gaZleba?

vis raSi enaRvleba Cveni ubadruki arseboba? Tumca... ar gvaklia arc tituli, arc rangi!..

diax, ori `namdvili akademikosi da doqtori~ mivdivarT ager-meTqi gasvenebaSi, raTa mivusamZimroT sakuTari saxl-karidan gamZevebel Wirisuflebs _ ojaxis Tavis dakargva.

pativi xom unda mivagoT mis xsovnas da... davitiroT rogorc wesi da rigia!.. mere? mere ki... daviviwyoT!.. ho, daviviwyoT samudamod!.. anu: dro STanTqavs mis da... Cvens saxelebs! asea es, Zamiko!

diax. xval an zeg, an mazeg _ Cemi da Seni jeric dadgeba-meTqi Cemo koki!

sapatio titulebis da regaliebis miuxedavad _ Cvenc gavudgebiT-meTqi im gzas, saidanac... rogorc viciT _ aravin brundeba!

Cveni `damsaxurebis~ miuxedavad-Cvenc Cagvflaven-meTqi miwaSi da dagvitireben-Cveulebisamebr. ki-erTxans iviSviSe-ben da mere _ kargad meyole! yvelas daaviwydebi _ Sens na-Sierebsac ki! aseTia Turme cxovrebiseuli realoba! versad gaeqcevi am kanonzomierebas!..

Ze-xorciels aravis moagondeba-meTqi _ arc Cveni Sroma da jafa, arc Cveni _ gatexili Rameebi, wvaleba, oflis Rvra, Wapanwyveta, nerviuloba gamocdebis win, Tu... cudi niSnis miRebis SiSi, da... kidev bevri ram, rac cxovrebaSi Tavs gadagvxda da rac SenTvisac da CemTvisac erTob mniS-vnelovani da sagulisxmo ram iyo, sxvebisTvis ki-rogora vTqva? ho... `lavuazies~ sicariele, anu... mokled-biSti! egrea da!.. ras izam?

...egeb avTom Senze da Cemze ufro bednierad icxovra... titulebis gareSe? ha? egeb... ufro romantikulad? an ufro naRdi cxovrebiT icxovra? Tumca... mainc yvelaferi amaoa yvelaferi Caumwarda bolos!..

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da saerTod _ vin icis, ra ufro naRdia am cisqveSeTSi?

ise... saboloo jamSi xom _ yvelaferi _ sulerTia!

amaoeba amaoTa...

ki, Zamia-asea es! suyvelaferi _ erTia bolos.

yvelas, uklebliv yvelas, titulians da utitulos _ bo-

los miwa SeWams-meTqi, anu... imTaviTve, gaCenisTanave aryof-

nis, arafrobis msxverplni varT didian-patarianad, qalian-

kacianad, anu... bedisweras zvarakad Sewirulebi gaxlavarT

miwyiv-dasabamidan-meTqi!

hoda, ra esaqmeba maradisobasTan yovelive imas, rasac

Cven... cxovrebas veZaxiT? Tavis oromtrialiT?

arc araferi. sruliad araferi!

miwa xar da... miwad miiqcevi! morCa da gaTavda. irikave,

ramdenic genebos!

fexebsac ver moWam ZirSi im garduvalobas _ yovel

mizezgareSe rom gewveva da romelic... erT mSvenier Tu ube-

dur dRes _ zvaviviT dagatydeba Tavze. dagatydeba ucilo-

blad. ueWvelad. viT ...daupatiJebeli stumari! maS, razed

zvaob, qedmaRalo araraobav _ adamiani rom gqvia?

...dag-dug, dag-dug!

matareblis borblebis yru xmaurSi ireva moZalebuli

mRvrie fiqrebi _ uTavbolo, areul-dareuli, daglejil-

dafleTili, usagno, uniadago... uazro...

uazro?!

daica! raze ixdis bodiSs koki?

hoo... derefanSi unda Turme gasvla mcire xniT.

wadi, Zamia, wadi! vin giSlis? an... Tu ginda _ nu waxval,

darCi! mainc yvelaferi sulerTia-meTqi da he!

ise, axla viRacam, ucxom rom Semogvxedos me da Sen _

Zaan TviTdajerebuli sifaTebi gvaqvs albaT orTavs _ me

da Cemma RmerTma!.. anu... Zaan seriozul yeyeCebad gamoviy-

urebiT... uTuod!.. ar unda axla amas, RmerTmani, bevri JiJin-

WiWini!.. hi, hi, hi...

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viRac qirqilebs iq, SigniT... daukiTxavad... qirqilebs iqednurad, xelebis fSvnetiT, manWva-grexiT...

`daswyevlos RmerTma _ ra gunebaze var?~...marto rCeba. kupis sicariele da borblebis xmauri

nel-nela, magram daJinebiT, ritmulad uCaCqunebs TiTqos TavSi da es uxilavi, Sefaruli dartymebi Tavis anabeWds tovebs tvinis ujredebSi.

dag-dug. dag-dug...vin moTvlis, ramdenjer umgzavria am gzaze!..axla mSobliur qalaqamde TiTqos usaSvelod Sori

manZilia...iq, axla...ucxo xalxi daTareSobs: sxva xalxis ismis iq Jriamuli~.asea. poeti yovelTvis marTalia. igi winaswar Wvrets,

winaswar xedavs yovelive imas, rac... CvenTvis, Cveulebrivi adamianebisaTvis _ dafarulia... uCinaria...

TiTqos, sxva ganzomilebaSi myofi, poeti mainc mudam ireklavs yofierebas da mosalodnel, gangebiseul ganCine-bas! oRond... `sxvagvarad~! ara ise, rogorc Cven, Cveulebrivi mokvdavni!

diax. igi `sxvagvarad~ ganicdis da aRiqvams amqveyniurs da imqveyniursac, saaqaosac da... saiqiosac-meTqi!

egrea, es baba, da... verafers ityvi da... verc verafers gaawyob bediswerasTan-meTqi!

arada... iq, marTla axla sxva xalxi daparpaSobs! iq, mi-tovebuli saxl-karia mama-papaTa, mitovebuli saflavebia da... kidev bevri ram, rac odesRac _ geZvirfaseboda!

odesRac?..maS, axla... ara?`auxdenel fiqrs vin ar igonebs, Zvel ocnebebze romeli

ar swuxs?~ratom aekviata axla maincdamainc galaktioni?.. avTos

rom uyvarda Zalian, imitom xom ara?avTos?..

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rao, Sen ar giyvarda?

an... ras niSnavs _ miyvarda?

nuTu siyvarulic warmavalia, Zamiko? igic cvalebadia?

dro-Jamis srbolas igic ver uZlebs?.. igic cvdeba? Zvel-

deba _ rogorc tanisamosi, romelsac Tumc sinanuliT,

magram mainc iZrob da agdeb sanagveSi, anu imedebisa da

ocnebebis sasaflaoze, Tu... sasaklaoze? magram... eg xom

sulerTia bolosdabolos?

...uecrad, uneburad movardnil mogonebaTa niaRvarSi _

civad, uamurad, saxedaRmeWiT Semogcqeris Seni warsuli _

ganvlili wlebi! anu is, rac mogezmana, rac mogelanda!

ki, Cemo Zamia, mogelanda! sinamdvileSi ki _ arc araferi

yofila-meTqi, gesmis? araferi!

sizmariviT bundovani aCrdilebiRa dalaslaseben Seni

xsovnis dafaze. aCrdilebi. meti araferi! meti... araferi-

meTqi! Tumca...

im aryofils rom mainc drodadro uWvritineb... Sefa-

rulad? Tvalebze xelebafarebuli, Cum-Cumad, malulad xom

iWyitebi TiTebs Sua?

vis, an ras eTamaSebi kukudamalobanas patara bavSviviT

ha? Se bexreko?

TiTqos xedav da... verc xedav! TiTqos gaurbixar da...

verc gaqcevixar. eridebi da... verc garidebixar!

ki magram...

risTvis! ratom?

vis atyueb? sakuTar Tavs Tu...

raSi gWirdeba es daxuWobana?

...koki kupeSi Semobrunda.

ramden xans iyo netav gasuli? Tumca... raSi gainteresebs

es axla?.. da saerTod, raSi genaRvleba drois srbola?

dro-Jami xom isedac Senda daukiTxavad, ulmoblad miedineba

_ mdinaresaviT da... veRar SeaCereb. verc daewevi _ Tu gind

gaskdi WiWinaze!

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ise, gamotexilad rom iTqvas, Zveli megobris da Tanak-laselis naxva adrindeburad aRar gsiamovnebs. is ki arada, gulisgulSi _ gaurbixar kidec zogjer masTan Sexvedrebs... am bolo dros mainc!..

avTos gardacvaleba rom ara..._ uCa, ici, axla visTan viyavi, vin vnaxe? _ waWutuli

Tvalebi. eSmakuri Rimili gacrecil tuCebze.wamieri pauzis Semdeg:_ vera. ver mixvdebi verasdidebiT! Tu ginda, niZlavs

Camovdivar!`netai, mogclia!.. sul ar mainteresebs, Cemo koki, vin

naxe!.. raSi menaRvleba?~ da mere:_ hoo?.. _ (gulgrili, sasxvaTaSoriso Sorisdebuli)._ Tu gaxsovs... Tumca... ra ar gexsomeba, kaco, ras vambob?..

klara maswavlebeli vnaxe axla, biWo! Cveni qarTulis mas-wavlebeli!

_ klara maswavlebeli?! (`xom ar momesma?!~)._ ki, kaco. am matarebliT mgzavrobs. bolo kupeSi. Sem-

TxveviT gavige mec... ar ginda naxo? Zaan kia motexili... Tumca... ra gasakviria?.. magi ki ara _ Cven davberdiT ager!

`klara maswavlebeli?! nuTu?.. cocxalia?~_ gaxsovs, TiTqmis yvelani rom viyaviT masze Seyvare-

buli?.. avTom ramdeni leqsi dauwera Cumad... gaxsovs?koki kidev raRacas laparakobs, raRaceebs ixsenebs ucn-

aurad Tvalacimcimebuli da... iRimeba, farTod iRimeba sixa-rulnarevi-naRvliani RimiliT.

aRar usmens ukve megobars, arc esityveba; garindebul-gayuCebuli zis da... veRar umklavdeba erTbaSad, mewyeriviT movardnil mogonebebs...

...qarTulis axali maswavlebeli Camovida senakidano, _

dairxa xma me-2 saSualo skolaSi.

Zalian axalgazrdaao da Zalian lamazi! meeqvse-meSvide

klasebSi aswavlides iqneba enasa da literaturaso...

...pirveli naxvis elda!

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kedelsakruli, gaognebuli Sescqeris derefanSi mimaval maswavlebels, romelsac saklaso Jurnali ise uWiravs xel-Si, TiTqos Cvili bavSvi Cauxutebia mkerdSio.

saqmiani ieriT, odnav SublSekrulma Cauara klara mas-wavlebelma Sesvenebaze, derefanSi yovelTvis aJriamulebul, axla ki _ mis danaxvaze uceb gasusul moswavleebs, piri rom Riad darCeniaT da Tvalebi dauWyetiaT!

(klara maswavlebels, rasakvirvelia, maSin ar SeumCn-evia 16 wlis, kuTxeSi atuzuli, mzeradqceuli, gawripuli, fermkrTali ymawvili _ saxe erTianad feriWamiebiT rom hqonda dafaruli...).

Cauara da... raRacnairi, uCveulo, sasiamovno suni datova irgvliv _ albaT ucxo sunamosi.

mere... kai xnis mere aRiqva, rom yviTelfoTlebiani, abre-Sumis kaba ecva, odnav gulmoRiavebuli. tarisamosi ise Semotmasnoda, rom cxadad, aSkarad aCenda gaTqviruli sxe-ulis nakvTebs!..

gonebaSi ratomRac samudamod CaebeWda agreTve, Tanak-laselis da axlo megobris _ avTo gabunias gabrwyinebuli Tvalebi, misi farTo, kaSkaSa Rimili da... dagubebuli xmiT naTqvami:

_ oox! ra magari vinmea, biWoo!...klara maswavlebeli mecxre klass ar aswavlida. mecxre-

meaTeklaseli biWebi yovel Sesvenebaze amitomac derefan-Si iyridnen Tavs, samaswavleblosTan axlos, rom erTxel kidev SeevloT Tvali axali maswavleblisTvis, Tumca... arc erTi maTgani ar utydeboda Tavis Tavs da amxanagsac, Tu-ra mizniT idgnen aq.

klara maswavlebels ki _ yovelTvis erTob seriozuli gamometyveleba hqonda saxeze. iSviaTad Tu CaiRimilebda TavisTvis da... morCa! isev ise Seuvali ieriT miirxeoda grZel derefanSi. mkacri maswavleblis roli, etyoba, mos-wonda. amiT undoda, albaT, daefara Tavisi sinorCe, SeeniR-ba bavSvuri gulwrfeloba da uSualoba. vin icis!..

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gadioda dReebi, Tveebi... yoveldRiuri molodiniT, _ TviT misTvisac gaurkveveli molodiniT aRsavse!..

da ai, maisis erT mSvenier dRes, roca irgvliv yvelaferi hyvaoda da Tavbrudamxvevi surneleba idga haerSi, roca moswavleebs moaxloebuli gamocdebis gamo, cieb-cxele-ba SesdgomodaT tanSi _ xma gavarda _ qalaqis klubSi Tbilisidan da soxumidan Camosuli poetebi poeziis saRa-mos marTaveno.

...ra Tqma unda, saRamoze daswrebis msurvelni bevrad ufro meti aRmoCndnen, vidre xis patara klubi daitevda da mainc... am wyvetis miuxedavad, man da avTom warmoudgeneli xrikebiTa da eSmakobiT SeZles Sig, darbazSi SeRweva.

avTos is bednierebac ki xvda wilad, rom klubis admin-istratorma da adgilobrivi Teatris msaxiobma kondrate quxilavam mas daavala swored, fardis gaxsnis da daxurvis `sapatio~ misia!

Tavad scenis siaxloves, wina rigebis ganapiras, sadRac RriWoSi mikunWuli-gulisfancqaliT, mouTmenlad elodebo-da im wams, roca... farda gaixsneboda da... Tavis sicocxleSi pirvelad ixilavda amden cocxal poets!

da ai, dgeba es nanatri wamic! avTo fardas xsnis da... agugunebul darbazSi uceb sruli siCume isadgurebs.

...axalgazrda poetebi mgznebared, STagonebiT, zogi maT-gani ki _ metismetad xmamaRla-kiTxuloben sakuTar le-qsebs _ xalxis mxurvale taSis grialSi.

sulTqmaSekruli, TvalebgafarToebuli, Seurxevlad mis-Cerebia am sanaxaobas da Tavis gulis feTqvasTan erTad samudamod rCeba mexsierebaSi _ fardas Caxveuli avTo da misi aRgznebuli saxe, nakverCxaliviT anTebuli lamazi, Taflisferi Tvalebi, usazRvrod bednieri saxe da TeTri, kriala kbilebis elvareba.

damuxtuli mayureblebi... aRtacebuli saxeebi... sayovel-Tao zeimi da sixaruli irgvliv...

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leqsebis TqeSs enacvaleba pirveli da meore saSualo skolebis simRerisa da cekvis gundebis gamosvla.

am or skolas xom mudmivi qiSpi da metoqeoba aqvT erT-maneTSi _ vin ukeT icekvebs, vin ukeT imRerebs da... vis meti friadosani anu: oqros medalosani moswavle eyoleba!

am saRamos ki _ TiTqos pirvelma saSualo skolam da-jabna meore.

...darbazs efineba stumrebisTvis sagangebod gamiznuli Conguris Tu fanduris, sagundo Tu lirikuli simRerebis sulisSemZvreli melodiebi, cekvis Tavbrudamxvevi ileTebi, norC SemsrulebelTa gzneba da gamaognebeli temperamen-ti poetebis mier warmoTqmuli leqsebTan erTad _ aRfr-Tovanebas rom iwvevs darbazSi...

da... ai, uecrad, am mozRvavebuli, mouTokavi emociebis fonze _ konferansie, igive kondra quxilava acxadebs: meore saSu-alo skolis pedagogi klara beraia icekvebs `uzundaraso~!

darbazSi sruli mdumarebaa _ TiTqos siCumis angelozma Camoiarao!..

gaocebanarevi ineteresi da... cnobiswadiliT akvesebuli Tvalebis mzera!

uzundara?!ucxod, egzotikurad aJRerda anazdeulad es sityva

samurzayanos patara qalaqis mayurebelTaTvis... netavi, ra cekvaa? da rac yvelaze ufro saocaria: klara maswavlebeli icekvebs Turme axla, aq, am scenaze _ uzundaras?!

darbazi molodiniT inabeba, uCveulo molodiniT, rom ityvian, buzis gafrenas gaigonebs kaci.

...gatvrinuls, isedac sulTqmaSekruls _ saocrebis molodinSi-sxeuli erTianad eZabeba, sxeulis yoveli ZarRvi simiviT aqvs daWimuli.

samarisebur siCumeSi, romelsac Camosuli stumrebic ar arRveven _ kondra quxilava scenis siRrmeSi mdgar, sakmaod danjRreul, Zvel pianinos miujda. gaisma pirveli akordi da...

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ara. es ar iyo Cveulebrivi, Teatraluri Semorbena!..

scenaze TiTqos Semobrialda gazafxulis RvTaeba _

`tyaSi mafa~ _ tyis dedofali _ grZel, naoWebian kabaSi

gamowyobili, TeTrkoftiani, mkerdmaRali, maRalTeZoeba, ve-

lis gvirilasaviT yelmoRerebuli da TasmasaviT moqnili!..

mxrebze oqrosferi dalalebi gadmoRvria. magnoliisfer,

axla avardisferebul saxeze _ mocisfro-molurjo Tva-

lebi TiTqos cecxls afrqveven.

am momnusxveli, TeTri Rimilis da gazneqili, xorcsavse

tanis rxevis tyveobaSi eqceva erTbaSad yvela, mTeli dar-

bazi _ didian-patarianad!

TiTqos uxilavi koconi gizgizebs scenaze!

...ase hgonia, ase eCveneba ymawvilis aRtkinebul TvalTa

mzeras yovelive! ase esaxeba es dauviwyari suraTi patara

biWis feradovan fantazias.

esaa _ SiSveli, wvrili mklavebis da Camosxmuli tan-

fexis rokva _ ndomis, survilis da vnebis aRmZvreli _

erTdroulad!

gaxleCili, mwife broweulisferi tuCebis Tilismiani

Rimili _ Tvalwarmtac zmanebebSi xvevs biWs. (ai, rogori

Rimili scodnia Turme klara maswavlebels! rogori... xi-

bliani!).

scenaze izniqeba, tokavs, irxeva, roninebs _ Tavad gazaf-

xuli _ Seudarebeli mSvenierebiT Semkobili, gamabruebeli

surnelebiT dayursuli...

...es iyo TiTqos zebunebrivi, imqveyniuri arsebis wamieri

movlineba amqveynad _ zeciuri, miRmieri sulis-miwieri

xorcSesxma anu: patara scenaze ganxorcielebuli RvTae-

brivi misteria, zeSTagonebuli rokva menadisa _ am usaxur,

erTferovan, ubadruk yofierebaSi _ vnebianic da krZalu-

lic, awyvetilic da kdemamosilic! erTmaneTSi gadaWdo-

bili sulis da sxeulis mwveli Zaxili _ TavaSvebulic

da daurvebulic, gamomwvevic da krZalulic. rokva _ mS-

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foTvarec da damdorvebuli, zRvardadebuli da dauokebeli,

mborgavi da... daunjebuli....daretianebuli, gons maSin moego, roca darbazi azan-

zarda taSis cemisgan. TiTqos gamZvinvarebuli zRvis tal-Rebi _ afofril-ayalyebulni _ grialiT, zaTqiT askdebod-nen napirs...

mere?..ra moxda mere?...xalxi daSlas ar apirebs. igi daJinebiT, jiutad kvlav

da kvlav scenaze uxmobs mocekvaves.cxeli sunTqvisgan TiTqos oxSivaradenili darbazi _

dacxromas ar apirebs... _ blantsisxlianebic ki aboboqre-bulan, isinic cerze Seuyenebia da zemaRali Zabvis zRur-blamde miuyvania klara maswavlebelis `uzundaras~!

yvelas gadaviwyebia mowveuli stumrebi, romelTa pa-tivsacemadaa gamarTuli es saRamo.

xalxis mRelvarebam kulminacias miaRwia maSin, roca klara maswavlebelma gaimeora Tavisi solo-nomeri!..

...es saRamo klara maswavleblis benefisad iqca _ poet-ebis mier danTebul warmodgena-sanaxaobaSi!

mere...mere iyo gaTenebamde xetiali wynari qalaqis myudro,

badri mTvariT ganaTebul quCebsa Tu SukebSi. iyo Tvalax-muli zmanebebi... Ramis idumalebiT savse mdumareba.

akaciis Tu magnoliis, oleandrebis Tu vard-iasamnebis, narinjis Tu norCi foTlebis, xexilTa Tu yvavilTa, miwis lorTqo balaxebis damaTrobeli surneli _ erTmaneTSi areul-aTqvefili.

gabursalebuli biWi gauTangavs uCveulo Cvenebebs...gaxurebuli Subli da cecxlmokidebuli loyebi notio

niavsac ver gaugrilebia....Tavisdauneburad, mTvareuliviT Cauara im saxls, said-

anac stumrebisa da maspinZlebis Jriamuli da simRerebis xma gamodioda.

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iq... imyofeba albaT am dResaswaulis jadosani dedo-falic, klara maswavlebeli!

o, RmerTo, didebulo!riTi, rogor daimsaxuros am RvTaebis yuradReba? Rimi-

li... _ mxolod uCasTvis rom iqneba gankuTvnil-gamiznuli da romelic salbunad daedeba mis mZafr, sulier gancdebs?

ukve meramdened, mTeli sxeuliT grZnobs, rogor exveva usurvaziviT TeTri, qaTqaTa TeTri mklavebi da... meramdened ekvris sunTqva! meramdened uvlis tanSi saamo Jruanteli, meramdened kvnesis da oxravs uRvTod daWrili patara bi-Wis guli tkbil-mware tkiviliT!

nuTu... odesme mainc ver SeZlebs daipyros misi guli?mere ra, rom is TiTqmis rva wliT ufrosia. mere ra, rom

is maswavlebelia, TviTon ki _ moswavle! mere ra, rom is momxibvlelia, Tvalwarmtacia. rom is _ goniswamRebia, Tvi-Ton ki... TviTon _ jer patara biWia _ Seuxedavi, morcxvi, moridebuli?..

mere ra, rom arc simRera SeuZlia da arc _ cekva! verc leqsebs wers avTosaviT, Tumca... leqsebi TavdaviwyebiT uyvars, bevri leqsi zepirad icis kidec!

verc deklamatoria da verc musikosi _ vercerT instru-mentze ver ukravs. erTaderTi, riTac gamoirCeva skolaSi: esaa _ friadosani mowafea. maTematika da fizika exerxeba Zalian! istoria da literaturac uyvars. sul _ egaa!..

ai, gaisad, skolas rom daamTavrebs-aucileblad, usik-vdilod iswavlis umaRlesSi, TbilisSi! usaTuod gaxdeba gamoCinebuli mecnieri da mkvlevari. gaxdeba. usaTuod gax-deba. mere...

mere egeb klara maswavleblis keTilganwyobac moipovos? egeba...

ki magram...manamde?manamde ramdeni dro unda gavides? klara maswavlebeli

xom ar daucdis amden xans?..

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xom SeiZleba...SeiZleba ki ara _ gaTxovdeba albaT!.. aucileblad

gaTxovdeba!.. TviTon romc ar undodes _ vin gaaCerebs ise? sulac moitacebs vinme!..

`Sens naterfals me fexdafex davyvebi, Tavs moviklav, Tu Cemi ar gaxdebi!~ _ uneburad amoutivtivda gonebaSi avTos muxambazis strofi. mere Tavad mTeli leqsis kupletebi mowyda mis gaficxebul tuCebs da Ramis idumalebas Seerwya:

`xelis gulze dagisvam da gatareb,mTel qveyanas xeliT Semogatareb,niavsac ki axlos ar mogakareb,eh, lamazo, awic ar Semiyvareb?

marad Seni fexTa mtveri viqnebi,Seni gulis vard-zambaxi viqnebi,mxolod SeniT vinetareb, viqnebi.sadac waxval, maSinve iq viqnebi.

Sen vardi xar, me _ bulbuli frTosani,Tavs gevlebi dakodili mgosani.genacvlebi, guldaWrili mgosani.Cemo kargo, Semibrale mgosani.

rad ar ginda, rom sabralo giyvarde?siymawvilis cxovreba gamivarde.frTa momeci _ caSi gamanavarde.Sen gZulvar da me ki minda _ giyvarde!

Sens naterfals me fexdafex davyvebi.Tavs moviklav, Tu Cemi ar gaxdebi...

gulidan amoxeTqilma, bavSvuri gulwrfelobiT nawerma Tanatolis leqsma TiTqos suli dauama, Sveba mohgvara...

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moeSva, moiRvenTa da... igrZno, cremli wkanwkariT rom

Camosdioda Tvalebidan, da nikapTan eskvneboda _ Svebis, ne-

tarebis cremlebi...

...Tavis sicocxleSi pirvelad mivida skolaSi dagvianebiT,

da Tan ise, rom... gakveTilebi ar hqonda momzadebuli.

sindisis qenjnasTan erTad, SeSfoTebac ipyrobs: vai Tu

romelime maswavlebelma gamoiZaxos dRes!

maSin?

rogor moiqces maSin?

ra Tqvas? riTi imarTlos Tavi? imiT, rom... mTeli Rame

ar eZina, rom TeTrad gaaTena igi quCebSi borialiT, mTvaris

cqera-lamunSi da... leqsebis TqmaSi?.. rom fexebzed daikida

suyvelaferi: skola, maswavleblebi, mSoblebi da amxanage-

bic? da rom damTxveuliviT, mxolod erTaderT, amoCemebul

striqonebs imeorebda gauTaveblad? rom... mTeli Rame mcx-

unvare fantaziebiT kvebavda uzomod aCqrolebul guls da

aRgznebul gonebas?

...avTos gverdiT rom jdeboda, damnaSavis Rimili ar Sor-

deboda mis tuCebs. megobris moparuli leqsiT gamJRavnebu-

li gulisTqma TiTqos amunaTebda masTan, TiTqos raRacnairi

uxerxulobis Tu sircxvilis qveSecneuli, gaucnobierebeli

grZnoba daufleboda misdauneburad...

wamiT TavCaRunulma, iribad, qurdulad gaxeda megobars.

uceb avTo mTeli taniT gadmoixara misken da yurSi

uCurCula:

_ gaige biWo, axali ambavi? klara maswavlebeli gaTxovda!

avTos Tvalebi uCveulod uelavda. saxe wamoWarxleboda.

rao?!

uceb TiTqos Weri Camoingra, fexqveS iataki gamoecala...

