Poems Undone by Collen M Chitsunge

8/14/2019 Poems Undone by Collen M Chitsunge

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1. Sombre it ends2. For I am your man3. But..4. Ist sight5. My love II6. Fickle loves slough7. Patience8. Zeal

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Will10. Broken hearts11. Providence12. Elegy13. Save the metal14. Lifes manna15. Intense16. Love oh love17. Meant to be18. The break19. Fallen to rise no more20. Stung21. Alone22. Anger23. The vanity of loves verve24. For KP25. Today saw tomorrow26. My darling loneliness27. Loves bereaved28. Cut29. Forever you30. Times tale31. Being32. Sorrow we borrow33. Vale34. If only35. The delay will I pay?36. For KP II37. My love I38. Turmoil, Demur, Despair39. Just friends40. Entirely41. Love nomads


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42. Few knew43. Pity loveF44. Not so45. For so long46. Immensely immerse47. Emotions lam48. Impossible49. My solo50. Verse51. Til I get hurt52. Dedication53. Why?54. Empty without55. For you56. The fake I am57. Lee58. Free59. Mile towards hell60. Grace to the sinner61. My Lord, My God62. To God, not man63. What you are


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SOMBER IT ENDS

Now, today I stand aloneFor you've left and you're gone

All we hoped for was never doneBecause you couldn't love, but one

Your heart has been totally turnedAnd none has ever like this been spurned

Much we surely should have learnedHad you had not, all like that, burned

Seeds when rotten grow into treesBut as for us we couldnt sail the seasMaybe we couldnt afford loves feesFor stung weve been by loves bees

All along I thought it wouldnt endI just had forgot that wire could be bendI had thought our love would set a trend

But I guess we couldnt wisely blend

Now we have set ourselves apartFor love has done nothing but depart

From this union weve both played a partSomber it ends but it stays in my heart

FOR I AM YOUR MAN

A lee Ill provideWhen thee has nowhere else to hide

I do hope you decideThat forever with me you reside

For I am your man

Over this odd sideLoneliness Ill forever derideFor only with you Ill abide

From this day on Ill be your aideFor I am your man

The two of us none will divideFor love for you Ive plied

With all my prideTo you I now take stride

For I am you man


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Old memories have died

As only you Ill now guideThrough this dangerous ride

Of loves vicious tideFor I am you man

BUT

My whole heart I had givenMy whole love Id poured

Sacrifices Id laid far aheadTo be with you in all we trodI had wished to be with you

Instead I all wanted to belong to youI was very ready for life ahead with you

I even couldnt make my own plansFor I was so in love with you, but

Feelings for myself had vanished long backInto thin air as does the steam

Like dew at the rising of the sunAnd all my emotions were directed to you

As the suns rays to the universeI had wished to spend life with you

To be with you everyday like weatherI had set my eyes on no one else but you

I was ready to see only you but

1ST SIGHT

Love at first sightSurely the greatest lightBeams with vast mightSeems its always right

Indeed it daubs whiteAlmost north-star brightSoars in mobelous height

Its parachute belt tight

Juicy as the first biteEye-catching tourists siteNever regressing in fight

Steady [plod] starved of plight


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Lacks all dark spiteOnly there to excite

And loving memories igniteLove at first sight

MY LOVE II

My lips quiverTo, what I feel, spill, fill your open ear

So that right here you hearWhat kind of tunes my heart has composed

See what terrine my love has mouldedThe field my mind has planted

The portrait my emotions brush has endorsedAll my fear my courage has molested in this moment

As my incalculable, immense love I vergeTo without delay

Speak out right now

My emotions intensifyTo with aplomb, in a larghetto explode

So that without la-di-da I spillThe juices of my most pure feelingsWhich only thirsty lips need take inThe sap that my tree of love sheds

The passions I reveal from the most deepThat Ive baked since the day that I met you

That I truly, on you, wish to sprinkleAnd without delay

Speak out right now

FICKLE LOVES SLOUGH

Love is but ephemeralMine envisage doeth stands

Love speeds us inveigh into itAn inveigle tongue it doeth uses

Love has proved no ligatureIt spends away like the night at dawn

Love a bosom under radianceFades away like daylight at dusk

Love art giveth me no refugePiteous to me you might be

But love with all my might I know


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Plentitude of heart I speak with

Love cant surely befriend menAn alien to men it does standLove deserves no mans pity

