Beyoncé - Life is But A Dream, audio transcription

8/13/2019 Beyonc - Life is But A Dream, audio transcription

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BEYONCE: I remember the moss on the trees. I remember running through the sprinklers, those summers...Popsicles. I remember running as hard as I could, and my dad knew that I needed his approval. And I think

my father wouldn't give it to me because he kept pushing me, and kept pushing me and kept pushing

me. Every time my dad pushed me, I got better and stronger, and that house just is my foundation.

I'm still trying to learn that I don't have to... ..kill myself, and be so hard on myself, and be so critical,

and I can smell the roses. I don't want to never be satisfied. I don't think that's a healthy way to live.

It's a good view of the house. I love you! This is our dream house.We really love this one. Now say

hello, Ebony. Hello! That's Ebony on the right. Hi. And Beyonce in the middle, and Solange. Daddy.

Leave those bees alone, Beyonce! I'm not messing with them.

"Crazy In Love" # So crazy right now... # If you down with the beehive... If you like to sting these bitches...

Sing! # I look and stare so deepin your eyes # I

touch on you more and more every time # When you leave I'm beggin' you not to go # Call your

name two, three times in a row # Such a funny thing for me to try to explain # How I'm feeling and my

pride is the one to blame # I still don't understand # Just how your love can do what no one else can #

Got me lookin'so crazy right now # Your love's got me lookin'so crazy right now Oh, oh, crazy #

Your love's got me lookin'so crazy right now Your love # Your touch's got me lookin'so crazy right

now Ha! # Got me hoping you page me right now Hey, yeah # Your kiss has got me hoping you save

me right now # Lookin' so crazy,your love's got me lookin' Yeah # Lookin' so crazy,your love's got

me lookin'I'm lookin' so crazy in love # Hey! # To the top # So crazy # Hey # I'm not myself lately #

I'm foolish, I don't do thisHey! # I've been playing myselfYeah # Baby, I don't careWoo! # Your love

got the best of me # And baby, you're makinga fool of me # You got me sprung and I don't care who

sees # Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh! # Come on, yeah! # Crazy right nowGo crazy # Your touch's got me

lookin'so crazy right nowTouch got me lookin' so crazy # Hey, yeah # Your love's got me lookin'so

crazy right now Hey, yeah # So crazyYour love's got me lookin' Hey, yeah # Woo! # Your love's got

me lookin'so crazy right now # Your kiss has got mehoping you save me right now # Your love's got

me lookin'so crazy right now # Lookin' so crazyYour love's got me crazy # So crazy, your love # So

crazy, your love'sgot me lookin' # You got me lookin'so crazy in love. # At some point

in my career, I felt like I was doing way too much. I felt like I had been so commercially successful... It

wasn't enough. There's something really stressful about having to keep up with that. And something


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really...crippling. You can't express yourself. I don't want to have to sing about the same thing for ten

more years. You can't grow. I want to be able to sing about how much I hate myself that day if that's

how I feel. And I felt like it was time for me to set up my future, so I set a goal, and my goal was

independence.

RADIO: Superstar Beyonce has broken up...with her father.

Beyonce has officially split with her father... Knowles tells the Associated Press it's not true... Do you

guys think the feeling is mutual? I'm feeling very empty because of my relationship with my dad, andI'm...so fragile at this point. And I feel like... ..my... ..soul has been tarnished. Life is unpredictable,but I feltlike I had to move on and not work with my dad, and I don't care if I don't sell one record. It's bigger than

the record. It's bigger than my career. I think one of the

biggest reasons I decided it was time for me to manage myself was because at some point you need

your support system, and you need your family. Hey, Daddy. 'When you're trying to havea everyday

conversation with your parents, you haveto talk about schedule-making, you have to talk about

your album, performing and touring. It's just too stressful, and it really affects your relationship.

Want to take a break? No, shoot. OK, good. Like, at the very end... I... I needed boundaries, and I

think my dad needed boundaries. It's really easy to get confused with this world, that's your job that

you live and breathe every day, all day, and then you don't know when to turn it off. You need a

break. I needed a break. I needed my dad. And did you get your dad back? No. It was... It was hard.

Smile. Gangster. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad. It was a stressful, sad, difficult time,

but I had to let go. # Listen to the sound from deep within # It's only beginning to find release # Oh,

I'm screaming outand my dreams will be heard # They will not be pushed asideor worse # Into your

ownall cos you won't listen # Listen, I am alone at a crossroads # I'm not at home in my own home #

And I tried and triedto say what's on my mind # You should have known, oh # Now I'm done

believing you # You don't know what I'm feeling # I'm more than what you made of me # I followed

the voiceyou gave to me # But now I've got to find my own # My own # My own # My own # My

own... # OK. Thank God for my computer. Sometimes,when there's no one to talk to, I talk out loud

so I can get all of my thoughts out and try to figure out the issues that I'm having and I'm trying to find

the answers. The best thing is looking back and realising how incredible life is. If you don't take the

time to think about and analyse your life, you'll never realise all of the dots that are all connected.