Tvalebze erTbaSad bindgadafarebuls-ena waerTva.

mere?..

mere sadRac TiTqos SoreTidan, usasrulo SoreTidan

yrud moismoda:

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_ xo, biWo!.. pirdapir sufridan, gesmis? pirdapir suf-ridan gayolia Tbilisel poets, ai, imas aylayudas, Tvalebs rom nabavda da simRerasaviT rom warmoTqvamda leqsebs!

vis, vis gayvao? Tbilisels?romels? rom ar agondeba is poeti?amouvarda. gonebidan amouvarda da he!.. rac ginda hqeni

axla!...erTi uzarmazari monakveTi cxovrebisa dasrulda im dRes.dasrulda samudamod. samaradJamod.im dRes sabolood dasamarda agreTve vardisfer ocne-

baTa da iluziaTa krialosaniviT asxmuli, saocar zmanebaTa _ feradi gala!

daixura cxovrebis erTi umniSvnelovanesi kari _ sau-kunod!

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_ bolo kupeSi zis, biWo!.. TavisianebTan midis, senakSi. SviliSvili axlavs Tan. hgavs, xom ici, bebias! masaviT Tva-lebbrialaa, moxdenili... rasakvirvelia, ver micno. an... ras micnobda?.. ramdeni dro gavida!..

esiamovna, rom movagone Cveni skola, is dro gavaxsene...wamodi, Senc naxe. gauxardeba!..ise, ras niSnavs sibere _ es oxer-tiali!..wamodi, wamodi...xangrZlivi pauzis Semdeg:_ ara, ar wamoval. _ mere ufro kategoriuli kiloTi: _

ar minda vnaxo!_ ratom kaco?!`imitom, rom...me minda darCes igi Cems xsovnaSi iseTi, rogoric iyo

maSin... Tavis cxovrebis gazafxulze!.. rogoric iyo maSin... im saRamos... `uzundaras~ rom cekvavda~! banaluria? iyos banaluri da mainc...

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TiTqos kino-ekranze gairbina wamierad warsulis su-raTebma da... mere isev gauCinarda... samudamod. magram sa-gulisxmo is iyo, rom... gulis erTi ZarRvic ar Setokebia. civi gonebiT Sescqeroda gardasul Tavgadasavals. nuTu... mogonebebic berdeba?..

_ ase sjobs!dag-dug. dag-dug....matarebeli TiTqos usasrulobaSi miqris da warsulian-

awmyoianad _ guldagul, umowyalod kecavs swrafwarmavali dro-Jamis uxilav manZils _ am wuTisoflis binadarTa sve-bediT, Tu... ubedobiT, bedisweriseuli ganCinebiT!.. Tu...

riTi ara?!...gadaiqroles sizmris qarebma...

2002 w.

`sabediswero mijna~

(dokumenturi novela)

es ukve mesame wyeba iyo.pirveli ori guSin SemoiWra. RrianceliT, lanZRva-

ginebiT, xorxociT moedvnen saxl-kars. erTi nawili zemo sarTulze acvivda. meore _ qvemoSi, mesame jgufi garaJis win, patara moedanze mdgar axal manqanas rkalad Semoertya. akumulatori ar hqonda manqanas _ biWma ramdenime dRis win naTesavs aTxova. uakumlatoro manqanas trosi moabes da ise gaaTries ezodan. WiSkarTan fura elodebodaT. naZarcvs iq yridnen.

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idga oroTaxiani samzadis aivanze, joxs dabjenili da kriWaSekruli, tkiviliani garindebiT uyurebda yovelive imas, rac mis Tvalwin xdeboda. coli avadmyofobisagan ise-dac daleuli, mTlad muWisxelad qceuliyo. saxeze mkvdris-feri dasdeboda da sadRac kuTxeSi miyuJuli, isic TvalgaS-terebiT ucqeroda, ra marjved da saqmiani ieriT ezidebodnen saxlidan yvelafers _ risi waRebac ki SeiZleboda...

arada, gahqondaT... gahqondaT da... TiTqos dasasruli ar uCanda am taciobas. aRar ileoda saojaxo nivTebi, tansac-meli Tu TeTreuli, saban-gobani, Tu WurWleuli, televi-zorebi Tu macivrebi, sarecxi manqana... ar Tavdeboda avla-dideba da ar Tavdeboda Zarcva-rbeva.

yovelTvis egona, saSualod cxovrobdnen, miuxedavad imisa, rom qali eqim-ginekologi iyo, TviTon ki xan saswavlo nawilis gamge gaxldaT, xan skolis direqtori...

bolo Tormeti weli ki raionis kulturis ganyofilebis gamged muSaobda. TiTqos zedmeti araferi gaaCndaT da mainc... Turme ramdeni rame hqoniaT!

ezidebodnen da ezidebodnen wlobiT nagrovebs-SromiT, garjiT, wvalebiT SeZenil _ qonebas!..

kidev kargi, fiqrobda gaognebuli, rom biWma wina dRes col-Svili Zvel `JigulSi~ Casxa da engurs gaRma gaiyvana. mobruneba ki veRar moaswro. qalaqi ukve aRebuli iyo, ukve `boevikebi~ daTareSobdnen yvelgan.

...idga Seurxevlad, TiTqos mSvidadac gamoiyureboda garegnulad. bageze Rimilic ki SerCenoda-mware, natanji Ri-mili. sinamdvileSi iq, SigniT _ yvelaferi uduRda, yoveli ZarRvi uTaxTaxebda.

naoperacievi Tavis qala lamis axdomoda. guli ise gaS-magebiT ucemda, rom sabudaridan amovardnas araferi uklda. Tumca... nebisyofis saSineli daZabviT cdilobda _ gulgri-li ieri SeenarCunebina saxeze:

`amaT ar gavaxareb... amaT ar gavaxarebo!~ _ imeorebda gunebaSi, vin icis, meramdened! ar gavaxareb Cemi siZabunis

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da sasowarkveTis danaxviTo! ara. amas ver moeswrebian es

garewrebio...

...TiTqmis oci weli aSenebda am orsarTulian, lamaz

saxls _ xelmokleobis gamo gauWianurdaT misi damTavreba.

Tavis xeliT Wrida briketebs _ samsaxuris Semdeg ex-

mareboda xelosnebs, radgan sadRac Tavadac siamovnebda es

garja, oflisRvra... bunebiT mSenebeli iyo da albaT imitom.

Tavis xeliT rgavda yvavilebsac, dekoratiul mcenareebs,

palmebs, oleandrebs, kviparosebs, bzis buCqebs, magnoliebs,

kameliebs... mamis kvalobaze uvlida narinjebs.

dRemudam alamazebda da amSvenierebda ezo-kars. wylis

auzic TviTon gaakeTa. TviTonve moapirkeTa mozaikiT. sadme,

zRvis pirze Tu tyeSi uCveulo jirkvs an qvas naxavda _

saxlSi mohqonda... da... gauTaveblad akoxtavebda are-midamos.

TiToeul vards Tu yvavils patara bavSviviT uvlida,

rwyavda, niadags upoxierebda, esiyvaruleboda da efereboda

yovel rtos, yovel Zirs. albaT amitomac xarobdnen da

laRobdnen isinic _ patronis niadag mzrunvelobis qveS

myofni.

uyvarda da moswonda Tavisi kopwia kar-midamo, Zalian bevri

rom Senatroda. es baRnari misi pirmSosaviT iyo, misi cxoveli,

dauSreteli SemoqmedebiTi fantaziis nayofi gaxldaT.

zafxulobiT SemoCveuli SaSvebis Wax-Waxs usmenda Zil-

gamfrTxali. gamTeniisas SaSvebi erTad iwyebdnen galobas.

oh, ra siamiT avsebda mis guls, rogor atkbobda da axal-

isebda es uCveulo koncerti-TiTqos uxilavi diriJoris

mier misTvis sagangebod gamarTuli. ra netarebas hgvrida

mis poetur suls gangebis mier naboZebi es saCuqari!

saxlis orive sarTulis boZebs usurvaziviT Semoxveo-

da `izabelas~ totebi _ Sua Semodgomaze nayofiT daxun-

Zlulni, Tvalsa da guls rom uxarebda adamians...

diax, TviTon iyo am samoTxissadari, patara oazisis

dekoratoric, momvlelic, Semoqmedic sanam... sanam moulod-

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nelad, ucabedad ubedureba ar daatyda Tavs _ jerac jan-RoniT savse, Warmag vaJkacs cali xel-fexi waarTva damblam. dainvalidebuli mainc cdilobda miexeda Tavis baRisTvis: vard-yvavilebSi patara skams Caidgamda da marjvena xeliT eloliaveboda ylortebs...

...`boevikebi~ anu daqiravebuli mkvlelebi rom waSavdnen, gulma ar mouTmina da Zlivs-ZlivobiT, jaxiriT, magram mainc abRotialda meore sarTulze. biblioTeka rom gaZ-arcves, amas Soridan, samzadis aivnidan uyura da mainc... nanaxma guli dausera. netamc ar amovsuliyavio, netamc Cemi TvaliT ar menaxa es yoveliveo _ inana guldakodilma.

misi mdidari biblioTeka, egzom rom eamayeboda da Tavi mohqonda Tavis tol-sworebSi-studentobidan moyolebuli rom avsebda mas axal-axali gamocemebiT _ pirwmindad ga-nadgurebuli dauxvda. karadebis gamocarielebuli Taroebi davsebuli TvalebiviT Semohyurebdnen patrons. iatakze, aqa-iq wignebis grova eyara _ qarTuli wignebisTvis mainc-damainc Tavi ar SeuwuxebiaT momxvdurebs...

uceb... am miyril-moyril wignebSi Tvali hkida qarTveliS-viliseul `vefxistyaosans~ _ mis patara SviliSvils rom usaxsovra babudam.

gaWirvebiT daixara, aiRo gadamTielTagan naquslari, Se-lanZRuli wigni. akankalebuli marjvena xelis guliT gadawminda wignis yda, mere gulSi miixuta da wvalebiT Cauyva kibes pirveli sarTulisken.

ezoSi rom gamovida, igrZno, Tvalebidan wkvar-wkvariT Camosdioda cremlebi: `simwris anu SaSvis cremlebio~, mere, mogvianebiT gaiazra.

...is Rame, rbevis pirveli, saSineli Rame mezobelTan-xnier col-qmarTan gaaTenes. Ruda da nazi aqubardiebic qalaqSi darCnen-saerTo talRas gaqceulebisa _ ar SeerTe-bian, radgan saxlSi loginad Cavardnili, Rrmad moxuci mamida hyavdaT da saerTod, metwilad asakovanni, uZlurni

da daxeibrebulni darCeniliyvnen okupirebul qalaqSi.

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...iwva sxvis saxlSi gaunZrevlad, naxevrad Cacmuli da gafarToebuli TvalebiT Sesqeroda sibneles, gars rom Semoxveoda. xandaxan, drogamoSvebiT mis yurTasmenamde aRw-evda avadmyofi moxuci qalis kvnesa Tu bodva, xan meuRlis Cumi oxvra-gminva _ am mkvdrul siCumeSi, garSemo rom dasa-dgurebuliyo. avis momaswavebel, saSiS mdumarebas moecva mTeli qalaqi rbevis am pirvel Rames!

aqa-iq, kanti-kuntad srolis xmac gaismoda Cabnelebul irgvliveTSi. ratomRac axla gansakuTrebuli simkveTriT Tvalwin daudga `boeviki~, ezos kuTxeSi dagdebul bavSvis Sardis axal qoTans rom atrialebda xelSi uSno RreWiT. mere es `Zvirfasi ganZi~ danarCen nadavls miamata...

mware Rimilma tuCebi daugrixa. `eseni vin yofilan! es-eni vin yofilan-o~ _ uangariSod, uazrod imeorebda Tavis gulSi da isev da isev, meramdened trialebda mis Tvalwin am Savbneli dRis yoveli detali, TiTqos umniSvnelo wvril-manic ki mkafiod, mtkivneulad ikveTeboda gonebis dafaze!..

vera da ver daejerebina, rom es yvelaferi realurad moxda, rom es yvelaferi sinamdvile iyo da ara koSmaruli sizmari!

...inaTa Tu ara, maSinve wamodga. rakiRa TiTqmis gauxdeli iwva _ Zalian ar gaWirvebia Tavis mowesrigeba.

civma wyalma da gareT, sufTa haerze yofnam TiTqos odnav Sveba mohgvara, TiTqos gasiebul-damZimebulma gulma wamiT siame igrZno.

...seqtembris saocrad lamazi dila Tendeboda, rogoric icis xolme yovelTvis aq da saerTod, mTel saqarTveloSi. magram wamieri simSvide isev sulis mtanjvelma wrialma da SfoTma Secvala, is ki arada, am mSvidma, wynarma, Semodgomis surneliT dayursulma dilam kidev ufro gaumZafra ro-gorc sulieri, ise fizikuri tkivilebi.

maspinZeli dila uTenia samezobloSi gadasuliyo, rom moenaxulebina Sin darCenilebi da gaego, ra xdeboda im Ra-

mes qalaqSi.

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...sazareli ambebi moitana Rudam. pirvelsave dRes `bo-evikebs~ uamravi adamiani daexocaT. maT Soris maTi mezo-blebic: col-qmari Cqotuebi, biZina da lusia oTxozoriebi, Zmebi lakerbaiebi, pedagogebi xuta fircxalava, vaxtang emux-vari-meore msoflio omis monawile, da-Zma siguebi, Soniebi da kidev vin icis _ ramdeni!

Rudas yba moqceoda, Tvalebi gadmocvenaze hqonda, xma ukankalebda, sityva wamdauwum uwydeboda.

ras, ras erCodnen am mSvidobian, udanaSaulo xalxs!ratom, risTvis? _ hkiodnen Tavzardacemuli qalebis

cremlmgamSrali Tvalebi. Rudas meuRlem, erTianad Tmaga-TeTrebulma qalma ramdenjerme gaimeora Cawyvetili xmiT: _ Cven, Cven rogor gadavrCiT guSino. Tan muxlze gamete-biT irtyamda xels. albaT winaaRmdegoba ar gagviwevia da imitomo, Zlivs amoiknavla bolos _ SiSisa da zafrisagan mokuntuls, saxe rom SeSloda.

_ gaCumdi!.. ra sisuleles laparakob? _ SeuRrina cols Rudam, mere magidas miujda, Tavze xelebi Semoiwyo da... TiTqos gaqvavda.

TviTonac gaSeSebuli idga erT alagas, enaCavardnili. vera da ver aReqva gagonili, goneba eurCeboda daejerebina is, rac moismina Rudasgan.

marTlacda, ra ubedurebaa maT Tavze? ra RvTis risxva daatyda Tavs am patara, wynar, mSvid qalaqs?

aseTi sisastikiT, aseTi mZvinvarebiTa da ulmoblobiT _ vin Semoesia? faSistur urdoebs Tavis droze gadarCenili _ axla `moyvare mteri~ ase rogor imetebda?

risi gulisTvis? ratom?maS, marTali yofila, rasac ambobdnen im simxeceebze,

rasac sCadiodnen `boevikebi~ da separatistebi gagraSi Tu sxvagan? meoce saukunis miwuruls, TiTqos sayovelTao mS-vidobianobis Jams, ase sajarod, ase umowyalod da ga-nukiTxavad rogor xocaven uiaraRo, mSvidobian mosaxleo-

bas, Tavissave miwa-wyalze?

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risTvis? mxolod imitom, rom... qarTvelebi arian?

tvins uburRavda uamravi kiTxva, upasuxod rom rCeboda.

mere... gulma kvlav Tavis gaCanagebul saxl-karisaken gauwia.

colma daSla veRar gaubeda kacs da Tavadac aedevna.

...moRiavebul WiSkarSi TiTqos qurdebiviT Seiparnen. ak-

lebul saxls gverdi auqcies da samzadisken gaemarTnen. is

iyo aivanze fexi Sedges da...

`boevikebis~ axali razmi Semojliginda ezoSi... anazdad.

winamorbedebiviT, esenic myisve Secvivdnen ukve darbeuli

saxlis orsave sarTulze da winamorbedebiviT, gaSmagebiT

Seudgnen mis xelaxal Zarcvas. virTxebiviT swrafad daSlig-

inebdnen: kazakebi, somxebi, CeCnebi Tu afxazebad wodebuli

afsuebi. meZebari ZaRliviT enagadmogdebulni, aqloSinebul-

ni, xarbad eZebdnen axal-axal sakbilos... da raoden saocar-

ic ar unda yofiliyo, poulobdnen kidec TiTqos erTianad

gafxekil oTaxebSi. Turme rbevis meore dResac maTi samyofi

alafi kidev sakmaod darCeniliyo saxlSi!

...yinuliviT civ marcxena xelis guls uangariSod, unebu-

rad isvamda marjvena mtevanze: albaT qveSecneulad cdilob-

da ZarRvebis konvulsiuri tokvis SeCerebas. amaod. ar emor-

Cilebodnen nervebi. isev ise ganagrZnobdnen isini TaxTaxs.

verc SigniT, samzadSi Sesvla moexerxebina, rom Tavis

TvaliT mainc ar ecqira momxdvurTa saqmianobisTvis.

colma ramdenjerme gamosZaxa _ Semodi, kaco, ras gaCere-

bulxar maqo! magram TiTqos dayruebuliyo. adgilidan ar

iZvroda. da kvlav daJinebiT mieciebina mzera yovelive im-

isaTvis, rac xdeboda...

uceb erTma `boevikma~, avtomati rom kiserze Camoekidebi-

na, pirveli sarTulis Ria fanjridan xeli dauqnia, amodio.

colma Cumad wamoikivla _ ar waxvide, mogklaveno. mouxeda

qals iseTi TvalebiT, rom man myisve gaikminda xma.

nel-nela Seuyva pirveli sarTulis ukana kibis safex-

urebs.

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oTaxSi Seabija Tu ara, kazakma dauRriala: `kto eto? `boevik~ da?~ `vin aris es?~ `boevikia~ ara? _ da kedelze Camokidebuli mamakacis gadidebul suraTze avtomatis lu-liT aniSna. ori Tvis win gardacvlili mamis axalgazrdo-bis suraTi iyo. xolo misi naqoni tansacmeli, samegreloSi `niSans~ rom eZaxian, raRacnairi saswauliT _ xeluxlebeli ewyo sawolze.

_ eto moi otec! on nedavno umer! (es Cemi mamaa. is axlaxan gardaicvala!) _ Seecada, xma mSvidi hqonoda, saxe gulgrili, Tumca SigniT yvelaferi ucaxcaxebda Sekavebuli sibrazisgan.

_ da nasral ia na tvaego otca. snimi seiCas Je! _ mere uceb daumata: nu qCortu! _ da Tavad avtomatiT Seecada mis Camogdebas.

_ ne trogai, ia Je skazal _ on moi otec!(xeli ar axlo. xom giTxari _ is mamaCemia-meTqi!)kazaki swrafad moutrialda da gacofebulma uyvira: _

da, ti... kak smeeS, sukin sin? `Sen... rogor bedav _ ZaRliS-vilo? _ da rac Zali da Rone hqonda, cxvir-pirSi muSti Caartya: _ ia seiCas Je na meste rastreliau tebia, svoloC! (`me axlave adgilze dagxvret, aramzadav!).

im wamSi an iqneb wamis measedSic, sanam pasuxs gascemda _ TiTqos kino-kadriviT wamSi gaurbina Tvalwin mTelma misma cxovrebam _ bavSvobidan moyolebuli _ dRemde, 58-e wlamde!

omis Taoba iyo _ naxevardmSieri bavSvoba hqondaT. da mainc sicocxlismoyvarulni, xalisianni iyvnen, Tumca omiT sunTqavda irgvliv yvelaferi. omi iyo umTavresi Tema ra-dioSic, romelic dRe da Rame hqondaT CarTuli, ise ki-no-suraTebSi, Tu yoveldRiur cxovrebaSi, Sin Tu gareT, skolaSi Tu saxlSi _ omis Tema _ mTeli Tavisi trage-diebiT, daRupulTa gamo SecxadebebiT, tiriliT, gloviT, godebiT, dedis cremlSeumSrali TvalebiT _ gamowveuli ugzo-ukvalod dakarguli Tu daRupuli Zmebis gamo...

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da mainc... kino-suraTebidan aRiqvamdnen omis tragedias, radgan is omi _ mainc Soreuli Canda, radgan uSualod re-alurad am miwa-wyalze maT garSemo ar boboqrobda mexTa-texa da qarborbala...

...bavSvebi `omobanas~ TamaSobdnen kidec kino-suraTebis wabaZviT, Txridnen `akopebs~, xis mwvane totebiT niRbavdnen `Stabebs~, partizanTa razmebs da `omobdnen~ erTmaneTSi `wiTlebad~ da `faSistebad~ dayofilni.

erTxelac, zemoubnelTa anu `wiTlebis~ mzveravi xelSi CauvardaT qvemoubnelebs, anu `fricebs~.

da ai, patara biWi _ sisastikiTa da daundoblobiT cno-bil `Stabis ufrosis~ _ valeri adamias winaSe dgas. `Stabis ufrosi~ mowkuruli TvalebiT da damcinavi, gesliani RimiliT cdilobs `jaSuSobaSi~ gamotexos igi. biWi ki _ ar tydeba.

_ aba! ar ginda aRiaro, rom mtris mier Semogzavnili Spi-oni xar, xom? _ law!.. erTs meore mohyva, meores _ mesame...

biWs TvalT daubnelda, sulis siRrmemde Seuracxyofils daaviwyda, rom Tavad `plenia~, xolo valeri adamia _ mowinaaRmdegis `Stabis ufrosia~. gondakarguli, gaaf-Trebuli biWi moulodnelad eca da ramdenjerme muSti Caartya mkerdSi _ saxtad darCenil `Stabis ufross~, mere swrafadve gamovarda `Stabidan~ da aRSfoTebulma, magram `SurnaZiebma~, mdinares miaSura, qalaqidan moSorebiT rom miedineboda zRvisken... da mis talRebSi TiTqos Carecxa boRmisa da sibrazis grZnoba...

da meore SemTxvevac, ukve mowiful asakSi, aseve meyvseu-lad ikveTeba xsovnis dafaze: dgas amayad welSi gamarTuli da _ megobrebisa da axloblebis winaswari rCeva-darigebis miuxedavad _ bodiSs ar uxdis raikomis erT-erT mdivans _ sagangebod mowveul biuroze _ imaSi, raSic Tavs damnaSaved ar grZnobs. aseTi utexobiT ganrisxebul pirvel mdivans Semoaqvs winadadeba _ partiidan misi garicxvis Sesaxeb, ra-sac morCilad uWers mxars biuros yvela wevri, Tumca ician, rom usamarTlobas sCadian.

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warbSeuxrelad xvdeba am ambavs: _ me usamarTlobad mi-maCnia Tqveni ganaCenio, _ warmoTqva bolos da Tavaweulma, amayi ieriT datova kabineti.

skolis axalgazrda direqtorisagan im droisaTvis war-moudgeneli saqcieli elvis siswrafiT gavrcelda mTel qalaqSi... simarTlem mere ki mainc izeima usamarTlobaze, ma-gram TavisTavad es daumorCileblobis ambavi Rirssaxsovar mogonebad darCa bevrisTvis...

...axlac, am sabediswero Jams, gadamTielis mier moRere-buli avtomatis lulis win gaxevebuls _ kvlav TiTqos raRacnairi saswaulebrivi ZaliT ubrundeba Zaladobisa da usamarTlobis winaSe qedmouxrelobis adrindeli SegrZneba _ droTa ganmavlobaSi TiTqos miyuCebul-minavlebuli rom iyo masSi.

...myisve SeimarTa. saxe daesxipa erTbaSad, Tvalebi risx-viT aenTo: _ Ну и стреляй! Чего ждешь? Я и так расстрелян, (mes-role mere! ras ucdi? me isedac daxvretili var!) _ jiqur miaxala kbilebis Cumi kraWuniT da sibrazisgan erTianad saxegadafiTrebulma _ Tvali TvalSi gauyara `boeviks~ da... gaiRima-gaiRima mogonili, viTom mSvidi RimiliT, im RimiliT, odesRac raikomis mdivnis ganaCenis mosmenisas rom iRimeboda!

ramden xans gagrZelda ori wyvili Tvalis es uxmo Widili?

iqneb... erT wams? an iqneb... usaSvelod didxans?meyveseulad TiTqos SeCerda dro-Jami, gaiyina samyaro,

gaiTiSa goneba, irgvliv sqeli burusi Camowva.gaSeSebulma, iaraRmomarjvebulma kazakma _ anazdeulad

avtomati Zirs dauSva da...usityvod gatrialda.ra moxda!?nuTu sibralulis... Tu sircxvilis grZnobam gaiRviZa am

moZaladeSi?...goneba rom gadaewminda da Tvalebs sinaTle daubrunda,

gaiazra _ sikvdilis mijnasTan mdgari, kvlav am miwier,

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realobaSi rom imyofeboda. saiqiodan _ isev saaqaosken pirmoqceuli.

sanamde? sanamde gastanda amqveyniuri jojoxeTuri orom-triali? rodis eqneboda amas dasasruli?

gulma uceb igumana: arc ise Sorsaa bolo, tragikuli akordi, arc ise Sors _ am amaoebis bazarSi _ cxovrebas rom eZaxian!