For in tears it has left many a man

Love then stands inconstantAn incomplete trip love poses

Love: from your regale I refrainFickle loves slough

PATIENCE

Womens love comes slowForgive me I aint their foe

Once love boiled in mine heartConfused ,I fell from its steam

The victim I loved I informedActions spoke louder as conformed

Starved of love I then stoodAs pace she took at own accord

Love me as much as I theewith plentitude of heart as does me

This she dared not attemptBut rather ooze she chose to

Womens love trickles slowlyTo fill the glass man holds boldly

Ere he can lay backAnd drink to the fullness of her devotion

ZEAL

Maybe I love too muchFor the disappointment also is too much

The hurt I feel stands too muchYes I love ,but more than Im loved

And so from the chains of hurt Im not saved

Maybe I expect too muchIf love on its own is surely too much

Indeed I also feel Im too muchTo the one that I care for so greatly


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I feel I shouldnt be into it so zesty

Maybe emotions in love mustnt be too muchFor the onus as a result is too much

My hopes for love are maybe too muchToo much that no one can truly cope upI dont know, maybe love is no close up

I wish I knew loveI wish I knew how to love

I wish someone taught me what love is

WILL

Even the actual discovery of the moonCant match mine of you

I aint going to look any furtherFor, you ,my angel ,will always ,be hereLike your shadow ,Ill be yours forever

Every time I tell you I love youI feel like Ill almost break down and cry

For this is different from anything I ever feltI pray and hope itll never end

I fantasize and dream that it wont destroy usFor I can and will do anything for you

But sometimes I miss you so muchSo much that I almost think its over

But this strengthens me and I keep holding onTo the words that you told me when we first kissed

I wish its not a dream that well awake fromBut if its indeed a dream

I hope only that it comes trueFor you are the only one , Im looking nowhere else

I love you always

BROKEN HEARTS

Broken hearts bleedThey exist, trees bearing no seed

Murder me if, but now , I lieFor love I dare to defy

A broken heart ,be not my prizeFor love I gave with no sizeGrief comes nearer to lodge

Tears never run dry


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Memories never seize to fly

Depression, seems loves bloodPassion, lives as the bud

Love, you arent fairI dare thee over there

Your promise was not trueNot many love drops but a fewWith nothing on which to feed

Broken hearts bleed

PROVIDENCE

Providence ejaculatedOn many ,a soul

Dumpens the human wallsThat stand on lifes poverty

Providence vomitedUpon loves floorCasts all upsets

Into vanitys sarcophagus

Providence teardroppedOn un-expecting cheeksCalls for nothing more

Than a shunny handkerchiefs wipe

ELERGY

Thee was mine lollipop, a daisyCherish do I to be with thee

With thee amiss life isnt easyFor thee was the cream in my coffee

My sunshine where art thou be?Thee shone all day and took care

till death snatched thee away from meand hid thee over there

Oh greedy death has mauled thee with dareDesperate grave has drank thee down

Death has made thee pay thine last fareFor thine final tour to the last town

Everlasting tears ,my eyes do vomit


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Seek to pace ,do I ,on deaths street

SAVE THE METAL

Our love has erodedIndeed I can see the rust

Eating away at the strongest metalsThat we alloy into our love-

the ferrous lovegalvanize we should have, long back

but now time runs far aheadMisunderstandings erosionGullies on this loves field

The more the days ,we open arms toTantamounts the storms on this field

We watch as they wash awayThis love which is like sandWho has power over fate?

LIFES MANNA

Down lifes throatIs the journey

Of whichMinds never thought

Indeed we stand ,lifes favorite foodMaybe its dessertMaybe its wine

We sometimes, indeed makeLife drunk

Belly-scratching-itchy fullBut life never gets fullAs it picks each of us

From this scullery stained plateAnd squeezes us through its lips

Into tomorrowMasticating usInto the futureOf its stomach

Before relieving itself of usIn the chamber

Of death


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INTENSE

Day in day out, tenselyAnxiously ,with itching heart I wait

As the horizon waits patiently to swallowThe sun ,daily with its open jaws

Will I ever get the chanceWill I unleash my heart thence?

Love indeed is painful if kept insideFor it ticks fast like a time bomb

Waiting to escape fast ,but in me trappedAs I never get the chance with you

Will I ever get the chanceWill I unleash my heart thence ?