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The first decision I had to make as my own manager was "what do you want?" Do you want to be

successful at radio? Do you want to kiss asses? Do you want a career? Do you want a successful

tour? Do you want to focus on your life? What do you want? WHISPERS: Julius is hiding in the

corner. That's right. ECHOING: # I heard, baby...# I have no idea what my album is going to sound

like when I start recording. I may have an idea but it never turns out that way,never, ever, ever. # I

told you how you hurt me, baby # But you don't care # Now I'm crying and deserted, baby # But you

don't care, mm-mm # You see these tearsfalling down to my ears # I swear you likewhen I'm in

pain, yeah # I try to tell you about my fears # You still don't care # Well, that's OK, hey # Well, I careI

know you don't care too much # But I still care, baby # Well, I care I know you don't care too much #

But I still care, baby # Ah... # I said OK, I'm going to take a risk, and I'm going to bring R&B music

back, and I'm going to add bridges to songs and chord changes, and I'm going to sing about love

and I'm going to do the oppositeof what I thought I was going to do. I'm not going to try to be cool.

Forget being cool,I'm going to be honest. I'm going to be sad,I'm going to be passionate, I'm going

to be vulnerable,I'm going to sing from my heart, I'm going to be gravelly and growl and scream, and,

you know, that was my plan. Smart, smart, smart, smart. # Boy, you know you love it # How we're

smart enough to make these millions # Strong enough to bear the children...# Ah, shit. Oh, my God.

It's too hard! All in one breath. Right, "I have the children,oh, shit." That's how the song should start

- # Boy, I'm on your runway # And I don't never want to come back # Put my name on your T-shirt #

La-la-la, me or your man... # 'It's a tough time, and it's tough for the music industry, 'and, you know,

I'm an artist that tours, 'I'm an artist that makes albums.'That's it. People don't make albums any

more. They don't make albums. They just try to sell a bunch of little, quick singles and they burn

out and they put out a new one and they burn out and they put out a new one. People don't even

listen to a body of work any more. We are number one. The album debuted at number one! 'When I

first started out,there was no internet,' people taking pictures of you and putting your personal life or

exploiting your personal life as entertainment. I think people are so brainwashed. You get up in the

morning,you click on the computer, you see all these pictures, and all you think of is the picture and

the image that you see all day, every day,and you don't see the human form. And I think,when Nina

Simone put out music, you loved her voice.That's what she wanted you to love. That was her


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instrument. But you didn't get brainwashed by her day-to-day life and what her child is wearing and

who she's dating and, you know, all the things that really...It's not your business, you know? And it

shouldn't influencethe way you listen to the voice and the art, but it does. SHE SINGS

WORDLESSLY 'When I'm recording in the studio, 'I want to close my eyes and feel, 'and anyone

that's going to distract me from that, 'they're just not allowed in the studio. 'I'm like, "Get out of here.' "I

don't want to hear you say,"'Well, maybe you should put more song structure.'" I don't want to hear

any of that.I'm truly an artist in the studio. # Boy, maybe if you cared enough # I wouldn't have to

care so much # What happened to our trust? # Now you're just giving up # You used to be so in

love # Now you don't care no more... # Sorry, guys! This is an absolute bar-raising record. People

have asked me and I've tried not to, I've tried very hard not to give anything away, but said that this

doesn't sound like anybody. It's original. It doesn't sound like anybody. We're going to be fucking

busy this summer. All right, that was definitely exhilarating. I feel very proud. I'm happy it's over. I'm

an artist,and I'm sensitive about my shit. Oh! I'm still disoriented. Excuse me, you've got to back

up,you've got to back up. Beyonce! Beyonce! Beyonce, look at me! I can't believe that my album is

out today. I saw some billboards and I guess the reality will sink in, but this album is so personal

and such a labour of love that it almost feels like no-one should be able to judge it because it's just...

It's from my heart. I did a photo shoot last nightfor my nephew. He went to Paris with me because I

heard him speak in French and he was fluent and it was so shocking to me. I love him so much and

I figured this would bea really good memory for him, to spend Easter with his father in Paris at six

years old. Oh! That's what I'm talking about! That is a Julez jump. You want to do it again? I just

want to take a break. You want to take a break? OK. Oh, what are you doing? Are you meditating?