1998 w.

arabuli tango

...sastumros foieSi Cems mamidaSvil ninikosTan erTad velodebi administrators _ igi direqtorTanaa da Cvenc vicdiT _ sxva ra gza gvaqvs.

foieSi ungrelma turistebma moiyares Tavi. _ umetesad axalgazrdobaa.

ninikom Cinebulad icis germanuli: germanuli fakulteti aqvs damTavrebuli. aRmoCnda, rom ungrelebi germanulad mSvenivrad saubroben.

svetTan axlos, savarZelSi vzivar da iribulad, Cum-Cu-mad gavcqeri am mxiarul, xalisian jgufs. sadRac siamayes vgrZnob, rom niniko am darCeul gogo-biWebSic brwyinavs (Zalze uxdeba broweulisferi qvedaweli da wiTelkople-biani TeTri perangi), rom igi ase Tavisuflad, Tamamad emaslaaTeba madiarebs ucxo enaze. saerTod, ninis enebis didi niWi aqvs. SesaniSnavad icis inglisuric, rusulze rom araferi vTqva. axla espanursac swavlobs.

niniko ungreTSi namyofia. da axla ramdenime ungruli frazac gaixsena. ungrelebi aRtacebulni arian...

vzivar Cumad, mofarebulSi da minda ase SeumCneveli davrCe: jer erTi, daRlili var mgzavrobiT da arafris

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xalisi ara maqvs, meorec: ar minda yru-munjiviT vidge maT Soris enis ucodinarobis gamo da mere, simarTle rom vTqva, ar momwons, roca nametnavad eZalebian ucxoelebs, zogjer ki pirdapir Tavs abezreben xolme gadametebuli yuradRebiT.

movida administratori, magram turistebTan baasiT gar-Tul ninikos ar SeumCnevia misi gamoCena. me ki avwrialdi...

saqmes me ver movabam Tavs. eg cxadze ucxadesia CemTvis. arada, axla ninikosTan misvla ar ginda?

yoymanis Semdeg bolos mainc fexis TreviT gavwie misken, frTxilad Sevavle mklavze xeli. moixeda:

_ oh, ciso?.._ administratori movida. erTi wuTiT wamodi._ axlave, axlave.mere isev ungrelebs miubrunda da raRac Tqva. albaT

maT Cemi Tavi gaacno. yvelani momaCerdnen, me ki cal-calke veravis varCev. TvalebSi TiTqos bindi Camidga. vdgavar gamoTayvanebuli saxiT da uazrod viRimebi. mere ninikom mgoni bodiSi moixada, mklavSi xeli wamavlo da wamovediT.

ninikom pasporti gamomarTva, Sig Tumniani Cado da admin-istratorTan mivida. me moSorebiT SevCerdi. ninikos danax-vaze administrators moRuSuli saxe myisve gaebadra. `aha, gasWra ninis jado-Tilismam~, _ gamielva TavSi da sadRac uxerxuladac ki vigrZeni Tavi, es drouli kaci ase rom acundrukda.

axla miT ufro warmoudgenlad meCveneba fulis SeZleva, xom gadairia es Rimiladqceuli, darbaiseli kaci-Tqo, magram Cemda gasaocrad, yvelaferma mSvidobianad Caiara: adminis-tratorma fuli ise swrafad da SeumCnevlad Seinaxa gulis jibeSi, rom Tvali Zlivs Sevaswari misi xelis moZraobas.

viRacis Tu raRacis Semrcxva. Zalian Semrcxva. yvelaze ufro ki mgoni-Cemi Tavis.

...oTaxSi rom marto davrCiT, ninikom kritikulad miaT-valier-moaTvaliera iqauroba, saabazanoSic Seixeda, aivanze gavarda.

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_ ara uSavs, ufro uaress movelodi! _ Tqva da Tavis mowesrigebas Seudga. me aivanze gavedi.

zRva. Cemi zRva. sul axlosaa kviparosebi... Rrmad vi-sunTqav odnav mlaSe, gril haers. TvalebiT ki xarbad vela-munebi zRvis silurjes. vdgavar gatrunuli, aRelvebuli. moRlili mze ki Tavis uCinar badeSi maxvevs nel-nela. moR-lili mze... mec daviRale, Zalian daviRale fexiT xetialiT...

_ Sen ratom ar emzadebi? _ momesma ninikos xma._ vemzadebi? risTvis? _ igi Ria karSi dgas da pirsax-

ociT saxes imSralebs._ rogor risTvis? kafeSi ar CavideT? ara gSia?_ ici, arafris Tavi ara maqvs. Zalian daviqance._ kargi erTi. nu xar Sen aseTi... _ mere Caicina, ara, Ca-

icina ki ara, katasaviT Caikrutuna da Tvali CamipaWuna: _ im Savtuxa ungrels mgoni magrad moewone, xom ici.

_ aba ungreli?_ viTom ar ici. Tavs nu ikatuneb! xom ici, me araferi

gamomepareba. is ungreli Cum-Cumad sul Sen giTvalTvalebda._ uh!_ uh, ar unda amas!_ ra maqvs, gogo, mosawoni?_ ar vici. sxvaTa Soris, Cems amxanagebs yvelas Zalian

moswonxar._ ar gadamrio axla! _ daviWyane me._ bevrs nu laparakob, Cqara gamoewyve. Tumca, es kaba gec-

vas. Zalian gixdeba!niniko Tan laparakobs, Tan koxtavdeba da waramara sar-

kis win trialebs._ me arsad ar movdivar. _ vTqvi da sawolze gadavweqi.

xelebi TavqveS amovide.movwonvar ara! jer erTi, ninikos gverdiT rogor SeiZle-

ba vinmes movewono da meorec... im ungrelisaTvis xeirianad arc Semixedavs. ori sityvac ar miTqvams; ise, rasakvirvelia, mec SevamCnie is biWi. wvrili, mogrZo Savi Tvalebi hqonda,

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odnav monRoluri tipisa. maRal, mosxletil tanSi Zala

da energia igrZnoboda. yovelive es elvisuswrafesad, erTi

Tvalis SevlebiT aRviqvi. morCa da gaTavda. mere erTxelac

ar gamixedavs misken.

ise, raRacnairi auxsneli alRoTi vigrZeni, rom... im biWs

TvalSo mouvedi, rom igi drodadro Cemken aparebda mzeras.

saerTod, yovelTvis gulwrfelad mikvirs, roca viRacas

movewonebi. marTalia, es ambavi TiTqos msiamovnebs, rogorc

yvela qals albaT (me mgoni, vaJsac aranakleb siamovnebs

qals rom moewoneba igi) da mainc... yovelTvis gaugebaria

da auxsneli TiTqos es ambavi. ar vici, ratom momdis ase.

niniko Tavze damadga.

_ Sen ra, marTla ar apireb wamosvlas?

me mxolod Tavi gaviqnie uaryofis niSnad. da kvlav Wers

gavuStere Tvali.

_ ciso! _ SemajanjRara, _ geyofa axla. nu bavSvob. civi

wyali Seisxi saxeze da xelad gagivlis daRliloba!

jiuti sul ara var, magram amjerad Cems, ase vTqvaT,

gakerpebas sxva safaneli aqvs. ar minda im brwyinvale

maraqaSi gareva, mizezTa gamo sxvaTa da sxvaTa. mTavari da

xelSesaxebi argumenti, cxadia, daRlilobaa.

da mainc veRar gavuZeli ninikos Semotevebs, zlazvniT

wamovdeqi, xel-piri davibane da sarkeSi Cavixede.

arasodes gansakuTrebuli yuradReba ar mimiqcevia Cemi

garegnobisTvis. arc Cacma-daxurvisTvis Semiwuxebia Tavi

maincdamainc.

axla, sarkeSi rom vuyurebdi Cems saxes, meucnaura Cemive

Tavi. TiTqos sul sxva viRaca icqireboda sarkidan gabrwy-

inebuli TvalebiT, afeTqebuli saxiT....

...kafeSi me ninikosa da erTi saTvaliani, maRali gogos

Sua aRmovCndi. Cems pirdapir ianoSi ijda. ramdenjerac

avixedavdi, imdenjer mis momRimare Tvalebs vawydebodi. ami-

tom vcdilobdi misken ar gamexeda.

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uceb ianoSi magidaze gadmoixara da ninikos raRaca uTxra. ninikom gaicina da me momibrunda: _ ianoSi msayve-durobs, Seni da marto tuCebs akarebs Wiqaso. erTi Wiqa mainc gamocale, gogo. nu geSinia, ar dagaTrobs. ver xedav, gadarie biWi!

Sampanuri Zalian miyvars da, erTi Wiqa ki ara, bare oric davlie; uxerxulad viRimebi da arafers vambob.

raRacnairad vgrZnob, rom am biWs marTla movwonvar, da mainc... gulwrfelad mikvirs: rogor SeiZleba ninikos gver-diT vinmes movewono-meTqi.

ianoSi kvlav ixreba ninikosken... igi kvlav icinis da mere me miTargmnis mis enamaxvilobas. ianoSi uCumrad Tvals madevnebs da roca mec gamecina mis naTqvamze, kmayofilma Tavadac gaicina. vgrZnob, yvelaferi, rasac is ambobs, Cems gasagonadaa naTqvami.

cxadia, CemTvis sul erTia, ra moyveba am ambavs. an ra unda mohyves? diliT, roca gemi moSordeba napirs (xval uTenia midian Turme gemiT odesaSi, iqidan ki samSobloSi), es wamieri nacnoboba Tu gataceba nisliviT gaifanteba...

amJamad, am wuTs ki yvelaferi mainc lamazia, Zalian lamazi da kargi. kmayofili var da mixaria. raRac Zalian mixaria. am sufraze me mSvidad da uSfoTvelad micems guli, rac ueWvelad Cemi Tavisadmi rwmenis Sedegicaa, ase xSirad rom maklia xolme sxva dros.

uceb, ratomRac 56 wlis tragediebi maxsendeba... TiTqos Cvens dReSi arian da mainc... ungreTi _ evropaa! eh. Tavs zeviT Zala araa!

darbazSi bevri ucxoeli zis, orkestric ucxour musikas acodvilebs, Zalian minda iyos raRac Cveni, Cveneuli, raRac moewonoT am ucxoelebs, raRac dainaxos, raRac igrZnon...

sul tyuilia. mxolod uxeiro mibaZvaa imaTi: tlanqi, gauCorknavi da sxva araferi.

niniko sacekvaod gaiwvies. Cems gverdiT mjdomi ingac wamodga. uceb guli amikankalda. vaiTu, CemTanac movides

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vinme. vici, arafris gulisTvis ar gavyvebi da Tan guli meleva, vaiTu, aravin movides!.. da am dros erTi `Cveni~ ungreli-qera, maRali biWi mepatiJeba...

gulze momeSva da... Tavi gaviqnie (Cemi meore `me~ ki miy-urebs Soridan da damcinavad qirqilebs).

ianoSi Cumad zis, gamalebiT eweva sigarets da magidisT-vis dauSterebia Tvalebi. is biWi rom movida CemTan, wamiT Tavi aswia, dadarajebuli, yuradRebiani mzera hqonda. roca uariT gavistumre, isev daxara Tavi.

guli miTqvams, ianoSi mova CemTan da gamiwvevs sacekvaod, aucileblad gamiwvevs.

wavyvebi? albaT ara. albaT ki ara, namdvilad ar gavyvebi. jer erTi, me ar miyvars es manWva-grexa, cekvas rom eZaxian

(ase SeiZleba Tavi moigiJiano Zalian viwro wreSi; sajarod,

saxalxod ki...) da Semdeg:

es gaSiSvlebuli vneba Tu Jini pirvelyofil adamians

ufro Sehferis, vidre Tanamedrove civilizaciis naSierT

_ rafinirebuli sulis mqoneT. Tumca... vin uwyis, iqneb es

pirvelyofili bunebrioba sjobdes pirobiTobiT SezRudu-

li Tanamedrove adamianis uuflebobas, rasac ganaTleba,

kultura, civilizacia hqvia! iqneb... sulac esaa adamiani?

es Tavawyvetiloba, zRvardaudebloba emociebisa?

_ Tqven ratom ar cekvavT, cisana? _ damtvreuli ru-

suliT mekiTxeba ianoSi da jiqur miyurebs TvalebSi. me

mxrebi aviCeCe, gaviRime.

_ ar giyvarT cekva?

kvlav gaviRime da araferi mivuge.

_ o, gasagebia, Tqven ar mogwonT es cekva. iciT, arc me

momwons.

uneblie gaoceba gamomexata saxeze.

ianoSi gaCumda.

TiTqos mocekvaveebs vumzer, gulisyuri ki Cemi mezob-

lisken maqvs.

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`ras momCerebia, netavi? ra gaawyala guli!~

aseTi musika Zalauneburad aRviZebs adamianSi velur in-

stinqtebs, romelic uTuod Tavawyvetil rokvaSi unda ga-

davides. me ki sul ar minda am ganwyobilebas avyve axla.

uneburad daZabul-damuxtuli vzivar da vnatrob, male gaT-

avdes yvelaferi.

musika Sewyda. mocekvaveni TavTavianT adgilebs daubrund-

nen. niniko misma ucxoelma kavalerma moacila Cvenamde.

ianoSi uceb wamodga da orkestrisken wavida. sportu-

lad Sekerili xakisferi xalaTi acvia, saxeloebakrefili.

Txeli biWia, moqnili, elastiuri. ninikom uceb gadamiCur-

Cula: _ Sen rom ar iyo, Segecilebodi naRdad.

Sevxede. igi ucnaurad iRimeba da sigarets abolebs.

ianoSi mobrunda da Tavis adgilze dajda. Tvalebi eS-makurad uelavs. raRac gadaulaparaka Tavis gverdiT msx-domT. mere ninikos uTxra raRaca. niniko isev ise iRimeba, Taviseburi, momxibvleli RimiliT.

uceb ...arabuli tangos mdore, zanti hangi moefina darbazs!kvlav wamoiSalnen sacekvaod.ianoSi adga, CemTan movida, daixara;_ gTxovT... _ wamiT dabneulma avxede mis seriozul

saxes. da......TiTqos sxvisi TvaliT aRviqvam eleqtronis SuqiT ga-

brdRvrialebul darbazs, wyvilebs, tangos taqtze rom irw-evian da Cems Tavs _ am ucxo, ucnob vaJTan mocekvaves.

...darbazSi TiTqos marto Cven orni varT da... aris siTbo. uCveulo sinaze da gazafxulis Tbili wvimasaviT Sxapuna sixaruli.

_ cisana!vfxizldebi._ diax.TvalebSi ver vuyureb ianoSs. Sig ise aSkarad irekle-

boda vaJis gulisTqma, rom vamjobine Tvali ameridebina.

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_ iciT... Tqven SesaniSnavad cekvavT, cisana! _ meubneba

ianoSi, vin icis ramdenjer Tqmul da gacveTil, banalur

sityvebs da me mainc vwiTldebi. ra mocekvave me var? am

asxletil vaJkacTan xom sul daleuli vCanvar, albaT. mxre-

bamde Zlivs vwvdebi: Cemi `Zalian maRali quslebic~ ver

mSvelis. magram TviTon marTlac Cinebuli mocekvavea da mec

kargad macekvebs. misi sityvebi, cxadia, qaTinauria mxolod

da... iqneb, sxva ramis Sesavalic.

_ cisana... ra kargi saxeli gqviaT, lamazi, uCveulo...

`xom vTqvi? daiwyo...~

_ namdvili qarTuli saxelia _ vambob imas, rac enaze

pirvelad madgeba.

_ diax, diax. qarTuli. me iseTi bundovani warmodgena

mqonda saqarTveloze, am zRaprul qveyanaze, zRaprul xalxze...

vgrZnob, ianoSi daJinebiT eZebs Cems mzeras, me ki mSvidi

ieriT sadRac mis mxars zeviT viyurebi da...

`droa Sewydes... aRar minda, aRar minda es ambavi~.

_ cisana iciT... _ ianoSs ena ebmis da vgrZnob, es marto

enis ucodinarobiT ar mosdis axla: _ imdeni ram minda

giTxraT da... veRar vaxerxeb...

`yvelaferi Tqves Senma Tvalebma ianoS farkaS! enis cod-

na aucilebeli ar yofila~.

gadaWriT davade xeli mklavze da am dros musikac Sewyda.

...Cveni magidisken rom movdiodiT, Soridanve Tvali vkide

ninikos momRimare saxes. aviwure. TiTqos raRac danaSauli

Camedinos. igi albaT aseT moments ar gauSvebs da...

welze xeli Semomxvia da Tavis gverdiT damsva. mere

daixara da CamCurCula: _ rom icode, ra kargi xar am

saRamos! es kaba mainc gxatavs, isec feriasaviT nazsa da

sifrifanas.

madlieri da gaocebuli TvalebiT avxede.

...inga rivieras da saqarTvelos zRvispirs udarebs erT-

maneTs da upiratesobas am ukanasknels aZlevs aSkarad. da

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saerTod, ingac, ianoSis ar iyos, metismetadaa aRtacebuli Cveni SavizRvispireTiT.

isev ukraven sacekvaos. niniko wamodga, ianoSs mxarze xeli daado, Tan me gadmomxeda. gamicina. aqaoda, xom ar eW-vianob, me rom ase megobrulad, Zmakacurad var ianoSTano.

`ise, Tu movindome, xom ici?~... _ micinis TvalebiT.`o, rasakvirvelia, Sen xom yovlisSemZle xar, niniko! gana

ar vici, magram CemTvis sulerTia... merwmune, yvelaferi sul-erTia~, _ gavucine mec.

ho, TiTqos sulerTi unda iyos, magram uceb, TviT CemT-visave moulodnelad, guli momewura.

ratom? ra sisulelea? aki ara aqvs mniSvnelobao...ianoSi wamodga, sigareti saferfleSi Casrisa da ninikos

gahyva. me saCqarod ingasken mivabrune Tavi....metismeti cxoveli interesiT vusmen ingas da Cemda

gasaocradve sakmaod azriani SekiTxvebiT warvmarTav sau-bars. ingac rolSia Sesuli da Tavisi damaxinjebuli ru-suliT yveba STabeWdilebebs. erTi ungreli vaJic uerTdeba Cvens saubars. rogorc Cans, arc mas eprianeba axla cekva.

vcdilob, ar gavixedo mocekvaveebisken._ aq iseTi TvalismomWreli, kaSkaSa mzea, iseTi lurji

ca, rogoric arsad minaxavs, arc erT qveyanaSi. xom marTalia, matiaS?

_ italiaSic ar aris aseTi ca... _ kvers ukravs matiaSi.cekva damTavrda. da roca jdeboda, ninikom kvlav moZe-

bna Cemi Tvalebi (vici sagangebod). da metismetad umankod, metismetad gulubryvilo RimiliT gamiRima. mec gavuRime, oRond ar vici, rogori Rimili iyo, ranairi. saerTod, cudi `msaxiobi~ var da gulis zraxvis dafarvas maincdamainc ver vaxerxeb da... xSirad arc msurs. adamiani is unda iyos garegnuladac, rac Sinaganadaa. da radgan me ar SemiZlia siyalbe da TvalTmaqcoba, verc sxvaSi vitan am Tvisebas;

...ianoSi kvlav Cems pirispir jdeba. vcdilob, ar vuy-

uro. niniko raRacaze udardelad kiskisebs, erTdroulad

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elaparakeba sufris ramdenime wevrs.

sqel-sqelma, saTvalianma ungrelma isev kargi Sexvedrebis

sadRegrZelo warmoTqva... danarCenebma erTxmad aitaces es

sadRegrZelo. erTbaSad daicala sasmisebi. mec cota movsvi

da Wiqa isev magidaze davdgi.

niniko ianoSs. raRacas ekiTxeba, albaT, Sen ratom ar sva-

mo. ianoSs mklavebi magidaze dauwyvia isev ise, savse Wiqas

miSterebia. da... Cumadaa. mere Tavi aiRo erTbaSad, TiTqos

mxolod axlaRa gamofxizldao, Wiqas wamoavlo xeli, mere

Cemsken gadmoixara:

_ me Tqvens sadRegrZelos vsvam, cisana...

gaocebiT Sevxede: _ Cemi da ninikos sadRegrZelo aki erTxel ukve Seisva?

_ me kidev vsvam... xom SeiZleba? me kidev minda davlio Tqveni sadRegrZelo, cisana...

mxrebs-Ra viCeCav. verafers vambob. es xom qarTuli su-fra araa Tavisi gansakuTrebuli wesrigiT da kanonebiT da arc Tamadis... simkacriT?

_ aiReT Tqveni Wiqa, cisana!me uangariSod Sevasrule misi brZaneba.Wiqa WiqasTan moitana, wamiT monusxuliviT Sevacqerdi

saxeSi._ bolomde unda gamoscaloT, bolomde! _ gaisma aqeT-

iqidan da axlaRa SevniSne: Turme yvela Cven gviyurebs: me da ianoSs Semogvcqerian.

uneburad ninikos Sevxede. mas odnav, odnav mouwkuravs Tvalebi da... iRimeba Taviseburad, ucnaurad.

...kafedan gvian wamovediT. TiTqmis yvelam gamogvacila. ia-noSi ki Cveni sarTulis derefnamde amogvyva. xmas ar iRebda.

xval uTenia gemi gava portidan, morCa. samudamod wavida es saRamo. sulSi ki raRaca duRs... da rom damalo is `raRaca~, _ iRimebi. da gixaria kidec, rom yvelaferi das-rulda, gaTavda, morCa! rom xval dilidan mogonebaRa Segr-Zeba am saRamosi, sizmariviT bundovani da gaurkveveli mo-

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goneba... mogoneba da, kidev raRac aqamde ucnobi, miukvleveli, rac SenSi yofila Turme;

* * *

...gamTeniisas Zlivs wamTvlima._ cisana, cisana, gaiRviZe!niniko damdgomia Tavs da manjRrevs._ ra moxda? sada varT? _ jer kidev ver gamovrkveulvar

Zilisagan._ ciso, foieSi ianoSi zis!uceb gamovfxizldi, wamovjeqi._ ianoSi?! ras laparakob? aki... aki wavida gemi?

_ gemi ki wavida, magram ianoSi ar wasula.

_ ?!

_ ver gaige, gogo? ianoSi darCa-meTqi, geubnebi.

_ ratom? ki magram... ratom? _ uazrod vekiTxebi ninikos

TvalebdaWyetili. igi mravalmniSvnelovnad iRimeba.

_ eg Sen TviTon gamoarkvie. Seni naxva unda... sxvaTa Soris.

_ Cemi naxva? _ nerviulad visvam xels yelsa da loy-

aze. mere isev loyasa da yelze. tvini ki gamalebiT iwyebs

muSaobas. darCa? RmerTo Cemo...

anazdad ninikos miwvda Cemi mzera. igi gamgebiani, aler-

siani RimiliT miyurebs. da uceb... vmSviddebi, Cemda gasa-

ocradve, simSvide meufleba.

_ arsadac ar Caval! _ vTqvi da kvlav sawolSi Sevweqi.

sabani nikapamde wavixure. Tvalebi magrad davxuWe. guli

mainc micems aCqarebiT, gulis cemas ver moverie.

`rad mindoda axla es me? rad mindoda? risTvis, ratom?~

_ Sen gesmis ras laparakob? _ ninikos Tvalebi ufar-

Tovdeba, saxe axlos moaqvs CemTan: _ ras hqvia, ar Caval?

biWi Seni gulisTvis darCa!

_ mere?

_ ra mere? _ nanikos ar esmis Cemi an ar unda gamigos.

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_ mere-meTqi? rom Cavide, ra moxdeba amiT?

_ didebuli biWia. ganaTlebuli, kulturuli. Sen ggonia,

ver davadgine-vin aris, ras warmoadgens _ dediserTa bi-

Wia. inJineri. budapeStSi cxovroben. Sen xom ungrelebi da

polonelebi, vici Zalian gesimpaTieba. Cvennairi tragikuli

xvedris xalxebiao. 56-Si CvensaviT gadauares maTac wiTelma

faSistebmao. hoda, aki erTi SesaniSnavi ungreli gamoCnda...

_ mere?

_ ra dagiCemebia, gogo, es mere, mere? _ gacecxlda erT-

baSad igi. _ Tu ar ginda, Zalas aravin dagatans. iyavi da

icxovre iluziebiT, rogorc aqamde da... imecnier-imuSake!

wamieri pauzis Semdeg isev daiwyo:

_ ki batono. Sen aravin mogcems Sens asaks, magram...

ocdaaT wels xom miukakune ukve?.. Sen ra, Sinaberad ginda

darCena?

_ ra uWirs mere... saqarTveloSi cotaa gana gauTxovari

qali? ramdenic ginda, xom marTalia? hoda, erTi maTgani me

rom viyo, ra daSavdeba amiT?

_ ara, Sen normalurad migaCnia mere es ambavi?

mxrebi aviCeCe: _ zogi ram qalze araa damokidebuli, es

xom Senc ici.

_ araferi vici me. axla... qalebis aqtiurobis droa, miT

umetes, roca...

_ ratom gaCumdi? miT umetes, roca aseTi Sansi gamogiC-

ndao, ara?

_ Tundac. sasiamovnoa, viRac-viRaceebma, Sens frCxilad

rom ara Riran-iqilikon da raRac arasrulfasovnebas...

gausvan xazi? arada, Cvens snobistur qveyanaSi xom asea?

_ Cvens snobistur qveyanaSi, _ sityva CamovarTvi _ gaaCnia,

vin rogor sazRvravs. erTi inglisis dedofali elisabedi

iyo arasrulfasovani pirovneba!.. ise, rom icode, qali Tu

gaTxovdeba kargia, Tu ara _ miT ukeTesio, uTqvamT Zvelad...

_ euh! Tqva ruqam araki...

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_ ruqam ki ara, pavle mociqulma brZana ase.

_ ki, magram... ratom? Sen ra, monoznobas apireb?

_ ici, niniko, aris erTi garemoeba... ise, Sen ratom cx-

arob ase, genacvale? gauTxovrobis safrTxe, me mgoni, Sen ar

gemuqreba.

_ isRa maklia gauTxovari davrCe!.. me Sens gamo momdis

brazi... xom ici, Sen marto biZaSvili ara xar CemTvis... me...

_ vici, vici, magram... Tbilisis garda, me sxvagan ver

vicxovreb _ es gamocdili maqvs ukve! da saerTod... Cemian-

ebis gareSe arseboba ver warmomidgenia sxvagan!..

_ euh! patriotizmis motivi... W. p. y.-s SemoqmedebaSi!.. ar

gavcvli salsa kldeebsa...

_ niniko, nu matrabazob. ise... Sen msaxiobi unda gamosu-liyavi, saca samarTalia!

_ ra atami, ri atami, ara? Sen gecineba, magram... Cven isec msaxiobebi varT yvelani. gansakuTrebiT ki _ Cven, qalTa jilagi!.. Tumca... arc mamakacebi arian, mgoni naklebni.

_ geTanxmebi. magram... zogi ufro niWieria, zogi _ Sedar-ebiT uniWo. me, magaliTad, uniWo gaxlavarT am profesiaSi.

_ hoda, maSin upriania, uniWom zogjer niWiers _ dauje-ros, Tundac igi asakiT masze patara iyos. ara, erTi es miTxari, ucxoeli maSin ar iyo, Tvalebs rom nabavdi mis mklavebSi? ha, Tavs ratom ikatuneb? ratom cruob? xom cxadia, Senc rom magrad dagevasa ianoSi?

_ mowoneba sxvaa, siyvaruli kidev _ sxva! esec ar iyos..._ moica, moica Tu da xar! didi, namdvili siyvaruli

iseTive iSviaTobaa, rogorc brilianti. mgoni, ase aqvs naTq-vami Sens sayvarel mwerals niko lorTqifaniZes... danarCen SemTxvevaSi... adamis da evas modgmis umetesoba mowonebiT Txovdeboda da mowonebiT irTavda cols! ase iyo aTadan-babadan da asea dResac!.. Zvelad, arc mowonebas dagidevdnen. mSoblebis neba-survilze iyo yvelaferi damokidebuli.