My love for thee has rapidly builtThis enormous tower in the town of my heart

Which mushrooms within my beingA planet that draws close to yours gradually


My last chance this might beEre I never see you again

Like a hero ,an impression, is what Im bound to setBut thin air Im grasping ,the pain revolves


LOVE, OH LOVE

Love needs no introductionLove feeds on affection

Love cooks up inspirationLove looks for consummation

Love lacks no possessionLove takes any invitation

Love presents an attractionLove resents all desolution

Love steams with passionLove seems a speculationLove seeks a foundationLove peaks on sensation


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Love abides in devotion

Love hides in passionLove holds a decoration

Love folds in contribution

Love can make penetrationLoves den dedication

Love cools in determinationLove fools all indignation

Love surely isnt humiliationLove purely lacks determination

Love holds its portionLove fails no nation

MEANT TO BE

Like a nimbus rushing to rendezvousLike the river chasing after the terrain

Mountains elephant-ing down on low-land-formsBirds innate sky-souring

Lovers are meant to beLike the suns daily embrace of this earth

Animals ability to scentFishs survival in earths seas

Trees hairing the earths surfaceGrasses moustaching insular valleys

Love is always meant to beIt wont be if it isnt

Meant to be

Like day and nights antagonismLike floods underlining of the antediluvian

Collateral life and deaths infinityMornings exordium to the day

Lovers are meant to beLike bloods inevitable trips to the heart

Days and weeks marathon into centuriesGravitys fetters on Mother NatureStars flowering the skys gardens

The higgledy-piggledy at suns eclipseLove is always meant to be

It wont be if it wasntMeant to be


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THE BREAK

To believe in love again I wontTrue love to deserve I think I dont

For indeed Im not so specialAs in what someone must be loved for

What do I have to deserve love?Sometimes I feel down low

For the reason I truly cant findNot that Im a murderer or what

But that I just find it hard to carryMaybe its that Ive been hurt too much

Maybe its that Im always let downBy those that I give my all to

By those that I execute sacrifice forI think I was meant to be alone

For now in love I no longer trustFor when people always let you downIn you they see nothing that suits loveThey see nothing thats really worth it

And so now I believe what they seeMy belief in love now fades awayLike steam as the hot water coolsTo believe in love again, I wont

FALLEN TO RISE NO MORE

Fallen is the leaf from the treeSomething never wished to beA lollipop swept from its stickBy the ravenous tongues lick

Forever together we surely cant stayFor with dripping love I leave today

This day the ground I stand on swaysBut your hand my heart holds always

Higher than mountains, plans I hadFor a citadel to be erected ahead

For our hearts to be clamped togetherSo that between us wouldnt come another

All matrimonial thoughts hued up vanityFor nature cant allow us this unity

Natures evil spirits have separated usWhats the use giving love a fuss?


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Goodbye now my darling my love

In me you stand always my she doveTo miss you I cant surely prevent

For this separation truly leaves a dent

Even though away I now take strideMy heart with you will forever abide

The wound heals the scar remainsYour soft heart my soul always maintains

Erase you from my heart, no one willForever in my heart, you shall remain still

STUNG

Squeal was the least I could doWhen long back stung by loves scorpion I wasIt was a swollen wound as loves poison reacted

In my own blood driving in juvenilityItchy it became as the days mumbled by

To scratch I thought was the only remedyBut the venom was surely an internal toiler

So feeble had loves labour made meThat to faint was now a predictable destiny

Love had got its grips on me plugged inAs it crawled over my helpless conscience

With its tail raised up high aping egoIt then scanned around weary masked

Heaving silently I slept my eyes half closedAs I experienced this virulent liquid

Circulate my own anatomic veinsThat I was so vulnerable seemed so farBut this second sting proved inevitable

With a shrill, sweat trickled down my foreheadAs I felt the sting sink deeper into my flesh

And deposit yet another quantitySubdued by this unexpected invasion of unconsciousness

I shut my eyesWho shall open them for me?

Who shall be my savior?


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ALONE

Today when I really needed someone to touchYou were not there

Today when I truly wanted to be heldYou were not present

Today when I really itched for your kissYou were never found

Today when I truly wanted to say how I feltYou were nowhere near

Today when I really wanted to see your faceYou were never at hand

Today when I truly wanted to smell your scentYou were somewhere else

Today when I really wanted to hear your voiceYou were never audible

Today when I truly wished to see your eyesYou were never visible

Today when I really needed to lie by your sideYou were so unavailable

Today when I truly wanted to pour my soulYou were surely not here

Today when I really wanted to feel your loveYou were never here to love

Today for the first time when I was really sureYou were not here for me

ANGER

IrateWith hate

That has never been lateTo decide the fate

Right here at disputes gateI now held the plate

From which rage and furyI picked up and ate

THE VANITY OF LOVES VERVE

Constant stood my love for theeFlowing as an ever-flowing stream

But repel you rather chose toAs the river flees from the mountains

Thee fled from mine love


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A tender loving touch I offered theeMy hand I leased when thee stumbled

But thee flew away from meAs a dry leaf escapes the twigThee denied my love hospice