Is that like a prayer?Are you a guru? OK. I'm meditating. 'This is the time when your

memories really, really 'stick with you for the rest of your life,' so I wanted to be able to give him that

memory with his dad. I know how important that is. Daddy. Yes, Beyonce? Let's have a race. We're

going to have a race?Uh-huh. All right. Get on the marks,get set, go. See how fast Beyonce is. Stop

pretending that I have it all together, and if I'm scared, be scared, allow it, release it, move on. I think

I need to go listen to Make Love To Me and I'll make love to my husband. # Baby, baby # Baby,

baby, baby # Baby, baby, baby, baby # Baby, baby, baby, babe # Baby, baby # Baby, baby, baby,


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baby # Baby, baby, baby, baby # Baby, baby, baby, baby, babyba-ba-ba-baby, ooh! # Ooh-ooh #

Ooh-ooh-ooh # Ooh # Make love to me. # CHEERING It's 3.30 in the morning and I was feeling

really nauseous and... I just had a feeling last week that something was going on, so I had Melissa

go get mesome pregnancy tests and I found out that I am with child. I don't know what God is trying

to prepare me for, because I know everything in my lifeis for a reason, but wow. Really? This is

crazy! We'll see what happens in the next chapter of my life because I have so much going on. Hey.

Hey. # You're ever young. # 'Being pregnant was very muchlike falling in love. 'You are so

open.You are so overjoyed. 'There's no words that can express having a baby 'growing inside of

you, so of course you want to scream it out 'and tell everyone but you just have to make sure

everything's safe.' 'So I had to hide something that was the best thing in my life.' I was scared to

make plans,but I remember going to the doctor and the doctor said, "Listen,you have to let it go.

And... "You're healthy and if this baby is supposed to be here, "the baby is going to be here "and

you don't need to be thinking about it. "You go do everything that you've been doing and you will be

fine." The Billboard Award Show was the first performance I did knowing I was pregnant. Everyone

was like,"What is she gonna do now? "What's the next step?" It was me putting my stamp on my

independence, the same way Independent Woman did,the same way Survivor did, so it was really

a passionateperformance for me. Only this time around,I was pregnant. What's going on? OK, sorry,

sorry! Hi. Sorry, sorry. Hello. Hello. Hey, Kenzo.That was pretty strong. So as you can see, the

morale in this team is beyond amazing. This gentleman right here hasn't slept in about 72 hours...

and he still looks pretty good. I feel good. Doesn't smell quite so good but...! We got a video

production team here on site. It looks like the owner didn't pay his rent. We're gonna have to clear

them out. Ah. Call Melissa on her phone. Yep. I need you to call Melissa. I'm sorry, I have to stop

my client from coming to the building. Call Melissa for me, get Melissa.They have to lock the

building down. So what's going on?Just wanted to let you know... What's going on?I don't fucking

know, Al. Kicked us out of the rehearsal space and they're locking the doors with all our equipment

in it. Beyonce's on her way.We're basically juggling balls. Um...give me a call.It's kind of weird out

here. Talk to you later. Bye. If you had to sum up in one sentence where we are right now, what

would it be? We don't have an approve drough cut.. and we're going on live television in two days.


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That's unheard of. Someone called me and I'm thinking,"I can't even be upset. "I'm not

surprised."Everything went wrong. Of course the police are there! Of course we can't rehearse! Of

course we're gonna be out in the street just trying to shine some projection on a reflection of a car

window or something. It was crazy. Don't worry. 'But, thank God, it always works out, 'and

eventually we got in the building 'and we were able to do a few hours of rehearsal.' I call him

Champion. And Mario,right? Did I say that right? This is so interesting,Beyonce saw some stuff on

YouTube. They're from Mozambique.That's 26 hours away from here. They got some

movement that we cannot duplicate, so we had to go backand bring them to America and... Not

America! OK. And the movement is brilliant. Whoo! Whoo! OK, five, six, seven... One,two, three. OK.

One, two, three. There, so have this motion,but still have that tightness. CHEERING I love seeing a

new buzz. I'm always thinking about women and what we need to hear. It's difficult being a

woman.It's so much pressure. We need that supportand we need that escape sometimes. That's

what I'm saying. Hey, momma. You know what I mean? I'm good. 'I grew up in a house with my

mother who owned a hair salon 'and my mother was a therapist. She was more than a hairstylist.'

She was a therapist. And women would come into that salon with problems, they'd express

themselves,they'd get a makeover and they'd walk out new women. My mom would let me sweep

up the hair and, if people would listen, we'd perform for them in the hair salon. And most of them

were like, "I'm just trying to get a press and curl. "I do not wanna hear this." But we made them

listen and then we insisted on money! # And now I learned the meaning to your story # And this isan

awful lot for me to say # I wanna be where you are # Oh, oh Anywhere you are # Oh, oh I wanna be

where you are # Oh, oh... # 'What did you learn about these women?' We're all going through our

problems, but we all havethe same insecurities and we all have the same abilities and we all need

each other and... You know, I have been around the world, I've seen so many things,I love my

husband, but there's nothing like a conversation with a woman that understands you. I grow so

much from those conversations. I need my sisters. # So I cry and I cry and I say # Love me, love

meSay that you love me # Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me # Love me, love me Pretend that you

love me # Leave me, leave me Say that you need me # Oh, so I cry # And I pray for you to # Love

me, love meSay that you love me # Just say that you need me # I don't care about anything but you.