_ da xanumazec!_ xanumazec. ki batono. icine Sen, icine da ase ki iyo.

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_ ici, axla Zalian magoneb luba bebias..._ misi SviliSvili var. raa gasakviri? sxvaTa Soris, an-

iko bicolac anu dedaSenic _ amave azrisaa._ niniko, Cemo sayvarelo, xom xar Cemze umcrosi erTi

Svidi wliT mainc? Tanac niWieric brZandebi Cemze. Cadi Zirs da... uTxari imas... ianoSs, rom...

_ araviTar SemTxvevaSi, araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar Caval!me Tvali TvalSi gavuyare. man mzera daxara. xmas dauwia

da ganagrZo: _ eg... ra zrdilobaa bolos da bolos: imas Seni naxva unda, SenTan laparaki da ara CemTan. da saerTod, ra daSavdeba imiT, rom Sen TviTon Caxvide da normalurad esaubro? ra, Zalas dagatans... Tu?

`me gamiWirdeba, gogo. gesmis? gamiWirdeba!~ _ es gulSi warmovTqvi, xmamaRla ki vuTxari: _ niniko, Caxval da etyvi, rom... me SeuZlod var, rom... mokled, is mixvdeba...

_ xo, xo, xo, ra argumentia _ qvas gaxeTqavs! _ gamitri-zava naTqvami damcinavi siciliT: _ qeTo avad ariso...

_ nini, Tu RmerTi gwams, SemeSvi... _ da anazdad, Cemda un-eburad, cremli momawava Tvalebze.

niniko gaSra. gaxevda. albaT ar moeloda Cemgan aseT reaqcias. me ucebve aviyvane Tavi xelSi:

_ kargi. me Caval! me davelaparakebi! _ ganvacxade mtkice xmiT da swrafad, TviT CemTvisve gasaocrad, swrafad movwes-rigdi gaognebuli da mzeragadarajebuli ninikos Tvalwin.

karisken rom gavemarTe, gonsmosulma ninikom uceb dama-devna:

_ kai. kai, me vetyvi saTqmels... Seni ambavi ro vici, na-jaxiviT gasWri. codoa biWi!

_ ara. me Caval! _ civad movWeri da saxeze Seuvali gamometyveleba avixate.

...kibeze rom Camovdiodi, Soridanve Tvali vkide ianoSs. igi sigaretiT xelSi, foieSi mimodioda.

Cems danaxvaze uceb Sedga.RmerTo!

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aseTi TvalebiT aqamde aravis Semouxedavs CemTvis. aravis! da arc aravis gaxarebia ase Cemi danaxva. arc erT suliers.

RmerTo!rogor moviqce?`ra, ra unda vuTxra?~

Z v e l i m i n i a t u r e b i

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CaZiruli saflavebi

`wm. giorgi~

(terenti granels)

nela mivuyvebi asakib-dasakib biliks.gorakis wverze wamomarTuli momcro saydris gumbaTs

Soridan momwvano-molibro feri gadahkravs.Tumca aprilis mze TvalismomWrelad kaSkaSebs, xandaxan

iseTi susxiani sio wamouberavs, loyebze bususebi meSleba. Semcivnuli, uneblieT vibuzebi da labadis sayelos maRla viwev. fiqrebi damfrTxali CitebiviT aqeT-iqiT gamirbian.

am bilikze amodioda albaT isic, didi, Zalian didi xnis winaT. araferi darCenila aqeTken miseuli. nasaxlari jag-narsa da ekal-bardebs daufaravs. erTaderTi beberi magno-lia dgas eulad. miusafrobisa da upatronobis ieri gada-kvria aq yvelafers, rogorc mis saflavs TbilisSi.

sulismosaTqmelad vCerdebi wamiT. irgvliv myudroeba da siCumea iseTi, guls rom esalbuneba `Celas~ hangiviT. TiTqosda SenSi Semodis es siCume, an ufro sworad, Sen, Sendauneburad, TandaTan Sedixar am RvTaebriv mdumarebaSi, da sul-xorcianad iZirebi masSi.

...biliks rom Sevudeqi, iseTi SegrZneba gamiCnda uceb, TiTqos poetis landi amedevna kvaldakval. xan win gamiswrebda, xan gverdiT momdevda, xanac ukan molaslasebda qancgawqyvetili. misi daRlili gulisfeTqvac ki cxadad mesmoda.

gzawvrilze, mosaxvevSi moulodnelad patara, anci biWuna gadamidga. oqros kululebs niavi uwewavs. didron, cisfer TvalebSi kvimati naperwklebi kianToben:

_ saiT gagiwevia aqeT?Sevyureb gancvifrebuli. magram... biWi anazdadve gaqra.

Tvalsa da xels Sua gauCinarda.

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zanzalakebis wkriali Semomesma gaognebuls.virindebi. vayuradeb am xmas, gulis uSoresi mRvimidan

rom amodis Turme.marTlac, sad modixar? ratom? ras daeZeb am ukacriel

aremareSi, dumilisa da myudroebis savaneSi?ra dagkargvia am naxevraddangreul saydarSi, frTeb-

dalewili gediviT rom garCenila borcvis Tavze?...urduls ganze vwev. WrialiT iReba muxis ZvelTaZveli

kari. frTxili nabijebiT Sevdivar Sig.kedlebze aqa-iq SemorCenila freskebis fragmentebi. Tva-

lebdaTxrili wmindanebi, gadafxekili warwerebi, daxeTqil-gabzaruli kedlebi, minaCalewili sarkmlebi. obisa da nestis suni trialebs: _ mitovebuli nasaydrali _ mlocvelebis gareSe darCenili samlocvelo!

ai, isic saxelganTqmuli raindi _ TeTr raSze amxedre-buli, laxvriT rom gmiravs xaxadabCenil da daRvlarknil urCxuls.

sadRac amovikiTxe, ar maxsovs oRond sad, esaao simbolu-rad sikeTisa da borotebis orTabrZola. Turme arc erT freskaSi ar Cans bolomde dalaxvruli gveleSapi. aqac gaavebul qvewarmavals Tavi auReria, TiTqos ainunSi ar ag-debs mxedars: ara da ara! _ ar epueba TeTrosani raindis risxvas.

didxans, ratomRac erTob didxans grZeldeba es Widili. egeb... arca aqvs am rkinebas dasasruli? gulgangmiruli urCxuli egeb marTlac ocnebaa mxolod? survili da nat-vraa gulisgulSi naloliavebi?.. mis SigniT amozrdili natvris xea da... meti araferi?

TeTr raSze amxedrebulma raindma, TeTrosanma moymem aucileblad, usikvdilod unda daamarcxos gveleSapi, radgan es amayad yelmoRerebuli vaJkaci Tavad sikeTea da, maSa-sadame, uZlevelia. igi Turme zecaSic aris, dedamiwazec, Sens gulSi binadrobs uCumrad da fiqrebSic rialebs, igi dRemudam, niadag, mouSoreblad Tan gaxlavs. isaa Turme ase

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daundoblad da Seupovrad rom ebrZvis SenSi dasadgure-bul siaves, wyvdiads, wkvaramsa da RurRumels. igi yvelga-naa, yvelaSia. xan dafaruli, uCinari, xanac gacxadebuli, Tvalxiluli. Subosani raindi... gSvelis, gmfarvelobs, gi-cavs sibnelisgan, gulis uSores kunWulebSi rom Cabude-bula. gicavs gasaWiris da faTerakis Jams.

aTaswleulebidan moagelvebs igi merans, aTaswleulebia, ibrZvis borotebis dasaTrgunavad _ sikeTis dasamkvidre-blad am qveynierebaze.

...iq, gulis uZiro fskeridan daZruli zanzalakebis wkriali TandaTan Zlierdeba. saamod wkarunoben zanzal-akebi: `wmindao RmerTo, wmindao Zliero wmindao ukvdavo, Segviwyalen Cven!~

jege misaronis _ wminda giorgis naxevraddaqceul say-darSi vanTeb sanTels svegamwarebuli poetis sulis mo-saxsenieblad... mere vjdebi galavnis kideze da sevdanarev mzeras vavleb Cems win gadaSlil mTis patara borcvze Sefenil sofels.

aqeT wamosvlis win vfiqrobdi, suraTebs gadavuReb am ganwirul sofels-Tqo (`reportaJi ganwiruli soflidan~, hm!), magram uqmad damTrevs mxarze naTxovari fotoaparati da iseTi SegrZneba meufleba, TiTqos momakvdavis sasTumal-Tan vidge da wuTi wuTze velodebode mis aRsasruls, Tumc momakvdavsac da mec Tavi ise gviWiravs, sikvdili aqve axlos, karis zRurblTan ki araa moZuZgurebuli, aramed sadRac Sorsaa, usasrulod Sors, cxra mTas iqeTaa gadakarguli.

maS ase:wyali dafaravs male aqaurobas, wyali dafaravs am lamaz

are-mares. wyali gadarecxavs uiRblo poetis nakvalevsac da misi Tavisufali suli, romelic mieltvoda ara sikvdils da ara sicocxles, `aramed raRac sxvas~-gaecleba am mida-mos da frTebis msubuqi farTquniT miaSurebs cis sauflos: gaixizneba samudamod, rameTu: suli ver uZlebs Ramis napra-lebs, o, sibnelea da gulgriloba~.

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desi da pante

...erT xans Seurxevlad miyurebda moWutuli TvalebiT, Tumca ki miTxres, Tvalic Cinebulad uWris da smenac max-vili aqvso, mainc ise wavadeqi Tavze, isliT gadaxurul samzadis `abarwaze~,1 jorkoze Camomjdars da kalaTis wv-naSi garTuls, rom ucxos miaxloeba ar ugrZvnia.

mere... aizezeura. axaluxis Sexsnili Rilkiloebi bo-lomde Seibnia. megruli mejogeebis tradiciuli qudi gais-wora, Tavze TovliviT TeTr, mokled SekreWil wverze xe-lis guli Camoisva da Tavaziani RimiliT SemipatiJa oda-saxlSi. ager, aq Tqvens Soriaxlos mirCevnia-meTqi, vuTxari da samfexa skamze Camovjeqi.

erTxans mdumared Sevcqeri am as wels gadacilebul moxucs.

gamoxunebuli cisferi Tvalebidan TiTqos sul sxva sa-myaro mimzers. miRmieri. Seucnobi. sakvirveli. am TvalebSi Cagubebula amave dros unapiro, usaSvelo, ukidegano sevda-mkrTal RimilSi daferili. Tvalebi iRimian... magram es ar aris Cveulebrivi Rimili...

ai, es Rimili da Tvalebi CamrCa xsovnaSi yvelaze metad am erTianad danaoWebul, mogrZo saxidan. da daSaSruli, kan-damskdari, grZeli TiTebi da isic, Tu rogor eWira larWemi2 am TiTebs, rogor bavSviviT esaTuTebodnen isini sakravs.

winaT larWems qorwilSi, Ramis TevebSi, xatoba-dReobebSi da `moxarWalafa~3 Rames ukravdneno, miambobda berikaci. adre larWemi iyideboda Turme xobis bazarze `xobaloba~-s, romelic imarTeboda agvistos TveSio, maraSina (mariamoba) dRes, xobis monasterTan. me arasodes gamiyidia larWemi, ba-

1 abarwa _ aivani

2 larWemi _ megruli stviri, salamuri.

3 moxarWalafa _ Wiakokonoba Rame, sityva-sityviT: raCxa-ruCxi alqa-

jebis SesaSineblad atexili

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baia, marto CemTvis vTlidi da Cemi biWebisTviso. axla ukve

kai xania, aRar vakeTeb, babaia. saamisod arc Rone momdevs da

arc Tvali miWris Zveleburado. xolo kargi larWemi rom

gamogivides, sagangebod unda SearCio Reroebi, maTi sigrZe-

sigane, zoma, Semdeg Reroebi xmis mixedviT unda aawyoo.

cocxal melarWemes pirvelad vxedavdi, arc larWemisT-

vis momismenia odesme.

oda-saxlidan grZel, Talx kabaSi gamowyobili, aseve

Talxi TavsafriT Tavwakruli maRali tanis, gamxdari mox-

uci qali gamovida. fexze wamovudeqi da ise mivesalme. manac

RimiliT, ufro sworad Cavardnili, ukbilo piris cmacu-

niT da Tavis kanturiT miTxra gamarjoba. mere... meuRles

gverdiT miujda da kalTaSi xelebCawyobili, mxrebCamoSve-

buli uxmod momaCerda.

me da pante babuam Sewyvetili saubari ganvagrZeT. pante

babuas biWebic ukravdnen Turme larWemze da mRerodnen.

erTad rom davsxdebodiT da dakvra-simReras rom daviw-

yebdiT, qvemoT, jvarSi esmodaTo, Tqva pante babuam.

_ ase ar iyo, Tolige? _ miubrunda anazdad meuRles. man

Tavis daqneviT kveri daukra.

RmerTo, rogor hgvanan erTmaneTs? tyupebiviT arian. be-

bia desisac cisferi Tvalebi aqvs. daleul saxeze es Tva-

lebiRa SerCenia cocxali, metyveli. xorcisagan gaclil

sxeuls mxolod suli dapatronebia TiTqos _ uwono, gamW-

virvale, pepelasaviT msubuqi suli da miRmieri samyarodan

mzirali ori pawia sarkmeli-WuWrutana.

babua pante enawyliani Cans, desi bebia ki _ sityvaZviri,

ufro piriqiTaa xolme moxucebulebSi.

patara xanSi Cems win tabla gaCnda, mere doqiT `ojale-

Si~. uxmaurod, nela, TiTqos, miwas fexs ar akarebso, ise

dafarfatebs berdiacis Zvaltyavad qceuli, sifrifana sxe-

uli. ase ggonia, sakmarisia suli Seubero da... babuawverasa-

viT gaqreba, gaifanteba, haerSi gaipneva, ganqardeba.

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TandaTanobiT moaqvs xili, janjuxa, tkbiliskveri... mere

felamuSic Semoemata sufras. rakiRa uari ar gamdis, unebu-

rad vnebdebi maT maspinZlobas.

mere... wesisamebr vadRegrZeleb moxucebs, maT Svilebsa da

SvilTaSvilebs, _ Svid vaJkacs, diax, Svids rogorc cocx-

lebs, radgan vici, Svidive vaJi omSi hyavT daRupuli, magram

isini dRemde elodebian maT.

vis sWirdeba axla larWemi? vinRa ukravs larWemzeo,

kvirobs namwyemsari pante babua da mainc, roca vTxove, xaTri

ar gamitexa.

sulganabuli vusmen. desi bebias Sors wasul mzeraSi, mis

wylian TvalebSi dro da dro raRacnairi ucnauri Suqi

gamokrTeba, TiTqos Rimilsa hgavs igi da aRarc Rimilia.

ratomRac Tvalebze cremli mawveba. aris raRac aramiwi-

eri, araamqveyniuri am Sors mziral Tvalebsa da im uCveulo

hangSi, ase saguldagulod rom gamohyavs moxucs larWemze.

wamiT TiTqos waiSala drois samani, TiTqos uSoresi, warm-

arTobis xanis maxvamuri musikis eniT gesityveba im garda-

sul Jamze, roca `Jini orTas~ _ arsTa gamriges SesTxovd-

nen mowyalebas, sikeTes, xvavs da gamravlebas Zveli kolxebi.

am melodiaSi SeigrZnoba agreTve raRac eniT uTqmeli,

Sefaruli sevda da sinanuli dro-Jamis mdinarebaSi Cakar-

gulsa da minavlebulze, imaze, rac arasdros mobrundeba.

arasdros ganmeordeba, sulis xveulebsa Tu gulis fskerze

Caleqil idumal xsovnaze, Cabindul-mimkrTalebul Cxoriaze.

da dgas am gamoxunebul, cisfer TvalebSi usazmnod

kaeSniani dardi Tu wuxili, risi gamoTqmac enas ar ZaluZs,

radgan sityva uZlur-uRonoa da rasac mxolod musikis

bgera, tkivilamde SekumSuli gulis Seyovnebuli feTqva da

ZarRvebSi sisxlis uCveulo aCqameba Tu gvamcnobs.

...sofels rom ayrian, am didebul, uebro silamazis

CuqurTmebiT damSvenebul aivnian oda-saxls ras uzamen neta?

_ vfiqrob gunebaSi, _ albaT daSlian saxls da ise waiReben.

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an egeb romeliRac muzeumsac Caabaron, an egeba... patronma ar indomos ZvelSi cxovreba da axali arCios, an egeba?..

aTasi `egeba~ mitrialebs TavSi, magram xmamaRla arafers

vambob, bolos... mainc mZlevs `Jurnalisturi~ cnobismoyva-

reoba, Tumca, sinamdvileSi `Jurnalisturi~ araferSuaSia,

_ adamianuri cnobismoyvareoba mZlevs da xmadabla, TiTqmis

CurCuliT vekiTxebi moxucebul col-qmars, sofels rom

ayras upireben, Tu gaigeT-Tqo.

_ ho, amboben... _ babua pantes Tvalebi uviwrovdeba uceb

da Cibuxi TiTqos xelSi Seacivdao. Seurxevlad zis.

_ amboben ki... _ imeorebs mere yru, usicocxlo xmiT da

Zalumad qaCavs yalions: _ mara... me... arsad vapireb aqedan

wasvlas, babaia.

_ rogor Tu? _ ena mebmeva. sityva miwydeba.

axla desi bebia ereva saubarSi:

_ nanaia Suri! Cvens biWebs xom aq unda davxvdeT, sqan

sanTelo? aqidan rafer wavalT, Surige?

_ ki, magram?.. _ isev waviborZike. wamiT yuCad var, mere:

_ ki magram... xom wyalsacavi unda aSendes aq, didi eleq-

trosadguri... _ vCumdebi. veRar vambob bolomde saTqmels.

gaocebisa da usazRvro sinanulis grZnoba meufleba

anazdeulad.

_ amboben, ki... _ imeorebs kvlav pante babua iseTi xmiT,

TiTqos es ambavi mas srulebiT ar exebodes. Tvalebi uSter-

deba. saxe ki _ TiTqos eyineba. qvavdeba.

_ me da Tolige aq vrCebiT. sqan sanTelo. aqidan fexs

ar movicvliT... biWebi rom movlen, sakuTari saxl-kari

xom unda davaxvedroT, Semogevle? _ desi bebia umanko,

ucodveli TvalebiT momCerebia da miRimis, TiTqosda meub-

neba mzeriT, beCa, amas ra didi mixvedra undao.

_ me da Cemi qali axal adgilas awi ver SeveguebiT, babaia.

Cveni micvalebulebis saflavebsac ver mivatovebT... Cveni

biWebi ras gvetyvian, roca dabrundebian? rafer SevxedoT

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imaT TvalebSi? ara. Cven _ me da Cemi meuRle _ aqedan

versad wavalT. Cven _ me da ega _ aq davrCebiT!mzera movaride, raTa Tvalze momdgari uneburi cremli

damemala. guli mtkivneulad mewureba.vaglax! am qveynisani ar arian es sacodavebi. hoi, ra um-

weoni, ususurni Canan Cem TvalSi axla es moxuci col-qmari. gana ZaluZT am sust, Zabun mxrebs zidon is axali tvirTi simZimilisa _ bedisweras rom ganumzadebia amaTTvis?

Cven aqedan ar wavalTo! hm... an SeiZleba gana am sawylebi-sTvis axla imisi Tqma, amaoao Tqveni zraxva, rom ulmobeli garduvaloba da aucilebloba zvaviviT mogoravs da mas win veRaraferi daudgeba? viRa SeaCerebs am mewyers _ yov-liswamlekavs _ babuawverasaviT uZluri beri diacisa da beri mamakacis neba-survili? vin arian, an ras warmoadgenen im `aucileblobis~ winaSe aramcTu TiTo-orola, Tundac mTeli soflis mcxovrebTa sicocxle, maTi bedi, roca igi, es Rvarcofi _ `civilizaciisa da teqnikuri progresis~ saxeliT walekviT emuqreba mTel qveynierebas?

`ukanaskneli melarWeme ganwiruli soflidan!~ _ (war-modgenili maqvs-ra saxes miiRebs Cemi redaqtori aseTi saTauriT rom mivutan werils!)

...sasaflaos Soriaxlos rom movdiodi, ucabedad TiTqos raRac simReras movkari yuri. Sevdeqi. smenad viqeci. magram maleve viazre, rom ki ar mReroda, moTqvamda qali xmamaRla gabmuli xmiT: da roca `Tvaluas~ Sinaarss Cavwvdi _ kani ameburZgla. videqi erTianad SeZruli, daZabuli da... vus-mendi: `Svilo, Cemo erTaderTo nugeSo, Cemo Tvalis Cino, _ godebda qali, _ nu geSinia, deda Semogevlos, ar dag-toveb Svilo aq _ zurgze movikideb Sens kubos da manamde suli ar amomZvreba, axal adgilze dagasaflaveb Svilo _ dasaflavdes da miwa daeyaros male Sens ubedur dedas. bebia da babuasac gadaeci, Cemo sicocxlev, Cemo sulisdg-mav, biZebsac uTxari _ ar idardon. arc maT davtoveb aq. arc maT CavaZirineb wyalSi. maTac zurgze movikideb da ga-

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davasveneb, Svilo, axal alagas, aqaurobas gagaSorebT, Cemo TvalisCino. vai Cems dRes ubedurs, vai am dRis moswrebas~.

moulodnelad... Tvalwin damidga zurgze kuboebakide-buli Saosani qalebis dasi, daRmarTs rom Camouyvebian xvne-SiT, SiSiT. maTi sazareli moTqma-godeba gulis ZarRvebs miwyvets.

mere... sasaflaodan erTbaSad wamoiSalnen TiTqos xe-lebgafarCxuli, Tvalebgadamokarkluli micvalebulebi da `RvTis gulisTvis... RvTis gulisTvis... ar dagvtovoT aq, erTi sikvdili gveyofa... wyals nu miscemT Cvens cxedrebso!..

gviSveleT! gvixseniT, gadaarCineT Cveni saflavebi!~ise TvalnaTliv vxedav am Cvenebas, ise cxadad da mkafiod

Camesmis micvalebulTa ganwiruli, sasowarkveTili vedreba, iseTi gamalebiT, Zvlebis raCxuniT, dakrunCxuli xelebis savsaviT, budidan gadmocvenili TvalebiT moiweven Cemken, rom... sunTqva mekvris. Tvalze bindi mefareba da... pirvelad Cems sicocxleSi vgrZnob, rom guli miRondeba.

...TemSaraze gamosuls, SaSvi WaxWaxiT amedevna. sul ax-los Civis Savi SaSvi... (`netamc, ar iyos egre lamazi!~)

alvis xe

Cvens ezoSi idga alvis xe _ lamazi, tanadi, saocrad maRali. me miyvarda igi. Zlier miyvarda. da rogorc namd-vili Seyvarebuli _ cota eWvianic viyavi.

qari Searxevda mis totebs, qari gaixlarTeboda mis foT-lebSi da me _ vbrazobdi. me mSurda qaris. Citebi WikWikiT Tavs evlebodnen alvis xes, Citebi saalerso sityvebs eCur-Culebodnen mas _ me vanCxlobdi. me mSurda Citebis.

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me miyvarda alvis xe. miyvarda misi amayi SemarTeba, mi-yvarda misi norCi foTlebi, roca isini iSlebodnen da mi-yvarda isini maSinac, roca SeyviTlebulni, WknobaSeparulni _ scviodnen Zirs.

magram gansakuTrebiT gazafxulze vxarobdiT orive: is _ Tavisi bednierebiT, me _ misi mSvenebiT.

da Cemi mudmivi, ganuSorebeli natvra iyo: avsuliyavi mis kenweroze, avsuliyavi da iqidan gadmomexeda Cveni ezo-karisTvis, Cveni are-maresaTvis.

erTxel mamam culi aiRo, mivida alvis xesTan da... moWra daupira. me gulgaxeTqili yviriliT avefare alvis xes: _ mamiko, ar moWra, mamiko, movkvdebi!

mamam culi gaagdo, xelSi amiyvana. momefera. damiyvava. Cemi alvis xe gadarCa! igi me gadavarCine. me albaT mar-

Tla movkvdebodi, igi rom mamas moeWra maSin. aseTi yofila didi siyvarulis Zala.

gavidnen wlebi. me wamovizarde. alvis xe ki isev ise idga tanaSoltili, amayi, mediduri. da me isev ise miyvarda igi da me kvlav mawvalebda survili misi dapyrobis.

da ai, erTxel, me Sevebi mas, Cems sayvarel alvis xes. gaWirvebiT, magram mainc miviwevdi maRla Jinmoreuli. xelis gulebsa da muxlebze kani gadamZvra. sisxli mdioda. mtki-oda. magram ufro metis wadiniT da gaxelebiT mivbobRavdi maRla, sul maRla.

da aha... alvis kenweroc! erTxans gaognebuli, enaCavard-nili viyavi. TiTqos aRar mjeroda Cemi bedniereba! nuTu amisrulda didi xnis ocneba?

gons rom movedi, mimovixede. Tvalwin, viT xelis gulze, gadameSala Cemi sofeli. misi qoCora, mwvane gorakebi, misi haerovani nazi, molurjo-mocisfro ferebiT molivlive vel-mindvrebi. moxasxase ca ki iseTive Soreuli da miuwv-domeli Canda alvis kenwerodan, rogorc mis ZirSi.

aman gamaoca da... damafiqra kidec... magram bednierebis Seg-rZneba iseTi didi iyo, iseTi usazRvro, ukidegano, rom sxva

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yvelaferi damaviwyda _ gamarjvebis sixarulis garda....aRtacebulma yiJina movrTe, mere omaxiani simRerac

SemovZaxe. me vuxmobdi Tavxed qars, rom SembrZoleboda. is arsad Canda _ axla me varwevdi alvis kenweros. veZaxdi enaWikWika Citebs. isini sadRac gakrefiliyvnen... axla me ve-JRurtulebodi alvis xes _ me, gamarjvebuli Seyvarebuli!

anazdad... davinaxe, cis laJvards arwivi moapobda. Cveni Tvalebi erTmaneTs Sexvdnen.

`sixaruli Seni warmavalia, sabralo balRo! is, rac dRes iyo, xval ar ganmeordeba!~ _ amovikiTxe mis amay mzeraSi.

me gavgulisdi arwivze, gavgulisdi Cems Tavzec da... meo-re dResac avedi alvis kenweroze... mesame dResac... magram... im pirveli dRis gancda ara da ar brundeboda.

da maSin... me avtirdi!da im dRidan Cemi bavSvuri ocnebisa da siyvarulis al-

vis xes davemSvidobe, davemSvidobe samudamod, samaradJamod!..

sizmar-cxadSi

...sanapiros viwro zoli. borcvebze ayudebuli ukarfan-jro saxlebi. ukacrieli quCebi...

sad var?TiTqos nacnobia aqauroba da... mainc ucnobi...kacis WaWaneba ar aris irgvliv...ra, ra mouvidaT qalaqis mcxovreblebs? sad gaikrifnen?

ratom miatoves aqauroba?uamravi kiTxva ireva TavSi. davyialob cariel quCebSi

mxarnacvaliviT da... SeSfoTeba mipyrobs.nuTu adamianis orans ver gadavawydebi sadme?