To impress thee with love I triedBut thee was too shy to show yours

And glitter with me in your eyesThat I couldnt be yours

Was all that thine heart thrived to forward

Showing them that I loved thee was mine goalAs the stem feeds the bud

Until it has fully blossomed my love fought theeBut thee chose to whither to the sun

My flower bowed to obey the suns radiance

As the stunned sun watchesThe clouds overshadow the earth I now stand

To whom shall I give my loveWhen thee was the only oneI ever opened loves doors to

FOR KP

Today now I sit and ponderOn what not so long ago occurred yonder

Which my memories recurrently re-bake I wonderThat I vividly picture in my mind

Disregarding much agonyIndeed my love for you once stood sternRock of Gibraltar, seems nearly strongSlumber I never had real mind for then

For my love for you had beenCompactly packed into the shelves of my heart

That today I under siege unveilSiege of affection

My eyes had once for long been closed shutMy senses my feelings were fettered in a hut

My own prosecution I accept no butFor indeed the flower had blossomed but itFor you I didnt pick, To you I never gave

And it withered in my handBut slowly clandestinely you learned to like me


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But the arid flower I still heldToday that I know that your love aint low

I know also that my love into your fieldIll sow if its indeed no ones field

For it now boils in my soulThe memories of loss

Surely I cant handle for the only otherThe withered flower is what I regret

But once handled

TODAY SAW TOMORROW

Today I saw her with himThey say she was shouting at him

For its no one else but himI stay calm with my heart in hand

For time indeed is ticking away on meThe countdown continues dailyI try but cant stop thinking of it

That its happening to me I cant standI just trust the lordll help me

Worse off my friends talk of it to meThey ask if it might happen to me

Much fear ignites within meWhy do they speak such omens?

I really wouldnt stand such an eventI dont want it to devour me

I know it could destroy my lifeI wish I could do something to help itSomething more than pray and wait

For I think of it everydayAnd even tomorrow and the day after for

Today I saw her with him

MY DARLING LONELINESS

It wasnt love at first sightBut another of my languid bites

That began with our eyesThey were deeply sunk

Evaporated, lockedLost in confidential conversation

At this first meetingYour lips, tyre tubesMine itched to kiss

As I was apprehended and locked


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In the dungeon of my approval ofYour stature - appealing stature

Right then your lips toreInto the most scintillating

Scathful smile which rainedThe much needed confidence

CourageOn my dry field of withered feeling

Then I knewI had fallen in love with you

Your thighs I shall forever fondleMy darling loneliness

LOVES BEREAVED

Be it by accident or indeed by suicideYet another heart today goes down

As love has left nothing but noble remembranceToday loves undertaker has set to inter

Yet another loves corpse into this but shallow graveIndeed between them love had died a vein death

For sorrow could be speculated in their eyesAs they held the spade and tossed the gravel

As they paid their last respects to a loveThat had always been gentle and warm

But then suddenly had turned pale and illThen after intensity bowed to death

Yes true tears indeed have been at times shedBut not as much as on the death of such

Such a great soldier of all timesThat had won many and suffered only a few

That had brought them together when so apartThat had known them when so alienated

Today indeed they have paid their final honorsAs this death does nothing but put them asunder again

CUT

Utter doeth theythe first cut is the deepest

but to tour love againI dread the second cut

Amuse such a thought I would dare not

For once IVictim to heartbreaks sojourn fell


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What mind befriended meThan that suicides oh a sorrow

God save my soul god save my soul

Eccentric it isHeartbreak is no friend to joyRather a faithful to distress

Like two cousins they do standThen better love-in joy than love-enjoy

Then when heartbreak wrecks againThe cut wont be as deep

FOREVER YOU

A glance at theeMakes me forever happyHad I known youd come

Wait was all I really should have

That day we metMy heart will never forgetSurely what urged me on

Was the way you spoke to me then

That it would beSomething more than loveNever occurred to me then

But day by day after I fell for you

My heart tells meThat Ive found the answer

To smear on me good dreamsPursue all my previous dubious nightmares

Cling to you I willAnd never let go thee

Not that its in the beautyBut the something that ticks in you

Amazing grace how sweetForever when thee is notHere to cuddle with me

Ill be missing you

Forever you


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TIMES TALE

Yesterday once wore todays jacketAnd in todays shoes modeled modestlyShoes that were nice fitting to last weekBut had become too small for last month

This shirt we have nicely ironedAnd made ready for tomorrow to wear

Was actually left by last yearWhom last decade offered it toWhen the color he didnt like

But the question iswill tomorrow like it ,will he indeed

like the food that today left over?