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# Men have been given the chance to rule the world and, ladies,our revolution has begun. Let's

build a nation,women everywhere round the world. I think y'all's graphicsare on Vicodin. They're

too slow. Like, when I do this...it should,boom, pop up really fast. It's just not dramatic enough.

Women everywhere, run the world. It just took hours and hoursand days of hard work, making sure

the graphics married to the choreography. There were certain graphics that looked good on a

computer screen, but when you put a body in front of it, the interaction between me and thescreen, it

just didn't work out. Laurent. Larry. No! Who is Larry, who is Laurent? Larry. No! So, how you

feeling about the projection? Feeling good. There's a lot of workto be done in the next 48 hours to

really crank this thing, make iteverything that it can and will be, so we're all just like...about to just

not sleep for two days and kill this shit. Maybe they could be doing something. Mm-hmm.And we

could give it to 'em and y'all could do something around what I'm gonna be doing. Mm-hmm. When

they take five,go where you should be. Yeah. Don't you think that'd be helpful? Yes. OK, let's do it.

From... This is the... From this. Got it. Right? And then when you...Then you come in with this. I just

need a... # Da-da-da # Do you wanna do this for me? Thank you. Hours of practices, all the

thought that went into that... ..but it's not working. I know when to give up. Hopefully God will lead

me and I'll make the right decision, but He's clearly given me a child so I need to listen to what He's

trying to say. I guess maybe I need to focus on my life... "To whom much is given,much is required."

I guess I can handle that.Going to sleep. Because we lost a day of rehearsals, we never got a

chance to do it right, but it was show day, so the first time we were gonna see it through was on live

TV in front of millions of viewers.It was crazy. I used to like when people made me mad. I'm like,

"Please piss me off before the performance." I used to use everything. By the time I finished

fighting everything else and got on the stage, I was like... Our power is ever-present. I am woman,

and when I think,I must speak. Oh! Men have been given the chanceto rule the world but, ladies,our

revolution has begun. Let's build a nation,women everywhere. Run the world! 'Billboard was a

huge artistic gamble, 'but the urge to get my message out was so overwhelming, 'I didn't even pay

attentionto the risk I was taking.' MUSIC: "Run The World" by Beyonce Nobody knew I was

pregnant during that performance and I'm cool with that. I'm not interested in a free ride. But it

absolutely proved to me that women have to work much harderto make it in this world. It really


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pisses me off that women don't get the same opportunities as men do, or money for that matter.

Because, let's face it, money gives men the power to run the show. It gives men the power to define

our values and to define what's sexyand what's feminine, and that's bullshit. At the end of the

day,it's not about equal rights, it's about how we think. We have to reshape our own perception of

how we view ourselves. You all ready? Are you ready? Here we go. 'We have to step up as

women and take the lead 'and reach as high as humanly possible. 'That's what I'm going to do,that's

my philosophy, 'and that's what Girls is all about.' # You can't hold me # I work my nine to five Better

cut my cheque # This goes out to all the womengetting it in # You on your grind # To the other men

that respectwhat I do # Please accept my shine # Boy, you know you love it # How we're smart

enoughto make these millions # Strong enough to bear the children # Then get back to business #

See, you better not play me # Don't come here, baby # Hope you still like me # Hey, hey # My

persuasion # Can build a nation # Endless power # Our love we can devour # You'll do anything for

me # Who run this world? # What do we run? What do we run? # Girls. # APPLAUSE AND

CHEERING Thank you. It's my honour to presentmy daughter Beyonce with the Billboard

Millennium Award. CHEERING I'd like to start off by thankingmy foundation, which is my family.

Mom, you have taught meeverything I know by example and you are a phenomenal womanand I

love you so much. And I love you too, Jules. I'd like to thank my father forteaching me so much

about the music industryand teaching me about drive and teaching me about work ethic.Thank you,

Dad. I'd also like tothank my best friend. Now, I don't want to put you on thespot, cos I know they're

probably putting a camera in your face rightnow, but I love me some Jay-Z. CHEERING What you

about to do? Talk to us. I am experiencing...Oh, I got a great shot right now. Oh, you don't even

knowhow good this shot is. I am experiencing Utopia. Life is just beautiful right now. What's she

saying? Utopia?About how the light is... Life could not be any morefantastic. It is perfect. Everything

that we worked for isright here, right in this moment. It is just amazing. Look at this beautiful

naturethat God created that I'm about to jump intoright now, with my friend that I loveand my

husband. Yes. Thanks be to Jesus. MUSIC PLAYS ON RADIO Oh, and my nephew's song comes

on.Of course. Ah! Life is but a dream. # Wide boy, wide boy, wide boy # Wide boy, wide boy, wide

boy # Baby boy, you stay on my mind # Fulfil my fantasies # I think about you all the time # I see