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udabureba da mkvdruli myudroebaa garSemo da uceb...

moulodnelad ukve imedgadawurulma da sasowarkveTilma,

Tvali vkide kopwia, lamaz oda-saxls, Sori-axlos patara

gorakze rom wamomarTula. CuqurTmian, grZel aivanze sufraa

gaSlili da viRaceebi, albaT saxlis binadarni, nadimoben.

sixarulma amitana. maS, mTlad ukacrieli ar yofila es

qalaqi. vinc ar unda iyvnen moqeifeni, adamianebi xom arian?

gasaWirSi Cavardnils, momeSvelebian, Semifareben _ gza-

kvalabneuls, SeWirvebuls, _ adamianur sikeTes da siTbos

miwiladeben.

anazdeulad, mopirdapire mxridan velurTa brbo gamoi-

Wra. tanmaRlebi, saxeTeTrebi, viwroTvaleba, cxvirpaWua da

yvrimalmaRlebi arian. xelSi Subebi da mSvildisrebi uWi-

ravT. qera Tmebi indielebiviT aqvT gaSlili.

RrianceliT, kiJiniT, veluri simRerebiTa da gniasiT moe-

finen cariel quCebsa da Suka-bilikebs. erTma nawilma im

koxta saxls miaSura, sadac adamianebi lxinobdnen.

SiSisagan acaxcaxebuli, avefare kvipaross, mere... dro vix-

elTe da ukan mouxedavad movkurcxle _ saiT? _ aRar vici...

gavrbivar da ase mgonia, velurni _ yiJiniT, kiviliT ukan

momdeven.

bolos, im are-mares karga gvariani manZiliT rom davSor-

di, SevCerdi. suli moviTqvi. mere... garSemo mimovixede. vxe-

dav: uzarmazari gemebi mosdgomia napirs. mezRvaurebi arsad

Canan. aqac ucnauri mdumareba da siCumea dasadgurebuli.

nela davuyevi sanapiros. sad var netavi? ra qveyanaa?

ra mxarea? ukan, saxlSi, CemebTan rogorRa davbrunde? an

saiT aris Cemi mxare? sadauri var? aRaraferi maxsovs.

aRaraferi vici.

anazdad... laparakis xma Semomesma. Sevdeqi. mivayurade.

Sori-axlos, zRvis talRebze momcro katarRa irweva.

swored iqidan momesma xma. bevri fiqris dro araa, gezi

katarRisken aviRe.

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...katarRazec sufra gauSliaT. ramdenime mezRvauri da qali qeifobs, Tu... Wiris sufra aqvT? _ ver gaigeb. TiTqos nacnobi saxeebia da arc arian nacnobni. raRac ucxo enaze laparakoben da amave dros TiTqos mesmis yvelaferi.

Tamada _ axovani, warmosadegi axalgazrda kaci, albaT, morig sadRegrZelos ambobda, roca daviyvire, _ vina xarT qristiani, miSveleT-meTqi.

myisve wamoiSalnen....mere enis borZikiT, gaWirvebiT vyvebi, rom gza damebna

da CemianebTan ver gamignia, iqneb Tqven miSveloT da Sin damabrunoT-meTqi. Tan saSinlad meSinia, rom ver gamigeben. magram vgrZnob _ esmiT Cemi. Tavs miqneven. miTanagrZnoben.

is, vinc Tamadad miviCnie, xelebs Slis sinanulis Ri-miliT, qaliSvilo, siamovnebiT dagexmarebodiT, magram ra vqnaT, Cven Tavad tyveebi varT, zRvis sivrceSi gasvlis nebarTva ara gvaqvso.

gaocebuli mivSterebivar. mereda, vin wagarTvaT es ufle-ba-meTqi, _ Zlivs amoviluRluRe bolos. Tamadam uxalisod gaicina da xeliT maniSna veeberTela xomaldebze.

_ ai, im zarbaznebs xom xedavT? _ igi mravalmniS-vnelovnad iRimeba. axlaRa SevniSne, zarbaznebis lulebi pirdapir katarRisaken rom iyvnen damiznuli. mere... zarba-znebis garSemo mofusfuse adamianebsac Sevaswari Tvali.

maS, Tqvenc tyveebi yofilxarT-meTqi, wamoviknavle imedgadawurulma da axla danarCenebsac movavle Tvali.

TavCaqindrulni, mdumared sxedan `moqeifeni~. _ agrea, Cemo kargo! _ damidastura kvlav Tamadam, _ magram Tavi ise gviWiravs, viTom... arc ki viciT es ambavio, _ daatana naTqvams da gverdulad CaiRimila.

_ Tu asea, ras mogilxeniaT? satirlad gqoniaT saqme da ara sanadimod-meTqi, _ veRar davfare gaocebanarevi sayveduri.

Tamadam kvlav uxalisod gaicina. saqmec isaa, rom vnadi-mobT. ar gvinda mtrebs SevamCnevinoT, rom... gveSinia. viTom

arafrad vagdebT maT aq yofnas. viciniT, vmxiarulobT.

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sinamdvileSi ki... am WiqebSi Cumad vwuravT boRmian crem-lebso, miTxra.

_ e.i. Tavs ityuebT-meTqi? _ unugeSod gavaqnie Tavi da guli momeTuTqa.

_ masea. ki. sul erTia, ra dRes, ra xval-mainc mogviReben bolos _ CagvZiraven. hoda, Cvens aRsasruls taS-fanduriT, xumroba-lazRandarobiT vxvdebiT! _ Semesityva anazdad su-fris bolodan kuSti saxis mezRvauri.

_ ara, ara da ara! _ uceb muSti daartya magidas Tamadis gverdze mjdomma qalma da wamodga: _ ara-meTqi! gveyofa dedloba! _ erTbaSad niRabi moiZro da gadaagdo. saocrad mwuxare saxe gamouCnda uniRbo qals.

_ Tu sikvdilia, sjobia Cveni namdvili saxiT movkvdeT, vidre ase vimaimunoT. gveyofa!

_ ratom iTxriT winaswar Tvalebs? gecadaT, da egeba dageRwiaT Tavi am... tyveobisTvis! _ gaubedavi xmiT gamovTq-vi Cemi mosazreba.

_ miixed-moixede, geTayva, am veeberTela gemebis rkals rogor ginda Tavi daaRwio?! xom migvJuJ-mogvJuJes er-Tianad! _ wamoiZaxa erTma wverosanma mezRvaurma brazianad.

Tamadam Tvali mimoavlo Tanameinaxeebs da mere me momi-brunda. mware RimiliT: _ ai, xom xedav, TviT Cvens Sorisac ar aris erTsulovneba.

_ Cven dReSia bevri sxvac... magram... iTmenen. eguebian. daTvi rom mogerevao, naTqvamia. Cven ki, Cveni sificxiTa da mouTmenlobiT niadag viRupebodiT. im velur brbosTanac ase ar iyo? SevaskdiT, SeveleweniT da bolos, ra gamovida? am ubadruki katarRis amara davrCiT!

_ arc imaT daadgaT kai dRe. _ moifxana guli rome-liRacam.

_ ai, im napirs, xom xedavT, im borcvebsa da saxlebs? _ xeliT miCvena Tamadam, _ sul Cveni iyo, Cven gvekuTvnoda, magram... im velurebma gamogvrekes iqidan. isini, vinc gada-vurCiT omis qartexils...

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_ gamogvrekes ki ara, Cveni laCrobiTa da uxeirobiTY-davTmeT. _ kvlav wamoyelyelavda kuStsaxiani mezRvauri: _ axla TavSi sacemrad gvaqvs saqme, magram, xom xedavT, viciniT, vlaRobT, voinbazobT da mucels vaRorebT _ sanamdisin gveyofa es sanovage. mokled, garedan mters vubrmavebT Tva-lebs _ Signidan _ sakuTar Tavs. asea, baba, Cveni saqme.

_ ras izam! Tuki Tavs zeviT Zala aRar aris?_ Zala aRmarTsa xnavso, naTqvamia. maS, ra vqnaT, davjdeT

da viviSviSoT? _ gaisma aqeT-iqidan ukmayofilo xmebi._ es gaumarjos im mezRvaurebs, gasaWirSi Cavardnilni,

imeds rom ar kargaven, safrTxes rom ar uSindebian _ roca iqneba, gaviWrebiT zRvis gaSlil sivrceSi da Tavisuflad gavinavardebTo, _ Tqva Tamadis gverdSi mjdarma qalma, ro-gorc Canda, misma colma da sasmisi erTbaSad gamocala.

_ gaumarjos!.. gaumarjos!.. _ aqa-iq mxari aubes moCvenebi-Ti xalisiT.

_ gaumarjos. ki batono, gaumarjos, magram... Rirs ki es wuTisofeli amden davidarabad?! gana ramden xansa varT am mzisqveSeTSi? _ skeptikurad SeniSna erTma saTvalianma mezRvaurma: _ iqneb marTla jobia ufiqrelad, uzrunvelad gavlioT dReni Cveni, sanam saaqaoSi varT, rameTu mtrebic da Cvenc Tanabrad uZlurni da ususurni varT maradisobis winaSe, anu im ubedurebis winaSe, sikvdili rom hqvia!

_ ara da ara, Tuki Tavisuflebaze ocnebac davkargeT, maSin jobs, marTla suyvelani axlave, dauyovnebliv davixo-coT... _ ar cxreba qali.

_ magi araa problema, Cemi azriT: ai, SevaskdeT axlave im gemebs da... morCa yvelaferi. Tqveni Wiri waiRo am katarRam...

_ nel-nela sikvdils erTbaSad sikvdili jobia, ara? _ axarxarda uceb viRaca niSnisgebiT: _ barem gaTavdes es wuTisofeli, ara? barem erTbaSad daviRupoT, ara?

_ hait, Tqve laCrebo! daviRupebiTo. gana axla ara varT daRupulebi? riT vjobivarT mkvdrebs? Cven xom sinamd-vileSi cocxal-mkvdrebi varT? vis vatyuebT? vera xedavT,

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xafangSi rom varT gamomwyvdeulni da imasRa elodebian, ro-dis amogvxdeba suli saTiTaod? _ sibrazisgan saxealewili kuSti mezRvauri sityvebs geslianad crida kbilebSi.

_ viciT, batono, es yovelive viciT. hoda, nel-nela sikvdi-li gvirCevniao, rom Tqves, ver gaigone?

_ vibrZoloT xalxno, vebrZoloT mters! _ ar Tmobda qali.

_ kargi erTi, Tu qali xar. vis unda ebrZolo, amaT, amodena xomaldebs?! mereda, riT _ SiSveli xelebiT? erTi zarbazanic ki ara gvaqvs wamlad, vera xedavT?

_ amaze maSin unda gefiqraT, iaraRs rom abarebdiT mters! _ Seutia saTvalians qalma.

_ vin abarebda, qalo, raebs bodav? wagvarTves. mogverivnen da wagvarTves. gangvaiaraRes batono da he!

_ hoda, ra gindaT, ras iWaWebiT, ras fafxurobT? dawynar-diT da ganvagrZoT qeifi, sanam amis saSualeba gvaqvs-jerje-robiT!.. _ gaicina damcinavad mofilosofoso saTvalianma.

_ geyofa... morCi!_ ratom? simarTle mwarea gana? Wama-smisa da lxinis

ufleba xom dagvitoves? hoda, meti ra gvinda? ician, ra-sac Svrebian... xelebi risTvis gaisvaron tyuil-ubralod, roca Cven TviTon viyriT yelSi danas? hoda, modi barem gemoze viqeifoT... vimReroT, vicekvoT, vimatrabazoT `mtris jinaze~. wyalsa da mewyers wauRia yovelgvari dardi da sazrunavi! dRes, axla, am wuTas xom cocxlebi varT? maS, gaumarjos sicocxles, Tundac... wuTiers!

_ vai, Tqvens patrons ubedurs!_ am katarRaSi ar unda CavmsxdariyaviT. egeb TiTo-

TiTod gagvecura meore napiramde. xerxi sjobia Ronesao, aki naTqvamia.

_ zRaparia eg. versadac ver gaviqceodiT. iq, adgilze unda gvebrZola bolomde. an gavwydebodiT erTianad, anda...

_ ra sisuleles roSav? amaTi momrevi iyavi, Se maTx-ovaro, Sena?

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_ vin aris maTxovari?.. Sen ena daimokle, girCevnia, Torem!.._ Torem ra, xaxvi ar damaWra yurebze erTbaSad!_ dagaWri da metsac gizam, Se biTuro!katarRaze Cxubi atyda. erTmaneTze miiwevdnen sacemrad.

yvelaferi erTmaneTSi airia: wivil-kivili, gineba, lawa-lu-wis xma... katarRa aqanavda. gadabrunebas araferi uklda. RmerTo!

es ra xalxSi movxvdi! mtris zarbaznebis lulebs qveS erTmaneTs xocaven?

_ ras SvrebiT, Tqve codvisSvilebo? erTmaneTs hklavT, Tqve laCrebo? _ gaisma am ria-raisa da gniasSi Tamadis colis ganwiruli kivili: _ Tu Tavi mogZulebiaT, am gemebs mainc SeaskdiT vaJkacurad! vai, Tqve ubedurebo, utvinoebo!

visargeble aurzauriT da... wyalSi gadaveSvi.mivcurav da vgrZnob, rom didi gemidan WogritiT mimzeren.zarbaznis lula axla pirdapir Cemkenaa momarTuli. ai,

axla gavardeba da ai, axla! moxdes, rac mosaxdenia. ar ve-puebi arafers. mivcurav mxaruliT.

`bedi cdaao~, _ momZaxis viRaca uCinari. diax, cdaa da mec vecdebi gavaRwio rogorme meore napirs.

gametebiT viqnev mklavebs. vin icis, egeb marTla moxdes saswauli da... gadavrCe? egeb marTla davaRwio Tavi? egeb marTla davusxlte am Saragzis yaCaRebs, gemebze viTom mSvi-dobisa da zavis bairaRebi rom aufrialebiaT mosaCveneblad, TvalSi nacris Sesayrelad!

kefaze damiznuli zarbzanis lula ayovnebs. ratom ar mesvrian?

sakvirvelia. ras elodebian? egeb... moeSalaT iq... raRaca?vin icis!.. an... egeb maclian! fiqroben, sad gagveqceva,

Cvens xelT araao? ho, maclian albaT cota xans... Tan si-ciliT ifxriwebian uTuod. es utvino Wia-Rua vinRaa, saidan gamotyvrao, vis dakargviao?..

kata rom Tagvs aTamaSebs TavSesaqcevad, isea swored. katamac icis da Tagvmac Cinebulad uwyis, es TamaSi riT

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damTavrdeba. magram aki wyalwaRebuli xavss eWidebodao, isea Tagvis saqme. Tumca... vin icis! iqneb SeeSalos naxtomi katas da gadavrCeo, fiqrobs sasowarkveTili Tagvi.

da marTlac:egeb marTlac moxdes saswauli da... gadavrCe?

SadrevanTan

dacxa. saxeloebi aikarwaxa. mere Camqrali sigareti urnisken moisrola da Camomdgar avtobuss zantad Seavlo Tvali.

`meoriT waval~! _ is iyo gaifiqra da erTbaSad gogos mzera daiWira. imave wams gogom saxe miabruna da avtobu-sisaken gaiqca.

ukve daZrul avtobuss Seaxta, TvaliT moZebna qeraTmiani, maRali gogo. mas ar mouxedavs, magram... imanac igrZno biWis moaxloeba.

dakvirvebiT SeaTvaliera. fuSfuSa, qera Tma mxrebsa da beWebze CamoSloda. abzekili, patara cxviri hqonda da savse, wiTeli tuCebi. Savad SeRebil wamwamebSi cisferi Tvalebi minabuliyvnen. Tumca cali Tvalis WrilsRa xedavda, mainc amCnevda-eSmakuri, gamomwvevi Rimili rom idga maTSi.

mzera axla mis daqanebul SiSvel mxrebs Caayola. mounda mklavze Seevlo xeli.

igrZno, nel-nela imuxteboda. sul axlos idga, mxris Ta-viT xandaxan kidec exeboda mis zurgs. gurami amCnevda, rom gogoc farulad uTvalTvalebda biWs.

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gverdiT adgili gaTavisuflda. guramma SemTxveviT isargebla: gogos frTxilad Seaxo xeli: _ ra grili mkla-vi aqvs~, _ sasiamovnod gahkra gulSi.

_ dabrZandiT! _ da qaliSvilis yurisken ise axlos daixara, rom saxeSi Tmis bulbulebma SeuRitines.

axla ki amoxeda gogom, TvalebSi Rimilis naperwklebi ucimcimebda, Tumca saxe seriozuli hqonda, erTob serio-zuli.

_ gmadlobT. male Cavdivar, _ kriala kbilebi gamoaCina erTbaSad da mere isev ibruna piri.

_ mec male Caval, rogori damTxvevaa, ara?gogom tuCebi mWidrod mokuma, rom Rimili Seekavebina.

gurami kvlav daixara misken da xmadabla Caulaparaka:_ vatyob, Cven erTi gza gvaqvs. _ Tan swrafi, qoruli

mzera Seavlo gogos yel-kisers. nazi, saluqi kani TeTrad qaTqaTebda. etyoba, jer zagari~ ar miuRia. axalCamosuliao, gaivlo gulSi.

_ Tqven mase ggoniaT? _ Tvalebi moWuta gogom.`aha. xumrobs kidec? vnaxoT, vnaxoT, Zvirfaso~..._ darwmunebuli var.avtobusidan Camosvlisas kvlav xeli mohkida mklavSi,

gverdze gahyva. gogo jer Seecada mklavi gaeTavisuflebina, magram biWma iseTi alersiani RimiliT Sexeda, rom... damor-Cilda.

_ xom giTxariT, erTi gza gvaqvs-meTqi. da saerTod, iciT ra, Zalian mecnobiT. ueWvelad sadRac minaxixarT.

gogom uceb gadaikiskisa. mere mocinari TvalebiT Sexeda biWs da xmis gagrZelebiT warmoTqva:

_ rogor getyobaT, rom cruobT._ me da sicrue? _ artistulad gaikvirva biWma. `midi,

midi, guram. Citi badeSi ebmeba~, _ waaqeza gunebaSi Tavisi Tavi.

_ oh, oh, ra xarT... Tqven! _ TiTi dauqnia gogom, Tumca Tvalebi isev ise ucinoda.

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`ra acinebs am upatronos~!_ vin Cven? _ CaeZia gurami._ ai, Tqven... kavkasielebi... _ odnav airia gogo, roca bi-

Wis moqufrul saxes Sexeda._ kavkasia farTo mcneba gaxlavT, genacvale._ oh, ukve gewyinaT. ra butia yofilxarT. mapatieT, magram

iciT, geografiaSi cotas movikoWlebdi skolaSi. _ getyobaT.gogom kvlav gaicina._ enamwarec yofilxarT.biWma aRaraferi upasuxa da isev gogom wamoiwyo:_ maS gamodis, rom Tqven qarTveli ara xarT?_ qarTveli gaxlavarT, sxvaTa Soris. magram kavkasiaSi

geTayva, qarTvelebis garda, sxvebic cxovroben da amas mainc-damainc geografiis didi codna ar sWirdeba.

erTob Tavaziani kilo hqonda gurams, saxec metismetad seriozuli. xelic ki SeuSva mklavze gogos.

_ gasagebia. xom SeiZleba adamians ucodinaroba apatioT?_ rasakvirvelia, _ gurams erTbaSad gaecina. _ CvenSi

ityvian, ar codna ar codvaao.`metismetad SeuTiTxnia warbebi da wamwamebi. ise, ange-

losiviT gogoa mainc. ra tuC-kbili aqvs...~_ maS Tqven ambobT, rom gecnobiT, ara? _ daubrunda

Sewyvetil saubars qali _ da Tan amtkicebT, rom tyuils ar ambobT?

_ namdvilad._ me ki-guSin saRamos Camovedi Tqvens qalaqSi. ase rom,

arc nanaxi geyolebiT, xom marTalia? `xom gamogiWiresa-viT~ JRerda misi sityvebi... tuCebi Sekavebuli sicilisagan uTrToda.

_ magram Tqven erTi ram gamogrCaT mxedvelobidan, Cemo kargo, _ dinjad da dabejiTebiT daiwyo guramma, Tan mom-nusxvel mzeras ar acilebda gogos saxes. _ adamiani Sei-

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Zleba dagesizmros, an igi Tqvens warmosaxvaSi arsebobdes. da ai, rogorc ki dainaxavT mas, im wuTSive cnobT.

`yovlad trivialur, banalur sisuleleebs vCmaxav da mainc mizans aRwevs, mgonia... o, qalebo, qalebo!..~

_ da ai, mec, daginaxeT Tu ara, maSinve gicaniT. ra gqviaT?_ gamoicaniT. Tuki warmosaxvaSi gyavdiT nanaxi, saxelic

gecodinebaT._ marCieloba ar miyvars._ oh, Tqven Zalze amayi xarT. iq, gaCerebazec rom ideqiT,

veravis amCnevdiT.`da maSin, Cemo mSveniero, Sen gabrazdi da gadawyvite,

rogorme migepyro Cemi yuradReba, ara? da ai, ewie kidec sawadels... magram iq, gaCerebaze ras vfiqrobdi? marTla ar SemimCnevia es gogo... ho, gujaze viyavi gabrazebuli. uSno akviateba icis. is Tu sufra iyoo, daiCema~.

_ ai, Tqven axlac CafiqrdiT.myisve gamoerkva. gogos mklavi magrad miikra gverdze,

TvalebSi Caxeda:_ ar SeiZleba aseTi lamazi gogona ver SeamCnio. etyoba,

saerTod gaTiSuli viyavi im wuTas. modiT, kafeSi SevideT. cota momwyurda da mSia kidec. Tu Tqven, rasakvirvelia, araferi gaqvT sawinaaRmdego!

_ oi, ara, ara... _ Seicxada gogom. magram biWi iseTi TvalebiT uyurebda, iseTi mokrZalebuli da Tan guliTadi Canda, rom Tumca yoymaniT da fexisTreviT, mainc dayva mis nebas.

ira (ukve saxeli icoda misi guramma), jer morcxvobda, mere TandaTan gaTamamda. gaSinaurda.

... `karga gvarianad Siebia. ramxela uarze ki iyo~. _ gaifiqra uneburad, roca dainaxa, ra pirwmindad moasufTava TefSi gogom. Rvinozec Tavdapirvelad gainaza, magram mere Rvinosac moulxina. loyebi aetkica, Tvalebi auJuJunda.

_ Zalian momwonxarT, ira._ Tqven isev cruobT, guram.

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_ Zalian momwonxarT. namdvilad. _ daJinebiT gaimeora guramma da TvalebSi xangrZlivad Caxeda. gogo airia, wamw-amebi auxamxamda. mere Wiqas miwvda. tuCebTan miitana, cota mowrupa. mere isev dadga, biWma xeli daado xelze.

_ Tqven?gogo gaitruna. mere zRvasaviT abibinebuli Tvalebi Se-

anaTa biWs.`marTla didebuli gogoa da... Zalian maRelvebs~._ iciT, Cems saqmros rom esmodes es...gurams warbic ar Serxevia._ eWviani saqmro gyavT? _ TiTqos aq araferiao, ise

hkiTxa._ iciT... saerTod, principSi... eWviani ar aris, magram...

xandaxan..._ CamorCenili adamiani yofila Tqveni saqmro. _ uceb

moWra guramma da skamze gasworda, sigareti gaabola, _ ra dros iWvianobaa? meoce saukuneSi vcxovrobT. piriqiT, unda siamovnebdes kidec, rom misi sacole sxvebsac moswonT, xom marTalia?

_ principSi, marTalia, cxadia... magram..._ araviTari magram. _ gurami wamodga. _ ira, mapatieT,

axlave moval... _ Sesagebeblad wamosul momtan qals hkiTxa: _ aq TqvenTan, mgoni telefoni gaqvT?

_ mibrZandiT direqtoris kabinetSi, iq aravinaa axla._ gmadlobT. erTi wuTiT, ira... ukacravad var... unda

davreko, saswrafo saqmea!_ ara uSavs, ara uSavs, _ ira iRimeboda.gurami direqtoris oTaxSi Sevida, kari mWidrod moxura

da nomeri akrifa._ gismenT! _ moesma nacnobi xma yurmilSi, wamiT Seyoymanda._ alo. alo..._ me var._ oh, guram, Sen xar? _ gogom gaicina, _ saidan rekav?

quCidan? xom mivdivarT? me ukve mzada var.

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guramma xmas saidumlo da Rrmaazrovani kilo misca:L_ maka, mapatie, genacvale, ver movdivar. mere agixsni..._ ra... ra iyo? _ gogonas xma gaebzara._ aqedan ver getyvi. sxva dros wavideT gemis dasaTva-

liereblad. mapatie, fiso, magram iseTi saqmea..._ ra aris iseTi?.. Sen mase ici!.. mizezi ar dageleva...

albaT dasalevad midixar sadme... ai giam `oreras~ bileTebi moitana da Seni gulisTvis uari vuTxari...

_ Tu ase guli gwydeba, SegiZlia wayve gias. me mgoni, jerac gvian ar aris!

_ Tu RmerTi gwams, nu ikbinebi!_ ra SuaSia kbena? ise, mec SemeZlo `oreraze~ bileTi

meSovna, Tu... ase guliT gindoda, _ Tqva da ena moikvnita. makas rom oreras~ koncertze wasvla undoda, icoda, rasak-virvelia. hoda, axla inana, nametani Sevtope mgonio.

_ da `vaabSe~, ra gaaWireT saqme am Tqveni `oreraTi~? gegoneba... sxva aRaraferi arsebobs.

_ guram, ra gayvirebs, sircxvilia!_ ho, kai batono. bodiSs vixdi, _ xmas dauwia guramma. _

xval viSovni bileTebs da wavideT!_ am saRamos ukanaskneli koncertia, guram!_ hoda, wadi mere. vin giSlis?! _ kvlav ifeTqa guramma, _

kidev kargi, gemze ar wavediT. maSin xom ver waxvidodi kon-certze, giasTan erTad? madlobis magier meCxubebi kidec?