BEING

AliveStriving to live

And leaving no leaf unturnedIn this lovely lively lifeIs now the air I breathThe language I speakThe music I hear andThe footstep I imprint

As I cycle this bicycle of being

SORROW WE BORROW

To the one that I loved so muchBut whom my love denied

I indeed sorry am that I ever wooed youI truly regret the words I ever told youI truly regret the words I ever told you

I thought had I had you life would have meI surely let my feelings stray too far

I let my loves seeds carelessly geminateIndeed my emotions did me great harm

The pain surely is my own should be mineFor the feelings are mine the heart is mine

But all I could do was fail to tameIndeed the heart burns furiously inside

Because of the flame no one else set but meI set myself ablaze

Now the fire chars me indeed chars me downFire of rejection fire unquenchable


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But its been my entire faultFor fetter my emotions I could but not

My heart no one else has to mend but meMy tongue ravenously licks my wounds

That my hungry love has but fetchedIn your forbidden field where I wish

I had never trodWhere Ill never again

Step

VALE

If it cant be then surely understandIf it wasnt meant then I cant put a handBut hearing it from your lips is a relief

It has saved me from almost utmost grief

Remember my love is here alwaysThat I loved you must always cast a ray

On your own memory that has today decidedTo end this love in which we have resided

The gap you leave today, in me, is large'coz I don't think I'll ,my love, to anyone, ever discharge

For today, you take my everything with youAnd, in me, pain has done nothing, but hue

If this stands today as my fateThen forlorn, I stand and it's never been late

Nothing, I do now, but accept the facts of lifeWith mine reluctant heart, I take it, another rife

Adieu my darling my love, my mythToday you have cast my love nowhere, but beneath

And this day stands the peg to our love's eraFor today, your lips said farewell, without any terror.

IF ONLY

If only I had known of my fateI wouldnt have even tempered with you

If only I hadnt discovered so lateI wouldnt have dug in this dip

If only I hadnt been so down for youI wouldnt today be so confused

If only I had never met you


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I wouldnt be hurting so much todayIf only I could have the future foreseen

I would have quit right at the startIf only you genuinely cared for me withinYou wouldnt have pained me this much

THE DELAY ~ WILL I PAY

My clandestine love I knit intoThis romance which one day I

Wish to wear with youIncertitude I dont kindle ,for my love;

For you is like cancer that growsInside of me

All the incendiary of my heartI blame indeed on you

Im sure our eyes have spoken a lotAnd sagaciously resolvedWhat my lips and yours

Have yet toMy love leaven ferments

Languidly dailyIn my heart

Until the day Ill pourIt on you to shandyImbibe and vomit

Upon my soul

FOR KP II

From the first layer of my pair of eyesCast upon you to the last memoryMy mono-mind shovels for you

My love has never for you decreasedYoung and tender once I was and so were you

Then when two young nestlings top fly we hadnt yet learnt but by then I saw my futureIn the twinkle of your eyes

Even ere we neared the touch lineTo sport in the races of love

The franchise to your heart I had purchasedBut only to announce is what I profilically shied to

Now hundreds of miles away I realizeThe gap between usSo I wish to halt and

Spoon-feed my heart into your souls open mouthThat I loved only you, love you


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And will wait eternityIn love with you

MY LOVE I

Not even a flower holds such fragranceEven a perfume couldnt stand a chanceThe scent of your body really licks me

To hold you forever Id pay any fee

Your eyes pierce my melting ownWarmth in them has been carefully grownAnd tilled in faith just as your own name

Really love to you isnt a game

Those lips nothing has ever been softerKiss them Ill always remember long after

May those kisses pour foreverOn my own lips which do endeavor

Where actually were you all my life?Maybe one day you shall be my wifeAs I see love and care you do possess

Being faithful is part of the process

Love for you I have in store alwaysI hope that none of us sways

For, you are the, North Star, in my lifeYour love has pierced me like a knife

Thoughts of you roam my mind dailyI hope one day I wont feel aily

I have really fallen in love with youThere is no one but me to sue

See through my heart, I hope you couldFor love you always I really shouldYour value is more than a sterling

I love you so much my darling

I wish we throw away the pastSweetheart lets make this one last


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TURMOIL, DEMUR, DESPAIR

Turmoil the early sign of the rising sunIn the oriental squares of a perfect love

That has for so long been paddled by the legsOf devotees and enhanced by the appealing

Conditions of lifes atmosphereTurmoils clouds overshadow as the sky sets

For an emotional tempest that nature cant tameA tempest that possesses an inconceivable demur