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you in my dreams # Baby boy, not a day goes bywithout my fantasies # I think about you all the

timeI see you in my dreams # Ah, oh, my baby's fly baby, oh # Yes, no, hurt me so good baby, oh #

I'm so wrapped up in your loveLet me go # Let me breatheStay out my fantasies # Baby boy, you

stay on my mindBaby boy, you are so damn fine # Baby boy, won't you be mine? # Baby boy # Top

top girl, me and you togetheris a wrap dat girl # Driving around da town in yourdrop top girl, no stop

shock girl # Little more da duttyWe'll rock dat world # Top top girl, me and youtogether is a wrap dat

girl # Driving around da town in yourdrop top girl, no stop shock girl # Little more da duttyWe'll rock

dat world # Little more da duttyWe'll rock dat world Come on # Little more da duttyWe'll rock dat

world. # CHEERING AND APPLAUSE I think people have an ideain their heads about

entertainers, celebrities. I think they feel liketheir lives are so perfect, and it's really hard to go

throughpainful experiences when you're in the public eye,because it's hard to have closure. About

two years ago, I was pregnantfor the first time and I heard the heartbeat, which was the most

beautiful musicI've ever heard in my life. And there's something that happenswhen you hear the

heartbeat. It makes you...truly knowthat there's life inside of you. I...picked out names, I

envisionedwhat my child looked like. I was feeling very maternal -my first child... with the man that I

love. My family was so excited. I flew back to New Yorkto get my check-up... ..and... ..no heartbeat.

Literally, the weekbefore I went to the doctor, everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat. I

went into the studio and wrote the saddest songI've ever written in my life, and it was actually the

first songI wrote for my album. And it was the best formof therapy for me because it was the saddest

thingI've ever been through. # I guess love just wasn't enough # For us to survive # I swear, I swear

# I swear I tried # You took the life right out of me # I'm so unlucky I can't breathe # You took the

liferight out of me, me, me, me, me # I'm longing for your heartbeat # Heartbeat, heartbeat... #

People see celebrities and theyseem like their life is great and they have moneyand fame and fans

and it's almost likeyou can't touch them. SHOUTINGBeyonce! But I'm a human being - I cry. I'm

extremely sensitiveand my feelings get hurt and I get scared, I get nervous,just like everyone else.

Go, go, go, go! I always battle with, how muchdo I reveal about myself? How do I keep my

humility?How do I keep... my spirit and the reality? And how do I continue to be generousto my fans

and to my craft? And how do I stay current,but I how do I stay soulful? It is the battle of my life.


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ROARING OF FANS Beyonce! Beyonce!Stand by. We're walking. When I walk onto a stage,I'm

able to come out of my shell and be as fabulous and over the top and strong and powerfulas I want

to be. I get to live out my fantasies and bewho a lot of people want to be, and I think that's why you

come tosee a show - to be entertained and to kind of live throughwhoever the performer is on stage.

You look in the audience and you seethis little girl that was me when I was looking at Michaelor

Janet or Tina Turner. And there's no wayI'm not gonna give 100%, cos I remember being that girl.

And I'm still that girl. BEAT KICKS IN # Boy, come to me... # Atlantic City. Atlantic City! We gonna

have us a good ol' timetonight. One, two, three! MUSIC PLAYS Come on! Make some noise. I don't

hear you. Make some noise! CROWD ROARSCome on! CROWD ROARS # I'll be your babyI

promise not to let you go # Love you like crazySay you'll never let me go # Say you'll never let me

goSay you'll never let me go # Say you'll never let me goSay you'll never let me go # Take you

away from here # There's nothing between usbut space and time # I'll be your own little starLet me

shine in your world # Be your own little universeMake me your girl # Come take my hand # I won't

let you goI'll be your friend # I will love you so deeply # I will be the oneto kiss you at night # Kiss

you at night... #All right, y'all, sing! # I'll be your babyI promise not to let you go # Love you like

crazySay you'll never let me go, hey! # Say you'll never let me goSay you'll never let me go # Say

you'll never let me goSay you'll never let me go # Baby, come on get up on itShow me that you

really want it # I wanna be the one to love youbaby, let's go # Oh oh, let's go # I wanna provide this

lovingthat you're giving I ain't frontin' in this love # Can you let me love youfrom your head to toe? #

Oh oh, let's go # Boy, come to me Come to me # Let me turn your rain into sun # Let me love you,

baby # Oh no # Oh no One, two, three, here we go! # I just wanna love you # I just wanna live for

you! # I'll never let you go # Bring your love to me # I won't let you go Hey # I'll be your friendI

wanna love you so # Ha ha I will be the oneto kiss you at night # Kiss you at night... #All right! # I

will be your babyI promise not to let you go # Love you like crazy # Say you'll never let me go...