_ guram... me SenTan mindoda..._ ara uSavs ra... giasTan aranakleb kargad igrZnob Tavs.

iqneb ukeTac.yurmili gametebiT daaxeTqa. sul ar undoda gabrazebu-

liyo da mainc gabrazda, sianCxlem gulze mouWira.`uh Tqveni! Tqven TviTon ar iciT, ra gindaT da ra ara~.

xvdeboda, rom sadRac gaRma edaveboda. da mainc...`Tumca... mec ra mrjis? raze viSli nervebs? rac unda

is qnas. momabezra Tavi am viTomda erTgulebiT~. axla es gaguliseba xels aZlevda.

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darbazSi udardeli ieriT Semobrunda.ira iq aRar daxvda. cota gaukvirda. `albaT tualetSi

Sevida~, _ gaivlo gulSi da magidas miujda, sigareti moqaCa.`giam bileTebi moitana! didi ambavi! vin Seexvewa jer erTi?

da vaabSe~, ras etorRialeba is vaJbatoni, ver gamigia. hm. ver gamigia?! sanam erTs gemoze ar mivbegvav, ar SeeSveba. uh, ver vitan aseT tipebs. viTom araferi. mama abramis batkanis ieri aqvs, sinamdvileSi ki... makac kai vinmea. viTom uCemod fexs ar adgams arsad. viTom sul me Semomcicinebs TvalebSi... kargebi xarT yvelani. xom wavida axla giasTan erTad koncertze? nu, xom undoda? ...`me SenTan mindoda~... _ gamoajavra makas gune-baSi. mec kargad vuTxari. ar vWam magisTanebs. esRa maklia axla. ar vundivar? `kak nibud~ ra! makasTana gogoebs ro-gorme dReSi aTs wamovageb ankesze! Tundac es Cemi ira rad Rirs! ra gogoa? SoltiviT tani aqvs. ra Tvalebi, tuCebi... magram sad aris amden xans Cemi mzeTunaxavi? _ saaTs daxeda. kai dro gasuliyo, raRacam usiamovnod gahkra gulze. raRac iazra. gulgruli saxiT mimtani moixmo, fuli gadaixada. ma-gram ratomRac mzeras ver usworebda qals. mere, roca adga, uneburad kvlav TvaliT moiZia Tavisi Tanameinaxe.

_ wavida. albaT aRar mova. _ Cumad, TiTqos saidumlod Caulaparaka mimtanma qalma da... daxlisken gabrunda.

gareT rom gamovida, qurdulad miixed-moixeda. aseTi ram Tavis dReSi ar mosvlia. qalebis yuradRebiT galaRebuls, ver warmoedgina, Tu aseT rames vinme gaubedavda! gaacures da mere rogor? magram TviT es marcxi rodi hklavda, ofi-cianti qalisa da kafeSi msxdomTa TvalSi sasacilod rom gamoCnda _ es ver moenelebina.

`Tu sadme gadavawydi, movklav mag ubedurs. ar vacocx-leb!~ _ gaSmagebulma sigaretis kolofi xelSi mosrisa.

`movZebni. miwis gulSic rom CaZvres, mainc movZebni!~Seecada, garegnulad mSvidi ieriT gascloda iqaurobas.

erTi wamiT gaifiqra kidec _ iqneb gangeb damemala da ai, sacaa gamoCndeba kideco.

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...skverSi Sevida da sanapiros neli nabijiT dauyva. brazi axrCobda, _ `mTeli saaTiani laparaki rom gavubi makas! axia Cemze! an saerTod, ras vurekavdi? idioti var. kretini~.

jibeebSi xelebCawyobili miabijebda sanapiroze. zRva mS-vidad livlivebda. ivnisis wynari, grili saRamo iyo. zR-vauri sasiamovnod elamuneboda saxeze. garSemo saseirnod gamosuli xalxis Jriamuli idga. nacnobebi esalmebodnen, TviTonac uqnevda Tavs, magram misi goneba da fiqri sul sxvagan hqroda.

`amaT rom gaigon, ra momivida?.. aqamde me davcinodi sx-vebs, axla me amomiReben niSanSi. mteri Cavarda amaT ybaSi. is... is kaxpa ver gabedavs Tqmas, verc gamoCndeba qalaqSi. SeiZleba... SeiZleba ki ara, daiTeseba albaT qalaqidan, ma-gram... is oficianti qali? TvalebSi Rimili edga. albaT damcinoda, niSns migebda, esec Seno. aba ra gegonao. uxaroda. ZaRli ZaRlis tyavs ar daxevs! cxadia! gawyda Tqveni sin-sila!~.

_ Cqara, gamoadgi fexi, kaco. ver xedav, dagvagvianda. Cemi sikvdili. awi arc SegviSveben albaT!

_ ar SegviSveben, aba?_ ara, ar gakadreben, Senma mzem. ministri myevxar, xom ici!_ qalo, Cemi TavisTvis me ministric var da prezidentic.

daixsome eg erTxel da samudamod!_ aba, he. daiwye axla Seneburad!_ ra ginda, qalo? ras gadamekide? Sen Tu ar naxe amaRam

`oreras~ koncerti, Tavs moiklaven, es ra ubedureba dagva-tydao.

gurams tuCebi moeRrica: colqmruli idilia!~ _ gaifiqra geslianad da moWutuli Tvali gaayola jariskaculi nabi-jebiT mimaval, taraniviT gamxdar qals da Camrgvalebul, pa-tara tanis mamakacs, Zlivs rom mibajbajebda colis gverdiT, Tan xSir-xSirad cxvirsaxocs isvamda melot Tavze.

`oreras~ koncerti... mTeli qalaqi gadareulia. erTma-neTis fexis xmas arian ayolili... makac! Tumca, ratom ara?

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me Tu momwons, ratom ar SeiZleba sxvasac gulwrfelad

moswondes? ratom gvaqvs tvinSi gamjdari Cveni gemovnebis,

Cveni mes~ gansakuTrebuloba, meoresTan ucilo upirateso-

bis SegrZneba? ai makac... xom darwmunebuli viyavi, uCemod

fexs ar gaadgamda... iqneb ...arc gaudgams?~.

wamiT adgilze gaaqvava am azrma. mere nervuli siCqariT

jibeebi moiqeqa, orkapikians dauwyo Zebna. ver ipova.

`asea. roca ginda!~ _ gunebaSi SeikurTxa, mere wylis

gamyidvelTan mivida. arc mas aRmoaCnda orkapikiani. Tavi

Zlivs Seikava, rom ar gamoelanZRa udanaSaulo kaci. ro-

gorc iqna, kioskis gamyidvelTan gaumarTla.

...yulabaSi fuls rom agdebda, SeamCnia, xeli ukankalebda.

sanam zumeri gaismoda, mRelvarebisagan sunTqva Seekra.

didxans ar iRebdnen yurmils. gadawyvita, maka koncertze

wasulao. mainc jiutad idga da xels ar uSvebda yurmils.

bolos nacnobi xma gaisma:

_ gismenT!

erTbaSad damSvidda. igrZno, daubrunda winandeli TviT-

dajereba, siamaye, gorozoba da Semwynarebeli kiloc ki.

_ ar waxvedi koncertze?

_ Sen... Sen mekiTxebi amas?... _ gogonas xma uTrToda.

biWs moeCvena, rom igi tirils ikavebda.

_ maka, mapatie, genacvale. autaneli viRaca var. egoisti,

despoti. ici, gangeb gavakeTe. mindoda, gamomecade...

_ rao, rao?

_ kargi, mapatie axla. SadrevanTan gelodebi. Camodi,

_ Sen... Sen Tavs gagivida, xom ici? aRar msurs Seni xmis

gagoneba. Sen... Sennairi ggonia yvela...

_ vici. yvelaferi es Senze ukeT vici. SadrevanTan gelo-

debi.

gogona Cumad iyo. `mgoni tiris!~ _ siamovnebiT gaurbina

TavSi.

_ sxva Cems adgilas rom iyos... vici, rogorc moiqceoda...

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_ daiwyo gogonam Segubebuli xmiT. da isev gaCumda._ magram Sen xom sxva ara xar? Sen Cemi patara, sayvareli

gogo xar. da es Senc kargad ici..._ me araferi vici... araferi mjera Seni._ kargi. amaze mere vilaparakoT. axla xalxi nerviulobs

rigSi, _ momRimare Tvali mimoavlo garSemo: aravin idga mis meti. _ wavedi axla me da dagelodebi SadrevanTan.

gogona dumda._ maka!_ ho, kargi. Camoval. Cavicvam da wamoval. saZagelo! biWma gaiRima._ gelodebi. ar daigviano! _ mere yurmili dakida, kmayo-

fili ieriT sigareti amoiRo, gaabola da neli nabijiT gaemarTa skveris SuagulSi laRad moCuxCuxe Sadrevnisken.

babua

depeSa miviRe Tu ara, babua cudad ariso, dauyovnebliv gaveSure soflisken. samwuxarod, veRar Cavuswari cocxals.

da ai, TavCaqindruli vadgavar babuaCemis jer kidev Tbil cxedars. axla, axlodan rom davcqeri, saocrad motexili Cans babua. Tma wamozrdia, WaRara Tma. didi, farTo xelebi ki gamxmari TuTunis foToliviT uRonod awyvia mis ganier gul-mkerdze.

babuas didi, Ronieri xelebi! maxsovs, bavSvobaSi nafo-tiviT rogor amitacebdnen xolme isini maRla, au, ram si-maRleze?.. es iyo misi mofereba, alersi... ase gamoxatavda Tavis siyvaruls...

babuas Ronieri, Zlieri xelebi! maSinac am xelebma Semis-roles caSi da didxans maburTavebdnen haerSi.

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babuas xelebi...me mamis xelebi ar maxsovs. babuas xelebi miwevdnen mamis

xelebis magivrobas...TiTqos isev ise vgrZnob axla Cems TmaSi misi xeSeSi

TiTebis Sexebas. `Cemi guladi, vaJkaci biWi~! _ xmianoben gulSi misi sityvebi.

ra goliaTi da uZleveli meCveneboda babua, ra Seudareb-el devgmirad saxavda mas bavSvis cxeli guli da ferado-vani fantazia?..

mere... is pirveli nadiroba da pirveli nanadirevi-nac-risferi yurcqvita... Cems ferxqveS rom moisrola da mere... is gulkrToma da sibraluli, sawyali kurdRlis gamocive-buli TvalebiT gamowveuli da is SiSis grZnobac, babuam gulCviloba ar SemamCnios-meTqi...

...moqneuli Toxi, Ronivrad moqneuli Toxi, TeTri caxoc-iT Tavwakruli babua daxrila Toxis tarze da simindis yanas marglavs. ofli wurwuriT Camosdis saxeze. oflis suni... babuas ofliT sveli perangi miswebebia zurgze... mec vcdilob fexi avuba da... babuas naCuqar patara Toxs vuba-yuneb miwas.

mere... babuas, Toxis tarze dabjenils, galursuls, sivr-cisTvis miuSterebia Tvalebi da... mafSaliebis galobas usmens.

mec suls vnabav. yurs vugdeb jadoqar frTosnebs.ramxela siTbo da sinaze Camdgara am devkacis TvalebSi!

nuTu es babuaa? Cemi gauRimari, gorozi babua?! mgaloblebi maviwydebian da babuas Sevcqeri Tvalmou-

wyvetlad, malulad. babua me veRar mamCnevs. mTeli misi ar-

seba, mTeli misi suli da guli im Tilismian, pawia Citunebs

Seupyria, dautyvevebia.

da es grZeldeba didxans, ise didxans, rom veRar viTmen

da... xmamaRla vaxveleb...

babua swrafad motrialda Cemken. wamiT arafris mxedveli,

gaocebuli TvalebiT miyurebs. mere gons modis. miRimis-

msubuqad, Zlivs SesamCnevad...

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_ gazafxuli movida babu, namdvili gazafxuli! _ am-

bobs da mZlavrad iqnevs Toxs. mzeze TvalismomWrelad

gaipriala Toxis yuam da... ase meCveneba, es babuas Tvalebma

daikvesa, babuas Tvalebma gadmoyares naperwklebi da haerSi

brWyvialiT gaibnen.

...axla ki, galeuli berikaci wevs Cems win uZravad gaSo-

tili da TuTunis gamxmari da damWknari foTlebiviT uyria

mkerdze odesRac Zlieri, Ronieri xelebi.

...maSinac, dambla rom daeca da marjvena xel-fexi waerTva,

gaunZrevlad iwva da Wers miStereboda. aWmevdnen rames, as-

mevdnen _ sul erTi iyo misTvis.

me ar SemeZlo mecqira, jer kidev guSin esoden Zlieri,

brge kaci axla ase umweo da uZluri rom iyo patara

bavSviviT. ar SemeZlo Tvali gamesworebina misi Tvalebi-

sTvis, ise usaSvelo, uZiro da unapiro sevdas itevdnen

isini. guli mewureboda am civi uimedobis, gulgrilobisa

da sasowarkveTis winaSe. babuasTvis axla, am wuTas aravin

iyo saWiro qveyanaze. igi marto gaxldaT, sruliad marto

Tavis TavTan. da ratomRac, uneburad magondeboda is ambavi,

erTxel zooparkSi galiaSi gamomwyvdeuli lomis gamo rom

ganvicade.

lomis Taflisfer, adamianur TvalebSi davinaxe pirvelad

es udabnoseburi sevda.

Sevdrki. movikunte, uneburad. mere... saCqarod gavecale

voliers. TiTqos viRacis, Tu raRacis gamo Semrcxva, Tavi

damnaSaved vigrZeni.ratomRac aseTive grZnoba mipyrobda maSinac roca ba-

buas Taflisfer TvalebSi sikvdiliviT civ simSvides da gulgrilobas vawydebodi.

babuas eqvsi vaJkaci hyavda omSi daRupuli da erTad-erTi qaliSvilis, dedaCemis amarad darCenils, didi xnis win hqonda Cawyvetili gulis mTavari ZarRvi, Tumca... ar imCnevda amas...

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axla ki... daZabunebuli sxeuli veRar malavda sulis sasowarkveTas.

me mindoda TvalebiT gadameca misTvis is SegrZne-ba, gardauvaloba rom iwvevs adamianSi. mindoda, TvalebiT gamerRvia is zRude, raic aRmarTuliyo Cemsa da mas Soris, raic gvmijnavda, gvaSorebda erTi meores.

bage ki Cveulebriv, arafrismTqmel sityvebs warmoTqvamda. babuac aseve hoTi, an araTi pasuxobda. da isev ise ixureboda misi sulis sarkmeli, isev ise Tavis TavTan rCeboda marto.

diax, babua marto iyo, da es modioda albaT didi xnidan, Zalian didi xnidan, egeb im droidan, zedized oTxi vaJis daRupva rom Seityo, an egeb... sulac dasabamidan, gaCenis dRidan dahyva Tan martoobis SegrZneba, im dRidan, pirvelad rom aaxila Tvali, dainaxa ca da usazRvro irgvliveTi. iqneb amitomac uyvarda aserigad nadiroba, rom marto rCe-boda tyesa da RreSi da Tavisdauneburadve eZebda, dauRa-lavad, dausruleblad eZebda Tavis sulis mewyviles, misi martoobis Tanaziars _ oqrosTmian tyaSmafas _ tyis dedo-fals. iqneb amitom uyvarda ase TavdaviwyebiT cxenis gi-Juri Wenebac _ rameTu qrolvaSi SeigrZnobda albaT, rogor erwymoda misi amboxebuli, aboboqrebuli suli garesamyaros da am erTianobaSi hpovebda Svebasa da simSvides.

...babua axlac marto iyo da misTvis, Tavis RmerTTan ganmartoebuli martosulisTvis Cven, landebadqceuli moCvenebani Tu viyaviT, gzaabneulni rom davborialobT us-ier, udabur tyeSi, cxovreba rom hqvia.

...WirisuflebTan veRar davdeqi. veRarc kivils da moTq-ma-godebas gavuZeli.

gareT gamovedi. uzarmazar qvabebTan mofusfuse kacebs Cavuare. wamiT kvamlma Tvalebi amiwva. vigrZeni, WurWlis mrecxavma qalebma Tvali gamomayoles. asea. micvalebulis irgvliv saqmian fusfuss versad gaeqcevi.

yana gadavWeri. aCexili simindis Reroebi fexebze mex-leba. rbil, nawvimar miwaze mivaboteb.

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Robeze gadavalaje da ferdobs Sevuyevi. notio haeri gajerebulia gviani Semodgomis msuye suniT.

babuas mier darguli da movlili xexilis baRi gaviare. xeebs foTlebi SesWknobia. cvivian gayviTlebuli foTlebi. noembris mokle dRe miwurulzea.

binddeba. saocari, araamqveyniuri siCume da siwynare dasa-dgurebula irgvliv. daRlili, uniaTo mze nel-nela eS-veba mRvrie dasalierSi. mec ukidures daRlilobas vgrZnob axla. erTianad moSvebul-moRvenTili Zlivs mivlaslaseb, arc ki vici _ saiT. xelebi mowyvetiT damcvivda. uazrod mivCerebivar Camaval mzes da aRar ZalmiZs mzera movwyvito. raRac saocari, ucnauri ZaliT mizidavs axla Tavisken daR-lili mnaTobi da mec angariSmiucemlad, ufiqrelad, udrtv-invelad mivyvebi am uxilav, jadosnur Zalas. micvalebulTa mze Tavisken mezideba. vgrZnob, rogor vwydebi miwas nel-nela da am gacrecil, mqral Suqisagan dawnul bondze mTva-reuliviT miviwev cis kidurisken, sadac mzem unda daivanos.

Cemi sxeuli saocrad msubuqi da uwonoa. gaognebuli, azrSeryeuli neli rxeviT mivdev mzis sxivebs, sisxlis-frad SeRebili cis yurisken. ca TiTqos saidumloebiT SeniRbula. fermkrTali varskvlavebi RilebiviT mimobneu-lan cargvalze da Tvalebs mipaWuneben. niavic aRar iZvris. galeuli mTvare janRiT dafarula.

uceb qarma wamoubera. mrume RrublebiT daigragna ca. male daukuneTda. yomralma ferebma CanTqes ca-rgvali. mT-vare, varskvlavebi. mze suls Rafavs da obobasaviT meweva Tavisken. mec mis fermimqral sxivTa ablabudaSi gaxveuli-taatiT, nel-nela mivqanaob dasalierisken. uecrad, TiTqos zecis dire gadmoxeTqao naTlis Cqeralma _ TeTrtaiWosan-ma mxedarma gamoagelva Cemken Tavisi raSi.

Savi nabadi ufrialebs mxedars. Tavi TeTri yabalaxiT waukravs. mohqris. moarRvevs mrume RrubelTa qaravans _ Cems Sesaxvedrad! ai, damipirdapirda TeTri raSi. yalyze Sedga. daiWixvina.

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ca Setortmanda. namgala mTvare sayuresaviT aqanavda.mzem sunTqva moipara. gailursa. varskvlavebma wamwamebi

daafaxules da mere farTod gaRebul TvalebSi gaoceba CaudgaT.

kvlav daiWixvina raSma da tori Zlierad dahkra Rru-belTa Znas. mere... mxedarma xelebi gamomiwoda: Rvelfi-viT ubzinavs Tvalebi, TeTr, dagrexil, grZel ulvaSs niavi utokebs.

babua!sanam raimes movisazrebdi, zeamitaca nafotiviT da cxenze

Semomisva. mere Tavisi nabdis kalTebi mzrunvelad Semomax-via, mere sadave moswia da: _ hahaito! _ erTi dasWeqa mise-burad mWaxe, gamyinavi xmiT da...

varskvlavebiT moWiqul usasrulo sivrceSi gamaqrola....roca gamoverkvie... babuas cxedarTan videqi kvlav

Seurxevlad. CaRvenTil sanTlis Suqze TvalmouSorebliv davcqerodi mis mSvid, wynar saxes da TuTunis foToliviT gamxmar, damWknar xelebs, _ odesRac esoden Zlieri rom iyo! da axla _ uRonod rom ewyo mis ganier gulmkerdze.

atmis yvavilebi

gazafxulia.Cems WiSkarTan atami hyvavis. Wadris totebSi mTvare gax-

larTula. uTvalavi varskvlavebiT moWiqula cis iisferi TaRi. muqlurji mandili mousxamT gulzviad mTebs.

nawvimari miwisa da axladafeTqebul mcenareTa kvirtebis amo surneliT gazavebula haeri. oTaxSi Semodis Ramis idumalebiT savse CurCuli.

ocnebaTa da mogonebaTa Jamia. da mec vocnebob... da mec vigoneb...

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SarSan, am dros momacile Cems saxlamde. atmis qveS SevCerdiT, im atmis xesTan, Cems WiSkarTan rom dgas abrdRvi-alebuli.

Cven vdumvarT, magram saubroben Cveni Tvalebi. Cven vdumvarT, magram gulebi uxmod, usityvod usmenen erTi meores.

anazdad Sen miwvdi atmis tots da TiTebi mouWire. at-mis tots TiTqos gadaeca Seni mRelvareba, Tavadac atokda, aTrTolda da... Tavze gadmogvayara nazi yvavilebi.

da momeCvena, Tvalcimcima varskvlavebi Caipentnen Cvens TmebSi.

mTvare eSmakurad iRimeboda Wadris totebidan, Tvals gvipaWunebda, TiTqos gvaqezebda...

es iyo SarSan, gazafxulze.axla... isev yvavilobis droa. Cems WiSkarTan isev ise

nazi, vardisferi yvavilebiT daicincxla atmis mSvenieri xe. Sens sarkmelTanac brialebs albaT cecxlisferi yvavilebi.

yvelaferi isev isea, rogorc SarSan, gazafxulze, mTvare kvlav kvimaturad iRimeba Wadris rtoebidan.

araferi ar Secvlila. mxolod... Sen aRar macileb, ukve!

Rimili

tramvaiSi TiTqmis aravin iyo.bileTi aiRo da konduqtor-qalTan axlos dajda. is

Tavis CanTaSi iqeqeboda gulmodgined da gogonasTvis arc Seuxedavs.

saaTs daxeda. pirveli dawyebuliyo. Cumi SeSfoTeba Semoepara gulze.

ramdeni dro gasula! mecadineobas Seyvnen, mere megi cu-dad gaxda da ai...

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dedas SeeSindeba, Tumca... icis, rom SeiZleba Seagviandes.au, ramdeni inerviula... xelebi gaucivda megis, Tvalebi

gadaatriala. saxeze mitklisferi daedo. Zlivs movasu-liereT...

oh, es sesiebi!.....moxucic Cavida. vagonSi axla konduqtori da TviTonRa

rCebian. Tumca daica...wina karebidan xmauriT sami ymawvili amovida. isini jer

baqanze idgnen, xmamaRla laparakobdnen, icinodnen, da... bil-wsityvaobdnen.

uneburad Subli Seikra. sarkmelSi gaixeda, konduqtorma, etyoba, veRar moiTmina da... bileTi aiReTo, _ mimarTa biWebs.

bileTio? _ axla uaresad axorxocdnen axalgazrdebi.mere... konduqtors utifrad Seeybednen.xanSiSesuli koduqtori qali WarxaliviT wiTldeba da

usityvod ylapavs Seuracxyofas.gogona kvlav sarkmelSi icqireba. kopebSekruli da...

uceb grZnobs, rom... biWebi mas uyureben. mere xmadabla ra-Racas eubnebian erTmaneTs, mere...

ori maTgani gogonas win jdeba, mesame _ mis gverdiT.jer Cumad arian, Cans, erTmaneTSi TvalebiT saubroben.es siCume ufro aSinebs gogonas, magram garegnulad

arafers imCnevs.

_ romeli saaTia, qaliSvilo? _ bolos xazgasmuli Tava-

zianobiT ekiTxeba erTi maTgani.

xma ar gasces? magram vai Tu es uaresi iyos? upasuxos?

magram ena rom sasas miekra?

elvis uswrafesad enacvleba azri azrs.

wamodges? magram rom ar moeSvan mainc?

gogonas dumiliT `Seuracxyofili~ biWebi kvlav dau-

rideblad avyioben. uxamsi sityvebi, kadnieri Tvalebi, damax-

injebuli, Jargonuli qarTuli. autaneli kilo.

da... yvelaze ufro gulisamrevia _ sicili: uxeSi, yinCi

sicili. wamierad gamanadgurebeli, zizRiT savse mzera moav-

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lo maT mogrZo, Sav-Sav saxeebs, viwro, avazakur Tvalebs.

tuCi moikvnita. uilajobis brazi yelSi uWers da TiTqos

axrCobs. o, o, rom SeeZlos saTiTaod aWamos amaT lazaTiani

sila...

uceb wamoiWra. gasasvlels maSura. Tvali hkida konduq-

toris dafeTebul saxes. igi veRar bedavs gamoqomagebas. an

Rirs ki? isini ufro uaresad aiwyveten albaT Tavs da...

biWebic xmauriT wamoiSalnen. gogonas garSemo ikribe-

bian. SiSi, yru da saSineli SiSi ipyrobs mTel mis arsebas.

rogor moiqces? _ gayves tramvais bolo gaCerebamde?

mere xom isev unda dabrundes ukan... es salaxanebi albaT

ar moeSvebian...

Cavides? magram isinic rom Camoyvnen? ara, Casvla ufro

saSiSia, miT umetes, bneli Sesaxvevi unda gaiaros. ra qnas?

grZnobs, rom muxlebi ukankalebs. guli amovardnaze aqvs.

tkivilamde uWers xels wignebiTa da rveulebiT gatenil

CanTas.

biWebi ar cxrebian. ufro da ufro auSves afra.

es erTi gaCerebac. meoreze unda Cavides. sxva gza ar

aris. an egeb... vatmanTan Sevardes? rac unda iyos, mamakacia.

gamoesarCleba ki? gabedavs?.. Tumca... romc gamoidos Tavi,

ra? tramvais xom ver miatovebs da saxlSi xom ver gayveba?

oh, Tqve wyeulebo... nuTu adamianis guli ar gaqvT? ara-

vin gyavT: an deda, an da, an axlobeli? nadirebi xarT, jun-

glebidan gamovardnilni?

`vaime, dediko, ra meSveleba?~

o, o, viRac amovida. egec vaJia?

Wabukma amosvlisTanave Tvali hkida gogonas cremlian

Tvalebs, ferwasul saxes, aTrTolebul tuCebs.

swrafad aiRo bileTi. da mere pirdapir gogonasken

gamoemarTa.

_ ra iyo? ra mogivida? _ jer gogonas CaekiTxa, Semdeg

biWebisken miabruna moRuSuli saxe. isini rogorRac uxerx-

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ulad SeiSmuSnen. mzera ganze waiRes. mere raRac gaurkvev-lad wailuRluRes da nela gaikrifnen ukana baqanze.

gogonam, jerac gonsmousvlelma, gaocebuli Tvalebi Se-anaTa ucnobs.