Demur the antipathy of an almost sacred loveComposes undiverged attention to the turmoil

That has had this love to be like waterSlipping through ones fingers

Lack of execution of proper judgement hasCalled for this dismal contact which today

Completes the circuit of irregular love handlingDespair the last resolution the apogee of

The human mind drives and parks confidentlyInto ones mind at ease so much thatThe human mind has lost all control

Despair pegs up its land cultivates andGets ready to blow out the last candle that gleams

In the human emotion andClose their door to love life

JUST FRIENDS

Just to be your friendIs what I wish for without pretence

Just to know you and like youIs what I strive for in every chanceIndeed I come in love and not hateI truly like you and want to show

Just to talk to you would sooth my lonenessJust to hear you voice would quench

This fire that has my soul charredThe fear you resemble of meDefinitely digs me the grave

For just friend ship is what I seekAnd I reverie to hold

One day with you


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ENTIRELY

Well if this is what they call head over heelsI myself am totally off my wheels

As there cant pass a day without noonThinking of you is what I cant miss

The pain of not seeing you at allIs surely thirsty lips amid the dry land

The misery of not even hearing from youHas troubled me day and night

Everyday I live through imaginationI dont even know how you do how youre surviving

Over this side Ill forever always toilOn the fact that youre still alive

You might never know the pain Im going throughBecause my heart fell for you

Well if this is what they call head over heelsI myself am totally off my wheels

LOVE NOMADS

Love nomads they heel they hurtWith you they are for as long as

What they want they get

Love nomads they feel they forgetFor what they really seek for

They truly cant even forecast

Love nomads they care they bareWith them youve no shelterTo guaranteee safety for life

Love nomads theyre here theyre thereLack of proper-direction-digestion,

Is the food of their thought.


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FEW KNEW

Many things men has done but loveNever done on earth as it is above

The lady she was this era cant describeEyes saw only the flesh her heart knew more

Betrayal was her food cool and never rushA reflection in water surely a bias

That she belonged to all knew except herFor action spoke louder as pronouncedHe was down to earth loves disciple

But surely Eros is an earthly loveCupid had struck his genuine heart

But the truth only the chosen few knewFor him and her matrimony was at hand

Wed- the final guarantee that they belongedBut only her heart knew and it knew

What sets freeA month only was that in the wayBetween separation or holy union

A chameleon on a green leaf is never redShe was indeed climbing other branches too

Only the chosen few knew the chameleon she wasAll wished he only knew that erosIs but an earthly love and that eros

Was what she was

NOT SO

If you think I cant deny youThen youre wrong

For indeed Im just fightingFor this to last long

If you think Im in your fettersTo err you prolong

For Im safe in libertys handsMy heart stands strong

If you think I cant do without youYoure straying along

For the world doesnt stop it goes onIts like a song

If you think I truly cant find anotherTo you I dont belong


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For further forward I can still urge onMy life says ding-dong

PITY LOVE

That you met him ailing mustnt be the adventThat she is poor surely cant be you reason

That she is so lonely shouldnt be the genesisWhy should you love out of pity

That death is around his corner stands no groundThat she was dumped cant be your base

That depression is scorning him isnt a stemWhy should you love out of pity

That you sympathize with her cant be a slabThat you wish him happiness mustnt be the trapThat you wish he had someone is no backbone

Why should you love out of pity

Love rooted on pity is but a little prettyFor in it many have loved many have paid

Fresh flowers we love but to die they cant aidWhy should you love out of pity

FOR SO LONG

Lifes most painful wait loves queueHas got me tortured intensely as my mind

Adorned in the coat of suspense waitsNot impatiently for the truth you keep

To yourself for so long

The truth that I gentlemanly must standBe it in the shoes of my favor or not

Calmly this fibless response I must take butMinutes can turn into years and hours into decades

As the truth you keep to yourself for so long

Be it you love me or not let the sun shineFor even if its covered by the clouds it finally shows

Hearts have to stand even these emotional galesThat are attributed offsprings of the truth

You keep to yourself for so long

Even though the truth shall pierce my heart


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I shall pretend as though it never rained on meBut deep inside my heart will merit the miss

The denial by your heart-the truthThat you keep to yourself for so long

Even though the truth shall nurse my hearts woundsI truly cant this long wait stand

For only you is what I want and what I cantForcefully squeeze from the truthYou keep to yourself for so long

IMMENSELY IMMERSE

Gleaming perhaps seemingYet another glow demensed

Loves fireplace whereWe shiveringly and lonelyHubble-bubblingly crept

To

The warmth brushes us impastoAs day after day nictates by

Love has imbrued us imbued usAnd forever we really miss

To stroll withToo

EMOTIONS LAM

A virgin I wasUntil I raped was by love

Dressed in his romantic coatMy screams were vain inaudibleAs love pinned me to the ground