#Come on! # Say you'll never let me goSay you'll never let me go # Say you'll never let me goSay

you'll never let me go. # Atlantic City, I love you all. CHEERING # Love you like crazy # Say you'll

never let me go! # # Say you'll never let me goSay you'll never let me go... # # Say you'll never let

me goSay you'll never let me go. # Please, please bear with us. We will do our absolute best toget


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as many of you in as we can, but at this moment in time,if we can't, we apologise in advance and

please,as it was explained to you guys at the time we checked your ticket,there was a chance you

may indeed not be ableto get in to see tonight's show. Can you hear me, Ria? Yeah. OK. What key

is I Miss You? I been watching the dancersand they're doing a move, you know, we're doing only a

singlechorus the second time around. We don't know what we're doing. So how many dancers do

we have,Frank? We don't know yet. I don't know if I'm using fivefor I Miss You and five for...I Was

Here. We're trying to do the impossible. We've got so many peopletrying to be creative and it

confuses the issue, you know? I'm trying to wrap myself around it,I'm trying to be humble, I'm not

trying to lose my mind. It's a lot.It's just really, really a lot. Can you show meone of your set lists?

Crazy, Irreplaceable, If I WereA Boy, Best Thing I Never, End Of Time...then I lost trackof where we

were, so... SCREAMING MUSIC PLAYS APPLAUSE Did y'all tape the whole performanceor just

that one? We were stopping and starting.We were stopping it there because... OK. Can I see the

next one?MUSIC PLAYS Can I see the next song? Play the next one. I think it looks really messy. It

is, you know, early timesfor the lighting guys still ... How was it? OK. So shouldI wait before I have

notes? Cos I have a million. I just don't wanna give themprematurely and it's not done yet. Or too

late. Yeah. I think weshould give them as many notes as we can now, while we can.Yeah, I think

so. Mmm. Well, in general,the set looks really fake. It's... It just doesn'tmake sense to me. The whole

purpose of the setis the background and the people and the floor and the instruments,everything is

supposed to be white. But the way you all are lighting it, it doesn't matter because you can'ttell what

the set is doing cos there's red and purple light. No, I don't know. Right.The side should be all

white. All white. So we'll go all white. Yeah, yeah. We've got guys to doit tonight. OK. I mean, I said

that yesterday. Right, yeah.No, everything should be white. OK, so let's start rehearsing. 'After I get

off the stage,I have to throw up and I'm, like, 'fighting my way to the dressingroom, trying to hold it in.

'I mean, they keep putting mein these tight clothes 'and midriff tops and now I'm showingand trying

to hide it. 'It's very difficult.' OK. Thank you, baby. All right, all right. Thank you. And having to doall

this choreography... I don't knowhow I'ma get through this. Do we have a final set list yet,Chris?

Negative. And it's day of show? Day of show. Well, Nick... Yeah?..how we looking? White. Are you

happy? Erm... Did they paint it white? Yeah, they did. Well, I mean,they were painting last night. I've


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motherfucking hatand go get me some glue, I can go get me some Super Glue,I can do

whateverand get this hat on my head. That's bullshit.I hate shit like that, Ashley. Nobody needs to

help youbut your motherfucking self. OK. You understand? Mh-mm.Nobody but yourself. Think

about it. You should be focused on this shituntil it's done, you understand? Until it's done. Any last

words, Declan?No, we're going down together, man. You first, I'm right behind you. Have a good

show, bro. Thank you. I was laying in the bed and I feltthe baby kick for the first time. Made me cry.

Kicked five times. I'm so excited. I've been waiting for that moment. I want it to do it again! So

hopefully it'll do it again,and Jay can feel it. It's so beautiful. My life is a journey.It seems like I set a

goal.... In some kind of way I accomplish itand then I set another one. And my goal was trusting

myselfand my goal was growth. 'And I believe I had togo through my miscarriage, 'I believe I had to

go through owningmy own company and managing myself.' It's a constant battleand ultimately your

independence comes from you knowing who you areand you being happy with yourself. # Got me

lookin'so crazy right now, right now... # CHEERING # Your love's got me lookin'so crazy right now...