`albaT... SeeSala! nacnobi vegone Tu... ise, ubralod gamomeqomaga?.. an egeb esec TvalTmaqcobs?~

TiTqos nafiqrals miuxvdao, ucnobi vaJi TvalebSi Caac-qerda da... gauRima.

TeTrma, gasaocrad TeTrma kbilebma gaielves Wabukis sax-eze. da gogonas moeCvena, rom sinaTle Seefrqva.

o, es Rimili...uxilavi, Sinagani siTboTi anaTebs igi adamianis saxes,

TvalebSi ki, _ mzis sxivebis aTinaTi dgeba.vin aris, ra moxdenili vaJia? TiTqos sadRac unaxavs

kidec, magram sad, universitetSi? ara, ara, universiteteli rom iyos, ecodineba. maS, sad?

igi mcire xans dakvirvebiT Sescqeroda gogonas. _ ic-nobT maT? _ hkiTxa uecrad da TvaliT aniSna biWebisken. gogona Setokda. gaWirvebiT gadaylapa nerwyvi, mere Tavi gaiqnia: _ pirvelad vxedav... _ amoTqva Zlivs gasagoni xmiT.

_ hm. gasagebia... _ Caiduduna ucnobma. mere erTxel kidev gaixeda miCumebuli biWebisken gamxvreti, basri TvalebiT, mere gogonas moubrunda isev. am dros... tramvaic gaCerda.

gogona gamoerkva. Seirxa._ aq Camodixar? _ swrafad hkiTxa vaJma._ diax... _ waiCurCula gogonam._ CavideT, aba!ucnobi jer TviTon Caxta. mere xeli gauwoda gogonas

da CamosvlaSi moeSvela.o, ra Zlieri marjvena aqvs...liandagi unda gadaiaron da...uceb, moulodnelad win Caiqrola carielma tramvaim. _

frTxilad! _ xeli waatana mklavSi vaJma. ukan daswia, mere

RimiliT uTxra:

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_ ras Svrebi, gogo, kinaRam Cauvardi?

gaognebuli gogona xmas ar iRebs. TiTqos ena gaday-

lapao. naZaladevad SehRima vaJs da Tvali qurdulad gaapa-

ra gverdze.

is biWebic Camosulan, erTad Sejgufulan da maTken ic-

qirebian.

guli SeekumSa. SeSfoTda isev: `albaT miTvalTvaleben...

undaT naxon... gamomyveba es vaJi Tu... marto waval~.

mere... gatrunuli, sunTqvaSekruli miyveba ucnobs, Tu...

igi moyveba?

trotuarze gadavidnen, vaJi Sedga.

_ axla saiT wavideT?

gogona mRelvarebisgan TiTqos damunjdao. xmas ver iRebs.

mere... usityvod, uxmod moabijeben isev gverdigverd. vaJi

sigarets abolebs da dums. gogona zogjer malulad axe-

davs mas. netavi, vinaa, ubnelia? ara mgonia...

ai, Sesaxvevic... gogona SeCerda.

_ aq cxovrob?

_ aq... unda Sevuxvio.

_ wamodi... migyvebi saxlamde!

bneli quCa. oRro-CoRro. mixveul-moxveuli. sadRac mo-

SorebiT zantad yefs ZaRli.guli gaSmagebiT ucems. azri efanteba. iWvebi. varaudebi.

vai Tu... vin icis..._ frTxilad! _ mklavSi hkidebs xels isev.oh, ra saocari Zala gadmodis vaJis xelebidan.ai, WiSkaric. Zlivs. TiTqos ar sjera, rom Sin movida. _ movediT? _ kiTxulobs vaJi._ diax._ aba Sedi. kargad iyavi!_ Tqven... Tqven rom dagvxvdnen... isini? _ xma ucaxcaxebs.SiSCamdgar Tvalebs apyrobs.vaJma gaicina (RmerTo?.. ra bavSvuri sicili scodnia!)

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_ damxvdnen mere! _ isev icinis.

uceb sicili Camoirecxa saxidan: _ Cemze ar idardo... arx-

einad iyavi. ho, marTla... _ wasasvlelad gamzadebuli, Semo-

brunda. gogonas saxeSi Caxeda: _ ase gvian ar unda iaro mar-

tom. xom xedav, ra da ra juris xalxs SeiZleba gadaeyaro...

aba, kargad! _ uceb loyaze, viT patara bavSvs, xeli mouTaTuna

da gatrialda... wamic da... sibneles Seerwya. gauCinarda.

wavida. madlobac rom ver uTxra? aRar daacala...

xom unda eTqva... ratom daagvianda, rom... gamocdisTvis

amzadebda sagans Tavis TanakurselTan erTad, rom... mou-

lodnelad amxanagi cudad gaxda, rom...

magram ukve gvianaa. vaJi wavida. verafers etyvis, ve-

rafers gaagebinebs.

vin aris? saxelic rom ar icis? ver hkiTxa... ver moas-

wro... Tu moerida?

mas Semdeg...

daeZebs gogonas Tvalebi vaJs. eZebs yvelgan _ Tavmoy-

ril xalxSi, quCaSi, troleibussa Tu tramvaiSi, kinosa

Tu TeatrSi, universitetis derefnebsa Tu ezoSi. TiTqos

miwam Caylapao. versad ver gadagyara.

da ai, erTxel tramvaidan rom Camodioda...

nuTu isaa?

vaJi kioskTan mivida. gazeTebi iyida, mere gamobrunda da

gazeTis kiTxviT, neli nabijiT dauyva quCas.

is aris. namdvilad is. guli sixaruliT auCqrolda. sax-

eze uneblieT wamoenTo. mRelvarebisgan piri gauSra. wami

da... pirispir SeeCexebian erTmaneTs. mere?.. mere SeaCerebs

da Tumca gvian, mainc gadauxdis madlobas...

o, rogor natrobda am Sexvedras?.. winaswar TiTqmis

yovelive moisazra: rogor moqceuliyo, ra sityvebi eTqva...

vaJma uceb Tavi aswia. mSvidad Sexeda da... isev gazeTs

Caacqerda. gza ganagrZo.

ver icno!

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gogona Secba. wyenis Crdilma gadaurbina saxeze. guli uneblieT moewura. TvalebSi cremli moawva. Tavi Cahkida.

ver icno. warmogidgeniaT?!mere... nel-nela Seepara Rimili tuCebs. veRar icno?

mereda, rao? rac mTavaria, TviTon xom icnobs? marTalia, saxelic ar icis misi, arc gvari. arc is, Tu sad cxovrobs, swavlobs sadme Tu muSaobs. araferi, sruliad araferi icis masze da mainc... icnobs. morCa da gaTavda. icnobs mis Rimils, wylis WavliviT rom cimcimebs bageze da TvalebSi mzis Suqis aTinaTs rom ayenebs. diax, icnobs da...

aTasSi gamoarCevs mas!

Zaxili

swrafad, sulmouTqmelad avirbine qviSian borcvze. mere Sevdeqi. gavinabe.

sul axlos iwva zRva da zantad izmoreboda Tavis uzarmazar sarecelze. zRva gamdnari vercxlisferi iyo da alag-alag oqros Tevzis farflebiviT bzinavda aisis mzis oqrosfer sxivebze.

mTaTa qongurebze cecxli gizgizebda. casac Rawvebi Se-fakloda da... erTmaneTSi ireoda Zowisferi, narinjisferi, zurmuxtisferi...

videqi gatvrinuli mzis sxivebiT moTilismebul napirze da mzera ver momeSorebina zRvis talRebisTvis, uSfoTve-lad, wynarad rom livlivebdnen Cumi dvriniviT.

zRvauri alersianad mifaTurebda TiTebs saxeze, TmaSi mexlarTeboda, melaciceboda.

bolos gamoverkvie, nela daveSvi borcvidan. Tavi odnav damZimeboda uZilobisagan. mousvenrad gavatare mTeli Rame wuxel SenTan daSorebis Semdeg.

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...gvianobamde vseirnobdiT sanapiroze. erTad yofnis sixa-rulSi Tvalsa da xels Sua gagvepara dro... mere... ve-Rar daviZine. sawolSi vwrialebdi. Tvalwin sul Seni saxe medga...

...fexs avuCqare. ukve sul axlosaa zRva, Cemi sayvareli zRva. igi Cumad, TavisTvis butbutebs Rameul sizmrebs. kidev cota da... Cavexvevi, Cavekonebi mis moalerse, Tbil talRebs.

uceb adgilze gavSeSdi. qvebze piraRma Sen iweqi.guli Zlier Semiqanda.nela, fexakrefiT mogiaxlovdi. Sen TavqveS xelebi amo-

gewyo da Tvalgaxelili Tvlemdi Tu raime zmanebas gaeTa-nge _ aRar iZrodi. SeumCnevlad mogepare da Tvalebze xeli dagafare. Sen gvelnakbeniviT Setokdi. mere wamojeqi da... gaocebisgan gafarToebuli TvalebiT momaCerdi.

_ SegaSine, ara? _ gavicine me da Sens Soriaxlos Cavimuxle.

_ Seen?.. saidan? _ imdeni sixaruli, aRtaceba da mRel-vareba iyo Sens TvalebSi, rom me... isev gavicine, gavicine bednierebis siciliT.

_ rogor... gaCndi aq?.._ me ki ara, Sen ra gindoda aq? es Cemi adgilia. me aq

davdivar xolme sabanaod!_ hoo?.. ar vicodi, namdvilad ar vicodi, Tu... ase sisxam

diliT dadixar Turme sabanaod, Torem..._ Torem ra? _ TvalebSi Segxede pirdapir.anazdad, Sen orive xeli mklavSi Camavle, Sensken mimizide.

saxidan Rimili gagiqra. Tvalebi Cagimuqda. saxe gagimtk-narda. me wamiT sunTqva Semekra. guli sadRac ufrskulSi CaiZira...

_ naniko... rogor momenatre, rom icode? ase mgonia, TiTqos saukunea ar minaxixar...

_ avTo, modi, curvaSi gavejibroT, erTmaneTs. ginda? _ wamoviZaxe erTbaSad da frTxilad gaviTavisufle Tavi Seni mklavebisgan.

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Sen qveda tuCi Caikvnite da mzera daxare. ar vici, ramden

xans gagrZelda Cveni dumili...

me daxrili quTuToebidan gverdulad vxedavdi, rogor

moisvi saxeze xelisguli, mere gverdze gadaixare, dakecili

Sarvlis jibidan sigareti da sanTebela amoiRe. moukide. me

swrafad Semovbrundi Senken.

_ avTo, Sejibrebis xom ar geSinia? _ xumrobis kiloTi

gkiTxe, magram... ratomRac xma gamebzara. yovelnairad vcdi-

lobdi, Tvali ameridebina Seni ganieri, SiSveli mxar-beWisT-

vis da... veRar vaxerxebdi.

_ meSinia? me?

_ ho... dagaviwyda gana, erTxel rom gajobe? mere napirze

mimtyepe, rad gamiswario?

_ tyuilia. me ar micemixar... _ Sen erTbaSad gawiTldi

patara bavSviviT.

_ ho, marTalia. Sen ki ar gamartyi _ me gagalaxine Tavi!

orives sicili wagvskda da... oriveni TiTqos isev ise pa-

tarebad viqeciT, me _ axtajana gogod, Sen _ oriode wliT

Cemze ufros, moridebul, wynar, mSvid biWad.

wamiT waiSala yovelive sxva, garda im bednieri wlebis

naTelisa...

_ me maSin mklavi meRrZo, Sen es icodi da mainc maja-

vrebdi. moTminebidan gamomiyvane... da Semogilawune kidec...

_ ho... maxsovs, rogor ganicdidi mere. me kidev... gage-

bute... ra sasaciloebi viyaviT, ara?.. magram axlac xom ara

gaqvs mklavi naRrZobi? ai, axlac gajobeb!

_ vin, Sen?

_ diax, me!

_ amas uyure erTi! _ Sen iRimebodi da es Tbili, aler-

siani, amavdroulad, Semwynarebluri Rimili ufro amZafreb-

da Cems bavSur, ancur wadils.

_ ar gjera, xom?.. ai, vnaxoT... oRond... _ da isev aRimarTa

Cvens Soris bavSvobis Semdeg ganvlili wlebi.

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_ oRond... mibrundi. ar Semoxedo, sanam wyalSi Seval. xom gesmis, ar gabedo moxedva!

_ ho, kai._ avTo, icode ar moixedo, Torem!.._ ho, kai-meTqi gogo, nu gaaWire saqme!_ ar gexumrebi, icode!..elvisuswrafesad gaviZre kaba da zRvaSi Sevedi._ SegiZliaT mobrundeT!Sen neli nabijebiT gamoswie Cemken. axovans, beWebSi ga-

ziduls, sportuli aRnagobis mqones _ Tvals ver mog-wyvetda adamiani. me wyalSi vdgafunobdi, giyurebdi da... vicinodi. vicinodi umizezod, ise _ radgan usazRvrod bednierad vgrZnobdi Tavs da ar vicodi, ra iwvevda bed-nierebis am SegrZnebas: zafxulis es mSvenieri dila, tkbi-lad monanave zRvis talRebi Tu... Seni siaxlove? an iqneb... yvelaferi erTad?

me kiskisiT saxeze peSviT wyali SegaSxefe... Sen ki xmas ar iRebdi. isev ise miyurebdi da... Cumad iRimebodi. es mzera da tuCebze gawolili odnavi Rimili _ guls miCqrolebda, saamo talRebad mivlida ZarRvebSi. ucabedad momskdari mRelvareba rom damefara, gadametebuli xalisiT wamoviZaxe:

_ daviwyoT, aba!.. e, e... ukan daiwie, biZia! Tanabari manZili unda davicvaT startze.

_ o, Sen isev iseTi WinWyli gogo xar, naniko!_ araferic. samarTali _ samarTalia. aba, he... icode, ga-

jobeb, gajobeb, avTo, da mere gabedav galaxvas?Sen mxolod iRimebodi pasuxad da mSvidad miapobdi tal-

Rebs Cems gverdiT.mere... Sen Sors iyavi, Zlier Sors da amaod vcdilobdi,

dagweodi. Sen SeCerdi. Tavi Cemsken moabrune, Tan xeli damiqnie:

_ Seisvene, naniko. nu Cqarob. me... dagicdi... _ axla ukve Sen damcinodi. mamasxaravebdi.

gavbrazdi. jibris grZnobam marTla damria xeli.

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_ aba, Tu biWi xar, maqedan gamaswari! _ SegZaxe da ms-wrafl movbrundi, rac Zali da Rone mqonda ukan, napirisken gamovcure.

mere... Sen gverdSi momdevdi erTxans, Tan ybas miqcevdi: _ naniko, egeb Tavidan daviwyoT, ha? me mgoni, startze Tanabari manZili ar iyo daculi. SegiZlia _ gaaprotesto.

_ didi ambavi axla, Tu majobe. satrabaxo bevri araferi gaqvs. erTiT erTs varT bolos da bolos.

_ naniko, ici... RmerTmani, ar mindoda gameswro, magram... zRvam gamitaca Cemdauneburad... Tan, ramdeni xania, ar micura-via... sul damaviwyda, rom Sen... mejibrebodi.

_ ra ginda viTom amiT Tqva?_ naniko, napiramde jer kidev Sorsaa. modi, mogexmarebi._ damcini, xom?_ oh, rogor gekadrebaT? RmerTma damifaros! _ Sen zus-

tad gaimeore Cemi weRandeli sityvebi, kiloSic ki gamoma-javre. orives gagvecina: xmamaRla, xalisianad.

roca fexTqveS miwa vigrZeni, suli mZimed moviTqvi da mowyvetiT Cavemxe silaSi.

_ cudad xom ara xar, naniko? _ SeSfoTebiT mkiTxe da Cemsken gadmoixare. mxarze Seni cxeli sunTqva Semefrqva.

_ ara... ara... araferia... cota, mgoni, daviRale... anazdad Seni gaficxebuli tuCebis Sexeba vigrZeni kiser-

ze: _ Cemi jiuti gogo... urCi gogo... _ CurCulebdi Sen da mxurvaled kocnidi Cemi Tmis bululebs. me wamiT gavi-lurse. gavinabe. mere... Tavi avwie. TvalebSi Segxede. maTSi elva iklakneboda. am elvis naperwklebma saxe amiwves. mzera saswrafod davxare.

_ axla... wadi, avTo. damtove._ naniko..._ Zalian gTxov, wadi.vgrZnobdi, rogor ebrZodi sakuTar Tavs. Cems gulsac

baga-bugi gahqonda. gonebas TiTqos nisli gadaefara. Sen wamoimarTe da ...usityvod, uxmod gamSordi.

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mzeradabinduli giyurebdi, Sen midiodi nela, beWebis odnavi rxeviT.

midiodi TavCaqindruli.me mindoda, dameyvira: dabrundi, nu midixar... _ magram...

guli geZaxda, bage ki _ dumda. da vaglax, Sen ver gaigone Cemi Zaxili.

wamiT SeCerdi. me Tvalebi davxuWe. kbilebiT ki mklavs Cavafrindi.

mere?mere wlebi gafrindnen....da ai, me movedi aq, Cvens napirze. zRva mSvidia, wyn-

ari da... ulurjesi. pawia, qoCora talRebi Cumi duduniT elamunebian napirs. ca krialaa _ maRali, iisferi. irgvliv myudroebaa da dumili. dumili dasadgurebula garSemo. mxolod Toliebi gamyinavi xmiT Wyivian drodadro.

vdgavar marto, sruliad marto da zRvauri isev ise Zveleburad mefereba saxeze. guli Cemi uwindeburad tokavs, igi uwindeburad geZaxis, gixmobs. magram Sen... Sorsa xar, Zlier Sors, usaSvelod Sors da me vici, verasodes ver moaRwevs Senamde Cemi Zaxili, verasodes! da mainc: vdgavar zRvis napirze da...

gixmob, guliT geZaxi! bage ki... isev ise dums.

TovliTovs. naSuadRevs daiwyo Tova da saRamosTvis ukve TeT-

rad qaTqaTebda irgvliv yvelaferi.Tovs xvavrielad, baraqianad. fantelebi frial-frialiT

cviva Zirs. TiTqos gaerTianda ca da dedamiwa, Seerwya da SeenivTa erTmaneTs.

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araamqveyniuri siCume dgas. siCume da... myudroeba. Tovlis fantelebis SariSuri Tu arRvevs am RvTiur garindebas. da sulSi iRvreba zeaRmtaci, sevdanarevi sixaruli. sxeuli TiTqos ganiZarcva xorcieli samosisgan. da axla, am pirve-lyofili siCumis wiaRSi Tovlis fifqiviT dafarfatebs uwono, gamWvirvale. dafarfatebs marto, sruliad marto

am daburuli cisa da TeTri maradisobis winaSe. magram

es martooba zeimuricaa TiTqos, amaRlebuli, zesTazenuri.

igi martvili sulis zeaRsvlaa, misi swrafvaa usasrulo-

bisaken, maradisobisaken. aseT dros mTeli arsebiT grZnob,

ra patara da ususuri Canxar am usazRvroebis winaSe, da

ra maRali da didebulica xar amave dros.

es marTlac rom sulis aRvsebis Jamia. misi dResaswau-

lia TiTqos. aseTi gancda geufleba maSin, roca taZarSi

usmen Cvens sagaloblebs da... baxis fugebs.

...xoSora Tovli WraWunebs Cems fexTqveS.

TavSiSvela, tyapuWze sakinZCaxsnili davaboteb am us-

asrulo, Cabindul siTeTreSi da xarbad visunTqav sufTa,

notio haers. Tovlis fafuki fantelebiT mevseba Tma, me-

lumpeba saxe. gaRma ferdobze Sefenili soflidan yrud

moismis ZaRlebis yefa.

TiTqos damibrunda bavSvobisdroindeli, miviwyebuli

grZnoba, pirveli Tovlis mosvla rom iwvevda CemSi.

Rame ver viZinebdi. waramara vdgebodi da uCumrad, frTx-

ilad gadavwevdi xolme fanjris fardas da ezoSi vicqire-

bodi _ dado Tovli Tu ara-Tqo!..

Tovs. Tovs ki ara, bardnis lamazad.

axla yvela Tavis kerasTan zis albaT da cecxls eficxe-

ba. Cemi beboc Tbeba axla SuacecxlTan da... melodeba. me

ki... davalajeb uTavbolod mTis am patara soflis borcve-

bze martoka da idumal siCumes vayuradeb Cems garSemo.

didi xania ar vyofilvar aq, zamTarSi. aseT didTovlobas

didi xania ar Sevswrebivar. qalaqur zamTars SeCveuls,

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axla es RvTaebrivi silamaze, uCveulo garindeba maretianebs,

Tavbrus maxvevs da... fiqrebs amiSlis xolme.

...Senc albaT zixar axla Sens oTaxSi, wigns kiTxulob,

an ukrav, an televizors uyureb, an arada, SesaZloa, quCebSi

daxetialobT Sen da is _ lamazi, maRali biWi. igi Sem-

civnul xelebs giTbobs...ramdenjer Camivlia RamiT Seni saxlis win, raTa erTxel

kidev Tvali Semevlo im alagisTvis, esoden Zvirfasi rom iyo CemTvis, da... aris dRemde!

...Zvel WrilobebSi xelis faTuri gviyvars Turme adamianebs Jamidan Jamamde. an iqneba imitomac ver veleviT im gardasuls, rom masTan Cveni cxovrebis gazafxulia dakavSirebuli?

roca pirvelad daginaxe `imasTan~ _ mivxvdi, rom yvelaferi damTavrda, damagvianda _ samudamod, samarad-Jamod da mainc, amisda miuxedavad, ver Segleodi. veRar dameTmo Seni Tavi im `viRacisTvis~...

Sen gaRimebuli midiodi mis gverdiT, bednieri Candi. kmayofili. koxtad miarxevdi tans da... araferi gesaqmeboda imasTan, vinc simwriT Cumad ikvnetda tuCebs, Wadris xes amofarebuli. visac uecrad, erTbaSad daeufla SurisZiebis grZnoba, visac undoda, iqve, quCaSi, sajarod etaca SenTvis xeli da xmamaRla, yvelas gasagonad, im biWis gasagonadac meTqva: _ me minda... me moviTxov...

ra, ra mindoda? ra unda momeTxova? is, rom bolomde yofiliyavi erTguli Seni sityvis, gageRo msxverpli ukve wasuli siyvarulisTvis? giyurebdi Rimilians, saxeanTe-buls, saocrad lamazs da moxdenils da mivxvdi, Sen Cem-Tvis darCebodi ara is, vinc miabijebda axla am axovani biWis gverdiT, aramed is nawnavebiani gogona, xelSi patara daiko rom geWira da Sua ezoSi mdgari, uRimoda... ras? ar vici ras: mzes, atmis tots Tu... im aTinaTs, irgvlveTs rom mofenoda?

im xatebas _ veravin wamarTmevda, imas sxva ver daisa-kuTrebda, is mxolod Cemi iyo, mxolod me mekuTvnoda,

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niadag CemSi cocxlobda, Cemi sisxlis ujredebSi budobda da CemTan erTad Tu uweria sikvdili...

Sen es ar ici. arc aravin icis amqveynad. verc veravin mixvdeba verasodes.

Tovs. isev ise gadauReblad bardnis. gadaTeTrda irgv-liveTi, uceb... mominda avvardniliyavi soflis Zveli, dan-greuli eklesiis samrekloze, mZlavrad Camomekra zari da... mTeli xmiT meyvira: _ xalxno! gamodiT... gareT gamodiT!.. SexedeT _ ra silamazea! da modiT... SevundoT erTi meores. gviyvardes, gviyvardes erTmaneTi!

Sexvedra

dabali ca. da caze uwesrigod dajorgili Savi Rruble-bi. atalaxebuli miwa: alag-alag gulmkerdCalewil-Can-greuli da triali tramali-usazRvro, ukidegano. zantad miizlazneba uzarmazari mdinare da sadRac Sors, Camuqebul sivrces erwymis.

dgas martosuli CaRamebuli TvalebiT. dgas Seurxevlad da mdumared, fiqrianad gascqeris win gadaSlil bindian tramals. usaSvelo simZime awveba gulze.

da ase hgonia: ai, axla Camoiwevs es Savad Sesudruli zeca, Camoiwevs da... Tan daitans.

suli Seugubda. sakinZe Caixsna. yelze, mkerdze moisva civi xeli. eama. Tvalebi moxuWa. da anazdad... TiTebi Seexnen...

dediseuli jvari!tanjvanarevma Rimilma SeuTrTola tuCebi. wamiT gairinda.da daikarga garemo. ufskrulSi CaiZira yovelive da

mogonebaTa burusidan nel-nela amotivtivda qalis WaRara

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Tavi, siyvaruliT danisluli Tvalebi, damWknari saxe, uf-

eruli tuCebi.

`bednieri var, Svilo, Sens unaxavad rom ar movkvdi!~ _

Caesma erTbaSad misi naCurCulevi.

Seqanda. Tvalebze moisva xeli. wamsve gaqra dedis aCrdili.

aravinaa irgvliv. martoa, sruliad marto am udabur

tramalze. zantad miizlazneba uzarmazari mdinare, da sul

ufro da ufro dabla iwevs ca: TiTqos swyuria SeeTqvi-

fos, SeenivTos dedamiwas.

sakinZe Seikra. gadaTxril Zvel sangars gadaabija.

waiforxila anazdad, CaiCoqa cali muxliT da...

cxadia Tu... zmaneba?

enZelebi, pawia, nazi enZelebi sangris kideze! erTmaneTs

mikvrian Sesvrilni, SeTxupnilni.

ra saswauls gadaurCnen isini aq?

nuTu... gazafxuli modis marTla?..

frTxilad, saTuTad gaacala talaxi enZelebs.

`iq axla gazafxulia... namdvili gazafxuli!~

wamoimarTa. naRvliani RimiliT daxeda enZelebis konas.

mere tuCebTan miitana wamiT.

...mZimed mialajebs tramalze.

stanica. samxedro banaki... da uceb Caqra TvalTa siTbo.

Tavi CaRuna. nabijs auCqara. yrud aRwevs mis cnobierebamde

kazakTa Jriamuli. sadRac garmoni iweleba. viRac gabmiT

mReris. mReris ki ara, gahkivis. viRac bilwad igineba. viRac

xorxocebs.

Tavdaxrili midis. midis ki ara, TiTqmis mirbis. rogorme

male unda gaecalos aqaurobas.

...jer SiSvel talaxSi azelil fexebs miwvda misi mzera.

merme... warbebs qvemodan daufaravi siZulviliT anTebul

Tvalebs SeefeTa anazdeulad.

uxalisod, ugulod isxlets am mtrul mzeras da

gulgrili ieriT avlebs Tvalebs-erTad SejgufulT.