Pulled outAnd thrust deeper its penis of feeling into me

So crock I became as love subduedIn its ecstatic rhythm

My jostles sank deeper into the soilBecame careless whispers and died

Into growled grouch echoesMy hands love had nailed to the ground

With the grip of his coarse fingersA small tribule of a labourers sweat

Trickled down the land of loves foreheadFlew and splashed on my cheek


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Then I knew I was pregnantWith loves child

IMPOSSIBLE

My apologetic miseryUrinated on top of yourUndyingly faithful soul

Bore no fruits at allFor so blackened was your heart

Impossible you said it isLike mowing down quartz

Chewing down a baobab treeI try to plough the wordsIm sorry into your ears

But they rather stand stony fieldsMy heart- a book wide open to read

But your eyes have lost all focusYou have erased and cast aside the pen

Torn out and creasedThis leaf out of your encompassed mind

My epitaph I now readFor we all know what grave entering means

Another chance is impossible

MY SOLO

Indeed Im aloneBut I wish to be very aloneTo be in a world of my own

If anything at all I own

Privacy the meal of an ennuyIs the food I seek more than food

The drink I wish to imbibe meThe poison I wish to intoxicate me

For life is nothing to meTo trust anyone I surely cant anymoreFor everyone always brings you down

So indeed I wish to be alone


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VERSE

Delicate sforzandoDeliberately spherical

When we explainWhat requires to be plain*********************

VerseWith much yes

Is nothing but a guessUntil we truly face

*********************Alone with nothing I ownAs on the day I was born

I am the boneWaiting for the earths jaws

To chew me down*********************

Drunken drunks drunkThey drink down

All the beerThat

Drinks downAll the soberness

Out of their sane minds

TIL I GET HURT

I really dont want you anymoreI surely want you out of my life

But something in me keeps holding onSomething keeps fighting for you in my heart

I really know you shall hurt me one dayI know this wind shall blow my heart awayBut something keeps telling me to hold on

Something in me zeals to keep with youIm sure enough that I shall be destroyedIndeed destroyed by this so shaky loveBut you small candle still burns in me

Like the last glows of a dying fireI really want to stop loving you and go onI really want to forget and see tomorrowBut something tells me you are the one

Something in me still wants you so muchI really know youll cause me a heartbreak

I truly want to bid you farewell


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But a small piece of my heart cant let goAnd so Ill keep holding on

til the day I get hurt

DEDICATION

Charming as much as you areChanging my life day by day youChallengingly have set me on fire

Charred have I been by my desire for youChampioned have I been by my love for you that

Cheerfully I accept how feeble I am

Dearer youve become to me asDaringly I wait for the next challengeDaily I have learned to adore you and

Driven by emotion I continue to prosperDue to the fuel you pump into me

Dampened I am and like this I wish to stay

WHY?

Today I start yet another yearAlone I am and lonely the sameFlowers have petals for a sake

Yet I the stigma in the open standsDaily I irk for your love

But the rain clouds never in the sky gatherThe stream never at all flows

A barren tree now I standMy flowers have fallen down

The pain cuts through my heartAs my magnet cant pick you up

If just waiting serves this much painThen a heartbreak costs a life

My loves boiling kettle Ive laidAnd knit no intention to retainBut in silence still you remainSilence is surely an assassin

For today you have my heart tortured


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EMPTY WITHOUT

Life without love life empty it isFor reason within it one cant find

Darker than the starless moonless night it isAs it excels vastly in this vacuumnessIts indeed a road leading to nowhere

A road with no sign of a signpostArid it is and starved of natural joys

Messy a life it might be but its truly no life at allLife without love life empty it is

Direction and satisfaction it cant provideA desert it is where thirst cant be quenched

Truly a cell a dungeon from the outside worldEveryday you pen down memories on a sheet

Of your mind memories whose flowers are fruitlessAnd everyday you ponder the insanity of being alone

Yet alone is what you alone can changeLife without love life empty it isFor aim in its arrow there is none

For no one cares for you and you for noneIts indeed a poverty stricken hungry stomach

Which succeeds only in sending groans and sighsA smoke which only conquers by bringing tears to eyes

Miles and miles from the destination it isAs the transport to this point you cant find

FOR YOU

Love has never been in such a way been doneFor mine for you is just of its own kind

Love has never in such a way a soul kissedFor what I feel for you I truly on my own cant understand