# Got me lookin' so crazyright now, right now... # Your love's got me lookin' so crazyright now #

Right now... Yes, so crazy right now! Most incredibly, she's the girl... CROWD: Beyonce, Beyonce,

Beyonce,Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce! 'Sometimes when I just wanna bean artist and

have fun 'and do what I love, I have to beserious and I have to 'think things through and I have

tothink about finance and I have to 'think about what's practicaland I have to think about the future

'and think about my investments andthink about if things make sense. 'And sometimes art doesn't

makesense, it just comes from the heart 'and it doesn't have to make sense.' Good night,

guys.CHEERING Rob, Rob, Rob!SHOUTS AND YELLING So this is my belly. I am 20 weeks and I

have the MTV Awardscoming up and, as you can see, little pom-pomis ready for the world to know

that he or she is here. I think I'm gonna have to just...throw in the towel and, if you can see that I'm

pregnant,I'll just have to...own it, so I may be... Well, my baby may be debutingitself on the awards.

I'm going to be a mommy. Tonight I want you to stand upon your feet. I want you to feel the

lovethat's growing inside of me. Hey! Whoo! Bring the beat in. Hey! Put your hands together. #

Honey, honey... # In my hardest moments, where Ithought, "What am I doing? "I'm not strong

enough for this,I can't get through this, "I'm not ready,"I just have to say, "Jump," because I know I'm


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gonna landin that water, swim back on the boat and I'm gonna jump again and land inthe water and

swim back on the boat. I have to trust myself. # Come on, baby, it's you # You're the one that gives

your all # You're the one I can always call # When I need you, babyeverything stops # Finally you

put my love on top # Baby, cos you'rethe one that I love # Baby, you're the one that I need # You're

the only one I see # Baby, baby, it's you # You're the one that gives your all # You're the one I

always call # When I need you, babyeverything stops # Finally you put my love on top # Baby, cos

you'rethe one that I love # Baby, you're the one that I need # You're the only thing I see # Come on,

baby, it's you # You're the one that gives your all # You're the one I always call # When I need you,

babyeverything stops # Finally you put my love on top. # CHEERING AND APPLAUSE That was

awesome. Awesome. Awesome.Thank you. I'm free! Yeah.Whoo! We're all free. Yeah. Whoo! Was

it good? You married a musician. I did. Is that a coincidence? I think me marrying a musicianis a

coincidence. I mean, we connectedbecause we both performed and we both had similarlifestyles,

but we connected... ..on a spiritual level and he justso happened to be a musician. OK. Well, I don't

knowwhere to start. I just want to thank you,everybody, for coming. A lot of you guys justgot the call

cos the baby and I know you all had todrop a lot of things to come. And this wouldn't be

anythingwithout everybody here and you all are here becauseyou all are special to Jay therefore

you're special to me.Anybody he loves, I love. This is nothing comparedto what you've done for me

and not only me,but everybody here. You taught me so many things. I was 20 years oldwhen we

first started dating. You taught me how to be a woman. You taught me how to live. You taught me

how to be a friend. You've given me so much in lifeand this is not enough. There's not enough I can

give you. I just want you to be happy and every year I'm even morein love with you and I want to

spendevery day of my life with you. Happy birthday, and I thank Godfor you every day. He's taught

me so muchabout being an artist. Not a musician, but an artist. and fighting for what I believeand

having my standards. I'm, like most women,very generous and I'll compromise and he doesn't

compromise his art.And I used to be so afraid of people thinking I was difficultor too critical and you

know, I don't reallycare about that any more, as long as it's for the right reason,and I learned that

from him. # And all the things you do... # What was it called, baby? # And it was called yellow... # 'I

just pray that Jay and I staya team cos right now we are 'really connected and really


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arecommunicating well 'and completely understand eachother, support each other 'and need each

other.This baby has made me love him 'more than I ever thoughtI could love another human being.

'It's just I love him so much,like, we almost feel like one. 'I just don't know how todescribe it.' #

Something beautiful... # I love you so... # Let's sing it one more time. # Jay, Jay, I love you so. #

What a breeze, what a breeze. 'I hope I remember this whenthe baby comes and it gets tough 'cos

it's going to be an adjustmentcos this feeling is so beautiful. 'It's every woman's dreamto feel this

way about someone.' RADIO CLIPS: 'Beyoncehas hired a surrogate mother 'to carry her and Jay-

Z's child.' 'Beyonce's going to use a surrogateso she can maintain her body.' 'If they use a

surrogate...' '..then they'll play it offlike they gave birth.' It's a stupid rumour. It's actuallythe most

ridiculous rumour I think I've ever had about me.But there are actually a lot of people that

believethis rumour and it's crazy. I guess there are some crazycelebrities in the world so we get a

bad rep. But...to thinkthat I would be that vain and...I respect mothers and womenso much and to be

able to experiencebringing a child into this world, if you are lucky and fortunateenough to

experience that, I would never, evertake that for granted. I mean, it's the most powerful thingyou can

ever do in your life, and especially after losing a child. The pain and trauma fromthat just makes it

mean so much more to get an opportunityto bring life into the world. It's something thatyou have to

respect. It just seems like peopleshould have boundaries. There are certain things that youjust

shouldn't...play around with and a child,you don't play around with that. Have you ever been lied

to? Have you ever been hurt? Had a hard time forgiving? I want you all to help me sing. # I wish I

could believe you # Then I'll be all right # But now everything you told me # Really don't apply # To

the way I feel inside # Loving you was easy # Once upon a time # But now my suspicions of you #