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`amdilandeli brZolis tyveebia... egenic ganwirulni arian!~ _ undilad gaurbina TavSi. da erTbaSad... Setokda. saxe daugrZelda. loyebi wamoegzno, merme gafiTrda. uan-gariSod, ufiqrelad nabiji win wadga da...

gons moego. adgilzeve gaqvavda. kbilebi erTmaneTs magrad daaWira, mzera daxara.

`nuTu?!~nebisyofis daZabviT sZlia Tavs. daimorCila saxis gamom-

etyveleba _ gulis gaSmagebuli cema!.. (madloba RmerTs, gulSi veravin Camoixedavs!). mxolod axlaRa Sexeda wkipze SemarTul mcvelebsac.

_ sad migyavT... eseni? _ ikiTxa viTom daudevari kiloTi da mSvidi, Zalze mSvidi saxiT.

_ jer yazarmaSi, Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav! _ sxar-tad miugo Cofura, dagvajuli tanis kazakma, mere dasZina: _ Semdeg ki... CaaZaRleben am wiTel maimunebs! _ da kazaki ufro gaiWima da... gaiRriWa.

TiTqos arc SeumCneviao es uadgilo, briyvuli Rimili, civi, erTob civi xmiT gamokveTa:

_ eg... subieqti, _ xeliT aniSna maRal-maRal, gamxdar tyveze, _ me momgvareT.

_ aris, Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav!...da axla gangeb auCqareblad, dinjad miabijebs pirquSi

saxiT, gulaZgerebuli. swrafad enacvleba erTmaneTs fiqri-fiqrs, azri-azrs, grZnoba-grZnobas.

Stabi! rogorc iqna-miaRwia!xelis kvriT SeaRo derefnis kari, uxmod Cauara anazdad

dabneul adiutants. oTaxSi Sevida da kars aekra, wamiT yuri miugdo sakuTari gulis cemas. mere Seirxa, xelis swrafi, nerviuli moZraobiT mazara gaiZro, skamze miagdo da uecrad enZelebis kona moxvda TvalSi. eoca. saidan gaCndnen mis xelSi enZelebi?

erTbaSad moagonda... mere xeli moiqnia. magidaze daeca enZelebis kona. aCqarebiT gaiar-gamoiara oTaxSi. papirosi?

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hm, undoda moewia...asanTi amoiRo jibidan. isev gairinda. TvalgaSterebiT

dgas Sua oTaxSi da...ra taatiT midis dro!

xmauri derefanSi. fexebis bakuni.

saswrafod fanjarasTan dadga, fardebis CrdilSi. karze

frTxili kakuni:

_ Semodi!

karebSi adiutanti gamoCnda.

_ Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav, tyve...

_ Semoiyvane! _ Seawyvetina.

kidev wami Tu... saukune! merme...

_ Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav...

_ gadi!

swrafad gaixura kari adiutantma. giorgi adgils mowyda:

_ oTar!.. nuTu Sena xar, biWo? _ mxrebSi Caavlo xelebi,

mZlavrad moizida Tavisken. TvalebSi Seacqerda.

Seurxevlad dgas tyve. civad bzinaven Tvalebi. saxeze

arc erTi kunTi ar utokavs.

_ oTar, biWo... _ xma Cauwyda. gaCumda. xelebi motexili-

viT Camoucvivda. Tavi Caqindra. erTxans idga ase gaunZrev-

lad. dumili Camowva _ xangrZlivi, mZime da autaneli. mere

Tavi aswia. daxrili quTuToebidan gaxeda tyves:

_ ho, marTla... me damaviwyda, rom Cven... mtrebi varT!

Tanac... klasobrivi mtrebi! _ yrud amoTqva da ugemurad

CaiRimila. didxans, saeWvod didxans ukidebda papiross.

merme anTebuli asanTis Reros miuStera mzera da roca igi

Ziramde Caiwva-Tqva:

_ ai, rogor da... sad SevxvdiT erTmaneTs!

tyve isev dums. dasxepil, pirquS saxeze susxianad elaven

Tvalebi.

`am CamoZonZil tansacmelSic moxdenilia da... rogor

davaJkacebula! sul sxvanairi ieri dasdebia da mainc... ra

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axlobeli da Zvirfasia misi saxis TiToeuli nakvTi. es

jiuti qoCoric uwindeburad CamoSlia Sublze~...

uxmod gauwoda papirosi. tyvem Tavi gaiqnia uxmodve.

giorgim kvlav uamurad CaiRimila. mere magidasTan mivida.

enZelebis konas dawvda anazdad. Tbilma, alersianma Rimilma

Seurxia bage. mere oTars gaxeda. Sublsqvemodan:

_ oTar... gaxsovs, erTxel gazafxulze enZelebi da ia-

iebi rom davkrifeT da... nanulis mivarTviT?

isev siCume. warbSeurxevlad dgas tyve.

_ arc erTs ar gagvimxelia... visTvis gvindoda... _ ga-

nagrZobs giorgi wynari, sevdanarevi xmiT da zmanebaCamdgari

TvalebiT ver amCnevs tyvis mtrul dumils.

wamiT Tvalwin cocxldeba Soreuli warsulis suraTebi:

erTad gatarebuli yrmobis xana. bavSvuri metoqeoba tan-

lerwama, TaflisTvaleba gogonas gamo. mSobliuri sofeli.

misi maRali ca da mousvenari mereTula. silaSi kotriali

da curvaSi gajibreba. yvelgan da yvelaferSi faruli meto-

qeoba da paeqroba. zogjer kinklaobac, mere isev Serigeba

da erTad yofna.

bavSvobis ganumeorebeli xana. patara dardi da didi

imedebi. patara mwuxareba da usazRvro ocneba warmtac mo-

mavalze. mere siWabuke. daSorebuli gzebi.

da ai, mtrebad Sexvdnen erTmaneTs samSoblodan Sors. aTi

weli ar unaxavT erTmaneTi. aTi weli, da ai axla...

_ am idiliuri warsulis mosagonrad mixmeT aq, Tqveno

maRalkeTilSobilebav? _ oTars Tvalebi damcinavad mou-

Wutavs, tuCebze gesliani Rimili gaswolia.

_ oTar!..

_ rad momiyvaneT aq? ra gnebavT?.. tyvis mzeriT gindaT

dastkbeT, ara?

_ oTar... nu enamwarob, oTar! me mainc ver momatyueb Seni

gulciobiT...

_ me... ar mesmis, ras ambobT? _ mxrebi awura tyvem.

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giorgim moRlilad Caiqnia xeli. oTaxSi gaiar-gamoiara,

mere tyvis win Sedga, pirdapir Sexeda TvalebSi da:

_ me vici, Cven ukanasknelad vxvdebiT erTmaneTs... modi,

biWo, wamiT mainc daiviwye, rom TeTrgvardielis mundiri

macvia. merwmune, CemTvis igi iseve Zvirfasia, rogorc... SenT-

vis. Sen gikvirs... marTalic xar... _ giorgim wamiT iyuCa da:

_ eh, Cemi ambavi grZeli istoriaa. ar Rirs amaze lapara-

ki. arc droa axla. ubado varskvlavze vyofilvar dabade-

buli. magram... Cems Tavze ar vCivi ukve. me mxolod... _ si-

tyva gawyvita uecrad. fanjarasTan mivida. arafrismxedveli

Tvalebi miapyro moquruSebul cas, romelsac piri mouxs-

nia. merexi modis. TiTqos marTla SeerTdnen ca da dedami-

wa. oTaxSi bindi Camowva. mxolod wvimis xmauri arRvevs

gamefebul siCumes.

giorgi mobrunda. oTaris win Sedga isev, TvalebSi miaCerda:

_ ar jdebi, ara, principulad?

_ dgoma mirCevnia.

_ arc papiross moswev... weRandeliviT?

oTari wamiT Seyoymanda. mere gamowvdili papirosi gamo-

arTva. giorgim saswrafod miumarjva anTebuli asanTis Reri,

tyem Rrma nafazi daartya.

uxmod abolebdnen mcire xans. mere isev giorgim wamoi-

wyo gabzaruli, yru xmiT:

_ me giTxari weRan, Cems Tavze ukve ar vdardob-meTqi

da es... asea. Cemi ambavi gaTavebulia. Cemze didi danaklisi

RmerTma nu misces Cvens qveyanas, magram... saqarTvelo iRu-

peba, biWo... ai, ra Camyveba samareSi usaSvelo dardad.

_ bevrjer egonaT egre, magram yovelTvis fexze wamomd-

gara da kvlavac wamodgeba! _ mkveTri xmiT Seesityva anaz-

dad oTari.

_ kvlavac wamodgeba? mereda... vin wamoayenebs, roca sa-

kuTarma Svilebma mouTaves xeli?

_ noes qamis garda kidev hyavda Svilebi.

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_ vin... vin arian isini? me rom ver vxedav? _ wamieri

pauza:

_ Cven!

_ ?!_ raT gikvirs? diax, Cven, swored Cven movutanT saqa-

rTvelos Tavisuflebas, bednierebas. Cven gadavarCenT mas daRupvisagan!

giorgi erTxans gaSterebuli Sehyurebda saxeSi, mere gamoerkva, xeli Caiqnia:

_ menSevikebic ase gaiZaxian axla. sinamdvileSi ki, saqa-rTveloc da qarTvelobac fexebze hkidiaT.

_ savsebiT sworia!_ menSevikebs ki erTaderT swor marqsistebad moaqvT

Tavi da bolSevikebs agineben da sdevnian. mere moxvalT Tqven da menSevikebs dauwyebT devnas. amasobaSi ki xalxi wydeba. mere visTvis an risTvis gindaT Tavisufleba?

_ ar aris mase. Tavisufleba arsad, arasdros umsxver-plod ar mopovebula. eg anbanuri WeSmaritebaa.

_ hm. msxverpli... msxverpli. qarTveli qarTvels spobs... aRar gveyo sisxlis Rvra? davilieT. daviwriteT... Tumca, Tqven ra? Tqven xom sinamdvileSi arc samSoblo gwamT da arc eri. Tqven mxolod... viwro klasobrivi interesebidan uyurebT xalxis, eris saqmes. Tqveni salocavi xatic da samSobloc xom saerTaSoriso proletariatia. danarCeni yvelaferi _ demagogiaa!

_ Cven swored samSoblos, mSromelTa interesebi-dan gamovdivarT, roca vebrZviT muqTaxorebs da xalxis mZarcvelebs.

giorgim ironiulad CaiRimila da Camqrali papirosi nela CaWmuWna saferfleSi. axals moukida. erTxans iyuCa. mere Tavi gaiqnia da:

_ netamc SemeZlos virwmuno ilias mkvlelTa mier eris gadarCenis misia! _ TiTqmis CurCuliT, magram mZafri xmiT amoTqva da isev gaiqnia Tavi mware RimiliT: _ Tumca... gvi-

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ania, yovelive gviania... me arasodes mqonia namdvili mizani cxovrebaSi da axlac usagnod vibrZvi, da RmerTma Tu uwyis, visTvis an ratom! da me Zala ara maqvs, gavarRvio

es mojadoebuli rkali, ise, viT bevr Cvens winaparsac ar

Seswevda unari, ar daeRvara sakuTari xalxis sisxli gad-amTielTa interesebisaTvis. yvelaferi kanonzomieria da... yvelaferi axia Cemze, radgan... veraferSi gamovadeqi Cems qveyanas, amitomac... CemTvis awi ukve sul erTia, sad amomx-deba suli... mombezrda yvelaferi...

frTxilad daakakunes karze._ SemodiT... _ dayovnebiT gasca pasuxi. magidas miujda.

saxeze susxiani, mkacri gamometyveleba aixata.Semovida adiutanti._ ra moxda?_ Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav, sardlis Sikriki geax-

laT da... _ baraTi gauwoda. giorgim gamoarTva, swrafad gaxsna. CaikiTxa.

eqvsi saaTisTvis TaTbiria. sardali ibarebs. hm!saaTs daxeda. xuTi xdeba. wamiT Cafiqrda da:_ eniutin!_ gismenT, Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav! _ gamoeWima

adiutanti._ Cemi iorRa or wuTSi mzad iyos!_ aris, Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav!adiutanti swrafad Setrialda da gavida oTaxidan.giorgim ujra gamoaRo. revolvers daavlo xeli. jibeSi

Caido. mere mazara Caicva. isev dabrunda magidasTan. en-Zelebis kona aiRo. daWmuWna.

_ oTar, wavideT!.. gakvirvebis dro ar aris. arc SekiTx-vebis. swrafad momye!

isev ise wvims gadauReblad. adiutantma cxeni mohgvara. Tvalis daxamxamebaSi zed moevlo da:

_ eniutin! Tu vinmem mikiTxos, StabSi wavida-Tqo. gas-agebia?

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_ gasagebia, Tqveno maRalkeTilSobilebav!_ Sen ki _ wamoeTrie!gaognebulma oTarma raRacis Tqma daapira, is iyo piri

gaaRo da:_ xma! krinti! _ iWeqa giorgim: _ gamiZex!...stanicas gascdnen. merme velze gavidnen, oTari win mia-

bijebs tlapoSi. civi qari da wvima dauzogavad ucxrilavs saxes. ecema, isev dgeba.

_ kidev cota, oTar, kidev cota moiTmine... _ drodadro amxnevebs giorgi.

_ me minda vicode..._ nu Cqarob. male gaigeb!ai, mdinarec. mRvrie, mdore. CaJamebuli. Ze-xorcieli ar

WaWanebs irgvliv. trial tramalze marto orni arian. bindi TandaTan deddeba. wvims isev ise.

giorgi cxenidan Camoxta. mazara gaiZro, oTars TiTqmis ZaliT moaxura. iaraRi aiyara, xelSi miaCeCa:

_ Sejeqi!_ giorgi!.. ras niSnavs..._ Sejeqi-meTqi, biWo! bevrs nu malaparakeb! pirdapir iare,

mdinaris napiris gaswvriv. mere... Tqvenebic gamoCndebian._ arsadac ar mivdivar! damabrune axlave Cems datyveve-

bul amxanagebTan._ damijere, oTar, asea saWiro. nu ayovneb._ giorgi! mereda... Sen?_ Cemze nu dardob. aba, Sejeqi axla cxenze. nu maxvewnineb._ gogi! _ wamieri yoymani da mere: _ gogi! me ar dagin-

dobdi!.. Sens adgilze me ar dagindobdi! _ isev pauza mcire da: _ partiis saxeliT!

_ vici, oTar!_ ici? saidan?_ CemTvis kargadaa cnobili Tqveni mrwamsi. magram... axla

diskusiis dro araa. Sejeqi!uecriv mivarda oTari, moeWdo.

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erTmaneTis saxes ver xedaven, verc cremlebs.`Sen Cemi siyrmis megobari xar, biWo da... me sxvanairad

ar SemiZlia!~ _ es gulSi gaivlo, xmamaRla ki: _ nu ayovneb! Cqara!

_ gogi, modi... erTad..._ ara, ara. orives gaqceva SeuZlebelia... egec ar iyos...

savle ver viqcevi pavled. mSvidobiT, oTar!_ gogi!_ mSvidobiT-meTqi, oTar!_ mSvidobiT...wvima ar cxreba. qris qari _ susxiani, gamWoli. erTxans

cxenis Tqara-Tquris xma ismis. merme isic miwyda.martoa. sruliad marto am trial tramalze. zlaz-

vniT miagorebs Tavis mRvrie talRebs uzarmazari mdinare. TavSic mRvrie fiqrebia. sicive ususxavs mTel sxeuls.

sakinZe Caixsna. jvari amoiRo. sikvdilis win dahkida igi dedam. Cems saxsovrad atareo igi Svilo, sTxova.

`deda, mapatie. Cemi cxovrebis ubadod Sekrul naskvs wveri versaidan vupove...

Senc momiteve, Cemo qveyanav, mouteve Sens urgeb da ugunur Svils...

SenTan axla gazafxulia. tyemlebi hyvavian. mimozebi. lorTqo balaxis da nazamTrali miwis nedli suni tria-lebs haerSi... me ki... Seni miwac ar dameyreba...

kmara! `gangebasa vervin Secvlis, ar saqmneli-ar iqnebis~...ukve usicocxlo, mkrTali RimiliT SeaTvaliera revol-

veri. safeTqelze miido, ukanasknelad gaielva dedis SeZr-wunebulma saxem.

sasxlets gamohkra da... yvelaferi Sav ufskrulSi CaiZira.wvims isev ise, gadauReblad, gauTaveblad....tramalSi cxens miaqrolebs mxedari.

499

Svlis cremlebi

zafxulis mTvariani, naTeli Ramea. WriWinobelebi gauTave-blad WriWineben. sio nela SariSurobs foTlovanSi.

me da Cemi oTxiode wliT ufrosi Zma aivanze vsxedvarT da Tavs viqcevT monagoni Tu namdvili ambebis moyoliT. xanac vkinklaobT, vdaobT, vebutebiT da mere isev vurig-debiT erTmaneTs. oRond egaa: vcdilobT dedis yuramde ar mibides Cveni Cxubi, Torem adgeba da... Sin Segvrekavs. Cven ki... mamas velodebiT.

aivnidan, Ria fanjaraSi vxedav dedis SiSvel, mzisgan ga-rujul mklavebs. Cemi dedikos saocrad tkbil da Tbil xelebs, rogori mofereba ician am xelebma! oh! magram Tu gavabrazeT...

deda magidas misdgomia da TavCaRunuli auToebs da Weramde axoravebuli TeTreuli nel-nela ileva, patara-vdeba...

_ cia, modi, varskvlavebi davTvaloT!_ varskvlavebi!?_ ho, varskvlavebi. ginda?_ varskvlavebi?! varskvlavebi unda davTvaloT?_ ho, varskvlavebi. ras dagiRia, gogo, piri loqosaviT?

Tqvi Tu ginda!_ Sen TviTon xar loqo!_ abaa! ena daimokle, Torem..._ ra Torem? ras mizam?_ nu wagigrZelebia, gogo, Sen ena? uyure Sen am cinglians

ra ambavSia! ginda Tu ara TamaSi, gekiTxebi!_ minda. mere?_ hoda, daiwye aba Tvla!_ jer Sen daiwye!_ ara, jer Sen! ramdeni SegeSleba, imdeni Cartymaa TavSi,

icode.

500

_ kargi. viwyeb. erTi, ori, sami... samocdacameti...

_ SegeSala. SegeSala ocdaTerTmeti gamotove. esec Sen! _

da avTo TavSi mirtyavs xels da Tan icinis, kvdeba siciliT.

_ ar SemSlia, ar SemSlia! _ viqaCebi me da tkivilsa da

Seuracxyofas erTad vylapav.

_ aba, kidev daiwye, Tavidan....

_ kargi daviwyeb. erTi, ori, sami... samocdacameti...

_ kidev SegeSala, kidev SegeSala, _ isev mityapunebs xels

TavSi avTo da Tan ratomRac icinis, icinis kvdeba siciliT.

_ araferic ar SemSlia! _ uceb vbrazdebi me da muSts

vurtyam mkerdze.

_ abaa! xeli gaaCere!

avTom mijikava da skamloginidan gadmomagdo. es ukve me-

tismetia. amis moTmena SeuZlebelia!

_ dedaaa!

_ ra iyo, ra mogividaT? didi xania ar giCxubiaT, xom?

_ avTos uTxari rame. skamidan magdebs.

_ avTo! ar momiyvano mand, girCevnia!

_ CemTan ra ginda? TviTon mirtyams muStebs, kinaRam

gul-mkerdi Camimtvria.

_ Cagimtvrev me Sen cxvir-pirs, WkuiT iyavi Torem! ...ras

uzixarT maq? SemodiT axlave saxlSi. ukve SuaRamea. ma-

maTqveni egeb sul ar movides amaRam!.. gogo, vis velaparakebi

me? SemodiT axlave Sin da daiZineT!

_ Seni Wirime, dediko, viqnebiT ra kidev cota xans! sul

ar meZineba.

_ aba, maSin Tqveni xma, krinti ar gavigono, geyurebaT?

rava kata da ZaRliviT erT wuTs ver ZlebT erTad, Tqve

SeCvenebulebo!

Cven mcire xans marTla gatrunulebi vsxedvarT.

_ sul Seni bralia yvelaferi, Se Winkav, mabezRarav! _

moulodnelad kbilebSi sisinebs avTo da msubuqad mCqmets

ferdSi.

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sxva veraferi momisazrebia da... mklavSi vafrindebi da rac Zali da Rone maqvs frCxilebs vusob xorcSi.

avTo simwrisgan kvnesis, mere mklavs mtacebs da sanam garidebas movaswrebde, Tmaze mqaCavs mtkivneulad.

_ dedaa! _ vwivi me._ ar iSliT xom, Tqvensas? _ deda Tavs anebebs uTaobas

da am dros... Cvenda bedad, gaismis WiSkris Wriali._ mama! mama movidaaa! _ vyviri mTeli xmiT da WiSkrisken

gavrbivar kisristexiT. magram avTo maswrebs. igi erTi nax-tomiT evleba ramdenime safexurs (gzad karga gvarian mu-jluguns mTavazobs) da SurduliviT miqris.

mamas im xanad TeTri cxeni hyavda da sanadirodac xSirad am cxeniT dadioda xolme.

me aqloSinebuli miviWeri mamasTan da... erTbaSad Sevdeqi. cxenis zurgze Sveli iyo gadawvenili da... qanaobda.

_ Sveli! _ aRmomxda me da adgils mivelurse. avTos ukve moeswro mamasTvis Tofis CamorTmeva da axla WiSkris daketvaSi Sveloda.

ar maxsovs, rom mama odesme xelcarieli dabrunebuli-yos nadirobidan. mama xom mTels Cvens kuTxeSi ganTqmuli monadirea. bevri axalbeda modis mamasTan rCevisaTvis. ma-masTan erTad nadiroba ki axalgazrdebs Turme did pativad miaCniaT. hoda, mamas bevrjer Svelic moutania da jixvic, magram aseTi ram arasodes minaxavs: TeTr, jiSian cxenze da-kruli monacisfro-moyavisfro Svlis sxeuli cocxaliviT qanaobda cxenis yovel Serxevaze.

frTxilad, neli nabijiT mivuaxlovdi Svilo da Zirs um-weod Camovardnili Tavi avuwie, TvalebSi Cavxede. Tvalebi Ria hqonda _ mSvenieri, Taflisferi Tvalebi. da momeCvena, rom Sig cremlebi cimcimebdnen. albaT mTvaris Suqze mome-landa ase-meTqi, gamielva TavSi da kvlav Cavacqerdi Tva-lebSi. ara, ar momCvenebia _ Tvalebi sveli hqonda Svels.

civad SevuSvi xeli da... Sevbrundi. uceb Cems TmaSi mamis xeSeSa, grZeli TiTebis Sexeba vigrZeni.

502

`am xelebma~... _ azri ver davamTavre gonebaSi._ rogora xar, faCaCa? _ mama saalersod faCaCas meZaxis

da kidev, vin icis, ras, ara. saerTod uyvars bavSvebisTvis Tikunebis Serqmeva. Cveni ubnis bavSvebi aki kudSi dasdeven da yvelas, saTiTaod yvelas zedmet saxels eZaxis.

vatyob, mama karg gunebazea. saerTod, nadirobidan yovelT-vis Cinebul xasiaTze brundeba.

axlac mklavi gadamxvia mxarze da samzadisken erTad gavwieT. avTos cxenis aRvirisTvis Cauvlia xeli da mxarze Tofgadakidebuli, saqmiani ieriT moabijebs mamis gverdiT, Tan SekiTxvebiT ar asvenebs. mama axla, uwinares yovlisa, Tofs gawmindavs da avToc, rasakvirvelia, mamasTan Cacuc-qdeba. igi Tavis WkuiT exmareba mamas, sinamdvileSi ki-xels uSlis...

me mokuntuli, xma gakmendili mivyvebi mamas da xandaxan malulad Tvals vapareb Svelisken, Tavqve dakidebuli rom prowialobs aqeT-iqiT. da... isev ise misi cremliani Tvalebi melandeba...

deda RimiliT Semogvegeba._ Svelia? _ kiTxulobs deda da mere xmaSi ukmayo-

filo kilo ereva: _ mTeli Ramis gaTeneba momiwevs, rogorc vatyob...

_ aba, datrialdi axla. laparakis dro ar aris. Cqara movrCeT saqmes! _ mbrZaneblobs mama da dedac... datrialda.

mama da avTo samzadis boZze hkideben Svels. mama Tan mokle brZanebebs iZleva da Tan dinjad saqmianobs. zogjer Seuyvirebs kidec Tavisi mWaxe xmiT xan dedas, xan avTos, roca isini rameze dayovndebian, an ise ver gaakeTeben, ro-gorc mamas unda. ra kaJandeviviT xma aqvs am SeCvenebuls, waibuzRunebs xolme deda aseT dros, magram icis, rom es gamarjvebuli da Sinaganad kmayofili kacis xmis SemaRlebaa mxolod-brazisgan daclili...

Sveli Tavqve hkidia svetze da morCilad elodeba, rodis Seudgebian mis gatyavebas da gamoSignvas...

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Tvalebi-saocrad lamazi da umanko Tvalebi-Ria aqvs da Sig cremlebi ubrWyvialebs isev ise.

zurgi Sevaqcie boZs da axlaRa vigrZeni, saxeze Turme RapaRupiT Camomdis cremlebi, nikapTan meskvneba da Semdeg nel-nela micocavs yelisken.

TuTarCela Ramea, mSvidi, wynari.

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sarCevi

moTxrobebi

`daRaluli rto~ ........................................................................................ 3

surogati ............................................................................................................. 30

`modi-naxes~ mecixovneni ......................................................................... 68

gangebis wre-brunva .................................................................................... 124

aTidan - aTi ................................................................................................... 160

sayrdeni ............................................................................................................. 189

`usaTauro interviuebi~* ....................................................................... 219

sikvdilis zvavi .............................................................................................. 251

`ieroglifi~ ................................................................................................... 276

ndobis telefoni ........................................................................................... 300

novelebi

qvakaci ................................................................................................................ 357

Semodgomis dRe ............................................................................................ 389

qviSis qalaqi ................................................................................................. 396

`uzundara~ ...................................................................................................... 400

`sabediswero mijna~ .................................................................................. 417

arabuli tango .............................................................................................. 427

miniaturebi

CaZiruli saflavebi ................................................................................... 443

alvis xe ............................................................................................................ 451

sizmar-cxadSi ................................................................................................ 453

SadrevanTan ...................................................................................................... 460

babua ..................................................................................................................... 469

atmis yvavilebi ............................................................................................. 474

Rimili ................................................................................................................ 475

Zaxili ................................................................................................................. 481

Tovli ................................................................................................................. 486

Sexvedra ............................................................................................................ 489

Svlis cremlebi ........................................................................................... 499