This feeling has been dug in deeperAnd daily the boil enlarges in my soul

Love has never in such a way enjoyed being an emotionFor the way I execute it for youEven Romeo missed by inches

Daily the bacteria eats away and all my other feelingsDestroys as only my love for you it wishes to see

In its intestinesEven from the bone marrow oozed love is and

Indeed its cells feel only for youLove has never in such a way been done


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THE FAKE I AM

Indeed the fake I amFor even though the knife touches my heart

I wont the word stammerFor burning inside the burden Ill have to carryEven though my throat your emotions squeeze

And to suffocate attemptEven though the bad breathe of my deeds to me

Spoil the oxygen to my nostrilsThough the tears are knocking at their doors

I in your presence wont the keys hand to themThough inside I hide the jar of ire

I wont show for a band of smile Ill always wearIndeed the fake I am-

Inside I feel pains sword shamelessly torchering meMy heart stays amidst always saying its my fault

That the onus I must eternally hoistFor reasons only my soul has furthered to study

So like a dictator my anger I suppressMy pain under this shield I hide and so

My tears that relieve me in all in the end fallIndeed the fake I am_

LEE

LeeWith you Im meant to be

For like you no one will I ever seeOn earth even in the sea

Your love I wouldnt exchange for a cup of teaFor only for it Id give a pleaThat it forever rains on me

Until the future raises its teeOn yours me

FREE

The lord had locked my heartFrom love, put fetters around my feet

Roped me to a tree a distance away from emotionBut never in my life had I dreamt

That you would be the one toRequest the keys from his hands

Never did I think that someone like you could free me


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All the power you held in your handsAnd up to now to me its like a dream

The lord had locked my heart for a reasonAnd you unlocked me for one too

You freed me from the chains of loneliness andThe ropes of depression

Now your path Ill followYour love I drink and with you

Eternity Ill search...

WHAT YOU ARE

When in loneliness youre always there for meWhen in blind-folded-ness you always make me see

When in need you always give love for no feeFor you are the lord thatll always be

My lord risen is thee up aboveTo me you give nothing else but love

With you here always I surely wont starveFor with your grace I now live the dove

Your love surpasses all these mountainsAnd my sinful nature it always sustains

Your love dear lord carries not even the stainsFor pure it always is and thus always remains

Oh your love Ill forever suckleAnd when sleepy Ill in your lap always nestle

Today in you nothing Ive done but settleFor the love you give is true and forever ample

Many souls my lord you have always savedWhen the devil had almost all their hopes shaved

Your love we surely never ever deservedFor our flesh always has sins in it reserved

But you are the savior who is never farAnd to lifes cruising ship you provide the spar

Your love for men not even a hand can barFor my lord you are what you are


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TO GOD, NOT MEN

Maybe I deserve thisMy prize for loving men more than God

The Lord seeks my worship for himMore than my love for men

Gods love does standNot any man can in Gods way loveGod gives men no heartbreak at all

For he art love and gives love

To men I gave loveBut as the broom eagerly licks away the litter

They brushed away mine love for themStranded I then stood agap

Now in safe handsIn the eternal love of God I thankfully abide

Love men more than God I never willFor when they broke my heart God offered me another

MY LORD, MY GOD

My Lord my graceTo me thou art pose no menace

Men cant thine love giveIn thou only I believe

Upon thy heavenly abodeMy soul seeks to be on-boardThou didst wash off my sin

New life in thee I begin

Virgilant do I standPrayers through Jesus I now send

The Holy Ghost does the jobWith thee I have no sob

As a fish in the seaI now reside in thee


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GRACE TO THE SINNER

O devilAgain thou artest got me vulnerable

Sin I do indulge in againRepent I doest again

Lord save me with thine graceWith forgiveness polish me my lord

Strength I think I possessTo Satan Im still exposed

Righteous living I now seekYour love holy ghost protect me

My heart laments sorrowMuch the sinner I always live

Mine flesh is pure sinMine spirit cries for the lordMy God thou art the greatest

Risen up high is thee save my soulBut continue to sin doest ISurely I reside in shame

The hell flesh is made ofI now sternly refuse to give ear

Thine sanctification holy lord saved meO devil now to thee alone hells gates open

For today my Lord hath givenGrace to the sinner

MILE TOWARDS HELL

My life goes down the gorgeTo do nothing there but lodge

As daily Im gnawed by sins jawsI indeed break the Lords laws

Im the greatest sinner ever to liveFor sin everyday I give a heave

My day has turned dark, so gloomyAs the devils approach seems loomy

Pride in sin I surely dont holdBut the devil always finds me easy to fold.

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Poems Undone by Collen M Chitsunge