Have multiplied # And it's all because you lied # I only give you a hard time # Cos I can't go on and

pretend like # I haven't tried to forget this # But I'm much too full of resentment # Just can't seem to

get over # The way you hurt me # Don't know how you gave another # Who didn't mean a thing, no

# The very thing # You gave to me # I thought I could forgive you # And I know you've changed #

As much as I wanna trust you # I know it ain't the same # And it's all because you lied # I only give

you a hard time # Cos I can't go on and pretend like # I haven't tried to forget this # But I'm much too

full of resentment # I may never understand why # I'm doing the best that I canand I # I have been


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trying to forget this # But I'm much too full of resentment # I'll never forget feeling # Like I was no

good # Like I couldn't do it for you # Like that wack bitch could # And it's all... # I loved you more

than ever # More than my own life # The best part of me I gave you # Did with sacrifice, yeah # And

it's all because you lied # You lied, you lied # You lied # I know she was attractive # But I was here

first # Been riding with you for six years # Why did I deserve # To be treated this way by you # I

know you're probably thinking # "What's up with B?" # I'm crying # Can't stop crying # Can't stop

crying # You could've told me # You weren't happy # I know you didn't want to hurt me # But look

what you donedone to me now # I gotta look at her in her eyes # And see she's had half of me #

She ain't even half of me # Look what you done done to me now # And it's all because you lied. #

CHEERING Thank you all. This is a song written by Julez. # Blue, Blue, BlueI'm so in love with you

# Mm mm mmI want to hold you and kiss you # So hurry up andget out of there quickly, Blue # Ooh.

# This is your big cousin, yo. 'The baby is coming in three weeks.' 'I feel...anxious.' 'These last three

weeksare my last weeks 'responsible for myself 'so I'm trying my best totake care of my child-like

self 'and enjoy my freedom, I guess, 'for the last three weeks. 'This is going to be nothingin

comparison to having a child.' It was my biggest fear.You hear women and they're, like, "I want 12

kids.I'm a nature woman." I was like, "I am scared to death." I was scaredand because I was afraid I

did all my researchand I just kept thinking, "I was made for this.God made me for this. "This is

beyond me.I was born for this. "My body is going to dowhat it's supposed to do. "Let it be, relax."

And it was the most beautifulexperience of my life. It was amazing. It was amazing! I can't believe it,

I really can't. This was life. I felt like God was giving mea chance to assist in a miracle. There's

something so relieving aboutlife taking over you like that. You're playing a partin a much bigger

show, and that's what life is. It's the greatest show on earth. My baby was born out ofa conflict in my

life and that struggle had to be settled. If I wouldn't have gone through thepain, if I hadn't gone down

the path, I'd probably be touring right now or shooting videosor editing a TV special. There's no

drum rollor trumpet that goes off when you make the biggest decisionin your life. Sometimes you

don't even knowthat you've made them. Do you see the microphone?Look. Say, "Hi, microphone."

OK. I don't know why I'mso fortunate and so blessed. And I know that my momalways told me that

my grandmother wasin the church, lighting candles and praying for her. And...I am... a result ofmy


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grandmother's prayers. And my mother prays for meall the time and I pray for my daughterall the

time and God is realand God lives inside of me and inside of all of us. And it doesn't matter whereI

am, I know that and I feel it. Like, right now I'm hot, you know?It's a tingling. It's like... It's love. I feel it

when I look at my child,I feel it when I look at my husband. It's God. HE SINGS LULLABY Look how

handsomeand beautiful you all are. 'I believe everything in our life,every person in our life, 'every

relationship, everythingis there for a reason. 'And when you really pay attention, 'there are certain

little clueswe get. 'It's so crystal clearwhat the next step is.' It's just this puzzle andeverything is in its

right place and, as we grow, we take thenext step, the dots get connected and we eventually

becomewhat we're supposed to be. Everybody stand up on your feet. You know I'm the luckiest

girlin the world. I get to stand up on this stageand entertain all y'all. And for two hours, y'all are

notthinking about your break-ups, your money, your problems. Y'all are just havinga good old time.

That's what I get to do. Damn. I'ma give youeverything I have, I promise. I want you all to stand

up,put your hands up. Put your hands up. One, two, three, four. Subtitles by Red Bee Media Ltd

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